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- It's so draining,
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not really seeing anybody.
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It's just like, I hate it.
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- We don't realize how
often we crave human touch.
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- It's been
really tough.
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It's been really hard.
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- It made me
realize how much I miss that
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emotional connection I have
with people in real life.
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- I never
knew how much
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I needed people around me
to feel alive.
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- I just,
I miss my old life.
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- The world that we
live in now feels so different.
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And it feels like,
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with this new climate brings
a new way of creating.
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In 2019, I was kicking
off my first headline tour
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for my album, "Charli".
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Fashion, fashion.
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I felt like I was finally
in control
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of every aspect of my career.
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We're day two of rehearsals,
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I've got a show tomorrow
in Atlanta.
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It's all heating up.
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Drama, drama, drama.
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What will I wear?
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What will it look like?
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Will I sound good?
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Yes.
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Auto-Tune.
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♪ Boom, clap
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♪ The sound of my heart
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♪ The beat goes on-
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When I started out at
the age of 14
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I was just sharing my music
on Myspace.
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- Your song is everywhere.
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It's in all of our heads.
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- I didn't have a
concrete goal.
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I was just like, what's next?
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What can keep me inspired?
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What can keep me excited
about what I'm creating?
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I want another creative high
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and another one and another one.
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Woo!
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- Charli is a singer,
songwriter, entrepreneur.
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- I'm never very
present or in the moment,
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because I'm always
thinking about what's next.
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It's never enough.
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- Charli XCX!
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Her new album-
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- You know,
like nothing is good enough.
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Even as I found success, I
still felt lost and unfulfilled.
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I find it really hard to
look back at my achievements
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and be proud of the things
that I've done.
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- You gonna walk
back over to Mummy now?
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Brilliant!
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- It all takes a
toll on my relationships.
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Whether it be my relationship
with my family, my friends.
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My relationship with
my boyfriend
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or really,
my relationship with myself.
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♪ So let's ride
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♪ Vroom, vroom
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♪ Vroom, vroom
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- In 2016, I released "Vroom
Vroom" and I found support
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from a strong,
proud LGBTQ plus audience.
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Their confidence really
inspired my own confidence.
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And I began to understand
who I was as a person
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and as an artist.
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♪ Beep beep, so let's ride
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- Enter,
The Angels.
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♪ Electric lights
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♪ Blow my mind
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♪ I feel all right
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♪ Never stop, it's how we ride
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♪ Coming up until we die
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- I'd say the angels
are more like a family,
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rather than like,
just the fan base.
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There's a large proportion of
LGBT people.
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And then the other half are
like, allies.
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You know,
I feel like that's what makes
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Charli's fan base quite special.
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- So, I kind of grew
up being very very shy.
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Kind of ashamed of my
femininity.
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- I didn't really feel welcome.
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- There aren't, like, many
people that just get me.
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- When I started to get into
her fan base,
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I finally felt like I
belonged somewhere.
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- Everybody that's in
her community of fans
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supports each other.
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- Charli used to be in one
of the old group chats.
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And I remember there was a
time where she was feeling down
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and she decided to like
type it all out in a message
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and send it to the group chat.
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- The fact that they
were able to show me bravery,
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even if it was just like
through an Instagram post
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or through a tweet or a
simple comment,
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that made me feel like it was
okay for me to be vulnerable
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because I felt so accepted
by them.
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♪ I just wanna break the rules
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- So I got there at like
5AM, to, like, camp out.
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Like, as soon as I got there,
like, I saw one of my friends
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that I'd only known
online up to that point,
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and she was just so sweet.
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She just, like, dropped
everything, like gave me a hug,
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with like, "Ellen!", and I
just, like, immediately felt,
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like, felt safe in that
environment.
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- Like,
I saw her live in October
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and I had a friend from
Twitter actually
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get tickets to
the Philadelphia show
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just so they can meet me.
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- I think a show, and like
a Charli show, for example,
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is, like, one of the only
places where I was able to,
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like, meet with these people.
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Meet my friends.
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Have a space where we can
be ourselves.
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♪ I go hard, I go fast
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♪ And I never look back
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♪ I go speeding on the highway
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♪ Burn rubber, no crash
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♪ Put your hands up and dance
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♪ Bump bump, in the rave
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♪ Go forever and ever
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♪ And bounce, never sleep
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♪ Push it all on repeat
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♪ I go speeding on the highway
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♪ Flame burning, tire screams
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♪ Put your hands up and scream
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♪ Bump bump, lights go out
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♪ Bump, bump, in the rave
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♪ Forever and ever
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- Thank you, thank you.
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Hey, this is some real
cheesy shit right now.
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You know, I've been
through so many different
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phases as an artist.
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From, you know, starting
out, making an album
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that, like, nobody heard
but it was really good,
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to making songs that are
on the radio
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that lots of people heard,
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but nobody really knew they
were by me.
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From doing like big TV shows
and like, being in the charts,
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but realizing that it
didn't make me happy.
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Um,
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and so,
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then,
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kind of changing my mind
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and doing exactly what
the fuck I wanted.
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And, the fact that...
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Oh my god, I'm fucking crying.
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The fact that I can
stand up here
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and sing the songs
that I've made
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because I wanted to make them,
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not even thinking if
anybody else would like them
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or care about them.
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And that you guys care
and you fucking showed up.
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And you value me for me.
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That's really hard to do in
the pop industry, you know.
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And I would not be here
without you.
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And I'm really, really,
from the bottom of my heart,
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I thank you so fucking much,
so thank you.
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Thank you to every single
one of you.
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- Hello.
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- Hi.
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I'm okay,
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I'm okay.
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Um, so I've been isolating,
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self isolating for,
this is my fifth day.
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Not feeling like me
becoming a chef.
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- I don't, in ways, sometimes
I'm like, this is so fun.
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Like, it feels like a snow day.
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We're going to do a live
art class.
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One, two, three.
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- So you do as much as
you can and ten there,
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so you keep your heart
rate up really high.
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- Okay.
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- Over to the left side.
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- You're so good at this.
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Guys, this shit is really
fucking hard.
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And then I kind of get a
bit existential and I get,
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that's when I get kind
of sucked into this hole.
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My heart is, like, racing.
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I feel so anxious.
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I feel so anxious.
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- Everyone being inside
all the time.
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It's just kind of making
the days blur into each other.
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- I haven't seen any of
my friends since March.
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- It's been horrible.
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It's been, like, so lonely.
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- It's been online
all the time, really.
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- Having so much time
to, like, do nothing,
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you get depressed, you
get sad, you get anxious.
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- So, I'm a drag queen,
so I love to party.
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But right now we're home.
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And so, I'm losing it.
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Because my drag is such
a huge part of what I do,
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and I haven't been able
to express myself fully
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the way that I'm used to.
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I had events lined up
and you know
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gigs and all of that
was canceled.
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You know, I feel like part of
me is kind of like missing.
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- I feel like I really
want this lockdown to end.
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I'm kind of just, like,
flailing around doing nothing.
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I need to be preoccupied.
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Everything today feels
so overwhelming, like,
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it's like sensory overload.
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I'm sad.
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- Hi.
- Hi.
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- How's it going?
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- Are you, like,
recording everything
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as in recording everything
in your life, full stop?
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Or like?
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- Your, this is, I'm recording,
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I don't, yeah, there you go.
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Well, I had this idea I
wanted to talk to you about.
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Okay,
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so,
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I've decided
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that during this time
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of self isolation I'm going
to try and make an album.
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Recording myself, sending
things back and forth
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to producers.
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It will be very much what
I can do myself, I suppose.
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Is that too scary?
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- Uh...
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- Okay.
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I got a load of equipment today,
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so I'm going start trying
to test things tomorrow.
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Okay. So I open the, I've
got the Logic file open.
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I can't get it going
through the headphones
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and I'm probably being
really dumb.
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Oh, yeah, it's on the side.
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Okay.
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Input one.
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Woo, okay, yeah feedback.
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- Okay that's great.
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- Yeah.
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Oh, I can hear it.
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Hello.
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Oh my God, I can hear myself.
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Sick!
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Hello.
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La la, la la, la la.
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Okay, now I guess that's
the beginning.
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- Masks are a must.
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And so is keeping close to home.
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- We are extending the safer
at home order until May 15th.
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- Please stay home.
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- Hi, everybody.
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Yes.
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Everybody spam me in the chat.
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Oh my gosh.
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Thank you so much for
joining me.
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I wanted to make this
announcement special.
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For me, my positivity goes hand
in hand with being creative.
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I really need to be creative
to feel happy
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and to feel comfortable
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and to make sure that my mental
health is staying on track.
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And so that's why I've decided
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that I am going to make a
brand new album
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during this quarantine period.
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I'm going to basically be
making it live.
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I want to open up the entire
process to all of you.
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I'm going to be sharing
demos with you,
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acapellas with you.
262
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I'm going to ask you guys
to help me make videos.
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The album is going to be
called "How I'm Feeling Now"
264
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and I'm going to set
the release date for May 15th.
265
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We're starting from nothing.
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Hopefully it all works out.
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- Day one.
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- From all angles.
269
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- What's happening?
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- I'm cooking two pieces
of bacon.
271
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- Got to get this
from the side.
272
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- Got to get this.
273
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- The scoop,
it's the scoop.
274
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We've got it.
275
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- Oh my god, delicious.
276
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How many cameras have you got?
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- There are three cameras.
278
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We're all going to be
filming at all times.
279
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So that maybe we can make
something interesting.
280
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Listening to last file the
agent sent me.
281
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He's in Montana, I'm in L.A.
282
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- Um, fuck I have to
plug all this shit in.
283
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Wait.
284
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Oh my god, this is a mess.
285
00:16:00,373 --> 00:16:03,686
I'm listening to a
Palmistry beat.
286
00:16:03,721 --> 00:16:06,827
This is the idea that got
sent to me.
287
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It's so good.
288
00:16:20,255 --> 00:16:24,293
Sometimes I do feel like
it's good to look cute
289
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if you want to sound cute.
290
00:16:26,054 --> 00:16:30,506
But most of the time, I kind
of just look like trash.
291
00:16:32,646 --> 00:16:34,890
There is no way I'm comping
this shit.
292
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I'm going to send it to A.G.
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♪ In the water, splash around
294
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And also I feel like I can't
really, like,
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sing at the moment.
296
00:16:49,353 --> 00:16:51,044
Like, I sound crazy.
297
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So-
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- I mean, it
might also be the set up,
299
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it might all be-
300
00:16:56,981 --> 00:16:57,947
- So, may-, you-
301
00:16:57,982 --> 00:16:59,363
- That's all that is.
302
00:16:59,397 --> 00:17:00,916
- Yeah, you keep cutting in
and out a little bit, but,
303
00:17:00,950 --> 00:17:03,125
- I'm sorry, that was all-
304
00:17:22,696 --> 00:17:23,559
Ah, fuck.
305
00:17:26,459 --> 00:17:27,770
Oh my god.
306
00:17:27,805 --> 00:17:29,427
How do I end this shit?
307
00:17:29,462 --> 00:17:31,533
I need to end this shit.
308
00:17:31,567 --> 00:17:32,948
Hello everybody.
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It's me.
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Thank you for joining me.
311
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It's only day two, but
I'm really enjoying this
312
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whole new album process.
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Sharing everything
with you guys.
314
00:17:46,479 --> 00:17:49,482
I wanted to tell you about
this song idea
315
00:17:49,516 --> 00:17:51,139
that I've been working on.
316
00:17:51,173 --> 00:17:52,623
I feel like this whole album
317
00:17:52,657 --> 00:17:56,178
is going to be about my
relationship with my partner.
318
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How do you feel today, Huck?
319
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- I feel grateful for this time.
320
00:18:04,324 --> 00:18:05,946
- We've been in quarantine
together
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alongside my two managers,
322
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who I also live with
323
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and we went to school together,
so it's kind of intense.
324
00:18:12,298 --> 00:18:14,265
Prior to quarantine,
we were kind of, like,
325
00:18:14,300 --> 00:18:17,130
going through more of a
difficult time.
326
00:18:17,165 --> 00:18:18,580
He lives in New York.
327
00:18:18,614 --> 00:18:21,376
I live in LA a lot of the time.
328
00:18:21,410 --> 00:18:25,656
And so, obviously, like,
distance is a real thing for us.
329
00:18:25,690 --> 00:18:27,761
When did you come to LA,
330
00:18:27,796 --> 00:18:30,488
and where were you before?
331
00:18:30,523 --> 00:18:33,836
- I came to LA exactly a
month ago.
332
00:18:33,871 --> 00:18:35,562
- What date?
333
00:18:35,597 --> 00:18:36,943
- Friday the 13th.
334
00:18:36,977 --> 00:18:39,118
- Dun, dun, dun!
335
00:18:39,152 --> 00:18:40,774
- Yeah, it's bad.
336
00:18:40,809 --> 00:18:42,880
- And where were you?
337
00:18:42,914 --> 00:18:44,261
- New York city.
338
00:18:45,986 --> 00:18:47,264
- Mm hmm.
339
00:18:47,298 --> 00:18:48,127
- Yeah.
340
00:18:48,161 --> 00:18:50,094
- And where are you now?
341
00:18:50,129 --> 00:18:51,268
- Los Angeles.
342
00:18:51,302 --> 00:18:53,166
- At whose house?
343
00:18:53,201 --> 00:18:55,341
- Charles Emma Aitch-ton.
344
00:18:56,894 --> 00:18:57,860
Aitchison?
345
00:18:59,897 --> 00:19:01,278
- Do you not know how to say it?
346
00:19:01,312 --> 00:19:02,658
- No, I just said it weird.
347
00:19:02,693 --> 00:19:04,039
- It's crazy.
348
00:19:04,073 --> 00:19:07,146
We've dated for seven
years, on and off, but like,
349
00:19:07,180 --> 00:19:11,391
the longest time we've ever
spent together is 11 days.
350
00:19:11,426 --> 00:19:12,565
There are a lot of things
351
00:19:12,599 --> 00:19:14,808
that we needed to kind of
talk about and,
352
00:19:14,843 --> 00:19:19,710
and kind of rescue in our
relationship, I suppose.
353
00:19:19,744 --> 00:19:21,815
I feel like the tone
of the album
354
00:19:21,850 --> 00:19:23,196
and a lot of the lyrics
on the album
355
00:19:23,231 --> 00:19:25,612
are gonna be about him.
356
00:19:26,820 --> 00:19:29,754
Okay. One,
I'm worried that the room is
357
00:19:31,273 --> 00:19:34,587
gonna make everything sound bad.
358
00:19:34,621 --> 00:19:37,072
It's literally just
like, a mic, like that.
359
00:19:37,106 --> 00:19:38,867
- Hopefully it's just
like the mic side level.
360
00:19:38,901 --> 00:19:40,144
I think there's a lot we
can do with it,
361
00:19:40,179 --> 00:19:42,008
even sounding semi lofi.
362
00:19:42,042 --> 00:19:43,734
- Yeah, it should sound lofi.
363
00:19:43,768 --> 00:19:44,873
I mean, it will.
364
00:19:44,907 --> 00:19:46,219
It should.
365
00:19:46,254 --> 00:19:47,634
- Yeah, okay, no
that will be kinda fun.
366
00:19:47,669 --> 00:19:49,567
I was thinking that too
anyway, like more, yeah, yeah,
367
00:19:49,602 --> 00:19:51,466
like borderline party tracks.
368
00:19:51,500 --> 00:19:52,950
- No, I think we should go-
369
00:19:52,984 --> 00:19:54,814
I mean, borderline, but also-
- Full party.
370
00:19:54,848 --> 00:19:57,368
- I think we should, like,
go to the club.
371
00:19:57,403 --> 00:19:58,611
- Okay, but not though.
372
00:19:58,645 --> 00:19:59,439
- But not.
373
00:19:59,474 --> 00:20:00,268
- Just stay in.
374
00:20:00,302 --> 00:20:01,096
- Stay in.
375
00:20:01,130 --> 00:20:01,924
Stay in.
376
00:20:01,959 --> 00:20:04,064
Build your own club.
377
00:20:04,099 --> 00:20:07,654
Um, I'm recording a
second verse idea
378
00:20:07,689 --> 00:20:12,866
for this idea that Dylan Brady
and Danielle Hall sent me.
379
00:20:12,901 --> 00:20:15,179
And basically the song,
currently,
380
00:20:15,214 --> 00:20:18,044
is kind of just about
like, missing my friends
381
00:20:18,078 --> 00:20:22,704
and actually just now I
like really want to party.
382
00:20:22,738 --> 00:20:24,740
Um, oh. And I posted some
of these lyrics online
383
00:20:24,775 --> 00:20:27,916
and people were like these
are so shit,
384
00:20:27,950 --> 00:20:29,228
which I thought was funny,
385
00:20:29,262 --> 00:20:31,126
'cause fuck everyone.
386
00:20:31,160 --> 00:20:33,197
They'll really like
this when it comes out.
387
00:20:33,232 --> 00:20:34,474
Cause it slaps.
388
00:20:35,441 --> 00:20:37,028
♪ Uh, uh, uh
389
00:20:40,239 --> 00:20:41,274
♪ That-
390
00:20:41,309 --> 00:20:44,484
♪ I'm living up when I wake up
391
00:20:44,519 --> 00:20:45,416
♪ Uh, uh
392
00:20:45,451 --> 00:20:46,969
♪ Baby, uh, uh
393
00:21:01,536 --> 00:21:04,021
- Hello, hello, hello, hello.
394
00:21:04,849 --> 00:21:07,473
Um, I wanted to do this live,
395
00:21:07,507 --> 00:21:10,545
because I'm currently
writing a new song
396
00:21:10,579 --> 00:21:14,411
and I need your help on
some lyrics and stuff.
397
00:21:17,172 --> 00:21:19,933
Also, I'm struggling a
bit today.
398
00:21:20,969 --> 00:21:24,144
Like, my voice is in so
much pain.
399
00:21:24,179 --> 00:21:25,525
I also just checked
the countdown
400
00:21:25,560 --> 00:21:28,977
and realized I've got 24
days left to make this album.
401
00:21:29,011 --> 00:21:31,704
And I'm kind of having a
bit of a fucking freak out,
402
00:21:31,738 --> 00:21:33,464
if I'm honest.
403
00:21:33,499 --> 00:21:34,603
Um, but yeah.
404
00:21:36,225 --> 00:21:37,503
It'll be fine.
405
00:21:37,537 --> 00:21:41,817
Okay. So anyways, I want
to play you this new idea.
406
00:21:44,924 --> 00:21:45,994
It's sick.
407
00:21:50,757 --> 00:21:52,138
Can you hear it?
408
00:21:58,972 --> 00:21:59,801
It's a banger.
409
00:21:59,835 --> 00:22:00,629
I love it.
410
00:22:00,664 --> 00:22:02,355
So that is the idea.
411
00:22:03,183 --> 00:22:04,737
That's the beat.
412
00:22:04,771 --> 00:22:06,463
This is the top line
413
00:22:08,810 --> 00:22:10,190
idea that I did.
414
00:22:11,399 --> 00:22:13,608
♪ I want anthems
415
00:22:17,025 --> 00:22:20,200
♪ Finally, when it's over
416
00:22:20,235 --> 00:22:24,446
♪ We could be even closer
417
00:22:24,481 --> 00:22:26,103
Someone saying "Vocals
are a bit rough though",
418
00:22:26,137 --> 00:22:27,311
yeah?
419
00:22:27,346 --> 00:22:29,278
I'm fucking showing you my
process, fool.
420
00:22:36,424 --> 00:22:37,839
So, this is what I'm
thinking right?
421
00:22:37,873 --> 00:22:40,013
♪ Uh, uh, uh, uh
422
00:22:40,048 --> 00:22:40,980
♪ The days are warping
423
00:22:41,014 --> 00:22:43,120
♪ Uh, uh, uh, uh
424
00:22:43,154 --> 00:22:44,915
♪ Go online shopping
425
00:22:45,950 --> 00:22:47,089
Fucking poet.
426
00:22:47,124 --> 00:22:48,367
Mwah.
427
00:22:48,401 --> 00:22:50,058
No, not the days are
whopping, like warping,
428
00:22:50,092 --> 00:22:51,335
like, warping.
429
00:22:51,370 --> 00:22:54,269
The days are warping,
for my American fans.
430
00:22:54,303 --> 00:22:55,408
♪ I'm so uninspired
431
00:22:55,443 --> 00:22:56,616
♪ I just want to breathe
432
00:22:56,651 --> 00:22:58,687
♪ Flowers in the trees
433
00:22:58,722 --> 00:23:00,827
Like, I want to be outside
434
00:23:00,862 --> 00:23:03,692
and then like break
the rhyme, like-
435
00:23:03,727 --> 00:23:05,384
♪ Get some hands
436
00:23:05,418 --> 00:23:07,351
Like I want to hold
someone's hand.
437
00:23:07,386 --> 00:23:09,180
Someone said "Going".
438
00:23:12,045 --> 00:23:13,012
Morphing.
439
00:23:13,046 --> 00:23:14,945
♪ The days are morphing
440
00:23:14,979 --> 00:23:15,773
The day-
441
00:23:15,808 --> 00:23:17,396
Exhausting is good.
442
00:23:18,327 --> 00:23:22,159
These days I'm trolling
.
443
00:23:22,193 --> 00:23:23,643
Oh, feel the heat of the bodies.
444
00:23:23,678 --> 00:23:25,611
Genevieve, I like that.
445
00:23:27,475 --> 00:23:28,993
Okay, so this is the best.
446
00:23:29,028 --> 00:23:31,513
Thank you for helping
me write it.
447
00:23:31,548 --> 00:23:32,756
I'm going to sing it one
more time,
448
00:23:32,790 --> 00:23:33,584
and then I'm done.
449
00:23:36,898 --> 00:23:38,969
♪ Uh, uh, uh, uh
450
00:23:39,003 --> 00:23:39,970
♪ These days exhausting
451
00:23:40,004 --> 00:23:42,144
♪ Uh, uh, uh, uh
452
00:23:42,179 --> 00:23:43,180
♪ Go online shopping
453
00:23:43,214 --> 00:23:44,319
♪ I'm so uninspired
454
00:23:44,353 --> 00:23:45,527
♪ I just wanna breathe
455
00:23:45,562 --> 00:23:46,770
♪ Flowers in the trees
456
00:23:46,804 --> 00:23:47,978
♪ Go down on my knees
457
00:23:48,012 --> 00:23:50,636
♪ Got some hands to hold onto
458
00:23:57,159 --> 00:23:59,196
♪ I just wanna go to parties
459
00:24:02,682 --> 00:24:04,822
♪ I want anthems
460
00:24:04,857 --> 00:24:06,479
♪ Late nights, my friends-
461
00:24:06,514 --> 00:24:07,963
Okay, well, guys,
462
00:24:09,517 --> 00:24:12,002
this is the first time I've
ever done anything like this.
463
00:24:12,036 --> 00:24:13,831
Like, thank you for helping me.
464
00:24:13,866 --> 00:24:16,075
Okay. I'm going to go now.
465
00:24:17,041 --> 00:24:17,904
Um, bye.
466
00:24:19,906 --> 00:24:24,014
Okay. So I just wrote
lyrics with my fans online,
467
00:24:25,740 --> 00:24:26,637
which is cool.
468
00:24:26,672 --> 00:24:28,397
They had good ideas.
469
00:24:29,813 --> 00:24:32,816
Now I'm going to record them.
470
00:24:32,850 --> 00:24:35,474
♪ I'm so bored
471
00:24:35,508 --> 00:24:36,958
- It's just so fun to
be alone in your room
472
00:24:36,992 --> 00:24:39,374
and like put your headphones
in and listen to the new stuff
473
00:24:39,408 --> 00:24:42,342
and just dance and like, forget
about it for three minutes.
474
00:24:46,933 --> 00:24:48,797
♪ I want anthems
475
00:24:48,832 --> 00:24:52,318
- The fact that everybody is,
as a group, listening to this,
476
00:24:52,352 --> 00:24:54,216
like, online at the same
time it's like,
477
00:24:54,251 --> 00:24:56,529
you get to be there with
everyone else.
478
00:24:56,564 --> 00:24:57,496
- It's like a unity, almost.
479
00:24:57,530 --> 00:24:59,394
♪ Wanna wake up with you
480
00:24:59,428 --> 00:25:01,569
♪ I want anthems
481
00:25:05,296 --> 00:25:08,299
♪ Finally, when it's over
482
00:25:08,334 --> 00:25:12,096
♪ We might be even closer
483
00:25:12,131 --> 00:25:15,444
- So I posted three
images online.
484
00:25:15,479 --> 00:25:18,413
I was leaning towards image
number two,
485
00:25:18,447 --> 00:25:21,071
which, it seems like
you guys also
486
00:25:21,105 --> 00:25:23,211
were kind of leaning
towards as well.
487
00:25:23,245 --> 00:25:24,799
- Charli
XCX with a brand new track,
488
00:25:24,833 --> 00:25:25,972
called "Forever".
489
00:25:26,007 --> 00:25:27,077
Charli's on the phone with
us right now
490
00:25:27,111 --> 00:25:28,596
to talk us through the song.
491
00:25:29,804 --> 00:25:30,667
- I need you
guys to help me
492
00:25:30,701 --> 00:25:31,564
sending this stuff in to Dan.
493
00:25:31,599 --> 00:25:32,945
He's editing it all together.
494
00:25:32,979 --> 00:25:34,533
♪ I just wanna go to parties
495
00:25:39,468 --> 00:25:41,470
♪ I will always love you
496
00:25:41,505 --> 00:25:43,093
♪ I love you forever
497
00:25:43,127 --> 00:25:44,750
♪ Even when we're not together
498
00:25:44,784 --> 00:25:46,855
♪ I will always love you
499
00:25:46,890 --> 00:25:48,754
♪ I love you forever
500
00:25:48,788 --> 00:25:52,447
♪ Said, I love you forever
501
00:25:54,898 --> 00:25:55,692
- I love him.
502
00:25:55,726 --> 00:25:56,693
He so hot.
503
00:25:56,727 --> 00:25:58,833
Even with kind of a chin.
504
00:25:59,661 --> 00:26:03,596
Well, he doesn't really have
a double chin at this moment.
505
00:26:03,631 --> 00:26:06,530
I wonder what he's
thinking about.
506
00:26:10,292 --> 00:26:11,984
I like his mustache.
507
00:26:15,366 --> 00:26:16,816
Ah!
508
00:26:16,851 --> 00:26:18,335
Shut up, shut up.
509
00:26:22,753 --> 00:26:23,616
No, don't!
510
00:26:24,168 --> 00:26:25,549
Woo!
511
00:26:25,584 --> 00:26:26,550
Careful!
512
00:26:27,655 --> 00:26:28,863
- Enough.
513
00:26:32,176 --> 00:26:35,939
- I'm feeling a little bit
nervous about
514
00:26:35,973 --> 00:26:38,424
the deadline that's approaching-
515
00:26:39,632 --> 00:26:41,496
- Um, I just got invited
to ask a question,
516
00:26:41,530 --> 00:26:43,256
and I look like shit.
517
00:26:43,291 --> 00:26:45,500
So, this is going to be...
518
00:26:47,502 --> 00:26:48,952
Interesting.
519
00:26:48,986 --> 00:26:51,368
- Coleman, what's up Coleman?
520
00:26:51,402 --> 00:26:52,611
How are you?
521
00:26:52,645 --> 00:26:54,026
- Hey, how are you Charli?
522
00:26:54,060 --> 00:26:56,028
- I'm so good, you look so cute!
523
00:26:56,062 --> 00:26:58,340
Look at your room,
it's so adorable.
524
00:26:58,375 --> 00:26:59,169
- Oh my god, thank you so much.
525
00:26:59,203 --> 00:27:00,342
I literally just woke up.
526
00:27:00,377 --> 00:27:03,069
- So how's your quarantine
been going?
527
00:27:03,104 --> 00:27:05,554
- You know, just being
stuck in my thoughts.
528
00:27:05,589 --> 00:27:06,452
It's hard.
529
00:27:08,212 --> 00:27:09,386
It was really bad for a little,
530
00:27:09,420 --> 00:27:12,009
but like I was very
anxious, very depressed.
531
00:27:12,044 --> 00:27:12,838
I don't know, I'm just,
532
00:27:12,872 --> 00:27:14,253
I'm scared for the future.
533
00:27:14,287 --> 00:27:16,531
Like, what if I can't even
go to college in the fall?
534
00:27:16,565 --> 00:27:18,360
You know, it's just...
535
00:27:18,395 --> 00:27:21,605
- Hi, it's day whatever of
quarantine.
536
00:27:22,848 --> 00:27:24,297
Meant to be here with
my flatmate,
537
00:27:24,332 --> 00:27:28,681
but just before quarantine,
he went home to his family.
538
00:27:30,614 --> 00:27:32,789
I definitely felt lonely.
539
00:27:32,823 --> 00:27:34,549
- I make music, like,
in my bedroom.
540
00:27:34,583 --> 00:27:36,827
So, I'm trying to do a
remix of "claws" right now.
541
00:27:36,862 --> 00:27:39,450
But I'm like, scared,
'cause like,
542
00:27:39,485 --> 00:27:42,246
I don't want to, like,
mess it up.
543
00:27:42,281 --> 00:27:44,593
- I started making some
art works.
544
00:27:44,628 --> 00:27:46,872
It gives me, like,
something to do every day.
545
00:27:46,906 --> 00:27:50,703
So it feels like every day
has, like, a purpose behind it.
546
00:27:50,738 --> 00:27:53,223
- It's like a escape, almost.
547
00:27:56,053 --> 00:27:57,814
- Mental health professionals
are on alert
548
00:27:57,848 --> 00:28:00,023
for those having a difficult
time under these extended
549
00:28:00,057 --> 00:28:02,784
stay at home orders during
the pandemic.
550
00:28:02,819 --> 00:28:04,613
- 41 Action News reporter,
Dan Cohen brings-
551
00:28:04,648 --> 00:28:05,614
- Hey guys.
552
00:28:05,649 --> 00:28:06,650
- Hello.
553
00:28:06,685 --> 00:28:07,927
- Hello Sam.
554
00:28:07,962 --> 00:28:09,618
- How are you feeling now?
555
00:28:09,653 --> 00:28:11,241
- I'm going to start journaling.
556
00:28:11,275 --> 00:28:13,519
- Oh, writing?
557
00:28:13,553 --> 00:28:15,555
- Yeah. I guess you
guys call it journaling.
558
00:28:15,590 --> 00:28:17,385
We would call that like,
writing a diary.
559
00:28:17,419 --> 00:28:19,490
- Yeah, that's nice.
560
00:28:19,525 --> 00:28:20,768
You need another creative
outlet.
561
00:28:20,802 --> 00:28:22,701
What, with the radio show,
the album.
562
00:28:22,735 --> 00:28:23,771
- The rock painting.
563
00:28:23,805 --> 00:28:25,911
- The rock painting
documentary.
564
00:28:25,945 --> 00:28:27,947
- I know.
565
00:28:27,982 --> 00:28:29,846
My therapist said I
have to do it.
566
00:28:29,880 --> 00:28:31,192
- Oh, nice.
567
00:28:31,226 --> 00:28:35,472
- It's supposed to help
me process my thoughts.
568
00:28:35,506 --> 00:28:36,749
- Yeah, mm.
569
00:28:36,784 --> 00:28:38,509
- And she said that because,
570
00:28:38,544 --> 00:28:40,132
you know my dad's
adopted, right?
571
00:28:40,166 --> 00:28:41,340
- Yeah.
572
00:28:41,374 --> 00:28:44,101
- And my
therapist said that, like,
573
00:28:44,136 --> 00:28:47,415
anyone who experiences adoption
574
00:28:47,449 --> 00:28:50,487
experiences,
even if it's a very smooth,
575
00:28:50,521 --> 00:28:53,593
experiences this feeling
of like unwantedness.
576
00:28:53,628 --> 00:28:54,733
- Mm.
577
00:28:54,767 --> 00:28:55,941
- Like,
deep within their core,
578
00:28:55,975 --> 00:28:57,390
right from when they're born.
579
00:28:57,425 --> 00:28:58,633
- Mm.
580
00:28:58,667 --> 00:29:00,946
- And that, that
can be, like, passed on.
581
00:29:00,980 --> 00:29:03,120
It's in their children.
582
00:29:03,155 --> 00:29:06,883
Because there's this
continuous feeling of like,
583
00:29:06,917 --> 00:29:09,161
not being good enough to
be accepted.
584
00:29:09,195 --> 00:29:10,162
- Mm.
585
00:29:11,059 --> 00:29:13,717
- So that was kind of
interesting.
586
00:29:13,752 --> 00:29:15,477
So that's why I have to journal.
587
00:29:15,512 --> 00:29:16,789
That's the long story
about that.
588
00:29:16,824 --> 00:29:19,274
- No, it's super,
589
00:29:19,309 --> 00:29:20,966
it's super interesting.
- Very interesting.
590
00:29:21,000 --> 00:29:21,967
- Thank you for
sharing that.
591
00:29:22,001 --> 00:29:23,209
- That's okay.
592
00:29:23,244 --> 00:29:26,730
Okay, so, I am going
to write a to-do list.
593
00:29:31,045 --> 00:29:34,703
So that I don't feel
unproductive tomorrow.
594
00:29:39,708 --> 00:29:44,748
Like, I've got serious issues
with the way I handle my work
595
00:29:45,404 --> 00:29:48,441
and the way I depend on work
596
00:29:48,476 --> 00:29:50,547
to make me feel like I'm a
good person.
597
00:29:50,581 --> 00:29:51,859
Palmistry beat.
598
00:29:53,067 --> 00:29:55,794
I don't think I'm pretty enough.
599
00:29:57,865 --> 00:29:59,625
I don't think I'm smart enough.
600
00:29:59,659 --> 00:30:02,214
I don't think I'm
interesting enough
601
00:30:02,248 --> 00:30:07,253
or funny enough of a person
to function without my work.
602
00:30:09,428 --> 00:30:12,672
I feel like my work and
everything around it
603
00:30:12,707 --> 00:30:17,298
is what makes me different
and interesting from people.
604
00:30:18,437 --> 00:30:22,199
And without it, I just
feel like I'm nothing.
605
00:30:26,721 --> 00:30:31,346
Okay, recording over
the outro for "Seven Years".
606
00:30:31,381 --> 00:30:34,936
♪ Always, always, always
607
00:30:34,971 --> 00:30:37,836
I really have to get over
giving a fuck what I sound like.
608
00:30:37,870 --> 00:30:39,734
♪ Ooh
609
00:30:43,358 --> 00:30:45,326
Okay, I'm going to see if
I can comp any of this,
610
00:30:45,360 --> 00:30:47,535
and if not,
I'll do a few more takes.
611
00:30:49,848 --> 00:30:53,023
Maybe even the first
two bits of take seven.
612
00:30:56,889 --> 00:31:01,031
Deep, know that look inside
my eyes means deep pain?
613
00:31:04,932 --> 00:31:07,348
Could be kind of interesting.
614
00:31:07,382 --> 00:31:08,314
♪ Real strange
615
00:31:08,349 --> 00:31:10,972
♪ Always, yeah
616
00:31:12,008 --> 00:31:13,354
Sick, love that.
617
00:31:13,388 --> 00:31:15,149
♪ Ooh, ooh
618
00:31:15,183 --> 00:31:16,598
Okay, not done on that.
619
00:31:16,633 --> 00:31:18,773
What happens if we do
something mad?
620
00:31:19,670 --> 00:31:20,913
♪ Hello hello hello
621
00:31:20,948 --> 00:31:22,259
♪ I see clearly
622
00:31:27,540 --> 00:31:31,061
♪ Now I really see it
623
00:31:32,856 --> 00:31:33,926
Okay, I'm not gonna play
the chorus,
624
00:31:33,961 --> 00:31:36,791
but the chorus kind of
goes off too.
625
00:31:36,825 --> 00:31:38,551
Yeah. That's it.
626
00:31:38,586 --> 00:31:40,036
That's where I'm at.
627
00:31:40,070 --> 00:31:43,073
I will post some stuff on
main feed.
628
00:31:43,108 --> 00:31:47,250
And then in the comments
maybe you can just like say,
629
00:31:47,284 --> 00:31:49,424
you know, what you think.
630
00:31:50,218 --> 00:31:52,807
- I've got another idea
for the video.
631
00:31:52,841 --> 00:31:54,119
A different idea.
632
00:31:54,153 --> 00:31:54,947
- Which video?
633
00:31:54,982 --> 00:31:56,224
- The "claws" video.
634
00:31:56,259 --> 00:31:57,674
You know, I envisioned-
- Oh, the scooter stuff.
635
00:31:57,708 --> 00:31:58,502
- Yeah.
636
00:31:59,952 --> 00:32:02,161
Literally a fucking disaster.
637
00:32:03,852 --> 00:32:05,199
Ah!
638
00:32:09,686 --> 00:32:11,619
I'm going to fucking die
making this.
639
00:32:11,653 --> 00:32:13,483
So, forget about that
for a second.
640
00:32:13,517 --> 00:32:14,622
- Yeah.
641
00:32:14,656 --> 00:32:16,658
- I was thinking it could
be a cool idea
642
00:32:16,693 --> 00:32:19,006
to get green screen.
643
00:32:19,040 --> 00:32:20,179
- Mm, yeah.
644
00:32:20,214 --> 00:32:22,009
- It could just be a shit,
a shit one.
645
00:32:22,043 --> 00:32:25,184
And two green suits,
like body suits.
646
00:32:27,842 --> 00:32:29,119
- I know what you want to do.
647
00:32:29,154 --> 00:32:31,984
- And then me and Huck
are going to just make out
648
00:32:32,019 --> 00:32:33,675
for like, 2 minutes.
649
00:32:33,710 --> 00:32:36,678
And what could be cool is
that fans can send stuff.
650
00:32:36,713 --> 00:32:37,748
- Yeah?
651
00:32:37,783 --> 00:32:39,164
- To go on the green screen,
as well.
652
00:32:39,198 --> 00:32:41,097
And it will just look like
our heads are like floating.
653
00:32:41,131 --> 00:32:42,684
- Oh, I love that!
654
00:32:45,584 --> 00:32:47,103
- Sick.
655
00:32:47,137 --> 00:32:49,519
Wanna go show Sam my outfit.
656
00:32:54,006 --> 00:32:55,283
- Oh my god!
657
00:32:55,318 --> 00:32:56,181
What!
658
00:32:57,768 --> 00:32:59,494
This is, like,
incredibly unflattering.
659
00:33:00,840 --> 00:33:02,221
What does it look like if
it's up over your head?
660
00:33:02,256 --> 00:33:04,465
- That's all the way up.
661
00:33:04,499 --> 00:33:07,571
- Obviously,
can't help ourselves.
662
00:33:07,606 --> 00:33:09,021
Do you not want to do it?
663
00:33:09,056 --> 00:33:10,229
- No, I can do it.
664
00:33:10,264 --> 00:33:12,714
- If you don't want to
do it, just tell me.
665
00:33:12,749 --> 00:33:14,854
And I'll think of a new idea.
666
00:33:23,208 --> 00:33:25,037
- Are you worried about
wearing your green suit?
667
00:33:28,178 --> 00:33:30,801
- It won't be anyone else
in the room.
668
00:33:30,836 --> 00:33:33,080
We'll shoot it just you and
me together,
669
00:33:33,114 --> 00:33:34,495
on tripods and stuff.
670
00:33:34,529 --> 00:33:36,842
So, neither of us feel weird.
671
00:33:36,876 --> 00:33:37,912
- Mm.
672
00:33:44,091 --> 00:33:44,988
- Okay.
673
00:33:50,718 --> 00:33:53,065
This is our music video set.
674
00:33:56,724 --> 00:34:00,521
We made sure we recreated
it exactly how
675
00:34:00,555 --> 00:34:03,110
they normally do,
with the E on Charli,
676
00:34:03,144 --> 00:34:07,838
'cause everyone always spelled
my name wrong on videos.
677
00:34:07,873 --> 00:34:08,736
Take one.
678
00:34:12,567 --> 00:34:14,259
♪ Like your eyes, I could die
679
00:34:14,293 --> 00:34:16,054
♪ Airplane, you are so fly
680
00:34:16,088 --> 00:34:17,917
♪ Singin' songs by Jeremih
681
00:34:17,952 --> 00:34:19,022
- Question?
682
00:34:19,057 --> 00:34:19,919
- Yeah?
683
00:34:19,954 --> 00:34:20,748
- Should these lights be off?
684
00:34:20,782 --> 00:34:21,576
- Yes.
685
00:34:24,855 --> 00:34:26,064
- Oh my gosh.
686
00:34:26,098 --> 00:34:27,444
- Sorry guys.
687
00:34:27,479 --> 00:34:30,447
- So yeah,
we're shooting this video
688
00:34:30,482 --> 00:34:31,897
and this is the first time
me and Huck
689
00:34:31,931 --> 00:34:34,106
have shot a video together.
690
00:34:34,141 --> 00:34:36,177
And I think we're a good team.
691
00:34:36,212 --> 00:34:37,592
What do you think?
692
00:34:37,627 --> 00:34:39,007
- Yeah.
693
00:34:39,042 --> 00:34:40,423
I carry stuff.
694
00:34:48,362 --> 00:34:51,089
- How is it if I start
like this?
695
00:34:51,123 --> 00:34:52,538
Does it look cool?
696
00:34:52,573 --> 00:34:53,367
- Yeah.
697
00:34:53,401 --> 00:34:54,437
- Cool.
698
00:34:55,955 --> 00:34:57,612
♪ Like your eyes, I could die
699
00:34:57,647 --> 00:34:59,373
♪ Airplane, you are so fly
700
00:34:59,407 --> 00:35:03,101
♪ Singin' songs by Jeremih
701
00:35:03,135 --> 00:35:03,998
Hot
702
00:35:06,034 --> 00:35:08,830
♪ I like, I like
703
00:35:25,951 --> 00:35:26,986
- Yeah?
704
00:35:31,474 --> 00:35:34,166
Thanks everybody for being here.
705
00:35:34,201 --> 00:35:36,134
That's a wrap.
706
00:35:36,168 --> 00:35:38,343
Let's make some noise for-
707
00:35:39,827 --> 00:35:43,279
for number one, for
number one and number two.
708
00:35:43,313 --> 00:35:44,176
Thank you.
709
00:35:45,212 --> 00:35:48,560
Thank you goes to the directors.
710
00:35:48,594 --> 00:35:51,079
And, lovely to work with you.
711
00:36:01,262 --> 00:36:02,367
- So cool.
712
00:36:02,401 --> 00:36:03,678
There's this dance that
Charli does
713
00:36:03,713 --> 00:36:06,992
in the first verse of
the "claws" music video,
714
00:36:07,026 --> 00:36:08,787
and I want to see if I
can learn it
715
00:36:08,821 --> 00:36:12,239
and like film a video of me
dancing to it.
716
00:36:14,033 --> 00:36:17,830
A lot of people don't have
supportive parents or family
717
00:36:17,865 --> 00:36:19,867
that they're staying with
at the moment,
718
00:36:19,901 --> 00:36:23,008
and that's like a really
tough thing for them.
719
00:36:23,042 --> 00:36:27,530
Just having something to
feel like they're a part of,
720
00:36:27,564 --> 00:36:30,636
and to like contribute
to, and like talk about
721
00:36:30,671 --> 00:36:34,019
has definitely been like a
really like, right part of it.
722
00:36:34,053 --> 00:36:35,020
That was not good.
723
00:36:35,054 --> 00:36:36,746
That was attempt number one.
724
00:36:36,780 --> 00:36:37,643
Hi Ronald.
725
00:36:37,678 --> 00:36:38,748
- How are you?
726
00:36:38,782 --> 00:36:40,577
Okay. So you're going to
call me crazy,
727
00:36:40,612 --> 00:36:42,821
but I have this cool idea.
728
00:36:43,615 --> 00:36:46,928
I don't have that many
friends in real life,
729
00:36:46,963 --> 00:36:48,896
here where I live.
730
00:36:48,930 --> 00:36:51,381
People that surround me, they
don't like the way I dress,
731
00:36:51,416 --> 00:36:53,245
or the music I listen to.
732
00:36:54,522 --> 00:36:56,766
I feel like they will
never understand that.
733
00:36:56,800 --> 00:37:01,840
So, basically I want to throw
a Charli XCX virtual party.
734
00:37:02,047 --> 00:37:04,014
- Wait, that's such a good idea.
735
00:37:04,049 --> 00:37:05,568
- Virtual parties have
had, like,
736
00:37:05,602 --> 00:37:07,259
a big impact in my life,
737
00:37:07,294 --> 00:37:10,469
because those places
didn't exist for me before.
738
00:37:10,504 --> 00:37:12,851
- A bunch of, like,
angels do DJ sets,
739
00:37:12,885 --> 00:37:14,370
and they're going to, like,
740
00:37:14,404 --> 00:37:16,855
be playing their own
mixes of Charli songs.
741
00:37:16,889 --> 00:37:19,720
- I really want people to come.
742
00:37:22,205 --> 00:37:25,104
♪ I wish I had a better excuse
743
00:37:43,813 --> 00:37:45,642
- Guys,
we have a special guest.
744
00:37:45,677 --> 00:37:47,575
Charli is in the room.
745
00:37:47,610 --> 00:37:48,887
- Charli?
746
00:37:48,921 --> 00:37:49,991
- Is she really here?
- Is that actual Charli
747
00:37:50,026 --> 00:37:51,199
or just someone joining
as Charli?
748
00:37:51,234 --> 00:37:52,684
- No, it is Charli!
749
00:37:52,718 --> 00:37:53,892
- Oh my god.
- Shut up.
750
00:37:56,550 --> 00:37:58,966
- Hello, hello, it's Charli.
751
00:37:59,000 --> 00:37:59,932
Love you.
752
00:37:59,967 --> 00:38:02,141
- You guys want to hear a demo?
753
00:38:02,176 --> 00:38:04,178
Big secret, don't tell anyone,
754
00:38:04,212 --> 00:38:07,112
but I made, like, a
new version of "Click".
755
00:38:09,183 --> 00:38:10,564
- What?
756
00:38:10,598 --> 00:38:12,428
Charli is here!
757
00:38:12,462 --> 00:38:13,394
She's fucking here!
758
00:38:14,292 --> 00:38:16,363
♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah
759
00:38:16,397 --> 00:38:17,743
♪ I'm next level, so legit
760
00:38:21,333 --> 00:38:22,714
♪ I'm next level, so legit
761
00:38:27,063 --> 00:38:28,340
♪ I'm next level, so legit
762
00:38:34,795 --> 00:38:36,175
♪ Charli!
763
00:39:01,787 --> 00:39:05,688
- How long do you think
you'll wear a mask for?
764
00:39:05,722 --> 00:39:06,827
- Indefinitely.
765
00:39:06,861 --> 00:39:08,829
Especially if I go back
to New York.
766
00:39:08,863 --> 00:39:12,557
- Have you had any more
updates on that?
767
00:39:12,591 --> 00:39:15,145
- I think it'll open up
again soon, our office,
768
00:39:15,180 --> 00:39:19,426
but they're going to
like stagger everyone.
769
00:39:19,460 --> 00:39:22,152
And since I'm like, events,
770
00:39:22,187 --> 00:39:25,535
we're like pretty low on
the totem pole.
771
00:39:27,434 --> 00:39:30,678
So I may be stuck with you
for a while.
772
00:39:33,647 --> 00:39:35,925
How do you feel about that?
773
00:39:36,891 --> 00:39:39,480
- Be weird when you leave,
774
00:39:39,515 --> 00:39:40,619
if you leave.
775
00:39:47,212 --> 00:39:49,525
Even though I know I'm a
good person,
776
00:39:49,559 --> 00:39:52,666
I guess, like, deep,
like, within me,
777
00:39:56,152 --> 00:39:59,845
I seem to think that
I'm a really bad person
778
00:40:00,950 --> 00:40:04,402
and it's kind of a tough
journey to be on
779
00:40:05,679 --> 00:40:08,682
whilst you're around a
lot of people.
780
00:40:10,062 --> 00:40:12,410
Oh, why's my Mum ringing me?
781
00:40:13,272 --> 00:40:14,066
Hello?
782
00:40:14,101 --> 00:40:15,240
- It's quite late.
783
00:40:15,274 --> 00:40:16,206
- Hi.
784
00:40:16,241 --> 00:40:17,173
- Hi.
- How are you?
785
00:40:17,207 --> 00:40:19,451
- I'm good, how are you?
786
00:40:19,486 --> 00:40:21,315
- Yeah, good thanks.
787
00:40:21,349 --> 00:40:22,834
- Oh, are you-
788
00:40:22,868 --> 00:40:25,699
you're trying to video call me?
789
00:40:25,733 --> 00:40:26,803
- Yeah.
790
00:40:26,838 --> 00:40:28,391
- You okay?
791
00:40:28,426 --> 00:40:29,565
- Yes, I'm okay.
792
00:40:29,599 --> 00:40:32,084
I just heard your Instagram.
793
00:40:32,119 --> 00:40:34,432
- Oh, yeah, yeah, I'm fine.
794
00:40:35,225 --> 00:40:36,364
- What was all that about?
795
00:40:36,399 --> 00:40:37,745
- That was-
796
00:40:37,780 --> 00:40:41,853
It's just a, uh, audio from
like a voice recording.
797
00:40:43,268 --> 00:40:45,684
- I was just about
getting ready for bed
798
00:40:45,719 --> 00:40:48,963
and I just looked on
Instagram and saw that,
799
00:40:48,998 --> 00:40:54,106
and I thought, "Oh my God,
that sounds very depressing."
800
00:40:54,141 --> 00:40:55,522
- Don't be sad.
801
00:40:55,556 --> 00:40:57,006
Aw, don't be sad.
802
00:40:59,733 --> 00:41:01,493
- Okay, I just
heard it and I thought,
803
00:41:01,528 --> 00:41:02,632
what's all this about?
804
00:41:02,667 --> 00:41:05,324
You're not a horrible person.
805
00:41:05,359 --> 00:41:07,672
Okay, no,
so long as you're okay.
806
00:41:07,706 --> 00:41:08,673
- I'm okay.
807
00:41:08,707 --> 00:41:10,985
- Okay, that's fine.
808
00:41:11,020 --> 00:41:14,402
- Yeah, I think it
probably just scared her.
809
00:41:14,437 --> 00:41:17,440
- Yeah, I mean, it was
hard for me to listen to.
810
00:41:17,475 --> 00:41:18,717
- Really?
811
00:41:18,752 --> 00:41:20,857
- Yeah, I mean, not that,
I know-
812
00:41:20,892 --> 00:41:25,931
we've been talking about all
that sort of stuff, but I mean,
813
00:41:29,659 --> 00:41:30,591
it was sad.
814
00:41:34,319 --> 00:41:35,182
- Yeah.
815
00:41:46,365 --> 00:41:47,159
- Hello.
816
00:41:47,194 --> 00:41:48,126
- You all right?
817
00:42:04,556 --> 00:42:05,419
- Oh,
818
00:42:07,421 --> 00:42:10,182
I stayed up very late
last night,
819
00:42:11,080 --> 00:42:13,945
recording till six in
the morning.
820
00:42:21,711 --> 00:42:23,368
and, it's not done.
821
00:42:33,205 --> 00:42:34,172
♪ I just wanna go real hard
822
00:42:34,206 --> 00:42:35,587
♪ I just wanna go real hard
823
00:42:35,622 --> 00:42:36,588
♪ Pink diamond in the dark
824
00:42:36,623 --> 00:42:37,900
♪ I just want to go real hard
825
00:42:37,934 --> 00:42:40,316
♪ I just want to go real hard
826
00:42:49,808 --> 00:42:50,878
♪ We went from really-
827
00:42:50,913 --> 00:42:52,155
Fuck off.
828
00:42:52,190 --> 00:42:54,882
Fuck, fuck, read, just
fucking read, Charli.
829
00:42:54,917 --> 00:42:59,197
Just read the fucking shit
that you wrote.
830
00:42:59,231 --> 00:43:00,267
Okay, again.
831
00:43:13,418 --> 00:43:14,971
♪ The walls are all gone d-
832
00:43:15,006 --> 00:43:16,421
No.
833
00:43:16,455 --> 00:43:18,941
♪ He put me in the ground
834
00:43:21,771 --> 00:43:25,188
I just feel like I'm not going
to finish this album in time.
835
00:43:25,223 --> 00:43:29,020
We've got two songs of a 12
song, of a 10 song album mixed.
836
00:43:29,054 --> 00:43:29,848
- Mm.
837
00:43:29,883 --> 00:43:31,885
- Like, that's not good.
838
00:43:32,782 --> 00:43:34,059
That's like really really,
really,
839
00:43:34,094 --> 00:43:36,406
really, really fucking bad.
840
00:43:41,791 --> 00:43:43,966
Ah, it's so hard to
fucking focus,
841
00:43:44,000 --> 00:43:47,176
because I know that
you're watching.
842
00:43:47,210 --> 00:43:51,042
This, it's like, I can't, it's
actually really difficult.
843
00:43:56,530 --> 00:43:57,393
Shit.
844
00:43:58,705 --> 00:44:02,087
I can't,
it's actually driving me crazy.
845
00:44:09,612 --> 00:44:13,064
Oof, I just had a call with
my therapist,
846
00:44:14,513 --> 00:44:18,690
which is a new thing that
I've been kind of doing.
847
00:44:20,519 --> 00:44:23,833
I started like a week
before quarantine
848
00:44:23,868 --> 00:44:27,457
and I think I've probably
done about like,
849
00:44:27,492 --> 00:44:30,840
five or six sessions now
over the phone.
850
00:44:32,290 --> 00:44:33,912
We only got to do one in person,
851
00:44:33,947 --> 00:44:37,053
because then the quarantine
happened.
852
00:44:38,330 --> 00:44:41,195
But yeah,
it's really interesting.
853
00:44:44,647 --> 00:44:45,510
And,
854
00:44:48,962 --> 00:44:54,001
I don't know, I'm just learning
a lot of stuff about myself.
855
00:44:59,075 --> 00:45:02,354
She asked me to write this
thing down.
856
00:45:02,389 --> 00:45:03,701
Three things down.
857
00:45:03,735 --> 00:45:07,256
One says,
just because I believe something
858
00:45:07,290 --> 00:45:09,223
doesn't mean it's true.
859
00:45:10,638 --> 00:45:14,159
Another one says,
be gentle on myself.
860
00:45:14,194 --> 00:45:17,093
And the third one says,
I'm good enough.
861
00:45:17,128 --> 00:45:21,028
And I find it really hard
to read the last one.
862
00:45:22,133 --> 00:45:25,895
I find it really hard
to say I'm good enough.
863
00:45:28,001 --> 00:45:31,556
And I find it hard because,
when I say it,
864
00:45:39,598 --> 00:45:43,499
when I say it I just immediately
like, hear this voice,
865
00:45:43,533 --> 00:45:48,366
and it says, you don't
deserve to be good enough.
866
00:45:48,400 --> 00:45:51,507
And I really, I know that I do.
867
00:45:51,541 --> 00:45:56,374
It's like my head and my
body feel different things,
868
00:45:56,408 --> 00:45:59,998
like I know, I do
deserve to be good enough
869
00:46:01,034 --> 00:46:03,484
but my, like, core inside me,
870
00:46:06,349 --> 00:46:09,594
like, doesn't want me to, like,
871
00:46:09,628 --> 00:46:14,495
doesn't believe it's true
or something like that.
872
00:46:17,878 --> 00:46:20,329
I'm supposed to be confident,
873
00:46:22,883 --> 00:46:27,163
and like, inspiring, I hate
myself for saying that,
874
00:46:28,578 --> 00:46:32,341
but I'm not and it makes
me feel like a liar.
875
00:46:34,999 --> 00:46:36,655
- Public health director,
Barbara Ferreira,
876
00:46:36,690 --> 00:46:38,416
Dr. Barbara Ferriera
suggested that
877
00:46:38,450 --> 00:46:42,385
LA County stay at home order
will likely be extended
878
00:46:42,420 --> 00:46:44,456
for the next three months.
879
00:46:44,491 --> 00:46:46,044
- That
is very sobering news.
880
00:46:46,079 --> 00:46:47,287
Now, here's what she said.
881
00:46:47,321 --> 00:46:48,633
- I just don't know how
longer I can take,
882
00:46:48,667 --> 00:46:50,842
like, life being so weird.
883
00:46:52,879 --> 00:46:55,295
And that sounds very selfish,
884
00:46:55,329 --> 00:46:56,952
but it's just like,
885
00:46:57,884 --> 00:46:59,092
it sucks.
886
00:46:59,126 --> 00:47:01,059
Like the thought of
like going to a concert
887
00:47:01,094 --> 00:47:03,959
or going to a club or
like going to a party,
888
00:47:03,993 --> 00:47:04,856
it's like,
889
00:47:05,961 --> 00:47:08,687
did that ever really exist?
890
00:47:08,722 --> 00:47:10,724
It feels like a dream.
891
00:47:10,758 --> 00:47:13,244
- It really is like such a
lonely time.
892
00:47:13,278 --> 00:47:16,419
Cause I'm out of work currently,
but I'm also transitioning
893
00:47:16,454 --> 00:47:18,974
and my parents aren't
supportive of that.
894
00:47:19,008 --> 00:47:22,046
So, I'm like spending every
single day in my bedroom
895
00:47:22,080 --> 00:47:25,221
and work kind of gave me
that escape.
896
00:47:26,222 --> 00:47:27,258
- I just try to hide, like,
897
00:47:27,292 --> 00:47:28,949
pretty much everything
that I do.
898
00:47:28,984 --> 00:47:33,126
At least my mom, I mean,
she's just very not supportive
899
00:47:33,160 --> 00:47:35,611
and it's just, it's hard.
900
00:47:35,645 --> 00:47:37,371
- At this point,
I just kind of live
901
00:47:37,406 --> 00:47:39,235
in Charli concerts in my mind
902
00:47:39,270 --> 00:47:41,030
to kind of help me get
through my day.
903
00:47:44,654 --> 00:47:46,898
- I've still been working
a little bit here and there
904
00:47:46,933 --> 00:47:50,143
but it has been like a cut
to my income.
905
00:47:50,177 --> 00:47:53,146
I can still, you know,
do the makeup
906
00:47:53,180 --> 00:47:55,665
and do the outfit and take
some photos.
907
00:47:55,700 --> 00:47:57,219
But there's so much of
the experience
908
00:47:57,253 --> 00:47:58,461
that is missing from that.
909
00:47:59,600 --> 00:48:02,086
- San Franciso's oldest gay bar,
The Stud,
910
00:48:02,120 --> 00:48:03,881
is closing its doors.
911
00:48:05,986 --> 00:48:06,814
- I miss the club.
912
00:48:06,849 --> 00:48:08,126
I miss outside.
913
00:48:10,370 --> 00:48:12,579
- I'm stuck here, like,
with my thoughts
914
00:48:12,613 --> 00:48:15,582
and it's challenging at times.
915
00:48:15,616 --> 00:48:19,275
But like, with seeing
her just share all this,
916
00:48:19,310 --> 00:48:24,004
it's, it gives a lot of us
something to look forward to.
917
00:48:32,012 --> 00:48:32,910
- What?
918
00:48:36,534 --> 00:48:38,950
- What's the best
thing about me?
919
00:48:38,985 --> 00:48:41,263
- The best thing about you?
920
00:48:42,402 --> 00:48:43,265
Mm.
921
00:48:54,000 --> 00:48:56,554
The best thing about you is...
922
00:49:01,317 --> 00:49:04,148
Probably tits?
923
00:49:04,182 --> 00:49:05,218
Maybe... uh.
924
00:49:07,875 --> 00:49:09,808
- Oh my gosh.
925
00:49:09,843 --> 00:49:11,431
- I'm just kidding.
926
00:49:13,295 --> 00:49:17,057
The best part is just
our whole relationship.
927
00:49:18,162 --> 00:49:19,957
Seven years.
928
00:49:19,991 --> 00:49:22,856
You're very fun,
you make me laugh
929
00:49:24,754 --> 00:49:26,411
and nice, sometimes.
930
00:49:27,240 --> 00:49:29,863
- When am I not nice?
931
00:49:29,897 --> 00:49:32,797
- When you're tired.
932
00:49:36,042 --> 00:49:39,873
- What's
the worst thing about me?
933
00:49:39,907 --> 00:49:40,770
- Um...
934
00:49:48,433 --> 00:49:54,577
I don't like it when you're
not enjoying yourself.
935
00:49:58,236 --> 00:50:00,549
To have a little more fun.
936
00:50:00,583 --> 00:50:02,413
- What do you
mean, like, in life?
937
00:50:02,447 --> 00:50:03,655
- Yeah.
938
00:50:03,690 --> 00:50:06,210
- You don't think
I have fun?
939
00:50:06,244 --> 00:50:08,108
- You're a workaholic.
940
00:50:11,456 --> 00:50:16,013
- Do you like
living with me in my house?
941
00:50:16,047 --> 00:50:19,499
- I love living with you
in your house.
942
00:50:19,533 --> 00:50:22,088
- Are you just saying
that cause you're on camera?
943
00:50:22,122 --> 00:50:23,641
- No.
944
00:50:23,675 --> 00:50:24,987
Um...
945
00:50:25,022 --> 00:50:26,713
- Were you nervous
about living with me
946
00:50:26,747 --> 00:50:28,094
in my house?
947
00:50:28,128 --> 00:50:32,374
- Yeah. I thought that
we were gonna, well,
948
00:50:32,408 --> 00:50:35,377
this is the most time we've,
949
00:50:35,411 --> 00:50:36,723
the longest time we'd
spent together
950
00:50:36,757 --> 00:50:39,312
before this was like two weeks.
951
00:50:39,346 --> 00:50:40,589
- Which is crazy,
952
00:50:40,623 --> 00:50:42,660
for people who've been
together for seven years.
953
00:50:42,694 --> 00:50:43,557
- Yeah.
954
00:50:44,455 --> 00:50:46,491
Given what your life is,
955
00:50:48,838 --> 00:50:52,359
I know that this is, like,
very rare time.
956
00:50:55,397 --> 00:50:57,019
So I'm enjoying it.
957
00:51:16,314 --> 00:51:19,248
- Do you think
we have it?
958
00:51:20,525 --> 00:51:21,733
Oh yeah, cool.
959
00:51:26,428 --> 00:51:29,155
I like it with the camera too,
actually.
960
00:51:29,189 --> 00:51:30,397
- Yeah.
961
00:51:31,743 --> 00:51:35,920
- That, I feel like this
can be like an album cover.
962
00:51:35,954 --> 00:51:37,128
That one.
963
00:51:37,163 --> 00:51:39,061
♪ Party on you
964
00:52:00,600 --> 00:52:01,463
Oof, god.
965
00:52:20,965 --> 00:52:25,383
♪ Baby, I love you bad
966
00:52:25,418 --> 00:52:27,074
♪ Baby, I love you bad
967
00:52:27,109 --> 00:52:31,113
♪ Oh, baby, oh I love you bad
968
00:52:31,148 --> 00:52:33,080
♪ Baby
969
00:52:35,980 --> 00:52:38,293
I finally understand,
I finally understand.
970
00:52:38,327 --> 00:52:41,986
My therapist said I
hate myself really bad.
971
00:52:44,920 --> 00:52:46,370
She did say that.
972
00:52:52,824 --> 00:52:54,274
Oh, wait, wait, wait.
973
00:53:05,768 --> 00:53:08,495
♪ Baby, I love you bad
974
00:53:18,195 --> 00:53:20,749
- You've tapped
in from around the world.
975
00:53:22,682 --> 00:53:26,168
Zane Lowe,
live from Los Angeles.
976
00:53:26,375 --> 00:53:28,412
- Charli's on Zane Lowe.
977
00:53:29,309 --> 00:53:30,655
- I don't want to keep
asking all these questions,
978
00:53:30,690 --> 00:53:33,382
but it just screams at me,
I have to ask it, like,
979
00:53:33,417 --> 00:53:34,935
what are you finally understand?
980
00:53:34,970 --> 00:53:36,558
- Basically,
me and my boyfriend
981
00:53:36,592 --> 00:53:37,973
have quarantined together.
982
00:53:38,007 --> 00:53:40,147
It's brought us physically
close together,
983
00:53:40,182 --> 00:53:43,875
but also emotionally, like, I
finally understand that, like,
984
00:53:43,910 --> 00:53:47,189
this person is somebody who
I can trust with my life
985
00:53:47,224 --> 00:53:48,949
and just feel very connected
986
00:53:48,984 --> 00:53:50,675
with the people that I'm around.
987
00:53:50,710 --> 00:53:53,609
And I feel more connected
than ever.
988
00:53:53,644 --> 00:53:54,679
♪ Baby
989
00:53:55,542 --> 00:53:56,716
♪ I love you bad
990
00:54:05,932 --> 00:54:06,795
Five
991
00:54:08,072 --> 00:54:08,935
days,
992
00:54:09,729 --> 00:54:12,283
'til the album comes out.
993
00:54:12,318 --> 00:54:14,699
The fans are really excited.
994
00:54:16,080 --> 00:54:19,428
That makes me feel really
happy because,
995
00:54:20,567 --> 00:54:23,846
I guess yeah,
this process is for them.
996
00:54:25,676 --> 00:54:27,367
And that feels truly
997
00:54:30,991 --> 00:54:31,854
special.
998
00:54:32,924 --> 00:54:34,926
We're closing in, guys.
999
00:54:34,961 --> 00:54:37,515
It's the final count down.
1000
00:54:46,904 --> 00:54:49,320
Send him the glitch doc, saying
that, got to update that.
1001
00:54:50,666 --> 00:54:52,806
I'm sending you a list of
songs to send to Mitch.
1002
00:54:52,841 --> 00:54:54,118
- Is it one of
the performance thing
1003
00:54:54,152 --> 00:54:55,326
that I'm forgetting?
1004
00:54:55,361 --> 00:54:59,330
- Okay. Now I need to
fucking finish an album.
1005
00:55:01,919 --> 00:55:03,092
- If you could do
the merch shoot,
1006
00:55:03,127 --> 00:55:05,647
that would be a tick.
- Big tick.
1007
00:55:05,681 --> 00:55:07,234
- I thought bin day was Monday.
1008
00:55:07,269 --> 00:55:09,098
- Bin day is Friday!
1009
00:55:09,133 --> 00:55:11,135
- Yeah, well, today's Wednesday.
1010
00:55:11,169 --> 00:55:11,998
- Oh.
1011
00:55:15,484 --> 00:55:16,313
I think it sounds amazing.
1012
00:55:16,347 --> 00:55:18,384
I think we should mix it.
1013
00:55:21,973 --> 00:55:22,767
What is that?
1014
00:55:22,802 --> 00:55:23,734
- Oh, cool.
1015
00:55:27,289 --> 00:55:28,083
- Hey, what do you think?
1016
00:55:28,117 --> 00:55:29,187
- I feel good.
1017
00:55:29,222 --> 00:55:30,050
- Really nice.
1018
00:55:34,261 --> 00:55:35,435
- Yes!
1019
00:55:35,470 --> 00:55:36,781
Yeah!
1020
00:55:39,197 --> 00:55:40,060
Woo!
1021
00:55:41,717 --> 00:55:44,824
Sorry, I was playing it so loud
1022
00:55:44,858 --> 00:55:48,034
the camera fell off
the thing it was on.
1023
00:55:49,276 --> 00:55:52,349
Okay, so that transition was
really nice.
1024
00:56:12,472 --> 00:56:13,956
It's quite intense,
but I like it.
1025
00:56:13,991 --> 00:56:15,510
I like that track.
1026
00:56:39,050 --> 00:56:40,327
Sick. That's...
1027
00:56:42,778 --> 00:56:44,262
That's the album.
1028
00:57:03,420 --> 00:57:04,421
Crazy.
1029
00:57:05,974 --> 00:57:06,802
Fuck.
1030
00:57:08,183 --> 00:57:09,149
It's crazy.
1031
00:57:15,121 --> 00:57:17,882
I can't believe I made 11 songs
1032
00:57:17,917 --> 00:57:20,678
and it's going to be
out on time.
1033
00:57:32,552 --> 00:57:34,002
It takes a lot for me
to say this,
1034
00:57:34,036 --> 00:57:36,660
but I'm really proud of myself.
1035
00:57:40,595 --> 00:57:42,320
- Dad wants to speak
to you as well.
1036
00:57:42,355 --> 00:57:43,183
- Hi Dad.
1037
00:57:44,081 --> 00:57:46,359
Yeah. You're on camera
by the way.
1038
00:57:46,393 --> 00:57:47,567
- All right, okay.
1039
00:57:47,602 --> 00:57:50,087
- How have you been,
what have you been doing?
1040
00:57:50,121 --> 00:57:52,538
- Mum wants me to convert an
en suite now.
1041
00:57:52,572 --> 00:57:55,610
Yeah, I'm reluctant to
do it, but Mum's keen.
1042
00:57:55,644 --> 00:57:56,749
- No I'm not.
1043
00:57:56,783 --> 00:57:57,888
- Other way round.
1044
00:57:57,922 --> 00:57:59,683
What do you want to make it?
1045
00:57:59,717 --> 00:58:02,651
- So it could be a,
a secret room.
1046
00:58:02,686 --> 00:58:04,273
- Okay.
1047
00:58:04,308 --> 00:58:05,551
You're so nuts.
1048
00:58:05,585 --> 00:58:06,621
You're nuts.
1049
00:58:07,622 --> 00:58:09,969
- I don't want to do
it, but, Mum's not keen,
1050
00:58:10,003 --> 00:58:12,143
she wants me to get on
with the swimming pool.
1051
00:58:12,178 --> 00:58:13,248
- No!
1052
00:58:13,282 --> 00:58:14,525
- And the tree house?
1053
00:58:14,560 --> 00:58:15,768
What about the tree house
you were going to build
1054
00:58:15,802 --> 00:58:17,079
with the sauna?
1055
00:58:18,840 --> 00:58:21,256
- You see,
he gives me the projects.
1056
00:58:21,290 --> 00:58:23,638
- I remember you once
said to me,
1057
00:58:23,672 --> 00:58:26,295
you're never happy unless
you've got a project.
1058
00:58:26,330 --> 00:58:28,159
But I've often reflected
on it since,
1059
00:58:28,194 --> 00:58:30,507
that you are exactly the same.
1060
00:58:30,541 --> 00:58:31,853
- Yeah.
1061
00:58:31,887 --> 00:58:36,858
- And this idea of doing an
album during the lockdown
1062
00:58:37,065 --> 00:58:40,896
was very crazy and mad,
but you've done it.
1063
00:58:40,931 --> 00:58:42,070
- Yeah, yeah.
1064
00:58:45,107 --> 00:58:46,557
- It's good.
1065
00:58:53,322 --> 00:58:54,565
- Good morning.
1066
00:58:54,600 --> 00:58:57,326
Happy "How I'm Feeling Now" day.
1067
00:58:59,881 --> 00:59:01,745
Yeah, I open tonight.
1068
00:59:01,779 --> 00:59:03,125
I'm excited.
1069
00:59:03,160 --> 00:59:06,128
It's gonna be really, really,
really good.
1070
00:59:06,163 --> 00:59:07,026
Ah!
1071
00:59:08,199 --> 00:59:11,755
- I'm moving my studio
downstairs,
1072
00:59:11,789 --> 00:59:15,517
so that I can DJ at
club quarantine tonight,
1073
00:59:16,483 --> 00:59:20,557
which is this really,
really fun LGBTQ plus party
1074
00:59:23,214 --> 00:59:25,527
that happens on Zoom
every night.
1075
00:59:25,562 --> 00:59:28,357
And tonight,
it's my album party.
1076
00:59:28,392 --> 00:59:30,739
I'm plugging the microphone,
1077
00:59:31,844 --> 00:59:33,880
where the deed was done.
1078
00:59:45,754 --> 00:59:50,034
- I went to a listening
party a few weeks ago
1079
00:59:50,069 --> 00:59:54,211
and it was honestly like one
of the most fun times I've had
1080
00:59:54,245 --> 00:59:56,385
in quarantine so far.
1081
00:59:56,420 --> 00:59:59,630
Everybody just dancing and
enjoying all the same music
1082
00:59:59,665 --> 01:00:04,670
and, you know, feeling like
you're in a room with everybody.
1083
01:00:06,188 --> 01:00:07,465
I don't know how to explain it.
1084
01:00:07,500 --> 01:00:11,021
It just feels,
feels really comforting.
1085
01:00:11,055 --> 01:00:11,849
- Smile through it.
1086
01:00:11,884 --> 01:00:13,230
Dance through it.
1087
01:00:13,264 --> 01:00:14,541
Party through it.
1088
01:00:14,576 --> 01:00:15,784
It'll be over eventually.
1089
01:00:15,819 --> 01:00:19,477
We don't know when, but
someday life will be
1090
01:00:19,512 --> 01:00:20,962
once like it was.
1091
01:00:22,135 --> 01:00:22,929
Let's do it.
1092
01:00:35,148 --> 01:00:37,323
♪ I'm so bored
1093
01:00:38,531 --> 01:00:40,015
♪ Try my best to be physical
1094
01:00:40,050 --> 01:00:41,672
♪ Lose myself in a TV show
1095
01:00:41,707 --> 01:00:43,191
♪ Staring out to oblivion
1096
01:00:43,225 --> 01:00:44,813
♪ All my friends are invisible
1097
01:00:46,401 --> 01:00:47,885
♪ I might cry like a waterfall
1098
01:00:50,716 --> 01:00:51,958
♪ Have sex, me and my Romeo
1099
01:00:51,993 --> 01:00:53,511
♪ He says I'm irresistible
1100
01:01:01,692 --> 01:01:03,936
♪ I want anthems
1101
01:01:14,532 --> 01:01:16,707
♪ I want anthems
1102
01:01:20,400 --> 01:01:23,507
♪ Finally, when it's over
1103
01:01:29,996 --> 01:01:31,688
- Put your hands up!
1104
01:01:33,344 --> 01:01:36,106
I wanna see where you guys
are right now.
1105
01:01:36,140 --> 01:01:38,177
Let me see us go global.
1106
01:01:38,211 --> 01:01:40,041
Whoa, yes!
1107
01:01:40,317 --> 01:01:43,838
And now we're going to have
an incredible, incredible
1108
01:01:43,872 --> 01:01:47,220
performance from the one
and only, Poison Oakland,
1109
01:01:47,255 --> 01:01:48,877
so make some noise.
1110
01:01:50,258 --> 01:01:51,500
- Hi Charli.
1111
01:01:51,535 --> 01:01:52,881
- Thank you
so much for being here.
1112
01:01:52,916 --> 01:01:53,951
- Oh my god, it's Poison.
1113
01:01:53,986 --> 01:01:55,228
- Girl, I would not miss it.
1114
01:01:55,263 --> 01:01:56,091
I was going to be here.
1115
01:01:56,126 --> 01:01:57,679
I was so excited for this.
1116
01:01:57,714 --> 01:01:59,681
And I'm so glad you're
having me here.
1117
01:01:59,716 --> 01:02:01,096
- You look incredible
1118
01:02:01,131 --> 01:02:05,238
and everybody is absolutely
gagging, so let's go.
1119
01:02:13,695 --> 01:02:15,352
♪ I got pictures in my mind
1120
01:02:19,770 --> 01:02:21,910
♪ Visions comin' every night
1121
01:02:25,811 --> 01:02:26,846
♪ I see you at night
1122
01:02:26,881 --> 01:02:28,399
♪ I got pictures in my mind
1123
01:02:56,048 --> 01:02:57,221
- With this project
1124
01:02:57,256 --> 01:02:59,430
and the way she's opened
it up for everyone,
1125
01:02:59,465 --> 01:03:03,400
she's united a lot of
people that were in need.
1126
01:03:04,746 --> 01:03:06,403
- Listening to music with
other people
1127
01:03:06,437 --> 01:03:09,164
it kind of makes you
feel like a human again.
1128
01:03:10,476 --> 01:03:12,789
- Because even though you
don't know the people,
1129
01:03:12,823 --> 01:03:14,721
you know that they care
about you.
1130
01:03:14,756 --> 01:03:16,620
You know that they're
there for you.
1131
01:03:16,654 --> 01:03:19,002
There's a community and we're
all having a great time.
1132
01:03:19,036 --> 01:03:20,520
We don't give a what other
people think.
1133
01:03:20,555 --> 01:03:21,970
And it's amazing.
1134
01:03:23,316 --> 01:03:25,284
- We are all, in some ways,
1135
01:03:25,318 --> 01:03:27,976
going through exactly
the same thing.
1136
01:03:28,011 --> 01:03:32,878
And it feels like this
new way of connecting.
1137
01:03:37,020 --> 01:03:38,780
We created a world online,
1138
01:03:38,815 --> 01:03:41,369
where we could be together.
1139
01:03:41,403 --> 01:03:42,577
And we went somewhere
1140
01:03:42,611 --> 01:03:45,649
without even having to leave
our bedrooms
1141
01:03:45,683 --> 01:03:48,410
in a time where we were
forced to be apart.
1142
01:03:48,445 --> 01:03:52,483
We felt connected in ways
that we never had before.
1143
01:03:52,518 --> 01:03:54,451
We were alone together.
1144
01:04:49,678 --> 01:04:50,576
- Oh, here we go.
1145
01:04:50,610 --> 01:04:53,648
Coming up on some views,
I think.
1146
01:04:53,682 --> 01:04:54,856
Yes!
1147
01:04:58,170 --> 01:04:59,240
- What time is it?
1148
01:04:59,274 --> 01:05:01,207
- 9:29.
1149
01:05:02,208 --> 01:05:04,176
And we-
- Pacific standard?
1150
01:05:04,210 --> 01:05:09,353
- Yeah, and we are gonna
play the new album...
1151
01:05:09,629 --> 01:05:10,630
- Is it there?
1152
01:05:10,665 --> 01:05:14,117
- By Charli XCX.
1153
01:05:14,151 --> 01:05:16,533
If, oh yeah, there it is.
1154
01:05:16,567 --> 01:05:18,638
Woo!
- Woo!
1155
01:05:19,225 --> 01:05:20,157
- It's out.
1156
01:05:20,192 --> 01:05:21,434
Let's stream it.
1157
01:05:21,469 --> 01:05:22,539
- Congrats, baby.
1158
01:05:22,573 --> 01:05:23,609
- Thank you.
1159
01:05:47,426 --> 01:05:49,531
- I just feel a bit like,
1160
01:05:53,294 --> 01:05:54,088
- What?
1161
01:05:54,122 --> 01:05:55,537
- Just a bit like, bored.
1162
01:05:56,400 --> 01:05:58,230
- Oh, shut the fuck up.
1163
01:05:58,264 --> 01:06:01,888
- Well, yeah, like what
am I going to do now?
1164
01:06:01,923 --> 01:06:03,614
The music's done.
1165
01:06:03,649 --> 01:06:05,064
- Should we do another one?
1166
01:06:06,963 --> 01:06:08,309
♪ For you, for you
1167
01:06:08,343 --> 01:06:10,587
♪ I'm about to party on you
1168
01:06:56,598 --> 01:06:58,876
♪ I'm about to party on you
1169
01:07:20,760 --> 01:07:23,073
♪ I'm about to party on you
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