All language subtitles for Greys.Anatomy.S06E15.WEBRip.x264-ION10.en

[Richard] I've seen a lot of
surgery residents come and go in my time,

and they're all addicted... to surgery.

It comes before food,

before sleep.

It becomes the most important thing...

What?

Nothing.

Well, go away.

You look nice.

Go away.

The only thing.

What they don't know
is that living on that high...

can eat them alive.

- I can't do it. [retches]
- Of course you can.

- Oh, my God. I'm gonna hurl again.
- OK, please don't,

'cause I just got the last of the puke
out of your hair.

Why do I have to do this?

I'm not a public speaker.
It's not my thing.

- God, I hate Derek Shepherd.
- All you have to do is talk about

- being a great surgeon.
- To a giant room full of people...

from a giant stage.

Oh, God. With a microphone.

[Richard] Some make it through.

They come out on the other side.

They survive with their sanity intact.

["Always" playing]

They become... better doctors and...

stronger people.

I didn't.

I broke.

I didn't kill anybody.

And I give thanks for that every day.

But I hurt people,

and scared the hell out of myself.

♪ Always ♪

I am 45 days sober today.

I am Richard,

and I am a grateful
and recovering alcoholic.

I was told if I went to rehab,

- my job would be waiting for me.
- [Derek] Pending board approval.

I'm sorry, Richard.

You know, maybe they'll reassess
in a few months.

I've been authorized
to offer you a position

as an attending general surgeon.

- You want me to come work under you?
- Yes, that's the stipulation.

Thanks for the offer, but, no.

I'll figure something else out.

Richard, it's lecture day,
and I have an open spot.

Lecture day? You brought that back?

Look, I understand if you
don't want to come back.

But if you're really
gonna leave this place,

don't leave it the way you did.
Give one last lecture.

[siren wailing]

[audience speaking indistinctly]

- Good morning.
- [audience] Good morning.

Good morning, everybody.

Good morning.

I'm excited.

- [yawns]
- Are you excited?

[audience speaking indistinctly]

This is a, uh, teaching hospital.

We learn a lot by doing.

We can also learn...
we should also learn...

from other people's experiences.

Their losses

will save you losses.

Their mistakes will save you mistakes.

Their victories will inspire yours.

Let's pay close attention.
This is gonna be good.

Dr. Miranda Bailey.

[man] Whoo!

- Good morning, everyone.
- [audience] Good morning.

[Bailey sighs]

- Ow.
- [Bailey] Morning, Dr. Yang.

[laughter]

What the...

If I have to stand here,
you have to listen. Eyes forward.

Answer a question right,
you get a chocolate.

Doze off, you get beaned in the face.

Ask Dr. Yang. My aim is exceptional.

[laughter]

- 2003...
- [computer beeps]

I'm three days into my intern year.

Anyone?

Alicia Tatum,

status post-oophorectomy three months ago,

now presents with fever
and non-focal abdominal pain.

OK. What does her workup show?

[Bailey] Multiple stones
and wall thickening. Excu... excuse me?

Excu... excuse me?

Multiple gallbladder stones
and wall thickening.

Would you recommend we do it
open or laparoscopically?

Laparoscopically.

- [elevator bell dings]
- Uh, who said that?

Who... who said that?

Uh...

Sir.

Mm.

You've, uh, had
a pretty rough go of it, huh?

Nothing helps the pain.

I've seen more doctors than I can count.

Hopefully we'll be the last... eight.

[chuckles]

We're gonna get to the bottom of this, OK?

Let's prep her for surgery.

[woman speaks indistinctly over P.A.]

You.

Uh, uh, Mandy.

Mandy? That's what you're going with?

Boy, your parents really
wanted you to work for it, huh?

Draw some blood and take her
for her pre-op X-ray.

- Uh, uh, well, I was wondering...
- Blood draw is too much for you?

No. I can draw blood. I... I just wanted...

You don't have wants or needs.
You're an intern.

The bottom of the surgical food chain.

I am a resident.

I've been here three years.
You've been here three days.

Do the math. Draw her blood.

[Meredith] Is she shaking?

Hmm?

She's definitely shaking.

- [Callie whispers] OK.
- Oh, she's doing her pee dance.

She does that when she has to pee.

- OK, well, is she gonna pee right now?
- Mm.

- [audience laughs]
- Oh. No, no, no.

- That's not the right...
- [chuckles]

[Callie] Um...

[audience oohs and ahhs]

OK.

Beautiful.

Um...

[softly] "In my third year
as a resident, I was"...

- [man] Can't hear you!
- [woman] Speak louder, please!

[louder] "In my third year
as a resident, I...

was presented
with a patient named Sunder..."

[audience murmuring]

"Atluri, a 28-year-old grad...

Student from India."

[woman speaking indistinctly over P.A.]

Uh, hey. I'm from ortho. I was paged.

Uh... you were paged by me. Alex Karev.

- You have to put me on this case.
- Um, here's a news flash,

overly enthusiastic intern guy.
I don't have to do anything.

Oh, come on.

- You seem like a cool person.
- You don't know me.

Well, you look like a cool person.
I need some cool cases.

- Oh
- Ever since the elevator thing

and heart guy, it's just...

Wait, that was you?

You're the heart-in-the-elevator guy?

[elevator bell dings]

Sure. Let's go with that.

- You're not at all how I pictured you.
- What's that supposed to mean?

I heard the story...
The heart in the elevator.

It was basically "rudy,"
you know... dorky guy makes good.

- But you're not dorky. You're hot.
- Maybe I was dorky

before I saved the cop in the elevator.

Maybe my unbelievable skill under pressure

- transformed me completely.
- Hmm. Did it?

Does that turn you on?

[chuckles] No. But this does.

[audience murmuring indistinctly]

[whispers] The chief.

[murmuring continues]

Um... [clears throat]

Good... good morning.

Once up on a time...

long before I was chief of surgery,

even before I was an attending,

I was a resident right here
at Seattle Grace,

just like you.

You learn from everything
in your residency.

The patients, the nurses,

the attendings.

But you don't realize how much
you learn from each other.

["Maneater" playing]

[Richard] 1982. You were all in diapers.

- Give me the chart on 23-14.
- Yes, doctor.

So, Dr. Russell, I hear
you shot a 74 last week.

You should come to my club
when you have a day off.

I used to play out there with your father.
We'll see if you measure up.

Oh, I'd love to, sir.

- We get any path back yet?
- Nothing's grown out of the cultures.

I checked them this morning, sir.
I went to the lab myself.

So, Dr. Russell, is he still febrile?

[woman] Where is it?

Where's that damn crash cart?

I was checking his wound
when he went into SVT,

with respiratory distress.
I can cardiovert him out of it.

Charge the paddles to 100.

Charge the paddles
What the hell is going on here?

He's here for a hernia surgery.
What's happening?

This is no job for a nurse.
I'll take it from here.

You know very well I am not a nurse.

Back off. [monitor beeps erratically]

[defibrillator whines]

Clear. [paddles thunk]

[beeping continues]

[monitor beeping rhythmically]

[Richard] Dr. Ellis Grey...

Two time Harper Avery award winner

and my colleague on this case.

A case that changed my life.

♪ You ain't gonna get too far ♪

Look around.

The biggest influences in your life

are sitting next to you... right now.

♪ She'll chew you up ♪

♪ Oh, here she comes
She's a maneater ♪

This is gonna get more interesting.

[Meredith] Yeah.

♪ Watch out, boy
Watch out, boy ♪

The late Dr. Ellis Grey
was known as a ground breaker,

a lion.

She was the best this hospital

or most hospitals had ever seen.

But back then, she was known as "sugar"

or "nurse"

or nothing at all.

This man came in for
a simple hernia repair,

and he's getting sicker instead of better.

You people better
figure out why, and fast.

[doctors speaking indistinctly]

[woman speaking indistinctly over P.A.]

[chuckles] Guess it's just
you and me, kid.

Surprise, surprise.

[Callie] Oh, crap.

- Oh, come on.
- [audience laughs]

Oh, come on. Come on.

[snores]

Hmm!

- Come on, come on, come on.
- Just talk.

- Hmm?
- Just...

Tell us what happened.

[man coughs]

OK.

Um...

There was, uh, this patient.

He wanted to get his clubfoot fixed.

[pants]

But I had a different idea.

You told him he could walk?

Yes. I was in the Peace Corps.

I've seen polio.
I've studied the procedures.

- You're privileged.
- Sir?

Your application. I remember it.

I'm saying, you grew up privileged,

and that privilege made you arrogant.

And arrogance in an unseasoned surgeon

- is a very dangerous thing.
- Sir, I didn't make this promise lightly.

I can do this.

Did you promise him you'll try
or did you promise him he'll walk?

["Our lips are sealed" playing]

Arrogant.

Arrogant.

All right, Dr. Torres.

You'll live and die on this.

This is your career at Seattle Grace.

[Ellis] He's such an ass.

Dr. Gracie didn't like
your infectious process idea,

but I think that's what
it's gotta be, right?

Gracie wouldn't know
his ass from his finger.

Is "ass" the word of the day?

There was mild hemolysis on his CBC.

Anemia? Rhabdo?

- Was there any hematuria?
- No, but there was some yeast

- in his urine.
- A contaminant.

Maybe the hemolysis
was just a bad blood draw.

Every day?

That doesn't seem right.

♪ ...Play ♪

♪ Our lips are sealed ♪

Mm.

This hemolysis thing is a red herring.

I feel it in my bones
that we're going down the wrong road.

Yeah, you're right.
I feel it in my bones, too.

Get your mind out of the gutter.

How can I do that
when I'm tearing your clothes off?

Oh. Think of the possibilities
for post-op fever.

Wind, wound, water.

Water.

The yeast.

I think I got it. [grunts]

[Bailey] Single most important step...

- [door opens and closes]
- ...in the treatment process.

- Anyone?
- Physical exam.

No. No chocolate for you.

Lab and radiology evaluation.

Uh, oh, come on, people.
Now you're embarrassing me.

- Patient history.
- Thank you. Catch.

[music continues playing]

[Richard] There isn't much inflammation,

but there are a lot of gallstones.

Dr. Baylow, what causes gallstones?

- High fat diets are a huge contributor.
- Yes, fatty foods and?

- Uh, she's vegan.
- Who's talking?

I'm sorry, sir.

- Keep it down or get out of the OR.
- She's vegan.

She is?

Yeah. She, uh, has had
severe reflux most of her life,

until she discovered when she was 15
that a vegan diet helped.

Her ex-boyfriend,

who broke up with her
after her last surgery,

was a vegan chef.

Well, that's quite a history
you have there, doctor.

Dr. Baylow,

your intern's doing a hell of a job.

♪ In the jealous games people play... ♪

Wh...

♪ Our lips are sealed ♪

♪ Pay no mind... ♪

Listen, you little moppet.

You hang me out to dry like that
in front of the chief again,

and I will end you... your career,
your future, your life.

- Do we understand each other?
- [exhales]

If it were up to me,

you'd be doing scut
until your hair turns gray.

[laughs] Oh, wait a minute.
It is up to me.

[grunts]

[Richard] We're not allowed
to beat you with sticks.

So we punish you with scut.

[audience laughs]

We do it today,
and they did it back in my day.

Dr. Grey and I did mountains of scut.

Mm-hmm.

Testing tissue samples was boring.

But it's how we found out

our patient had a fungus
called cryptococcus.

Have you traveled recently
to a tropical country,

like Taiwan or Argentina?

No. I've never even been
out of this country?

Do you live near a bird aviary
or are you around a lot of pigeons?

[chuckles]

No.

What kind of questions are these?

[Richard]
We asked his girlfriend to step out...

Because we knew we were gonna have to ask
some pretty uncomfortable questions.

We suspected he might have GRID.

Does anyone know what GRID is?

AIDS.

That's right.
But in 1982, it was known as...

Gay-related immune deficiency?

You think I have sex with men?

Are you out of your minds?
What kind of doctors are you?

- Sir, sir...
- You're sick!

Sir, just calm down.
We're not passing any judgment.

- They're just standard questions.
- Get this thing out of my arm!

Sir, get back into bed.
You still need the antibiotics.

I'll get the antibiotics
elsewhere, from real doctors.

I did not come here to be insulted!

And don't think I won't talk
to your superiors about this.

This was early 1982.

We hadn't seen a case
in Washington state, ever.

San Francisco only had five cases.
We didn't know what it was,

and because it was isolated
to the gay community,

the government wasn't funding research.

Does anyone know when the HIV retrovirus

was finally discovered?

Uh, 1983, but there wasn't
a test for it until '85.

That's right. It was so new

that even our attending
didn't know how to handle it.

GRID?

You accused a patient in my hospital
of having a disease

that hasn't even been proven to exist?
What were you thinking?

That patient wasn't even a gay.

He's threatening to sue us
for slander. Good job.

You're on probation.

Both of you.

[slurping]

[audience laughing]

[slurping continues]

[laughing continues]

Patient's getting harder to ventilate.

- Did you hear me?
- I heard you. Shush.

Did you shush me? Don't shush me.
You need to start to wrap up.

Wrap up? I just got started.

- We've been working for eight hours.
- Because I'm trying to be meticulous.

Make sure I'm getting a good compression.

- I think it's gonna work. I'm pretty sure.
- "Pretty sure"?

- [monitor beeping erratically]
- He's got pericarditis and lung disease.

He's getting unstable.

[beeping continues]

Dude, do you want him to walk
or do you want him to keep breathing?

[beeping continues]

[Bailey] Successes or failures...

- Which teaches you more?
- [Jackson] Failures.

Yeah, but that was a gimmie.
Don't get too cocky.

The patient was discharged,
and a month later,

she was back in the ER
in the middle of the night.

She had right lower quadrant
pain, fever, vomiting...

- Symptoms consistent with?
- Appendicitis.

Aha. You get a chocolate,
'cause that's what I thought.

But don't eat it yet. Pay attention.

I diagnosed Alicia with appendicitis.

and Dr. Webber decided that that appy

was going to be my first solo surgery.

[Richard] Mobilize the cecum.

There you go.

Not bad, Dr. Bailey.

[chuckles] Thank you, sir.

I'm glad you decided
to come to Seattle Grace.

You were a strong applicant.
People are excited to have you here.

[clears throat]

[monitor beeping rhythmically]

Surgery's a shark tank. Sharks have teeth.

Make sure you're a shark, too,

And not a minnow.

S... sir, are you referring to my height?

[Richard] No, I'm not. God made you short.

Who made you quiet?

Um...

[exhales deeply]

That, unfortunately, is
a perfectly healthy appendix.

- What?
- No infection, no inflammation.

The whole lower right quadrant looks good.

Sir, I'm... I'm s... I'm so sorry.

Shake it off. You know,
if you never get a negative appy,

that means you're not doing enough appys.

That's just part of the process.

All right, let's take it out,
and we'll get ready to close.

[exhales]

[Callie] I didn't want to close, but...

we had to.

So...

We took the...
patient to surgery again, and...

Wait, no.

[audience murmuring]

Hang on.

[whispers] You were there. Help her.

That's when we saw the dude
do the thing with his foot.

You know...

The surgery was more difficult
than I anticipated.

Uh, I was able to do the tendon release.

But your lungs and heart
weren't able to withstand

any more time under anesthesia, so...

I couldn't do any more than that.

I understand.

When do we start again?

Sunder, I'm saying, I...

I think we don't.

Well...

now I don't understand.

[monitor beeping rhythmically]

Look at this.

Look at my foot.

Watch it.

[chuckles]

You did that for me.

Since I was seven, I have
never been able to do that.

I've always been different.

I've always been stared at.

I want to walk.

I want to stand straight up.

I believe you can do the rest.

Please.

Please try.

[Richard] No surgeon likes
giving up on a patient.

Dr. Grey and I liked it
even less than most.

But when a patient refuses treatment,

you're done.

I mean, we were done.

Well, that's what we thought anyhow.

- [woman] I put in the NG tube, doctor.
- OK.

Dr. Grey, looking beautiful as usual.

Flattery will get you to an on-call room

- in five minutes or less.
- You're on.

[Meredith] Mommy! Mommy! Look!

That's supposed to be for her birthday.

She was crying. She misses you.

And I got desperate.

Richard.

Thatcher, how are you?

I only have a few seconds.
Show me your doll.

- [pagers beeping]
- [man on P.A.] Dr. Grey, Dr. Webber,

stat to emergency.

- I gotta go, Thatch.
- Mommy, don't go!

Take her.

Thatcher, I have to go. Meredith.

Mommy, no.

Mommy.

Don't go.

Dr. Grey, Dr. Webber, stat to the ER.

[staff murmuring]

Kaposi's sarcoma.

Your GRID patient from a few months back.

Handle it.

[murmuring continues]

I'm sorry I...

You were right.

You were right about everything.

Please...

Please...

Help me.

A healthy appendix...

The third surgery for this patient

with unrelenting abdominal pain,
fatigue and muscle pain.

- Now what?
- Test for zebras. Um, uncommon diseases.

OK.

- Do an ANA for lupus.
- Lupus. Yeah.

- Whoa, what about lead? You test for lead?
- Good, good. See?

Sometimes it's not easy.

Sometimes you have to be
your patient's advocate

and push to get things done.

[woman speaking indistinctly over P.A.]

Excuse me, uh, Dr. Baylow.

Alicia Tatum is being discharged

with nothing but a note for
a psych consult?

She's sniffing around for pain meds.
She's depressed, is her problem.

Well, yeah. Months of severe,
untreated pain can be depressing.

OK, smarty pants.

I just thought maybe we could
test for lupus

or, um, lead poisoning,
or look, even hemochromatosis...

We are not ordering
thousands of dollars in tests

for something that can be cured
with a big dose of Prozac.

- But...
- What are we doing with Alicia Tatum?

We're turfing her to psych for depression.

Well, we cut her open three
times and didn't cure her pain.

- Wouldn't you be depressed?
- Of course.

B... before she goes, I thought
we could test for lupus

or lead poisoning
or maybe hemochromatosis.

Hemochromatosis. Now you're thinking.

Good work.

[Ellis] Oh, my God. I think
that's an intussusception.

I've never seen one before in an adult.

Well, I suppose we'd handle it
the same way as with a kid, right?

Dr. Gracie, what would you do
in this situation?

Quite frankly, nothing.
I wouldn't operate.

This patient's a lost cause.

He's got GRID.

It's called AIDS now.

AIDS.

No one knows what's causing it
or how it spreads.

You want me to potentially risk
the health of my staff,

my own life, for a guy
with a death sentence?

No, I'm not doing it.

And I recommend you don't do it either.

We took an oath.
We're supposed to be healers.

Ten years ago, you wouldn't even have
been allowed in this program.

Don't you dare tell me
what kind of oath we take.

[Callie] We'd hit a wall.

And, um...

We planned a number of procedures.

But, um...

Uh, but then...

Then I gave you that rousing pep talk.

[audience laughs]

You know what? You totally did. [laughs]

What if I had quit in the elevator?

What if I had frozen? I mean,
I had every reason to freeze.

I'm an intern. I never had
my hand on a heart before.

No reason for me to think

I'm not gonna do anything
but kill that cop faster.

- But you didn't.
- No, I didn't.

I cut him open, I cross-clamped the aorta,

I stuck my finger in the hole
and I stopped the bleeding.

It was seamless. I was perfect.

So pretend there's a blackout

and you're stuck in an elevator
and your guy is bleeding out.

What are you gonna do?
Are you gonna just quit?

[Meredith] What was the result?

Did she test positive for hemochromatosis?

[Bailey] Nope.

- [indistinct shouting]
- Uh, what about lime disease?

Lime disease. Negative.

Celiac disease. Negative.
Every test I could think of, negative.

So I did what I've told you all
to do when you get stuck.

I went to the library and I hit the books.

I hit 'em hard.

I was raised to be polite, you know?

Don't raise your voice,

have respect for people
higher in the pecking order,

be generous to those below...
I was not raised to be a shark.

Now does that make me a minnow?

Am I a minnow?

[Joe] I really don't know.

[voice breaking] I'm a minnow.

Oh.

Not because of my height.

Because I'm a minnow on the inside.

[slow music playing]

That is a sad state of affairs, Joe.

♪ Will you come home?
Will you come home? ♪

♪ Please come home ♪

[Richard] Hell, we weren't noble.

We were just more arrogant than the rest.

And had more to prove.

Your CT showed that your bowel
has twisted in on itself.

Probably because of Kaposi's
lesions in your abdomen.

[Ellis] It's a pretty rare problem,
but we can take care of it with surgery.

Will Dr. Gracie be doing the surgery?

[monitor beeping rhythmically]

I'm afraid you're stuck with us.

He's scared, isn't he?

Just like them, outside.

I can see them...

Pointing, mumbling, staring.

Screw them.

I don't blame them...

For being scared.

[voice breaking] I'm scared, too.

I used to be scared that, um...

People would find out
that I was gay and...

Now, um, I can't even hide it anymore.

[cries]

I'm a... I'm a leper...

An outcast...

An untouchable.

No one will look at me.

[sobs] No one will touch me.

[sniffles]

I want to hate everyone

for treating me this way.

But how...

How can I hate them for being scared

when I'm the one
that's been living the lie?

[sniffles]

[Ellis] This is your chance
to change that.

Have this surgery,

let us operate.

What's the point?

No one recovers from this.

- No one lives.
- [Richard] For all you know,

there could be a cure for this
thing tomorrow or next week.

Let us operate.

[Callie] We spent days
trying to make things right,

trying to figure out the best strategy.

So we, uh, we researched

and, uh, practiced and practiced,

and... eventually, we were ready.

- OK, retract the rectus femoris.
- What about the nerve?

- [monitor beeping erratically]
- BP just dropped and he's tachycardic.

- Torsades on the monitor.
- Oh, my God. Pericardial tamponade?

- [Alex] Sounds like.
- [Callie] Damn it.

OK, nobody panic. Page cardio.

Alex, we need to do
a subxiphoid pericardiotomy

to drain the blood
that's squeezing the heart.

It's like a miniature version
of what you did in the elevator.

- So get a scalpel.
- I can't.

What do you mean, you can't?
You already did.

- Take the scalpel.
- I... I can't.

The patient is crashing, Karev.
Do the elevator thing.

I can't. I've never done this.
It... it wa... it wasn't me.

I'm not the heart-in-the-elevator guy.
It was O'Malley.

[exhales deeply]

OK. OK.

No, this is fine.

We're fine.

And you... you're doing this.

- But I haven't...
- Just because you haven't

doesn't mean you can't.
Get it together and take the scalpel.

[monitor beeping erratically]

OK.

Uh...

Make a six centimeter-long incision

over the xiphisternal junction.

Good.

[Richard] We knew
what we were doing was risky.

These days we know that AIDS transmission

requires exchanges of bodily fluids,
but back then we had no idea.

Can you get it from
casual contact, from the air?

From surgery?

No idea.

[water running]

Poor guy.

- Living a lie for so long.
- Yeah. Shame.

We're living a lie, too.

What?

We shouldn't be doing what
we're doing. We have to stop.

No. We're not the lie.

Our marriages are the lie.

This? Us?

This is what's right.

We should leave them, Richard.

You leave Adele, and I'll leave Thatcher.

I can't. You have a daughter. I can't.

And neither can you.

[turns water off]

You don't have to go in there.
I can do this alone.

- You have Meredith to think about.
- You're just like the rest of them.

You have a different skin color,
but it turns out, you're just like them.

- Ellis...
- I gave birth to a child, Richard.

That makes me a mother.
It doesn't make me inept.

It doesn't make me less of a woman.
It doesn't make me less of a surgeon.

No matter how much everyone wants it to.

[turns water on]

All my research didn't help.

Dr. Baylow sent the patient home.

So I thought she'd won.

I thought, you know, maybe
I wasn't cut out for this game.

But a couple of months later...

[thermometer beeps]

Alicia?

Oh, thank God. A familiar face.

What happened?

The pain got really bad.

They said maybe I have some sort
of obstruction or something

from the other surgeries.

They want to go back in
and take another look.

Mandy...

[voice breaking] I don't think
I can take it anymore.

Please tell me this surgery's gonna help.

They're gonna find something, right?

["Metropolis" by Faded Paper Figures
playing]

Uh...

Ju... d... don't touch her, uh...

I know you're... you're here
to take her to the OR,

but, uh, don't touch her.

[Lexie] So you canceled
your resident's surgery?

Isn't that a little bold?

Well, she was worried
about adhesions, right?

- Give me candy.
- [audience laughs]

No adhesions. No candy.
And it wasn't bold, Grey, it was stupid.

But in this case, it was also necessary.

Where do you get off canceling my surgery?

- When I paged you...
- You work for me. Got that?

You listen to what I have to say.

Are you at all familiar with
what surgeons do, Dr. Bailey?

We cut.

Yeah, rebook Miss Tatum for surgery.

No, Dr. Baylow, you wanted to go in

and explore her obstruction.
She doesn't have any signs of adhesions.

Look, just because she's had
previous surgeries

doesn't mean that you shouldn't
actually look for another cause.

She has a pseudo-obstruction
that could be resolved with an NG tube.

And if you'd looked further

and I don't know, talked to your patient,

you would've discovered that
along with abdominal pain,

she also had, uh, weakness, palpitations,

numbness, uh, skin changes

and her urine is intermittently dark.

Ringing any bells yet?

Your patient, who's been sliced
nine ways to Sunday,

has porphyria.

If you had diagnosed it earlier,

she could've avoided
getting her ovaries taken out.

And her gallbladder and...

Yes, yes, I took out her appendix,

and I, too, am at fault for not
looking at the whole person.

But you know the difference
between you and me?

I learned something from it.
I learned when not to cut.

I learned to listen to my patient.

How could you have not learned
in three years

- what took me three months to learn?
- Dr. Bailey.

And the reason I had her chart

was because you ignored my pages

and she needs to get started
on hemin right away.

You put it in her IV.

- You give it to her daily for four days...
- Dr. Bailey.

The patient gets better.

The patient doesn't get prodded,
probed, scoped

or cut open like a Thanksgiving turkey,
you supercilious fool!

Dr. Bailey.

[whimpers]

My office.

Now.

♪ Let your eyes go ♪

We did a series of shorter surgeries

so his lungs and heart
could withstand the anesthesia.

It was grueling for the patient,
but worth it in the end.

- Show 'em the X-rays.
- Oh, yeah. So cool.

OK, um...

These are the before.

And these are the after.

[murmuring]

Wow. Yeah.

Um...

[laughs]

Yeah, it was... It was amazing.

I mean, after the final surgery,
we were just...

And, uh, we celebrated that night.

Man, did we ever celebrate.

[upbeat music playing]

[moaning]

Mm. Wait.

- Cone of silence.
- Yeah, yeah, yeah. Whatever.

[upbeat music continues]

[cheers and applause]

[Bailey] I knew I was in big trouble.

Now it is my job

to make sure that my residents
are supported

- and treated with respect.
- Of course, and I'm so sorry...

- You have said enough for one day.
- Sorry.

It's my job.

So we are gonna sit here with you wearing

that terrified look on your face
for a respectable amount of time

so that Dr. Baylow
and her friends can assume

you are having your behind
handed to you on a platter.

[upbeat music continues]

You're gonna make
a hell of a surgeon, Dr. Bailey.

[exhales]

- Lose the smile.
- [song stops]

[Richard] Well, the patient
survived the surgery.

but eight months later,
he came back with PCP pneumonia.

[indistinct murmurs]

He died a week later.

Dr. Grey and I...

Well, um...

I won't speak for her.

But I lost the sense
that I was a superhero.

And I really started to think
of how dangerous it all was.

It changes you... This work.

Your patients, your colleagues...

You change each other.

You don't ever think you'll lose your way.

But what happens in this hospital...

Just remember why you came here.

You said it the day
you graduated from med school.

You took the physician's oath.

Remember it.

Tape it to your locker,

to your bathroom mirror...

'Cause it is too easy to lose your way.

I solemnly pledge

to consecrate my life
to the service of humanity.

I will give to my teachers...

the respect and gratitude
that is their due.

[mouthing words]
I will practice my profession

with conscience and dignity.

The health of my patients

will be my number one consideration.

I will respect the secrets
that are confided in me

even after my patient has died.

[Richard] I will maintain,
by all the means in my power...

The honor and the noble traditions
of the medical profession.

My colleagues will be
my sisters and brothers.

[monitor beeps]

[speaking inaudibly]

I will not permit considerations of age,

- disease or disability...
- [labored breathing]

...creed...

ethnic origin...

gender...

race...

political affiliation...

nationality...

sexual orientation...

social standing...

[labored breathing continues]

...or any other factor to intervene
between my duty...

[breathing begins to slow]

...and my patient.

[monitor emitting continuous tone]

I will maintain the utmost respect
for human life.

I will not use my medical knowledge

to violate human rights
and civil liberties,

even under threat.

I make these promises solemnly...

freely...

and upon my honor.

[cheers and applause]

[thunder rumbling]

[Lissie's "Everywhere I go" playing]

♪ And I fall ♪

The job offer still stands.
Think about it.

Let me know.

♪ How's the way to be ♪

♪ Tell how's the way to go ♪

We'll see.

♪ Tell me all that I should know ♪

[thunder continues]

♪ And I fall ♪

♪ On my knees ♪

To Philip.

May he rest in peace.

You can't toast a dead Irish man
with a soda pop, Richard.

Get this man a vodka, Frankie.

[man] Oh, yeah. Coming right up.

You know I can't stand
the taste of that stuff.

It's time to learn.

You're a grown-up, Richard.

It's time to act like it.

♪ Everywhere I go ♪

♪ Angels... ♪

I can't leave her, Ellis.

♪ Follow me now ♪

I can't.

We'll see.

♪ Angels will call on me ♪

♪ And take me to my home ♪

♪ And angel ♪

♪ Will follow me now ♪

♪ Everywhere I go ♪

♪ And angels will follow me now ♪

♪ Lead me to my home ♪

[closing theme music playing]