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- Previously,
on "New Amsterdam"...

- We can never
be more than this.

Tell me you know that.

- I'm offering you a promotion.

Deputy Chair of Surgery.

- Dr. Reynolds,
Dr. Lyn Malvo, my wife.

- Floyd's gonna be
my new right hand man.

- You want Dr. Shinwari
on your ED.

You want a fifth spot?

- Are you talking about a bribe?

I could lose my medical
license, I could go to jail!

- Did you have
anything to do with this?

- It was all you.

- Mina got into
King's College in Cambridge.

I put you down as her
emergency contact,

and I think that
if you would just meet her...

- Not on your life!
- Mom!

- This place, what happened?

- Last month our medical
director packed up and left.

Now we're fighting to hold on.

- All my patients,
all their despair,

it just becomes a part of me.

And I'm not going
to see patients anymore.

Are you okay?

- Your place is huge.

- Do you want a tour?
- No.

- Hey, how are you guys?

- Look at all this good food
right here at the hospital.

We got carrots, potatoes,
French fries... Daddy's favorite.

Broccoli, yummy.

We got just about
everything we need here, kiddo.

- Yes. Yes.

- We're back.

- This is a nice change.

- Hugging is the new biting.

Hey, monkey!

Mwah.

- Bye!

- Yeah, none are really
jumping off the wall for me.

You know what, forget white.

Why don't we try
a nice sunny yellow?

Something upbeat.

I gotcha, how can I help?

- Thanks so much.
- Sure.

- Gonna be kind of a slow
transition into pants,

isn't it?

- Dr. Goodwin.
- Hi!

- It's me, Simon, from podiatry.

- Simon, you got huge!
- Right?

I started lifting weights
between Zoom patients,

and 18 months later...

New Amsterdam
needs an employee gym.

- New Amsterdam
needs an employee gym.

18 months of Zoom appointments
has not been kind to me.

- Melvin, you look great.

- I gained 20 pounds
from snacking between Zooms.

Did you know thighs chafe?

- Dr. Metzger!

Are you
surprised by all the great

changes we've
been making lately?

- No, Dr. Goodwin,
this isn't my surprised face.

This is my, "I can't believe

I have to shower every day,"
face.

- Alright, so I know that first
days can be a little bit scary.

But I assure you
that this is a safe

and nurturing
learning environment.

Also we ordered new
desks for you guys, so...

As your newly minted
psych residency director,

we will be spending
an awful lot of time together.

We'll be working very closely
together for the next year.

We will be on this
ward with real patients,

and you will have me
in supervision as your teacher,

your protector,
your sounding board,

your overall psych Sherpa
on this amazing journey

we're about
to embark on together.

You know, here at the hospital,

they heal the body.

In this ward, we heal souls.

- Okay, listen up, newbies.

I'm Dr. Lauren bloom, head
of the emergency department.

Which means do not come to me
with your personal problems.

Don't complain
to me about your schedule.

And don't expect me
to care if your pet is sick.

Chief Resident Walsh
will field your questions

and let you know
when you screwed up.

If you find
yourself in the position

where I'm the one
who's telling you you've

screwed up,
you're gonna know it's bad.

Questions?

Good.

Look, I know
your internships were

a long hard slog,
and right now you probably feel

like you're seeing
light at the end of the tunnel.

I'm here to tell you,
that is not daylight.

It is a train.

So grab a donut and get to work.

- Okay, so,
I'm Dr. Mark Walsh...

- And just so we're
all on the up and up,

Resident Shinwari
is my girlfriend.

- Morning, partner.

- Is it, though?

- Nurse Kamoe.

Would you be so kind
as to crank up Dr. Reynolds'

legendary playlist?

- Love the soul, but this
is not time for slow jams.

Next cut, please.

- It's a good song.

- It's a woman, isn't it?

- No.

- Floyd.

- Look, Claude,
no one wants to hear

about my love life, all right?

- Team?

- Okay.

Maybe there was a woman,

but it wasn't right
for either of us.

So I ended it.

And now I'd like
to just move on.

- Floyd, if you really
care for this woman,

you need to find
a way to make it work.

- It's not that simple.

- So the hottest
thing on your hotlist,

which I would still prefer
to call your schedule,

is your meeting
with Dr. Wilder.

She's been
waiting for 30 minutes.

- Yeah, um, sweet Sandra Fall.

I don't want you to focus
on my schedule

or my meetings anymore.

- Given that's the entirety of

my responsibilities,
what should I focus on?

- Joy.

I want you to focus on joy.

- Can you walk me through
what that might look like?

- Finding it, seizing it.

That's what this new
beginning is all about,

refocusing
on what truly matters.

Re-examining our lives
to maximize the joy,

the beauty,
the people that we love,

and nothing should distract us
from that noble goal.

- May I have your attention.

There is a fire in the building.

- Maybe we start
that joy thing tomorrow?

- What the hell happened?

- We don't know,
everything's on fire,

it came out of nowhere.

- Go, go, go, go, go.

Get out of here, go.

- Is this even real?

I have thought of nothing

but you and this

for so long.

Thought it,
but didn't know how to say it.

Or maybe I was afraid to.

And now it just feels
like I have a future again.

With you, just like this.

- I should
never have let you in.

- Could've been worse,
Dr. Goodwin.

Luckily the sprinklers got it

before the fire
got to the gas lines.

- You're sure this is arson?

- 100%.

We found
multiple points of origin.

Got these patterns

here on the wall,
traces of accelerant.

- What about
the security cameras,

did they catch anything?

- Cameras would
have caught something

if they'd come through this way.

But they didn't.

Whoever did this
knew the layout.

Could be a supplier, or...

- Or someone who works here.

- Dr. Goodwin?

- Um, excuse me, thank you.

- This may seem low priority...

- That criteria has changed.

- But you still
have your 10:00

with Dr. Wilder
and it is now 11:15.

- Can you tell her that
the hospital's on fire?

And maybe we could reschedule?

- Clearly that information
did not compel her to leave.

- Thanks for your patience.

The ED's clear.
- Thank you, gentlemen.

Okay.

Brandon?

Hi.

Well, yeah,
it looks like you've got gout.

- That's, like,
some old-timey disease, right?

Fancy people,
sitting around eating all day?

- Yeah, not so much anymore.

Just like halter tops
and headscarves,

young people
are bringing it back.

- Nah, I shouldn't be
up in here with no gout.

I'm an athlete, I'm in shape.

You know,
my team was in the Final Four

just ten years ago.

- Wait, Brandon Dover?
- Yeah.

- I bet against you
in our March Madness pool.

You cost me fifteen bucks.

- 24 points,
seven assists, five rebounds.

You know I was supposed
to be the next Derrick Rose?

- So why'd you quit?
- I didn't.

Basketball quit me.

Candy Storell, vaccinated.

Multiple fractures,
lacerations, concussion.

Fell backwards off the fire
escape while taking a selfie.

- At least she was
doing what she loves.

- Walsh, let's get her
to Trauma One.

Turan, can you take over
with Brandon?

He needs two doses
of ibuprofen every five hours

and three doses of
Colchicine every eight hours.

Write it down so he
gets the timing right.

- We're less
than a year away from needing

our own selfie wing.

- What do you got?

Let's hear it, people!

- It looks like
a tib-fib fracture.

Some intense
reactive inflammation.

- Placing a chest tube
to evacuate a pneumothorax.

- Shinwari?
- Arm is irrigated and sutured.

- Nice job, everyone.

Patient is stable and ready
for X-ray...

- Too slow!

- You guys are gonna
need to be much faster

because the next
patient that comes in

is not gonna be
so straightforward.

Nice job on that arm lac.

- All right,
let's mobilize for radiology.

Trauma One's a busy place,
gotta clear the room!

- Department policy is
to have a general surgery

presence for all
restricted bowel procedures.

- I know the policy.

- Your husband
sent me to assist, so...

- Then assist.

You wanted
to keep it professional,

we can keep it professional.

- Lyn.

What was I supposed to do?
- Let go.

- I couldn't,
I can't, not when I have

to look your
husband in the eye every day.

- I mean, let go of my hand.

Now I have to scrub it again.

- That's my bad.

- While the fire
department does their thing,

I want your department to create

a psychological profile
of the arsonist.

Okay, yeah.

But that's a really
specialized field, right.

- Well, what do you mean?

Is there no one
on staff who specializes

in arson or pyromania?

- No, no, there is.

Just they're not...
They're not exactly on staff.

- Well then, where are they?

- Common Room two.

- It's so good
to see you again, Dr. Frome.

- Helen.

Hey.

Just talk to me.

- When you spoke
about the future...

- What, was it too soon?

- No, it made me sad.
- Sad?

Hey.

Why?

Just talk to me.

- When I was in London,
I had this profound feeling.

I was getting Mina settled,
being there for my mom,

it all just felt so...
I felt so exposed.

But in the best way.

It made me realize just how
much of myself that I put away.

Packed it up,
crossed an ocean to become

someone else in a place
where I have no history.

It was self-preservation,
but what's left now?

Of me?

Being home broke me wide open

and I came spilling out in a way

that I don't have any interest
in boxing back up again,

because it felt right.

I felt right.

- You can take some time off.

You take a leave of absence,
you can take whatever you need.

- Max, I need to go home.

For good.

- We need to push
all elective surgeries.

Any patient that can be
transferred, transfer them,

and let's double up on security.

- They've already doubled it.
- Then double it again.

Dr. Wilder,
I see you're getting more use

out of this office and I do.

- You really have a thing
against filing cabinets.

- Just prefer a non-traditional
approach to organization.

Max Goodwin, medical director,

very sorry to keep you both
waiting.

- When I heard
the building was on fire,

I did consider
fleeing for my life.

- Yeah, well, turns out the
fire department counts on that.

- Except,
I was too curious as to why

you wanted to meet with me.

What, well...

Just, okay.

Here's the thing,
I'm in a bit of a pickle,

a delicate situation.

I'm trying to replace
someone in oncology.

- Who's leaving?

- Dr. Helen Sharpe.

- Holy... no!

I'm not interpreting that.

I have a mouth like a sailor,
but Ben is a prude.

It was very explicit.

- She's in London, and no one

at the hospital knows,
so there's a bit of secrecy.

- Dr. Sharpe is
the best there is.

I have always been humbled by
her passion, her intelligence,

and also, let's face it,
she's super foxy.

- Well, I don't know about...
I mean, I don't, we're not...

Yeah, they're...
They're big shoes to fill,

there's no doubt.

- And I'm only a size seven.

But I do make up
for it in other ways.

I emailed you Dr. Wilder's CV.

- Yeah, I see that, thank you.

Listen, you come very
highly recommended

by a lot of good people,
but what I'm looking for

is basically impossible to find.

Dr. Sharpe not only
has our oncology

and hematology departments,
but she also

chairs a cancer
research clinic that,

which... wow,
I see you do as well?

The Murtha Cancer Center
at Walter Reed Hospital,

where I currently
practice surgical oncology.

- That's very impressive.

Fellowship at NIH,
studied at MD Anderson,

and recipient of The Order
of the Star of Ghana?

I was doing
Medecin sans Frontieres

outside of Accra,
and I saw a few ways

to tidy up the irrigation
system while I was there.

The badge itself,
it's really quite lovely.

Sometimes I'll just wear it out.

- Um, wow.

You are literally...

what am I trying to say?

- Again, that's why
I waited out the fire.

- I'm very glad you did,
because you are hired.

Let's introduce you
to Chairwoman Brantley

and we'll get
the paperwork started.

The parking is
really a nightmare

but I think we can find
you a spot at the top...

- I can have other photos
brought in for you

if that's what you need.

- You know what I need.

- I'm not taking you
to a burn site.

That is off the table.

- Would you profile a patient
from a pile of photographs?

- That's entirely different.
Fire is not alive.

- Fire consumes oxygen,

reproduces and moves quickly.

That's more alive
than a lot of my cellmates.

- It's too dangerous.

What am I gonna do?

Escape from
the fleet of armed guards?

Burn the place down?

I'm not a supervillain.

- No, no, no, I mean,
it's too dangerous for you.

For a pyromaniac,
fire is a drug,

and for the six years
since you were arrested,

you have been sober.

Taking you
to a burn site would be like

sending you off on a bender.

All your progress will be...

- You will not shrink me.

You are not my analyst,
I am not your patient.

And my progress is none of your
business, is that clear?

- Yes, Mary.

It is clear.

- How calm you sound.

How reassuring.

But that little Iggy mind
is in there scheming away,

trying to figure
out how you can reach me.

Help me heal.

- That... that was true
when we first met.

My job was to analyze inmates.

But right now, I assure you,
I am just here for your help.

- You're not
trying to shrink me?

- Protect me from
the only thing I love?

- Your love killed
13 people, Mary.

Fire is not love, fire is rage.

We're done here.

- The accelerant is homemade.

That means he's educated.

It's a medium
petroleum distillate,

which is uncommon here,
but typical

in Northern Europe
where he's likely from.

And I say he not only
because of the distance

the gas was tossed,
but because of the jagged

pattern of how it fell.

You need strength to
toss the canister like that,

and anger.

Now imagine what I could tell
you if you got me out of here.

- Brandon Dover,
28-year-old male

with extreme abdominal pain,
low BP and heart arrhythmia.

- I just released him. Brandon,
Brandon, can you hear me?

Did you take the meds
we gave you?

Yeah. It hurts.

- I need a surgical consult.

Trauma One.

- We got a bleeder!

- Got it, suture.

Scissors.

- Appendix, liver, spleen,
arteries, they all look fine.

They're rock hard.

- Ischemic loop of bowel?

- No sign of thrombus
or infection.

- Well, he came in for gout,
we gave him medication.

- It didn't help.

- But what if the pharmacy
screwed up his meds?

- Maybe he didn't have gout.

- I saw the crystals myself.

Okay, well,
what if he did take his meds

but maybe he took too many?

- Why would he OD on Colchicine?

- Lyn, can we talk?

- Professionally?

Personally.

- So what're you gonna do?

Give up on your practice,
and your patients,

and everything that you've

built here and go back,
and what?

- Maybe you should leave.
- No, I won't.

- You won't?

- You won't know how long
I've waited to be right here?

Now that I'm here, I'm not just
gonna leave, just talk to me!

Let me try,
please let me fight for this.

- Okay, all right.

The clinic that I took my mom,
they need a new

medical director and...

And they want me.

- That's great.

I'll go back and forth
every other weekend.

It's what, a six hour flight,
why not?

You can do the same,
we'll be frequent flyers.

- We can't have
a long-distance relationship

without ever having had
a short-distance one.

- Listen... listen to me.

Why not?

Why not?

I'm here.

Now that I've held you
and I've kissed you

and I've humiliated myself

in front of the entire
neighborhood.

- How have you
humiliated yourself?

- Hey, New York!

I love this woman
and now she's trying to dump...

No, I'm not gonna...

I'll keep going, I swear to God

I will keep going...
- No, shh.

- Please, Max, stop.

- I'm not gonna stop
until you tell me

that we're gonna try.
- How?

- I... London, New York,
back and forth,

Tunisia, I don't care.

Anywhere,
as long as we're together.

Please.

- What about Luna?

- She can come with me.

She's young enough, it's fine.

It'll be an adventure for her,

it'll be
an adventure for all of us.

I just want you to say
that you're willing

to fight for this.

Because if you don't,
I'm gonna run

through these
streets butt naked.

I'll do it.

Literally, I'm taking
my pants off right now.

Here they go.
- No, okay!

- Completely...
- I love you.

I love you.

- Do everything you can
to secure the hospital.

Police, FBI, call it all in.

- Max. Max!
- Yeah, I'm sorry.

I...
- We're here to help.

- All O2 tanks and all
other flammable gases

need to get disconnected
and someone's gotta go around

and ensure that all
your fire doors are latching.

- I hate to ask, but...

- You don't have to.
- Thank you.

Tell me you got something?

- Um, well, Miss Wheeler's
not exactly compliant.

- Iggy, if we don't find this
person someone's going to die.

Now get back in there
and do whatever you can.

- Okay.
- Thank you.

How you guys holding up?

- No signs of concussion.

Just a few scrapes and bruises.

- Lauren, I hate to do this,

but you need to put
the ED on diversion.

- On it.
- Claude, let's go over

your schedule, see what
surgeries we can push.

- Sure, I'll be right back,
okay?

- If you hadn't been there...

- I just wanted to apologize.

- It's passed, Floyd.

- No, no, it hasn't.

I thought we could
go back to being friends.

But whenever I'm
with your husband,

all I do is think about you.

And when we're together,
I just keep thinking about him.

- You don't think
this has been hard on me?

He may like you more than I do.

- Something's gotta give, Lyn.

Look, either I step down, or...

- Or what?

- Okay, I need every patient
transferred or discharged.

And why isn't Brandon Dover

on anti-colchicine
fab fragments yet?

- He is, I just haven't
had time to update his file.

How'd he mess up
his meds so bad?

- I have no idea,

considering we gave him such
explicit instructions.

- Dr. Bloom?

- Hey.

- I'll just go update that file.

- Just go.

- You're a sight for sore eyes.

How's your first day goin'?
- Are you serious?

It's bad enough
you gave me a medal

for cleaning out a wound,

but why'd you tell
everyone we were a couple?

- Yeah, okay...

- We agreed to wait until they
got to know me as a resident.

You were going to treat me
like everyone else.

- But you're not
like everybody else.

You're a fully trained doctor.

They're just a bunch of kids
pretending to be doctors.

I would have
complimented them too,

had the situation been reversed.

- But the situation can never
be reversed because the other

residents aren't
sleeping with their boss.

- Okay, okay.

I'm sorry.

Okay, I'm sorry.

I just... I was just trying
to work my program, you know?

Put it all out there.

There's this saying,
it's you're only as sick

as your secrets, and...

- Lauren?

- You know what, you were right.

You were totally in the right,
and I am wrong.

But I think I know what's
going on with my patient.

- Must have
been zero visibility.

Everywhere you look,
just flames, smoke.

Black and orange,
orange and black.

The doctor disapproves.

- No, I'm concerned.

- No.

You're scared of me.

You have been since
you walked into my ward.

-The only thing
I'm scared of, Mary,

is the damage
being done to your psyche.

- You treat murderers, rapists.

You're alone in rooms
with people who could snap you

like a twig, and I don't
think you break a sweat.

And here you are acting like
the nice woman of a certain age

is going to take
a bite out of you.

Which one of us
do you think is having

a damaging
psychological experience?

- You know, Mary, patients
try to drag their doctors

into their pathologies
all the time.

When I practiced, there
was a weekly occurrence.

But, I hate to break it to you,
it's not gonna work.

- You said when you practiced.

Why'd you stop?

I have an eye for sore spots.

Think I'd make a good shrink?

- We're done here.

- Tell me why you quit and I'll
tell you who set the fire.

- I needed a change.

The hours were terrible,
they were killing me.

- I'm giving you a choice

between being honest
with yourself

and watching this place burn.

- Why are you
making this about me?

- "She's not too far gone!

We can help this woman,
we can save her!"

You said that at my trial.

You yelled at the judge.

You demanded he
put me in your ward,

not prison,
because you could save me.

Iggy, the White Knight,
knew everyone can be saved.

Now you've quit.

Now you've left everyone to rot.

Why?

When does the White Knight
stop trying to save everybody?

When he stops believing
that people can be saved.

- Out of here.

Now.

- Fire isn't rage, Dr. Frome.

Want to know what it is?

God writes in pencil,
fire's his eraser.

It's not for anger,
it's for pain.

- That's your profile?

The arsonist is in pain?

- Just like you.

Just like me.

- Okay.
Thank you, Teresa.

I'll catch up
with you in a minute.

- Hey, so, it was a mistake
to bring Mary back into this.

It definitely set her back.

Now the best I got out
of her is that

the arsonist is
trying to erase something.

- Erase what?

- I don't know, I have no idea.

Is there anything that connects
the location of the two fires?

Anything?
- Not really.

I mean, one was
a COVID overflow unit

and the other was an auxiliary
space for neurology.

- And what was it used for last?

- It was our
second COVID overflow unit.

- Where else did we
annex for COVID patients?

Max!

Max!

Everybody out, now!

- When do you fly out?
- I have my final interview

with the board
of directors next week.

They said it's just
a formality, but...

- I'll go with you.
- Really?

- Yeah.

No, no, wait,
sorry, can't that week.

That's Luna's
first week of pre-school.

Right.

Yeah, no, definitely
cannot miss that.

Why don't you come
the following weekend

and then I can
fly back with you?

- Perfect.
- No, sorry.

That weekend is my visit
to Cambridge to visit Mina.

I'm trying to broker a truce
between her and my mother.

Yeah, you gotta do that.

- Okay, no problem.

Then you fly back
and we will spend

the following weekend together.

- Um, isn't that
the weekend that you

usually have your
conferences in Colorado?

The ones that you're always
trying to get me to go to?

You are correct.

- And this is...

- Crazy.
- Crazy.

- There's gotta be one weekend
that we can spend together?

- Of course there is.

Yeah.
- Let's... let's not do this now,

'cause I don't
want to ruin this.

- It's not ruined.

It's just a scheduling thing.

- Yes.

- It's gonna work.

- I want it to, Max.

I really want it to.

- And it will.

- Lyle.

That's your name, right?

You lost someone?

Your wife?

I can imagine what that's like.

- Can you?

- Working in this hospital

and not being allowed
in that room.

Just to say goodbye.

Because of protocol, rules.

She was in our COVID unit.

Right, the one
that burned down today?

- You mean,
the room you asked me

to make "sunny"
by covering it up?

That room, where my wife died?

That graveyard
you asked me to erase?

- I understand.

And I'm sorry.

But above this room
was our third COVID unit.

Bet you knew that already,
but did you know

that it's back to being
our daycare center?

Where my daughter was playing.

If anything happened to her...
- That's him.

Don't move.

- I might want
to burn it all down, too.

- Let's go.

- Um, I need
to correct something

that I said to you earlier
about protecting you.

I can't.
I can't protect you.

And the truth is,
no matter how much you prepare,

how solid your boundaries are,

there will always be patients
that just consume you.

Always.

They will ruin family dinners,

they will doom first dates,

and you'll dread
seeing them because they scare

the ever-loving hell out of you.

The thing that I failed
to mention about the whole

healing souls thing is that

it comes with a hefty price tag.

It's a piece of your own soul.

So the patient is Mary W.

She is a 60-year-old
psychopathic pyromaniac who

exhibits highly manipulative
and sadistic tendencies.

She's being transferred here
today from the corrections ward

because she wants our help.

But I don't see
patients anymore.

You do.

So do I have any takers?

- Brandon, I think I know
why you messed up the dosage.

- When I was younger, nobody
cared about my education.

As long as I could ball.

Not the school, not the coaches.

I was their meal ticket.

It's always been that way,
even throughout college.

Nobody wanted to hear
about my dyslexia,

couldn't even get it diagnosed.

When I blew out my knee,
that was it.

I couldn't play,
couldn't keep my scholarship.

Couldn't read.

- Okay, here's my card.

So you can recognize
my number when I call you.

- This ain't your problem,
Dr. Bloom.

- Once your issues out there

become a problem in here,
it's my job to fix it.

Shinwari.

You left the O2 sat meter
on the counter.

It always has
to go back on the wall

in the receptor
where it belongs.

The next time an asthmatic
comes in, sucking for air,

I can't be hunting
around trying to find it.

You got that?

Am I making myself clear?

- Yes.

Yes, Dr. Bloom.

I'll put it back from now on.

- Look who's back in action.

Nurse Kamoe,
I believe this calls for music.

- Yeah, that's what
I'm talking about.

Let me guess, you
and your girl work things out?

- We did, but still
figuring out some details.

- I'm gonna go out
on a limb here and guess

this interview didn't go quite
as smoothly as your others.

- Well, there's definitely
more smoke damage.

- Yeah, look, we're
criminally underfunded.

We are always in the red.

We've got unfilled
repair orders from 1973.

And I'm losing more doctors
and nurses from burnout

than I can even keep up with.

So, I get it,
if you want to say no.

- Max.
- Max.

You don't build
a good hospital with money.

You build it with good people.

And you have that in spades.

I would love to work here.

- You would?

That's amazing!

- But I can't accept.

You want someone
to replace Dr. Sharpe.

Something tells me
Dr. Sharpe is not replaceable.

Whoever follows in her footsteps

will be a disappointment.

My advice?

Don't let her go.

But it was certainly
a memorable interview.

Hi.

- Hi.

- How was your flight?

- It was sad, upsetting.

Lonely.

- More joy.

That's what I told myself.

That's what I learned.

If anything, over these last
18 months, that's what I need.

And that's you, you're my joy.

- Did you find my replacement?

- No one can replace you.

But I think I found
someone to replace me.

- What?

- I'm going with you.

More joy.