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"This Is Us"...

Jack! Where the hell are you?

Hello, Mrs. Pearson.

Oh. I'm such a klutz.

You know what?
Go pack your things, okay?

- We're leaving.
- Jack, stop.

You deserve more
than what's in that house.

Do you have a dream?

I just want to make sure
my mom is okay.

Get her settled
at her friend's place,

and then...

A decent job. A wife.

A family.

Okay. Um...

Okay. Thank you.

Who was that?

My mom died.

What about this gray one?

It's light gray.

I can't wear a gray suit.
It has to be black.

Um, well, maybe we can get
a deal at Gimbels.

- Suits are just so expensive.
- Doesn't matter what it costs.

It's my mother's funeral.
It's got to be black.

Of course.

Of course.

I just...
It doesn't seem real.

I feel like the phone's
gonna ring on Sunday.

She'll ask about the kids.

After a few minutes
of catching up,

she'll say
what she always says...

"Don't let me keep you."

It doesn't seem real.

*THIS IS US*
Season 06 Episode 04

Episode Title: "Don't Let Me Keep You"
Aired on: January 25, 2022.

With a cold front
coming across Lake Erie from Ontario,

we're looking at eight
to ten inches of snow

and icy conditions
on the roadways

for at least the next 48 hours.

We have a high of 33...

You know, I'm-a...
I'm gonna hit the road

before the snow gets too heavy.

I really feel like
we should go with you, babe.

I mean, I could run upstairs

and pack a quick bag
for me and the kids.

Bec, come on.
We talked about this, all right?

I've done the math.

Three six-year-olds
on a four-hour car ride?

It ain't worth it.

But you're our guy, Jack.

You're worth ten hours
in the car, in a blizzard.

Only ten?

Yeah, ten is the maximum,

but in a blizzard,
in a torrential blizzard.

Can blizzards be torrential?

You know, I-I think
that's just rainstorms.

Jack, I'm serious.

Hey, Bec, it ain't worth it,
all right?

I mean, the kids, they...
they barely knew her.

I mean, when was
the last time she visited?

They were, what,
like a year old?

Yeah, but they talked to her
on the phone.

And that's all she's been
for years,

just a voice on the other end
of the telephone.

Lookit, Bec, knowing my mom,

I've got a funeral to plan

and a lifetime of loose ends
to tie up.

Look, it's just... it's better
if I do this alone.

Which grandma died?

Daddy's mommy died.

Daddy's mommy is dead.

Stop saying she's dead.

But she is dead.

Right, Daddy?

Yeah, that's right, Katie girl.

Uh, Grandma Marilyn passed away,

and we're gonna miss her
very much.

Yes.

Can we play in the snow?

Uh... sure.

Maybe after breakfast.

Yeah, uh...

why-Why don't you guys wear
the mittens

- that Grandma made for you last Christmas?
- Yeah.

But they're so scratchy.

Yeah, they feel like there's,
like, bugs crawling on my hands.

Yeah, they're too warm.
I don't like them.

Okay, well, we'll figure out
the mittens situation.

You didn't have to drive me.
I could have taken the bus.

It was nice of Cheryl to put me
up for the past few weeks,

but moving in with Debby
will be good.

She's family.

And I need to get further away.

From Dad. Yeah.

Ohio looks nice.

Looks the same as Pennsylvania.

I'll miss you, Jackie.

I don't like being
this far away from you.

Yeah, I know, Ma,
but you can call anytime.

No, I don't want to be a bother.

The last thing you need is
to sit around

wondering when I'm gonna call.

God knows I've already caused
you enough trouble lately.

No, it's no trouble, Ma.

Sunday nights.

Every Sunday, 6:00,

I'll be by the phone.

You want to call,
I'll be there to pick it up.

- 6:00, Sunday.
- Mm-hmm.

And I'll visit, okay?
I promise.

Look who finally showed up.

Only took you 13 years.

Well, it's been a while.

I thought we'd see more of you
over the years.

Oh, I'm sorry.

Yeah, I just, um...

It's tough...
The triplets and work.

Um...

I mean, my mom and I,
we spoke once a week.

Oh, I know.

Every Sunday, 6:00,
world stopped spinning.

Look, Cousin Debby...

You don't have to call me that.

I'm not your cousin.
I was her cousin.

I think that still
makes us cousins.

Debby's fine.

Debby, I'm here to help, so...

if you want to just
point me in the direction

of the nearest funeral parlor,
I'll...

buy the casket,
organize the plot,

- the service...
- Yeah. It's all been taken care of.

The flowers?

I own a flower shop, Jack.

Right.

Yeah.

The funeral is
the day after tomorrow.

2:00 p.m... that way
we don't have to serve a meal.

Well, my mom was lucky
to have you,

figure all this out for her.

I didn't do anything.

Marilyn planned it all out
herself ages ago.

I guess she just didn't want
to be a burden to anyone.

Is there anything that I can do?

The eulogy.

I'm not really good
with giving speeches.

Oh.

Look, if you can't handle it,

- I'm-I'm happy to do it.
- No, no, no.

No. I got it.

I was thinking maybe
I could read one of my poems.

You write poems?

Yeah, I do, a little.

I mean, mostly just for myself.

Your mom loved poetry.

She was always encouraging me
to write more, so...

My mom loved poetry?

I'm gonna do the flowers,
obviously.

Maybe you could find a dress
for the burial.

Whatever you think she'd like.

No problem.

Hey, Ma. How's Ohio?

It's fine.

Yeah?

And you?

You good? You...

You settling in
a little bit more?

Jackie, I made a mistake.

Wh... What kind of mistake?

I just wanted him to send me
a few things.

My mother's china teapot.

Some pictures.

You called Dad?

I realized
as soon as he answered

that it was a bad idea.

Does he know where you are?

No. No. I don't think so.

I'm sorry.

You don't need to be sorry, Ma.

How's Rebecca?

Are you two still...?

She's great.

Yeah, no,
we're-We're doing great.

Good.

That's good.

Well...

Don't let me keep you.

Okay, Ma. I'll-I'll talk to you
next Sunday. I love you.

Nope. We're not serving a meal.

Okay.

All right.
I'll see you there. 2:00.

Okay.

Have you been in touch with my father?

To tell him about my mom?

Stanley?

No way I'm calling that bastard.

Whoa.

Hey, do you want to
maybe feed your cat?

That's not my cat.

That's your mom's cat.

My mom had a cat?

My dad hated cats.

Exactly.

Hey, cat, why don't you go
back to Mike's?

Who's Mike?

Uh, he is your mom's boyfriend.

Mike McCreary.

Cat's living with him now.

Look, if you want
to make yourself useful,

maybe you can just
bring the cat back to Mike's.

His place is just up the road.

Look out for his van.

Yeah, sure.

Come on, cat.

Uh, you must be Jack.

You must be Mike.

I was hoping you'd come by.

Well, come on in.

Hey, there, Cat.

Uh, here.

Cat got a name?

Yep. Cat Benatar.

You know Marilyn's
sense of humor.

Yeah, keeps getting out
and running back to Marilyn's.

Just doesn't understand
that, um...

that, you know, that...
that she's gone.

Okay.

Your mom was a good woman.

Thanks.

Um, how are, uh,

Rebecca and the,
and the kids holding up?

- Okay.
- Triplets, man, that's...

- That's... I don't know how you do it.
- Yeah.

Yeah. Hey, you and, uh,

you and your kids
watch, uh, wrestling?

You know, Hulk Hogan,

uh, André the Giant,
King Kong Bundy?

No, I-I think they're
a little young for that.

Oh, no, but they're not.

I know a lot of folks complain
that it's fake,

but these guys,
these guys are athletes,

I mean, real athletes. The...

What am I...

Sorry, man, um...

I'm-I'm nervous.

It's just that your mom

talked about you and the,
and the kids all the time,

and it's, uh... this isn't how
I pictured us meeting.

Yeah.

So, um... want a beer?

Sure.

Take whatever's cold.

I was, um,

going through some photos
of, uh, me and Marilyn.

- Thought you might like to see 'em.
- Yeah.

Will you look at that smile?

Now, that, that is Marilyn
through and through.

She looks happy.

She was. We were.

Can I ask how you two met?

Well, um, I was...

- I was always a night owl.
- Mm-hmm.

But, uh, one morning, I wake up
real early, no reason,

but I can't fall back asleep,
so I figure

get a cup of coffee
at the place down the way.

So, I sit down at my favorite
table by the window,

and... this woman comes over
and says, "You're at my table."

Well, it turns out,
we had the same favorite table.

She always sat there early
and I sat there late.

So, I offer to share the table.

The next morning, I got there
when the place opened,

so did she.

And that was the end
of the night owl.

You know, it took, um...

took some time
to earn her trust, but...

but I always knew
how to make her laugh.

She...

she had a great laugh.

Can't remember the last time

I heard my mother laugh.

I guess she was...

she was always on high alert
with my dad.

Yeah.

Well...

...let me tell you this.

Nothing was more important
to her than your Sunday calls.

She looked forward to 'em
all week.

You were her hero, Jack.

You're the one that got her
out of that house.

Not a hero, Mike.

I mean, I...

knew nothing about her life.

I mean, I missed
the whole damn thing, so...

Thanks for showing me
the photos, and for the beer.

Hey, Jack, it's 6:00!

Hi, Marilyn. Right on time.

Oh, um, thank you so much
for the-the scarf you sent.

- It's so great.
- Oh, you like it?

I do, I love it. Thank you.

Hold on, let me get Jack
for you. Jack?

Jack?

- Here.
- I got... I got it.

Hi, buddy.

Hey, Ma. Hey, how, uh...

How's it going?

Oh, everything's fine.

Tell me about the little ones.

Uh, they're-they're good.

Good... You know,
ev-everyone's good.

- Jack.
- Oh, no. Oh...

- He spit up. Here.
- Yeah.

Get that. Okay.

Hey, when, uh,

when are you gonna come
meet your grandkids?

Oh, I'll come
once things settle down.

Mom, we got triplets, all right?
It's never gonna settle down.

I'll come soon, Jackie.

Well, it's a big city, Mom.

I haven't seen the man
in a decade.

So I-I think it's safe to say
you can visit your family

- without running into Dad.
- No, I know.

But Debby needs help
at the flower shop and...

I... Look, I'll plan a trip soon.

Okay.

There's this pond by the house.

It freezes over in the winter,

and everyone in the neighborhood
goes ice-Skating.

You should bring the kids.

Kids can't really walk yet, Mom.

No, of course not.

I know that. I'm just...

saying, one day.

Yeah, no, we'll...

...we'll-We'll get
the kids on skates

as soon as we can.

Well, don't let me keep you.

Okay, Mom, I'll, uh,

I'll talk to you next Sunday,
okay? I love you.

I lo...

Hi, sweetie.

Hi. Can I, uh...

I-I'll have a coffee, please.
Thanks.

- Hey, Jack. Come on over.
- Mike.

Right there.

We are having
a round of 7 and 7s

in honor of our Marilyn.

Okay. All right.

- Hi. - Hey.
- All right.

- Everything good?
- Yeah, things are all right.

It's a nice, a nice town.

All right, here we go,
here we go.

Thank you, Shanice.

- Nicely done. - Thank you.
- Mm-hmm.

- Thank you.
- All right, guys,

let's raise 'em up.
Raise 'em up.

To our Marilyn.

- To our Marilyn.
- Yeah, baby.

Oh, that tastes...

Let me tell you something
about your mom.

You don't know this.
She would make up terms.

- Oh, no, oh, here we go.
- A whole thing. A whole fictitious...

- Her bad knitting.
- She was a volume knitter.

Not precision.

...bridge term called
"the Jacoby transfer."

This is made up.

This is not real, right?
This is not real.

It's the Jacoby transfer.

See, they don't even know.
They don't even know.

- I'm telling you...
- It's totally made up. It's a totally made-up thing.

Okay, okay, maybe, maybe...

- You looked it up...
- You made that up...

- Yeah?
- She's dead.

Three days ago, Mom had
an aneurysm and she died.

Aren't you gonna say anything?

Ah, Jackie, I'm so sorry.

That's terrible news.
I-It's terrible news.

When's the funeral? I-I mean,

I should pay my respects.

I wasn't inviting you.

You know,

even after she left you,
you were always there.

Just hanging over us,
keeping us apart.

My whole life,
I never really knew her.

I mean, she had a real life
out here,

and I never saw it
and now she's dead.

And I missed the whole thing
because of you.

Look, I don't, I-I don't
want to fight with you.

I never stopped loving her.
She was my wife.

When she left me,
it was the worst day of my life.

You listen to me.

Do not show up at that funeral.

You hear me?

She was my wife, Jack.

I'll do what I damn well please.

How's the eulogy coming along?

I made a mistake, Debby.

I, uh...

called my dad.

Is he coming?

I told him not to,
but I don't know.

It's so great
finally having you here.

I hope the, uh, sofa bed
was comfortable enough.

Ma.

Rebecca asked you a question.

No, no, it's okay, Jack.

I-I'm sorry.

It's just...

...do you think he knows
I'm here?

Of course not.

I mean, I haven't talked
to him in years.

Why don't I start on lunch?

Mom, listen.

How about I make
your favorite, Jackie?

What's my favorite?

Hot dogs and tomato soup.

Since when?

Since always. You loved
hot dogs and tomato soup.

Maybe Nicky.
I-I don't remember...

No, it wasn't Nicky, it was you.

You'd go out
and you'd play in the snow,

and when you came home,

I'd make you hot dogs
and tomato soup.

We'd sit at the kitchen table
and we'd watch snow fall.

It's one
of my favorite memories.

I know it's not much, but...

it wasn't all bad,
your childhood.

I know.

Next time, you'll come visit me.

And we can take the kids
skating on the pond.

It's so pretty in the winter.

Okay.

- Hello?
- We never took 'em to the pond

by my mom's house.

To Ice-Skate.

It was just such a long drive,

and we could never
really find the time.

I know.

I got to write a eulogy.

- What are you gonna say?
- I don't know.

Yeah, I don't know.

I don't know what to say.

I've never lost a parent.

But... I'm here for you.

And I love you very much.

Yeah, I love you, too.

Wish me luck.

It's okay. We'll hide it away.

I'll put aside some money
to get you a new one.

Your father will never know.

- The flowers are nice.
- Yeah, don't start.

- I know it's too much.
- Nah.

She would've loved it.

Do you think he's gonna show?

I don't know.

If we can all take our seats.

We'll begin with a reading

by Marilyn's
beloved cousin Debra.

Um...

I wrote, I wrote a poem.

She always told me I should
write more poems, so...

"Five o'clock, six o'clock,

"seven, eight.

"Tell the morning,
night's running late.

"Nine o'clock, ten o'clock,

"eleven, noon.

"That's not the sun up high,
but the moon.

"Wake the stars
for a double shift.

"It's dark, this night,

"and it won't lift.

"Because if I stay right here
in bed...

...I can still believe
she isn't dead."

Rest in peace.

And now I'd like to invite up

Marilyn's beloved son Jack.

My mother was...

...she was a good mother.

She did her best...

...and I loved her.

W- What I want to say...

What I want to say
about her is...

The house I grew up in

wasn't an easy place
to be a son.

But it wasn't an easy place
to be a mother, either.

We did our best, the both of us,

and we were lucky
because we got out.

But when you live
in a house like that,

there's a part of you
that never gets out.

So you build a new house.

A better house
for a better life.

And you try as hard as you can

to make sure that part
of you that still lives

in that old house
is as small as possible.

I did my best to forget
everything about that house.

But there...

there were so many little
details.

Uh...

Heavy footsteps.

Cracking of a beer.

The creak of an armchair.

I don't know if she was ever
able to forget

any of the details
of that house, but I do know

she filled up her life
with new ones.

Ones worth remembering.

A dish of chocolates.

A... basket of yarn.

A cat that keeps coming back.

There are four people
here today.

My wife. My children.

Her grandchildren.

They gave me a new home.

And Debby, Mike...

...and everyone here today.

You gave that to her.

As her son,

I am very grateful to you all.

Thank you.

Okay, Ma.

Don't let me keep you.

Let's scoot you over, honey.

All right, guys, now, this is
very important. It's probably

the most important invention
in human history.

It is called the skull crusher.

Kate, do not do this
to your brothers.

Unless they really deserve it.

The skull crusher,
the skull crusher!

Skull crusher! This guy's too heavy!

He's too heavy.
I'm down!

The champ is down.
Oh, three on one!

Three on one! Ref!

You know, I keep thinking
she never got to find out

how the book ended.

Clan of the Cave Bear. I mean,
she was only halfway through.

That's what you're
worried about?

She read that stupid thing
three times already.

I've read Clan of the Cave Bear.

It's got some...
pretty sexy parts.

Between us, I think Marilyn went
for Mike because, around here,

he's the closest thing
she could find to a Neanderthal.

Hey, hey, I heard that.
And it's accurate.

Didn't need to know that.

I might have to reread
this book.

Give 'em the bottle opener!
Bottle opener!

Hey, do you think
the cat's gonna be okay?

No, Jack. I think the cat
is 100% gonna get hit by a car.

Ah...

Just like that. That's the move.
That's the move.

Get back on your feet.
Just like that.

Like a champ. There you go.

All right, zoom back down.
Nicely done.

All right. Who's hungry?

Me.

Eh, I could eat.

Okay, I'll get
something started.

No, no, that's okay. I got it.

I made your favorite, Jackie.

This should warm you up.

All right, so my mom...

...used to make this for me.

Are these hot dogs?

- Where's the bun?
- Just try it. Try it.

How is it?

It's so good.

You like it.

Here, let me have one of these.

Mmm. It's not bad.

I don't have a mom anymore.

He dipped his hot dog
in the soup.

She did it, too.

That's okay.
You know, tomato soup is...

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