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♪ your love is like a river ♪

♪ flowing through my veins ♪

♪ your love is the fever ♪

♪ I can't get enough ♪

♪ I'm on fire ♪

♪ we're on fire ♪

♪ our love is too much ♪

♪ for just one heart to take ♪

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It's time to get up.

It's time to get up,
little bed creature.

How much do you
love the morning?

I'm not a morning person.

Um, and Anthony used to just
pour a glass of water on me

or threaten to,
to wake me up in the morning.

But Vanessa has
a very different tactic.

Couldn't we just sleep
a little bit more?

We've grown to know
each other's bodies

in a way that it feels
unique to each other.

I think of her body

as just the sexiest thing
in the whole world,

and I feel honored and lucky
every time I get to touch it.

Lindsey and I actually had sex

before Anthony and I had sex.

And neither of us had as much

experience having sex
with women,

and so we've actually
gone through

a really beautiful growth
in the last few years.

It's becoming more
sexually intimate.

And now we have sex
with a strap-on,

and it's like a way bigger range
of sexual experience

that we get to have.

And it's a new part
of my sexual personality

that's come out recently.

I really enjoy it.

- I love you.
- I love you.

You're so sexy.

Get off my cock.

Whoo.

You broke it, you beast.

I adored her from
afar for many years,

and now I get to actually touch

the body that
I've loved so long.

She's gonna make a morning
person out of me in the end.

Hey, are you getting ready
for your date with Roxanne?

Yeah, I am.

Do you need to tell me
anything about it, Kamala?

Before anybody goes on a date,
we usually check in.

Like, here's a chance
to make any objections.

And if not,
I've got your blessings,

and I'm gonna do what I want.

I was more nervous than usual
because I felt like

there was some unsaid tension.

Things are good
with me and Roxanne.

I wanna make sure things
are good with us.

- Mm-hmm.
- You know that you're not

gonna be upset.

I just don't wanna be
on my date

and have
my husband home, hurting,

because I'm not sharing her.

The reason that Kamala wants
to be with Roxanne exclusively

is because she doesn't want
Roxanne treating other people

that are close to her
in the same way,

which is not completely poly.

I wanna reconnect with her

and let her know
how much I love her.

And I want that
to be okay with you.

Yeah, you know, you're working
through that stuff. I get it.

- You know that's an issue.
- Mm-hmm.

And I'm okay with you having
a deep relationship with her,

but it's, you know,

it hasn't been really,
you know, fair.

I've told Kamala what I feel.

I hope that eventually Kamala
will come around

and do the right thing.

Hey, Michael.

Oh, hey, Jen.

- What are you up to?
- Where's Kamala?

Uh, she's getting ready,
actually.

She's going off to see Roxanne.

- Oh, cool.
- So--

- All right.
- Yeah, cool.

I'll go say hi.

- All right, have a good day.
- Yeah, you too.

When Kamala and Michael
were having that conversation

about Roxanne,
he was really sort of

putting her on the spot.

I actually kind of
felt for her.

I know what it's like to just
have someone as an escape,

and I understand how Michael
might feel left out.

You know, I don't have
a proper nail clipper.

It just broke,
and so I'm clipping away,

hoping to get lucky, you know?

Are you seeing Roxanne today?
Is that why?

- Uh-huh, that's why.
- Oh, cool.

So what are you guys gonna do?

I just wanna see where she's at

and how she feels
about Michael.

Oh, about him not dating her?

Yeah, I'm starting
to look at that

and I wanted to see
where she's at.

When Michael told me that

I was acting like
a monogamous person,

that really hurt.

And so I'm rethinking
my policy about Roxanne.

I mean, is she even
interested in Michael?

I have... not really asked her
'cause I'm afraid to know.

Oh, in case she says yes?

Yeah, so I'm like, "okay,
I need to find out

what the truth is instead of
kinda being in denial."

Right.
So are you nervous?

A little.

Are you feeling
pressure from Michael,

or is it something that you
really wanna do?

No, I'm doing it

because I wanna know,
what's the true level

of attraction
between all my lovers?

And I don't wanna be
the limiting step, so--

And that doesn't mean
it has to go anywhere.

- That's right.
- Okay.

I would love to share Roxanne
with Michael in theory,

but for the last year,
my relationship with Roxanne

has been so enhancing
and enriching.

I'm willing to look
at changing it, but I'm scared.

I'm going to go see my friend
and lover, Ilya, today.

There's something going
on with the triad

that I want
to talk to him about.

- Hey.
- Hey.

I have such a relaxed
relationship with Ilya.

We talk, we have sex, we don't
have sex, and I care about him.

And that's why I'm
so comfortable with him.

So how are your better thirds,
Anthony and Lindsey?

Haven't seen them.

- They're really good.
- Yeah?

Really good.

We've been talking about
our life commitment forever.

- Mm-hmm.
- Um, we act like it's a given.

Like, we're gonna be together
for life, we're a family.

But we're out together,
the three of us,

husband, wife, girlfriend,
I'm not taken

as seriously
when I'm introduced that way,

and I feel it.

Probably the hardest thing
for me about being

in a triad with a married couple
is that no matter what,

I am always left out of things.

If they get invited
to a wedding, it's a plus one.

It's never a plus two.

And, you know, I have to fight
every day to be recognized

as a legitimate partner.

So... I haven't talked to anyone
about this yet.

- But...
- What?

- I'm gonna propose to them.
- Really?

Uh-huh.

But why you?

Why are you the one
doing the proposing?

Uh, I think I'm the one that
has the most urgency about it.

They're married
already, so--

They really feel like
it's clear to me

that we're all
gonna be together forever

and that that's good, you know?

Do you think it's gonna make
that big of a difference?

A title change, essentially?

Public life commitment?

You think that's
just a title change?

I mean, I think a lot of people

treat it that way, certainly.

So prejudiced.

- This is prejudice.
- Is it?

A queer woman proposing
to her poly couple?

A person who can't
get married legally

who makes the decision to make
a life commitment is doing

way more than just asking
for a title change

on the relationship.

They're married,

but I'm the one
who's getting fucked here.

- I want the legitimacy.
- Right.

I'm ready for there to be,
like, a symbol, ritual,

a commitment, like,
I want that really badly,

so I'm gonna ask for it.

I'm so excited,
I'm overwhelmed,

but there's
a little bit of terror.

There are people we're not out
to, and that's all gonna change.

Vanessa, you have
the biggest balls of anybody...

I've ever met.

And I've always said that,

and I will always
continue to say that, so--

- Thank you.
- Of course.

The way my relationship is
with Roxanne,

I don't share her with anyone
except her boyfriend.

It's like an escape away from
my life with Devin and Michael.

Girlfriend!

Hey, cutie.

And being with Roxanne,
it's like

the ultimate
hot lesbian fantasy for me.

I feel like a little puppy
that missed you.

I know.

So no matter what my agenda was
before I showed up,

as soon as I was with her,
my agenda was, like,

let's just get close.

But I'm definitely not
as rational with her

as I am with everybody else.

You're like this sexy,
hot tigress.

That makes you my prey.

You're so cute.

The deepest poly philosophy

is that you can't get all
your needs met from one person.

Michael meets most of my needs,

like, 99% of them.

And where he might not be
the most romantic man,

I have found the most romantic
woman on the planet.

Yeah.

Mm-hmm.

My sexual connection
with Roxanne is off the charts.

Sometimes I think that
when I make love with Roxanne

that she can read my mind

and that there's nothing
I'm thinking or feeling

that she doesn't feel too.

Did you work up an appetite?

Mm-hmm.

It feels so good to finally
get a break from the household.

Mm-hmm.

Um... The day
that you came over?

- Yeah.
- Um... Michael started to ask

- about our relationship.
- Mm-hmm.

And he's always been really
accepting and okay...

- Mm-hmm.
- About you and I having our

- exclusive little affair.
- Right.

But he's starting
to feel left out.

- Aww.
- Yeah.

Maybe you guys should, you know,
maybe get to know each other.

It's been a year, you know, that
we've been seeing each other.

It kinda makes sense
that you'd get to know him.

Yeah.

So I'm thinking maybe I could
do it like a special gesture.

Like as a gift, I wanna give you
a tea and a chat with Roxanne.

But is he gonna think
a tea and a chat is, like,

a tea and a chat
or a tea and a chat?

Like what kind of-- You know?

I don't want to lead him on into
thinking, like, we're on a date.

I'd like to go on,
like, a friendship.

Like, you know,
you get to know somebody first.

- Yeah, yeah.
- I mean m-- Don't get me wrong.

Michael's hot, he's funny,

he has all these
amazing qualities,

but I don't have
that chemistry with him

- that I have with you.
- Yeah.

Like, I'm not
holding anything back.

Yeah, and I wouldn't-- I mean,
there's no leading on

'cause I don't think
I'd be okay with you guys,

like, really getting down.

But I would definitely
be okay with you guys

getting closer
and seeing what's there.

- I'm totally game.
- Okay.

I'm game for that
'cause I love you.

And if you guys wanted
more than that,

then we would have
to have a conversation.

Right.

Polyamory's about loving
without limits.

So I got this idea to let

Michael go on a date
with Roxanne.

I wanna open the relationship
so that I'm not being such

a hypocrite so that my behavior
actually matches my philosophy.

Hi.

I don't often meet Anthony
for lunch at school

because we're often
in totally different places

with schedules
that don't align.

And when they do...

We take advantage of it.

Here we are.

I'm both nervous and excited
about what is gonna happen

with our relationship now.

I feel a little bad about
the confrontation with Krystof.

I actually
am interested in you,

if you want,
having a boyfriend.

But maybe find one
in Los Angeles,

especially because
then I get to enjoy it.

You know how I am.

Poly, for me, is about love
in the grandest sense.

A perfect of example of this

is we have a term
called compersion--

Actually getting pleasure

out of your partner
with another person.

That notion of love,
where you're just happy

at everything that
makes them happy.

My hands are full with you two.

If you don't want it,
you don't want it.

- But--
- But I'm open.

You know, I'm always open
to meeting good people.

I have the hookup
with great men.

My wife's happiness is
paramount to me.

If that involves us,
alone as a triad,

her finding
a new boyfriend--

Oh, oh, Jacob is playing a gig.

Jacob is a previous lover.

He is a musician, and I haven't
heard from him in a while.

So tonight, we're all gonna go
to Jacob's gig,

and I wanna see what's
going on in his life.

All right, so when
we go to this show,

I'm gonna be your wingman.

Don't worry, if you get nervous,
I will help.

What I do when they go,
"oh, you have a husband?

Oh, I don't wanna
interfere with that."

- I know a good one.
- Hmm?

"Hey, if it makes you feel
better, he can sit and watch.

And then you know that
it's not about--"

I have the most amazing
husband ever.

He is not threatened by me
getting joy or pleasure

or happiness from other men.

In fact, he encourages it.

Cheers to me being back.

- Hey, Michelle.
- Hey, Michael.

Jen's sister Michelle
is very hot,

and she flirts with me all
the time, but she's monogamous,

which does seem a little bit
hypocritical to me.

Hi, Jen.

My sister came to visit
because we usually see

each other about once a month,

and I wanted her
to see my new place

and see how cool I thought it
was and just reconnect with her.

So this is my place.

I li--
It looks--

It looks really good.

Did you see the family photo?

I did see the family photo.

- It's hard to miss.
- Right.

- Okay.
- It's very big.

And, um, you know,
this is the bed

- we had from the old house...
- Okay.

And that bed over there is
for lovers who wanna sleep over.

Okay.

I knew right away
that she was like,

"yeah, you guys
are fucking crazy."

You don't like it?

I just don't get it.

What don't you get?

Just why you would move
into a place with other people.

You have a husband.

You know, you just,
what, share everything?

I love Michael, I love Kamala,

and we just all
wanted to be together.

Let's just go have some coffee.

- All right.
- Okay?

I really love my sister, and I
really care what she thinks.

I don't want to, but I do.

Jennifer, you move
into this tiny little room

with other people that
you're fucking all the time,

and I just don't get it.

I don't even understand
why it doesn't make sense.

Because you're married.

I'm married, but everything
I do is with his knowledge.

It's with his knowledge,
but I don't think doing things

like that's healthy,
I think it's weird.

We've been doing it
for quite a long time...

- And I don't get it.
- And it's working.

And I would just not have

a man who wanted to go out

and stick his dick in everyone.

My sister thinks I'm poly

because of Tahl.

It's not the case.

It was my idea,
and I'm enjoying

my relationships outside
of my relationship with Tahl.

I really, truly am.

Do you think that any boyfriend
that you've ever had or husband

doesn't look at other women
and find them attractive?

I didn't say that.
Did you hear me say that?

I mean, they think that,
and they just don't tell you.

And then they go out and cheat,
and then the marriage breaks up.

And then maybe kids are left.
Why do that?

Why not stay married
to the person you love

and also have
some sexual freedom?

You're acting like
a single person.

Be single.
Just be single.

I'm not acting
like a single person.

- A single person would--
- Yeah, you're going out,

and you're fucking
all these different guys.

I'm not fucking all these
different guys.

- Yes, you are.
- No.

I have Kamala, Michael,
Jesse, and Tahl.

A lot of monogamous people,
when they hear the word "lover,"

they're probably assuming
that I'm fucking them.

Just because I call
someone a lover,

it doesn't mean I'm having
intercourse with them.

Different boundaries come up
with different people.

Everybody who knows,
they're just gonna look at you

like you're a big, ol' slut.

That's fine, I mean,
what is a slut?

Because I enjoy having sex?
You enjoy having sex.

Because I've had sex with
more than one person, so what?

My hope is that people
will see the love

more than that
they'll see the sex.

I don't think she understands
that it's not all about sex.

I think that's what
she thinks it is,

um, but because she's never
experienced it.

You guys doing okay over here?

Yes, we're doing great.
Thank you.

- Can I get you anything else?
- Not yet.

No, thank you.

He's cute.

Oh, so what,
do you wanna fuck him too?

Just because I'm poly doesn't
mean I wanna fuck everybody.

Okay.

I know that I'm
being very judge-y,

and I don't get-- I just don't
get it at all, but I love you.

- I still love you.
- Thank you, Michelle.

I love you too.

Just don't touch me--
No, I'm just kidding.

Did you wash?

- You mean since I was--
- Eww!

Yes, I washed my hands.

I won't touch you
with this hand.

I'm just kidding.

I'm pretty much used to what
my sister thinks,

but if I based my life
on what other people thought

or their judgment, I wouldn't
be able to do anything.

And I really can't live
my life,

worried about what my family
and friends think.

So how about your date with,
uh, Roxanne?

- I had a very hot time.
- You did?

- I know.
- What did you do?

- You wanna know, don't you?
- You don't want to know.

- Mm-hmm.
- Hmm.

We normally don't keep secrets,

but when I got it in my head
that I wanted to give Michael

permission to date Roxanne, it
was hard for me to not tell him.

So it's kind of a surprise.

What did you guys do
specifically,

like, sexually and stuff?

- Ooh, don't you wanna know?
- Ooh, do tell.

Of course.
We always talk about that stuff.

I think we all wanna know.

It seems to me that Kamala

is doing secret things
behind my back.

We don't do secrets,
and so it's unusual.

I just love our time together.

It's just really magical.

We can't keep
our hands off each other.

Oh, now we're all interested.

How do you end it on that?

I know how to shut you up.

- Mmm.
- Mmm.

Hey, just be my friend.

We're all going out tonight
to Jacob's gig...

Whoo-hoo!

With our friends
Alan and Charlotte

and my brother Louis
and his girlfriend, Katira.

And we're all excited about it.

- Is this it?
- This is it.

♪ And child ♪

Jacob is a former lover,

fantastic musician,

and someone that I really
wanna reconnect with.

♪ And maybe ♪

♪ maybe your river won't seem ♪

♪ won't seem so long, girl ♪

I'm feeling pretty overwhelmed.

You know, we're out having
this great night together,

and I plan to propose a life
commitment-- A marriage--

To Anthony and Lindsey, and I'm
keeping it a secret from them.

The whole time, in the back
of my mind, I'm like,

"I'm gonna propose to them,
I'm gonna propose to them,

I'm gonna propose to them."

And I just have to,
like, not say it.

It's super hard.

♪ So long ♪

That's how to make music!

Yeah!

Right now, I wanna bring up

a really, really
special friend of mine.

Her name is
Lindsey Kate Cristofani.

She's gonna come up and help me
sing a song that she wrote.

I was really surprised that
Jacob called me up onstage.

I had a recording deal that fell
through last spring.

It's been so long
since I've performed in general.

Are you ready?

You don't look ready.
Are you ready?

Ladies and gentlemen,
give it up.

I'd like to dedicate this song
to my husband

and our girlfriend...

And all the potential lovers
in this room right now.

♪ Let me get under you skin ♪

♪ is this your life
or your eye ♪

♪ let me get under your skin ♪

Seeing Lindsey onstage
is truly inspiring.

She so sexy,
and she's so weird.

Here I am in a moment with
people who make my life better.

I was so thoroughly
enjoying myself

and the dynamic
between Jacob and I.

♪ So, oh ♪

Lindsey Kate Cristofani!

After the performance,
Jacob and I went to the bar

and got a drink together
and started catching up.

I wanna know
what's going on with you.

Are you still celibate?

The last time we talked,
you were celibate.

The last time we talked, I was
celibate because I was waiting

for my girlfriend to get back
from Thailand.

And she came back,
and then the day she got back,

I was no longer celibate.

But monogamous, I'm that.

How-- How's that going?

Um, I love it.

I mean, I love this girl.

He does, indeed,
have a girlfriend.

Of course there's a small part
of me that's disappointed,

but the overwhelming feeling
that I have is being

totally happy for him
that he's in love.

I miss you.

- Let's be in touch more.
- Yeah.

- Hey.
- What's up?

I just talked to Jacob.

And are you gonna
get back together?

No.

We are not going
to be lovers again

because he is in a closed,

monogamous relationship
right now.

I'm thrilled by this
'cause it also means

more attention for me.

So you bummed?

No, not really.

Jacob and I can go in and out
of being lovers.

We could be just friends,
platonic friends for a while,

and it's not a big deal.

I want to just kick back,
have a few drinks,

enjoy our friends,

and maybe meet some new people.

Who knows?

Belina, are you
the sharing type?

- Yeah.
- You are the sharing type.

- I am.
- All right.

Awesome.
I'm a share bear too.

I feel like it's a waste for
Lindsey and Wayne not to talk.

I'm not possessive.

I think one of the most
liberating things

about being poly--

It's not necessarily about sex
and relationships.

I mean, maybe we could go over
and dance while they talk?

Sure, let's go have
a conversation.

We can go out and flirt
with whoever we want

whenever we want.

There's nothing like the energy
of flirting.

Everybody loves it.

- Hello.
- Hi.

So what's up?

♪ Seen enough ♪

♪ seen enough to know that ♪

♪ it's you I need ♪

Long drive, you know,
L.A. traffic sucks.

Anthony introduced Wayne and I.

I liked him, but I didn't want
to do anything more.

There's no spark.

There's no desire to--
to go further.

Is there anyone
you're taking home?

I enjoy flirting with them,
but what I'm realizing is

I don't want a boyfriend
right now.

I'm not interested in that.

I want to reconnect with you,

I want to reconnect and build
the strength of our triad,

and I want to incorporate
our best friends into it.

I can't wait till we get,
like, a big house,

and everybody lives in it.

I know that Anthony and Lindsey
are committed to me for life.

I feel totally certain.

And I can't wait to propose
on our anniversary.

I trust us totally.

- I love you guys.
- Mmm.

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