All language subtitles for Vengeance (2022) [BluRay 01h47m39s]

Hey, one, two, three

Now, red Solo cup
Is the best receptacle

For barbecues, tailgates,
Fairs and festivals

And you, sir, do not have
A pair of testicles

If you prefer drinking
From glass, whoo

Red Solo cup

I fill you up

Let's have a party

Let's have a party

I love you, red Solo cup

I lift you up

Proceed to party,
proceed to party

Now, I really love
How you're easy to stack

But I really hate
How you're easy to crack

'Cause when beer runs down
the front of my back

Well, that, my friends
Is quite yucky

But I have to admit
That the ladies get smitten

Admiring how sharply

My first name is written

On you with a Sharpie
when I get to hitting

On them to help me get lucky

Red Solo cup

I fill you up

Let's have a party

Proceed to party

Solo cup

Solo cup

Solo cup

Solo cup
ooh, doodle, da, doo

Solo cup

Solo cup
De, dum, dum

Solo cup
Ooh, de, da, bah

The potential
in this room is astounding.

I love the potential.
Hundred percent.

It's a world of
infinite possibilities.

Infinite.
Hundred percent.

How many "Y"s do I put in
"Hey" at this time of night?

Is it before 2:00 a.m.?
Yeah.

Two "Y"s.
Okay.

Three is thirsty.
Thirsty.

And one is curt.

You
know what I was thinking about?

Cookie dough
became so popular.

It's 'cause it's not finished.
It could still be anything.

Hundred percent.

Making cookies out of cookie
dough is just a suggestion.

Hundred percent.
That's what they say

you could do with it.
Right.

And the same thing, like dating
someone for more than a month.

It's just
a serving suggestion.

Hundred percent.

"Kara question mark."
That means I don't remember

where I met her.
Okay.

But it's a question mark
with an exclamation point,

which means I should want to
follow up.

Let's see what the options
are first though.

Yes. Exactly that. That's
the world that we're living in.

You can just see what
the options are for anything.

Like with travel.

You're not gonna just pick
the first flight you see.

You want to see
all the flights.

That's a good thing.
Yeah.

You get the best flight
that way.

Why wouldn't
you get the best person

by looking at all
the potential people?

And how could you even
expect to find one person

who could fulfill
all of your needs?

It's easier just to find the
most supportive person here.

The funniest person here.
Right.

The best sex here.
Right.

The best advice here.

The second-best sex here.

Hundred percent.

I don't ever
want to go past

knowing what
someone's parents do for a living.

If I know what someone's
parents do for a living...

Right. Right.
I've hung too long.

Or, like, siblings.

Like, why does anyone want to
know about your siblings?

Yeah. Especially so early.
"How many siblings..."

Has that ever changed whether
you want to date somebody?

It's like, "I have two sisters
and a brother."

Hold on.
Well, I'm out of here.

I'm out of here.
You know what I say?

I only date only children
or the oldest of three.

They say, "Exercise your
options." It's like a muscle.

Options are like a muscle.
Yeah.

Some people are weak and
atrophied, and they don't understand

how to exercise their options.
Yeah.

My options are
burly and strong and turgid.

Hundred percent.

People say guys like us
are afraid of commitment.

No. We're afraid of commitment

to something
we can't get out of.

There's no such thing
as fear of commitment.

Fear of commitment
is fear of regret.

Hundred percent.
Or fear of intimacy.

Please, I'm intimate
with everybody.

Do you ever wonder,

if you did find something
deeper with somebody,

if that would somehow
be more meaningful?

I do, sometimes.

Like right now, I'm casually dating,
like, six or seven different women.

But I do wonder, deep down,
what it would be like

to seriously
date two or three.

Even when
I don't understand you,

I understand you better
than I understand anybody.

- Hundred percent.
- I love when we hang out.

This is like, if someone
were recording this,

that's what my podcast
should be.

There should be, like,
the sound of a stand-up bass

playing under me right now.

Okay, I got one.

"Brunette Random House Party."

"Random House," the publisher?

Or "random house,"
like a random house party?

"Emily Vogue."

I'm gonna go
with "Kara question mark"

'cause I feel like letting the
universe surprise me tonight.

What a time to be alive.
Hundred percent.

Hundred percent. Hundred
percent. Hundred percent.

Hundred percent.
Hundred percent.

- I figured it out.
- Figured what out?

America.

Okay.
I know you're laughing,

but I have a pitch
you're really gonna like.

America is divided,

but it's not for the reason
that we think.

We think that America's
divided by geography,

red state, blue state,
city, country.

We're missing something
far more profound.

America isn't
divided by space.

America is divided by time.

We don't live in the moment
anymore. And why would we,

when we can live in any moment
that's ever been recorded?

And when we experience
something we really love,

our overwhelming instinct is
to somehow file it away for later.

That's interesting.

We don't watch movies
in the theater.

We don't watch TV
when it airs.

We don't even have
conversations at the same time

because we text.

And when you text,
I can say, "Hi,"

and you can say
"Hi" back in a second,

or a minute.
Or never.

Or never 'cause it's you

and you're too busy producing
the biggest podcast in America,

which is kind of my point
because we're all living

in our own
individualized times.

That's why we're living
in divided times.

That's... I like that.

You like that?
Ooh! Yeah.

So, what do you think?
Do you think that's a story?

It's a theory.

A theory is a story.
No, a theory is not a story.

Yes, it is when it's about an
idea. And America is an idea.

That's what
makes it so great.

So, if you're...
No, America is its people.

That's what makes it
so fucked up.

Hey. Not every white guy in
New York needs to have a podcast.

You have
the verified check mark.

You got the New Yorker
position. I want something more.

I don't just want to be a
writer. I want to be a voice.

As dorky as it sounds,
I care about America.

And not in that faded
Lana Del Rey way.

And now
I see it falling apart,

and we're just standing in the
corner, like, making fun of it, you know?

I'd like to try to tell
some story that connects.

Okay, okay. Well, then,
let me help you connect.

With all your ideas about
America, even if they're good, right,

you gotta put 'em in a story
'cause Americans listen to stories.

'Cause Americans are people.
They're not ideas.

You're here.
Yeah.

You need to be here.

Does that make sense?

Hundred percent.

I'm Robin Dillon,
and this is American Moment.

To the organizers of the
Western Montana fly-fishing...

Hi.
Hey.

You changed your hair.

Yeah, you noticed.
Of course.

How's the book world?

The what?

Nothing.
Can I get you a drink?

Yes.
Great.

Um, what can I make you?

Um, can you do,
like, a white wine?

Um, sure. I have to open
a bottle for that.

That's okay. Open it.
I only want, like, one glass.

- Hello?
- Ben?

Yeah. Hello?

This is the worst phone call
you're ever gonna get in your life.

My God.

Your girlfriend's dead.

I'm sorry. What did you say?

She's dead.

No, no, the first part.

Your girlfriend.

Yeah, I'm sorry.
Hey, I don't understand.

I know. I know, I know.

We can't make
no sense of it either.

Who is this?

This is Ty Shaw.
Abby's brother.

Um, hey, I don't really
know what to say.

I know this must be so
hard to process. I'm so sorry.

Abby told us
so much about you.

Abby.

My God.

Abby.

Who's Abby?

Some girl.

Who's that?
Some...

We definitely hung out
a few times.

I wouldn't have...

Funeral's Sunday.

My God. I'm...

Can you tell me
where I can send flowers?

There's no need
to send flowers, Ben.

No, no, no, no, no. I'm
absolutely gonna send flowers.

Just, you tell me the address.
See if you can text it to me.

If you really want, there's
a flower shop by the airport.

We'll just swing by there
when I pick you up.

When you pick me up?

Hey.
I will be there in spirit.

Spirit Airlines. Right, man.
That's a great choice.

You just let me know
what flight.

Hey... I...

This is just...

I can't do this.

None of us can do this.

Not alone.

Y'all had your whole
future ahead of you.

Okay.

Okay, don't cry.

I mean, no, cry. Cry.

Of course.
God.

Be in touch
with your emotions.

I can't believe
we have to go through this.

Okay. All right. Hey.

Remind me where
you guys are exactly.

Well, you've been
to Texas before?

Texas.

Okay, are you near Austin?

No, we're not near Austin.

Dallas?
Dallas ain't Texas.

Houston?
Houston's another country.

Why don't you
just tell me where...

Have you heard of
Abilene? The city.

Never heard of Abilene, no.

Well, Abilene is about
three hours from Dallas.

Okay.

And we're five hours
from Abilene.

Ladies and gentlemen...

Hey. Hi.

And while she could be quite
a handful when she was a girl...

I can't believe I'm talking about
my daughter in the past tense.

She was living in New York.

She was finding
her voice in music.

And she finally found love.

Ben Manalowitz.

A successful writer and a regular
contributor to New York Magazine.

The New Yorker.

But even with
all his success,

he always respected our girl
for who she was.

"Mama," she said, "you know
how he has me saved in his phone?

Texas."

Well, as short
as her life was,

she found her voice,

and she found love.

And that's
all there is, right?

Let's hear from Ben.

- Go ahead.
- Go on, Ben.

No, I couldn't.

- Thank you.
- You got it.

- Brother, come up.
- Please say something.

Get up there.

Father. Sir.

I never expected to be
in a situation like this.

I'm sure none of us did.

I wish I had known her better.

I wish I had spent
more time with her.

I'm sure
all of us feel that...

right now.

Yes.

She loved music.

I know that. I know that.

She loved music.

Yeah.

And...

she will always be a song
in our hearts.

"Song in our hearts."

You damn near broke me
with that one.

Now, I don't know
about you, but...

I know it hasn't been long,
but I feel like me and you,

we got a real bond.

Kind of like family.

Hundred percent.

Wow.

A hundred percent?

Yeah.

Yeah. I felt really close
to you guys today.

Don't just say that to say it.

Yeah.
I knew it.

Abilene just didn't die.
She was murdered.

And the two of us
are gonna avenge her death.

What?

You and me, we're gonna
track her killer down

and deliver vengeance.

Okay, nobody said anything
about a killer.

An overdose?

At a party in an oil field?

Yeah. The girl never took
so much as an Advil in her life.

You know that. You know her
better than anybody.

Did you call the police
about this?

In Texas, we don't dial 911.

Not even for, like, a fire?

Fire or ambulance, fine.

Who do you think did it?

I got a couple theories.

Cartels. Mexican gangbanger
I got my eyes on.

I mean, this is just
the beginning. It goes deep.

And what's this based on?

Gut.

Right.
What's behind that though?

Ain't nothing behind gut.

Gut's behind everything else.
Otherwise, who are you?

I really think this is
something for the police.

Yeah.
You talk about the police

like it's just
the same everywhere.

Like the police is McDonald's

and justice
is an Egg McMuffin.

We don't have the police.
We got Mike and Dan.

You and me, we were
the men in her life.

And they fucked
with the wrong two guys.

Okay. Um...

So, as, like, a personal
boundary everybody's different.

Some people
don't eat certain foods.

You know, everybody...

I don't avenge deaths.

It's just who I am.

I... You know, I don't live
in a Liam Neeson movie.

But you kind of look
like a guy

from a Liam Neeson
movie though.

Okay. Which one
am I thinking about?

It was a train. No, it was...

It was just on TV.
I don't know.

Schindler's List. My God.

You look like a lot
of those guys in that movie.

Yeah. Thanks.

You know, that was my least
favorite Liam Neeson movie.

Huge downer.

It was a really sad movie.

Ty, I know that
you're in a lot of pain.

Yes, sir. We both are.
And you have a lot of anger.

Goddamn it,
I'm asking you for your help.

If we don't do this,
it's like leaving her body

out in the middle of that
desert for the rest of our lives.

I knew it
the minute I saw you.

'Cause heart sees heart.

Stay down here and avenge
Abby's death with me.

What a story that would be.

- Is this a pocket dial?
- I have a story.

Can it wait?
No.

I'm in Texas. I'm on my
way back from a funeral.

My God. I'm so sorry.

It's okay. It's not
someone I was close to.

But you flew to Texas for it?

Yes. It was a girl
I hooked up with a few times.

You flew to Texas

to attend the funeral
of a random hookup?

Her family thought that

we were more serious
than I did.

Do you know what?
This is a story.

Yeah?
Yeah.

It's you.
Your whole way of life.

It's dating,
it's hookup culture.

How it enables
disconnectedness.

The selfishness.
No.

The emptiness.
No.

The hollowness.
That's not what I meant.

The lack of self-awareness.

Okay, that's not
what I'm pitching.

It's really
how sad your life is.

Okay,
now you're fucking with me.

Listen, I'm in West Texas

where this family just lost their
daughter to an opioid overdose.

That is sad but common.

Except, her brother
won't accept it's an overdose.

He says it was a murder.

Based on what?

Nothing.

And that's the story.

This is an existential
crime story.

This is In Cold Blood,
but there are no killers.

This is about a new American
reality that people can't accept.

So instead, they invent
these myths and conspiracies

so they can cast themselves
as heroes because

the truth
is too hard to accept.

The death of Abilene is about
the death of American identity

and the need to find someone
to blame for it.

This isn't just a story
about vengeance.

It's a story about the
need for vengeance.

The meaning of vengeance.

Dead white girl?

Holy grail of podcasts.

Eloise, I wish my recorder
were already on.

He's saying
such crazy things already.

Her brother?

He is such a character.

And you can get close
to the family?

Can I get close to the family?

They think
I was her boyfriend.

I mean...

I went to her funeral,
for God's sake.

That's good.

I mean, it's fucked up,

but it's good for this.

So?

Okay, let's give it a shot.

Okay, talk to me.
Give me everything.

Stay with the family,

get as close as possible,
record everything.

'Cause you never know
what will be important.

I'll be your editor,
so I'll pull selects

and see what's there.
Okay.

I'll have Tracy overnight you
the equipment,

but just use your phone
in the meantime

and get the story,
stay safe.

You got it.

Not in that order.
In that order.

The dust in West Texas
settles like rain on a lake.

I'm under a West Texas sky,
bright blue Texan sky,

where I've just learned about
the death of Abilene Shaw.

My...

A person

who lived here.

Hell yeah, brother.

All right.

I'm gonna stay with you guys
for a couple of weeks.

I'm gonna record everything

that you think
happened to Abilene.

Okay?
Hell, yes. Then we kill him.

No.

I'm gonna
put it on a podcast...

and it will be
on podcast platforms.

That's fucking brilliant.

Yeah.
You're fucking smart.

All right. Once people
on Reddit find out...

They'll kill him for us.

All right.

Hey, Mama.
Guess who came back after all.

Ben.

Hi.
My God. You came back.

Thank you.

I hope
I'm not imposing.

Please.

We have this empty seat
at the table.

We can use all the
distraction we can get.

Can I get you anything?

Um...

Just, what's the Wi-Fi
situation?

It's a little
temperamental, it'll kick in.

Did you have a chance
to meet everybody before?

No. I would love to.

This is Abilene's
sister, Paris. Hi.

She's 24, fixin' to be 25. Yep.

She's gonna be
a famous filmmaker.

It is a pleasure
to meet you, Paris.

Pleasure. I've heard
so much about you.

I've heard... Yeah.

And this is Kansas City.

She's 17, fixin' to be 18.

And she's gonna be a famous...

Just famous.

KC, I told you.

Those are not our values.

You have to be
a famous something.

A famous...

celebrity.

These are
really your daughters?

I mean,
you all could be sisters.

You think that I look...

You are so sweet.
this fucking old?

And this is El Stupido.

Sorry?
This is El Stupido.

That's what you call him?

It's okay, Ben.
He don't speak Spanish.

And, how old are you?

Nine.

Fixin' to be ten?

Yes, sir.

Boys, come on.

Ben, come take a seat.
Thank you.

You have a lovely home,
by the way.

- Thank you.
- It's really nice.

This is Granny Carole.
Yeah.

Granny for short.

Nice to meet you, Granny.
Yeah.

So, Ben,
tell us about yourself.

Do you come
from a close family?

Yes. We're very close.

We don't see each other much,
but we're very close.

You from Texas?

No, I'm not.

I'm sorry.

That you're not from Texas.

Have you been to Texas
before, Ben? Yes, actually.

I've been to Austin,
for South By.

For what?

South by Southwest
is an annual...

No, for what band?

You don't just go to South By.

You go see a band,
don't you?

Well, true.

I was part of a journalism panel
about the future of new media.

Amazing.
That's so cool.

Thank you.
You're welcome.

Um, speaking of. Would you
mind if I recorded this dinner?

Record us now?

- Yeah.
- Hell yeah.

Would we mind?

I love being recorded.
My God.

Great. Fantastic.

Hey, smile. Okay?
Great.

Well, would you
want to hear the story of Texas?

Absolutely.
Go, Granny.

All right. Right here.

My goodness.
Okay.

1836.

Texas is part of Mexico,

made up of settlers and
English-speaking white folk.

And, they didn't like the
government. What else is new?

Them Texans wanted to do things
their own way. What else is new?

So, you take everybody's
two favorite things,

government and Mexicans.

And guess what happens.

Go on.

Guess.
You should... In your words.

All right. All right.

Well, Generalissimo Santa Anna

brung up 7,000
Mexican soldiers

to fight against 186 Texan
rebels at a place called the Alamo.

And the Texans won.

That's very inspiring.

Say what?

The Texans didn't win, Ben.

They teach math where
you from? 186.7,000.

Um...

Seven thousand is more, Ben.

It was a massacre.

It was
unspeakable cruelty.

Unspeakable cruelty.

I'm sorry. I had no idea
you didn't win the Alamo.

Um...

I feel like you
guys talk about it a lot.

Who's "Equinox Girl Cute"?

Um... A friend.

Who's "Paris Review
Party Asian"?

Excuse me.
Very good reading.

Let me... The Wi-Fi
must have just kicked on.

Who's "Natalie Bumble"?

- Who's "Katie Raya"?
- Let me just...

- Let me put that on...
- Raya?

Let me put
that on airplane mode.

I thought Raya
was supposed to be exclusive.

So what do you think
of this place, Ben?

I love it.

Are you joking?
Are you serious? You love it?

You're from New York City.

- Literally nothing happens here.
- Yeah.

Well, I mean,
it is a little...

You know.

- Bleak.
- Come on, that's not fair.

We just got a Target.
Excuse me? How dare you?

Do you know how fucking good
our football team is?

This is our town. Okay,
look, I don't know where to...

Where to land here.

Ben, there's probably
something you should know

about this place.
Yeah.

This is the most, wretched,

godforsaken stretch of land
on the face of the Earth.

And I'd never leave.
You know what I mean?

Yeah. That's how
I feel about Twitter.

See, Ben's a journalist.

One of the finest there is.

He writes for
the New York Magazine.

New Yorker. Yep.

And he's gonna
help us find out

what really
happened to Abilene.

I was saying we go out
and settle it with a .45,

but Ben gives a whole new
perspective to the situation.

Ty, you can't solve something
like this with a .45.

It's not as simple
as one person.

It's a whole system, Son.

Tell us what you mean, Granny.

It's the breakdown of society,
is what it is.

It's the breakdown of the
school system, the government.

It's the pharmaceutical
companies.

It's the breakdown
of the family...

and tradition.

There's a whole
lot of people responsible

- for what happened to Abilene.
- That's true.

- Yes, ma'am.
- Amen.

I think that's very wise.

You're gonna need a 12-gauge,
couple of ARs.

No.
A Wesson automatic.

No, no, no.
And a sidearm for safety.

Yep. Exactly.
We're not doing that.

We're not? Yeah.

I didn't think
you had the balls.

Are you gonna help us, Ben?

You know...

There's some things
I'm good at.

I'm good at asking
the right questions.

I'm good at getting
people to talk.

And I'm especially good

at drawing
thematic connections

between seemingly
disparate elements

and using that to illustrate
a larger point or theory.

So, whoever or whatever

is responsible
for what happened to Abilene,

I will find this person

or this generalized
societal force,

and I will define it.

I'll define it.

Bless your heart.

I guess we have
a guest room now.

Ty.

Well, rest up good. We'll meet in
the morning and start to solve this.

Yeah.

See you in the morning.

Good night, Ty.
Good night.

Good morning.

Yeah, that's it. What else...

- Can I say it proves a lot?
- Yeah.

I'm gonna take
a short break here,

and during this break, I hope
you'll call and support this station

during this long, important
membership drive.

We have some great free gifts
to offer you,

and I'm not just talking
coffee mugs.

Well, Ben, there's really
two versions of life out here.

Boom times,
everybody's rich and busy.

It's like one big party
out here.

And then the bust comes.

It's really like two different
places out here.

It's always boom or bust.

Which is it right now?

Kinda in between.
Yeah.

Kinda in between, to
tell you the truth. Okay.

You son of a...

- Get off.
- Crawl. There's our worm.

You like
being on top.

Get off. Yeah.

This the guy?

Yep.

Let me save you some time.
Sancholo.

Sancholo. Sancholo.

What's Sancholo?

The guy who killed Abilene.

A Mexican drug dealer.
Evil motherfucker.

You name it, he's got it.

Not crazy
about his prices though.

So, you know who
killed Abilene? Yes, sir.

Did you call
the police about it?

Mike and Dan?

Those lazy fucktards.

Everything's an accident.

Gun accident.
Driving accident.

I've known Abilene since we
were knee-high to a grasshopper.

She never touched
so much as an Advil,

and then, out of the blue,

they find this angel,
this angel,

dead of an oxy OD
at a party he threw!

You're getting me
warmed up.

He's been obsessed with her
since middle school.

Yep. He'd call
the house every night.

They used to be
on the phone for hours.

He's just
a piece of it anyway.

It's too big to understand.

You got deep state in bed
with pill pushers, cartels, pedos.

The law.
How...

Hey.

And you're a piece of it, too.

So, um, I'd love to talk to some
of the characters you mentioned.

Mike and Dan? Sancholo?

- He's gotta be at the rodeo in Holliston.
- No doubt.

There and the honky-tonk,
too, afterwards.

That's where a drug dealer
can do their best business.

'Cause everybody
goes to the rodeo.

White, Mexicans.

You really
want to avenge her with him?

I'm like a brother to you.

Well, he's like
a brother-in-law.

Come on.

Ben, you ever been in a fight?

You mean like a physical fight
or like an online skirmish?

I got him.

Crawl wouldn't hurt a fly,
would you, Crawl?

I never understood
that expression about flies.

Yeah, I'd kill a fly,

but what kind of sick fuck
would hurt a fly?

Make it feel pain?

You don't have any idea
where you are, do you?

Want me to show you a map?

Welcome to Texas.

You are here.

Morning, KC.

Hey.

Would you
like some coffee?

Sure.
How do you take it?

In the mouth?

All right, tell me something that
you love about where you live.

Whataburger!

- Yeah.
- Okay, great.

Um, tell me about it.

You want to go right now?
Yeah, let's go.

I'm ready.

You want...
Just, no, tell me about it.

You're gonna love
Whataburger, Ben.

It's the best.
What makes it the best?

Wherever you are,
there's a Whataburger.

Yeah. It's always right there.

Okay. And then
when you get there,

what do you like about it?
What do you get?

Whatever you want.
It's always right there.

You could order
whatever you want, Ben.

Right, but there are a lot
of places like that.

So, let's say, there is a McDonald's,

a Burger King, a Sonic
and a Whataburger

all lined up.
Which one do you go to?

Whataburger!

Right, right. Why?

Because it's right there!

Yes,
but they're all right there.

In this scenario,
they're all right there.

So, what do you get
out of Whataburger?

What makes it better to you?

What are you getting...
Ben.

Asking why you love
Whataburger

is like asking
why you love Christmas

or a summer night
or why you love your dog.

I mean, you could
point to the reasons,

but the reasons
aren't really the point.

You just love it,
and that's how love works.

I'm on my way to get what
could be some good local color.

It's the place Abilene
recorded some demos.

I'm heading towards the
Quentin Sellers Music Factory.

A place in Marfa,
the arts town, where...

people pursue their dreams
of musical stardom.

His motto is "making dreams
come true since 2018."

Eloise, if you have, um...
If you can play a clip of that,

Rebecca Black song, "Friday,"

that would be really
funny here.

I bet it's cheap to play.

Yeah, yeah

Yeah

Yeah

Okay.

Hi.
Hi.

What is music?

Like, singing and stuff.

Yeah, that's right.

Let's take a step back.

I want to share
an idea with you.

There's no argument
more profound

than how the universe
came into existence.

God. Are we here
because of God or science?

I mean, it is,
by its very nature,

the most fundamental question.

But there's one thing
that everyone agrees on.

And that is whether it was God
declaring "Let there be light,"

or an infinite particle
of energy

bursting forth
in the big bang.

Everyone,

and I mean everyone,

agrees that the universe

started with a sound.

Why do I call myself
a record producer?

I don't know.

Yeah, I mean, we don't even
make records anymore.

What we're recording here
isn't your record.

It's your sound...

on the record that started

with the very first
moment in time.

So when you sing this song,

I want you to think about
how what you're making

is the record of your time
here on this Earth.

It's the sound
that you scratch

with your life

on the record of the universe.

Okay?
Okay.

I finished my shift
at Claire's

Climbed up those
steep mall stairs

And the pain
of having nowhere to go

Pierced the skin of my soul

As I sat on the steps

And waited and waited

For no one to take me home

Yeah.

Thank you.

I call this place the Factory.

You know,
after Andy Warhol's Factory.

Most people around here think it's
a reference to C+C Music Factory.

Which, honestly, I think
Warhol would've loved, but...

Yeah, actually. Yeah.

I'm from out here.

I went to college
in New Haven.

I went to school
in Boston.

Yeah, I thought
about staying there,

but this is the place that
needs something like this.

The problem isn't that people
aren't smart.

The problem is that they are.

If the landscape
is like this,

and people were
just boring,

you wouldn't
have this problem.

The problem is, you get all
these bright, creative lights

and nowhere
to plug in their energy.

And so it gets channeled
into conspiracy theories

and drugs and violence.

Who are your favorite
music artists right now?

Um...

Can I take a guess?
Yeah.

You're a playlist guy.

What does that mean?

When some computer
recommends you a bunch of songs

based on your favorites,
and a bunch more

based on your
favorites of those. Right.

So you're listening
to a bunch of music that,

I mean, you genuinely like...
Yeah.

but you have
no idea who sings it.

Now, these playlists,
it's like the dating app for music.

You're not hearing
other people's voices.

You're just hearing your voice
get played back at you.

How are you supposed
to fall in love?

Art used to be
in charge of us.

You used to buy a whole album

not even knowing
what songs would be on it.

Now we have
everything on demand.

At your fingertips.

In pieces.

You think half the people that are
posting quotes from Oscar Wilde

have ever actually read
one of his plays? No.

Or posting photos
of Audrey Hepburn

have actually seen the film
that it's from?

No.
Not a chance, right?

What is that about?

It's the same in culture
as it is in archaeology.

When a civilization collapses,

only the tiniest
fragments remain.

But we can build it
back again.

How?

Make recordings.

Real people.

Not what people think that they
already know and want to hear.

Real people.

Not some generic stereotype
or generic song.

Real people.

What's this podcast
about, anyway?

Well, um,
it's about America.

Okay.

It's about the myths
that we tell ourselves.

Who is it about?

All of us.

Every story we tell
is ultimately about a person.

Abilene Shaw.

Abilene.

Yeah.

You're making
a podcast about Abilene.

Well, it's a little
about Abilene.

I'm trying to make
it more about... No.

It's about Abilene.
The person.

That's all you need.

What did you think
about her music?

I haven't really heard it.

Shut the front door.

I mean, I haven't...
Whoa, whoa, whoa. Hold on.

Come with me.

Here it is.

Everything we ever recorded.

- Thank you so much.
- You're in for a treat.

Doesn't she have a sister
who wants to be a singer?

Wants to be famous.

Means she knows
she's somebody.

Just doesn't know who yet.

She needs to find her voice.

What about my voice?

I'll put you in the studio.
What do you want to do?

I, you know...

If I came here for advice
about my voice, my...

you know, my writing,
my podcast,

what would you tell me?

I'd probably say
that nobody writes anything.

All we do is translate.

So if you ever get stuck and
you don't know what to say...

just listen.

Even to the silences.

Listen as hard as you can
to the world around you

and repeat back what you hear.

That translation,

that's your voice.

I gotta say, this is not anything
like what I expected to find.

You came here to make fun
of me, didn't you?

No, no. No.
No, I get it's...

It's... I get it.

Record producer
in the middle of nowhere.

You thought
I'd be sillier, smaller.

I get it.

Hey, look.

It's already working.

You listened.

You learned.

Welcome to Texas.

Thank you.

The setting sun sets Texas
afire with a glow.

Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

It's fucking beautiful.

Well, hi.

Thank you.

When I told my mama that
I was gonna move to New York

and try and make it in music,

she looked at me and she
just said, "Bless your heart."

Which is Texas for,
"Fuck you."

Love you, Mama.

True love will find you
in the end

You'll find out
just who is your friend

Don't be sad,
I know you will...

Will you help me unjam my gun?

I don't know how to do that.

They ought to call you
El Stupido.

Can I sleep on your floor?

Yeah.

Of course.

Thank you.

I'm still drivin'

When's this break gon' come?

You back my pickin'

With a big ol' timpani drum...

Vengeance is a unique
phenomenon.

Texas invented vengeance.

It makes no sense if you
think about it.

Every other primal human instinct
leads to a clear evolutionary reward.

But vengeance is different.

It's not about the future.

It's only about the past.

When that massacre
happened, we didn't retreat.

We didn't say, "Let's all make
sure we don't get Mexiphobia."

We said, "Remember the Alamo."

It's not about hope.
It's about regret.

Abby was always
creatively minded.

She would make movies
with her sisters.

Music, of course.

She had such
a beautiful voice.

I really wish more people
could've heard it.

You're a writer.

Anything I'd know?

None of this.

The desperation
that you see around here,

it's not from a lack of
intelligence or creativity.

It's an excess.

We're not really
a gun family.

We have a few rifles
for shooting targets,

a couple handguns
for safety, and...

And that doesn't concern you?
Why would it concern me?

There's this playwright,
Anton Chekhov,

and he says that if there's
a gun in act one of a play...

There's no guns in any one
of his plays I can think of.

Cherry Orchard, no.
Uncle Vanya, no.

I'm not actually that
familiar with his plays.

I'm more familiar
with his theory.

But the stakes of these
feelings aren't hypothetical.

They're all too real.

I'm your host, Ben Manalowitz,

from American Radio
Collective.

This is Dead White Girl.

Hey.

So, this is great.

Really?

Yeah. I'm, like, dorking out
over this family.

Their family's like my family.

Great. Great.

Do you have any notes?

Yeah. I got a couple.

Thought you said you loved it.

You asked if I had notes, and
I got notes okay, first-timer?

Okay. All right, all right,
what do you got?

Okay, you're stepping
on people's lines,

and we need it clean, so...
Yep, yep.

Just like what you're doing
right now. Don't do that.

Right.

Don't talk while
they're talking.

Just listen
or pretend to listen.

Okay. What else?

And you know what would
help some people?

If you do a silent laugh
to egg them on.

You know, like...

Like what? I lost you.

No, I'm doing it.

Right, okay.

Where are you going
to next, the rodeo?

Yep, my first rodeo.

I'm really excited.

Apparently, it's a real
socioeconomic cross section.

Yeah, and horses and bulls
and stuff.

You're doing it?

Yeah, could you tell?

Good luck.

- All right, Ben.
- Thank you.

You're gonna love this place.
Yeah.

A whole lot to see,
lot to take in.

"Fourth Annual Bull Bash
Cowboy Protection."

Cowboy protection for
bullfighting

in Oyster Creek, Texas.
Cool. Excellent.

And, you're a pitmaster.

Yes, sir. And what is the
secret to your success?

Time and more time.

Bingo!
Ten points!

Hell yes!

- Ben, you're gonna love this.
- All right.

Deep-fried Twinkies. Ben,
you gotta try one of these.

Hello, beautiful.
Hi.

Can I get, one, two, three,
four, five

deep-fried Twinkies?

Can we get
one of those grilled?

It's fucking good.

Fucking good.
Yeah.

Just keep
a low profile, Ben.

We'll find our man.
No doubt.

Hundred percent.

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gentlemen, boys and girls,

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and the Quentin Sellers
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making dreams come true
since 2018.

Now, carrying the six
beautiful flags of Texas,

welcome our beautiful riders.

All right, Ben.

The six flags of Texas

are the six countries
that Texas has belonged to.

Can you name all six?
Okay. The United States.

France, Louisiana Purchase,
Spain,

Mexico.

Um, um...

Republic of Texas!
What's that, five?

Not bad, brother.
Not bad.

Nobody ever gets five.

Right.

So Six Flags,
the theme park...

Exactly.

Is a Texas company.
Right.

Very interesting.

And now, ladies
and gentlemen, if you're a real Texan,

you know what to do
when this song plays.

Did you really just try to Shazam
"Deep in the Heart of Texas"?

No.

Now, ladies and gentlemen,
who here is a die-hard fan

of the University of Texas?

Whoo!

And who here is a fan
of Texas Tech?

Okay, let's hear
from both sides.

Can we have the UT fan
come down?

- Good luck, buddy.
- Give them hell, Ben.

Is this for real?
Are you serious...

Do you think we're joking?

And let's get
a Texas Tech fan.

Okay, let's start with
Mr. University of Texas.

Now, what's your name, son?

Ben Manalowitz.

What the whosit?

And what do you do, son?

I'm a writer.

A rider? You don't look like a
rider. What do you ride, son?

Well, there's lots
of kinds of riding.

You can ride horses,
steer, tractors.

No.

I'm not a rider.
I'm a writer.

I'm a writer.

So, like, you know...

when you come across
a book or a magazine...

or even an article
that you read online.

Somebody has to actually think
about what those words...

I know what a writer is,
you condescending asshole.

Well, tell me, Shakespeare,

what do you like so much about
the University of Texas?

Well, I like that
it's a state school.

So, it gives financial
opportunities

to local people
who could use the help.

And I know that it has
a very good film department.

Some of the graduates include,

I believe, Richard Linklater.

Okay.

And what do you like
about Texas Tech?

Quarterback Matt Harris!

Guns up! Repping Tech!

Shake that thang,
make that than

Bend until you think it's
gonna break that thang...

Don't worry about it.

Nobody's thinking about it.
Yeah.

Erase it from your mind.

Enjoy.

When she moves that thang
grooves that thang

Swing to the rhythm
of the groove that thang

Ooh! Shake it, girls!

Nobody else does
what she does to me

Not you, KC.

Shake that thang...

How do they all
know how to do the same...

Collective consciousness.

Every song
is such a sight to see

When she moves that thang,
grooves that thang

Swing to the rhythm
of the groove that thang

Speaks for itself

Nobody else does
what she does to me

When she shakes that thang...

Sancholo.

Whoa, whoa, whoa!

You going over there?
Yeah.

You want my gun?
You brought a gun?

Didn't I?
Phone, keys, wallet, gun.

Yeah.
No. No.

Nobody else does
what she does to me

When she shakes that thang

Swinging like
an old screen door

Lord, she makes
that thang...

Excuse me, are you Sancholo?

I was hoping to talk
to you for a second.

You a cop?

Not a cop.

Cop don't have to say
he's a cop.

Then why did you ask?

Right?
'Cause you're wasting my time.

Figured I might as well
waste yours.

Look, I'm a journalist.

I'm doing a story.

I was really only hoping to
ask you a couple of questions.

I'm just trying to...
Just trying to what?

- Fucking killer!
- Hey, Ty. Relax!

Guys, guys, guys, guys.
Whoa, whoa, who!

Go easy on him.
He just lost his sister.

Most beautiful girl in Texas.

So what I heard was
that you were at the party

where she died.

Lucky me.

She took her last breath
on my shoulder.

My name is Ben Manalowitz.
I'm doing a podcast about Abilene.

I would love to hear
your side of the story.

Hey.

We got a regular
Joe Rogan here.

Joe Rogan meets Seth Rogen.

Just you.

When I was in middle school,

my mom wouldn't let me
read Harry Potter

because of church stuff.

So I would call Abby
every night.

She would read it to me.

I don't know what made her
care about me.

I was like, "Why me? I'm just
an effing dropout drug dealer."

She'd say,
"Heart sees heart."

Right.

She used to text that to me

Every day on that dumb-ass
little Razr phone.

You remember those?
Yeah.

5-4-5.

5-4-5. Heart sees heart.
It was, like, her little code.

I miss her so much.

You told me that her last
breath was on your shoulder.

And other people told me that
you threw the party where she died.

I wasn't even there.

Okay.

Where were you?

Look at the date.

Where is this?

Tulsa.
I went to see Adele.

I was there with my niece.
She loves her.

Adele?

Obviously, I'm gonna have to kill
you if you tell anyone about that.

No, it's...

Yeah.

I'm a fan.

So... you have an alibi,

but you want people to think
you killed her?

These fucking cartels, man.

They're gonna control
everything pretty soon.

You're the cartels.
No, sir.

It kills me to claim her,
but I don't know.

If they don't actually think
I killed someone,

then I might
have to kill someone

To prove myself.

That's not really how it
works, is it? It's what I heard.

Go on Snopes.
It's not a real thing.

Excuse me?

So, let me piece this
together. She OD'd...

The fuck? This is Abby
we're talking about here, okay?

She wouldn't touch the stuff.

Girl wouldn't touch an Advil.

Listen, they found her two
and a half miles from the party,

at a spot where all the deaths
happen called "the Afterparty."

You don't just wander off
like that by yourself.

Someone takes you there.

This was no OD.

No fucking way.

Who goes to these parties?

Everybody.

Everybody goes. Nobody went.
Yeah.

Same people every time?
Yes.

When's the next one?

Whenever I want.

You're at 11 %, bro.

You might want to switch
to low power mode.

Thank you.

Hello?

What if
she was murdered?

What?

We dismissed
the first theory presented

without even
thinking about it.

What if we're not
taking them seriously?

Wait, so are you saying the
Mexican drug dealer did it?

Definitely not that.

But that was
the first theory presented.

I'm just sure it wasn't that.

Why are you so sure?

Gut.

Gut?
Look,

I know we liked
what we had before.

Something about America
and fantasy and regret

and the meaning of vengeance.

No, no.
This... This is better.

This just keeps getting
bigger and bigger.

Right?

Okay.

Stay safe.

Get the story.

Not in that order.

No. In that order.

What are you watching?

Um...

Videos of Abilene.

Do you see my phone?

How it's, like, cracked.

Yeah.

It makes me look
the way that I feel.

Um...

Where do
I know you from?

Rodeo.
It's the Longhorns fan.

Indeed it is, Mike.
Indeed it is.

Actually, that was
a misunderstanding.

I'm sorry. I'm not
even a football fan.

I was just
trying to fit in.

Funny way to fit in
around here.

Point taken.

I didn't know there
was gonna be another team.

I was cheering for Texas.

Um...

I'd love to ask you a couple questions
about the death of Abilene Shaw.

OD'd.
Accident.

I know that was
the official report.

I was wondering, were
you able to talk to anyone

who was there
the night she died?

You ever go to a party
out by the pump jacks?

Everybody goes
and nobody was there.

I wasn't there.
I wasn't there.

Why are you so
interested anyway?

You her boyfriend
or something?

We hung out.

Yeah. Yeah,
I was her boyfriend.

Well, you know, 90% of the
time it's the boyfriend who did it.

Okay, I wasn't really
her boyfriend.

His story's starting to sound
a little inconsistent.

Swiss cheese.

Yeah, I'm not trying
to cause any problems here.

I'm really just trying
to help the family.

You know, this isn't even
our jurisdiction anyways.

Party happened outside city
limits. That's county, not city.

County sheriff.
Sheriff'll talk.

Sheriff's a politician.

Ain't that a fact.

I'd love to help you, son,
but our policy is

we can't comment
on our process or cases.

Well, I was interviewing
people for a podcast

that could be heard
by millions of people.

But I guess
that's not a possibility.

These are oxy sticks.

See how the pills
are squared off?

That way, they can pack 'em
in boxes to the corners

without wasting any space.

That's how big
this business is.

We don't know
who's shipping it.

All we know is they're
coming along the interstate

right along the border.

And that route
cuts right by the oil field

where the party was.

The most common
overdose spot in the county.

We call it "the Afterparty."

Very common thing, sad to say.

What's this right here?

Looks like two pairs
of prints.

Cowboy boots.

Calling out an APB to find
two men wearing cowboy boots.

- Okay.
- What the fuck?

Stand down.

Son, I wish you well,
I really do.

And bless your little heart, but this
ain't even our jurisdiction, though.

It's not?
No, sir.

This was along the highway.

You want to talk
to highway patrol.

Well, ain't that just like
a sheriff to puff his hot air

and blow you straight
into my office.

If there's a drug overdose at a
party in some fucking field off 29,

I'm sorry,
but we got shit to do.

We're not a bunch of Army rejects
just gazing at the Rio Grande.

I never said that you were.
I wasn't talking about us.

Is that what they told you
over at highway patrol?

You can go tell Junior Brown and
the rest of them glorified meter maids

that if they spent more time
with their real guns

and less
with their radar guns,

we might not have to chase
the goddamn Texas syndicate

up and down
the Trans-Pecos! Got it?

Yes. If I find a natural way to work
that into the conversation with them,

I will do that.

- DRT.
- DRT.

DRT.
Dead right there.

Law enforcement
was no help at all.

You're learning a lot
down there, aren't you?

The murder or overdose
happened where a lot

of these things happen.

At the intersection of four
overlapping jurisdictions.

So they all kicked it to each
other. What are the odds?

What are the odds?

Okay, I'm gonna
kick this around

with the team for a little bit,
shake up the Boggle board,

and then I'm gonna hit up
Robin to get her thoughts.

All right. Thanks, Eloise.
Thanks, everybody.

- Bye, Ben.
- Bye, Ben.

Um...

You're probably not even
gonna watch this,

but I'm back home in Texas,
and I'm bored.

This is my little brother,
Mason.

He sleeps on my floor
because he's afraid of ghosts.

And I tried to tell him

there's no such thing
as ghosts, but whatever.

It keeps him close to me.

So I guess it's not
all bad being here.

That's...

Well, that's it.

Mason.

Yes, sir?

Just saying good night.

You woke me up
just to say good night?

Yes, sir.

I love you mucho.

Collective consciousness.

If everyone believes
the same thing...

but without any facts
to support it,

do we listen to that intuition
or dismiss it?

An overdose?

Girl never took so much
as an Advil in her life.

She never touched
so much as an Advil.

You ever go to a party
out by the pump jacks?

- Everybody goes.
- Nobody went.

I wasn't there.

The problem is you
get all these bright, creative lights

and nowhere
to plug in their energy.

And so it gets channeled
into conspiracy theories

and drugs and violence.

I came here to find out
why people in grief

would choose
to believe a myth.

I don't know shit
about how this all connects,

but you bet your ass it does.

MS-13? La Linea?

Yeah, I'm familiar
with La Linea.

They actually murdered
41 journalists last year.

They've done bad things, too.

But now
I find myself wondering

how much truth might be
embedded in that intuition.

You don't happen to know
her phone password, do you?

Took it to every Geek Squad
in the state.

It's impossible to crack.

This ain't us.
You got the wrong department.

Highway patrol.
Mike and Dan.

Border Patrol.
Sheriff's department.

You want county. BEN:
Everything's bigger in Texas,

including your expectations
and its reality.

I'm your host, Ben Manalowitz,

and from American Radio
Collective, this is Abilene.

Hey.
Guess who's on the line.

Hey. It's Robin.

I produce American Moment.

Yeah. I know who you are.

It's great to meet you, Robin.

How are you?
Great to talk to you.

I love what you're doing
with "Dead White Girl".

Thank you. Thank you so much.

Eloise pitched that
we use some of the story

as a segment
on American Moment,

and that would help
promote your series.

Wow. So it'd be
on American Moment?

Everything
you're getting is great.

The characters are amazing.

Yeah. No, I mean, the
characters are unbelievable.

Ty is just
a total firecracker.

And Granny
deserves her own show.

And then Abilene, I mean...

The more people
hear her voice,

the more they're gonna
fall in love with her.

So if you think you can
tighten up what you have,

we can work it into
Sunday's episode.

Yeah. I... Absolutely.
I'd love to.

Wow. Yeah, I can do that.

Can I ask
what you're eating?

This is Frito pie.

It's great sound.

What is that?

Frito pie is when they cut
open a bag of Fritos

and they pour chili in it.

Then you eat it out
of the bag with a fork.

That is disgusting.

Yeah, in a good way.

Ben, are you there?

Ben, did I lose you?

What happened to you, son?

My Prius exploded.

Thank heavens.
Are you all right?

Hey.

Yeah.
Look at that.

Hey.
What happened?

I'm fine.
His car blew up, Mom!

It's so fucked up! This...

Tyler Clayton!
Sorry.

We're just so grateful
you're all right.

My God. What if you were
driving a real car with gas and stuff?

Yeah.

Ben, this is a message
that we're getting close.

Or it's kids fucking around
for no reason with Tannerite.

I can't believe
you're all here.

Well, where else would we be?

Come on. The girls
are waiting in the car.

Let's go.

Hey, are you limping?
No.

You sure about that?

Come on, Mama.
His face looks all right.

He's gonna be all right.
Yeah, I seen worse.

Come on, buddy.

- How is everything?
- So good.

This is
our friend Ben.

And this is his first time
at Whataburger.

Let's have a toast.
Thank you.

To Ben.
Come on, to Ben.

Whataburger, Whataburger.
To a good milkshake.

Over there.

Thanks.

Well, what do you think?

I love this.
You do?

And it's always right there.

Excuse me, Mama.

It's a Texas thing.

You're not supposed to do it,
but you're supposed to do it.

You're supposed to take
your lucky number,

but we figure every number's
lucky to somebody,

so we take all of 'em.

I won't tell Mike and Dan.

Like they'd do anything.

They'd say it was an accident.

Party tonight.

What's the dress code?

Broncos and buckle bunnies.

You know,
they're seriously phoning it in

with the themes nowadays.

You want to come tonight? You
can borrow something from my closet.

You're okay to go?

It doesn't stir up
too many feelings for you?

You gotta keep living life.

Like Catherine the Great said,

you gotta get right back
under the horse.

Tyler Clayton.
What?

I listened to that history
podcast you recommended.

I've got a question for you.

Have you got family in Texas?

No.

You do now.

- Isn't that right, everybody?
- Yes, ma'am.

Careful what
you wish for, Ben.

One second.

Who's got a honey thing
over there?

I got some right here.
Anybody?

- Hey. What's up?
- Hey.

Your car blew up?

Are you okay?

Yeah. Yes.

I mean, I wish I got
that extra rental insurance

that no one ever gets,
but I'm fine.

Good. Well, listen, I finished
it, and everyone loves it.

Thanks. What do you mean
"finished it"?

You're clearly in danger,

and you've already got
everything you need.

Well, I didn't solve
the murder.

It's better this way.

You know, an ambiguous ending
without resolution.

That's... That's the secret
weapon with a story like this.

It gnaws at you.

It haunts you forever.

You never let it go.

No, there's
more to it, Eloise.

I'm getting so close.

As much as
we'd love to see you

blown up for a story...
No, no.

my conscience tells me I have
to choose a person over a story.

No.

No, no.

Otherwise, it would take,
like, two years of therapy

to justify it, and...

I can't afford
that on my plan.

Look, you're gonna
be huge from this.

Okay?

Come home.

You remember?
Hey, you.

Hey. Sorry about that.

Who was that?

Friend.

Was it Equinox Girl Cute?

Or was it Natalie Bumble?

It was my podcast producer.

And everything's on track.

You're very sweet to ask.

I love you mucho.

We're so lucky
you found Abilene.

I really don't know
what she saw in me.

I do.

I get it. I totally get it.

Heart sees heart.

You know, when I came down
here to spend time with Abby's...

"Crazy Texan family," right?
Yeah.

I never thought
it would be like this.

People can surprise you.

Yeah.

Like Abilene.

I mean, she was full
of surprises.

Like Abilene.

Great reputation,
but a huge pill-popper.

What?

What'd you just say?

Put that in your podcast,
maybe.

Where'd you hear that?

The girls told me.

Ty told us
not to say anything.

Are you fucking serious?

I thought you wouldn't
do this with me

if you knew
that she was using.

You think?

Drugs was something Abilene
did. It's not who she was.

But it is how she died,

which is what we were
investigating.

I thought
there was more to this.

I thought that you and I
would get to know each other,

and that would be cool.

I... Maybe it was
part of the grieving process.

Denial?

Isn't that one
of the 12 steps of grief?

It's five stages of grief,
12 steps to recovery,

but I understand that everyone
here is more familiar with the latter.

It's complicated.

It's not.
It's actually very simple.

Everything here is
actually really simple,

and maybe that's why it took
me so long to understand it.

Well, I was following my heart,
and that's what we do around here.

You follow your heart.

Yeah.

Well, maybe it's time
to look around

and ask yourselves how
that's working out for you.

Maybe you should try following
your brain for a change.

Because when you
follow your heart,

the Earth is flat,
climate change is a hoax,

vaccines contain microchips,

and Mexican drug dealers
killed your sister.

You invent these insane
fucking narratives

to explain why your lives
are such shit shows

because the truth
is too scary for you to face,

which is that you did it
to yourselves.

Do you know what people say
about you guys where I'm from?

Let me guess. Bad things.
No. Worse.

We say good things.

"We took them seriously when
we should've taken them literally."

You're neither.

You're not serious people.

And maybe it's time
for you all

to take us seriously
and literally

because where I'm from
is fun and interesting.

And the people
are rich and diverse,

and, meanwhile,
your town looks like this!

Bless your heart.

And I know
what that means.

So you know what?
Bless your heart.

Bless your heart.
Bless all your hearts.

All your hearts
can go bless themselves.

Who are you to talk to us?

I had to drag you
to her fucking funeral!

Who are you?

If your car
would've blown up in Brooklyn,

would anyone, anyone,
come to help you?

First of all, I wouldn't have
needed a car in Brooklyn.

Second, if I had one, I doubt
it would've been blown up

by God knows who.

I don't understand you people.

"You people" is
a microaggression.

My apologies. Y'all.

"Y'all" is a cultural
appropriation.

Paris...

you accusing someone
of cultural appropriation

is cultural appropriation.

Why wouldn't you
look after her?

Check in on her?

You wouldn't do anything
for her, would you?

That's right. I wouldn't.

I was hooking up
with different people,

and I assumed she was, too,

because I live
in the real world,

and that's what
everybody does.

I tried to tell you this
when you called.

She wasn't my girlfriend.

She was just
a girl in my phone.

Now you've been in a fight.

I don't know
the whole story...

but life is complicated.

Even around here,
if you can believe that.

I'll tell you what I think.

I think people don't do drugs
for no reason.

They do drugs
because they're in pain.

Pain like...

Like maybe caring for someone
who hardly knows your name.

So, I don't know, Ben.

But if you're still looking for
someone to blame for what happened,

you may not have needed
to come all this way.

Bless your heart.

You were right, Eloise.
I was the story.

A self-absorbed know-it-all

thinks he's gonna figure out
the meaning of America,

and all he learns
is how empty he is.

I was the one living a myth.

They say you regret
the things you don't do.

I didn't love.

I have no story.

I guess that's the story.

I am the story,
and the story sucks.

The story is nothing.

I'm coming home.

I'm scared.

What are you scared of?

Ghosts.

Ghosts aren't real.

If they're not real, how come
everyone knows what they are?

They're real as an idea,
but they're not "real" real.

That's what's scary about
ghosts, that they aren't real.

If ghosts were real, they
wouldn't be scary at all, right?

We would just smile
and say, "Hi, ghosts."

Hi, ghosts.

Hi, ghost.

Wouldn't that be cool?

If when someone wasn't there anymore,
there was still a little piece of them

that could surprise
you sometimes?

Yeah.

But there's not,
there's nothing.

And that's what's scary
about ghosts.

That the little piece
of someone

that feels like
it might still be there

isn't there at all.

Do you feel better?

No.

Me neither.

Thanks for listening.

I'm leaving tomorrow, Mason.

I love you mucho.

One-four-three-five.
What?

One-four-three-five.

It's what Abby
used to say to me.

She used to say,
"I love you mucho,"

but then she shortened it.

So it was kind of
like a secret code

'cause that's the number of
letters in "I love you mucho."

One-four-three-five.

Hello?

This is beautiful.

What is?

What you just recorded.
Your concluding piece.

It's what we talked about
from the beginning.

It's disconnection, myth...

Stories are always
personal, but...

this is you.

You know, it's so you.

It's kind of... everyone.

You didn't lock that yet,
did you?

No, not till the morning.

It's on the server
if you want to check it out.

Great, great.
Just don't touch it tonight.

There's... It's not 100%.

There's a tiny piece
I'm gonna add.

No, don't touch it.
It's great.

You're only gonna fuck it up.
Don't.

Where are you right now?

I'm in an Uber.

Well, anyway, good job.

People are gonna love this.

I didn't know
you had it in you.

Or maybe I did.

Heart sees heart, right?

Okay, all right.

All right, just wait till the
morning, okay? Okay, bye.

I won't be your chosen one

I'll just be your fire

I won't be your favored son

I'll just be what you desire

I won't be your superman

But I'll be your fear

I won't be your promised land

I'll just be
the voice you hear

Shot, better run and hide

Shot, got an evil eye...

Don't go anywhere.
Yes, sir.

'Cause, shot,
got an evil eye, yeah

Look at him!

Fuck yeah.
Texas Tech fireworks, bitch.

Red and black, baby.

Are you shitting me?

I told you black fireworks
ain't gonna show, you jackass.

I can see 'em.

Hey. It's the Longhorns fan.

How's your car, man?

You like what we did to it?

That was about football?

Jesus Christ.

What the fuck
are you doing here?

I got an invite.

You're wearing my shit.
Yeah.

What the fuck?

Okay, well,
it's his hat, so...

You better be careful.
That's a loaded gun.

You keep your gun loaded?

You keep your phone charged?

How'd you even get here?
Mason drove me.

Who in the fuck is Mason?
Mason's your fucking brother.

I'd watch your back.

You don't have friends here.

Look who it is.

Look who it is.

- My friend.
- Look at you, bud.

How you doing?
How's that podcast coming?

I sent it in last night.

You're still here?
Still here.

Texas has a pull, doesn't it?

Kinda gets under your skin.

Hundred percent.

Why don't you
turn that thing on?

Got a story for you.

Fellas.

First drug law in the United
States passed in 1875.

The Chinese rail workers
brought in the opium den.

And this country
was so anti-immigrant

that they banned
the opium den.

Not the opium.

Right?

You ever hear anything
more American than that?

I mean, now we got an opium epidemic
breaking out across the heartland

with all the ceremony,
majesty,

glamour and fun is removed.

And that's what
people yearn for.

You see what I'm saying?

Do you think Gary Webb
would've won a Pulitzer today?

You know, I think you were
smart for staying here.

Yeah?
Yeah.

That story about Abilene,
it's nice.

I think you were meant
to tell a bigger story.

Ask yourself,
what part of the country today

is it in certain
people's interest

to keep devastated, demoralized,
dependent, and divided?

You got the opioid crisis,

nation in divide,
civic unrest.

Why are all these things
happening at the same time?

What do you really think
is going on here?

Told you
I had a story for you.

So what are you saying?
That it all connects?

That the conspiracy
theories are true?

What I'm saying is

people can sense the truth,

but they're grasping
for the facts.

See, a myth is just a truth
without facts.

That's why it comes out
all abstract, gnarled,

wrong.

Easy to dismiss and ridicule.
Nobody listens to them

because they don't
have the facts.

But I do.

And you, Ben...
Yeah.

The whole damn world
will listen to you.

Where are they going?

Afterparty.

The Afterparty.
Tell me about that.

I mean, people overdose
a hundred times a day, Ben.

That's a fact.

But they can't do it
in a place where it's gonna be

a problem for people
like you and I.

That's what happened
to Abilene.

Abilene?

I mean, she died
at a party like this.

I thought you finished
that story.

This is just for us.

Well, it's not
a very good story anyway.

She was a drug addict.
She OD'd.

Then she tried to call 911.

No. In Texas,
we don't call 911.

Yeah, I've heard that.

They record all those calls.

We gotta be very careful
about what gets recorded.

Yeah. You do.

It's all that's left of us.

The recordings.

And people like you and I,
Abilene,

everybody posting photos
of every part of their day,

we trade in our entire lives

for the tiny pieces
that get recorded of us.

Abilene tried to call 911.

You didn't let her. Then what?

Boy.

Don't get distracted.

You gotta admit, that's
a hell of a distraction.

That is... That's kind of like
the very definition of distraction.

- Abilene.
- Abilene.

Abilene.
Abilene.

What happened to Abilene?

Do you believe in ghosts, Ben?

I got a call
from a ghost earlier.

Kind of thought
I'd be seeing you today.

What happened to her?

Why do you care so much?

Why do you care so little?

She overdosed.

Instead of helping her, you
dragged her to the Afterparty,

which is a spot
with no cell reception

at the exact intersection of
four overlapping law jurisdictions

where you knew her death would
just become an anonymous statistic.

It's well said.

Very succinct.

Yes. That's exactly
what happened.

Brilliant.

You got it. You got it all.

That's a story about America.

Let me know if you need me
to rerecord anything.

Or, like, rephrase things.
I can do that, too.

What?

Come... You and I are
gonna be sitting on a panel

talking about this.
I want it to be great.

We both know
how this works. Right?

Yeah, I mean, at first,

everyone's gonna think
you got your bad guy.

Nobody's gonna
let it be that simple.

Everyone's gonna have
to have their take

'cause that's how
it works now.

Everyone has a take.

See, if you don't have a take,
you don't have a voice.

If you don't have a voice,
you don't exist.

So yeah, at first,
everyone's gonna blame me.

But then someone's gonna say,
"Wait a second."

There's a big difference

between leaving
somebody to die

and killing somebody.

Then they're gonna
turn to you.

What were you doing here
in the first place?

What was your
relationship with her?

Why would you exploit her
grieving family?

Those... Those characters.

I mean, that's what
they're gonna be.

Famous characters.

Not famous people.

And then they're gonna
blame the family.

I hope they're ready for that.

They'll blame the president.

The last president.

And then they'll start in
with the conspiracy theories.

You know, and someone will
refute the conspiracy theories,

and then one side will make
their version like their cause.

And the other side
will take the other side

just to take the other side
and on, and on.

Until your story proves

the defining truth
of our time.

Which is what?

Everything means everything.

So nothing means anything.

Some things mean something.

Yeah?

Like what?

Abilene?

You didn't care about her.

You came here for yourself.

For a recording.

And then you heard her music.

And you saw her photos.
The record of her.

And that's what you care for.

A recording.

Not a person.

We are all...

just inspirations

for the record of ourselves.

You and I both know it.
You got your opus.

And that's what matters.

But Abilene? The person?

Come on.

She was just some girl.

That's the truth, Ben.

Hundred percent.

I can almost taste it now

L.A.

I don't even have
to fake it now

You were like so sick

Everybody said it

You were way ahead
of the trend, ge-get it

Elvis is the best, hell yes

Honey, put on that party dress

Like ooh,

Ooh, ooh,

You make me crazy

You make me wild

Just like a baby,
spin me round like a child

Your skin so

Golden brown

Be young

Be dope, be proud

Like an American

Ooh,

Like an American

Ooh,

Everybody wants to go fast

But they can't compare

I don't really want the rest

Only you can take me there

I don't even know
what I'm saying

But I'm praying for you...

We got a
report of a possible overdose. 49-40

Afterparty.
Ambulance en route.

A 911 on a Saturday night?

Bullshit.

People.

Got a report.
Quentin Sellers shot in the head.

Q?

I never thought of that guy
as accident-prone.

Let's get wild tonight,
check your heart at the door

That ain't what tonight is for

It's an old times,
good times...

Gonna send you this text
when I get signal

I'll know just the words
to say when I do...

I heard that y'all made up.

Yeah.

And I understand that was
quite a party last night.

I wasn't there.

That's right, you weren't.

But...

I heard
it was a pretty good party.

I've... very much enjoyed
being in your home.

You're gonna need a ride.

That's true. My car is...

What are your plans
when you get back?

Guess
I have to find a new story.

After all that?

What about all that stuff
with Abby?

I think that story's
just for us.

That's nice, too.

No regrets.

I never understood that.

No regrets.

I mean, how do you...

In my life, everything starts
with a regret, ends with a regret.

In between, regrets.

It's all regrets.

You run as fast as you can
from the last regret

and, of course, you're just
running straight into the next one.

That's life.

It's all regrets.

That's what they should say.

No other way to be alive.

It's all regrets.

Make 'em count.