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I've spent my whole life fighting.
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First my family, then my record
company, then my two wives,
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and my dear father.
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The hardest fight
has been with my own demons.
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That made me who I am.
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...songs from pain
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Some songs were done by chosen me
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Some from men insane...
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Tonight I am so proud to have
the greatest singer in the world
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in the auditorium tonight.
It's Marvin Gaye!
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Let the good times roll
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Let the good times roll
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Distant lover, baby
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Distant lover
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Oh, oh, baby...
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I've known since childhood
I'd be in show business,
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but not until much later
that I'd be an artist,
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writing songs that are my life story
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About relationships
and...separations.
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Oh, baby
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Honey, please
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Come back
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Ooh
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Come back home, little darlin'...
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When I was a child,
I used to have these dreams -
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there was a sea of humanity
and I was performing for them.
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I was singing for what seemed like
millions of people,
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and towards the end of this dream,
which I dreamed often as a child,
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I was acclaimed the greatest singer
on Earth.
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I dreamed that constantly.
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Father was a man of
"spare the rod, spoil the child".
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And he never spared the rod.
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He was very, very, very strict.
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So we all were punished if we did
things that my father didn't like.
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And I think one of the problems that
my father had with my brother was
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that he didn't realise that Marvin
was a free spirit.
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He doesn't like to be chained
or bound.
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Father, stop
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Criticising your son...
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Sometimes, we would have to undress
down to our underwear,
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cos he thought
the clothing got in the way.
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My goodness, I knew my heart would
sink, cos I knew he was in trouble.
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Father liked mind games.
He played with me.
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He'd make me wait up to an hour
while he jangled that belt buckle
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just loud enough.
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There was something inside him
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enjoying the pain he caused
the whole family.
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Everybody wants somebody
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To be their own piece of clay...
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It was like the Oedipus story
transposed to Washington DC.
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Only ours was a fight for the love
of my mother
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between son and father.
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Marvin's dad was the Gestapo. What we
would call him was
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holier-than-thou disciplinarian.
You know what I mean by that?
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He would always recite something
from the Bible.
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One thing we used to remember,
he would always tell Marvin
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he didn't know where he came from.
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"I don't know where you came from,
boy! You're not mine!
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"There's too much of the devil
in you."
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So there's this whole
painful dynamic,
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and I think as Marvin grew older,
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when he was looking
for paternal love,
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paternal attention, he would do it
through provocation.
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I had learned from experience
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that my fight to win love would
always be accompanied by pain.
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The punishment and guilt that Father
inflicted on us was reflected
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in our church,
where he was preacher.
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A mix of Jewish Orthodox severity
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and black Pentecostal joy.
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HORN BLOWS
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I understood that, in my life,
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the pleasures of the devil were
going to give the joys of God.
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Some mighty stiff competition.
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THEY SING HYMN
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He carried the extremes of his
childhood church,
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the fundamentalist Pentecostal
attitude of all or nothing,
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of doom or total ecstasy,
throughout his entire life.
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Our father
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Which art in Heaven
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Hallowed be Thy name...
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I think we have two sets of gods
in us,
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and I think we have to decide which
we are going to serve.
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It's simple as that.
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Deliver us from evil
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For Thine is the kingdom
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And the power
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And the glory
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Forever...
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The Lord's music in Marvin's mind
was at odds with the Devil's music.
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The Devil's music was defined
by Marvin's dad.
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Marvin went from the Lord's Prayer
to doo-wop.
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Ba-ba-ba-ba
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I knew from the start
That you were the only girl for me
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And I knew from the start...
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Doo-wop groups, with their sharp
clothes and their sharper harmonies,
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always fascinated me,
but Father was convinced
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that my joining the Moonglows
would be a terrible mistake.
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And his voice telling me,
"No, no, no," haunted me.
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My Mama Loochie
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She's a brand new coochie
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Ding-dong baby...
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So I left home
with my mother's blessing
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and hooked up with Harvey Fuqua,
leader of the Moonglows.
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We worked the road for a year or so
and then moved towards Detroit.
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Hey, yeah
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She can dance
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And she can sing...
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Motown Records was unique
at that time.
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A black-owned record company run
with a fist of iron
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by its pugilistic boss Berry Gordy.
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We didn't do music to preach
or to...
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tell people what they should do.
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We were really... Our focus
was on good music.
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Naturally, we were in business and we
wanted to make everybody hear it.
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Marvin's new Motown family
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offered him a replacement father
figure in Berry Gordy.
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Over the years,
they'd fight about everything.
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Patience is a virtue
That's what I've been told...
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But you must understand, at that
time, I was totally obscure
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as an artist, and I hadn't even had
a single record or anything.
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I was just a studio musician,
a session musician,
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drummer and songwriter, trying to
hustle my way round Motown,
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to get started.
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We just thought of Motown being the
greatest place in the world to be.
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It was the place,
if you wanted the opportunity
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of accomplishing your dream,
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reaching your goals, musically,
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that Motown was the place to be.
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And most of the people that came
to Berry Gordy at that time
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has absolutely no clue
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of what we were to do
and how we were to achieve it.
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We were expecting Berry Gordy
to make us over,
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to make us a star.
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And Marvin knew how, in his music
and his moves and his actions,
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with his eyes, with his hands,
with his body language, period.
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Make you feel so good
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Hitch hike
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Hitch like Marvin
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Hitch like Susan Woo!
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Hitch like Marvin
Hitch like Susan...
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It wasn't shaking my ass on stage
that made me a star,
that's for sure.
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Motown never understood it was my
voice that people wanted to buy.
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Hitch hike, baby
Yeah, it's all right
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Bye-bye, baby...
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Motown producers cut everything as
high as they could for anybody.
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On all those records, I was just
discovering my voice,
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and they were killing me with them,
and the keys were atrocious.
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He would give us a lot of mouth,
a lot of lip
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about, "You're cutting me
in these keys!
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"I can't sing this stuff like this!"
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Then he would sing and he would take
the demo and transform...
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He'd start sliding into falsetto
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and the parts that were too high,
he'd scream it out.
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And he would subtly make
the song his own.
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Ooh, baby
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I needed the shelter
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Of someone's arms
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And there you were
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I needed someone
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To understand my ups and downs
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And there you were
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With sweet love and devotion
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Deeply touching my emotions
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I wanna stop Stop
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And thank you, baby
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I want to stop Stop
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And thank you, baby
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Yeah, now
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How sweet it is to be loved
by you...
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He gave you a spice of life
in his voice, that you heard.
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You heard the pain and the anguish.
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And the sweet and the love,
cos he would got from hot to cold
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and meet lukewarm... You would get
all of these different feelings.
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How sweet it is to be loved
by you
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Ooh, baby
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I needed the shelter
of someone's arms...
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In terms of the black
record-buying public,
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I think I broke through
rather early,
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although I couldn't sell
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near the volume of records
that my contemporaries could.
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During the '60s,
there was a struggle
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for black music acceptance
amongst whites.
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Before Berry Gordy,
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it was thought of as not
particularly chic
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to have black record collections
in your homes, if you were white.
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Motown has done a great deal to
alleviate that.
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There was enough rhythm and blues
interjected into their music
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for white record buyers to say,
"This is good black music,
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"because we can recognise a bit of
ourselves in it."
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Which I think is the secret
to many things in life -
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if you're clever enough
and you want to reach people,
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you have to try to give them
a taste of themselves.
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You are my pride and joy
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And I just love you
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Love you, darlin'
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Like a baby boy
loves his toy...
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The lyrics of my songs are always
about what's happening in my life.
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Right then, I was head over heels
in love with Anna Gordy,
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the boss's sister.
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She was 17 years older than I, but
I just wrote what I felt about her.
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Pride and joy
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I believe I'm no Baby boy
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Baby boy Baby boy
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And I know you're mine
My pride and joy
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Yeah, baby
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Yeah, baby...
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Oh, he was always good looking
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and he was always flirting around
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and jostling with me.
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And I don't really know, cos,
you know, I was kind of...
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a hard-to-get person.
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And everybody knew that, and...
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I think they thought
he was the one to get after me.
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I believe one of the reasons Marvin
was attracted to his wife
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was because I think she reminded
him of his mother.
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And then I'm sure the fact that
she was the sister of the president
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of the record company
didn't hurt any either!
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He knew that if he married the boss's
sister, that the boss would look
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at him a little differently
and do more for him
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than if he hadn't married his sister.
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Cos I got to get my hands
on some loving...
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Anna appreciated my every move.
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When we were married, she knew what
she wanted, and got it.
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But I also knew what I wanted,
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never mind what other artists
thought.
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We didn't say very much
because it was Berry Gordy's sister.
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So we accepted it, we just thought
it was a shame it wasn't us.
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All of us were jealous and resented
the fact that he married Anna.
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They used to call Motown Records
"Patent Place".
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There was always talk
about Marvin being gay.
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"Look at his last name".
That's really ignorance.
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I said, "Look in your phone book,
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"you'll find lots of gay people
then!" That's stupidity.
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People would be very cruel,
they'd say very unkind things.
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And so, without the "E"...
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..it would give people reason to say,
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"Hm!"
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So Marvin decided he would put
an "E" on his name.
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And he did this
to silence the gossips
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and to distance himself
from his father's name.
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Marvin's father was the weird one.
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When you're a kid, you sneak
and look in people's houses.
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Marvin's dad had this thing where we
would see him putting on stockings,
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garter belts,
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you know, underwear.
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We didn't understand why.
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Father liked to wear
women's clothing.
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It may have been
just to embarrass me
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but there were times
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his hair was long and curled
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and he seemed determined
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to show the world
the girl inside of himself.
253
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Marvin seeing his dad, who on
one hand was a charismatic preacher
254
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and on the other hand
was a cross-dresser
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was a source of great confusion
for him.
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It was something he felt
he inherited in his DNA
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that he didn't want there.
258
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So...a lot of what Marvin
did in later life,
259
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in searching for a macho role, the
boxer, the athlete, was a reaction
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to his dad's effeminate demeanour.
261
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On the inside of Marvin...
262
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lived...three people.
263
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There was the spirit man Marvin
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that was sensitive and kind
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and spiritual.
266
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There was the other Marvin
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that was the star
268
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and there was the Marvin
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that WAS the Stubborn Kind Of Fellow
270
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so you're going to have
confrontation.
271
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And I'm not moving from here
until I get what I want.
272
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Oooh
273
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Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
274
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I try to put my arms around you
275
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All because I wanna hold you tight
To hold you tight
276
00:18:12,320 --> 00:18:16,320
But every time I reach for you,
baby, and try to kiss you
277
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You jump out of sight Out of sight
278
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Hey now, I've got news for you
279
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Don't you know
I've made plans for two
280
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I guess I'm a stubborn
kind of fellow
281
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Got my mind made up to love you
282
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Oooh-ooh-ooh
283
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Baby, yeah-yeah-yeah,
yeah-yeah-yeah
284
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Hey-eh
285
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Yeah!
286
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Yeah-yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah-yeah
287
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Whoo!
288
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Marvin was a good storyteller so
you would imagine...what you wanted
to imagine, he would make you feel.
289
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All of that came out
in the performance, in his voice,
290
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he would adjust his tones
291
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to fit whatever
we were talking about.
292
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So everybody would get a sense
of, "I've been there, I can relate."
293
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Marvin would do anything to...
294
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..to captivate an audience.
295
00:19:16,000 --> 00:19:19,480
And he would captivate us
in the studio the same way
296
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because he was a music SELLER.
297
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You sell yourself.
298
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I was a bit spoiled,
I was a prima donna,
299
00:19:29,000 --> 00:19:31,720
I was the president's brother-in-law
300
00:19:31,720 --> 00:19:33,920
and I was rather ridiculous
about things.
301
00:19:33,920 --> 00:19:37,120
I've always had a big ego problem.
302
00:19:37,120 --> 00:19:40,520
And I was going anyway,
in my mind,
303
00:19:40,520 --> 00:19:43,800
I was better than everybody,
anywhere.
304
00:19:43,800 --> 00:19:48,680
I seemed to enjoy being able
to say, "I don't have to do that.
305
00:19:48,680 --> 00:19:50,720
"You guys do that."
306
00:19:50,720 --> 00:19:54,120
Most people think Marvin Gaye
was this great artist.
307
00:19:54,120 --> 00:19:56,280
Ah, he could do that, do that.
308
00:19:56,280 --> 00:19:59,160
He was a great artist -
in the studio.
309
00:20:01,040 --> 00:20:04,680
When it came to the stage,
Marvin couldn't dance a lick.
310
00:20:04,680 --> 00:20:07,160
Couldn't pat his foot on
the two and four.
311
00:20:08,960 --> 00:20:13,120
He pat his foot...excuse me,
he pat his foot like a white boy.
312
00:20:17,320 --> 00:20:22,080
He had, what I'd call,
performance anxiety in many areas.
313
00:20:22,080 --> 00:20:27,400
And I think that came
from being insecure about himself
314
00:20:27,400 --> 00:20:29,120
and his image.
315
00:20:29,120 --> 00:20:33,000
Quiet nights and quiet stars
316
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Quiet chords from my guitar
317
00:20:38,040 --> 00:20:42,800
Floating on the silence
that surrounds us...
318
00:20:45,080 --> 00:20:49,040
He had this thing in his head
about being more of a balladeer.
319
00:20:49,040 --> 00:20:51,280
He wanted to follow in the footsteps
320
00:20:51,280 --> 00:20:55,120
of the Frank Sinatras and the
Dean Martins and the Tony Bennetts.
321
00:20:56,360 --> 00:20:59,360
I who was lost and lonely
322
00:21:00,400 --> 00:21:04,040
Believing life was only
323
00:21:04,720 --> 00:21:06,600
A bitter, tragic joke
324
00:21:06,600 --> 00:21:10,360
Have found with you
325
00:21:12,600 --> 00:21:15,160
The meaning of existence
326
00:21:15,160 --> 00:21:16,920
Oh, my love...
327
00:21:16,920 --> 00:21:22,000
The problem was nobody bought
my smooth crooner records.
328
00:21:22,000 --> 00:21:24,200
Motown hated them.
329
00:21:24,200 --> 00:21:28,320
We fought repeatedly
about my image.
330
00:21:28,320 --> 00:21:31,920
But concealed behind that ego
331
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and his heartthrob image,
332
00:21:35,000 --> 00:21:38,800
Marvin was going through
all kinds of hell.
333
00:21:38,800 --> 00:21:42,600
He had a very complicated
relationship to...
334
00:21:42,600 --> 00:21:43,720
er...women,
335
00:21:43,720 --> 00:21:47,400
particularly to Anna, his wife.
336
00:21:47,400 --> 00:21:51,200
And his life was full of betrayal,
337
00:21:51,200 --> 00:21:53,840
most of which was his own invention.
338
00:21:53,840 --> 00:21:55,760
And you know,
339
00:21:55,760 --> 00:21:59,120
Marvin even went as far
as going to motels
340
00:21:59,120 --> 00:22:02,600
where he was convinced
Anna was having an affair
341
00:22:02,600 --> 00:22:06,160
and he would show up at motels
in the middle of the night,
342
00:22:06,160 --> 00:22:08,160
knocking on doors.
343
00:22:08,160 --> 00:22:11,080
So he needed this kind of drama
344
00:22:11,080 --> 00:22:15,480
to excite his creative imagination.
345
00:22:15,480 --> 00:22:19,840
Oh, I heard it
through the grapevine
346
00:22:19,840 --> 00:22:23,480
And I'm just about to lose my mind
347
00:22:23,480 --> 00:22:26,840
Honey, honey, well...
348
00:22:26,840 --> 00:22:29,760
Grapevine was my first
number one hit.
349
00:22:29,760 --> 00:22:32,600
I believed every word of that song.
350
00:22:32,600 --> 00:22:34,440
It was happening to me.
351
00:22:34,440 --> 00:22:37,560
The doubting,
the friends whispering in my ear,
352
00:22:37,560 --> 00:22:39,760
the suspicions.
353
00:22:39,760 --> 00:22:43,880
People say believe
half of what you see
354
00:22:43,880 --> 00:22:48,040
Son, and none of what you hear
355
00:22:48,040 --> 00:22:52,120
But I can't help bein' confused
356
00:22:52,120 --> 00:22:56,400
If it's true, please tell me, dear
357
00:22:56,400 --> 00:23:00,440
Do you plan to let me go
358
00:23:00,440 --> 00:23:04,440
For the other guy
you loved before?
359
00:23:04,440 --> 00:23:08,440
Don't you know
I heard it through the grapevine
360
00:23:08,440 --> 00:23:12,840
Not much longer would you be mine,
baby...
361
00:23:12,840 --> 00:23:17,160
To help cement
his troubled marriage with Anna,
362
00:23:17,160 --> 00:23:20,960
and also to tie him
to the family home,
363
00:23:20,960 --> 00:23:27,160
they adopted a child
they called Marvin Pentz Gaye III
364
00:23:27,160 --> 00:23:29,800
after Marvin's dad.
365
00:23:34,680 --> 00:23:36,720
As big as my dad was,
366
00:23:36,720 --> 00:23:39,440
he never played the big shot.
367
00:23:39,440 --> 00:23:43,080
He always came in as the underdog.
368
00:23:43,080 --> 00:23:49,800
He...times were very normal as far
as what normal is that I know of.
369
00:23:49,800 --> 00:23:52,520
He wanted domestic happiness,
370
00:23:52,520 --> 00:23:56,040
he wanted simple domestic happiness.
371
00:23:56,040 --> 00:24:00,040
One woman, his children,
an uncomplicated home life.
372
00:24:00,040 --> 00:24:01,960
But at the very same time,
373
00:24:01,960 --> 00:24:07,000
he did all he could to undermine
that happiness.
374
00:24:07,000 --> 00:24:09,600
In the years leading up
to Grapevine,
375
00:24:09,600 --> 00:24:13,560
there'd been plenty of gossip about
what I was up to behind Anna's back.
376
00:24:13,560 --> 00:24:17,440
Berry had paired me with some
pretty glamorous singing partners
377
00:24:17,440 --> 00:24:19,600
for a series of duet albums.
378
00:24:19,600 --> 00:24:23,200
First Mary Wells
and then Kim Weston.
379
00:24:23,200 --> 00:24:25,120
He was a perfect gentleman,
380
00:24:25,120 --> 00:24:27,000
first of all.
381
00:24:27,000 --> 00:24:29,440
But he was very shy,
382
00:24:29,640 --> 00:24:32,080
he was rather insecure.
383
00:24:32,080 --> 00:24:35,880
And, er...when they say a ladies man,
384
00:24:35,880 --> 00:24:39,760
they mean that the ladies
ran after him.
385
00:24:39,760 --> 00:24:43,040
I think Marvin, on some level,
was scared of women.
386
00:24:43,040 --> 00:24:47,760
He was scared of aggressive women
- he didn't like aggressive women.
387
00:24:47,760 --> 00:24:52,800
The ones who never had a chance were
the ones who were most assertive.
388
00:24:52,800 --> 00:24:55,440
After my first two partners
left Motown,
389
00:24:55,440 --> 00:24:58,040
I was paired with Tammy Terrell.
390
00:24:58,040 --> 00:25:02,120
Tammy was vulnerable
and misunderstood -
391
00:25:02,120 --> 00:25:04,640
my perfect partner.
392
00:25:04,640 --> 00:25:09,440
..or winter cold can stop me, baby
393
00:25:09,440 --> 00:25:11,040
No, no, baby
394
00:25:11,040 --> 00:25:12,680
Cos you are my goal
395
00:25:12,680 --> 00:25:15,600
If you're ever in trouble,
I'll be there on the double
396
00:25:15,600 --> 00:25:19,240
Just send for me Oh, baby
397
00:25:19,240 --> 00:25:21,880
My love is alive
398
00:25:21,880 --> 00:25:23,840
Way down in my heart
399
00:25:23,840 --> 00:25:26,040
Although we are miles apart
400
00:25:26,040 --> 00:25:29,200
If you ever need a helping hand
401
00:25:29,200 --> 00:25:32,880
I'll be there on the double
just as fast as I can
402
00:25:32,880 --> 00:25:37,320
BOTH: Don't you know that there
ain't no mountain high enough
403
00:25:37,320 --> 00:25:40,800
Ain't no valley low enough
404
00:25:40,800 --> 00:25:44,480
Ain't no river wide enough
405
00:25:44,480 --> 00:25:48,840
To keep me from getting to you,
babe...
406
00:25:48,840 --> 00:25:52,920
My singing partnerships at Motown
were all fragile affairs.
407
00:25:52,920 --> 00:25:55,480
After Tammy collapsed in my arms
408
00:25:55,480 --> 00:25:59,840
and later died of a brain tumour,
I had to stop.
409
00:25:59,840 --> 00:26:04,880
Behind its glossy images,
I could see the bottom line
410
00:26:04,880 --> 00:26:07,280
of what this business
was really about.
411
00:26:07,280 --> 00:26:12,600
After Tammy died, Marvin didn't
perform for four years.
412
00:26:12,600 --> 00:26:15,760
And the music they had created
together,
413
00:26:15,760 --> 00:26:18,040
those wonderful hits,
414
00:26:18,040 --> 00:26:21,360
and the image they had created
as a couple,
415
00:26:21,360 --> 00:26:24,800
which was the image of innocence,
416
00:26:24,800 --> 00:26:27,960
was all about to change.
417
00:26:29,920 --> 00:26:33,680
SIRENS WAIL
418
00:26:36,320 --> 00:26:40,000
The social turmoil,
the violence of those years,
419
00:26:40,000 --> 00:26:43,080
was happening all around here.
420
00:26:43,080 --> 00:26:47,800
Inside me too, where my own problems
were burning me up.
421
00:26:54,120 --> 00:26:56,920
Meanwhile, on the other side
of the world,
422
00:26:56,920 --> 00:27:00,960
my own family was fighting
and dying for Uncle Sam.
423
00:27:05,000 --> 00:27:09,760
I think it was around 1969, 1970,
424
00:27:09,760 --> 00:27:11,800
when I stopped thinking so much
425
00:27:11,800 --> 00:27:13,840
about my erotic fantasies
426
00:27:13,840 --> 00:27:16,280
and I started to...
427
00:27:16,280 --> 00:27:18,640
think about the war in Vietnam
with my brother
428
00:27:18,640 --> 00:27:20,480
who used to tell me...
429
00:27:20,480 --> 00:27:24,720
he'd respond with some pretty
horrible stories about the war.
430
00:27:24,720 --> 00:27:27,640
I became quite affected by it.
431
00:27:27,640 --> 00:27:32,320
What's going on? What's going on?
432
00:27:32,320 --> 00:27:35,600
What's going on? What's going on?
Yeah, what's going on?
433
00:27:35,600 --> 00:27:37,760
Frankie told me
434
00:27:37,760 --> 00:27:40,880
that he used to sit up night
after night with Marvin
435
00:27:40,880 --> 00:27:43,560
and they'd go back and forth
discussing
436
00:27:43,560 --> 00:27:47,160
all the horrors in Vietnam
and how unnecessary the war was
437
00:27:47,160 --> 00:27:51,120
and all the innocent people
being hurt
438
00:27:51,120 --> 00:27:53,480
and how sad it was.
439
00:27:53,480 --> 00:27:57,200
And the two of them
used to sit there and cry.
440
00:28:01,040 --> 00:28:02,600
Hang in there, baby
441
00:28:09,120 --> 00:28:11,640
Mother, mother
442
00:28:11,640 --> 00:28:12,720
Thank you
443
00:28:12,720 --> 00:28:17,120
There's too
many of you crying
444
00:28:18,920 --> 00:28:22,600
Brother, brother, brother
445
00:28:22,600 --> 00:28:27,200
There's far too many of you dying
446
00:28:27,200 --> 00:28:31,560
You know we've got to find a way
447
00:28:33,160 --> 00:28:38,600
To bring some lovin' here today
448
00:28:38,600 --> 00:28:39,880
Oh, baby
449
00:28:39,880 --> 00:28:42,880
Father, father
450
00:28:42,880 --> 00:28:49,800
We don't need to escalate, oh baby
451
00:28:49,800 --> 00:28:53,720
War is not the answer
452
00:28:53,720 --> 00:28:57,920
Only love can conquer hate
453
00:28:59,200 --> 00:29:02,120
You know we've got
to find a way...
454
00:29:02,120 --> 00:29:06,560
There was a great deal of unrest
in there...but in any event,
455
00:29:06,560 --> 00:29:10,280
it caused me to look at society,
take a hard look at society,
456
00:29:10,280 --> 00:29:13,040
and something happened with me
during that period
457
00:29:13,040 --> 00:29:18,720
and I felt a strong urge to write
music and to write lyrics
458
00:29:18,720 --> 00:29:21,320
that would touch the souls of men.
459
00:29:21,320 --> 00:29:23,960
Oh, what's going on?
What's going on?
460
00:29:23,960 --> 00:29:26,320
What's going on? What's going on?
461
00:29:26,320 --> 00:29:28,040
Yeah, what's going on?
462
00:29:28,040 --> 00:29:30,440
What's Going On was my masterpiece,
463
00:29:30,440 --> 00:29:33,760
made with the help of God
and the recording studio.
464
00:29:33,760 --> 00:29:35,720
That was the one place
465
00:29:35,720 --> 00:29:39,560
I knew I could control
the forces of chaos around me.
466
00:29:39,560 --> 00:29:43,920
At last I felt free to make things
happen the way I wanted.
467
00:29:43,920 --> 00:29:48,880
Right on, right on,
ay-ay-ay-ay-ay...
468
00:29:48,880 --> 00:29:53,120
Marvin was in total control
of his production - dictator.
469
00:29:53,120 --> 00:29:57,120
Everything was dictated.
He would dictate to the musicians,
470
00:29:57,120 --> 00:30:00,320
dictated to me,
dictated to the singers.
471
00:30:00,320 --> 00:30:04,400
Whatever he wanted to do,
he was total control, total control.
472
00:30:04,400 --> 00:30:08,440
And he knew what he wanted, cos
it was not a typical Motown sound.
473
00:30:08,440 --> 00:30:12,320
It was not typical love songs
that Motown were putting out.
474
00:30:12,320 --> 00:30:18,400
It was an album about what man
is doing to the ecology,
what man is doing to himself.
475
00:30:18,400 --> 00:30:23,040
Oh, make me wanna holler
And throw up both my hands
476
00:30:23,040 --> 00:30:26,120
Yeah, it make me wanna holler
477
00:30:26,120 --> 00:30:29,680
And throw up both my hands Ow!
478
00:30:29,680 --> 00:30:34,520
Crime is increasing
479
00:30:34,520 --> 00:30:39,320
Trigger-happy policing
480
00:30:39,320 --> 00:30:44,440
Panic is spreading
481
00:30:44,440 --> 00:30:49,040
God knows where we're heading
482
00:30:49,040 --> 00:30:52,400
Oh, dah-dah, dah-dah, dah-dah
483
00:30:52,400 --> 00:30:55,360
Dah-dah, dah, dah-dah
484
00:30:55,360 --> 00:30:58,200
Dah, dah-dah, dah-dah
485
00:30:58,200 --> 00:31:01,280
Dah-dah, dah, dah-dah...
486
00:31:01,280 --> 00:31:06,280
He wanted to do something
talking about police brutality,
487
00:31:06,280 --> 00:31:12,640
the Vietnam War, um,
all the things that, um...
488
00:31:12,640 --> 00:31:15,360
that were bad in our society.
489
00:31:15,360 --> 00:31:21,720
And I was just very scared that
he was going to ruin his image.
490
00:31:21,720 --> 00:31:25,600
And many times it sort of spilled
over into personal disagreements
491
00:31:25,600 --> 00:31:29,000
and in some cases some violent,
semi-violent disagreements,
492
00:31:29,000 --> 00:31:32,520
between Berry and myself,
politically speaking.
493
00:31:33,680 --> 00:31:37,880
It should have been my moment
of artistic triumph
494
00:31:37,880 --> 00:31:42,960
but Berry's supporters
in the Motown marketing meetings
ridiculed What's Going On.
495
00:31:44,680 --> 00:31:48,240
They trashed it,
they threw it in the garbage can.
496
00:31:48,240 --> 00:31:51,720
Said it wasn't no good,
it wasn't nothin'.
497
00:31:51,720 --> 00:31:55,520
You know? Because they didn't have
anything like it to compare with it.
498
00:31:55,520 --> 00:32:01,160
Obviously, I learned a great deal
because the album
was What's Going On,
499
00:32:01,160 --> 00:32:04,560
probably the greatest piece of work
that Motown has ever put out.
500
00:32:04,560 --> 00:32:08,400
Father, father
Father, father
501
00:32:08,400 --> 00:32:12,880
We don't need to escalate
Father, father
502
00:32:12,880 --> 00:32:17,440
Oh, baby
War is not the answer
503
00:32:17,440 --> 00:32:22,760
Only love can conquer hate...
504
00:32:22,760 --> 00:32:26,080
When he calls out "Father, father",
505
00:32:26,080 --> 00:32:31,280
Marvin is really calling on God
AND his earthly father for support.
506
00:32:31,280 --> 00:32:34,360
Father Gaye should have been proud
507
00:32:34,360 --> 00:32:37,560
but the man was eaten up with envy.
508
00:32:37,560 --> 00:32:41,920
For Marvin's album, in truth,
was a much better sermon
509
00:32:41,920 --> 00:32:46,680
than his father ever preached,
and certainly a more rewarding one.
510
00:32:47,880 --> 00:32:51,280
Marvin brought home an attache case
511
00:32:51,280 --> 00:32:53,840
with a million dollars in it.
512
00:32:53,840 --> 00:32:58,840
And when he threw it
on the bed and said,
"What do you think now, Father?"
513
00:32:58,840 --> 00:33:01,680
Um, he says,
514
00:33:01,680 --> 00:33:07,440
"I still say,
what does it profit a man to gain
the whole world and lose his soul?"
515
00:33:07,440 --> 00:33:10,680
No matter where Marvin was,
516
00:33:10,680 --> 00:33:16,440
no matter what stage of his life
or his career,
517
00:33:16,440 --> 00:33:19,800
he continued to be haunted
by his dad,
518
00:33:19,800 --> 00:33:24,080
he continued to hear
his father's voice ask him,
519
00:33:24,080 --> 00:33:28,440
"Why are you doing this? Why aren't
you preaching? Where's your church?
520
00:33:28,440 --> 00:33:31,520
"Why are you singing
the wrong kind of music?"
521
00:33:31,520 --> 00:33:36,960
As long as I know you have
a humble mind and as long
as you know there's a God upstairs
522
00:33:36,960 --> 00:33:42,200
and you can call on him,
and respect the people,
I think you are a wonderful person.
523
00:33:45,240 --> 00:33:48,640
I needed space
from both my father's warnings
524
00:33:48,640 --> 00:33:53,480
and from Berry Gordy, the surrogate
father of my Motown family.
525
00:33:53,480 --> 00:33:55,960
It was time to strike out.
526
00:33:57,040 --> 00:33:59,600
Marvin loved combat.
527
00:33:59,600 --> 00:34:03,520
He didn't know how to go
from one stage in his life
528
00:34:03,520 --> 00:34:06,480
to another without combat.
529
00:34:06,480 --> 00:34:10,320
So that, rather than leave Motown
530
00:34:10,320 --> 00:34:15,280
with good understanding
and goodwill and peacefully,
531
00:34:15,280 --> 00:34:19,320
he had to fight his way
out of the company, in his own mind.
532
00:34:24,160 --> 00:34:30,280
I put distance between us
when I uprooted to the brighter
skies of Los Angeles.
533
00:34:30,280 --> 00:34:36,360
I was still under contract
to Motown but I was free now
to record whatever I wanted.
534
00:34:36,360 --> 00:34:40,880
I wrote a soundtrack for a movie
and called it Troubled Man.
535
00:34:40,880 --> 00:34:43,880
MUSIC: "Troubled Man" by Marvin Gaye
536
00:34:48,960 --> 00:34:52,000
APPLAUSE
537
00:34:53,040 --> 00:34:58,080
Now Marvin made the biggest
turnaround any artist ever made.
538
00:34:58,080 --> 00:35:01,520
From anthems of political protest
539
00:35:01,520 --> 00:35:04,600
to ballads about love,
540
00:35:04,600 --> 00:35:06,400
physical love.
541
00:35:07,880 --> 00:35:12,440
I've been really tryin', baby
542
00:35:12,440 --> 00:35:18,560
Tryin' to hold back this feeling
so long
543
00:35:18,560 --> 00:35:23,560
And if you feel like I feel, baby
544
00:35:23,560 --> 00:35:28,600
Then come on, oh, come on, ooh
545
00:35:28,600 --> 00:35:33,000
And let's get it on
CHEERS
546
00:35:33,000 --> 00:35:37,520
Oh, baby, let's get it on
547
00:35:37,520 --> 00:35:40,760
Let's love, baby
548
00:35:40,760 --> 00:35:45,880
Let's get it on, oh, sugar
549
00:35:45,880 --> 00:35:50,680
Let's get it on
550
00:35:50,680 --> 00:35:54,160
Hoo, hoo-oo...
551
00:35:54,160 --> 00:35:59,040
I'd left behind all the constraints
of Motown and my marriage.
552
00:35:59,040 --> 00:36:03,640
My new life was a roller coaster
ride of parties, drugs
553
00:36:03,640 --> 00:36:07,160
and one-night stands.
554
00:36:07,160 --> 00:36:11,720
Until I met a 17-year-old
called Janice Hunter.
555
00:36:11,720 --> 00:36:15,360
We met in 1973 in Hollywood.
556
00:36:15,360 --> 00:36:19,960
And...something magical happened
557
00:36:19,960 --> 00:36:24,320
when we...when our eyes met.
558
00:36:24,320 --> 00:36:28,840
And it sounds a little corny but
it was really, for me, it was love
at first sight.
559
00:36:28,840 --> 00:36:32,360
And he told me later that it was
love at first sight for him too.
560
00:36:32,360 --> 00:36:36,800
I just want to show you
all my love
561
00:36:36,800 --> 00:36:40,000
All my love, all of the love
562
00:36:40,000 --> 00:36:43,680
I feel for you, baby, oh...
563
00:36:43,680 --> 00:36:46,480
I remember the first time
he drove me home,
564
00:36:46,480 --> 00:36:48,520
the first time he kissed me.
565
00:36:48,520 --> 00:36:52,000
And we were standing
at the bottom of my stairs
566
00:36:52,000 --> 00:36:55,200
and he took my face in his hands...
567
00:36:56,600 --> 00:37:00,880
..and I thought he was going
to kiss me on the lips,
and he kissed me on my forehead
568
00:37:00,880 --> 00:37:04,040
and it was one of the sweetest kisses
I've ever had.
569
00:37:04,040 --> 00:37:08,360
And that was really the beginning
of our relationship.
570
00:37:08,360 --> 00:37:12,360
You know I love you, baby
571
00:37:12,360 --> 00:37:15,960
You know I love you so much
572
00:37:15,960 --> 00:37:18,520
Oh, that's much better baby...
573
00:37:18,520 --> 00:37:21,560
Let's Get It On,
it was straight-up sexual.
574
00:37:21,560 --> 00:37:25,960
It was about sexual freedom,
it was about his sexual freedom,
575
00:37:25,960 --> 00:37:30,640
it was about what he felt about
men and women and being physical
576
00:37:30,640 --> 00:37:33,480
and he was not afraid
to express any of it.
577
00:37:33,480 --> 00:37:37,040
Turn the music lower, babe
578
00:37:37,040 --> 00:37:41,240
Uh, turn the lights down low,
baby
579
00:37:41,240 --> 00:37:44,440
Turn the lights down
580
00:37:44,440 --> 00:37:48,000
Oh, don't go nowhere, girl
Don't go nowhere...
581
00:37:49,120 --> 00:37:54,800
We found a hideaway
from the glare of publicity
way up in Topanga Canyon.
582
00:37:54,800 --> 00:37:59,760
Never mind I was still wedded to
Anna and the nightmares of the past.
583
00:37:59,760 --> 00:38:04,760
For me, love carries the seeds
of its own destruction.
584
00:38:06,760 --> 00:38:10,840
I needed a mother's love
to help me through.
585
00:38:10,840 --> 00:38:14,280
So I bought her a gated mansion
586
00:38:14,280 --> 00:38:17,200
and father moved there too.
587
00:38:19,760 --> 00:38:24,480
Marvin loved his mother so much
because she was there to defend him
588
00:38:24,480 --> 00:38:27,360
in just about everything,
589
00:38:27,360 --> 00:38:31,800
and to encourage him
in just about everything
590
00:38:31,800 --> 00:38:34,440
Any problem, no matter what it was,
591
00:38:34,440 --> 00:38:36,520
he would tell her.
592
00:38:36,520 --> 00:38:39,520
And she in turn
would give him answers.
593
00:38:39,520 --> 00:38:41,960
She became his confidante
594
00:38:41,960 --> 00:38:44,360
and his spiritual guru.
595
00:38:46,240 --> 00:38:50,720
But even mother couldn't protect me
from the temptations of the road.
596
00:38:50,720 --> 00:38:53,920
Ironically, the huge success
of Let's Get It On
597
00:38:53,920 --> 00:38:59,040
meant all the old commercial
pressures which I thought
I had escaped now reappeared.
598
00:38:59,040 --> 00:39:02,040
I was back on tour.
599
00:39:02,040 --> 00:39:04,680
..Yeah, OK.
600
00:39:04,680 --> 00:39:08,800
Just give him some water.
He wants water.
601
00:39:08,800 --> 00:39:11,040
Plain, out of the tap?
602
00:39:11,040 --> 00:39:16,080
They wanted me to jump back
out there and shake my booty
just like a teenager all over again.
603
00:39:16,080 --> 00:39:19,120
I just wanted to be alone with Jan.
604
00:39:19,120 --> 00:39:22,760
Touring always tears at my gut.
605
00:39:22,760 --> 00:39:27,440
I do enough drugs in ordinary life
but on the road, quantities triple.
606
00:39:27,440 --> 00:39:31,480
..Instead of chemicalised tap water,
which you can drink...
607
00:39:31,480 --> 00:39:35,000
And then I have to act
like every woman's lost lover
608
00:39:35,000 --> 00:39:39,440
so she'll go out and buy three
more copies of my latest record.
609
00:39:39,440 --> 00:39:42,560
Are you serious? Is this me?
610
00:39:44,680 --> 00:39:48,080
Save our sweet world
611
00:39:50,480 --> 00:39:53,200
Help, somebody
612
00:39:53,200 --> 00:39:57,680
Save the world, save the world
Save the babies, save the kids
613
00:39:57,680 --> 00:40:00,760
Save the children, yeah...
614
00:40:00,760 --> 00:40:05,600
What kept me going was having
children of my own with Janice,
615
00:40:05,600 --> 00:40:09,760
something Anna
was never able to give me.
616
00:40:09,760 --> 00:40:14,480
They were more important to me
than money and so-called success.
617
00:40:14,480 --> 00:40:18,640
I wanted to give them the love
I never had from my father.
618
00:40:19,720 --> 00:40:21,520
He did have family values,
619
00:40:21,520 --> 00:40:23,720
as distorted as they may have been
620
00:40:23,720 --> 00:40:27,760
and as dysfunctional as his own
family was as he was growing up,
621
00:40:27,760 --> 00:40:29,760
he did his best
622
00:40:29,760 --> 00:40:34,240
to create his own family,
to have his children around him,
623
00:40:34,240 --> 00:40:37,480
to have a wife, to have a home.
624
00:40:37,480 --> 00:40:40,520
And for us it wasn't
an easy thing to do
625
00:40:40,520 --> 00:40:44,160
because we were both heavily addicted
to drugs and alcohol
626
00:40:44,160 --> 00:40:49,520
and it's very difficult
to base a marriage...
627
00:40:49,520 --> 00:40:52,760
relationship...or anything else
628
00:40:52,760 --> 00:40:56,200
when you have that as a major issue
on both sides.
629
00:40:56,200 --> 00:40:59,040
I want you
630
00:40:59,040 --> 00:41:03,120
But I want you to want me too...
631
00:41:03,120 --> 00:41:08,520
My next album, I Want You,
was my way of telling Janice
632
00:41:08,520 --> 00:41:11,240
I wanted her as my wife,
633
00:41:11,240 --> 00:41:14,240
both of us needing
the stability of marriage.
634
00:41:14,240 --> 00:41:17,120
..Yes, baby, ooh
635
00:41:17,120 --> 00:41:19,880
Get down, baby
636
00:41:21,000 --> 00:41:23,720
Ooh, I want you...
637
00:41:23,720 --> 00:41:30,360
This record represented more
Marvin's love,
638
00:41:30,360 --> 00:41:33,200
first for Janice,
639
00:41:33,200 --> 00:41:38,200
and I think he was probably
more happier in this album
640
00:41:38,200 --> 00:41:42,200
than probably any album he ever did
because this album from top to bottom
641
00:41:42,200 --> 00:41:44,200
was excessively sensual.
642
00:41:44,200 --> 00:41:47,520
VOCAL HARMONIES TRACK PLAYS
643
00:41:52,680 --> 00:41:55,560
He's doing background and a lead.
644
00:41:55,560 --> 00:41:59,200
And the background is four to five
different harmony parts.
645
00:41:59,200 --> 00:42:02,840
And that's what you're hearing.
646
00:42:02,840 --> 00:42:08,720
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
647
00:42:08,720 --> 00:42:15,080
Hoo, ah-ah
648
00:42:15,080 --> 00:42:17,800
I want you...
649
00:42:17,800 --> 00:42:22,880
I think the irony about Marvin
is that the inner turmoil he had
650
00:42:22,880 --> 00:42:26,600
between the spirit and the flesh,
651
00:42:26,600 --> 00:42:31,440
that turmoil found perfect peace
in his art.
652
00:42:31,440 --> 00:42:35,440
..Just like I want you...
653
00:42:35,440 --> 00:42:39,040
So that the different voices
in his head -
654
00:42:39,040 --> 00:42:45,040
one whispering, "Love God",
the other whispering,
"Get everything you can" -
655
00:42:45,040 --> 00:42:49,520
these warring voices
which tore him up,
656
00:42:49,520 --> 00:42:53,960
he was able to harmonise,
literally harmonise,
657
00:42:53,960 --> 00:42:56,680
in his art.
658
00:42:56,680 --> 00:43:03,480
..A one-way love is just a fantasy
659
00:43:03,480 --> 00:43:06,400
Oh, sugar
660
00:43:06,400 --> 00:43:13,560
To share is precious,
pure and fair
661
00:43:13,560 --> 00:43:18,800
Ooh
Don't play with something...
662
00:43:18,800 --> 00:43:24,080
One thing that actually blew me away,
if I can use that phrase,
663
00:43:24,080 --> 00:43:29,080
is one afternoon and Marvin's singing
his ass off, but I don't see Marvin.
664
00:43:29,080 --> 00:43:32,080
I looked out of the control room
and there was Marvin
665
00:43:32,080 --> 00:43:35,920
extremely relaxed,
totally on his back,
666
00:43:35,920 --> 00:43:39,520
and he was singing...
667
00:43:39,520 --> 00:43:43,800
I've never seen an artist sing...
Sung like he's standing up.
668
00:43:43,800 --> 00:43:46,520
He's singing his ass off.
669
00:43:46,520 --> 00:43:50,080
It's just too bad, just too sad
670
00:43:50,080 --> 00:43:53,960
You-ou don't want me now
671
00:43:55,960 --> 00:43:59,840
But I'll get along some way
672
00:43:59,840 --> 00:44:04,880
Baby, some, somehow, baby...
673
00:44:06,360 --> 00:44:08,920
Marvin was able to communicate
674
00:44:08,920 --> 00:44:13,120
what people were experiencing
in their own lives,
675
00:44:13,120 --> 00:44:15,520
through his voice.
676
00:44:15,520 --> 00:44:18,680
Certain notes he would hit
had a sound
677
00:44:18,680 --> 00:44:21,560
which meant it was
coming from his gut,
678
00:44:21,560 --> 00:44:24,160
coming from his heart, from his soul.
679
00:44:24,160 --> 00:44:26,640
You can actually hear it.
680
00:44:26,640 --> 00:44:30,800
..Don't you wanna care?
681
00:44:30,800 --> 00:44:35,840
Ain't it lonely out there?
682
00:44:35,840 --> 00:44:40,880
I want you, want you, baby
683
00:44:40,880 --> 00:44:48,080
But I want you
I want you to want me too...
684
00:44:48,080 --> 00:44:52,920
He would use his voice
to elevate whatever it is
he's talkin' and singin' about
685
00:44:52,920 --> 00:44:58,600
and lower his voice to let people
know, "Hey, this is comin'
from my gut, from my soul."
686
00:44:58,600 --> 00:45:03,440
And then he will soothe it out
and you say, "Ah, this is melody,
I think I'm feelin' good now."
687
00:45:03,440 --> 00:45:06,880
He fought back through his music.
688
00:45:06,880 --> 00:45:09,280
He fought back through his voice.
689
00:45:11,600 --> 00:45:18,520
I was also using my music, my songs,
to fight my old wars with Anna.
690
00:45:18,520 --> 00:45:23,680
I'd been waiting to divorce
both her and Motown for 14 years
691
00:45:23,680 --> 00:45:27,680
and now the moment had arrived
and all I felt was pain.
692
00:45:27,680 --> 00:45:31,320
..makes you so stubborn...
693
00:45:31,320 --> 00:45:38,520
The courts ordered Marvin Gaye
that all of the moneys that was
to be made off of his next album
694
00:45:38,520 --> 00:45:41,800
was to go to Anna
because of their divorce.
695
00:45:41,800 --> 00:45:46,760
So he did an album called
Here My Dear that sold about six.
696
00:45:49,120 --> 00:45:54,320
Laughing and running wild
697
00:45:57,880 --> 00:46:00,760
Anna
698
00:46:02,520 --> 00:46:04,520
Anna
699
00:46:04,520 --> 00:46:09,840
An-naaa!
700
00:46:09,840 --> 00:46:12,320
Yeah
701
00:46:12,320 --> 00:46:15,440
Now this is Anna's song
702
00:46:15,440 --> 00:46:18,040
Hey baby
703
00:46:18,040 --> 00:46:20,480
Hey baby...
704
00:46:20,480 --> 00:46:22,840
I felt trapped.
705
00:46:22,840 --> 00:46:25,760
Though legally free now
to marry Jan,
706
00:46:25,760 --> 00:46:29,360
our relationship was
already turning rotten
707
00:46:29,360 --> 00:46:32,640
because of all the skeletons
in my closet.
708
00:46:33,960 --> 00:46:37,160
Marvin's relationship with Anna
always intimidated me.
709
00:46:37,160 --> 00:46:41,560
And...being that young,
I really didn't know what to do.
710
00:46:41,560 --> 00:46:44,240
I still believe he loved Anna
711
00:46:44,240 --> 00:46:47,600
and that was a great source of
jealousy for me.
712
00:46:49,640 --> 00:46:55,360
At the end of the '70s you have this
amazing situation where, you know,
713
00:46:55,360 --> 00:46:58,480
marriage number two
had fallen apart.
714
00:46:58,480 --> 00:47:02,600
The acrimony deepens, uh,
he owes the IRS millions,
715
00:47:02,600 --> 00:47:04,800
he's out of money entirely.
716
00:47:04,800 --> 00:47:07,160
He leaves the United States,
717
00:47:07,160 --> 00:47:10,800
he goes to Hawaii where he lives
in a bread van.
718
00:47:13,200 --> 00:47:18,480
Marvin continues to feud with wife
number two
719
00:47:18,480 --> 00:47:26,760
so the...the pattern continues of
going from romantic hope
720
00:47:26,760 --> 00:47:29,640
to romantic despair.
721
00:47:29,640 --> 00:47:33,080
In spite of the fact that I had
boyfriends, he had girlfriends,
722
00:47:33,080 --> 00:47:35,960
we had other relationships outside
of our marriage,
723
00:47:35,960 --> 00:47:40,240
I believe it's impossible to have
a healthy relationship
724
00:47:40,240 --> 00:47:43,280
when you have two sick people
involved in it.
725
00:47:45,640 --> 00:47:49,800
The more I loved Jan,
the more I hated her.
726
00:47:49,800 --> 00:47:52,200
I just want to be left alone
727
00:47:52,200 --> 00:47:56,400
to blow my brains away
with high-octane coke.
728
00:47:57,480 --> 00:47:59,640
If he's really an artist...
729
00:47:59,640 --> 00:48:04,160
he has these fits of depression
that he can't seem to shake
730
00:48:04,160 --> 00:48:06,640
because if he's really concerned
and...
731
00:48:06,640 --> 00:48:12,440
if he can really see then he feels.
Just like a sponge, he picks up...
732
00:48:12,440 --> 00:48:16,160
and he retains it and the only way
you can get these feelings off
733
00:48:16,160 --> 00:48:17,880
is to put it in your music.
734
00:48:19,000 --> 00:48:20,880
Oh, please
735
00:48:20,880 --> 00:48:22,560
Come back home
736
00:48:22,560 --> 00:48:26,400
Whoa-ooh-oh, baby
737
00:48:28,560 --> 00:48:30,040
Oh!
738
00:48:30,040 --> 00:48:32,040
Oh, baby!
739
00:48:32,960 --> 00:48:34,320
Please
740
00:48:35,400 --> 00:48:37,240
Oh!
741
00:48:37,240 --> 00:48:43,840
Oooh, come back home
742
00:48:43,840 --> 00:48:45,480
Oh!
743
00:48:46,840 --> 00:48:50,760
Yeah!
744
00:48:52,360 --> 00:48:58,200
I still did the occasional show just
to keep body and soul together.
745
00:48:58,200 --> 00:49:01,040
And it was while I was holed up
in Hawaii
746
00:49:01,040 --> 00:49:05,600
that a promoter from England,
Jeffrey Kruger, arrived
747
00:49:05,600 --> 00:49:08,200
and offered to take me there.
748
00:49:08,200 --> 00:49:10,120
I flew over to see Marvin
749
00:49:10,360 --> 00:49:14,680
and we had to track him down
through drug dealers.
750
00:49:14,680 --> 00:49:16,320
Which we did.
751
00:49:18,600 --> 00:49:22,640
And he was a shock to me
when I saw him again.
752
00:49:22,640 --> 00:49:25,560
He'd lost a lot of weight,
told me he hadn't eaten,
753
00:49:25,560 --> 00:49:31,800
hadn't even washed,
which was so unlike Marvin
cos he was a very sharp character.
754
00:49:34,200 --> 00:49:39,320
Kruger helped to clean me up
by taking me on tour to England.
755
00:49:39,320 --> 00:49:46,040
And the highlight of that tour
was to be a command performance
for Princess Margaret.
756
00:49:46,040 --> 00:49:48,640
Little did I know
it would never take place
757
00:49:48,640 --> 00:49:52,200
and he'd be the one to sabotage it
but I should have known.
758
00:49:52,200 --> 00:49:55,960
It was a wonderful evening,
except there was no Marvin!
759
00:49:55,960 --> 00:49:59,920
The Princess left about 10.30.
760
00:49:59,920 --> 00:50:05,840
I was leaving about 10.40, there
was nobody left in the audience,
761
00:50:05,840 --> 00:50:08,720
and Mr Marvin Gaye rolls up,
762
00:50:08,720 --> 00:50:11,120
unsteady, and sat at the piano
763
00:50:11,120 --> 00:50:15,320
and wanted to know what time
the show was gonna start.
764
00:50:15,320 --> 00:50:19,080
I said, "There's the cleaner.
You can sing to her. We're going."
765
00:50:19,080 --> 00:50:20,880
And that's exactly what happened.
766
00:50:31,000 --> 00:50:32,600
Huh!
767
00:50:34,480 --> 00:50:38,480
The headlines in every paper
that I can think of
768
00:50:38,480 --> 00:50:41,840
was that
Marvin Gaye Snubs Royal Family.
769
00:50:46,040 --> 00:50:48,000
TRAIN HOOTS
770
00:50:49,120 --> 00:50:51,640
I was down and out,
at my lowest ebb,
771
00:50:51,640 --> 00:50:55,240
and I met boxing promoter
Freddy.
772
00:50:55,240 --> 00:51:00,760
And he took me to dry out in the
fresh sea air of Ostend, Belgium.
773
00:51:00,760 --> 00:51:02,280
Of all places!
774
00:51:04,400 --> 00:51:08,400
Marvin sees Freddy
as a boxing trainer,
775
00:51:08,400 --> 00:51:12,480
as the guy who's going to get him
into shape again.
776
00:51:12,480 --> 00:51:19,240
And it's here in Belgium that Marvin
begins to plan his comeback.
777
00:51:21,480 --> 00:51:23,840
My next fight's going to be my wife.
778
00:51:25,680 --> 00:51:29,840
15 round...elimination bout.
779
00:51:29,840 --> 00:51:32,120
For all the property.
780
00:51:37,080 --> 00:51:40,600
I was fighting back at last.
781
00:51:40,600 --> 00:51:44,920
I get to Ostend, Belgium,
we're working on Marvin's biography,
782
00:51:44,920 --> 00:51:46,880
I go up to his apartment
783
00:51:46,880 --> 00:51:52,480
and there on the coffee table are
lots of books of S&M pornography.
784
00:51:52,480 --> 00:51:55,920
Marvin was still struggling
with the devil,
785
00:51:55,920 --> 00:51:58,440
still struggling with his demons.
786
00:51:58,440 --> 00:52:03,200
I said, "Marvin, what you need
is sexual healing.
787
00:52:03,200 --> 00:52:05,720
"Not sexual pain."
788
00:52:05,720 --> 00:52:07,840
And he says, "What does that mean?"
789
00:52:07,840 --> 00:52:11,720
and I said, "The love of one woman
who would love you for being you."
790
00:52:11,720 --> 00:52:13,640
And he said, "I LOVE that idea.
791
00:52:13,640 --> 00:52:17,880
"Write a poem." And I wrote a poem
and he wrote a melody.
792
00:52:17,880 --> 00:52:20,520
Get up, get up, get up, get up.
793
00:52:20,520 --> 00:52:23,600
'And sexual healing was born.'
794
00:52:23,600 --> 00:52:25,840
Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up
795
00:52:27,160 --> 00:52:30,720
Oh, baby,
now let's get down tonight
796
00:52:34,400 --> 00:52:36,280
Oooh
797
00:52:36,280 --> 00:52:39,400
Ba-a-by
798
00:52:39,400 --> 00:52:42,840
I'm hot just like an oven
799
00:52:42,840 --> 00:52:45,120
I need some lovin'
800
00:52:45,120 --> 00:52:49,560
Yeah, ba-a-by
801
00:52:49,560 --> 00:52:52,680
I can't hold it much longer
802
00:52:52,680 --> 00:52:55,720
It's getting stronger and stronger
803
00:52:55,720 --> 00:52:58,120
And when I get that feelin'
804
00:52:58,120 --> 00:53:00,920
I want sexual healing
805
00:53:00,920 --> 00:53:05,240
Sexual...healing
806
00:53:05,240 --> 00:53:06,280
Oh, baby
807
00:53:06,280 --> 00:53:10,280
Makes me feel so fine
808
00:53:11,760 --> 00:53:14,800
Helps to relieve my mind
809
00:53:16,200 --> 00:53:21,600
Sexual...healing, baby,
is good for me
810
00:53:21,600 --> 00:53:26,840
Sexual...healing is something
that's good for me
811
00:53:26,840 --> 00:53:30,320
Whenever blue teardrops
are falling...
812
00:53:30,320 --> 00:53:33,680
Sexual Healing was a massive hit,
my knockout punch
813
00:53:33,680 --> 00:53:37,480
for all those who doubted
my ability to make a comeback.
814
00:53:37,480 --> 00:53:38,880
There is something...
815
00:53:38,880 --> 00:53:42,400
CBS had finally bought me out of
my Motown contract.
816
00:53:42,400 --> 00:53:47,280
I flew home to Los Angeles where
my mother and father were waiting.
817
00:53:49,240 --> 00:53:56,760
I was inundated with honours. In 22
years I made 26 albums and 40 hits.
818
00:53:56,760 --> 00:53:59,360
I went back on tour.
819
00:53:59,360 --> 00:54:03,080
I needed the love of my fans,
and a pay cheque, too.
820
00:54:03,080 --> 00:54:07,080
..Darling,
that's sexual healing.
821
00:54:07,080 --> 00:54:12,200
It was a crazy tour during which
he had a preacher in one room
822
00:54:12,200 --> 00:54:16,200
and his cocaine dealer
in the other room
823
00:54:16,200 --> 00:54:22,640
so the sort of metaphor became
the literal condition of his life.
824
00:54:22,640 --> 00:54:26,280
God in one room,
the devil in the next.
825
00:54:26,280 --> 00:54:29,480
The war continued and continued.
826
00:54:29,480 --> 00:54:31,120
Whoo!
827
00:54:31,120 --> 00:54:33,200
Sexual
828
00:54:36,000 --> 00:54:37,480
Oh, sexy...
829
00:54:39,320 --> 00:54:42,840
Marvin was convinced
he HAD to give his public
830
00:54:42,840 --> 00:54:45,840
more and more of his
raw sexuality so...
831
00:54:45,840 --> 00:54:50,240
so you have him making something
of a spectacle of himself.
832
00:54:54,400 --> 00:54:56,600
Ow! Sexual...
833
00:54:59,560 --> 00:55:02,000
The last tour was a very sad tour
834
00:55:02,000 --> 00:55:05,200
because Marvin had got
really paranoid.
835
00:55:05,200 --> 00:55:09,160
He thought that
somebody was after him to kill him.
836
00:55:09,160 --> 00:55:15,360
We would argue, either about money,
the children, drugs,
837
00:55:15,360 --> 00:55:20,040
who I was seeing,
who he was seeing...
838
00:55:20,040 --> 00:55:25,120
It was just...
It was a constant battle with
interference from everyone around us.
839
00:55:25,120 --> 00:55:29,760
Janice would not
let the children near him.
840
00:55:29,760 --> 00:55:33,920
And that just broke his heart.
Absolutely destroyed him.
841
00:55:33,920 --> 00:55:36,120
Absolutely destroyed him.
842
00:55:36,120 --> 00:55:39,080
DISTANT CHEERS OF CROWD, MUSIC FADES
843
00:55:43,000 --> 00:55:45,680
He returned home to his mom and dad
844
00:55:45,680 --> 00:55:48,720
and I think the reason is
he was scared.
845
00:55:48,720 --> 00:55:53,560
He became a child again
and in his mind he was convinced
846
00:55:53,560 --> 00:55:58,120
that he would be safe from harm
in his mother's home.
847
00:55:58,120 --> 00:56:03,000
And, of course, the terrible irony
of it all is
848
00:56:03,000 --> 00:56:06,840
that is where he would meet
his death.
849
00:56:06,840 --> 00:56:10,520
Oh mother mother
850
00:56:10,520 --> 00:56:14,840
There's too many
of you crying...
851
00:56:14,840 --> 00:56:16,680
Marvin wanted to see her
852
00:56:16,680 --> 00:56:20,200
because I think he needed to feel
he was loved.
853
00:56:20,200 --> 00:56:25,000
I went over to the big house and I
said, "Marvin, why are you crying?"
854
00:56:25,000 --> 00:56:27,560
He said, "Cos nobody loves me."
855
00:56:27,560 --> 00:56:32,360
Marvin had really deteriorated
856
00:56:32,360 --> 00:56:36,920
to the point where he... At one time
he wasn't putting on any clothes.
857
00:56:36,920 --> 00:56:42,080
Uh, except, just, uh, walking around
with his bathrobe on
858
00:56:42,080 --> 00:56:48,080
with a loaded .38 revolver in his,
in his pocket.
859
00:56:48,080 --> 00:56:52,680
Uh, just in the house,
pretty much paranoid.
860
00:56:52,680 --> 00:56:55,400
'There was a strange cold...
861
00:56:55,400 --> 00:57:01,280
'It's hard to describe the coldness.
It was like...weird.'
862
00:57:01,280 --> 00:57:05,160
Marvin! Woo-hoo!
863
00:57:05,160 --> 00:57:09,600
The girls would be in the garden,
screaming, "Marvin! Let me in!"
864
00:57:09,600 --> 00:57:11,920
And they would come night and day.
865
00:57:11,920 --> 00:57:15,480
They had no respect for Marvin's
father or his mother.
866
00:57:15,480 --> 00:57:17,720
So I think it was things like that,
867
00:57:17,720 --> 00:57:21,840
that father really felt that
he was losing control of his home.
868
00:57:21,840 --> 00:57:27,440
It was like...the devil, almost,
inside of him.
869
00:57:29,440 --> 00:57:33,040
Marvin was beating his old man.
He was beating Pops up.
870
00:57:33,040 --> 00:57:35,440
Something he'd always wanted to do.
871
00:57:37,960 --> 00:57:42,000
And Father kept the gun that Marvin
bought for him.
872
00:57:42,000 --> 00:57:43,720
Under his pillow.
873
00:57:43,720 --> 00:57:47,680
I definitely believe
that Marvin's death
874
00:57:47,680 --> 00:57:51,800
was a way of him
basically committing suicide
875
00:57:51,800 --> 00:57:55,120
because he gave his father the gun,
876
00:57:55,120 --> 00:57:59,360
and, basically,
went and provoked his father
877
00:57:59,360 --> 00:58:03,040
to the point that he shot
and killed him.
878
00:58:04,000 --> 00:58:08,520
TWO GUNSHOTS
879
00:58:14,360 --> 00:58:18,240
And so this lifetime of vitriol
880
00:58:18,240 --> 00:58:21,520
and endless antagonism,
881
00:58:21,520 --> 00:58:26,400
which began in violence,
ended in violence.
882
00:58:26,400 --> 00:58:29,720
The ultimate act of revenge.
883
00:58:34,080 --> 00:58:36,800
As I look back at my defeats
and my problems
884
00:58:36,800 --> 00:58:40,800
and all of the things that I can
sink into depression about,
885
00:58:40,800 --> 00:58:45,120
I can also look back and I can think
of all the blessings I've had.
886
00:58:45,120 --> 00:58:50,560
And my blessings actually
outweigh all of the negative things
that have...
887
00:58:50,560 --> 00:58:52,360
that have occurred in my life
888
00:58:52,360 --> 00:58:55,880
and it's that fact that probably
makes me happiest of all.
889
00:58:55,880 --> 00:58:58,080
I know somebody up there loves me.
890
00:58:58,080 --> 00:59:01,920
Mm, there are songs from wisdom
Doo-be-doo Be-doo-be-doo
891
00:59:01,920 --> 00:59:05,160
There are songs from Satan
892
00:59:05,160 --> 00:59:08,160
There are songs from lovin'
Yeah
893
00:59:08,160 --> 00:59:11,120
And there are songs from hatin'
894
00:59:11,120 --> 00:59:14,080
There are songs from lust
895
00:59:14,080 --> 00:59:17,360
And there are songs from pain
896
00:59:17,360 --> 00:59:21,040
Some songs were done by chosen men
897
00:59:21,040 --> 00:59:23,640
Some from men insane
898
00:59:23,640 --> 00:59:25,640
Groove, baby
899
00:59:25,640 --> 00:59:28,440
Groove on the light
900
00:59:28,440 --> 00:59:30,760
One time
901
00:59:30,760 --> 00:59:33,000
Groove, baby
902
00:59:33,000 --> 00:59:35,640
On the right
903
00:59:35,640 --> 00:59:39,520
Ooh, dance, baby
904
00:59:39,520 --> 00:59:41,400
To the light
905
00:59:41,400 --> 00:59:43,200
This time
906
00:59:43,200 --> 00:59:45,520
Dance, sugar...
907
00:59:46,560 --> 00:59:48,560
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