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- When I wake up in the morning,
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I am always a little surprised.
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This is my life and I am happy.
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I used to wear baggy shirts,
shirts that were concealing.
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Now I wear things that flatter
me, that go with my coloring.
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I love clothes.
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I am lonely, yet I feel wonderful
because I'm a woman now.
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Last year I was a man.
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We all know what sex we are.
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It is so obvious that it can
be seen by the naked eye.
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And we know it in the
deepest part of ourselves.
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We are male or female.
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But perhaps it's not so obvious.
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Imagine, if you can, what
it is like to be a woman
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imprisoned in the body of a man.
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Or a man trapped in the body of a woman.
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Not male, not female, not homosexual.
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Recently the world was shocked
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by the discovery of this
third sex, the transsexual.
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We will meet real transsexuals.
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We will show for the first
time how and why genetic men
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become real women and genetic
women become real men.
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We will take you behind these headlines.
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- I come from a very small town.
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There's not much to do in
small towns to begin with.
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And when you had the problem that I had,
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there's even less to do.
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And no, I never had any friends.
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Boys could be very painful
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because they would say
things that would hurt.
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And then if you were caught
hanging around girls,
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that would say you were
either a homosexual,
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'cause they knew that I
wasn't a playboy by no means.
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And yes, my life existed me living
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in an attic bedroom for many, many years.
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But I always believe that
tomorrow the sun would rise
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and it might bring some
kind of clue as to why
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I was the way I was, why
my development of breasts,
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why I had such a soft voice.
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There was so much feminine things in me
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that it was this, you know,
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at that point to me was disgusting
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because it prevented me from getting job.
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Our guide
through this strange new world
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is Dr. Leo wollman, md,
phd, doctor, surgeon,
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psychologist, minister, medical writer,
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a man uniquely qualified
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to help us understand this phenomenon,
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one of the pioneers who
has devoted his career
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to exploring the frontiers
of sexual identity.
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- Modern medicine has brought
all sorts of miracles.
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Mankind has been released from
suffering and early death.
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In the 20th century, we have
seen Jonas salk conquer polio.
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We have seen Christian
barnard insert a beating heart
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into the chest of a dying man.
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We had seen Michael debakey
install mechanical devices
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fabricated from plastics and transistors
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placed directly into the bodies
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of the hopelessly ill diseased organs.
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And now I'm prepared to deal
with the most exciting portion
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of the medical world
today, sexual identity.
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What is a male?
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What is a female?
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Why are some people born with the mental
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and emotional characteristics of one sex
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and the outward physical characteristics
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of the other sex?
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What, who, and why are transsexuals?
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In only the past few
years we have been able
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to take a human being who has had
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this monstrous biological
joke played on him or her,
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who was born with the genitals if one sex,
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but who possesses the
heart, mind, and soul
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of the opposite sex and reverse it.
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Before this, anatomy was destiny.
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We have made genetic men into real women.
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We have made genetic women into real men.
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We have taken a voyage into a world
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which is more mysterious
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and more profoundly
disturbing than outer space.
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A journey into inner space.
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You have just met Ann zordi.
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Ann zordi is a male transsexual,
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and there must be at
least 100,000 Ann zordis
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in these United States.
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Now, let me tell you what
a male transsexual is.
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A male transsexual is an individual
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who is born a genetic male
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with male sexual organs,
penis, and testicles.
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However, he has an obsessional desire
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to get rid of his unwanted male organs
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and become an anatomic female
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to match his psychological sex.
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In other words, the male transsexual
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feels that he is emotionally a female
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and is physically trapped in a male body.
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His one and all consuming
thought and desire
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is to get rid of his
hated penis and testicles
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and somehow achieve womanhood
by getting a vagina,
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thus becoming and living
completely as a woman.
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This actually can be done by an operation,
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which we call a sex change operation.
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This sex change operation
consists of the removal
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of the penis and testicles
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and the creation of a vagina and breasts.
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The vagina is formed by
the skin of the penis,
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which has been cut and unrolled.
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The breasts may be developed by injections
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of liquid silicone or
inserts of plastic gel,
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which is like silicone in a plastic bag.
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There are approximately 2,000 people
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who have already had a
sex change operation.
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Let us go back to our Ann zordi,
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who typifies the male transsexual.
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Ann, as you have noticed,
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in spite of her female
breasts, still has a penis.
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Ann is trying to save enough
money for a final operation,
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which is the removal of her penis.
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And then she will become a complete woman.
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Let me show you how important
it is for the male transsexual
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to have his penis and testicles removed.
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This patient was happily married
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with a wife and two children,
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was a carpenter by trade,
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and served a time in
the United States Navy.
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Since he couldn't afford
the price of the operation,
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he decided to try to do
the operation himself.
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As a result of this action,
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he was taken to the emergency
room in the hospital,
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and the rest of his penis
was removed surgically.
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This was what he wanted
in the first place.
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What you have seen is a true incident
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and actually happened
to one of my patients.
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It's too bad that
self-mutilation of this kind
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is so frequently resorted
to in desperation.
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- I remember when I was 11 years old,
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my family going away to the beach.
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They were going to go for a couple of days
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and I couldn't go because I
couldn't get in the water.
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And I remember when they drove by,
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I just got in front of the mirror
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and I slammed the mirror so heavy,
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the medicine cabinet, the mirror shatter.
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And I just started hitting on my breasts
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because here I was 11 years of age,
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I don't know what's happening.
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And I hit myself.
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And at that time, my
breasts were very, very,
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they were sensitive to pain.
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And which later on, I found
out that when a young girl
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is developing her breast, at that stage
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she's very susceptible to pain.
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And I hit myself so hard,
just kept pounding on it,
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that I fell against the floor.
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And it's been that long that I had this,
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that I was tormented with this problem,
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until finally the doctors
removed the disease
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and left me with my life at last.
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- Several transsexuals of both genders
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are assembled here to discuss
their mutual problems,
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both pre and post-operative.
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Some have come from cities
hundreds of miles away
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because they are unable to
achieve their objectives
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at medical centers in their home cities.
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The reason for this is
the lack of facilities
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for training physicians in this
particular area of medicine.
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This is Steve, a male transsexual
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who has not had the operation
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and is working as an automobile mechanic
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in order to accumulate sufficient money
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for the sex change operation.
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This is a female who
wishes to become a male,
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and is dressed as a male in
order to maintain her job
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as the manager of a supermarket.
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We have here a 55 year old diabetic
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who also has other illnesses,
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and yet firmly believes
that age makes no difference
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as far as a sex change is concerned.
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I see you've become a blonde.
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You look very pretty.
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But you weren't at our
last group session, Debbie.
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Is everything all right?
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No, nothing is all right.
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I'm so depressed, so miserable.
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- We all feel that way sometimes.
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Perhaps if you talked about
it, we might be able to help.
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There's no
sense in talking about it.
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Nothing can help.
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- Come now, you know our rules.
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Don't be a defeatist.
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Don't be depressed.
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Let's see if we can solve the problem
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by discussing it, shall we?
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I told you about Jim.
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I met him at a party
about three months ago.
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We've been dating pretty regularly
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and well, I love him very much.
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Jim says he never knew
he could care for anyone
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as much as he loves me.
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- Does he know about you?
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Oh no, I'm afraid to tell him.
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He'll leave me.
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I can't take that chance.
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- You have the body of a woman.
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You feel like a woman, don't you?
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- I always felt like a woman,
even when I had a penis.
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- Don't be a fool.
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Don't tell him.
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He'll never know the difference.
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- There's always the chance
that someone will tell him
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and he'll leave you
because you weren't honest.
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- Dilemma, but you
know, rosalind is right.
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If Jim cares for you as
much as you say he does,
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he wouldn't leave you.
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If he finds out from someone else,
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he'll feel that he cannot trust you,
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that you had not been honest with him.
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Then he no doubt would leave you.
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Then too, if you keep your secret,
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you'll always be worried.
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If he frowns at you or
is angry and irritated,
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you'll think he knows.
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You'll be constantly on edge,
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and this can only lead to unhappiness.
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Please come to our next group session.
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No matter what you decide to do,
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we all want to know about it.
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- I suppose you could say I'm very lucky.
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My employer knows I'm a transsexual,
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and it really doesn't matter to him
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as long as I do my job properly.
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- Generally however, I'm sorry to say,
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employers will not hire transsexuals.
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Now just the other day,
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one of my patients came to the office.
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She was very much upset and despondent.
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It seems that her employer
had somehow found out
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that she was a transsexual, and fired her,
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in spite of the fact that she
was an excellent secretary,
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was in his employ for two years,
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and he was extremely
pleased with her work.
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So you see you are
indeed fortunate, roslyn.
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Your employer is obviously
an understanding person.
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- Well my sister, she knows about me.
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She keeps on insisting
that I see a psychiatrist.
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But I told her I don't
need a psychiatrist.
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I'm a woman, and all I
need is a woman's body.
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- And now I would like you to meet Angela.
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Angela.
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Angela, pretty and extremely intelligent,
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is a male transsexual.
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Angela presents the breasts of a female
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solely due to female hormones.
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The hormone injections are very vital
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to the individual's development.
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And we customarily give the injections
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intramuscularly twice a month.
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The pelvis is male.
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The penis is uncircumcised.
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The testes are small.
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The scrotum is normal in size.
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The shoulders are quite broad.
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Waist is small and thin.
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However, the buttocks are male-like.
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Thank you, Angela.
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Frequently in place of
natural sexual organs,
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dildos are used to achieve
sexual gratification.
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A hollow plastic replica of the phallus
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is a more realistic vaginal dilator.
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Because of the visual
association with a penis,
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an erogenous sensation is
experienced while dilating.
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This slender white
vibrator is frequently used
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to tone up the skin's circulation.
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It can also be nicely used
to dilate the healing vagina.
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This gun has compartment
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in which warm, soapy fluid is stored.
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This gun is used by the
imaginative male transsexual
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who has had the operation
and wants to receive
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the full impact of the hot
fluid emission into the vagina.
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The Harris obturator
is a hard white plastic
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bowling pin-shaped device which is useful
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in keeping open the healing
post-operative vagina.
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The advantage of this instrument
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is that one end is smaller
knobbed than the other end.
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And therefore there is selective choice
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for any size vaginal opening.
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As a matter of fact,
very often these dildos
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are used by the individuals
for sexual pleasure only,
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and not for any medical reason.
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This is quite common.
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- Up to this point I
have a complete normal
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little orgasm with a man.
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And that's one of the subjects
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that you hear among transsexual talks,
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and the articles that I've
read about transsexual,
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they say that they can achieve
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five, six, seven, or eight orgasms.
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That's where I've drawn
the complete conclusion
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that most of them are
really screwed up mentally
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to begin with.
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Because, yes, I might obtain
one in a relationship.
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And possibly, if the
relationship is good, two.
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But there's no such thing as achieving
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eight, nine, no what, six the way
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a lot of transsexual
discuss in some books,
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or stories, or television
interviews that I've seen.
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- This chart of the genito-urinary organs
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in the male and human female
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best illustrates the gross anatomy
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of the male and female genitals.
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The primitive beginnings of these organs
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are influenced into human by sex organs.
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The male anatomy is shown here.
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The female anatomy here.
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This is the male anatomy of the human.
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This is the picture of
the adult female anatomy.
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The infant about to be born is influenced
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by the sex hormones taken by the mother.
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A female whose mother takes
larger doses of hormones
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to prevent a miscarriage
will sometimes be born
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with large clitoris resembling a penis.
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This is the testicle in the sac.
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This is the developing
baby in the mother's womb.
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If the glands we have
just seen and discussed
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do not develop normally,
then the individual
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may become either a homosexual, a lesbian,
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a transvestite, or transsexual.
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The homosexual is a male
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who wants the sexual love of another male.
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He does not want to have his
penis removed by surgery.
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The lesbian is a female who prefers
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to have sexual relations
with another female.
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She does not feel the
necessity for having a penis.
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The transvestite is content to dress
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in the clothing of the opposite sex,
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and while doing so very often
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will become sexually frustrated
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and will resort to masturbation
to satisfy his needs.
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The transvestite can sometimes
pass through three stages.
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Homosexuality, transvestism,
transsexualism.
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The transsexual, however,
has a desire since childhood
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to be of the opposite sex,
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as emotionally the individual
is of the opposite sex.
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If he is a male transsexual,
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he wants to have the body of a woman.
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- This thing about burning the
bra and all of this nonsense.
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And first of all, it took
me a long time to wear one.
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I'll be damned if I'm
going to burn it now.
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- If she is a female transsexual,
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she wants the body of a man, a penis,
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and demands place in society.
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- I feel like I am what I was meant to be.
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I can honestly say I'm myself.
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It's as simple as that.
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- What you are about to
see is a true sex act
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performed by a man and another man
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who emotionally thinks
and acts like a woman.
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In this male transsexual's
mind, he is a woman
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having sexual intercourse with a man.
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The penis and testicles
of both are clearly shown.
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We have not dwelled on
the female transsexual.
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That is the child born a female
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who feels the emotions
and needs of a male.
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The proportion of female transsexuals
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to the male transsexual
is about one to five.
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In other words, for every
100 male transsexuals,
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there are about 20 female transsexuals,
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the female transsexual who
desires to become a male.
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As a girl child, at the
age of about five or six
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she begins to feel that she is different
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from other little girls.
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She is eager to play with the little boys
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and finds it difficult to accept the fact
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that she is expected to act like a girl.
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When she discovers that
a boy child has a penis,
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she is extremely envious
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and begins to imagine
herself with a penis too.
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Now let me introduce you
to a female transsexual
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who is planning to have
the sex change operation.
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I would like to demonstrate
the physical appearance
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of a female transsexual.
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Len.
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Len is a female transsexual
dressed in male clothing,
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primarily because len has a male job.
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The physical appearance, as we see it now,
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is of a typical male, based on the fact
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that len is dressed as a man.
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Len's physical appearance
is truly masculine.
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You will note his hairstyle.
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The surprising effect of a female breast
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in a seemingly male individual
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demonstrates effectively the
paradox of transsexualism.
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The contour of the breasts shown here
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are typically that of a female adult.
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The nipple and areola,
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it conforms to the normal female breasts.
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Here we have the pubic area.
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The escutcheon, or hair
pattern, is typically female.
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Notice the position of the hands.
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The large size legs and thighs len has
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is caused by excessive walking on his job.
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00:32:09,678 --> 00:32:12,638
As we note on len's back,
the width of the shoulders
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are probably due to the
effect of physical exercise,
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00:32:16,393 --> 00:32:18,060
such as lifting heavy objects
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00:32:18,061 --> 00:32:19,646
in the course of his employment.
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00:32:21,440 --> 00:32:24,567
The hairline on the neck,
as would be expected,
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is that of a male for appearance sake.
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00:32:28,572 --> 00:32:30,531
The hair on len's lower body,
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which is generally found on males,
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was the result of male hormones.
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The lower torso is masculine.
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00:32:38,582 --> 00:32:41,792
The upper torso is feminine.
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00:32:41,793 --> 00:32:43,669
Besides the obvious physical truths,
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there are tragic consequences
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in the family lives of
transsexuals, as in len's case.
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- My mother, and you know
how much I love my mother,
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was very suspicious of me.
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00:32:56,224 --> 00:32:58,225
One day she confronted me.
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00:32:58,226 --> 00:33:00,478
And I told her the truth.
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00:33:00,479 --> 00:33:02,938
I was a man.
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00:33:02,939 --> 00:33:04,982
I was not her daughter.
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00:33:04,983 --> 00:33:05,984
I was her son.
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00:33:06,985 --> 00:33:08,612
Well, she really carried on.
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00:33:09,488 --> 00:33:11,740
I thought she was going
to go out of her mind.
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00:33:12,699 --> 00:33:15,743
Said that this couldn't
happen in her family
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00:33:15,744 --> 00:33:18,120
and not to one of her children.
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00:33:18,121 --> 00:33:19,998
She told me not tell my father.
430
00:33:21,208 --> 00:33:23,626
She said he'd probably kill me if he know.
431
00:33:23,627 --> 00:33:26,212
- What was her attitude after that?
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00:33:26,213 --> 00:33:28,839
She never spoke
about the incident again.
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00:33:28,840 --> 00:33:31,383
When I told her I was
leaving the house for good,
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00:33:31,384 --> 00:33:33,636
she just kissed me and left the room.
435
00:33:33,637 --> 00:33:35,888
- Did she ever contact you?
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00:33:35,889 --> 00:33:37,973
- I haven't seen her since I left home.
437
00:33:37,974 --> 00:33:40,727
- There are so few people who
can comprehend these things.
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00:33:41,895 --> 00:33:44,772
And most important, it's
those people we love most
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00:33:44,773 --> 00:33:48,108
that seem to fail to understand.
440
00:33:48,109 --> 00:33:50,361
- I have an opinion that a lot of people
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00:33:50,362 --> 00:33:53,280
who want to undergo
this surgery are really,
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00:33:53,281 --> 00:33:55,741
and still remain emotionally homosexual
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00:33:55,742 --> 00:33:58,995
just by the conversations they have.
444
00:33:59,788 --> 00:34:01,413
In fact, at the doctor's office,
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00:34:01,414 --> 00:34:04,166
the doctor thought that,
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00:34:04,167 --> 00:34:05,793
he has a certain day set out for them
447
00:34:05,794 --> 00:34:07,670
so that the rest of the patients
448
00:34:07,671 --> 00:34:09,171
don't come in there and see,
449
00:34:09,172 --> 00:34:11,674
have to hear this kind of
talk that goes amongst them.
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00:34:11,675 --> 00:34:13,467
And he even arranged it that I will come
451
00:34:13,468 --> 00:34:16,220
on the days when the regular
people would come in.
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00:34:16,221 --> 00:34:17,721
And he said, "I don't think you belong
453
00:34:17,722 --> 00:34:19,473
"in that crowd to begin with."
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00:34:19,474 --> 00:34:22,476
And this doctor does treat a lot of them.
455
00:34:22,477 --> 00:34:24,478
But I never thought of
myself in that light,
456
00:34:24,479 --> 00:34:25,479
so how can I be something
457
00:34:25,480 --> 00:34:27,106
I never believed in it in the first place?
458
00:34:27,107 --> 00:34:31,485
And up to this point,
I'm still to some degree,
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00:34:31,486 --> 00:34:33,196
you could say like Anita Bryant.
460
00:34:34,614 --> 00:34:37,116
And she's against a lot of that.
461
00:34:37,117 --> 00:34:40,120
And I believe that individuals
should live their life
462
00:34:42,247 --> 00:34:44,081
as best they want, or can,
463
00:34:44,082 --> 00:34:47,376
even if it means accepting
things like that.
464
00:34:47,377 --> 00:34:49,503
But for me personally, I would never.
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00:34:49,504 --> 00:34:52,881
In fact, my dream in life is
one day to adopt children.
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00:34:52,882 --> 00:34:56,720
And sometimes the thought of maybe one
467
00:34:57,637 --> 00:35:01,015
being a homosexual, it would frighten me
468
00:35:01,016 --> 00:35:02,016
to the point that I would think
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00:35:02,017 --> 00:35:04,269
I'll have second thoughts
about adopting kids.
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00:35:05,353 --> 00:35:09,608
And a lot of people who are transsexual...
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00:35:11,276 --> 00:35:14,737
I've told people that I am a transsexual.
472
00:35:14,738 --> 00:35:16,906
And the first thing they say,
473
00:35:19,242 --> 00:35:20,909
"you mean you were once a man?"
474
00:35:20,910 --> 00:35:22,286
And that's very strange.
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00:35:22,287 --> 00:35:25,414
It's so hard for me to get
that kind of question back
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00:35:25,415 --> 00:35:27,667
because I've never saw
myself in that light.
477
00:35:30,045 --> 00:35:32,546
In fact, that was the masquerade
at one time in my life,
478
00:35:32,547 --> 00:35:35,175
when I was trying to be
a man for family reasons.
479
00:35:37,260 --> 00:35:38,761
Because other than that, if not,
480
00:35:38,762 --> 00:35:41,180
people would think of me as a homosexual.
481
00:35:55,070 --> 00:35:57,696
- Generally at about the age of five,
482
00:35:57,697 --> 00:36:00,949
the little boy who cannot play or respond
483
00:36:00,950 --> 00:36:05,079
as a boy child should
realizes he is different.
484
00:36:05,080 --> 00:36:08,832
But of course at that age, he
does not know what is wrong.
485
00:36:08,833 --> 00:36:12,419
As he grows older and his
sex problems increase,
486
00:36:12,420 --> 00:36:13,837
he becomes aware that what
487
00:36:13,838 --> 00:36:16,591
he really wants to be is a female.
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00:36:17,967 --> 00:36:20,094
He feels that emotionally.
489
00:36:20,095 --> 00:36:23,847
He is a girl with the
desires and traits of a girl.
490
00:36:23,848 --> 00:36:26,225
As he reaches his teen years,
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00:36:26,226 --> 00:36:28,811
he is confronted with greater problems.
492
00:36:28,812 --> 00:36:30,979
As a boy, he must sit with the boys,
493
00:36:30,980 --> 00:36:32,815
use the boys lavatory.
494
00:36:32,816 --> 00:36:37,236
He finds this devastating,
for to himself he is a girl,
495
00:36:37,237 --> 00:36:38,988
just like the girl in the front seat
496
00:36:39,948 --> 00:36:42,825
who would teases the boys, wears makeup,
497
00:36:42,826 --> 00:36:45,619
revealing dresses, and is treated gently.
498
00:36:45,620 --> 00:36:49,707
For she is one of the
so-called weaker sex.
499
00:36:49,708 --> 00:36:52,000
This is what she yearns for.
500
00:36:52,001 --> 00:36:55,129
How does she become the
girl in the front seat?
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00:36:55,130 --> 00:36:58,590
As his teenage years draw to a close,
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00:36:58,591 --> 00:37:02,136
the boy usually finds he can no longer act
503
00:37:02,137 --> 00:37:04,638
as the male he is supposed to be.
504
00:37:04,639 --> 00:37:08,517
- I came from a very puerto rican family,
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00:37:08,518 --> 00:37:09,977
very low in education.
506
00:37:09,978 --> 00:37:14,648
And me, myself, I was in about
the seventh or eighth grade.
507
00:37:14,649 --> 00:37:16,650
No, seventh grade, 'cause I never made it
508
00:37:16,651 --> 00:37:18,026
past the seventh grade.
509
00:37:18,027 --> 00:37:20,654
I only went to two weeks.
510
00:37:20,655 --> 00:37:25,660
And well, by that time I
had a very developed breast
511
00:37:26,035 --> 00:37:28,495
that came on naturally
when I was 11 years of age.
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00:37:28,496 --> 00:37:32,124
And a very ignorant doctor,
they were examining us.
513
00:37:32,125 --> 00:37:36,170
And this doctor was so,
he just told the nurse,
514
00:37:36,171 --> 00:37:38,172
"we don't want the girls till tomorrow.“
515
00:37:38,173 --> 00:37:40,257
and from then on I just
couldn't face those, you know,
516
00:37:40,258 --> 00:37:42,176
those kids making fun of me.
517
00:37:42,177 --> 00:37:43,427
All I knew that everybody,
518
00:37:43,428 --> 00:37:46,389
I thought to myself that
everybody knew about me.
519
00:37:47,432 --> 00:37:50,517
And so that was the last I was to,
520
00:37:50,518 --> 00:37:52,436
you know, to attend school.
521
00:37:52,437 --> 00:37:56,064
- Some transsexuals lived
their entire lives as men.
522
00:37:56,065 --> 00:37:59,443
They are ineffective sexually, socially,
523
00:37:59,444 --> 00:38:02,696
and are usually failures in
all of their undertakings
524
00:38:02,697 --> 00:38:05,324
because they are so very insecure.
525
00:38:05,325 --> 00:38:07,326
- To some degree I have put
a lot of doubts in people
526
00:38:07,327 --> 00:38:08,702
about the subject itself.
527
00:38:08,703 --> 00:38:09,703
Because at some of them do tend
528
00:38:09,704 --> 00:38:12,456
to have a low opinion
about transsexualism.
529
00:38:12,457 --> 00:38:15,417
And maybe the fact is because
530
00:38:15,418 --> 00:38:17,586
I can be myself because I am myself.
531
00:38:17,587 --> 00:38:18,421
I don't have to pretend.
532
00:38:18,422 --> 00:38:20,964
I don't have to fake anything.
533
00:38:20,965 --> 00:38:24,969
There was no way I would've
wanted to live before.
534
00:38:27,722 --> 00:38:31,434
- You may ask, what makes
someone a transsexual?
535
00:38:32,310 --> 00:38:36,189
What factors brought
about the strong obsession
536
00:38:37,232 --> 00:38:40,484
to change gender for a male to female.
537
00:38:40,485 --> 00:38:43,987
- A psychiatrist actually,
when I showed him
538
00:38:43,988 --> 00:38:47,242
my breast development, which
I had at the age of 11,
539
00:38:48,243 --> 00:38:53,248
this psychiatrist tells me,
"well, I have the same thing.
540
00:38:53,998 --> 00:38:55,457
“You know, it's a very common thing."
541
00:38:55,458 --> 00:38:59,127
And here he opens his shirt
542
00:38:59,128 --> 00:39:02,381
and reveals his breast
and all that was behind.
543
00:39:02,382 --> 00:39:05,968
There was blubber because the
guy weighed over 300 pounds.
544
00:39:05,969 --> 00:39:10,974
And so I didn't even believe
when I went in there,
545
00:39:11,140 --> 00:39:12,599
because the first thing he said was,
546
00:39:12,600 --> 00:39:14,142
"by the time we get through,
547
00:39:14,143 --> 00:39:17,646
"you will be going with
broads from corner to corner."
548
00:39:17,647 --> 00:39:21,024
And I knew that that was
just like removing the soul
549
00:39:21,025 --> 00:39:22,526
from from a human being.
550
00:39:22,527 --> 00:39:23,902
What was going to be left of me?
551
00:39:23,903 --> 00:39:26,154
There were times when I consider suicide
552
00:39:26,155 --> 00:39:27,531
because the operation in itself
553
00:39:27,532 --> 00:39:29,783
was going to be so hard to accomplish,
554
00:39:29,784 --> 00:39:31,994
you know, require a lot of money.
555
00:39:31,995 --> 00:39:35,038
And I've always been the type of person
556
00:39:35,039 --> 00:39:36,540
that I used to go up to the doctors.
557
00:39:36,541 --> 00:39:38,542
And I practically waited for
them to leave their offices
558
00:39:38,543 --> 00:39:40,168
and say, "look, can you help me?
559
00:39:40,169 --> 00:39:41,378
"I don't have no money.
560
00:39:41,379 --> 00:39:44,172
"I'm not well-educated enough to have a,
561
00:39:44,173 --> 00:39:46,300
"you know, financial independent.
562
00:39:46,301 --> 00:39:49,303
"And unless I find this,
this is going to be my life."
563
00:39:49,304 --> 00:39:51,305
And I remember telling
one doctor, you know,
564
00:39:51,306 --> 00:39:54,266
"aren't you supposed to help human being,
565
00:39:54,267 --> 00:39:57,519
"or is money more important
than the person's life?"
566
00:39:57,520 --> 00:39:59,646
And that doctor just had me
thrown right out of the office.
567
00:39:59,647 --> 00:40:01,189
"How did you get here to begin with?
568
00:40:01,190 --> 00:40:02,566
"I don't even have office hours."
569
00:40:02,567 --> 00:40:05,193
- First and most important,
a doctor has to make certain
570
00:40:05,194 --> 00:40:07,905
that the patient is truly a transsexual,
571
00:40:07,906 --> 00:40:12,576
and his female desires and
emotions are not temporary.
572
00:40:12,577 --> 00:40:15,787
If this is so, the doctor
prepares the patient
573
00:40:15,788 --> 00:40:18,332
for his future life as a woman.
574
00:40:19,209 --> 00:40:21,793
A measure of the complicated
nature of the operation
575
00:40:21,794 --> 00:40:24,838
can be gauged by the number
of surgical specialists
576
00:40:24,839 --> 00:40:26,965
employed in the operation.
577
00:40:26,966 --> 00:40:30,093
They number four, in addition
to the normal complement
578
00:40:30,094 --> 00:40:32,596
of medical personnel
needed for an operation,
579
00:40:32,597 --> 00:40:34,598
including an anesthetist.
580
00:40:34,599 --> 00:40:39,478
They are a general surgeon,
a gynecological surgeon,
581
00:40:39,479 --> 00:40:42,940
a urological surgeon,
and a plastic surgeon.
582
00:40:42,941 --> 00:40:46,193
By dissection, the skin covering the penis
583
00:40:46,194 --> 00:40:49,112
is removed from the body of the penis,
584
00:40:49,113 --> 00:40:51,866
leaving one small pedicle intact.
585
00:40:52,992 --> 00:40:55,452
Incisions are then made in the two parts
586
00:40:55,453 --> 00:40:59,373
of the scrotal sac, both right and left,
587
00:40:59,374 --> 00:41:02,585
and the testes are removed and discarded.
588
00:41:03,753 --> 00:41:06,004
Due to the years of hormone treatment,
589
00:41:06,005 --> 00:41:07,715
the prostate gland has atrophied.
590
00:41:09,217 --> 00:41:11,259
If the patient has been circumcised
591
00:41:11,260 --> 00:41:13,387
or doesn't have enough skin,
592
00:41:13,388 --> 00:41:17,391
part of the scrotal skin is
used to form part of the sheath.
593
00:41:17,392 --> 00:41:19,726
Otherwise the skin of the scrotum is used
594
00:41:19,727 --> 00:41:24,147
to form the labia, or lips of
the vulva, or vaginal opening.
595
00:41:24,148 --> 00:41:28,652
Because this tissue has
a hair-bearing surface,
596
00:41:28,653 --> 00:41:31,405
it is well suited to this purpose.
597
00:41:31,406 --> 00:41:34,408
The urological surgeon
then fits the sheath
598
00:41:34,409 --> 00:41:38,286
into this hollow, taking
care not to kink the urethra,
599
00:41:38,287 --> 00:41:41,415
a condition that can
later cause strictures.
600
00:41:41,416 --> 00:41:43,625
This instrument is strapped in place
601
00:41:43,626 --> 00:41:47,045
to give the wall a chance to stay apart.
602
00:41:47,046 --> 00:41:50,048
Otherwise, the vagina becomes a closed
603
00:41:50,049 --> 00:41:51,926
rather than an open space.
604
00:41:53,136 --> 00:41:57,431
Post-operative hospitalization
is minimally eight days.
605
00:41:57,432 --> 00:41:59,808
Though it takes several
weeks to several months
606
00:41:59,809 --> 00:42:01,686
for the hundreds of sutures to heal.
607
00:42:03,021 --> 00:42:06,189
Depending on the particular
condition of the patient,
608
00:42:06,190 --> 00:42:09,276
the operation can take
as long as four hours.
609
00:42:12,030 --> 00:42:14,448
First, a circular incision is made
610
00:42:14,449 --> 00:42:16,825
around the base of the penis.
611
00:42:16,826 --> 00:42:20,704
The incision is then extended
in one continuous line
612
00:42:20,705 --> 00:42:22,457
along the middle of the penis.
613
00:42:27,462 --> 00:42:31,048
The skin is then inverted
to form a sheath,
614
00:42:31,049 --> 00:42:33,967
much as a sock is turned inside out.
615
00:42:33,968 --> 00:42:38,973
It is this inverted penile
skin which forms the vagina.
616
00:42:40,224 --> 00:42:44,478
This space between the now
removed penis and the anus
617
00:42:44,479 --> 00:42:47,230
is hollowed out by the urological surgeon
618
00:42:47,231 --> 00:42:50,067
to accommodate the vaginal scabbard.
619
00:42:50,068 --> 00:42:53,236
The implantation of the
inverted penile skin
620
00:42:53,237 --> 00:42:56,865
requires the special
skills of all four surgeons
621
00:42:56,866 --> 00:43:01,620
to keep the new vagina adherent
to the underlying tissues.
622
00:43:01,621 --> 00:43:04,831
It takes several hundred
sutures or stitches
623
00:43:04,832 --> 00:43:07,126
to anchor this newly formed organ.
624
00:43:08,503 --> 00:43:11,755
A mold is now inserted into the vagina,
625
00:43:11,756 --> 00:43:14,758
fashioned of plastic
and flattened at the top
626
00:43:14,759 --> 00:43:18,096
so the pressure on the floor
of the bladder is avoided.
627
00:43:19,764 --> 00:43:22,265
- My first date and lover.
628
00:43:22,266 --> 00:43:24,268
This was after the surgery.
629
00:43:25,394 --> 00:43:27,772
I met a very nice, good looking...
630
00:43:28,856 --> 00:43:30,398
I've always been very choosy
631
00:43:30,399 --> 00:43:35,404
and this was a very
good looking German man.
632
00:43:35,655 --> 00:43:40,408
And we dated each other a couple of times.
633
00:43:40,409 --> 00:43:44,621
Then I decided to try out, you know,
634
00:43:44,622 --> 00:43:46,164
this was the first time I was to go to bed
635
00:43:46,165 --> 00:43:47,917
with the operation, with anyone.
636
00:43:49,544 --> 00:43:54,549
And so the time came and I
went to bed with a young man.
637
00:43:54,715 --> 00:43:58,301
And maybe because he was the first,
638
00:43:58,302 --> 00:44:02,932
or maybe the surgery was
still a fresh surgery,
639
00:44:03,933 --> 00:44:06,309
I bleed, I started bleeding.
640
00:44:06,310 --> 00:44:11,315
And so I didn't even have to tell him why
641
00:44:12,024 --> 00:44:13,942
because the first thing he said was,
642
00:44:13,943 --> 00:44:17,154
"god, you know, this is the
first time in my 28 years
643
00:44:17,155 --> 00:44:18,781
"that I've been with a virgin."
644
00:44:19,699 --> 00:44:22,701
And then from then on I
was a little frightened
645
00:44:22,702 --> 00:44:24,327
because I like the guy as a person,
646
00:44:24,328 --> 00:44:28,039
but I didn't want him for
something to just have around
647
00:44:28,040 --> 00:44:30,960
all the time, just while it
lasted for a little while.
648
00:44:34,589 --> 00:44:37,340
Then his idea of a girl
bleeding, he was very German.
649
00:44:37,341 --> 00:44:39,467
That means that that's the
kind he would want to marry,
650
00:44:39,468 --> 00:44:41,303
because she hasn't been
around with no other men.
651
00:44:41,304 --> 00:44:46,057
And so it was kind of
cute that he left thinking
652
00:44:46,058 --> 00:44:48,435
and he kept calling me and he really said,
653
00:44:48,436 --> 00:44:49,728
"look, I really want to get serious
654
00:44:49,729 --> 00:44:51,479
"because I really think
you are a nice girl.
655
00:44:51,480 --> 00:44:52,856
"I already know."
656
00:44:52,857 --> 00:44:54,191
And then I saw him on an on and off
657
00:44:54,192 --> 00:44:55,859
and up to this point he never knows.
658
00:44:55,860 --> 00:44:58,111
As far as he knows,
he's just walking around
659
00:44:58,112 --> 00:45:00,990
with a happy smile knowing
that he once did have a virgin.
660
00:45:01,991 --> 00:45:03,992
- After the operation, there is a period
661
00:45:03,993 --> 00:45:06,453
of a few months of convalescence.
662
00:45:06,454 --> 00:45:11,458
This is a must so that the
new vagina can heal properly.
663
00:45:11,459 --> 00:45:14,753
Let me tell you about an incident
664
00:45:14,754 --> 00:45:18,340
that occurred to a young male transsexual
665
00:45:18,341 --> 00:45:21,636
who went to Casablanca for
the sex change operation.
666
00:45:22,637 --> 00:45:27,515
Ronald, who is now rhoda,
stayed in Casablanca
667
00:45:27,516 --> 00:45:31,519
for about six weeks so that
she could be near the doctor
668
00:45:31,520 --> 00:45:34,397
who operated, in case of any trouble.
669
00:45:34,398 --> 00:45:37,234
However, rhoda was extremely impatient
670
00:45:37,235 --> 00:45:39,487
to try out her new vagina.
671
00:45:40,404 --> 00:45:42,864
So on her way to the airport
672
00:45:42,865 --> 00:45:45,283
to board a plane for the United States,
673
00:45:45,284 --> 00:45:47,160
rhoda asked her taxi driver
674
00:45:47,161 --> 00:45:49,872
to take her to a small
hotel near the airport.
675
00:45:50,748 --> 00:45:53,917
When the driver carried
her valise to the room,
676
00:45:53,918 --> 00:45:55,543
rhoda seduced him.
677
00:48:55,850 --> 00:48:56,850
- Thanks, lady.
678
00:49:03,732 --> 00:49:04,817
Oh!
679
00:49:19,748 --> 00:49:23,126
- As a result of her sex impatience,
680
00:49:23,127 --> 00:49:27,505
when rhoda called the hospital
she was told to return.
681
00:49:27,506 --> 00:49:29,757
She did, and spent the next two weeks
682
00:49:29,758 --> 00:49:31,843
recovering from another operation
683
00:49:31,844 --> 00:49:35,389
to repair the damage that had
been done to her new vagina.
684
00:49:36,849 --> 00:49:41,854
Of course, this is just
an isolated instance.
685
00:49:42,104 --> 00:49:44,397
Most patients are more careful.
686
00:49:44,398 --> 00:49:46,024
- Oh, the operation in itself
687
00:49:46,025 --> 00:49:48,152
was one of the most painful procedures
688
00:49:49,528 --> 00:49:51,405
I will ever have to undergo.
689
00:49:52,364 --> 00:49:55,658
And well, at that time it
was a very painful procedure
690
00:49:55,659 --> 00:49:58,536
to the point that I wish I would have die
691
00:49:58,537 --> 00:50:00,538
than to go through the pain that I was in.
692
00:50:00,539 --> 00:50:03,750
But today, now that I see all the success
693
00:50:03,751 --> 00:50:07,670
and possibly a good
future to look forward to,
694
00:50:07,671 --> 00:50:10,423
I'd undergo the operation again and again.
695
00:50:10,424 --> 00:50:12,300
- Debbie, will you come in, please?
696
00:50:18,891 --> 00:50:20,058
This is Debbie harten.
697
00:50:20,059 --> 00:50:20,935
How are you?
698
00:50:20,935 --> 00:50:21,935
- Fine, thank you.
699
00:50:22,895 --> 00:50:23,812
- How old are you Debbie?
700
00:50:23,813 --> 00:50:25,939
I'm 38 years old, doctor.
701
00:50:25,940 --> 00:50:28,566
- Tell me about your childhood.
702
00:50:28,567 --> 00:50:31,194
- Well, it was a lonely childhood.
703
00:50:31,195 --> 00:50:33,571
I refused to play with the boys.
704
00:50:33,572 --> 00:50:35,074
I wanted to be with the girls.
705
00:50:35,908 --> 00:50:38,076
When I was about six years old,
706
00:50:38,077 --> 00:50:41,412
I knew I was different
from other little boys.
707
00:50:41,413 --> 00:50:43,039
And when I was eight years old,
708
00:50:43,040 --> 00:50:46,167
I started to dress as a girl.
709
00:50:46,168 --> 00:50:48,294
- What about your family?
710
00:50:48,295 --> 00:50:50,547
Did they know about your problem?
711
00:50:50,548 --> 00:50:55,093
- Well, my parents knew
that something was wrong,
712
00:50:55,094 --> 00:50:57,804
but did not know what it was.
713
00:50:57,805 --> 00:51:00,558
When they found out I was a transsexual,
714
00:51:01,433 --> 00:51:04,687
they was shocked and simply
could not believe it.
715
00:51:05,604 --> 00:51:07,356
- Did they accept you or reject you?
716
00:51:09,066 --> 00:51:13,194
- Both my parents, after
the initial shock wore off,
717
00:51:13,195 --> 00:51:15,864
were understanding and sympathetic.
718
00:51:16,991 --> 00:51:21,494
As a matter of fact, I lived
with them at this time.
719
00:51:21,495 --> 00:51:23,955
However, my brother and sister
720
00:51:23,956 --> 00:51:27,875
did not speak to me for a number of years.
721
00:51:27,876 --> 00:51:30,003
But for the past year or so,
722
00:51:30,004 --> 00:51:33,506
they seem to be anxious
to be friends again.
723
00:51:33,507 --> 00:51:35,008
- As you grew older, did you ever think
724
00:51:35,009 --> 00:51:36,384
you might be a homosexual?
725
00:51:36,385 --> 00:51:37,468
- Yes, I did.
726
00:51:37,469 --> 00:51:41,639
And when I grew older, I
engaged in homosexual practices,
727
00:51:41,640 --> 00:51:43,391
but I found I didn't like it
728
00:51:43,392 --> 00:51:46,269
because my partner regarded me as a male.
729
00:51:46,270 --> 00:51:47,895
Would you like to be a picture of me
730
00:51:47,896 --> 00:51:49,398
when I was in the Navy, doctor?
731
00:51:52,151 --> 00:51:55,236
- By the way I watched you
on "the David susskind show."
732
00:51:55,237 --> 00:51:57,990
What you had to say was
extremely interesting.
733
00:52:01,660 --> 00:52:05,288
Debbie, why don't you tell me
about your life in the Navy,
734
00:52:05,289 --> 00:52:08,250
and also tell me what
effect it had upon you.
735
00:52:09,418 --> 00:52:11,919
- I thought that being in the
Navy would get me to Denmark,
736
00:52:11,920 --> 00:52:16,007
where I could have a sex change operation.
737
00:52:16,008 --> 00:52:18,176
But I didn't leave the United States,
738
00:52:18,177 --> 00:52:22,138
and I had to live on the
base with the other men.
739
00:52:22,139 --> 00:52:25,642
This was very distasteful to me.
740
00:52:25,643 --> 00:52:29,312
The only way I could get off
the base was to get married.
741
00:52:29,313 --> 00:52:33,441
I asked a girl I knew in
my hometown to marry me.
742
00:52:33,442 --> 00:52:34,442
She agreed.
743
00:52:35,319 --> 00:52:38,072
We lived off the base
while I was in service.
744
00:52:39,073 --> 00:52:41,075
And we had a child, a daughter.
745
00:52:42,451 --> 00:52:44,202
- Tell me about your wife.
746
00:52:44,203 --> 00:52:48,706
- My wife knew my problem
before our daughter was born.
747
00:52:48,707 --> 00:52:51,542
She accepted the fact that I felt
748
00:52:51,543 --> 00:52:54,588
a terrific need to dress as a woman.
749
00:52:55,464 --> 00:53:00,469
After I was discharged from
the Navy, I tried to get work.
750
00:53:00,719 --> 00:53:02,470
I went from one job to another.
751
00:53:02,471 --> 00:53:04,972
I couldn't adjust to any male job.
752
00:53:04,973 --> 00:53:07,100
I felt I couldn't go on living.
753
00:53:07,101 --> 00:53:09,352
Suicide was the only way out.
754
00:53:09,353 --> 00:53:11,979
As you know, that's how I came to see you.
755
00:53:11,980 --> 00:53:14,233
- Debbie came to my
office every two weeks.
756
00:53:15,234 --> 00:53:17,360
I gave her injections of female hormones
757
00:53:17,361 --> 00:53:18,861
and oral medication.
758
00:53:18,862 --> 00:53:21,864
This produced the appearance
of increased breast tissue.
759
00:53:21,865 --> 00:53:24,367
How did you feel when
you looked in the mirror
760
00:53:24,368 --> 00:53:28,246
and saw that your breasts were
beginning to look feminine?
761
00:53:28,247 --> 00:53:30,248
- It made me more anxious to get
762
00:53:30,249 --> 00:53:33,502
the sex change operation
and to get rid of my penis.
763
00:53:34,753 --> 00:53:38,215
And now I'm trying to arrange
a uterus and ovary transplant
764
00:53:39,758 --> 00:53:42,135
so that I can bear children.
765
00:53:42,136 --> 00:53:44,387
- But you know, this hasn't
proven too successful
766
00:53:44,388 --> 00:53:46,514
and could be extremely dangerous.
767
00:53:46,515 --> 00:53:49,100
- I am aware of this.
768
00:53:49,101 --> 00:53:51,853
- When did you have the
sex change operation?
769
00:53:51,854 --> 00:53:56,859
I had it done about 11
months ago.
770
00:53:57,234 --> 00:53:59,152
When did you have sex with a man?
771
00:53:59,153 --> 00:54:01,863
- About six weeks after the operation.
772
00:54:01,864 --> 00:54:03,656
It was quite painful.
773
00:54:03,657 --> 00:54:08,161
But after the sexual act
was over, I felt wonderful.
774
00:54:08,162 --> 00:54:11,497
I felt that finally I was a true female.
775
00:54:11,498 --> 00:54:12,874
- How old is your daughter?
776
00:54:12,875 --> 00:54:15,294
And does she know that
her father is now a woman?
777
00:54:16,670 --> 00:54:20,423
- My daughter is 16 years old.
778
00:54:20,424 --> 00:54:24,677
She is a beautiful young
lady, a good student,
779
00:54:24,678 --> 00:54:28,556
and thank god, a
compassionate human being.
780
00:54:28,557 --> 00:54:33,436
She knows about my operation
and that I am now a female.
781
00:54:33,437 --> 00:54:37,398
She is intelligent enough to understand me
782
00:54:37,399 --> 00:54:40,777
and to love me as a child loves a parent.
783
00:54:40,778 --> 00:54:43,697
- What do you look forward
to in your future life?
784
00:54:45,908 --> 00:54:49,703
- I'd like to fall in love,
get married, and have children.
785
00:54:51,455 --> 00:54:54,208
Oh, I just want to be a woman.
786
00:54:55,292 --> 00:54:58,461
- Debbie, will you come into
the examining room, please?
787
00:54:58,462 --> 00:54:59,546
- Yes, doctor.
788
00:55:35,123 --> 00:55:37,124
Will you come in, Debbie?
789
00:55:40,128 --> 00:55:42,256
Debbie's body is that of a female.
790
00:55:49,096 --> 00:55:50,721
The breasts, as you see,
791
00:55:50,722 --> 00:55:53,474
are quite ample and very feminine-like.
792
00:55:53,475 --> 00:55:56,894
These are not only the results
of the hormone injection,
793
00:55:56,895 --> 00:56:00,398
but inserts as well of silastic gel,
794
00:56:00,399 --> 00:56:03,025
which gives the substance of the breast
795
00:56:03,026 --> 00:56:07,530
a very firm, hard, and feminine look.
796
00:56:07,531 --> 00:56:09,156
Fortunately for Debbie,
797
00:56:09,157 --> 00:56:13,744
as a male she had a very flat abdomen
798
00:56:13,745 --> 00:56:15,288
and hasn't gained any weight,
799
00:56:15,289 --> 00:56:19,667
which makes her form quite feminine-like.
800
00:56:19,668 --> 00:56:24,046
The pubic triangle, the female escutcheon,
801
00:56:24,047 --> 00:56:25,882
is duplicated here.
802
00:56:25,883 --> 00:56:28,301
But most of the effect is,
803
00:56:28,302 --> 00:56:31,679
well it's the result of
shaving on this area.
804
00:56:31,680 --> 00:56:35,182
Otherwise we might've seen
the additional growth of hair
805
00:56:35,183 --> 00:56:36,809
as is found in a normal male.
806
00:56:36,810 --> 00:56:39,145
We might note that the tapering fingers
807
00:56:39,146 --> 00:56:40,897
are those of a female.
808
00:56:40,898 --> 00:56:43,774
Fortunately Debbie is
lucky in this respect.
809
00:56:43,775 --> 00:56:46,193
Because the entire picture,
810
00:56:46,194 --> 00:56:51,199
the legs, ankles, the
thighs, the flat abdomen,
811
00:56:51,450 --> 00:56:53,951
the protuberant female breast,
812
00:56:53,952 --> 00:56:57,955
the entire contours are
that of a typical female.
813
00:56:57,956 --> 00:57:01,208
And she thus represents
after the operation
814
00:57:01,209 --> 00:57:05,838
as much femininity as one
might expect in a female.
815
00:57:05,839 --> 00:57:10,844
I would like to now show the
dilatation of the vagina.
816
00:57:12,930 --> 00:57:16,098
The vagina is created by the surgeon
817
00:57:16,099 --> 00:57:18,601
in the sex change operation.
818
00:57:18,602 --> 00:57:20,853
Now, as I've already told you,
819
00:57:20,854 --> 00:57:24,357
the vagina is made from
the skin of the penis.
820
00:57:24,358 --> 00:57:27,485
And in every operated
case, it is necessary
821
00:57:27,486 --> 00:57:32,449
to dilate the vagina so that
the vagina space remains open.
822
00:57:33,367 --> 00:57:35,868
In some cases, it is necessary
823
00:57:35,869 --> 00:57:40,498
to increase the depth of the
vagina by dilating frequently,
824
00:57:40,499 --> 00:57:42,250
as Debbie is now doing.
825
00:57:47,506 --> 00:57:50,132
The hormone injections are very vital
826
00:57:50,133 --> 00:57:51,760
to the individual's development.
827
00:57:53,261 --> 00:57:56,013
The hormone effects on the breasts,
828
00:57:56,014 --> 00:58:00,393
on the hair of the body,
and depressing the sex drive
829
00:58:00,394 --> 00:58:03,021
are the effects that we
would normally expect.
830
00:58:04,231 --> 00:58:08,150
Another thing is for the
skin to become very smooth,
831
00:58:08,151 --> 00:58:10,529
soft, and feminine-like.
832
00:58:11,905 --> 00:58:14,115
We customarily give the injections
833
00:58:14,116 --> 00:58:16,785
in the buttocks, intramuscularly.
834
00:58:17,911 --> 00:58:20,913
These injections are given twice a month,
835
00:58:20,914 --> 00:58:23,791
approximately every two weeks.
836
00:58:23,792 --> 00:58:25,002
You can go inside now.
837
00:58:38,557 --> 00:58:41,517
I call this the slap technique.
838
00:58:41,518 --> 00:58:43,561
I inject the female hormones
839
00:58:43,562 --> 00:58:46,689
by applying pressure at
the side of the hand.
840
00:58:46,690 --> 00:58:49,316
The entrance of the needle
through the skin of the buttock
841
00:58:49,317 --> 00:58:51,777
is hardly felt because the patient
842
00:58:51,778 --> 00:58:54,573
is more aware of slap than the injection.
843
00:58:55,907 --> 00:58:57,074
Turn over.
844
00:58:57,075 --> 00:58:59,828
Vagina was created from
the skin of her penis.
845
00:59:00,912 --> 00:59:02,955
Let me show you the closeup anatomy
846
00:59:02,956 --> 00:59:06,084
of the change from to female sex.
847
00:59:09,212 --> 00:59:12,840
This is the opening of the
canal leading to the bladder,
848
00:59:12,841 --> 00:59:15,176
through which the urine passes.
849
00:59:15,177 --> 00:59:18,305
The metal probe indicates
the direction of the opening.
850
00:59:23,810 --> 00:59:26,479
This part of the vagina that I am touching
851
00:59:26,480 --> 00:59:29,691
is a bulge caused by
the base of the penis.
852
00:59:31,359 --> 00:59:34,196
This was left for erotic sensations.
853
00:59:38,200 --> 00:59:39,825
The fourchette is still healing
854
00:59:39,826 --> 00:59:41,953
where the two lips of the vagina meet.
855
00:59:42,746 --> 00:59:46,874
Healing in this area
sometimes take several weeks.
856
00:59:46,875 --> 00:59:49,001
However, the rate of healing
857
00:59:49,002 --> 00:59:51,505
is different in different individuals.
858
00:59:52,380 --> 00:59:55,132
One disappointing feature is the absence
859
00:59:55,133 --> 00:59:57,718
of lubricating fluid, because the glands
860
00:59:57,719 --> 01:00:00,138
that produce this fluid
cannot be transplanted.
861
01:00:02,516 --> 01:00:07,353
The vagina is best illustrated
by inserting my gloved hand
862
01:00:07,354 --> 01:00:09,272
and lubricated finger into it.
863
01:00:10,357 --> 01:00:13,025
The skin of this newly created vagina
864
01:00:13,026 --> 01:00:16,403
was formerly the skin covering the penis.
865
01:00:16,404 --> 01:00:19,115
This accounts for the
retention of the sensation
866
01:00:19,116 --> 01:00:22,409
of eroticism in the area it touches.
867
01:00:22,410 --> 01:00:25,413
In spite of this female
organ just described,
868
01:00:26,289 --> 01:00:29,126
note the male hairiness of
the thighs and perineum.
869
01:00:30,877 --> 01:00:33,671
The depth of the vagina
is adequate to accommodate
870
01:00:33,672 --> 01:00:37,259
an average size penis
during sexual intercourse.
871
01:00:38,176 --> 01:00:39,552
The direction of the vagina
872
01:00:39,553 --> 01:00:42,429
fits the direction of the erect penis.
873
01:00:42,430 --> 01:00:44,266
That's it, thank you.
874
01:00:49,437 --> 01:00:52,273
Debbie had the sex conversion operation
875
01:00:52,274 --> 01:00:54,567
approximately 11 months ago.
876
01:00:55,444 --> 01:00:58,529
During the operation,
the testes were removed
877
01:00:58,530 --> 01:01:00,698
following which the penis was removed
878
01:01:00,699 --> 01:01:03,284
and the skin of the penis was used
879
01:01:03,285 --> 01:01:07,288
to create a vagina by plastic surgery.
880
01:01:07,289 --> 01:01:11,834
As a result of this
Debbie, like any woman,
881
01:01:11,835 --> 01:01:14,838
can now have sexual intercourse.
882
01:02:31,039 --> 01:02:33,749
One afternoon I received a phone call
883
01:02:33,750 --> 01:02:36,044
from a young man whom we will call Steve.
884
01:02:37,295 --> 01:02:39,421
Steve said that it was imperative
885
01:02:39,422 --> 01:02:41,632
that he see me immediately.
886
01:02:41,633 --> 01:02:45,135
He had heard about me, had
read some of my articles,
887
01:02:45,136 --> 01:02:48,681
and thought possibly I could help him.
888
01:02:48,682 --> 01:02:51,934
Steve sounded so desperate, so despondent,
889
01:02:51,935 --> 01:02:53,687
that I told him to come right over.
890
01:02:54,813 --> 01:02:56,563
The young man that came to my office
891
01:02:56,564 --> 01:02:59,441
within the hour was indeed frantic.
892
01:02:59,442 --> 01:03:01,193
His story was like so many others
893
01:03:01,194 --> 01:03:02,695
I had heard throughout the years.
894
01:03:03,572 --> 01:03:06,573
He said that from the time
he was five years old,
895
01:03:06,574 --> 01:03:09,576
he knew he was different
from other little boys.
896
01:03:09,577 --> 01:03:12,204
He spent his youth unhappy and alone,
897
01:03:12,205 --> 01:03:14,958
unaware of what his true problem was.
898
01:03:15,834 --> 01:03:18,210
It was not until he was a young man
899
01:03:18,211 --> 01:03:20,462
that he learned about transsexualism
900
01:03:20,463 --> 01:03:23,340
and realized and admitted to himself
901
01:03:23,341 --> 01:03:25,676
that he was a transsexual.
902
01:03:25,677 --> 01:03:28,304
No one knew about his problems.
903
01:03:28,305 --> 01:03:31,223
He lived in misery and frustration.
904
01:03:31,224 --> 01:03:33,976
He knew he needed help,
but could not bring himself
905
01:03:33,977 --> 01:03:37,564
to confide in anyone,
not even a physician.
906
01:03:38,606 --> 01:03:42,109
Now he said he wanted my advice.
907
01:03:42,110 --> 01:03:43,944
It seemed that a number of months ago,
908
01:03:43,945 --> 01:03:47,072
Steve spent the weekend
at a friend's home.
909
01:03:47,073 --> 01:03:50,617
During the night, he heard
noises and went to investigate.
910
01:03:50,618 --> 01:03:54,121
There was Tom and his
wife, Sandy making love.
911
01:04:08,636 --> 01:04:11,513
Steve knew that he should
not invade their privacy
912
01:04:11,514 --> 01:04:15,225
by watching, but he couldn't move.
913
01:04:15,226 --> 01:04:16,770
He felt rooted to the spot.
914
01:04:24,652 --> 01:04:26,653
Finally, he left.
915
01:04:26,654 --> 01:04:28,906
That night, when Steve fell asleep,
916
01:04:28,907 --> 01:04:31,283
he dreamed that he was
making love to blanche,
917
01:04:31,284 --> 01:04:34,536
a girl he had met at a
concert some time ago.
918
01:05:50,613 --> 01:05:51,990
The dream haunted him.
919
01:05:52,991 --> 01:05:54,992
Steve said that making love to blanche
920
01:05:54,993 --> 01:05:56,619
had seemed so natural.
921
01:05:57,704 --> 01:06:00,247
Perhaps getting married might somehow
922
01:06:00,248 --> 01:06:02,833
help him overcome his problem.
923
01:06:02,834 --> 01:06:05,878
Blanche was intelligent,
seemed sympathetic.
924
01:06:05,879 --> 01:06:08,380
And so Steve had been courting her.
925
01:06:08,381 --> 01:06:11,216
Their marriage was to take
place within the month.
926
01:06:11,217 --> 01:06:14,511
Steve had come to me
because he had had the need
927
01:06:14,512 --> 01:06:17,473
to talk to someone who
understood his dilemma.
928
01:06:17,474 --> 01:06:20,894
Was he doing the right
thing by marrying blanche?
929
01:06:21,895 --> 01:06:24,021
I could not give Steve any advice
930
01:06:24,022 --> 01:06:27,983
because he hadn't communicated
enough information to me
931
01:06:27,984 --> 01:06:29,736
so that I could help him.
932
01:06:30,653 --> 01:06:34,239
I did, however, suggest
that he think very carefully
933
01:06:34,240 --> 01:06:36,241
about his forthcoming marriage,
934
01:06:36,242 --> 01:06:38,535
and that he contact me again.
935
01:06:38,536 --> 01:06:39,621
He said he would.
936
01:06:42,665 --> 01:06:45,876
A few weeks later, a
young girl came to see me.
937
01:06:45,877 --> 01:06:47,169
It was blanche.
938
01:06:48,047 --> 01:06:49,546
She had found my name and address
939
01:06:49,547 --> 01:06:52,007
on a pad near Steve's phone.
940
01:06:52,008 --> 01:06:55,385
She thought possibly I could
explain what had happened.
941
01:06:55,386 --> 01:06:58,931
Blanche said that she and Steve
were planning to be married.
942
01:06:58,932 --> 01:07:00,682
One evening in Steve's house
943
01:07:00,683 --> 01:07:03,144
they were discussing their
wedding arrangements.
944
01:07:04,020 --> 01:07:07,439
Steve seemed very quiet and depressed.
945
01:07:07,440 --> 01:07:09,399
Blanche attributed this to the fact
946
01:07:09,400 --> 01:07:12,320
that he was the usual nervous bridegroom.
947
01:07:14,572 --> 01:07:17,200
Suddenly he got up and
walked into the next room.
948
01:07:18,701 --> 01:07:20,577
Blanche thought that
she had said something
949
01:07:20,578 --> 01:07:21,704
to disturb Steve.
950
01:07:22,956 --> 01:07:24,082
She would find out.
951
01:07:43,560 --> 01:07:46,061
Blanche wanted to know if I had any idea
952
01:07:46,062 --> 01:07:47,981
why Steve had taken his life.
953
01:07:49,107 --> 01:07:50,857
I felt that under the circumstances,
954
01:07:50,858 --> 01:07:52,610
I could not tell her the truth.
955
01:07:54,195 --> 01:07:55,863
Perhaps I did not know the truth.
956
01:07:57,824 --> 01:08:00,618
Blanche left my office
bewildered and miserable.
957
01:08:01,869 --> 01:08:04,871
Less painful than
surgery, but more terrible
958
01:08:04,872 --> 01:08:05,998
is the only alternative
959
01:08:05,999 --> 01:08:08,875
many transsexuals see for themselves.
960
01:08:08,876 --> 01:08:12,129
The only way out of this living nightmare.
961
01:08:12,130 --> 01:08:14,881
It was a chance occurrence of a dream
962
01:08:14,882 --> 01:08:16,341
that led Steve to think
963
01:08:16,342 --> 01:08:20,345
that he could sort out
his life by marriage,
964
01:08:20,346 --> 01:08:24,975
a marriage that would condemn
him to an even deeper lie,
965
01:08:24,976 --> 01:08:29,480
a deeper hell, to a point
beyond endurance, suicide.
966
01:08:32,442 --> 01:08:34,735
Perhaps if Steve had come to me sooner,
967
01:08:34,736 --> 01:08:36,112
I could have helped him.
968
01:08:38,615 --> 01:08:43,620
Transsexuals are dentists,
attorneys, college professors,
969
01:08:44,078 --> 01:08:49,083
engineers, chemists, writers,
theatrical producers.
970
01:08:49,751 --> 01:08:53,503
Some have become models, movie stars.
971
01:08:53,504 --> 01:08:57,341
And then there are others who
are truck drivers, stevedores,
972
01:08:57,342 --> 01:09:01,638
waiters, waitresses,
electrologists, and beauticians.
973
01:09:02,764 --> 01:09:06,600
So you can see that the
occupations and professions
974
01:09:06,601 --> 01:09:10,103
of the transsexual population
are extremely varied.
975
01:09:10,104 --> 01:09:12,856
- It was kind of hard to get a job.
976
01:09:12,857 --> 01:09:14,858
Even when I used to dress as a male.
977
01:09:14,859 --> 01:09:16,902
Or live, I didn't say live,
978
01:09:16,903 --> 01:09:19,363
exist and pretended to be a male.
979
01:09:19,364 --> 01:09:23,408
I saw a photo of myself
when I was 14 years of age,
980
01:09:23,409 --> 01:09:27,788
and for some reason,
981
01:09:27,789 --> 01:09:32,168
that person was something that...
982
01:09:34,128 --> 01:09:35,796
I couldn't even stare
at the picture straight
983
01:09:35,797 --> 01:09:40,802
because it involves so
much pain and misery.
984
01:09:40,968 --> 01:09:43,762
It wasn't easy for, number one,
985
01:09:43,763 --> 01:09:47,933
I am not well-educated in the sense that,
986
01:09:47,934 --> 01:09:49,393
because of my problem with my breasts,
987
01:09:49,394 --> 01:09:51,186
I didn't finish school.
988
01:09:51,187 --> 01:09:54,272
- It becomes necessary
for many transsexuals
989
01:09:54,273 --> 01:09:55,440
to leave this country
990
01:09:55,441 --> 01:09:58,568
in order to have the operation performed.
991
01:09:58,569 --> 01:10:02,948
However, during the last few
years, more and more doctors
992
01:10:02,949 --> 01:10:05,534
are becoming interested in the problem.
993
01:10:05,535 --> 01:10:07,953
And consequently, there
are more operations
994
01:10:07,954 --> 01:10:11,081
being performed in the United States.
995
01:10:11,082 --> 01:10:15,335
Hopefully this will continue
and more medical centers
996
01:10:15,336 --> 01:10:18,338
will perform the sex conversion operation.
997
01:10:18,339 --> 01:10:21,091
- I did not know that
there was any such thing
998
01:10:21,092 --> 01:10:25,470
as a transsexual or a
surgery to adjust whatever,
999
01:10:25,471 --> 01:10:29,349
the mind to the rest of
the body, and so forth.
1000
01:10:29,350 --> 01:10:33,103
And I thought that it was a very...
1001
01:10:33,104 --> 01:10:34,813
I knew that I was not a homosexual.
1002
01:10:34,814 --> 01:10:35,939
I felt that.
1003
01:10:35,940 --> 01:10:40,610
I didn't hate the idea of a
homosexual 'cause I wasn't it.
1004
01:10:40,611 --> 01:10:42,487
But at that time, that's what people
1005
01:10:42,488 --> 01:10:43,488
would have thought of me.
1006
01:10:43,489 --> 01:10:48,494
They knew that what I felt
inside, and I used to...
1007
01:10:49,871 --> 01:10:51,204
I went to several doctors to see
1008
01:10:51,205 --> 01:10:52,622
if they could give me answers.
1009
01:10:52,623 --> 01:10:55,834
They were very ignorant where
this subject was concerned.
1010
01:10:55,835 --> 01:10:57,461
One of them didn't even
bother talking to me.
1011
01:10:57,462 --> 01:10:59,004
He sent me to a stronger psychiatrist.
1012
01:10:59,005 --> 01:11:01,256
He thought I was that badly disturbed.
1013
01:11:01,257 --> 01:11:05,469
And I decided to take my life
1014
01:11:05,470 --> 01:11:07,596
because I say, I'm not a homosexual.
1015
01:11:07,597 --> 01:11:09,765
| can never live as a man.
1016
01:11:09,766 --> 01:11:12,017
Certain things are expected of a male.
1017
01:11:12,018 --> 01:11:14,227
When you're 18, you're
supposed to start dating.
1018
01:11:14,228 --> 01:11:16,104
Marriage soon after that.
1019
01:11:16,105 --> 01:11:18,231
And how could I have
done something like that?
1020
01:11:18,232 --> 01:11:22,110
It was beyond anything
I could ever have done.
1021
01:11:22,111 --> 01:11:25,405
And so I said that I
was going to end my life
1022
01:11:25,406 --> 01:11:27,157
at the age of 18.
1023
01:11:27,158 --> 01:11:32,037
And I clearly remember
getting pills and everything.
1024
01:11:32,038 --> 01:11:34,289
I was totally prepared to commit suicide.
1025
01:11:34,290 --> 01:11:37,501
And then one day, the same
day the matter of fact
1026
01:11:37,502 --> 01:11:39,419
that this incident was
ought to take place,
1027
01:11:39,420 --> 01:11:42,506
Christine jorgensen came
over "the Mike Douglas show."
1028
01:11:42,507 --> 01:11:45,801
And he introduced her as a man
who had undergone a surgery.
1029
01:11:45,802 --> 01:11:47,052
And then she walks on stage.
1030
01:11:47,053 --> 01:11:49,679
But still, I was still
so naive and ignorant
1031
01:11:49,680 --> 01:11:54,059
to such a thing as a sex
change that I said to myself,
1032
01:11:54,060 --> 01:11:56,561
"oh, she must have just
had slight alterations.“
1033
01:11:56,562 --> 01:11:59,773
and then when they show a
picture of Christine jorgensen
1034
01:11:59,774 --> 01:12:02,317
in the service, you know,
she looked more like a man
1035
01:12:02,318 --> 01:12:05,654
than I could ever have been.
1036
01:12:05,655 --> 01:12:08,824
So then that was the first hint
1037
01:12:08,825 --> 01:12:10,826
that I was what I believed all along,
1038
01:12:10,827 --> 01:12:14,288
that I was not something
1039
01:12:16,833 --> 01:12:18,708
that people would think
of as a homosexual,
1040
01:12:18,709 --> 01:12:21,169
but that I was what I
felt, a woman all along.
1041
01:12:21,170 --> 01:12:22,796
In fact, one of the nicest stories
1042
01:12:22,797 --> 01:12:24,297
that I will always relate to my life
1043
01:12:24,298 --> 01:12:26,550
is the story of the ugly duckling.
1044
01:12:26,551 --> 01:12:28,218
For the simple reason that one night
1045
01:12:28,219 --> 01:12:29,302
he went to bed miserable.
1046
01:12:29,303 --> 01:12:31,596
The next day, he became a beautiful swan.
1047
01:12:31,597 --> 01:12:33,974
And that's exactly,
1048
01:12:33,975 --> 01:12:36,726
when I went to buy the
Christine jorgensen book.
1049
01:12:36,727 --> 01:12:39,980
It was all dusty, they give
it to me for half price
1050
01:12:39,981 --> 01:12:42,357
'cause nobody was
interested in that subject.
1051
01:12:42,358 --> 01:12:46,444
And that was to be my first contact
1052
01:12:46,445 --> 01:12:48,488
with the medical profession,
1053
01:12:48,489 --> 01:12:51,116
that there was such a
thing as being what I was
1054
01:12:51,117 --> 01:12:55,245
by simply alternating,
you know, certain areas.
1055
01:12:55,246 --> 01:12:58,331
And when I started reading her biography,
1056
01:12:58,332 --> 01:12:59,749
my life actually started,
1057
01:12:59,750 --> 01:13:01,961
it was like putting pieces of puzzles
1058
01:13:03,254 --> 01:13:04,088
with the numbers on the puzzle
1059
01:13:04,089 --> 01:13:06,464
and the number on the
plate, or on the sheet
1060
01:13:06,465 --> 01:13:08,258
where the puzzle would go.
1061
01:13:08,259 --> 01:13:12,596
And from then on life was again,
1062
01:13:12,597 --> 01:13:14,764
I started living again.
1063
01:13:14,765 --> 01:13:16,266
I merely existed.
1064
01:13:16,267 --> 01:13:18,476
And then like, I knew I
had something to reach for.
1065
01:13:18,477 --> 01:13:23,149
And along the line, I never
thought of suicide after that.
1066
01:13:24,984 --> 01:13:27,777
- One are the problems
that beset the transsexual
1067
01:13:27,778 --> 01:13:29,905
is the difficulty in finding a church
1068
01:13:29,906 --> 01:13:32,991
that will condone this type of marriage.
1069
01:13:32,992 --> 01:13:35,785
However, in scattered areas
throughout our country,
1070
01:13:35,786 --> 01:13:38,914
are ministers who understand the situation
1071
01:13:38,915 --> 01:13:40,665
and are compassionate enough
1072
01:13:40,666 --> 01:13:42,418
to perform the wedding ceremony.
1073
01:13:43,419 --> 01:13:46,671
One minister with whom
I discussed marriage
1074
01:13:46,672 --> 01:13:49,925
involving a transsexual
said that he did not think
1075
01:13:49,926 --> 01:13:51,885
that the physical state of a person
1076
01:13:51,886 --> 01:13:55,389
had anything to do with
taking the marriage vows.
1077
01:13:56,265 --> 01:13:59,059
He further stated that he had united
1078
01:13:59,060 --> 01:14:02,187
many impotent men and frigid women,
1079
01:14:02,188 --> 01:14:04,397
and the transsexual marriages
1080
01:14:04,398 --> 01:14:07,275
were as binding as any other marriages.
1081
01:14:07,276 --> 01:14:08,568
Of course, this minister
1082
01:14:08,569 --> 01:14:11,655
is an unusually enlightened
and intelligent man.
1083
01:14:11,656 --> 01:14:16,201
- My family are very heavy
pentecostal christians.
1084
01:14:16,202 --> 01:14:19,579
And they're the type of
people that they think
1085
01:14:19,580 --> 01:14:23,458
that if you do give your
life to the lord Christ,
1086
01:14:23,459 --> 01:14:25,710
that, you know, you'll
be safe from anything.
1087
01:14:25,711 --> 01:14:28,546
Even if you have a leg missing,
1088
01:14:28,547 --> 01:14:31,341
you place enough faith,
you'll grow a new leg.
1089
01:14:31,342 --> 01:14:33,843
And they always believe that
if I give myself to the lord
1090
01:14:33,844 --> 01:14:34,928
that all of this would change.
1091
01:14:34,929 --> 01:14:37,222
And they had my mind confused
1092
01:14:37,223 --> 01:14:39,349
where religion was concerned.
1093
01:14:39,350 --> 01:14:40,725
It was a time when I
didn't think of religion.
1094
01:14:40,726 --> 01:14:42,477
- Transsexuals are prejudiced against
1095
01:14:42,478 --> 01:14:45,106
more than any other minority group.
1096
01:14:46,190 --> 01:14:49,985
Family life, social life, and employment.
1097
01:14:49,986 --> 01:14:52,988
- To some degree, I guess
they've accepted the fact
1098
01:14:52,989 --> 01:14:54,864
that I am very successful as a woman.
1099
01:14:54,865 --> 01:14:59,619
Because their explanations
of why I am so successful
1100
01:14:59,620 --> 01:15:04,625
and I appear very attractive
compared to others
1101
01:15:05,584 --> 01:15:09,379
is that that's the devil's
way of getting other people
1102
01:15:09,380 --> 01:15:12,090
to commit the same mistake that I did
1103
01:15:12,091 --> 01:15:13,842
and condemn themselves to hell.
1104
01:15:13,843 --> 01:15:16,761
The attitude that my family
bred in me about, you know,
1105
01:15:16,762 --> 01:15:18,847
if you ever undergo such a procedure
1106
01:15:18,848 --> 01:15:21,099
that you're condemned to
hell for all eternity.
1107
01:15:21,100 --> 01:15:24,644
And he made it quite clear that, you know,
1108
01:15:24,645 --> 01:15:26,980
I'm still god's creation,
1109
01:15:26,981 --> 01:15:29,482
regardless of whatever
I did decide to choose.
1110
01:15:29,483 --> 01:15:31,776
And if I was going to be happier for it,
1111
01:15:31,777 --> 01:15:34,530
why would the lord want me
miserable if I could be happy?
1112
01:15:35,656 --> 01:15:40,285
- Most of society has not yet
been educated sufficiently
1113
01:15:40,286 --> 01:15:43,163
so that they can understand and sympathize
1114
01:15:43,164 --> 01:15:45,166
with the problems of the transsexual.
1115
01:15:46,292 --> 01:15:50,795
Most unfortunately, and I
repeat, most unfortunately
1116
01:15:50,796 --> 01:15:54,799
there are some transsexuals
who, miserable and despondent
1117
01:15:54,800 --> 01:15:58,053
because they cannot have
the sex conversion operation
1118
01:15:58,054 --> 01:16:00,680
due to lack of understanding and money,
1119
01:16:00,681 --> 01:16:01,681
cannot cope with the situation
1120
01:16:01,682 --> 01:16:04,643
and resort to drastic measures.
1121
01:16:05,436 --> 01:16:08,188
We look forward to the
time when sex labels
1122
01:16:08,189 --> 01:16:12,317
will no longer exist and
there will be only people.
1123
01:16:12,318 --> 01:16:14,569
- I do tell people about myself.
1124
01:16:14,570 --> 01:16:18,698
They ask why I decided to do this.
1125
01:16:18,699 --> 01:16:23,578
And I simply tell it wasn't
a matter of a decision.
1126
01:16:23,579 --> 01:16:26,456
It was really a matter of life and death.
1127
01:16:26,457 --> 01:16:30,668
And if one is fortunate enough
1128
01:16:30,669 --> 01:16:35,590
to trade in an unhappy
existence and a miserable one
1129
01:16:35,591 --> 01:16:38,426
for a chance at a brand new life
1130
01:16:38,427 --> 01:16:41,179
and to be themselves for the
first time in their life,
1131
01:16:41,180 --> 01:16:42,847
why not go ahead with it?
1132
01:16:51,482 --> 01:16:53,733
We seen have
the transsexual's willingness
1133
01:16:53,734 --> 01:16:55,569
to undergo trial by knife.
1134
01:16:58,239 --> 01:17:01,491
We have witnessed the terrible
anguish of their lives
1135
01:17:01,492 --> 01:17:03,202
before this transformation.
1136
01:17:06,872 --> 01:17:09,749
We have followed them on
their remarkable journey
1137
01:17:09,750 --> 01:17:13,002
from despair and seen
how this radical reversal
1138
01:17:13,003 --> 01:17:15,839
of biological destiny can not only offer
1139
01:17:15,840 --> 01:17:20,385
the transsexual hope, but even happiness.
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