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I'm thinking of making a boat,
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you know, tying some outriggers
to it to help stabilize it.
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Holy moley.
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- What am I doing out here?
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I'm set up to be here
for a long time.
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You could have the best life
in the world,
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but if you're alone,
then what's the point?
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- I needed to go for broke,
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and find a good location,
and live out here.
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Oh, my God.
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I just need to hurry up
and set up a shelter.
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[bleep].
Just a inch too short.
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Damn it!
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- Who are you when everything's
been stripped away?
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[bleep].
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- [yelping]
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- It's scary out here
in these woods.
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- I have not had
a serious meal in a week.
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- If I can't get a fire,
then I can't stay here.
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- It's always in the back
of your mind,
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"Well, I could tap out."
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- Putting up
with this filming [bleep]?
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- Running into a predator,
it's not an if.
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It's a when.
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Get the hell out of here.
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I see you.
Get out of here!
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- I'm living
a hand-to-mouth existence.
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Yes!
Ah!
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- $500,000
is a lot of money.
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- It's just gonna keep
getting harder.
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- It's not the world
that needs to change.
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It's me
that needs to change.
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- [moans]
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*
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Someone needs to stop Clearway Law.
Public shouldn't leave reviews for lawyers.
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*
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- [sighs]
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This is [bleep] ridiculous.
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*
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I just woke up
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to my sleeping bag
being soaked through,
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and I was like, "Well,
that doesn't make any sense,"
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and this is all water
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right here where I was sleeping,
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and it looks like
it's ground water.
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I guess it seeped through.
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*
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Luckily,
my backpack didn't get soaked...
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*
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But...
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*
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Just to give you an indicator,
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that's my fire hole.
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It is 100% full of water.
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*
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I have no--
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[sniffles]
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I have no idea
how that even happens.
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I don't even know
what I'm gonna do.
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Um...
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*
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I--I mean, there's no way
that I can stay in here.
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*
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It's [bleep] ridiculous.
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*
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[exhales]
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*
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- [exhales]
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I'm not mic'd up yet.
It's morning.
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You know, I figure,
I might as well film this.
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This is me trying to get up...
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after not eating a bite of food
in four days.
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I...
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this has been going on
for about 20 minutes.
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[laughing]
I'm just sitting here
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on the bed, you know?
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I've got one sock on.
Got a sock on.
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That's--that's a--
that's progress.
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I found the socks.
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Got a sock on.
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Yep.
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Means I'm headed out the door.
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*
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Now I've gotta
put the other sock on.
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*
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It is really hard to not allow
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the extreme hunger
to affect my emotional state.
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I am here cold, hungry,
and alone.
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I've got to get
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creatures that live out there
into here.
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End of discussion.
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*
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I haven't been able to fish
these waters
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in close to a week or so.
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Where my fishing hole was,
I can see waves just bam,
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just crashing against it.
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There's no way
I can get anything to eat
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out of the ocean.
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It's just too rough.
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It would be really great
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if I could get a hook
in the water and get some fish,
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but it--
they're not gonna be here.
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If I was a fish,
I would not hang out
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in that washing machine,
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getting banged against rocks
and things.
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The ocean
just has to calm down more
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before I'll be able to fish.
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*
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Not very happy about it.
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If you have experience
in the bush,
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it makes you humble.
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You might swagger
into the bush,
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but you're gonna stagger
out of the bush, you know,
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and eventually you're gonna
get your head handed to you.
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Eventually,
you're gonna get beaten.
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Eventually,
you're gonna fail out there
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and have to leave
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because this is too much.
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*
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[tense music]
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*
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- So my sleeping bag's soaked.
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*
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Ugh, this just sucks.
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It really, really sucks.
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So it comes a point of,
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well, what am I doing?
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Am I staying out here
just to stay out here?
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[dramatic music]
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Am I accomplishing anything?
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What's the point?
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I'm at a low right now.
[sighs]
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*
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If there was a time
that I wanted to hang I it up,
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it's right now.
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I mean,
there's standing water...
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*
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In my shelter.
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*
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First problem is,
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uh, sleeping bag
is soaking wet,
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so we're gonna address that
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by laying in it...
[sighs]
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in my cook camp
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and hopefully my body heat
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combined with the heat
from this, uh, fire
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will slowly
alleviate the problem.
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Yeah, this is,
uh, this is not fun
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at all.
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*
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My brain has been trying
to convince me...
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*
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Of quitting, so...
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not only do I have
to fight the elements,
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and...the water table...
[scoffs]
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*
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On top of that,
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I gotta fight my own damn mind
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trying to tell me
that it's okay to quit.
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*
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[dramatic music]
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*
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- So...
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you know, what I thought about
when I woke up this morning?
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* I didn't have to wake up
at 4:00 in the morning *
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* I didn't have to wake up
at 4:00 in the morning *
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* I could get up
whenever I want *
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* I can get up whenever I want
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Hey.
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That's what I thought
this morning.
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*
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Emotionally, I'm doing good.
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This new place
just has all the resources.
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It's got tidal wash,
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and it looks like it's got
some good fishing spots,
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and it's got open areas.
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I'm finding chantarelles
everywhere.
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*
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[chuckles]
Look at the size of this one.
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Some of this is rotten,
but I can scrape that off,
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and I can still see there's
some white meat inside there.
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I mean, it's on it's last legs,
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but I can eat some of this
for sure.
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That's a big one.
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*
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Look at this stream.
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Isn't this beautiful?
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Huh?
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It's awesome.
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It's all hard work,
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and I won't be happy
until I start bringing in fish,
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but once I start
bringing in some fish, man,
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this place is gonna be gold.
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*
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I've got my line set up,
so I'm gonna go down
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and check out what's going on
down by the seashore.
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This move is
a complete game changer
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so long as I can find food
from the ocean,
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but if I don't catch a fish
on those lines,
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I might not be able to
survive here in this location.
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*
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Well, I can basically see
both of my sets right now,
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both of my fishing sets,
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and I'm really intrigued
to see if I got anything.
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*
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I really hope
to catch some fish here, man.
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*
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One's got a shell on it.
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Two of 'em are stripped clean.
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*
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Third one's stripped clean.
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Dang.
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No fish for me.
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*
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That really sucks.
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*
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I'm starting to get worried
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that there's no fish
in this area.
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So I got my mushrooms.
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I want to go harvest
some limpets;
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I'll set those aside
for dinner.
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*
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Well, I've got my
sparse little dinner cooking.
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I think it's getting close
to boiling.
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I tried out
this new fireplace here.
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*
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I made a hole
through the top of this stump
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and I would think that it
should draw through the top...
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*
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and I don't need a huge fire.
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*
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Too huge a one
and I'll catch my stump on fire.
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*
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I gotta say,
I'm a little bit frustrated
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with the fishing here.
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The other place,
I think I caught fish
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on every set that I put out
just about.
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Oh, my gosh, this is,
like, the smallest meal
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I've ever eaten in my life.
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It's certainly a lot more
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uplifting and nice here,
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but I don't know what I'm gonna
do about fishing.
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*
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[water splashing]
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*
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I can't believe that
I did that.
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I think I'm up
for dumbass of the year award.
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I woke up,
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and the whole side
of my shelter was glowing red.
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and for a split second
I thought,
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"That's a hell of a fire,"
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and then another split second
I thought,
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"There shouldn't be
a hell of a fire,"
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and I turned around and looked,
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and my stump looked like
a damn Roman candle
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with sparks flying out.
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The whole thing
was basically engulfed.
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I had my fire, like, right here,
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and it traveled down--
made a huge hole,
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*
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and traveled
all the way down inside there.
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This whole trunk has burned out.
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*
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Look at that son of a bitch
still smoke.
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*
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Unbelievable.
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*
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If I keep
making these mistakes,
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I don't know
what's gonna happen.
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*
270
00:12:43,210 --> 00:12:46,795
- Hmm, so growing a gray beard.
271
00:12:46,828 --> 00:12:48,438
*
272
00:12:48,471 --> 00:12:51,727
Man, I'm starting to look like
an old fart.
273
00:12:51,759 --> 00:12:53,995
[chuckles]
274
00:12:54,028 --> 00:12:54,981
*
275
00:12:55,014 --> 00:12:58,335
Another day of boat building.
276
00:12:58,367 --> 00:13:00,932
Making some good progress.
277
00:13:00,965 --> 00:13:04,253
I can't wait to see her
in the water.
278
00:13:04,285 --> 00:13:05,798
It'll still be a--
279
00:13:05,831 --> 00:13:07,869
a little while, a few days,
but I-I sure hope
280
00:13:07,902 --> 00:13:11,617
to be able to have her
in the water soon
281
00:13:11,651 --> 00:13:14,970
an--an--and, uh, in time to...
282
00:13:15,004 --> 00:13:18,588
get to that salmon run,
like I said before.
283
00:13:18,620 --> 00:13:20,165
Finished both gunwales.
284
00:13:20,199 --> 00:13:23,290
I'm hoping to start
putting in the ribs today.
285
00:13:23,322 --> 00:13:24,440
*
286
00:13:24,473 --> 00:13:25,623
The cedar branch,
287
00:13:25,657 --> 00:13:27,925
it has a natural curve to it.
288
00:13:27,957 --> 00:13:31,344
I have hopes for this material
to be the ribs.
289
00:13:31,378 --> 00:13:32,758
Let's see what cedar can do.
290
00:13:32,791 --> 00:13:35,750
I'll just whittle it as fine as
I think is safe to do.
291
00:13:35,782 --> 00:13:37,690
*
292
00:13:37,722 --> 00:13:40,058
I have to make
every single piece
293
00:13:40,090 --> 00:13:42,951
that goes in there by hand.
294
00:13:42,983 --> 00:13:45,910
I'll refine it
if it doesn't break,
295
00:13:45,942 --> 00:13:48,407
and then comes the real chore,
296
00:13:48,441 --> 00:13:50,676
which is bending the ribs.
297
00:13:50,709 --> 00:13:53,438
I'm gonna put a bit of water
298
00:13:53,471 --> 00:13:56,069
where the bends gonna be,
especially the outside.
299
00:13:56,101 --> 00:13:57,844
*
300
00:13:57,877 --> 00:13:59,915
We'll see
if I can steam bend it
301
00:13:59,948 --> 00:14:03,039
or basically hot-fire bend it.
302
00:14:03,072 --> 00:14:05,077
I'm gonna play around
with that a little bit.
303
00:14:05,110 --> 00:14:08,266
*
304
00:14:08,299 --> 00:14:10,798
Here we go.
305
00:14:10,831 --> 00:14:12,475
One big honking splinter here,
306
00:14:12,508 --> 00:14:14,711
but it'll do.
307
00:14:14,743 --> 00:14:16,288
First rib.
308
00:14:16,321 --> 00:14:17,440
*
309
00:14:17,472 --> 00:14:20,793
Let's hope it fits
into its place properly.
310
00:14:20,826 --> 00:14:22,503
Actually should have tried
the fit before.
311
00:14:22,535 --> 00:14:25,725
[grunts]
There goes one.
312
00:14:25,757 --> 00:14:26,711
*
313
00:14:26,744 --> 00:14:28,322
12 more to go.
314
00:14:28,355 --> 00:14:32,728
*
315
00:14:32,760 --> 00:14:34,733
This one here, nice,
316
00:14:34,765 --> 00:14:37,001
but this one here was
a complicated one,
317
00:14:37,034 --> 00:14:38,514
and it came out perfect.
318
00:14:38,547 --> 00:14:41,965
There's no visible splintering
on the outside,
319
00:14:41,999 --> 00:14:43,314
and that's a full bend.
320
00:14:43,347 --> 00:14:45,189
Matter of fact, it's past full,
321
00:14:45,221 --> 00:14:48,542
so this is probably
the strongest testimony
322
00:14:48,574 --> 00:14:50,976
to how well this method works.
323
00:14:51,008 --> 00:14:53,802
I'm making a huge investment
in time and energy.
324
00:14:53,835 --> 00:14:57,813
Taking a huge gamble to
build a boat to fish offshore.
325
00:14:57,846 --> 00:15:00,213
Fishing from a boat
out on the water,
326
00:15:00,247 --> 00:15:01,956
I think, is gonna be
much more productive.
327
00:15:01,989 --> 00:15:04,454
I hope.
It would suck if it didn't,
328
00:15:04,488 --> 00:15:06,559
but that's--that, you know,
that's the gamble right there.
329
00:15:06,591 --> 00:15:07,710
*
330
00:15:07,743 --> 00:15:09,058
Almost finished.
331
00:15:09,090 --> 00:15:12,148
Have to tie on those ribs now.
332
00:15:12,181 --> 00:15:16,751
What I learned was building
western Greenland kayaks,
333
00:15:16,784 --> 00:15:19,086
so I'm applying that technology
here as much as I can,
334
00:15:19,118 --> 00:15:22,965
but everything there is
lashed and pegged.
335
00:15:22,998 --> 00:15:25,069
There's no screws, no nails.
336
00:15:25,102 --> 00:15:27,140
They didn't have any.
They didn't need any.
337
00:15:27,174 --> 00:15:28,126
*
338
00:15:28,160 --> 00:15:30,429
So the ribs are fit in.
339
00:15:30,462 --> 00:15:31,810
[sniffles]
340
00:15:31,842 --> 00:15:34,769
Um, quite a bit of wonkiness
here and there,
341
00:15:34,801 --> 00:15:37,694
but at least something that
342
00:15:37,728 --> 00:15:40,522
resembles a boat is under way.
343
00:15:40,555 --> 00:15:47,130
*
344
00:15:47,164 --> 00:15:55,054
*
345
00:16:08,304 --> 00:16:10,310
I've got a limpet.
346
00:16:10,342 --> 00:16:14,583
Limpets--
part of a complete breakfast.
347
00:16:14,617 --> 00:16:18,430
Actually, limpet--it's the only
thing I have for breakfast.
348
00:16:18,463 --> 00:16:21,389
[dramatic music]
349
00:16:21,422 --> 00:16:29,313
*
350
00:16:41,478 --> 00:16:43,714
If I ever see these on a menu,
351
00:16:43,747 --> 00:16:44,996
I'm ordering two dozen of 'em
352
00:16:45,029 --> 00:16:46,706
just to have the luxury
of eating that many of 'em
353
00:16:46,738 --> 00:16:48,020
in one sitting.
354
00:16:48,054 --> 00:16:49,337
*
355
00:16:49,369 --> 00:16:50,914
The only thing
that's bothering me right now
356
00:16:50,947 --> 00:16:52,163
is the starvation
357
00:16:52,196 --> 00:16:55,484
that just can't
get enough to eat.
358
00:16:55,517 --> 00:16:57,358
Don't get me wrong, there's
a lot of limpets out there,
359
00:16:57,391 --> 00:16:59,298
but there's not a lot of food
on a limpet.
360
00:16:59,331 --> 00:17:01,730
I need to get some big protein,
big fish.
361
00:17:01,764 --> 00:17:02,717
*
362
00:17:02,750 --> 00:17:04,788
I've got to finish my net.
363
00:17:04,821 --> 00:17:05,939
*
364
00:17:05,971 --> 00:17:08,176
It's looking like a net.
365
00:17:08,208 --> 00:17:10,082
None of the lines lay flat.
366
00:17:10,115 --> 00:17:12,548
It's all kind of disorganized,
a little bit,
367
00:17:12,580 --> 00:17:14,783
which is kind of what you need
for tangling a fish.
368
00:17:14,816 --> 00:17:16,987
You want the net
to be able to catch them,
369
00:17:17,019 --> 00:17:19,156
and you want 'em
to get in there and get stuck
370
00:17:19,189 --> 00:17:20,932
and try to turn around
and get out of it,
371
00:17:20,964 --> 00:17:23,069
and thrash about.
372
00:17:23,102 --> 00:17:25,107
I mean,
I like the way it looks.
373
00:17:25,140 --> 00:17:27,935
Oh, fog, fog, fog.
374
00:17:27,967 --> 00:17:29,974
Is that on the outside?
375
00:17:30,006 --> 00:17:32,045
[sniffles]
No, you see that's internal,
376
00:17:32,077 --> 00:17:33,359
and that's--
377
00:17:33,392 --> 00:17:36,220
I got one minute left anyway
on the battery.
378
00:17:36,252 --> 00:17:37,634
Well, that's great.
379
00:17:37,667 --> 00:17:39,179
*
380
00:17:39,211 --> 00:17:41,546
That's the part that doesn't
get in the episodes.
381
00:17:41,579 --> 00:17:43,684
We see all the footage
that we're shooting and stuff,
382
00:17:43,716 --> 00:17:46,346
but the real burden
of being out here
383
00:17:46,379 --> 00:17:48,976
is this other full-time job
I have of being a cameraman.
384
00:17:49,010 --> 00:17:50,292
*
385
00:17:50,324 --> 00:17:52,166
I'm out here surviving
and trying to work,
386
00:17:52,198 --> 00:17:53,449
and do all the things
I need to do,
387
00:17:53,481 --> 00:17:54,763
and I'm a cameraman.
388
00:17:54,796 --> 00:17:58,840
*
389
00:17:58,873 --> 00:18:00,747
I'm gonna mount
my home made gill net
390
00:18:00,780 --> 00:18:02,917
as an extension
on this gill net...
391
00:18:02,950 --> 00:18:03,903
*
392
00:18:03,936 --> 00:18:05,185
And we'll see how it goes.
393
00:18:05,218 --> 00:18:06,599
You know,
I don't know if this'll work.
394
00:18:06,632 --> 00:18:10,315
It's much more visible
than the other one,
395
00:18:10,348 --> 00:18:13,504
but the other one
hasn't caught anything yet,
396
00:18:13,536 --> 00:18:17,153
so it can't work worse
than that.
397
00:18:17,186 --> 00:18:18,797
Right?
398
00:18:18,829 --> 00:18:20,770
*
399
00:18:20,802 --> 00:18:22,545
Just trying to figure out
what I'm gonna do
400
00:18:22,578 --> 00:18:25,406
with the rest of my life
after this.
401
00:18:25,438 --> 00:18:28,003
I do--I don't know.
402
00:18:28,036 --> 00:18:29,712
You know,
it would be great if I had
403
00:18:29,745 --> 00:18:31,718
a career to go back to.
404
00:18:31,750 --> 00:18:33,198
[soft music]
405
00:18:33,230 --> 00:18:35,531
There's gotta be something
out there for me.
406
00:18:35,565 --> 00:18:38,031
*
407
00:18:38,064 --> 00:18:40,364
All right, that is
a bottle of crushed mussels
408
00:18:40,398 --> 00:18:43,192
hanging on a gill net,
409
00:18:43,225 --> 00:18:45,954
and if that doesn't attract fish
to the net,
410
00:18:45,987 --> 00:18:47,598
I don't know what else to do
in this bay.
411
00:18:47,630 --> 00:18:49,012
Seriously...
412
00:18:49,044 --> 00:18:51,741
I'm kind of,
like, at my wits end.
413
00:18:51,774 --> 00:18:53,088
If this idea doesn't work,
414
00:18:53,122 --> 00:18:55,029
I'm--I'm drawing a blank.
415
00:18:55,061 --> 00:18:57,724
[sighs]
And it's gotta catch something.
416
00:18:57,758 --> 00:19:00,420
*
417
00:19:06,075 --> 00:19:09,002
[dramatic music]
418
00:19:09,034 --> 00:19:16,925
*
419
00:19:25,573 --> 00:19:28,991
- All right, I've decided
to quit moping around
420
00:19:29,024 --> 00:19:31,096
like a little baby,
421
00:19:31,129 --> 00:19:32,345
and...
422
00:19:32,378 --> 00:19:33,496
*
423
00:19:33,528 --> 00:19:34,778
Get some stuff done.
424
00:19:34,810 --> 00:19:37,310
[exhales]
425
00:19:37,343 --> 00:19:40,105
I have to stay
because I feel like
426
00:19:40,137 --> 00:19:43,885
I need to set an example
for veterans to--
427
00:19:43,919 --> 00:19:45,660
to just not give up, you know?
428
00:19:45,694 --> 00:19:50,756
To--to keep going,
you know, even though it sucks,
429
00:19:50,790 --> 00:19:53,354
and even though
you want the pain
430
00:19:53,387 --> 00:19:55,854
and everything else to go away,
431
00:19:55,886 --> 00:19:57,826
you know, just keep going.
432
00:19:57,859 --> 00:19:59,141
*
433
00:19:59,173 --> 00:20:01,310
All right, so the net
434
00:20:01,343 --> 00:20:04,565
is not catching fish anymore.
435
00:20:04,599 --> 00:20:07,360
It only caught one
weird looking fish
436
00:20:07,393 --> 00:20:11,338
that I think just
flew the wrong way.
437
00:20:11,371 --> 00:20:14,791
I have officially
outworn my welcome
438
00:20:14,824 --> 00:20:16,369
sleeping on the ground.
439
00:20:16,401 --> 00:20:18,243
[soft music]
440
00:20:18,275 --> 00:20:21,300
Since my net isn't
doing really anything
441
00:20:21,333 --> 00:20:24,127
as far as catching fish,
442
00:20:24,161 --> 00:20:27,383
we're gonna turn it back
into a hammock.
443
00:20:27,416 --> 00:20:30,573
You constantly have to change
your approach to things,
444
00:20:30,605 --> 00:20:33,433
you know, 'cause just when you
think something is going good,
445
00:20:33,466 --> 00:20:35,865
it could change and go bad,
446
00:20:35,898 --> 00:20:37,904
and then you gotta figure out
something else to do.
447
00:20:37,936 --> 00:20:39,876
Stuff happens.
You're gonna have those things
448
00:20:39,909 --> 00:20:41,783
that just kick you
while you're down,
449
00:20:41,816 --> 00:20:45,171
and you gotta get up and say,
"Well, I got stuff to do."
450
00:20:45,203 --> 00:20:47,274
[dramatic music]
451
00:20:47,307 --> 00:20:50,201
Just really spent a lot of time
building that shelter,
452
00:20:50,233 --> 00:20:51,943
now it's flooded,
453
00:20:51,976 --> 00:20:54,277
but I don't have the energy
454
00:20:54,310 --> 00:20:57,138
to--to rebuild that thing
455
00:20:57,170 --> 00:20:59,012
somewhere else.
456
00:20:59,044 --> 00:21:01,083
Especially without food,
457
00:21:01,116 --> 00:21:04,173
the calories and all that.
458
00:21:04,207 --> 00:21:05,785
That's just not gonna work.
459
00:21:05,818 --> 00:21:09,302
You know, I barely have
the energy to split wood.
460
00:21:09,335 --> 00:21:14,529
All right, so it's still
soaked in here.
461
00:21:14,563 --> 00:21:17,851
Smells like [bleep] seaweed...
462
00:21:19,100 --> 00:21:22,388
Bad.
Like, really bad.
463
00:21:22,420 --> 00:21:25,281
If you allow yourself to adapt
464
00:21:25,314 --> 00:21:28,504
and you allow yourself
to--to change,
465
00:21:28,536 --> 00:21:32,679
then you're capable
of just amazing things.
466
00:21:32,712 --> 00:21:36,362
[soft music]
467
00:21:36,394 --> 00:21:38,335
That might just work.
468
00:21:38,367 --> 00:21:41,556
*
469
00:21:41,589 --> 00:21:46,192
Other than the foul stench
of seaweed.
470
00:21:46,225 --> 00:21:49,151
[tense music]
471
00:21:49,184 --> 00:21:57,075
*
472
00:22:21,469 --> 00:22:23,968
- Well, good morning.
473
00:22:24,002 --> 00:22:26,764
Day 21.
474
00:22:26,796 --> 00:22:30,248
I'm thankful
for this beautiful place.
475
00:22:31,695 --> 00:22:34,489
I'm enjoying myself being here.
476
00:22:34,522 --> 00:22:38,106
It's--it's brought out
the best in me.
477
00:22:38,139 --> 00:22:40,111
I've built
a very beautiful camp.
478
00:22:40,144 --> 00:22:42,841
I have a comfortable home here.
479
00:22:42,873 --> 00:22:45,372
I can spend hours
in my shelter...
480
00:22:45,406 --> 00:22:46,819
*
481
00:22:46,851 --> 00:22:50,468
And I've got means and ways
for getting food...
482
00:22:50,501 --> 00:22:51,881
*
483
00:22:51,915 --> 00:22:55,630
And I've got things
to occupy my time and my mind.
484
00:22:55,663 --> 00:22:57,340
I cut dice.
485
00:22:57,373 --> 00:22:58,721
Two blocks.
486
00:22:58,753 --> 00:23:00,398
Kind of round off the corners,
487
00:23:00,430 --> 00:23:03,718
so they roll better
for my football game.
488
00:23:03,751 --> 00:23:06,677
Sunday night football.
489
00:23:06,710 --> 00:23:08,551
We have our two opposing teams,
490
00:23:08,584 --> 00:23:11,674
the scallops and the stones.
491
00:23:11,707 --> 00:23:15,324
The dice determine
yardage and distance.
492
00:23:15,357 --> 00:23:17,494
Yes, it's a pass.
493
00:23:17,526 --> 00:23:20,059
Greater than ten yards?
494
00:23:20,091 --> 00:23:21,538
No, all right,
495
00:23:21,570 --> 00:23:25,023
so, let's roll
to see how many yards we get,
496
00:23:25,056 --> 00:23:27,029
and we just got two that time.
497
00:23:27,062 --> 00:23:28,771
All right, second down.
498
00:23:28,805 --> 00:23:30,941
The defense is holding.
499
00:23:30,974 --> 00:23:32,980
You know,
the projects keep me busy
500
00:23:33,012 --> 00:23:34,262
throughout the day,
501
00:23:34,294 --> 00:23:37,484
and so time just flies by
because of that.
502
00:23:37,516 --> 00:23:41,692
I did get the arapuca
live box trap made.
503
00:23:41,726 --> 00:23:43,862
Hopping along...
504
00:23:43,895 --> 00:23:46,065
then he is caught.
505
00:23:46,098 --> 00:23:48,532
The other day,
I found that black buoy.
506
00:23:48,564 --> 00:23:52,509
The perfect size
for a bowling ball.
507
00:23:52,542 --> 00:23:54,284
*
508
00:23:54,317 --> 00:23:55,369
Boom,
509
00:23:55,402 --> 00:23:58,065
and I got the top one,
510
00:23:58,098 --> 00:23:59,907
no problem.
511
00:23:59,939 --> 00:24:02,636
Like it when the--
the time flies,
512
00:24:02,668 --> 00:24:04,049
but...
513
00:24:04,081 --> 00:24:07,699
I'm beginning
to feel guilty
514
00:24:07,731 --> 00:24:10,296
of wasting
515
00:24:10,330 --> 00:24:12,170
time and space
516
00:24:12,204 --> 00:24:15,754
that could be used
in a better way,
517
00:24:15,787 --> 00:24:18,122
and I feel like my journey is
518
00:24:18,154 --> 00:24:20,981
becoming selfish
and self-serving.
519
00:24:21,014 --> 00:24:22,723
*
520
00:24:22,757 --> 00:24:25,322
I'm not growing more
521
00:24:25,354 --> 00:24:28,116
and I'm not discovering
new things about myself.
522
00:24:28,149 --> 00:24:29,694
*
523
00:24:29,726 --> 00:24:37,059
And after thinking about it,
praying about it...
524
00:24:37,092 --> 00:24:40,248
I don't know
how much longer I can do this.
525
00:24:40,280 --> 00:24:43,634
*
526
00:24:47,579 --> 00:24:50,506
[dramatic music]
527
00:24:50,538 --> 00:24:58,429
*
528
00:25:10,595 --> 00:25:13,455
- I woke up, uh, craving...
529
00:25:13,488 --> 00:25:16,316
[rain pelting]
530
00:25:16,348 --> 00:25:18,748
Cinnamon sugar donuts
531
00:25:18,781 --> 00:25:21,082
and hot apple cider.
532
00:25:23,319 --> 00:25:24,961
Mmm.
533
00:25:27,363 --> 00:25:28,973
Fall.
534
00:25:29,005 --> 00:25:30,716
*
535
00:25:30,748 --> 00:25:32,951
Still missing home a lot today.
536
00:25:32,984 --> 00:25:35,089
*
537
00:25:35,121 --> 00:25:38,869
Over these last couple of days,
I wanted to go home.
538
00:25:38,902 --> 00:25:40,447
*
539
00:25:40,481 --> 00:25:43,341
I'm just having second thoughts
about it.
540
00:25:43,374 --> 00:25:46,497
You also have the expectations
of other people.
541
00:25:46,530 --> 00:25:48,569
My family's gonna be
watching this.
542
00:25:48,601 --> 00:25:50,969
You don't want
to let anybody down.
543
00:25:51,001 --> 00:25:53,895
So it's a tough one, you know?
544
00:25:53,928 --> 00:25:55,276
It's really hard being alone.
545
00:25:55,308 --> 00:25:57,446
I've never been alone
for this long before.
546
00:25:57,478 --> 00:25:58,860
*
547
00:25:58,892 --> 00:26:01,160
I have to figure out
how long I want to stay here.
548
00:26:01,194 --> 00:26:04,252
*
549
00:26:04,284 --> 00:26:05,994
So today I'm just gonna
550
00:26:06,027 --> 00:26:09,085
build a little sweat lodge.
551
00:26:09,117 --> 00:26:10,630
A sweat lodge is
one of those things,
552
00:26:10,663 --> 00:26:14,213
like, that feeds you
more spiritually.
553
00:26:14,246 --> 00:26:15,363
Just do a couple of rounds
554
00:26:15,397 --> 00:26:17,731
and, you know,
have a dip in the ocean
555
00:26:17,765 --> 00:26:20,690
and get myself clean
both physically and spiritually
556
00:26:20,724 --> 00:26:22,663
before making the decision.
557
00:26:22,696 --> 00:26:26,445
Biggest question I have is
just: What am I doing this for?
558
00:26:26,477 --> 00:26:27,431
*
559
00:26:27,464 --> 00:26:30,390
[axe thumping]
560
00:26:30,423 --> 00:26:32,691
I have all of these
cedar branches,
561
00:26:32,723 --> 00:26:34,368
and then there's,
like, a little circle
562
00:26:34,400 --> 00:26:35,354
you can kind of see.
563
00:26:35,387 --> 00:26:37,096
It's pretty small.
564
00:26:37,129 --> 00:26:38,510
I don't know
what the diameter is.
565
00:26:38,543 --> 00:26:40,746
Maybe, like, six feet
or something.
566
00:26:40,779 --> 00:26:43,410
It's just for me, so it doesn't
need to be crazy big.
567
00:26:43,442 --> 00:26:44,692
*
568
00:26:44,724 --> 00:26:46,566
Think I got eight saplings,
569
00:26:46,598 --> 00:26:48,702
and then I just dug 'em
into the ground
570
00:26:48,735 --> 00:26:50,051
and folded 'em over,
571
00:26:50,083 --> 00:26:52,549
so that way they all
are connected at the top,
572
00:26:52,582 --> 00:26:54,555
and then you just
tie them together.
573
00:26:54,587 --> 00:26:55,738
*
574
00:26:55,771 --> 00:26:57,612
So after those rocks
have been heated,
575
00:26:57,645 --> 00:26:59,749
those'll go into that pit...
576
00:26:59,782 --> 00:27:01,164
*
577
00:27:01,196 --> 00:27:02,906
And then pour water on top.
578
00:27:02,939 --> 00:27:04,221
*
579
00:27:04,254 --> 00:27:06,522
So now I'm gonna
put the tarp over it.
580
00:27:06,555 --> 00:27:08,759
*
581
00:27:08,791 --> 00:27:10,238
Super simple.
582
00:27:10,270 --> 00:27:13,065
*
583
00:27:13,098 --> 00:27:14,709
It looks good, actually.
584
00:27:14,742 --> 00:27:15,696
*
585
00:27:15,728 --> 00:27:17,175
I got all the rocks in there.
586
00:27:17,207 --> 00:27:19,312
I'll get the rocks,
like, just super hot.
587
00:27:19,345 --> 00:27:20,429
*
588
00:27:20,462 --> 00:27:22,765
Put 'em into the lodge
589
00:27:22,797 --> 00:27:25,329
and then pour water on them,
590
00:27:25,361 --> 00:27:28,057
and then sweat it out.
591
00:27:28,091 --> 00:27:29,571
[soft music]
592
00:27:29,603 --> 00:27:31,871
Maybe this will
provide some insight.
593
00:27:31,904 --> 00:27:37,000
*
594
00:27:37,033 --> 00:27:38,973
Oh, yes.
595
00:27:39,005 --> 00:27:40,288
Mm.
596
00:27:40,322 --> 00:27:41,702
*
597
00:27:41,735 --> 00:27:43,412
Oh, uh-huh.
598
00:27:49,494 --> 00:27:57,385
*
599
00:28:00,278 --> 00:28:02,317
There's a certain
600
00:28:02,349 --> 00:28:04,191
level of
601
00:28:04,224 --> 00:28:07,052
content-ness and exhaustion
602
00:28:07,084 --> 00:28:09,582
that comes from doing
a good hot sweat.
603
00:28:09,615 --> 00:28:13,167
It's like you are happy
doing nothing.
604
00:28:13,199 --> 00:28:15,830
*
605
00:28:15,863 --> 00:28:18,032
[steam hisses]
606
00:28:18,065 --> 00:28:19,511
Mm.
607
00:28:19,544 --> 00:28:21,748
[steam hisses]
608
00:28:21,781 --> 00:28:23,260
[sighs]
609
00:28:23,292 --> 00:28:25,462
[steam hisses]
610
00:28:27,435 --> 00:28:30,361
[singing in foreign language]
611
00:28:30,394 --> 00:28:38,284
*
612
00:28:42,131 --> 00:28:45,090
[soft dramatic]
613
00:28:45,124 --> 00:28:46,767
A lot of things
to look forward to.
614
00:28:46,801 --> 00:28:48,083
Today's been a good day.
615
00:28:48,115 --> 00:28:50,549
I'm really grateful
to be here...
616
00:28:50,582 --> 00:28:52,159
*
617
00:28:52,192 --> 00:28:54,790
And to be in this place
that's so beautiful.
618
00:28:54,823 --> 00:28:57,782
It's seriously an incredible,
619
00:28:57,814 --> 00:29:00,576
powerful place.
620
00:29:00,610 --> 00:29:08,500
*
621
00:29:18,364 --> 00:29:26,254
*
622
00:29:37,531 --> 00:29:40,951
My head was kind of
out of it a bit this morning,
623
00:29:40,984 --> 00:29:43,614
and I feel, actually,
pretty good right now.
624
00:29:43,647 --> 00:29:45,948
I feel really grounded.
625
00:29:45,981 --> 00:29:50,650
*
626
00:29:50,682 --> 00:29:53,083
It's all a mental game,
you know?
627
00:29:53,115 --> 00:29:54,595
It's just about,
like, pushing on
628
00:29:54,628 --> 00:29:57,423
and--and adapting yourself
to the situation.
629
00:29:57,456 --> 00:29:59,198
A lot of staying calm
for me is just,
630
00:29:59,230 --> 00:30:01,828
like, looking around and being
grateful for what I have.
631
00:30:01,861 --> 00:30:08,009
*
632
00:30:08,041 --> 00:30:11,232
Every day I've been able
to walk outside
633
00:30:11,264 --> 00:30:13,697
and see something beautiful.
634
00:30:13,730 --> 00:30:16,295
*
635
00:30:16,327 --> 00:30:18,169
I've come to my decision.
636
00:30:18,201 --> 00:30:19,221
*
637
00:30:23,167 --> 00:30:26,092
[dramatic music]
638
00:30:26,126 --> 00:30:34,016
*
639
00:30:42,334 --> 00:30:44,602
- It's not about:
"How long can I last?"
640
00:30:44,635 --> 00:30:46,312
"How far
can you push yourself?"
641
00:30:46,345 --> 00:30:48,153
"How much can you
test your limits?"
642
00:30:48,186 --> 00:30:50,751
It's not really about that.
643
00:30:50,784 --> 00:30:53,808
- I'm in a quandary;
I don't know what to do,
644
00:30:53,842 --> 00:30:55,847
and I'm just gonna go ahead
and say it,
645
00:30:55,879 --> 00:30:58,411
I don't know if I can do this.
646
00:30:58,443 --> 00:31:02,028
- The last two days have been
mentally pretty rough.
647
00:31:02,061 --> 00:31:04,296
You know, just going
back and forth in my head
648
00:31:04,329 --> 00:31:06,631
if it would be okay to quit.
649
00:31:06,664 --> 00:31:08,472
I don't have to do this.
650
00:31:08,505 --> 00:31:09,623
*
651
00:31:09,656 --> 00:31:11,464
- There's not enough
caloric intake
652
00:31:11,497 --> 00:31:14,094
in the meals that
I can pull out of the ocean
653
00:31:14,126 --> 00:31:18,007
to keep me from
eventually starving to death.
654
00:31:18,039 --> 00:31:19,618
That's the endgame for me.
655
00:31:19,650 --> 00:31:27,541
*
656
00:31:33,690 --> 00:31:35,301
I know my goal all along
657
00:31:35,333 --> 00:31:38,785
was to stay out here
for the entire year,
658
00:31:38,818 --> 00:31:42,994
but I just miss Barbara
terribly.
659
00:31:43,027 --> 00:31:44,670
*
660
00:31:44,703 --> 00:31:47,531
Being away like this, so long,
661
00:31:47,563 --> 00:31:50,293
I'm afraid that
it'll mess me up so bad
662
00:31:50,325 --> 00:31:53,943
that I'll go home this thing
that Barbara doesn't know.
663
00:31:53,975 --> 00:31:55,389
*
664
00:31:55,422 --> 00:31:56,737
I have to admit
665
00:31:56,770 --> 00:32:00,058
that I did not foresee
666
00:32:00,090 --> 00:32:02,490
the heartache that I'm feeling.
667
00:32:02,523 --> 00:32:04,036
Love that camp.
668
00:32:04,069 --> 00:32:06,304
That's saying good-bye to a
really good friend right there.
669
00:32:06,337 --> 00:32:08,014
*
670
00:32:08,047 --> 00:32:12,979
I do not like saying good-bye.
671
00:32:13,011 --> 00:32:14,162
*
672
00:32:14,195 --> 00:32:16,727
It feels like abandonment.
673
00:32:16,759 --> 00:32:20,146
*
674
00:32:20,179 --> 00:32:21,922
Man, oh, man,
675
00:32:21,954 --> 00:32:24,815
that is--that is something.
676
00:32:24,847 --> 00:32:26,721
It's even more beautiful
from here.
677
00:32:26,755 --> 00:32:34,646
*
678
00:32:44,509 --> 00:32:52,400
*
679
00:32:57,233 --> 00:32:59,304
- Tomorrow, day 22,
680
00:32:59,337 --> 00:33:02,362
uh, I'm gonna climb up--
681
00:33:02,394 --> 00:33:04,170
climb up this mountain
behind me.
682
00:33:04,202 --> 00:33:05,321
Um...
683
00:33:05,353 --> 00:33:07,096
[soft dramatic music]
684
00:33:07,129 --> 00:33:09,528
In, uh--in remembrance
685
00:33:09,562 --> 00:33:12,553
of the 22 veterans a day
686
00:33:12,586 --> 00:33:16,072
that are committing suicide
in this country.
687
00:33:16,104 --> 00:33:17,814
So hopefully,
688
00:33:17,848 --> 00:33:19,524
you know, somebody sees it
689
00:33:19,556 --> 00:33:22,187
and is--is inspired
690
00:33:22,220 --> 00:33:24,323
to--to keep fighting,
691
00:33:24,357 --> 00:33:25,574
to keep going.
692
00:33:25,606 --> 00:33:27,941
Um, so that's my hope.
693
00:33:27,973 --> 00:33:29,618
That's my goal
694
00:33:29,650 --> 00:33:31,984
in what I'm doing tomorrow.
695
00:33:32,017 --> 00:33:33,200
*
696
00:33:33,234 --> 00:33:35,765
Today I have
a lot of prep work to do.
697
00:33:35,799 --> 00:33:38,396
Getting the camera gear ready
and food
698
00:33:38,429 --> 00:33:40,072
and you have to boil water,
699
00:33:40,105 --> 00:33:41,323
which is huge
700
00:33:41,355 --> 00:33:43,623
because that gives you
the ability
701
00:33:43,656 --> 00:33:45,564
to--to purify it enough
702
00:33:45,596 --> 00:33:48,194
so I can get to the top
of that mountain.
703
00:33:48,227 --> 00:33:51,153
*
704
00:33:51,186 --> 00:33:53,684
If I can climb this mountain
on day 22,
705
00:33:53,716 --> 00:33:56,150
then I can do whatever.
706
00:33:56,183 --> 00:33:57,432
*
707
00:33:57,465 --> 00:34:00,128
I think it's gonna
recharge my batteries.
708
00:34:00,162 --> 00:34:03,875
Gonna give me a little bit of--
of extra motivation...
709
00:34:03,909 --> 00:34:04,862
*
710
00:34:04,895 --> 00:34:06,506
To go a little bit further.
711
00:34:06,539 --> 00:34:08,512
*
712
00:34:08,545 --> 00:34:11,406
Water takes forever
713
00:34:11,438 --> 00:34:13,017
to boil here.
714
00:34:13,049 --> 00:34:16,140
It's been about an hour--
the last hour
715
00:34:16,173 --> 00:34:17,422
boiling this water.
716
00:34:17,455 --> 00:34:19,198
It's just such a--a pain
in the ass.
717
00:34:19,230 --> 00:34:20,348
*
718
00:34:20,381 --> 00:34:21,861
It's starting to rain...
719
00:34:21,894 --> 00:34:23,208
*
720
00:34:23,242 --> 00:34:26,627
A little bit, so I'm gonna
pull this inside here.
721
00:34:26,661 --> 00:34:32,381
*
722
00:34:32,414 --> 00:34:34,518
[bleep]
723
00:34:34,552 --> 00:34:38,003
You gotta be kidding me.
724
00:34:38,037 --> 00:34:40,799
Oh, my God, man.
725
00:34:40,831 --> 00:34:41,949
[exhales]
726
00:34:41,982 --> 00:34:43,889
Wound up spilling
727
00:34:43,921 --> 00:34:46,026
a majority of my [bleep] water.
728
00:34:46,059 --> 00:34:48,985
[dramatic music]
729
00:34:49,018 --> 00:34:50,826
*
730
00:34:50,859 --> 00:34:52,733
It was right there.
731
00:34:52,766 --> 00:34:55,199
Right at a boil.
732
00:34:55,231 --> 00:35:00,097
*
733
00:35:00,130 --> 00:35:02,728
And now I don't even know
if I'll have enough
734
00:35:02,760 --> 00:35:05,359
to fill up my water bottles.
735
00:35:05,391 --> 00:35:08,054
*
736
00:35:08,087 --> 00:35:09,862
Mother[bleep].
737
00:35:09,895 --> 00:35:17,786
*
738
00:35:39,091 --> 00:35:40,735
- You know, I was, like,
739
00:35:40,768 --> 00:35:43,562
so at peace with my decision,
740
00:35:43,595 --> 00:35:45,141
but I don't know.
741
00:35:45,173 --> 00:35:46,785
Gone back and forth on it.
742
00:35:46,818 --> 00:35:49,711
[soft dramatic music]
743
00:35:49,744 --> 00:35:51,914
Before I came out here,
you know, I was in the process
744
00:35:51,946 --> 00:35:55,826
of--of choosing whether
or not I wanted to do this.
745
00:35:55,859 --> 00:35:59,311
I decided not to.
746
00:35:59,343 --> 00:36:00,889
*
747
00:36:00,922 --> 00:36:03,356
Called my dad up,
"What do you think?"
748
00:36:03,388 --> 00:36:05,624
And he had a really good
perspective, you know?
749
00:36:05,657 --> 00:36:07,268
Said this was a sort of, like,
750
00:36:07,301 --> 00:36:10,029
once in a lifetime opportunity
751
00:36:10,062 --> 00:36:11,378
to do something like this,
752
00:36:11,410 --> 00:36:12,988
and to just remember,
753
00:36:13,021 --> 00:36:14,960
like, how big this is.
754
00:36:14,994 --> 00:36:16,277
*
755
00:36:16,309 --> 00:36:19,991
I'm torn between living here
and going home.
756
00:36:20,024 --> 00:36:22,983
*
757
00:36:23,016 --> 00:36:24,200
If I leave,
758
00:36:24,233 --> 00:36:27,192
I'd be doing myself
an injustice.
759
00:36:27,225 --> 00:36:29,132
If I stay longer,
760
00:36:29,164 --> 00:36:30,283
I'm gonna be alone.
761
00:36:30,315 --> 00:36:33,636
*
762
00:36:39,554 --> 00:36:47,445
*
763
00:36:57,308 --> 00:37:05,199
*
764
00:37:08,158 --> 00:37:09,308
[satellite phone beeps]
765
00:37:11,577 --> 00:37:13,714
- Hey, Dan, this is Randy.
766
00:37:15,259 --> 00:37:19,665
*
767
00:37:19,698 --> 00:37:22,032
- Hey, man,
uh, I, uh--I wanted to call
768
00:37:22,065 --> 00:37:23,182
because I'm ready to go.
769
00:37:23,216 --> 00:37:24,827
I'm--I'm tapping out.
770
00:37:24,860 --> 00:37:27,293
*
771
00:37:31,107 --> 00:37:32,816
*
772
00:37:32,849 --> 00:37:35,611
Physically, I felt capable
of staying out here
773
00:37:35,643 --> 00:37:37,157
a really long time,
774
00:37:37,189 --> 00:37:40,050
but we're not just
physical bodies,
775
00:37:40,082 --> 00:37:42,943
and so I wasn't
being fed mentally.
776
00:37:42,976 --> 00:37:45,376
I wasn't being fed emotionally
777
00:37:45,408 --> 00:37:49,124
because there's no interaction
with other people.
778
00:37:49,156 --> 00:37:52,840
I mean, don't get me wrong,
like, I love living this way.
779
00:37:52,872 --> 00:37:54,713
I want to live off the land.
780
00:37:54,745 --> 00:37:55,864
*
781
00:37:55,897 --> 00:37:58,856
That's the ideal life for me,
782
00:37:58,889 --> 00:38:02,472
but there's no way
I could do it alone.
783
00:38:02,505 --> 00:38:04,543
I am craving
784
00:38:04,576 --> 00:38:07,667
human companionship
like it's water.
785
00:38:07,700 --> 00:38:10,264
*
786
00:38:10,297 --> 00:38:12,433
I wanted to just come out here
787
00:38:12,467 --> 00:38:15,294
and just sort of, like,
connect with the land...
788
00:38:15,327 --> 00:38:17,267
*
789
00:38:17,300 --> 00:38:18,977
And I wanted it
to teach me things,
790
00:38:19,010 --> 00:38:20,457
and...
791
00:38:20,490 --> 00:38:24,270
you know, it really made me
appreciate my loved ones.
792
00:38:24,303 --> 00:38:27,624
My sort of,
like, community and tribe.
793
00:38:27,657 --> 00:38:29,958
I mean, it--
it really opened my eyes
794
00:38:29,991 --> 00:38:32,885
to how amazing
the people in my life are...
795
00:38:32,917 --> 00:38:35,153
but I'm really gonna
miss this place a lot.
796
00:38:35,185 --> 00:38:39,789
*
797
00:38:39,821 --> 00:38:41,959
I'm just craving
798
00:38:41,991 --> 00:38:44,194
my loved ones,
799
00:38:44,228 --> 00:38:45,871
and, you know,
800
00:38:45,904 --> 00:38:49,094
I just--I way underestimated
801
00:38:49,126 --> 00:38:51,394
that being the hardest part.
802
00:38:51,428 --> 00:38:59,319
*
803
00:39:09,182 --> 00:39:14,540
*
804
00:39:14,573 --> 00:39:16,481
- Hi, good morning,
ladies and gentlemen.
805
00:39:16,513 --> 00:39:18,321
[soft dramatic music]
806
00:39:20,426 --> 00:39:24,305
My name is Justin,
and I'm reporting to you live
807
00:39:24,338 --> 00:39:26,344
from the scene
808
00:39:26,377 --> 00:39:29,336
of the set
of the movie "Waterworld."
809
00:39:31,308 --> 00:39:35,221
Everything is under water.
810
00:39:35,254 --> 00:39:36,734
Holy [bleep].
811
00:39:36,766 --> 00:39:38,871
There's about--oh, man,
812
00:39:38,903 --> 00:39:40,975
at least six inches under water.
813
00:39:41,007 --> 00:39:43,835
[sighs]
I thought I had it bad earlier.
814
00:39:43,868 --> 00:39:45,742
This is nuts.
815
00:39:45,775 --> 00:39:48,471
I have no frickin' idea
816
00:39:48,504 --> 00:39:49,918
what I'm gonna do
817
00:39:49,950 --> 00:39:51,266
as far as shelter...
818
00:39:51,299 --> 00:39:52,286
[dramatic music]
819
00:39:52,318 --> 00:39:53,928
But you know what?
820
00:39:53,962 --> 00:39:56,690
Today, that doesn't matter...
821
00:39:56,724 --> 00:39:57,676
*
822
00:39:57,710 --> 00:40:00,472
Because today is day 22.
823
00:40:00,504 --> 00:40:03,628
I decided that on day 22
824
00:40:03,660 --> 00:40:05,272
I was gonna climb a mountain.
825
00:40:05,305 --> 00:40:06,324
*
826
00:40:06,356 --> 00:40:08,757
Kind of--
827
00:40:08,789 --> 00:40:12,308
kind of really at my--at the
bottom of my rope right now,
828
00:40:12,340 --> 00:40:14,182
and, uh...
829
00:40:14,215 --> 00:40:15,398
so I need this.
830
00:40:15,431 --> 00:40:18,620
I need--I need to get to the top
of that mountain.
831
00:40:18,653 --> 00:40:20,100
Um...
832
00:40:20,133 --> 00:40:21,710
*
833
00:40:21,744 --> 00:40:24,078
'Cause when I come back down,
I gotta start all over.
834
00:40:24,111 --> 00:40:25,064
*
835
00:40:25,097 --> 00:40:26,215
Um...
836
00:40:26,248 --> 00:40:28,879
*
837
00:40:31,278 --> 00:40:32,758
So...
[exhales]
838
00:40:32,791 --> 00:40:33,777
This is it.
839
00:40:33,810 --> 00:40:36,769
*
840
00:40:36,802 --> 00:40:38,709
There's a lot
of ups and downs in life,
841
00:40:38,742 --> 00:40:40,747
and for every
one step you take,
842
00:40:40,780 --> 00:40:43,640
there's three things
that pull you back down.
843
00:40:43,674 --> 00:40:46,501
Over the course of time,
that can drain on you.
844
00:40:46,534 --> 00:40:48,078
Drain your soul.
845
00:40:48,112 --> 00:40:50,808
Drain a person down to where
they don't want to do anything.
846
00:40:50,840 --> 00:40:52,057
They don't want to--
847
00:40:52,090 --> 00:40:55,016
to deal with life anymore.
848
00:40:55,049 --> 00:40:58,928
If one veteran that's hurting
sees this and says,
849
00:40:58,962 --> 00:41:00,277
"I can keep going,"
850
00:41:00,310 --> 00:41:01,756
that, "It can get better,"
851
00:41:01,789 --> 00:41:03,236
and, "That it will get better
852
00:41:03,269 --> 00:41:05,537
"if you keep putting one foot
in front of the other
853
00:41:05,570 --> 00:41:07,904
and you keep climbing,"
854
00:41:07,937 --> 00:41:10,305
then it's worth the risk.
855
00:41:10,338 --> 00:41:13,888
*
856
00:41:13,920 --> 00:41:16,354
- I'm ready to put the skin
on the kayak.
857
00:41:16,387 --> 00:41:17,538
The tarp I have,
858
00:41:17,570 --> 00:41:19,478
one good scratch
on those barnacles,
859
00:41:19,510 --> 00:41:20,990
and it's done with.
860
00:41:21,023 --> 00:41:22,403
- I'm gonna climb
this damn mountain.
861
00:41:22,437 --> 00:41:24,080
This is extremely dangerous.
862
00:41:24,114 --> 00:41:26,119
One wrong move here,
and I'm done.
863
00:41:26,152 --> 00:41:27,401
[grunts]
864
00:41:27,433 --> 00:41:30,360
- Rough surf came in,
destroyed both of my gill nets.
865
00:41:30,392 --> 00:41:31,576
I'm wasting away in here.
866
00:41:31,609 --> 00:41:32,826
If I don't get some solid food
867
00:41:32,859 --> 00:41:34,898
out of that ocean,
I'm not gonna make it.
868
00:41:34,930 --> 00:41:37,264
- There is a bear behind me.
869
00:41:37,297 --> 00:41:39,797
It is at my net.
What's it gonna do?
870
00:41:39,829 --> 00:41:41,439
[whispering]
Oh, it's coming my way.
871
00:41:41,473 --> 00:41:42,590
Oh, my God.
872
00:41:42,624 --> 00:41:46,931
*
873
00:41:47,268 --> 00:42:46,593
Someone needs to stop Clearway Law.
Public shouldn't leave reviews for lawyers.
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