All language subtitles for Its okay its love E14

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How long do I have to stand here for?
I want to sit down.

I love you.

Lets just stay like this
for a little while.

Okay.

Take a shower and come back to join me.

I'm going to take my time, and make
you wait for me in anticipation.

I remember.

The first time we spent the
night together on the beach...

Why you cried...

and what you were thinking about...

I remember that you told me that
you'd tell me about it later.

You told me...

that if I still said that I loved
you even after I heard your reasons

that's when you'd truly believe
that I really do love you.

Also...

you said that would be when you
tell me that you love me, too.

Tonight, I'm going to say
what I couldn't say then.

Even though it scares me that
you'll no longer want to be with me

once you hear what I have to say.

But I'll still tell you.

If it's too difficult, you
don't have to, Hye Soo.

No, I want to.

Even though I've always remained strong,
cold, and pretty self-centered...

I feel that it'll be safe for me
to let down my guards with you.

Because...

that's what love means to me.

It was during my third year in high school.

I got a call while at school that my dad
had been taken to the emergency room.

I didn't even feel shocked
when I got that call.

Because it's something that had already
happened countless times before.

But the thing I said to myself as
I ran over to the hospital was...

I didn't want my dad to survive.

But my dad lived through it again.

I wasn't happy about it.

I just felt like everything
was back to square one.

Mr. Kim.

Why aren't you seeing my mom anymore?

Why aren't you seeing her like you used to

and why aren't you giving
her any money either?

What am I supposed to do about college?
Why won't you see my mom? Why?

Why!

So that's why...

my mom started seeing Mr. Kim again.

Just like that, I sold
my mom off to Mr. Kim...

so that I could go to medical school.

I love you.

I love you so much.

I love you, Hye Soo.

I love you so much.

[Han Kang Woo]

Jae Yeol.

You haven't forgotten about us meeting
alone on my release day, have you?

I'll be calling.
Wait for my call.

[Yoon Soo]

I feel sleepy.

You're falling asleep in your bed.

You're right.

I'm falling asleep in my bed.

- Maybe you're curing me.
- Don't speak, and just sleep.

Jae Bum- Come to the
old crime scene.

Our old house of terror where
mom, you, and I used to live.

[Han Kang Woo]

Hello?

Hey, Kang Woo.

Sorry, but I can't right now.

Hye Soo's over my house, and I
have to go meet with my brother.

What are you talking about?

What do you mean, for the last time?

Hey, Yoon Soo.
What is it?

Where are you right now!

What is this about in the
middle of the night?

So Nyeo told me. She told me
that Jang Jae Yeol is crazy!

- Hey!
- Jang Jae Yeol isn't crazy, he's just sick!

Give me back my phone.
Give me back my phone!

Give me back my phone.

- Hi, Hye Soo.
- Hi, Young Jin.

I just texted you Jang Jae Yeol's address.

You can send the ambulance now.

Is it okay for me to send it now?

Or do you want me to wait
a little while longer?

Do you want some more time with him?

For the first time...

Jang Jae Yeol is sleeping
peacefully in his own bed.

I just want to let him sleep
for a little while longer.

Okay, then I'll send it in thirty minutes.

I also have a favor to ask of you.

While he's peacefully asleep...

I want to give him some
sedatives to keep him asleep...

so we can transport him without
him realizing what's going on.

Why is Jang Jae Bum
released already?

Stop talking, there's no time.

- Just hurry and go to mom's house in Paju.
- Okay, I got it.

Stay calm and drive carefully.
Hye Soo, it's me!

Is Jae Yeol with you?

I'm sorry, Hye Soo.

But I'm worried about Kang Woo right
now, so I have to go see him.

He says he has some final words
for me, and that concerns me.

And also, my brother's
been released.

I'm going to go meet with my brother
after I check in with Kang Woo.

Dong Min.

Go to his old house in Yangsoori.
That's where Jang Jae Yeol went.

[Jang Jae Yeol]

[Han Kang Woo]

If I don't win this competition,
then I'm just going to kill myself.

If I do, then there will be a
life insurance payout, right?

I'm going to give my mom
the insurance money.

[Ji Hye Soo]

Jang Jae Yeol.

I'm sorry, Hye Soo.

- Where are you?
- The thing is, Kang Woo...

Kang Woo is...

Hye Soo.

- Can I just call you back later?
- Just tell me where you are right now.

- Just tell me where you are.
- I'm on my way to Kang Woo's house.

I'm almost...

Jang Jae Yeol!

Jang Jae Yeol.

Get the sedative ready.

What do you mean, where am I?
I'm on my way there, too.

- Jae Bum, I might be a little late.
- What?

Why would you be late? You're
driving, while I have to walk.

Why?
Are you scared to see me?

Why would I be scared to see you?

The thought of grabbing a drink
with you makes me feel so happy.

[Han Kang Woo]

Hang on, Jae Bum.

Kang Woo, where are you right now?

I'm on my way home from school.

I can't talk for very long.

My mom is packing up for the move,
so I have to get home and help her.

Kang Woo.

Lets meet up so that we can talk.

Don't leave like this.

Where are you right now?

You have...

made me so happy.

I'm just a nobody...

but you still always took care of me.

You really made me feel special.

No other person in this world
has ever done that for me.

Just like...

what you did for your mom when
you won your competition...

I wanted to do the same for
my mom, and be a good son.

You know how much I
appreciate you, right?

Don't say those words, Kang Woo.

Don't say those goodbyes to me yet.

I'm sorry.
To be honest...

I found you burdensome.

That's why even though I knew
that you were struggling...

I haven't stopped by to see you..

I'm sorry.

I won't ever do that again, Kang Woo.
Kang Woo!

No!

Kang Woo...

Kang Woo.

Jae Yeol!

Jang Jae... Jang Jae Yeol.

Jang Jae Yeol.

Hye Soo.

Please... help Kang Woo.

I'm...

I'm fine...

Kang Woo...

Kang Woo... please help Kang Woo.

His Lou Gehrig's disease is an illness
that his subconscious created

in common with Kang Woo, along
with the other pains that he's feeling.

The illness and pain
are delusional.

It's proof that his mind is in
control over his weaker body.

So Nyeo told me that she thinks you're
really cool for not abandoning Jang Jae Yeol

and she wants to become
a doctor just like you.

'Ji Hye Soo is so cool!'

So I told her to shut her mouth for you.

Get some sleep.

After we've combined all the
factors and reviewed them together

it can be concluded that Jang Jae Yeol's
perception of reality has disintegrated.

It is more than likely that when he was
injured by his brother three years ago

his subconscious mind realized that
unless it was through his own death

he could never amend for what he had
done to his brother those many years ago.

That's when his hallucinations
of Kang Woo first started.

His subconscious mind is using Kang
Woo to lead him to his own death

by creating a storyline
for his own suicide.

He will be led to his own death while
attempting to save Kang Woo's life.

The reason why his subconscious mind
is choosing this accidental scenario

rather than just a suicidal
scenario is because

he feels that it would be less painful
for his mother, whom he loves deeply.

I also believe he feels that's the
best way he could amend for the injustice

done to his brother for having spent the
past 14 years of his life in prison.

What his subconscious
mind has created...

is also the best scenario to help his mom
maintain her current state of dissociation.

I'm not sure if having told Jang
Jae Bum everything that I knew

was the right thing to do or not.

We've already got the ball
rolling, so it's too late now.

- Thank you.
- Yes, goodbye.

I guess he does have a conscience.
He gave me every cent that he had.

That asshole.

Let my mom know that she's
the one who killed him.

Give my mom a shot of that Amytal
so that she can fix herself.

Giving a shot of Amytal to a person who's
lying will make them tell the truth.

But a person suffering from dissociation
erases the memory from their minds

so giving her a shot of Amytal is useless. If
you want her fixed, then fix her yourself.

I'm not a doctor.

A delinquent like you can fix her
better than a doctor like myself.

Go to your mom right now

and tell her the truth about everything,
and if it doesn't trigger her memory

then tell her again, over and over,
and help her regain her memories.

There is no medical evidence,
but who knows, maybe it'll work.

Hey.

Hey.

- Is that something a doctor should say?
- This is your family issue, you bastard.

This is about your little
brother, and your mom.

This is your decision to make,
as the head of your family.

Your little brother is
locked up in a hospital

because the sense of guilt he
feels has made him mentally ill.

As for your mom, she's lived her
whole life being physically abused

and the only person she has left now
is a bullying thug like yourself.

Isn't this enough to satisfy
your thirst for vengeance?

You think only your pain matters, and you
don't care about anyone else's pain.

You're like an immature three
year old with white hair.

Asshole!

You'd be dead right now if it
wasn't for that CCTV on your wall.

Dong Min! We can't just let
Jae Bum leave like that!

You need to stop him from leaving!

Go over to Jae Yeol's mom's house right now,
and take note of everything Jae Bum says

- and relay it back to me.
- Okay.

What?

Have you eaten?

You've been crying every day over Jae Yeol

but you're still curious to
know whether I've eaten or not?

Jae Yeol is in the hospital, and
I'm sure that he'll get better.

That's what all the doctors told me.

I believe that he will get better.

I'm making soybean paste soup tonight.
Do you want it with clams or meat?

Tell me, Jae Bum.

I know you like both the
clams and the meat.

Tell me what you'd like.

- What would you like in it?
- Clams, clams!

I hear that Doctor Ji isn't going to
be seeing any inpatients for awhile

and only going to be seeing
outpatients because of Jang Jae Yeol?

It seemed like some of his active symptoms
were diminishing a bit since yesterday.

He's been here for almost two weeks
already, so it's about time that they did.

Doctor Ji really is something else.

If it were me, I don't think I'd
be able to see any patients.

I know.

Ms. Choi Sung Eun.

What made you want to come
for a psychiatric evaluation

just from your inability to eat or sleep?

You're a very progressive thinker.

The neurologist keeps telling me
that there's nothing wrong with me

but I keep suffering
from those same issues.

When did you start suffering from
the inability to eat or sleep?

Do you hate being away from him that much?

Isn't sleeping in here uncomfortable?

No, it's not uncomfortable.

I used to have to sleep in the on-call
room during my internship and residency.

Compared to that, this is
like a five-star hotel room.

Why?
Are people saying things?

They're all worried about you.

But... I want you to know that
I'm reviewing all your patients.

It's at the hospital's request.
You understand, don't you?

I miss Jang Jae Yeol and want to see him.

When are you going to let me see him?

Just wait until he's more stable.

It's not just you.

But he's not allowed to see anyone,
including his mom or his brother.

We're going to have him watch
the CCTV footage later on.

Can you finally see why... we
forcibly admitted you in here?

You kept hurting yourself...

so we had no other choice.

Mom...

My mom...

didn't do anything wrong.

My mom didn't do anything wrong.

I know.

I feel...

so bad for Jae Bum.

I...

I...

Jae Yeol.

Where's Kang Woo right now?

Is Kang Woo here?

This is a hospital.

Not just anyone can get in here, so
why do you think Kang Woo is here?

Jae Yeol.

Why do you think that is?

I can't see him, but you can.

Kang Woo wasn't in any of the
footage that we looked at earlier.

But you're still seeing Kang Woo.

Something's not right.

You know that something isn't right...

but you think that you
can still see Kang Woo.

Then...

what do you think Kang Woo is?

Could he just be a hallucination
that your mind is creating?

No.

Kang Woo...

exists.

Because I'm...

the only one who believes in Kang Woo.

Other than me...

Kang Woo has no one.

If a kid doesn't have
anything to his name...

then everyone...

feels uncomfortable around
him, and tries to avoid him.

Do you think that I'd be the
same way as everyone else?

And Hye Soo?

Hye Soo...

I miss Hye Soo.

Is that how people behaved

when you and your mom
were getting beaten?

Did they feel uncomfortable
around you and try to avoid you?

And to Jae Bum, too.

Then Jae Yeol...

is Kang Woo you?

No.

Kang Woo...

is Kang Woo.

Even though the frequency
of his hallucinations

have decreased since we got him
started on his medication...

he still hasn't had
any breakthroughs yet.

He also thinks that it's weird that
no one can see Kang Woo but him

and he still believes
that Kang Woo is real.

He hasn't shown any symptoms of paranoia
which is often seen in schizophrenics

which is a very good sign.

But his obsession with Kang Woo is
greater than we had originally expected.

I don't think you'll be able
to see him for a while.

I'm leaving.

Jae Bum, come and eat.

Jae Bum, you have to eat.

I'm not eating.

Shouldn't we go in there and check on them?

Dong Min told me not to get in
between those two unless I have to.

He only wants me to keep an eye on them.

I haven't eaten anything all day.

What's wrong?
Do you not have an appetite?

Do you want me to make you some porridge?

- I know how much you like porridge.
- Seriously!

Ugh, stop your chattering! And why
do you keep wiping the floor?

The floor's already clean enough, but you
keep wiping it over, and over again!

Just go back and eat your dinner.

I've never had this before,
but it's really good.

You've got good taste buds.
It's a new menu item.

Are you sure that Hye Soo
broke up with Jae Yeol?

Yes.

Then why isn't she answering my calls?

Maybe her battery is dead,
or she could be busy, too.

Tell Hye Soo that if she's lying, then
she'll be burying me in the ground.

Make sure you relay the message to Hye Soo.

Tell her that both her mom and
her sister are very upset.

Tell her not to get any funny ideas.

I told you, they broke up.

Even though I may look slow,
I'm actually quite sharp.

I know that Hye Soo sent you
here to check up on us.

Taking care of a handicapped
father is tough enough.

Make sure to tell her that
Jae Yeol is not acceptable.

Welcome.
Have a seat over here.

What?

I asked if you'll help me with my
tuition when I go off to college

but you haven't given me an
answer, and you keep avoiding me.

Why would I pay for your tuition?
I'm your boyfriend, not your bank.

I don't lend anyone money,
even if I love that person.

You figure it out for yourself.

You don't like me anymore because my
friend from the other day told you

that you're handsome, right?

You think I'm like you?

Money issues are an individual's problem,
but we can still love each other.

That's all I'm saying.

Okay.

I love you, Park Soo Kwang.

I'm quitting, so today's my last day.

You can let your boss know that.

Well, Hye Soo's a doctor

so once Jang Jae Yeol is better...

Speaking like this is a handicap of mine.
Please understand.

It's time for your medication.

Good job.
Get some rest.

Nurse.

Am I...

really a schizophrenic?

You're showing great improvement.

Because love alone isn't
enough to get you through it.

To be honest, I still don't believe
that they'll be together forever.

But I still want to cheer them on.

It makes me think that seeing them
living happily ever after together

is going to help me believe that
love really does exist out there.

So that's why I light that candle
in prayer for them at the house.

I pray for God or anyone
else to help them.

It's a schizophrenic family that we
met recently at the care facility

and the patient had
a recent relapse.

So she's really down
on herself right now.

You can't ever let your guard
down around Hae Jin either.

You have to remain cautious at all
times for the rest of your life.

What is this?

How could you have improved this much?

I'm even back in school now.

Don't forget that you have
me to thank for all of this.

The internet is buzzing about
Author Jang Jae Yeol being mentally ill.

Were you aware of that?

I heard that he's in this hospital.

Yes, I know.
He's my boyfriend.

You should get going. I
have to get back to work.

Thanks for my gift.

Doctor Ji.

The countless number of patients
you helped cure...

don't forget that you did that, okay?

Stay strong.

- I'll be leaving now.
- Okay.

Go back home and wait for me there.
I'll come by when I'm done here.

Then I'll wait for you here.

Dad's stool is too loose.

Two liters per day for a
bedridden patient is too much.

Lower it to only one liter per day.

That should make things
easier for you, too.

You just worry about yourself.

- What about me?
- 'What about me?'

Jang Jae Yeol and I...

How dare you try to deceive me?

I was telling you the truth.

You're going to have to apologize to
me for slapping my face just now.

Because I really was telling the truth.

If that's the truth, then good.

But if it's not...

then know that you'll be getting it a
thousand times worse than what you just got.

- Mom.
- Don't say that you learned it from me.

Yoon Soo told me...

that you learned to be loyal to a man
after seeing my actions and behavior.

Is that true?

I'm sure that what I saw...

In all these years, is that the only thing
that you've ever witnessed about me?

Why are you forgetting the fact that
I had an affair with Mr. Kim because

I couldn't handle the burden
of being with your father?

Why are you forgetting
how I used to sneak out

of the house after putting you to
bed so that I can go meet Mr. Kim?

When I told you not to go to
medical school...

when I asked what was the use of you
going to medical school in our situation

and when I yelled and called
you selfish and heartless...

Why are you forgetting
about that, you fool?

If your dad hadn't gotten sick...

as a mom, do you think I would've asked
my own child not to pursue her studies?

Do you have any idea what it's like to
live with someone with an illness?

He can't recognize his own wife, and he
can't recognize his own kids either.

- Don't speak so harshly about dad.
- Your dad doesn't know anything!

I just slapped you and he
hasn't even come in here.

Believing that your dad just can't speak
while he's perfectly fine in the head...

that's just an illusion on my part.

I'm deceiving myself
just so that I can survive.

Mom.

Even if you don't call me that,
I will always be your mom.

Enough of that.

You have to end it for
good with Jang Jae Yeol.

I mean it.

Go.

Who told you to do the dishes?
Go!

Don't cry.

I can't tell Hye Soo to
live her life like I did.

Even if that hurts your feelings,
I still won't allow it.

I quit my job at the cafe.

What you said about having
ended it with Jang Jae Yeol...

I believe you completely.

You know that I only went to vocational
school because of you, right?

If you have any shred of decency
at all, then act accordingly.

Hye Soo, you can't do this.

Come on, Hye Soo.
Let's not do this.

He hasn't seen Kang Woo for
three days now? That's good.

Let me just check up on him.

Seeing you could stir up his feelings of
guilt and bring about another episode.

- Just endure it.
- Let me just see him.

I'll be suspended if Doctor Lee or the
Hospital Director finds out about it.

We can keep it our secret.

I won't say anything to Young Jin, and
you won't say anything to the Director.

Why, are you going to tell
the Director about this?

- Then wait outside his room.
- I want to be alone with him in his room.

You're quite ballsy now, aren't you?

You're not going to give in even when your
senior is begging you for this favor?

You're going to make a fine doctor someday.

Ten minutes.

Fifteen minutes.

Hi.

I changed the wallpaper
to a picture of you.

Let's take a look and see what
my boyfriend is reading.

When the wind blows over, then
let it just blow through.

When the loneliness takes over,
then let it just go out the door.

The pain will come, too.

The pain may linger around and stay.

It may stay around for
a while, then leave.

That's a really nice poem.

Jang Jae Yeol.

Just like it's written in this poem...

all this will pass, too.

You look well.

I...

I can't really get my words out.

Walking is difficult, too.

It's because of the medication.

I...

start to miss you...

then I feel myself getting sleepy.

Be patient for just a little while longer.

- It won't always be like this.
- Even now...

After not having seen you in so long...

I just want to make you smile and laugh...

but... I don't know how to do that.

I can't think of the words to do that.

It'll come back to you.

I wish I could hold you...

but I don't know if I'm allowed.

Aren't I so sexy right now?

Hye Soo.

Yeah?

Please...

let me out of here.

Being in here...

I don't feel like I'm 'me' anymore.

If seeing Kang Woo...

is an illness...

then I'll...

fix it on my own will.

Trust in me, and let me out of here.

I won't...

see Kang Woo ever again.

Being in here...

makes me feel too pitiful.

I hate feeling this way.

Please...

let me out of here.

Do you not want me to say things like this?

If I do...

are you going to leave me?

I'll be back again.

If I hang onto you...

then they'll probably
medicate me again, won't they?

You have to trust me.

Kang Woo is just a hallucination.
I'm real.

There's only one way for you to get better.

Even if you see Kang Woo

you have to know that he's just a
hallucination for you to get better.

You have to realize

that Kang Woo is a hallucination of your
own younger self that your mind created.

Being able to differentiate between
reality and your illusions

isn't something that doctors can do,
but only you, yourself, can do that.

I'll figure that out at home.

Don't call out my name when I
walk out of this room, okay?

That way, I can come back to you again.

Hye Soo.

Hye Soo.

Hye Soo.

Hye Soo.

You were right. I shouldn't
have gone to see him.

He just had another episode.

Tell Young Jin not to lower his dosage.

If anything, I think his
dosage needs to be increased.

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Take a good, close look
at Kang Woo, and see it.

See that he's just a hallucination and
an illusion that your mind has created.

How many years has it
been since you and I met?

Author Jang!

You can find it. I know
that you can find it.

Goodbye... Jang Jae Yeol.