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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:11,500 --> 00:00:13,818 Thank heaven the fog is gone. 2 00:01:54,408 --> 00:01:55,601 I... 3 00:01:55,758 --> 00:01:56,936 I do feel... 4 00:01:57,135 --> 00:01:59,227 Out of sorts this morning. 5 00:01:59,673 --> 00:02:01,124 I wasn't able to get much sleep... 6 00:02:01,125 --> 00:02:04,130 With that awful foghorn going on all night long. 7 00:02:04,233 --> 00:02:06,936 Yes, like having a sick whale in the backyard. 8 00:02:07,108 --> 00:02:08,529 Kept me awake too. 9 00:02:08,634 --> 00:02:09,484 Did it? 10 00:02:09,634 --> 00:02:12,493 You have a strange way of showing your restlessness. 11 00:02:12,984 --> 00:02:16,450 You were snoring so hard I couldn't tell which was the foghorn. 12 00:02:17,121 --> 00:02:19,120 Ten foghorns couldn't disturb you. 13 00:02:19,121 --> 00:02:20,450 You haven't a nerve in you. 14 00:02:20,515 --> 00:02:21,508 You never had. 15 00:02:21,546 --> 00:02:23,524 Nonsense. You always exaggerate about my snoring. 16 00:02:24,286 --> 00:02:25,533 I couldn't. 17 00:02:25,700 --> 00:02:27,526 If you could only hear yourself once. 18 00:02:28,833 --> 00:02:30,247 What's the Joke, I wonder. 19 00:02:30,248 --> 00:02:31,873 It's on me I'll bet that much. 20 00:02:31,874 --> 00:02:33,778 It's always on the old man. 21 00:02:34,171 --> 00:02:37,015 Yes. It's terrible the way we all pick on you isn't it? 22 00:02:37,119 --> 00:02:38,992 You're so abused! 23 00:02:39,847 --> 00:02:41,114 Never mind. 24 00:02:41,510 --> 00:02:45,410 No matter what the joke is, it's a relief to hear Edmund laugh. 25 00:02:45,809 --> 00:02:48,406 He's been so down in the mouth lately. 26 00:02:48,720 --> 00:02:50,420 Some joke of Jamie's, I'll wager. 27 00:02:50,484 --> 00:02:53,491 He's forever making sneering fun of somebody, that one. 28 00:02:53,541 --> 00:02:54,255 Now! 29 00:02:54,373 --> 00:02:56,008 Don't start in on poor Jamie dear... 30 00:02:56,009 --> 00:02:57,604 He'll turn out alright in the end. 31 00:02:57,633 --> 00:02:58,530 You wait and see. 32 00:02:58,664 --> 00:03:01,278 He better start soon then, he's nearly 34. 33 00:03:01,767 --> 00:03:03,217 Good heavens! 34 00:03:03,338 --> 00:03:05,733 Are they gonna stay in the dinning room all day? 35 00:03:05,815 --> 00:03:07,092 Jamie! Edmund! 36 00:03:07,279 --> 00:03:10,133 Come out on the porch, give Cathleen a chance to clear the table. 37 00:03:10,261 --> 00:03:12,687 You'd make excuses for him no matter what he did. 38 00:03:13,912 --> 00:03:16,953 I've been teasing your father about his snoring. 39 00:03:17,526 --> 00:03:20,426 I'll... I'll leave it to the boys James, they must've heard you. 40 00:03:20,569 --> 00:03:22,656 Though not you Jamie I could hear you down the hall... 41 00:03:22,657 --> 00:03:24,934 Almost as bad as your father, you're like him. 42 00:03:25,275 --> 00:03:27,727 As soon as your head touches the pillow you're off. 43 00:03:27,815 --> 00:03:30,291 And ten foghorns couldn't wake you. 44 00:03:32,425 --> 00:03:34,306 Why are you staring Jamie? 45 00:03:34,441 --> 00:03:36,166 Is my hair coming down? Or... 46 00:03:36,246 --> 00:03:37,420 Something? 47 00:03:38,043 --> 00:03:40,146 It's hard for me to do it out properly now. 48 00:03:40,210 --> 00:03:43,596 My eyes are getting so bad and I can never find my glasses 49 00:03:43,624 --> 00:03:46,208 No. Your hair's alright Mama I was just thinking how well you look. 50 00:03:46,280 --> 00:03:47,884 Just as I was telling her Jamie. 51 00:03:47,930 --> 00:03:51,149 She's so fat and sassy there will soon be no holding her. 52 00:03:51,210 --> 00:03:53,010 Yes, you certainly look grand Mama. 53 00:03:53,077 --> 00:03:56,098 And I'll back you up about Papa's snoring. Gosh! What a racket! 54 00:03:56,154 --> 00:04:00,119 Oh, I heard him too, "The Moor, I know his trumpet." 55 00:04:00,566 --> 00:04:03,401 If it takes my snoring to make you remember Shakespeare... 56 00:04:03,469 --> 00:04:06,538 Instead of the dope sheet on the ponies, I hope I’ll keep on with it. 57 00:04:06,609 --> 00:04:07,661 James! You mustn’t be so touchy. 58 00:04:07,711 --> 00:04:10,104 Yes, for Pete’s sake, Papa! The first thing after breakfast! 59 00:04:10,167 --> 00:04:11,424 Give it a rest, can’t you? 60 00:04:11,479 --> 00:04:13,862 Your father wasn’t finding fault with you. 61 00:04:14,191 --> 00:04:16,015 You don’t have to always take Jamie’s part. 62 00:04:16,016 --> 00:04:18,096 - You’d think you were the one ten years older... - Let's forget it! 63 00:04:18,097 --> 00:04:20,305 That's right! Forget everything and face nothing. 64 00:04:20,306 --> 00:04:23,252 It's a convenient philosophy in life if you've no other ambitions... 65 00:04:23,322 --> 00:04:24,558 James! Be quiet. 66 00:04:24,559 --> 00:04:27,555 What were you two grinning about like Cheshire cats when you came out? 67 00:04:27,556 --> 00:04:28,595 What was the joke? 68 00:04:28,596 --> 00:04:30,557 Yes, let us in on it, lad. 69 00:04:30,622 --> 00:04:32,502 You remember, Papa, the ice pond... 70 00:04:32,503 --> 00:04:34,876 On Harker’s estate is right next to the farm, 71 00:04:35,369 --> 00:04:37,473 and you remember Shaughnessy keeps pigs. 72 00:04:37,929 --> 00:04:39,906 Well, it seems there’s a break in the fence... 73 00:04:39,961 --> 00:04:42,699 And the pigs have been bathing in the millionaire’s ice pond. 74 00:04:42,763 --> 00:04:44,797 Well! Good heavens! 75 00:04:44,873 --> 00:04:48,540 The poor pigs, Shaughnessy yelled, had caught their death of cold. 76 00:04:48,582 --> 00:04:50,471 Many of them were dying of pneumonia... 77 00:04:50,518 --> 00:04:52,422 And several others had been taken down with... 78 00:04:52,423 --> 00:04:54,685 Cholera from drinking the poisoned water. 79 00:04:54,885 --> 00:04:57,654 He told Harker he was hiring a lawyer to sue him for damages. 80 00:04:58,085 --> 00:04:59,720 And then he wound up by saying... 81 00:04:59,721 --> 00:05:01,710 He had to put up with potato bugs... 82 00:05:01,711 --> 00:05:05,603 And ticks and poison ivy and snakes and skunks on his farm... 83 00:05:05,656 --> 00:05:08,402 But he was an honest man who had to draw the line somewhere... 84 00:05:08,473 --> 00:05:11,885 And he’d be damned if he’d stand for a Standard Oil thief trespassing. 85 00:05:11,975 --> 00:05:15,697 So would Harker kindly remove his dirty feet from the premises... 86 00:05:15,751 --> 00:05:17,761 Before he sicked the dog on him. 87 00:05:17,850 --> 00:05:19,032 And Harker did! 88 00:05:19,285 --> 00:05:22,626 Heavens! What a terrible tongue that man has. 89 00:05:22,688 --> 00:05:25,890 The damned old scoundrel. By God you can't beat him. 90 00:05:26,160 --> 00:05:29,219 The dirty blaggard, he'll get me into serious trouble yet. 91 00:05:29,333 --> 00:05:31,023 I hope you told him I'd be mad as hell! 92 00:05:31,126 --> 00:05:33,915 I told him you'd be tickled to death over the great irish victory... 93 00:05:34,017 --> 00:05:35,663 And so you are, stop faking Papa. 94 00:05:35,753 --> 00:05:36,959 Well I'm not tickled to death. 95 00:05:37,038 --> 00:05:39,254 You are too James, you're simply denying it. 96 00:05:39,896 --> 00:05:42,155 Oh, what are you laughing at? There's nothing funny! 97 00:05:42,181 --> 00:05:45,122 A fine son you are to help that blaggard get me into a lawsuit. 98 00:05:45,183 --> 00:05:46,913 Now James! Don't lose your temper! 99 00:05:46,914 --> 00:05:47,864 Yes, I suppose you're regretting... 100 00:05:47,886 --> 00:05:49,322 You weren't there to prompt Shaughnessy... 101 00:05:49,323 --> 00:05:50,807 With a few nastier insults. 102 00:05:50,838 --> 00:05:53,127 You've a fine talent for that if for nothing else. 103 00:05:53,190 --> 00:05:55,443 James! There's no reason to scold Jamie! 104 00:05:55,528 --> 00:05:57,536 For God's sake Papa! 105 00:05:57,646 --> 00:05:59,965 If you're gonna start that stuff, I'll beat it. 106 00:06:02,003 --> 00:06:04,701 God Papa. I should think you'd get sick of hearing yourself. 107 00:06:09,794 --> 00:06:12,906 You mustn't mind Edmund, James. 108 00:06:13,649 --> 00:06:15,610 Remember he isn't well. 109 00:06:15,689 --> 00:06:18,198 A summer cold makes anyone irritable. 110 00:06:18,322 --> 00:06:20,446 It's not just a cold he's got. 111 00:06:21,133 --> 00:06:22,933 The kid is damn sick. 112 00:06:23,465 --> 00:06:24,688 Why do you say that? 113 00:06:24,743 --> 00:06:28,490 It is just a cold, anyone can tell that. You always imagine things. 114 00:06:28,617 --> 00:06:31,200 All Jamie meant was is he may have a touch of something else... 115 00:06:31,256 --> 00:06:32,446 Which makes his cold worse. 116 00:06:32,617 --> 00:06:34,017 Sure Mama that's all I meant. 117 00:06:34,137 --> 00:06:37,144 Dr. Hardy thinks it might be a bit of malarial fever... 118 00:06:37,145 --> 00:06:38,542 He caught when he was in the tropics. 119 00:06:38,581 --> 00:06:39,986 Dr. Hardy! 120 00:06:40,334 --> 00:06:43,639 I wouldn't believe a thing he said if he swore it on a stack of bibles. 121 00:06:43,975 --> 00:06:45,689 I know what doctors are... 122 00:06:45,895 --> 00:06:47,627 They're all alike, anything... 123 00:06:47,715 --> 00:06:49,906 They don't care what to keep you coming to them. 124 00:06:51,405 --> 00:06:52,585 What is it? 125 00:06:52,804 --> 00:06:54,484 What...? What are you looking at? 126 00:06:54,620 --> 00:06:57,421 Is my hair coming down? Or... Something? 127 00:06:57,586 --> 00:06:59,787 There's nothing wrong with your hair. 128 00:07:00,230 --> 00:07:03,320 The fatter and healthier you get, the vainer you became. 129 00:07:03,392 --> 00:07:06,503 You'll soon spend half the day primping before the mirror. 130 00:07:08,023 --> 00:07:10,541 My eyes are so bad now. 131 00:07:10,818 --> 00:07:12,636 I really should have new glasses. 132 00:07:12,750 --> 00:07:14,432 Your eyes are beautiful... 133 00:07:15,050 --> 00:07:17,297 And well you know it. 134 00:07:17,387 --> 00:07:19,792 James you mustn't be so silly. 135 00:07:20,108 --> 00:07:21,669 And right in front of Jamie. 136 00:07:21,859 --> 00:07:23,520 He's onto you now too. 137 00:07:23,605 --> 00:07:26,680 He knows all this talk about eyes and hair is only fishing for compliments. 138 00:07:26,744 --> 00:07:27,530 He, Jamie? 139 00:07:27,601 --> 00:07:31,712 - Yes you can't kid us Mama. - Get along with, both of you. 140 00:07:32,456 --> 00:07:34,710 But I... I did truly have... 141 00:07:34,806 --> 00:07:36,473 Have beautiful hair once. 142 00:07:36,544 --> 00:07:37,792 Didn't I James? 143 00:07:37,868 --> 00:07:39,847 Most beautiful in the world 144 00:07:40,308 --> 00:07:44,212 It.. it was a rare shade of... of reddish brown... 145 00:07:44,291 --> 00:07:47,014 And so long it came down below my knees 146 00:07:47,312 --> 00:07:49,512 You ought to remember it too, Jamie. 147 00:07:49,562 --> 00:07:53,943 It wasn't until after Edmund was born that I had a single grey hair. 148 00:07:54,023 --> 00:07:55,809 And that made it prettier than ever. 149 00:07:57,744 --> 00:07:59,641 Will you listen to your father Jamie. 150 00:07:59,736 --> 00:08:01,906 After 35 years of marriage... 151 00:08:02,033 --> 00:08:04,303 He isn't a great actor for nothing, is he? 152 00:08:05,158 --> 00:08:06,864 What's come over you James? 153 00:08:06,966 --> 00:08:09,308 Are you pouring coals of fire on my head... 154 00:08:09,309 --> 00:08:11,189 For teasing you about your snoring? 155 00:08:11,479 --> 00:08:15,727 Well then I take it all back. It must've been ONLY the foghorn I heard. 156 00:08:18,286 --> 00:08:19,305 Well... 157 00:08:20,376 --> 00:08:22,925 I can't stay here any longer, even to hear compliments. 158 00:08:23,246 --> 00:08:26,314 I have to see the cook about dinner and the day's marketing. 159 00:08:26,918 --> 00:08:28,315 That Bridget is... 160 00:08:28,401 --> 00:08:32,343 So lazy and so sly she begins Telling me about her relatives... 161 00:08:32,362 --> 00:08:35,667 So I can't get a word in edgeways to scold her. 162 00:08:36,040 --> 00:08:38,927 Well... I may as well get it over with. 163 00:08:39,327 --> 00:08:43,019 Don't make Edmund work on the grounds with you James, remember? 164 00:08:43,279 --> 00:08:46,150 Not that he isn't strong enough but he'd perspire... 165 00:08:46,428 --> 00:08:48,404 And he might catch more cold. 166 00:08:52,982 --> 00:08:55,850 You're a fine lunkhead! Haven't you any sense? 167 00:08:55,913 --> 00:08:57,861 Don't you know the one thing to avoid is saying anything... 168 00:08:57,956 --> 00:09:00,464 That would get her more upset over Edmund? 169 00:09:00,597 --> 00:09:02,525 All right. Have it your way. 170 00:09:02,842 --> 00:09:06,085 I still think it’s the wrong idea to let Mama go on kidding herself. 171 00:09:06,086 --> 00:09:08,570 It will only make the shock worse when she has to face it. 172 00:09:09,088 --> 00:09:11,240 Anyway, you can see she’s deliberately... 173 00:09:11,352 --> 00:09:14,185 Fooling herself with that summer cold talk. 174 00:09:14,759 --> 00:09:16,005 She knows better. 175 00:09:16,116 --> 00:09:19,119 - Knows? Nobody knows yet. - Well, I do. 176 00:09:21,521 --> 00:09:24,727 I was with Edmund when he went to see Doc Hardy on Monday. 177 00:09:24,870 --> 00:09:29,295 I heard him pull that touch of malaria stuff. He was stalling. 178 00:09:30,013 --> 00:09:31,826 That isn’t what he thinks any more. 179 00:09:33,005 --> 00:09:34,910 You know it as well as I do. 180 00:09:35,139 --> 00:09:37,546 You talked to him when you went uptown yesterday, didn’t you? 181 00:09:37,684 --> 00:09:39,605 He can't say anything for sure yet. 182 00:09:40,239 --> 00:09:43,156 He’s to phone me today before Edmund goes to him. 183 00:09:47,158 --> 00:09:49,709 He thinks it’s consumption, doesn’t he, Papa? 184 00:09:51,772 --> 00:09:53,571 He said it might be. 185 00:09:54,608 --> 00:09:56,185 That poor kid! 186 00:09:57,656 --> 00:09:58,949 God damn it! 187 00:10:03,331 --> 00:10:04,719 It might never have happened... 188 00:10:04,720 --> 00:10:07,560 If you’d sent him to a real doctor when he first got sick. 189 00:10:07,654 --> 00:10:10,253 What’s the matter with Hardy? He’s always been our doctor up here. 190 00:10:10,500 --> 00:10:12,341 Hardy only charges a dollar. 191 00:10:12,342 --> 00:10:14,650 That’s what makes you think he’s a fine doctor! 192 00:10:14,651 --> 00:10:18,088 If you mean I can’t afford one of the fine society doctors... 193 00:10:18,151 --> 00:10:19,548 Who prey on the rich summer people... 194 00:10:19,634 --> 00:10:22,481 Can’t afford? You’re one of the biggest property owners around here. 195 00:10:22,528 --> 00:10:23,751 That doesn’t mean I’m rich. 196 00:10:23,821 --> 00:10:26,701 If Edmund was a lousy acre of land you wanted... 197 00:10:26,702 --> 00:10:28,067 The sky would be the limit. 198 00:10:28,104 --> 00:10:28,842 That's a lie! 199 00:10:28,911 --> 00:10:31,459 And your sneers against Dr. Hardy are lies too. 200 00:10:31,545 --> 00:10:35,429 I recon I'm a fool to argue. You can't change the leopard's spots. 201 00:10:35,436 --> 00:10:36,705 No you can't! 202 00:10:36,707 --> 00:10:38,526 You've taught me that lesson only too well... 203 00:10:38,527 --> 00:10:40,701 I've lost all hope you'll ever change yours. 204 00:10:41,088 --> 00:10:43,255 You dare tell me what I can afford! 205 00:10:43,334 --> 00:10:46,556 You've never known the value of a dollar in your life and you never will. 206 00:10:46,992 --> 00:10:49,484 At the end of each season you're penniless. 207 00:10:49,698 --> 00:10:52,901 You've thrown your salary away every week on whores and whiskey. 208 00:10:53,139 --> 00:10:55,165 My salary!? God! 209 00:10:55,508 --> 00:10:56,587 More than you're worth. 210 00:10:56,676 --> 00:10:58,589 You couldn't get that if it wasn't for me. 211 00:10:58,707 --> 00:11:00,952 If you weren't my son, there's not a manager... 212 00:11:00,953 --> 00:11:02,168 In the business that would give you a part. 213 00:11:02,251 --> 00:11:03,886 Your reputation stinks you. 214 00:11:03,968 --> 00:11:06,603 As it is, I have to humble my pride and beg for you 215 00:11:06,689 --> 00:11:09,351 Say you've turned over a new leaf although I know it's a lie. 216 00:11:09,828 --> 00:11:11,439 I never wanted to be an actor. 217 00:11:11,711 --> 00:11:13,727 You forced me on the stage. 218 00:11:13,823 --> 00:11:14,791 That's a lie! 219 00:11:14,792 --> 00:11:16,441 You left it to me to get you a job... 220 00:11:16,442 --> 00:11:18,798 And I've no influence except in the theater. 221 00:11:19,249 --> 00:11:20,296 Forced you?! 222 00:11:20,510 --> 00:11:23,758 You never wanted to do anything except loaf in bar rooms. 223 00:11:24,198 --> 00:11:27,031 After all the money I wasted on your education... 224 00:11:27,126 --> 00:11:30,802 And all you did was get fired and disgraced from every college you went. 225 00:11:30,861 --> 00:11:33,678 Well for God's sake don't drag up that ancient history! 226 00:11:33,995 --> 00:11:35,867 It's not ancient history that you have to come back... 227 00:11:35,868 --> 00:11:37,921 Every summer to live on me. 228 00:11:38,327 --> 00:11:41,904 Well I earn my board and lodging working on the grounds. 229 00:11:42,928 --> 00:11:44,966 It saves you hiring a man. 230 00:11:45,835 --> 00:11:47,954 You have to be driven even to do that much. 231 00:11:48,191 --> 00:11:49,834 I wouldn’t give a damn if you ever displayed... 232 00:11:49,835 --> 00:11:51,478 The slightest sign of gratitude. 233 00:11:51,842 --> 00:11:55,754 The only thanks is to have you sneer at me for a dirty miser... 234 00:11:55,756 --> 00:11:57,618 Sneer at my profession... 235 00:11:57,619 --> 00:12:01,032 Sneer at every damned thing in the world, except yourself. 236 00:12:02,409 --> 00:12:05,920 That’s not true, Papa. You can’t hear me talking to myself, that’s all. 237 00:12:07,398 --> 00:12:11,663 “Ingratitude, the vilest weed that grows”! 238 00:12:16,207 --> 00:12:18,537 God! I could see that line coming! 239 00:12:19,779 --> 00:12:23,262 God, how many thousand times... 240 00:12:24,345 --> 00:12:25,663 All right, Papa. 241 00:12:26,115 --> 00:12:27,417 I’m a bum. 242 00:12:27,934 --> 00:12:30,620 You’re young yet. You could still make your mark. 243 00:12:31,284 --> 00:12:33,227 You had the talent to become a fine actor! 244 00:12:33,228 --> 00:12:34,974 You have it still. You’re my son! 245 00:12:35,029 --> 00:12:37,915 Oh, let’s forget me. I’m not interested in the subject... 246 00:12:38,058 --> 00:12:39,629 And neither are you. 247 00:12:41,334 --> 00:12:43,643 What started us on this? 248 00:12:46,479 --> 00:12:47,936 Doc Hardy! 249 00:12:49,413 --> 00:12:51,500 When is he going to call you up about Edmund? 250 00:12:51,857 --> 00:12:53,657 Around lunch time. 251 00:12:55,013 --> 00:12:57,537 The less you say about Edmund’s sickness... 252 00:12:57,538 --> 00:12:58,989 The better for your conscience! 253 00:12:58,990 --> 00:13:00,874 You’re more responsible than anyone! 254 00:13:01,032 --> 00:13:03,511 That’s a lie! I won’t stand for that, Papa! 255 00:13:03,607 --> 00:13:05,020 It’s the truth! 256 00:13:09,968 --> 00:13:12,123 He grew up admiring you as a hero! 257 00:13:12,985 --> 00:13:15,524 If you ever gave him advice except in the ways of rottenness... 258 00:13:15,525 --> 00:13:16,501 I’ve never heard of it! 259 00:13:16,958 --> 00:13:18,720 You made him old before his time... 260 00:13:18,769 --> 00:13:20,626 Pumping him full of what you consider... 261 00:13:20,676 --> 00:13:22,636 Worldly wisdom, when he was too young to see... 262 00:13:22,700 --> 00:13:25,854 That your mind was so poisoned by your own failure in life... 263 00:13:26,039 --> 00:13:27,229 You wanted to believe... 264 00:13:27,326 --> 00:13:30,326 Every man was a knave with his soul for sale... 265 00:13:30,491 --> 00:13:32,812 And every woman who wasn’t a whore was a fool! 266 00:13:32,980 --> 00:13:35,524 All right. All right. I did put him wise to a few things, 267 00:13:36,328 --> 00:13:38,606 But not until after I'd seen he’d started to raise hell... 268 00:13:38,669 --> 00:13:41,589 And would only laugh at me if I pulled that good advice... 269 00:13:41,590 --> 00:13:42,764 Older brother stuff. 270 00:13:43,113 --> 00:13:46,017 All I did was make a pal of him and be absolutely frank... 271 00:13:46,080 --> 00:13:48,288 So he’d learn from my mistakes that... 272 00:13:49,337 --> 00:13:52,048 Well, that if you can’t be good you can at least be careful. 273 00:13:55,763 --> 00:13:57,911 That’s a rotten accusation, Papa. 274 00:13:59,416 --> 00:14:01,495 You know how much that kid means to me... 275 00:14:01,551 --> 00:14:03,353 And how close we’ve always been... 276 00:14:03,721 --> 00:14:05,674 Not like the usual brothers. 277 00:14:06,278 --> 00:14:07,913 I’d do anything for him. 278 00:14:08,358 --> 00:14:10,250 I know you may have thought it was for the best. 279 00:14:10,545 --> 00:14:12,925 I didn’t say you did it deliberately to harm him. 280 00:14:13,002 --> 00:14:14,478 Besides it’s damned rot! 281 00:14:14,691 --> 00:14:16,858 I’d like to see anyone influence Edmund... 282 00:14:16,859 --> 00:14:18,422 Any more than he wants to be. 283 00:14:18,830 --> 00:14:20,933 What had I to do with all the crazy stunts... 284 00:14:20,934 --> 00:14:22,608 He’s pulled in the last few years... 285 00:14:22,718 --> 00:14:26,456 Working his way all over the map as a sailor and all that stuff. 286 00:14:26,507 --> 00:14:27,666 No, thanks! 287 00:14:27,982 --> 00:14:30,259 I’ll stick to Broadway, and a room with a bath... 288 00:14:30,260 --> 00:14:32,117 And bars that serve bonded Bourbon. 289 00:14:32,291 --> 00:14:34,331 You and Broadway! 290 00:14:34,458 --> 00:14:35,919 It’s made you what you are! 291 00:14:36,709 --> 00:14:39,256 Whatever Edmund’s done, he’s had the guts to go off on his own... 292 00:14:39,296 --> 00:14:41,926 Where he couldn’t come whining to me the minute he was broke. 293 00:14:41,997 --> 00:14:44,510 He’s always come home broke finally, hasn’t he? 294 00:14:44,590 --> 00:14:47,019 And what's his going away get him? Look at him now! 295 00:14:50,969 --> 00:14:53,915 God! That’s a lousy thing to say. I didn’t mean that. 296 00:14:54,790 --> 00:14:56,505 He’s been doing well on the paper. 297 00:14:56,596 --> 00:14:58,818 You used to talk about becoming a newspaper man... 298 00:14:58,856 --> 00:15:01,548 But you were never willing to start at the bottom, you expected... 299 00:15:01,575 --> 00:15:04,440 Oh for God's sake Papa! Can't you lay off me? 300 00:15:06,444 --> 00:15:08,931 Damnable luck Edmund should be sick right now... 301 00:15:08,995 --> 00:15:10,814 It couldn't have come at a worse time for him. 302 00:15:11,203 --> 00:15:12,474 Or for your mother. 303 00:15:13,207 --> 00:15:15,232 It's damnable she should have this to upset her... 304 00:15:15,288 --> 00:15:17,900 Just when she needs peace and freedom from worry. 305 00:15:18,210 --> 00:15:22,023 She's been so well in the two months since she came home. 306 00:15:22,785 --> 00:15:24,200 It's been heaven to me. 307 00:15:24,852 --> 00:15:26,798 This home's been a real home again. 308 00:15:27,918 --> 00:15:30,992 - But I needn't tell you Jamie. - No. I felt the same way Papa. 309 00:15:31,111 --> 00:15:34,425 Yes. She's been a different woman entirely from the other times. 310 00:15:34,797 --> 00:15:37,954 She's control of her nerves, or she had until Edmund got sick. 311 00:15:38,010 --> 00:15:40,980 Now you can feel her growing tense and frightened underneath. 312 00:15:41,660 --> 00:15:43,453 I wish to God we could keep the truth from her... 313 00:15:43,485 --> 00:15:46,111 But we can't if he's to be sent to a sanatorium. 314 00:15:46,863 --> 00:15:49,913 What makes it worse is her father died of consumption. 315 00:15:49,985 --> 00:15:52,010 She worshiped him. She's never forgotten him. 316 00:15:52,984 --> 00:15:54,519 Yes it'll be hard for her. 317 00:15:55,117 --> 00:15:56,244 But she can do it! 318 00:15:56,339 --> 00:15:57,996 She's the willpower now. 319 00:15:58,824 --> 00:16:00,200 We must help her Jamie. 320 00:16:00,469 --> 00:16:02,313 In every way we can. 321 00:16:02,964 --> 00:16:03,932 Of course Papa. 322 00:16:06,360 --> 00:16:09,885 Outside of nerves she seemed perfectly alright this morning. 323 00:16:10,002 --> 00:16:12,703 Yes, never better, she's full of fun and mischief. 324 00:16:14,453 --> 00:16:16,200 Why do you say 'seems'? 325 00:16:16,941 --> 00:16:20,101 Why shouldn't she be alright? What the hell do you mean? 326 00:16:20,164 --> 00:16:22,532 Don't start jumping down my throat. 327 00:16:23,580 --> 00:16:24,916 God! Papa. 328 00:16:25,595 --> 00:16:28,600 This ought to be one thing we can talk over frankly, without a battle. 329 00:16:28,903 --> 00:16:30,221 I'm sorry Jamie. 330 00:16:31,178 --> 00:16:32,369 But go on and tell me. 331 00:16:32,424 --> 00:16:34,775 There's nothing to tell. I was all wrong. 332 00:16:40,248 --> 00:16:41,235 It's just that... 333 00:16:41,578 --> 00:16:42,688 last night... 334 00:16:43,923 --> 00:16:45,595 Well you know how it is Papa. 335 00:16:46,289 --> 00:16:47,931 I can't forget the past. 336 00:16:48,745 --> 00:16:51,188 I can't help being suspicious anymore than you can. 337 00:16:51,884 --> 00:16:53,050 That's the hell of it. 338 00:16:53,735 --> 00:16:55,526 And it makes it hell for Mama. 339 00:16:56,032 --> 00:16:58,935 - She watches us watching her. - I know. 340 00:17:00,478 --> 00:17:01,597 Well what was it? 341 00:17:02,393 --> 00:17:03,758 Can't you speak up? 342 00:17:04,572 --> 00:17:07,199 Around 3 o'clock this morning, I woke up... 343 00:17:07,579 --> 00:17:10,216 And I heard Mama moving around in the spare room. 344 00:17:11,603 --> 00:17:13,341 Then she went to the bathroom. 345 00:17:13,738 --> 00:17:15,571 Now, I pretended to be asleep... 346 00:17:15,651 --> 00:17:17,806 And she stopped outside in the hall to listen... 347 00:17:17,870 --> 00:17:19,997 As if she wanted to make sure I was. 348 00:17:20,237 --> 00:17:22,190 For God's sake! Is that all? 349 00:17:22,356 --> 00:17:26,919 She told me herself the foghorn kept her awake all last night... 350 00:17:26,936 --> 00:17:28,977 And every night since Edmund's been sick... 351 00:17:29,041 --> 00:17:31,939 She's been up and down going to his room to see how he was. 352 00:17:32,013 --> 00:17:35,212 Yes, that's right. She did stop to listen outside his room. 353 00:17:37,657 --> 00:17:40,392 But it was her being in the spare room that scared me. 354 00:17:42,802 --> 00:17:43,993 Papa... 355 00:17:45,215 --> 00:17:48,885 I can't help remembering that when she starts sleeping alone in there... 356 00:17:49,364 --> 00:17:50,674 It's always been a sign. 357 00:17:50,842 --> 00:17:53,175 But it isn't this time. It's easily explained. 358 00:17:53,286 --> 00:17:56,298 Where else could she go last night to get away from my snoring? 359 00:17:56,966 --> 00:17:59,723 How you can live with a mind that sees nothing but... 360 00:17:59,729 --> 00:18:02,416 The worse motives behind everything is beyond me. 361 00:18:02,485 --> 00:18:04,828 Don't pull that! I just said I was all wrong. 362 00:18:05,295 --> 00:18:07,112 I suppose I'm as glad of that as you are. 363 00:18:07,296 --> 00:18:09,382 Yes. Yes. I'm sure you are Jamie. 364 00:18:12,266 --> 00:18:15,859 It's been like a curse she can't escape if worry over Edmund. 365 00:18:17,181 --> 00:18:20,318 It was her long sickness after bringing him into the world that she first... 366 00:18:20,384 --> 00:18:22,482 She didn't have anything to do with it. 367 00:18:22,530 --> 00:18:23,717 I'm not blaming her. 368 00:18:23,790 --> 00:18:25,877 Well who are you blaming? Edmund? For being born? 369 00:18:26,020 --> 00:18:27,698 You damn fool, no one was to blame. 370 00:18:27,746 --> 00:18:29,397 That bastard of a doctor was. 371 00:18:29,516 --> 00:18:32,370 From what Mama said he was another cheap quack like Hardy. 372 00:18:32,520 --> 00:18:34,998 You wouldn't pay for a first class doctor. 373 00:18:35,070 --> 00:18:36,084 You liar! 374 00:18:36,178 --> 00:18:37,773 So I'm to blame, am I? 375 00:18:37,836 --> 00:18:39,107 That's what you're driving at. 376 00:18:39,362 --> 00:18:41,544 You evil minded loafer. 377 00:18:43,184 --> 00:18:45,058 What were you two arguing about? 378 00:18:45,144 --> 00:18:46,089 Same old stuff. 379 00:18:46,178 --> 00:18:48,505 I heard you saying something about a doctor. 380 00:18:48,633 --> 00:18:51,309 And your father accusing you of being evil minded. 381 00:18:51,399 --> 00:18:54,026 Oh, that? Well I was just saying again that Doc. Hardy... 382 00:18:54,082 --> 00:18:56,487 Isn't my idea of the world's greatest physician. 383 00:18:58,410 --> 00:19:01,078 No. No. I wouldn't say he was either. 384 00:19:02,313 --> 00:19:04,012 That Bridget! 385 00:19:04,551 --> 00:19:06,577 I... I thought I'd never get away. 386 00:19:06,791 --> 00:19:10,350 She told me all about her second cousin on the police force in St. Louis. 387 00:19:10,485 --> 00:19:13,417 Well if you're going to work on the hedge, why don't you go? 388 00:19:14,754 --> 00:19:16,103 I... I mean... 389 00:19:16,738 --> 00:19:20,655 Take advantage of the sunshine before the fog comes back. 390 00:19:22,213 --> 00:19:24,158 Because I... I know it will. 391 00:19:24,703 --> 00:19:27,233 That is... The rheumatism in my hands knows it. 392 00:19:27,670 --> 00:19:30,084 It's a better weather prophet than you are James. 393 00:19:33,536 --> 00:19:34,885 How ugly they are. 394 00:19:35,449 --> 00:19:37,379 Who would ever believe they were once beautiful. 395 00:19:37,595 --> 00:19:39,756 Now now Mary... None of that foolishness. 396 00:19:39,853 --> 00:19:42,170 They're the sweetest hands in the world. 397 00:19:43,711 --> 00:19:44,710 Come on Jamie! 398 00:19:44,847 --> 00:19:46,805 The way to start work is to start work. 399 00:19:46,877 --> 00:19:49,536 The hot sun will sweat some of that booze fat off your middle. 400 00:19:51,573 --> 00:19:53,855 We're all so proud of you Mama, so darn happy! 401 00:19:54,515 --> 00:19:56,348 But you've still got to be careful. 402 00:19:57,292 --> 00:19:59,592 I mean you mustn't worry so much about Edmund. 403 00:19:59,647 --> 00:20:00,790 He'll be all right. 404 00:20:01,600 --> 00:20:03,062 Of course he'll be all right 405 00:20:04,539 --> 00:20:06,710 And I.. I don't know what you mean. 406 00:20:06,823 --> 00:20:08,370 Warning me to be careful... 407 00:20:10,848 --> 00:20:12,936 All right Mama. I'm sorry I spoke. 408 00:20:33,897 --> 00:20:35,127 Here you are! 409 00:20:35,277 --> 00:20:38,089 I was just going upstairs to look for you. 410 00:20:38,448 --> 00:20:40,609 I didn't want to mix up in any arguments. 411 00:20:41,253 --> 00:20:42,411 I feel too rotten. 412 00:20:43,835 --> 00:20:46,891 I'm sure you don't feel half as badly as you make out... 413 00:20:46,924 --> 00:20:48,384 You're such a baby. 414 00:20:48,498 --> 00:20:51,186 You like to get us worried so we'll make a fuss over you... 415 00:20:51,377 --> 00:20:53,726 No, no. I'm only teasing you dear, I know how... 416 00:20:53,806 --> 00:20:55,957 Miserably uncomfortable you must be. 417 00:20:56,335 --> 00:20:58,469 But you feel better today, don't you? 418 00:20:58,936 --> 00:21:01,241 All the same you... you've grown much too thin. 419 00:21:01,336 --> 00:21:02,781 Come on, sit down. 420 00:21:02,841 --> 00:21:04,991 All you need is your mother to nurse you. 421 00:21:05,341 --> 00:21:09,544 Big as you are, you're still the baby of the family to me you know? 422 00:21:09,624 --> 00:21:11,886 Never mind me, you take care of yourself. 423 00:21:11,943 --> 00:21:13,086 That's all that counts. 424 00:21:13,157 --> 00:21:14,332 But I am. 425 00:21:15,127 --> 00:21:18,289 Heavens... Don't you see how fat I've grown? 426 00:21:19,323 --> 00:21:21,386 I'll have to have all my dresses let out. 427 00:21:22,532 --> 00:21:24,597 They started clipping the hedge. 428 00:21:25,059 --> 00:21:26,091 Poor Jamie! 429 00:21:26,345 --> 00:21:30,102 How he hates working in front where everyone passing can see him. 430 00:21:31,150 --> 00:21:32,773 Not that I want anything to do with them. 431 00:21:32,856 --> 00:21:35,028 I've always hated this place and everyone in it. 432 00:21:35,346 --> 00:21:37,021 But your father liked it 433 00:21:37,409 --> 00:21:39,900 And insisted on building this house and... 434 00:21:40,083 --> 00:21:41,860 I've had to come here every summer. 435 00:21:42,341 --> 00:21:44,373 It was wrong from the start. 436 00:21:44,445 --> 00:21:47,406 Everything was done in the cheapest possible way. 437 00:21:47,965 --> 00:21:50,846 Your father would never spend the money to make it right. 438 00:21:51,518 --> 00:21:53,802 It's just as well we haven't any friends. 439 00:21:54,168 --> 00:21:56,600 I'd be ashamed to have them step in the door. 440 00:21:57,596 --> 00:21:58,373 But... 441 00:21:59,309 --> 00:22:01,772 Yo... Your father has never wanted family friends. 442 00:22:02,543 --> 00:22:05,108 All he likes is to hobnob with men... 443 00:22:05,276 --> 00:22:07,061 In bar-rooms or at the club. 444 00:22:08,161 --> 00:22:09,923 You and Jamie are the same way. 445 00:22:10,124 --> 00:22:11,528 But you're not to blame. 446 00:22:14,397 --> 00:22:16,468 I know it's useless to talk but... 447 00:22:18,302 --> 00:22:21,370 Sometimes I... I feel so lonely. 448 00:22:28,987 --> 00:22:30,539 You've got to be fair Mama. 449 00:22:31,574 --> 00:22:33,376 It may have been all his fault in the beginning... 450 00:22:33,520 --> 00:22:35,545 But you know that latter on, even if he'd wanted to... 451 00:22:35,617 --> 00:22:37,212 We couldn't have had people here. 452 00:22:37,494 --> 00:22:39,629 Don't I... I can't bear having you remind... 453 00:22:39,692 --> 00:22:41,996 Don't take it that way please Mama, I'm trying to help. 454 00:22:42,500 --> 00:22:44,095 Because it's bad for you to forget. 455 00:22:44,150 --> 00:22:47,024 The right way is to remember, then you'll always be on your guard. 456 00:22:47,313 --> 00:22:49,225 I... I don't understand... 457 00:22:49,463 --> 00:22:52,180 Why you should suddenly say such things. 458 00:22:53,176 --> 00:22:55,278 What put it in your mind this morning? 459 00:22:55,449 --> 00:22:58,775 Nothing, it just... Well I... because I feel rotten and blue I suppose. 460 00:22:58,998 --> 00:23:00,086 Tell me the truth. 461 00:23:01,028 --> 00:23:03,811 Why are you so... Suspicious all of a sudden? 462 00:23:04,193 --> 00:23:05,191 I'm not. 463 00:23:05,263 --> 00:23:07,434 Yes you are, I feel it. 464 00:23:08,077 --> 00:23:10,949 Your father and Jamie too, particularly... 465 00:23:11,009 --> 00:23:13,227 Now don't start imagining things Mama. 466 00:23:13,228 --> 00:23:14,650 It makes it so much harder... 467 00:23:14,651 --> 00:23:17,944 Living in this atmosphere of constant suspicion... 468 00:23:18,072 --> 00:23:20,309 Knowing that everyone is spying on me... 469 00:23:20,348 --> 00:23:22,197 That none of you believe in me or trust me. 470 00:23:22,271 --> 00:23:24,445 - That's crazy Mama. We do trust you. - If there only... 471 00:23:24,527 --> 00:23:27,075 Some place I could go to get away for a day... 472 00:23:27,134 --> 00:23:28,983 Or even an afternoon... 473 00:23:29,072 --> 00:23:31,127 Some woman friend I could talk to. 474 00:23:31,222 --> 00:23:35,504 Not about anything serious, simply laugh and gossip and forget for a while. 475 00:23:35,761 --> 00:23:38,231 Someone besides the servants... That stupid Cathleen. 476 00:23:38,271 --> 00:23:40,519 Stop it Mama, you're getting yourself worked up over nothing. 477 00:23:40,577 --> 00:23:43,490 Your father goes out, he meets his friends in bar-rooms or at the club. 478 00:23:43,555 --> 00:23:46,001 You and Jamie have the boys, you know, you go out. 479 00:23:46,176 --> 00:23:48,034 But I'm alone, I've always been alone. 480 00:23:48,083 --> 00:23:49,742 Come on now, you know that's a fib. 481 00:23:49,991 --> 00:23:52,087 One of us always stays around to keep you company. 482 00:23:52,190 --> 00:23:54,318 Because you're afraid to trust me alone. 483 00:23:56,014 --> 00:23:58,672 I insist you tell me why you... 484 00:23:58,807 --> 00:24:01,431 Act so differently this morning. 485 00:24:02,130 --> 00:24:04,211 Why you felt you had to remind me. 486 00:24:06,787 --> 00:24:08,097 It's stupid... 487 00:24:09,334 --> 00:24:12,344 It's just because I wasn't asleep when you came into my room last night. 488 00:24:13,386 --> 00:24:15,207 You didn't go back to your and Papa's room... 489 00:24:15,271 --> 00:24:17,263 You went into the spare room for the rest of the night. 490 00:24:17,595 --> 00:24:21,825 Because your father's snoring was driving me crazy... 491 00:24:22,293 --> 00:24:24,191 For heavens sake! 492 00:24:24,336 --> 00:24:28,187 Haven't I often used the spare room as my bedroom? 493 00:24:29,590 --> 00:24:30,834 But I... I... 494 00:24:31,847 --> 00:24:34,004 I see what you thought, that was.. 495 00:24:34,060 --> 00:24:35,615 - I didn't think... - Well I... 496 00:24:37,876 --> 00:24:38,924 So... 497 00:24:40,345 --> 00:24:41,456 You were... 498 00:24:42,216 --> 00:24:45,056 You were pretending to be asleep... 499 00:24:45,611 --> 00:24:47,309 In order to spy on me. 500 00:24:47,378 --> 00:24:49,601 No, I did it because I knew if you found out I was... 501 00:24:49,687 --> 00:24:51,777 Feverish and couldn't sleep, it would upset you. 502 00:24:52,654 --> 00:24:55,670 Jamie was pretending to be asleep too... 503 00:24:55,736 --> 00:24:58,061 I'm sure, and I suppose your father... 504 00:24:58,117 --> 00:24:59,865 - Stop it Mama! - Oh Edmund! 505 00:24:59,954 --> 00:25:01,851 I can't bear it when even you... 506 00:25:02,381 --> 00:25:04,809 It would serve all of you right if it was true. 507 00:25:04,888 --> 00:25:06,046 Mama don't say that! 508 00:25:06,102 --> 00:25:08,279 - That's the way you... - Stop suspecting me! 509 00:25:12,778 --> 00:25:13,992 Please dear. 510 00:25:15,333 --> 00:25:16,595 You hurt me. 511 00:25:20,258 --> 00:25:21,993 I couldn't sleep because... 512 00:25:23,112 --> 00:25:25,319 I was thinking about you. 513 00:25:27,229 --> 00:25:29,285 Th-that's the real reason. 514 00:25:30,514 --> 00:25:33,772 I've been so worried ever since you got sick. 515 00:25:35,275 --> 00:25:36,545 That's foolishness. 516 00:25:37,189 --> 00:25:38,800 You know it's just a bad cold. 517 00:25:38,862 --> 00:25:41,126 Yes. Yes, of course, I know that. 518 00:25:41,172 --> 00:25:42,283 But listen, Mama. 519 00:25:42,743 --> 00:25:44,298 I want you to promise me... 520 00:25:44,649 --> 00:25:46,935 That e-even if it should turn out to be something worse. 521 00:25:47,016 --> 00:25:49,224 - You know I'll soon be all right again anyway. - No! No! 522 00:25:49,263 --> 00:25:51,139 And you won't worry yourself sick about it... 523 00:25:51,162 --> 00:25:52,785 And you'll keep on taking care of yourself. 524 00:25:52,786 --> 00:25:54,922 No! No! I won't listen when you're so silly. 525 00:25:54,923 --> 00:25:57,067 There's absolutely no reason to talk... 526 00:25:57,068 --> 00:25:59,075 As if you expected something dreadful. 527 00:25:59,204 --> 00:26:00,974 Of course I promise you. 528 00:26:01,053 --> 00:26:04,032 I give you my sacred word of honor. 529 00:26:10,204 --> 00:26:11,902 But I suppose you're remembering... 530 00:26:12,865 --> 00:26:14,769 I've promised before. 531 00:26:15,474 --> 00:26:16,930 I've no word of honor 532 00:26:22,010 --> 00:26:22,986 No. 533 00:26:23,670 --> 00:26:25,035 I'm not blaming you dear. 534 00:26:25,728 --> 00:26:26,919 How can you help it? 535 00:26:27,315 --> 00:26:28,777 How can any of us forget? 536 00:26:31,247 --> 00:26:32,637 That's what makes it so... 537 00:26:32,826 --> 00:26:35,218 Hard for all of us. We can't... Forget. 538 00:26:36,148 --> 00:26:37,386 Stop it Mama! 539 00:26:38,669 --> 00:26:39,621 Alright dear. 540 00:26:40,169 --> 00:26:43,331 I didn't mean to be so gloomy. Don't mind me. 541 00:26:43,538 --> 00:26:45,919 Here, let me feel your head. 542 00:26:46,001 --> 00:26:46,867 Well! 543 00:26:47,178 --> 00:26:48,868 It's nice and cool! 544 00:26:49,170 --> 00:26:51,331 You certainly haven't any fever now. 545 00:26:51,481 --> 00:26:52,689 Forget me, it's you. 546 00:26:53,232 --> 00:26:56,200 But I'm... I'm quite alright dear, except... 547 00:26:56,331 --> 00:26:58,410 I... I naturally feel... 548 00:26:58,759 --> 00:27:02,729 Tired and nervous this morning after such a bad night. 549 00:27:05,602 --> 00:27:07,023 I... I really... 550 00:27:08,064 --> 00:27:09,644 Ought to go upstairs... 551 00:27:10,583 --> 00:27:11,925 And lie down... 552 00:27:12,027 --> 00:27:14,535 Until lunch time... And take a nap. 553 00:27:17,893 --> 00:27:19,084 What are you gonna do? 554 00:27:19,750 --> 00:27:20,593 Read? 555 00:27:21,132 --> 00:27:21,997 Here? 556 00:27:24,710 --> 00:27:26,607 It'd be much better for you if you... 557 00:27:26,720 --> 00:27:29,585 Went out in the... fresh air, sunshine. 558 00:27:30,275 --> 00:27:32,193 Don't get overheated remember... 559 00:27:33,480 --> 00:27:35,146 Be sure and wear a hat. 560 00:27:37,588 --> 00:27:40,469 Or are you afraid to trust me alone? 561 00:27:48,744 --> 00:27:50,934 Can't you stop talking like that? 562 00:27:51,117 --> 00:27:54,222 I think you ought to take a nap. 563 00:27:55,131 --> 00:27:57,115 I'll go out and help Jamie bear up. 564 00:27:57,178 --> 00:28:00,062 I'd love to lie in the shade and watch him work. 565 00:29:27,721 --> 00:29:29,316 It'll be lunch time soon... 566 00:29:29,371 --> 00:29:32,858 Will I call your father and Mr. Jamie or will you? 567 00:29:33,215 --> 00:29:34,081 You do it. 568 00:29:34,291 --> 00:29:35,743 Oh and you'd better call my mother too. 569 00:29:35,878 --> 00:29:39,158 What for? She's always on time without any calling. 570 00:29:39,285 --> 00:29:42,287 God bless her, she has some consideration for the help. 571 00:29:42,352 --> 00:29:43,297 She's taking a nap. 572 00:29:43,491 --> 00:29:46,983 She wasn't asleep when I finished my work upstairs a while back. 573 00:29:47,094 --> 00:29:51,027 She was lying down in the spare room with her eyes wide open. 574 00:29:51,094 --> 00:29:52,966 She had a terrible headache, she said. 575 00:29:55,350 --> 00:29:57,296 Oh well then... Just call my father. 576 00:29:57,808 --> 00:30:00,729 No wonder my feet kill me each night. 577 00:30:00,891 --> 00:30:02,549 Mr Tyrone! 578 00:30:02,621 --> 00:30:04,398 Mr. Jamie! 579 00:30:04,492 --> 00:30:06,066 It's time! 580 00:30:23,285 --> 00:30:24,605 Sneaking one, ah? 581 00:30:25,571 --> 00:30:28,338 Cut out the bluff kid, you're a rottener actor than I am. 582 00:30:29,730 --> 00:30:31,150 Grabbing while the going was good. 583 00:30:32,210 --> 00:30:33,646 Why don't you sneak one while you got a chance? 584 00:30:33,701 --> 00:30:35,941 Yeah I was thinking of that little thing. 585 00:30:36,151 --> 00:30:39,388 Hey! The old man was out there talking to old Captain Turner. 586 00:30:45,710 --> 00:30:47,540 Yup, he's still at it. 587 00:31:07,064 --> 00:31:08,492 You don't think that'll fool him do ya? 588 00:31:08,682 --> 00:31:10,478 Well... Maybe not... 589 00:31:12,074 --> 00:31:13,328 But he can't prove it. 590 00:31:14,913 --> 00:31:16,834 God! I hope he doesn't forget lunch... 591 00:31:16,921 --> 00:31:18,533 Listening to himself talk. 592 00:31:19,139 --> 00:31:20,028 I'm hungry. 593 00:31:21,182 --> 00:31:23,618 That's what I hate working out down at the front. 594 00:31:23,792 --> 00:31:26,636 He puts on an act for every damn fool that comes along. 595 00:31:26,724 --> 00:31:28,203 You're in luck to be hungry. 596 00:31:28,584 --> 00:31:30,616 The way I feel I don't care if I ever eat again. 597 00:31:31,390 --> 00:31:32,366 Look kid... 598 00:31:32,757 --> 00:31:34,170 You know I never lectured you... 599 00:31:34,193 --> 00:31:36,741 But Doc. Hardy was right when he told you to cut out the red eye. 600 00:31:37,000 --> 00:31:38,237 Well I'm going to after the... 601 00:31:38,238 --> 00:31:39,921 After he hands me the bad news this afternoon... 602 00:31:39,968 --> 00:31:41,947 A few before then won't make any difference. 603 00:31:42,893 --> 00:31:43,798 Jamie... 604 00:31:44,465 --> 00:31:45,600 What do you think it is? 605 00:31:46,343 --> 00:31:47,532 How the hell would I know? 606 00:31:47,786 --> 00:31:48,778 I'm no doc. 607 00:31:59,815 --> 00:32:01,022 Where's Mama? 608 00:32:02,521 --> 00:32:03,721 Upstairs. 609 00:32:14,881 --> 00:32:16,118 When did she go up? 610 00:32:19,096 --> 00:32:21,673 Oh about the time you started working on the hedge I guess. 611 00:32:22,197 --> 00:32:23,713 She said she was going to take a nap. 612 00:32:25,114 --> 00:32:26,210 You didn't tell me. 613 00:32:26,503 --> 00:32:27,774 Why should I? What about it? 614 00:32:28,373 --> 00:32:30,714 She was tired out, she didn't get much sleep last night. 615 00:32:30,761 --> 00:32:32,485 Yeah I know she didn't. 616 00:32:34,115 --> 00:32:36,077 Damn foghorn kept me awake too. 617 00:32:38,986 --> 00:32:40,192 She's... 618 00:32:40,781 --> 00:32:42,202 Been upstairs alone... 619 00:32:42,400 --> 00:32:44,309 All morning uh? You haven't seen her? 620 00:32:44,627 --> 00:32:45,643 No, I was reading. 621 00:32:46,094 --> 00:32:48,807 I wanted to give her a chance to sleep. 622 00:32:49,750 --> 00:32:51,099 Is she coming down to lunch? 623 00:32:52,344 --> 00:32:53,191 Of course. 624 00:32:53,257 --> 00:32:55,683 No! No "Of course" about it. 625 00:32:56,044 --> 00:32:57,663 She might not want any lunch... 626 00:32:57,695 --> 00:33:00,421 Or she might start having her meals alone upstairs. 627 00:33:00,470 --> 00:33:02,103 - Cut out... Can't you think of... - Well it's happened hasn't it? 628 00:33:05,405 --> 00:33:06,934 You're all wrong to suspect anything. 629 00:33:09,272 --> 00:33:10,780 Cathleen saw her not long ago. 630 00:33:10,820 --> 00:33:12,888 Mama didn't tell her she wouldn't be down for lunch. 631 00:33:13,280 --> 00:33:14,987 Then she wasn't taking a nap. 632 00:33:15,026 --> 00:33:18,438 No, not right then but, she was lying down, Cathleen said. 633 00:33:19,989 --> 00:33:22,988 - In the spare room? - Yes! For Pete’s sake what of it? 634 00:33:23,073 --> 00:33:23,820 You damn fool! 635 00:33:23,868 --> 00:33:25,566 Why did you leave her alone so long? 636 00:33:25,615 --> 00:33:26,853 Why didn't you stick around? 637 00:33:26,885 --> 00:33:28,720 Because she accused me and you and Papa... 638 00:33:28,776 --> 00:33:30,705 Of spying on her all the time and not trusting her. 639 00:33:31,295 --> 00:33:32,796 She made me feel ashamed. 640 00:33:33,423 --> 00:33:35,328 I know how rotten it must be for her. 641 00:33:36,422 --> 00:33:38,239 And she promised on her sacred word of honor. 642 00:33:38,304 --> 00:33:39,645 You ought to know that doesn't mean... 643 00:33:39,700 --> 00:33:42,337 - It does this time. - That's what we though the other times. 644 00:33:44,549 --> 00:33:47,588 Oh, look kid I know you think I'm a cynical bastard... 645 00:33:47,620 --> 00:33:50,384 But remember I've seen more of this game than you have. 646 00:33:50,800 --> 00:33:53,747 You never knew what was really wrong until you were in prep school. 647 00:33:53,914 --> 00:33:55,303 Papa and I kept it from you. 648 00:33:56,489 --> 00:33:59,219 I was wise ten years or more before we had to tell you. 649 00:34:00,287 --> 00:34:01,589 I know this game backwards... 650 00:34:01,667 --> 00:34:04,536 And I've been thinking all morning of the way she acted last night... 651 00:34:04,584 --> 00:34:06,386 When she thought we were asleep. 652 00:34:06,572 --> 00:34:08,493 I haven't been able to think of anything else... 653 00:34:08,619 --> 00:34:12,090 And now you tell me she got you to leave her alone upstairs all morning. 654 00:34:16,345 --> 00:34:17,203 Alright kid. 655 00:34:17,813 --> 00:34:19,115 Don't start a battle with me. 656 00:34:20,704 --> 00:34:22,483 I hope as much as you do I'm crazy. 657 00:34:23,577 --> 00:34:24,941 You know I've been happy as hell... 658 00:34:24,942 --> 00:34:27,156 Because I'd really begun to believe that this time... 659 00:34:29,170 --> 00:34:31,472 She's coming downstairs, you win on that one... 660 00:34:31,527 --> 00:34:33,426 I guess I was a damn suspicious louse. 661 00:34:34,726 --> 00:34:36,294 Damn it I wish I'd grabbed another drink 662 00:34:47,793 --> 00:34:50,753 You mustn't cough like that, it's bad for your throat. 663 00:34:51,110 --> 00:34:54,106 You don't want to get a sore throat on top of your cold do you? 664 00:34:55,548 --> 00:34:58,683 But I seem always to be picking on you telling you "don't do this"... 665 00:34:58,756 --> 00:34:59,725 "Don't do that". 666 00:34:59,764 --> 00:35:01,988 Forgive me dear, it's just that I want to take care of you. 667 00:35:02,196 --> 00:35:03,450 Oh I know that. 668 00:35:03,799 --> 00:35:05,246 What about you, do you feel rested? 669 00:35:06,320 --> 00:35:07,559 Ever so much better. 670 00:35:08,068 --> 00:35:10,172 I've been lying down ever since you went out... 671 00:35:10,195 --> 00:35:12,785 It's what I needed after such a restless night, 672 00:35:12,849 --> 00:35:14,206 I don't feel nervous now. 673 00:35:14,272 --> 00:35:15,201 That's fine. 674 00:35:15,778 --> 00:35:18,767 Good heavens how down in the mouth you look you look Jamie. 675 00:35:18,831 --> 00:35:20,244 What's the matter now? 676 00:35:21,066 --> 00:35:21,976 Nothing. 677 00:35:23,544 --> 00:35:24,893 I'd forgotten... 678 00:35:25,397 --> 00:35:28,135 You've been working on the front hedge! 679 00:35:28,246 --> 00:35:31,551 That always account for your sinking into the dumps, doesn't it? 680 00:35:33,112 --> 00:35:35,069 If you wanna think so Mama. 681 00:35:36,477 --> 00:35:39,073 Well that's the effect it always has isn't it? 682 00:35:40,212 --> 00:35:42,148 What a big baby you are! 683 00:35:42,546 --> 00:35:43,792 Isn't he Edmund? 684 00:35:44,212 --> 00:35:46,305 He's certainly a fool to care what anyone thinks. 685 00:35:47,298 --> 00:35:48,218 Yes! 686 00:35:50,242 --> 00:35:52,923 The only way is to make yourself not care. 687 00:35:54,234 --> 00:35:55,766 Where's your father? 688 00:35:56,549 --> 00:35:58,596 I heard Cathleen call him. 689 00:35:58,802 --> 00:36:02,633 She's down there now, interrupting the famous beautiful voice. 690 00:36:03,623 --> 00:36:05,224 She should have more respect. 691 00:36:06,770 --> 00:36:09,570 It's you who should have more respect. 692 00:36:11,448 --> 00:36:12,194 You... 693 00:36:12,773 --> 00:36:15,934 Who thanks to him have never had to work hard in your life. 694 00:36:19,227 --> 00:36:20,488 Remember, your... 695 00:36:21,177 --> 00:36:23,155 Father is getting old Jamie. 696 00:36:25,446 --> 00:36:26,415 You really... 697 00:36:26,573 --> 00:36:28,365 Ought to show more consideration. 698 00:36:29,550 --> 00:36:32,609 I'm hungry. I wish that old man would get a move on. 699 00:36:33,663 --> 00:36:36,393 It's a rotten trick the way he keeps meals waiting... 700 00:36:36,456 --> 00:36:38,535 And then beefs because they're spoiled. 701 00:36:39,700 --> 00:36:42,335 Very trying Jamie. You don't know how trying. 702 00:36:42,857 --> 00:36:45,011 You don’t have to keep house with summer servants. 703 00:36:45,722 --> 00:36:47,372 Who don't care because... 704 00:36:47,796 --> 00:36:49,852 Because they know it isn't a permanent position. 705 00:36:49,922 --> 00:36:52,670 Your father won't even pay the wages the best summer help ask. 706 00:36:52,724 --> 00:36:53,836 So every year... 707 00:36:53,892 --> 00:36:56,344 I have stupid lazy greenhorns to deal with. 708 00:36:57,571 --> 00:36:59,714 But you've heard me say this a thousand times. 709 00:36:59,811 --> 00:37:01,676 What makes you ramble on like that Mama? 710 00:37:04,293 --> 00:37:05,301 I don't know... 711 00:37:05,499 --> 00:37:07,104 Nothing in particular dear. 712 00:37:07,390 --> 00:37:09,065 It's foolish of me. 713 00:37:09,766 --> 00:37:11,306 Lunch is ready ma'am. 714 00:37:11,307 --> 00:37:13,754 I went down to Mr. Tyrone like you ordered... 715 00:37:13,755 --> 00:37:15,141 And he said he'd come right away but... 716 00:37:15,201 --> 00:37:16,468 Alright Cathleen. 717 00:37:16,529 --> 00:37:17,624 Tell Bridget I'm sorry... 718 00:37:17,670 --> 00:37:20,949 But she'll have to wait a few minutes until Mr. Tyrone is here. 719 00:37:21,040 --> 00:37:22,398 Yes ma'am. 720 00:37:22,445 --> 00:37:24,494 Look damn it! Why don't we go in without him? 721 00:37:24,660 --> 00:37:25,820 He's told us to. 722 00:37:26,216 --> 00:37:27,393 He doesn't mean it. 723 00:37:28,753 --> 00:37:31,469 Don't you know your father yet? He'd be so terribly hurt. 724 00:37:33,364 --> 00:37:34,269 I'll... 725 00:37:35,601 --> 00:37:37,429 I'll go make him get a move on. 726 00:37:44,908 --> 00:37:46,978 Why do you stare... Like that? 727 00:37:49,333 --> 00:37:50,118 You know. 728 00:37:50,538 --> 00:37:51,365 I don't know. 729 00:37:51,756 --> 00:37:53,978 Oh, for God's sake Mama, 730 00:37:54,145 --> 00:37:56,600 You think you can fool me? I'm not blind. 731 00:37:57,145 --> 00:37:59,031 I don't know what you're talking about. 732 00:37:59,483 --> 00:38:00,333 No? 733 00:38:02,877 --> 00:38:05,489 Take a look at your eyes in the mirror. 734 00:38:08,051 --> 00:38:09,712 I got Papa moving... 735 00:38:10,410 --> 00:38:11,371 He'll... 736 00:38:12,616 --> 00:38:13,939 He'll be here any minute. 737 00:38:16,131 --> 00:38:17,152 What's the matter. 738 00:38:18,312 --> 00:38:19,632 - Your brother... - What happened Mama? 739 00:38:19,913 --> 00:38:22,850 Your brother ought to be ashamed of himself, he's been insinuating... 740 00:38:23,136 --> 00:38:24,636 I don't know what. 741 00:38:25,339 --> 00:38:27,236 God... Damn you! 742 00:38:27,283 --> 00:38:28,557 Stop it at once! Do it! 743 00:38:28,567 --> 00:38:29,460 He's a liar! 744 00:38:30,244 --> 00:38:31,645 It's a lie, isn't it Mama? 745 00:38:31,718 --> 00:38:32,680 What's a lie? 746 00:38:37,806 --> 00:38:39,438 Edmund... Don't. 747 00:38:42,735 --> 00:38:46,351 There comes your father up the steps, I must... Warn Bridget. 748 00:38:49,388 --> 00:38:50,156 Well? 749 00:38:51,251 --> 00:38:52,065 Well... 750 00:38:52,637 --> 00:38:53,399 What? 751 00:38:55,829 --> 00:38:56,656 You're a liar. 752 00:38:59,772 --> 00:39:00,828 Sorry I'm late! 753 00:39:00,845 --> 00:39:03,026 Captain Turner stopped to talk... 754 00:39:03,027 --> 00:39:05,330 Once he starts gabbing you can't get away from him. 755 00:39:05,403 --> 00:39:07,254 You mean once he starts listening. 756 00:39:07,985 --> 00:39:10,723 It's all right, the level in the bottle hasn't changed. 757 00:39:10,860 --> 00:39:12,035 I wasn't noticing that. 758 00:39:12,555 --> 00:39:14,277 As if it proved anything with you about. 759 00:39:14,381 --> 00:39:15,627 I'm on to your tricks. 760 00:39:15,930 --> 00:39:18,049 Did I hear you say "let's all have a drink"? 761 00:39:18,276 --> 00:39:20,975 Jamie's welcome after his hard morning's work... 762 00:39:21,077 --> 00:39:23,526 But I won't invite you. Doctor Harding... 763 00:39:23,565 --> 00:39:25,088 To hell with Doc. Hardy! 764 00:39:25,285 --> 00:39:26,829 One isn't going to kill me. 765 00:39:27,666 --> 00:39:28,983 I feel all in Papa. 766 00:39:29,173 --> 00:39:31,358 Well come along then, it's before a meal. 767 00:39:31,590 --> 00:39:34,186 I've always found that good whiskey, taken in moderation... 768 00:39:34,235 --> 00:39:36,425 As an appetizer, is the best of tonics. 769 00:39:36,619 --> 00:39:38,627 I said "in moderation". 770 00:39:39,626 --> 00:39:42,433 It'd be a waste of breath mentioning moderation to you. 771 00:39:49,611 --> 00:39:50,404 Well... 772 00:39:50,960 --> 00:39:52,158 Here's to health and happiness. 773 00:39:55,392 --> 00:39:56,424 That's a joke! 774 00:39:57,436 --> 00:39:58,213 What is? 775 00:39:59,625 --> 00:40:01,016 Nothing. Here's to health. 776 00:40:01,470 --> 00:40:02,725 Well what's the matter here? 777 00:40:03,446 --> 00:40:05,941 There's gloom in the air you could cut with a knife. 778 00:40:06,088 --> 00:40:07,556 You got the drink you were after didn't you? 779 00:40:07,579 --> 00:40:09,798 Why are you wearing that gloomy look on your mug? 780 00:40:09,865 --> 00:40:12,354 You won't be singing a song yourself soon. 781 00:40:12,418 --> 00:40:13,395 Shut up Jamie! 782 00:40:17,235 --> 00:40:18,544 I thought lunch was ready. 783 00:40:19,372 --> 00:40:20,888 I'm hungry as a hunter. 784 00:40:21,237 --> 00:40:22,338 Where's your mother? 785 00:40:22,404 --> 00:40:23,225 Here I am! 786 00:40:24,003 --> 00:40:25,765 I've had to calm down Bridget. 787 00:40:26,663 --> 00:40:29,340 She's in a tantrum over you being late again and I don't blame her. 788 00:40:30,027 --> 00:40:32,313 If your lunch is dried up from waiting in the oven... 789 00:40:32,352 --> 00:40:34,568 She said you could like it or leave it, for all she cared. 790 00:40:34,968 --> 00:40:38,096 Oh, I'm so sick and tired of pretending this is a home! 791 00:40:38,293 --> 00:40:40,733 You won't help me. You won't put yourself out the least bit 792 00:40:41,196 --> 00:40:43,610 You don't know how to act in a home, you don't even want one... 793 00:40:43,617 --> 00:40:46,040 You've never have wanted one since we were married. 794 00:40:46,228 --> 00:40:49,392 You should have remained a bachelor and lived in second rate hotels. 795 00:40:49,400 --> 00:40:51,631 Entertained your friends in bar-rooms... 796 00:40:51,632 --> 00:40:52,643 And nothing ever would've happened... 797 00:40:52,644 --> 00:40:53,620 Mama! 798 00:40:57,818 --> 00:40:58,657 Stop talking. 799 00:41:00,797 --> 00:41:02,105 Why don't we go in to lunch? 800 00:41:04,968 --> 00:41:06,872 Yes... Yes. 801 00:41:06,930 --> 00:41:09,470 It is inconsiderate of me to... 802 00:41:09,471 --> 00:41:11,635 Dig up the past when I... 803 00:41:11,636 --> 00:41:14,323 Know your father and Jamie must be hungry. 804 00:41:14,621 --> 00:41:16,845 I do hope you have an appetite dear. 805 00:41:16,988 --> 00:41:18,750 You really must eat more... 806 00:41:20,341 --> 00:41:21,793 Why is that glass there? 807 00:41:22,192 --> 00:41:23,184 Did you have a drink? 808 00:41:23,700 --> 00:41:25,549 Oh, how can you be such a fool? 809 00:41:26,269 --> 00:41:27,952 You're to blame James! 810 00:41:28,104 --> 00:41:29,335 How could you let him? 811 00:41:29,667 --> 00:41:30,755 Do you want to kill him? 812 00:41:31,423 --> 00:41:33,106 Don't you remember my father? 813 00:41:33,729 --> 00:41:35,705 He wouldn't stop after he was stricken. 814 00:41:35,938 --> 00:41:37,549 He said doctors were fools... 815 00:41:37,588 --> 00:41:40,066 He thought like you that whiskey is a good tonic... 816 00:41:46,384 --> 00:41:47,424 But of course... 817 00:41:47,654 --> 00:41:49,964 There... There... There's no comparison... 818 00:41:50,698 --> 00:41:51,793 At all, is there? 819 00:41:52,457 --> 00:41:54,549 I... I don't know why I... I... 820 00:41:56,635 --> 00:41:57,754 Forgive me for... 821 00:41:58,237 --> 00:41:59,865 Scolding you James. 822 00:42:00,588 --> 00:42:03,964 One... One small drink won't hurt Edmund. 823 00:42:04,674 --> 00:42:06,269 Might be good for him. 824 00:42:06,507 --> 00:42:08,580 If it gives him an appetite. 825 00:42:08,811 --> 00:42:10,354 For God's sake let's eat. 826 00:42:11,036 --> 00:42:12,887 Come on kid, let's put on the feed bag. 827 00:42:13,213 --> 00:42:13,967 Yes. 828 00:42:14,820 --> 00:42:16,630 You go in with your mother lads. 829 00:42:17,073 --> 00:42:18,600 I'll join you in a second. 830 00:42:23,970 --> 00:42:24,979 Why... Why do you... 831 00:42:25,417 --> 00:42:26,656 Look at me like that? 832 00:42:26,741 --> 00:42:28,484 Please stop staring James... 833 00:42:28,881 --> 00:42:30,635 One would think you're accusing me. 834 00:42:31,713 --> 00:42:32,749 James... 835 00:42:34,777 --> 00:42:36,667 You don't... Understand... 836 00:42:36,712 --> 00:42:41,328 I understand that I've been a god damned fool to believe in you. 837 00:42:42,516 --> 00:42:45,524 I don't know what you mean by "believing" in me, all I felt was... 838 00:42:45,753 --> 00:42:47,599 Distrust and spying... 839 00:42:47,933 --> 00:42:49,139 And suspicion. 840 00:42:49,832 --> 00:42:51,222 Why are you having another drink? 841 00:42:51,792 --> 00:42:53,858 You never have more than one drink before lunch. 842 00:42:55,107 --> 00:42:55,766 Well... 843 00:42:55,964 --> 00:42:58,101 I know what to expect, you'll be drunk tonight 844 00:42:58,527 --> 00:43:00,112 And it won't be the first time, will it? 845 00:43:00,248 --> 00:43:01,240 Or the thousandth. 846 00:43:05,062 --> 00:43:05,911 James... 847 00:43:07,993 --> 00:43:09,651 Please... Please... 848 00:43:11,894 --> 00:43:13,482 You don't understand... 849 00:43:13,992 --> 00:43:15,627 I've been so worried... 850 00:43:15,817 --> 00:43:17,152 So worried about Edmund. 851 00:43:17,437 --> 00:43:18,319 I'm so afraid. 852 00:43:18,362 --> 00:43:21,043 I don't want to listen to your excuses Mary. 853 00:43:21,585 --> 00:43:22,490 Excuses? 854 00:43:23,453 --> 00:43:24,104 You... 855 00:43:24,161 --> 00:43:25,058 You mean... 856 00:43:25,089 --> 00:43:26,820 You couldn't believe that of me. 857 00:43:26,884 --> 00:43:28,853 You mustn't believe that James. No. 858 00:43:29,301 --> 00:43:30,007 Shall... 859 00:43:30,087 --> 00:43:31,928 Shall we not go in to lunch... 860 00:43:32,016 --> 00:43:32,920 Dear? 861 00:43:33,260 --> 00:43:36,477 I don't want anything but I know you must be hungry. 862 00:43:41,770 --> 00:43:42,681 James... 863 00:43:49,246 --> 00:43:50,769 I tried... 864 00:43:51,427 --> 00:43:52,431 So hard. 865 00:43:54,443 --> 00:43:55,808 I tried... 866 00:43:56,403 --> 00:43:57,744 So hard! 867 00:43:59,710 --> 00:44:00,639 Please... 868 00:44:01,511 --> 00:44:02,330 Believe me. 869 00:44:02,378 --> 00:44:04,195 Yes I suppose you did Mary. 870 00:44:04,779 --> 00:44:06,731 But for the love of God... 871 00:44:06,802 --> 00:44:09,353 Why couldn't you have the strength to keep on? 872 00:44:10,279 --> 00:44:12,554 I... I don't know what you're talking about. 873 00:44:13,589 --> 00:44:14,820 Have the strength to... 874 00:44:15,209 --> 00:44:16,630 Keep on what? 875 00:44:18,357 --> 00:44:19,163 Never mind. 876 00:44:20,796 --> 00:44:22,096 It's no use now. 877 00:45:22,868 --> 00:45:25,725 It's unreasonable to expect Bridget and Cathleen to act as... 878 00:45:25,726 --> 00:45:28,149 If this were home, they know it isn't as well as we know it. 879 00:45:28,596 --> 00:45:30,319 Never has been and never will be. 880 00:45:30,765 --> 00:45:33,259 No it never can be now, but it was once... 881 00:45:33,370 --> 00:45:34,465 Before you... 882 00:45:34,555 --> 00:45:35,531 Before I what? 883 00:45:36,494 --> 00:45:37,288 No... 884 00:45:37,359 --> 00:45:39,240 No dear, whatever you say, it isn't true. 885 00:45:40,030 --> 00:45:41,276 It was never a home. 886 00:45:42,061 --> 00:45:44,847 You've always preferred a club or a bar-room. 887 00:45:45,909 --> 00:45:47,163 And for me it's... 888 00:45:48,718 --> 00:45:52,812 Always been as lonely as a dirty room in a one night stand hotel. 889 00:45:56,484 --> 00:45:57,269 I'm... 890 00:45:57,610 --> 00:45:59,604 I'm worried about you... Edmund. 891 00:46:00,106 --> 00:46:00,955 Edmund. You... 892 00:46:01,066 --> 00:46:02,972 You hardly touched anything. 893 00:46:05,200 --> 00:46:07,573 It's alright for me not to have an appetite, I've... 894 00:46:08,406 --> 00:46:10,068 I've been growing too fat but... 895 00:46:11,645 --> 00:46:12,633 You must eat. 896 00:46:14,319 --> 00:46:16,892 Pro... Promise me you will dear, for my sake. 897 00:46:17,077 --> 00:46:18,022 Yes Mama. 898 00:46:18,364 --> 00:46:19,396 That's a good boy. 899 00:46:24,593 --> 00:46:25,546 I'll answer. 900 00:46:26,013 --> 00:46:27,951 Maguire said he'd call. 901 00:46:31,274 --> 00:46:32,107 Hello. 902 00:46:35,144 --> 00:46:36,167 How are you doctor? 903 00:46:42,334 --> 00:46:43,278 I see... 904 00:46:47,061 --> 00:46:47,767 Well... 905 00:46:48,084 --> 00:46:50,704 You'll explain all about it when you see him this afternoon. 906 00:46:52,105 --> 00:46:54,645 Yes he'll be with you without fail at 4 o'clock. 907 00:46:57,632 --> 00:46:58,395 Yes. 908 00:46:59,890 --> 00:47:00,756 Yes. 909 00:47:02,776 --> 00:47:03,442 Goodbye. 910 00:47:03,715 --> 00:47:04,474 Goodbye doctor. 911 00:47:18,149 --> 00:47:20,325 Well that didn't sound like glad tidings. 912 00:47:20,658 --> 00:47:22,261 It was doctor Hardy. 913 00:47:22,550 --> 00:47:25,352 He wants to... You to be sure to see him at 4 this afternoon. 914 00:47:25,464 --> 00:47:26,654 What did he say? 915 00:47:26,969 --> 00:47:28,818 Not that I give a damn. 916 00:47:28,881 --> 00:47:31,556 I wouldn't believe him if he swore on a stack of bibles. 917 00:47:31,726 --> 00:47:33,653 Don't pay attention to a word he says Edmund. 918 00:47:33,759 --> 00:47:34,600 Mary! 919 00:47:34,960 --> 00:47:37,571 Oh, we all know why you like him James, because he's cheap. 920 00:47:38,029 --> 00:47:41,327 Please don't try to tell me, I know all about the Doctor Hardy. 921 00:47:41,604 --> 00:47:43,806 Heaven knows I ought to after all these years. 922 00:47:44,540 --> 00:47:45,953 He's an ignorant fool. 923 00:47:46,056 --> 00:47:48,200 Should be a law to keep man like him from practicing. 924 00:47:48,871 --> 00:47:50,514 He hasn't the slightest idea... 925 00:47:50,896 --> 00:47:53,372 When you're in agony and half insane, he... 926 00:47:53,722 --> 00:47:57,693 Sits and holds your hand and delivers sermons on willpower. 927 00:47:58,174 --> 00:47:59,975 He deliberately humiliates you. 928 00:48:00,157 --> 00:48:03,263 He makes you beg and plead. He treats you like a criminal. 929 00:48:03,492 --> 00:48:04,993 He understands nothing! 930 00:48:05,301 --> 00:48:07,944 And yet it was exactly the same type of cheap quack... 931 00:48:07,945 --> 00:48:09,331 Who first gave you the medicine... 932 00:48:09,332 --> 00:48:11,974 And you never knew what it was until it was too late. 933 00:48:12,069 --> 00:48:13,387 I hate doctors! 934 00:48:13,561 --> 00:48:15,642 For Christ sake Mama! 935 00:48:15,714 --> 00:48:16,619 Stop talking. 936 00:48:16,677 --> 00:48:18,773 Yes Mary, it's no time to... 937 00:48:18,887 --> 00:48:20,117 You're... You're... 938 00:48:21,275 --> 00:48:23,357 Quite right dear, forgive me, I... 939 00:48:24,042 --> 00:48:25,050 I... 940 00:48:25,105 --> 00:48:26,591 It's useless to be angry now. 941 00:48:27,237 --> 00:48:30,212 I'm going upstairs... For a moment. 942 00:48:30,953 --> 00:48:32,104 If you'll excuse me. 943 00:48:33,766 --> 00:48:35,289 I have to fix my hair. 944 00:48:36,492 --> 00:48:39,166 That is, if I can... Find my glasses. 945 00:48:39,568 --> 00:48:41,375 - I'll be right down. - Mary. 946 00:48:42,458 --> 00:48:43,426 Yes dear! 947 00:48:43,846 --> 00:48:44,752 What is it? 948 00:48:48,497 --> 00:48:49,346 Nothing. 949 00:48:49,646 --> 00:48:53,006 You're welcome to come up and watch me if you're so suspicious. 950 00:48:53,873 --> 00:48:56,677 As if that could do any good, you'd only postpone it. 951 00:48:57,475 --> 00:48:58,896 I'm not your jailor. 952 00:48:59,009 --> 00:49:00,414 This isn't a prison. 953 00:49:00,486 --> 00:49:01,224 No, 954 00:49:01,835 --> 00:49:04,202 I know you can't help thinking it's a home. 955 00:49:15,686 --> 00:49:17,842 I'm sorry dear. 956 00:49:19,829 --> 00:49:21,719 I don't mean to be bitter. 957 00:49:22,983 --> 00:49:24,555 It... It's not your fault. 958 00:49:27,221 --> 00:49:28,975 Another shot in the arm. 959 00:49:29,213 --> 00:49:30,604 Cut out that kind of talk. 960 00:49:30,725 --> 00:49:34,789 Yes, hold your foul tongue and your rotten broadway loafers lingo! 961 00:49:34,855 --> 00:49:37,292 Have you no pity or decency? 962 00:49:37,703 --> 00:49:39,564 You ought to be thrown out into the gutter! 963 00:49:39,925 --> 00:49:42,084 If I did it you know damn well who would weep you... 964 00:49:42,132 --> 00:49:44,552 And plead for you, and excuse you, and complain... 965 00:49:44,553 --> 00:49:46,158 Until I let you come back. 966 00:49:46,159 --> 00:49:47,905 God! Don't I know that? 967 00:49:48,652 --> 00:49:49,652 No pity? 968 00:49:49,778 --> 00:49:52,452 I have all the pity in the world for her because I understand... 969 00:49:52,507 --> 00:49:54,676 What a hard game to beat she is up against. 970 00:49:54,836 --> 00:49:56,788 Which is more than you ever had. 971 00:49:57,905 --> 00:50:01,191 No, the cures are no damn good except for a while. 972 00:50:01,921 --> 00:50:04,988 The truth is there is no cure and we've been saps to hope. 973 00:50:05,729 --> 00:50:06,863 They never come back. 974 00:50:07,651 --> 00:50:09,993 "They never come back" 975 00:50:11,594 --> 00:50:13,134 Everything's in the bag, 976 00:50:13,902 --> 00:50:16,259 It's all a frame up, we're all fall guys... 977 00:50:16,260 --> 00:50:18,402 And suckers and we can't beat the game. 978 00:50:18,877 --> 00:50:20,258 God, if I felt the way you do... 979 00:50:20,299 --> 00:50:22,109 Oh, I thought you did! 980 00:50:22,215 --> 00:50:24,612 Your poetry isn't very cheery... 981 00:50:24,651 --> 00:50:26,988 Nor the stuff you read and claim to admire. 982 00:50:27,029 --> 00:50:28,155 Shut up both of you! 983 00:50:28,342 --> 00:50:29,928 There's little choice between the philosophy... 984 00:50:29,929 --> 00:50:31,715 You learn from broadway loafers... 985 00:50:31,762 --> 00:50:33,551 And the one Edmund got from his books. 986 00:50:33,696 --> 00:50:35,608 They're both rotten to the core. 987 00:50:35,707 --> 00:50:38,016 You both flouted the faith you were born and brought up in 988 00:50:38,071 --> 00:50:40,128 The one true faith of the Catholic Church 989 00:50:40,470 --> 00:50:43,752 And your denial has brought nothing but self-destruction. 990 00:50:44,133 --> 00:50:45,834 That's the bunk Papa. 991 00:50:45,835 --> 00:50:47,689 We don't pretend at any rate. 992 00:50:47,690 --> 00:50:49,477 I don't notice you've worn any holes... 993 00:50:49,478 --> 00:50:51,755 In the knees of your pants going to mass. 994 00:50:52,817 --> 00:50:55,159 It's true, I'm a bad catholic in the observance. 995 00:50:55,214 --> 00:50:56,001 God forgive me. 996 00:50:56,470 --> 00:50:57,526 But I believe. 997 00:50:58,394 --> 00:50:59,489 And you're a liar! 998 00:50:59,711 --> 00:51:02,587 I may not go to church but every night and morning of my life... 999 00:51:02,643 --> 00:51:04,492 I get down on my knees and pray. 1000 00:51:05,109 --> 00:51:06,344 Did you pray for Mama? 1001 00:51:08,087 --> 00:51:09,071 I did. 1002 00:51:09,967 --> 00:51:12,692 I've prayed to God these many years for her. 1003 00:51:13,316 --> 00:51:15,092 But what's the good of talk? 1004 00:51:15,915 --> 00:51:19,111 Only, I wish she hadn't led me into hope this time. 1005 00:51:19,524 --> 00:51:22,226 By God! I never will again. 1006 00:51:23,554 --> 00:51:25,468 That's a rotten thing to say Papa. 1007 00:51:27,345 --> 00:51:28,520 Well I'll hope! 1008 00:51:29,146 --> 00:51:31,034 She's only just started, it can't have got... 1009 00:51:31,035 --> 00:51:33,106 A hold on her yet, she can still stop. 1010 00:51:33,658 --> 00:51:36,858 You can't talk to her now, she'll listen but she won't listen. 1011 00:51:37,246 --> 00:51:41,326 Yes, every day from now on will be the same drifting away from us... 1012 00:51:41,573 --> 00:51:43,255 Until at the end of each night... 1013 00:51:43,529 --> 00:51:44,630 Cut it out Papa! 1014 00:51:47,164 --> 00:51:48,277 I'll go up and get dressed. 1015 00:51:51,321 --> 00:51:54,268 I'll make so much noise she can't suspect I've come up to spy on her. 1016 00:51:59,276 --> 00:52:01,085 What did Doc. Hardy say about the kid? 1017 00:52:01,722 --> 00:52:02,888 It's what you thought... 1018 00:52:03,435 --> 00:52:04,786 He's got consumption. 1019 00:52:07,555 --> 00:52:08,261 Damn it! 1020 00:52:08,348 --> 00:52:10,643 There's no possible doubt, he says. 1021 00:52:11,154 --> 00:52:12,019 Aw hell... 1022 00:52:12,838 --> 00:52:14,647 He'll have to go to a sanatorium. 1023 00:52:14,745 --> 00:52:15,547 Yes. 1024 00:52:15,673 --> 00:52:18,428 The sooner the better, Hardy says, for him and everyone around him. 1025 00:52:19,003 --> 00:52:19,813 He claims... 1026 00:52:19,948 --> 00:52:21,479 In six months to a year... 1027 00:52:21,781 --> 00:52:23,942 Edmund will be cured, if he obeys orders. 1028 00:52:25,629 --> 00:52:27,661 Who would have thought a child of mine? 1029 00:52:28,782 --> 00:52:30,522 Doesn't come from my side of the family. 1030 00:52:31,110 --> 00:52:34,532 Wasn't one of us who didn't have lungs as strong as an ox! 1031 00:52:34,554 --> 00:52:36,442 Who gives a damn about that part of it? 1032 00:52:43,313 --> 00:52:44,889 Where does Hardy want to send him? 1033 00:52:45,531 --> 00:52:47,158 That's what I've to see him about. 1034 00:52:47,939 --> 00:52:51,566 Well for God's sake pick out a good place and not some cheap dump. 1035 00:52:51,748 --> 00:52:53,821 I'll send him wherever Hardy thinks best. 1036 00:52:53,969 --> 00:52:57,461 Well don't give Hardy your old over the hills to the poor house song... 1037 00:52:57,509 --> 00:52:59,070 About taxes and mortgages. 1038 00:52:59,176 --> 00:53:01,708 I'm no millionaire that can throw money away. 1039 00:53:01,749 --> 00:53:03,177 Why shouldn't I tell Hardy the truth? 1040 00:53:03,257 --> 00:53:05,806 Because he'll think you want him to pick a cheap dump. 1041 00:53:06,437 --> 00:53:08,429 And because he'll know it isn't the truth... 1042 00:53:09,028 --> 00:53:12,441 Especially if he hears afterwards you've seen McGuire 1043 00:53:12,587 --> 00:53:15,309 And let that flannel-mouth, gold-brick merchant... 1044 00:53:15,364 --> 00:53:17,185 Sting you with another piece of bum property! 1045 00:53:17,279 --> 00:53:18,708 Keep your nose out of my business! 1046 00:53:18,709 --> 00:53:20,592 This is Edmund's business! 1047 00:53:20,942 --> 00:53:24,307 What I'm afraid of is, with your Irish bog-trotter idea... 1048 00:53:24,358 --> 00:53:26,905 That consumption is fatal, you'll figure it's a waste of money... 1049 00:53:26,945 --> 00:53:28,629 To spend any more than you can help. 1050 00:53:28,630 --> 00:53:29,394 You liar! 1051 00:53:29,395 --> 00:53:30,743 All right, prove I'm a liar! 1052 00:53:30,979 --> 00:53:34,015 That's what I want, that's why I brought it up. 1053 00:53:34,495 --> 00:53:36,519 I have every hope Edmund will be cured... 1054 00:53:36,553 --> 00:53:38,371 And keep your dirty tongue off Ireland. 1055 00:53:38,520 --> 00:53:41,508 You're a fine one to sneer with a map of it on your face. 1056 00:53:41,707 --> 00:53:43,502 Not after I wash my face. 1057 00:53:47,753 --> 00:53:48,388 Well... 1058 00:53:49,546 --> 00:53:51,372 I've said all I have to say, it's up to you. 1059 00:53:54,156 --> 00:53:57,327 What do you want me to do this afternoon, now you're going uptown? 1060 00:53:58,134 --> 00:53:59,800 I've done all I can do on the hedge 1061 00:53:59,801 --> 00:54:01,313 Until you cut more of it... 1062 00:54:01,314 --> 00:54:04,338 And you don't want me to go ahead with your clipping, I know that. 1063 00:54:04,438 --> 00:54:05,938 No, you'd get it crooked. 1064 00:54:06,191 --> 00:54:07,559 Like you get everything else. 1065 00:54:09,920 --> 00:54:11,762 Well I'd better go uptown with Edmund then. 1066 00:54:12,614 --> 00:54:13,883 Bad news coming on top of... 1067 00:54:13,884 --> 00:54:16,002 What's happened with Mama may hit him hard. 1068 00:54:16,188 --> 00:54:17,553 Yes go with him Jamie... 1069 00:54:18,215 --> 00:54:20,064 Keep up his spirits if you can. 1070 00:54:20,334 --> 00:54:22,828 If you can without making it an excuse to get drunk. 1071 00:54:22,829 --> 00:54:24,391 What would I use for money? 1072 00:54:24,392 --> 00:54:27,633 The last I heard they were still selling booze not giving it away. 1073 00:54:28,869 --> 00:54:30,334 I'll get dressed. 1074 00:54:36,838 --> 00:54:39,241 You haven't... Seen my... Glasses... 1075 00:54:39,638 --> 00:54:41,194 Anywhere have you... Jamie? 1076 00:54:42,489 --> 00:54:44,031 You haven't seen them have you James? 1077 00:54:44,087 --> 00:54:45,158 No my dear. 1078 00:54:45,822 --> 00:54:47,425 What's the matter with Jamie? 1079 00:54:48,021 --> 00:54:49,830 Have you been nagging at him again? 1080 00:54:50,832 --> 00:54:54,406 You really sh... Shouldn't treat him with such contempt all the time. 1081 00:54:55,108 --> 00:54:56,210 He's not to blame... 1082 00:54:56,211 --> 00:54:57,766 If he'd been brought up in a real home... 1083 00:54:57,767 --> 00:54:59,115 I'm sure it would have been dif... 1084 00:55:11,325 --> 00:55:13,514 You're not much of a weather prophet James. 1085 00:55:14,751 --> 00:55:16,477 See how hazy it's getting. 1086 00:55:16,782 --> 00:55:18,798 I can hardly see the other shore. 1087 00:55:18,863 --> 00:55:21,815 Yes I spoke too soon, we're in for another night of fog I'm afraid. 1088 00:55:24,080 --> 00:55:26,475 Well... I won't mind it tonight. 1089 00:55:27,341 --> 00:55:30,794 No... I don't imagine you will... Mary. 1090 00:55:32,677 --> 00:55:34,036 I... I don't... 1091 00:55:34,703 --> 00:55:35,632 See Jamie. 1092 00:55:36,430 --> 00:55:37,565 Going down to the hedge. 1093 00:55:38,114 --> 00:55:39,352 Where... Where did he go? 1094 00:55:39,598 --> 00:55:41,640 He's going with Edmund to the doctor's, 1095 00:55:41,704 --> 00:55:44,022 He went upstairs to change his clothes. 1096 00:55:44,755 --> 00:55:47,168 I have to do the same or I'll be late for my appointment. 1097 00:55:47,224 --> 00:55:48,565 Please wait a little while. 1098 00:55:49,002 --> 00:55:50,943 At least until one of the boys... 1099 00:55:51,682 --> 00:55:52,705 Comes down. 1100 00:55:53,447 --> 00:55:55,051 You... You'll all be... 1101 00:55:55,482 --> 00:55:57,292 Leaving me... So soon. 1102 00:55:57,720 --> 00:55:59,273 It's you who are leaving us... 1103 00:55:59,567 --> 00:56:00,535 Mary. 1104 00:56:02,358 --> 00:56:04,032 Well that... That's a silly thing... 1105 00:56:04,484 --> 00:56:05,493 To say James. 1106 00:56:05,636 --> 00:56:06,732 How could I leave? 1107 00:56:07,600 --> 00:56:09,077 There's nowhere I could go. 1108 00:56:09,283 --> 00:56:10,514 Who would I go to see? 1109 00:56:11,329 --> 00:56:12,509 I have no friends. 1110 00:56:12,618 --> 00:56:13,788 That's your own fault. 1111 00:56:15,188 --> 00:56:17,147 Surely there's something that you could do this afternoon... 1112 00:56:17,148 --> 00:56:18,561 That would be good for you Mary. 1113 00:56:18,729 --> 00:56:20,515 Take a drive in the automobile! 1114 00:56:20,602 --> 00:56:23,247 Get away from the house, get a little sun and fresh air. 1115 00:56:23,535 --> 00:56:24,931 I bought the automobile for you. 1116 00:56:24,932 --> 00:56:26,950 You know I don't care for the damn things... 1117 00:56:26,951 --> 00:56:29,134 I'd rather walk any day or take the trolly. 1118 00:56:29,300 --> 00:56:32,565 I had it here waiting for you when you came back from the sanatorium. 1119 00:56:33,098 --> 00:56:35,576 I thought it would give you pleasure and distract your mind. 1120 00:56:36,203 --> 00:56:39,526 You used to ride in it every day, you hardly use it at all lately. 1121 00:56:40,212 --> 00:56:42,282 Payed more money than I could afford. 1122 00:56:43,168 --> 00:56:44,239 There's the chauffeur... 1123 00:56:44,389 --> 00:56:46,769 I have to feed and board and pay high wages... 1124 00:56:46,770 --> 00:56:48,214 Whether he drives you or not. 1125 00:56:48,863 --> 00:56:49,671 Waste! 1126 00:56:50,484 --> 00:56:54,279 Same old waste that will land me in the poor house at my old age. 1127 00:56:54,805 --> 00:56:56,035 What good has it done you? 1128 00:56:56,305 --> 00:56:58,593 I might as well have thrown the money out the window. 1129 00:57:01,135 --> 00:57:03,423 It was a waste of money James. 1130 00:57:05,213 --> 00:57:07,683 You shouldn't have bought a second hand automobile. 1131 00:57:09,179 --> 00:57:10,989 You were swindled again. 1132 00:57:11,349 --> 00:57:13,063 As you always are because... 1133 00:57:13,253 --> 00:57:16,287 You insist on second hand bargains in everything. 1134 00:57:16,288 --> 00:57:17,517 It's one of the best makes. 1135 00:57:17,518 --> 00:57:19,012 You're as bad as Jamie. 1136 00:57:19,194 --> 00:57:20,741 Suspecting everyone. 1137 00:57:20,862 --> 00:57:21,647 No! 1138 00:57:21,824 --> 00:57:24,171 You... You mustn't be offended James. 1139 00:57:24,203 --> 00:57:27,457 I... I wasn't offended when you gave me the automobile. 1140 00:57:27,945 --> 00:57:31,057 I knew that was the way you have to do everything. 1141 00:57:31,204 --> 00:57:34,363 I was grateful and touched. I knew that buying the car was a... 1142 00:57:34,594 --> 00:57:36,674 Was a hard thing for you to do. 1143 00:57:37,722 --> 00:57:39,926 But it showed how much you love me... 1144 00:57:40,990 --> 00:57:42,220 In your way. 1145 00:57:43,652 --> 00:57:44,589 Especially... 1146 00:57:45,075 --> 00:57:47,510 As you couldn't really believe it would do me any good. 1147 00:57:47,511 --> 00:57:49,267 Mary, dear Mary. 1148 00:57:49,268 --> 00:57:51,014 For the love of God 1149 00:57:51,034 --> 00:57:54,366 For the boys sake, for my sake and for your own... 1150 00:57:54,367 --> 00:57:56,767 Won't you stop? Now. 1151 00:57:58,581 --> 00:57:59,557 Stop what? 1152 00:57:59,723 --> 00:58:01,248 What are you talking about? 1153 00:58:01,879 --> 00:58:02,892 James... 1154 00:58:03,548 --> 00:58:05,721 James we've loved each other, we always will. 1155 00:58:05,722 --> 00:58:08,015 Let's remember only that and not try to understand... 1156 00:58:08,016 --> 00:58:11,410 What we cannot understand or help things that cannot be helped. 1157 00:58:11,960 --> 00:58:12,833 The things... 1158 00:58:13,372 --> 00:58:16,860 Life... Has done to us, we cannot excuse or explain. 1159 00:58:17,245 --> 00:58:19,410 You won't... Even try? 1160 00:58:20,325 --> 00:58:21,444 Try, uh... 1161 00:58:21,833 --> 00:58:23,145 Try to go for a drive? 1162 00:58:23,622 --> 00:58:24,804 This afternoon dear? 1163 00:58:25,324 --> 00:58:28,221 Oh yes... Yes I... I will if you wish it. 1164 00:58:28,412 --> 00:58:29,293 Although... 1165 00:58:29,633 --> 00:58:31,842 It... It makes me feel lonelier... 1166 00:58:31,945 --> 00:58:33,945 Than if I stayed here. 1167 00:58:35,680 --> 00:58:36,513 There... 1168 00:58:36,770 --> 00:58:38,920 There's no one I can invite to drive with me. 1169 00:58:38,921 --> 00:58:41,106 I never know where to tell Smythe to go. 1170 00:58:42,832 --> 00:58:45,119 If there was only some friend's house where I could... 1171 00:58:45,838 --> 00:58:48,446 Drop in, laugh and gossip over a while. 1172 00:58:48,447 --> 00:58:49,883 But of course there isn't. 1173 00:58:50,814 --> 00:58:51,910 Never has been. 1174 00:58:55,240 --> 00:58:56,510 At the convent... 1175 00:58:57,709 --> 00:58:59,439 I had so many friends. 1176 00:59:01,742 --> 00:59:04,116 Naturally, after I married an actor, 1177 00:59:05,582 --> 00:59:06,701 Well... 1178 00:59:06,826 --> 00:59:09,968 You... You know how actors were considered in those days... 1179 00:59:09,969 --> 00:59:11,079 And then of course... 1180 00:59:11,348 --> 00:59:14,007 Right after we were married there was the scandal of... 1181 00:59:15,069 --> 00:59:15,974 Of that... 1182 00:59:16,508 --> 00:59:17,706 Woman who... 1183 00:59:18,082 --> 00:59:20,090 Had been your mistress suing you. 1184 00:59:20,971 --> 00:59:23,415 From then on, all my old friends either... 1185 00:59:23,843 --> 00:59:26,068 Pitied me or... Cut me dead. 1186 00:59:27,175 --> 00:59:29,358 I hated the ones that cut me dead... 1187 00:59:29,803 --> 00:59:31,771 Much less than the pitiers. 1188 00:59:31,781 --> 00:59:35,728 Mary for God's sake don't dig up what's long forgotten. 1189 00:59:36,011 --> 00:59:38,541 If you're that far gone in the past already... 1190 00:59:38,542 --> 00:59:40,807 When it's only the beginning of the afternoon... 1191 00:59:40,855 --> 00:59:43,061 What will you be tonight. 1192 00:59:44,957 --> 00:59:46,322 Come to think of it... 1193 00:59:47,773 --> 00:59:50,054 I do have to drive uptown. 1194 00:59:51,672 --> 00:59:54,622 There's something I must get at the drugstore. 1195 00:59:55,314 --> 00:59:58,262 Yes. Leave it to you to have some of the stuff hidden... 1196 00:59:58,334 --> 01:00:00,175 And prescriptions for more! 1197 01:00:01,212 --> 01:00:04,005 Well I hope you'll lay in a good stock ahead... 1198 01:00:04,006 --> 01:00:05,417 So we'll never have another night... 1199 01:00:05,418 --> 01:00:07,427 Like the one when you screamed for it... 1200 01:00:07,580 --> 01:00:09,789 And ran out of the house in your nightdress... 1201 01:00:09,861 --> 01:00:13,161 Half crazy to try and throw yourself off the dock! 1202 01:00:14,981 --> 01:00:16,211 I have to get... 1203 01:00:16,806 --> 01:00:17,997 Tooth powder... 1204 01:00:18,945 --> 01:00:20,715 And toilet soap... 1205 01:00:21,365 --> 01:00:23,200 And cold cream. 1206 01:00:32,484 --> 01:00:35,975 You mustn't remember, you mustn't humiliate me so! 1207 01:00:36,039 --> 01:00:37,110 Forgive me! 1208 01:00:37,228 --> 01:00:38,582 I'm sorry Mary. 1209 01:00:39,597 --> 01:00:41,355 It doesn't matter, nothing like that ever happened. 1210 01:00:41,403 --> 01:00:43,458 You must've dreamed it. 1211 01:00:49,294 --> 01:00:50,102 I... 1212 01:00:51,721 --> 01:00:53,071 I was so... 1213 01:00:53,700 --> 01:00:54,915 So healthy... 1214 01:00:55,797 --> 01:00:57,535 Before Edmund was born. 1215 01:01:00,402 --> 01:01:01,565 Do you remember James? 1216 01:01:02,435 --> 01:01:04,154 There wasn't a nerve in my body. 1217 01:01:04,364 --> 01:01:05,680 Even traveling with you... 1218 01:01:05,681 --> 01:01:08,000 Season after season, bearing children... 1219 01:01:08,158 --> 01:01:09,557 In hotel rooms... 1220 01:01:09,899 --> 01:01:11,447 I still kept healthy. 1221 01:01:15,659 --> 01:01:17,407 But bearing Edmund was... 1222 01:01:17,550 --> 01:01:18,908 The last straw. 1223 01:01:19,558 --> 01:01:21,298 I was so sick afterwards. 1224 01:01:22,785 --> 01:01:27,161 And that ignorant quack of a cheap hotel doctor... 1225 01:01:27,912 --> 01:01:30,466 All he knew was I was in pain. 1226 01:01:30,467 --> 01:01:33,066 It was easy for him to stop the pain. 1227 01:01:33,236 --> 01:01:34,228 Mary! 1228 01:01:34,507 --> 01:01:37,523 For God's sake, forget the past! 1229 01:01:38,624 --> 01:01:41,537 Why, how can I, the past is the present... 1230 01:01:41,680 --> 01:01:43,767 The future too, isn't it? 1231 01:01:46,127 --> 01:01:47,937 I blame only myself. 1232 01:01:48,611 --> 01:01:51,495 I swore after Eugene died I would never have another baby. 1233 01:01:52,029 --> 01:01:53,640 I was to blame for his death. 1234 01:01:55,749 --> 01:01:56,535 If... 1235 01:01:57,296 --> 01:01:59,058 If I hadn't left him... 1236 01:01:59,846 --> 01:02:00,933 With my mother... 1237 01:02:01,340 --> 01:02:02,918 To join you on the road... 1238 01:02:02,919 --> 01:02:05,658 Because you wrote telling me you missed me and were so lonely... 1239 01:02:06,385 --> 01:02:09,766 Jamie would never have been allowed, when he still had measles... 1240 01:02:10,037 --> 01:02:11,656 To go into the baby's room. 1241 01:02:12,066 --> 01:02:14,096 I always believed Jamie did it on purpose... 1242 01:02:14,097 --> 01:02:16,168 He was jealous of the baby he hated him. 1243 01:02:17,172 --> 01:02:18,172 Oh, I... 1244 01:02:18,328 --> 01:02:21,104 I... Know Jamie was only seven but he was never stupid. 1245 01:02:21,399 --> 01:02:23,573 He'd been warned it might kill the baby. 1246 01:02:24,324 --> 01:02:25,522 He knew. 1247 01:02:26,231 --> 01:02:28,230 I've never been able to forgive him for that. 1248 01:02:28,231 --> 01:02:30,178 Are you back to Eugene now? 1249 01:02:30,179 --> 01:02:33,632 Can't you let our dead baby rest in peace? 1250 01:02:34,150 --> 01:02:35,039 Above all... 1251 01:02:35,352 --> 01:02:36,763 Above all... 1252 01:02:36,764 --> 01:02:38,758 I should never have let you insist... 1253 01:02:38,790 --> 01:02:41,077 That I have another baby to take Eugene's place. 1254 01:02:42,128 --> 01:02:43,453 I was afraid... 1255 01:02:43,694 --> 01:02:46,170 All the time I carried Edmund... 1256 01:02:46,674 --> 01:02:48,982 I knew something terrible would happen. 1257 01:02:48,983 --> 01:02:51,136 I knew I'd proved by the way I left Eugene... 1258 01:02:51,239 --> 01:02:53,446 That I wasn't worthy to have another baby. 1259 01:02:53,447 --> 01:02:55,510 And that God would punish me if I did. 1260 01:02:56,349 --> 01:02:58,110 I should never have born Edmund. 1261 01:02:58,111 --> 01:02:59,487 Mary be careful with your talk... 1262 01:02:59,504 --> 01:03:01,671 If he heard you he might think you never wanted him. 1263 01:03:02,950 --> 01:03:04,603 For God's sake try and be yourself... 1264 01:03:04,699 --> 01:03:06,770 You can do that much for him. 1265 01:03:09,443 --> 01:03:10,451 There you are! 1266 01:03:10,759 --> 01:03:13,774 You look spick-and-span. I'm on my way up to change too. 1267 01:03:13,775 --> 01:03:14,942 Wait a minute Papa. 1268 01:03:15,209 --> 01:03:18,529 I hate to bring up disagreeable topic but there's the matter of car fare. 1269 01:03:18,650 --> 01:03:19,546 I'm broke. 1270 01:03:19,697 --> 01:03:22,541 You'll always be broke until you learn the value of... 1271 01:03:23,688 --> 01:03:25,497 But you've been learning lad. 1272 01:03:26,155 --> 01:03:28,166 You worked hard before you took ill. 1273 01:03:29,016 --> 01:03:30,329 You've done splendidly, I... 1274 01:03:30,885 --> 01:03:32,199 I'm proud of you. 1275 01:03:37,793 --> 01:03:39,221 "Thank you". 1276 01:03:40,718 --> 01:03:43,940 How sharper than a serpent's tooth it is... 1277 01:03:43,995 --> 01:03:46,099 "To have a thankless child", I know. 1278 01:03:46,179 --> 01:03:48,750 Give me a chance Papa. I'm knocked speechless. 1279 01:03:48,968 --> 01:03:50,857 This isn't a dollar, it's a ten spot. 1280 01:03:51,047 --> 01:03:54,240 But why all of a sudden? Did doc. Hardy say I was going to die? 1281 01:03:55,494 --> 01:03:57,641 That was a rotten crack, I was just kidding Papa. 1282 01:03:58,898 --> 01:04:00,645 I'm very grateful, honest Papa. 1283 01:04:00,867 --> 01:04:02,374 You're welcome lad. 1284 01:04:02,581 --> 01:04:05,071 I won't have it! Do you hear? 1285 01:04:05,755 --> 01:04:08,112 Such morbid nonsense. 1286 01:04:08,847 --> 01:04:10,267 Saying you're going to die. 1287 01:04:10,585 --> 01:04:11,933 You'd think you didn't want to live... 1288 01:04:11,935 --> 01:04:14,421 A boy of your have with everything before him. 1289 01:04:15,060 --> 01:04:16,742 It's just a pose you get out of books! 1290 01:04:16,861 --> 01:04:18,250 You're not really sick at all! 1291 01:04:18,251 --> 01:04:19,258 Mary hold your tongue! 1292 01:04:19,259 --> 01:04:21,494 But James it's absurd of him to be so gloomy... 1293 01:04:21,495 --> 01:04:23,669 And to make such a big to-do about nothing. 1294 01:04:25,094 --> 01:04:26,783 But never mind dear, I'm on to you. 1295 01:04:26,784 --> 01:04:29,320 You want to be petted and spoiled and made a fuss over... 1296 01:04:29,321 --> 01:04:30,510 Isn't that it? 1297 01:04:30,511 --> 01:04:32,434 You're still such a baby. 1298 01:04:33,244 --> 01:04:35,649 But please, don't carry it too far dear. 1299 01:04:35,959 --> 01:04:37,778 Don't say horrible things. 1300 01:04:38,108 --> 01:04:40,806 I know it's foolish to take them seriously... 1301 01:04:40,807 --> 01:04:42,374 But I can't help it! 1302 01:04:42,375 --> 01:04:44,185 You've got me so frightened! 1303 01:04:47,604 --> 01:04:49,960 I believe you ought to ask your mother now... 1304 01:04:49,961 --> 01:04:51,111 What you said you were... 1305 01:04:51,651 --> 01:04:52,675 Going to. 1306 01:04:55,030 --> 01:04:56,562 My God! Look at the time! 1307 01:04:57,552 --> 01:04:58,891 I have to shake a leg. 1308 01:05:06,189 --> 01:05:07,313 How do you feel? 1309 01:05:10,367 --> 01:05:11,732 Your head is a little hot... 1310 01:05:12,334 --> 01:05:14,243 But that's just from going out in the sun. 1311 01:05:14,623 --> 01:05:16,904 You look ever so much better than you did this morning. 1312 01:05:17,810 --> 01:05:19,231 Come and sit down. 1313 01:05:19,886 --> 01:05:22,243 - Listen Mama... - No no now don't talk. 1314 01:05:22,609 --> 01:05:23,603 Sit down. 1315 01:05:23,945 --> 01:05:25,151 Lean back. 1316 01:05:25,609 --> 01:05:27,109 And rest. 1317 01:05:27,624 --> 01:05:32,395 It's such a tiring trip uptown in the dirty old trolley on a hot day like this. 1318 01:05:33,017 --> 01:05:35,318 You'll be ever so much better off here with me. 1319 01:05:35,470 --> 01:05:37,506 - Listen Mama... - You could telephone to Hardy 1320 01:05:37,792 --> 01:05:39,896 Tell him you don't feel well enough. 1321 01:05:41,139 --> 01:05:43,455 The old idiot, all he knows about medicine... 1322 01:05:43,456 --> 01:05:45,662 Is to look solemn and preach willpower. 1323 01:05:45,663 --> 01:05:46,862 Listen Mama... 1324 01:05:47,356 --> 01:05:48,873 I want to ask you something... 1325 01:05:50,197 --> 01:05:51,538 You can still stop. 1326 01:05:52,577 --> 01:05:54,879 You've only just started, you've got the willpower 1327 01:05:55,699 --> 01:05:57,567 We'll all help you, I'll do anything. 1328 01:05:57,980 --> 01:05:58,996 Won't you Mama? 1329 01:06:01,320 --> 01:06:03,458 Please don't talk about things you don't understand. 1330 01:06:04,564 --> 01:06:05,834 All right I give up. 1331 01:06:05,844 --> 01:06:07,096 I knew it was no use. 1332 01:06:07,097 --> 01:06:08,551 Anyway I don't know what you're referring to... 1333 01:06:08,552 --> 01:06:10,442 But I do know you should be the last one... 1334 01:06:10,727 --> 01:06:13,874 Right after I returned from the sanatorium you began to be ill. 1335 01:06:14,504 --> 01:06:16,884 But after they had warned me I must have peace at home... 1336 01:06:16,885 --> 01:06:18,234 Without anything to upset me. 1337 01:06:18,639 --> 01:06:20,500 All I've done is worry about you. 1338 01:06:22,828 --> 01:06:23,758 But... 1339 01:06:23,759 --> 01:06:25,116 That's no excuse. 1340 01:06:25,769 --> 01:06:27,944 I'm only trying to explain... 1341 01:06:28,213 --> 01:06:29,693 It's not an excuse. 1342 01:06:31,065 --> 01:06:34,085 Promise me dear you won't believe I made you an excuse. 1343 01:06:36,174 --> 01:06:37,660 What else can I believe? 1344 01:06:41,367 --> 01:06:42,407 Nothing. 1345 01:06:42,465 --> 01:06:43,612 I don't blame you. 1346 01:06:45,002 --> 01:06:47,361 How can you believe me when I can't believe myself? 1347 01:06:49,236 --> 01:06:50,913 I've become such a liar. 1348 01:06:51,982 --> 01:06:54,354 I never lied about anything, once upon a time. 1349 01:06:54,355 --> 01:06:55,404 Now I have to lie... 1350 01:06:55,991 --> 01:06:57,341 Especially to myself. 1351 01:06:59,861 --> 01:07:01,370 But how can you understand... 1352 01:07:02,333 --> 01:07:04,388 When I can't understand myself? 1353 01:07:07,069 --> 01:07:10,347 I've never understood anything about it, except that... 1354 01:07:11,049 --> 01:07:12,192 One day... 1355 01:07:12,845 --> 01:07:13,932 Long ago... 1356 01:07:15,320 --> 01:07:18,774 I found I could no longer call my soul my own. 1357 01:07:23,043 --> 01:07:24,328 But someday... 1358 01:07:24,536 --> 01:07:25,567 Dear... 1359 01:07:26,957 --> 01:07:28,632 I'll find it again. 1360 01:07:31,885 --> 01:07:33,488 Someday when you're all well. 1361 01:07:34,943 --> 01:07:38,859 And I see you healthy and happy and successful. 1362 01:07:39,671 --> 01:07:41,845 And I don't have to feel guilty anymore. 1363 01:07:45,780 --> 01:07:46,907 Someday... 1364 01:07:49,012 --> 01:07:52,468 When the blessed virgin Mary forgives me. 1365 01:07:54,298 --> 01:07:55,663 And gives me back 1366 01:07:56,464 --> 01:08:00,968 The faith in her love and pity I used to have in my convent days. 1367 01:08:03,012 --> 01:08:04,955 And I can pray to her again. 1368 01:08:07,365 --> 01:08:08,793 When she sees... 1369 01:08:09,301 --> 01:08:12,725 No one can believe in me, even for a moment, anymore... 1370 01:08:13,754 --> 01:08:15,437 Then she will believe in me... 1371 01:08:16,420 --> 01:08:18,906 And with her help it will be so easy. 1372 01:08:19,807 --> 01:08:22,369 I will hear myself scream with agony... 1373 01:08:22,370 --> 01:08:24,216 And yet at the same time I will laugh... 1374 01:08:24,438 --> 01:08:27,018 Because I will be so sure of myself. 1375 01:08:39,733 --> 01:08:40,805 Well... 1376 01:08:41,487 --> 01:08:44,457 But of course you can't... believe that either can you? 1377 01:08:45,526 --> 01:08:47,848 Now I... Now I think of it 1378 01:08:48,814 --> 01:08:51,288 You might as well... Go uptown. 1379 01:08:53,039 --> 01:08:54,134 I forgot. 1380 01:08:54,356 --> 01:08:55,939 I'm taking a drive. 1381 01:08:56,664 --> 01:08:58,934 I have to go to the drugstore... 1382 01:08:59,933 --> 01:09:02,334 And you'd hardly want to go there with me would you? 1383 01:09:02,405 --> 01:09:03,953 You'd be so ashamed! 1384 01:09:04,623 --> 01:09:05,703 Mama don't... 1385 01:09:05,704 --> 01:09:07,594 I suppose you'll divide that $10... 1386 01:09:07,595 --> 01:09:09,294 Your father gave you with Jamie. 1387 01:09:09,295 --> 01:09:11,739 You always divide with each other don't you? 1388 01:09:11,740 --> 01:09:12,763 Like good sports. 1389 01:09:13,070 --> 01:09:14,965 Well... I know what he'll do with his share. 1390 01:09:14,966 --> 01:09:16,796 He'll get drunk somewhere where he can be... 1391 01:09:16,797 --> 01:09:20,169 With the only kind of woman he understands or likes. 1392 01:09:23,891 --> 01:09:25,082 Edmund... 1393 01:09:26,287 --> 01:09:28,305 Promise me you won't drink. 1394 01:09:28,704 --> 01:09:30,513 It's so dangerous. 1395 01:09:30,963 --> 01:09:32,468 You know doctor Hardy... 1396 01:09:32,659 --> 01:09:34,088 I thought he was an old idiot... 1397 01:09:40,936 --> 01:09:42,018 Edmund... 1398 01:09:45,090 --> 01:09:46,736 Come on kid, let's beat it! 1399 01:09:47,793 --> 01:09:48,984 Go on Edmund. 1400 01:09:49,523 --> 01:09:50,827 Jamie's calling. 1401 01:09:52,748 --> 01:09:54,740 There comes your father down the stairs too. 1402 01:09:54,741 --> 01:09:56,059 Come on! Edmund. 1403 01:09:56,164 --> 01:09:57,734 - Goodbye Mary. - Goodbye Edmund 1404 01:09:57,735 --> 01:09:59,769 If you're coming home to dinner try not to be late. 1405 01:10:00,478 --> 01:10:01,676 Tell your father. 1406 01:10:01,799 --> 01:10:03,123 You know how Bridget is. 1407 01:10:09,978 --> 01:10:10,924 Goodbye. 1408 01:10:12,157 --> 01:10:13,235 Goodbye Mama. 1409 01:10:53,625 --> 01:10:54,922 So lonely here. 1410 01:11:00,288 --> 01:11:02,104 You're lying to yourself again. 1411 01:11:04,484 --> 01:11:06,368 You wanted to get rid of them. 1412 01:11:08,332 --> 01:11:12,267 Their contempt and disgust aren't pleasant company. 1413 01:11:12,741 --> 01:11:14,392 You're glad they've gone. 1414 01:11:19,828 --> 01:11:21,703 Then mother of God... 1415 01:11:24,338 --> 01:11:27,639 Why do I feel so lonely? 1416 01:12:14,589 --> 01:12:16,365 That foghorn... 1417 01:12:17,935 --> 01:12:19,487 Isn't it awful? 1418 01:12:21,241 --> 01:12:22,730 Yes indeed ma'am. 1419 01:12:23,737 --> 01:12:25,409 Wasn't the fog I minded, 1420 01:12:25,647 --> 01:12:27,290 I really love fog. 1421 01:12:28,532 --> 01:12:30,509 They say it's good for the complexion. 1422 01:12:30,510 --> 01:12:32,994 It hides you from the world and the world from you. 1423 01:12:33,640 --> 01:12:37,443 You feel everything has changed, nothing is what it seemed to be. 1424 01:12:37,961 --> 01:12:40,098 No one can find or touch you... 1425 01:12:40,345 --> 01:12:41,480 Anymore. 1426 01:12:42,317 --> 01:12:45,437 I was scared out of my wits riding back from town. 1427 01:12:46,166 --> 01:12:48,233 You couldn't see your hand in front of you. 1428 01:12:48,645 --> 01:12:50,458 It's the foghorn I hate. 1429 01:12:51,345 --> 01:12:53,024 It won't let you alone. 1430 01:12:53,750 --> 01:12:55,488 It keeps reminding you... 1431 01:12:58,021 --> 01:12:59,976 Calling you back. 1432 01:13:01,920 --> 01:13:04,772 But it can't tonight, it's just an ugly sound. 1433 01:13:06,066 --> 01:13:06,989 It's... 1434 01:13:08,995 --> 01:13:10,955 It doesn't remind me of anything. 1435 01:13:11,868 --> 01:13:14,887 Except perhaps Mr. Tyrone's snores. 1436 01:13:16,854 --> 01:13:19,248 I've had such fun teasing him about it. 1437 01:13:19,775 --> 01:13:21,227 He's always snored... 1438 01:13:21,373 --> 01:13:25,071 Ever since I can remember, especially when he's had too much to drink. 1439 01:13:25,330 --> 01:13:27,195 And then he's like a child... 1440 01:13:27,575 --> 01:13:29,212 He doesn't like to admit it. 1441 01:13:29,675 --> 01:13:33,081 Well... I suppose I snore at times too and I don't like to admit it. 1442 01:13:34,179 --> 01:13:36,633 So I've no right to make fun of him, have I? 1443 01:13:36,751 --> 01:13:39,207 Sure everybody healthy snores... 1444 01:13:39,684 --> 01:13:41,668 It's a sign of sanity they say. 1445 01:13:43,054 --> 01:13:44,355 What time is it ma'am? 1446 01:13:44,402 --> 01:13:46,156 I ought to be getting back into the kitchen. 1447 01:13:46,945 --> 01:13:48,184 No, don't go Cathleen. 1448 01:13:48,605 --> 01:13:50,343 I don't want to be alone... 1449 01:13:50,783 --> 01:13:51,703 Yet. 1450 01:13:51,893 --> 01:13:53,326 It won't be for long. 1451 01:13:53,779 --> 01:13:56,232 The master and the boys will be home soon. 1452 01:13:58,353 --> 01:14:00,346 I doubt if they'll come home for dinner. 1453 01:14:01,112 --> 01:14:02,993 They have too good an excuse... 1454 01:14:03,413 --> 01:14:05,458 To remain in the barrooms... 1455 01:14:05,863 --> 01:14:07,419 Where they feel at home. 1456 01:14:10,568 --> 01:14:13,201 Have a drink yourself, Cathleen, if you wish. 1457 01:14:13,527 --> 01:14:16,618 Well... I don't know if I'd better ma'am. 1458 01:14:17,280 --> 01:14:18,288 Well... 1459 01:14:18,289 --> 01:14:20,447 Maybe one won't harm. 1460 01:14:21,275 --> 01:14:23,317 Here's to your good health ma'am. 1461 01:14:24,710 --> 01:14:27,433 I really did have good health once Cathleen... 1462 01:14:28,084 --> 01:14:29,632 But that was long ago. 1463 01:14:31,136 --> 01:14:32,984 For God's sake ma'am... 1464 01:14:32,985 --> 01:14:34,455 It'll be half water. 1465 01:14:34,456 --> 01:14:36,368 He'll know by the taste. 1466 01:14:38,740 --> 01:14:40,526 By the time he gets home... 1467 01:14:40,854 --> 01:14:43,019 He'll be too drunk to tell the difference 1468 01:14:43,020 --> 01:14:44,688 He has such a good an excuse, he believes... 1469 01:14:45,022 --> 01:14:46,577 To drown his sorrows. 1470 01:14:46,578 --> 01:14:48,995 Well... It's a good man's failing... 1471 01:14:49,482 --> 01:14:50,957 Never mind his weakness. 1472 01:14:50,958 --> 01:14:54,493 I don't mind, I've loved him dearly for thirty-six years. 1473 01:14:54,915 --> 01:14:56,098 That's right ma'am... 1474 01:14:56,417 --> 01:14:57,719 Love him dearly... 1475 01:14:58,028 --> 01:15:01,491 For any fool can see he worships the ground you walk on. 1476 01:15:03,790 --> 01:15:05,663 Speaking of acting ma'am... 1477 01:15:05,885 --> 01:15:08,014 How is it you never went on the stage? 1478 01:15:11,391 --> 01:15:12,289 What...? 1479 01:15:12,403 --> 01:15:13,400 I? 1480 01:15:16,941 --> 01:15:19,311 What put that absurd idea in your head? 1481 01:15:20,662 --> 01:15:22,799 I was brought up in a respectable home... 1482 01:15:23,248 --> 01:15:25,000 And educated in the best convent... 1483 01:15:25,001 --> 01:15:27,351 In the Middle-West before I met Mr. Tyrone. 1484 01:15:27,897 --> 01:15:29,903 I hardly knew there was such a thing as the theater. 1485 01:15:29,943 --> 01:15:31,810 I was a very pious girl. 1486 01:15:31,971 --> 01:15:34,217 I even dreamed of becoming a nun. 1487 01:15:34,470 --> 01:15:37,132 I never had the slightest desire to be an actress. 1488 01:15:37,274 --> 01:15:39,793 I'd never think of you being a holy nun ma'am. 1489 01:15:40,482 --> 01:15:43,941 Sure to God you'd never darken the door of a church God forgive me. 1490 01:15:43,951 --> 01:15:45,755 Well... I never felt at home in the theater. 1491 01:15:46,744 --> 01:15:51,153 Even though Mr. Tyrone has made me go with him on all his tours. 1492 01:15:51,586 --> 01:15:52,721 I've had... 1493 01:15:53,316 --> 01:15:55,286 Little to do with the people in his company. 1494 01:15:55,798 --> 01:15:57,677 Not that I had anything against them... 1495 01:15:57,678 --> 01:16:00,309 They were always very kind to me and I to them but... 1496 01:16:00,802 --> 01:16:01,952 their life... 1497 01:16:02,364 --> 01:16:03,507 Was not my life. 1498 01:16:05,109 --> 01:16:06,870 It's always stood between me and... 1499 01:16:08,414 --> 01:16:09,364 And... 1500 01:16:11,611 --> 01:16:13,671 But let's not talk about... 1501 01:16:13,983 --> 01:16:17,546 Old things that could not be helped. 1502 01:16:23,044 --> 01:16:25,498 How thick the fog is. 1503 01:16:27,417 --> 01:16:29,367 I... I can't see the road. 1504 01:16:31,285 --> 01:16:34,721 All the people in the world could pass by... 1505 01:16:37,175 --> 01:16:38,924 And I would never know. 1506 01:16:41,922 --> 01:16:43,818 I wish it was always that way. 1507 01:16:45,191 --> 01:16:46,831 It's getting dark already. 1508 01:16:47,633 --> 01:16:49,038 It'll soon be night. 1509 01:16:49,677 --> 01:16:51,114 Thank goodness. 1510 01:16:52,264 --> 01:16:58,174 It was kind of you to keep me company this afternoon Cathleen. 1511 01:16:58,942 --> 01:17:01,561 I should have been lonely driving up... 1512 01:17:02,187 --> 01:17:04,206 Driving uptown alone. 1513 01:17:05,129 --> 01:17:08,331 Sure. Why wouldn't I rather ride in a fine automobile 1514 01:17:08,332 --> 01:17:09,817 Than stay here? 1515 01:17:10,730 --> 01:17:13,056 It's like a vacation ma'am. 1516 01:17:14,394 --> 01:17:16,449 There's only one thing I didn't like. 1517 01:17:16,714 --> 01:17:18,622 What was that Cathleen. 1518 01:17:18,733 --> 01:17:21,130 The way the man in the drugstore acted... 1519 01:17:21,131 --> 01:17:23,179 When I took in the prescription for you. 1520 01:17:23,466 --> 01:17:25,331 Oh, the appearance of him. 1521 01:17:27,933 --> 01:17:30,061 I d... I don't know what you're talking about. 1522 01:17:30,791 --> 01:17:32,617 What drugstore? What prescrip... 1523 01:17:33,168 --> 01:17:34,002 Oh! 1524 01:17:34,146 --> 01:17:35,546 Oh yes... 1525 01:17:36,139 --> 01:17:37,614 Of course, I'd forgotten. 1526 01:17:39,340 --> 01:17:41,531 The medicine for the... 1527 01:17:42,016 --> 01:17:43,127 Rheumatism... 1528 01:17:43,874 --> 01:17:45,249 In my hands. 1529 01:17:46,375 --> 01:17:48,037 What did the man say? 1530 01:17:49,543 --> 01:17:51,829 Not that it matter so long as he filled the prescription. 1531 01:17:51,830 --> 01:17:52,965 Oh it mattered to me ma'am. 1532 01:17:52,966 --> 01:17:54,982 I'm not used to being treated like a thief. 1533 01:17:55,367 --> 01:17:57,326 He gave me a long look... 1534 01:17:57,327 --> 01:18:00,131 And said insultingly "where did you get hold of this?". 1535 01:18:00,562 --> 01:18:03,070 "Well" I says "it's none of your damn business"... 1536 01:18:03,295 --> 01:18:06,224 But if you must know, it's for the lady I work for... 1537 01:18:06,335 --> 01:18:09,140 Mrs. Tyrone who's siting out there in the automobile. 1538 01:18:09,952 --> 01:18:12,180 That shut him up quick. 1539 01:18:12,181 --> 01:18:14,265 He gave a long look out and said... 1540 01:18:14,266 --> 01:18:16,806 "Ohh..." and went to get the medicine. 1541 01:18:18,693 --> 01:18:19,582 Yes... 1542 01:18:19,732 --> 01:18:20,478 He... 1543 01:18:20,827 --> 01:18:21,541 Knows me. 1544 01:18:26,235 --> 01:18:28,669 I... Have to take it. 1545 01:18:30,857 --> 01:18:33,992 Because there... There is no other that can... 1546 01:18:34,453 --> 01:18:35,683 Stop the pain. 1547 01:18:36,224 --> 01:18:37,346 All the pain. 1548 01:18:37,775 --> 01:18:39,204 I mean in my hands. 1549 01:18:40,061 --> 01:18:41,348 Poor hands. 1550 01:18:43,297 --> 01:18:45,211 You'll never believe it but they... 1551 01:18:45,472 --> 01:18:47,599 They were once one of my good points... 1552 01:18:48,341 --> 01:18:49,778 Along with my hair... 1553 01:18:50,255 --> 01:18:51,462 And eyes. 1554 01:18:53,013 --> 01:18:55,046 I had a fine figure too. 1555 01:18:59,562 --> 01:19:01,315 They were a musician's hands. 1556 01:19:02,301 --> 01:19:03,888 I used to love the piano. 1557 01:19:05,110 --> 01:19:07,694 I worked so hard at my music at the convent. 1558 01:19:08,233 --> 01:19:10,405 Mother Elizabeth and my music teacher both said... 1559 01:19:10,406 --> 01:19:13,264 That I had more talent than any student they remembered. 1560 01:19:13,760 --> 01:19:15,988 My father payed for special lessons. 1561 01:19:16,468 --> 01:19:18,952 He spoiled me. He would've sent me to Europe to study... 1562 01:19:19,129 --> 01:19:20,763 After I'd graduated from the convent. 1563 01:19:20,764 --> 01:19:23,988 I might have gone if I hadn't fallen in love with Mr. Tyrone... 1564 01:19:23,989 --> 01:19:25,513 Or I might have become a nun. 1565 01:19:33,143 --> 01:19:34,643 I had two dreams. 1566 01:19:36,779 --> 01:19:37,854 To be a nun... 1567 01:19:41,038 --> 01:19:42,626 That was the more beautiful one. 1568 01:19:45,634 --> 01:19:47,569 To be a concert pianist. 1569 01:19:49,583 --> 01:19:50,810 That was the other. 1570 01:19:53,316 --> 01:19:55,500 I haven't touched the piano in so many years. 1571 01:19:56,196 --> 01:19:59,342 I couldn't play now with such crippled fingers even if I wanted to. 1572 01:19:59,343 --> 01:20:01,145 Oh, for a time after my... 1573 01:20:01,306 --> 01:20:03,957 Marriage... I tried to keep up my music but it was hopeless. 1574 01:20:04,016 --> 01:20:05,484 One night stands... 1575 01:20:05,546 --> 01:20:09,295 Cheap hotels, dirty trains, leaving children, never having a home. 1576 01:20:10,500 --> 01:20:11,348 See... 1577 01:20:12,009 --> 01:20:12,832 Cathleen? 1578 01:20:14,907 --> 01:20:16,431 How ugly they are... 1579 01:20:16,812 --> 01:20:18,605 So maimed and crippled. 1580 01:20:19,120 --> 01:20:22,046 You'd think they've been through some horrible accident. 1581 01:20:22,518 --> 01:20:24,447 So they have come to think of it. 1582 01:20:24,655 --> 01:20:25,916 I won't look at them. 1583 01:20:26,122 --> 01:20:28,855 They are worst than the foghorn at reminding me. 1584 01:20:29,746 --> 01:20:32,098 But even they can't hurt me now. 1585 01:20:34,556 --> 01:20:36,063 They're far away. 1586 01:20:37,438 --> 01:20:38,540 I see them... 1587 01:20:39,399 --> 01:20:40,821 But the pain is gone. 1588 01:20:41,372 --> 01:20:43,379 You've taken some of that medicine? 1589 01:20:44,806 --> 01:20:48,201 If I didn't know better, I'd think you'd a drop taken. 1590 01:20:51,604 --> 01:20:52,984 It kills the pain. 1591 01:20:54,505 --> 01:20:55,686 You go back... 1592 01:20:57,634 --> 01:20:59,229 Until at last you're... 1593 01:20:59,570 --> 01:21:01,152 Beyond it's reach. 1594 01:21:02,053 --> 01:21:05,148 Only the past when you were happy is real. 1595 01:21:05,806 --> 01:21:09,066 If you think Mr. Tyrone is handsome now, Cathleen... 1596 01:21:09,067 --> 01:21:11,114 You should have seen him when I first met him. 1597 01:21:11,426 --> 01:21:12,727 He had a reputation of being... 1598 01:21:12,728 --> 01:21:14,839 One of the handsomest men in the country. 1599 01:21:15,223 --> 01:21:17,234 Those at the convent who'd seen him act... 1600 01:21:17,235 --> 01:21:19,743 Or seen his photographs used to rave about him. 1601 01:21:20,403 --> 01:21:22,302 He was a big matinee idol then. 1602 01:21:22,940 --> 01:21:23,852 Women... 1603 01:21:24,630 --> 01:21:27,166 Used to wait at the stage door just to... 1604 01:21:27,611 --> 01:21:29,341 See him come out. 1605 01:21:30,345 --> 01:21:31,512 You can imagine how... 1606 01:21:32,141 --> 01:21:34,489 Excited I was when my father wrote telling me... 1607 01:21:34,490 --> 01:21:36,858 He and James Tyrone had become friends... 1608 01:21:37,168 --> 01:21:38,153 And I... 1609 01:21:38,558 --> 01:21:39,717 Was to meet him. 1610 01:21:40,020 --> 01:21:42,821 When I went home for my easter vacation. 1611 01:21:43,578 --> 01:21:45,708 I showed the letter to all the girls. 1612 01:21:47,024 --> 01:21:48,718 How envious they were. 1613 01:21:49,977 --> 01:21:51,088 My father... 1614 01:21:51,192 --> 01:21:53,182 Took me to see him act first. 1615 01:21:53,183 --> 01:21:56,567 It was a... Play about the French Revolution 1616 01:21:57,072 --> 01:21:58,238 And the... 1617 01:21:58,365 --> 01:22:00,224 The leading character... 1618 01:22:00,765 --> 01:22:02,130 Was a nobleman. 1619 01:22:04,227 --> 01:22:06,436 I couldn't take my eyes off him. 1620 01:22:06,865 --> 01:22:07,611 I wept... 1621 01:22:08,060 --> 01:22:11,624 When he was thrown in prison and then was so mad... 1622 01:22:11,695 --> 01:22:15,742 Because I was afraid my eyes and nose would be red. 1623 01:22:15,940 --> 01:22:18,669 My... My father had said we would go backstage... 1624 01:22:18,670 --> 01:22:22,229 To his dressing room right after the play and so we did. 1625 01:22:23,543 --> 01:22:24,599 I guess my... 1626 01:22:24,813 --> 01:22:26,444 Eyes and nose... 1627 01:22:27,460 --> 01:22:29,738 Couldn't have been red after all. 1628 01:22:32,570 --> 01:22:36,340 I was really very pretty then actually... 1629 01:22:36,951 --> 01:22:41,226 And he was handsomer than my wildest dreams. 1630 01:22:42,062 --> 01:22:43,125 He was different... 1631 01:22:43,570 --> 01:22:46,234 Different from all ordinary men like someone... 1632 01:22:46,671 --> 01:22:48,123 From another world. 1633 01:22:50,063 --> 01:22:51,825 I fell in love right then. 1634 01:22:53,164 --> 01:22:54,121 So did he. 1635 01:22:55,191 --> 01:22:56,489 He told me afterwards. 1636 01:22:59,674 --> 01:23:02,408 I forgot all about becoming a nun. 1637 01:23:05,009 --> 01:23:07,698 Or a concert pianist. 1638 01:23:11,157 --> 01:23:13,490 All I wanted was to be his wife. 1639 01:23:16,951 --> 01:23:18,392 Thirty-six years ago... 1640 01:23:21,319 --> 01:23:22,946 But I can see it... 1641 01:23:23,327 --> 01:23:24,609 As clearly... 1642 01:23:25,062 --> 01:23:26,427 As if it were tonight. 1643 01:23:27,487 --> 01:23:28,238 And... 1644 01:23:28,994 --> 01:23:31,232 We've loved each other ever since 1645 01:23:31,498 --> 01:23:33,926 And in all those thirty-six years there... 1646 01:23:34,226 --> 01:23:36,524 There's never been a breath of scandal about him. 1647 01:23:36,700 --> 01:23:38,319 I mean with another woman. 1648 01:23:39,690 --> 01:23:41,315 He's made me very happy Cathleen. 1649 01:23:43,860 --> 01:23:45,741 He's a fine gentleman. 1650 01:23:48,862 --> 01:23:50,404 You're a lucky woman. 1651 01:24:15,070 --> 01:24:17,161 Sentimental fool. 1652 01:24:20,382 --> 01:24:22,652 What's so wonderful about the first... 1653 01:24:23,199 --> 01:24:26,778 Meeting between a silly romantic schoolgirl... 1654 01:24:27,413 --> 01:24:28,881 And a matineer? 1655 01:24:31,228 --> 01:24:32,331 You were much... 1656 01:24:34,038 --> 01:24:35,247 Happier before... 1657 01:24:36,232 --> 01:24:37,811 You knew he existed. 1658 01:24:39,029 --> 01:24:40,466 In the convent... 1659 01:24:41,412 --> 01:24:42,714 When you could pray... 1660 01:24:43,261 --> 01:24:45,477 To the Blessed Vi... Virgin. 1661 01:24:52,370 --> 01:24:55,035 If only I could find the faith I lost. 1662 01:24:56,959 --> 01:24:59,072 So I could pray to her again. 1663 01:25:02,586 --> 01:25:04,672 Hail Mary full of grace... 1664 01:25:12,911 --> 01:25:14,484 Hail Mary full... 1665 01:25:17,691 --> 01:25:19,608 Hail Mary full of... 1666 01:25:26,294 --> 01:25:28,167 Expect the Blessed Virgin... 1667 01:25:28,566 --> 01:25:29,661 To be fooled... 1668 01:25:30,687 --> 01:25:32,338 By a lying dope fiend... 1669 01:25:32,965 --> 01:25:34,322 Reciting words? 1670 01:25:35,374 --> 01:25:37,032 You can't fool her. 1671 01:25:38,798 --> 01:25:40,251 I haven't taken enough. 1672 01:25:41,014 --> 01:25:42,680 I have to go upstairs. 1673 01:25:43,473 --> 01:25:45,454 When you start again you never know... 1674 01:25:49,902 --> 01:25:52,581 You never know exactly how much you need. 1675 01:25:56,666 --> 01:25:58,262 Why are they coming back? 1676 01:26:02,818 --> 01:26:05,005 Why are they coming back? 1677 01:26:07,116 --> 01:26:08,153 Are you there? 1678 01:26:08,669 --> 01:26:09,519 Mary? 1679 01:26:09,934 --> 01:26:10,807 Yes. 1680 01:26:11,188 --> 01:26:13,246 Yes I'm... I'm here dear. 1681 01:26:13,834 --> 01:26:15,381 In the sitting room. 1682 01:26:15,987 --> 01:26:17,107 I've been... 1683 01:26:17,489 --> 01:26:19,116 I've been waiting for you. 1684 01:26:19,882 --> 01:26:20,818 I'm... 1685 01:26:21,249 --> 01:26:23,194 I'm so happy you've come. 1686 01:26:23,553 --> 01:26:24,942 I'd given up hope. 1687 01:26:25,373 --> 01:26:27,387 I was afraid you wouldn't come home. 1688 01:26:27,388 --> 01:26:28,348 It's such a... 1689 01:26:28,349 --> 01:26:30,125 Dismal foggy evening it must be... 1690 01:26:30,126 --> 01:26:32,249 Much more cheerful in the barrooms uptown... 1691 01:26:32,250 --> 01:26:34,053 Where there are people you can laugh and... 1692 01:26:34,054 --> 01:26:35,184 Oh no, don't deny it. 1693 01:26:35,185 --> 01:26:36,502 I know how you feel. 1694 01:26:36,629 --> 01:26:38,193 I don't blame you a bit. 1695 01:26:38,196 --> 01:26:40,467 I'm all the more grateful to you... For coming home. 1696 01:26:40,468 --> 01:26:41,920 I was... Sitting here... 1697 01:26:41,921 --> 01:26:44,167 So... Lonely and blue. 1698 01:26:44,913 --> 01:26:46,185 Come and sit down. 1699 01:26:48,514 --> 01:26:50,516 Dinner won't be ready for a few minutes. 1700 01:26:50,934 --> 01:26:53,576 You're... You're... Actually a little early. 1701 01:26:53,791 --> 01:26:55,560 Will wonders never cease? 1702 01:26:55,667 --> 01:26:56,825 Here's the whiskey dear... 1703 01:26:57,111 --> 01:26:58,184 Shall I pour you a drink? 1704 01:26:58,279 --> 01:26:59,861 And you, Edmund? 1705 01:27:00,773 --> 01:27:02,585 I don't want to encourage you. 1706 01:27:03,080 --> 01:27:04,643 But one small one bef... 1707 01:27:05,057 --> 01:27:06,239 Before... 1708 01:27:06,350 --> 01:27:07,614 Dinner can't... 1709 01:27:08,019 --> 01:27:09,336 Do you any harm. 1710 01:27:09,528 --> 01:27:10,458 Where's Jamie? 1711 01:27:12,162 --> 01:27:13,757 But I... Of course... 1712 01:27:14,145 --> 01:27:16,076 He'll never come home so long as he has... 1713 01:27:16,291 --> 01:27:17,449 The price of a date left. 1714 01:27:19,525 --> 01:27:20,716 I'm afraid Jamie has been... 1715 01:27:21,028 --> 01:27:22,448 Lost to us for a... 1716 01:27:22,481 --> 01:27:23,996 Long time..dear. 1717 01:27:24,171 --> 01:27:28,236 Oh, for the love of God, I'm a fool for coming home. 1718 01:27:28,452 --> 01:27:29,232 Papa... 1719 01:27:29,677 --> 01:27:30,502 Shut up. 1720 01:27:31,078 --> 01:27:32,451 Who would've... Thought... 1721 01:27:33,128 --> 01:27:35,080 Who would've thought Jamie would... 1722 01:27:35,469 --> 01:27:37,860 Would grow up to... Disgrace us. 1723 01:27:38,038 --> 01:27:40,285 Everyone liked him, all his... 1724 01:27:40,839 --> 01:27:43,787 Teachers told us what a fine brain he had. 1725 01:27:44,899 --> 01:27:47,738 They... They predicted a wonderful future for him if only he'd... 1726 01:27:48,135 --> 01:27:50,373 Learned to take life seriously. 1727 01:27:51,419 --> 01:27:53,472 Poor Jamie, such a pity! 1728 01:27:54,408 --> 01:27:55,497 It's hard to understa... 1729 01:27:59,845 --> 01:28:00,757 No it isn't. 1730 01:28:02,370 --> 01:28:04,070 You brought him up to be a boozer. 1731 01:28:05,702 --> 01:28:08,353 Since he first opened his eyes he's seen you drinking. 1732 01:28:08,996 --> 01:28:12,292 Always a bottle on the bureau in the cheap hotel room. 1733 01:28:13,061 --> 01:28:16,014 If he had a nightmare when he was little or a stomach ache... 1734 01:28:16,340 --> 01:28:17,791 Your remedy was to give him a... 1735 01:28:18,062 --> 01:28:19,959 Tea spoon full of whiskey. 1736 01:28:20,713 --> 01:28:21,832 To quiet him. 1737 01:28:22,300 --> 01:28:24,344 So I'm to blame because that lazy hulk... 1738 01:28:24,345 --> 01:28:26,376 Has made a drunken loafer of himself? 1739 01:28:27,245 --> 01:28:28,966 Is that what I came back to listen to? 1740 01:28:28,967 --> 01:28:30,492 Oh, I might have known... 1741 01:28:30,493 --> 01:28:32,015 When you have the poison in you... 1742 01:28:32,016 --> 01:28:33,407 You want to blame everyone but yourself! 1743 01:28:33,408 --> 01:28:34,456 Papa! 1744 01:28:36,452 --> 01:28:38,127 Are we going to have this drink or aren't we? 1745 01:28:38,129 --> 01:28:39,294 You're right. 1746 01:28:39,295 --> 01:28:41,058 I'm a fool to take notice. 1747 01:28:42,498 --> 01:28:43,830 Drink hearty lad. 1748 01:28:46,503 --> 01:28:47,741 I'm sorry if I... 1749 01:28:48,502 --> 01:28:50,385 Sounded bitter James, I'm not. 1750 01:28:50,927 --> 01:28:52,308 It's all so far away I... 1751 01:28:53,054 --> 01:28:55,379 I was a little hurt when you wished you hadn't come home. 1752 01:28:55,380 --> 01:28:56,737 I was so relieved and... 1753 01:28:57,092 --> 01:28:58,251 Happy when you came. 1754 01:28:59,237 --> 01:29:00,563 And grateful to you. 1755 01:29:01,344 --> 01:29:02,805 It's very dreary 1756 01:29:03,273 --> 01:29:05,965 And sad... To be here alone in the fog. 1757 01:29:06,666 --> 01:29:07,896 With night falling. 1758 01:29:09,035 --> 01:29:10,614 I'm glad I came Mary... 1759 01:29:11,836 --> 01:29:13,671 When you act like your real self. 1760 01:29:13,866 --> 01:29:15,279 I was so lonesome. 1761 01:29:15,738 --> 01:29:19,154 I kept Cathleen with me... Just to have someone to talk to. 1762 01:29:19,155 --> 01:29:21,267 Do you know what I was telling her James? 1763 01:29:21,703 --> 01:29:25,445 About that night my... Father took me to your dressing room. 1764 01:29:25,972 --> 01:29:28,219 And I first fell in love with you, do you remember? 1765 01:29:29,262 --> 01:29:31,604 Can you think I'll ever forget Mary? 1766 01:29:35,705 --> 01:29:36,720 No. 1767 01:29:37,497 --> 01:29:39,097 I know you still love me James. 1768 01:29:40,120 --> 01:29:41,527 In spite of everything. 1769 01:29:42,100 --> 01:29:43,156 Yes. 1770 01:29:43,508 --> 01:29:44,984 As God is my judge. 1771 01:29:45,595 --> 01:29:48,661 Always and forever... Mary. 1772 01:29:53,882 --> 01:29:54,773 And I... 1773 01:29:55,527 --> 01:29:56,797 Love you... Dear. 1774 01:29:59,019 --> 01:30:00,333 In spite of everything. 1775 01:30:00,972 --> 01:30:01,922 But... 1776 01:30:04,985 --> 01:30:07,373 Although I couldn't help loving you, I would never have... 1777 01:30:07,691 --> 01:30:09,818 Married you if I'd known you drank so much. 1778 01:30:10,457 --> 01:30:14,358 I remember the... First time your barroom fellows had to help you... 1779 01:30:14,644 --> 01:30:17,089 To the door of out hotel room and knocked... 1780 01:30:17,303 --> 01:30:18,289 And ran away... 1781 01:30:18,290 --> 01:30:19,606 Before I opened the door. 1782 01:30:19,607 --> 01:30:21,728 We... We were still in our honeymoon, remember? 1783 01:30:22,376 --> 01:30:24,693 I don't remember. It wasn't on our honeymoon. 1784 01:30:24,694 --> 01:30:27,021 I've never in my life had to be helped to bed. 1785 01:30:27,143 --> 01:30:28,982 Or missed a performance. 1786 01:30:33,595 --> 01:30:35,974 I waited... In that ugly hotel room... 1787 01:30:36,134 --> 01:30:37,396 Hour after hour. 1788 01:30:38,488 --> 01:30:42,756 I became terrified, I imagined all sorts of horrible accidents. I... 1789 01:30:43,090 --> 01:30:46,809 Got down on my knees and prayed that nothing had happened to you. 1790 01:30:48,243 --> 01:30:49,592 Then they brought you up and... 1791 01:30:50,084 --> 01:30:52,101 Left you outside the door. 1792 01:30:53,006 --> 01:30:54,231 God! No wonder. 1793 01:30:54,731 --> 01:30:57,178 I'm... I'm sorry I remembered out loud. 1794 01:30:57,994 --> 01:30:59,419 I don't want to be sad 1795 01:31:01,017 --> 01:31:02,366 Or to make you sad. 1796 01:31:04,505 --> 01:31:07,387 I want to remember only the happy part of the past. 1797 01:31:08,094 --> 01:31:09,492 Do you remember our wedding? 1798 01:31:11,881 --> 01:31:13,179 The wedding... Dear? 1799 01:31:19,228 --> 01:31:20,348 I... I... 1800 01:31:20,791 --> 01:31:23,245 Haven't made such a bad wife, have I? 1801 01:31:24,647 --> 01:31:26,852 I'm not complaining Mary. 1802 01:31:32,171 --> 01:31:33,844 At least I've loved you dearly... 1803 01:31:33,845 --> 01:31:36,314 And I've done the best I could under the circumstances. 1804 01:31:39,755 --> 01:31:41,000 That wedding gown... 1805 01:31:42,021 --> 01:31:43,664 Was nearly the death of me. 1806 01:31:43,901 --> 01:31:45,665 And the dressmaker too. 1807 01:31:46,234 --> 01:31:48,210 I was so particular... 1808 01:31:48,313 --> 01:31:50,373 It was never quite good enough. 1809 01:31:50,635 --> 01:31:52,697 At last she said she said she refused to touch it anymore... 1810 01:31:52,698 --> 01:31:53,657 "It might spoil it"... 1811 01:31:53,658 --> 01:31:55,376 So I made her leave so I could be alone... 1812 01:31:55,377 --> 01:31:57,773 To examine myself in the mirror. 1813 01:31:58,055 --> 01:32:00,895 I was so pleased and vain. 1814 01:32:02,553 --> 01:32:03,902 I thought to myself... 1815 01:32:04,068 --> 01:32:06,672 "You're just as pretty as any actress he's ever met. 1816 01:32:07,614 --> 01:32:09,333 And you don't have to use paint". 1817 01:32:15,963 --> 01:32:17,383 Whe... Where is my... 1818 01:32:17,723 --> 01:32:19,487 Wedding gown now I wonder. 1819 01:32:20,125 --> 01:32:21,300 I...I... 1820 01:32:21,983 --> 01:32:24,596 I kept it wrapped up in tissue paper in my trunk. 1821 01:32:27,087 --> 01:32:28,720 I hoped someday I'd have a daughter... 1822 01:32:28,721 --> 01:32:30,372 And when it came time for her to marry... 1823 01:32:30,373 --> 01:32:31,841 She couldn't afford a lovely gown. 1824 01:32:32,417 --> 01:32:35,378 And I knew James, you'd never tell her "never mind the cost". 1825 01:32:35,829 --> 01:32:37,944 You'd want her to pick up something at a bargain. 1826 01:32:39,836 --> 01:32:40,932 It was made of... 1827 01:32:41,605 --> 01:32:43,378 Soft shimmering satin... 1828 01:32:44,493 --> 01:32:45,485 Trimmed with... 1829 01:32:45,707 --> 01:32:49,678 Wonderful old duchess lace around the neck and sleeves... 1830 01:32:50,269 --> 01:32:51,309 Worked in... 1831 01:32:51,689 --> 01:32:54,674 With the folds that were draped around in a bustle effect at the back. 1832 01:32:55,274 --> 01:32:57,917 The bust was bound and very tight I remember... 1833 01:32:58,076 --> 01:32:59,211 I held my... 1834 01:32:59,465 --> 01:33:02,944 Breath when it was fitted so my waist would be as small as possible. 1835 01:33:03,559 --> 01:33:04,345 My... 1836 01:33:04,487 --> 01:33:05,611 My father... 1837 01:33:06,822 --> 01:33:07,918 My father... 1838 01:33:08,074 --> 01:33:09,320 Even let me have... 1839 01:33:09,580 --> 01:33:12,402 Lace on my white satin slippers and lace... 1840 01:33:12,838 --> 01:33:15,711 With orange blossoms in my... Veil. 1841 01:33:20,392 --> 01:33:22,284 How I loved that gown! 1842 01:33:24,051 --> 01:33:25,192 It was so... 1843 01:33:28,167 --> 01:33:29,213 Beautiful. 1844 01:33:33,163 --> 01:33:34,662 Where is it now, I wonder. 1845 01:33:35,438 --> 01:33:36,331 I... I... 1846 01:33:36,935 --> 01:33:37,840 I... I... 1847 01:33:38,419 --> 01:33:41,232 I used to take it out from time to time when I was lonely. 1848 01:33:42,769 --> 01:33:44,712 But it always made me cry and so... 1849 01:33:46,517 --> 01:33:48,836 Finally a long while ago... 1850 01:33:50,504 --> 01:33:52,131 I wonder where I hid it? 1851 01:33:54,861 --> 01:33:57,972 Probably in some old trunk in the attic, someday I must have a look. 1852 01:33:59,850 --> 01:34:00,723 Well! 1853 01:34:01,079 --> 01:34:02,696 Isn't it dinner time dear? 1854 01:34:03,322 --> 01:34:05,226 You're ever scolding me for being late... 1855 01:34:05,227 --> 01:34:07,450 But now I'm on time for once, it's dinner that's late. 1856 01:34:08,471 --> 01:34:09,741 Well if I can't eat yet... 1857 01:34:10,192 --> 01:34:11,041 I can drink! 1858 01:34:11,096 --> 01:34:12,184 I forgot I had this. 1859 01:34:15,724 --> 01:34:18,033 Who's been tampering with my whiskey? 1860 01:34:18,034 --> 01:34:20,069 The damn stuff is half water. 1861 01:34:20,070 --> 01:34:21,576 Any fool can tell. 1862 01:34:22,587 --> 01:34:23,957 Mary, answer me. 1863 01:34:24,330 --> 01:34:27,226 I hope to God you haven't taken to drink on top of... 1864 01:34:27,227 --> 01:34:28,258 Shut up Papa! 1865 01:34:29,235 --> 01:34:31,157 You treated Cathleen and Bridget... 1866 01:34:31,477 --> 01:34:32,263 Isn't that it? 1867 01:34:32,265 --> 01:34:34,455 Yes. Yes I wanted to treat Cathleen... 1868 01:34:34,459 --> 01:34:36,179 Because I had her... 1869 01:34:36,180 --> 01:34:39,182 Drive uptown with me and sent her to get my prescription... 1870 01:34:39,628 --> 01:34:40,470 Filled. 1871 01:34:40,471 --> 01:34:43,719 For God's sake Mama! You can't trust her. 1872 01:34:44,349 --> 01:34:46,023 You want everyone on earth to know? 1873 01:34:46,024 --> 01:34:46,899 Know what? 1874 01:34:46,945 --> 01:34:49,302 That I suffer from rheumatism in my... 1875 01:34:49,389 --> 01:34:51,994 Hands and have to take medicine to kill the pain? 1876 01:34:52,152 --> 01:34:53,946 Why should I be ashamed of that? 1877 01:34:54,048 --> 01:34:56,725 I never knew what rheumatism was before you were bo... Born. 1878 01:34:58,686 --> 01:35:00,086 Ask your father. 1879 01:35:00,113 --> 01:35:01,867 Don't mind her lad, it doesn't mean anything. 1880 01:35:01,876 --> 01:35:03,749 When it gets to the stage where she gives... 1881 01:35:03,750 --> 01:35:08,102 The old crazy excuse about her hands she's gone far away from us. 1882 01:35:08,766 --> 01:35:11,129 I'm glad you realize that James. 1883 01:35:12,520 --> 01:35:15,650 Now perhaps you'll give up trying to remind me. 1884 01:35:16,706 --> 01:35:18,025 You and... 1885 01:35:19,479 --> 01:35:20,592 Edmund. 1886 01:35:23,707 --> 01:35:26,618 Why don't you light the lights James? 1887 01:35:28,179 --> 01:35:29,493 It's getting dark. 1888 01:35:30,380 --> 01:35:33,759 I know you hate to but Edmund has proved to you... 1889 01:35:33,760 --> 01:35:36,461 that one bulb burning doesn't cost much. 1890 01:35:37,277 --> 01:35:42,181 It's too bad you let your fear of the poor house make you too stingy. 1891 01:35:42,546 --> 01:35:44,923 I never claimed one bulb costed much. 1892 01:35:45,826 --> 01:35:48,817 It's having them on one here, one there... 1893 01:35:48,826 --> 01:35:51,064 Makes the electric light company rich. 1894 01:35:51,615 --> 01:35:53,210 I'm a fool to talk sense to you. 1895 01:35:54,587 --> 01:35:56,500 I'll get a fresh bottle of whiskey lad. 1896 01:35:56,690 --> 01:35:58,304 We'll have a real drink. 1897 01:36:03,655 --> 01:36:05,825 He'll sneak around.... 1898 01:36:06,161 --> 01:36:08,685 The outside cellar door so the... 1899 01:36:09,606 --> 01:36:11,316 Servants won't see him. 1900 01:36:14,407 --> 01:36:17,886 He's really ashamed of keeping his whiskey pad-locked in the cellar. 1901 01:36:22,192 --> 01:36:24,504 Oh, your father is a strange man. 1902 01:36:26,183 --> 01:36:28,667 Took many years before I understood him. His... 1903 01:36:28,978 --> 01:36:31,690 Father deserted his mother and their six children... 1904 01:36:31,691 --> 01:36:33,689 A year or so after they came to America. 1905 01:36:33,963 --> 01:36:36,907 He told them he had a premonition he would die soon. He was... 1906 01:36:37,009 --> 01:36:40,633 Homesick for Ireland and wanted to go there to die, so he went... 1907 01:36:40,872 --> 01:36:42,095 And he did die. 1908 01:36:44,706 --> 01:36:47,108 He must have been a peculiar man too. 1909 01:36:49,756 --> 01:36:51,153 Your father had to... 1910 01:36:51,256 --> 01:36:54,687 Go to work in a machine shop when he was only ten years... 1911 01:36:54,688 --> 01:36:56,045 For Pete’s sake Mama! 1912 01:36:57,001 --> 01:36:59,358 Heard Papa tell that story ten thousand times. 1913 01:36:59,528 --> 01:37:00,401 Yes dear. 1914 01:37:00,497 --> 01:37:01,688 You've had to listen. 1915 01:37:01,933 --> 01:37:04,554 But I don't think you ever tried to understand. 1916 01:37:08,125 --> 01:37:09,281 Listen Mama. 1917 01:37:11,128 --> 01:37:12,707 You're not so far gone yet... 1918 01:37:12,850 --> 01:37:14,119 You've forgotten everything. 1919 01:37:15,896 --> 01:37:18,220 You haven't asked me what I found out this afternoon. 1920 01:37:19,317 --> 01:37:20,778 Don't you care a damn? 1921 01:37:22,370 --> 01:37:24,235 Don't say that. You hurt me dear. 1922 01:37:24,457 --> 01:37:26,045 What I've got is serious Mama. 1923 01:37:26,848 --> 01:37:28,271 Doc Hardy knows for sure. 1924 01:37:28,272 --> 01:37:30,509 That lying old quack! I warned you he'd invent... 1925 01:37:30,932 --> 01:37:32,505 He called in a specialist to examine me... 1926 01:37:32,531 --> 01:37:34,049 Don't tell me about doctor Hardy. 1927 01:37:34,050 --> 01:37:35,834 - So he'd be absolutely sure. - If you'd heard what the doctor in the sanatorium... 1928 01:37:35,835 --> 01:37:37,154 Who really know something. 1929 01:37:37,155 --> 01:37:38,384 I said about how he treated me... 1930 01:37:38,385 --> 01:37:40,364 He said it was a wonder I hadn't gone mad! 1931 01:37:40,365 --> 01:37:44,206 I told him I had once, that time I ran down in my nightdress to... 1932 01:37:44,207 --> 01:37:46,853 Throw myself off the dock. You remember that don't you? 1933 01:37:47,142 --> 01:37:49,975 And you want me to pay attention to what doctor Hardy says? 1934 01:37:49,976 --> 01:37:51,390 - Oh no. - Listen Mama! 1935 01:37:52,184 --> 01:37:54,414 I'm gonna tell you whether you want to hear it or not. 1936 01:37:55,682 --> 01:37:57,512 I've got to go away to a sanatorium. 1937 01:37:59,607 --> 01:38:00,888 No! 1938 01:38:05,774 --> 01:38:07,800 How dare your father allow him. 1939 01:38:09,892 --> 01:38:11,265 You're my baby. 1940 01:38:13,804 --> 01:38:16,168 I know why he wants to send you to a sanitarium. 1941 01:38:16,169 --> 01:38:17,495 To take you away from me. 1942 01:38:17,496 --> 01:38:20,124 He's been jealous of everyone of my babies and you most of all. 1943 01:38:20,125 --> 01:38:22,537 He knows I love you most because... You're my... 1944 01:38:22,538 --> 01:38:24,588 Stop talking crazy, can't you Mama? 1945 01:38:25,853 --> 01:38:27,321 And stop trying to blame him. 1946 01:38:30,479 --> 01:38:32,749 And why are you so against my going away now? 1947 01:38:33,145 --> 01:38:36,078 I've been away a lot. And I've never noticed it broke your heart. 1948 01:38:40,155 --> 01:38:42,933 I'm afraid you're not... Very sensitive dear. 1949 01:38:44,827 --> 01:38:46,382 You ought to have guessed that... 1950 01:38:47,501 --> 01:38:49,385 After I knew you knew... 1951 01:38:49,910 --> 01:38:51,012 About me... 1952 01:38:52,793 --> 01:38:55,916 I had to be glad whenever you were away you couldn't see me. 1953 01:39:00,749 --> 01:39:01,833 Don't Mama. 1954 01:39:05,555 --> 01:39:06,895 All this talk about... 1955 01:39:08,706 --> 01:39:11,528 Loving me, and when I try to tell you how sick I am.... 1956 01:39:11,889 --> 01:39:14,143 You're so like your father dear. 1957 01:39:14,144 --> 01:39:18,018 Love to be dramatic and tragic so you can make a scene out of nothing. 1958 01:39:18,248 --> 01:39:19,874 If I gave you the slightest encouragement... 1959 01:39:19,876 --> 01:39:21,728 You'd tell me next you're gonna die. 1960 01:39:23,193 --> 01:39:24,423 People do die of it. 1961 01:39:24,902 --> 01:39:26,146 Your own father... 1962 01:39:26,147 --> 01:39:27,657 Why... Why do you mention him? 1963 01:39:27,945 --> 01:39:30,999 No comparison at all with you, he had consumption. 1964 01:39:31,000 --> 01:39:33,820 I hate it when you become morbid and gloomy. 1965 01:39:34,151 --> 01:39:37,490 I forbid you to remind me of my father's death do you hear? 1966 01:39:38,191 --> 01:39:40,740 Yes I hear you, Mama. I wish to God I didn't. 1967 01:39:42,094 --> 01:39:44,213 It's... Hard to take at times... 1968 01:39:44,895 --> 01:39:47,022 Having... A dope fiend for a mother. 1969 01:40:03,031 --> 01:40:04,306 Forgive me Mama. 1970 01:40:05,988 --> 01:40:07,091 I was angry... 1971 01:40:07,655 --> 01:40:08,901 And you hurt me. 1972 01:40:13,151 --> 01:40:15,131 Just listen to that... 1973 01:40:15,750 --> 01:40:17,086 Foghorn. 1974 01:40:18,674 --> 01:40:20,319 And the bells. 1975 01:40:22,722 --> 01:40:23,746 Why is it... 1976 01:40:24,135 --> 01:40:26,922 Fog makes everything sound so sad... 1977 01:40:27,266 --> 01:40:28,393 Lost. 1978 01:40:29,707 --> 01:40:30,918 I wonder. 1979 01:40:36,411 --> 01:40:37,506 I can't say. 1980 01:40:40,330 --> 01:40:41,987 I don't want any dinner. 1981 01:40:53,613 --> 01:40:56,687 I haven't taken enough, I have to go upstairs. 1982 01:40:59,101 --> 01:41:00,954 I hope sometime without... 1983 01:41:03,103 --> 01:41:04,719 Meaning to or... 1984 01:41:05,747 --> 01:41:07,325 Take an overdose. 1985 01:41:09,208 --> 01:41:10,948 Could never do it deliberately. 1986 01:41:12,217 --> 01:41:14,843 The Blessed Virgin would never forgive me then. 1987 01:41:15,798 --> 01:41:17,899 The padlock is all scratched. 1988 01:41:17,900 --> 01:41:20,921 That drunken loafer has tried to pick the lock with a piece of wire... 1989 01:41:20,922 --> 01:41:24,089 The way he's done before. But I fooled him this time. 1990 01:41:24,654 --> 01:41:28,061 It's a special padlock a professional burglar couldn't pick. 1991 01:41:28,848 --> 01:41:29,936 Where's Edmund? 1992 01:41:31,046 --> 01:41:32,177 He went out. 1993 01:41:34,001 --> 01:41:35,151 Perhaps he's... 1994 01:41:36,048 --> 01:41:38,175 Gone uptown to find Jamie. 1995 01:41:41,921 --> 01:41:43,451 He still had some money left. 1996 01:41:45,090 --> 01:41:47,654 I suppose it's burning a hole in his pocket. 1997 01:41:50,013 --> 01:41:51,951 He said he didn't... Want any dinner. 1998 01:41:53,040 --> 01:41:55,591 Doesn't seem to have any appetite these days. 1999 01:41:57,194 --> 01:41:59,595 But it's just a summer cold. 2000 01:42:00,721 --> 01:42:03,035 Oh... James! 2001 01:42:03,896 --> 01:42:06,643 I'm so frightened, I know he's gonna die! 2002 01:42:06,865 --> 01:42:08,335 Don't say that it's not true. 2003 01:42:09,048 --> 01:42:11,655 They promised me in six months he'd be cured. 2004 01:42:11,656 --> 01:42:13,809 You don't believe that. I can tell when you're acting. 2005 01:42:13,810 --> 01:42:15,407 An the it'll be all my fault. 2006 01:42:15,408 --> 01:42:17,161 I should never have born him. 2007 01:42:17,162 --> 01:42:20,607 It would've been better for his sake. I couldn't have hurt him then. 2008 01:42:21,259 --> 01:42:24,962 He wouldn't have had to know his mother was a dope fiend, then. 2009 01:42:26,223 --> 01:42:27,388 Hush Mary... 2010 01:42:27,389 --> 01:42:28,834 For the love of God. 2011 01:42:28,835 --> 01:42:30,208 He loves you. 2012 01:42:30,209 --> 01:42:33,535 He knows it was a curse put upon you without you knowing or willing it. 2013 01:42:33,536 --> 01:42:35,512 He's proud you're his mother! 2014 01:42:35,513 --> 01:42:37,613 Hush now, here comes Cathleen. 2015 01:42:37,614 --> 01:42:39,361 You don't want her to see you crying. 2016 01:42:39,927 --> 01:42:41,521 Dinner is served sir. 2017 01:42:41,838 --> 01:42:43,498 Dinner is served ma'am. 2018 01:42:44,174 --> 01:42:45,334 Come along dear. 2019 01:42:45,853 --> 01:42:47,241 Let's have our dinner. 2020 01:42:48,660 --> 01:42:50,492 I'm as hungry as a hunter. 2021 01:42:53,117 --> 01:42:54,291 I couldn't... 2022 01:42:54,672 --> 01:42:56,513 Possibly eat anything James. 2023 01:42:56,514 --> 01:42:58,443 I think you'll have to excuse me. 2024 01:42:59,583 --> 01:43:01,099 My... My hands... 2025 01:43:01,478 --> 01:43:02,791 Pain me dreadfully. 2026 01:43:04,616 --> 01:43:07,177 I think the best thing for me is to go to bed... 2027 01:43:08,249 --> 01:43:09,534 And rest. 2028 01:43:11,615 --> 01:43:12,650 Goodnight dear. 2029 01:43:14,008 --> 01:43:17,798 Up to take more of that God damn poison is it? 2030 01:43:18,706 --> 01:43:22,580 You'll be like a mad ghost before the night is over. 2031 01:43:23,036 --> 01:43:24,861 I don't know what you're talking about. 2032 01:43:25,472 --> 01:43:29,111 You say such mean bitter things when you've had too much to drink. 2033 01:43:30,478 --> 01:43:32,607 You're as bad as Jamie or Edmund. 2034 01:44:44,406 --> 01:44:45,513 Who's that? 2035 01:44:46,175 --> 01:44:47,096 Is it you Edmund? 2036 01:44:47,375 --> 01:44:48,288 Yes! 2037 01:44:55,996 --> 01:44:57,996 Turn that light out before you come in. 2038 01:44:58,602 --> 01:45:01,210 Well I'm glad you've come lad, I've been damn lonely. 2039 01:45:01,218 --> 01:45:03,096 You're a fine one to run away and leave me... 2040 01:45:03,097 --> 01:45:05,217 To sit alone here all night when you know... 2041 01:45:06,191 --> 01:45:08,293 I've told you to turn out that light. 2042 01:45:08,444 --> 01:45:09,936 We're not giving a ball. 2043 01:45:10,328 --> 01:45:12,821 There's no reason to have the house ablaze with electricity... 2044 01:45:12,830 --> 01:45:14,695 At this time of night, burning up money. 2045 01:45:14,696 --> 01:45:17,692 "Ablaze with electricity", one bulb! 2046 01:45:18,066 --> 01:45:21,075 Hell everyone leaves a light on in the front porch until they go to bed. 2047 01:45:21,799 --> 01:45:23,634 Ended up busting my knee on the hatstand. 2048 01:45:24,114 --> 01:45:25,557 The light from here shows in the hall. 2049 01:45:25,558 --> 01:45:27,713 You could see a way well enough if you were sober. 2050 01:45:27,714 --> 01:45:29,645 If "I" were sober, I like that. 2051 01:45:29,646 --> 01:45:31,188 I don't give a damn what other people do. 2052 01:45:31,189 --> 01:45:32,737 If they want to be wasteful fools 2053 01:45:32,738 --> 01:45:34,453 For the sake of show, let them be. 2054 01:45:34,454 --> 01:45:37,050 One bulb! God don't be such a cheapskate. 2055 01:45:38,110 --> 01:45:41,291 I've proved to you by figures you can leave the light bulb on all night... 2056 01:45:41,292 --> 01:45:42,921 It wouldn't be as much as one drink. 2057 01:45:42,922 --> 01:45:44,041 To hell with your figures! 2058 01:45:44,042 --> 01:45:46,010 The proof is in the bills I have to pay. 2059 01:45:46,011 --> 01:45:48,004 Yes, facts don't mean a thing do they? 2060 01:45:48,696 --> 01:45:50,923 What you want to believe, that's the only truth. 2061 01:45:52,570 --> 01:45:55,426 Shakespeare was an Irish catholic for example. 2062 01:45:55,427 --> 01:45:57,517 So he was. The proof was in his plays. 2063 01:45:57,518 --> 01:46:01,146 Well he wasn't, and there is no proof of it in his plays except to you. 2064 01:46:02,602 --> 01:46:06,206 The Duke of Wellington, that was another good Irish catholic. 2065 01:46:06,208 --> 01:46:07,596 I never said he was a good one... 2066 01:46:07,597 --> 01:46:10,025 He was a renegade, but a catholic just the same. 2067 01:46:10,026 --> 01:46:11,363 Well he wasn't. 2068 01:46:11,364 --> 01:46:12,918 You just want to believe that no-one... 2069 01:46:12,919 --> 01:46:15,532 But an Irish catholic general could beat Napoleon. 2070 01:46:15,533 --> 01:46:17,407 Yes, now I'm not going to argue with you. 2071 01:46:17,408 --> 01:46:20,233 I asked you to turn out that light in the hall. 2072 01:46:20,234 --> 01:46:21,383 I heard you... 2073 01:46:21,384 --> 01:46:23,209 And as far as I'm concerned it stays on. 2074 01:46:23,210 --> 01:46:26,543 None of your damned insolence. Are you going to obey me or not? 2075 01:46:26,647 --> 01:46:27,355 Not! 2076 01:46:28,042 --> 01:46:30,566 You want to be a crazy miser, put it out yourself. 2077 01:46:30,782 --> 01:46:32,029 Now you listen to me. 2078 01:46:32,344 --> 01:46:35,180 I put up with a lot from you because from the mad things... 2079 01:46:35,182 --> 01:46:37,928 You've done at times I thought you weren't quite right in your head. 2080 01:46:38,929 --> 01:46:41,173 I've excused you and never lifted my hand to you... 2081 01:46:41,174 --> 01:46:44,372 But there's a straw that breaks the camel's back! 2082 01:46:45,632 --> 01:46:47,853 You'll obey me and put out that light... 2083 01:46:47,854 --> 01:46:51,524 Or big as you are I'll give you a trashing that will teach you... 2084 01:46:54,118 --> 01:46:56,385 I'm sorry lad... Forgive me, I forgot. 2085 01:46:57,499 --> 01:46:59,460 You shouldn't goad me into losing my temper. 2086 01:47:00,322 --> 01:47:02,512 Forget it Papa, I apologize too. 2087 01:47:03,043 --> 01:47:05,157 I had no right being nasty about nothing. 2088 01:47:05,902 --> 01:47:07,341 I'm a bit souse I guess. 2089 01:47:08,687 --> 01:47:09,973 I'll put out the damn light. 2090 01:47:09,974 --> 01:47:11,609 No. No. No. Stay where you are. 2091 01:47:12,396 --> 01:47:13,673 Let it burn. 2092 01:47:15,188 --> 01:47:16,522 We'll have them all on. 2093 01:47:18,290 --> 01:47:19,536 Let them burn. 2094 01:47:20,477 --> 01:47:21,668 To hell with them! 2095 01:47:22,334 --> 01:47:26,162 The poor house is the end of the road, it might as well be sooner as later. 2096 01:47:27,008 --> 01:47:28,603 That's a grand curtain. 2097 01:47:28,604 --> 01:47:30,095 You're a wonder Papa. 2098 01:47:30,096 --> 01:47:32,519 That's right, laugh at the poor old man. 2099 01:47:32,520 --> 01:47:33,900 The poor old ham. 2100 01:47:34,424 --> 01:47:37,469 But the final curtain will be in the poor house just he same. 2101 01:47:37,478 --> 01:47:39,525 And that's not comedy. 2102 01:47:40,635 --> 01:47:43,158 Well, well let's not argue. 2103 01:47:43,503 --> 01:47:45,836 You'll live to learn the value of a dollar. 2104 01:47:46,176 --> 01:47:48,619 You're not like that damned tramp of a brother. 2105 01:47:48,963 --> 01:47:50,911 I've given up hope he'll ever get sense. 2106 01:47:50,912 --> 01:47:52,300 Where is he, by the way? 2107 01:47:52,429 --> 01:47:53,583 How would I know? 2108 01:47:53,584 --> 01:47:55,518 I thought you went back uptown to meet him. 2109 01:47:55,759 --> 01:47:57,713 No, I walked down by the beach. 2110 01:47:57,834 --> 01:47:59,840 I haven't seen him since this afternoon. 2111 01:47:59,841 --> 01:48:02,825 Well if you shared the money I gave you like a fool... 2112 01:48:02,826 --> 01:48:05,768 Sure I did. He always staked me when he had anything. 2113 01:48:05,769 --> 01:48:09,796 It doesn't take a soothsayer to tell he's probably in the whorehouse. 2114 01:48:09,797 --> 01:48:11,815 Oh, for God's sake Papa! 2115 01:48:11,816 --> 01:48:14,148 If you're gonna start that stuff again I'll beat it. 2116 01:48:14,149 --> 01:48:17,368 All right. All right. I'll stop. God knows I don't like the subject either. 2117 01:48:18,023 --> 01:48:19,664 Will you join me in a drink? 2118 01:48:19,665 --> 01:48:20,889 Now you're talking! 2119 01:48:20,890 --> 01:48:23,087 I'm wrong to treat you, you've had enough already... 2120 01:48:23,106 --> 01:48:26,337 But if you walked all the way to the beach you must be damp and chilled. 2121 01:48:26,338 --> 01:48:29,038 Oh, I dropped in at the inn on the way out and back. 2122 01:48:29,882 --> 01:48:31,891 Not the night I'd pick for a long walk. 2123 01:48:31,892 --> 01:48:33,485 I love the fog. 2124 01:48:34,450 --> 01:48:35,474 It was what I needed. 2125 01:48:35,475 --> 01:48:37,419 You should have more sense than to risk... 2126 01:48:37,420 --> 01:48:39,014 Oh, to hell with sense!! 2127 01:48:40,605 --> 01:48:42,440 The fog was where I wanted to be. 2128 01:48:43,270 --> 01:48:46,064 Halfway down the path you can't see this house. 2129 01:48:46,861 --> 01:48:48,512 You'd never even know it was here. 2130 01:48:49,020 --> 01:48:51,413 Everything looked and sounded unreal. 2131 01:48:52,256 --> 01:48:53,294 It was like... 2132 01:48:53,644 --> 01:48:55,445 Walking on the bottom of the sea. 2133 01:48:56,557 --> 01:48:58,942 As if I'd drowned long ago. 2134 01:49:00,059 --> 01:49:03,209 As if I was a ghost, belonging to the fog. 2135 01:49:04,160 --> 01:49:06,530 And the fog was the ghost of the sea. 2136 01:49:08,341 --> 01:49:12,313 It felt damn peaceful to nothing more than a ghost within a ghost. 2137 01:49:16,137 --> 01:49:17,821 Don't look at me as if I'd gone nutty. 2138 01:49:18,330 --> 01:49:20,505 Who wants to see life as it is, if they can help it? 2139 01:49:22,133 --> 01:49:25,319 You've a poet in you but it's a damn morbid one. 2140 01:49:26,631 --> 01:49:28,283 Devil take your pessimism! 2141 01:49:29,813 --> 01:49:31,429 I'm low spirited enough. 2142 01:49:32,807 --> 01:49:34,908 Why can't you remember your Shakespeare? 2143 01:49:34,909 --> 01:49:37,579 You'll find what you were trying to say in him. 2144 01:49:39,581 --> 01:49:43,104 "We are such stuff as dreams are made on... 2145 01:49:43,961 --> 01:49:47,557 And our little life is rounded with a sleep" 2146 01:49:49,898 --> 01:49:50,975 Fine. 2147 01:49:51,703 --> 01:49:54,573 That's beautiful. But I wasn't trying to say that. 2148 01:49:55,407 --> 01:49:59,166 We are such stuff as manure is made on... 2149 01:49:59,167 --> 01:50:01,968 So let's drink up and forget it, that's more my idea. 2150 01:50:02,390 --> 01:50:04,131 Keep such sentiments to yourself. 2151 01:50:04,449 --> 01:50:06,012 I shouldn't have given you that drink. 2152 01:50:06,871 --> 01:50:08,365 It did pack a wallop all right. 2153 01:50:09,346 --> 01:50:10,576 On you too. 2154 01:50:11,401 --> 01:50:13,560 Even if you never missed a performance. 2155 01:50:14,766 --> 01:50:16,621 What's wrong with being drunk? 2156 01:50:17,025 --> 01:50:18,454 It's what were after isn't it? 2157 01:50:19,880 --> 01:50:22,055 "Be always drunken... 2158 01:50:22,064 --> 01:50:23,397 Nothing else matters... 2159 01:50:23,398 --> 01:50:25,262 That is the only question" 2160 01:50:25,903 --> 01:50:29,155 "If you would not feel the horrible burden of time... 2161 01:50:29,156 --> 01:50:32,191 Weighing on your shoulders and crushing you to the earth"... 2162 01:50:32,192 --> 01:50:33,891 "Be drunken continually". 2163 01:50:33,895 --> 01:50:35,300 "Be drunken with what? 2164 01:50:35,316 --> 01:50:38,714 With wine, with poetry or virtue as you will"... 2165 01:50:38,715 --> 01:50:40,004 "But be drunken... 2166 01:50:40,005 --> 01:50:42,734 And if sometimes on the stairs of a palace"... 2167 01:50:42,735 --> 01:50:44,604 "Or on the green side of a ditch... 2168 01:50:44,605 --> 01:50:47,506 Or in the dreary solitude of your own room"... 2169 01:50:47,507 --> 01:50:49,371 "You should awaken and the drunkenness... 2170 01:50:49,372 --> 01:50:51,881 Be half of wholly slipped away from you" 2171 01:50:51,882 --> 01:50:53,493 "Ask of the wind... 2172 01:50:53,494 --> 01:50:56,856 Or of the wave, or of the star, or of the bird, or of the clock... 2173 01:50:56,860 --> 01:51:00,527 Of whatever flies, or sighs, or rocks, or sings, or speaks"... 2174 01:51:01,538 --> 01:51:03,046 "Ask what hour it is... 2175 01:51:03,299 --> 01:51:07,389 And the wind, the wave, star, bird, clock will answer you"... 2176 01:51:08,000 --> 01:51:11,902 "It is the hour to be drunken... 2177 01:51:12,609 --> 01:51:14,459 Be drunken continually"... 2178 01:51:14,906 --> 01:51:19,202 "With wine, with poetry or with virtue. As you will"... 2179 01:51:21,176 --> 01:51:24,373 Well I wouldn't worry about the virtue part of it if I were you. 2180 01:51:25,817 --> 01:51:27,592 But you recited it well lad. 2181 01:51:28,492 --> 01:51:29,421 Who wrote it? 2182 01:51:30,231 --> 01:51:31,223 Baudelaire. 2183 01:51:32,118 --> 01:51:33,280 Never heard of him. 2184 01:51:35,460 --> 01:51:38,742 Where do you get your taste in authors? 2185 01:51:38,965 --> 01:51:42,140 This damned library of yours... 2186 01:51:42,835 --> 01:51:46,232 Voltaire and Rousseau and Schopenhauer... 2187 01:51:46,400 --> 01:51:47,726 And Ibsen! 2188 01:51:48,006 --> 01:51:50,419 Atheists, fools and madmen! 2189 01:51:50,552 --> 01:51:53,651 And your poet this... Baudelaire. 2190 01:51:54,545 --> 01:51:58,506 And Swinburne and Oscar Wilde, Whitman and Poe! 2191 01:51:58,672 --> 01:52:00,976 Whore-mongers and degenerates. 2192 01:52:01,108 --> 01:52:04,337 But I have three good sets of Shakespeare there, you could read. 2193 01:52:04,338 --> 01:52:05,953 They say he was a souse too. 2194 01:52:05,954 --> 01:52:07,294 They lie. 2195 01:52:07,296 --> 01:52:09,915 I don't doubt he liked his glass, it's a good man's failing... 2196 01:52:09,916 --> 01:52:12,895 But he knew how to drink that it didn't poison his mind... 2197 01:52:12,896 --> 01:52:14,808 With morbidness and filth. 2198 01:52:14,809 --> 01:52:18,820 Don't compare him with the pack you've got here. 2199 01:52:19,238 --> 01:52:21,023 Your dirty Zola! 2200 01:52:21,240 --> 01:52:22,391 And your... 2201 01:52:22,731 --> 01:52:25,774 Dante Gabriel Rossetti... 2202 01:52:25,775 --> 01:52:27,909 Who was a dope fiend... 2203 01:52:31,900 --> 01:52:34,162 Perhaps it would be wise to change the subject. 2204 01:52:42,586 --> 01:52:45,102 You can't accuse me of not knowing Shakespeare. 2205 01:52:46,235 --> 01:52:48,289 Didn't I win five dollars from you once... 2206 01:52:48,290 --> 01:52:50,933 When you bet me I couldn't learn a leading part of his in a week... 2207 01:52:50,934 --> 01:52:53,397 As you used to do in stock in the old days? 2208 01:52:54,005 --> 01:52:57,472 I learned Macbeth and recited it letter perfect with you... 2209 01:52:57,695 --> 01:52:58,838 Giving me the cues. 2210 01:52:58,839 --> 01:53:00,411 That's true, so you did. 2211 01:53:01,042 --> 01:53:05,592 And a terrible ordeal it was, I remember hearing you murder the lines. 2212 01:53:06,642 --> 01:53:09,930 I kept wishing I'd paid over the bet without making you prove it. 2213 01:53:11,229 --> 01:53:12,497 Did you hear? 2214 01:53:13,701 --> 01:53:15,166 She's moving around. 2215 01:53:19,367 --> 01:53:21,863 I hope to God she doesn't come down. 2216 01:53:22,919 --> 01:53:26,686 Yes, she'd be nothing more than a ghost haunting the past by this time. 2217 01:53:27,684 --> 01:53:29,364 Back before I was born. 2218 01:53:30,667 --> 01:53:32,702 Doesn't she do the same with me? 2219 01:53:33,360 --> 01:53:36,164 You must take her memories with a grain of salt. 2220 01:53:36,971 --> 01:53:40,136 Her wonderful home was ordinary enough. 2221 01:53:40,840 --> 01:53:45,220 Her father wasn't the great noble Irish gentleman she makes out. 2222 01:53:45,237 --> 01:53:48,170 Oh, he was a nice enough man, good company a good talker. 2223 01:53:48,171 --> 01:53:50,101 I liked him and he liked me. 2224 01:53:50,290 --> 01:53:53,683 He was prosperous enough too in his wholesale grocery business. 2225 01:53:53,684 --> 01:53:54,882 An able man. 2226 01:53:55,517 --> 01:53:56,893 But he had his weakness. 2227 01:53:57,758 --> 01:54:00,191 She condemns my drinking... 2228 01:54:00,445 --> 01:54:02,192 But she forgets his. 2229 01:54:02,560 --> 01:54:04,855 Oh, it's true he never touched a drop until he was forty... 2230 01:54:04,856 --> 01:54:06,983 But after that he made up for lost time. 2231 01:54:07,322 --> 01:54:10,406 He became a steady champagne drinker. 2232 01:54:10,719 --> 01:54:11,814 The worst kind. 2233 01:54:11,957 --> 01:54:15,579 That was his grand pose. To drink only champagne. 2234 01:54:16,664 --> 01:54:18,926 Well, it finished him quick. 2235 01:54:19,815 --> 01:54:22,148 That and the consumption. 2236 01:54:26,059 --> 01:54:29,497 We don't seem to be able to avoid unpleasant topics, do we? 2237 01:54:30,293 --> 01:54:31,271 No. 2238 01:54:32,701 --> 01:54:35,752 Well, what do you say to a game or two of casino, lad? 2239 01:54:35,753 --> 01:54:36,554 All right. 2240 01:54:37,241 --> 01:54:41,336 We can't lock up and go to bed until Jamie comes on the last trolley. 2241 01:54:42,153 --> 01:54:43,578 Which I hope he won't. 2242 01:54:44,505 --> 01:54:46,279 I don't want to go upstairs anyway. 2243 01:54:47,092 --> 01:54:48,542 So she's gone to sleep. 2244 01:54:48,867 --> 01:54:49,988 Neither do I. 2245 01:54:52,684 --> 01:54:54,215 As I told you before... 2246 01:54:54,886 --> 01:54:57,149 You must take her tales of the past... 2247 01:54:57,752 --> 01:54:59,307 With a grain of salt. 2248 01:55:00,234 --> 01:55:01,655 The piano playing... 2249 01:55:01,965 --> 01:55:04,735 And her dream of becoming a concert pianist... 2250 01:55:05,779 --> 01:55:08,231 It was put in her head by the nuns flattering her. 2251 01:55:08,461 --> 01:55:09,890 She was their pet. 2252 01:55:10,385 --> 01:55:12,416 They loved her for being so devout 2253 01:55:13,462 --> 01:55:16,040 And the idea she might have become a nun... 2254 01:55:16,350 --> 01:55:17,493 That's the worst. 2255 01:55:19,295 --> 01:55:24,159 Your mother was one of the most beautiful girls you ever could see. 2256 01:55:25,233 --> 01:55:26,432 She knew it too. 2257 01:55:27,508 --> 01:55:29,356 She was a bit of a rogue and a coquette... 2258 01:55:29,357 --> 01:55:32,296 God bless her, behind all her shyness and blushes. 2259 01:55:33,273 --> 01:55:36,015 She was never made to renounce the world. 2260 01:55:36,793 --> 01:55:42,345 She was bursting with health and high spirits and the love of loving. 2261 01:55:42,946 --> 01:55:45,317 Oh, for God's sake Papa, pick up your hand. 2262 01:55:46,382 --> 01:55:47,788 Yes. Yes. 2263 01:55:48,846 --> 01:55:50,490 Let's see what I have here. 2264 01:55:51,788 --> 01:55:52,817 Listen! 2265 01:55:53,695 --> 01:55:55,192 She's coming downstairs. 2266 01:55:55,738 --> 01:55:57,998 Let's play our game, pretend not to notice. 2267 01:55:57,999 --> 01:55:59,610 She'll soon go up again. 2268 01:56:04,008 --> 01:56:05,085 I don't see her... 2269 01:56:05,086 --> 01:56:07,612 She must have started down... and turned back. 2270 01:56:07,882 --> 01:56:08,969 Thank God! 2271 01:56:11,107 --> 01:56:12,266 Yes. 2272 01:56:13,447 --> 01:56:16,049 It's pretty horrible to see her the way she must be now. 2273 01:56:16,436 --> 01:56:19,894 She's been terribly frightened about your illness for all her pretending. 2274 01:56:20,450 --> 01:56:23,756 Oh, don't be too hard on her lad, remember she's not responsible. 2275 01:56:23,858 --> 01:56:25,907 I know damn well she's not to blame. 2276 01:56:26,227 --> 01:56:27,568 And I know who is. 2277 01:56:27,964 --> 01:56:30,532 You are. Your damned stinginess. 2278 01:56:31,346 --> 01:56:34,281 If you'd spent money on a decent doctor when she was so sick... 2279 01:56:34,282 --> 01:56:36,666 After I was born, she would never known morphine existed. 2280 01:56:36,842 --> 01:56:39,081 You must try to see my side of it too lad. 2281 01:56:39,910 --> 01:56:42,338 How was I to know he was that kind of doctor? 2282 01:56:42,481 --> 01:56:44,110 He'd a good reputation. 2283 01:56:44,118 --> 01:56:46,715 Among the souses in the hotel bar I suppose. 2284 01:56:46,716 --> 01:56:50,313 You lie! I asked the hotel proprietor to recommend the best... 2285 01:56:50,314 --> 01:56:51,786 At the same time crying "poor house"... 2286 01:56:51,787 --> 01:56:54,017 And making it plain you wanted a cheap one. 2287 01:56:54,660 --> 01:56:56,019 I know your system. 2288 01:56:56,532 --> 01:56:58,539 God! I ought to after this afternoon. 2289 01:56:58,913 --> 01:57:00,668 What about this afternoon? 2290 01:57:00,669 --> 01:57:02,740 Never mind now. We're talking about Mama. 2291 01:57:03,738 --> 01:57:06,085 I'm saying no matter how you try and excuse yourself... 2292 01:57:06,086 --> 01:57:08,606 You know damn well your stinginess was to blame. 2293 01:57:08,607 --> 01:57:11,608 Well I say you're a liar... Shut your mouth right now or... 2294 01:57:11,609 --> 01:57:13,737 After you'd found out she'd been made a morphine addict... 2295 01:57:13,738 --> 01:57:16,028 Why didn't you send her to a cure then, at the start... 2296 01:57:16,029 --> 01:57:17,473 When she still had a chance? 2297 01:57:17,474 --> 01:57:19,418 What did I know about morphine? 2298 01:57:19,900 --> 01:57:22,301 It was years before I discovered what was wrong. 2299 01:57:22,747 --> 01:57:24,817 Why didn't I send her to a cure you say? 2300 01:57:24,818 --> 01:57:28,662 I've spent thousands on thousands in cures, a waste! 2301 01:57:28,902 --> 01:57:31,706 What have they done her? She's always started again. 2302 01:57:31,707 --> 01:57:33,415 Yes, it's because you've never given her anything 2303 01:57:33,416 --> 01:57:35,138 That would help her want to stay off it. 2304 01:57:35,982 --> 01:57:37,957 No home except this summer... 2305 01:57:37,958 --> 01:57:39,470 Dump in a place she hates... 2306 01:57:39,471 --> 01:57:42,176 And you've refused to spend money even to make this look decent. 2307 01:57:42,649 --> 01:57:44,306 While you keep buying more property... 2308 01:57:44,307 --> 01:57:46,402 And playing sucker for every con-man with a... 2309 01:57:46,696 --> 01:57:50,224 Gold mine or a silver mine or any other get rich quick swindle. 2310 01:57:50,744 --> 01:57:53,179 You've dragged her around the road, season after season... 2311 01:57:53,180 --> 01:57:55,356 On one night stands with no one she could talk to. 2312 01:57:55,757 --> 01:57:58,176 Waiting night after night in dirty hotel rooms 2313 01:57:58,177 --> 01:58:01,109 For you to come home with a bun on after the bar has closed. 2314 01:58:01,894 --> 01:58:03,874 It isn't any wonder she didn't want to be cured. 2315 01:58:04,203 --> 01:58:05,425 God... God! 2316 01:58:05,848 --> 01:58:07,699 When I think of it I hate your guts! 2317 01:58:07,700 --> 01:58:10,231 Edmund! How dare you talk to your father like that? 2318 01:58:10,232 --> 01:58:12,223 You insolent young cub! 2319 01:58:12,224 --> 01:58:13,749 After all I've done for you. 2320 01:58:14,090 --> 01:58:16,038 We'll come to that, what you're doing for me. 2321 01:58:16,040 --> 01:58:18,873 Will you stop repeating your mother's crazy accusations? 2322 01:58:19,476 --> 01:58:22,291 I've never dragged her on the road against her will.... 2323 01:58:22,292 --> 01:58:24,355 Naturally I wanted her with me, I loved her. 2324 01:58:24,356 --> 01:58:25,751 And she came because she loved me... 2325 01:58:25,752 --> 01:58:27,507 And wanted to be with me, that's the truth. 2326 01:58:27,828 --> 01:58:30,568 And she needn't have been lonely... She had her children... 2327 01:58:30,602 --> 01:58:33,688 And I insisted, despite the expense... 2328 01:58:33,689 --> 01:58:35,795 On having a nurse to travel with her. 2329 01:58:35,796 --> 01:58:38,153 Yes, your one generosity. 2330 01:58:38,316 --> 01:58:39,616 And that... 2331 01:58:39,617 --> 01:58:42,621 Because you were jealous of her spending too much time with us. 2332 01:58:42,773 --> 01:58:44,256 And wanted us out of your way. 2333 01:58:44,257 --> 01:58:45,614 And that was another mistake too. 2334 01:58:45,615 --> 01:58:47,662 If she had to take care of me all by herself... 2335 01:58:47,663 --> 01:58:49,259 And had that to occupy her mind. 2336 01:58:49,261 --> 01:58:50,825 Maybe she'd been able to stop. 2337 01:58:50,826 --> 01:58:54,040 Oh, for that matter since you insist on judging things... 2338 01:58:54,041 --> 01:58:57,329 By what she says when she's not in her right mind... 2339 01:58:57,330 --> 01:59:00,644 If you'd never been born she'd never... 2340 01:59:06,899 --> 01:59:08,397 Sure. 2341 01:59:09,344 --> 01:59:11,233 I know that's how she feels Papa. 2342 01:59:12,162 --> 01:59:13,450 She doesn't. 2343 01:59:14,008 --> 01:59:16,668 She loves you as dearly as ever a mother loved a son. 2344 01:59:18,110 --> 01:59:20,252 I've only said that because you've put me in such a... 2345 01:59:20,253 --> 01:59:21,791 God damned rage! 2346 01:59:21,792 --> 01:59:23,112 Making up the past... 2347 01:59:23,113 --> 01:59:24,541 Saying you hate me. 2348 01:59:25,862 --> 01:59:27,402 I didn't mean it Papa. 2349 01:59:31,147 --> 01:59:32,369 I'm like Mama. 2350 01:59:33,704 --> 01:59:36,435 I can't help liking you... in spite of everything. 2351 01:59:37,183 --> 01:59:38,890 Well I might say the same of you. 2352 01:59:40,475 --> 01:59:42,489 You're no great shakes as a son. 2353 01:59:43,465 --> 01:59:46,080 It's a case of "A poor thing but mine own". 2354 01:59:46,830 --> 01:59:48,823 Well, what's happened to our game? 2355 01:59:49,052 --> 01:59:50,095 Who's play is it? 2356 01:59:50,405 --> 01:59:51,587 Yours, I guess. 2357 01:59:53,550 --> 01:59:55,645 You mustn't let yourself get too down hearted lad... 2358 01:59:55,647 --> 01:59:57,456 By the bad news you had today. 2359 01:59:57,795 --> 01:59:59,508 Both doctors promised me... 2360 01:59:59,509 --> 02:00:01,805 If you obey orders, at this place you're going... 2361 02:00:01,814 --> 02:00:03,623 You'll be cured in six months... 2362 02:00:03,624 --> 02:00:04,814 Or a year at most. 2363 02:00:06,366 --> 02:00:07,645 Don't kid me... 2364 02:00:08,471 --> 02:00:09,836 You think I'm gonna die. 2365 02:00:10,272 --> 02:00:12,061 That's a lie! You're crazy! 2366 02:00:12,332 --> 02:00:13,592 So why waste money? 2367 02:00:13,593 --> 02:00:15,643 That's why you're sending me to a state farm. 2368 02:00:16,169 --> 02:00:18,136 What state farm? 2369 02:00:18,137 --> 02:00:20,927 It's the Hill Town Sanatorium, that's all I know. 2370 02:00:20,928 --> 02:00:23,398 Both doctors told me it's the best place for you. 2371 02:00:23,399 --> 02:00:25,740 For the money. Or for nothing or practically nothing. 2372 02:00:26,053 --> 02:00:27,298 Don't lie, Papa. 2373 02:00:27,299 --> 02:00:31,155 You know damn well Hill Town Sanatorium is a state institution. 2374 02:00:31,868 --> 02:00:34,519 Jamie suspected you'd cry "poor house" to Hardy... 2375 02:00:34,633 --> 02:00:36,203 And he wormed the truth out of him. 2376 02:00:36,204 --> 02:00:38,127 That drunken loafer! 2377 02:00:38,128 --> 02:00:39,834 I'll kick him out in the gutter! 2378 02:00:39,835 --> 02:00:41,714 He's poisoned your mind against me... 2379 02:00:41,715 --> 02:00:43,337 Ever since you were old enough to listen. 2380 02:00:43,449 --> 02:00:45,935 You can't deny it's true about the state farm, can you? 2381 02:00:45,936 --> 02:00:47,343 Not trough the way you look at it! 2382 02:00:47,344 --> 02:00:49,868 What if it is run by the state, that's nothing against it. 2383 02:00:49,869 --> 02:00:51,383 The state has money to make a better place... 2384 02:00:51,384 --> 02:00:52,849 Than any private sanatorium... 2385 02:00:52,850 --> 02:00:54,708 And why shouldn't I take advantage of it? 2386 02:00:54,726 --> 02:00:56,867 It's my right and yours, we're residents... 2387 02:00:56,868 --> 02:00:58,019 I'm a property owner. 2388 02:00:58,020 --> 02:00:59,258 I help to support it. 2389 02:00:59,267 --> 02:01:01,338 I'm taxed to death here...! 2390 02:01:01,339 --> 02:01:04,013 Yes, on property valued at a quarter of a million. 2391 02:01:04,014 --> 02:01:05,579 Lies. That's all mortgaged. 2392 02:01:05,580 --> 02:01:07,624 Hardy and the specialist know what you're worth. 2393 02:01:07,625 --> 02:01:09,290 All I told them was I was no millionaire... 2394 02:01:09,291 --> 02:01:10,579 That could afford such a sanatorium 2395 02:01:10,580 --> 02:01:11,888 Because I was land poor. 2396 02:01:11,889 --> 02:01:12,881 That's the truth. 2397 02:01:12,890 --> 02:01:15,404 And then you went to the club and you met McGuire... 2398 02:01:15,405 --> 02:01:18,963 And "let him... Stick you, with another bum piece of property". 2399 02:01:18,964 --> 02:01:20,640 - It's not true. - Don't worry about it. 2400 02:01:21,756 --> 02:01:23,541 We met McGuire in the... 2401 02:01:23,542 --> 02:01:25,272 Hotel bar after you left. 2402 02:01:25,966 --> 02:01:28,251 Jamie kidded him about hooking you... 2403 02:01:28,252 --> 02:01:29,691 And he winked and laughed. 2404 02:01:29,692 --> 02:01:31,922 - You liar. - Don't lie about it! 2405 02:01:33,637 --> 02:01:35,339 God Papa! 2406 02:01:36,245 --> 02:01:38,931 Ever since I went to see him was I on my own and... 2407 02:01:38,932 --> 02:01:41,725 Found out what it felt like to be broke and starved. 2408 02:01:42,071 --> 02:01:43,721 And I tried to be fair to you... 2409 02:01:43,737 --> 02:01:45,612 Because I knew what you were up against as a kid. 2410 02:01:46,317 --> 02:01:47,794 I tried to make allowances. 2411 02:01:48,726 --> 02:01:52,170 You have to make allowances in this damn family or you'll go nuts. 2412 02:01:53,057 --> 02:01:55,930 But to think when it's a question of your own son having consumption... 2413 02:01:55,931 --> 02:01:58,170 You can show yourself up before the whole town... 2414 02:01:58,171 --> 02:02:00,798 As being such a stinking old tightwad! 2415 02:02:01,216 --> 02:02:04,597 Don't you know Hardy will talk and the whole damn town will know? 2416 02:02:05,284 --> 02:02:08,577 God, Papa, haven't you any pride or shame? 2417 02:02:08,882 --> 02:02:10,644 And don't think I'll let you get away with it. 2418 02:02:10,845 --> 02:02:15,179 I won't go to any damn state farm just to save you a few lousy dollars... 2419 02:02:15,206 --> 02:02:17,634 To buy some more bum property with! 2420 02:02:18,194 --> 02:02:20,583 You stinking old miser! 2421 02:02:20,584 --> 02:02:21,965 Be quiet! 2422 02:02:22,833 --> 02:02:24,197 Don't say a thing! 2423 02:02:24,626 --> 02:02:25,833 You're drunk! 2424 02:02:26,423 --> 02:02:27,677 I won't mind you! 2425 02:02:30,825 --> 02:02:32,674 Stop coughing, lad. 2426 02:02:34,122 --> 02:02:35,876 Got so worked up over nothing. 2427 02:02:36,887 --> 02:02:39,245 Who said you had to go to this Hill Town place? 2428 02:02:39,248 --> 02:02:41,360 You can go anywhere you like. I don't care a damn what it costs... 2429 02:02:41,361 --> 02:02:43,336 All I care about is having you get well. 2430 02:02:44,865 --> 02:02:45,912 You call me a... 2431 02:02:46,253 --> 02:02:47,698 Stinking miser? 2432 02:02:48,043 --> 02:02:49,662 Just because I don't want doctors to think... 2433 02:02:49,663 --> 02:02:51,622 I'm a millionaire they can swindle? 2434 02:02:54,859 --> 02:02:56,319 You look weak, lad. 2435 02:02:58,640 --> 02:03:00,259 Better, take a bracer. 2436 02:03:02,986 --> 02:03:04,169 Thanks. 2437 02:03:11,796 --> 02:03:12,996 Well... 2438 02:03:13,539 --> 02:03:15,076 Who's play is it? 2439 02:03:16,617 --> 02:03:19,418 "A stinking old miser" 2440 02:03:21,126 --> 02:03:23,108 Well maybe you're right. 2441 02:03:24,438 --> 02:03:26,578 Maybe I can't help being.... 2442 02:03:27,748 --> 02:03:30,002 Although all my life, since I had anything... 2443 02:03:30,660 --> 02:03:34,242 I've thrown money over the bar to buy drinks for everyone in the house... 2444 02:03:34,296 --> 02:03:37,867 Or loaned money to sponges I knew would never pay back. 2445 02:03:37,868 --> 02:03:41,460 But of course that was in bar rooms when I was full of whiskey. 2446 02:03:42,945 --> 02:03:46,472 Can't feel that way about it when I'm sober in my home. 2447 02:03:48,027 --> 02:03:50,652 It was at home I first learned the value... 2448 02:03:50,653 --> 02:03:52,922 Of a dollar and the fear of the poor house. 2449 02:03:54,723 --> 02:03:57,984 I've never been able to believe in my luck since. 2450 02:03:59,784 --> 02:04:03,570 You said you realize what I'd been up against as a boy. 2451 02:04:03,571 --> 02:04:06,068 The hell you do. How could you? 2452 02:04:06,822 --> 02:04:07,981 You had everything. 2453 02:04:08,060 --> 02:04:09,830 Nurses, schools... 2454 02:04:09,973 --> 02:04:13,809 Oh, I know you've had a spell of hard work with your back and hands... 2455 02:04:14,037 --> 02:04:16,257 And a bit of being homeless and penniless... 2456 02:04:16,258 --> 02:04:18,393 In a foreign land and I respect you for it. 2457 02:04:18,394 --> 02:04:21,462 But it was a game of romance and adventure to you... 2458 02:04:21,463 --> 02:04:22,509 It was play! 2459 02:04:22,510 --> 02:04:26,363 Yes, particularly the time I tried to commit suicide at Jimmy the Priest's... 2460 02:04:26,364 --> 02:04:27,530 And almost did. 2461 02:04:27,531 --> 02:04:28,898 You weren't in your right mind. 2462 02:04:28,899 --> 02:04:30,661 No son of mine would ever... 2463 02:04:30,662 --> 02:04:31,487 You were drunk. 2464 02:04:31,488 --> 02:04:33,187 I was stone cold sober. 2465 02:04:33,188 --> 02:04:35,420 That was the trouble. I stopped to think too long. 2466 02:04:35,421 --> 02:04:39,449 Don't start your damned atheist morbidness again. 2467 02:04:39,450 --> 02:04:41,347 I don't care to listen. 2468 02:04:42,955 --> 02:04:45,765 I was trying to make plain to you. 2469 02:04:47,431 --> 02:04:50,388 What do you know of the value of a dollar? 2470 02:04:51,448 --> 02:04:53,249 When I was ten... 2471 02:04:53,908 --> 02:04:58,078 My father deserted my mother and went back to Ireland to die. 2472 02:04:58,965 --> 02:05:00,631 Which he did, soon enough... 2473 02:05:00,837 --> 02:05:03,282 And deserved to and I hope he's roasting in hell. 2474 02:05:03,916 --> 02:05:07,731 He mistook rat poison for flour or sugar or something... 2475 02:05:09,173 --> 02:05:11,163 There was gossip it wasn't by mistake... 2476 02:05:11,164 --> 02:05:12,222 But that's a lie. 2477 02:05:12,223 --> 02:05:15,414 - No one in my family would ever... - My bet is it wasn't by mistake. 2478 02:05:15,792 --> 02:05:18,552 More morbidness. Your brother put that in your head. 2479 02:05:18,553 --> 02:05:21,349 The worst he can suspect is the only truth for him. 2480 02:05:21,350 --> 02:05:22,723 But never mind. 2481 02:05:25,365 --> 02:05:26,801 My mother was left... 2482 02:05:27,764 --> 02:05:31,445 A stranger in a strange land with four small children. 2483 02:05:31,446 --> 02:05:34,577 There was no damned romance in our poverty. 2484 02:05:35,607 --> 02:05:40,114 Twice we were evicted from the miserable hovel we called home. 2485 02:05:40,115 --> 02:05:43,795 My mother's few sticks of furniture thrown out on the gutter. 2486 02:05:43,948 --> 02:05:45,860 My mother and sisters crying. 2487 02:05:46,991 --> 02:05:49,719 I cried too, though I tried hard not to. 2488 02:05:49,720 --> 02:05:51,856 But I was the man of the family... 2489 02:05:51,857 --> 02:05:53,559 At ten years old. 2490 02:05:54,667 --> 02:05:56,863 There was no more school for me. 2491 02:05:58,726 --> 02:06:01,597 I went to work twelve hours a day in a machine shop. 2492 02:06:01,598 --> 02:06:03,560 Learning to make files. 2493 02:06:04,575 --> 02:06:08,224 Dirty barn of a place where rain dripped through the roof. 2494 02:06:09,237 --> 02:06:12,108 You roasted in the summer, there was no stove in winter. 2495 02:06:12,109 --> 02:06:14,248 Your hands were numb with cold. 2496 02:06:14,249 --> 02:06:17,583 The only light came through two small filthy windows. 2497 02:06:17,584 --> 02:06:20,311 So on gray days I'd have to sit bent over... 2498 02:06:20,312 --> 02:06:23,987 My eyes almost touching the files in order to see. 2499 02:06:24,861 --> 02:06:26,372 You talk of work! 2500 02:06:27,230 --> 02:06:28,754 What do you think I got for it? 2501 02:06:29,462 --> 02:06:33,973 Fifty cents a week. It's the truth. Fifty cents a week. 2502 02:06:34,915 --> 02:06:37,875 My poor mother washed and scrubbed for the yanks. 2503 02:06:38,342 --> 02:06:40,918 Well I remember one Thanksgiving... 2504 02:06:41,773 --> 02:06:43,428 Or maybe it was Christmas... 2505 02:06:44,234 --> 02:06:46,780 Some Yank, in whose house mother had been scrubbing, 2506 02:06:46,781 --> 02:06:48,920 Gave her a dollar extra for a present. 2507 02:06:48,921 --> 02:06:51,531 On the way home she spent it all on food. 2508 02:06:52,918 --> 02:06:56,513 I remember her hugging and kissing us and saying... 2509 02:06:57,946 --> 02:07:01,558 Tears of joy running down her tired face, 2510 02:07:02,499 --> 02:07:04,054 "Glory be to God! 2511 02:07:04,055 --> 02:07:06,628 For once in our lives there will be enough for each of us." 2512 02:07:08,623 --> 02:07:10,528 Fine brave sweet woman! 2513 02:07:12,139 --> 02:07:14,128 Never was a finer or a braver! 2514 02:07:14,901 --> 02:07:16,425 Yes, she must have been. 2515 02:07:16,729 --> 02:07:19,594 It was in those days I learned to be a miser. 2516 02:07:19,872 --> 02:07:22,351 A dollar was worth so much then. 2517 02:07:23,400 --> 02:07:26,062 Once you've learned the lesson it's hard to unlearn it. 2518 02:07:26,936 --> 02:07:28,745 You have to look for bargains. 2519 02:07:30,053 --> 02:07:33,599 If I took this state farm for a good bargain, you'll have to forgive me. 2520 02:07:33,600 --> 02:07:35,535 The doctors did tell me it was a good place... 2521 02:07:35,536 --> 02:07:36,749 You must believe that Edmund. 2522 02:07:36,750 --> 02:07:39,343 But I swear I never meant for you to go there if you didn't want to. 2523 02:07:40,261 --> 02:07:42,959 You can go to any place you choose, never mind what it costs. 2524 02:07:43,607 --> 02:07:44,837 Any place... 2525 02:07:45,685 --> 02:07:47,681 I can afford. Any place... 2526 02:07:48,316 --> 02:07:49,966 Within reason. 2527 02:07:53,148 --> 02:07:54,449 What about our game? 2528 02:07:54,798 --> 02:07:56,934 - Whose play is it? - I don't know. 2529 02:07:58,204 --> 02:07:59,516 Mine I guess. 2530 02:08:00,724 --> 02:08:01,924 No it's yours. 2531 02:08:03,635 --> 02:08:04,720 Yes. 2532 02:08:05,681 --> 02:08:08,280 Maybe life overdid the lesson for me 2533 02:08:09,030 --> 02:08:11,307 And made a dollar worth too much. 2534 02:08:12,057 --> 02:08:13,525 And that mistake... 2535 02:08:13,739 --> 02:08:16,035 Ruined my career as a fine actor. 2536 02:08:18,559 --> 02:08:20,960 I've never admitted this to anyone before lad. 2537 02:08:22,108 --> 02:08:24,853 But tonight I’m so heartsick I feel at the end of everything... 2538 02:08:24,854 --> 02:08:27,641 And what’s the use of fake pride and pretense? 2539 02:08:29,417 --> 02:08:32,678 That God damned play I bought for a song... 2540 02:08:32,679 --> 02:08:34,464 And made such a great success in... 2541 02:08:34,465 --> 02:08:36,145 A great money success... 2542 02:08:36,146 --> 02:08:39,535 It ruined me with it's promise of an easy fortune. 2543 02:08:40,196 --> 02:08:41,972 I didn't want to do anything else. 2544 02:08:43,436 --> 02:08:47,251 By the time I woke up to the fact I'd become a slave to the damn thing... 2545 02:08:47,252 --> 02:08:49,696 And did try other plays, it was too late. 2546 02:08:50,532 --> 02:08:52,816 They'd identified me with that one part... 2547 02:08:52,817 --> 02:08:54,155 And didn't want me in anything else. 2548 02:08:54,156 --> 02:08:55,425 They were right too. 2549 02:08:56,476 --> 02:09:01,681 I'd lost the great talent I once had through years of easy repetition. 2550 02:09:01,682 --> 02:09:04,824 Never learning a new part, never really working hard. 2551 02:09:06,660 --> 02:09:11,244 Thirty-five to forty thousand dollars net profit a season! 2552 02:09:11,245 --> 02:09:13,167 Like snapping your fingers. 2553 02:09:14,692 --> 02:09:16,707 Yet before I bought the damn thing... 2554 02:09:16,708 --> 02:09:18,889 I was considered one of the three or four young actors... 2555 02:09:18,890 --> 02:09:22,342 With the greatest artistic promise in America. 2556 02:09:22,943 --> 02:09:24,500 I'd work like hell! 2557 02:09:25,569 --> 02:09:27,234 I left a good job as a machinist... 2558 02:09:27,235 --> 02:09:30,587 To take supers' parts because I loved the theater. 2559 02:09:30,588 --> 02:09:32,413 I was wild with ambition. 2560 02:09:33,045 --> 02:09:34,622 I read all the plays ever written. 2561 02:09:34,623 --> 02:09:37,943 I studied Shakespeare as you'd study the Bible. 2562 02:09:38,544 --> 02:09:41,471 I got rid of an Irish brogue you could cut with a knife. 2563 02:09:41,472 --> 02:09:44,878 I loved Shakespeare. I'd have acted in any of his plays for nothing. 2564 02:09:44,879 --> 02:09:48,526 For the joy of being alive in his great poetry. 2565 02:09:49,169 --> 02:09:53,190 I could have been a great Shakespearean actor if I'd kept on. 2566 02:09:55,267 --> 02:09:58,646 In 1874 when Edwin Booth... 2567 02:09:58,647 --> 02:10:01,977 Came to the theater in Chicago where I was leading man. 2568 02:10:02,830 --> 02:10:04,988 I played Cassius to his Brutus one night. 2569 02:10:04,989 --> 02:10:07,231 Brutus to his Cassius the next. 2570 02:10:07,232 --> 02:10:09,724 Othello to his Iago and so on. 2571 02:10:10,500 --> 02:10:13,891 First night I played Othello he said to our manager... 2572 02:10:14,852 --> 02:10:18,852 "That young man is playing Othello better than I ever did." 2573 02:10:19,690 --> 02:10:21,657 That from Booth! 2574 02:10:23,438 --> 02:10:26,360 The greatest actor of his day or any other. 2575 02:10:27,692 --> 02:10:32,994 As I look back on it now, that night was the highest spot of my career. 2576 02:10:33,194 --> 02:10:35,155 I had life where I wanted it. 2577 02:10:35,913 --> 02:10:38,944 But for a time after that I kept on with ambition high... 2578 02:10:38,945 --> 02:10:40,273 Married your mother. 2579 02:10:40,274 --> 02:10:42,869 Ask her what I was like in those days. 2580 02:10:42,870 --> 02:10:46,357 Her love was an added incentive... To ambition. 2581 02:10:47,952 --> 02:10:53,357 Then a few years later my good bad luck made me find the big money maker. 2582 02:10:54,175 --> 02:10:57,202 And then life had me where it wanted me. 2583 02:10:58,142 --> 02:11:02,796 At from thirty-five to forty thousand net profit a season. 2584 02:11:04,144 --> 02:11:06,100 A fortune in those days. 2585 02:11:06,977 --> 02:11:08,293 Even in these. 2586 02:11:09,848 --> 02:11:14,593 What the hell was it I wanted to buy, I wonder, that was worth... 2587 02:11:17,489 --> 02:11:18,711 Oh well... 2588 02:11:20,044 --> 02:11:22,010 It's a late day for regrets. 2589 02:11:23,601 --> 02:11:25,056 My play isn't it? 2590 02:11:29,120 --> 02:11:31,017 I'm glad you told me this Papa. 2591 02:11:31,904 --> 02:11:33,366 I know you a lot better now. 2592 02:11:33,752 --> 02:11:35,665 Maybe I shouldn't have told you. 2593 02:11:36,014 --> 02:11:38,547 Maybe you'll only feel more contempt for me. 2594 02:11:39,467 --> 02:11:42,472 It's a poor way to convince you of the value of a dollar. 2595 02:11:45,277 --> 02:11:48,345 The glare from those extra lights hurts my eyes. 2596 02:11:49,308 --> 02:11:51,189 You don't mind if I turn them out do you? 2597 02:11:51,501 --> 02:11:52,666 We don't need them. 2598 02:11:52,667 --> 02:11:55,391 There's no point in making the electric company light company rich. 2599 02:11:56,124 --> 02:11:59,180 No, sure not. Turn them out. 2600 02:12:01,013 --> 02:12:04,241 No, I don't know what the hell it was I wanted to buy. 2601 02:12:05,586 --> 02:12:08,000 On my solemn oath, Edmund. 2602 02:12:08,905 --> 02:12:12,655 I'd gladly face not having an acre of land to call my own... 2603 02:12:12,656 --> 02:12:13,980 Nor a penny in the bank 2604 02:12:15,176 --> 02:12:18,905 I'd be willing to have no home but the poor house in my old age... 2605 02:12:18,906 --> 02:12:24,524 If I could look back now on having been the fine artist I might have been. 2606 02:12:25,621 --> 02:12:27,178 What the devil are you laughing at? 2607 02:12:28,810 --> 02:12:30,287 Oh, not at you Papa. 2608 02:12:31,122 --> 02:12:33,678 At life... It's so damned crazy. 2609 02:12:34,475 --> 02:12:36,181 More of your morbidness! 2610 02:12:36,736 --> 02:12:38,222 There's nothing wrong with life. 2611 02:12:38,756 --> 02:12:40,590 It's we who... 2612 02:12:42,214 --> 02:12:45,000 "The fault... Dear Brutus... 2613 02:12:45,587 --> 02:12:50,751 Is not in our stars but in ourselves that we are underlings" 2614 02:12:53,915 --> 02:12:56,818 The praise Edwin Booth gave my Othello! 2615 02:12:58,250 --> 02:13:01,357 I made our manager write down his exact words in writing. 2616 02:13:02,084 --> 02:13:04,336 I kept it in my wallet for years. 2617 02:13:04,337 --> 02:13:06,300 I used to read it every once in a while. 2618 02:13:06,835 --> 02:13:10,931 Until, finally, it made me feel so bad I couldn't face it anymore. 2619 02:13:12,087 --> 02:13:13,626 Where is it now, I wonder? 2620 02:13:14,128 --> 02:13:15,494 Somewhere in this house. 2621 02:13:15,866 --> 02:13:18,090 I remember I put it away carefully. 2622 02:13:19,883 --> 02:13:21,905 Might be in an old trunk in the attic... 2623 02:13:22,548 --> 02:13:24,270 Along with Mama's wedding dress. 2624 02:13:25,120 --> 02:13:28,926 Oh, for Pete’s sake Papa, if we're gonna play cards, let's play. 2625 02:13:32,914 --> 02:13:35,045 She's still moving around. 2626 02:13:36,580 --> 02:13:39,216 God knows when she'll go to sleep! 2627 02:13:39,351 --> 02:13:42,543 Oh, for God's sake Papa, forget it! 2628 02:13:48,795 --> 02:13:51,066 You just told me some high spots in your memories. 2629 02:13:51,393 --> 02:13:52,766 Want to hear mine? 2630 02:13:53,077 --> 02:13:54,833 They're all connected with the sea. 2631 02:13:56,351 --> 02:13:58,636 Here's one. When I was on the Squarehead square rigger... 2632 02:13:58,637 --> 02:13:59,962 Bound for Buenos Aires. 2633 02:14:00,468 --> 02:14:04,143 Full moon in the Trades, the old hooker driving fourteen knots. 2634 02:14:05,043 --> 02:14:07,343 I lay on the bowsprit, facing astern 2635 02:14:08,006 --> 02:14:10,818 The water foaming into spume under me, 2636 02:14:11,717 --> 02:14:14,469 The masts with every sail white in the moonlight... 2637 02:14:14,470 --> 02:14:15,910 Towering high above me. 2638 02:14:16,397 --> 02:14:19,763 I became drunk with the beauty and singing rhythm of it, 2639 02:14:20,426 --> 02:14:22,146 And for a moment I lost myself... 2640 02:14:22,147 --> 02:14:24,688 Actually lost my life. I was set free! 2641 02:14:24,690 --> 02:14:26,452 I dissolved in the sea... 2642 02:14:26,892 --> 02:14:29,723 Became white sails and flying spray... 2643 02:14:29,728 --> 02:14:31,601 Became beauty and rhythm... 2644 02:14:31,990 --> 02:14:33,363 Became the ship... 2645 02:14:33,856 --> 02:14:36,999 And the moonlight and the high dim-starred sky! 2646 02:14:38,160 --> 02:14:40,501 I belonged, without past or future. 2647 02:14:40,690 --> 02:14:42,997 Within peace, and unity... 2648 02:14:42,998 --> 02:14:45,013 And a wild joy. 2649 02:14:46,055 --> 02:14:48,993 To something greater than my own life, or the life of Man. 2650 02:14:50,639 --> 02:14:51,775 To Life itself. 2651 02:14:55,319 --> 02:14:57,353 To God, if you want to put it that way. 2652 02:14:59,310 --> 02:15:01,335 And several other times in my life... 2653 02:15:02,169 --> 02:15:04,320 When I was swimming far out there, 2654 02:15:04,321 --> 02:15:07,281 Lying alone on a beach, I've had the same experience. 2655 02:15:09,415 --> 02:15:12,154 Became the sun... The hot sand, 2656 02:15:13,403 --> 02:15:15,743 Green seaweed anchored to a rock... 2657 02:15:15,744 --> 02:15:17,627 Swaying in the tide. 2658 02:15:18,314 --> 02:15:20,676 Like a Saint's vision of Beatitude. 2659 02:15:21,364 --> 02:15:22,751 Like the veil of things... 2660 02:15:22,752 --> 02:15:25,497 As it seems drawn back by an unseen hand. 2661 02:15:27,806 --> 02:15:29,766 For a second you see, 2662 02:15:31,103 --> 02:15:33,768 And seeing the secret... Are the secret. 2663 02:15:34,873 --> 02:15:36,917 For a second there is meaning! 2664 02:15:40,336 --> 02:15:41,193 Then the... 2665 02:15:41,740 --> 02:15:43,654 Hand lets the veil fall 2666 02:15:43,866 --> 02:15:46,510 And you're alone, lost in the fog again. 2667 02:15:48,605 --> 02:15:50,669 It's a great mistake my being born a man... 2668 02:15:50,676 --> 02:15:53,973 I'd have been much more successful as a seagull or a fish. 2669 02:15:54,223 --> 02:15:55,436 As it is... 2670 02:15:55,437 --> 02:15:58,472 I'll always be a stranger who can never really feel at home. 2671 02:15:59,296 --> 02:16:02,030 Who does not really want... Is not really wanted 2672 02:16:02,581 --> 02:16:04,230 And never never really belong... 2673 02:16:04,231 --> 02:16:07,226 And... Who must always be a little in love with death. 2674 02:16:09,084 --> 02:16:12,310 Yes, you've the makings of a poet in you all right. 2675 02:16:13,263 --> 02:16:14,685 The makings of a poet? 2676 02:16:17,117 --> 02:16:19,613 No, I'm afraid I'm like the guy... 2677 02:16:19,614 --> 02:16:21,804 Who's always panhandling for a smoke. 2678 02:16:23,187 --> 02:16:25,983 He hasn't even got the makings, he's only got the habit. 2679 02:16:28,331 --> 02:16:30,728 I couldn't touch what I was trying to tell you just now... 2680 02:16:30,729 --> 02:16:31,983 I only stammered. 2681 02:16:33,380 --> 02:16:35,685 It's the best I'll ever do, I mean, if I live. 2682 02:16:39,355 --> 02:16:41,691 That's faithful realism at least. 2683 02:16:42,504 --> 02:16:45,482 Stammering is the native eloquence of us fog people. 2684 02:16:47,982 --> 02:16:51,161 Well, that sounds like absent brother. 2685 02:16:52,856 --> 02:16:54,994 He must have a peach of a bun on. 2686 02:16:54,995 --> 02:16:56,113 That loafer! 2687 02:16:56,114 --> 02:16:58,883 He caught the last car. Bad luck to it. 2688 02:16:58,988 --> 02:17:00,517 Get him to bed, Edmund. 2689 02:17:00,778 --> 02:17:02,475 I'll go out on the back porch. 2690 02:17:02,556 --> 02:17:04,802 He has a tongue like an adder when he's drunk. 2691 02:17:05,045 --> 02:17:06,707 I'd only lose my temper. 2692 02:17:11,213 --> 02:17:13,169 What hooo...! What...? 2693 02:17:15,554 --> 02:17:17,132 Nix on the loud noise. 2694 02:17:18,462 --> 02:17:20,216 Hello, kid. 2695 02:17:22,105 --> 02:17:24,260 I'm as drunk as a fiddler's bitch. 2696 02:17:25,080 --> 02:17:26,890 Thanks for telling me your great secret. 2697 02:17:26,891 --> 02:17:30,504 Yeah. Unnecessary information number one. 2698 02:17:33,775 --> 02:17:35,548 I had a serious accident. 2699 02:17:36,914 --> 02:17:39,450 Front steps tried to trample on me. 2700 02:17:40,093 --> 02:17:42,342 Took advantage of the fog... 2701 02:17:45,229 --> 02:17:47,275 Ought to be another lighthouse out there. 2702 02:17:51,943 --> 02:17:54,220 It's dark in here too. 2703 02:17:55,765 --> 02:17:58,549 What the hell is this, the morgue? 2704 02:17:59,593 --> 02:18:05,834 "Ford, ford, ford o' Kabul river in the dark!" 2705 02:18:09,040 --> 02:18:11,620 "Keep the crossing-stakes beside you... 2706 02:18:12,503 --> 02:18:14,707 An' they will surely guide you. 2707 02:18:15,232 --> 02:18:18,707 'Cross the ford o' Kabul river in the dark." 2708 02:18:29,602 --> 02:18:30,554 There! 2709 02:18:31,221 --> 02:18:32,817 That's more like it. 2710 02:18:36,728 --> 02:18:39,172 To hell with the old Gaspard! 2711 02:18:39,954 --> 02:18:41,490 Where is that old tight wad? 2712 02:18:42,031 --> 02:18:43,582 He's out on the porch. 2713 02:18:46,295 --> 02:18:48,160 He expects us to live in a... 2714 02:18:49,255 --> 02:18:51,924 Black hole in Calcutta! 2715 02:19:02,053 --> 02:19:03,174 Say... 2716 02:19:04,750 --> 02:19:06,248 Have I got the DTs? 2717 02:19:11,678 --> 02:19:12,718 My God! 2718 02:19:12,971 --> 02:19:13,788 It's real! 2719 02:19:18,567 --> 02:19:20,320 Hey what's the matter with the old man? 2720 02:19:20,321 --> 02:19:22,981 He must be ossified to forget he left this out. 2721 02:19:24,162 --> 02:19:26,430 Grab opportunity by the forelock! 2722 02:19:26,819 --> 02:19:28,324 It's the key to my success. 2723 02:19:28,617 --> 02:19:30,622 You're stinking now. That'll knock you stiff. 2724 02:19:30,640 --> 02:19:32,633 Wisdom from the mouth of babes. 2725 02:19:32,780 --> 02:19:35,579 Can the wise stuff, kid. You're still wet behind the ears. 2726 02:19:35,733 --> 02:19:36,653 All right! 2727 02:19:36,654 --> 02:19:37,928 Pass out if you want to. 2728 02:19:37,929 --> 02:19:39,681 I can't, that's the trouble. 2729 02:19:39,682 --> 02:19:41,430 I've had enough to sink a ship... 2730 02:19:42,041 --> 02:19:43,129 But I can't sink! 2731 02:19:44,468 --> 02:19:46,031 Well... Here's hoping. 2732 02:19:46,547 --> 02:19:47,872 I'll have one too. 2733 02:19:50,118 --> 02:19:51,440 No, no you don't! 2734 02:19:51,670 --> 02:19:53,035 Not while I'm around. 2735 02:19:53,305 --> 02:19:55,109 Remember doctors orders. 2736 02:19:55,912 --> 02:19:58,509 Maybe no one else gives a damn if you die. 2737 02:19:58,678 --> 02:19:59,678 But I do. 2738 02:20:01,230 --> 02:20:02,491 You're my kid brother. 2739 02:20:02,873 --> 02:20:04,301 I love your guts, kid. 2740 02:20:05,265 --> 02:20:07,726 Everything else is gone and you're all I got left. 2741 02:20:08,887 --> 02:20:10,827 So no booze for you if I can help it. 2742 02:20:10,828 --> 02:20:12,038 Oh, lay off. 2743 02:20:14,303 --> 02:20:16,425 You don't believe I care, eh? 2744 02:20:16,427 --> 02:20:17,553 Just drunken bull! 2745 02:20:17,905 --> 02:20:19,650 All right go ahead and kill yourself. 2746 02:20:22,676 --> 02:20:24,727 Sure I know you care, Jamie. 2747 02:20:26,613 --> 02:20:28,232 And I'm going on the wagon. 2748 02:20:28,233 --> 02:20:29,606 But tonight doesn't count. 2749 02:20:30,093 --> 02:20:31,966 Too many damned things have happened today. 2750 02:20:32,498 --> 02:20:33,474 Here's how. 2751 02:20:33,645 --> 02:20:34,890 Yeah, I know, kid. 2752 02:20:35,152 --> 02:20:37,618 It's been a lousy day for you. 2753 02:20:39,469 --> 02:20:42,537 I bet old Gaspard hasn't tried to keep you off the booze. 2754 02:20:43,028 --> 02:20:45,257 He'll probably give you a case... 2755 02:20:45,258 --> 02:20:48,134 To take with you to the state farm for pauper patients. 2756 02:20:49,030 --> 02:20:51,287 The sooner you kick the bucket, the less expense. 2757 02:20:52,300 --> 02:20:53,364 Yeah, well uh... 2758 02:20:53,365 --> 02:20:55,682 What a bastard to have for a father. 2759 02:20:56,747 --> 02:20:59,171 God, if you put him in a book no one would believe it. 2760 02:20:59,189 --> 02:21:02,239 Oh, uh... Papa's all right if you try and understand him... 2761 02:21:02,438 --> 02:21:04,335 And keep your sense of humor. 2762 02:21:04,481 --> 02:21:07,433 He's been putting on the old sob act for you? 2763 02:21:08,049 --> 02:21:10,499 He could always fool you but not me. 2764 02:21:11,144 --> 02:21:12,255 Never again. 2765 02:21:14,032 --> 02:21:15,611 Though I do feel... 2766 02:21:15,936 --> 02:21:18,192 Sorry for him in a way about one thing. 2767 02:21:19,597 --> 02:21:21,973 Well, he had that coming to him. 2768 02:21:22,267 --> 02:21:23,624 He's to blame. 2769 02:21:25,431 --> 02:21:26,398 To hell with that. 2770 02:21:27,919 --> 02:21:29,782 The last drink is really getting to me... 2771 02:21:29,783 --> 02:21:31,475 This one ought to put the lights out. 2772 02:21:35,331 --> 02:21:38,331 Hey, did you tell old Gaspard that I got it out of Doc Hardy... 2773 02:21:38,332 --> 02:21:40,572 The sanatorium was a charity dump? 2774 02:21:41,344 --> 02:21:42,129 Yes. 2775 02:21:42,399 --> 02:21:43,956 I told him I wouldn't go there. 2776 02:21:43,957 --> 02:21:46,857 It's all settled now. He said I can go anywhere I want. 2777 02:21:48,025 --> 02:21:49,778 Within reason, of course. 2778 02:21:50,629 --> 02:21:52,576 Yes, "Of course, my boy... 2779 02:21:52,687 --> 02:21:54,108 Anything... 2780 02:21:54,488 --> 02:21:55,505 Within reason". 2781 02:21:55,899 --> 02:21:57,914 That means another cheap dump! 2782 02:21:58,891 --> 02:22:02,069 Old Gaspard, the miser in "The Bells". 2783 02:22:02,300 --> 02:22:04,006 That's a part he can play without make-up. 2784 02:22:04,007 --> 02:22:06,594 I've heard that Gaspard stuff a million times. 2785 02:22:06,595 --> 02:22:09,573 All right, if you're satisfied, let him get away with it. 2786 02:22:09,574 --> 02:22:10,765 It's your funeral. 2787 02:22:13,226 --> 02:22:14,388 I mean... 2788 02:22:15,363 --> 02:22:16,863 I hope it won't be. 2789 02:22:21,557 --> 02:22:23,780 What did you do uptown tonight? Go to Mamie Burns? 2790 02:22:24,185 --> 02:22:25,225 Sure thing! 2791 02:22:25,688 --> 02:22:29,023 Where else would I find suitable feminine companionship? 2792 02:22:29,478 --> 02:22:30,573 And love. 2793 02:22:31,216 --> 02:22:32,670 Don't forget love. 2794 02:22:33,448 --> 02:22:36,849 What is man without a good woman to love? 2795 02:22:38,422 --> 02:22:40,409 A goddamn hollow hole. 2796 02:22:42,063 --> 02:22:43,244 You're a nut. 2797 02:22:44,661 --> 02:22:45,661 Hey... 2798 02:22:46,005 --> 02:22:47,876 Guess which one of Mamie's charmers... 2799 02:22:47,877 --> 02:22:50,291 I picked to bless me with her woman's love. 2800 02:22:50,904 --> 02:22:52,516 It'll hand you a laugh, kid. 2801 02:22:53,814 --> 02:22:55,014 I picked... 2802 02:22:56,288 --> 02:22:57,648 Fat Violet. 2803 02:22:58,882 --> 02:23:00,311 - No, honest? - Yeah. 2804 02:23:00,312 --> 02:23:01,470 No! 2805 02:23:01,811 --> 02:23:02,931 Some pick! 2806 02:23:03,504 --> 02:23:06,419 God! Oh, God! She weighs a ton. 2807 02:23:07,161 --> 02:23:10,034 What the hell for, a joke? Oh, no, no joke. 2808 02:23:10,204 --> 02:23:11,369 Very serious. 2809 02:23:11,779 --> 02:23:13,476 By the time I hit Mamie's dump... 2810 02:23:13,477 --> 02:23:15,868 I was feeling very sorry for myself... 2811 02:23:15,869 --> 02:23:18,049 And all the other poor bums in the world. 2812 02:23:18,175 --> 02:23:21,228 Ready for a weep on any old womanly bosom. 2813 02:23:21,572 --> 02:23:24,425 You know how you get when the Old John barley corn... 2814 02:23:24,427 --> 02:23:26,667 Turns on the soft music inside of you. 2815 02:23:27,294 --> 02:23:31,479 And the as soon as I hit the door, Mamie began telling me her troubles. 2816 02:23:31,843 --> 02:23:34,163 She beefed how rotten business was. 2817 02:23:34,341 --> 02:23:36,267 She was going to give Fat Violet the gate. 2818 02:23:36,428 --> 02:23:38,072 The customers didn't fall for Vi... 2819 02:23:38,073 --> 02:23:40,462 The only reason she kept her was she could play the piano. 2820 02:23:41,963 --> 02:23:44,276 Well, lately Violet has been going on drunks... 2821 02:23:44,614 --> 02:23:46,392 And been getting to boiled to play... 2822 02:23:46,393 --> 02:23:48,241 And was eating her out of house and home. 2823 02:23:48,685 --> 02:23:51,105 And how old Vi was a good hearted dumbbell... 2824 02:23:51,106 --> 02:23:52,611 And she felt sorry for her 'cause... 2825 02:23:52,612 --> 02:23:54,542 She didn't know how in the hell he'd make a living. 2826 02:23:54,869 --> 02:23:57,370 Still... Business was business. 2827 02:23:57,919 --> 02:24:00,897 She couldn't afford to run a home for fat tarts. 2828 02:24:02,306 --> 02:24:03,552 Well it made me... 2829 02:24:04,346 --> 02:24:06,308 Feel very sorry for Fat Violet. 2830 02:24:08,299 --> 02:24:10,328 So I squandered two bucks... 2831 02:24:12,889 --> 02:24:14,299 Of your dough... 2832 02:24:14,531 --> 02:24:16,112 To escort her upstairs. 2833 02:24:16,282 --> 02:24:19,020 Now, with no dishonorable intentions whatever. 2834 02:24:20,236 --> 02:24:21,492 I like them fat... 2835 02:24:21,874 --> 02:24:23,056 But not that fat. 2836 02:24:24,101 --> 02:24:27,586 All I wanted was a little heart to heart talk... 2837 02:24:27,920 --> 02:24:30,754 Concerning the infinite sorrow of life. 2838 02:24:30,763 --> 02:24:32,209 Oh, poor Vi! 2839 02:24:32,945 --> 02:24:34,600 She stood it for a while, 2840 02:24:34,609 --> 02:24:36,316 Then she got good and sore. 2841 02:24:36,657 --> 02:24:39,343 Got the idea I'd taken her upstairs as a joke. 2842 02:24:39,715 --> 02:24:41,560 Gave me a grand bawling out. 2843 02:24:44,687 --> 02:24:46,319 Then she began to cry. 2844 02:24:47,952 --> 02:24:50,165 So I had to say I loved her... 2845 02:24:50,276 --> 02:24:51,816 Because she was fat. 2846 02:24:53,714 --> 02:24:55,590 And she wanted to believe that. 2847 02:24:58,339 --> 02:24:59,666 And I stayed with her... 2848 02:24:59,889 --> 02:25:00,738 To prove it. 2849 02:25:02,733 --> 02:25:04,044 And that cheered her up. 2850 02:25:06,302 --> 02:25:07,988 She kissed me when I left. 2851 02:25:08,380 --> 02:25:10,496 Said she'd fallen hard for me. 2852 02:25:11,686 --> 02:25:14,499 And we both cried a little more in the hallway... 2853 02:25:15,486 --> 02:25:17,041 And everything was fine. 2854 02:25:18,622 --> 02:25:21,229 Except Mamie Burns thought I'd gone bughouse. 2855 02:25:22,374 --> 02:25:25,759 Harlots and hunted have pleasures of their own to give... 2856 02:25:25,760 --> 02:25:28,268 The vulgar herd can never understand. 2857 02:25:28,269 --> 02:25:30,288 Exactly! 2858 02:25:30,603 --> 02:25:32,844 And a hell of a good time at that. 2859 02:25:37,875 --> 02:25:41,939 This night has opened mine eyes... 2860 02:25:41,940 --> 02:25:45,428 To a great career in store for me, my boy. 2861 02:25:46,757 --> 02:25:50,329 I shall give the art of acting back to the performing seals, 2862 02:25:51,007 --> 02:25:53,316 Which are it's most perfect expression, 2863 02:25:53,995 --> 02:25:57,383 By applying my natural God given talents... 2864 02:25:57,612 --> 02:25:59,319 In their proper sphere... 2865 02:25:59,524 --> 02:26:02,479 I shall attain the pinnacle of success! 2866 02:26:03,188 --> 02:26:07,032 I’ll be the lover of the fat woman in a Barnum and Bailey Circus. 2867 02:26:13,201 --> 02:26:14,518 Imagine me... 2868 02:26:14,812 --> 02:26:16,766 Sunk to the fat girl... 2869 02:26:16,933 --> 02:26:18,847 In a hick town hooker shop. 2870 02:26:19,375 --> 02:26:20,375 Me! 2871 02:26:20,803 --> 02:26:23,867 I've had some of the best lookers on Broadway sit up and beg. 2872 02:26:25,490 --> 02:26:27,863 "Speakin' in general, oh, I’ve tried 'em all. 2873 02:26:28,243 --> 02:26:31,623 The 'appy roads which take you o'er the world." 2874 02:26:34,589 --> 02:26:36,023 It's not so apt. 2875 02:26:37,667 --> 02:26:39,344 Happy roads is bunk. 2876 02:26:40,551 --> 02:26:42,375 Weary roads is right. 2877 02:26:43,398 --> 02:26:45,366 They get you nowhere fast. 2878 02:26:46,636 --> 02:26:48,202 And that's where I got... 2879 02:26:49,253 --> 02:26:50,545 Nowhere. 2880 02:26:51,059 --> 02:26:52,764 Where everyone lands in the end... 2881 02:26:52,765 --> 02:26:54,908 Even if most of the suckers won't admit it. 2882 02:26:55,624 --> 02:26:58,316 Oh, can it! You'll be crying in a minute. 2883 02:26:59,208 --> 02:27:00,474 Hey! 2884 02:27:01,308 --> 02:27:03,727 Don't get too damn fresh. 2885 02:27:08,173 --> 02:27:11,123 But you're right, the hell with repining! 2886 02:27:11,230 --> 02:27:12,951 Fat Violet is a good kid. 2887 02:27:13,023 --> 02:27:15,573 I'm glad I stayed with her. It was a Christian act. 2888 02:27:15,574 --> 02:27:17,813 Cured her blues, a hell of a good time. 2889 02:27:19,334 --> 02:27:21,595 You should have stuck around with me, kid. 2890 02:27:22,620 --> 02:27:24,503 Taken your mind off your troubles. 2891 02:27:25,720 --> 02:27:27,581 What's the use of coming home? 2892 02:27:27,894 --> 02:27:30,248 To get the blues over what can't be helped. 2893 02:27:32,168 --> 02:27:33,443 It's all over. 2894 02:27:34,016 --> 02:27:35,039 Finished! 2895 02:27:35,222 --> 02:27:36,039 You know? 2896 02:27:37,395 --> 02:27:38,248 Not a hope. 2897 02:27:49,660 --> 02:27:53,240 "If I were hanged... On the highest hill, 2898 02:27:53,630 --> 02:27:55,225 Mother o' mine... 2899 02:27:56,189 --> 02:27:58,539 Oh, mother o’ mine! 2900 02:28:00,091 --> 02:28:03,826 I know whose love... Would follow me still..." 2901 02:28:03,827 --> 02:28:04,840 Shut up! 2902 02:28:05,882 --> 02:28:08,240 Where's the hop head? Gone to sleep? 2903 02:28:09,352 --> 02:28:10,901 You dirty bastard! 2904 02:28:18,690 --> 02:28:19,981 Thanks, kid. 2905 02:28:21,111 --> 02:28:22,962 I certainly had that coming. 2906 02:28:24,692 --> 02:28:26,243 I don't know what made me. 2907 02:28:27,266 --> 02:28:29,082 Booze talking, you know me, kid. 2908 02:28:29,669 --> 02:28:31,042 Good God, Jamie. 2909 02:28:32,143 --> 02:28:34,625 No matter how drunk you are, there's no excuse. 2910 02:28:37,477 --> 02:28:38,701 I'm sorry, I... 2911 02:28:41,721 --> 02:28:43,913 You and I never... Scrapped that bad. 2912 02:28:44,430 --> 02:28:45,669 Sorry, kid. 2913 02:28:46,138 --> 02:28:47,273 Glad you did. 2914 02:28:48,918 --> 02:28:51,238 My dirty tongue, I'd like to cut it out. 2915 02:28:54,296 --> 02:28:57,020 It was because I feel so damn sunk. 2916 02:28:58,978 --> 02:29:01,209 Because this time Mama had me fooled. 2917 02:29:04,575 --> 02:29:06,469 I suppose I can't forgive her yet. 2918 02:29:08,531 --> 02:29:09,956 It meant so much... 2919 02:29:11,534 --> 02:29:13,984 I'd began to hope that if she'd beaten the game... 2920 02:29:16,533 --> 02:29:18,139 Maybe I could too. 2921 02:29:19,917 --> 02:29:21,666 Good God, don't I know how you feel! 2922 02:29:24,213 --> 02:29:25,581 Oh, God! 2923 02:29:27,021 --> 02:29:30,025 I've known about Mama so much longer than you. 2924 02:29:31,144 --> 02:29:34,149 I'll never forget the first time I got wise. 2925 02:29:34,941 --> 02:29:37,628 I caught her in the act with a hypo. 2926 02:29:38,622 --> 02:29:39,693 God! 2927 02:29:42,095 --> 02:29:43,745 I never believed before 2928 02:29:44,414 --> 02:29:46,414 That anyone but whores took dope. 2929 02:29:48,834 --> 02:29:50,150 Stop it, Jamie. 2930 02:29:56,954 --> 02:29:59,508 And then this stuff of your getting consumption. 2931 02:30:01,117 --> 02:30:03,117 It's... Got me licked. 2932 02:30:04,229 --> 02:30:05,844 We've been more than brothers. 2933 02:30:06,490 --> 02:30:08,153 You're the only pal I ever had. 2934 02:30:09,371 --> 02:30:11,864 I love your guts kid, I'd do anything for you. 2935 02:30:13,389 --> 02:30:14,762 I know that, Jamie. 2936 02:30:16,644 --> 02:30:17,713 Yeah. 2937 02:30:19,699 --> 02:30:22,450 I bet you heard Mama and old Gaspard... 2938 02:30:22,457 --> 02:30:26,000 Spilling so much bunk about my hoping for the worst. 2939 02:30:26,918 --> 02:30:29,855 You suspect right now I'm thinking to myself... 2940 02:30:29,856 --> 02:30:31,598 That Papa is old... 2941 02:30:31,599 --> 02:30:33,297 Can't last much longer... 2942 02:30:33,866 --> 02:30:35,928 And if you were to die... 2943 02:30:35,929 --> 02:30:38,060 Mama and I would get all he's got. 2944 02:30:38,061 --> 02:30:40,076 So I'm probably hoping... 2945 02:30:40,077 --> 02:30:42,561 Shut up you, damn fool! 2946 02:30:42,562 --> 02:30:44,318 What the hell put that in your nut? 2947 02:30:48,371 --> 02:30:49,934 That's what I'd like to know. 2948 02:30:50,286 --> 02:30:51,452 What put that in your mind? 2949 02:30:51,453 --> 02:30:53,241 Oh, don't be a dumbbell. 2950 02:30:53,242 --> 02:30:54,591 What I said... 2951 02:30:54,755 --> 02:30:58,448 I'm always suspected of hoping for the worst I got, so I can't help it. 2952 02:31:00,830 --> 02:31:02,017 Hey! 2953 02:31:04,291 --> 02:31:06,181 What are you trying to do? 2954 02:31:06,182 --> 02:31:07,531 Accuse me? 2955 02:31:08,120 --> 02:31:10,631 Now don't you play the wise guy with me! 2956 02:31:11,115 --> 02:31:13,600 I've learned more about life than you'll ever know. 2957 02:31:13,609 --> 02:31:16,365 Just because you read a lot of high brow junk... 2958 02:31:16,366 --> 02:31:17,976 Don't think you can fool me! 2959 02:31:18,488 --> 02:31:20,329 You're only an overgrown kid. 2960 02:31:20,330 --> 02:31:25,380 Mama's baby, Papa's pet, the family white hope. The... 2961 02:31:25,554 --> 02:31:28,216 You're getting a swelled head lately about nothing. 2962 02:31:28,316 --> 02:31:31,025 About a few poems, in a hick town newspaper. 2963 02:31:31,034 --> 02:31:35,004 Hell, I used to write better stuff for the lit magazine in college. 2964 02:31:35,339 --> 02:31:36,909 You better wake up! 2965 02:31:36,910 --> 02:31:39,834 You're setting no rivers on fire. 2966 02:31:40,426 --> 02:31:44,519 You let these hick town boobs here flatter you... 2967 02:31:44,520 --> 02:31:47,071 With bunk about your future... 2968 02:31:55,898 --> 02:31:57,177 Hell, kid... 2969 02:31:58,058 --> 02:31:59,328 Forget that. 2970 02:31:59,785 --> 02:32:01,625 That goes for Sweeney. 2971 02:32:01,626 --> 02:32:03,427 You know I didn't mean it. 2972 02:32:04,464 --> 02:32:06,186 No one is prouder... 2973 02:32:06,630 --> 02:32:08,132 You started to make good. 2974 02:32:11,412 --> 02:32:13,590 Oh, why shouldn't I be proud, uh? 2975 02:32:15,367 --> 02:32:17,419 You reflect credit on me. 2976 02:32:17,938 --> 02:32:20,700 I had more to do with bringing you up than anybody. 2977 02:32:21,106 --> 02:32:24,313 I wised you up about women, so you'd never be the fall guy... 2978 02:32:24,316 --> 02:32:26,666 And make any mistakes you didn't want to make. 2979 02:32:27,169 --> 02:32:29,933 And who steered you on to reading that poetry first, uh? 2980 02:32:29,934 --> 02:32:31,792 Swinburne, for example? 2981 02:32:31,793 --> 02:32:32,976 I did! 2982 02:32:34,791 --> 02:32:37,115 And because I once wanted to write... 2983 02:32:37,471 --> 02:32:40,071 I put it in your head that someday you'd write! 2984 02:32:40,387 --> 02:32:43,063 Hell, you're more than my brother. 2985 02:32:43,073 --> 02:32:45,067 I made you! 2986 02:32:45,415 --> 02:32:48,325 You are my Frankenstein! 2987 02:32:53,073 --> 02:32:54,315 All right. 2988 02:32:54,899 --> 02:32:56,589 I'm your Frankenstein. 2989 02:33:00,254 --> 02:33:01,695 So... 2990 02:33:02,431 --> 02:33:03,890 Let's have another drink? 2991 02:33:05,844 --> 02:33:07,153 You crazy nut. 2992 02:33:07,848 --> 02:33:08,791 No. 2993 02:33:09,313 --> 02:33:10,538 I'll have a drink... 2994 02:33:11,355 --> 02:33:12,444 Not you. 2995 02:33:14,568 --> 02:33:16,204 I got to take care of you. 2996 02:33:30,438 --> 02:33:31,905 Listen, kid... 2997 02:33:32,789 --> 02:33:34,371 You'll be going away. 2998 02:33:34,958 --> 02:33:37,928 I may not get another chance to talk or I may not be... 2999 02:33:37,929 --> 02:33:39,949 Drunk enough to tell you the truth. 3000 02:33:40,964 --> 02:33:42,546 So I got to tell you now... 3001 02:33:42,547 --> 02:33:45,444 Something I ought to have told you a long time ago... 3002 02:33:45,547 --> 02:33:46,706 For your own good. 3003 02:33:47,220 --> 02:33:48,892 And no drunken bull! 3004 02:33:49,640 --> 02:33:51,418 But in vino veritas. 3005 02:33:51,609 --> 02:33:52,474 Uh? 3006 02:33:53,470 --> 02:33:55,240 You better take this seriously. 3007 02:33:57,530 --> 02:33:59,309 I wanna warn you... 3008 02:34:00,024 --> 02:34:01,301 Against me. 3009 02:34:02,122 --> 02:34:05,356 Mama and Papa are right. I've been a rotten bad influence. 3010 02:34:06,279 --> 02:34:08,015 But worst of all is... 3011 02:34:09,243 --> 02:34:11,082 I did it on purpose. 3012 02:34:12,247 --> 02:34:14,580 - I don't want to hear anymore. - Yes, kid! 3013 02:34:16,517 --> 02:34:17,625 You listen... 3014 02:34:18,116 --> 02:34:21,292 I did it on purpose... To make a bum out of you. 3015 02:34:21,919 --> 02:34:24,072 Part of me did a big part. 3016 02:34:24,646 --> 02:34:27,519 The part that's been dead so long that hates life. 3017 02:34:27,538 --> 02:34:31,079 My putting you wise so you'd learn from my mistakes, uh? 3018 02:34:31,459 --> 02:34:34,968 Well, I believed that myself at times, but it's a fake. 3019 02:34:35,264 --> 02:34:37,860 It made my mistakes look good. 3020 02:34:38,346 --> 02:34:40,435 Made getting drunk romantic. 3021 02:34:40,858 --> 02:34:43,526 Made whores fascinating vampires 3022 02:34:43,527 --> 02:34:47,677 Instead of poor, stupid, diseased slobs they really are. 3023 02:34:48,357 --> 02:34:51,457 Made fun of work... as a sucker's game. 3024 02:34:51,467 --> 02:34:53,707 I never wanted you to succeed... 3025 02:34:53,721 --> 02:34:56,551 And make me look even worse by comparison. 3026 02:34:56,589 --> 02:34:58,510 Wanted you to fail! 3027 02:34:58,511 --> 02:35:00,216 Always jealous of ya! 3028 02:35:00,217 --> 02:35:02,378 Mama's baby! 3029 02:35:02,379 --> 02:35:03,998 Papa's pet! 3030 02:35:06,351 --> 02:35:10,536 And it was your being born that started Mama on dope. 3031 02:35:11,188 --> 02:35:14,197 I know that's not your fault but all the same... 3032 02:35:14,198 --> 02:35:15,777 Goddamn you! 3033 02:35:16,362 --> 02:35:18,504 I can't help hating your guts. 3034 02:35:22,789 --> 02:35:25,220 - Cut it out, Jamie. - Don't get me wrong, kid. 3035 02:35:25,755 --> 02:35:27,380 I love you more than I hate you. 3036 02:35:27,381 --> 02:35:29,699 My telling what I'm telling you now proves it. 3037 02:35:30,155 --> 02:35:33,099 Because I run the risk you'll hate me and you're all I got left. 3038 02:35:36,475 --> 02:35:37,742 I didn't mean... 3039 02:35:38,219 --> 02:35:39,925 To tell you all that last stuff. 3040 02:35:40,907 --> 02:35:43,333 To that far back, I don't know what made me. 3041 02:35:45,857 --> 02:35:47,720 What I wanted to say is... 3042 02:35:49,103 --> 02:35:52,622 I'd like to see you become the greatest success in the world. 3043 02:35:53,847 --> 02:35:55,970 But you better be on your guard, 3044 02:35:56,760 --> 02:36:00,026 Because I'm gonna do my damnedest to make you fail. 3045 02:36:01,392 --> 02:36:02,829 I can't help it. 3046 02:36:04,595 --> 02:36:06,461 I hate myself. 3047 02:36:07,121 --> 02:36:10,703 I got to take revenge on everyone else, especially you. 3048 02:36:11,524 --> 02:36:14,216 The dead part of me hopes you won't get well. 3049 02:36:14,961 --> 02:36:18,370 Maybe he's even glad the game's got Mama again. 3050 02:36:19,890 --> 02:36:22,637 He wants... Company! 3051 02:36:23,607 --> 02:36:26,529 He doesn't want to be the only corpse around the house. 3052 02:36:27,411 --> 02:36:28,438 God, Jamie. 3053 02:36:29,009 --> 02:36:29,912 You're crazy. 3054 02:36:29,914 --> 02:36:32,394 Now, you think it over, you'll see I'm right. 3055 02:36:32,561 --> 02:36:33,568 Think it over! 3056 02:36:33,569 --> 02:36:35,440 When you're away from me in the sanatorium. 3057 02:36:35,826 --> 02:36:38,270 Make up your mind. You gotta tie a can to me, 3058 02:36:38,282 --> 02:36:39,901 Get me out of your life... 3059 02:36:39,902 --> 02:36:41,179 Think of me as dead! 3060 02:36:41,406 --> 02:36:42,475 Tell people... 3061 02:36:42,476 --> 02:36:44,588 "I had a brother, but he's dead". 3062 02:36:44,947 --> 02:36:47,450 And when you come back you look out for me! 3063 02:36:47,557 --> 02:36:51,417 Because I'll be waiting to welcome you here with that "My old pal" stuff 3064 02:36:51,501 --> 02:36:53,173 And give you the glad hand... 3065 02:36:53,188 --> 02:36:55,417 And the first good chance I get... 3066 02:36:55,427 --> 02:36:57,303 I'm gonna stab you in the back! 3067 02:36:57,304 --> 02:37:00,089 Shut up! I'll be goddamned if I'll listen to... 3068 02:37:00,090 --> 02:37:01,926 Only don't you forget me. 3069 02:37:02,197 --> 02:37:04,458 Remember I warned you for your sake. 3070 02:37:04,459 --> 02:37:05,667 Come on! 3071 02:37:05,668 --> 02:37:07,009 Give me credit! 3072 02:37:07,870 --> 02:37:10,077 "Greater love hath no man than this... 3073 02:37:10,790 --> 02:37:12,699 That he saveth his brother... 3074 02:37:13,048 --> 02:37:14,255 From himself." 3075 02:37:19,913 --> 02:37:21,263 That's all. 3076 02:37:22,416 --> 02:37:23,909 I'm finished now. I've... 3077 02:37:24,322 --> 02:37:25,782 Gone to confession. 3078 02:37:27,056 --> 02:37:29,556 I know you absolve me, don't you, kid? 3079 02:37:30,519 --> 02:37:32,120 You understand. 3080 02:37:32,785 --> 02:37:34,720 You're a damn fine kid. 3081 02:37:36,060 --> 02:37:37,257 You ought to be. 3082 02:37:37,781 --> 02:37:39,154 I made you. 3083 02:37:40,991 --> 02:37:42,102 So go... 3084 02:37:42,936 --> 02:37:44,159 And get well. 3085 02:37:45,573 --> 02:37:47,766 Don't die on me, you're all I got left. 3086 02:37:50,274 --> 02:37:51,660 God bless, kid. 3087 02:37:54,961 --> 02:37:56,514 That last drink... 3088 02:37:58,236 --> 02:37:59,381 The old K.O. 3089 02:38:43,894 --> 02:38:45,685 Thank God he's asleep. 3090 02:38:46,879 --> 02:38:48,831 I thought he'd never stop talking. 3091 02:38:50,198 --> 02:38:52,506 Better let him stay where he is and sleep it off. 3092 02:38:53,663 --> 02:38:56,690 I heard the last part of his talk. It's what I warned you. 3093 02:38:56,928 --> 02:38:59,962 I hope you'll heed the warning now it comes from his own mouth. 3094 02:39:00,885 --> 02:39:03,066 You mustn't take it too much to heart though, lad. 3095 02:39:03,817 --> 02:39:06,883 He loves to exaggerate the worst in himself when he's drunk. 3096 02:39:07,432 --> 02:39:08,853 He's devoted to you. 3097 02:39:09,790 --> 02:39:11,728 It's the one good thing left in him. 3098 02:39:13,709 --> 02:39:15,861 A sweet spectacle for me... 3099 02:39:16,187 --> 02:39:17,623 My firstborn... 3100 02:39:18,181 --> 02:39:21,438 Who I hoped would bear my name in honor and dignity, 3101 02:39:22,048 --> 02:39:24,524 Who showed such brilliant promise. 3102 02:39:24,719 --> 02:39:26,403 Be quiet, can't you, Papa? 3103 02:39:26,581 --> 02:39:27,684 A waste. 3104 02:39:27,882 --> 02:39:28,930 A wreck. 3105 02:39:29,485 --> 02:39:30,917 A drunken hulk. 3106 02:39:31,853 --> 02:39:33,776 Done with and finished. 3107 02:39:37,041 --> 02:39:39,161 "Clarence... Is come... 3108 02:39:40,547 --> 02:39:43,740 False, fleeting, perjured Clarence... 3109 02:39:43,741 --> 02:39:46,653 That stabb'd me in the field by Tewksbury... 3110 02:39:48,105 --> 02:39:52,085 Seize on him, Furies, and take him in to torment." 3111 02:39:55,908 --> 02:39:57,497 What the hell are you staring at? 3112 02:39:58,913 --> 02:40:00,270 "Look in my face... 3113 02:40:00,722 --> 02:40:02,452 My name is Might-have-been. 3114 02:40:03,266 --> 02:40:05,972 I am also called No-more, Too-late, 3115 02:40:06,101 --> 02:40:06,973 Farewell." 3116 02:40:06,974 --> 02:40:10,861 I'm well aware of that and God knows I don't want to look at it. 3117 02:40:10,862 --> 02:40:11,663 Quit it! 3118 02:40:11,664 --> 02:40:13,951 You know, I got a great idea for you, Papa. 3119 02:40:14,292 --> 02:40:16,993 Put on a revival of "The Bells" this season... 3120 02:40:17,247 --> 02:40:19,900 There's a great part in there you can play without make-up. 3121 02:40:20,252 --> 02:40:22,635 Old Gaspard, the miser! 3122 02:40:22,636 --> 02:40:23,699 Shut up, Jamie! 3123 02:40:23,700 --> 02:40:25,876 I claim that Edwin Booth... 3124 02:40:25,877 --> 02:40:28,299 Never saw the day... 3125 02:40:28,625 --> 02:40:31,086 When he could give as good a performance as a trained seal! 3126 02:40:31,351 --> 02:40:33,159 Seals are intelligent and honest... 3127 02:40:33,160 --> 02:40:35,670 They don't put on any bluffs about "the art of acting"... 3128 02:40:35,886 --> 02:40:37,977 They admit they're just hams... 3129 02:40:37,978 --> 02:40:39,779 Earning their daily fish. 3130 02:40:40,209 --> 02:40:41,316 You loafer! 3131 02:40:41,317 --> 02:40:44,085 Papa! Do you wanna start a row that'll bring Mama down? 3132 02:40:46,065 --> 02:40:47,340 Jamie, go to sleep. 3133 02:40:48,169 --> 02:40:50,702 You shot off your mouth too much already. 3134 02:40:51,625 --> 02:40:52,649 All right, kid. 3135 02:40:54,310 --> 02:40:55,819 I'm not looking for an argument. 3136 02:40:56,712 --> 02:40:57,806 Too damn sick. 3137 02:40:57,807 --> 02:41:00,260 Oh, I wish to God you'd go to bed so that I could too. 3138 02:41:00,850 --> 02:41:02,596 I'm dumb tired. 3139 02:41:03,275 --> 02:41:05,552 I can't stay up all night like I used to. 3140 02:41:05,553 --> 02:41:07,864 I'm getting old.... Old and finished. 3141 02:41:09,321 --> 02:41:11,208 I can't keep my eyes open. 3142 02:41:13,641 --> 02:41:15,379 I think I'll catch a few winks. 3143 02:41:16,318 --> 02:41:18,159 Why don't you do the same, Edmund? 3144 02:41:18,964 --> 02:41:22,029 It'll pass the time until she... 3145 02:42:34,370 --> 02:42:35,835 "A mad scene." 3146 02:42:37,214 --> 02:42:38,901 "Enter Ophelia" 3147 02:42:39,446 --> 02:42:41,219 Good boy, Edmund! 3148 02:42:41,441 --> 02:42:43,513 The dirty blaggard! 3149 02:42:44,245 --> 02:42:45,641 His own mother! 3150 02:42:48,272 --> 02:42:50,361 All right, kid. I had that coming. 3151 02:42:51,825 --> 02:42:53,693 But I told you how much I hoped. 3152 02:42:53,694 --> 02:42:56,415 I'll kick you out in the gutter tomorrow... 3153 02:42:56,416 --> 02:42:58,234 So help me God! 3154 02:42:59,788 --> 02:43:01,364 Papa. 3155 02:43:02,434 --> 02:43:03,629 Jamie. 3156 02:43:05,394 --> 02:43:06,745 For the love of God! 3157 02:43:07,094 --> 02:43:08,261 Stop it. 3158 02:43:22,971 --> 02:43:25,178 I play so badly now. 3159 02:43:26,247 --> 02:43:27,960 I'm all out of practice. 3160 02:43:27,961 --> 02:43:30,898 Sister Theresa will give me a dreadful scolding. 3161 02:43:31,913 --> 02:43:33,935 She'll tell me it isn't fair to my father... 3162 02:43:33,936 --> 02:43:36,248 When he spent so much money for extra lessons. 3163 02:43:36,249 --> 02:43:37,754 She's quite right. 3164 02:43:37,755 --> 02:43:41,096 It isn't fair when he's so good and generous and so proud of me. 3165 02:43:42,144 --> 02:43:44,933 I'll practice everyday from now on. 3166 02:43:48,123 --> 02:43:49,289 Something... 3167 02:43:49,749 --> 02:43:51,965 Horrible has happened to my hands. 3168 02:43:54,051 --> 02:43:55,827 The fingers have gotten all stiff... 3169 02:43:55,828 --> 02:43:58,497 The knuckles are all swollen, they're so ugly. 3170 02:43:59,594 --> 02:44:01,619 I'll go to the infirmary and show sister Martha. 3171 02:44:01,620 --> 02:44:05,034 She's old and a little cranky but I love her just the same. 3172 02:44:06,061 --> 02:44:08,443 She has things in her medicine chest that'll cure anything. 3173 02:44:08,463 --> 02:44:10,398 She'll give me something to rub on my hands... 3174 02:44:10,399 --> 02:44:12,606 And tell me to pray to the Blessed Virgin. 3175 02:44:12,863 --> 02:44:14,567 I'll be well again in no time. 3176 02:44:16,071 --> 02:44:17,897 Let... Let me see... 3177 02:44:20,182 --> 02:44:21,544 What did I... 3178 02:44:21,933 --> 02:44:23,308 Come here... 3179 02:44:23,919 --> 02:44:25,125 To find? 3180 02:44:27,324 --> 02:44:28,593 It's terrible... 3181 02:44:28,769 --> 02:44:31,054 How absent-minded I've become. 3182 02:44:31,055 --> 02:44:32,714 Always dreaming and forgetting. 3183 02:44:32,718 --> 02:44:33,766 Here! 3184 02:44:34,249 --> 02:44:35,551 Let me take it, dear. 3185 02:44:36,370 --> 02:44:37,872 You'll only step on it... 3186 02:44:37,873 --> 02:44:39,428 And then you'll be sorry afterwards. 3187 02:44:40,001 --> 02:44:41,540 Thank you. You're very kind. 3188 02:44:41,877 --> 02:44:44,130 It's a wedding gown, it's very lovely isn't it? 3189 02:44:46,292 --> 02:44:48,079 I remember now... 3190 02:44:49,870 --> 02:44:51,068 I found it... 3191 02:44:51,814 --> 02:44:53,753 In the attic hidden in a trunk. 3192 02:44:55,820 --> 02:44:58,075 I... I don't know what I wanted it for. 3193 02:44:58,393 --> 02:44:59,885 I'm going to be a nun. 3194 02:45:02,633 --> 02:45:03,643 That is... 3195 02:45:05,886 --> 02:45:07,672 If I can only... 3196 02:45:08,228 --> 02:45:09,339 Find... 3197 02:45:12,526 --> 02:45:14,734 What is it I'm looking for? 3198 02:45:18,462 --> 02:45:20,665 I know it's something I lost. 3199 02:45:20,666 --> 02:45:21,706 Mary. 3200 02:45:21,707 --> 02:45:23,024 No good, Papa. 3201 02:45:23,520 --> 02:45:24,781 Something I... 3202 02:45:25,106 --> 02:45:26,314 I miss... 3203 02:45:27,053 --> 02:45:28,140 Terribly. 3204 02:45:29,101 --> 02:45:31,137 It... It can't be altogether lost. 3205 02:45:31,138 --> 02:45:32,074 Mama... 3206 02:45:32,847 --> 02:45:34,060 Something... 3207 02:45:34,061 --> 02:45:34,890 What's the use? 3208 02:45:34,891 --> 02:45:37,087 I need terribly. 3209 02:45:38,204 --> 02:45:39,480 I remember... 3210 02:45:40,107 --> 02:45:43,000 When I had it I was never lonely nor afraid. 3211 02:45:46,649 --> 02:45:48,695 I can't have lost it forever. 3212 02:45:50,245 --> 02:45:52,231 I'd die if I know that. 3213 02:45:52,937 --> 02:45:55,447 Because then there would be no hope. 3214 02:45:57,426 --> 02:45:58,562 Mama. 3215 02:46:01,113 --> 02:46:03,067 It's not just a summer cold. 3216 02:46:04,712 --> 02:46:06,078 I've got consumption. 3217 02:46:06,777 --> 02:46:08,215 No. No! 3218 02:46:09,941 --> 02:46:11,775 You must not try to hold me. 3219 02:46:12,052 --> 02:46:13,721 You must not try to touch me. 3220 02:46:14,040 --> 02:46:16,079 You damn fool, it's no good. 3221 02:46:17,052 --> 02:46:19,435 It's not right when I'm hoping to be a nun. 3222 02:46:19,700 --> 02:46:22,008 We're fools to pay any attention. 3223 02:46:23,697 --> 02:46:25,225 It's the damn poison. 3224 02:46:25,964 --> 02:46:29,071 I never knew her drown herself in it as deep as this before. 3225 02:46:29,930 --> 02:46:32,313 Pass me that bottle, Jamie. 3226 02:46:37,067 --> 02:46:39,296 I had a talk with mother Elizabeth. 3227 02:46:40,907 --> 02:46:42,648 She's so sweet and good. 3228 02:46:44,191 --> 02:46:45,423 A Saint on earth. 3229 02:46:45,996 --> 02:46:47,002 I love her dearly. 3230 02:46:47,003 --> 02:46:47,719 It may be... 3231 02:46:47,965 --> 02:46:50,624 Sinful of me, but I love her better than my own mother 3232 02:46:51,795 --> 02:46:54,599 Because she always understands even before you say a word. 3233 02:46:54,972 --> 02:46:57,386 Her kind blue eyes look right into your heart. 3234 02:46:58,054 --> 02:46:59,849 Can't keep any secrets from her. 3235 02:47:00,198 --> 02:47:03,051 You couldn't deceive her even if you were mean enough to want to. 3236 02:47:04,964 --> 02:47:06,650 All the same... 3237 02:47:07,574 --> 02:47:11,194 I... I don't think she was so understanding this time. 3238 02:47:12,062 --> 02:47:14,358 I told her I wanted to be a nun. 3239 02:47:15,089 --> 02:47:17,980 I explained how sure I was of my vocation. 3240 02:47:18,275 --> 02:47:21,999 That I'd prayed to the Blessed Virgin to make me sure and to find me worthy. 3241 02:47:23,798 --> 02:47:25,084 I told mother... 3242 02:47:25,301 --> 02:47:26,665 I had had a true vision... 3243 02:47:26,666 --> 02:47:29,483 When I was praying in the shrine of our Lady of Lords... 3244 02:47:30,287 --> 02:47:31,854 On the little island in the lake. 3245 02:47:32,758 --> 02:47:35,634 I said I knew as surely as I knew I was kneeling there 3246 02:47:36,762 --> 02:47:39,033 That the Blessed Virgin had smiled 3247 02:47:40,271 --> 02:47:42,204 And given me her consent. 3248 02:47:43,619 --> 02:47:46,761 But mother Elizabeth said I must be more sure than that even... 3249 02:47:46,762 --> 02:47:48,164 That I must prove it... 3250 02:47:48,165 --> 02:47:50,418 Wasn't simply my imagination. 3251 02:47:51,071 --> 02:47:53,011 She said if I was so sure... 3252 02:47:53,297 --> 02:47:56,083 Then I wouldn't mind putting myself to a test... 3253 02:47:56,665 --> 02:48:00,294 By going home after I'd graduated and living as other girls live... 3254 02:48:00,295 --> 02:48:01,654 Going out to parties... 3255 02:48:01,829 --> 02:48:03,861 And dances and enjoy myself 3256 02:48:04,967 --> 02:48:06,221 And then... 3257 02:48:06,906 --> 02:48:09,752 If after a year or two I still felt sure... 3258 02:48:10,341 --> 02:48:12,144 I could come back to see her... 3259 02:48:12,367 --> 02:48:14,208 And we would talk it over again. 3260 02:48:16,731 --> 02:48:17,858 I never... 3261 02:48:18,079 --> 02:48:21,050 Dreamed the Holy Mother would give me such advice. 3262 02:48:22,012 --> 02:48:23,958 I was really shocked! 3263 02:48:24,588 --> 02:48:25,557 I said... 3264 02:48:25,998 --> 02:48:29,958 Naturally I... I would do anything she suggested but... 3265 02:48:30,062 --> 02:48:32,919 I knew it was simply a waste of time. 3266 02:48:34,948 --> 02:48:36,171 After... 3267 02:48:37,251 --> 02:48:38,807 I left her I felt... 3268 02:48:39,877 --> 02:48:41,578 All mixed up. 3269 02:48:42,597 --> 02:48:44,407 So I went to the shrine 3270 02:48:45,840 --> 02:48:48,275 And I prayed to the Blessed Virgin... 3271 02:48:50,754 --> 02:48:52,590 And found peace again... 3272 02:48:54,752 --> 02:48:56,748 Because I knew she heard my prayer... 3273 02:48:57,512 --> 02:48:59,168 And would always love me... 3274 02:49:00,586 --> 02:49:02,404 And see no harm... 3275 02:49:02,674 --> 02:49:04,294 Ever came to me... 3276 02:49:05,621 --> 02:49:06,915 So long... 3277 02:49:08,132 --> 02:49:09,346 So long... 3278 02:49:09,560 --> 02:49:12,285 As I never lost my faith in her. 3279 02:49:17,683 --> 02:49:19,811 That was in the winter of... 3280 02:49:20,391 --> 02:49:21,732 Senior year. 3281 02:49:22,988 --> 02:49:24,401 Then in the spring... 3282 02:49:25,744 --> 02:49:27,451 Something happened to me. 3283 02:49:29,289 --> 02:49:31,940 Oh, yes, I remember. 3284 02:49:33,023 --> 02:49:35,874 I fell in love with James Tyrone 3285 02:49:39,332 --> 02:49:40,955 And was so happy... 3286 02:49:42,377 --> 02:49:43,826 For a time. 245991