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The Phantom
by Anton Yelchin.
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Created by Anton Yelchin.
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Filming.
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Taping...
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by Victor Yelchin.
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Costumes by
Anton Yelchin and Irina Yelchin.
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Story writer, Anton Yelchin!
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And here it goes!
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Cut. Cut!
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To begin with,
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I just wanted
to ask you a fun question.
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I don't know if...
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Did you go to the movies
as a kid?
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And if you did,
were there any films or actors
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that were particular favorites
or influences for you?
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Well, as a kid,
when I went to the movies,
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Arnold Schwarzenegger
was probably the biggest
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- influence on me.
- Yeah.
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Specifically,
Last Action Hero
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I remember seeing, and just...
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being obsessed with, you know?
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And then, uh, Space Jam,
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definitely,
was a profound influence
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- when I was younger.
- Yes.
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Oh!
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Oh, gee!
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It's funny, like,
that was my taste
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up until I was like ten.
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Then when I was like 11 and 12,
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my parents started showing me,
because I started working.
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And they were like, "You know,
if you want to do this,
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we're gonna start
showing you good movies,
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just so you don't think
Space Jam is...
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Is the peak. Yeah.
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Was the peak
of American Cinema.
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Um, so they showed me a film
shot by the same DP, actually,
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named Michael Chapman,
who did Taxi Driver.
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I swear, I swear, I'm not crazy.
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And I loved it.
It was like the first thing
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I consciously said
to my folks, like,
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"I want to do this.
I want to make movies."
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The actor Anton Yelchin
is with me.
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You Are in Vancouver
and you are shooting...
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- yet again something?
- Yeah.
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Yeah. How are you in school?
Good in school?
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Good. All A's except in Gym.
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- In Gym?
- Yeah.
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You're a child
after my own heart,
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I have to say.
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But your parents are athletes?
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Yeah, so I think
that's enough in our family.
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Yeah.
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Making their first appearance
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in a professional competition,
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the former stars
of the Leningrad Ice Ballet,
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Irina Korina and Victor Yelchin from the Soviet Union.
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Thirty-eight years of age,
Victor,
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he has a lot of experience.
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These two, now married
and live in Los Angeles
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with their seven-month-old son.
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This is the beginning
of a new career for them,
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and a new life.
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And I was just follow
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everything what he was writing
about pregnancy.
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I was...
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extremely happy
that I have a baby.
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Irina Korina and Victor Yelchin
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bring that music with them
from the Soviet Union.
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That is the theme song
from a Russian movie called
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A Slave of Love.
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Anti-Semitism is on the rise
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in the Soviet Union.
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Five years ago,
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no one would have said
there is any anti-Semitism.
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Today, there is.
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...who lived in United States,
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and he came back, and he said,
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"When the baby would be born,
we have to leave."
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...men don't cry.
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And actually, I didn't.
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But this time, when...
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It was unbelievable feeling
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that I'm staying on
American soil
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with my baby in my hand.
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And this moment will be with me,
like, all my life.
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That's it.
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It is fascinating to me
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how you arrived
in this country. So...
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For those
who don't know the story,
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tell me about your mom and dad,
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and how you, how you
made your way to the US of A.
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My parents
were successful
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in the Soviet Union.
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Basically, they sold everything,
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uh, and came to this country
not knowing a word of English,
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and...
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just started to work.
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And, uh, and then they raised me
in the San Fernando Valley,
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which I dug
based on family photographs,
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I was having a... a good time.
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♪ I know I don't need you
Just like you don't need me ♪
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♪ I know you put your faith
Into technology ♪
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♪ I know that we can settle in
Like a pizza parlor ♪
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Hi-yah!
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♪ Come on, where the fuck
Did you go? ♪
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♪ Come on, come on ♪
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♪ Break your television! ♪
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You know, I met him...
I met him in grade school.
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He was just kind of like,
this loud, kind of crazy kid.
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Everyone knows him
as, you know, like,
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this infinitely
creative person, and...
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You know, we were just...
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We were just
fucking silly together.
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Poor boy.
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So lovely he was, too.
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Alas, what time does
through the ages.
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We would go running
around his neighborhood,
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and he would
always be talking about
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different things
that he was reading,
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and different music
that we were into.
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One of the first people to,
like, really show me Fellini.
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I don't think we watched
a full Fellini film together,
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but we definitely watched clips.
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One of the better
memories that we had
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was when he brought out
the video camera.
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On one level, it was just
two kids just being silly,
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having a lot of fun.
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But on another level,
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there was just something
that was...
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It was kind of serendipitous,
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but it was also just...
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Anton.
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The Dream,
a film by Anton Yelchin.
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I was very shy,
but very privately animated.
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What do you want me to show you?
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Drama, ballet...
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or...
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comedy, horror...
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and action?
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Sort of
a closer family friend of ours
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suggested they take me
to an acting class called
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uh, Kris Kyer's Actors Workshop.
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He had like a class
for little kids,
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and it was all, like,
eight-year-olds
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or nine-year-olds.
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He would look
down his feet for the first...
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six months, I would say.
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He wouldn't look up.
He would get very scared.
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And all we had to do was instill
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uh, self-imagination,
self-esteem
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for the first six months,
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and then a lightbulb went on.
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Seventy-three years ago,
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there once lived a man,
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and his name was Mr. Picognius.
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He was the greatest artist ever.
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He painted...
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Picasso sometimes
even could be like him.
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We did a lot of improv, like, we would do things,
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like, where he would
give us an assignment
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to come home and make something.
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And I actually enjoyed
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those moments more than I did
where we had to learn scenes.
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And because at the time,
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scenes were just lines to me, they weren't really characters,
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whereas these things where I could just create stuff,
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kind of like I did at home.
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The policeman tells me
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that he is...
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That he dropped. Yes.
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And to be or not to be!
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So, your audition
for Chuck E. Cheese,
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you did an imitation of Arnold?
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- Arnold, yeah.
- Yeah.
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But, it's,
it's gotten worse.
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Oh, yeah.
Oh, well, that's okay.
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And then
they asked us to dance.
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Most guys, you know, um, that are like 10, 11, and 12,
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you say to them, "Okay, dance."
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They just...
they wanna run away.
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I always dance
with my mom at parties,
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and in between
my dad dancing with my mom
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because my parents
are ice skaters.
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So my mom always wants me
to dance with her,
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so I don't say, "No!"
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So I always dance with my mom.
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Why it's so hard for him
to fight a simple cold.
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And,
uh, the doctor said,
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"The results are positive.
Anton has cystic fibrosis."
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Imagine being born
with chronic illness,
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and your parents being told
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that you're not going
to live beyond a certain age
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without a significant
amount of therapies
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and significant
amount of medications
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to modify how
their body functions,
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to maintain their activity.
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That's a huge burden to bear.
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One of the hardest things
with CF
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is they don't look sick,
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but they're battling
all the time,
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because the number one symptom
is their breath,
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which we all, in this room,
take for granted.
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Everyone's disease
is different,
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and they all
handle it differently.
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You know, I'd say,
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"You know, this is more hopeful
than it used to be.
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So really live with hope
as your, your main driver."
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...has this horrible disease.
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Yeah, brotha's cool, yeah.
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Yeah!
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- And always...
- Eat my greens.
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- Eat my... I like greens.
- Good.
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And never ever...
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- And never ever...
- Pick my nose
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- and eat the boogers.
- Pick...
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- I never eat the boogers.
- Good.
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- Okay, here you go.
- Thank you.
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That we have to...
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Happy birthday to you!
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- And many more!
- Yay!
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I did
that episode of ER,
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it was a very heavy episode.
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And it was the first time I had- Mm-hmm.
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To cry for anything.
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And I just wept
and wept, and wept,
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and I couldn't stop crying
after they cut.
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And it was weirdly cathartic
and kind of awesome,
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but very painful
at the same time.
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Like, my mom
was really freaked out.
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We and the other
doctors worked really hard
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to help your parents, but...
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their injuries were
very, very serious.
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And...
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despite everything
we tried to do,
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we were not able to save them.
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But I know they would be
so relieved
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to know that you're both okay.
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I wanna see them.
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I mean,
I don't think any parent...
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I mean, I don't know
what kind of a parent
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would want to sit there
and see their kid weep,
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and it was kind of
off-putting to her.
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But it was... there is...
Something happened
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where I realized
that it was very much...
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It was very much something
that I had enjoyed.
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- That intensity.
- Mm.
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"I wish for you
to feel million, trillion,
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billion times better tomorrow."
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"Dear Mommy,
I love you so very much.
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I adore you.
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I wish for you to feel billion,
trillion times better tomorrow."
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And it was like 20,
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those type of cards he would
just slip under the door
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or kiss me and do that.
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He would just write,
"Dear Mommy,
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I love you! Love, Antosha."
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"Dear Mommy, I love you.
Love, Antosha."
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Just like that. This is like...
That's a treasure.
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It's no gifts.
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Better than those.
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I'm very fortunate
because my mom,
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you know, she was teaching
all the time,
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she still choreographs,
264
00:16:15,840 --> 00:16:17,880
but she would literally,
like in her skating suit,
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take me to auditions
after work and just...
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She just believed
that this is what I loved,
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so I owe her everything, really.
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Just for believing in me,
you know?
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"What is a man if his chief good
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and market of his time be,
but to sleep and feed.
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A beast, no more.
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Sure he that made us
with such large discourse,
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looking before and after,
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gave us not this capability
and god-like reason
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to fust in us unused.
276
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Now, whether it be
bestial oblivion,
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or some craven scruple
278
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of thinking too precisely
on the event...
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A thought which, quartered,
280
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hath but one part reason
281
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and ever three parts coward."
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After like six
or seven commercials,
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I kind of said to my mom that it wasn't what I expected.
284
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- Mm.
- And she was like,
285
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"It's fine,
if you don't want to do this.
286
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Um, we can figure out what else there is to do, you know?
287
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Like, we can see
what the next step is.
288
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Or, if you don't like it,
that's cool, too,
289
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you don't have to do that.
You just go back to school."
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And I got an agent,
291
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and I worked on my first movie, A Man is Mostly Water,
292
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and I realized that, that was
what I really wanted to do.
293
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♪ Soon it's morning, baby ♪
294
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♪ About to break our day ♪
295
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♪ I know it hurts...
Darling used to be ♪
296
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♪ Soon it's morning ♪
297
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♪ And I'm about to break
Our day ♪
298
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...he, he start playing guitar.
299
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So good.
300
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This Blues is for you, Mama.
301
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♪ Mommy ♪
302
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♪ I love you so, Mommy ♪
303
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♪ Oh, Mommy ♪
304
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♪ I love you for life ♪
305
00:18:30,970 --> 00:18:32,580
♪ So beautiful, Mom ♪
306
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♪ So beautiful, Mom ♪
307
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I never met anyone
quite like him
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in the sense that
there were these,
309
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sort of classic,
child-like qualities about him
310
00:18:45,340 --> 00:18:48,120
and very old qualities
and they just coexisted.
311
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That is, he had...
312
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a curiosity,
that with most people
313
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degrades over time...
314
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Love you, baby.
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Love you.
316
00:18:58,180 --> 00:18:59,220
Yeah!
317
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...but not with him.
318
00:19:02,220 --> 00:19:04,090
She sure is big.
319
00:19:04,180 --> 00:19:05,180
I knew you would like it.
320
00:19:05,270 --> 00:19:06,750
All kids like big things.
321
00:19:06,840 --> 00:19:08,270
It must be some kind of rule.
322
00:19:09,320 --> 00:19:10,710
What is she holding?
323
00:19:10,800 --> 00:19:12,230
Well, it's a torch...
324
00:19:12,320 --> 00:19:13,710
to light the way in
325
00:19:13,800 --> 00:19:16,320
for the ships
going into the harbor.
326
00:19:16,410 --> 00:19:18,980
I met him
when he was a little kid,
327
00:19:19,070 --> 00:19:21,240
on a movie called,
Delivering Milo,
328
00:19:21,330 --> 00:19:23,770
and I thought
I was a little kid,
329
00:19:23,850 --> 00:19:25,990
but he was, uh, littler.
330
00:19:26,070 --> 00:19:27,250
He was so interesting.
331
00:19:27,340 --> 00:19:28,380
I would have never guessed
332
00:19:28,470 --> 00:19:30,120
he would become a professional,
333
00:19:30,210 --> 00:19:31,250
although, he was a professional,
334
00:19:31,340 --> 00:19:33,080
if I had just seen that.
335
00:19:33,170 --> 00:19:34,560
Because he didn't have,
336
00:19:34,650 --> 00:19:36,210
kind of, like
a false precociousness
337
00:19:36,300 --> 00:19:37,740
which I find
in a lot of kid actors.
338
00:19:37,820 --> 00:19:40,220
They're good
at pretending to be adults.
339
00:19:40,300 --> 00:19:42,180
He wasn't doing that. He was...
340
00:19:42,260 --> 00:19:44,090
I don't want to take away
from what he did
341
00:19:44,180 --> 00:19:45,960
by calling him "a natural,"
342
00:19:46,050 --> 00:19:48,790
but he did have an ability
to just jump into something,
343
00:19:48,880 --> 00:19:49,970
and it didn't seem hard.
344
00:19:50,050 --> 00:19:51,230
Maybe it was hard.
345
00:19:56,970 --> 00:19:59,370
Everything was so,
so instinctual,
346
00:19:59,450 --> 00:20:01,200
like I don't even remember
what I did
347
00:20:01,280 --> 00:20:03,110
in terms of working on it,
348
00:20:03,200 --> 00:20:04,110
I probably
just learned my lines.
349
00:20:04,200 --> 00:20:06,240
But the biggest,
350
00:20:06,330 --> 00:20:08,160
biggest thing that was,
I think, quite significant
351
00:20:08,250 --> 00:20:10,600
and kind of affected me
profoundly
352
00:20:10,680 --> 00:20:12,820
was doing the film
Hearts in Atlantis,
353
00:20:12,900 --> 00:20:14,690
with Anthony Hopkins
and Scott Hicks directing,
354
00:20:14,770 --> 00:20:17,210
and being around
the late Piotr Sobocinski,
355
00:20:17,300 --> 00:20:19,300
who was an extraordinary DP,
and...
356
00:20:19,390 --> 00:20:21,300
And seeing them work
357
00:20:21,390 --> 00:20:23,740
and being influenced by them
was tremendous.
358
00:20:25,960 --> 00:20:28,530
Remember that first time we were in that room in...
359
00:20:28,610 --> 00:20:31,090
- in, uh, Keswick when--
- Keswick Hall.
360
00:20:31,180 --> 00:20:33,230
When Anton came in
361
00:20:33,310 --> 00:20:35,880
and sat down
and started reading with you.
362
00:20:35,970 --> 00:20:38,670
You prepped me
a little about Anton.
363
00:20:38,750 --> 00:20:40,670
You said, "Well, we think
this boy is really terrific."
364
00:20:40,760 --> 00:20:43,670
And then in walked
this young kid.
365
00:20:43,760 --> 00:20:47,330
And he reminded me
of Tom Sawyer.
366
00:20:47,420 --> 00:20:49,500
And then
when he did the reading,
367
00:20:49,590 --> 00:20:51,550
I thought he was just
an extraordinary boy.
368
00:20:51,640 --> 00:20:54,200
He had such poise
and, uh, confidence
369
00:20:54,290 --> 00:20:56,820
without being obnoxious
or overbearing.
370
00:20:56,900 --> 00:20:59,780
I thought he was just wonderful, wonderful kid.
371
00:21:05,390 --> 00:21:08,040
Go on, Ted.
I mean, you can't stop!
372
00:21:09,310 --> 00:21:11,000
Ted, I gotta know what happened!
373
00:21:14,090 --> 00:21:15,700
I never ever saw...
374
00:21:15,790 --> 00:21:17,840
a girl as special
as Carol Gerber.
375
00:21:19,060 --> 00:21:20,540
There's millions.
376
00:21:20,620 --> 00:21:21,620
Oh, yeah?
377
00:21:23,230 --> 00:21:24,410
Have you kissed her yet?
378
00:21:25,150 --> 00:21:26,370
Yuck!
379
00:21:26,450 --> 00:21:28,020
Well, you will. I promise you.
380
00:21:28,670 --> 00:21:30,070
Stay away.
381
00:21:30,150 --> 00:21:32,370
You will.
382
00:21:32,460 --> 00:21:33,940
And it will be the kiss
383
00:21:34,030 --> 00:21:36,330
by which all others in your life
will be judged.
384
00:21:42,170 --> 00:21:43,470
Dear Journal.
385
00:21:43,560 --> 00:21:45,650
Today I have my first kiss.
386
00:21:45,730 --> 00:21:48,040
This was my first kiss
with Mika.
387
00:21:48,130 --> 00:21:50,300
It was okay, I kinda liked it.
388
00:21:50,390 --> 00:21:51,520
It was very nice.
389
00:21:51,610 --> 00:21:53,310
And I did it twice.
390
00:21:53,390 --> 00:21:55,310
I hope it happens
many more times.
391
00:22:02,140 --> 00:22:05,190
I said, "Anton,
what you got to do is
392
00:22:05,280 --> 00:22:07,020
wait for the good scripts,"
393
00:22:07,100 --> 00:22:08,540
you know, the thing
394
00:22:08,630 --> 00:22:10,410
that's gonna launch you
to the next step."
395
00:22:10,500 --> 00:22:12,020
And he said to me,
396
00:22:12,110 --> 00:22:15,110
"No, I want to do everything."
397
00:22:15,200 --> 00:22:18,030
I said, "No, no, no,
you can't do everything,
398
00:22:18,110 --> 00:22:19,640
because there's a lot of...
399
00:22:19,720 --> 00:22:21,250
junk out there
you don't want to be a part of."
400
00:22:21,340 --> 00:22:23,600
"No, no, I wanna do everything.
401
00:22:23,690 --> 00:22:26,040
I don't care, I want to act."
402
00:22:51,890 --> 00:22:54,460
Raging Bull. - Then wasRaging Bull.
403
00:23:03,250 --> 00:23:05,810
Fight. Win, win, win.
404
00:23:10,560 --> 00:23:12,340
Kill, kill, kill.
405
00:23:12,430 --> 00:23:14,950
Kill, kill. Put them up.
406
00:23:15,040 --> 00:23:16,260
Kill, kill, kill.
407
00:23:27,530 --> 00:23:28,620
Studying it.
408
00:23:28,710 --> 00:23:30,840
He was going back to Internet,
409
00:23:30,930 --> 00:23:32,710
read everything,
what was connected
410
00:23:32,800 --> 00:23:35,840
with this particular movie.
411
00:23:35,930 --> 00:23:38,670
Influence
on Taxi Driver for Scorsese.
412
00:23:38,760 --> 00:23:42,020
Notes from the Underground,
Merchant of Four Seasons,
413
00:23:42,110 --> 00:23:43,110
Fassbinder.
414
00:23:44,550 --> 00:23:46,330
Travis Bickle is a reflection
415
00:23:46,420 --> 00:23:48,200
of the history of masculinity
in film.
416
00:23:52,470 --> 00:23:54,910
We would sit for hours.
417
00:23:54,990 --> 00:23:57,520
And he would show me
old movies, you know.
418
00:23:57,610 --> 00:23:59,690
Old film noirs, and...
419
00:23:59,780 --> 00:24:03,520
old French movies
and old Japanese movies, and...
420
00:24:03,610 --> 00:24:05,130
You know, he was a...
421
00:24:05,220 --> 00:24:07,920
a true student of film.
422
00:24:08,010 --> 00:24:11,230
Double Indemnity,
1944, Billy Wilder.
423
00:24:11,310 --> 00:24:13,710
A great, nasty picture.
424
00:24:13,800 --> 00:24:16,710
Uses the self-conscious device
of voiceover and flashback.
425
00:24:16,800 --> 00:24:19,370
Straight Shooting,
1917, John Ford.
426
00:24:19,450 --> 00:24:21,410
A great moving picture.
427
00:24:21,500 --> 00:24:23,200
Even though
it's Ford's first feature,
428
00:24:23,280 --> 00:24:25,150
already displays his themes
429
00:24:25,240 --> 00:24:27,290
in much of this spectacular use of mise-en-scéne.
430
00:24:50,530 --> 00:24:52,490
Bohemians.
431
00:25:04,540 --> 00:25:08,680
I remember once,
he invited me to a movie.
432
00:25:09,550 --> 00:25:11,290
It was The Big Heat...
433
00:25:12,200 --> 00:25:13,810
with Lee Marvin.
434
00:25:13,900 --> 00:25:15,600
After the movie, I was like,
"That was amazing!
435
00:25:15,680 --> 00:25:17,120
That was amazing!"
436
00:25:17,210 --> 00:25:18,600
And he was like,
"I'm glad you enjoyed it."
437
00:25:18,690 --> 00:25:20,600
Uh, he...
438
00:25:20,690 --> 00:25:22,560
He had, of course,
seen it multiple times.
439
00:25:25,000 --> 00:25:26,430
I mean,
I always loved movies.
440
00:25:26,520 --> 00:25:28,780
I loved being on set.
441
00:25:28,870 --> 00:25:29,700
I love meeting people.
I love working on the scenes,
442
00:25:29,780 --> 00:25:31,480
but...
443
00:25:31,570 --> 00:25:33,610
the level of work
that I've put in
444
00:25:33,700 --> 00:25:35,220
and the appreciation I had
for the craft of filmmaking
445
00:25:35,310 --> 00:25:36,790
is completely different now.
446
00:25:49,020 --> 00:25:50,500
I would like you
to shuffle this, please.
447
00:25:50,590 --> 00:25:51,630
All right.
448
00:25:51,720 --> 00:25:53,980
And efficiently, and...
449
00:25:54,070 --> 00:25:55,550
- Yeah. Okay, fine.
- Anyway possible.
450
00:25:55,640 --> 00:25:56,990
- Okay.
- So, I'll shuffle.
451
00:26:00,160 --> 00:26:02,340
Okay, and...
452
00:26:02,430 --> 00:26:03,910
This is your card.
453
00:26:06,470 --> 00:26:08,000
Wow!
454
00:26:08,080 --> 00:26:09,390
Yeah.
455
00:26:09,480 --> 00:26:10,690
How'd you do that?
456
00:26:11,910 --> 00:26:13,570
I'm sorry, I can't tell you.
457
00:26:14,090 --> 00:26:15,790
Sorry.
458
00:26:15,870 --> 00:26:17,700
Come on, just do it.
How you did you do the trick?
459
00:26:17,790 --> 00:26:20,230
No, no, no. Magicians don't tell
people how they do their tricks.
460
00:26:20,310 --> 00:26:22,490
Yeah, well,
you're not really a magician.
461
00:26:22,580 --> 00:26:24,400
Oh, yeah, I am.
462
00:26:24,490 --> 00:26:25,540
What, 'cause you do one trick,
that makes you a magician?
463
00:26:25,620 --> 00:26:26,970
Did I trick you?
464
00:26:28,970 --> 00:26:30,890
Curb is such a different kind of experience.
465
00:26:30,980 --> 00:26:33,590
I mean, Curb, you go
on the audition, and...
466
00:26:33,670 --> 00:26:36,240
you pick a scenario
out of a hat.
467
00:26:36,330 --> 00:26:38,160
And then you go into the room,
468
00:26:38,240 --> 00:26:40,420
and there's like ten execs there
and Larry David,
469
00:26:40,510 --> 00:26:41,640
and you just improvise a scene
with Larry David.
470
00:26:41,730 --> 00:26:43,380
And I basically did it.
471
00:26:43,470 --> 00:26:44,600
And then when I got it,
they were like,
472
00:26:44,690 --> 00:26:46,030
"What you said in the audition,
473
00:26:46,120 --> 00:26:47,990
what you did in the audition,
474
00:26:48,080 --> 00:26:49,430
that's what
the scene's gonna be."
475
00:26:49,520 --> 00:26:49,950
Are you gonna
tell me this trick?
476
00:26:49,950 --> 00:26:50,690
No.
477
00:26:52,390 --> 00:26:53,390
Magicians
don't reveal their secrets.
478
00:26:53,480 --> 00:26:54,830
Fine. I got to go.
479
00:26:58,960 --> 00:27:00,480
You guys are a lot alike.
480
00:27:00,570 --> 00:27:02,620
Yeah,
except he's not a magician.
481
00:27:11,840 --> 00:27:14,450
It was 2004
482
00:27:14,540 --> 00:27:17,150
when I first met Anton.
483
00:27:18,370 --> 00:27:20,070
I had seen a lot of kids
484
00:27:20,160 --> 00:27:22,420
for something I had done
right before that.
485
00:27:22,510 --> 00:27:24,510
So when David Duchovny
was looking,
486
00:27:24,590 --> 00:27:26,250
and he had someone in mind.
487
00:27:26,340 --> 00:27:29,730
And it was like, "You just have
to meet this child."
488
00:27:30,770 --> 00:27:32,990
And he met Anton.
489
00:27:33,080 --> 00:27:35,260
I think it's the only kid
I brought to him.
490
00:27:44,140 --> 00:27:45,440
I don't want you to take
491
00:27:45,530 --> 00:27:48,140
any shit off your dad, okay?
492
00:27:48,230 --> 00:27:49,270
Okay.
493
00:27:49,360 --> 00:27:50,710
And listen, if Simone--
494
00:27:50,790 --> 00:27:52,360
Do good things, Tommy.
495
00:28:00,370 --> 00:28:01,810
Promise me.
496
00:28:03,550 --> 00:28:05,070
You do good things.
497
00:28:07,380 --> 00:28:08,990
I promise.
498
00:28:11,120 --> 00:28:13,470
The thrill
of making movies
499
00:28:13,560 --> 00:28:15,340
and being able to make movies
500
00:28:15,430 --> 00:28:17,780
and studying characters,
and you know,
501
00:28:17,870 --> 00:28:19,650
getting to work with people
that you respect and admire,
502
00:28:19,740 --> 00:28:22,260
is, is so far superior
to everything else.
503
00:28:22,350 --> 00:28:25,610
That... and it's kind of
an easy choice.
504
00:28:25,700 --> 00:28:27,050
At least for me, you know,
505
00:28:27,140 --> 00:28:28,790
it's how I think about things.
506
00:28:30,310 --> 00:28:32,790
He was
an absolute one of a kind.
507
00:28:32,880 --> 00:28:35,800
With Anton, you just know
they broke the mold.
508
00:28:35,880 --> 00:28:38,490
There was nothing about him
that wasn't wonderful.
509
00:28:39,760 --> 00:28:41,800
I remember he was always...
510
00:28:41,890 --> 00:28:44,890
always there, always on the set,
511
00:28:44,980 --> 00:28:46,810
watching me,
and then after his take,
512
00:28:46,890 --> 00:28:48,900
he would come over
and ask me questions about it.
513
00:28:48,980 --> 00:28:52,640
Or when we did a scene,
afterward, he didn't go...
514
00:28:52,730 --> 00:28:54,210
rolling off into his trailer.
515
00:28:54,290 --> 00:28:56,860
He wanted it always
to be of a piece.
516
00:28:56,950 --> 00:28:59,080
Presenting the Breakthrough Award tonight,
517
00:28:59,170 --> 00:29:00,860
is his House of D director.
518
00:29:00,950 --> 00:29:02,870
Give it up for David Duchovny.
519
00:29:04,650 --> 00:29:06,570
I learned about integrity,
artistic integrity,
520
00:29:06,650 --> 00:29:11,220
about, uh, artistic morality,
if that, if that can be said.
521
00:29:11,310 --> 00:29:13,530
About, uh, honesty.
522
00:29:13,620 --> 00:29:16,310
And the only thing that I can
fault him for, is that...
523
00:29:16,400 --> 00:29:18,230
You know, when he worked, uh,
with Robin Williams,
524
00:29:18,320 --> 00:29:20,620
he would always call him,
"Mr. Williams."
525
00:29:20,710 --> 00:29:22,490
And he called me "David."
526
00:29:23,630 --> 00:29:25,280
But, Anton,
527
00:29:25,370 --> 00:29:26,190
the luckiest thing
and the best thing I ever did
528
00:29:26,280 --> 00:29:27,760
was put you on my movie.
529
00:29:27,850 --> 00:29:29,410
Come here and get this.
530
00:29:29,500 --> 00:29:31,110
Thank you, Mr. Duchovny.
531
00:29:31,630 --> 00:29:33,110
Um...
532
00:29:33,200 --> 00:29:35,070
It's, uh, it's, uh, really great
to be here.
533
00:29:35,160 --> 00:29:38,730
I'm not really good
at taking compliments, so...
534
00:29:38,820 --> 00:29:41,080
I'll try to make this
as quick as possible.
535
00:29:41,170 --> 00:29:44,950
More than anything, um,
my parents who are always like,
536
00:29:45,040 --> 00:29:47,820
you know,
symbols of strength, and...
537
00:29:47,910 --> 00:29:49,390
for me,
and have always showed me
538
00:29:49,480 --> 00:29:50,910
a lot of love and kindness
539
00:29:51,000 --> 00:29:52,920
since I was tiny, you know?
Thank you.
540
00:29:53,870 --> 00:29:56,960
C. A.
541
00:29:57,830 --> 00:29:59,140
A.
542
00:30:09,150 --> 00:30:10,890
Dear Mamoola.
543
00:30:10,980 --> 00:30:12,760
You are my best friend,
544
00:30:12,850 --> 00:30:14,810
the closest person to me
in the world,
545
00:30:14,900 --> 00:30:17,990
and the most amazing woman
that I know.
546
00:30:18,070 --> 00:30:21,340
Your soul, through
your beautiful eyes, shines.
547
00:30:21,420 --> 00:30:23,990
It does not matter whether
you are laughing, or yelling,
548
00:30:24,080 --> 00:30:26,250
regardless of whether
I am smart enough to show it,
549
00:30:26,340 --> 00:30:31,610
I always, always, always have so much respect for who you are,
550
00:30:31,690 --> 00:30:35,130
for how strong, smart,
wonderful, talented,
551
00:30:35,220 --> 00:30:37,960
interesting, intelligent,
and just how...
552
00:30:38,050 --> 00:30:39,750
your least favorite word,
553
00:30:39,830 --> 00:30:42,270
cool you are.
554
00:30:42,360 --> 00:30:46,800
Thank you for every hug, kiss,
smile, and every bowl of soup.
555
00:30:46,880 --> 00:30:49,580
You are an extraordinary,
charming woman,
556
00:30:49,670 --> 00:30:52,540
and you have an equally
extraordinary husband,
557
00:30:52,630 --> 00:30:54,540
and a son that is your baby
558
00:30:55,500 --> 00:30:57,150
as long as he lives.
559
00:30:58,720 --> 00:31:00,900
Love, Antosha.
560
00:31:02,990 --> 00:31:04,770
I remember, like, I was,
561
00:31:04,860 --> 00:31:07,160
I was a little intimidated
by Irina, just a little bit.
562
00:31:07,250 --> 00:31:08,990
We were maybe, like 11 or 12,
563
00:31:09,080 --> 00:31:11,730
and would be looking
at something on the Internet,
564
00:31:11,820 --> 00:31:14,300
something inappropriate,
or whatever, and then...
565
00:31:14,390 --> 00:31:17,170
you know, we would hear
from downstairs like, "Antosha!"
566
00:31:18,520 --> 00:31:19,870
And he would yell back, "Shtoh?"
567
00:31:19,960 --> 00:31:22,180
You know, like,
just like, "What?"
568
00:31:22,270 --> 00:31:23,750
You know,
that's when our hormones
569
00:31:23,830 --> 00:31:25,310
just started kicking in.
570
00:31:25,400 --> 00:31:27,100
So, we were just
totally girl-crazy, and like...
571
00:31:27,180 --> 00:31:29,840
The Internet
was in its adolescence too.
572
00:31:29,930 --> 00:31:32,890
So it's just
like girl-crazy, Internet...
573
00:31:33,890 --> 00:31:35,670
bad combo, you know?
574
00:31:36,450 --> 00:31:37,630
Good!
575
00:31:42,850 --> 00:31:46,070
I was 14
when I worked with him,
576
00:31:46,160 --> 00:31:48,510
but then, yeah, he and I were...
577
00:31:48,600 --> 00:31:51,820
really good friends
for like two years.
578
00:31:51,910 --> 00:31:54,390
Um, and then he kind of,
like, broke my heart.
579
00:31:58,350 --> 00:32:00,870
I was so kind of
baffled by how good he was
580
00:32:00,960 --> 00:32:02,520
in working with him.
581
00:32:02,610 --> 00:32:03,790
Uh, and then, subsequently,
582
00:32:03,870 --> 00:32:05,570
just, I couldn't be around him,
583
00:32:05,660 --> 00:32:06,960
um, because he was, just like,
made me like so nervous.
584
00:32:07,050 --> 00:32:09,230
But I literally think about,
like,
585
00:32:09,310 --> 00:32:12,100
why I like
some of the shit that I like.
586
00:32:12,190 --> 00:32:14,490
In that very brief
period of time,
587
00:32:14,580 --> 00:32:16,230
at like 14, 15, 16,
588
00:32:16,320 --> 00:32:19,020
he kind of like shaped me
in this way, and so...
589
00:32:19,110 --> 00:32:20,890
So, yeah,
in full disclosure, fully,
590
00:32:20,980 --> 00:32:22,810
it was just like, weird
to talk about with...
591
00:32:22,890 --> 00:32:24,370
anyone,
because it was like this,
592
00:32:24,460 --> 00:32:27,240
kind of, like insulated,
little thing and, uh...
593
00:32:27,330 --> 00:32:30,330
Yeah. Yeah, whatever, but...
594
00:32:30,420 --> 00:32:34,300
I missed you so much.
595
00:32:37,080 --> 00:32:39,130
Watch it, my ribs still hurt.
596
00:32:40,000 --> 00:32:41,780
Does it hurt to kiss me?
597
00:32:41,870 --> 00:32:43,650
No, of course not.
598
00:32:43,740 --> 00:32:47,920
He intimidated me
because he's so voracious,
599
00:32:48,000 --> 00:32:50,220
and I like, wanted to keep up
with that.
600
00:32:50,310 --> 00:32:51,970
And wanted to listen
to all the music
601
00:32:52,050 --> 00:32:53,840
that he fucking listened to,
and I, like, wanted to,
602
00:32:53,920 --> 00:32:56,060
kind of absorb all of his
interests, and all of his stuff.
603
00:32:56,140 --> 00:32:57,800
And by the way, when you're 14,
604
00:32:57,880 --> 00:32:59,360
and someone's like a year
or two older than you,
605
00:32:59,450 --> 00:33:00,970
and you're like,
"He's like a lot older than me!"
606
00:33:01,060 --> 00:33:03,150
Um, so, yeah,
there was like that, and...
607
00:33:04,190 --> 00:33:07,240
he asked me once
what my favorite book was,
608
00:33:07,330 --> 00:33:09,770
and I didn't really have one
at the time.
609
00:33:09,850 --> 00:33:11,550
I was so horrified,
610
00:33:11,640 --> 00:33:13,900
I think it probably kick-started
my own, like, self...
611
00:33:13,990 --> 00:33:15,730
I wanted to be better,
smarter, cooler.
612
00:33:15,810 --> 00:33:18,080
I was just always like...
But couldn't even hang with him.
613
00:33:18,950 --> 00:33:21,040
I think On the Road
614
00:33:21,120 --> 00:33:23,610
is really a novel about
the savage passage of time,
615
00:33:23,690 --> 00:33:25,690
and how to approach that passage
616
00:33:25,780 --> 00:33:27,440
and the ultimately sad way
it keeps going
617
00:33:27,520 --> 00:33:29,650
and leaves us all behind
in its wake.
618
00:33:29,740 --> 00:33:31,440
Even Dean Moriarty,
619
00:33:31,530 --> 00:33:32,660
who always exists
in the present.
620
00:33:32,740 --> 00:33:33,960
Gone, Dean Moriarty,
621
00:33:34,050 --> 00:33:36,050
who digs the world continually
622
00:33:36,140 --> 00:33:37,750
and loves every bit of it
and moves on.
623
00:33:46,670 --> 00:33:48,720
...you know,
I'm worried about this thing."
624
00:33:56,550 --> 00:33:58,680
And I said,
"Well, you know, baby, we...
625
00:34:00,210 --> 00:34:02,990
so you have to go
and kill somebody else?"
626
00:34:03,080 --> 00:34:04,600
So he said, "Okay."
627
00:34:11,390 --> 00:34:13,130
"I wanna show you something."
628
00:34:13,220 --> 00:34:15,570
And I said, "What?"
"Just don't freak out."
629
00:34:20,010 --> 00:34:21,230
Ah.
630
00:34:34,850 --> 00:34:36,460
...telling what he feels.
631
00:34:56,260 --> 00:35:00,180
His associations
were very well-tuned.
632
00:35:00,270 --> 00:35:02,700
He'd go farther
than most people.
633
00:35:02,790 --> 00:35:04,840
He had this childlike...
634
00:35:06,140 --> 00:35:10,890
surprise and appetite
for experience.
635
00:35:10,970 --> 00:35:12,320
He was always looking for...
636
00:35:12,410 --> 00:35:13,890
He was always looking
under the hood.
637
00:35:15,980 --> 00:35:17,330
And numb...
638
00:35:27,860 --> 00:35:30,340
Do you know that
we have a homework parties?
639
00:35:30,430 --> 00:35:31,690
What?
640
00:35:31,780 --> 00:35:33,390
Homework parties
with little hats.
641
00:35:33,470 --> 00:35:34,870
No.
642
00:35:34,950 --> 00:35:36,430
- Yeah.
- Like...
643
00:35:37,740 --> 00:35:39,180
- Yeah.
- ...for birthdays?
644
00:35:39,260 --> 00:35:41,570
Yeah! Yeah!
645
00:35:41,660 --> 00:35:42,740
Another thing...
646
00:35:45,050 --> 00:35:46,660
I'll be sleeping, right?
647
00:35:48,450 --> 00:35:51,410
And she will wake me up
by looking at me.
648
00:35:51,490 --> 00:35:53,670
Like, I'll open my eyes,
649
00:35:53,760 --> 00:35:56,190
and she'll be right there
looking at me, like...
650
00:35:57,500 --> 00:35:59,280
You're lucky,
you know that?
651
00:36:00,370 --> 00:36:01,680
Yeah, I know.
652
00:36:20,740 --> 00:36:21,740
...what he had.
653
00:36:24,090 --> 00:36:27,660
My brain is now
distinctly fucking jumbled,
654
00:36:27,750 --> 00:36:29,180
or not so much.
655
00:36:29,270 --> 00:36:30,970
Actually, not really.
656
00:36:31,050 --> 00:36:32,320
Not at all.
657
00:36:32,400 --> 00:36:33,880
The sun is still shining.
658
00:36:38,320 --> 00:36:39,840
He was a list man.
659
00:36:39,930 --> 00:36:41,370
He always had a list on him.
660
00:36:41,460 --> 00:36:43,980
He's like,
"Mary! I'm so glad you're here.
661
00:36:44,070 --> 00:36:47,200
I have so many things
I want to talk to you about."
662
00:36:47,290 --> 00:36:48,550
So we would just like get into
663
00:36:48,640 --> 00:36:50,810
these great conversations
about...
664
00:36:50,900 --> 00:36:53,900
You know, how he could do things
and still live his life.
665
00:37:15,360 --> 00:37:17,010
Numerous times a day,
666
00:37:17,100 --> 00:37:19,320
he'd have to be hooked up
to a breathing machine
667
00:37:19,410 --> 00:37:21,500
that he'd, you know,
would have to literally just,
668
00:37:21,580 --> 00:37:24,500
just pounce against his lungs
and cough up mucus,
669
00:37:24,590 --> 00:37:27,330
and then have to go outside,
and put on a smile,
670
00:37:27,410 --> 00:37:31,370
and through that, also wanted
to keep that inside
671
00:37:31,460 --> 00:37:32,720
and not tell anyone.
672
00:37:34,510 --> 00:37:36,680
A call time is usually...
673
00:37:36,770 --> 00:37:38,120
bright and early.
674
00:37:38,210 --> 00:37:39,080
He had to do
his breathing exercise
675
00:37:39,160 --> 00:37:40,780
like two hours before,
676
00:37:40,860 --> 00:37:42,730
just to get himself prepared
to start the day.
677
00:37:44,430 --> 00:37:46,350
Nobody knew that but Anton.
678
00:37:46,430 --> 00:37:48,350
Nobody knew that.
679
00:37:48,440 --> 00:37:50,390
People are finding out
right now, actually.
680
00:37:50,480 --> 00:37:52,310
You know? This is insane.
681
00:37:58,310 --> 00:38:00,530
Fatty, why are you doing this?
682
00:38:01,930 --> 00:38:04,230
Well, go on. Go on, tell us.
683
00:38:04,320 --> 00:38:06,710
Well, the Captain
wants to know why.
684
00:38:06,800 --> 00:38:07,800
Well?
685
00:38:09,460 --> 00:38:11,810
Fatty, don't be such a pussy.
686
00:38:11,890 --> 00:38:14,370
I had arranged
to meet with Anton.
687
00:38:14,460 --> 00:38:16,900
Or I think Irina drove him over
and dropped him off
688
00:38:16,990 --> 00:38:18,770
and we sat down.
689
00:38:18,860 --> 00:38:21,860
And I said,
"So, you know, what...
690
00:38:21,950 --> 00:38:23,730
Why do you wanna play
Charlie Bartlett?
691
00:38:23,820 --> 00:38:27,080
What is it you like about
the character or the movie?"
692
00:38:27,170 --> 00:38:28,520
And the first thing he said is,
693
00:38:28,610 --> 00:38:30,910
"I like how honest he is,
694
00:38:31,000 --> 00:38:32,440
and...
695
00:38:32,520 --> 00:38:36,000
how he wants to do things
for his friends.
696
00:38:36,090 --> 00:38:37,830
He wants
to take care of people."
697
00:38:37,920 --> 00:38:41,010
Great
fucking time on my birthday.
698
00:38:41,100 --> 00:38:42,710
It is going to be a great...
699
00:38:42,790 --> 00:38:44,970
I can't even fucking see
behind your fucking head,
700
00:38:45,060 --> 00:38:46,360
you fucking hippie.
701
00:38:47,320 --> 00:38:49,840
Marlon, I love you, dude.
702
00:38:49,930 --> 00:38:51,060
Guys, give me it.
703
00:38:51,150 --> 00:38:52,410
You motherfucking fucks.
704
00:38:52,500 --> 00:38:54,590
I have a small growth
705
00:38:54,680 --> 00:38:56,150
on one of the ventricles
of my brain.
706
00:38:56,240 --> 00:38:59,420
To date,
I've had four brain surgeries.
707
00:38:59,510 --> 00:39:02,120
Anton was one of the very,
very few people
708
00:39:02,200 --> 00:39:03,640
that knew that about me.
709
00:39:03,730 --> 00:39:05,730
He would always be
very concerned.
710
00:39:05,820 --> 00:39:08,430
He knew instantly
when things weren't right.
711
00:39:08,520 --> 00:39:11,610
Because of him,
and because of our friendship
712
00:39:11,690 --> 00:39:14,830
that I was able to be a bit more
713
00:39:14,910 --> 00:39:17,920
accepting of the circumstances
I was in.
714
00:39:18,000 --> 00:39:20,700
If you can explain
what you're doing.
715
00:39:20,790 --> 00:39:22,180
Or better yet,
why you're doing it,
716
00:39:22,270 --> 00:39:24,230
that would be a good start.
717
00:39:24,310 --> 00:39:26,490
Look, I'm helping
these kids, okay?
718
00:39:26,580 --> 00:39:28,840
Nobody else
is listening to them.
719
00:39:28,930 --> 00:39:31,060
Charlie could be
the loneliest of people,
720
00:39:31,150 --> 00:39:33,150
but he chooses not to be.
721
00:39:33,240 --> 00:39:34,980
It's the intelligence
of his decisions,
722
00:39:35,060 --> 00:39:36,590
and as a result,
his responsibilities
723
00:39:36,670 --> 00:39:38,410
and the consequence of these
724
00:39:38,500 --> 00:39:40,460
that shape his character.
725
00:39:40,550 --> 00:39:43,070
He was always kind of
observing people
726
00:39:43,160 --> 00:39:44,460
and their behavior,
727
00:39:44,550 --> 00:39:46,470
and he took that
into his work a lot too,
728
00:39:46,550 --> 00:39:48,950
as he would be able
to take different characters.
729
00:39:49,030 --> 00:39:50,560
And he loved stories.
730
00:39:50,640 --> 00:39:52,650
He loved human stories.
731
00:39:52,730 --> 00:39:54,470
Charlie is an optimist.
732
00:39:54,560 --> 00:39:56,820
People are depending on him.
733
00:39:56,910 --> 00:39:59,000
He had so much love for...
734
00:39:59,090 --> 00:40:01,740
the people that were close
to him in his life.
735
00:40:01,830 --> 00:40:04,660
I lost my dad when I was 13,
and, you know...
736
00:40:04,750 --> 00:40:06,310
He always reminded me that
737
00:40:06,400 --> 00:40:08,310
he was like, there for me,
you know?
738
00:40:08,400 --> 00:40:11,490
He opened up to me
about his CF,
739
00:40:11,580 --> 00:40:14,450
and he had known that I had
an autoimmune disease
740
00:40:14,540 --> 00:40:16,450
and that, you know,
it had been, you know,
741
00:40:16,540 --> 00:40:19,500
pretty significant and caused
a lot of problems in my life.
742
00:40:19,590 --> 00:40:22,810
The funny thing is, like,
I would use my disease to like,
743
00:40:22,890 --> 00:40:24,680
you know, to help me out,
occasionally,
744
00:40:24,770 --> 00:40:26,810
like to bail me out of things.
745
00:40:26,900 --> 00:40:31,510
And this guy
was so selfless, that he like...
746
00:40:31,600 --> 00:40:35,860
You know, was able to keep
such a serious thing secret.
747
00:40:35,950 --> 00:40:37,780
Anton was great
at what he did,
748
00:40:37,870 --> 00:40:41,220
but he was kind of worried
that because of his condition,
749
00:40:41,300 --> 00:40:43,440
he maybe,
wouldn't be able to work.
750
00:40:47,920 --> 00:40:50,490
And now, you're not gonna
get away from this interview
751
00:40:50,570 --> 00:40:52,360
without my asking you
about Star Trek.
752
00:40:52,450 --> 00:40:53,660
- And I'm sorry.
- Right.
753
00:40:53,750 --> 00:40:55,400
- I apologize right now.
- Right.
754
00:40:55,490 --> 00:40:57,410
- It's part of the deal.
- Of course.
755
00:40:57,490 --> 00:40:58,760
You're in
the new Star Trek movie.
756
00:40:58,840 --> 00:41:00,150
- Right.
- Directed by J.J. Abrams.
757
00:41:00,240 --> 00:41:01,540
The whole world
is curious about it,
758
00:41:01,630 --> 00:41:02,890
- Right.
- And that includes me.
759
00:41:02,980 --> 00:41:04,020
- Right.
- So...
760
00:41:04,110 --> 00:41:05,150
You're playing the young Chekov?
761
00:41:05,240 --> 00:41:07,020
Right, Pavel Chekov, right.
762
00:41:09,810 --> 00:41:12,420
On the, uh,
first Star Trek,
763
00:41:12,510 --> 00:41:14,730
we said we wanted
to clone little Antons
764
00:41:14,820 --> 00:41:16,560
and give them away
as wrap gifts.
765
00:41:16,640 --> 00:41:20,560
Just tiny pet Antons
that every...
766
00:41:20,650 --> 00:41:22,560
I think it was
just the kind of joy
767
00:41:22,650 --> 00:41:24,560
and the kind of happiness
and optimism
768
00:41:24,650 --> 00:41:26,570
he sort of encapsulates, and...
769
00:41:26,650 --> 00:41:28,350
Of course, you know,
the fun of playing around
770
00:41:28,440 --> 00:41:30,090
with that great accent.
771
00:41:30,180 --> 00:41:34,270
The character of Chekov
in Star Trek
772
00:41:34,360 --> 00:41:36,490
speaks a kind of Russian...
773
00:41:37,190 --> 00:41:38,840
that doesn't really exist.
774
00:41:38,930 --> 00:41:41,490
They're creating a singularity
775
00:41:41,580 --> 00:41:43,580
that will consume the planet.
776
00:41:43,670 --> 00:41:45,500
And, uh...
777
00:41:45,590 --> 00:41:47,760
It was actually really hard
for Anton
778
00:41:47,850 --> 00:41:51,290
at the beginning
to speak Russian badly.
779
00:41:56,510 --> 00:41:57,640
He couldn't.
780
00:42:05,040 --> 00:42:06,820
When he was business,
he would say, "Mom.
781
00:42:06,910 --> 00:42:08,480
Mom, your accent
is not good for this.
782
00:42:08,560 --> 00:42:10,040
I need Grandpa's accent."
783
00:42:10,130 --> 00:42:11,790
- Excuse me, Captain Kirk.
- Yes.
784
00:42:11,870 --> 00:42:13,700
- Sorry, sir.
- Mr. Chekov, what is it?
785
00:42:13,790 --> 00:42:15,830
Based on the Narada's course
from Vulcan...
786
00:42:17,490 --> 00:42:19,140
I remember
being with him on set
787
00:42:19,230 --> 00:42:22,540
and doing a classic J.J. Abrams
sort of 19-hour day,
788
00:42:22,620 --> 00:42:24,280
and, um...
789
00:42:24,360 --> 00:42:25,670
He looked so tired.
790
00:42:25,760 --> 00:42:27,710
I remember he was trying
to say this, uh,
791
00:42:27,800 --> 00:42:29,540
very complicated speech
792
00:42:29,630 --> 00:42:32,590
about dropping out of warp
and hiding behind Saturn,
793
00:42:32,680 --> 00:42:34,630
and his little eyes
were so sort of red.
794
00:42:34,720 --> 00:42:38,330
He never looked younger to me
than on that day.
795
00:42:38,420 --> 00:42:39,680
If we adjust
our shield frequencies,
796
00:42:39,770 --> 00:42:41,080
we should not be detected.
797
00:42:41,160 --> 00:42:42,600
Wait a minute, kid,
how old are you?
798
00:42:42,690 --> 00:42:43,770
Seventeen, sir!
799
00:42:43,860 --> 00:42:45,470
I can certainly say,
800
00:42:45,560 --> 00:42:47,650
for the group of people
that got to work with him,
801
00:42:47,730 --> 00:42:50,210
he might have been
the youngest person on camera,
802
00:42:50,300 --> 00:42:54,000
but he was, I think,
the person that sort of quietly,
803
00:42:54,090 --> 00:42:56,050
without even realizing it,
I think,
804
00:42:56,130 --> 00:42:59,660
you know, challenging all of us
to be as good as he was.
805
00:43:00,830 --> 00:43:02,750
It's an interesting line to follow,
806
00:43:02,840 --> 00:43:04,790
because you pick and choose,
807
00:43:04,880 --> 00:43:07,140
and you see what you can bring
that's your own.
808
00:43:07,230 --> 00:43:09,280
And then I met
with Walter Koenig,
809
00:43:09,360 --> 00:43:11,370
and we had this talk.
And he said, you know,
810
00:43:11,450 --> 00:43:13,320
"Looks like you guys
811
00:43:13,410 --> 00:43:14,890
are being really smart
about this,
812
00:43:14,980 --> 00:43:16,680
and doing your own thing
and yet,
813
00:43:16,680 --> 00:43:18,160
you know, I see traces of myself in what you're doing."
814
00:43:18,240 --> 00:43:20,240
And it was really...
815
00:43:20,330 --> 00:43:22,160
It was really great
for me to hear that,
816
00:43:22,250 --> 00:43:24,680
because I was so nervous
about meeting him.
817
00:43:24,770 --> 00:43:26,950
And, and he seemed so pleased.
818
00:43:29,300 --> 00:43:32,690
Here we are,
we're all coming together
819
00:43:32,780 --> 00:43:35,040
to revamp this old franchise
820
00:43:35,130 --> 00:43:38,520
that had moved people
for so long.
821
00:43:38,610 --> 00:43:40,440
And Anton was the youngest one
in the cast.
822
00:43:40,530 --> 00:43:43,400
And his angle about like,
"Oh, we have to do this right,
823
00:43:43,490 --> 00:43:45,230
and if not,
people will be unhappy.
824
00:43:45,310 --> 00:43:47,880
We're talking about peace,
it was about friendship,
825
00:43:47,970 --> 00:43:49,580
it was about ending war."
826
00:43:49,670 --> 00:43:51,150
And I remember thinking,
827
00:43:51,230 --> 00:43:53,970
"My god, this kid is so deep.
828
00:43:54,060 --> 00:43:57,240
I got to get...
I got to get myself in shape."
829
00:43:59,370 --> 00:44:02,460
I play guitar and Anton
played incredible guitar.
830
00:44:02,550 --> 00:44:03,940
And so...
831
00:44:04,030 --> 00:44:05,120
You know,
we had inevitably kind of
832
00:44:05,200 --> 00:44:06,420
bring our guitars to the set,
833
00:44:06,510 --> 00:44:08,030
tool around, and,
834
00:44:08,120 --> 00:44:10,950
Anton, in all of his
frustrating humility.
835
00:44:11,030 --> 00:44:14,300
He never wanted to pat himself
on the back, it seemed like...
836
00:44:15,870 --> 00:44:17,210
He would say,
"Well, I don't really know,
837
00:44:17,300 --> 00:44:18,780
you know, I don't play
all that much."
838
00:44:18,870 --> 00:44:20,260
And then he would like
whip out some like
839
00:44:20,350 --> 00:44:22,260
Mississippi John Hurt
or something,
840
00:44:22,350 --> 00:44:24,000
that was just like,
841
00:44:24,090 --> 00:44:24,830
"Oh, I've just been
playing this for a little bit."
842
00:44:27,310 --> 00:44:29,360
I remember getting
into this very heated debate
843
00:44:29,440 --> 00:44:32,750
about the merits of Bob Dylan
versus Simon & Garfunkel.
844
00:44:32,840 --> 00:44:35,280
And he couldn't believe...
845
00:44:35,360 --> 00:44:38,500
that I preferred
Simon & Garfunkel to Bob Dylan.
846
00:44:38,580 --> 00:44:39,890
And I just remember being like,
847
00:44:39,980 --> 00:44:40,850
"I can't believe
I'm having this argument
848
00:44:40,930 --> 00:44:41,940
with a 17-year-old kid."
849
00:44:42,020 --> 00:44:43,760
You know what I mean? Like...
850
00:44:43,850 --> 00:44:45,240
I've been around
the block, kid, like,
851
00:44:45,330 --> 00:44:46,850
I love Simon & Garfunkel,
you know.
852
00:44:46,940 --> 00:44:49,070
But he really made me question
my relationship
853
00:44:49,160 --> 00:44:52,770
to these musicians
who I've loved all my life.
854
00:44:52,860 --> 00:44:54,950
He really knew
what he was talking about,
855
00:44:55,040 --> 00:44:56,730
no matter what it was, you know?
856
00:44:56,820 --> 00:44:58,300
And, uh...
857
00:44:58,390 --> 00:45:00,390
And there was
some real beauty in that.
858
00:45:01,870 --> 00:45:03,830
We went back to, uh...
859
00:45:03,910 --> 00:45:06,090
We had some, you know,
uh, shooting on set,
860
00:45:06,180 --> 00:45:08,140
and then going back
to the trailers.
861
00:45:08,220 --> 00:45:10,010
And I said,
"You want to come and jam?"
862
00:45:10,090 --> 00:45:12,920
He's like,
"No, I got to go back to, uh..."
863
00:45:13,010 --> 00:45:15,490
It turns out, he's translating
this Russian novel.
864
00:45:15,580 --> 00:45:16,800
That's like this big,
865
00:45:16,880 --> 00:45:19,150
a Russian philosophy tract.
866
00:45:19,230 --> 00:45:22,500
And he's like
making notes on this thing
867
00:45:22,580 --> 00:45:24,590
and translating it
at the same time.
868
00:45:24,670 --> 00:45:27,240
He's, mind you, 17 years old.
869
00:45:31,590 --> 00:45:33,030
It was so funny.
870
00:45:33,120 --> 00:45:34,640
He didn't consider himself
a musician,
871
00:45:34,730 --> 00:45:36,640
and he didn't consider himself
a singer,
872
00:45:36,730 --> 00:45:39,170
and he was
a damn great musician.
873
00:45:39,250 --> 00:45:41,780
But he was a little bit,
I think, self-conscious.
874
00:45:41,860 --> 00:45:45,170
He always wanted to be
the best at what he did.
875
00:45:45,260 --> 00:45:46,300
Look, um, this is Ryan.
876
00:45:46,390 --> 00:45:47,780
This is Dave, I'm Anton.
877
00:45:51,530 --> 00:45:52,960
We're the Hammerheads.
878
00:45:53,050 --> 00:45:56,100
Whoo!
879
00:45:57,360 --> 00:45:58,530
I love your face!
880
00:45:58,620 --> 00:45:59,800
Yeah!
881
00:46:01,490 --> 00:46:02,760
All right.
882
00:46:13,290 --> 00:46:18,160
♪ I got a woman
With a golden touch ♪
883
00:46:18,250 --> 00:46:19,730
♪ Sittin' on a couch ♪
884
00:46:19,820 --> 00:46:23,730
♪ She don't talk too much ♪
885
00:46:23,820 --> 00:46:26,170
- ♪ Does she love me? ♪
- ♪ Does she love me? ♪
886
00:46:26,260 --> 00:46:27,210
- ♪ No, she loves me ♪
- ♪ No, she loves me ♪
887
00:46:29,740 --> 00:46:32,090
- ♪ Does she love me? ♪
- ♪ Does she love me? ♪
888
00:46:32,180 --> 00:46:32,520
- ♪ No, she loves me ♪
- ♪ No, she loves me ♪
889
00:46:34,740 --> 00:46:36,530
♪ I got a woman... ♪
890
00:46:36,610 --> 00:46:40,100
Who he was as an artist
was so far beyond acting.
891
00:46:40,180 --> 00:46:42,880
Because he could,
like, do everything.
892
00:46:42,970 --> 00:46:44,840
If he didn't have
the countenance that he did,
893
00:46:44,930 --> 00:46:46,410
he would have been intimidating.
894
00:46:46,490 --> 00:46:49,500
But he didn't wield his power
that way.
895
00:46:49,580 --> 00:46:51,110
He brought everyone in
896
00:46:51,190 --> 00:46:53,890
and shared everything
that he learned,
897
00:46:53,980 --> 00:46:55,500
and that he was interested in.
898
00:46:55,590 --> 00:46:58,850
♪ I got a woman... ♪
899
00:46:58,940 --> 00:47:00,680
You know, big movies,
900
00:47:00,770 --> 00:47:02,470
they're just
a very different beast.
901
00:47:02,550 --> 00:47:04,340
There's... It's like, it's very different.
902
00:47:04,430 --> 00:47:06,470
I think for me, your job, at least the way I approach it,
903
00:47:06,560 --> 00:47:07,730
is essentially the same.
904
00:47:07,820 --> 00:47:09,600
Like you try to find...
905
00:47:09,690 --> 00:47:11,390
whatever you want to create
906
00:47:11,480 --> 00:47:13,170
and how to be creative
907
00:47:13,260 --> 00:47:15,440
with this much honesty,
as you can
908
00:47:15,520 --> 00:47:17,220
because there will be,
you know, self-aware films
909
00:47:17,310 --> 00:47:18,870
that maybe call for a different form of performance.
910
00:47:21,960 --> 00:47:24,790
Aside from all the things
he was reading for work,
911
00:47:24,880 --> 00:47:26,930
to studying old movies,
912
00:47:27,010 --> 00:47:29,620
he started playing
with us regularly,
913
00:47:29,710 --> 00:47:31,890
whenever he was in town.
914
00:47:31,970 --> 00:47:35,020
I mean the guy,
he loved expressing himself,
915
00:47:35,110 --> 00:47:37,590
but he always felt like
he needed to work harder.
916
00:47:39,200 --> 00:47:43,590
We would play a midnight show
at The Viper Room on Sundays.
917
00:47:43,680 --> 00:47:46,250
And it would be from, like,
11:00 p.m. to 1:00 a.m.
918
00:47:46,340 --> 00:47:48,470
And we wouldn't necessarily
invite anybody,
919
00:47:48,560 --> 00:47:49,560
we just did it.
920
00:47:50,950 --> 00:47:51,950
It was just
another creative outlet
921
00:47:52,040 --> 00:47:54,170
that he could do.
922
00:47:54,260 --> 00:47:56,910
First time
with insomnia and jet lag.
923
00:47:57,000 --> 00:47:58,610
Probably jerking off too much.
924
00:47:59,650 --> 00:48:01,530
I'm gonna have to jump up
925
00:48:01,610 --> 00:48:02,960
and perform some tricks
in a couple hours,
926
00:48:03,050 --> 00:48:05,090
but can barely keep my head on,
927
00:48:05,180 --> 00:48:07,840
my legs from twitching,
and my head from cramping.
928
00:48:07,920 --> 00:48:09,750
It always amazed me
929
00:48:09,840 --> 00:48:12,230
how he was able to find time
to take care of his own health.
930
00:48:13,580 --> 00:48:14,580
He would say,
931
00:48:14,670 --> 00:48:16,020
"It's what I love,
932
00:48:16,110 --> 00:48:17,980
and I'm not going to
let CF stop me
933
00:48:18,060 --> 00:48:19,540
from doing what I love."
934
00:48:25,420 --> 00:48:28,940
...build muscles
and be stronger than he was.
935
00:48:29,030 --> 00:48:31,560
I mean, his abs,
they almost clanked.
936
00:48:31,640 --> 00:48:33,860
It was like a conquistador's...
937
00:48:33,950 --> 00:48:35,950
suit of armor under there.
938
00:48:36,040 --> 00:48:37,340
And then he'd
take his shirt off,
939
00:48:37,430 --> 00:48:38,910
and he was like,
this jacked little dude.
940
00:48:39,000 --> 00:48:40,520
And you're like,
"What? Where has that been?"
941
00:48:40,610 --> 00:48:42,830
And he's like,
"Just from coughing so much."
942
00:48:42,920 --> 00:48:44,180
I was like, "Oh, probably."
943
00:48:49,360 --> 00:48:51,010
Have you
completely lost your mind?
944
00:48:51,100 --> 00:48:52,190
Well, I know
it seems a bit crazy, but...
945
00:48:52,270 --> 00:48:53,750
I'm not talking to you, nutjob,
946
00:48:53,840 --> 00:48:56,020
I'm talking to Mom.
947
00:48:56,100 --> 00:48:58,500
It takes you years
to get him out of here,
948
00:48:58,580 --> 00:49:00,500
and you let him come back
the next night
949
00:49:00,580 --> 00:49:02,110
with a talking hamster?
950
00:49:05,630 --> 00:49:07,330
He did a lot of thinking
and a lot of writing.
951
00:49:07,420 --> 00:49:09,070
And sometimes,
his thinking got in his way,
952
00:49:09,160 --> 00:49:10,640
you know? He was...
953
00:49:10,730 --> 00:49:12,160
It was almost like his brain
was too big,
954
00:49:12,250 --> 00:49:14,290
and he couldn't contain
all of his ideas.
955
00:49:22,000 --> 00:49:23,690
That excitement,
that kind of youth,
956
00:49:23,780 --> 00:49:26,050
and, and all of that was really
what led me to believe
957
00:49:26,130 --> 00:49:28,000
that someday, he would...
958
00:49:28,090 --> 00:49:29,920
he would have to express it
some other way besides acting,
959
00:49:30,010 --> 00:49:32,140
because he really was...
960
00:49:32,230 --> 00:49:34,580
I wouldn't... I don't know if
I'd say he was an intellectual,
961
00:49:34,660 --> 00:49:37,580
but I think that he really loved
the play of the mind.
962
00:49:37,670 --> 00:49:39,010
And...
963
00:49:39,100 --> 00:49:41,020
he had to put
some of that to bed
964
00:49:41,100 --> 00:49:42,710
in order to be an actor.
965
00:49:42,800 --> 00:49:44,450
Don't... don't go too far
to the left of the box,
966
00:49:44,540 --> 00:49:46,020
- like this way?
- Right.
967
00:49:46,110 --> 00:49:47,940
- And go right.
- So stay where the box...
968
00:49:48,020 --> 00:49:49,890
I tend
to be interested by...
969
00:49:49,980 --> 00:49:51,940
either the philosophy
behind the filmmaking,
970
00:49:52,030 --> 00:49:54,200
the philosophy
of the film itself,
971
00:49:54,290 --> 00:49:55,990
who the director is.
972
00:49:56,080 --> 00:49:58,430
We was afraid we was gonna have
to start without you.
973
00:49:58,510 --> 00:50:00,430
But also, sometimes,
you read something, you go,
974
00:50:00,510 --> 00:50:01,780
"Well, I don't know how
I feel about this as a whole,
975
00:50:01,860 --> 00:50:03,690
but I love this character.
976
00:50:03,780 --> 00:50:05,780
I think this might make
something interesting."
977
00:50:07,350 --> 00:50:09,390
I got to know Anton
where he was...
978
00:50:10,830 --> 00:50:13,050
he was kind of on his own
for the first time.
979
00:50:13,140 --> 00:50:15,620
But he was still really attached
to his parents,
980
00:50:15,700 --> 00:50:17,140
really attached to his mother.
981
00:50:20,840 --> 00:50:22,190
I used to be...
982
00:50:22,280 --> 00:50:24,020
so kind of jealous of that.
983
00:50:24,100 --> 00:50:25,970
We just hadn't talked about...
984
00:50:26,060 --> 00:50:27,540
parents, because
we were just teenagers.
985
00:50:27,630 --> 00:50:28,930
We were just hanging out,
986
00:50:29,020 --> 00:50:30,330
we didn't talk about
our parents.
987
00:50:30,410 --> 00:50:31,760
And then his mom
was coming into town
988
00:50:31,850 --> 00:50:33,240
and he was so excited.
And I was like,
989
00:50:33,330 --> 00:50:34,940
"Are you seriously excited
your mom is coming?"
990
00:50:36,590 --> 00:50:39,070
I start getting like,
a pre-migraine...
991
00:50:39,160 --> 00:50:40,550
when my mother
is coming into town.
992
00:50:40,640 --> 00:50:41,950
I love her, but...
993
00:50:42,030 --> 00:50:43,340
I need you
to write me something.
994
00:50:44,910 --> 00:50:46,520
We were in the gymnasium,
995
00:50:46,600 --> 00:50:48,260
and I was like,
yelling at him about
996
00:50:48,340 --> 00:50:49,870
trying to get him to,
you know, do something.
997
00:50:49,950 --> 00:50:51,650
And, um, he was like,
998
00:50:51,740 --> 00:50:52,960
"I kept trying to find
different ways to say that line.
999
00:50:53,050 --> 00:50:54,390
I just feel like
I didn't find it."
1000
00:50:54,480 --> 00:50:56,140
And I was like,
1001
00:50:56,220 --> 00:50:57,480
"Really? I just find like,
one way of saying it,
1002
00:50:57,570 --> 00:50:58,920
and that's
just what I stick to."
1003
00:50:59,010 --> 00:51:00,010
And he was like,
"Yeah, I noticed that."
1004
00:51:01,710 --> 00:51:03,400
- Yeah, exactly!
- Holla!
1005
00:51:03,490 --> 00:51:05,100
He did make me start
thinking about that,
1006
00:51:05,190 --> 00:51:06,880
because I didn't really know
how to act.
1007
00:51:06,970 --> 00:51:08,970
So, I guess I'll just keep doing
the same exact thing.
1008
00:51:09,060 --> 00:51:10,150
And it wasn't until
we had that conversation
1009
00:51:10,240 --> 00:51:11,890
that I was like,
1010
00:51:11,980 --> 00:51:13,150
"Are you supposed
to find different ways of..."
1011
00:51:13,240 --> 00:51:15,500
it just seemed so basic.
1012
00:51:15,590 --> 00:51:19,550
And then that opened me up
to a whole new world of pleasure
1013
00:51:19,640 --> 00:51:21,120
in, uh, in my work.
1014
00:51:23,250 --> 00:51:24,510
You're actually 22?
1015
00:51:24,600 --> 00:51:26,030
I am. I am, yeah.
1016
00:51:26,120 --> 00:51:27,380
So, that's actually
kind of shocking.
1017
00:51:27,470 --> 00:51:28,910
You know,
because you've done so--
1018
00:51:28,990 --> 00:51:30,260
I mean, we're talking about
this year,
1019
00:51:30,340 --> 00:51:31,780
but really,
the last number of years...
1020
00:51:31,870 --> 00:51:33,610
- Yeah.
- You've done so much.
1021
00:51:33,690 --> 00:51:34,960
Yeah.
1022
00:51:35,040 --> 00:51:38,050
♪ My girl, my girl ♪
1023
00:51:38,130 --> 00:51:41,350
♪ Don't lie to me ♪
1024
00:51:41,440 --> 00:51:44,570
♪ Tell me where did you sleep ♪
1025
00:51:44,660 --> 00:51:46,710
♪ Last night ♪
1026
00:51:46,790 --> 00:51:49,540
He started doing
these photoshoots in The Valley.
1027
00:51:49,620 --> 00:51:51,670
And the first time
I saw his photography,
1028
00:51:51,760 --> 00:51:53,630
I knew that
he was shooting on the side.
1029
00:51:53,710 --> 00:51:56,060
I mean, he was the kind of guy
that did everything on the side.
1030
00:51:56,150 --> 00:51:58,370
And, um,
they were something special.
1031
00:51:59,940 --> 00:52:03,200
♪ My girl, my girl ♪
1032
00:52:03,290 --> 00:52:04,990
Donald
was one of his main, like,
1033
00:52:05,070 --> 00:52:06,680
characters
that he used to shoot.
1034
00:52:06,770 --> 00:52:08,120
This guy...
1035
00:52:08,210 --> 00:52:09,860
I think he found him
on Craigslist.
1036
00:52:09,950 --> 00:52:11,470
I think he found most of
these people on Craigslist,
1037
00:52:11,560 --> 00:52:12,560
that he shot.
1038
00:52:13,910 --> 00:52:15,260
He had started to live
1039
00:52:15,340 --> 00:52:17,170
a sort of adult life
when he was...
1040
00:52:17,260 --> 00:52:18,960
he was into his, sort of,
photography, and his lurking.
1041
00:52:19,040 --> 00:52:20,870
He used to call it "lurking."
1042
00:52:20,960 --> 00:52:22,440
I used to love listening to...
He told me these stories.
1043
00:52:22,530 --> 00:52:24,570
You know, I was so...
his senior,
1044
00:52:24,660 --> 00:52:26,050
and yet, I would be
listening to him
1045
00:52:26,140 --> 00:52:27,660
like a little kid
wrapped up in his
1046
00:52:27,750 --> 00:52:30,840
sordid tales of the dark side
of LA, you know?
1047
00:52:32,970 --> 00:52:35,020
We were known
as The Lurkers,
1048
00:52:35,100 --> 00:52:36,670
because we would always be
in these places
1049
00:52:36,760 --> 00:52:38,800
that we really
shouldn't have been, you know?
1050
00:52:38,890 --> 00:52:43,890
He was generally interested
in all types of people,
1051
00:52:43,980 --> 00:52:45,680
and wanted to know
their stories.
1052
00:52:47,030 --> 00:52:50,120
There's the Anton
that looks like a little kid
1053
00:52:50,210 --> 00:52:52,430
and was perpetually baby-faced.
1054
00:52:52,510 --> 00:52:54,950
And then there's a guy
going to a fucking sex club
1055
00:52:55,040 --> 00:52:56,520
in Van Nuys,
1056
00:52:56,600 --> 00:52:59,080
and doing
these really weird photoshoots
1057
00:52:59,170 --> 00:53:00,690
all the time
1058
00:53:00,780 --> 00:53:02,260
with the weird...
1059
00:53:02,350 --> 00:53:05,260
alter ego named Luis Carneros.
1060
00:53:05,350 --> 00:53:07,960
And if you want to see
some weird shit...
1061
00:53:09,530 --> 00:53:10,660
I mean...
1062
00:53:12,230 --> 00:53:14,190
certain images,
I can't get out of my mind.
1063
00:53:18,230 --> 00:53:21,410
Chris Pine
would show up and say,
1064
00:53:21,500 --> 00:53:24,070
you know, "Do you know
what Anton did this weekend?"
1065
00:53:24,150 --> 00:53:25,810
And he would,
like, tell me some story.
1066
00:53:25,890 --> 00:53:28,240
And for Chris Pine to be
freaked out about what Anton did
1067
00:53:28,330 --> 00:53:29,550
means it was out there.
1068
00:53:31,680 --> 00:53:33,380
The elegant,
and the crude,
1069
00:53:33,470 --> 00:53:35,560
and the carnal,
and the intellectual,
1070
00:53:35,640 --> 00:53:38,120
all just kind of folded
into the beauty.
1071
00:53:38,210 --> 00:53:39,690
He didn't ever separate it.
1072
00:53:39,780 --> 00:53:41,820
It was art. Art was life.
Life was art.
1073
00:53:43,480 --> 00:53:46,000
And that's the thing too,
girls loved Anton.
1074
00:53:46,090 --> 00:53:48,310
Women loved Anton.
1075
00:53:48,390 --> 00:53:51,310
I mean, and Anton loved women,
but, uh...
1076
00:53:51,400 --> 00:53:53,310
Maybe it's that close connection
with Irina.
1077
00:53:56,100 --> 00:53:58,400
♪ I knock a little harder ♪
1078
00:53:58,490 --> 00:54:02,320
♪ Till my face starts looking
Like it might as ♪
1079
00:54:02,410 --> 00:54:04,670
♪ What the heck... ♪
1080
00:54:07,410 --> 00:54:09,330
I found two things there.
1081
00:54:09,420 --> 00:54:10,940
A parking ticket...
1082
00:54:12,370 --> 00:54:13,640
and condoms.
1083
00:54:15,460 --> 00:54:16,940
And I keep it there.
1084
00:54:20,080 --> 00:54:23,040
There was the time
he was sitting next to, um,
1085
00:54:23,120 --> 00:54:24,690
Cindy Crawford on a plane.
1086
00:54:24,780 --> 00:54:26,260
And she was sitting
in the window,
1087
00:54:26,350 --> 00:54:28,220
and he was sitting in the aisle,
1088
00:54:28,300 --> 00:54:29,650
and he was like,
"Just so you know,
1089
00:54:29,740 --> 00:54:31,050
I'm gonna go to sleep."
And she said,
1090
00:54:31,130 --> 00:54:32,610
"It's okay,
I have really long legs,
1091
00:54:32,700 --> 00:54:35,220
so I can just step over you."
1092
00:54:35,310 --> 00:54:36,960
He said he jerked off to it
for a week.
1093
00:54:40,140 --> 00:54:42,270
Anton was a little dirtbird.
1094
00:54:42,360 --> 00:54:45,060
You know? He was a naughty boy.
1095
00:54:45,150 --> 00:54:48,150
And there was no reason why
he shouldn't be a naughty boy.
1096
00:54:48,240 --> 00:54:50,280
I envied his naughtiness,
in a way.
1097
00:55:02,730 --> 00:55:04,170
That was him,
all the time being,
1098
00:55:04,250 --> 00:55:05,560
"Look at this, look at here.
1099
00:55:05,650 --> 00:55:06,520
Did you see her?
What are they doing?
1100
00:55:06,600 --> 00:55:08,040
Deep in The Valley.
1101
00:55:08,130 --> 00:55:09,170
You wouldn't believe
what I was doing.
1102
00:55:09,260 --> 00:55:10,780
Deep in The Valley last night!"
1103
00:55:12,390 --> 00:55:13,780
And like...
1104
00:55:13,870 --> 00:55:16,570
Tell me, man,
show me the pictures!
1105
00:55:16,660 --> 00:55:18,010
Show me the pictures.
1106
00:55:19,490 --> 00:55:21,310
It was very difficult
1107
00:55:21,400 --> 00:55:22,750
to even be with him
1108
00:55:22,840 --> 00:55:24,450
when you were trying
to get girls,
1109
00:55:24,530 --> 00:55:27,450
because the second they saw him,
it was game over.
1110
00:55:27,540 --> 00:55:29,580
My girl was gone instantly.
1111
00:55:29,670 --> 00:55:31,190
And he was a nice guy, though,
you know.
1112
00:55:31,280 --> 00:55:32,890
He was always the guy
that would be like,
1113
00:55:32,980 --> 00:55:34,540
"Oh, no, no." Like...
1114
00:55:34,630 --> 00:55:37,330
"Luke, no, come."
Like, "Join with us!" You know?
1115
00:55:37,420 --> 00:55:38,940
Like, you know?
I was like, "No, no, it's cool."
1116
00:55:39,030 --> 00:55:41,770
Like, "I lost out again,
it's cool." You know?
1117
00:55:43,680 --> 00:55:45,210
We met at Subway.
1118
00:55:45,290 --> 00:55:48,600
And we sat for like three hours,
just talking.
1119
00:55:48,690 --> 00:55:50,300
It kind of went
from zero to a hundred,
1120
00:55:50,390 --> 00:55:53,000
and stayed there
for a long time.
1121
00:56:06,580 --> 00:56:08,580
Very serious
for both of us,
1122
00:56:08,660 --> 00:56:10,360
and pretty much broke up,
1123
00:56:10,450 --> 00:56:13,410
because we were just too young,
unfortunately.
1124
00:56:14,540 --> 00:56:16,410
He hit me up
after he had
1125
00:56:16,500 --> 00:56:17,980
had his heart broken.
And was like,
1126
00:56:18,070 --> 00:56:19,410
"Hey, can we like talk? I just,
1127
00:56:19,500 --> 00:56:21,200
I just kind of figured out
1128
00:56:21,290 --> 00:56:23,110
like what that actually
feels like, and I'm so sorry."
1129
00:56:23,200 --> 00:56:25,160
And I was like, "Dude, I'm...
It's fine, like, whatever.
1130
00:56:25,250 --> 00:56:26,990
Like, literally,
we were tiny children."
1131
00:56:27,070 --> 00:56:28,550
But, um...
1132
00:56:28,640 --> 00:56:29,990
for someone to call someone
and be like,
1133
00:56:30,080 --> 00:56:31,560
"Hey, that thing
that you went through,
1134
00:56:31,640 --> 00:56:34,910
I had no idea, but now I do,
and I'm so sorry."
1135
00:56:35,000 --> 00:56:36,780
I was like,
"Dude, it's fine, like..."
1136
00:56:38,260 --> 00:56:40,220
I don't think
you can step into the light
1137
00:56:40,300 --> 00:56:42,130
unless you fully explore
your own shadow
1138
00:56:42,220 --> 00:56:44,310
and it was such a part of him.
1139
00:56:44,400 --> 00:56:47,530
You know, that willingness,
that courage...
1140
00:56:47,620 --> 00:56:50,400
to go into
the darker parts of himself
1141
00:56:50,490 --> 00:56:52,010
and shine light on it,
1142
00:56:52,100 --> 00:56:53,360
not only for himself
but for other people.
1143
00:56:53,450 --> 00:56:56,020
He knew himself so well, and,
1144
00:56:56,100 --> 00:56:57,800
there was always, um...
1145
00:56:59,720 --> 00:57:01,720
There was always
just a recognition
1146
00:57:01,800 --> 00:57:04,720
of his own vulnerability
and his own fragility.
1147
00:57:05,810 --> 00:57:08,380
I am furious with myself.
1148
00:57:08,460 --> 00:57:10,730
And it could have been so good.
1149
00:57:10,810 --> 00:57:12,210
So sweet.
1150
00:57:12,290 --> 00:57:13,430
Fuck.
1151
00:57:14,950 --> 00:57:16,600
The roles
were getting bigger.
1152
00:57:16,690 --> 00:57:18,650
He was leading
in a lot of films.
1153
00:57:18,730 --> 00:57:20,690
But he was not happy.
1154
00:57:20,780 --> 00:57:23,040
You've been
a rising star now
1155
00:57:23,130 --> 00:57:25,180
for the longest time.
1156
00:57:25,260 --> 00:57:27,310
How's that feel?
1157
00:57:27,400 --> 00:57:28,880
I remember
talking to Irina
1158
00:57:28,960 --> 00:57:31,530
about how frustrated he would be
with his career
1159
00:57:31,620 --> 00:57:33,230
and that was always
baffling to me
1160
00:57:33,310 --> 00:57:35,230
because of how respected he was.
1161
00:57:35,320 --> 00:57:39,580
And, you know, I don't know
that he ever knew that.
1162
00:57:39,670 --> 00:57:42,150
Honestly, I don't think
he ever let himself
1163
00:57:42,240 --> 00:57:43,760
know that or believe that.
1164
00:57:46,200 --> 00:57:48,070
I want to make things,
1165
00:57:48,160 --> 00:57:50,070
and I want to express
a particular
1166
00:57:50,160 --> 00:57:52,290
point of view that I have,
1167
00:57:52,380 --> 00:57:54,550
and that is creatively,
emotionally, fulfilling to me.
1168
00:57:54,640 --> 00:57:56,340
And so, I spent time
thinking about that.
1169
00:57:56,420 --> 00:57:58,120
And I think about
how to do that,
1170
00:57:58,210 --> 00:57:59,910
how to accomplish that,
you know?
1171
00:57:59,990 --> 00:58:01,820
And these things
actually worry me.
1172
00:58:01,910 --> 00:58:04,040
Because you can hear a lot of great things about yourself,
1173
00:58:04,130 --> 00:58:05,870
and then you can get shit on
the next day,
1174
00:58:05,960 --> 00:58:09,090
and the institutional discourses of Hollywood
1175
00:58:09,180 --> 00:58:12,310
are a threat
to a human being's identity,
1176
00:58:12,400 --> 00:58:14,570
and to their sense of love
1177
00:58:14,660 --> 00:58:16,790
for their craft
and what they do.
1178
00:58:16,880 --> 00:58:18,620
This is exciting, man.
1179
00:58:18,710 --> 00:58:20,100
- This is good footage.
- It is what it is!
1180
00:58:20,190 --> 00:58:21,670
This is good footage, man.
1181
00:58:21,750 --> 00:58:23,450
It's better than no footage.
1182
00:58:23,540 --> 00:58:25,020
I bet it's good. Damn!
1183
00:58:25,110 --> 00:58:27,190
I wonder how many hits
this is gonna get.
1184
00:58:27,280 --> 00:58:28,590
Possibly, a thousand hits.
1185
00:58:28,670 --> 00:58:29,850
Oh, there you go.
1186
00:58:29,940 --> 00:58:31,720
Anton Yelchin...
1187
00:58:31,810 --> 00:58:33,160
- I'll take it.
- ...walking down the street.
1188
00:58:33,240 --> 00:58:34,900
Very exciting.
1189
00:58:34,980 --> 00:58:36,600
Well, for certain people,
1190
00:58:36,680 --> 00:58:39,730
it's more exciting
than you'll ever know.
1191
00:58:39,820 --> 00:58:41,470
It is such
a hyperreal world,
1192
00:58:41,560 --> 00:58:42,950
and it's so filled with
1193
00:58:43,040 --> 00:58:44,990
so many sort of distractions.
1194
00:58:45,080 --> 00:58:47,130
It's like the Roman Empire,
you know?
1195
00:58:47,210 --> 00:58:48,910
It's like, you can kind of have everything and do anything.
1196
00:58:49,000 --> 00:58:51,130
And, and I think, if you...
1197
00:58:51,220 --> 00:58:53,870
if you make that your life, it can be very easily confusing.
1198
00:58:54,830 --> 00:58:56,880
I was raised in, uh...
1199
00:58:57,490 --> 00:58:59,100
To love cinema.
1200
00:59:00,580 --> 00:59:03,400
And I sort of...
1201
00:59:03,490 --> 00:59:05,450
never imagined
I would do anything
1202
00:59:05,540 --> 00:59:06,930
but make movies.
1203
00:59:11,370 --> 00:59:12,720
The tough thing is,
1204
00:59:12,810 --> 00:59:14,890
it's very difficult
in this world
1205
00:59:14,980 --> 00:59:18,770
to actually accomplish
the kind of cinema
1206
00:59:18,850 --> 00:59:20,810
that you'd wanna make.
1207
00:59:20,900 --> 00:59:24,120
It's very difficult
to actually make the cinema
1208
00:59:24,210 --> 00:59:25,640
that you want to make
1209
00:59:25,730 --> 00:59:27,650
and not compromise your vision.
1210
00:59:27,730 --> 00:59:29,170
- Anton!
- Anton!
1211
00:59:29,260 --> 00:59:31,170
Just straight ahead, sir.
1212
00:59:31,260 --> 00:59:33,000
It's always good to have a movie that does well,
1213
00:59:33,090 --> 00:59:35,090
and people see.
1214
00:59:35,180 --> 00:59:36,960
But, when that's what
you're focused on,
1215
00:59:37,050 --> 00:59:38,330
and that's what you're
thinking about,
1216
00:59:38,330 --> 00:59:40,050
you're bound to have a lot of,
1217
00:59:40,140 --> 00:59:42,010
kind of, disappointment
and confusion.
1218
00:59:42,100 --> 00:59:43,970
That's why I think getting a small group of people
1219
00:59:44,050 --> 00:59:45,660
that really care together
to make movies
1220
00:59:45,750 --> 00:59:47,800
is really kind of the future for
1221
00:59:47,880 --> 00:59:48,930
- independent cinema.
- Mm-hmm.
1222
00:59:53,800 --> 00:59:56,370
He was the first person
I cast, and, uh...
1223
00:59:56,460 --> 01:00:00,030
I mean, it was a very somewhat
autobiographical experience,
1224
01:00:00,110 --> 01:00:01,680
so there was a lot
of just trying
1225
01:00:01,770 --> 01:00:02,810
to find a kindred spirit.
1226
01:00:02,900 --> 01:00:04,380
Someone who had been through
1227
01:00:04,470 --> 01:00:05,340
some of the experiences
that I had been through
1228
01:00:05,420 --> 01:00:06,210
and understood that.
1229
01:00:08,470 --> 01:00:10,080
I had read
in another interview
1230
01:00:10,170 --> 01:00:12,600
that you've done, that you also, in some ways,
1231
01:00:12,690 --> 01:00:14,820
had gone through
a similar experience
1232
01:00:14,910 --> 01:00:16,830
in your own life
with the forced separation,
1233
01:00:16,910 --> 01:00:18,910
in a way. Is that true?
1234
01:00:19,000 --> 01:00:20,050
I think, inevitably,
with my job,
1235
01:00:20,130 --> 01:00:22,090
every one of these relationships
1236
01:00:22,180 --> 01:00:24,050
- Mm.
- Becomes long distance,
1237
01:00:24,140 --> 01:00:26,010
because you leave
for four months at a time.
1238
01:00:26,100 --> 01:00:28,100
So, certain things
you can really
1239
01:00:28,180 --> 01:00:29,230
- relate to and understand...
- Mm-hm.
1240
01:00:29,320 --> 01:00:31,670
Like that "last night" feeling,
1241
01:00:31,750 --> 01:00:33,150
The "I'm-not-going-to-see-you
for-four-months" feeling,
1242
01:00:33,230 --> 01:00:35,060
the "I-haven't-seen-you
in-a-long-time,
1243
01:00:35,150 --> 01:00:37,800
how-do-I-take-this-moment"
feeling.
1244
01:00:39,020 --> 01:00:40,630
It was really like
just a bunch of friends
1245
01:00:40,720 --> 01:00:42,160
kind of coming together.
1246
01:00:42,240 --> 01:00:43,900
And that was where
you can really see,
1247
01:00:43,980 --> 01:00:47,160
really understand his talent
on a deeper level,
1248
01:00:47,250 --> 01:00:48,680
because he led that movie.
1249
01:00:48,770 --> 01:00:51,430
And it was all complete improv.
1250
01:00:51,510 --> 01:00:53,690
Did you sleep with him?
1251
01:00:53,780 --> 01:00:55,080
- Did you? Tell me, yes...
- Don't touch me.
1252
01:00:55,170 --> 01:00:56,430
- Yes or no?
- Jacob, don't touch me!
1253
01:00:56,520 --> 01:00:57,950
Did you sleep with him,
yes or no?
1254
01:00:58,040 --> 01:00:59,650
- Did you?
- Jacob, don't.
1255
01:00:59,740 --> 01:01:01,170
"Jacob, don't" what?
1256
01:01:01,260 --> 01:01:02,780
Did you, yes or no!
It's very simple.
1257
01:01:02,870 --> 01:01:04,660
Very simple question.
1258
01:01:04,740 --> 01:01:06,920
They were doing such
a heavy piece of material,
1259
01:01:07,010 --> 01:01:08,570
but when the camera
stopped rolling,
1260
01:01:08,660 --> 01:01:11,180
it was just voices and dialects
1261
01:01:11,270 --> 01:01:13,270
and goofy characters.
1262
01:01:15,280 --> 01:01:18,280
- Living the dream!
- No, it's Johnny, it's okay!
1263
01:01:18,370 --> 01:01:19,930
It's okay!
1264
01:01:20,020 --> 01:01:23,850
My name is Fionner.
Fionner James.
1265
01:01:24,550 --> 01:01:26,850
She's fucking hot!
1266
01:01:26,940 --> 01:01:28,850
They both went in
a hundred percent together,
1267
01:01:28,940 --> 01:01:30,460
and they were such an incredible partnership in that,
1268
01:01:30,550 --> 01:01:32,340
because there were no boundaries
1269
01:01:32,420 --> 01:01:34,030
to how we could explore
that dynamic.
1270
01:01:36,820 --> 01:01:39,040
People,
when they watch the film
1271
01:01:39,130 --> 01:01:41,950
really remember those moments
that we pick up on.
1272
01:01:42,040 --> 01:01:43,870
Like the first look,
1273
01:01:43,960 --> 01:01:45,870
the first time
you really realize
1274
01:01:45,960 --> 01:01:47,610
you're falling in love
with somebody.
1275
01:01:47,700 --> 01:01:50,010
And it doesn't
oversimplify things.
1276
01:01:50,090 --> 01:01:51,530
I mean, it's really about
not heightening the emotions
1277
01:01:51,620 --> 01:01:53,710
but picking the smaller moments.
1278
01:01:53,790 --> 01:01:55,710
And I think people
can really relate to that.
1279
01:02:00,060 --> 01:02:01,150
A mark.
1280
01:02:03,410 --> 01:02:06,330
I mean, do they have, like,
a dolly there for it or me?
1281
01:02:06,410 --> 01:02:08,070
I was nervous
after Like Crazy
1282
01:02:08,150 --> 01:02:09,980
because that's... It's such
a liberating experience
1283
01:02:10,070 --> 01:02:12,160
to then go on to a studio film,
1284
01:02:12,250 --> 01:02:13,680
but Craig Gillespie
on Fright Night
1285
01:02:13,770 --> 01:02:16,160
is also a director
that loves improv.
1286
01:02:16,250 --> 01:02:18,690
And the idea
of someone suffering
1287
01:02:18,770 --> 01:02:20,470
- doing something that is...
- Mm.
1288
01:02:20,560 --> 01:02:22,210
...is unfair to people
that they really care about,
1289
01:02:22,300 --> 01:02:24,340
is something that sort
of transcends that format
1290
01:02:24,430 --> 01:02:26,300
as a kind of human experience.
1291
01:02:51,500 --> 01:02:53,770
...which he shouldn't.
1292
01:02:53,850 --> 01:02:55,160
We're doing
this nine-day sequence
1293
01:02:55,240 --> 01:02:57,730
of vampires on fire.
He's like...
1294
01:02:57,810 --> 01:02:59,250
"Can I be on fire?"
1295
01:03:01,250 --> 01:03:03,860
And I'm like, um,
"Let me ask the stunt guys."
1296
01:03:03,950 --> 01:03:06,260
And I'm like, "Is it safe
for Anton to be on fire?"
1297
01:03:06,340 --> 01:03:07,870
And they're like,
"Yeah, it's safe."
1298
01:03:07,950 --> 01:03:09,520
And I'm like, "Okay."
1299
01:03:10,830 --> 01:03:12,170
Suddenly, the studio calls,
1300
01:03:12,260 --> 01:03:14,130
"What the hell
are you guys doing?
1301
01:03:15,000 --> 01:03:17,140
Burning our lead actor?"
1302
01:03:18,920 --> 01:03:21,920
Because of what
he went through his whole life,
1303
01:03:22,620 --> 01:03:24,060
with his disease,
1304
01:03:24,140 --> 01:03:26,320
it's why he wanted
to get a lot done.
1305
01:03:27,840 --> 01:03:31,020
He didn't want to let it
take him down, you know?
1306
01:03:31,110 --> 01:03:32,890
Like, he would talk about it
with me.
1307
01:03:32,980 --> 01:03:34,980
Like, there was this beast
inside of him, you know?
1308
01:03:36,240 --> 01:03:37,980
Excuse me.
1309
01:03:38,070 --> 01:03:40,070
I finished two films
over the summer.
1310
01:03:42,160 --> 01:03:44,340
And I'm starting
to work on another film,
1311
01:03:44,420 --> 01:03:47,080
and there might be another,
an improvised film.
1312
01:03:47,170 --> 01:03:48,430
He was always going further
1313
01:03:48,520 --> 01:03:50,170
than the rest of us.
1314
01:03:50,260 --> 01:03:52,000
What he was thinking about,
what he was looking at,
1315
01:03:52,080 --> 01:03:53,760
what he was interested in.
What was the next project?
1316
01:03:53,760 --> 01:03:55,780
He had this immigrant mentality
to a point that I think
1317
01:03:55,870 --> 01:03:59,530
that he needed
to work rather than sit still
1318
01:03:59,610 --> 01:04:01,350
in the confidence of his talent.
1319
01:04:01,440 --> 01:04:04,010
I don't think he gave himself
much of a break.
1320
01:04:05,970 --> 01:04:08,930
He'd go do
very risky projects,
1321
01:04:09,010 --> 01:04:10,710
and then he'd do something
1322
01:04:10,800 --> 01:04:13,280
that was more like a job.
1323
01:04:15,320 --> 01:04:19,240
He was so intense
about his quest
1324
01:04:19,330 --> 01:04:23,940
to really find situations
that would challenge him.
1325
01:04:24,030 --> 01:04:25,550
He was very practical.
1326
01:04:25,640 --> 01:04:27,820
He was very pragmatic
about career stuff,
1327
01:04:27,900 --> 01:04:29,340
but at the same time,
1328
01:04:29,430 --> 01:04:32,950
he deeply felt a duty
to educate himself
1329
01:04:33,040 --> 01:04:34,520
and to challenge himself.
1330
01:04:36,170 --> 01:04:39,170
Anton and I
became friends.
1331
01:04:39,260 --> 01:04:43,310
We would probably spend three,
four, five hours together,
1332
01:04:43,400 --> 01:04:46,010
talking about life.
1333
01:04:46,090 --> 01:04:48,660
He was an old soul,
1334
01:04:48,750 --> 01:04:50,270
you know, and I...
1335
01:04:50,360 --> 01:04:53,490
you know, don't talk
in terms of old souls
1336
01:04:53,580 --> 01:04:55,450
and stuff like that.
1337
01:04:55,540 --> 01:04:59,980
But I found myself treating him
as a contemporary.
1338
01:05:00,070 --> 01:05:02,200
I remember
he had no desire
1339
01:05:02,280 --> 01:05:04,370
to be like,
the flavor of the month.
1340
01:05:04,460 --> 01:05:07,030
He said, "I would rather work
with Jim Jarmusch."
1341
01:05:08,250 --> 01:05:10,680
My vision of things
is somewhat,
1342
01:05:10,770 --> 01:05:13,170
I think, skewed sometimes
by like,
1343
01:05:13,250 --> 01:05:16,430
obsessive desire
and interest in critical theory.
1344
01:05:16,520 --> 01:05:18,820
So, I'm blinded.
I almost have like blinders,
1345
01:05:18,910 --> 01:05:20,350
because I look at it,
and I think,
1346
01:05:20,430 --> 01:05:21,960
"Oh! This film is about genre,"
you know?
1347
01:05:22,040 --> 01:05:23,870
"About whether
we live through genre,
1348
01:05:23,960 --> 01:05:25,440
or genre lives through us,
1349
01:05:25,530 --> 01:05:27,310
or whether it's just sort of
a vicious cycle
1350
01:05:27,400 --> 01:05:29,570
where we reenact
things we've seen."
1351
01:05:31,360 --> 01:05:33,050
You don't often work
with an actor
1352
01:05:33,140 --> 01:05:34,970
who you so immediately take to.
1353
01:05:35,060 --> 01:05:37,190
The actor making the movie,
which is of, you know,
1354
01:05:37,280 --> 01:05:38,930
a pretty minor movie
in his canon.
1355
01:05:39,020 --> 01:05:41,280
And Anton, if he wasn't working
he would come in anyway.
1356
01:05:41,370 --> 01:05:45,410
I mean, he was part of
the creative package.
1357
01:05:45,500 --> 01:05:46,890
So...
1358
01:05:46,980 --> 01:05:48,200
What happens now?
1359
01:05:50,290 --> 01:05:51,990
Room 2117.
1360
01:05:52,070 --> 01:05:53,420
Five o'clock.
1361
01:05:53,510 --> 01:05:55,160
So, did you see yourself
1362
01:05:55,250 --> 01:05:58,040
as becoming the, uh,
thinking woman's sex symbol?
1363
01:05:58,120 --> 01:05:59,730
You know, it's funny
1364
01:05:59,820 --> 01:06:01,650
that you should say that.
1365
01:06:01,740 --> 01:06:06,610
I'm constantly surprised
by how insane filmmaking is.
1366
01:06:06,700 --> 01:06:10,000
Like, a hundred-whatever people
have gotten together
1367
01:06:10,090 --> 01:06:12,920
to try to get one shot,
perfectly.
1368
01:06:13,010 --> 01:06:15,050
And there's a real madness
1369
01:06:15,140 --> 01:06:17,620
and beauty to that madness
that I love.
1370
01:06:17,710 --> 01:06:20,800
I find it completely
intoxicating, and I...
1371
01:06:20,880 --> 01:06:22,760
I truly enjoyed working
on this one.
1372
01:06:22,840 --> 01:06:24,630
"I truly enjoyed working
1373
01:06:24,710 --> 01:06:26,850
on this film 5 to 7!"
1374
01:06:26,930 --> 01:06:28,810
It's startling in a way.
1375
01:06:28,890 --> 01:06:30,420
There's something angelic
about him
1376
01:06:30,500 --> 01:06:32,030
and pure about him,
1377
01:06:32,110 --> 01:06:34,940
and open,
and obviously intelligent,
1378
01:06:35,030 --> 01:06:36,470
but a little bit of a waif.
1379
01:06:36,550 --> 01:06:37,990
He looks like he just
1380
01:06:38,080 --> 01:06:39,510
put himself together quickly to,
1381
01:06:40,640 --> 01:06:41,690
to walk out the door.
1382
01:06:41,780 --> 01:06:42,780
He didn't look like he put on...
1383
01:06:42,860 --> 01:06:44,600
everything on, you know?
1384
01:06:44,690 --> 01:06:48,090
Then we started working
and I realized he was...
1385
01:06:48,170 --> 01:06:50,130
he was the real thing, you know?
1386
01:06:50,220 --> 01:06:51,790
You're always grateful
1387
01:06:51,870 --> 01:06:53,960
when you see one
of these talents.
1388
01:06:54,050 --> 01:06:55,530
They're very...
1389
01:06:55,620 --> 01:06:58,010
rare, really.
1390
01:06:58,100 --> 01:07:00,360
I think as an actor,
1391
01:07:00,450 --> 01:07:02,970
it's sort of a mixture
of the philosophical awareness
1392
01:07:03,060 --> 01:07:04,930
and the emotional, you know?
1393
01:07:05,020 --> 01:07:06,930
I think that those are the films I'm most drawn to.
1394
01:07:07,020 --> 01:07:08,930
Pull the trigger.
1395
01:07:09,020 --> 01:07:10,150
Do it!
1396
01:07:10,240 --> 01:07:12,200
What are you waiting for?
1397
01:07:14,980 --> 01:07:16,770
One more, right away.
1398
01:07:16,850 --> 01:07:19,160
Were you
always confident
1399
01:07:19,250 --> 01:07:21,080
that you were good enough
to make it in the industry?
1400
01:07:21,160 --> 01:07:22,210
I mean, I'm still
not very confident
1401
01:07:22,290 --> 01:07:24,560
that I'm good enough, you know?
1402
01:07:24,640 --> 01:07:27,780
I, I don't know that I'll ever
be confident in that.
1403
01:07:27,860 --> 01:07:30,870
You're at the ground floor
of a growing business.
1404
01:07:30,950 --> 01:07:32,480
Your reward is a career.
1405
01:07:32,570 --> 01:07:34,610
Yeah, fuck that.
1406
01:07:34,700 --> 01:07:36,310
Fuck that.
1407
01:07:36,400 --> 01:07:38,830
I remember
he was very troubled by...
1408
01:07:38,920 --> 01:07:41,100
his hairline was receding.
1409
01:07:41,180 --> 01:07:44,140
And he was a little obsessed
by that.
1410
01:07:44,230 --> 01:07:48,620
And that was that Hollywood part
that he did care about.
1411
01:07:48,710 --> 01:07:50,800
I could relate to that,
because someone assumes
1412
01:07:50,890 --> 01:07:53,150
that if you're interested
in the road less traveled,
1413
01:07:53,240 --> 01:07:56,070
you aren't interested
in the road traveled.
1414
01:07:56,150 --> 01:07:57,590
But the truth is,
1415
01:07:57,680 --> 01:07:59,420
you can hold both in your head.
1416
01:08:12,130 --> 01:08:15,040
♪ The angel and the devil ♪
1417
01:08:15,130 --> 01:08:17,870
♪ Secretly, they get along ♪
1418
01:08:17,960 --> 01:08:21,440
♪ Sitting up there
With me in the middle ♪
1419
01:08:21,530 --> 01:08:23,790
♪ From the dust till dawn ♪
1420
01:08:25,230 --> 01:08:27,230
Dear Mamoola
and Papoola.
1421
01:08:27,320 --> 01:08:29,230
Every day in Tokyo,
1422
01:08:29,320 --> 01:08:30,620
I think about
how terrifying it was
1423
01:08:30,710 --> 01:08:32,600
for you to come to a country
1424
01:08:32,600 --> 01:08:34,410
where you did not speak
a word of the language
1425
01:08:34,500 --> 01:08:36,500
with the intention
of starting a new life.
1426
01:08:36,590 --> 01:08:38,940
How frightening it was to leave a home with everything
1427
01:08:39,020 --> 01:08:41,550
and come to the United States
with nothing.
1428
01:08:41,630 --> 01:08:43,850
Not knowing
what tomorrow will bring,
1429
01:08:43,940 --> 01:08:46,200
how life will turn out.
1430
01:08:46,290 --> 01:08:48,210
I think about
the courage it took
1431
01:08:48,290 --> 01:08:50,860
to dedicate yourself to succeed in this new country,
1432
01:08:50,950 --> 01:08:54,390
in building a home
for yourselves and your child.
1433
01:08:54,470 --> 01:08:56,340
And I think about how you did it
1434
01:08:56,430 --> 01:08:58,520
so that I could have
a better life,
1435
01:08:58,610 --> 01:09:00,310
despite what the sacrifice
might mean to you.
1436
01:09:03,400 --> 01:09:04,960
I always worry
that I somehow,
1437
01:09:05,050 --> 01:09:06,830
can't express my appreciation,
1438
01:09:06,920 --> 01:09:09,750
so I try to write these notes expressing that I do think about
1439
01:09:09,840 --> 01:09:12,620
and appreciate and respect
and thank God for you,
1440
01:09:12,710 --> 01:09:14,840
and everything
that you have given me.
1441
01:09:16,320 --> 01:09:17,370
As I write this,
1442
01:09:17,450 --> 01:09:19,020
I see the trips to Toys "R" Us,
1443
01:09:19,110 --> 01:09:20,150
to the zoo.
1444
01:09:20,240 --> 01:09:22,110
I see the video cameras,
1445
01:09:22,200 --> 01:09:24,200
and all the attention
that I got.
1446
01:09:24,290 --> 01:09:26,200
I wish I could take
all of these things
1447
01:09:26,290 --> 01:09:28,200
and put them together
and give them back to you
1448
01:09:28,290 --> 01:09:29,380
with all the love
that you gave me.
1449
01:09:29,460 --> 01:09:31,510
I love you so much,
1450
01:09:31,600 --> 01:09:34,030
and I hope, even though
sometimes I'm too stupid,
1451
01:09:34,120 --> 01:09:36,120
selfish, or ignorant to show it,
1452
01:09:36,210 --> 01:09:38,170
you know this.
1453
01:09:38,260 --> 01:09:40,170
I wish for you to be happy
and healthy
1454
01:09:40,260 --> 01:09:42,430
for another million,
billion, trillion years.
1455
01:09:42,520 --> 01:09:44,780
I wish for us to be able
to celebrate all together
1456
01:09:44,870 --> 01:09:47,610
for all of those happy
and healthy years.
1457
01:09:57,490 --> 01:09:58,750
I love you.
1458
01:09:59,410 --> 01:10:01,410
Love, Antosha.
1459
01:10:08,290 --> 01:10:09,980
Let's just say I came up short.
1460
01:10:10,070 --> 01:10:11,810
Would you log this?
1461
01:10:11,900 --> 01:10:13,550
Really, that kind of,
first one and second one
1462
01:10:13,640 --> 01:10:15,380
are, kind of, all conflated
into one thing.
1463
01:10:15,470 --> 01:10:18,470
And then we had this glorious,
kind of, golden moment
1464
01:10:18,560 --> 01:10:21,820
of shooting in Vancouver
for the last film.
1465
01:10:21,910 --> 01:10:25,260
I'm so, so happy it turned out
that way, you know?
1466
01:10:27,260 --> 01:10:29,310
Everybody was away
from their families,
1467
01:10:29,390 --> 01:10:32,700
so something very beautiful
happened, where...
1468
01:10:32,790 --> 01:10:34,920
we all just sort of
just came together.
1469
01:10:36,180 --> 01:10:37,270
Look up!
1470
01:10:37,360 --> 01:10:38,490
Whoa, dude!
1471
01:10:38,580 --> 01:10:40,190
- Look down!
- Oh, shit.
1472
01:10:40,270 --> 01:10:41,490
Look down.
1473
01:10:43,150 --> 01:10:45,190
He surprised me
every time.
1474
01:10:45,280 --> 01:10:47,240
He spoke about something,
I thought, you know,
1475
01:10:47,330 --> 01:10:50,940
"What a bright,
intelligent human being."
1476
01:10:54,110 --> 01:10:56,460
Anton and me and Sofia,
1477
01:10:56,550 --> 01:10:59,470
every weekend,
would be out on the sailboat
1478
01:10:59,550 --> 01:11:02,120
in the harbor in Vancouver.
1479
01:11:02,210 --> 01:11:04,780
Anton was the only one
with his hoodie and his,
1480
01:11:04,860 --> 01:11:06,690
sort of, moon boots,
wearing on the boat,
1481
01:11:06,780 --> 01:11:08,350
and there was no way
he would want...
1482
01:11:08,430 --> 01:11:10,440
the water would touch him.
1483
01:11:10,520 --> 01:11:13,440
He was so particular
and so interesting.
1484
01:11:15,440 --> 01:11:17,920
I have this great picture of...
1485
01:11:18,010 --> 01:11:19,270
Me on the boat,
1486
01:11:19,360 --> 01:11:21,750
I'm falling asleep
on Anton's lap.
1487
01:11:21,840 --> 01:11:23,750
And Anton
is with his, like, sweatshirt,
1488
01:11:23,840 --> 01:11:25,710
and I can tell he's like,
"Goddamn it."
1489
01:11:25,800 --> 01:11:27,370
I've probably had been asleep
for like an hour on his lap,
1490
01:11:27,450 --> 01:11:29,110
but he doesn't want to move me.
1491
01:11:29,190 --> 01:11:32,070
That's really cute,
I got that one.
1492
01:11:34,680 --> 01:11:36,370
There is this thing,
1493
01:11:36,460 --> 01:11:38,720
you pretend to be...
1494
01:11:39,640 --> 01:11:42,250
a family over a number of years,
1495
01:11:42,340 --> 01:11:44,730
and at some point,
you kind of are.
1496
01:11:49,210 --> 01:11:51,300
He was on a full...
1497
01:11:51,390 --> 01:11:53,170
explorer's bent,
that last summer.
1498
01:11:53,260 --> 01:11:55,040
It was like a lot of mushrooms.
1499
01:11:55,130 --> 01:11:57,130
He was definitely pushing
the boundaries of, you know,
1500
01:11:57,220 --> 01:12:00,400
reality, and going on
major long walks
1501
01:12:00,490 --> 01:12:02,970
and got a little intense
after a while.
1502
01:12:03,050 --> 01:12:05,840
But it all seemed like
it was in the spirit of...
1503
01:12:07,010 --> 01:12:08,490
I don't know, seeking.
1504
01:12:09,360 --> 01:12:11,320
Who am I?
1505
01:12:11,410 --> 01:12:13,500
Let it holler from the throat
into the world.
1506
01:12:13,590 --> 01:12:15,410
The void from which like
a screaming contorted demon
1507
01:12:15,500 --> 01:12:19,240
you return empty-handed,
eyes pleading.
1508
01:12:19,330 --> 01:12:21,030
We had had like, uh,
1509
01:12:21,110 --> 01:12:23,120
two and a half weeks off
before we had to go to Dubai.
1510
01:12:23,200 --> 01:12:24,420
And he just really did not...
1511
01:12:24,510 --> 01:12:26,340
He looked skinnier than usual.
1512
01:12:26,420 --> 01:12:28,210
And he was coughing a lot more.
1513
01:12:28,300 --> 01:12:30,340
Just, we were
all worried about him.
1514
01:12:32,260 --> 01:12:34,080
He was scared. I saw him scared.
1515
01:12:34,170 --> 01:12:35,350
I felt him scared.
1516
01:12:37,570 --> 01:12:39,310
I remember he said,
1517
01:12:39,390 --> 01:12:40,700
"Oh, god, I got to start
1518
01:12:40,790 --> 01:12:42,880
taking better care
of my health."
1519
01:12:42,960 --> 01:12:44,920
He didn't want to worry
his mother, you know?
1520
01:12:46,710 --> 01:12:48,840
Mamoola, how are you?
1521
01:12:48,920 --> 01:12:50,930
I miss you.
1522
01:12:51,010 --> 01:12:52,670
I've been going nonstop in a way since I left for Dubai,
1523
01:12:52,750 --> 01:12:54,800
so it's starting
to catch up with me.
1524
01:12:54,890 --> 01:12:57,850
Paris is beautiful as always,
but I miss LA.
1525
01:12:57,930 --> 01:13:00,370
Paris is pretty,
but it is not home.
1526
01:13:00,460 --> 01:13:02,630
Besides,
I should really learn French.
1527
01:13:02,720 --> 01:13:05,420
Miss you, love you, Antosha.
1528
01:13:15,470 --> 01:13:17,560
And ended up
being in a hospital.
1529
01:13:20,570 --> 01:13:22,350
That's when it really hit me,
and I was like,
1530
01:13:22,440 --> 01:13:25,790
my friend could... you know,
you know, uh...
1531
01:13:25,870 --> 01:13:28,180
you know, he's not meant
for this Earth,
1532
01:13:28,270 --> 01:13:30,140
as long as...
1533
01:13:30,230 --> 01:13:33,750
you know, than what they "deem"
the normal life expectancy is.
1534
01:13:37,500 --> 01:13:38,890
I don't know.
I feel like sometimes,
1535
01:13:38,970 --> 01:13:41,460
I feel like he just...
maybe he knew.
1536
01:13:42,850 --> 01:13:44,810
He was just pushing,
pushing, pushing.
1537
01:13:44,890 --> 01:13:47,680
Finding, finding, finding,
exploring.
1538
01:13:47,770 --> 01:13:49,900
There was a lot of courage
and bravery, and...
1539
01:13:49,990 --> 01:13:53,210
which he didn't really see,
I don't think, in himself.
1540
01:13:53,290 --> 01:13:55,510
But from an outside perspective,
1541
01:13:55,600 --> 01:13:57,560
it was so clear
that he just, you know...
1542
01:14:03,130 --> 01:14:04,610
It just occurred to me
1543
01:14:04,700 --> 01:14:06,050
there was this scene
that we shot in London,
1544
01:14:06,130 --> 01:14:07,610
was this kind of breakup scene
1545
01:14:07,700 --> 01:14:08,610
where he was
about to come back to the States
1546
01:14:08,700 --> 01:14:10,010
and she was staying there.
1547
01:14:10,090 --> 01:14:11,570
I wanted to set it
in a cemetery.
1548
01:14:11,660 --> 01:14:13,230
So, we were walking around
this cemetery,
1549
01:14:13,310 --> 01:14:14,490
they were having
this conversation,
1550
01:14:14,580 --> 01:14:15,880
we were doing this scene,
1551
01:14:15,970 --> 01:14:17,750
and then
in the middle of the scene,
1552
01:14:17,840 --> 01:14:20,190
Anton was just like, "I don't...
I don't want to be here."
1553
01:14:20,280 --> 01:14:21,800
I don't know.
1554
01:14:21,890 --> 01:14:23,320
I don't like walking
on people's graves.
1555
01:14:23,410 --> 01:14:24,370
We're not walking
on people's graves.
1556
01:14:24,460 --> 01:14:25,370
- We are.
- This is the bit
1557
01:14:25,460 --> 01:14:26,720
in between the graves.
1558
01:14:26,810 --> 01:14:28,150
No, I don't like this.
I don't like this.
1559
01:14:28,240 --> 01:14:29,590
And Felicity is trying
to do the scene
1560
01:14:29,680 --> 01:14:30,900
in the scene,
and we're shooting,
1561
01:14:30,900 --> 01:14:31,850
and she's like,
"Oh, no, let's stay,
1562
01:14:31,940 --> 01:14:33,460
let's talk, let's sit down."
1563
01:14:33,550 --> 01:14:34,550
And he's like,
"No. No, I gotta go. I gotta go"
1564
01:14:34,640 --> 01:14:36,120
This is freaking me out.
1565
01:14:37,250 --> 01:14:38,640
Really? Why?
1566
01:14:38,730 --> 01:14:40,250
I don't know.
1567
01:14:40,340 --> 01:14:41,820
I forgot about it.
1568
01:14:41,910 --> 01:14:43,520
And then, after watching it,
I was like,
1569
01:14:43,600 --> 01:14:46,090
"Oh, my god!" He was so
in tune to this frequency.
1570
01:14:46,170 --> 01:14:48,170
He had this radar for energy,
1571
01:14:48,260 --> 01:14:49,960
and for feeling and stuff.
1572
01:14:50,050 --> 01:14:51,570
And he was just in touch
with that side
1573
01:14:51,660 --> 01:14:53,180
of the universe in a way.
1574
01:15:02,840 --> 01:15:05,710
He started reading
other people with CF
1575
01:15:05,800 --> 01:15:09,280
and felt very disturbed.
1576
01:15:09,370 --> 01:15:11,850
Hi, Mary,
I've been feeling up and down.
1577
01:15:11,940 --> 01:15:14,850
Increased airway clearance
right now to four times a day.
1578
01:15:14,940 --> 01:15:16,940
My folks have been doing
the percussion on my side
1579
01:15:17,030 --> 01:15:19,250
and my back
one to two times a day.
1580
01:15:19,340 --> 01:15:21,990
I've been exercising
a minimum of 45 minutes a day.
1581
01:15:22,080 --> 01:15:24,120
Got to get it into
this idiot brain of mine
1582
01:15:24,210 --> 01:15:26,040
that I have to fight this thing.
1583
01:15:26,130 --> 01:15:27,950
Had a really heavy feeling night a few days back
1584
01:15:28,040 --> 01:15:30,130
where I looked up CF
on Instagram
1585
01:15:30,220 --> 01:15:32,350
and I saw the kids
that are fighting so hard
1586
01:15:32,440 --> 01:15:34,530
and proud to do it.
1587
01:15:34,610 --> 01:15:36,790
Calling themselves fighters,
and I was really moved.
1588
01:15:36,880 --> 01:15:38,620
I've always wanted to shy away
from feeling proud
1589
01:15:38,700 --> 01:15:40,010
that I fight this thing
all the time,
1590
01:15:40,100 --> 01:15:42,140
so I've avoided fighting it.
1591
01:15:42,230 --> 01:15:44,100
But I've got to be proud,
and I've got tell myself
1592
01:15:44,190 --> 01:15:46,150
that most people never have to deal with this sort of stuff.
1593
01:15:46,230 --> 01:15:48,150
And I should be proud of myself
that I man up and do,
1594
01:15:48,230 --> 01:15:50,150
as long as
I actually man up and do.
1595
01:15:50,240 --> 01:15:52,630
And if I don't, that's a crime
against the potentiality
1596
01:15:52,720 --> 01:15:54,460
and against all those that do.
1597
01:15:54,550 --> 01:15:56,810
Anyway, ranting.
1598
01:15:56,900 --> 01:15:58,720
Thank you again
for all your help.
1599
01:15:58,810 --> 01:16:00,900
Speak soon, Anton.
1600
01:16:18,790 --> 01:16:20,830
And then he would look at me,
and he'd say,
1601
01:16:20,920 --> 01:16:22,180
"Mamoola.
1602
01:16:22,270 --> 01:16:23,840
Please do not worry.
1603
01:16:23,920 --> 01:16:26,840
It's okay, I can handle it.
Trust me."
1604
01:16:29,490 --> 01:16:32,060
I am Gustav Klimt!
1605
01:16:32,150 --> 01:16:34,370
When Anton
was in the hospital, he said,
1606
01:16:34,450 --> 01:16:35,800
"We've got to do
something here."
1607
01:16:35,890 --> 01:16:38,720
And we sat down,
and we said, you know,
1608
01:16:38,810 --> 01:16:40,240
"These are the three things
1609
01:16:40,330 --> 01:16:42,070
that I want to concentrate
for this week."
1610
01:16:42,810 --> 01:16:44,860
And when I came back, he goes,
1611
01:16:44,940 --> 01:16:46,550
"I did one, two, and three,
1612
01:16:46,640 --> 01:16:48,120
and I thought
I would do number four
1613
01:16:48,210 --> 01:16:49,990
just because
I thought it would be good."
1614
01:16:50,080 --> 01:16:51,690
And you could see
1615
01:16:51,780 --> 01:16:54,000
his sense of pride
and his sense of,
1616
01:16:54,080 --> 01:16:56,220
"Oh, my gosh,
I've got this under control.
1617
01:16:56,300 --> 01:16:58,870
I can go back to work now."
1618
01:16:58,960 --> 01:17:00,790
When we were filming,
I remember thinking to myself,
1619
01:17:00,870 --> 01:17:02,660
"Huh?
1620
01:17:02,740 --> 01:17:04,700
You know, this feels like
a slightly different Anton than,
1621
01:17:04,790 --> 01:17:06,440
than I've hung out with before."
1622
01:17:06,530 --> 01:17:09,490
You know,
the mind forgets things...
1623
01:17:09,580 --> 01:17:11,360
for a reason.
1624
01:17:11,450 --> 01:17:12,710
I remember Dinklage
coming up to me and just going,
1625
01:17:12,800 --> 01:17:13,840
"Whoa." You know?
1626
01:17:13,930 --> 01:17:15,840
Just sitting opposite that,
1627
01:17:15,930 --> 01:17:18,930
and you can feel the intensity
off of Anton in those scenes.
1628
01:17:19,020 --> 01:17:20,720
But as soon as I yelled "cut,"
1629
01:17:20,810 --> 01:17:23,550
it was just like this cloak
lifted off of him,
1630
01:17:23,630 --> 01:17:26,250
and it was back
to "Laughing Anton."
1631
01:17:26,330 --> 01:17:28,810
How freaking cool is that?
1632
01:17:28,900 --> 01:17:30,120
Oh, my god!
Oh, my god! Oh, my god!
1633
01:17:30,210 --> 01:17:31,250
Oh, dude!
1634
01:17:31,340 --> 01:17:32,690
You know what this means, right?
1635
01:17:32,770 --> 01:17:34,780
You have
a sacred responsibility here!
1636
01:17:34,860 --> 01:17:36,170
That's what they said!
1637
01:17:36,260 --> 01:17:38,080
You have to use
these new powers...
1638
01:17:38,170 --> 01:17:39,480
The sense
that you got from Anton
1639
01:17:39,560 --> 01:17:42,040
was intensity, intelligence,
1640
01:17:42,130 --> 01:17:43,830
and at the same time,
you have the sense
1641
01:17:43,920 --> 01:17:45,830
that he was living.
1642
01:17:45,920 --> 01:17:47,830
You knew he was an artist,
you know?
1643
01:17:49,880 --> 01:17:52,100
He was, he was
a wild one. I was a wild one.
1644
01:17:52,180 --> 01:17:54,750
We were both, kind of,
coming to a space of...
1645
01:17:54,840 --> 01:17:58,100
trying to connect the people
that we used to be,
1646
01:17:58,190 --> 01:17:59,760
with the people
that we were becoming.
1647
01:17:59,840 --> 01:18:02,540
And he was, he was
very interested in creating,
1648
01:18:02,630 --> 01:18:04,850
um, life movie moments.
1649
01:18:04,940 --> 01:18:06,290
What the fuck is wrong with you?
1650
01:18:06,370 --> 01:18:08,680
Yes, I have a gun.
1651
01:18:08,770 --> 01:18:09,810
- Multiple guns?
- "Multiple guns"?
1652
01:18:09,900 --> 01:18:11,770
No! One. One gun.
1653
01:18:11,860 --> 01:18:13,680
What am I, fucking Rambo?
1654
01:18:13,770 --> 01:18:17,120
I think we were
witnessing this shift in him.
1655
01:18:17,210 --> 01:18:20,560
He was right at that moment
of huge transition in his life.
1656
01:18:20,650 --> 01:18:22,260
You know, the way
he talked about things,
1657
01:18:22,340 --> 01:18:25,130
it was, it was different.
It was gaining momentum.
1658
01:18:25,220 --> 01:18:27,650
There were no boundaries
between his...
1659
01:18:27,740 --> 01:18:29,130
between his modes
of creative expression.
1660
01:18:29,220 --> 01:18:31,920
They just all folded
into one another.
1661
01:18:32,010 --> 01:18:33,880
I play the bass player
in the band.
1662
01:18:33,970 --> 01:18:35,880
Uh, and so, Jeremy and I
1663
01:18:35,970 --> 01:18:38,450
always talked about
the fact that, someone,
1664
01:18:38,530 --> 01:18:40,890
and if there's one person
in a band that could die,
1665
01:18:40,970 --> 01:18:42,360
and you could still play
the show,
1666
01:18:42,450 --> 01:18:44,540
it would be the bass player.
1667
01:18:44,630 --> 01:18:46,630
You know? And that's kind of
how his personality is.
1668
01:18:46,720 --> 01:18:48,720
I mean he's just kind of the one that studies everything.
1669
01:18:48,810 --> 01:18:50,370
Do you like
watching yourself on screen?
1670
01:18:50,460 --> 01:18:52,370
I don't like watching myself
1671
01:18:52,460 --> 01:18:54,120
- on screen at all.
- Right.
1672
01:18:54,200 --> 01:18:56,120
But I do like
watching the film.
1673
01:18:56,200 --> 01:18:58,160
Yeah. -I wish I was at a place
1674
01:18:58,250 --> 01:19:00,120
where I could be so enlightened
that I could just say,
1675
01:19:00,210 --> 01:19:00,950
"Well, the experience
was all that matters."
1676
01:19:24,890 --> 01:19:27,190
He had been working
so much that last year
1677
01:19:27,280 --> 01:19:29,460
and been just battling
and just dealing
1678
01:19:29,540 --> 01:19:31,410
with so much stuff.
1679
01:19:31,500 --> 01:19:35,370
And so, Ryan, him, and myself
go on a trip together to London.
1680
01:19:35,460 --> 01:19:37,860
It was like the first time
in a really long time,
1681
01:19:37,940 --> 01:19:39,470
I felt like we were just kids.
1682
01:19:39,550 --> 01:19:42,560
Forget the Tate Modern
or the National Gallery,
1683
01:19:42,640 --> 01:19:46,250
I want shoes! I want glasses!
1684
01:19:46,340 --> 01:19:48,740
- What else do you want?
- I want suits, suits, suits.
1685
01:19:48,820 --> 01:19:50,520
- What else?
- Bags!
1686
01:19:50,610 --> 01:19:51,960
Lots of bags.
1687
01:19:52,040 --> 01:19:54,740
- What about...
- Jewelry.
1688
01:19:54,830 --> 01:19:56,400
You know,
we "lurked" around London.
1689
01:19:56,480 --> 01:19:58,700
I just remember being
at the National Gallery,
1690
01:19:58,790 --> 01:20:00,790
and he stood
in front of this painting.
1691
01:20:00,880 --> 01:20:02,400
Anton wouldn't move.
1692
01:20:02,490 --> 01:20:05,530
Ian and I walked around
like three more rooms,
1693
01:20:06,970 --> 01:20:08,840
came back 20 minutes later,
1694
01:20:08,930 --> 01:20:11,410
and he's still staring
at this painting.
1695
01:20:14,630 --> 01:20:17,070
We were having
these really heavy conversations
1696
01:20:17,160 --> 01:20:20,030
about Cystic Fibrosis
and his disease,
1697
01:20:20,110 --> 01:20:22,770
and he definitely was
at a point in his life
1698
01:20:22,860 --> 01:20:26,160
that he wanted to find a way
to talk about it.
1699
01:20:26,250 --> 01:20:28,430
This could inspire people
that are going through it
1700
01:20:28,510 --> 01:20:31,820
to know that, you know,
you're able to live a life,
1701
01:20:31,910 --> 01:20:33,950
and you deserve to be able to do
whatever you want to do,
1702
01:20:34,040 --> 01:20:36,170
and accomplish whatever goals
you want to accomplish.
1703
01:20:36,260 --> 01:20:38,000
- I'm Anton.
- I'm Julie.
1704
01:20:38,090 --> 01:20:39,390
- Nice to meet you officially.
- Thanks for coming in.
1705
01:20:39,480 --> 01:20:41,090
- Yeah, officially seeing...
- I know.
1706
01:20:41,180 --> 01:20:43,180
- Is it okay if I sit here?
- Yeah. Yeah, and...
1707
01:20:43,270 --> 01:20:46,100
He was getting ready
to make his first real film.
1708
01:20:46,180 --> 01:20:48,400
His real directorial debut.
1709
01:20:48,490 --> 01:20:52,360
He had every shot written out
and planned to a T.
1710
01:20:53,710 --> 01:20:54,800
I went through
all the sort of,
1711
01:20:54,890 --> 01:20:56,760
behind-the-scenes pictures,
1712
01:20:56,850 --> 01:20:59,810
and so many of them are Anton
hovering over the DP's shoulder,
1713
01:20:59,890 --> 01:21:02,030
you know,
asking about the camera.
1714
01:21:02,110 --> 01:21:03,980
He was writing down
the model number.
1715
01:21:04,070 --> 01:21:05,550
And he would say, "That's what
I'm gonna shoot my film on!
1716
01:21:05,640 --> 01:21:06,200
"That's what I'm gonna shoot
my film on!"
1717
01:21:29,140 --> 01:21:31,010
...does everything.
1718
01:21:31,100 --> 01:21:32,580
You really are one of the few actors
1719
01:21:32,670 --> 01:21:33,970
who did the whole full range,
1720
01:21:34,060 --> 01:21:36,100
the logical consequence will be,
1721
01:21:36,190 --> 01:21:38,060
because I know you've been interested in that for a while,
1722
01:21:38,150 --> 01:21:40,370
will be directing
a film one day.
1723
01:21:40,460 --> 01:21:42,540
Yes.
1724
01:21:42,630 --> 01:21:46,330
The cinema should be a tool in which we explore these ideas
1725
01:21:46,420 --> 01:21:50,070
of the existential nature
of our existence
1726
01:21:50,160 --> 01:21:52,510
as human beings on this Earth.
1727
01:21:52,600 --> 01:21:56,040
And it should provide
questions and speculation,
1728
01:21:56,120 --> 01:22:00,080
and never mythologize
and offer answers.
1729
01:22:00,170 --> 01:22:01,960
I feel like
if I'm gonna make movies,
1730
01:22:02,040 --> 01:22:04,180
I want them, at least right now,
1731
01:22:04,260 --> 01:22:06,610
I want them to be...
to move in that direction.
1732
01:22:08,050 --> 01:22:09,700
He got the call saying,
1733
01:22:09,790 --> 01:22:11,530
"We got the money,
we're gonna shoot this thing."
1734
01:22:11,620 --> 01:22:15,360
And, um, his dreams
were coming true, you know?
1735
01:22:21,580 --> 01:22:23,240
Next tonight here,
to the stunning death
1736
01:22:23,320 --> 01:22:25,940
in Hollywood, a young actor,
a rising star
1737
01:22:26,020 --> 01:22:27,890
known for his work onStar Trek.
1738
01:22:27,980 --> 01:22:30,550
He was killed,
trapped between his SUV
1739
01:22:30,640 --> 01:22:31,640
and his driveway gate.
1740
01:22:31,720 --> 01:22:33,420
And it turns out, his Jeep
1741
01:22:33,510 --> 01:22:36,560
is one of hundreds of thousands
included in a recall.
1742
01:22:46,260 --> 01:22:48,480
Police
are saying it appears to be
1743
01:22:48,570 --> 01:22:50,740
a freak accident that killed
the 27-year-old actor
1744
01:22:50,830 --> 01:22:52,570
after friends found him pinned
1745
01:22:52,660 --> 01:22:55,490
between his
2015 Jeep Grand Cherokee
1746
01:22:55,570 --> 01:22:57,400
and a fence at his home.
1747
01:23:04,150 --> 01:23:05,500
Here's a guy
who struggled with his lungs
1748
01:23:05,580 --> 01:23:07,760
for as long as I knew him.
1749
01:23:07,850 --> 01:23:10,240
And he's pinned,
so he can't breathe.
1750
01:23:11,020 --> 01:23:12,810
Like, out of all...
1751
01:23:12,900 --> 01:23:14,850
all fucking things.
1752
01:23:14,940 --> 01:23:17,160
Out of all fucking things.
1753
01:23:17,860 --> 01:23:19,290
That's it?
1754
01:23:19,380 --> 01:23:21,120
And you go to the house,
and you look at the,
1755
01:23:21,210 --> 01:23:22,950
and you look at the gate,
and you're like,
1756
01:23:23,040 --> 01:23:25,130
"This little thing right here
1757
01:23:25,210 --> 01:23:26,950
caught the last moments
of my friend?
1758
01:23:27,040 --> 01:23:29,040
This little spot
in the universe?"
1759
01:23:36,140 --> 01:23:38,100
Looking at the physics
of the whole thing,
1760
01:23:38,180 --> 01:23:41,100
it was so, it was so...
1761
01:23:41,190 --> 01:23:43,010
It was like something
out of a bad horror movie.
1762
01:23:43,100 --> 01:23:44,580
You know, the kind of,
the random events
1763
01:23:44,670 --> 01:23:46,630
that had to occur
for this to happen
1764
01:23:46,710 --> 01:23:48,980
were just, were just...
1765
01:23:49,060 --> 01:23:51,110
cataclysmically unfair,
you know?
1766
01:23:55,200 --> 01:23:56,810
I kept saying,
1767
01:23:56,900 --> 01:23:58,640
"This better be some kind of
sick fucking joke.
1768
01:23:58,720 --> 01:24:02,380
And I swear to god,
the person that is doing this,
1769
01:24:02,470 --> 01:24:04,300
I'm going to beat
the ever living shit out of them
1770
01:24:04,380 --> 01:24:07,170
because this is not funny.
1771
01:24:08,210 --> 01:24:10,650
You can't take away him from us.
1772
01:24:10,740 --> 01:24:12,610
You can't take him away from me.
1773
01:24:12,690 --> 01:24:15,050
And you can't fucking do this."
1774
01:24:21,140 --> 01:24:22,920
He was taken way too soon,
1775
01:24:23,010 --> 01:24:24,180
there's no doubt about it.
1776
01:24:24,270 --> 01:24:26,530
It was a brutal way to go,
1777
01:24:26,620 --> 01:24:29,930
but in a weird way,
it's very Anton-esque.
1778
01:24:30,020 --> 01:24:32,980
That it's just,
he would show up at places,
1779
01:24:33,060 --> 01:24:34,410
and then he would look around,
1780
01:24:34,500 --> 01:24:35,500
and he was just gone.
1781
01:24:38,500 --> 01:24:41,590
I just think that
the human race has been cheated.
1782
01:24:43,250 --> 01:24:47,860
In a world
that moves on very quickly,
1783
01:24:47,950 --> 01:24:51,860
I don't want him ever
to be forgotten.
1784
01:24:53,870 --> 01:24:56,170
"Our dear, dear son,
1785
01:24:56,260 --> 01:24:59,220
We wish you
all the best life in this,
1786
01:24:59,310 --> 01:25:03,090
all your hopes, dreams, wishes,
prayers will come true.
1787
01:25:03,180 --> 01:25:05,050
Absolutely for sure,
1788
01:25:05,140 --> 01:25:06,840
because you deserve it."
1789
01:25:08,270 --> 01:25:09,530
I never,
I've never...
1790
01:25:09,620 --> 01:25:11,190
I mean,
everybody loves their children,
1791
01:25:11,280 --> 01:25:13,890
but I don't think anybody
really loved their child
1792
01:25:13,970 --> 01:25:15,580
like they loved Anton.
1793
01:26:24,000 --> 01:26:26,610
♪ Well, Mom, Mommy ♪
1794
01:26:26,700 --> 01:26:29,700
♪ I play the blues for you ♪
1795
01:26:31,400 --> 01:26:37,490
♪ Mom, baby,
Just like I used to ♪
1796
01:26:37,580 --> 01:26:41,670
♪ Well, it's a long time comin' But it's finally here ♪
1797
01:26:41,760 --> 01:26:45,020
♪ Mom, baby, want you near ♪
1798
01:26:45,110 --> 01:26:49,760
♪ Mommy, Mommy
I'll play the blues for you ♪
1799
01:26:51,460 --> 01:26:53,510
♪ Well, Mom, Mommy ♪
1800
01:26:53,590 --> 01:26:56,340
♪ I play the blues for you ♪
1801
01:26:58,560 --> 01:27:03,690
♪ Well, Mama, baby,
Tell ya how much I love you ♪
1802
01:27:05,170 --> 01:27:09,390
♪ Well, it's a long time comin' But it's finally here ♪
1803
01:27:09,480 --> 01:27:12,660
♪ Mom, baby, want you near ♪
1804
01:27:12,740 --> 01:27:16,920
♪ Mommy, Mommy,
I'll sing the blues ♪
1805
01:27:19,230 --> 01:27:20,450
♪ For you ♪
1806
01:27:36,420 --> 01:27:40,250
♪ The sun ♪
1807
01:27:41,820 --> 01:27:45,560
♪ Shines ♪
1808
01:27:46,300 --> 01:27:48,650
♪ Below me ♪
1809
01:27:50,780 --> 01:27:52,780
♪ Below me ♪
1810
01:27:54,790 --> 01:27:58,360
♪ The sun ♪
1811
01:27:59,180 --> 01:28:02,620
♪ The sun, it shines ♪
1812
01:28:03,530 --> 01:28:06,580
♪ Shines below me ♪
1813
01:28:08,280 --> 01:28:10,320
♪ Below me ♪
1814
01:28:13,810 --> 01:28:17,720
♪ There's no use tellin' you ♪
1815
01:28:17,810 --> 01:28:20,900
♪ Just no use tellin' you ♪
1816
01:28:20,990 --> 01:28:23,860
♪ How I feel ♪
1817
01:28:25,340 --> 01:28:27,780
♪ How I feel ♪
1818
01:28:30,430 --> 01:28:33,870
♪ You're just gonna make up ♪
1819
01:28:33,960 --> 01:28:37,740
♪ Just gonna make
Your face up in ♪
1820
01:28:37,830 --> 01:28:40,790
♪ Tears ♪
1821
01:28:41,490 --> 01:28:43,050
♪ Tears ♪
1822
01:28:45,750 --> 01:28:49,410
♪ You're just gonna make up ♪
1823
01:28:49,490 --> 01:28:52,190
♪ Just gonna make
Your face up ♪
1824
01:28:52,280 --> 01:28:57,370
♪ In tears, whoa, whoa ♪
1825
01:28:59,680 --> 01:29:03,510
♪ Yes, I'm below, the sun ♪
1826
01:29:04,860 --> 01:29:07,510
♪ Shines ♪
1827
01:29:09,430 --> 01:29:11,690
♪ Below me ♪
1828
01:29:15,560 --> 01:29:17,700
♪ Below me ♪
1829
01:29:23,350 --> 01:29:25,050
♪ Below me ♪
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