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Welcome-mm-mm-mm...

to the beginning.

As the snake

sheds its skin,

the butterfly emerges
from the cocoon,

here at the Anant Ka Aashram,

so, too, will you be reborn
and emerge fresh

from this spiritual journey.

Let us begin
our therapeutic session

by drinking the ceremonial tea

of renewal and rebirth.

You said "rebirth."

There's not placenta or anything
in this, is there?

Wait, that's not a thing,
is it?

Oh, a lady from
my walking group

used to blend her placenta
in a smoothie.

Okay, but that's not
in the tea, right?

Of course not.

Um, so what is?

Ah, it's an ancient mystic's
recipe.

Yeah, that's not an answer.

Um, black, green, chai,
oolong teas

mixed with matcha,
dried mushroom caps,

- ginger and...
- -I'm-
- I'm sorry, did you just say mushrooms?

As in hallucinogenic narcotics?

Is that bad?
This is California.

- It's a felony!
- Is it? Yeah.

You just roofied us.

Okay.

- * I like to dream *
- Hey!

Yes, yes ♪

♪ Right between
the sound machine... ♪

He's getting away.

Ah, okay, should've gone
to real estate school.

Oh, boy.

Okay. Get in there.

We almost got him.

♪ Well, you don't know
what we can find... ♪

Siri... call 911.

Siri, call 911.

Oh, Buddha.

Can someone tell me
what happened?

We unleashed our primal selves.

These people appear to be hallucinating.

Hi.

How would you know?

You looked like this
when you were dosed.

- No, I didn't.
- Whatever.

He dosed us, man,
and then dude went over.

- Over where?
- Uh...

Ortiz, make sure they stay
away from the edge.

Sir!

Are you hurt?

I, uh, I think I sprained
my ankle on the way down.

- We're gonna come down and get you.
- Oh, thank God.

Okay, everybody, ladder rescue.
Hen, Chim, prep a basket.

Buck, Ravi, start extending

that ladder
over the edge of the cliff.

Uh, Cap,
I-I was gonna harness up.

I'm gonna go down to get him.
Donato, you're with me.

Yeah, copy that, Cap.

You riding the ropes, Cap?

What, did I stutter?
Let's move!

Go.

You set?

- Set.
- All right, let's go.

All right, Eugene, you
hang tight. We're almost there.

Oh, thank God. Whoa.

All right, Ravi, basket's ready

as soon as Cap is.

Wait, did you feel that?
Was that a quake?

Guys, what the hell was that?

The cliff's going.

That didn't feel right, Cap.

Cap, Lucy, unhook now.
The cliff's coming down,

and it's taking the ladder
with it.

Everybody fall back!

All right, Lucy, unhook.

Get down!

Cap!

- - That-
- That-
- That's bad,

- right?
- Yeah, Eugene.

That's bad.

Quite the predicament
for these first responders.

Turns out they needed
some second responders.

Must we keep reliving this?

- It's on every channel.
- Then shut it off.

...LAFD paramedic
Jonah Greenway.

Our Taylor Kelly
has a fresh report on that

coming up next.

This wasn't a punishment, Buck.
- Come on, Cap.

- I-I know everyone is mad about Taylor's story.
- No one is mad.

Chief Alonzo seemed pretty mad

- when he was interrogating me.
- This was a hearing

- about Jonah, Buck. Not an interrogation.
- No,

the interrogation
came after the hearing

in his office.

He wanted to know
all these things about Taylor.

You know, wh-where does she get
her information?

Who are her sources?

- Am I one of them?
- They were embarrassed.

It would have been better
for the department

if they could have released
this story themselves,

controlled the narrative
a little bit.

I think they would have liked
a heads-up. That's all.

Yeah, well,
they aren't the only ones.

She promised me, Cap.

She promised me
she wouldn't do the story,

and I believed her.

I'm sorry I let you down.

This wasn't your fault, Buck.

You know, I can't even blame
Taylor for all this.

She's a reporter.

She wasn't the one
running around,

playing God right under my nose.

Cap, you couldn't have known.

I should have!

It's my job.

Sorry, kid.

He said that?

He did.

Well, you know how he is.

He takes responsibility
for everything.

That's his way.

Probably why he makes
such a good captain.

Taking responsibility for
something he didn't do wrong?

It's a bad road to go down.

You lose sight of things,

of who you are.

I just... I-I wish I could...

- Fix it?
- Yeah, yeah, I know.

I'm the guy that always wants
to fix everything.

Hey, comes in handy
when you have a bunch

of holes in your wall.

Also sounded like

maybe you needed a reason
to get out of the house.

Uh, yeah.

Taylor and I
are still avoiding each other.

- Mm.
- I-I know we-we have to talk.

I still feel so angry.

Feel like whatever I say

is just gonna be mean.

You can't put it off forever.

You keep that anger
and resentment bottled up?

Eventually you snap.

Mom? Bobby?

Damn it.

Yeah?

- Hey.
- Oh, no, what happened?

Uh, I was just cleaning up
before dinner,

and I somehow managed
to break a glass.

- Are you all right?
- Yeah. Yeah, it's just a scratch.

- Uh, I tell you what, let me just clean this up, and...
- Oh, no.

I got it. You clean that cut
and maybe change your shirt.

Oh, yeah.

That's probably not
the most appetizing thing

for your celebration dinner.

What do you mean, "celebration"?

Mom and Harry are about to walk

through that door
with a congratulatory

"you're going to college"
balloon arrangement,

- aren't they?
- There might be some USC sweatshirts involved, as well.

- Okay.
- Tell you what,

I'm gonna go change
before they get back.

Yeah. So much
for my surprise announcement.

Oh, my gosh.

You were right. Fish tacos here

are pretty damn good.

Though still
probably not as good

- as Andrea's.
- Andrea's.

So, I, I just wanted us
to talk through some stuff

without our tiny human interrupting.

I'm okay with it.

If you feel you're ready,
then I support you completely.

- Really?
- Yeah.

I know it didn't work out
with us, but...

I still want you to be happy,
so if you think it's time...

What do you think
that I think we're ready for?

Dating. Other people.

Going back to work.

That's what I was gonna
talk to you about.

- Oh, so not dating?
- Well, I mean,

if you're ready
to start dating...

No. No, I'm not... No.
- - I mean, I'm-
- I'm-
- I'm...

Can we start
this conversation over, please?

Okay. I would like
to go back to work.

At the call center. And I know
that it's gonna complicate

the schedule
that we've already worked out,

and we'll take a hit financially
with day care,

- but...
- You miss helping people.

I guess I didn't realize
how much that place

really mattered to me
until I saw it burning

on television.

I never should have walked away.

They'd be glad
just to have you back.

Hey.

Lunch clearly went well.

You're in a much better mood
than when you left.

I'm guessing the talk
with Maddie was good.

She wasn't asking
for permission to date anyone.

- You were wrong about that one, little brother.
- That is not

how I remember
the conversation going.

You were the one
who was spiraling.

- I believe I told you to chill.
- I do not spiral.

Yeah, well, maybe you would
if you took one of these.

What is...

Career aptitude test.

Now that I've quit
the fire department,

I'm gonna have to start over.

Won't be following
in your footsteps.

Definitely won't be following in Father's, so...

Guess I have to find
other footsteps.

Wow. Archaeologist.

Librarian. Sociologist.

Trial lawyer?

You don't think
I'd make a good lawyer?

I don't know. I don't see it.

There you go. That's you.

- What?
- Cosmetologist.

Dontrell.

Deena. Hey. What brings you in?

Without an appointment.

Something's wrong. Ever since

you put in these extensions
last week, I've had

- these headaches.
- Oh, I warned you that might happen.

It's gonna be
a little tight at first,

but it'll slowly loosen up.
Just give it some time, okay?

This isn't tight.
It's crippling pain.

Hey, being pretty ain't pretty.

I want you
to take them out now.

Start over
and do it right this time.

Deena, don't you think you're
being a little overdramatic?

I have a one-star review,
and I'm not afraid to use it.

Raquel, sweetie,
why don't you give us a minute?

Why don't you try
a espresso from over there?

Okay.

Have a seat.

It hurts the most in the back,
right in the crown.

This isn't cool, Deena.

I'm not a fan
of doing my work twice.

You should have done it right
the first time.

Oh, my God.
What?

Oh, my gosh.

BP's a little low,
but his heart sounds good.

Pupils are equal and reactive,

so we can rule out
any sort of TBI or hematoma.

Easy.

You got a pretty nasty bump

- on your head. You're gonna...
- -
- His head?!

- What about mine?
- Ma'am, I'm afraid your stylist

is out of commission for the
day. You're gonna have to find

somebody else to deal
with your hair emergency.

Then you have to help me, okay?
My head, it's throbbing.

Ever since he put these
extensions in a few days ago,

I've had
these blinding headaches.

You keep scissors in that thing,
right? Can you cut it out?

Uh...
Uh,

Hen, can you come
and take a look at this?

What?

Uh, just-just hold still.

Okay.

Uh...

Hen, aren't those...?
Whoa.

Maggots.

You did this to me!

Ma'am, I need you to calm down.

- What's your name?
- Deena.

Okay, Deena, have a seat.

Okay? I'm Hen.

Okay? I can't help you

unless you calm down.
Take a deep breath.

Calm down. Everything's gonna be fine.

All right. You might need these. Here. Yeah.

- Hold the light while I try to cut one of these out.
- Ugh.

Yep. Live larva.

It's mostly superficial.

- No sign of systemic parasitic infection.
- Ugh.

But it's definitely
an infestation.

Oh, God,
I think I'm gonna be sick.

You're gonna be okay, all right?

We're gonna get you
to the hospital,

and they're gonna take
good care of you.

Okay, let's clean her up
as best we can,

get-get her ready for transport.

We should try
to get 'em out now.

Otherwise, they're gonna
remove them surgically,

shave her head.

Shave my head? I can't
walk around with a shaved head.

I don't have
your bone structure.

I could never pull it off.

Do you mind telling me
how the hell this could happen?

- I-I have no idea.
- Well, you had to get the hair

- from somewhere, right?
- Well, yeah.

I-I-I-I mean, I-I had to...

- And?
- You don't understand.

Like, it's so hard finding
real human hair right now.

Everything's back-ordered. The
supply chain's all messed up.

I was gonna lose clients.

Where did you get the hair?

Can I help you, Officer?

- You're Gregory Abewell of Abewell Mortuary?
- Yes.

- I-Is there a problem?
- We need

to have a talk, Mr. Abewell.

About what?

I'd heard about folks

illegally harvesting tissue
and bones

from dead people, but hair?

Hmm. That's why I stick
to au naturel.

Half the time, you don't know what people trying to sell you.

And I am more than fine

with the authentic Antonia.

That poor woman must have spent
hundreds of dollars

to get her hair done
only to end up in the hospital.

Not to mention
a lifetime of nightmares.

Do they lay eggs or something
in your head?

- Uh...
- Wait, could they burrow into your brain?

Okay,
I think we need a new topic

of conversation.

Well,
Clive and I have some news.

I have asked your mother

to do me the honor
of becoming my wife.

And I said yes.

Ma! That's amazing.

We are so happy for you two.

Congratulations, Grammy.

Do I get to call you
Grandpa now?

You can call me whatever you like.

I-I can't believe
you're gonna make it official.

I kind of thought
that you had given up

on that entire institution. Well,

it turns out not all marriages
are fiery hellscapes.

Yours seems to be doing okay.

So, what are you thinking?

Family trip to Vegas
could be fun.

Actually,

we were hoping to do it here.

Maybe in the backyard?

O-Our backyard?
Yeah.

Make it a real wedding,

especially since
it's Clive's first time.

First and last.

Mwah.

So,

you guys okay with that?

Ma, I think it would...

What was that?

She didn't come to our wedding,

Hen. The one we had right here

in the same backyard
she wants to get married in.

She apologized. We forgave her.

Didn't we?

I-I love Toni. I do.

And having her here
has changed our family

in the best way, but...

Oh, the thought of, of her
getting married here just...

Karen, I can't believe
you're still bothered by this.

Yes, my mother
didn't come to our wedding.

But I've found a way
to let it go.

It was still a beautiful day.

You didn't see the look
on your face.

You met me at the altar

and turned to see
if she was there.

And there was an empty chair.

And I watched your heart break

before we even said "I do."

It wasn't the happiest day
of our life, Hen.

But it was still
a pretty damn good one.

Hmm?

Yeah. It was.

Listen, if you don't want them
to get married here, it's okay.

But I need you to talk to her.

I don't want this
to become a thing.

I'll fix it.

I'm sorry.

I didn't mean...

No, no, no, I'm sorry.

Of course you can have
your wedding here.

This is... interesting.

Everybody hates it.

It was supposed to be
some new communal workspace.

Opened right before the pandemic
and closed two months later.

Well, at least you have buzzword salad on the walls.

It's just temporary until
the new space is ready for us.

- And when's that gonna be?
- -Mid-
- September, I think?

Welcome back, Maddie.

There's doughnuts
in the breakroom.

Oh, I'm good,
but it's nice to see you.

Sir, I understand your car being
towed feels like an emergency...

We're sharing the breakroom with
the accounting firm next door.

The good news is,
they always have doughnuts.

- Bad news is...
- They always have doughnuts.

Maddie, welcome back.

Sir, I could just send
the police.

That's what I thought.
Have a great day.

You got this.

Do I? Because I thought
I was coming back to work,

and now it feels
like I'm starting over.

The space may have changed.

The job hasn't.
You're gonna be great.

Okay.

911.

What's your emergency?

Ah! Maddie took her first call.

No one died.
That's great news.

Both parts.

What?

No, nothing.

Oh, hey.
I just got a text from my sister

about her first call.

I guess we can all see
Chimney still comes first.

- You know, this is a sign. I-I really think...
- Oh,

is this the part of our day
where we share our opinions

about
each other's relationships?

'Cause I have a few

choice words about your...
Okay, okay.

Hey, Cap. I heard that May's
leaving the call center

for college?
Yeah.

Wow. You and your wife must be
really happy about that.

Well,
relieved more than anything.

I-I think it'll be good for her
to get away

from the emergencies,
the tragedies.

- I just want to say one...
- Hey, is, uh, May gonna do anything over the summer?

Uh, she didn't get to do that when she graduated, right?
Well,

she's going to Miami
with her brother Harry.

And then she's gonna go visit
Athena's parents.

They're gonna have a few weeks
together before school starts.

Oh. She's gonna miss
the wedding.

Mom doesn't have a lot
of friends left in the area.

I think Karen
was hoping to draft

some people to fill in
that side of the aisle.

How did Karen go from hard no

to planning the wedding?

Overcompensating
for massive amounts of guilt.

I think it's sweet that Karen was defending you.

I mean, isn't that
what we all want in a partner?

Knowing
that they have your back?

Yeah.
Until they stick a knife in it.

You really need to talk to her.

I think maybe I'm just gonna
hope it works itself out.

Just do us all a favor.
Stay away from the tequila

until you've made
a rational decision

about that situation. Yeah.

We like Lucy.
So next time you go kissing

on her again,
you're the one who has to leave.

When did you two kiss?

Two months ago.

I feel like I am missing
warning signs left and right.

Bobby, there are some things

that subordinates
do not tell captains.

- Or sergeants.
- I still should have known.

But the fact
that you haven't noticed means

that it hasn't been a problem,
right?

I guess.

But you're
in your own head about it.

Like everything else.

You know, I'm kind of jealous
of May and Harry.

When was the last time
we had a vacation?

- What, just us together?
- Exactly.

And we have had a year.

What would you say

to us taking the honeymoon
that we never had?

I feel like
there's so much happening

right now. I don't...

I just need some time
to think about it.

Cole, it's time.

Yeah, okay, baby.

Baby. Hospital. Now.

- Baby. Come on. Let's go.
- Baby.

- Okay. Okay. All right.
- Let's...

All right, all right. Okay.

Okay.
We got this. We got this.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Okay. Okay.

- All right.
- Shoes.

- Shoes. Shoes. Yeah, yeah.
- Yeah.

- Shoes. Yes, yes.
- Okay. Okay, okay.

- We're good. We're good.
- Okay.

We got it.
Get that foot in there.

- We're good. Let's just...
- Doing amazing. We're doing amazing.

Yes. Got it. Okay.

- Okay.
- All right, let me grab the bag.

All right, charger. Okay.

Okay,

- okay, okay, okay. So, I got laptop. Charger.
- Yes.

- Uh-huh. Uh-huh.
- Toothpaste.

- Baby bag.
- Yeah.

- Think I remembered everything.
- Yes.

You always do. Let's go.

- Okay.
- Okay.

Okay, okay. Okay.

- Okay.
- You doing okay?

- Good? All right.
- All good.

- Okay.
- Okay.

Okay. Yeah.

All right.

Hello?

Are you there?

Hello?

Is anyone there? Are you okay?

Um, there's been an accident.

Are you injured?

I don't... I think...

I think
s-something bad happened.

I need you to stay
on the line with me, sir.

- I'm here.
- -
- Okay.

Help is on the way.

Buck, Lucy, saws and Jaws.

118, be advised,

driver is semiconscious.

We've lost contact.

Dispatch,
I've also got a passenger.

A pregnant woman.

Copy that.
Driver did not report it.

Sending additional ambulance.

Okay, Hen, you check on Mom.

Chimney, you've got Dad.

Cap, I-I need a way in.

All right, right here.

How you doing in here?

Cole.

Cap, he's wedged in there
pretty tight.

It's gonna take some time to get him out.
I can't get her out

without getting him out,
and I need to get her out now.

How many weeks are you?

Um, 38.

We were on our way to...

Were you in labor
before the accident?

Hey, Cole.

You've been in an accident.
You took quite a hit.

Let me just check your vitals.

Cap, one pupil is less reactive.
We got

- to get him out of here.
- Copy that.

- How's Mom and baby?
- Angle's bad.

I can't get a heartbeat.

Oh, God.

It doesn't mean there isn't one. Okay,

everybody, clear the vehicle.
Let's cut 'em out.

Is the baby okay?

Please tell me he's okay.

- No other pain besides the contractions?
- No.

So, we're doing this again?

How come we're doing it again?
Uh,

I just wanted an update.

Hey, Cap, can you call ahead
and set up a TBI protocol?

What does that mean?

Water was clear. No meconium.

From what I can tell,
you're eight centimeters

and almost fully effaced.

Can you tell me
your name again, sir?

So, we're doing that again, too?

It's Cole.
That's right.

Now, can you tell me
what year it is, Cole?

Course I can.

It's two thousand...

Uh, two thousand...

Sorry.

There it is.

The heartbeat is strong.

You're gonna have
this baby soon, Amari.

But not in this ambulance.

What about Cole?

Can you tell me
who the president is?

President?

It's...

- It's that old guy. Um...
- It's okay.

You're just foggy
from the head trauma.

We need to keep you alert
and awake.

Believe me,

having your first child
will definitely do that for you.

I'm having a kid?

Is he all right?

We're bringing your husband in
for further observation.

Oh, Cole! Cole.

I called my sister.
She's on the way.

She's gonna record everything
so you don't have to miss it.

Miss what?

Cole?

Do I know you?

I don't... I don't know her.
Do I know her?

- Okay.
- Try to relax.

It's gonna be okay.
It's gonna be all right.

Said my name ♪

So quietly... ♪

So, how much time
do you think he lost?

At least six or seven years.

Hen said
with this type of amnesia,

there's a-a chance
his memories might come back.

Or there'll just be
a big black hole

in the middle of his life.

You remember that movie?

The woman,
she-she wakes up every morning,

and her brain resets
to a year ago, so anything

she does today,
she won't remember tomorrow.

Yeah, that was
anterograde amnesia.

Works a little differently.

It still sounds
like a nightmare.

You know, starting over
every day.

Always doing the same thing,
making the same mistakes.

Never having a chance to learn

or make a different decision.

Like a hamster on a wheel.

It was a comedy.

I think
it's supposed to be romantic.

You know, the idea that the guy
would work hard every day,

making her fall in love with him
over and over again.

So every day
is the best day ever.

Is that really love?

- Right? Sh-
- Shouldn't it be when you're at your worst,

they're at their worst,

you have every reason
to give up,

and you still decide
you want to try again?

I guess it is.

After all. ♪

So, the baby's okay?

Eight pounds, one ounce.

They wouldn't let me bring him.

I'm sorry.

I wish...

Hey. Hey.

- It's all right.
- It's not.

I had this whole life,

and I don't remember it.

I don't remember you

or our son.

And what if I never remember?

- What if...
- Then we start over.

How?

I'm gonna tell you a story.

What kind of story?

A love story.

♪ Oh, if I could build
my whole world... ♪

Hi.

Hello.

Did you order roti,

sticky rice, grilled pork,

and coconut soup?

I know, it's a lot.

Wait, are you the delivery guy?

I'm your neighbor.

Uh, delivery guy left it
on my doorstep and ran.

- I guess he was late for the next one.
- Oh.

Sorry about that.

Um, thank you for carrying it
the last few yards.

I'm Cole, by the way.
Welcome to the neighborhood.

Amari. Uh...

Oh, let me get that.

Delivery guy and a doorman.

So, are you, uh,
new to the area?

An opportunity came up, so...

You know what they say.

Opportunity never knocks twice.

Rest of your life ♪

♪ Oh, and happiness
would surely... ♪

You hungry?

I could eat.

Oh, yes, it would ♪

♪ Doo, doo, doo, doo, doo,
doo, doo, doo, doo ♪

Doo, doo, doo, doo, doo ♪

Doo, doo, doo, doo ♪

♪ Oh, if I could build
my whole world around you ♪

♪ I'd give you the greatest gift
any woman could possess ♪

♪ And I'd step into this world
you've created ♪

♪ And give you true love
and tenderness ♪

♪ And there'd be something new
with every tomorrow ♪

♪ To make this world better
as days go by ♪

♪ That is if I could build
my whole world around you ♪

♪ If I could build
my whole world around you ♪

And that would be all right ♪

Oh, yeah ♪

♪ If I could build
my whole world around you ♪

♪ If I could build
my whole world around ya ♪

And that would be all right ♪

Oh, yeah ♪

If I could just... ♪

Yes!

♪ If I could build
my whole world around you ♪

♪ And that would be all right,
oh, yeah ♪

♪ If I could build
my whole world around you ♪

If I could build... ♪

- Good?
- All good.

And that would be all right ♪

Oh, yeah ♪

If I could just ♪

Build my world, baby ♪

♪ If I could build it,
build it ♪

All around you ♪

And that would be all right. ♪

Buck?

You home?

Well, I guess we've moved
past the avoidance stage?

I think we can both admit

it was starting
to get ridiculous.

I'm sorry you're still upset
about the story.

You're not sorry
for what you did, though.

The story was gonna come out regardless.

If I hadn't have broken it,

someone else would have.

Y-You couldn't
have called me first?

No, you-you just...

You figured I'd be fine.
I'd get over it.

Buck, I wasn't trying
to hurt you or anyone else.

I was just trying
to get the truth out there.

A truth the public
has every right to know.

This is literally
our first argument

all over again.

Which is why
we shouldn't be having it.

You knew who I was
when we started dating.

I guess I thought
I could learn to live with it.

I don't want to be something
you have to learn to live with.

And I don't want
to keep on making

the same mistakes.

I need things to be different, Taylor.

Okay.

I'm willing to try that.

Clean slate.

Yeah.

Just not together.

May, you got a sec?

- Hey. I heard you hit a million followers.
- Oh, yeah.

That's what happens when
a ladder truck goes off a cliff.

Two days of tweets
about traffic collisions

- and trash fires should take care of that.
- Yeah.

What do you need?

How's Bobby doing?

Why would you ask me that?

Probably the same reason
you're looking at me like that.

The other night,
I went to the house

to tell them that I'd decided
on going back to college,

but when I got there,
it was weird.

He had just dropped a glass
and cut his hand.

- Why was that weird?
- Because the way he acted when I came in.

Felt like I was interrupting
more than just a broken glass.

Hey, babe. What's up?

I just went out to pick up some
basics we were running low on.

How's your shift?

Mm, nothing much,

but I'm just getting started.

How are you doing?

I'm good.
Gonna have an early dinner

- and call it a night.
- -
- All right.

Good to hear.

Uh, somebody's at the door,

- so-so I got to run.
- All right.

See you in the morning.

Okay. Love you. Bye.

- Eddie.
- Bobby.

Promise I don't have any transfer requests in my hand.

- All right, then you can come in.
- All right.

Can't stay for long.

I need to pick up Christopher.

But, um...

I wanted to say...

Jonah wasn't your fault.

- Eddie.
- No, look, I spent the last few months

trying to put away
a lot of things from the past

and move on.

What I've learned is,

you can't carry
someone else's weight.

It'll take you under.

I'm the captain.

My responsibility...

Is your team.

But he was on the 118
for, what, a-a few weeks?

You barely knew him.

You think you missed something?

All the other cities,
other houses.

Everybody missed something.

This happened on my watch.

He killed Claudette
and who knows how many others.

Because he thought he was a god.

But he's not.

Neither are you.

You're not all-knowing
and all-seeing, Bobby.

You're just a good man.

I'm not.

I am not.

You saved my life.

And my son's.

So, whatever responsibility
you take

for Jonah, you make sure
you take some credit for me.

You earned it.

I got to go.

Hey, are you sure
you can't stay for dinner?

Oh, man, I'd love to,

but Christopher
got some friends over,

and-and I don't want to leave
Carla without backup.

- Yeah, I got you.
- Yeah.

Thanks for stopping by, Eddie.

I mean it.

Literally the least I could do, Bobby.

Thank you.

Did you order enough linens
for this one, too?

I ordered
exactly what you told me to.

Thought you could use a hand.

Or a few hands.

What are you doing here?

Did you...?

No. No.
Come on, Hen.

You know
we weren't gonna miss this.

Miss what?

You should ask your mom.

- Hi, Karen.
- Go get a drink.

Hey.
Yeah.

You're not getting married, Ma?

Clive and I
can do it another time.

I have four dozen deviled eggs
in the fridge.

There will be a wedding today.

There will.

Just not mine.

Ma...
Henrietta,

let me say this.

I'm sorry I didn't come
to your wedding.

I had my reasons,

my excuses.

I didn't understand.

I wasn't ready.

I needed more time to catch up

with the way
the world was changing.

But the truth is, honey,

I was just wrong.

It's okay, Toni.

No, it isn't.

I don't know how you found it
in your heart to forgive me,

but I'm grateful you did.

We all lost something that day.

I think today may be our chance
to get it back.

♪ I'm trying to tell you
something 'bout my life ♪

Maybe give me insight ♪

Between black and white ♪

♪ And the best thing
you ever done for me ♪

♪ Is to help me take my life
less seriously ♪

It's only life, after all ♪

Yeah ♪

♪ Well, darkness has a hunger
that's insatiable ♪

♪ And lightness has a call
that's hard to hear ♪

♪ And I wrap my fear
around me like a blanket ♪

♪ I sailed my ship of safety
till I sank it ♪

♪ I'm crawling
on your shores... ♪

Hey.

Take good care
of yourself, Buckley.

I went to the mountains... ♪

Yeah. You, too.

I drank from the fountains ♪

♪ There's more than one answer
to these questions... ♪

Order up for Maddie.

So, are you, uh,
headed home to eat, or...

I was going to.

But it does look like a nice
place to stay for a while.

- You wanna...?
- Sure.

♪ And I went to see the doctor
of philosophy... ♪

Hey, remember, I've got that
appointment today,

so Carla's gonna pick you up
after school.

- Okay?
- Okay.

Remember, talking about it
makes it less scary.

♪ He said he could see
through me ♪

Let's go.

♪ I spent four years prostrate
to the higher mind ♪

Got my paper and I was free ♪

I went to the doctor ♪

I went to the mountains... ♪

What's this?

Mm-hmm.

♪ I drank from
the fountains... ♪

A cruise?

And the only baggage
we're taking is actual luggage.

I am all for that.

♪ And the less I seek my source
for some definitive ♪

* The closer I am to fine ♪

Yeah ♪

The closer I am to fine ♪

Yeah ♪

♪ There's more than one answer
to these questions ♪

♪ Pointing me
in a crooked line ♪

♪ And the less I seek my source
for some definitive ♪

* The closer I am to fine ♪

Yeah ♪

♪ The closer I am
to fine, yeah. ♪

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