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("It'll All Be Over" by The Supreme Jubilees playing)
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(insects chirping)
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♪ Mm... ♪
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♪ One of these old days, yeah ♪
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♪ One of these old days ♪
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♪ We ain't gonna have to cry no more ♪
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♪ You see God's gonna wipe away all our tears ♪
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(wind chimes ringing)
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♪ He gonna wipe the tears, yeah ♪
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(knocking)
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Brooke: Adam?
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(knocking)
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-Adam? -(wind blowing)
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(knocking)
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Shit, shit, shit.
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♪ One of these old days... ♪
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(knocking)
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Colin (on phone): Oh, fuck.
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♪ It'll all be over ♪
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Colin: Anybody home?
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What are you doing here?
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Oh man, you are one sick fuck.
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I got a call from my probation officer. She told me.
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-You didn't sign off! -That's right.
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Oh, you asshole!
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I'm an asshole? You're an asshole.
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-What-- You can't say that. -You showed up at my house
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like the fucking Night Stalker. I can say whatever I want.
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Look, four sessions! That was the deal, and I did it.
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Brooke: I told her that I needed more time.
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We were making progress.
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I don't need to justify myself to you.
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-Get the hell off my doorstep. -What? Why? Why?
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You-you can't own what you've done? Can't defend yourself?
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You opened up to me at the end of our last session.
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You were honest. I can't,
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in good conscience, say that you were good to go
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when you've only just begun to trust me
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with the truth. What is going on?
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Nothing.
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Doesn't look like nothing. It looks like you have
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-an icicle up your ass. -(sighs)
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Loo-look,
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I really can't wait to get the hell outta here, but just...
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Let me use your bathroom real quick.
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(scoffs) You're not coming in my house.
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Oh, you think I want to?
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I mean, I do. I want to.
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I'm... I'm asking. I'm begging.
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-No. -(sighs) I was out with these tech kids.
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I had five beers.
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The car over here was a half hour. Please,
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-this is getting actually really bad. -Not my problem.
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I'm not entirely convinced I don't have to shit also.
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(inhales) Oh god. Listen, Brooke,
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uh, I'm about to seek relief
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in the middle of your yard in about 10 seconds.
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I really-- I really need your help here. Please?
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-(wind blowing) -(car drives by)
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-Quick. -(groans)
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Thank you.
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(door shuts)
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(light theme playing)
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♪ ♪
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(toilet flushing)
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-(door opens) -Colin: Woo!
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-(sighs) -(shuts door)
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Ah, holy shit.
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That was close.
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-Thank you. -Out.
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You're, uh, you're a little loose.
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I like it.
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(clears throat)
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So, what are you up to?
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I was attempting to relax.
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You know, I do think it's fucked up that you didn't sign off.
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-In session, Colin. -But you did it...
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because you thought I really got somewhere?
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Huh. Makes me wish I hadn't yelled all that stuff at you.
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You did call me an asshole though.
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-You are an asshole. -Well, sure, a little bit.
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-There are people born with no legs, Brooke. -(sighs)
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Wouldn't point that out to them like it's breaking news.
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-Why are you still in my living room? -(laughs)
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I'm regretting coming here.
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It was dumb. I can see that. I'll just order a car.
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(wind blowing, wind chimes ringing)
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-(app beeps) -Ugh!
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Man, my guy's not gonna be here for 10 minutes.
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(clears throat) Hey, do you mind... mind if I wait in here?
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Santa Anas are blowing like crazy.
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(spluttering)
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Five minutes.
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Sure.
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You gonna offer me a drink?
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What? No.
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-You mind if I help myself then? -Wh-- Colin, this...
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Come on, it'll be good!
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I'm-I'm even more charming when I'm drunk.
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-You-you're gonna love it. -(opens cabinet)
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-(glasses rattling) -Where do you hide your-- Oh!
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-Never mind. -(shuts cabinet)
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-Found 'em. -(puts down glass)
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Plus, you know, I-I'll have a drink, and maybe,
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I will finally lose some of my inhibitions.
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(soft laugh)
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(clears throat)
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I did not ask for a drink.
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Oh, my dear, you did not have to.
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-Come on, cheers. -(clink)
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-(door opens) -Oh.
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(door shuts)
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-Adam: Hey. -Adam.
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I saw-saw you were outta some stuff,
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and I was at the store anyways.
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Tried to call.
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-Who's this? -Sorry! Adam,
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Colin. Colin, Adam.
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Colin is my patient. He just...
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stopped by.
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For a drink.
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Mm. Yeah, can I get you anything?
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I'm good.
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I'll just...
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This is not a session.
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Yeah, I'm gettin' that.
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-What the fuck, Brooke? -He's going through...
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It's a long story, but he's about to go.
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You had a couple already, huh?
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It'll be fine. He's just waiting for a car.
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Hm...
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(unloading groceries)
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-(whisper): He seems nice. -Stop it.
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(cabinet shuts)
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(pops bottle)
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(cap rattling)
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Alright. What, uh,
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what are we talkin' about here?
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Colin: Eh, sort of...
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hard for you to follow without our history.
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Yeah? Try me.
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Brooke: Adam. Come on.
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I'll be right there.
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Nice to meet you, Adam!
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You are a shit-stirrer. You...
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-like, stir shit. -How dare you.
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So, uh, before we were interrupted...
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(scoffs) This is not a therapy session. I am not getting paid.
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You don't get paid for any of our sessions.
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Okay, okay, fine.
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But just to clarify, that's why you didn't sign off.
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'Cause you thought I was finally being honest.
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Huh.
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Is that when I said I was nothing?
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It was illuminating, your choice of words.
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For the record, the fact that you hadn't been honest
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up until that point was also illuminating.
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And very troubling.
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Noted.
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(sighs) And, also,
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I would like to state for the record that I regret
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calling you a narcissist.
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It was rash.
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And I believe incorrect.
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Narcissists can't see themselves. You can.
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-Whoa, whoa... I'll drink to that. -(clink)
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-I do... see myself. -Hm.
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What is it I'm lookin' at?
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Hm...
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-(puts down glass) -Make yourself comfortable.
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(sighs)
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The-the other day, when you were asking
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about plans, the future,
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in that moment, I-I got so antsy.
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Like all the air was going out of the room, you know?
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You ever have that?
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No.
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Anyway, that's how I felt, and...
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thinking about it,
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I don't know what I want.
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Which is strange.
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You are a special person, Colin,
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and I would never want you to feel
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like you are not the most special flower
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-in the world. -(laughs) Fuck off.
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But no one knows what they want.
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Well, that's comforting, I guess.
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Most people out in the world don't even think
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to ask the question until it's too late, if they ask it at all.
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We have trouble listening to ourselves.
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It's like the conversation we had about music.
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We don't listen to the voice
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that says, "That sucks. Turn that off.
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"Break up with this person.
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"Move out of this city.
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Quit your stupid fucking job."
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-Hm. -We don't listen.
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(scoffs) Until we do.
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-You-you should always drink before therapy. -This is not therapy.
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We ask kids too early
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"What do you wanna be? Declare your major."
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You can't know what you want if you don't know who you are,
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and you don't know who you are until-- I mean,
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I didn't know who the hell I was when I was 18.
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Oh yes, yes, yes.
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You know, my parents, they started their own thing
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from the ground up. That's what I was gonna do.
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So, I tried all this crazy shit. You know, a...
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a coffee house, a microbrewery,
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a record label. (blows raspberry)
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I never cared enough.
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You know, I think--
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I think I was looking at it wrong.
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My parents weren't building a massive health food empire.
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They were making granola. They liked granola.
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They started making it, and then it snowballed.
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See, I never stopped to figure out what it was I liked.
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It's hard if you're spending all your time
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trying to be something you aren't.
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You never took the time to figure out who you are.
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God, this is depressing, just so you know.
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The guy pushing 60
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who discovers himself is not a good look.
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I've met that guy. I fuckin' hated him.
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Well, them's the breaks, kid.
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(laughs)
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Where the fuck is your driver?
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Oh, right. This fucking app.
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(dryly whistles)
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Looks like he's doing donuts in a Target parking lot.
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What, now it says 13 minutes?!
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Fuck this clown. I'm canceling.
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I will order another one.
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-(clicking tongue) -(app beeps)
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Oh! Look at that. Seven minutes.
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(sighs) Man, these names.
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(Colin chuckles)
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Anyway. (clears throat)
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I lost my train of thought. What were we talking about?
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Uh, finding yourself at 60.
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Mm! Fuckin' yeah. It reminded me.
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I knew this guy, his name was Grover.
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Uh, this was, uh, late '80s, early '90s.
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And he was living in his van, sort of a converted thing.
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You know, a-a bed,
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-a propane stove. Camper situation. -Mm-hmm.
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I met him, and I'd just sold my brewery, on which I broke even
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very proud to report,
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and I'm trying to figure out what's next. I meet this guy,
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and he just follows his gut.
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You know, he wants to surf? He heads to the beach.
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He wants to see the fuckin' Grand Tetons? Off he goes.
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And I'm sitting there like, "Wow.
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"This guy's really got it figured out.
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This is how you live."
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Anyway, this guy pays for his way of life by...
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selling some illicit substances,
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which is how I made his acquaintance in the first place.
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Long story short,
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I-I'm just basically sold on this.
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Because nothing says happiness like
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-an itinerant drug dealer living in a van? -Right?
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So, I'm gonna buy a van. I'm gonna convert it
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and see the country.
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Plus, I have the added benefit of being
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barf-shit-scream independently wealthy,
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so I don't have to bother with acquiring
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-and distributing illegal drugs. -Win-win.
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So, I gobble up a handful of this gentleman's product.
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And, oh-ho, he trafficked in
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only the most soul-shatteringly potent of substances--
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-I get it. -Yeah.
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-So I sit there on the beach. -Mm.
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You know, and I'm sort of glued in place,
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fully losing my mind, and I go on this whole journey,
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thinking about the van
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and livin' on the road.
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And then I start to think about,
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like, flat tires
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and washing my own pots,
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and just how fuckin' lonely I would be,
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and so I think, "Well, maybe a van isn't it.
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"Maybe it's more of a motor home.
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Little more space and so on."
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And then, I think about emptying the septic.
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And I think about the other kinds of people
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who drive motor homes,
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and with whom I would inevitably
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be spending much of my time.
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-RV people? -Yeah.
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I don't wanna hang out with those people.
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I mean, not that there's anything wrong.
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I'm sure they're very lovely people, but I just--
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I wanna be with people who are engaged.
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You know? In the mix, who are changing the world.
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And so, I think, "No, not a motor home. An actual home.
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"In a city.
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Beautiful loft apartment some place."
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And then... No, that's not right either.
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All the trash piling up on the sidewalk in summer, the vermin,
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the unfathomable misery of
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homeless people sleeping on the streets,
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while I hover above, sending waste down
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from this magnificent imaginary apartment.
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So a country house.
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But that's too remote.
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I mean, who's gonna fix your fuckin' whatever when it breaks?
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So...
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I think a place
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just outside the city, you know?
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So I can get in, be in the mix,
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and then get away whenever I need to.
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So I'm laying there on the beach,
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I'm tripping my balls off
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on this epic fuckin' mind-walk, and what I had just realized
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is that I wanted to live...
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in the suburbs.
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And then my mind just starts racing.
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Well, that's what this country, this life, does to people.
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You reach a point where all your dreams get reduced
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to wanting something that just isn't so fucking hard.
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And I think about all the endless,
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sprawling neighborhoods off of every interstate.
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All with the same restaurants,
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the same hardware stores, the same everything else,
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and then I-I really start to freak out because I think,
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"Wow. Is this my future?"
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You know, is this, this what I want? Is this middle age
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coming for me? I wanted to be a radical!
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You know, man, I wanted to be a revolutionary.
331
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You-you've seen these people.
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In their khakis and bloated, off-brand sneakers,
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and you think, "Oh, my god, is--
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How does this happen to a person?" Well...
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this is the answer.
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It just creeps in.
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So it's like you said.
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You know, most people, they don't even ask the question
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until it's too late. Well, this was me,
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as a young man, asking the question.
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I was asking what it was I wanted.
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I did not have an answer yet but, boy,
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I knew what I didn't want.
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I didn't want an ordinary life.
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I wanted it to be big!
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I wanted it to-to-to surprise me.
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I wanted to take a leap, to really try something.
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And if I don't make it,
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if I fall and crash, get my head split open
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on the rocks below, so be it, you know.
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Risk.
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That's what would guide me.
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Risk.
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(sighs)
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So here I am.
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Head splattered, half drunk...
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in my therapist's house.
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I don't know what my point was.
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Say no to drugs? Hah.
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Buy some khakis? I-I don't know.
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I don't know.
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You know what the problem is?
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(clears throat) This isn't
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Brooke the therapist talking.
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This is Brooke the human being,
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who's had a couple of drinks
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and is feeling herself a little bit.
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This shit is bigger than you.
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You are a white
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straight cis man.
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The world was built by you, and for you,
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to capture, to achieve, to acquire,
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to plant your goddamn flag. No obstacles,
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nothing to overcome, except your own laziness
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and self-doubt. And, by the way, give me a fucking break.
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And if you don't become a great man,
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well, why the hell not?
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It's all there for the taking.
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If you don't become great, it's because
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you're a piece of shit, or a coward, or a fool.
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And then the rest of the world pays the price
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when you don't feel adequate because you don't have
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a motherfuckin' clue about what you're feeling
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or why you are feeling it.
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Some people...
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Lots of people, those people you were just talking about,
387
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they just want to have a house
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in a decent neighborhood,
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send their kids to a safe school.
390
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I just
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wanted to do something that I loved to do,
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and fuckin' white guys,
393
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you need to shatter the model of success
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in order for you to feel like you've done anything at all.
395
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Well, guess what?
396
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That shit's impossible without taking shortcuts,
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gaming the system, stepping on other folks,
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without a shitload of collateral damage.
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Do your trips to the doctor move the stock market?
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Do your dinner parties determine
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the next leader of the free world?
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00:20:02,433 --> 00:20:05,573
Because this is all some patriarchal,
403
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dick-measuring horseshit.
404
00:20:09,633 --> 00:20:11,403
All this talk about
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renaming buildings and whatnot because
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so-and-so was a monster? I say,
407
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take 'em all down.
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If your name is on the side of a building,
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chances are you did some horrendous shit
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to get it there.
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Philanthropy is just a way
412
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to wash the blood off your billions.
413
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Anyway...
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(sighs)
415
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Say no to drugs.
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(puts down glass)
417
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(soft gasp)
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(sniffle)
419
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(gasps)
420
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You okay?
421
00:21:23,700 --> 00:21:25,400
I'm sorry.
422
00:21:26,600 --> 00:21:28,370
I-I don't know what...
423
00:21:33,066 --> 00:21:34,166
God...
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I don't know what's happening to me. Jesus Christ.
425
00:21:41,000 --> 00:21:42,430
I'm sorry. I...
426
00:21:42,500 --> 00:21:45,070
-I know this isn't even a session, but-- -(app beeps)
427
00:21:47,766 --> 00:21:51,696
Huh. There's my ride. Fuck.
428
00:21:53,366 --> 00:21:54,366
(Colin sighs)
429
00:22:01,333 --> 00:22:03,103
(Colin sighs, sniffs)
430
00:22:05,700 --> 00:22:07,070
(sniffs)
431
00:22:09,300 --> 00:22:11,170
Look, thank you for...
432
00:22:12,500 --> 00:22:15,270
for hearing me out.
433
00:22:15,333 --> 00:22:18,173
For giving me a chance, or a second chance.
434
00:22:19,200 --> 00:22:21,400
Third chance. I'm not sure. Heh.
435
00:22:24,066 --> 00:22:25,696
I'm really sorry I...
436
00:22:25,766 --> 00:22:28,996
(sighs) showed up at your door tonight and...
437
00:22:29,066 --> 00:22:32,266
shouted all those insults at you.
438
00:22:33,533 --> 00:22:36,303
Well, we have time to work on that, too.
439
00:22:39,466 --> 00:22:41,066
See you next week.
440
00:22:46,100 --> 00:22:47,230
(sighs)
441
00:22:54,466 --> 00:22:55,766
(sighs)
442
00:23:00,100 --> 00:23:01,500
(wind blowing)
443
00:23:02,200 --> 00:23:03,530
(door shuts)
444
00:23:04,500 --> 00:23:06,400
Adam: I'm okay to enter now?
445
00:23:11,766 --> 00:23:14,066
-What was that? -(laughs)
446
00:23:15,300 --> 00:23:17,070
He is...
447
00:23:18,466 --> 00:23:19,566
I don't know.
448
00:23:21,366 --> 00:23:23,426
He's having a tough time.
449
00:23:23,500 --> 00:23:26,000
It didn't feel right to turn him away.
450
00:23:28,733 --> 00:23:31,203
Oh, he's drunk.
451
00:23:31,266 --> 00:23:33,126
Emotional.
452
00:23:34,700 --> 00:23:36,730
I wasn't asking why he was crying.
453
00:23:37,000 --> 00:23:39,200
I was asking why you spoke to me like that.
454
00:23:39,666 --> 00:23:41,526
Like what?
455
00:23:41,600 --> 00:23:43,130
Sending me off to my room?
456
00:23:44,200 --> 00:23:45,700
What are you talking about?
457
00:23:45,766 --> 00:23:47,996
I didn't want to mix...
458
00:23:49,333 --> 00:23:50,703
He's a mess.
459
00:23:50,766 --> 00:23:53,096
I figured you were strong enough to be asked
460
00:23:53,166 --> 00:23:56,126
to leave a room without it wounding your pride.
461
00:23:56,200 --> 00:23:58,000
Maybe I miscalculated.
462
00:23:58,066 --> 00:23:59,766
Wh-what was he doing here in the first place?
463
00:24:00,033 --> 00:24:02,573
He freaked out. He showed up.
464
00:24:02,633 --> 00:24:06,373
-Yeah, but why did he think it was okay to come here? -Adam.
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00:24:06,433 --> 00:24:08,633
I can tell you're about to say something stupid,
466
00:24:08,700 --> 00:24:10,730
-and I'd rather you didn't. -What did you do
467
00:24:11,000 --> 00:24:12,600
to make him think it was okay to come here?
468
00:24:12,666 --> 00:24:15,626
Or say the stupid thing. That's fine, too.
469
00:24:15,700 --> 00:24:18,130
-You-you fuckin' flirt with this guy? -(sighs)
470
00:24:18,200 --> 00:24:22,170
-You have a little playful rapport? -Oh, good lord.
471
00:24:23,766 --> 00:24:25,626
You made me look like an idiot.
472
00:24:25,700 --> 00:24:28,700
How did I make you look like an idiot?
473
00:24:28,766 --> 00:24:30,166
I didn't know he was coming here.
474
00:24:30,233 --> 00:24:31,703
I didn't know you were coming either!
475
00:24:31,766 --> 00:24:34,026
-You both just showed the fuck up. -Yeah,
476
00:24:34,100 --> 00:24:36,770
because I saw that you ran out of some things!
477
00:24:39,433 --> 00:24:41,633
I was just trying to do something nice.
478
00:24:45,600 --> 00:24:48,430
I know that you're invincible.
479
00:24:50,066 --> 00:24:52,696
That nothing I do affects you.
480
00:24:54,600 --> 00:24:56,400
You affect me.
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00:24:59,566 --> 00:25:01,396
You affect me.
482
00:25:06,000 --> 00:25:08,600
-Stupid. Let's just move on. -No, wait, Adam.
483
00:25:10,566 --> 00:25:14,026
I only flirt with you.
484
00:25:16,566 --> 00:25:18,196
No one else.
485
00:25:19,500 --> 00:25:20,600
And...
486
00:25:21,666 --> 00:25:24,296
I am happy you showed up here.
487
00:25:24,366 --> 00:25:26,566
-Yeah? -Yes.
488
00:25:31,533 --> 00:25:33,433
See? I'm telling you.
489
00:25:33,500 --> 00:25:36,400
This is why you need me around.
490
00:25:36,466 --> 00:25:39,326
-Strange men showing up at all hours. -Mm.
491
00:25:42,433 --> 00:25:44,003
Making your own drinks?
492
00:25:44,066 --> 00:25:46,266
You shouldn't be doing that. I mean, that's...
493
00:25:46,333 --> 00:25:48,133
-that's my job. -(laughs)
494
00:25:49,433 --> 00:25:51,273
-Alright? -Yeah.
495
00:25:57,366 --> 00:25:58,596
(sighs)
496
00:25:58,666 --> 00:26:02,096
("It'll All Be Over" by The Supreme Jubilees playing)
497
00:26:04,066 --> 00:26:07,326
♪ It'll all be over ♪
498
00:26:08,466 --> 00:26:11,226
♪ And we won't have to cry ♪
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00:26:11,300 --> 00:26:13,100
♪ No more ♪
500
00:26:14,166 --> 00:26:16,266
♪ And we won't have to cry ♪
501
00:26:16,333 --> 00:26:18,433
♪ No more ♪
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00:26:21,366 --> 00:26:24,196
♪ Sometimes, sometimes ♪
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00:26:27,100 --> 00:26:29,200
♪ The burden ♪
504
00:26:29,266 --> 00:26:32,566
♪ It gets so heavy ♪
505
00:26:32,633 --> 00:26:36,403
♪ But I wanna let you know this evening, yeah ♪
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00:26:36,466 --> 00:26:38,626
♪ I wanna let you know ♪
507
00:26:38,700 --> 00:26:42,130
♪ That if you can just hold on ♪
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00:26:43,666 --> 00:26:46,366
♪ Hold on a little while longer y'all ♪
509
00:26:47,566 --> 00:26:50,726
♪ 'Cause one of these old days, yeah ♪
510
00:26:51,000 --> 00:26:53,100
♪ One of these old days ♪
511
00:26:56,100 --> 00:26:59,200
♪ It'll all be over ♪
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00:27:02,000 --> 00:27:04,770
♪ It'll all be over ♪
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00:27:08,000 --> 00:27:11,100
♪ It'll all be over ♪
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00:27:12,000 --> 00:27:13,600
♪ Oh, and we won't ♪
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00:27:13,666 --> 00:27:16,226
♪ Have to cry no more ♪
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00:27:16,300 --> 00:27:18,370
♪ We ain't gonna cry no more, oh ho ♪
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00:27:18,433 --> 00:27:22,203
♪ We won't have to cry no more ♪
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♪ It's gonna be all over now, yeah ♪
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00:27:25,166 --> 00:27:28,266
♪ It'll all be over... ♪
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