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Light's leaving.
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So, there's so much more
I could do at this stage,
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and I wanna do, but...
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The light's leaving.
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It's like the spirit of...
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like, redemption.
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I've been through a
lot, but I'm still here.
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Hello. I'm here to...
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try to bond someone out
of Olathe County Jail.
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Okay, you'll
have to go to the municipal court.
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So, you're gonna
have to turn around
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and go back by the
fire department.
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Hello. I'm here
to bond my mother out of jail.
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Yeah. What's up?
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What's goin' on?
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I'm sittin' in the lobby.
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I don't understand, was
the Olathe warrant for what?
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- Anthony...
- For not going to court.
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George Anthony,
I went to court.
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Listen, I don't...
Hey, I'm not the judge.
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All I need to know...
All I need to know
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is what to say to these
people for you to get out.
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They want you, they...
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Listen, I don't know.
They're comin' to get you,
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and I'm out of 200-and-something
dollars for nothing.
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I bullshit you
not, I did not know.
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- Hello?
- Hey, what's goin' on?
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Nothing much,
what's goin' on?
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I just was calling to,
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well, you know why I
was calling, but...
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- not that I need a special...
- Yeah, I heard your, I heard your message.
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Well, I'd like to, um,
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be able to spend
some time together
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and try to do some healing.
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And talking, um.
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Nuri asks about her grandmother.
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She asks me... She
actually just said,
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she's in the car listening
right now, but she said, um,
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"Daddy, do you have a mother?"
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Yeah, I don't know
how to answer that.
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Well, I don't know
how this goes, so...
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Well,
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you know, one of
my patent questions
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when I'm first
meeting someone is...
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is who are you?
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Well, I kind of always
escape through art.
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First memories would be
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catching my grandmother
smokin' dope.
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I would find
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my grandmother's
purple Crown Royal bag
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with, with a pipe in it.
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Kinda... We kinda just...
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always lived in...
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There was a
neighborhood drug house.
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It was our... That
was where we lived.
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It was like we were that...
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that family, that, that house.
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But I would always have these
teachers in elementary school,
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I remember Ms. Williams,
that would just pull me aside
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and say, "You got
something here."
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- You know, try to give me the talk.
- Mm-hmm, mm-hmm.
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This potential...
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that was kind of...
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recognized and encouraged
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from place to place.
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So much of who I am today
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is because of my family
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and that whole
experience of growing up
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in my hometown of Kansas City.
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Just imagine how it looked to me
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coming back for the
second time in 20 years.
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It's just a trip riding
through here though.
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This is where...
It's boarded up,
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but that was one of the
last spots I had right here.
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I used to sit right
out here on the steps.
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Should look at this
shit. It's crazy.
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- When was the last time you seen me?
- On Kensington...
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I don't remember
exactly what happened.
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I just know you came
runnin' into the house,
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and all you hear is the
helicopters and shit outside.
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That's all you heard was
the helicopters outside.
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We knew that it was for you.
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Bro, you came running
into the house.
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And you had told me you
had just robbed a nigga
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in Parker Square,
for 13 8-balls.
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'Cause I had asked you for
one, I said, "Bro, go on ahead,
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let me get one, nigga," and
you like "nah."
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It's crazy.
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Motherfuckers in my life today
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- would never think...
- That that's what it was?
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That that's what it was.
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Man, I'm so glad I got
pulled up out of that shit.
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But you left me in it, though.
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Okay. Bro, right there. Then
we gonna take them off...
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Okay, I will.
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It's not every day...
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go back and kinda relive...
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some of those memories
and those moments, so.
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It's interesting
you point that out, that...
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your story, your experiences,
your being seen...
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it's no accident.
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No mistake. No wrong path.
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I'm always
left with this...
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- sense of, um, survivor's guilt, in a way.
- Mm-hmm.
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I feel like I have
a problem with...
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anger.
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You believe that
you can help me?
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I got a pretty unique type
of trauma going on, man.
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Well, George,
let me put it this way.
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Because you do the work...
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I just sit and be with you,
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and, and that's the help
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because you're not
here to be fixed.
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- Mm-hmm.
- It's an impossibility.
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We just continue to experience
more transformation.
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Kind of weird.
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I don't know this person.
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He expects me to just
open up and tell him...
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about my life.
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He might be just as
fucked up as I am,
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for all I know.
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I was around,
but I wasn't around.
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I was there, but I wasn't there.
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At 19, I had five kids.
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All I knew what to do
was work and sell drugs.
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I gave them everything,
but I didn't give them me.
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He grew up in a penitentiary.
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When he got out,
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the first time I saw
him, I just broke down.
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We've been apart for 13 years.
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I said, "You don't know
me, and I don't know you."
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We didn't have it. That
mother-and-son relationship,
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we didn't have it.
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Check this out.
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Kansas
City native George Morton.
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Now, if his talent doesn't
grab your attention,
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his story will.
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After nearly a
decade behind bars,
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in the middle of the Nelson-Atkins
Museum of Art this week,
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you'll find 35-year-old
George Morton hard at work,
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copying this Rembrandt,
a way to study
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and learn the techniques of
the artist he most admires.
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It was Morton's love of
painting that helped him
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rewrite his future.
Even behind bars,
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he was studying and painting
every chance he got.
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In a lot of ways, people that
end up in places like that,
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it's easy to write
them off as worthless.
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And I was just determined
to prove that wrong.
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He recently graduated
from a prestigious art academy...
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- Hey, Mama.- What's up? Something wrong?
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I was on the news today.
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- Were you?
- Yeah, uh...
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Yeah, maybe when you get...
Get home, check out...
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channel nine. It's probably
gonna come back on again,
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but if not, you can get online.
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What was it about?
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Uh, I'ma, uh...
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I should probably
let you see it,
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but just the work
I've been doin'.
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They came to interview
me at the museum.
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Okay, well
just call me later.
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- Okay, Mama. Bye.
- Alright.
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- Babe? You want to do it now?
- Yeah? Okay.
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Alright, Nuri, I'm
gonna need you to focus.
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It's unfortunate
she's never gonna change.
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I think if my
mother could get real help,
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her life would look different.
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She's had many people
come to her rescue to help her.
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She can't get out of
her own situation.
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That's on her, after...
At 50? Come on.
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- Can you just try to hold the pose for me? Um...
- Yes, I'm holding my pose.
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You, you have no concept.
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You're so far removed
from that world.
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Man, the way you were raised
versus the way I was raised
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couldn't be more opposite.
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But has your
mom ever asked for help?
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- Sure.
- She has?
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- Yeah.
- And what was the result?
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It just doesn't last
because she returns
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to the same old
conditions that created...
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She returns to the same
hopeless conditions,
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the same depressing
circumstances.
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But then why try to
bring you down and destroy you?
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I don't have any kids.
I'm not a mother.
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The things that she has done
and said to you, George,
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I can't even fathom.
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She wants to be
self-destructive, fine,
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but then don't try to
inflict pain on you.
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And tear you down.
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Yeah, you saw some
stuff, heard some stuff.
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And you wonder why
I got trust issues.
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I still wanna paint her, though.
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That is so awesome.
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So, what'd you
say when you saw the news?
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- Huh?
- What'd you say when you saw the news?
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I was shocked. I was amazed.
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That was crazy. I
still can't even believe it.
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I done been on that news for...
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Yeah, for the exact opposite.
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- I love you so much.
- Me, too.
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So, without further ado,
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- George, come on up.- Alright.
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It's been very intense,
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studying the incomparable
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and unapproachable Rembrandt.
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There was, there was
a, a lot of chaos
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surrounding his life,
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and the lives of many
artists throughout history.
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My journey with Rembrandt
started as a boy.
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And it deposited something
in me that would later grow.
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And so, fast forward,
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I ended up getting
incarcerated at 20 years old.
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I walk into the, um, to the
prison cell, and there's my mom.
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She's there. They
had gotten her, too.
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They actually used
her to get to me.
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Um... unbeknownst
to her, of course.
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Um, and...
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she was apologizing,
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um, and we sat in
that cell together.
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She was released, and I'm
off to federal prison.
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And when I, when I began to learn
about some of the systemic...
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um, traps for people like me,
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instead of it
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creating a bitterness,
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it created this
strive for redemption.
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I would just go to sleep and
wake up every day with...
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the question on my mind,
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"What is my purpose?"
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Like, what is my
reason for being?
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Two ounces of crack cocaine.
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For that small amount,
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probably the equivalent
of a couple walnuts,
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I was sentenced to 135 months.
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That's 11 years, three
months in federal prison.
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All of my 20s
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were spent incarcerated.
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Photo day with the homies.
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These are brothers
in prison together.
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Like, whole
generations destroyed.
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Fathers in prison
cells with their sons.
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Brothers in there
together, like...
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Like this shit was a
setup to begin with.
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Like all my neighborhood heroes.
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I'm seeing 'em
all in here, like,
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"Hey, where the fuck you been?"
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"Nigga, I been in
here this whole time."
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"Really? God damn.
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I was wondering what
happened to you."
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Just like over and
over and over and over.
250
00:20:19,051 --> 00:20:20,886
I mean, it didn't take no time.
251
00:20:20,969 --> 00:20:23,055
When you're getting sentenced,
you go to this place
252
00:20:23,138 --> 00:20:25,265
that's a transit
center in Oklahoma.
253
00:20:25,349 --> 00:20:27,643
And I swear, it's
like auction blocks.
254
00:20:27,726 --> 00:20:30,604
You know, they got us
all sittin' on these...
255
00:20:30,687 --> 00:20:33,982
on this long block, shackled up,
256
00:20:35,359 --> 00:20:38,695
waiting to be sent
to different prisons
257
00:20:38,779 --> 00:20:40,447
throughout the country.
258
00:20:42,449 --> 00:20:45,494
First picture I painted when
I got there was this one.
259
00:20:45,577 --> 00:20:49,623
And I set it right there in
the recreation department.
260
00:20:49,706 --> 00:20:53,251
And let people line up
and place their orders.
261
00:21:02,970 --> 00:21:05,347
So, I started painting
pictures at the institutions
262
00:21:05,430 --> 00:21:06,890
for the institutions
263
00:21:06,974 --> 00:21:09,434
to finesse transfers.
264
00:21:09,518 --> 00:21:12,521
Like, "Hey, I want to
go to a lower security.
265
00:21:12,604 --> 00:21:13,981
"I don't want to be here.
266
00:21:14,064 --> 00:21:16,108
I'm worried about
my life every day."
267
00:21:18,777 --> 00:21:22,155
And when I got out of prison, I
just implemented the same tactics.
268
00:21:25,200 --> 00:21:27,577
The halfway house was
literally in the hood,
269
00:21:27,661 --> 00:21:30,789
like, the worst
part of the city,
270
00:21:30,872 --> 00:21:32,874
and I didn't know anybody here.
271
00:21:36,837 --> 00:21:38,380
Wherever I would go
to look for a job,
272
00:21:38,463 --> 00:21:40,424
it wasn't going to
be in that area.
273
00:21:44,261 --> 00:21:46,430
I knew that I needed
to go to a location
274
00:21:46,513 --> 00:21:48,724
that would get my
talent recognized,
275
00:21:48,807 --> 00:21:51,560
and I just operated
off pure faith.
276
00:21:53,603 --> 00:21:56,565
First place I ran
into was this gym,
277
00:21:56,648 --> 00:22:00,027
and I saw this
African-American gym owner,
278
00:22:00,110 --> 00:22:03,697
and first place I
go apply for a job,
279
00:22:03,780 --> 00:22:07,034
I get hired because I
knew all I needed to do
280
00:22:07,117 --> 00:22:10,203
was paint one picture
and put it on that wall
281
00:22:10,287 --> 00:22:13,123
like I had done at
every prison I went to,
282
00:22:13,206 --> 00:22:15,500
and then sit back and
watch what happens.
283
00:22:20,547 --> 00:22:24,468
Within not even a month,
maybe a couple of weeks,
284
00:22:25,927 --> 00:22:28,722
a board member for the
Florence Academy saw it.
285
00:22:32,142 --> 00:22:34,102
And within a year of
arriving in the city,
286
00:22:34,186 --> 00:22:35,604
I was in New York, studying at
287
00:22:35,687 --> 00:22:38,815
the most prestigious art
academy in the world.
288
00:22:40,734 --> 00:22:44,321
I just, just felt that if
I just took the next step,
289
00:22:45,405 --> 00:22:47,240
it would open up before me.
290
00:22:51,745 --> 00:22:53,538
You were planning.
291
00:22:55,832 --> 00:22:57,959
One of the best things
I've ever had to witness,
292
00:22:58,043 --> 00:23:00,253
that's for sure, somebody
comin' up like this,
293
00:23:00,337 --> 00:23:05,133
and it was... And just to
watch how it all opened up.
294
00:23:05,217 --> 00:23:07,177
And just watching
somebody being on a path,
295
00:23:07,260 --> 00:23:11,181
and you set your goals and
you're working towards them,
296
00:23:11,264 --> 00:23:13,034
how those things, when
they're falling into place,
297
00:23:13,058 --> 00:23:15,244
- you know you're on the right track.
- Speaking of that,
298
00:23:15,268 --> 00:23:17,020
you were probably
my biggest supporter
299
00:23:17,104 --> 00:23:21,942
in the whole 11-year sentence
that I had consistent.
300
00:23:22,025 --> 00:23:25,112
I'm like, "Auntie, listen,
these are Ivy League teaching me
301
00:23:25,195 --> 00:23:27,948
- how to trade, teaching me...
- Learn it, learn it, learn it all.
302
00:23:28,031 --> 00:23:29,631
Yeah, she's like,
"What books y'all want?
303
00:23:29,658 --> 00:23:31,284
Here, here! Take
it! How much..."
304
00:23:31,368 --> 00:23:33,537
- I'm like, "Can I come, so I can learn?"
- Right.
305
00:23:33,620 --> 00:23:35,413
I would never cross
paths with these guys
306
00:23:35,497 --> 00:23:39,000
- in a million years in Kansas City.
- Right.
307
00:23:40,085 --> 00:23:41,670
But you were perfecting that...
308
00:23:41,753 --> 00:23:44,172
-With the art. Yeah.
- as well as the art. So, to me,
309
00:23:44,256 --> 00:23:46,758
that was like your side hustle,
going on while you're doing...
310
00:23:46,842 --> 00:23:49,094
I had to 'cause, like, what
would I do with art money
311
00:23:49,177 --> 00:23:51,805
if I were to make it? It
can't just be about art.
312
00:23:51,888 --> 00:23:53,515
When I get out, where
am I going to stay?
313
00:23:53,598 --> 00:23:55,350
Location is important.
314
00:23:55,433 --> 00:23:57,769
You weren't playing.
315
00:23:57,853 --> 00:23:59,729
But, like, what, what
are people like that
316
00:23:59,813 --> 00:24:03,442
without those who see it
in them and hoist them up?
317
00:24:03,525 --> 00:24:05,902
Right? And, like, lift them up?
318
00:24:05,986 --> 00:24:08,989
There's no denying you
at the top of that list.
319
00:24:26,882 --> 00:24:29,009
Alright, Mama. I-I-I...
That's... That's...
320
00:24:29,092 --> 00:24:31,511
Okay, I don't want to keep
having this discussion.
321
00:24:31,595 --> 00:24:34,222
I don't want to keep having it.
322
00:24:34,306 --> 00:24:36,808
The issue is you want
some fuckin' money and now
323
00:24:36,892 --> 00:24:38,727
you want to put shit
under the goddamn bridge
324
00:24:38,810 --> 00:24:40,395
because you need something.
325
00:24:44,024 --> 00:24:45,984
Yeah, I'll, I'll talk
to you about it later.
326
00:24:46,067 --> 00:24:47,861
I can't deal with
that right now.
327
00:24:47,944 --> 00:24:50,488
I'm busy! I'm busy!
I'm busy! I'm busy!
328
00:24:50,572 --> 00:24:53,074
Don't "yes or no" me.
I don't owe you shit!
329
00:24:53,158 --> 00:24:55,952
So what the
fuck are you calling me for?
330
00:24:56,036 --> 00:24:57,579
Don't call me if
you don't like me!
331
00:24:57,662 --> 00:25:00,207
Don't call me... Don't call
me asking me for shit...
332
00:25:00,290 --> 00:25:01,708
If you don't wanna talk to me,
333
00:25:01,791 --> 00:25:04,878
if you ain't trying to be a mother...
334
00:25:04,961 --> 00:25:07,214
Mama, I got to go,
aight? I got to go.
335
00:26:13,446 --> 00:26:15,282
It's pretty dark stuff.
336
00:26:16,574 --> 00:26:18,493
I feel... I feel as if...
337
00:26:22,038 --> 00:26:24,165
darkness is my friend.
338
00:26:27,168 --> 00:26:29,838
Each
time you turn back
339
00:26:29,921 --> 00:26:31,506
and you remember a little more
340
00:26:31,589 --> 00:26:35,051
and you see a little more,
and you feel a little more,
341
00:26:35,135 --> 00:26:38,138
you smell a little more,
342
00:26:38,221 --> 00:26:39,889
and it brings up...
343
00:26:40,807 --> 00:26:42,392
your story,
344
00:26:43,810 --> 00:26:45,937
you heal a little more.
345
00:27:08,960 --> 00:27:11,046
Damn, I gotta get this right.
346
00:27:18,178 --> 00:27:20,972
It's not like I
didn't see no wrong in you.
347
00:27:21,056 --> 00:27:24,517
Yeah, I know my older
brother got problems.
348
00:27:25,602 --> 00:27:27,937
One bad decision dictated
349
00:27:28,021 --> 00:27:30,940
what you had set for your future
350
00:27:31,024 --> 00:27:33,902
- at that moment.
- I bullshit you not, Nisha.
351
00:27:33,985 --> 00:27:35,987
Like part of my
justification in my mind
352
00:27:36,071 --> 00:27:37,506
when I was committing
all those crimes,
353
00:27:37,530 --> 00:27:39,532
I'm thinkin' I'd be
able to tell the judge,
354
00:27:39,616 --> 00:27:42,535
"My mama said it was okay
for me to do this shit.
355
00:27:42,619 --> 00:27:45,705
My grandma showed me!" Like...
356
00:27:45,789 --> 00:27:48,458
Fuck the po... Like, why
would I care about the police
357
00:27:48,541 --> 00:27:52,629
- if my grandma and my mama said it's okay?
- Said it's okay.
358
00:27:53,797 --> 00:27:56,174
We learned from the best.
359
00:27:57,467 --> 00:27:59,135
And you think that's normal?
360
00:27:59,219 --> 00:28:01,930
Why, y'all don't do this?
361
00:28:02,013 --> 00:28:03,556
She showed me how
to cook that shit.
362
00:28:03,640 --> 00:28:05,409
You know what I'm sayin'?
She showed me how to cook it.
363
00:28:05,433 --> 00:28:07,936
"It wasn't no
goddamn mashed potatoes, man!"
364
00:28:38,550 --> 00:28:39,968
Damn.
365
00:28:41,386 --> 00:28:43,304
This is just something that
366
00:28:43,388 --> 00:28:46,349
was never encouraged
in the academic world
367
00:28:46,433 --> 00:28:48,017
where I was trained.
368
00:28:49,602 --> 00:28:51,938
As if it didn't exist.
369
00:28:56,192 --> 00:28:59,112
But, I find this more
interesting than all of those
370
00:28:59,195 --> 00:29:02,282
European heads that
they would make...
371
00:29:02,365 --> 00:29:05,743
Make me draw and paint
over and over and over.
372
00:29:05,827 --> 00:29:09,747
And these are Eurocentric
features, Eurocentric...
373
00:29:11,458 --> 00:29:13,585
skulls, and it's just like
374
00:29:13,668 --> 00:29:15,837
this worship of
all things white.
375
00:29:22,343 --> 00:29:26,222
I was seeking to learn more
about depicting skin tones
376
00:29:26,306 --> 00:29:29,559
that look like the
people I grew up seeing,
377
00:29:29,642 --> 00:29:33,688
like my aunts, my uncles,
my siblings, my mother.
378
00:29:33,771 --> 00:29:37,609
And I wasn't gettin' a lot
of that in the academic text
379
00:29:37,692 --> 00:29:39,527
and in my training.
380
00:29:42,447 --> 00:29:44,115
Why don't we have any...
381
00:29:45,158 --> 00:29:48,620
any plaster casts of this
382
00:29:48,703 --> 00:29:52,165
incredibly subtle and
naturalistic sculpture.
383
00:29:54,417 --> 00:29:56,252
Oh, is it because...
384
00:29:57,003 --> 00:29:58,296
it's depicting Africans
385
00:29:58,379 --> 00:30:00,715
in an elevated and
dignified state?
386
00:30:49,264 --> 00:30:51,432
Why do
you feel pressure?
387
00:30:54,936 --> 00:30:56,563
I don't
feel no pressure.
388
00:30:56,646 --> 00:30:58,082
I'm only sitting in
Rembrandt's chair.
389
00:30:58,106 --> 00:31:00,233
I mean, it's just another day.
390
00:31:01,859 --> 00:31:05,822
He's looking over you
in the afterlife. You're good.
391
00:31:05,905 --> 00:31:07,782
You say that,
but that's funny.
392
00:31:07,865 --> 00:31:09,909
That's really how I feel.
393
00:31:09,993 --> 00:31:12,412
Well, you're
here, right?
394
00:31:15,582 --> 00:31:17,041
Um...
395
00:31:33,474 --> 00:31:35,518
I always stand in front of
those Rembrandt paintings
396
00:31:35,602 --> 00:31:36,811
and wonder,
397
00:31:36,894 --> 00:31:39,105
where's that light coming from?
398
00:31:40,982 --> 00:31:43,276
Why does it make
me feel that way?
399
00:31:43,359 --> 00:31:46,446
Like, so alive and present.
400
00:31:53,369 --> 00:31:57,290
I don't know if they were moral
people or compassionate people.
401
00:31:57,373 --> 00:31:58,541
I don't know.
402
00:31:59,542 --> 00:32:02,754
But when I look at the work,
403
00:32:02,837 --> 00:32:05,715
there's something more
underlying the surface.
404
00:32:07,425 --> 00:32:09,385
There seems to be
an inner world.
405
00:32:18,353 --> 00:32:21,356
I'm carrying a tradition
into the future
406
00:32:21,439 --> 00:32:24,192
that, um, people like me
407
00:32:24,275 --> 00:32:26,277
have never been a part of.
408
00:32:28,404 --> 00:32:30,198
It's a beautiful tradition.
409
00:32:32,367 --> 00:32:35,662
It's just that people of
African descent haven't had...
410
00:32:37,121 --> 00:32:40,333
a dignified role in it,
a dignified place in it.
411
00:32:58,059 --> 00:33:00,645
- Hello?
- Ceriyah.
412
00:33:00,728 --> 00:33:02,939
- Yes?
- What's going on?
413
00:33:04,273 --> 00:33:07,193
Uh, they took Mommy.
414
00:33:07,276 --> 00:33:10,947
The bounty hunters,
they came and took Mama.
415
00:33:11,030 --> 00:33:14,992
And they say she had a
warrant and bail and some...
416
00:33:15,076 --> 00:33:18,705
And the thing she said the
warrant was from a year ago.
417
00:33:20,623 --> 00:33:22,375
When did they come and take her?
418
00:33:23,251 --> 00:33:25,044
Last night.
419
00:33:30,091 --> 00:33:32,635
- George?
- Yeah.
420
00:33:36,180 --> 00:33:37,557
Thank you.
421
00:33:40,476 --> 00:33:42,186
What she... What did she...
422
00:33:42,270 --> 00:33:44,230
There was a warrant
out for her arrest...
423
00:33:44,313 --> 00:33:46,149
Yeah, nobody
knows what for.
424
00:33:46,232 --> 00:33:48,109
It can be anything
425
00:33:48,192 --> 00:33:51,404
that people do when
their life is hopeless,
426
00:33:51,487 --> 00:33:53,656
and they can't pay
to get out of jail.
427
00:33:53,740 --> 00:33:56,826
They can't pay fines,
they can't pay...
428
00:33:56,909 --> 00:33:58,389
Or they can't
show up to court?
429
00:33:58,453 --> 00:34:00,472
They can't show up to court
because they don't have a car,
430
00:34:00,496 --> 00:34:02,474
because they don't have a mommy
who takes care of them or...
431
00:34:02,498 --> 00:34:04,226
They don't have to have
a mommy or a trust fund.
432
00:34:04,250 --> 00:34:06,311
-You don't know. You don't know that.
-But you can show up...
433
00:34:06,335 --> 00:34:09,964
You have no clue about
what they can do!
434
00:34:10,047 --> 00:34:12,884
You have zero clue
what they can do.
435
00:34:12,967 --> 00:34:14,469
Once you're in your 30s...
436
00:34:14,552 --> 00:34:16,804
This is something
we've been seein' all our life.
437
00:34:16,888 --> 00:34:20,057
It's no coincidence that she's
repeating it in front of her daughter.
438
00:34:20,141 --> 00:34:21,618
You know how many
times we had to watch
439
00:34:21,642 --> 00:34:24,061
our mother get hauled
off by bounty hunters?
440
00:34:25,563 --> 00:34:26,856
This is a way of life
441
00:34:26,939 --> 00:34:30,026
that is perpetuated
generationally,
442
00:34:30,109 --> 00:34:32,612
and if you don't understand that
multi-generational... element.
443
00:34:32,695 --> 00:34:34,363
I do, but when a bounty hunter
444
00:34:34,447 --> 00:34:37,658
comes and knocks on your
door, I mean, you're aware.
445
00:34:37,742 --> 00:34:39,011
How do you
know what that means?
446
00:34:39,035 --> 00:34:40,835
Has a bounty hunter ever
knocked on your door?
447
00:34:40,912 --> 00:34:43,581
-No...
-I've seen them all my life. I know what it means,
448
00:34:43,664 --> 00:34:45,917
and this is my conclusion.
449
00:34:46,000 --> 00:34:48,586
I can't judge it.
I'm not in it.
450
00:34:48,669 --> 00:34:51,839
I don't have to wake up with
that reality every single day
451
00:34:51,923 --> 00:34:53,090
and have to figure a life out
452
00:34:53,174 --> 00:34:56,803
from a place of
negative, negative zero.
453
00:35:29,961 --> 00:35:31,337
Thank you!
454
00:35:39,011 --> 00:35:41,222
Fuckers broke my door.
455
00:35:41,305 --> 00:35:45,017
- Oh, the bounty hunters?
- Mm-hmm.
456
00:35:45,101 --> 00:35:48,062
- What the fuck?!
- Bro, when I tell you, like,
457
00:35:48,145 --> 00:35:50,523
the bond that they
revoked me on,
458
00:35:50,606 --> 00:35:53,484
I had a court date
for the next week.
459
00:35:53,568 --> 00:35:55,611
Talked to my lawyer
and everything.
460
00:35:55,695 --> 00:35:57,530
They didn't go through
the proper channel.
461
00:35:57,613 --> 00:36:00,199
- But, Ceriyah had to see this shit though.
- All of it!
462
00:36:00,283 --> 00:36:02,285
All of it because the
whole thing about it is
463
00:36:02,368 --> 00:36:03,870
I was standing right here,
464
00:36:03,953 --> 00:36:06,455
talking to a bounty hunter
that get to breakin' this shit,
465
00:36:06,539 --> 00:36:08,499
trying to screwdriver
my door and everything.
466
00:36:08,583 --> 00:36:10,251
I'm like, "Alright,
I'm openin' the door.
467
00:36:10,334 --> 00:36:12,962
I told you I did. No
need to do all of that."
468
00:36:13,045 --> 00:36:16,591
Soon as I open the
door, just like this,
469
00:36:16,674 --> 00:36:18,593
they yanked me out of the house.
470
00:36:18,676 --> 00:36:21,053
I mean, literally yanked
me out of the house,
471
00:36:21,137 --> 00:36:23,014
and Ceriyah's
standing right here.
472
00:36:47,330 --> 00:36:50,374
Tre, I heard you wrote a rap.
473
00:36:50,458 --> 00:36:53,836
Uh, you can call
it a rap, I guess.
474
00:36:55,755 --> 00:36:57,590
Can you
spit it for me?
475
00:36:59,050 --> 00:37:02,178
I titled it
"Rap for My Mom and Dad."
476
00:37:02,261 --> 00:37:04,347
- Alright...
- Spit that shit!
477
00:37:04,430 --> 00:37:06,724
I turn my pain into
art, too. I get it.
478
00:37:07,934 --> 00:37:09,226
"Mom, you know I
love you, right?
479
00:37:09,310 --> 00:37:10,871
"I see the things that
you goin' through.
480
00:37:10,895 --> 00:37:13,123
"Keep pushing forward, don't
let this pain get ahold of you.
481
00:37:13,147 --> 00:37:14,649
"I got some hope for you.
482
00:37:14,732 --> 00:37:17,443
"I said I got hope for you, but
really I be praying for you.
483
00:37:17,526 --> 00:37:18,986
"All that smoking
you be doing..."
484
00:37:19,070 --> 00:37:21,280
I could say that
about everything that I paint.
485
00:37:21,364 --> 00:37:23,282
It's really a
portrait of myself.
486
00:37:23,366 --> 00:37:26,994
"Be the best
father that I can ever be.
487
00:37:27,078 --> 00:37:29,121
- I don't want..."
- My nephew, Treshon,
488
00:37:29,205 --> 00:37:32,375
- I see so much of myself.
- "making money.
489
00:37:32,458 --> 00:37:35,878
- Trying to make money moves, but it don't work..."
- I feel like...
490
00:37:36,837 --> 00:37:40,508
I've always managed to...
491
00:37:40,591 --> 00:37:44,053
transcend the madness
of my surroundings.
492
00:37:46,931 --> 00:37:49,600
And in his own way, I
think he does the same.
493
00:37:51,519 --> 00:37:54,480
I mean, I've always felt a
tremendous responsibility,
494
00:37:54,563 --> 00:37:58,818
being some sort of
a pillar to them.
495
00:37:58,901 --> 00:38:01,487
And I was there and I was
recalling something you told me
496
00:38:01,570 --> 00:38:04,782
about how the body remembers.
497
00:38:04,865 --> 00:38:06,951
And I'll be damned if
things just weren't,
498
00:38:07,034 --> 00:38:09,036
like, coming to the surface.
499
00:38:21,716 --> 00:38:24,051
I didn't notice
it at first until now,
500
00:38:24,135 --> 00:38:25,636
but is this supposed to be
501
00:38:25,720 --> 00:38:28,597
the person who gives
them everything,
502
00:38:28,681 --> 00:38:31,392
or, like, to be the slave
or something like that?
503
00:38:33,811 --> 00:38:36,981
Um, yeah.
504
00:38:37,064 --> 00:38:40,109
Yeah, they made it look like
he was, he was, um, stealing...
505
00:38:40,985 --> 00:38:43,696
stealing from them.
506
00:38:43,779 --> 00:38:46,115
I can't wait till
you start trying to finish
507
00:38:46,198 --> 00:38:47,950
that sketch of me.
508
00:38:57,001 --> 00:38:59,128
Did you go to Egypt
a couple months ago?
509
00:38:59,211 --> 00:39:01,630
I did.
510
00:39:01,714 --> 00:39:04,091
They're sculpting with
the hardest material
511
00:39:04,175 --> 00:39:06,927
just to show how
advanced they are,
512
00:39:07,011 --> 00:39:09,597
using, like, high-level
mathematics and measurements.
513
00:39:09,680 --> 00:39:13,100
Doesn't Africa have,
like, the strongest metal?
514
00:39:13,184 --> 00:39:15,770
Africa has the
strongest everything.
515
00:39:15,853 --> 00:39:19,065
People, everything. Everything.
516
00:39:19,148 --> 00:39:21,692
They are showing people
517
00:39:21,776 --> 00:39:26,197
performing a ritual to
this so-called deity
518
00:39:26,280 --> 00:39:29,408
that exists only
within yourself,
519
00:39:29,492 --> 00:39:32,620
but they, they, they develop an
elaborate system to awaken it
520
00:39:32,703 --> 00:39:34,205
within yourself
through pictures,
521
00:39:34,288 --> 00:39:36,248
through colors, through ritual.
522
00:39:36,332 --> 00:39:39,752
So, it's not about nothing
outside of Treshon.
523
00:39:39,835 --> 00:39:41,796
It all comes back to you.
524
00:39:46,050 --> 00:39:48,177
We're all having children now.
525
00:39:49,428 --> 00:39:52,014
Some of us are passing
our trauma on...
526
00:39:53,724 --> 00:39:56,894
to this newer
generation of children.
527
00:40:03,943 --> 00:40:05,986
But no matter what he sees,
528
00:40:06,070 --> 00:40:09,740
no matter what
he's going through,
529
00:40:09,824 --> 00:40:12,660
he just had this light,
this inner light.
530
00:41:12,553 --> 00:41:15,764
Why you gotta be so...
531
00:41:17,224 --> 00:41:19,185
Daddy, I feel better now.
532
00:41:19,268 --> 00:41:21,562
That's really good.
533
00:41:21,645 --> 00:41:23,981
It must be the medication.
Let me see your tooth.
534
00:41:24,940 --> 00:41:26,817
Hm...
535
00:41:26,901 --> 00:41:29,445
My tooth is not hurting anymore.
536
00:41:29,528 --> 00:41:31,655
That makes me so happy.
Can I have a kiss?
537
00:41:32,948 --> 00:41:34,617
Thank you.
538
00:41:40,456 --> 00:41:41,790
To them...
539
00:41:43,125 --> 00:41:46,503
it seems like I
somehow made it out.
540
00:41:48,839 --> 00:41:51,091
But it's a fight.
541
00:41:53,344 --> 00:41:57,139
I've barely gotten one foot out,
542
00:41:59,016 --> 00:42:01,185
living between two worlds.
543
00:42:10,778 --> 00:42:12,821
This concept of duality,
544
00:42:12,905 --> 00:42:15,824
this, this dark and light thing,
545
00:42:15,908 --> 00:42:19,203
is applicable to
my artistic process
546
00:42:19,286 --> 00:42:22,248
and the struggles.
547
00:42:22,331 --> 00:42:24,250
And you see the
oneness of it all.
548
00:42:48,816 --> 00:42:50,442
Alright, you can take a break.
549
00:43:33,736 --> 00:43:35,946
This shit ridiculous, bro.
You would have to call around
550
00:43:36,030 --> 00:43:38,657
and check the jails and see...
551
00:43:38,741 --> 00:43:42,161
- Every time yo mama go missing.
- Every time yo mama go missing, for real.
552
00:43:42,244 --> 00:43:46,165
She been doing this shit since we was kids, bro.
553
00:43:46,248 --> 00:43:49,376
What's the jail number?
Is this the jail number?
554
00:43:49,460 --> 00:43:51,220
No,
this is south patrol.
555
00:43:51,295 --> 00:43:54,840
Okay, can you run my mama's name
and see if she got arrested?
556
00:44:07,311 --> 00:44:09,355
This never-ending
fuckin' cycle.
557
00:44:09,438 --> 00:44:11,648
How the hell do you
shake that shit?
558
00:44:19,406 --> 00:44:21,367
Turn right onto
North Cherry Street.
559
00:44:21,450 --> 00:44:23,869
Then, the destination
is on your right.
560
00:44:23,952 --> 00:44:25,913
World is just set up for...
561
00:44:27,998 --> 00:44:30,751
certain people to lose.
562
00:44:30,834 --> 00:44:32,753
She can't help herself.
563
00:44:48,685 --> 00:44:51,772
Come on, let's go this way.
564
00:44:51,855 --> 00:44:53,774
When my mother walked out...
565
00:44:57,236 --> 00:44:59,405
she hugged me so tight
566
00:44:59,488 --> 00:45:03,283
and just said "thank
you" over and over.
567
00:45:05,369 --> 00:45:08,080
She thought she'd have to
spend Christmas in there.
568
00:45:10,499 --> 00:45:13,752
My daughter was with
me. She didn't know
569
00:45:13,836 --> 00:45:15,712
what was going on.
570
00:45:23,929 --> 00:45:25,389
Mama, don't feel bad.
571
00:45:25,472 --> 00:45:27,683
You weren't planning to go
to jail for a week or two.
572
00:45:27,766 --> 00:45:30,269
No, I wasn't planning...
No, that was not in my plan.
573
00:45:30,352 --> 00:45:32,521
If I had known, I would've
packed for the trip.
574
00:45:34,648 --> 00:45:37,317
- Do you remember me, Nuri?
- Let me find the picture.
575
00:45:37,401 --> 00:45:39,528
- No.
- You don't?
576
00:45:41,613 --> 00:45:43,157
Hm, let me see.
577
00:45:43,240 --> 00:45:46,001
- Bet you don't remember that, do you?
- You don't remember that?
578
00:45:46,034 --> 00:45:47,661
This was at church.
579
00:45:51,039 --> 00:45:52,916
You was with your
grandma in church.
580
00:45:54,960 --> 00:45:57,880
- I missed you.
- I missed you, too.
581
00:45:57,963 --> 00:46:01,008
- I love you.
- I love you, too.
582
00:46:01,091 --> 00:46:05,012
Can I have a hug? Thank you.
583
00:46:10,768 --> 00:46:13,437
- Now, you remember?
- Yeah.
584
00:46:13,520 --> 00:46:15,481
Probably still don't remember.
585
00:46:15,564 --> 00:46:17,774
That time, you
was just a baby then.
586
00:46:20,527 --> 00:46:22,237
Yep, that was her.
587
00:46:28,243 --> 00:46:31,663
What have I done that...
588
00:46:31,747 --> 00:46:35,751
you can't... that's so bad
that you can't forgive?
589
00:46:35,834 --> 00:46:40,047
I want a relationship with
all my kids. All of them.
590
00:46:41,381 --> 00:46:43,717
And I can understand the
things that I did in the past.
591
00:46:43,800 --> 00:46:46,053
I mean, I'm not downgrading,
592
00:46:46,136 --> 00:46:49,139
I'm not saying that
I didn't do it,
593
00:46:49,223 --> 00:46:50,682
but every now and
again, sometimes,
594
00:46:50,766 --> 00:46:53,560
you need to forget
that and grow up.
595
00:46:53,644 --> 00:46:55,979
You can't keep living
through the past.
596
00:46:57,064 --> 00:46:58,815
That's all I'm asking.
597
00:46:58,899 --> 00:47:00,484
That's what
I'm here to do.
598
00:47:06,823 --> 00:47:09,034
I feel love for her,
599
00:47:09,117 --> 00:47:10,869
even at her lowest.
600
00:47:12,454 --> 00:47:16,416
And I think about the
system that failed her.
601
00:47:17,751 --> 00:47:20,754
And at that point,
I feel frustration.
602
00:47:21,588 --> 00:47:23,215
Even anger.
603
00:47:28,095 --> 00:47:30,931
My mother had me at 15.
604
00:47:31,014 --> 00:47:33,016
We just pretty much
grew up together.
605
00:47:34,226 --> 00:47:35,936
She's like my sister.
606
00:47:39,481 --> 00:47:41,066
She was a hustler.
607
00:47:45,988 --> 00:47:48,865
It's programming
you from the womb.
608
00:47:54,496 --> 00:47:56,206
I was not gonna go to Harvard.
609
00:47:56,290 --> 00:47:58,542
Where was that at in my,
in my foreseeable future?
610
00:47:58,625 --> 00:48:00,210
How was I gonna be Ivy League?
611
00:48:00,294 --> 00:48:01,920
What were my chances?
612
00:48:05,382 --> 00:48:07,843
When the judge sentenced
me to 11 years,
613
00:48:09,720 --> 00:48:12,306
I said, "I'll show you."
614
00:48:12,389 --> 00:48:14,433
When people reject
me to this day
615
00:48:14,516 --> 00:48:16,643
or doubt me even in the least...
616
00:48:19,521 --> 00:48:21,815
I say, "Okay, you'll see."
617
00:48:23,859 --> 00:48:25,569
I feel rejection easy.
618
00:48:27,195 --> 00:48:29,072
I don't really have
a lot of experience
619
00:48:29,156 --> 00:48:32,075
- in, in, in social settings.
- Mm-hmm.
620
00:48:32,159 --> 00:48:34,995
Um...
621
00:48:35,078 --> 00:48:38,415
You know, I left the world
as a child in a lot of ways
622
00:48:38,498 --> 00:48:40,876
and was pretty much frozen.
623
00:48:54,640 --> 00:48:56,558
Your dad bought these?
624
00:48:57,976 --> 00:48:59,353
I can tell.
625
00:49:15,035 --> 00:49:17,704
That's it right there.
626
00:49:20,123 --> 00:49:23,210
You can put your chin down,
turn your head towards me,
627
00:49:23,293 --> 00:49:26,338
and then slightly tilt
over, just like that.
628
00:49:27,589 --> 00:49:29,049
That's good.
629
00:49:33,095 --> 00:49:36,056
You don't know
how tempted I am
630
00:49:36,139 --> 00:49:39,184
to even work at a fast food
631
00:49:39,267 --> 00:49:42,979
just to get some money in my
pocket to get me back and forth,
632
00:49:43,814 --> 00:49:45,190
to and from.
633
00:49:45,273 --> 00:49:47,943
Because who is not, like,
walking around broke is me.
634
00:49:48,026 --> 00:49:50,696
I've never been
walking around broke.
635
00:49:50,779 --> 00:49:53,699
Why am I gonna start
now? Bills are due.
636
00:49:53,782 --> 00:49:56,118
Yeah, and this... these
quick fixes ain't gonna fix
637
00:49:56,201 --> 00:49:58,161
those long-term issues...
638
00:49:58,245 --> 00:50:00,372
I mean, I need money
to pay the bills.
639
00:50:00,455 --> 00:50:03,667
Is T gonna go back to
selling drugs? No, I'm not.
640
00:50:03,750 --> 00:50:05,085
So what am I gonna do?
641
00:50:05,168 --> 00:50:07,963
Am I gonna take that
temporary fix? Yes, I am.
642
00:50:08,046 --> 00:50:10,298
To get me up outta
the rut that I'm in.
643
00:50:10,382 --> 00:50:12,259
I'm going to do it.
644
00:50:12,342 --> 00:50:15,262
- And that's where I'm at.
- I'm tired of you being there.
645
00:50:15,345 --> 00:50:18,223
Oh, who ain't tired
of being there but me?
646
00:50:19,599 --> 00:50:22,436
I'm livin' it. You
seein' it. I'm there.
647
00:50:22,519 --> 00:50:24,479
- I'm in it.
- I've been here with you.
648
00:50:24,563 --> 00:50:26,732
- I know all about it.
- I'm livin' it.
649
00:50:26,815 --> 00:50:28,984
So who ain't tired
of being here is me.
650
00:50:35,657 --> 00:50:38,243
Makes me look older
than what I am.
651
00:50:38,326 --> 00:50:40,328
No, it's, um...
652
00:50:40,412 --> 00:50:42,372
work in progress.
653
00:50:57,304 --> 00:51:00,265
There you go. You
about to open this up.
654
00:51:23,872 --> 00:51:26,333
Shit.
655
00:51:31,922 --> 00:51:33,465
It's just a trip.
656
00:51:34,841 --> 00:51:37,969
- What did she say, bro?
- I told you.
657
00:51:39,096 --> 00:51:40,680
It's what it is.
658
00:51:44,309 --> 00:51:45,685
They was gonna lock Tela up,
659
00:51:45,769 --> 00:51:47,729
and they was gonna lock
Tela up for a while,
660
00:51:47,813 --> 00:51:49,231
and Tela didn't
wanna go to jail.
661
00:51:49,314 --> 00:51:52,150
So, Tela had to give up somebody
and she had talked about
662
00:51:52,234 --> 00:51:55,403
she didn't wanna give up you,
but she didn't know nobody else.
663
00:52:02,410 --> 00:52:05,664
I didn't do my time thinking
that Mama could've set me up
664
00:52:05,747 --> 00:52:08,458
to go to prison instead of her.
665
00:52:11,169 --> 00:52:14,130
I just thought she...
Somebody got her high
666
00:52:14,214 --> 00:52:16,675
and used her to get to me.
667
00:52:16,758 --> 00:52:18,760
She was apologizing.
668
00:52:18,844 --> 00:52:21,888
"Oh, I'm sorry for this.
I'm sorry for that.
669
00:52:21,972 --> 00:52:24,391
"Like, I'm sorry for...
670
00:52:24,474 --> 00:52:26,768
doin' this to George
Anthony, like..."
671
00:52:33,525 --> 00:52:36,027
She's never admitted
that shit to me before.
672
00:53:06,391 --> 00:53:09,644
She don't
hesitate. Don't say that.
673
00:53:11,521 --> 00:53:13,457
- So, she wanna see me lose.
- Right, right.
674
00:53:13,481 --> 00:53:15,942
You wanna
put me back in jail?
675
00:53:16,026 --> 00:53:17,861
Boy, I love you.
676
00:53:17,944 --> 00:53:21,406
- Mama...
- If I let you use my truck...
677
00:53:21,489 --> 00:53:24,409
- I'm done, bro. Fuck her.
- Yeah.
678
00:53:24,492 --> 00:53:26,202
Get that
shit off my speaker.
679
00:53:28,663 --> 00:53:31,082
And she's still on the same
bullshit trying to see me lose,
680
00:53:31,166 --> 00:53:33,835
trying to see me fail.
Fuck her and that painting.
681
00:53:33,919 --> 00:53:35,378
How about that?
682
00:53:35,462 --> 00:53:37,130
When she's making
it plain and clear
683
00:53:37,213 --> 00:53:39,966
that she do not wanna
see me make it in life?
684
00:53:40,050 --> 00:53:42,844
What kind of fucked-up
ass-shit is that from a mother?
685
00:53:45,180 --> 00:53:47,390
She got enough sense to make
all... to do all this fraud
686
00:53:47,474 --> 00:53:49,643
and these fuckin' scams though.
687
00:53:49,726 --> 00:53:51,537
She don't got enough sense
to see, like, goddamn,
688
00:53:51,561 --> 00:53:53,688
this boy got something
positive going on.
689
00:53:53,772 --> 00:53:56,024
- Why would I fuck that up?
- Right.
690
00:53:56,107 --> 00:53:58,027
When the fuck do you ever
see somebody go to jail
691
00:53:58,068 --> 00:53:59,348
for 10 years, get
out and do that
692
00:53:59,402 --> 00:54:01,905
after their mama snitch on
them and put them in there?
693
00:54:15,543 --> 00:54:18,755
So what, what happened
this time when you were at home?
694
00:54:25,303 --> 00:54:27,138
Well...
695
00:54:27,222 --> 00:54:29,599
I learned from my
other siblings...
696
00:54:32,936 --> 00:54:34,270
that...
697
00:54:35,605 --> 00:54:37,857
she may have had
698
00:54:37,941 --> 00:54:41,361
a greater role
699
00:54:41,444 --> 00:54:43,989
in my getting incarcerated
700
00:54:44,072 --> 00:54:46,324
than what I once believed
701
00:54:46,408 --> 00:54:48,284
or wanted to accept.
702
00:54:56,793 --> 00:54:58,128
Um...
703
00:55:00,505 --> 00:55:02,966
On the night that
I was detained,
704
00:55:05,135 --> 00:55:06,469
she brought...
705
00:55:08,221 --> 00:55:11,057
the informant that...
706
00:55:15,145 --> 00:55:17,897
ended up getting me
locked up, supposedly.
707
00:55:17,981 --> 00:55:20,734
That was the, the
version of the story
708
00:55:22,110 --> 00:55:24,612
that I had,
709
00:55:24,696 --> 00:55:27,449
and that's the version
that I, I ran with.
710
00:55:27,532 --> 00:55:30,076
But my siblings and family,
711
00:55:31,453 --> 00:55:32,620
they're all telling me, no.
712
00:55:32,704 --> 00:55:36,041
She literally is the
person who set you up
713
00:55:36,124 --> 00:55:40,754
and put you away in
exchange for her own...
714
00:55:40,837 --> 00:55:43,256
you know, some case that
maybe she didn't want
715
00:55:43,339 --> 00:55:45,884
to deal with or face.
716
00:55:47,886 --> 00:55:49,429
But,
717
00:55:50,180 --> 00:55:52,140
she denies it to me.
718
00:55:53,683 --> 00:55:56,269
And I still just
want to believe her.
719
00:55:56,352 --> 00:55:57,687
Mm-hmm.
720
00:56:30,136 --> 00:56:32,347
I dreamed I was
in the wrong cell.
721
00:56:34,057 --> 00:56:36,476
And you get in trouble when
you're in the wrong cell.
722
00:56:36,559 --> 00:56:38,937
It's like, if they catch
you in the wrong cell,
723
00:56:39,020 --> 00:56:40,396
it's a problem.
724
00:56:42,023 --> 00:56:44,818
And Ashley was there.
725
00:56:45,735 --> 00:56:46,945
Somehow.
726
00:56:47,028 --> 00:56:50,073
It's just always
consisting of...
727
00:56:50,156 --> 00:56:52,367
elements from my new life.
728
00:56:55,286 --> 00:56:57,956
As someone who's
quote-unquote, "free,"
729
00:56:59,791 --> 00:57:03,086
ending up back in
prison with me,
730
00:57:04,254 --> 00:57:06,422
except now I have
to protect them.
731
00:57:36,578 --> 00:57:39,497
You wanna fly
or drive to Kansas City?
732
00:57:40,248 --> 00:57:41,749
We discussed flying.
733
00:57:41,833 --> 00:57:44,627
Am I gonna
come to Kansas City?
734
00:57:46,045 --> 00:57:48,506
That's the plan.
735
00:57:48,590 --> 00:57:51,801
Long drive.
736
00:57:53,970 --> 00:57:56,514
When I finally did graduate,
737
00:57:56,598 --> 00:57:58,892
I didn't really
have anywhere to go,
738
00:57:58,975 --> 00:58:01,561
But...
739
00:58:03,062 --> 00:58:06,399
I had a strong
partner in Ashley.
740
00:58:06,482 --> 00:58:09,944
She held me down, and she
supported me and my child.
741
00:58:11,988 --> 00:58:13,865
Hey!
742
00:58:13,948 --> 00:58:15,783
- Hey.
- It's freezing!
743
00:58:15,867 --> 00:58:18,203
Yeah. It's crazy.
It was just super warm.
744
00:58:18,286 --> 00:58:20,246
I know! It was hot in
Atlanta, like sweating...
745
00:58:23,917 --> 00:58:26,961
You weren't
exactly raised
746
00:58:27,045 --> 00:58:29,923
to be partners
with someone who...
747
00:58:32,217 --> 00:58:36,554
- spent time... in prison.
- In prison? Yeah.
748
00:58:36,638 --> 00:58:39,057
You know, that
wasn't necessarily...
749
00:58:40,850 --> 00:58:45,021
- what your parents had in mind for you.
- Yeah.
750
00:58:46,064 --> 00:58:48,191
But they're warming
up. You got a gift.
751
00:58:48,274 --> 00:58:50,693
You got a gift from them
under the Christmas tree.
752
00:58:50,777 --> 00:58:52,612
I can't believe that shit.
753
00:58:52,695 --> 00:58:55,823
Like, I think what
ended up happening
754
00:58:55,907 --> 00:58:59,869
is I brought so much
of my, my issues...
755
00:59:01,329 --> 00:59:03,122
into the relationship
756
00:59:03,206 --> 00:59:06,251
that I'm only just now getting
addressed through therapy.
757
00:59:09,212 --> 00:59:10,630
I was a mess!
758
00:59:11,714 --> 00:59:13,132
My anger.
759
00:59:14,133 --> 00:59:16,386
I had a really short fuse.
760
00:59:18,054 --> 00:59:20,515
To have a partner that's
super patient with that...
761
00:59:23,059 --> 00:59:24,727
it's a blessing.
762
00:59:33,152 --> 00:59:35,363
My phone says 12:00!
763
00:59:35,446 --> 00:59:37,699
Happy New Year!
764
00:59:37,782 --> 00:59:39,117
Happy New Year!
765
00:59:49,877 --> 00:59:51,504
Niggas is busing.
766
01:00:02,307 --> 01:00:04,350
Ow!
767
01:00:04,434 --> 01:00:07,687
All of our siblings
have been to jail. All of us.
768
01:00:07,770 --> 01:00:11,232
We have been to jail, but you went to prison, bro.
769
01:00:11,316 --> 01:00:12,859
We've been to jail,
770
01:00:12,942 --> 01:00:16,487
and we, we had more access
to this type of world
771
01:00:16,571 --> 01:00:19,741
that we live in than you do.
772
01:00:19,824 --> 01:00:22,827
Bro, our upbringing
literally deprived us
773
01:00:22,910 --> 01:00:25,330
from thinking the way
that we should be thinking
774
01:00:25,413 --> 01:00:27,457
to where that would've marinate.
775
01:00:29,876 --> 01:00:31,252
Oh shit!
776
01:00:31,336 --> 01:00:33,087
That was a
12-gauge right there.
777
01:00:33,171 --> 01:00:35,149
That was... See,
that was something different.
778
01:00:35,173 --> 01:00:38,676
- That wasn't no 22 right there.
- Hey, everybody, welcome to the hood!
779
01:00:38,760 --> 01:00:40,928
Nah, we shoot guns.
780
01:00:41,012 --> 01:00:44,057
- We shoot guns in Kansas City.
- That was!
781
01:00:45,641 --> 01:00:48,186
-What's success?
-You know what I'm saying? Like, what's success
782
01:00:48,269 --> 01:00:52,023
other than accomplishing your goals...
783
01:00:52,106 --> 01:00:53,816
whatever the fuck they are.
784
01:00:53,900 --> 01:00:55,580
The only person
out of our families
785
01:00:55,610 --> 01:00:57,862
that was destined for
greatness was you.
786
01:00:57,945 --> 01:01:01,199
- How though? How?
- Like, because...
787
01:01:01,282 --> 01:01:03,302
- the one thing...
- What made me so better?
788
01:01:03,326 --> 01:01:07,205
- We grew up in the same household!
- We did. We did.
789
01:01:07,288 --> 01:01:10,208
- We got the same opportunities...
- No, we didn't.
790
01:01:10,291 --> 01:01:12,691
- Oh, so I got more opportunities?
- You did,
791
01:01:12,752 --> 01:01:14,855
- and the crazy part about it...
- I don't think he did.
792
01:01:14,879 --> 01:01:16,005
Where?
793
01:01:16,089 --> 01:01:17,799
Tela was my mama.
794
01:01:17,882 --> 01:01:21,260
Like, when Tela went to
jail, when Tela disappeared
795
01:01:21,344 --> 01:01:24,764
and everybody's dads would show up to remove them...
796
01:01:24,847 --> 01:01:27,600
I was stuck with Barbara!
I know y'all's daddy!
797
01:01:27,683 --> 01:01:29,227
I'm like jealous!
I remember...
798
01:01:29,310 --> 01:01:31,789
- Listen, I remember us cracking on each other.
- Right!
799
01:01:31,813 --> 01:01:33,481
Like, "Nigga,
nigga, your daddy...
800
01:01:33,564 --> 01:01:35,733
that's why your daddy..."
Y'all used to talk about me!
801
01:01:35,817 --> 01:01:38,111
Like, "That's why your
daddy ain't here, nigga."
802
01:01:38,194 --> 01:01:40,071
- Yeah.
- "My daddy, nigga, daddy...
803
01:01:40,154 --> 01:01:41,781
My daddy better than yours!"
804
01:01:41,864 --> 01:01:43,408
I used to wanna call
y'all daddy Daddy!
805
01:01:43,491 --> 01:01:46,619
The crazy part about it is
it took for you to go to jail
806
01:01:46,702 --> 01:01:50,248
to actually see the potential
that you had in yourself.
807
01:01:50,331 --> 01:01:52,726
- So you think jail was my opportunity?
- No.
808
01:01:52,750 --> 01:01:56,188
- It was an opportunity.
- And if it was, it was only 'cause he took it that way.
809
01:01:56,212 --> 01:01:59,132
- It's only because it was in me!
- No, I'm not sayin'
810
01:01:59,215 --> 01:02:01,360
that jail was your opportunity.
Jail was your awakening.
811
01:02:01,384 --> 01:02:03,064
How many niggas
you know go to jail?
812
01:02:03,136 --> 01:02:05,513
- How many of them get awakened?
- None.
813
01:02:05,596 --> 01:02:08,307
- None.
- So, if jail isn't inherently good...
814
01:02:18,276 --> 01:02:21,279
That shit gotta burn, dog.
815
01:02:21,362 --> 01:02:23,239
I'm telling you,
that shit was burning
816
01:02:23,322 --> 01:02:25,450
every night when
I sit in my cell,
817
01:02:25,533 --> 01:02:27,243
and I didn't get a
letter from my mama,
818
01:02:27,326 --> 01:02:28,494
when I didn't know Ashley,
819
01:02:28,578 --> 01:02:30,955
when I didn't hear from
my brothers, my sisters,
820
01:02:31,038 --> 01:02:33,791
nobody! That shit was burning!
821
01:02:33,875 --> 01:02:36,836
I swear to God, it was burning.
822
01:02:36,919 --> 01:02:38,838
I swear to God, it was burning.
823
01:02:38,921 --> 01:02:42,216
Swear to
God, I ain't lying to you...
824
01:03:21,672 --> 01:03:26,719
So, George,
as we begin today,
825
01:03:26,802 --> 01:03:29,055
I want to invite you to
take in three deep breaths
826
01:03:29,138 --> 01:03:32,975
through your nose and out
through your nose fully...
827
01:03:35,144 --> 01:03:37,063
and deeply.
828
01:03:39,482 --> 01:03:41,859
We welcome the spirit
of the ancestors
829
01:03:41,943 --> 01:03:46,030
who are already with us,
but we honor their presence.
830
01:03:49,742 --> 01:03:51,494
As we fellowship now.
831
01:03:52,370 --> 01:03:55,831
It is for the ancestors.
832
01:04:47,300 --> 01:04:48,900
People think
this world is normal
833
01:04:48,926 --> 01:04:52,471
when it's really not.
Racism is still around...
834
01:04:52,555 --> 01:04:56,809
freakin' people are dying and
everybody just thinks it's okay.
835
01:04:56,892 --> 01:04:59,645
You see the dude
that, um, that, um...
836
01:04:59,729 --> 01:05:01,230
Was jogging?
837
01:05:01,314 --> 01:05:02,857
Him. He was...
838
01:05:02,940 --> 01:05:04,817
And then another dude
was just walking,
839
01:05:04,900 --> 01:05:06,986
and then the cops
was following him,
840
01:05:07,069 --> 01:05:08,946
so he started
running. He got shot.
841
01:05:09,030 --> 01:05:10,865
- He got shot.
- Um...
842
01:05:10,948 --> 01:05:12,700
Breonna Taylor, I
believe her name was,
843
01:05:12,783 --> 01:05:15,953
she was just chilling
at home. She got shot.
844
01:05:16,037 --> 01:05:18,122
Uh, let's see who
else. Trayvon Martin?
845
01:05:18,205 --> 01:05:21,292
He was just walking
home. He got shot.
846
01:05:23,878 --> 01:05:26,464
Martin Luther King, he got shot.
847
01:05:26,547 --> 01:05:28,674
Malcolm X, he got shot.
848
01:05:31,302 --> 01:05:34,096
I mean, you've
seen... You've seen a lot.
849
01:05:35,181 --> 01:05:36,515
You know, you step
out that door,
850
01:05:36,599 --> 01:05:38,809
a lot of people don't
want to see you live.
851
01:05:40,895 --> 01:05:44,148
Hold on, that actually kind
of scares me about life now.
852
01:05:45,232 --> 01:05:47,234
I mean, I
get it. I get it.
853
01:05:47,318 --> 01:05:51,072
It seems powerless.
Like, what can you do?
854
01:05:51,155 --> 01:05:53,866
But what you can do is
fight it with knowledge.
855
01:05:53,949 --> 01:05:55,701
Knowledge is your weapon.
856
01:05:58,245 --> 01:06:01,999
Look more closely
at African history,
857
01:06:02,083 --> 01:06:05,461
the African origins of the
world, the whole world.
858
01:06:05,544 --> 01:06:08,089
Every single race
came from people
859
01:06:08,172 --> 01:06:10,883
as dark as our family.
860
01:06:10,966 --> 01:06:13,344
They're scared of you.
Why are you scared?
861
01:06:14,804 --> 01:06:18,099
They know that there is a
giant asleep within you.
862
01:06:20,434 --> 01:06:23,229
And they fear today that
that giant wakes up.
863
01:06:42,915 --> 01:06:45,126
I actually visited my dad.
864
01:06:46,168 --> 01:06:49,213
Right after I got out of prison.
865
01:06:49,296 --> 01:06:52,717
I was able to get
in contact with him.
866
01:06:56,679 --> 01:06:59,223
Before I got locked
up, I had just met him,
867
01:06:59,306 --> 01:07:02,560
and I tried to start
interacting with him.
868
01:07:02,643 --> 01:07:06,522
You know, I was already kind
of grown and didn't need...
869
01:07:07,815 --> 01:07:10,067
much from him at that point.
870
01:07:22,496 --> 01:07:25,666
And you stayed with
us for a while. Good while.
871
01:07:27,251 --> 01:07:28,544
I still remember that one time
872
01:07:28,627 --> 01:07:29,938
where you had the
whole house laughing.
873
01:07:29,962 --> 01:07:32,256
- The beans?
- The beans, boy.
874
01:07:32,339 --> 01:07:36,385
- You tell me that story all the time.
- I said, how the hell?
875
01:07:36,469 --> 01:07:38,589
We was sitting up there, you
was sitting at the table,
876
01:07:38,637 --> 01:07:40,181
ready to eat.
877
01:07:40,264 --> 01:07:41,783
She put some beans on
your plate, you said,
878
01:07:41,807 --> 01:07:43,434
"Ah man, beans again?"
879
01:07:45,895 --> 01:07:48,606
Had the whole house laughing.
880
01:07:48,689 --> 01:07:51,817
It's funny though. My daughter's
the same way right now.
881
01:07:51,901 --> 01:07:54,612
You put some beans in her
face, she going to be like,
882
01:07:54,695 --> 01:07:57,573
"Man, if you don't give me
some chicken nuggets or...
883
01:07:59,325 --> 01:08:02,328
- piece of chicken or something."
- How old is she now?
884
01:08:02,411 --> 01:08:04,955
- She 5. She 5.
- Yeah?
885
01:08:05,039 --> 01:08:07,958
Yeah, I had a baby
as soon as I got out.
886
01:08:09,502 --> 01:08:12,338
Um. So, yeah.
887
01:08:12,421 --> 01:08:15,257
She's, uh, she's just like me.
888
01:08:15,341 --> 01:08:17,134
Look like me and everything.
889
01:08:17,218 --> 01:08:19,512
Yeah, that's good.
What's your mother up to?
890
01:08:19,595 --> 01:08:21,514
She just...
891
01:08:21,597 --> 01:08:23,241
- Like, you know...
- I hate to hear it.
892
01:08:23,265 --> 01:08:26,602
Well, I mean, you
know, when you have...
893
01:08:27,978 --> 01:08:29,605
She got an
addiction. You know,
894
01:08:29,688 --> 01:08:32,107
that's what your
grandmother was on.
895
01:08:32,191 --> 01:08:34,151
But back then, they
called it Sherm.
896
01:08:34,235 --> 01:08:36,320
You remember when
Barbara was on Sherm?
897
01:08:36,403 --> 01:08:39,490
Yeah. Man, she would...
I would come over,
898
01:08:39,573 --> 01:08:41,325
and I was talking
to your mother,
899
01:08:41,408 --> 01:08:43,994
and, you know, one thing led
to another, and she said,
900
01:08:44,078 --> 01:08:45,621
"Come on, let's go downstairs."
901
01:08:45,704 --> 01:08:46,890
I said, "What about your mama?"
902
01:08:46,914 --> 01:08:48,874
I'm doing like that.
"Your mama here."
903
01:08:48,958 --> 01:08:51,377
She said, "She don't
even know you're here."
904
01:08:51,460 --> 01:08:56,006
Say what? And I noticed
she hadn't moved.
905
01:08:56,090 --> 01:08:58,634
But she
didn't... She was high?
906
01:08:58,717 --> 01:09:00,135
She didn't even
know I was there.
907
01:09:00,219 --> 01:09:02,155
- What was she, just high?
- Just sitting there.
908
01:09:02,179 --> 01:09:04,265
And I walked over there,
and I did like that.
909
01:09:06,308 --> 01:09:07,601
Get the
fuck outta here.
910
01:09:07,685 --> 01:09:09,770
And she never
blinked or anything.
911
01:09:09,854 --> 01:09:12,189
-That happened just like that? You did...
-Just like that.
912
01:09:12,273 --> 01:09:15,109
And when she found out
that Tela was pregnant,
913
01:09:15,192 --> 01:09:17,069
she was eight and a
half months pregnant.
914
01:09:17,152 --> 01:09:20,322
- Didn't even notice.
- Didn't even... Not never.
915
01:09:21,532 --> 01:09:24,201
She was sticking way out.
916
01:09:24,285 --> 01:09:26,537
I came over one day,
and she was sober.
917
01:09:26,620 --> 01:09:29,456
Oh man, the shit hit the fan.
918
01:09:29,540 --> 01:09:31,300
"That better
not be you pregnant!
919
01:09:31,333 --> 01:09:34,545
That better be you just full!"
I said, "Yeah, full of baby."
920
01:09:36,755 --> 01:09:39,925
-So... Damn. I never knew that, man.
-Yeah.
921
01:09:41,385 --> 01:09:42,887
That's the way it went.
922
01:10:19,715 --> 01:10:22,635
Having a baby at 15...
923
01:10:26,722 --> 01:10:28,849
I mean, all I wanted was love.
924
01:10:29,683 --> 01:10:31,435
- Right.
- I...
925
01:10:32,394 --> 01:10:34,396
Somebody to love me.
926
01:10:35,689 --> 01:10:39,360
And I figured that
having a baby at 15...
927
01:10:41,820 --> 01:10:44,782
that would be somebody
that can love me.
928
01:10:44,865 --> 01:10:46,533
That I can love.
929
01:10:47,993 --> 01:10:49,995
But not knowing...
930
01:10:50,079 --> 01:10:54,792
what can... the things
that came along with that.
931
01:10:54,875 --> 01:10:57,670
And then when I had to,
I didn't know what to do.
932
01:10:58,587 --> 01:11:00,005
How to do.
933
01:11:04,426 --> 01:11:06,512
I mean, I'm
glad you had me, though.
934
01:11:07,388 --> 01:11:08,514
Thank you. Thank you.
935
01:11:08,597 --> 01:11:11,016
I mean, you was
planned on purpose.
936
01:11:11,100 --> 01:11:13,435
I mean, you was really planned.
937
01:11:13,519 --> 01:11:15,479
Really planned.
938
01:11:16,939 --> 01:11:19,650
Seriously, you just don't know.
939
01:11:29,451 --> 01:11:31,078
You were planned.
940
01:11:41,797 --> 01:11:44,466
Did your daddy tell you
where your name came from?
941
01:11:45,884 --> 01:11:48,137
No, you...
I just assumed
942
01:11:48,220 --> 01:11:51,140
that it was a combination
between him and my uncle.
943
01:11:51,223 --> 01:11:53,559
George came
from my daddy.
944
01:11:53,642 --> 01:11:55,769
Anthony came from your daddy.
945
01:11:55,853 --> 01:11:59,648
Dwayne came from a
guy that I was liking.
946
01:11:59,732 --> 01:12:01,692
What the fuck?
947
01:12:01,775 --> 01:12:04,987
Why are you giving me random
niggas' names and shit?
948
01:12:05,070 --> 01:12:07,031
Did he at least buy some
diapers or something?
949
01:12:08,949 --> 01:12:10,367
Like...
950
01:12:10,451 --> 01:12:13,120
I'm changing my name to
an African name, like.
951
01:12:13,203 --> 01:12:16,540
I don't want this name no more.
952
01:12:16,623 --> 01:12:18,834
So, who's this nigga?
What's he doing today, like?
953
01:12:21,086 --> 01:12:24,006
Just a guy that I
was liking in school.
954
01:12:24,089 --> 01:12:27,009
- His name was Dwayne.
- He know you named your baby after him?
955
01:12:27,092 --> 01:12:28,510
No!
956
01:13:00,459 --> 01:13:03,128
You know how
to do it, Michael?
957
01:13:03,212 --> 01:13:05,440
Damn, when I was locked up,
you motherfuckers was out here
958
01:13:05,464 --> 01:13:08,467
learning how to fish, huh?
959
01:13:08,550 --> 01:13:09,927
Y'all also understand
960
01:13:10,010 --> 01:13:12,554
- who we was in Oklahoma for about four years.
- Right.
961
01:13:12,638 --> 01:13:14,473
- Y'all was fishing in Oklahoma?
- Mm-hmm.
962
01:13:17,935 --> 01:13:19,287
Your eyes are probably
better than mine.
963
01:13:19,311 --> 01:13:20,854
Take it through this hole.
964
01:13:23,732 --> 01:13:25,734
You can take it
through this one.
965
01:13:27,486 --> 01:13:30,197
There you go. Connect that one.
966
01:13:30,280 --> 01:13:32,366
That end to this.
967
01:13:34,034 --> 01:13:35,452
There you go.
968
01:13:48,966 --> 01:13:50,551
Want me to
throw it for you?
969
01:13:50,634 --> 01:13:54,346
That's good.
970
01:13:54,429 --> 01:13:56,849
- Know how to do it?
- I just need to hold that.
971
01:13:56,932 --> 01:13:59,101
Yep, and then when
you throw it, let it go.
972
01:14:04,064 --> 01:14:06,442
Goddamn!
973
01:14:06,525 --> 01:14:09,820
He
like Devon, Michael.
974
01:14:09,903 --> 01:14:12,531
- He's like Devon.
- Oh shit!
975
01:14:12,614 --> 01:14:14,491
Why didn't
that work though?
976
01:14:14,575 --> 01:14:15,969
That ain't my fault.
977
01:14:15,993 --> 01:14:18,412
I let it go! Like, it
didn't, it didn't go.
978
01:14:18,495 --> 01:14:20,831
I'ma show you. Let
me show you how to do it.
979
01:14:20,914 --> 01:14:23,542
As soon as you toss
it, you let it go.
980
01:14:23,625 --> 01:14:26,170
I thought I did.
981
01:14:35,637 --> 01:14:37,222
- Is it working?
- Mm-hmm.
982
01:14:40,809 --> 01:14:44,396
- -Hey, Dr. Kynes.
- Hold on. Here, say hi, Mama.
983
01:14:45,314 --> 01:14:47,274
Hello. How are you?
984
01:14:47,357 --> 01:14:50,485
Hello,
how are you? I'm well, thank you.
985
01:14:50,569 --> 01:14:54,907
- Good to see you and meet you.
- Nice seeing you as well.
986
01:14:54,990 --> 01:14:58,535
- Thank you much.
- Alright, she's stepping out.
987
01:14:58,619 --> 01:15:01,496
So, what's going on,
my friend? What's on your heart
988
01:15:02,206 --> 01:15:03,373
and your mind?
989
01:15:05,834 --> 01:15:08,712
I just really
wanna be more light,
990
01:15:08,795 --> 01:15:10,380
less serious,
991
01:15:10,464 --> 01:15:15,010
more happy and, and, um, joyful.
992
01:15:15,093 --> 01:15:17,804
And I just wonder if
life has hardened me
993
01:15:19,264 --> 01:15:21,016
and made me incapable.
994
01:15:22,142 --> 01:15:25,354
Not
incapable. Healable.
995
01:15:28,148 --> 01:15:30,901
Not lost.
996
01:15:30,984 --> 01:15:35,364
You know what a relationship
is really about, George?
997
01:15:35,447 --> 01:15:38,700
It's really about
George the adult,
998
01:15:38,784 --> 01:15:40,827
person, man.
999
01:15:42,287 --> 01:15:44,081
And George,
1000
01:15:44,164 --> 01:15:45,707
having a relationship
1001
01:15:45,791 --> 01:15:48,210
with his inner little boy.
1002
01:15:49,545 --> 01:15:52,089
Because you're the only one
1003
01:15:52,172 --> 01:15:55,801
who can release him
from the inner prison
1004
01:15:56,718 --> 01:15:58,887
that he experienced early on.
1005
01:16:34,589 --> 01:16:38,468
An affirmation affirms...
1006
01:16:38,552 --> 01:16:42,306
something to yourself.
Like, you tell yourself,
1007
01:16:42,389 --> 01:16:43,932
"I am this."
1008
01:16:44,016 --> 01:16:46,935
Not "I will be"
or "I need to do."
1009
01:16:48,061 --> 01:16:50,731
You'll be trying
forever, you know,
1010
01:16:50,814 --> 01:16:52,983
but the minute you say "I am,"
1011
01:16:54,443 --> 01:16:57,195
it's done already.
1012
01:16:57,279 --> 01:17:00,907
So, write this one down. Write down...
1013
01:17:06,163 --> 01:17:08,915
"I am not what has
happened to me.
1014
01:17:12,794 --> 01:17:15,547
I am what I choose to become."
1015
01:17:19,676 --> 01:17:21,720
Your mind is a garden
1016
01:17:22,721 --> 01:17:25,682
of fertile soil,
1017
01:17:25,766 --> 01:17:29,227
and you can plant any
seeds you want in there.
1018
01:17:29,311 --> 01:17:34,024
And so what if you began
telling yourself, "I am great"?
1019
01:17:34,107 --> 01:17:36,318
I am not what happened to me.
1020
01:17:36,401 --> 01:17:38,445
I am what I choose to become.
1021
01:17:40,113 --> 01:17:44,368
Tupac wrote a poem about a
rose that grew from concrete.
1022
01:17:44,451 --> 01:17:46,495
That's definitely
not a fertile...
1023
01:17:48,163 --> 01:17:49,623
gardening place.
1024
01:17:49,706 --> 01:17:53,585
But yet, even a rose
can grow from concrete
1025
01:17:53,668 --> 01:17:57,255
if you know how to plant that
seed and nourish it, and so...
1026
01:17:57,339 --> 01:17:59,383
positivity.
1027
01:18:00,342 --> 01:18:01,676
So...
1028
01:18:04,513 --> 01:18:07,724
Write those down. We'll put
them on a wall or something.
1029
01:18:08,934 --> 01:18:11,770
I mean, the same thing
I told you about...
1030
01:18:11,853 --> 01:18:15,649
eagles versus pigeons. Which
one would you rather be?
1031
01:18:16,650 --> 01:18:18,485
I remember that.
1032
01:18:21,238 --> 01:18:23,407
I always said I
wanted to be an eagle.
1033
01:18:23,490 --> 01:18:26,952
- Why?
- Because they fly higher than pigeons.
1034
01:18:27,035 --> 01:18:29,704
They fly higher, and
what does that allow them to do?
1035
01:18:29,788 --> 01:18:32,707
- See more.
- Exactly.
1036
01:18:36,920 --> 01:18:39,548
- Don't be no pigeon, Tre.
- I'm not.
1037
01:18:57,357 --> 01:19:00,819
Do you even know where this
place is that I'm painting?
1038
01:19:00,902 --> 01:19:02,320
Egypt?
1039
01:19:02,404 --> 01:19:05,282
Do you know your name
comes from a place in Egypt?
1040
01:19:05,365 --> 01:19:08,285
- No.
- Nuri is in Africa.
1041
01:19:08,368 --> 01:19:12,456
It's, um, it's the place where
the Black pharaohs come from.
1042
01:19:12,539 --> 01:19:13,999
I knew it!
1043
01:19:18,920 --> 01:19:20,422
- See where they're from?
- Yeah.
1044
01:19:20,505 --> 01:19:22,466
- What does it say?
- Nuri.
1045
01:19:22,549 --> 01:19:25,635
But, I was actually...
1046
01:19:25,719 --> 01:19:28,680
I actually asked Nissa
about our ancestors.
1047
01:19:28,763 --> 01:19:30,265
- Oh, really?
- Mm-hmm.
1048
01:19:30,348 --> 01:19:32,934
But I don't really
remember what she said.
1049
01:19:42,819 --> 01:19:46,531
Well, I'm thankful
that the axle didn't break.
1050
01:19:46,615 --> 01:19:48,492
'Cause that's what
I thought broke,
1051
01:19:48,575 --> 01:19:50,410
but the axle did not break.
1052
01:19:50,494 --> 01:19:53,830
I'm about to start
painting, but go ahead.
1053
01:19:53,914 --> 01:19:56,500
I paid...
George Anthony,
1054
01:19:56,583 --> 01:19:59,544
I need to pay for the tow.
1055
01:19:59,628 --> 01:20:01,796
Okay. Just send me the
Cash App information, Mama.
1056
01:20:01,880 --> 01:20:04,341
I'll get it done. I
need to get to work.
1057
01:20:04,424 --> 01:20:06,384
Okay. Thank you.
1058
01:20:06,468 --> 01:20:09,137
- Alright, Mama. You're welcome.
- Alright.
1059
01:20:55,892 --> 01:20:58,353
I went to Egypt and
saw with my own two eyes
1060
01:20:58,436 --> 01:21:01,439
naturalism thousands
of years before
1061
01:21:01,523 --> 01:21:04,109
Rembrandt would
ever walk the Earth.
1062
01:21:06,319 --> 01:21:10,198
I look at it as a tradition
that preexisted Rembrandt
1063
01:21:10,282 --> 01:21:11,825
and my favorite old masters,
1064
01:21:11,908 --> 01:21:14,619
and that they kept
the torch burning
1065
01:21:15,370 --> 01:21:17,706
for people like me
1066
01:21:17,789 --> 01:21:20,834
to step up and take my
rightful place in it.
1067
01:21:27,549 --> 01:21:29,718
I see the spirit of just...
1068
01:21:30,969 --> 01:21:34,139
like an unwillingness
to just give up.
1069
01:21:34,222 --> 01:21:36,266
An unwillingness to fail.
1070
01:21:42,397 --> 01:21:45,609
Is it not evident that
there was some beauty
1071
01:21:45,692 --> 01:21:47,485
in the ugliness of all this?
1072
01:21:49,404 --> 01:21:51,948
That there was some
good that can come out
1073
01:21:52,032 --> 01:21:54,242
of a seemingly bad situation?
1074
01:22:08,423 --> 01:22:10,634
I think I'ma finish it.
1075
01:22:10,717 --> 01:22:13,345
I got... I made a
few attempts already.
1076
01:22:15,555 --> 01:22:17,515
I thought that
one was already done.
1077
01:22:17,599 --> 01:22:19,643
Hell no. This thing need to look
1078
01:22:19,726 --> 01:22:21,853
like you're ready
to start talking.
1079
01:22:23,104 --> 01:22:24,689
We're not finished yet.
1080
01:22:26,024 --> 01:22:29,069
It'll be a trip if I can
get it in that, um...
1081
01:22:29,152 --> 01:22:30,987
museum down there.
1082
01:22:34,366 --> 01:22:35,867
Take people to the
museum and be like,
1083
01:22:35,951 --> 01:22:37,786
"Yeah, I'm on the
walls in here."
1084
01:22:39,496 --> 01:22:41,456
It don't look like
much yet, but...
1085
01:22:41,539 --> 01:22:44,167
No, it's gorgeous. I love it.
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