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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:59,545 --> 00:01:04,545 Provided by explosiveskull https://twitter.com/kaboomskull 2 00:01:27,638 --> 00:01:29,171 Hey, Lola. 3 00:01:29,173 --> 00:01:32,241 Checking in from Idaho. 4 00:01:32,243 --> 00:01:35,677 Other than my right foot being one gigantic blister, I'm okay. 5 00:01:35,679 --> 00:01:39,181 I'll just have to fight through it. 6 00:01:39,183 --> 00:01:40,916 Fight it out, will it out. 7 00:01:40,918 --> 00:01:43,785 I'll call you again from Twin Falls, okay? 8 00:01:43,787 --> 00:01:46,155 I miss you. Hug Joseph for me. 9 00:02:02,239 --> 00:02:03,672 What the fuck? 10 00:02:03,674 --> 00:02:05,707 Fucking... You motherfucker! 11 00:02:05,709 --> 00:02:06,909 Hey, you all right? 12 00:02:06,911 --> 00:02:08,644 Yeah, I'm all right. 13 00:02:08,646 --> 00:02:10,746 See, that's why you need to do what Mom tells you to do. 14 00:02:10,748 --> 00:02:12,681 - Walk against the traffic. - What? 15 00:02:12,683 --> 00:02:14,583 You're 15, all right? I'm 45. 16 00:02:14,585 --> 00:02:16,418 You think I don't know what I'm doing out here? 17 00:02:16,420 --> 00:02:18,921 No I don't. That's why I'm with you. 18 00:02:26,864 --> 00:02:30,299 We... we have with us tonight Joe Bell, 19 00:02:30,301 --> 00:02:32,301 all the way from La Grande, Oregon. 20 00:02:32,303 --> 00:02:34,903 Joe's here to talk to us tonight about tolerance. 21 00:02:34,905 --> 00:02:36,538 Let's, uh, give him a round of applause. 22 00:02:42,379 --> 00:02:43,579 Uh... 23 00:02:44,882 --> 00:02:46,548 Good afternoon. Thanks for having me here. 24 00:02:46,550 --> 00:02:49,318 Uh... 25 00:02:49,320 --> 00:02:51,220 I jotted down a couple of things 26 00:02:51,222 --> 00:02:53,855 I want to chat with you guys about, um... 27 00:02:53,857 --> 00:02:56,458 You know, a lot of people don't think it's a big deal 28 00:02:56,460 --> 00:02:59,294 to make fun of other people... 29 00:03:00,497 --> 00:03:03,498 um, who are different from you. 30 00:03:03,500 --> 00:03:06,301 You know, bullying and intolerance 31 00:03:06,303 --> 00:03:08,370 can have a deadly effect. 32 00:03:08,372 --> 00:03:10,672 And I'm here because I'm walking across America 33 00:03:10,674 --> 00:03:12,341 on behalf of my son, Jadin, 34 00:03:12,343 --> 00:03:14,710 to speak out against bullying. 35 00:03:14,712 --> 00:03:17,479 All right? Now it's important... 36 00:03:17,481 --> 00:03:19,915 Is it okay if I take this? 37 00:03:19,917 --> 00:03:23,018 I don't want to break it. 38 00:03:23,020 --> 00:03:26,421 You know, it's important for people to understand, 39 00:03:26,423 --> 00:03:31,526 or understand how hurtful it is to harass and torment people 40 00:03:31,528 --> 00:03:35,464 who aren't the same as you. 41 00:03:35,466 --> 00:03:37,933 And that understanding begins at home 42 00:03:37,935 --> 00:03:39,868 with the parents and families. 43 00:03:39,870 --> 00:03:41,637 All right? 44 00:03:41,639 --> 00:03:43,672 Parents out there, just let your kids be who they are, 45 00:03:43,674 --> 00:03:45,440 and it'll all be fine. 46 00:03:45,442 --> 00:03:47,476 You tell them you love them no matter what, all right? 47 00:03:47,478 --> 00:03:48,810 Because that's what they need to know. 48 00:03:48,812 --> 00:03:50,279 All right? 49 00:03:50,281 --> 00:03:51,947 Anybody have any questions for me? 50 00:03:55,486 --> 00:03:57,019 No? 51 00:03:58,989 --> 00:04:01,723 Okay, well please follow me on Facebook 52 00:04:01,725 --> 00:04:04,459 and share my message with your friends. 53 00:04:04,461 --> 00:04:06,595 Thank you, guys. 54 00:04:08,499 --> 00:04:09,698 Thank you. 55 00:04:19,076 --> 00:04:20,776 Shit. Hey! 56 00:04:20,778 --> 00:04:23,011 Yeah? Why won't this thing work? 57 00:04:23,013 --> 00:04:25,514 Come on. 58 00:04:25,516 --> 00:04:26,782 You need any help? 59 00:04:26,784 --> 00:04:28,650 I'm done now. 60 00:04:28,652 --> 00:04:30,352 - I'm useless. - Get in, get in, get in. 61 00:04:32,456 --> 00:04:34,356 I'm laying here with you? 62 00:04:34,358 --> 00:04:36,958 Yeah. You're stuck with me. 63 00:04:36,960 --> 00:04:38,493 Get your feet off my pillow! 64 00:04:38,495 --> 00:04:40,696 Oh, shit! Whoa! 65 00:05:06,423 --> 00:05:08,590 What was that last night, huh? 66 00:05:08,592 --> 00:05:11,026 "Understanding begins at home"? 67 00:05:12,429 --> 00:05:14,796 Whose home? Not ours. 68 00:05:14,798 --> 00:05:16,098 That's the way it was. 69 00:05:16,100 --> 00:05:18,667 No, not for me it wasn't. 70 00:05:18,669 --> 00:05:21,803 "Just be who you are and it'll all be fine." 71 00:05:21,805 --> 00:05:24,539 How can you say that when you know it's a lie? 72 00:05:24,541 --> 00:05:26,842 Look at that resolution on this bad boy. 73 00:05:26,844 --> 00:05:28,677 - I see it. - Huh? 74 00:05:28,679 --> 00:05:30,746 - Big TV. - Oh, yeah. 75 00:05:30,748 --> 00:05:31,980 Hey, don't worry, 76 00:05:31,982 --> 00:05:33,915 the washing machine's coming next. 77 00:05:33,917 --> 00:05:35,917 Yeah, I'm not gonna hold my breath on that! 78 00:05:35,919 --> 00:05:38,787 - Hey, I'm getting one of these. - Don't hook up the VHS. 79 00:05:38,789 --> 00:05:40,422 We ain't gonna use that shit. 80 00:05:40,424 --> 00:05:41,857 Well, there's plenty of holes back there. 81 00:05:41,859 --> 00:05:43,558 - Hey. - What? 82 00:05:43,560 --> 00:05:44,793 Get out of the way, man. 83 00:05:44,795 --> 00:05:47,529 All right, what can I get anybody? 84 00:05:47,531 --> 00:05:48,897 - Hey, come on. Hey. - What? 85 00:05:48,899 --> 00:05:50,766 Sit with me for a few minutes and enjoy this. 86 00:05:50,768 --> 00:05:53,869 No, game time's in an hour. The food can wait, come on. 87 00:05:53,871 --> 00:05:56,772 Hey, Dad, can I talk to you for a minute? 88 00:05:56,774 --> 00:05:59,441 - What? - He needs to talk to you. 89 00:05:59,443 --> 00:06:01,777 - Honey, I'm talking to you. - Can I please talk to you just...? 90 00:06:01,779 --> 00:06:03,712 - Now? - Yes, now. 91 00:06:03,714 --> 00:06:06,615 You've got to be shitting me. All right, then, talk to me. 92 00:06:10,187 --> 00:06:13,155 Can we please talk outside or out back? 93 00:06:13,157 --> 00:06:16,525 You gotta be shitting me. Hey, don't touch the remote. 94 00:06:16,527 --> 00:06:17,726 All right. 95 00:06:19,997 --> 00:06:21,196 Well? 96 00:06:22,633 --> 00:06:24,533 - Well? - Can you just give me a second. 97 00:06:24,535 --> 00:06:26,001 That goddamn TV ain't gonna watch itself. 98 00:06:26,003 --> 00:06:27,702 Well, Mom already knows. 99 00:06:27,704 --> 00:06:30,939 Knows what? What? 100 00:06:30,941 --> 00:06:33,608 Knows that I'm getting picked on by these guys at school. 101 00:06:34,978 --> 00:06:36,178 Why is that? 102 00:06:39,783 --> 00:06:41,750 I don't know, because I'm not like them? 103 00:06:41,752 --> 00:06:43,785 It's gotta be more than that. That doesn't make sense. 104 00:06:43,787 --> 00:06:45,554 - Why aren't you like them? - Because I'm just... 105 00:06:45,556 --> 00:06:47,689 - I'm different. I'm just... - Because why? 106 00:06:47,691 --> 00:06:50,125 - Because I'm not like them. - That's not an answer, Jadin. 107 00:06:50,127 --> 00:06:52,027 - Doesn't make any sense. - Because I'm gay. 108 00:07:07,711 --> 00:07:09,711 You remember when I took you boys to the Y? 109 00:07:09,713 --> 00:07:11,480 Hmm? I put boxing gloves on you both 110 00:07:11,482 --> 00:07:12,914 and made you duke it out. 111 00:07:12,916 --> 00:07:14,850 You need to know how to clean anybody's clock. 112 00:07:14,852 --> 00:07:17,686 Anybody that messes with you. Didn't I teach you anything? 113 00:07:24,761 --> 00:07:26,595 I don't want to spend my high school 114 00:07:26,597 --> 00:07:28,630 duking it out with guys who just don't agree with me. 115 00:07:28,632 --> 00:07:30,165 I can fight someone one on one, 116 00:07:30,167 --> 00:07:32,000 but I can't fight an entire school. 117 00:07:32,002 --> 00:07:34,135 Well, if I got to go down there and kick the fuck 118 00:07:34,137 --> 00:07:35,937 out of them little sons of bitches, I will! 119 00:07:39,209 --> 00:07:41,877 You know what? We're gonna let nature take its course. 120 00:07:41,879 --> 00:07:43,678 All right? 121 00:07:43,680 --> 00:07:46,548 This isn't anybody else's business anyway, is it? 122 00:07:46,550 --> 00:07:48,550 Don't talk about it with the other kids. 123 00:07:48,552 --> 00:07:50,585 Or with other people. You mind your own damn business. 124 00:07:50,587 --> 00:07:52,020 It'll all be fine. It'll work itself out. 125 00:07:52,022 --> 00:07:53,588 Joe. 126 00:07:53,590 --> 00:07:55,123 - What? - It's not gonna work itself out. 127 00:07:55,125 --> 00:07:57,158 - What am I supposed to do? - Not talking about it 128 00:07:57,160 --> 00:07:59,060 - is not gonna help. - It's gonna be fine. 129 00:07:59,062 --> 00:08:01,630 - None of this is his fault. - I didn't say that it was. 130 00:08:01,632 --> 00:08:05,667 The only thing he needs to know is that his family loves him. 131 00:08:05,669 --> 00:08:07,903 - This family loves you. - You're stating the obvious here. 132 00:08:07,905 --> 00:08:10,138 It's not that obvious. You can say it too, you know. 133 00:08:11,775 --> 00:08:13,174 He knows I love him. 134 00:08:14,278 --> 00:08:16,611 I love you. You... 135 00:08:16,613 --> 00:08:18,613 You know that. 136 00:08:21,652 --> 00:08:22,851 Are we done here now? 137 00:08:38,669 --> 00:08:39,868 Here you go. 138 00:08:39,870 --> 00:08:41,803 You fucking with my settings? 139 00:08:41,805 --> 00:08:45,173 I was just trying to see if I could figure it out. 140 00:08:45,175 --> 00:08:47,075 Lola! 141 00:08:48,779 --> 00:08:50,345 I'm getting a beer. 142 00:09:01,692 --> 00:09:05,660 Hey, just don't get all bent out of shape about it, Joe. 143 00:09:05,662 --> 00:09:06,861 He's just a kid. 144 00:09:06,863 --> 00:09:08,229 What's that supposed to mean? 145 00:09:08,231 --> 00:09:10,832 I mean, so he's playing a little grab-ass, 146 00:09:10,834 --> 00:09:13,234 stirring up some trouble. It's not a big deal. 147 00:09:13,236 --> 00:09:15,003 What are you trying to say, this is a phase? 148 00:09:15,005 --> 00:09:17,038 The point is, I know what he's in for now, all right? 149 00:09:17,040 --> 00:09:19,207 I just don't want him out there damn near broadcasting it. 150 00:09:19,209 --> 00:09:21,876 - You know where we live. - I know. 151 00:09:21,878 --> 00:09:24,913 I'm just saying, kids are designed to drive you nuts. 152 00:09:24,915 --> 00:09:27,616 He might just grow out of it. 153 00:09:30,120 --> 00:09:32,954 Go, Cougars! 154 00:09:32,956 --> 00:09:35,323 Let's go, Cougars! 155 00:09:36,326 --> 00:09:39,628 Let's go, Cougars! 156 00:09:39,630 --> 00:09:42,631 What in the hell? Hey, Lola, come here. 157 00:09:43,667 --> 00:09:45,200 - What? - Come here! 158 00:09:45,202 --> 00:09:47,168 I'm coming. What is it? 159 00:09:47,170 --> 00:09:48,703 You tell me. What is this? 160 00:09:48,705 --> 00:09:51,172 What? He's practicing his cheers. 161 00:09:51,174 --> 00:09:53,408 He's just going to do his cheers out there in the front yard? 162 00:09:53,410 --> 00:09:55,143 We told him he could join the squad... 163 00:09:55,145 --> 00:09:56,811 But in the front yard? 164 00:09:56,813 --> 00:09:59,347 Let him be, Joe. It's his first game this week. 165 00:09:59,349 --> 00:10:01,349 - Why not? - Hell no, hell no. No, no, no. 166 00:10:01,351 --> 00:10:02,751 Joe... Joe. 167 00:10:02,753 --> 00:10:04,085 - Mm-hmm. - Joe. 168 00:10:04,087 --> 00:10:07,188 - Front yard. - Oh, for God's sakes. 169 00:10:07,190 --> 00:10:08,790 - Let's go, Cougars, let's go! - Hey, son? 170 00:10:08,792 --> 00:10:10,058 - Yeah? - Could you...? 171 00:10:10,060 --> 00:10:11,726 Would you mind practicing in the backyard? 172 00:10:11,728 --> 00:10:12,927 It's hard for me to hear the TV. 173 00:10:12,929 --> 00:10:14,129 What? 174 00:10:16,166 --> 00:10:17,399 You're out in front here yelling. 175 00:10:17,401 --> 00:10:19,234 And I can't hear the television. 176 00:10:19,236 --> 00:10:22,070 - Can you not just turn it up? - Don't tell me what to do. 177 00:10:22,072 --> 00:10:24,172 Your mother and I been supporting this cheerleading, 178 00:10:24,174 --> 00:10:25,807 but you need to practice in the backyard. 179 00:10:25,809 --> 00:10:27,142 What's his problem? 180 00:10:27,144 --> 00:10:28,777 Why can't we just practice in the front? 181 00:10:28,779 --> 00:10:30,211 Get your ass in the backyard now. 182 00:10:30,213 --> 00:10:31,713 Can't you ever just shut the fuck up 183 00:10:31,715 --> 00:10:33,048 and do what you're told? 184 00:10:33,050 --> 00:10:34,716 I thought my home life was unstable. 185 00:10:35,919 --> 00:10:37,952 Go ahead. Follow Marcie. 186 00:10:43,226 --> 00:10:45,326 You better tell Marcie to stop running her mouth, 187 00:10:45,328 --> 00:10:47,729 or I'm gonna put a foot in her ass. 188 00:10:47,731 --> 00:10:49,330 Oh, okay. 189 00:10:53,737 --> 00:10:56,304 Come here. Come sit with me. 190 00:10:56,306 --> 00:10:57,706 I'm doing my crossword. 191 00:11:50,894 --> 00:11:52,360 I'm going to try to be better. 192 00:11:57,801 --> 00:11:59,000 I love you. 193 00:12:01,471 --> 00:12:02,871 I love you too. 194 00:12:04,040 --> 00:12:05,240 I know. 195 00:12:14,184 --> 00:12:16,551 I got to give you credit, Dad. At least you're persistent. 196 00:12:16,553 --> 00:12:18,820 Well, I'm walking all this way 197 00:12:18,822 --> 00:12:21,089 because that's where you told us you wanted to live, remember? 198 00:12:21,091 --> 00:12:23,024 Oh, yeah. New York City. 199 00:12:23,026 --> 00:12:25,126 Yeah, your big dream. 200 00:12:25,128 --> 00:12:27,996 Mm-hmm. I mean, obviously. 201 00:12:27,998 --> 00:12:30,298 Why obviously? 202 00:12:30,300 --> 00:12:33,001 Why not? Think about it, if you were me, 203 00:12:33,003 --> 00:12:37,505 would you rather live in La Grande or New York City? 204 00:12:37,507 --> 00:12:40,175 Well, I bet you'll feel more comfortable in New York. 205 00:12:40,177 --> 00:12:42,010 Yeah. I'm sure you're right. That's the point. 206 00:12:42,012 --> 00:12:43,344 All right, well, just for the record, 207 00:12:43,346 --> 00:12:44,913 I happen to love La Grande. 208 00:12:44,915 --> 00:12:46,214 So, you know, why don't you just...? 209 00:12:46,216 --> 00:12:48,550 Okay, no, uh-uh. There's no comparison. 210 00:12:48,552 --> 00:12:50,819 - There's no comparison. - Well, I... 211 00:12:50,821 --> 00:12:53,521 Okay, what does La Grande have? 212 00:12:53,523 --> 00:12:56,124 Nothing. Exactly. What does New York have? 213 00:12:56,126 --> 00:12:58,860 It has every kind of food, 214 00:12:58,862 --> 00:13:01,529 every kind of people, every kind of pizza. 215 00:13:01,531 --> 00:13:03,231 We got pizza in La Grande. 216 00:13:03,233 --> 00:13:06,835 It's got skyscrapers and Broadway and... Stefani. 217 00:13:06,837 --> 00:13:08,102 I mean, hello? Stefani. 218 00:13:08,104 --> 00:13:09,571 Who's Stefani? 219 00:13:09,573 --> 00:13:11,906 Stefani Joanne Angelina Germanotta. 220 00:13:11,908 --> 00:13:15,109 What? Who is that? 221 00:13:15,111 --> 00:13:17,579 - Gaga, Dad. - Oh. 222 00:13:17,581 --> 00:13:19,180 Lady Gaga. 223 00:13:19,182 --> 00:13:21,482 - Yeah, yeah. - And, you know, of course... 224 00:13:21,484 --> 00:13:23,151 Of course she's proud of how she grew up. 225 00:13:23,153 --> 00:13:25,520 I mean, she grew up in New York. 226 00:13:25,522 --> 00:13:27,622 Only a New Yorker could write that song. 227 00:13:27,624 --> 00:13:29,090 Well, don't start. 228 00:13:29,092 --> 00:13:30,391 Oh, come on. You know you love it. 229 00:13:30,393 --> 00:13:31,626 Oh, Lord, please... 230 00:13:31,628 --> 00:13:34,629 ♪ My mama told me When I was young ♪ 231 00:13:34,631 --> 00:13:37,031 ♪ We're all born Superstars ♪ 232 00:13:37,033 --> 00:13:38,633 ♪ Da, da, da, da, da, da ♪ 233 00:13:38,635 --> 00:13:41,102 ♪ She rolled my hair And put my lipstick on ♪ 234 00:13:41,104 --> 00:13:43,638 ♪ In the glass of her boudoir ♪ 235 00:13:43,640 --> 00:13:46,608 ♪ She said there's nothing wrong With loving who you are ♪ 236 00:13:46,610 --> 00:13:48,943 ♪ She said, 'cause he made you Perfect, babe ♪ 237 00:13:50,647 --> 00:13:53,414 ♪ So keep your head up, girl And you'll go far ♪ 238 00:13:53,416 --> 00:13:55,984 ♪ Listen to me when I say ♪ 239 00:13:55,986 --> 00:13:57,285 ♪ You're beautiful in your way ♪ 240 00:13:57,287 --> 00:13:59,454 ♪ 'Cause God makes No mistakes ♪ 241 00:13:59,456 --> 00:14:02,323 ♪ I'm on the right track, baby I was born this way ♪ 242 00:14:04,394 --> 00:14:05,627 What? 243 00:14:05,629 --> 00:14:07,395 Well, don't look so surprised. 244 00:14:07,397 --> 00:14:09,430 Excuse me, I didn't know you knew the words. 245 00:14:09,432 --> 00:14:11,232 Well, you blast that shit so loud, 246 00:14:11,234 --> 00:14:12,901 you think I didn't pick up a thing or two? 247 00:14:12,903 --> 00:14:14,269 - Wow. Okay. - I'm one of them... 248 00:14:14,271 --> 00:14:16,170 What do you call it? "I'm a monster." 249 00:14:16,172 --> 00:14:17,438 - Okay. - "I'm a monster." 250 00:14:17,440 --> 00:14:19,040 - All right a little... - Yeah. Yeah. 251 00:14:19,042 --> 00:14:20,441 Excuse me, it's a little monster, 252 00:14:20,443 --> 00:14:22,277 - to be correct. - Little monster. 253 00:14:22,279 --> 00:14:24,445 Yeah, you know what? All right, even I'll admit it, okay? 254 00:14:24,447 --> 00:14:25,680 - It's a little catchy. - Yes, it is. 255 00:14:25,682 --> 00:14:27,448 Don't hide yourself in regret. 256 00:14:27,450 --> 00:14:29,350 Just love yourself and you're set. 257 00:14:29,352 --> 00:14:31,319 ♪ I'm on the right track, baby I was born this way ♪ 258 00:14:31,321 --> 00:14:32,921 - All right. - We're not doing that again. 259 00:14:32,923 --> 00:14:35,590 All right, now, sing me something I like. 260 00:14:35,592 --> 00:14:37,058 Give me a little Willie Nelson. 261 00:14:46,236 --> 00:14:48,937 Oh, man. Smells good. 262 00:14:56,279 --> 00:14:57,979 Hey. 263 00:14:57,981 --> 00:14:59,514 Well, if it ain't Grizzly Adams 264 00:14:59,516 --> 00:15:01,449 washed up on my doorstep. 265 00:15:03,053 --> 00:15:05,086 - Joe, is it? - Joe it is. 266 00:15:05,088 --> 00:15:08,256 Heard all about you, Joe. You're all over TV. 267 00:15:08,258 --> 00:15:11,459 You're in luck. We got the finest food in Utah. 268 00:15:11,461 --> 00:15:14,062 - Good, because I'm starving. - What'll it be? 269 00:15:14,064 --> 00:15:16,197 Uh, I'll have your special and a coffee. 270 00:15:16,199 --> 00:15:17,432 Be right back. 271 00:15:19,736 --> 00:15:21,402 ...same sex marriage... 272 00:15:21,404 --> 00:15:22,704 Oh, God. 273 00:15:22,706 --> 00:15:25,273 Fucking queens are everywhere now. 274 00:15:25,275 --> 00:15:28,142 Hey, sweetheart, can you turn that fairy shit off, please? 275 00:15:28,144 --> 00:15:30,178 There's ignorant folks everywhere. 276 00:15:32,148 --> 00:15:33,748 Don't you pay them no mind. 277 00:15:36,586 --> 00:15:37,986 Yeah. 278 00:15:41,191 --> 00:15:44,058 Hey, my name's Joe Bell. 279 00:15:44,060 --> 00:15:46,127 Overheard you talking over here. 280 00:15:46,129 --> 00:15:48,763 I'm on a walk for change for my son Jadin. 281 00:15:48,765 --> 00:15:50,264 And, uh... 282 00:15:50,266 --> 00:15:51,466 I'd like you to check out 283 00:15:51,468 --> 00:15:53,101 our message of inclusion. 284 00:15:53,103 --> 00:15:55,403 Appreciate it if you get a chance, thanks. 285 00:15:55,405 --> 00:15:57,005 I'll pass on the meal. 286 00:16:01,077 --> 00:16:03,378 I don't know what the fuck that's all about. 287 00:16:06,683 --> 00:16:09,684 - Dad. - Don't start your shit, Jadin. 288 00:16:11,654 --> 00:16:13,588 - Dad! - What? 289 00:16:13,590 --> 00:16:16,324 Giving them a card and running away isn't gonna change shit. 290 00:16:16,326 --> 00:16:18,359 I'm sorry, but it's not. 291 00:16:18,361 --> 00:16:19,794 I don't know if you realize this or not, 292 00:16:19,796 --> 00:16:21,195 but this is America, okay? 293 00:16:21,197 --> 00:16:22,463 And they're Americans. 294 00:16:22,465 --> 00:16:24,265 They are entitled to their own opinion. 295 00:16:24,267 --> 00:16:25,666 Okay, I'm starving my ass off, okay? 296 00:16:25,668 --> 00:16:27,301 I just wanted to finish my meal 297 00:16:27,303 --> 00:16:29,470 and get back on the road and on my walk. 298 00:16:29,472 --> 00:16:31,139 Which I am doing for you, remember? 299 00:16:31,141 --> 00:16:33,074 I mean, what else the hell... 300 00:16:33,076 --> 00:16:35,309 What else in the hell do you expect from me, for chrissakes? 301 00:16:35,311 --> 00:16:37,478 The people that come to your talks aren't the issue. 302 00:16:37,480 --> 00:16:39,113 They are. 303 00:16:39,115 --> 00:16:40,648 Really? 304 00:16:40,650 --> 00:16:42,784 - Guys like that and their kids. - That's the issue. 305 00:16:42,786 --> 00:16:44,652 I hate to break it to you, 306 00:16:44,654 --> 00:16:47,255 but we wouldn't be hauling our asses cross-country on foot 307 00:16:47,257 --> 00:16:49,791 if you'd actually done what I told you to in the first place. 308 00:16:49,793 --> 00:16:52,560 You told me to fight, which you didn't do. 309 00:16:52,562 --> 00:16:54,295 - And? - You're a hypocrite. 310 00:16:54,297 --> 00:16:56,197 - I'm the hypocrite? - Don't want to be a hypocrite, 311 00:16:56,199 --> 00:16:57,799 then go back in there and kick their asses. 312 00:16:57,801 --> 00:17:00,201 Oh, I'm sorry, give them another card and say bye. 313 00:17:33,403 --> 00:17:35,403 Yes, I agree. 314 00:17:35,405 --> 00:17:36,704 Very, very. 315 00:17:36,706 --> 00:17:38,406 Oh, who are we talking about? 316 00:17:55,425 --> 00:17:57,492 They're so loud. 317 00:17:57,494 --> 00:18:00,294 Oh, my gosh, he's so hot. 318 00:18:03,133 --> 00:18:04,599 Guys, guys, guys. 319 00:18:05,602 --> 00:18:06,801 Yeah. 320 00:18:20,250 --> 00:18:21,682 You guys want to come over? 321 00:18:21,684 --> 00:18:22,917 Jerk! 322 00:18:22,919 --> 00:18:24,619 First down, faggot! 323 00:18:24,621 --> 00:18:27,488 You guys are such assholes. 324 00:18:27,490 --> 00:18:28,823 Takes one to know one. 325 00:18:45,308 --> 00:18:46,741 Chug, chug! 326 00:19:00,857 --> 00:19:02,456 Get a drink. 327 00:19:03,760 --> 00:19:05,426 - I do. - Really? 328 00:19:26,816 --> 00:19:28,616 She has had so many drinks. 329 00:19:40,630 --> 00:19:42,330 Wanna smoke? 330 00:19:50,240 --> 00:19:52,006 - Go, go. - Right now? 331 00:19:52,008 --> 00:19:54,242 - Yes, go. Hurry. - Okay. 332 00:20:21,037 --> 00:20:22,470 I didn't know you smoked. 333 00:20:22,472 --> 00:20:24,939 Yeah, we're not supposed to. 334 00:20:26,976 --> 00:20:28,676 Don't tell coach, okay? 335 00:20:28,678 --> 00:20:30,878 Don't worry, your secret's safe with me. 336 00:20:39,589 --> 00:20:40,788 Is it? 337 00:20:45,028 --> 00:20:46,427 Yeah. 338 00:21:09,719 --> 00:21:11,519 You jerk, where are you taking me? 339 00:21:21,731 --> 00:21:23,397 You kissed a football player? 340 00:21:23,399 --> 00:21:25,533 Mm-hmm. 341 00:21:25,535 --> 00:21:28,869 Uh, no, technically he's a running back. 342 00:21:28,871 --> 00:21:30,538 What's that? 343 00:21:30,540 --> 00:21:33,674 I don't know, actually. 344 00:21:33,676 --> 00:21:36,110 This is, like, the stuff dreams are made of. 345 00:21:36,112 --> 00:21:37,545 I know. 346 00:21:37,547 --> 00:21:38,913 How was the kiss? 347 00:21:38,915 --> 00:21:40,514 Can we not talk about this right now? 348 00:21:40,516 --> 00:21:42,083 You wanna go to my room and talk about this? 349 00:21:42,085 --> 00:21:44,485 Yeah, I want to talk about this. I want to talk about this. 350 00:21:44,487 --> 00:21:46,887 - Warmer? - Okay, come on. 351 00:21:46,889 --> 00:21:50,958 Second and ten on the 45-yard line. 352 00:21:54,364 --> 00:21:56,664 Here we go, Cougars. Here we go. 353 00:22:00,036 --> 00:22:02,603 Let's go, Cougars! 354 00:22:05,508 --> 00:22:07,375 Let's go... 355 00:22:07,377 --> 00:22:09,009 Do a good job, Chance. Let's go. 356 00:22:09,011 --> 00:22:11,512 Come on, Chance! Go, number 5! 357 00:22:11,514 --> 00:22:13,481 Whoo! 358 00:22:15,952 --> 00:22:17,651 Whoo! 359 00:22:17,653 --> 00:22:19,987 Yeah! Whoo! 360 00:22:24,527 --> 00:22:27,661 Hey, Bell, did you forget your skirt? 361 00:22:29,165 --> 00:22:30,798 Whoo! 362 00:22:34,837 --> 00:22:36,404 Hey, ass bandit! 363 00:22:40,510 --> 00:22:41,742 Is that a boy down there? 364 00:22:41,744 --> 00:22:44,912 What the hell is the school thinking? 365 00:22:44,914 --> 00:22:46,113 Hike! 366 00:23:00,029 --> 00:23:01,662 Touchdown, Cougars! 367 00:23:15,077 --> 00:23:17,178 A 30-yard pass to number 40... 368 00:23:17,180 --> 00:23:19,914 Let's go, Cougars! 369 00:23:19,916 --> 00:23:22,216 Let's go, Cougars! 370 00:23:23,486 --> 00:23:26,020 - Let's go, Cougars! - Whoo! 371 00:24:03,960 --> 00:24:05,993 I saw what they said about you. 372 00:24:08,197 --> 00:24:10,130 Doesn't it bother you what people say? 373 00:24:13,769 --> 00:24:15,069 Words can't hurt me. 374 00:24:16,906 --> 00:24:20,174 I'm tougher than I look, okay? 375 00:24:40,096 --> 00:24:41,662 Look at these mountains. 376 00:24:41,664 --> 00:24:42,863 They're so steep. 377 00:24:42,865 --> 00:24:44,131 Yeah. 378 00:24:44,133 --> 00:24:46,901 If we had more time, we'd hike them. 379 00:24:46,903 --> 00:24:48,569 You can see why I always wanted you 380 00:24:48,571 --> 00:24:50,204 to go hunting and fishing with me. 381 00:24:50,206 --> 00:24:52,773 Take you up there and get you away from everything down below. 382 00:24:52,775 --> 00:24:54,308 Yeah, real macho stuff. 383 00:24:54,310 --> 00:24:56,243 I was just trying to be a decent parent. 384 00:24:56,245 --> 00:24:57,845 I mean, I thought being out in the wild 385 00:24:57,847 --> 00:24:59,046 would help you be a man. 386 00:25:00,883 --> 00:25:03,050 What does that mean to you, "be a man"? I'm just curious. 387 00:25:03,052 --> 00:25:05,185 I did the same thing for Joseph for the same reason, 388 00:25:05,187 --> 00:25:06,820 and he's not gay. 389 00:25:06,822 --> 00:25:09,223 It didn't matter to you what I was okay with, 390 00:25:09,225 --> 00:25:11,625 especially after you started your cheerleading thing. 391 00:25:11,627 --> 00:25:13,928 I mean, Dad, some men like cheerleading 392 00:25:13,930 --> 00:25:15,296 and some men like hiking. 393 00:25:15,298 --> 00:25:16,897 And I think if we're... 394 00:25:16,899 --> 00:25:18,766 I don't know, if we're being honest, 395 00:25:18,768 --> 00:25:21,569 you were never really okay with me cheerleading, were you? 396 00:25:21,571 --> 00:25:22,770 No, if we're being honest, 397 00:25:22,772 --> 00:25:24,071 if you thought you could handle it, 398 00:25:24,073 --> 00:25:25,272 I knew different. 399 00:25:27,577 --> 00:25:31,045 I mean, you saw me cheer, like, once? 400 00:25:31,047 --> 00:25:34,214 - The one time you did, you left. - What? 401 00:25:34,216 --> 00:25:36,250 People were calling me names and throwing stuff at me, 402 00:25:36,252 --> 00:25:38,085 - and you got up and left. - I was afraid for you. 403 00:25:38,087 --> 00:25:40,688 We were all afraid for you. 404 00:25:54,604 --> 00:25:57,972 Well, I worked two shifts today. 405 00:26:00,076 --> 00:26:04,345 And then I came home to do some laundry, 406 00:26:04,347 --> 00:26:07,748 and the laundry machine finally just fucking died. 407 00:26:09,085 --> 00:26:10,651 But with a whole load of clothes in, 408 00:26:10,653 --> 00:26:12,286 it wouldn't drain. 409 00:26:12,288 --> 00:26:15,089 I mean, it was... it was such a mess. 410 00:26:15,091 --> 00:26:16,690 Well, I'm sorry about all that, 411 00:26:16,692 --> 00:26:18,892 but there's not much I can do from out here. 412 00:26:22,164 --> 00:26:23,964 There's really not much you could do 413 00:26:23,966 --> 00:26:26,367 if you were standing right in front of me. 414 00:26:29,372 --> 00:26:30,771 I'm right about that. 415 00:26:31,841 --> 00:26:34,341 You know you should just call us 416 00:26:34,343 --> 00:26:38,846 at the same time every week, you know? 417 00:26:38,848 --> 00:26:42,750 Just set it so we know that we're gonna hear from you. 418 00:26:42,752 --> 00:26:45,319 Look, Lola... 419 00:26:45,321 --> 00:26:47,321 I'm afraid for Joseph with you drinking again. 420 00:26:47,323 --> 00:26:50,290 I mean, I want to trust things are okay while I'm gone, 421 00:26:50,292 --> 00:26:52,393 but you're damn near slurring every other word. 422 00:26:52,395 --> 00:26:54,862 - Joseph doesn't need to see that. - Wait, what? Wait. 423 00:26:54,864 --> 00:26:56,397 What is... What is... What is so difficult 424 00:26:56,399 --> 00:26:57,831 about what I just asked? 425 00:26:57,833 --> 00:26:59,133 Well, I know that you drink a lot, 426 00:26:59,135 --> 00:27:00,968 and so does Marcie and Joseph. 427 00:27:00,970 --> 00:27:02,703 Can't you just stop with one damn drink? 428 00:27:02,705 --> 00:27:04,171 What, you gotta have five or ten of them? 429 00:27:04,173 --> 00:27:07,074 Joe, you're not here. 430 00:27:07,076 --> 00:27:10,244 You have no idea what's going on. 431 00:27:10,246 --> 00:27:12,079 No idea. 432 00:27:17,687 --> 00:27:19,420 So, what are you gonna do? You gonna go to bed? 433 00:27:19,422 --> 00:27:21,221 Oh, no, I dipped into our retirement savings 434 00:27:21,223 --> 00:27:22,890 so I could splurge on a presidential suite 435 00:27:22,892 --> 00:27:24,091 at the Bear River Inn. 436 00:27:30,232 --> 00:27:32,232 Right. 437 00:27:32,234 --> 00:27:34,968 Well, love you. 438 00:27:34,970 --> 00:27:36,170 I love you. 439 00:27:47,016 --> 00:27:49,983 Hey. Hey. 440 00:27:49,985 --> 00:27:51,185 - What? - Come here. 441 00:27:51,187 --> 00:27:52,720 - What? - It's gold! 442 00:27:52,722 --> 00:27:54,321 Gold, baby! 443 00:27:54,323 --> 00:27:56,056 - What? - Whoo! 444 00:27:56,058 --> 00:27:59,126 Green gold, baby. Look at these bad boys. 445 00:27:59,128 --> 00:28:01,261 Look at the size of them. Huh? 446 00:28:01,263 --> 00:28:03,130 - Is that asparagus? - Oh, man. 447 00:28:03,132 --> 00:28:05,399 I'm gonna grill them up on the fire, you are gonna love it. 448 00:28:05,401 --> 00:28:07,067 Ain't nothing better than wild asparagus. 449 00:28:07,069 --> 00:28:08,969 - Oh, that smells so good. - Oh, yeah. 450 00:28:08,971 --> 00:28:10,504 That's the real deal right there, baby. 451 00:28:10,506 --> 00:28:13,307 - Yeah, man. - This is green gold. Whoo! 452 00:28:22,918 --> 00:28:24,318 Nothing better. 453 00:28:24,320 --> 00:28:26,220 Right out of the ground. Taste that. 454 00:28:30,459 --> 00:28:32,226 That's so good. 455 00:28:32,228 --> 00:28:33,861 Give me more of that. You're hogging it. 456 00:28:33,863 --> 00:28:35,195 I haven't had a bite yet. 457 00:28:35,197 --> 00:28:36,964 What the heck? 458 00:28:36,966 --> 00:28:38,799 - Here, get one. - Just make sure it's cooked. 459 00:28:38,801 --> 00:28:40,100 I don't want you eating nothing raw. 460 00:28:44,006 --> 00:28:47,141 You know, this is the one thing you can cook. 461 00:28:56,218 --> 00:28:58,318 Did you ever wish that I wrestled? 462 00:28:58,320 --> 00:29:00,888 No. You didn't want to wrestle, you didn't have to wrestle. 463 00:29:02,191 --> 00:29:04,224 Joseph's gotten really good. 464 00:29:04,226 --> 00:29:06,093 - You know why's good at it? - Why? 465 00:29:06,095 --> 00:29:07,528 Because he works hard at it. 466 00:29:07,530 --> 00:29:09,396 You put the time in... 467 00:29:10,833 --> 00:29:13,467 you get good at whatever you work hard at. 468 00:29:13,469 --> 00:29:15,002 That's all about sacrifice. 469 00:29:19,041 --> 00:29:20,507 Trying to get this one big one here. 470 00:29:32,354 --> 00:29:34,188 Whoo! 471 00:29:34,190 --> 00:29:35,923 Yeah, buddy! 472 00:29:40,896 --> 00:29:42,930 Let's go, Cougars, let's go! 473 00:29:42,932 --> 00:29:46,867 Let's go, Cougars, let's go! Come on! 474 00:29:46,869 --> 00:29:49,303 Come on. Come out here. It feels great. 475 00:29:49,305 --> 00:29:51,471 Let's go, Cougars, let's go! Argh. 476 00:29:52,541 --> 00:29:54,141 I will keep you up all night. 477 00:29:54,143 --> 00:29:56,310 Let's go, Cougars! Let's go! 478 00:29:56,312 --> 00:29:59,880 Let's go, grandpa. Come on. 479 00:29:59,882 --> 00:30:02,115 Let's go, Cougars! Let's go!! Argh! 480 00:30:02,117 --> 00:30:03,884 - All right, show me again. - All right, ready? 481 00:30:03,886 --> 00:30:05,419 - Yeah. - Watch. 482 00:30:05,421 --> 00:30:07,487 Let's go, Cougars, let's go! 483 00:30:07,489 --> 00:30:09,289 - Argh! - Argh! 484 00:30:17,533 --> 00:30:19,266 Whoo! 485 00:30:39,955 --> 00:30:42,189 How many yards did you rush for in last night's game? 486 00:30:42,191 --> 00:30:43,390 Uh... 487 00:30:43,392 --> 00:30:45,259 158. 488 00:30:50,132 --> 00:30:52,900 Is that a lot, or...? 489 00:30:56,205 --> 00:30:59,039 If you don't know, why are you asking? 490 00:30:59,041 --> 00:31:01,141 I want to know about your game. 491 00:31:02,945 --> 00:31:05,913 Um... yeah. 492 00:31:05,915 --> 00:31:08,215 Yeah, I mean, 158's pretty good. 493 00:31:08,217 --> 00:31:11,118 Um, it's below my average, though, but... 494 00:31:12,655 --> 00:31:15,923 you know, I don't need to be a star or anything. 495 00:31:15,925 --> 00:31:17,925 I just want to get into a small program 496 00:31:17,927 --> 00:31:19,326 and play football somewhere. 497 00:31:23,098 --> 00:31:25,132 Like where? 498 00:31:25,134 --> 00:31:26,566 Um... 499 00:31:26,568 --> 00:31:28,936 well, I'm not really, you know, 500 00:31:28,938 --> 00:31:30,637 D-1 material. 501 00:31:30,639 --> 00:31:33,040 But I don't know. 502 00:31:33,042 --> 00:31:35,275 Like Portland State, maybe? 503 00:31:35,277 --> 00:31:36,643 Maybe Eastern Washington. 504 00:31:40,382 --> 00:31:44,451 That's a long way away from where I'll be. 505 00:31:44,453 --> 00:31:46,987 Hmm. And where's that? 506 00:31:46,989 --> 00:31:48,188 New York. 507 00:31:50,726 --> 00:31:52,659 You know there's a lot of colleges in New York. 508 00:31:57,733 --> 00:31:59,433 And if you wanted to... 509 00:32:01,337 --> 00:32:02,536 I don't know, go east... 510 00:32:06,041 --> 00:32:08,041 we could go together. 511 00:32:08,043 --> 00:32:09,643 Or something. 512 00:32:16,352 --> 00:32:18,352 I don't know, Jadin. That's aiming pretty high. 513 00:32:24,626 --> 00:32:26,159 He, uh... 514 00:32:27,162 --> 00:32:28,428 he got freaked out. 515 00:32:31,433 --> 00:32:33,133 He was afraid that he'd get kicked out 516 00:32:33,135 --> 00:32:35,335 if his moron parents knew. 517 00:32:40,542 --> 00:32:42,743 Romantic relationships aren't everything, Jadin. 518 00:32:42,745 --> 00:32:45,212 They're not the solution to life. 519 00:32:45,214 --> 00:32:47,647 It was the solution to my life. 520 00:32:47,649 --> 00:32:50,617 My life, Dad. Not yours. Mine. 521 00:33:28,724 --> 00:33:30,123 Nervous, huh? 522 00:33:30,125 --> 00:33:32,759 No. Why would I be nervous? 523 00:33:32,761 --> 00:33:34,594 What if somebody hits on you? 524 00:33:34,596 --> 00:33:36,296 Nobody's gonna hit on me. 525 00:33:36,298 --> 00:33:38,765 It's a gay bar, Dad. 526 00:33:38,767 --> 00:33:40,667 - Somebody's gonna hit on you. - How would you know? 527 00:33:40,669 --> 00:33:42,202 - Ever been to a gay bar? - No, but... 528 00:33:42,204 --> 00:33:43,670 - Have you ever been to a bar? - No. 529 00:33:43,672 --> 00:33:45,072 Okay, then. 530 00:33:45,074 --> 00:33:46,440 Also, it's drag night, 531 00:33:46,442 --> 00:33:47,641 so you better dance. 532 00:33:47,643 --> 00:33:49,342 I don't dance. 533 00:33:49,344 --> 00:33:52,312 I cannot wait to see my dad, the magnificent Joe Bell, 534 00:33:52,314 --> 00:33:54,347 working it with some fierce lady queens. 535 00:33:54,349 --> 00:33:56,249 That's not gonna happen. You're staying here. 536 00:33:56,251 --> 00:33:57,751 Okay, well, at least say hi to Cher for me. 537 00:33:57,753 --> 00:33:59,586 - Cher? - Mm-hmm. There's always a Cher. 538 00:33:59,588 --> 00:34:01,188 - It's a given. - How would you know? 539 00:34:01,190 --> 00:34:03,290 Because. It's a given. 540 00:34:03,292 --> 00:34:05,292 And if she flirts with you, try not to be mean. 541 00:34:05,294 --> 00:34:06,827 Why would I be mean? 542 00:34:06,829 --> 00:34:08,695 I mean, who the hell do you think I am? 543 00:34:08,697 --> 00:34:10,197 Would you flirt back? 544 00:34:10,199 --> 00:34:11,698 - No, I would not, Jadin. - Why not? 545 00:34:11,700 --> 00:34:14,101 - Because. - Because why? 546 00:34:14,103 --> 00:34:16,103 Because Cher's not my type. 547 00:34:16,105 --> 00:34:17,838 - Now, if Dolly's there... - No. 548 00:34:17,840 --> 00:34:20,173 ...I'm gonna motorboat them big-ass titties. 549 00:34:21,844 --> 00:34:24,277 You are disgusting. 550 00:34:25,848 --> 00:34:28,515 - Dad... - What? 551 00:34:28,517 --> 00:34:31,151 Relax. You got this. 552 00:34:32,354 --> 00:34:34,321 You know that's my job. 553 00:34:34,323 --> 00:34:35,622 To reassure you. 554 00:34:37,459 --> 00:34:39,159 Yeah, I wish I could go with you. 555 00:34:39,161 --> 00:34:40,627 Yeah, well, so do I. 556 00:34:44,266 --> 00:34:45,732 Well, wish me luck. 557 00:34:45,734 --> 00:34:47,567 - Good luck. - Give me a hug. 558 00:34:47,569 --> 00:34:48,768 All right. 559 00:34:56,178 --> 00:34:58,378 How do I look? 560 00:34:58,380 --> 00:34:59,880 Pants tight enough but not too tight? 561 00:34:59,882 --> 00:35:02,215 - Oh, God, Dad! - I'm gonna keep the flaps down. 562 00:35:02,217 --> 00:35:04,284 Stop buying the time. Get out of here. 563 00:35:04,286 --> 00:35:05,485 - Go. Good luck. - Bye. 564 00:35:05,487 --> 00:35:06,686 Bye. 565 00:35:33,215 --> 00:35:35,849 Our folks are deeply religious. 566 00:35:35,851 --> 00:35:39,252 I was 15, and I was a deacon at our church. 567 00:35:39,254 --> 00:35:41,888 I was sitting at church with my family, 568 00:35:41,890 --> 00:35:45,325 and the sermon that day was on sins against God. 569 00:35:45,327 --> 00:35:49,429 And when he said, "gays are going to hell," 570 00:35:49,431 --> 00:35:52,199 I couldn't take it anymore. 571 00:35:52,201 --> 00:35:55,635 I got up and I-I-I went to leave, 572 00:35:55,637 --> 00:35:57,804 and my mom stopped me and she said, "Where are you going?" 573 00:35:57,806 --> 00:36:00,407 And I turned and I said "To hell, apparently." 574 00:36:04,413 --> 00:36:06,413 - It's seems funny now, but... - It was funny. 575 00:36:08,250 --> 00:36:10,984 At the time it was like an avalanche had hit. 576 00:36:10,986 --> 00:36:14,588 My entire life was hell. 577 00:36:16,792 --> 00:36:19,659 It's hard to stand strong 578 00:36:19,661 --> 00:36:23,230 in places where there are more churches than there are gays. 579 00:36:23,232 --> 00:36:25,565 Churches, man. Don't even get me started. 580 00:36:25,567 --> 00:36:27,734 Jadin went to church with a friend of his one Sunday. 581 00:36:27,736 --> 00:36:29,469 I mean, he was hoping he'd make some friends 582 00:36:29,471 --> 00:36:31,304 and find a place where people would be kind. 583 00:36:31,306 --> 00:36:33,506 During the service, the pastor singled him out and said, 584 00:36:33,508 --> 00:36:35,809 "If you are gay, you must come up here to the altar 585 00:36:35,811 --> 00:36:38,478 and repent your sins, or leave." 586 00:36:38,480 --> 00:36:41,248 Jaden told us it made him feel horrible, like he didn't belong. 587 00:36:41,250 --> 00:36:43,617 You got them Catholic Church taking child molesting priests, 588 00:36:43,619 --> 00:36:45,552 they move them from one church to another 589 00:36:45,554 --> 00:36:47,754 so they can molest other boys, and they won't accept my son 590 00:36:47,756 --> 00:36:49,623 because he's openly gay? I mean, the idea is 591 00:36:49,625 --> 00:36:52,859 you're supposed to worship the guy who died to build it, 592 00:36:52,861 --> 00:36:54,761 not the frigging assholes in there 593 00:36:54,763 --> 00:36:56,630 that are judging everybody doing God knows what 594 00:36:56,632 --> 00:36:58,865 - behind closed doors. - It's true. 595 00:37:00,469 --> 00:37:02,502 People think it's easier these days. 596 00:37:02,504 --> 00:37:05,272 But everyone in this bar knows that's not necessarily true. 597 00:37:05,274 --> 00:37:07,340 That's why they come here. 598 00:37:07,342 --> 00:37:10,510 This place is like a church too. 599 00:37:10,512 --> 00:37:11,978 I think it's amazing. 600 00:37:11,980 --> 00:37:13,613 Hi, darlings. 601 00:37:13,615 --> 00:37:15,315 It's almost showtime again. 602 00:37:15,317 --> 00:37:17,617 Oh, my God, who is this? 603 00:37:17,619 --> 00:37:19,819 Don't make me introduce myself. 604 00:37:19,821 --> 00:37:21,921 This is Joe Bell. 605 00:37:21,923 --> 00:37:24,924 Where have you been all my life? 606 00:37:26,428 --> 00:37:27,694 - He's just visiting. - Oh, perfect. 607 00:37:27,696 --> 00:37:29,629 Well, if you need a place to crash, 608 00:37:29,631 --> 00:37:31,364 there's room on my couch. 609 00:37:31,366 --> 00:37:33,733 Or my bed. 610 00:37:33,735 --> 00:37:36,036 Oh, I'm, uh... 611 00:37:36,038 --> 00:37:37,771 I'm... I'm... Well... 612 00:37:37,773 --> 00:37:41,408 I'm not... I mean, I am a straight guy. 613 00:37:41,410 --> 00:37:42,942 I didn't know if you were serious or not. 614 00:37:42,944 --> 00:37:45,045 Joe's walking across the country to raise awareness 615 00:37:45,047 --> 00:37:48,481 about bullying, because his son was bullied. 616 00:37:48,483 --> 00:37:50,317 Well, why didn't you bring him? 617 00:37:50,319 --> 00:37:52,919 Especially if he's as cute as you are. 618 00:37:52,921 --> 00:37:55,622 Is he as cute as you, Daddy? 619 00:37:58,327 --> 00:38:00,960 Um... my son is dead. 620 00:38:04,966 --> 00:38:06,366 Oh, my God. 621 00:38:06,368 --> 00:38:08,468 Oh, my God, I had no idea. 622 00:38:08,470 --> 00:38:10,570 - I'm... I'm so sorry. - It's all good. Really. 623 00:38:10,572 --> 00:38:12,605 Let me take my foot out of my mouth. 624 00:38:12,607 --> 00:38:13,873 - I'm so sorry, I... - No, no, no, I... 625 00:38:13,875 --> 00:38:15,608 - I had no idea. - It's all good. 626 00:38:15,610 --> 00:38:17,544 No, it's... It's not. 627 00:38:17,546 --> 00:38:20,814 I really didn't know, and now I've got to perform again. 628 00:38:20,816 --> 00:38:22,782 - Hey, hey. I'm okay. - I'm so sorry. 629 00:38:26,421 --> 00:38:29,122 Honey, I'm gonna grab you another beer. 630 00:40:48,964 --> 00:40:50,730 Hey, honey. 631 00:40:50,732 --> 00:40:53,266 You in Steamboat Springs? 632 00:40:53,268 --> 00:40:55,668 Oh, my GPS must be working again. 633 00:40:57,172 --> 00:40:59,506 It's been a hell of a walk through Colorado. 634 00:40:59,508 --> 00:41:02,675 You gotta call us, you know, 635 00:41:02,677 --> 00:41:04,777 when you're going through all those storms. 636 00:41:04,779 --> 00:41:07,146 - It's crazy. - What, are you worried? 637 00:41:07,148 --> 00:41:09,115 Well, don't be. That storm went way south of me. 638 00:41:09,117 --> 00:41:10,750 I only caught the tail end of it. 639 00:41:10,752 --> 00:41:13,987 Yeah, well, still just call us. 640 00:41:13,989 --> 00:41:16,055 - Okay. - Hey, hold on a second. 641 00:41:18,093 --> 00:41:19,893 - Hey, Dad. - Hey, buddy. 642 00:41:19,895 --> 00:41:21,861 See you got 12,000 followers. 643 00:41:21,863 --> 00:41:23,229 How's the man of the house? 644 00:41:23,231 --> 00:41:25,198 Good. You know we're good. 645 00:41:25,200 --> 00:41:27,567 Wrestling practice is really good. 646 00:41:27,569 --> 00:41:30,270 - Coach filmed a few of them. - Well, I can't wait to see them. 647 00:41:30,272 --> 00:41:32,705 Yeah, hey, Dad, 648 00:41:32,707 --> 00:41:36,242 what would you think about me and Mom coming to visit you? 649 00:41:36,244 --> 00:41:38,611 Out on the road. I mean, not on the road, 650 00:41:38,613 --> 00:41:42,682 but maybe in a motel or a hotel, even? 651 00:41:42,684 --> 00:41:45,318 Well, I can't think of anything I'd like better. 652 00:41:45,320 --> 00:41:47,554 Your mom okay with it? 653 00:41:47,556 --> 00:41:49,722 Mom? Yeah. She's okay with it. 654 00:41:49,724 --> 00:41:50,957 All right. 655 00:41:50,959 --> 00:41:52,725 Let me talk to your mom. 656 00:41:52,727 --> 00:41:53,927 Oh, shit. 657 00:41:59,200 --> 00:42:01,134 Okay, give me the phone back. 658 00:42:01,136 --> 00:42:02,835 You coming to see me? 659 00:42:02,837 --> 00:42:04,704 All right, yeah, we'll talk about it. 660 00:42:04,706 --> 00:42:07,674 All right. Hurry. 661 00:42:07,676 --> 00:42:09,175 All right. Love you, bye. 662 00:42:15,717 --> 00:42:17,684 Oh, shit. 663 00:42:22,023 --> 00:42:23,756 Well, it's starting to snow. 664 00:42:23,758 --> 00:42:25,725 Maybe we could, uh, 665 00:42:25,727 --> 00:42:27,126 get out and do some snowboarding later. 666 00:42:27,128 --> 00:42:28,328 There he is. 667 00:42:32,767 --> 00:42:34,734 - Hey, hey! - Hey, Dad. 668 00:42:34,736 --> 00:42:36,869 My God, son, it's only been a few months. 669 00:42:36,871 --> 00:42:38,338 You're as tall as me Missed you, buddy. 670 00:42:38,340 --> 00:42:40,139 - I missed you too, Dad. - Hey. 671 00:42:40,141 --> 00:42:42,308 Hi. Saw you spit that dip out. 672 00:42:42,310 --> 00:42:44,210 Oh, no, that's just for walking. 673 00:42:44,212 --> 00:42:46,346 - Mm-hmm. - You smell so good. 674 00:42:47,849 --> 00:42:49,983 - How are you doing? - So I, uh... 675 00:42:49,985 --> 00:42:52,352 - I brought my wrestling tapes. - Good. We'll watch them tonight. 676 00:42:52,354 --> 00:42:54,621 I've booked us a surprise adventure for the afternoon. 677 00:42:54,623 --> 00:42:56,089 - We have 15 minutes. - Oh, all right. 678 00:42:56,091 --> 00:42:57,824 - Is it snowboarding? - No, no, no. 679 00:42:57,826 --> 00:43:00,126 You're gonna love it, I promise. All right? 680 00:43:00,128 --> 00:43:01,794 - All right, I got this. - How was the drive? 681 00:43:01,796 --> 00:43:03,062 - Not bad. - Oh, good. 682 00:43:03,064 --> 00:43:04,330 Come on. 683 00:44:05,126 --> 00:44:07,260 I gotta take you on a mechanical bull so you can practice. 684 00:44:07,262 --> 00:44:09,162 I'm telling you, I think you can beat the record. 685 00:44:12,067 --> 00:44:13,466 Excuse me. 686 00:44:13,468 --> 00:44:15,368 Excuse me, aren't...? 687 00:44:15,370 --> 00:44:17,336 aren't you that fella that's walking across America? 688 00:44:17,338 --> 00:44:18,738 I am. 689 00:44:18,740 --> 00:44:20,073 Sir, it is a pleasure to meet you. 690 00:44:20,075 --> 00:44:22,008 - Dad's a celebrity. - This is my wife. 691 00:44:22,010 --> 00:44:24,811 So nice to meet you. 692 00:44:24,813 --> 00:44:27,280 Hi, I'm... I'm his wife. 693 00:44:27,282 --> 00:44:28,948 - And Jadin's mom. - Nice to meet you. 694 00:44:28,950 --> 00:44:31,284 - And this is our son, Joseph. - Hi, I'm Joseph. 695 00:44:31,286 --> 00:44:33,786 - Hi, Joseph. - I think it's incredible 696 00:44:33,788 --> 00:44:36,255 - what you're doing for your son. - Yes. 697 00:44:36,257 --> 00:44:38,491 Takes real courage to stick up for what you believe in. 698 00:44:38,493 --> 00:44:40,860 Well, it's got to be done. This can't go on. 699 00:44:40,862 --> 00:44:42,462 - Yes. - Would you mind 700 00:44:42,464 --> 00:44:44,430 if we got our picture with you? 701 00:44:44,432 --> 00:44:47,767 - Sure. Absolutely. - Yes. Thank you. 702 00:44:47,769 --> 00:44:49,202 Honey, take the picture. 703 00:44:49,204 --> 00:44:51,204 Oh. Okay. 704 00:44:51,206 --> 00:44:52,772 - Thank you. - Thank you. 705 00:44:56,845 --> 00:44:59,011 - That's real good work. - I'm getting faster. 706 00:44:59,013 --> 00:45:00,813 You see how much leverage you got on him? 707 00:45:00,815 --> 00:45:02,014 He ain't going nowhere. 708 00:45:02,016 --> 00:45:03,983 That's good. 709 00:45:03,985 --> 00:45:05,485 That's real good. 710 00:45:07,989 --> 00:45:11,023 - You seen this? - Yeah. 711 00:45:11,025 --> 00:45:12,325 I was there when it happened. 712 00:45:12,327 --> 00:45:13,926 He's got some pretty decent takedowns, 713 00:45:13,928 --> 00:45:15,461 but these transitions are a lot more fluid. 714 00:45:15,463 --> 00:45:16,896 What's coach saying? 715 00:45:16,898 --> 00:45:18,397 Coach is saying I'm doing good. 716 00:45:18,399 --> 00:45:20,233 - You know, he's... - Well, I'm seeing right here. 717 00:45:20,235 --> 00:45:22,969 We've been working out, but he says I might want 718 00:45:22,971 --> 00:45:24,804 to look into losing a few pounds. 719 00:45:24,806 --> 00:45:27,507 What? This boy's just growing. No, no, no, no, no. 720 00:45:27,509 --> 00:45:30,309 You go up a couple pounds. Go up another weight class. 721 00:45:30,311 --> 00:45:32,278 - Brush your teeth. - Tell the coach what I said. 722 00:45:32,280 --> 00:45:33,813 - All right. - Make sure you tell coach. 723 00:45:33,815 --> 00:45:35,214 We got an early morning tomorrow, okay? 724 00:45:35,216 --> 00:45:36,816 - Okay. - Hey, hey, hey, hey. 725 00:45:36,818 --> 00:45:38,551 "Hey, hey, hey." 726 00:45:38,553 --> 00:45:41,287 Get him to bed so I can get you to bed. 727 00:45:41,289 --> 00:45:43,089 I'm trying. You wanna help me? 728 00:45:43,091 --> 00:45:44,991 I'm just... 729 00:45:44,993 --> 00:45:46,893 I can't believe how much he's improved. 730 00:45:46,895 --> 00:45:48,094 I know. Isn't it great? 731 00:45:51,933 --> 00:45:53,199 I found this. 732 00:45:53,201 --> 00:45:55,101 I thought you might like to see it. 733 00:45:55,103 --> 00:45:56,369 What's that? 734 00:45:56,371 --> 00:45:58,137 Uh, well... 735 00:45:58,139 --> 00:45:59,338 Let me see. 736 00:46:13,221 --> 00:46:14,420 Where'd this come from? 737 00:46:14,422 --> 00:46:16,989 It was on his grave, in some flowers. 738 00:46:16,991 --> 00:46:18,858 One of them little shits that bullied my boy 739 00:46:18,860 --> 00:46:21,027 into the ground had the nerve to stand over his grave? 740 00:46:21,029 --> 00:46:23,062 - Well, Joe... - Why? 741 00:46:23,064 --> 00:46:25,131 And now he wants to apologize? 742 00:46:25,133 --> 00:46:26,966 Who's this for? 743 00:46:26,968 --> 00:46:28,901 It's not for Jadin, because he's dead and buried. 744 00:46:28,903 --> 00:46:30,102 And not for me. 745 00:46:30,104 --> 00:46:31,838 What am I supposed to do with this, Lola? 746 00:46:31,840 --> 00:46:33,573 I don't know I thought you'd like to see it, Joe. 747 00:46:33,575 --> 00:46:36,008 - I shouldn't have brought it. - No, don't keep secrets from me. 748 00:46:36,010 --> 00:46:37,944 - Don't even threaten that. - I'm not keeping secrets. 749 00:46:37,946 --> 00:46:39,879 I'm out here on my own, no money, alone, all right? 750 00:46:39,881 --> 00:46:42,381 No, the truth is all I have. Shit! 751 00:46:42,383 --> 00:46:44,417 - Well... - That little son of a bitch. 752 00:46:44,419 --> 00:46:48,254 ...you're... you're on a walk for forgiveness, right? 753 00:46:48,256 --> 00:46:49,856 For... 754 00:46:49,858 --> 00:46:51,891 There's no apologies with me, okay? 755 00:46:51,893 --> 00:46:54,427 There is no forgiveness here. They buried that with my boy. 756 00:46:54,429 --> 00:46:56,429 Do you understand that, Lola? 757 00:46:58,166 --> 00:46:59,532 I should not have brought that letter. 758 00:46:59,534 --> 00:47:01,534 Lola... what? 759 00:47:01,536 --> 00:47:04,103 - It's all yours, Dad. - Those sons of bitches. 760 00:47:04,105 --> 00:47:05,972 - Fucking kidding me. - Don't worry about it. 761 00:47:05,974 --> 00:47:07,874 Don't think about it then, Joe. 762 00:47:09,344 --> 00:47:13,045 Son of a bitch, Joseph, get your ass in here now! 763 00:47:13,047 --> 00:47:15,348 Did you hear what the fuck I said? Now! 764 00:47:15,350 --> 00:47:17,416 You see what you've done? Look! 765 00:47:17,418 --> 00:47:19,218 How many times have I told you, huh? 766 00:47:19,220 --> 00:47:21,254 How many times to put the seat up when you take a piss? 767 00:47:21,256 --> 00:47:23,122 - Joe! - A hundred? A thousand? 768 00:47:23,124 --> 00:47:25,091 Nobody's fucking talking to you. Shut the fuck up. 769 00:47:25,093 --> 00:47:26,459 What do you think, I'm your maid? 770 00:47:26,461 --> 00:47:27,960 Hey! Just stop! 771 00:47:40,642 --> 00:47:42,575 Jesus Christ. 772 00:48:07,702 --> 00:48:09,402 Hey. 773 00:48:09,404 --> 00:48:12,438 What I saw in those practice films was damn good, son. 774 00:48:12,440 --> 00:48:15,508 You keep it up, you'll be state champ by the time I get back. 775 00:48:18,112 --> 00:48:19,312 I love you. 776 00:48:21,549 --> 00:48:22,949 Did you hear me? 777 00:48:28,056 --> 00:48:31,290 Yeah. Take care, Dad. 778 00:48:32,427 --> 00:48:33,626 And what else? 779 00:48:36,965 --> 00:48:38,364 I love you too. 780 00:48:43,237 --> 00:48:44,971 - Hey. - Hey. 781 00:48:44,973 --> 00:48:46,706 So I'll see you in Illinois, or maybe even before. 782 00:48:48,409 --> 00:48:49,608 Yeah. We'll see. 783 00:48:51,279 --> 00:48:53,412 Well, I thought that was the plan, Lola. 784 00:48:55,283 --> 00:48:56,615 We talked about this. Lola, don't... 785 00:48:56,617 --> 00:48:59,218 Joe, don't you. Don't. 786 00:49:02,557 --> 00:49:04,290 What are you doing out here? 787 00:49:04,292 --> 00:49:06,559 Because we've supported you every step of the way, 788 00:49:06,561 --> 00:49:08,995 because we know what's right for you. 789 00:49:08,997 --> 00:49:11,664 But you're supposed to be on some forgiveness walk? 790 00:49:11,666 --> 00:49:14,400 And you act the way you acted last night. 791 00:49:18,606 --> 00:49:22,475 Our son is gone, Joe. Gone. 792 00:49:25,613 --> 00:49:28,381 You're gonna lose another one, 793 00:49:28,383 --> 00:49:30,549 because we're not gonna sit around waiting 794 00:49:30,551 --> 00:49:32,018 for another one of your outbursts. 795 00:49:32,020 --> 00:49:33,219 - Lola... - It's not gonna happen. 796 00:49:33,221 --> 00:49:34,687 - Lola, I... - No, no, no, no, no. 797 00:49:34,689 --> 00:49:38,357 Keep walking. Keep walking. Don't come home. 798 00:49:38,359 --> 00:49:42,695 Okay? Don't come home till you figure out whatever it is 799 00:49:42,697 --> 00:49:44,230 that you need to figure out. 800 00:49:44,232 --> 00:49:46,332 But I hope that's not you being some 801 00:49:46,334 --> 00:49:49,335 Facebook celebrity and getting your pictures taken with people. 802 00:49:52,273 --> 00:49:54,140 Are you walking for Jadin, Joe? 803 00:49:55,576 --> 00:49:57,510 Because if you're walking for Jadin, 804 00:49:57,512 --> 00:49:59,812 then you let Jadin let you know when it's time to come home. 805 00:50:02,784 --> 00:50:04,550 I love you, Lola. 806 00:50:08,389 --> 00:50:11,123 You guys drive safe, okay? I love you. 807 00:50:11,125 --> 00:50:13,325 Be safe. 808 00:50:17,398 --> 00:50:20,366 Be careful, all right? 809 00:51:14,622 --> 00:51:16,288 Hey. 810 00:51:17,825 --> 00:51:19,492 Goddamn it! 811 00:51:23,498 --> 00:51:25,531 Who in the fuck...? 812 00:51:25,533 --> 00:51:27,500 Fucking shit! 813 00:52:45,246 --> 00:52:46,779 - Hello? - Hey. 814 00:52:46,781 --> 00:52:48,714 Hey. 815 00:52:48,716 --> 00:52:52,718 So I found something, 816 00:52:52,720 --> 00:52:55,287 and I want you to hear it, okay? 817 00:52:55,289 --> 00:52:57,890 I found it in his backpack, 818 00:52:57,892 --> 00:52:59,758 - and I wanted to... - Well, what is it? 819 00:52:59,760 --> 00:53:01,393 Can you read it to me? 820 00:53:01,395 --> 00:53:02,928 Yeah. Yeah. It's, uh... 821 00:53:04,398 --> 00:53:07,900 it's an essay that he wrote. 822 00:53:11,739 --> 00:53:13,372 "It's a horrible thing to be surrounded 823 00:53:13,374 --> 00:53:16,008 "by people who hate you 824 00:53:16,010 --> 00:53:18,711 "when they don't even know you, 825 00:53:18,713 --> 00:53:20,746 "for a reason you can't change. 826 00:53:22,350 --> 00:53:24,817 "One they can't comprehend or understand. 827 00:53:26,721 --> 00:53:28,320 "This is the life I live. 828 00:53:30,491 --> 00:53:32,258 "Some nights, I look for the pieces 829 00:53:32,260 --> 00:53:33,492 "I've dropped along the way. 830 00:53:35,796 --> 00:53:38,597 "On these nights, I cry myself to sleep 831 00:53:38,599 --> 00:53:40,899 "and hope tomorrow is a better day. 832 00:53:40,901 --> 00:53:42,434 "But it never is. 833 00:53:44,338 --> 00:53:46,805 "Every year, I look forward to school starting again, 834 00:53:46,807 --> 00:53:50,276 "but it never turns out the way I expect it to. 835 00:53:50,278 --> 00:53:54,013 "I pretend not to notice the looks I'm given. 836 00:53:54,015 --> 00:53:58,317 "Avoiding eye contact with every guy bigger than me. 837 00:53:58,319 --> 00:54:00,452 "I'm surrounded by people who hate me. 838 00:54:00,454 --> 00:54:02,488 "Who want me dead. 839 00:54:04,025 --> 00:54:06,959 "I can't keep talking myself out of it. 840 00:54:06,961 --> 00:54:09,628 "I don't know what I'm gonna do if I don't. 841 00:54:09,630 --> 00:54:14,600 "It's only getting worse. I just want it to be over. 842 00:54:14,602 --> 00:54:17,069 It will be soon enough." 843 00:54:18,606 --> 00:54:20,339 Don't fucking look at us, fag. 844 00:54:23,678 --> 00:54:26,478 What are you doing in here? Girl's bathroom's over there. 845 00:54:26,480 --> 00:54:28,981 Come hang out with us. 846 00:54:28,983 --> 00:54:31,617 What the fuck did we say about looking at us? 847 00:54:31,619 --> 00:54:33,786 All he wants to do is watch us change. 848 00:54:33,788 --> 00:54:37,056 He's shaking, he wants it so bad. 849 00:54:37,058 --> 00:54:39,825 - Look at him shake. - Stop. Stop. Stop. 850 00:54:39,827 --> 00:54:43,329 It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. 851 00:54:43,331 --> 00:54:46,065 Let me ask you something. 852 00:54:46,067 --> 00:54:48,901 You like dick? 853 00:54:48,903 --> 00:54:50,502 Huh? Answer me. 854 00:54:50,504 --> 00:54:53,839 - I think he does. - You like fucking dicks. 855 00:54:53,841 --> 00:54:55,341 I'll give you dick. 856 00:54:57,978 --> 00:54:59,411 Stop, stop. 857 00:54:59,413 --> 00:55:01,613 It's okay, it's okay. 858 00:55:03,584 --> 00:55:05,951 Fuck it. You like fucking dick? 859 00:55:05,953 --> 00:55:08,620 Fucking dick? You like fucking dick! 860 00:55:12,960 --> 00:55:15,728 You like that? You like that? Huh? 861 00:55:21,001 --> 00:55:23,502 Can we even give you the names of the boys? 862 00:55:23,504 --> 00:55:25,671 No, no, no, no. No names. 863 00:55:27,742 --> 00:55:29,141 Have you considered changing schools? 864 00:55:31,846 --> 00:55:33,879 Yeah. We applied to another high school. 865 00:55:33,881 --> 00:55:35,981 We were out of their district, so they rejected him. 866 00:55:37,985 --> 00:55:40,386 What about therapy? 867 00:55:40,388 --> 00:55:45,424 We did, um, a few sessions of, uh, family therapy. 868 00:55:45,426 --> 00:55:47,526 And I don't need therapy. They do. 869 00:55:47,528 --> 00:55:50,829 Jadin, I hear what you're saying. 870 00:55:52,400 --> 00:55:53,699 You don't think the situation 871 00:55:53,701 --> 00:55:55,033 might settle itself down on its own? 872 00:55:55,035 --> 00:55:56,435 No, I don't. 873 00:55:58,906 --> 00:56:00,672 Okay. 874 00:56:00,674 --> 00:56:02,174 Mr. and Mrs. Bell, 875 00:56:02,176 --> 00:56:04,877 I'm not saying it was acceptable behavior 876 00:56:04,879 --> 00:56:07,546 on the part of the other students, because it wasn't, 877 00:56:07,548 --> 00:56:09,615 but we live in a very small town, 878 00:56:09,617 --> 00:56:10,883 and the high school student body 879 00:56:10,885 --> 00:56:13,952 is a reflection of our community. 880 00:56:13,954 --> 00:56:16,622 If you file a formal complaint against these boys, 881 00:56:16,624 --> 00:56:19,558 it may very well cause you more trouble in the long run 882 00:56:19,560 --> 00:56:20,759 than it's worth. 883 00:56:23,898 --> 00:56:25,531 You don't know what it's like... 884 00:56:27,701 --> 00:56:29,001 to feel like... 885 00:56:34,508 --> 00:56:36,742 you have to muster up the courage to ask for help, 886 00:56:36,744 --> 00:56:39,178 and then only to find out that the person who can 887 00:56:39,180 --> 00:56:41,013 just couldn't be bothered. 888 00:56:42,082 --> 00:56:46,084 Son, I am trying to help you. 889 00:56:46,086 --> 00:56:48,987 I'm trying to stop you from making a mistake. 890 00:57:40,741 --> 00:57:42,708 Hey, it's Marcie. 891 00:57:44,278 --> 00:57:45,911 Hi, Marcie, it's me. 892 00:57:45,913 --> 00:57:47,913 Can you please call me when you get the chance. 893 00:57:47,915 --> 00:57:50,749 I just need to talk to you. Please call me when you can. 894 00:58:03,097 --> 00:58:05,030 Remember when we used to take... 895 00:58:05,032 --> 00:58:06,665 Oh, just a second. 896 00:58:06,667 --> 00:58:08,800 Sorry. 897 00:58:08,802 --> 00:58:10,002 Jadin? 898 00:58:12,273 --> 00:58:15,107 Hi, it's me. Can you talk for a second? 899 00:58:15,109 --> 00:58:17,109 Jadin? Hi, it's Dolores. 900 00:58:17,111 --> 00:58:19,044 Sorry. We're in the car. 901 00:58:19,046 --> 00:58:21,179 Hi, Mrs. Roberts. I didn't know it was you. 902 00:58:21,181 --> 00:58:23,949 I'm taking Colleen to go see her cousin 903 00:58:23,951 --> 00:58:25,751 over in Pendleton for the weekend. 904 00:58:29,189 --> 00:58:32,891 Okay. Do you think you could stop by and pick me up? 905 00:58:32,893 --> 00:58:35,894 We are already out of Le Grande. 906 00:58:35,896 --> 00:58:37,262 So I'm sorry. 907 00:58:37,264 --> 00:58:38,931 But why don't you go 908 00:58:38,933 --> 00:58:41,233 to our house and relax? 909 00:58:41,235 --> 00:58:43,168 Be alone for a little while. 910 00:58:43,170 --> 00:58:45,771 I can't be alone right now, okay? 911 00:58:45,773 --> 00:58:47,940 And I can't go home. 912 00:58:47,942 --> 00:58:49,841 So I need you to please just come pick me up. 913 00:58:49,843 --> 00:58:51,577 Mom? 914 00:58:51,579 --> 00:58:52,778 No. 915 00:58:55,115 --> 00:58:57,849 Can it wait until Monday? 916 00:58:57,851 --> 00:59:01,153 We'll be back on Sunday night, and we'll see you on Monday. 917 00:59:01,155 --> 00:59:03,322 And whatever it is, 918 00:59:03,324 --> 00:59:05,691 I'm sure that we can take care of it then. 919 00:59:05,693 --> 00:59:09,127 Listen, Jadin, I will call you first thing Sunday 920 00:59:09,129 --> 00:59:10,829 when we get back, okay? 921 00:59:10,831 --> 00:59:13,131 Just... 922 01:00:19,933 --> 01:00:21,133 Come on, Jadin. 923 01:00:21,135 --> 01:00:23,735 Come on, Jadin! 924 01:00:23,737 --> 01:00:25,904 Come on, Jadin! 925 01:00:28,342 --> 01:00:30,042 No, no, no. 926 01:00:30,044 --> 01:00:32,678 Come on, come on, come on. 927 01:01:08,248 --> 01:01:10,382 Would you mind if I say grace? 928 01:01:10,384 --> 01:01:12,451 - Sure. - It's okay? 929 01:01:12,453 --> 01:01:14,453 - No. Go ahead. - It's okay? 930 01:01:21,995 --> 01:01:24,196 Our Father, who art in heaven. 931 01:01:24,198 --> 01:01:27,099 We come before thee with heavy hearts. 932 01:01:28,469 --> 01:01:31,436 We ask that thy loving kindness be upon us. 933 01:01:31,438 --> 01:01:32,904 And thy guidance. 934 01:01:32,906 --> 01:01:34,306 We are indeed thankful for the gift 935 01:01:34,308 --> 01:01:36,374 Jadin has been in our lives. 936 01:01:36,376 --> 01:01:39,311 We'll need help on this new path. 937 01:01:39,313 --> 01:01:41,379 We are thankful for this meal before us 938 01:01:41,381 --> 01:01:43,949 and ask thy blessing upon it. 939 01:01:43,951 --> 01:01:45,784 In Jesus' name, Amen. 940 01:01:47,421 --> 01:01:49,054 Thank you. 941 01:02:12,446 --> 01:02:14,880 You gotta get out of this room, Joe. 942 01:02:21,789 --> 01:02:23,522 You're pale as milk. 943 01:02:28,562 --> 01:02:33,932 Put some clothes on. Go outside. Take a walk. 944 01:02:36,503 --> 01:02:38,170 Pretty sure it'll do you good. 945 01:02:51,518 --> 01:02:53,552 Joe, I'm hurting too. 946 01:03:33,093 --> 01:03:34,426 What are you doing? 947 01:03:36,396 --> 01:03:38,363 Just going for a drive. 948 01:03:41,168 --> 01:03:43,001 Go back inside, Joseph. 949 01:03:45,572 --> 01:03:49,441 No. Not until you tell me what's going on. 950 01:03:53,947 --> 01:03:55,480 Get your ass back in the house. 951 01:03:57,017 --> 01:03:58,450 I need to go for a drive, 952 01:03:58,452 --> 01:04:00,619 and you need to get back inside and get into bed. 953 01:04:00,621 --> 01:04:02,020 Now. 954 01:04:35,956 --> 01:04:37,489 Go back inside, Joseph. 955 01:04:40,627 --> 01:04:42,027 Now. 956 01:05:46,760 --> 01:05:48,293 Shit. 957 01:05:52,199 --> 01:05:53,565 Here you go. 958 01:05:53,567 --> 01:05:55,100 - Thanks, Mom. - Thanks. 959 01:05:56,436 --> 01:05:58,470 Eat it while it's hot. 960 01:05:58,472 --> 01:06:00,138 Can you pass me the syrup? 961 01:06:00,140 --> 01:06:01,373 - Yes. - I have some bacon too. 962 01:06:01,375 --> 01:06:03,708 It may seem... 963 01:06:03,710 --> 01:06:05,477 ...people are just going after each other, 964 01:06:05,479 --> 01:06:08,146 but it requires a lot of skill. 965 01:06:08,148 --> 01:06:10,782 Whoa! You're up. 966 01:06:10,784 --> 01:06:12,650 Hi. 967 01:06:14,087 --> 01:06:15,453 Lola, I got something to tell you. 968 01:06:15,455 --> 01:06:17,555 - Okay. - Could you give me a few minutes? 969 01:06:17,557 --> 01:06:20,158 Yes, Joe. 970 01:06:20,160 --> 01:06:22,160 What is it? 971 01:06:22,162 --> 01:06:26,664 I've decided to walk across America to New York City. 972 01:06:28,235 --> 01:06:29,434 What? 973 01:06:29,436 --> 01:06:30,769 Did you hear what I said? 974 01:06:30,771 --> 01:06:32,170 Yeah. 975 01:06:32,172 --> 01:06:33,371 When did you decide that? 976 01:06:33,373 --> 01:06:35,140 Well, just earlier this morning. 977 01:06:35,142 --> 01:06:38,276 When I told you to take a walk, I meant around the block. 978 01:06:38,278 --> 01:06:39,677 - Not to New York City. - Lola, 979 01:06:39,679 --> 01:06:42,113 I'll talk to everybody along the way. 980 01:06:42,115 --> 01:06:44,482 Anybody who will listen. About bullying. 981 01:06:44,484 --> 01:06:46,818 About the damage it does. About what it did to our boy. 982 01:06:46,820 --> 01:06:49,654 I'm doing this for Jadin, Lola. It's what he wants. 983 01:06:49,656 --> 01:06:51,689 It's what he'd want me to do, I know it is. 984 01:06:51,691 --> 01:06:55,460 I mean, he told us he wanted to live there someday, remember? 985 01:06:55,462 --> 01:06:58,263 Yeah. Yeah. 986 01:06:58,265 --> 01:07:00,665 Uh, I don't know. 987 01:07:00,667 --> 01:07:03,435 How do you...? How do you...? How do you pay for it? 988 01:07:03,437 --> 01:07:06,271 Well, I'll... I'll get the money. I can fundraise. 989 01:07:06,273 --> 01:07:08,206 I mean, everybody's against bullying, aren't they? 990 01:07:08,208 --> 01:07:12,444 No. If they were, this wouldn't have happened. 991 01:07:15,415 --> 01:07:17,715 Let me get you something to eat before you head on the highway. 992 01:07:17,717 --> 01:07:20,085 So nice that you're back up again. 993 01:07:20,087 --> 01:07:21,653 - Can I get some coffee, Marcie? - Yeah. 994 01:07:24,524 --> 01:07:26,791 Hey. You didn't tell your mama about last night, did you? 995 01:07:26,793 --> 01:07:28,393 No, sir. 996 01:07:28,395 --> 01:07:31,162 Come here. I love you, buddy. 997 01:07:31,164 --> 01:07:32,597 Hey. I love you so much. 998 01:07:32,599 --> 01:07:34,332 This is gonna be something great, all right? 999 01:07:34,334 --> 01:07:36,267 - You'll see. I promise. - Yeah. 1000 01:08:02,362 --> 01:08:03,595 Joe? 1001 01:08:05,765 --> 01:08:07,198 Joe? 1002 01:08:07,200 --> 01:08:08,399 Lola. 1003 01:08:11,605 --> 01:08:13,505 Joe, say something. Why are you not talking? 1004 01:08:13,507 --> 01:08:15,306 You're scaring me. 1005 01:08:15,308 --> 01:08:18,309 I don't... I don't think I can keep going. 1006 01:08:18,311 --> 01:08:21,813 Joe... come on. 1007 01:08:21,815 --> 01:08:24,649 - You gotta keep going. - I just wanna come home. 1008 01:08:24,651 --> 01:08:27,719 Oh, Joe, you can't come home. Come on. 1009 01:08:29,456 --> 01:08:31,589 You're doing it for Jadin, remember? 1010 01:08:31,591 --> 01:08:35,160 Yeah. For Jadin. I remember. 1011 01:08:35,162 --> 01:08:36,561 Yeah. And for us. 1012 01:08:38,165 --> 01:08:39,898 Do you want to talk to Joseph? 1013 01:08:39,900 --> 01:08:41,866 - Is he there? - Yeah. 1014 01:08:41,868 --> 01:08:43,801 Yeah, he's getting ready for his wrestling match. 1015 01:08:43,803 --> 01:08:45,503 We're late. 1016 01:08:45,505 --> 01:08:46,938 I know he'd love to talk to you, though. 1017 01:08:46,940 --> 01:08:48,673 Not like this. 1018 01:08:48,675 --> 01:08:50,808 Just... just tell him... 1019 01:08:52,612 --> 01:08:55,313 tell him I'll call... I'll call him later. 1020 01:08:56,850 --> 01:08:58,883 Okay, okay. I'll tell him. 1021 01:09:01,188 --> 01:09:02,387 Lola? 1022 01:09:04,558 --> 01:09:06,691 I saw him. 1023 01:09:06,693 --> 01:09:08,426 He was right there in front of me. 1024 01:09:09,863 --> 01:09:12,463 And he just kept leading me for miles, and... 1025 01:09:13,967 --> 01:09:15,934 I followed him all the way, and then... 1026 01:09:19,673 --> 01:09:21,339 he just disappeared. 1027 01:09:25,512 --> 01:09:26,911 Mom! We're late! 1028 01:09:28,481 --> 01:09:29,681 Joe. 1029 01:09:30,951 --> 01:09:32,550 Mom, did you pack the shoes? 1030 01:09:32,552 --> 01:09:34,385 Yeah. Everything's in there. 1031 01:09:34,387 --> 01:09:36,888 Okay. All right. 1032 01:09:36,890 --> 01:09:38,289 I love you. 1033 01:09:39,492 --> 01:09:40,692 I love you. 1034 01:09:55,742 --> 01:09:57,642 Kindness. And respect. 1035 01:09:57,644 --> 01:09:59,911 Kindness is the most important quality a human being can have, 1036 01:09:59,913 --> 01:10:01,746 or that a parent can have. 1037 01:10:01,748 --> 01:10:03,948 Shit, when I was walking and talking these past six months, 1038 01:10:03,950 --> 01:10:06,284 you never know how long you have the people that you love 1039 01:10:06,286 --> 01:10:07,819 and that love you, 1040 01:10:07,821 --> 01:10:10,888 so you damn well better love now, all right? 1041 01:10:10,890 --> 01:10:12,757 No matter how confused or misguided or messed up 1042 01:10:12,759 --> 01:10:14,259 you think they are. 1043 01:10:14,261 --> 01:10:15,693 Because it's probably a good chance 1044 01:10:15,695 --> 01:10:17,562 that you're just as messed up as they are. 1045 01:10:17,564 --> 01:10:20,031 You gotta look in the mirror, and gotta have accountability. 1046 01:10:20,033 --> 01:10:21,432 All right? 1047 01:10:45,592 --> 01:10:47,825 Hey, there. You're Joe Bell? 1048 01:10:47,827 --> 01:10:49,060 That I am. Yes. 1049 01:10:49,062 --> 01:10:50,528 I've got something for you. 1050 01:10:51,998 --> 01:10:53,398 Oh! 1051 01:10:54,634 --> 01:10:55,900 Holy shit! 1052 01:10:57,837 --> 01:10:59,971 Come here! 1053 01:10:59,973 --> 01:11:01,739 So we got Coke in here, and some ice. 1054 01:11:01,741 --> 01:11:03,675 We got water over here in this one. 1055 01:11:03,677 --> 01:11:05,376 That's a solar panel. 1056 01:11:05,378 --> 01:11:08,046 We'll pay you for this. You're a good man, Jim. 1057 01:11:08,048 --> 01:11:10,682 Thank you so much. Thank you. 1058 01:11:59,833 --> 01:12:01,532 Yeah, I... 1059 01:12:01,534 --> 01:12:03,134 You know, last night, I had a corral 1060 01:12:03,136 --> 01:12:05,737 a bunch of strangers up the street to come and hear me talk. 1061 01:12:05,739 --> 01:12:08,973 Shit. I gotta go. 1062 01:12:08,975 --> 01:12:11,709 Time for me to explain myself to another lawman. 1063 01:12:21,121 --> 01:12:22,520 Howdy, sir. 1064 01:12:22,522 --> 01:12:24,088 Hi. 1065 01:12:24,090 --> 01:12:26,157 While you're taking your hands out of your pockets, 1066 01:12:26,159 --> 01:12:28,626 why don't you tell me where you're headed. 1067 01:12:28,628 --> 01:12:30,128 New York City. 1068 01:12:31,931 --> 01:12:33,431 Looking for a ride out here then? 1069 01:12:33,433 --> 01:12:34,832 No. I'm walking. 1070 01:12:34,834 --> 01:12:36,634 Walking all the way to New York? 1071 01:12:38,571 --> 01:12:40,171 Joe Bell. 1072 01:12:40,173 --> 01:12:41,806 Yeah. 1073 01:12:41,808 --> 01:12:43,541 Well, what's your mission, Mr. Bell? 1074 01:12:43,543 --> 01:12:45,543 Well, like it says there on my card, 1075 01:12:45,545 --> 01:12:47,044 I talk to people about bullying. 1076 01:12:47,046 --> 01:12:48,780 About how it's not okay to torment somebody 1077 01:12:48,782 --> 01:12:50,148 because they're different from you. 1078 01:12:50,150 --> 01:12:51,749 Different how? 1079 01:12:52,952 --> 01:12:55,820 Like my son Jadin. He was gay. 1080 01:12:55,822 --> 01:12:58,055 He was bullied so bad in school, he couldn't take it anymore. 1081 01:13:01,928 --> 01:13:03,561 You been on the road six months? 1082 01:13:03,563 --> 01:13:04,762 Yeah. 1083 01:13:04,764 --> 01:13:06,898 I started out in La Grande, Oregon. 1084 01:13:10,069 --> 01:13:12,470 When was the last time you had a warm meal? 1085 01:13:17,177 --> 01:13:20,611 Sam, meet my new friend, Joe Bell. 1086 01:13:20,613 --> 01:13:22,847 Joe, Sam. 1087 01:13:22,849 --> 01:13:26,184 Sam's my girl of all work, and our dispatcher. 1088 01:13:26,186 --> 01:13:27,819 Have a seat. 1089 01:13:29,556 --> 01:13:30,755 Nice to meet you, ma'am. 1090 01:13:30,757 --> 01:13:32,190 It's a pleasure, Joe. 1091 01:13:32,192 --> 01:13:35,159 I called the chaplain like you asked, Sheriff. 1092 01:13:35,161 --> 01:13:36,961 He says once you give him the green light, 1093 01:13:36,963 --> 01:13:38,996 he'll announce a youth meeting with Joe as the speaker 1094 01:13:38,998 --> 01:13:41,098 here at the high school this afternoon. 1095 01:13:42,101 --> 01:13:43,668 Joe? 1096 01:13:43,670 --> 01:13:45,002 Yeah, as long as you're sure 1097 01:13:45,004 --> 01:13:46,737 you can drop me off where you picked me up, 1098 01:13:46,739 --> 01:13:48,773 because I intend to walk every single step of the way. 1099 01:13:48,775 --> 01:13:49,974 Then let's get you fed. 1100 01:13:52,812 --> 01:13:56,647 Lunch here is usually last night's leftovers. 1101 01:13:56,649 --> 01:13:58,549 I'm a sorry cook, but I've learned the basics 1102 01:13:58,551 --> 01:13:59,750 of a microwave. 1103 01:14:03,590 --> 01:14:06,224 That's my son, William. 1104 01:14:08,628 --> 01:14:11,262 He wasn't your typical teenage boy. 1105 01:14:11,264 --> 01:14:13,764 He didn't have that "girl crazy" attitude 1106 01:14:13,766 --> 01:14:15,867 that we had when we were his age. 1107 01:14:19,806 --> 01:14:22,240 Janine's pinto beans are even better the next day. 1108 01:14:22,242 --> 01:14:23,741 Hmm. Yeah. 1109 01:14:23,743 --> 01:14:25,276 And the day after that. 1110 01:14:25,278 --> 01:14:27,144 I haven't had beans this good since I left home. 1111 01:14:28,681 --> 01:14:30,748 The stove is strictly Janine's domain. 1112 01:14:30,750 --> 01:14:32,817 I barely know how to boil water. 1113 01:14:32,819 --> 01:14:34,018 She's a keeper. 1114 01:14:37,257 --> 01:14:41,626 I was on the family computer one day, and I... 1115 01:14:41,628 --> 01:14:43,027 I saw that Will had been searching 1116 01:14:43,029 --> 01:14:44,729 what it meant to be gay. 1117 01:14:53,873 --> 01:14:56,073 I have to admit, at first, I... 1118 01:14:57,977 --> 01:15:01,212 I worried that I'd been too tough on him growing up. 1119 01:15:01,214 --> 01:15:03,247 We were raised Christians, after all. 1120 01:15:05,885 --> 01:15:08,252 I wondered if he might have told me sooner himself 1121 01:15:08,254 --> 01:15:12,557 if I hadn't been such a hard-core lawman. 1122 01:15:12,559 --> 01:15:15,660 I thought about that same thing. 1123 01:15:15,662 --> 01:15:18,029 About whether I was too hard on my boy. 1124 01:15:18,031 --> 01:15:20,932 Well, if Jadin knew before he died 1125 01:15:20,934 --> 01:15:25,069 that you loved him and accepted him, that's what... 1126 01:15:25,071 --> 01:15:27,672 that's what matters, isn't it? 1127 01:15:27,674 --> 01:15:29,240 I want to believe that that's the way it was, 1128 01:15:29,242 --> 01:15:32,843 but I don't know if it was. 1129 01:15:36,349 --> 01:15:38,883 When I broke the news to my dad 1130 01:15:38,885 --> 01:15:42,019 that his oldest grandson was gay, he surprised me. 1131 01:15:42,021 --> 01:15:44,188 He's a Marine. 1132 01:15:44,190 --> 01:15:46,157 And he was a lot more accepting 1133 01:15:46,159 --> 01:15:48,225 of William being gay than I was. 1134 01:15:51,264 --> 01:15:54,065 And that made me take a long, hard look at myself. 1135 01:15:57,604 --> 01:15:59,870 My father didn't understand. 1136 01:15:59,872 --> 01:16:02,206 Still doesn't to this day, even with Jadin being gone. 1137 01:16:04,143 --> 01:16:06,877 You know a lot of folks believe that being gay is a choice? 1138 01:16:08,281 --> 01:16:09,880 All things being equal, 1139 01:16:09,882 --> 01:16:12,083 Jadin would have never chosen to be bullied. 1140 01:16:12,085 --> 01:16:13,651 With all things being equal, 1141 01:16:13,653 --> 01:16:15,820 he would have never chosen the way he died. 1142 01:16:17,824 --> 01:16:19,023 You know, Ben... 1143 01:16:20,860 --> 01:16:22,360 when I started out walking... 1144 01:16:23,997 --> 01:16:26,297 I didn't know what I was doing, really. 1145 01:16:26,299 --> 01:16:30,001 I thought I just wanted to make Jadin's life... 1146 01:16:31,838 --> 01:16:33,938 and his death matter somehow. 1147 01:16:37,010 --> 01:16:38,209 But what I come to know... 1148 01:16:40,179 --> 01:16:41,979 is I've been walking and trying to figure out 1149 01:16:41,981 --> 01:16:43,781 why my son did what he did. 1150 01:16:47,153 --> 01:16:49,120 And make sense out of the part that I played 1151 01:16:49,122 --> 01:16:50,921 in his decision to end his life. 1152 01:16:53,426 --> 01:16:56,427 I mean, I was too caught up in my own feelings 1153 01:16:56,429 --> 01:16:57,995 about what other people would think 1154 01:16:57,997 --> 01:17:00,865 to see how alone my own son must have felt. 1155 01:17:00,867 --> 01:17:03,034 I should've known how bad it was for him. 1156 01:17:03,036 --> 01:17:05,403 I... I should've known all along. 1157 01:17:05,405 --> 01:17:06,904 But instead I just... 1158 01:17:10,410 --> 01:17:13,778 I just made Jadin's being gay all about Joe Bell. 1159 01:17:15,415 --> 01:17:16,814 About me. 1160 01:17:18,017 --> 01:17:19,250 Not about my boy. 1161 01:17:27,160 --> 01:17:28,359 Joe... 1162 01:17:31,464 --> 01:17:34,298 I think you made me realize something. 1163 01:17:38,438 --> 01:17:41,105 It never crossed my mind until this very moment that... 1164 01:17:43,042 --> 01:17:46,343 William might have considered taking his own life. 1165 01:17:53,720 --> 01:17:56,253 I don't think I could've carried on if he had. 1166 01:18:08,768 --> 01:18:10,401 I never let him know it was okay. 1167 01:18:12,038 --> 01:18:13,437 And I gotta live with that. 1168 01:18:16,843 --> 01:18:19,110 Don't make that same mistake, Ben. 1169 01:18:19,112 --> 01:18:21,245 Don't do that to your son or yourself. 1170 01:19:24,977 --> 01:19:26,177 Um... 1171 01:19:30,583 --> 01:19:31,982 Shh! 1172 01:19:35,388 --> 01:19:37,221 Uh... 1173 01:19:37,223 --> 01:19:39,089 thanks for having me here today. 1174 01:19:39,091 --> 01:19:41,826 Uh, my name is Joe Bell. 1175 01:19:41,828 --> 01:19:44,862 I'm really honored to be here to speak with you today 1176 01:19:44,864 --> 01:19:47,131 about something that I feel is very, very important 1177 01:19:47,133 --> 01:19:50,067 not only to myself, but to all of you. 1178 01:20:38,451 --> 01:20:40,317 I think you and I are a lot more alike 1179 01:20:40,319 --> 01:20:42,286 than you'd want to admit, Dad. 1180 01:20:47,326 --> 01:20:52,129 It took me 13 years 1181 01:20:52,131 --> 01:20:58,002 to realize that living a lie wasn't really living at all. 1182 01:20:59,105 --> 01:21:00,971 It only took you six months. 1183 01:21:02,074 --> 01:21:03,274 No, son. 1184 01:21:05,912 --> 01:21:08,279 It took me 45 years and six months. 1185 01:21:09,982 --> 01:21:11,448 I'm sorry, Jadin. 1186 01:21:11,450 --> 01:21:13,217 I'm so sorry. 1187 01:21:20,526 --> 01:21:24,061 I never meant for you to feel that I didn't love you. 1188 01:21:26,599 --> 01:21:28,198 No, son. I never felt that. 1189 01:21:31,270 --> 01:21:33,003 And I always knew you loved me. 1190 01:21:35,141 --> 01:21:36,373 Everything just... 1191 01:21:37,710 --> 01:21:39,276 hurt so much. 1192 01:21:42,648 --> 01:21:45,015 But deep down, I always knew. 1193 01:21:47,520 --> 01:21:49,219 That means the world to me, son. 1194 01:21:50,990 --> 01:21:52,523 The whole breathing world. 1195 01:22:14,013 --> 01:22:15,212 Dad? 1196 01:22:20,186 --> 01:22:21,385 I love you. 1197 01:22:25,291 --> 01:22:27,458 I know. I know. 1198 01:22:33,065 --> 01:22:34,298 I love you, buddy. 1199 01:22:45,311 --> 01:22:47,778 Hey, Lola, honey. It's me. 1200 01:22:47,780 --> 01:22:50,681 The reason I'm calling is to tell you that I love you. 1201 01:22:50,683 --> 01:22:52,082 You and Joseph. 1202 01:22:54,787 --> 01:22:57,488 Thanks for putting up with me all these years. 1203 01:22:57,490 --> 01:22:59,223 I don't know what would've happened to me 1204 01:22:59,225 --> 01:23:00,724 if you hadn't come along and taken me in. 1205 01:23:00,726 --> 01:23:03,560 I'm just truly lucky to have my family. 1206 01:23:06,065 --> 01:23:08,465 There's a lot of things I've learned out here, 1207 01:23:08,467 --> 01:23:10,334 with nobody but me for company. 1208 01:23:11,804 --> 01:23:13,537 Some of it's been hard to come to know. 1209 01:23:15,241 --> 01:23:17,474 Real hard. 1210 01:23:17,476 --> 01:23:19,676 I know I've still got a long road ahead of me. 1211 01:23:19,678 --> 01:23:21,779 And I'll be better about staying in touch from now on. 1212 01:23:21,781 --> 01:23:23,180 You'll see. 1213 01:23:24,417 --> 01:23:26,383 You give my love to our boy. 1214 01:23:26,385 --> 01:23:27,684 I love you. 1215 01:23:42,368 --> 01:23:44,535 Sheriff Westin. 1216 01:23:44,537 --> 01:23:46,670 Sheriff, you're requested on scene. 1217 01:23:46,672 --> 01:23:48,238 U.S. 40 just west of Wild Horse, 1218 01:23:48,240 --> 01:23:50,507 a pedestrian was struck. 1219 01:23:53,345 --> 01:23:55,779 10-50 you call investigations. 1220 01:23:55,781 --> 01:23:58,449 Lincoln County Sheriff arriving on scene. 1221 01:24:39,892 --> 01:24:41,892 Hurry to Jadin, Joe. 1222 01:26:59,765 --> 01:27:01,298 Okay, boys, mama... 1223 01:27:01,300 --> 01:27:03,433 - Thank you! - You guys get together. 1224 01:27:03,435 --> 01:27:04,868 Happy Easter! 1225 01:27:04,870 --> 01:27:06,403 Okay, I want to tell you guys. 1226 01:27:06,405 --> 01:27:07,804 Look at me. 1227 01:27:07,806 --> 01:27:10,340 Look at the camera. 1228 01:27:10,342 --> 01:27:12,743 I love you guys so much, with all my heart. 1229 01:27:12,745 --> 01:27:15,445 You guys are such great kids and mamas. 1230 01:30:46,130 --> 01:30:51,130 Provided by explosiveskull https://twitter.com/kaboomskull 89816