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We all have two lives.

The second starts when we realize
that we only have one.

Confucius (479 BC)

We are smoking again here.

Like so often.

They must always have us.

We have to stand here to smoke.
This is the fifth year now.

Okay, hopefully it goes well.
- See you soon.

Are you ready?
- Yes.

Good. You look beautiful.
- Thank you.

Wait a second.

So.
- It's okay.

A film by Paavo Westerberg

It's so nice to work with you again.
I missed it.

Unbelievable that the tour is over.

You can go to your summer house with your family.

It is nice to be with your family.
- Of course.

I'll take you to your hotel.
- That's not necessary.

I'll drive you there.
- I'm going to walk, get some fresh air.

Pick it up.
- It is important.

You are dear to me.
- Be careful.

You too. Day.
- Day. John?

Yes. No, that wouldn't be a problem
must yield.

No. Do not worry.

No, I promise.

Karin.

Call an ambulance.

The violinist

Do you feel anything?
- No.

And here?
- No.

And there?
- No.

Okay, okay, your fingers are still
always numb.

Excuse me.
I can't find the thicker needles.

One moment.

Are these not the right ones?
You must search for the red one.

Look upstairs in the storage room.
Okay? Thanks.

Your wrist joint is damaged.

Just like the nerves
in these three fingers.

And another operation?
-We did everything possible.

Karin, where are my glasses?

Eemeli, your telephone.

I'm going now.
- Day.

Day.

Where's my phone?

Karin, where are my glasses?

Oh yes, I had left it downstairs.

Karin.

How long do you want to continue like this?

Maybe you should go to the experts
listen.

You just want me to stay home.
- No darling...

Honey, I'm here for you.

But if you need my help
don't want to accept ...

What do you expect from me?

This has been going on for eight months now.
- You do not have to do anything.

The doctors said
that three of your fingers are damaged.

You don't even know those people.
- That does not matter.

A top surgeon said
that your nerves are gone. Accept that.

I'm not going to teach.

I am an artist, not a teacher.

How nice that you could come
on such short notice.

This year the students are
they are going to graduate, fantastic.

I heard that you appointed academy
is one of the best in the world.

Congratulations.
- That's right. Thank you.

And...

how's your hand?

Well...

The divertimentos are
uncomplicated, but genius.

Simple structures and symmetrical shapes.

And Mozart ...
- Hello.

Sorry, I totally ruined it.

Sofia. Hello, sorry I'm so late.
- Welcome. We were already waiting for you.

So Mozart was fifteen
when he composed this in Italy.

That is the source
of the melody and the drama.

I have a pair
read Mozart's letters.

He had a tough life.
He lived in poverty and misery.

But that was his own choice. He had
also be able to work for the church.

You can see it that way.
- It's about integrity.

He didn't want outsiders
interfered with his work.

Why didn't you wake me up?
- I'm not your mother.

Before we start, I want one thing
have clear: Be on time.

If you think you're going to be late,
then stay away.

Remember that for the next time.

Okay, just play.

Okay, that was beautiful.

A bit flat at the end of
the phrases. It is not an Allegro Amabile ...

but Allegro Con Brio.

Start again from the 22nd measure.

The first violin starts
and the second falls in.

You have the energy,
but try to play together.

Communicate more.

Play as if you are flirting.
This is opera, a love story.

Try again.

Karin.

I don't know why I'm behind
these notes must run ...

but it is what it is.

If you don't have that score,
you must order it.

I don't have it for tomorrow.
He is on loan.

I do not give a hoot
how you do it ...

but I need the Urtext edition of Henle
have tomorrow.

So Mendelssohn's Violin Concerto
in e minor.

Excuse me.
Bye, Karin.

Mendelssohn's Violin Concerto?
- Yes.

I have that one. If you get it tomorrow
need, can I ...

That would be very nice.

I'm busy,
but Antti can certainly bring it.

Still, Antti?

Yes of course.

That is amazing. Bye.
- Thanks.

I mean bye.

Why did I say "thank you"?
- I have pilates today.

Stop.

I know I have been a few years old
have not contacted.

But I do have merits.

Yes, and I just have to meet them.

What?

How do you mean
I don't get an invitation?

Did you talk to them?

Linda, have a good network,
is everything.

As my agent you must know that.

Hey, put that down.
Have a seat.

No, it's one of my students.

No, I'll call you back. Okay?

You too.
Day.

Thank you for the notes.
- You're welcome.

Funny, we got this last year
practiced throughout the year.

Is that a ...

Yes.

I have never
played on a Stradivarius.

Can i try it?

According to my contract
may I not lend it to anyone.

They are rare in Finland.

He is insured for four million.

Here.

Go ahead.

Now?

You played it all year round, right?

It has been a while.

Do not worry. It takes a while
to get used to a Strad.

Don't press too hard
otherwise you choke the nuts.

But if you want a sophisticated technique
teaches ...

he shows his depth.

It has something romantic.

Do not you think...

that it is almost too romantic?

Hey.

This is Antti.
A student of mine.

You could have asked
if I could go to the parents' evening.

Why are you staying at home?
if you don't participate in those things?

I better go.

Keep eating.
I make lobster soup.

I already ate.

What is it?
Is it that bad?

Has it fallen wrong?
- It went down the wrong way.

Have you used other spices?

I tried without a cookbook.

This is terrible.

It has a strange taste to it.

I like it.
- Well, that's fine.

Damn it. Sorry.
- It does not matter. I wipe it clean.

Nothing wrong.

Not really.

What is it, Karin?

What is it?

Can you at least look at me?

What?

I always knock everything over.

It does not matter.

Hey.

Can it be softer?
- Sorry.

Okay.

I have a beautiful recording
of the Requiem found.

Sarajevo '94.

Do you want to hear it?

What do you think about it?

When I hear this,
I have to think about that movie.

I can't hear it anymore.
- I think it's a great movie.

I saw it for the first time
when I was eight and had the flu.

Since then it has become a tradition
to watch him when I have the flu.

Are you ill?
- No, I don't have the flu.

I only listen to this recording.

The scene in which he this note by note
dictating on his death bed is so beautiful.

That actor was a big star.

What would have become of him?

How's Mendelssohn doing?

Very well.

Very well.

Please dress up.
I can not concentrate.

I really have to practice this.

You have been playing this for 7 hours.
- I play another 7 hours if I want.

Okay.

You are not going to vacuum
when I'm practicing.

Sofia.
- What?

Turn that thing off.
- No.

Yes alright. Play the same piece,
but now slower.

Try more articulation
to get into the thirds.

We raise the bar a little.

You can play this piece in your sleep ...

so you don't have to worry
to worry about your finger movements.

We are going to try to
to see the bigger picture.

Close your eyes.

And imagine this piece ...

like a beautiful facade
of an incredibly beautiful building.

See it as a whole ...

and play it without anything else
thinking. The same piece.

Good. The phrases were longer ...

but because the score is gone,
you get tense again.

Keep relaxing,
no matter how nervous you are.

Give me your elbow.

And push my hand.

Play now and push the bow hard
down.

Relax.

Relax.

It sounds terrible,
but stay relaxed.

There is no point.
If yes, well.

If so.

Don't be afraid to sound ugly.

I'm not afraid of that.

What are you afraid of?

Mediocrity.

Then you are just like Mendelssohn.

A friend once claimed that Mendelssohn
stood in the way of his own success ...

because he was too skilled.

Maybe he was scared too
for mediocrity.

Does your hand bother you?

That scratch was already there.

If you could sign here.

It is just a formality.

Now that you no longer receive a stipend.

Thanks.

Good.

Then I just go.
Thanks.

This is quite embarrassing ...

Can I see it again?

Yes of course.

In my job...

I see...

that some people are more attached
touch objects ...

then to people.

It's the music.

Happy birthday to you

Happy birthday to you

Happy birthday, dear Karin

Happy birthday to you

A top chef I know,
said his taste is so refined ...

that he is different in his head
can taste things ...

and they taste
then mixes in mind.

Without tasting.
- And what are your plans, Karin?

I'm going to conduct again.

According to my agent
it looks bright.

What do you do when nothing is good enough?
- I heard that.

I mean well.

I came to the discovery ...

that we are alike,
you and me.

We only settle for success.

Are you going home now?
- What am I doing here?

With all those elderly people.
- I've been looking for you.

Nonsense.
- Not true.

You were flirting
with that exchange student.

You are insane.
- Do you deny it?

It is so wonderful to have you as a teacher
to have. You are really brilliant.

According to some
is the higher culture dead ...

and have food and drink
replace the art in our lives.

Food has been given the status of religion.
Isn't that strange?

Come Dance.
- I'll be right there, honey.

Toe.
- Yes Yes. One moment.

Is everything all right?

That conversation must really take place.

Yes, I know I don't have a name
as a conductor.

Linda, I sometimes have to
find another agent?

I have to hang up now.
Okay?

Day.

Hi, I got a message from you.

I just wanted that incident
brighten up at the party.

I'm so sorry.

Point by step I am your teacher.

And I your student.

I'm 45 years old.
- And me 27

Hey.

Thanks. A taxi is ready.
- Thanks.

Excuse me, is Jaakko there?
- Sorry, who are you?

Karin Nordström.

Jaakko's wife.
- Sorry, I didn't recognize you.

Of course.

Hey.

Hey.
- Hi.

Are you surprised?
- What are you doing?

I bought this for you.

For me.

How so?
- Just because.

Nice color, right?

I'll pass it on.
- Okay.

There must be more to life
then play the violin?

Okay.
- I mean...

To be a successful musician
does not mean everything to me.

I also have other dreams.
Just like you.

You have your family and your career
can combine.

I don't want all that just
revolves around the music ...

and that there is nothing else
in my life.

Do you know...

Dad always said
that I have violinist fingers ...

and if I only practiced enough, I would
become the next Karin Nordström.

Okay.

It is funny.

I'm just a fan of yours.

I admire you
and now you are facing me.

Strange.

Antti and I are both fans of you.

We talk about you all the time.
At least Antti.

"Karin did this and Karin did that."

"Karin is so beautiful."

"Karin is so brave and successful."

"And talented."
And that's true, but it's funny ...

And so it goes on in one piece.

Do you ever talk about us?
with Jaakko?

I mean at home?
- No.

Of course I don't talk
about my students at home.

I want to tell you something, Sofia.

As your teacher I have to say music
must be the most important thing in your life ...

but that doesn't mean you don't
have the right to have both.

A career and a family.
You can do whatever you want.

Does not matter what.

Do you practice here?

Does not matter.

Excuse me.

Are you not that famous violinist?
- No.

Nord ... something else.

Nordström.
Karin Nordström.

Are you not Karin Nordström?

What are you doing?

I said I'd do the dishes.

Why don't you just stick with it?
to the agreements?

Why are you always so angry?
- I am not angry.

It hurts to see you suffer like that.

You are the one who suffers the most.
- Not true.

What do you eat so badly?

I was hoping you were happy
that you were alive.

That you could still be with your family.

I'm glad I can be with you, honey.

I told you that last tour
impossible.

Why did you go?

Karin, why did you have to go?

Because of Darren?
- Stop it.

It haunts my mind all the time.

Do you think he is alone
before that master class comes here?

Why would he come to a hole like this?

We both know why he comes.

As a man I know that very well.

Is something playing?

Be honest.
- No, nothing's going on.

But in the past.
- Yes, more than ten years ago.

I can't forget it.
Is the flame still burning?

Forget it
and don't dwell on it.

I'm trying to forget.
Be honest.

Is there anything else between you?
- No.

Then why is he coming?
- To teach my students.

Because you...

May I have your attention?
A hearty applause for Björn Darren.

Thanks.

Well, it looks like we
be at a cocktail party.

Please come all in a circle
stand around me so that I can see you.

And put your bag down
and take off your jacket.

So that we can relax.
I always do this for a moment.

So that my hands relax.
It is nice to relax.

I walk by to this amazing ...

to feel contact.

Björn.

What?

My name is Björn.

Hey. Antti. Pleasant.
- Hello, Antti.

Jarno?
- Yes, and you are?

Who are you?
- Francesco.

Are you from Italy?
- Yes.

Awesome.

Sofia.

You have beautiful eyes.
- Thanks.

You too.

How sweet of you. Thank you.
This is going to be a fantastic week.

I am convinced
that you are strong musicians.

And I feel that you have talent.

Just like your beautiful and wonderful teacher
promised me.

You look good.

Teaching is really your thing, Karin.

How's your hand?
- Well ...

According to the doctors ...

I can never play again.

My hand is to the philistines.
- Let's see.

My God.

I didn't know it was that serious.

How awful for you.
You should have said it.

What?
- I thought you could help me.

I want to conduct again.

Do you realize ...

that it is impossible at your age
to be a top conductor?

You were not exactly young either
when you started.

You have always been stubborn.
- Really, I mean ...

You know I still love you.
- Yes.

I'll check it out
but I think it's possible.

I'll send you a message.
- Okay thanks.

Day.
- Day.

Oh my God.

What is it?
- I have to go back to Copenhagen.

Now?
- Yes, today.

The master class is not over yet.
- Something's up with John.

Yes, but I need you here.
- Sorry I have to go.

I need to find a new soloist.

I need you.
You have telephone numbers, right?

The point is
that the rehearsals start on Monday.

What are you going to play?

Mendelssohn.

The violin concerto?

What?
- Listen to my students.

We practiced this piece.

Have you chosen our concert?

Yes.

We are still talking about it.
- Yes, we call.

That is a long time ago.
- Yes Yes.

Hey. Shall we go?
- Yes.

What are you waiting for?
Start it.

Sofia? You are kidding me.

Hello to you too.
- Did you hear me?

She plays like an angel.

She is unreliable and lazy.

Always too late, skips nuts.

She really isn't ready yet
for such a challenge.

You don't determine that.

No, but I want a violinist for you ...

who is just as talented as Vera and me.

And that is?
- Antti.

Thanks. That's enough.

You haven't heard what he can do yet.
That boy can grow into a star.

You can go.
- Okay thanks.

Day.

I'm coming with you.

I will practice with him all week.

Will you come to Copenhagen with me?
- Yes.

I take a lot of risk with that.
- I take responsibility.

I promise.

You're not in love with him, are you?
- No.

I know you prefer Jallu ...

but you have to do it
with this great vodka.

Cheers.

I thought you could help me.

I want to go back to the big world, Björn.

Like you with those people in Seattle
can talk ...

and can arrange an appointment for me.

I want to become a conductor.

Believe me...

being a god is very lonely.

The only thing I have is my music.

I do not know...

if people love me ...

or just want to use me.

I do not believe
that you want to be in that position.

The baton is much heavier,
than you can imagine.

Sometimes you have to
lifting with two hands ...

and then it still seems
or it will fall.

You don't know what it's like.

I can't be friends
with my musicians.

Otherwise I can't hear my music.

You can continue to teach better.
That suits you well.

I just want to warn you ...

If you want to become king ...

you will eventually lose everything.

Now you have your family.

Do you want to say that?

You don't want to lose that, do you?

No of course not.

Can I have a bottle
of the best champagne?

Thanks.

I love this space.

All that wood, it's like you
is in a violin.

And with what you did yesterday,
you gave me a glimpse into your soul.

Do not forget that.

Julie must all know ...

that you have a great audition
have done.

You are all fantastic musicians.

Do not forget that.

You must know that you are charming
teacher promised to come with me ...

as a personal trainer
from the soloist.

In the end it was the choice
very clear.

Antti, welcome to the festival.
Your plane leaves on Monday at 7 a.m.

What is it?

I can...

I can not concentrate.

Too many thoughts haunt
in my head.

Try turning them off.
This is a very important performance.

I'm just so ...

I'm just so confused
through all this.

I want you to do this well.

Why is that so important?
- I want you to focus and play well.

Do you want me to play well?

When I graduated and asked Darren
if I wanted to go on a tour ...

I left everything behind.
My family, my friend, my house.

I had nothing left, just my music.

I'm not saying you were rushed
make decisions ...

but if your head is so confused,
is that a sign.

I can't tell you
what is best for your career.

I can't teach you anything
what you don't want to learn.

But I can tell you
that you have to make choices.

I am so proud of you.

I can take a vacation
and come to the concert.

I don't think that's a good idea.

I have to concentrate and play.
- Of course I will not distract you.

I have to make choices.

What do you mean?

What's up with you?
- I mean, I have to make choices.

Oh no...

You want to break up.

Do you want that?

Are you trying to say that?

Answer.
- I have to concentrate on the music.

Focus on the music?
- Indeed.

I have to make choices.
It is chaos in my head.

I am being pulled on all sides.
I can't concentrate on my game.

I have to make choices.
- Do you have to erase me from your life?

Is that it?
- I didn't say that, did I?

Do you love me?

That's not the point ... Sofia.

You must understand ...

that this requires great sacrifices.
- Then rot.

For success you have to make sacrifices.
- Offers? Wow.

Damn.

It does not have to be definitive.
- Listen...

good luck with the concert
and the rest of your life.

You are likely to be
breeding successful.

Sofia?
- What?

What is it?
- One more thing.

What?

Nothing.

I love you.

Fall dead.

Wow.

This is so unreal.

Unbelievable.

Welcome to Copenhagen.

This is really unbelievable.

Think of everything I taught you.

Of course.

And then to Paris.

Okay.
- We can go to any European city.

I'll be the soloist,
you the conductor.

Why not continue?
The music world does not end in Europe.

I always wanted to go to Sydney.
- I've been there.

New Zealand.
- Been too.

Mexico.
- Been too.

Spitsbergen.

You need a weapons license there.
- I'll handle that.

I shoot everyone who gets in the way.
- That's nice.

We are becoming a great team.

I will help you with the shooting.

My God.

Sorry I went so fast.

What are you currently working on?

To anything and everything.

My diary is almost as fully booked
as in those crazy years.

Sounds amazing.
- Yes.

And you? You look good.
- Thanks.

Do you already know each other?
This is Antti.

And Saulius.
- Antti.

Hello, nice.
- Antti.

Welcome to the big world.

Thanks. It's a great honour.

Please come.

Hello, thanks for that nice experience.

It was great to beethoven
to play with you.

It was fantastic. Thanks.
Come.

We are ready.

Good.

Is everything alright?
- Yes.

When you are ready ...

Thanks.

Again.

I'm ready.

Come on, more.

More love.

Damn.

Thanks.
Ready. Thanks.

I do not know...

It will be a long week.

He was just a little nervous.

Goal.

That was a goal.

That boy is growing up.
Believe me.

It'll be fine.
Believe me.

Good, because I really hope so.

It is actually a long story.

We play the Mendelssohn Violin Concerto
in the concert hall.

Really? Wow.

I really have to go to bed now.
- Awesome.

Let's go dance.

What?

Do you think this is vacation?

I thought so
could take a break.

I thought that...

maybe we could practice there.

In the bedroom.

What do you say?

I would prefer to spend the whole day
just fucking.

What is it?
- Nothing. I'm so old.

Not true. You are beautiful.

You smell wonderful.

Your hair is so beautiful.
- Antti ...

You have a beautiful cheek.

I really have to work now.

Okay then.

Sorry.

Stop. That went too fast, Antti.

Antti.

You have to introduce the orchestra.

That is your job.
Not that of the conductor.

Let's play that piece again.

No, I'm in the middle of a rehearsal.

Tomorrow.
I'm busy all day.

Much better.

Do you know the Italian name
for this movement?

No idea.

Does not matter. It has three words.

Allegro molto appassionato.

Is that with commas?

I do not know.

No, you don't say:
Allegro, molto, appassionato.

And also not Allegromolto, appassionato.

Or: Allegromoltoappassionato!

Play it again.

This was a mistake.

You should have chosen Sofia.
- Darren is always like that.

It will be fine.

I need your stuff
bring to your room.

Jaakko and Eemeli are coming tomorrow.

Before the concert?
- Yes, and the amusement park.

I won't see them for a while.
I have been invited to Seattle.

I'm going there.
- What?

I'm going to meet some people there.

And we?

What do you mean 'we'?

The two of us.

I never said that
that I would leave my family.

Come here.

Come on.

Go outside.

Not here.

That way.

What is this?
- My student's room.

Are you in the same apartment?
- This house is for guest musicians.

Where is he?
- No idea. We have different rhythms.

Where would you like to eat?

I like everything.
What do you want?

Italian maybe?
- Yes, I want pizza.

Hey.

Hey Hello.

You are here.
- Yes, for a few days.

We are going to the amusement park
and to your concert.

Oh, that's ...

fun.

We're going out for dinner.
Where do you prefer to eat?

I don't know them that well.
- Make a suggestion.

There are many, many good restaurants ...

nearby.

Come with us.
You must also eat?

I just ate.
- He has already eaten.

Hey.

But he can still just go?

Come with me.

Cheers for this great opportunity, Antti.

Cheers.

And there.

And is this a dream
who came out?

I enjoy this trip very much.

Thank you for asking.

When I grow up I just want
when mama becomes a great violinist.

It is a bit ...

warm here, right?

I do not think so.

You wear exactly the same shirt
like daddy.

It seems that way.

Do you have them?
purchased in the same store?

Your mother bought it for me.

Where did you buy yours?

I do not know that anymore.

I don't know where it comes from.

It was certainly the most popular
shirt of the season.

More love.

Let's go somewhere
where we have not been yet.

To Lake Garda for example.

Where is that?
- In Italy.

They have delicious ice cream there.
- Wasn't Veracini Italian?

Yes, pizzas. Usually you can do the best
eat pizza in a small place.

They have the best.

I'm having an affair with Karin.

Sorry?

Me and Karin, we have a relationship.

I understand English.

It has been two months now.

I thought you should know that.
That seemed so fair to me.

Was the ice cream for you?
- Yes.

You're welcome.

For her the double espresso.

And here two ordinary ones.

Thanks.

You're welcome.

It is not what you think.

No?
- Shut up.

Eemeli, we have to go.
- Jaakko.

I want to stay with mommy.
- She lied.

I eat my ice cream.
- Let alone.

Let me explain.
- That's not necessary.

Hopefully you realize
what's at stake.

Eemeli, come.
Leave your ice cream.

And you thought you would get success
if you were fucking with your teacher?

Jaakko.

Hey, Jaakko.

Let me explain.
- What can you explain?

You have an affair.
Awesome. Congratulations.

That is not true.
He is my student.

This does not make sense.

Is he good in bed?
- That does not matter.

That's not the point here.
- What is the point then?

He has talent.
I wanted to help him.

You wanted to help him?
- This is about me.

About you
- All this.

What?
- The music.

Why are you lying to me?
What do you want?

I want you.
I want my family.

We have been yours all this time.

We have been there all this time, but there is
no room for others in your life.

There is only space
for your sadness and feelings.

I have put my best years into you.

So that you felt good
and you could make music.

I don't know much about art,
but from people.

I took care of our house,
our son, the work, the bills.

For goddamn everything.
- I also contributed.

Awesome.

Fantastic.

I have it for you this past year
just want to make sense.

So you could make music.

And when you had a hard time,
when you could no longer use your hand ...

You're not the only one
who has lost everything.

I also suffer.
I lost my wife.

You haven't lost me.

Come on, Eemeli.

I'm coming with you.

No. Our marriage is over.

Jaakko.
- Let him go.

Karin.

Karin, listen.

Wait.

I just wanted to be honest.

Sorry.

It doesn't deserve a beauty prize ...

but now we don't have to
pretending more.

Can you get rid of the phone?

Listen to me.

I just wanted to be honest.

Do you hear me?

Sorry.

Okay, let's be honest.

You are only chosen
because of me.

Darren wanted to choose Sofia.

What?
- Darren thinks Sofia has more talent.

And if I'm honest ...

I think so too.

Why are you doing this?

Why do you play these games?

You are insane.

You are all crazy.
- I don't care what you think.

You broke my marriage.

What kind of marriage is that?

Do you hear me?
What kind of marriage is that?

Stupid idiot.

Where is he?

I do not know.

Sorry.

It was my fault.

We can start this way.

I'm ready. We can start.

Are you going to play with your jacket on?

Yes.

Listen to the orchestra, Antti.

Again.

It is too flat.

Again.

Now it's too sharp.

Let's start from the beginning.

Let's try...

with the solo violist only.

Too flat.

Too flat.

Still too flat.

Too flat.

Still too flat.

Too flat.

Still too flat.

Too sharp.

Again too sharp.

Again.

Again.

Again.

Now we try it with the entire orchestra.

From the beginning.

Now he played well.

And now the orchestra dragged after it.

You must also listen to him.

Imagine that I am a big bird.

With large wings.

And if I do this ...

then imagine that you
are all under my wings.

And from now on you all play
in sync...

in the universe
from my magic wings.

We start at the beginning.

You stay here for the rehearsal,
whatever happens.

You do not look good.
Where did you sleep?

Answer.
- Get rid of me.

From now on I will manage without you.

Quiet.
- Did you hear me?

I want to be alone now.

I have to concentrate.

This is Jaakko Helenius.
Leave a message after the beep.

Hello with me.

You are now stuck working.

Jaakko, it seems wise
to talk everything together.

Please call me back.

Well, tell me ...

how long have you had this for me
want to keep secret?

It is like an underground river.

It has always been there.
Waiting.

Listen, there is something ...

what you need to know.

This thing...

Don't say it.
I don't want to hear it.

What happens between you and that woman
are not my business.

But I see it hurts you a lot.

I just want to...
- Listen, when I was as old as you ...

I had a huge admiration
for a teacher.

An old Russian.
Strictly like hell.

I always wanted to please him one day
He taught me something beautiful.

I was in class and looked up at him.

He was very tall.
And he asked, "What are you looking at?"

And I said, "To you, maestro."

And he asked, "Why?"

I answered that I wanted to learn something.

Then he said: 'Don't look up at me.

If you really want to learn something,
then look up at yourself.

Remember that nobody created you.
You are your own creation. "

I really appreciate it when you say ...

If you say that to me now.

The pot with what I say.

I don't care what you appreciate.

Put everything in your music
and play everything for ...

everything for me tomorrow.

Let everything get the mess.

I need that pain.

So give me everything tomorrow.

I just think ... I think ...

It's all going too fast.
Way too fast and I ...

I do not know.
I mean, it's like ...

Whatever it feels like ...

it is well.

Give everything to me.

You'll play everything for me tomorrow.

Put it in your music.

Yes.

Cheers the Danish way.
- Cheers.

I've come to get my things.

I'm going to a hotel.

Do you know what's so funny?

When I walked here,
I suddenly changed my mind ...

that I had written you a letter.

When I was twelve.

Fanmail.

I don't know if you remember that.

I read in an interview ...

what you would do
if you couldn't play the violin.

Do you remember that?

No.

You said you still
would continue to play.

In my letter I asked you ...

what a violin
someone is playing in his mind.

You never wrote back to me.

I can help you.

I can try an audition in Seattle
to arrange for you.

I'm going there tomorrow.

After your dress rehearsal.

My whole life I was scared
to be unable.

To be mediocre.

I did everything I could ...

to become better than everyone else.

To become the best.

But what's the best?

I do not give a hoot
how I play tomorrow ...

I don't want to be the best anymore.