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The L Word: Generation Q...

[Dani]
Dad. What the hell's going on?

Everything's gonna be okay.

-No. What?
-Call my lawyer.

Do you want to go out
for dinner tonight?

-[Finley] Yeah.
-Can I get a rain check?

[Bette]
Carrie is the fucking worst.

It's like, everything
is a fucking joke to her.

I think, you know, you guys
should start, so it'd be easier

for Angie.

Yeah, easier for Angie
or easier for you?

My donor's dying.

Ange, that's a lot.

[Angie] You think Mama B
would let me see a therapist?

[Shane] She'd be more than
willing to give that to you.

What'd you do, you sleep
at a hotel or something?

No, I stayed
with my friend Bette.

[Tom] She still dating
your ex's ex-wife?

[Gigi] So yesterday
I was your girlfriend,

and today I'm no one?

[Bette]
I can't deconstruct

-your feelings right now.
-I've never asked you

-to deconstruct anything.
-[Tess] Oh, my God, I'm sorry.

-I'm-I'm seeing someone.
-Yeah. Don't need to explain.

-I'm sorry.
-Okay.

[Pippa]
Thank you for dinner.

[Bette]
Please.

[Pippa]
Don't touch me like this

unless you're coming
home with me.

pulsing, dramatic music

[Dani]
The fuck are you doing here?

I drove 70 miles to make
sure that you were alive.

[Dani]
Well, I am.

[moaning]

[Micah]
How was dinner with Sophie?

[Finley]
Uh, she's in Ojai.

[Micah] I'm really relieved
that she told you.

I mean, when Dani told me
that she just showed up,

I wondered if she'd come clean.

[Finley]
Yeah, no, for sure.

[Finley retches, coughs]

[spits]

[grunts, exhales]

[toilet flushes]

[clears throat]

[exhales]

[can pops]

atmospheric music

[grunts]

[Sophie]
Hey.

Uh, hey.

Um...

We're out of O.J.

Oh, I'll just...
I'll grab some later.

Are you all right?
You're looking paler than usual.

No, I'm, uh, I'm good.

Yeah. Thanks.

You been hiding out?
Feel like I haven't...

haven't seen you
in a couple days.

Yeah. Something like that.

Okay. Well, um...

All right. I-I wasn't fully
honest with you about Ojai.

I know.

How was Dani?
Is she... She's good?

She was in the middle
of a crisis.

-I know.
-And her dad is in jail,

-and I just, I just thought--
-I know. So crazy.

I just didn't want her thinking
that she was alone. That's all.

Cool.

Well, thank you.

Thanks for understanding.

You're just-- You're always
such a good friend.

Sure. Uh...

We're not back together, uh,
if-if that's what you think.

Uh, I don't think anything.

-Okay.
-Okay.

You been drinking,
you been drinking

You been drinking again

You been drinking,
you been drinking

You been drinking again

I keep thinking,
I keep thinking

That you'd keep it kosher

You been drinking,
you been drinking

You been drinking again

[keyboard clicking]

[Gigi]
Good morning.

Mm.

So I'm guessing
Tina's back from Toronto?

-Sorry?
-I figured Angie's with Tina,

which is why you could
stay over.

Ah. Right.

Yes, she's back.

Bette?

Do you want to talk about
what happened the other day?

Not unless you need to.

You're more than welcome
to stay as long as you want,

but I have plans
to meet someone, so...

[chuckles]
That was fast.

No, not like that.
I'm seeing Dani.

Oh.

I didn't know
you two were friends.

Is that a problem for you?

No, not at all.

[Gigi] 'Cause you can tell me
how you really feel.

I just did.

I found her, by the way.

Found who?

-Pippa Pascal.
-The artist?

She's beyond anything
I ever imagined.

I would fucking cut out my heart
to work with that woman.

[Bette sighs]

-[Finley] Sup.
-Hey, how you doing?

Oh, my God, that is
an impossible question. See--

It's just rhetorical.
[chuckles]

Oh. Copy that. Yeah.

-Hey.
-Hey.

-Hey.
-[Tess] Hi.

So, I told you I met someone.

Yeah.

We met this past weekend

at this, like, bougie
Hollywood Hills party--

[Finley]
Did you see any celebs?

Was there, like, a sick pool?
Do you have any, um--

No. Um, so...

She wanted to go out
with me tonight,

but I told her that I couldn't
because we have our poker game,

so she's coming here to take me
out for coffee instead.

Like, right now.

Is-is that cool?

Well, yeah.
[chuckles]

Why wouldn't it be?

Just... because the...

-Yeah, never mind.
-What? No.

Yeah, okay. Yeah. Great.

Yeah.
I'd like to meet her, actually.

G-Good. Great. Okay.

-Is that okay?
-Yes.

-Is she on her way now?
-Yes. Yeah. Now.

-Oh. That's quick.
-[door opens]

Hi.

[Cherie]
Hi.

Guess who's back

So, Cherie, this is Shane.

Shane, this is Cherie.

Cherie.

We've actually met before.

[exhales]
Of course you have.

Guess who's back

[Finley]
Finley.

Guess who's back

[Alice] I kept trying
to tell you on the phone

that ghosts aren't real.

First of all,
I was joking about that.

But, on the off chance
that they are real,

you should speak kinder of them.

No, I was up last night
rereading the last chapter

-you gave me.
-Yeah?

I got to tell you,
it's really, really good.

-Really?
-Yeah. I came down here

to congratulate you in person.

-I really hope they like it.
-They will.

Congratulations
on your first book.

Come on.

Did you get me a diamond
tennis bracel-- Oh.

-It's a pen.
-Yeah. 'Cause you're a writer.

Right.
[chuckles]

I love it. Thank you.

I actually
have something for you, too.

Come here.

[exhales]
Okay.

[laughs]

This is what I'm gonna say

in the "Thank you to my editor"
part of my book.

Okay.

"Dear Tom, this book may be
your best trick yet.

With love, Alice."

I love it.
[laughs]

-You do?
-I do. I do.

Thank you. It means a lot to me.

Okay, good. Well, I meant it.

-So this is it?
-Yeah.

As far as the book goes,
it's done, so...

Does it always feel this weird?

'Cause I'm so used to spending
so much time with you,

and now I'm not gonna
see you tomorrow,

and it's... I don't know.

I can't put words to it.

Mm. We're done professionally,

but we're definitely
friends, right?

-Like, we feel like friends.
-You think?

I mean, I wept
in front of you, so y-yeah.

Right. And I pretty much had,
like, a full mental breakdown.

But who's keeping score?

Yeah, okay.
I'd say we're friends.

Me, too.

[distant buzzing]

In the bin, please.
In here.

Thanks.

[beeps]

Right this way.

Follow me.

[indistinct radio chatter]

[keypad beeping]

[lock buzzes]

[laughs softly]
It's good to see you.

I'm sorry you have
to see me like this.

I-I never imagined
I'd be in this position.

A high-priced legal team
can give anyone

a false sense of security.

You have every right
to be upset.

Who says I'm upset?

I need you.

I need you now more than ever.

So it's all about you, huh?

[sighs]

You're the only person I trust.

Am I here as your daughter
or your spin doctor?

Okay, you're angry. I-I--

Answer the question.

Daniela, you are my daughter
first, always.

But we cannot separate family
from our company.

I don't work for the company.

Actually, you are the interim
CEO of your family's company.

You slipped these in
while I was signing

on the house the other day?

Yeah.

Have you ever been
honest with me?

I'm sorry.

No, you're not.

I refuse to be your puppet.

[Lisa]
All of your family's assets

are tied into this company.

You walk away from this job,
you walk away from everything.

Then I need to know the truth.

-Dani--
-As your daughter,

I need to know what you knew
and when you knew it.

Unfortunately,
due to liability, he won't--

Don't give me that bullshit.

You tell me the truth,
and I'll run your company.

But if I find out
you lied to me,

I'll light that place on fire
and watch it burn.

Am I clear?

[laughs softly]

What do you want to know?

"The Kids Are Not Fine"
by Marieme

Why are we

So blind to see

That the ones we hurt

Are you and me

Thanks for waiting.

Anytime. What happened?

I, um, I somehow just became

the CEO of my family's company.

Oh, shit.

That the ones...

Well, boss lady, where to?

I just want to go home.

Home it is.

[engine starts]

Sealed lips sink ships

No tip, no drip

Got no money

[Micah]
You're, uh,

-you're all here early.
-Bette's gonna be here

-any minute.
-Okay.

Yeah. Yeah. I can,
I can check back in.

[quietly]
Yeah.

-My stomach hurts.
-[Carrie] Oh, honey,

you know what?
I have Tums in your mom's purse.

It's okay. I'm just gonna
grab water, I think.

Okay.

-Okay.
-Okay.

-Should we make a break for it?
-[chuckles]

I mean, come on, honey. We could
be in Mexico in a couple hours.

-Right?
-Stop it.

I got that blue light
from my friend, the cop.

I can throw that on the top.

-Right.
-We could be Thelma and Louise

-all the way to Mexico.
-[chuckles]

Now, she's gonna behave, right?

You promise me
she's gonna behave?

Yes, I promise.
She's gonna be fine.

-Okay?
-Okay.

Look, I-I know that you think
that she can be difficult.

Yes, and I'd be very surprised
to find out

that's an unpopular opinion.

Look, she and Angie have
a very special relationship.

I know that. I do.

-Right? Good.
-[sighs]

Maybe I shouldn't have come.

What do you mean? You're the one
that wants to get married.

Well, what do you mean by that?

I... This is the family
that you're marrying into.

-All of us.
-Right. No, you're right.

That's totally true.

I mean, what I have to do
is I just have to start

feeling sorry for her and not
get as pissed off, you know?

-Okay. All right.
-That's-that's the trick.

-Whatever it takes.
-It's gonna work,

because I already
feel sorry for her.

-Why is that?
-Because she doesn't have you.

[scoffs]
She doesn't want me.

-I think she does.
-You say this about everybody.

-I do not.
-She doesn't. I promise you.

-Yes, she does.
-No, she doesn't--

Honey, yes, she does.

Look, it doesn't matter, honey.

-Why not?
-Because I love you.

I want you here
and Angie does, too.

You belong here. Okay?

You're the sweetest,
you know that?

And when we get home,

you got to get that blue light
out of the garage,

because I just thought about
when we order takeout,

why should we have cold food?

-I don't know.
-I could put that thing on

and get the food home in time.

Okay. I'll remind you.

Thank you, very much.

[Jordi] [over phone]
You nervous?

Well, I told Mama T that I had
to tell her something really big

and that I just, like, really
needed her support in therapy.

That's good. So real.

Yeah.

Ms. Porter definitely scares me.

Jordi, you don't need
to call her Ms. Porter

-when you're around me.
-Mm, can't risk it.

She could pull up at any time.

[chuckles]

I just hope this isn't horrible.

Ask the universe
to be on our side here.

Pretty, pretty, please.

Yes.

But no matter what happens,

at least I get to see you get
nominated onto prom court later.

Bitch, are they gonna
call my name?

[laughs] Jordi,
there's no better prom queen.

-You think?
-Duh.

Ready when you are.

Got to go.
I'll talk to you later.

Okay. Love the blazer,
Ms. Porter.

Thank you, Jordi.

slow, somber music

[phone clicks]

As you know, growing up,
we had no role models.

No one who loved like us on TV.

Except for Jo
from Facts of Life, but go on.

But the longer I work here,
the more I realize

that we're standing
on the shoulders

of some incredible people.

For sure.

And you, oh, my God.

[scoffs]
You have done an amazing job

of highlighting
queer celebrities.

-Really.
-Thank you. Thank you.

I mean, that's the whole reason
I wanted to do this show.

Right. But there are just
so many other stories

that haven't been told.

What if we used this segment

to bring to light
everyday queer stories?

I want to highlight people that
are part of the quiet rebellion.

The quiet rebellion.

People who fought
for our rights,

but in their own way.

Teachers, nurses, doctors.

It's a documentary-style segment
on everyday

unsung queer heroes.

I love it.

-R-Really?
-You know what it reminds me of?

My ninth grade English teacher,
Ms. McCauley.

Big ole lesbo, and completely
the person who changed my life.

-Right? You see?
-Yeah.

It's always someone like that.
Not just a famous person.

Right. This is really smart.

-I'm totally in.
-Great.

I mean, I-I have a couple coming
in later today for an interview.

Really?
Like, a real-life couple?

-Yep.
-Are they, like,

disgustingly happy?

Yes, and old.

That's so depressing.

Oh, wait. 'Cause they're old?

[sighs]
No. 'Cause of Nat.

-Oh.
-I know. She keeps texting me,

saying she wants to get
back together, and I'm trying

to pretend to not get,
like, a dopamine high

every time my phone dings.

That sounds healthy.

Yeah. I'm, like,
the beacon of health.

[Micah]
Okay, folks.

So really, you know,
the hope for today

is that we can move closer
to having an open dialogue.

Angie and I thought
that a family session

would be the best thing
for everyone.

That being said, I do want Angie
to feel like she has the space

to talk about
what's important to her.

-Okay.
-That's great.

We're here for you.

[inhales sharply]
Okay.

So...

first of all, I love you all.

-That's so sweet.
-We love you, too, sweetheart.

We love you, too, honey.

So...

you know I've been seeing Kayla,
which I'm really grateful for,

so thank you.

-Of course.
-Whatever you need.

[exhales]
But, um...

...yesterday she told me
that, um, her dad,

Marcus, my, um, donor,

he's sick.

Sick how?

He's, um...

He's dying.

Oh, no.

Oh, baby. I'm so sorry.

[Carrie]
That's a lot. I mean,

that's a lot.

You're doing a great job.

He's in kidney failure
and he-he needs a kidney.

I want to see if I can help.

Help how?
What are you thinking, sweetie?

I think that, um...

I think you're saying you want
to find out if you're a match.

Is that what you're saying,
honey?

-[Bette] Oh, oh...
-Yeah.

-No. God. No.
-[Micah] Ms. Porter,

before we shut her down,
why don't we just...

Look, she can't donate
a kidney. Is that clear?

I mean, but shouldn't
we hear her out?

Look, you don't have a say
in this.

-Ms. Porter--
-No, I'm not trying to have

-a say.
-Well, good. Because you don't.

[Carrie]
I can relate to Angie

-because I'm adopted, too--
-She's not adopted.

-No, I--
-She is our child.

Mine and Tina's.
We're her parents.

[Tina]
No one's questioning that,

-Bette.
-She did. She just did.

-No, that's not what--
-Maybe-maybe

-if we could just refocus?
-Tina, how are we

even having
this fucking conversation?

This is our daughter's body

that we're talking about.

-These are her organs.
-I know, but we're

-here to listen.
-Oh, you want me to be

-the bad guy. Okay, fine.
-No.

-The answer is no.
-I just want to listen.

Absolutely not. No.

-Angie. Angie.
-No, why don't-- Ms. Porter,

why don't you let Tina go?

Okay? You just...

You don't want to crowd her.

[Bette exhales]

[sighs]

Could I just explain what
I was trying to say earlier?

I'd rather you didn't.

Of course you can.

Bette, I realize
that Angie is not adopted.

I do. We had
very different circumstances,

different lives.

But I grew up
without my biological mother,

and it always made me feel
a little different

and kind of lost.

Then, when we connected,
you know,

it answered
so many questions for me.

And if she asked for anything
right now, I'd be there for her.

Well, that's you.
That's not Angie.

That's true.
You know, every family

has its own dynamic,
and we should never presume

that what worked for us
will work for someone else.

Thank you.

Right, I understand that.
I'm just...

I was just meaning that
my connecting with my mother

was very healing for me.

Again, that is not the case
in every family.

[Micah]
If you don't mind me asking,

um, what's
your relationship like

with your family, Ms. Porter?

Um...

Uh, my father died
years ago and, um...

I haven't seen my mother
in 30 years.

She barely raised me.

I am who I am despite her,
not because of her.

Is she still alive?

I wouldn't know. She left me.

Well, wouldn't it be amazing
if you could reconnect with her?

No, it wouldn't be amazing.

How do you know?

The same way you know you don't
like fucking scallops, Carrie.

I tried it once
and it wasn't for me.

soft, dramatic music

[Tina]
Hey, Ange.

No one wants you
to feel hopeless

or alone in all this, okay?

We're here to listen,

and help you try to make
the best decision.

Well, B seemed pretty sure
about how she felt.

Yeah. Isn't she always
like that?

I mean, at first?
[chuckles]

What about you?

Do you support me?

I will always support you.

That doesn't mean
I'm always gonna agree with you.

I do understand
why you'd want to help

save the life of the man
that helped create you.

And I love that this
is who you are.

Okay? That doesn't make it
any less terrifying for me

and your mom
to watch you do something

that might compromise
your health and your well-being.

Come on.
Give us a second chance.

Can you do that?

Okay.

All right.

-Okay.
-All right.

Let me know
if you need anything else.

-Thank you.
-All right. I'm gonna get

back to work. Enjoy yourself.

Oh, no, no, no. Sit.
Have-have fun with your friends.

No. We have that shipment
of booze. I got to go through--

[Finley] Oh, already taken
care of. I'll be behind the bar.

I got it. Come on, sit down.
You're fine.

Yeah, you know what?
Come, sit down.

Come on.

I'm impressed.

Shane, you're all grown up.

What can I say, Cherie?
That's what happens.

So... when did you two...
h-how did you meet?

She used to do my hair.

Come on.

We had an affair.

An intense, destructive affair.

She was married. It...

did not end well, did it?

She was a notorious,
irresistible home-wrecker.

[Shane]
"Was."

Operative word.

[Cherie]
That's a shame.

I don't think so.

[Cherie] Anyway,
I-I'm divorced now, and, uh,

gloriously, aggressively
out of the closet.

And I have you
to thank for that.

[Shane] Well, I'm happy for you,
Cherie. You deserve it.

Now I don't have to sneak around

when I see a hot woman.

Like-like Tess.

[clears throat]
Did you...

-Did you tell her?
-What?

We have a game tonight.
There's an open spot.

-Yeah.
-Tess runs the show.

You're welcome to join
if you like.

I love games.

Okay.
[laughs]

I'm gonna go check on our food.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

Fuck. Fuck.

[Finley]
Uh, is that some sort of

meditation mantra, or...?

What do you need?

Okay, uh, well...

Sophie said she's not together
with Dani anymore, right?

But then she used
the word "friends"

to describe us, but I do think
that could just mean

friends for right now,
and then eventually

lead to something more, right?

Look, you're gonna drive
yourself crazy

trying to figure out
what's going on in her head.

Okay? I think if she says
she wants to be just friends,

you should take her at her word.

I know, but it's...

Find someone
who knows your worth.

People can change, though.
Right?

They can. But they rarely do.

Okay.

Dynamite, dynamite, dynamite

[sniffles]

[Micah] Angie, um,
I think I speak for everyone

when I say that
I'm sorry you felt like

you weren't being heard before.

You, you have our full
attention now.

[sighs]

So, after everything
that's happened

with Black Lives Matter,
the murders

and the protests,

I started to think about Marcus.

You know?

Like, what has he had to deal
with as a Black man?

I mean, I share his DNA, and...

I don't know.

Kayla's my half sister, so...

I just started talking to her
more and more about race stuff.

[Bette] And we talk about
racial issues all the time.

I know. And I love that we do.

You got me to read
Ta-Nehisi Coates, and...

But also, you know

that the two of us walk through
this world differently, Mom.

I know.

I mean, just because
some white people mistake me

for... Italian or whatever,
that doesn't mean

that I don't know who I am.

And you know who I am.

I do.

But it doesn't change the fact
that you experience

more privilege
because of the way you look.

I know that.

Kit looked more like me.

But I can't talk to her anymore.

So...

I guess it's just really nice
to talk to Kayla, because...

there's a kind of shorthand
with us.

And, um...

[crying] I guess I don't
want that to go away.

That's-that's why,
if I'm a match,

I am willing to give up
a-a part of me.

Because I don't want to lose

something bigger
that I am a part of.

Thank you, for sharing
your truth, Angie.

Um, you know, we-we don't need
to come to any decisions,

right now;
we can all just process

what Angie's told us
and-and discuss next steps.

[Carrie] Oh, my God.
I have a headache, I'm starving,

I need a hot tub,
I need a massage.

I need that tea that you give me
to calm me down.

-Yeah. It was an intense day.
-Totally intense.

I mean, I should've worn
my night guard.

You know, my jaw is killing me
from grinding the whole time.

I mean, your daughter
is amazing, but that Bette,

God, she's a tough one.

Look, she'll come around.
She always does.

It'll be okay.

I don't know
how you ever married her.

-What?
-What?

Don't talk about her like that.

-Like what?
-She's the mother

of my daughter, and we have
to try to make this work.

-Okay.
-Don't do that.

-What am I doing now?
-Y-Your tone.

-It's--
-My tone?

Are you fucking kidding me,
Tina?

I just got verbally beat up
by your ex-wife

and you want to talk to me
about my tone?

Look, it was my fault, okay?

I brought you in too soon.
It was a mistake.

-It was way too soon.
-Again with the "too soon."

When is it gonna be
a good time for me?

-You think we should ask Bette?
-Carrie.

No, I'm serious.
When do you want to do it?

I mean, before the wedding?
During the wedding?

-After the wedding?
-Oh, God.

-Stop it.
-Give me a ballpark.

-Is it ten years?
-What do you want me to say?

Am I always gonna be third?

I have to put Angie first.

I know that.
You know I know that.

I love Angie.
And I'm fine with second.

But third?

Is this the way
it's always gonna be?

Because, Tina,
I don't know if you realize it,

but you're always my number one.

Listen, I'm gonna get a Lyft.

I'm gonna stop by the office.

You know, I put a lot of things
off in order to be here today.

I'll see you later.

Look, I love you.
You belong here, okay?

Yeah, you keep saying that.

slow, somber music

[quietly]
What was that?

[Sophie]
Okay, you guys.

Let's just go back a little bit,
all right?

I know that you've
been together for 43 years,

but I don't know
how it all started.

I was a mail carrier.

And I had an apartment
on Gardner.

6534.

I would deliver mail to her
house and she would wait for me.

On the porch.

And I'd say,
"You're looking lovely."

She was always complimenting me.

[June] Well, back in those
days, you just didn't walk up

to someone and ask them out.

Especially another girl.
So you had to be slick.

And she was slick.

I wrote her a letter.

Well, she worked
at the post office.

Well, it made sense to me
to do it that way.

[Patty]
And then I wrote her back.

[June]
And we went on a date.

Mm, but people talk, you know?

-Mm-hmm.
-And word got out

we were seeing each other.

[chuckles] Somebody left
a pile of shit in my mail truck.

-Right on the driver's seat.
-Dog shit, we think.

[Patty]
Mm-hmm. But who knows?

I was working as a teacher
at the time,

and my principal called me
into his office

and he said he wanted
to talk to me

and transfer me out
to a school in the Valley.

He told her

they didn't want a lesbian
working around the kids.

So what did you do?

I quit.

I worked as a tutor.

I taught night classes.

I lost my pension, though.

I couldn't put her
under my insurance.

She had to pay for it
out of her own pocket.

It was worth it, though.

-'Cause we made it through.
-Yes, we did.

[exhales]
'Cause the real deal,

it doesn't come around
that often.

Mm, but when it does.

You hold on to it.

You fight for it.
[chuckles]

You do whatever
you have to do to protect it.

[Sophie]
Wow. [chuckles]

Thank you. That was just...
[sighs] amazing.

I-I think that we're good

for today.

We'll pick the rest up
on location, but thank you.

-That was really special.
-[man] We're clear.

Thank you so much.

-Aw.
-Thank you.

-That was beautiful.
-Thank you so much.

Thank you.

soft, contemplative music

-They're adorable.
-I know.

Oh...

Do you think it's true?

What? The whole dog shit thing?

Oh, my God.
I hope it was dog shit.

[Sophie]
Mm, no. About the real deal

not coming around that often?

-Oh. Um...
-[bell ringing]

Kind of, yeah.

I mean, look,
I can count on one hand

the people I've loved.

-Huh.
-You like orange, right?

Yeah. Thank you.

[Dani]
He says he's innocent.

But?

My dad never dealt
with the everyday stuff.

He says his only crime
was that he trusted

the board of directors too much.

They're the ones who told him
to delegate to the COO and CFO.

Claims the next thing he knew,
walls were closing in.

Do you believe him?

I have reasons
to believe him, yes.

[chuckles]

What?

[laughs] You can't turn off
that PR spin, can you?

[laughs]

You should have
run for office, not Bette.

[laughs softly] I'm sorry.
I don't mean to, but I--

[speaks Farsi]
Don't apologize to me.

I'm fine with it.

Uh, really. I...
It's fascinating.

I mean, I think
it'd be exhausting

to have to filter my opinions
like you do.

It is.

It's mentally taxing,
but if I don't--

You can't protect yourself.

[laughs]

I was gonna say,
if I don't, then I hurt people.

Hmm.

And I don't want
to be like that.

You mean like him? Your dad?

Yeah.

Exactly.

On one hand, I feel like
if I don't believe him,

then my whole life
might be a lie.

And I can't lose him
after I just lost Sophie.

Losing my mom was hard enough.

This would just be...

Did I tell you
that Sophie came to Ojai?

What was that like, seeing her?

It was strange.

And then fine.
Like nothing had happened.

And when it was over,

I was relieved.

Hmm. Wow.

It's hard to admit,
but I feel like part of me

always knew that we weren't
right for one another.

I just don't know how
I ignored that whole part of me.

Yeah.

I don't know why
we lie to ourselves like that.

Self-preservation, I guess.

Yeah. Maybe.

I used to love like that.

-Not anymore?
-Eh,

now I'm more interested in
learning

from whoever I'm with.

I'm trying to give her enough
space to work her shit out

and taking enough space
to work on mine.

Letting things run
their course and just...

being along for the ride.

Sounds nice.

It is. For a while.

And then I usually get bored and
end up alone again. [chuckles]

[laughs]

You will love like that again.

When?

Soon.

[sighs]

You're so easy to talk to.

Well, not everyone
agrees with you. [laughs]

Fuck 'em.

[laughs softly]

"Shimmer" by Keziri & Koel

You think you're
an average city girl...

-Ah. Sorry.
-I just need to--

-No, no, no. Go.
-Okay.

But a queen like you should
never drop her crown...

Look, Cherie was a lifetime ago.

I'm not trying to stand
in the way of anything.

I just...
[stammers]

You know what? It's fine.

Is this about the other night?

No. You know, I just,
I have a lot of stuff

in my head right now.
We're good, okay?

Hey. Check her out,
I'm moving on.

[Tess]
Good. I'm happy for you.

[Finley]
Right?

Um, so, you mind
if I skip out on my shift?

I just want to see
where this goes.

Finley, come on.

My baby...

-Yeah. Go.
-Get the hell out of here. Go.

Oh, you're the best. Thank you.

Did you tell her to move on?

Yeah.

She can't keep pretending
to not see

-what's right in front of her.
-That is true.

You think I'm wrong?

I didn't say that.
I just, I think...

I think people are complicated.
I think timing is complicated.

I think life can be complicated.
What do I know?

True. But she can't
expect Sophie to change,

and she's made herself
pretty clear, so...

I-I'm sorry. What-what the hell
are we talking about?

Finley.

Right.

[scoffs]

I'm gonna go get gin.

[keys jingle]

[exhales]

[sighs]

[takes deep breath]

slow, somber music

[sighs]

[sighs]

[hums]

Yeah. Oh, that's cute.

It's cute.

Pretty. That's pretty.

That's-- Oh, water.

-[phone ringing]
-Oh.

Yeah!

Hey!

Yeah.

You... Oh.

Okay. Yeah.
[exhales sharply]

No problem. Mm-hmm.

It's-- No, it totally happens.
Totally happens.

I was, I was just gonna
ask you a question.

Um... that vase,
my grandma's vase?

The crystal one?

So, if-if you had seen it?

I might have left it
at the house?

Uh-huh. Yeah. No.

Oh, if you see it, or if it's,
you know, shows up,

just let me know.

Okay. You got it. Yeah.

Damn it.

Stupid flowers.

Flowers are stupid.
Flowers are stupid.

No!

Oh, really?! Fuck.

-[phone buzzes, chimes]
-[sighs]

[crying]

That's really great.

[sniffles, cries]

gentle music

-What's wrong? What happened?
-No. No, I'm...

Why do you look so nice?

[sighs]
I was supposed to have a date.

You cancelled your date?

I thought something was wrong.

Okay, but go. Now. It's not--

It's fine. I'm here.

Look, I'm sorry, but this-this
is bad. All right?

-This isn't right. I just--
-Just tell me what happened.

I had a shitty day
at work, all right?

Everyone in a session
sort of lost their minds,

and it-it made me feel
like I'm not any good at my job.

And then I got home,
and it was empty,

and I just, I needed...

I needed you.

Uh, I needed you
to talk about nothing with

or eat spicy fruit
or vegan pizza or something.

I don't know.
But just, I needed you.

-Micah.
-Just you, and I just,

I wanted... [sighs]

Tonight I wanna
break the bed

Go harder

Tonight you're gonna
pull my hair

Scream louder

And I don't see
nothing wrong...

Don't act like you're gonna
break me, 'cause you can't.

[laughs]
Okay.

Well, maybe we can make
some type

of cool mosaic with it.

Mm, I'm not crafty.

Oh, well, you look like you know
how to handle a glue gun.

Really?

[Tom shrieks]

-What?!
-They're lobsters.

Yeah. I know what they are,
but what are they doing

-in your sink?
-'Cause I was gonna surprise Nat

-with a fancy dinner!
-Oh.

She called and cancelled on me.

She was leaving Brenda's house.
Who's Brenda, by the way?

Oh, my God, it really is over.

[sighs]
Anyway, I called you

because I thought
maybe you and I could eat them.

[chuckles]

Alice, I'm deathly allergic
to shellfish.

There's no way
I'm gonna eat these.

-Come on!
-There's no way. I'm sorry.

Especially after all they've
been through today with you.

I feel like they're emotional
support animals.

I'd feel weird eating them.

Well, if we're
not gonna eat 'em,

what are we gonna do with 'em?

Tell me everything.
I want to know it all.

All right. All right.

So I was sitting there

in the middle of the bleachers,
just full sweating,

and they start calling names.

"Your 2021 prom court is
Alexa Faggiano,

Bethany Thompson, Jessie Yang."

Oh, my God.
Were you just dying?

Dying. There were so many names.

And then, when they said
the last one, no joke,

like, I didn't even hear them,

and everyone was yelling,
"Jordi,

they called you!
They called your name!"

I'm-- Jordi,
I'm so happy for you.

Yeah, and I'm so sorry
I couldn't be there.

It's all right.
It's not a big deal.

I-I wanted to be there so badly,
but, um...

I don't know.
I just couldn't do it.

Sorry. I didn't want
to cry at your big...

People would've just thought
that you were so happy for me

that you couldn't
contain yourself.

Yeah. You know,
I'm just so pissed.

Like, they always make
everything about them.

They're just
so fucking selfish, you know?

I bet they're still downstairs
bitching about it right now.

-Um...
-I'm sorry.

But, like,
at least now it's kind of

out there
and out of the way, right?

Well, Carrie's the only one
who was actually on my side.

'Cause she's the only one
that sees me

like a person
and not just some kid.

And I think
Mama B just hates her so much

that she doesn't care
about anything else.

You know, and she wouldn't even
listen to me.

It's kind of great, though,
because Mama--

Sorry. Our English teacher
just liked my post.

[Jordi gasps softly]

Oh. Um... never mind. Um--

Cool. Hey, you got through it.

Now we can focus
on more fun stuff.

slow, somber music

[Tom] Hey, what kind
of lobsters are these?

[Alice]
What does it matter?

Well, if they're Australian,

they're not gonna know anybody
out there.

And if they're
the Pacific spiny kind, well,

all the other lobsters can stop
looking for their lost friends.

-[Tom laughs]
-Why are you such a dork?

-This looks good.
-Okay.

[seabirds screeching]

All right!

-All right, guys.
-Okay.

Come on. You are free!

[Alice]
Oh, God.

Did they die?

No, no, no. No. They're shy.

Maybe they just need
to come out of their shells.

How about
we bring 'em down there

and let the water take 'em?

-Okay.
-Okay. Come on.

[Alice]
I feel kind of attached

-to this little guy, you know?
-Huh.

We've been through a lot
together today.

Hi.

Have a great adventure.
Don't ever change.

-Be free!
-Feels good!

[laughing]
You want to, uh--

-Yeah.
-Okay.

Hey, bup, bup. Yeah.

-Whoo.
-Yeah.

[Alice exhales heavily]

You okay?

I'm fine.

I'm not a lesbian,

and I've never tried
a poly relationship,

but I wish I would've
experienced one of the two

-so I could be more helpful.
-Mm.

I can offer an ear.

It's really good for listening
if you want to talk.

I just don't know
when it went off the rails.

Like, we're so good.

Nat and I-- we're so good.

I'm sorry.

Me, too.

For what it's worth,

I think she's nuts

for not trying
to work things out with you.

You're not so bad yourself.

Thank you.

And I never told you,
but the Dana chapter?

It ended up being my favorite.

Yeah, I went from dreading it
to loving it.

It's like you cracked me open.

-Sorry about that.
-No, in a good way.

It's like you took her chapter,

and you took it somewhere
I couldn't, so, thank you.

It's part of my job.

Did you take the rubber band
thingies off their, um...?

No. Did you?

They're gonna die.
They're gonna die.

Oh, my God,
we have to find them!

They're gonna die!

Okay. Are they gonna be,
like, in this area,

-or...
-[whooping]

Whoa!
It's too cold!

Can you imagine having your life
dependent on the strength

-of some piece of rubber?
-[Alice] Isn't that,

like, the whole idea
with condoms?

[Tom]
Oh, yeah. I-I guess so.

[Alice shivers]

[Dani] I think it's the one
on the right.

Let me know
if you have trouble finding it.

[speaking Farsi]

[both laugh]

You and Micah been friends
a long time?

Since undergrad, yeah. But...

-What?
-I don't know.

Things are, um,
different lately.

They all still live together.

I'm pretty much the odd man out.

I didn't want him to have
to pick sides, but I miss him.

Mm. Have you told him that?

Oh, my God, you're starting
to sound like Sophie.

No, I'm not.

You just don't have
anything else to compare me to.

There's more
than just Sophie or not.

You'll see.

I promise.

Are you hitting on me?

[chuckles]
Uh, no.

I mean, I don't think... so.

-[Gigi chuckles]
-Okay, but you're not sure.

I like your energy.

[laughs softly]

I don't know what that means.

Sure you do.

It's what
you're feeling right now.

Oh.

But...

if my feelings change,

I will let you know.

I'm good at that.

That makes one of us.
[laughs]

[phone buzzes, chimes]

Everything okay?

Better than okay.

You, you, you wanna know me

You wanna come see,
take it to the streets

Like win, lose,
I'm makin' a scene

Bust out the back seat,
I'm droppin' the heat

Like you don't even know
what I'm 'bout to do

Lookin' down from space
kinda point of view

Oh, I'm just built different,
never hit a limit...

You happy with that flop?

Light it, light it

Light it up like...

Got something to smile about?

-[Shane] Maybe.
-You're full of shit.

Light it up, light it up,
light it up like

Light it up like

Light it up, light it up,
light it up like

Go, go, I'm doin' my thing

I'm dodging the shade,
no time for mistakes

Like, oh, no,
no need for debate

It's never halfway,
let's go dominate

You don't even know
what I'm 'bout to do

Lookin' down from space
kinda point of view...

Where you off to?

I was just gonna head
home early.

Can I come?

No need to ditch the party
for me.

Hmm. It'd be my pleasure.

I don't think you should.

Why not?

Because I think you should be
exactly where you want to be.

[drops keys]

Take your time, honey,
let it all out

Dig your feet
into the ground

Try to feel your way
around it

See the signs
circling in the sky

You've been trying to hide

Everything deep inside ya

Take a moment
to let it all out

What's inside of your head

Get it out of your mouth

And it's something you
never would say

Gotta give it away

You don't know it,
but you wanna hum along

When you do it, no,
you'll never get it wrong

You can do it however
you really want

- I love it when you
-[Tess moaning]

Take your time

I love it when you

Face the light

I love it when you

Make up your mind

I love it when you
get it right

I love it when you get it
right, right

Get it right

Take a moment,
you're watching it drown

Oh, it never stays down

She's coming back tomorrow

I will follow her
into the water

Will I float away?

You don't know it,
but you wanna hum along...

You're so pretty.

Don't make it weird.

Wrong

You can do it however

You really want

I love it when you

Take your time...

Can I?

You sure you remember how?

I think so.

I love it when you

Make up your mind

I love it when you
get it right

I love it when you get it
right, right

[crickets chirping]

How's Jordi?

Uh, fine.

I was just gonna head upstairs.

Good night.

Um, why don't you come sit
with us?

I'm tired, and I don't want
to get into a whole thing.

I-I just wanted to say that...
I behaved so poorly.

I mean, I just acted so much

out of my own fears that
I wasn't even able to hear you.

And I feel really ashamed.

I'm so sorry.

And we... we love you.

And-and we're open
to you reaching out to Marcus.

You can meet him if you want to.

We know how important
this is to you.

Oh, my God.

I forgive you.

-I forgive you, and...
-[laughter]

-thank you so much.
-[Bette laughs]

[laughing]
Oh, my God.

I love you, sweetheart.

Thank you.

-I love you.
-Thanks.

gentle music

[distant moaning]

[moaning continues]

Why we always actin'
stupid?

Why we always do this,
do this

Do this to ourselves?

Why we always actin'
stupid?

I wouldn't wanna do this shit
with anybody else

'Cause we kiss and fight
and we fuck all night

'Cause we kiss
and we fight all night

Why we always actin'
stupid?

I wouldn't wanna do this shit
with anybody else

[loud moaning continues]

We do it to ourselves,
we do it to ourselves...

[Sophie]
Oh! God!

Ugh!

[sighs]

I better watch myself
when I'm with you

I better behave myself
when I'm without you

I better watch myself
when I'm with you

I better behave

[knocking]

Where's Tess?

I-I dropped her off.

You all right?

You gonna let me in?

[sighs]
Is that a good idea?

Don't make me beg.

Morphine candy

Baby, you're the one

Your sugar sweet,
my web is spun

My heart's on fire,
you're under my gun

I hope that you're ready
'cause it's already begun

Can you understand me,
speaking in tongues?

I know I'm a lot
but I promise I'm fun

Ooh, just let me
be your doctor

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