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[dramatic music playing]

[birds chirping]

[Nathan] I'm Nathan. I'm 13.

I live in Denver, Colorado
with my mom.

When I get home,
I'll go longboard,

maybe Skype a friend
or go outside,

play with the neighbors.

I don't know how old I was
when I figured out

that I was conceived
with donor sperm though.

Most of my friends

come from a pretty
normal family.

I tried to look
for the donor, but...

[man speaking]

No.

When I was first contacted
by other siblings,

I remember that I was talking

to friends on Facebook

and I got a message saying,

you know, "Are you Nathan?
Do you live in Denver?"

I said "Yes."

And that's how I met them.

[dramatic music playing]

[woman] This is the audio tape

of donor 5114.

Today's date
is October 23rd, 1996.

[man] Hello,
my donor number is 5114.

I am six feet one inch tall.

I have medium build,
straight brown hair,

and brown eyes.

I have full lips,

and my racial color code
as established

by the California Cryobank
is white.

[woman] Can you give me
one or two adjectives

that best describe you?

[man] I would say
optimistic and curious.

[woman] Do you have any hobbies?

[man] Any hobbies, yes.

I like fly fishing and running,

reading,
and traveling especially.

[woman] Do you have anything
that you would like to say

to the recipient of your sperm

or a child born from your sperm?

[man] Yes.
I wish them all the luck.

[dramatic music playing]

[woman] This is, like,
one of the three pictures

I have of me and you together.

No, it's... You're not
in anything in here,

this is all before...
B.N., Before Nathan.

That's the first...
That's Hawaii,

that's...
You were seven weeks old.

People thought I was crazy.

"They said "What'd you do,
just give birth

and get on a plane?" [chuckles]

I think I knew from the time
I was seven years old

that basically
what I wanted to be

when I grow up was a mommy,

and it just ended up

that I was single
for most of my life

and so I decided to do

a donor insemination.

I never considered
an extended family.

I never really...
Even the thought of siblings

didn't really enter my mind.

You're so excited about the fact

that you're starting
this journey

with having a baby.
You don't think of,

you know, you got...

You don't think about
the wider picture.

Everyone thought
you were gonna be like

a nine-pound baby

and you were six pounds,
thirteen ounces.

You were microscopic.

[Nathan] When my half-siblings
first contacted me,

I remember being happy
that I had half-siblings

but a little frustrated
with my mom

because she had known
about some of them

and she hadn't told me before.

Well, I had told my mom
about this

and she didn't think

it would be a good idea
to tell Nathan.

She believed that
he had a family

and he didn't need
any other family.

Then I thought, well, you know,

when he's older,
if he ever wants to know,

if he ever puts it together
in his head that,

you know, there might be,

I just thought
I'd let him kind of...

And I left it alone.

I never really thought that

I would come in contact
with my siblings

but I knew that
there was a chance

that there were, out there.

Me and the other siblings
always get on Skype,

talk to each other online

after we all get home
from school.

I feel like
I've already known them

for longer than I have

even though I might know
that much about them.

Being online having social media

really helps us stay connected

because so far,

it's the only contact we have

between each other.

[woman] He's been on Skype
with these siblings

since the day he met them

and tomorrow
we are getting on a plane

and we are flying to Taos

and he is going to meet
five of his half-siblings.

[dramatic music playing]

- [Nathan] Hi.
- [Zeke] Hi.

[woman] You must be Zeke.

[Zeke] My name is Zeke.

- [man] Yeah.
- [man] Do you have a...

- [woman] Hi.
- [Nick] Hey.

Hello.

[indistinct chatter]

- [woman] Let's go.
- [girl] Let's go.

- Hi.
- [Nathan] Hi.

[Alexis] Hi, Nate.

- [Nathan] Hi.
- Okay.

[dramatic music playing]

[indistinct chatter]

[Alexis] Ten hours.

[indistinct chatter]

[man speaking]

[Danny] Oh, yeah.

[Alexis] Danny,
I brought you a flower.

[indistinct chatter]

So where did you come from?

[indistinct chatter]

[Danny] Oh we got a tarantula.

[man] Yeah, where
is the tarantula anyway?

[indistinct chatter]

[woman]
It's kind of overwhelming.

It's... There's a lot of people

and a lot of children
and I had talked

to a couple of people outside

when I first got here
and everyone's so friendly

and nice and it's just exciting.

[Neylan] Oh, I have
a present for you.

Oh, cool.

A bracelet.

- Yeah, it's pretty.
- [man speaking]

Yeah. We're sisters, you know?

They all say "sisters forever."

Yeah. We're all girls here.

- Right, Danny?
- [Zeke] What?

[Danny] What? No, yes.

[man] So when you guys got here,

you guys got here last night.

Like,
what did you guys do today?

- Waiting for Nathan.
- Yeah. He never came.

[Danny] On Skype, he told me
that he'd be here

by, like, 5:00 in the morning

so we were all up till like
5:00 in the morning,

- waiting for him.
- Yeah.

- And then...
- We slept on the balcony.

And then it turned out
that he left at 5:00

in the morning.
I was like, "wow."

[man speaking]

[Nick] At first,
I was really nervous.

I didn't know what to say
because I feel like

we're brothers and sisters but,

like, we've never met before.

So I didn't really know
what to say.

My name is Nick.

May name is Danny.

My name is Alexis.

My name is Neylan.

My name is Zeke.

[Nick] I've noticed that
we all have full lips.

[Alexis] Yeah.
And dark eyebrows.

[Neylan]
And bushy eyebrows, yeah.

[Alexis] Some of us have,
like, kind of wide-ish noses

like we do
and he does kind of...

And we all play soccer.

- Yeah.
- Right?

Do most of us do track?

I do track, yeah.

It's my favorite sport, so.

[Nick] Today, like,
we kind of like...

We got to know each other
well today I think.

- [Neylan] Yeah.
- Yeah.

And I wanna know
Nathan more, too.

[indistinct chatter]

[Danny] At first,
meeting Neylan's mom,

they found each other
and we've been talking

ever since we were little.

[Alexis]
Their moms found, like, Nick

and a few other people
and then like my mom really

wasn't into the whole
donor thing

and she was kind of like
staying away from it.

And then I got interested

and I started looking
for my half-siblings.

She wasn't, like, against it.
She just didn't really

think about it that much

and, like, she was like,
"Oh, if my daughter's"

interested in it,
I'll be interested in it...

in it, too."
So, when I was old enough

to understand and, like,
look for my half-siblings,

then she kind of like
helped me out.

Yeah.

I have not had any contact

with any of the mothers
before this.

I've been sort of on the margin.

So I find the experience
both delightful,

I think they're all
very, very wonderful,

but I also find it
quite frankly odd

because here I am
with a group of women

who have had children
by the same man as I have

and we just met.
So it is a bit...

Again, it's very delightful

but it's also weird, I think.

But we can't hate each other...

- No. No. No.
- ...because our man

didn't, like, screw around
or anything.

- No. No.
- It's all by choice.

It's... Yeah.

I never in my wildest dreams

would have thought
we would be sitting here

with other children
from the same donor.

I guess I never really
thought about the fact

that Neylan was gonna
meet these other children,

and they were gonna
be like siblings.

They've got a connection

and I think it's hard
for any of us

to understand because
we all have the connection

because we've picked
the same number.

But the kids have the connection

that they came
from the same person.

[woman] Okay, Donor 5114,
are you a student?

[Nathan] Yes.

[woman]
And what are you studying?

[man] I'm studying
my masters in architecture.

[woman] Can you give me
one or two adjectives

that best describe you?

[man] I'd say optimistic
and curious.

[woman] And what do you
admire in others?

[man] I admire when people
show a sense of courage

and honesty.

[woman] And what do you least
like about others?

[man]
I least like lying, really.

It something
that bothers me a lot.

- [woman] Dishonesty?
- [man] Dishonesty.

[woman] Okay. Great. Good.

Do you have anything
that you would like to say

to your recipient of your sperm

or a child born from your sperm?

[man] Yes.
I wish them all the luck.

[woman] Okay. All right.
That's it. Thank you.

Well, the first time
I heard it, I was like...

I was kind of shocked
to hear his voice

because I didn't really, like,

I didn't know like at all
what he was like

and it just, like,
makes me more curious

about what he's like
and what he looks like.

[Alexis] I wished that
he had said more in the tape,

like, I expected more.

When they asked him, like,
if there was anything

that he'd like
to pass on to, like,

the recipients of his donation,

like, I wish he had said
more than good luck,

like, that kind...
That part kind of

made me feel kind of empty,

like, that's all
you have to say? Yeah.

[Danny] Like it was almost
like in the profile

that he like just donated

because he needed
the college money.

Sort of seemed like that.

- [Neylan] Yeah.
- Right.

If he wants to have,
like, contact with us

when we get older.

[dramatic music playing]

[birds chirping]

[Alexis] I want our donor
to know that,

yeah, we really want to meet him

and we know that
he probably has a life

of his own now
and he might have, like,

a partner and kids
that he's raised

and that we just wanna have,

like, some identity
of who we are.

[Danny] Because you wanna
know the other half of you,

like, you only know
what your mom gave you.

- Yeah. Like...
- And sometimes

you're not even that
similar to your mom,

so you're like ugh.

[Nick]
It's, like, hard to, like,

not be able to think
of who your dad is.

Most of my friends
can just, like,

talk about their dad
or, like, know who they are

and I can't, like...

Like I can't even picture him
in my head

of what he looks like,
only my mom.

[dramatic music playing]

[Alexis] So we're all
here in California

and we're gathering
for our second

sibling reunion.
Some of us haven't met before

- and... Like Mattie...
- And me.

...and Sadie.

I think we're all
just looking forward

to having a really good time
here with one another.

[dramatic music playing]

[Mattie] It hasn't, like,
hit me yet

that, like, I met everyone

because we all
just kind of clicked

and we connected really well.

And it all felt
just really natural.

[Sadie] Yeah.
We get along so well already

because we're related
so we're kind of not afraid

to just be ourselves

and we don't have
to like impress them

because we're all like
brothers and sisters,

and it's not like
meeting new people,

you have to worry about like
what they think of you.

[Mattie] Yeah.
And we all like talk about

stuff about ourselves
that you normally

wouldn't share
with other people,

and we compare ourselves,
like, oh,

- you have the same...
- [Sadie] Yeah.

We have the same feet.

[dramatic music playing]

[Lisa] Sadie and I found out
about the first reunion

and it was too late
for us to come to

and Sadie was devastated,

and she wanted
to come on her own

and I had to explain that

we really didn't know
anyone yet.

And I promised her
that the next one,

that we would come
to no matter what.

[Amanda] When I got with Cindy,

I said I will not be with you

- unless we can have a child.
- We can have kids.

And at that point,
we didn't know

any other gay people
to begin with, much less

any other people that
had children for sure.

For her to have not only a
connection to other families

that are similar to ours
but then also to have

a half-sibling or relation
to that connection.

And it's just bigger
than we could ever dream

- and it's beautiful.
- [woman] Best ever.

- [woman] [indistinct]
- Hey.

[woman] I'm just gonna talk
to you later.

[woman] Hey, Nate.

[indistinct chatter]

[Mattie]
I've been looking forward

to going to the Cryrobank

just to like see
what it's all about.

It's just weird going
somewhere that he's been

because I know
that I've always, like,

imagined in my head ever
since I was a little girl,

"Oh, I wonder,
like, how my dad is or,

like, what he's doing
or where he's been."

So it's just, kind of,
like a weird feeling.

Like Mattie said,
since I was young,

I've always had this
really, like,

profound curiosity
to, like, know he is.

So I guess whenever
I go places, like,

when I went to New York.
I was like,

"Oh, I bet he walked here.
I bet he's been here before."

And when we go
to the California Cryrobank,

we will know for sure
he's been here before.

So that's, kind of, like,
a weird feeling

but I'm excited.

[dramatic music playing]

[Dr. Cappy] Hello.

Hello, welcome
to the California Cryrobank.

It's wonderful to see everybody.

Whether you realize it or not,

you're a brand new generation
of what's taking place.

I mean, all of a sudden,
from individuals

you become an extended family,

in two or three generations,
wow,

what an extended family
you're gonna be.

All right. So this
is our cryogenic center

and we distribute about
30 plus thousands of sperm

every year all over the world.

And I would think
that at this time,

we probably have about 65

to maybe 70,000 children born.

And by looking at your group
as an example,

we're doing a good job.

So somebody asked about sperm.

So right here,
you can see the ampules,

their sperm when it came.
Want to...

Anybody want to take
and interesting picture?

Whoa.

How's that for a birthday cake?

[indistinct chatter]

Happy birthday.

[Latrice] I'm Latrice Allen.

I'm the donor
matching counselor.

Initially when clients

are coming in and they need help

with making a selection
of the donor,

they generally
will send me a picture

of whomever
they're trying to match

and I try to find a donor

that has the same
similar characteristics.

And then at the end of that,

when the offsprings
are turning 18,

they're calling me
to help them find

their donors if possible.

Who's the oldest of...
Out of all the offsprings?

- How old are you?
- Fifteen.

[Latrice] You're 15?
So I would imagine

that you would be the first
one that would call me

to find out if we could get
in contact with the owner.

On my 18th birthday.

[Latrice] What donor number?

[all] 5114.

[Latrice] Basically what happens

with anonymous contact,
if the donor

still wants to remain anonymous,

he doesn't wanna release
his identity.

However,
he's willing to participate

in some type of communication

that's facilitated through me.

So, I will have the offspring
send me a bio.

Maybe a list of questions,
some photos

if they're comfortable
with doing that,

I'll cut and paste,
email that to the donor,

the donor responds,
cut and paste, send it back,

we play Ping-Pong
until the donor says,

you know, "Have a great life."

I have answered
all your questions.

I wish you the best." Or,
"I feel comfortable enough

to have this person
have my contact information."

A lot of these donors
are married.

They have their own children.

So some of them
have discussed it

with their wives,
some of them haven't.

I find that the ones

that haven't discussed it
with their wives

are a little bit
more apprehensive

about having any type
of communication.

I can generally talk them
into anonymous communication,

especially if they say
no right off the bat.

So it's, you know,
just give us this.

These kids are not looking
for a father figure,

they're looking for a missing
piece to their puzzle.

[dramatic music playing]

[woman] I'd love to, like,
analyze it.

- Oh, my gosh.
- [man] Is it...

Is that real speed?

[man] That is real speed, yeah.

[woman] What?

[Margot] We're checking out
actual sperm in microscopes

and on the screen,

checking it where it all began.

What's your favorite one?

Only one of those guys
is gonna be the winner.

[woman] When you talk
about with your siblings,

like, when you saw the tanks

and when you saw
the dry ice or...

I don't know. It's just weird
to know that, like,

part of us has been here before.

[Dr. Cappy]
Mattie, how is it having

so many new siblings?

I like them all. They're great.

Thank you so much.

[Dr. Cappy]
And thanks for coming,

- I'm sorry you're leaving.
- Oh, me too.

I wish I could stay forever.

[Sadie] I'm glad
I went to the Cryrobank

but at the same time
it made me feel a little bit

like we're not empty, but...

we didn't really get
more answers.

- I don't know.
- We didn't...

I'm glad I went but I...

we didn't really get
more answers,

but I think it was good
to just see

where it all began.

Even if the donor
wanted to meet us

and we opened up
to meeting him as well,

they couldn't connect us

and I don't really think
that's really fair.

I don't think there's any
practical reason

why you should say no

if both sides
are open to contact.

[Alexis]
I think as soon as someone's

close to turning 18,
I think we'll probably have

like a countdown or something.

- [Sadie] Yeah.
- [Alexis] But I don't think

we should get our hopes
too high up

because there's a good chance
he'll say no,

but we can get excited about it.

Mmm-hmm.

[Danny] That was my first
time swimming in the ocean.

- Ever?
- Uh-huh.

- Are you serious?
- Yes. I...

Where have you been
all your life?

Not like this on the east,
though.

[woman] Grab your bag, Nathan.

This is it.

Anybody claim these socks? Ray?

[indistinct chatter]

[woman]
I think that there's a phone

- underneath the bed.
- [man] Oh, good,

because we're missing two.

[Alexis] The hardest part
of the trip, I think

is just knowing
that you have to leave.

[Sadie] It's gonna be
a while probably

until we see each other.

[woman] Oh, yeah.

[indistinct chatter]

[woman] The kids
are already starting

to anticipate their goodbyes.

There's a lot
of emotions flowing.

[Nick] I'm thankful
that all the families

let us come and let us have

the opportunity to do all this.

[Neylan] I just think
it's really bittersweet

but you can definitely
feel the love

and how much we're gonna
miss one another.

[Danny] Every time,
it gets a bit harder

to say goodbye,
but it's reassuring to know

that we'll have another one

of these visits again
sometime soon.

[dramatic music playing]

[Latrice] So two of the moms,
Brandy and Fran,

approached me after their visit

and was curious to know

if we had any additional vials

from donor 5114.

And we did a little research

and found that we had
an abandoned purchase

and storage account
where the client

didn't pay for the vial.

So, they were deemed abandoned

and we were able to take
those vials back

and make those available

for Brandy and Fran.

The chances of having vials
from a donor,

from that far back is just,
like, pretty unlikely.

As far as we know,
the vials that we found

were the two last vials
that we have

or will have available
on donor 5114

and we wish them all the best.

[wind blowing]

[Brandy] So this is the cane

that the specimen comes in

and the vial is clipped

into this little cane.

And this is the vial.
This is all we get.

This is our shot.

It's not very much,

but hopefully it'll do
the trick.

[Francesca] We just need one.

[Brandy] We've been together
almost eight years

and it was pretty cool

because Francesca and I
never would have thought

that this could have been
a possibility for us.

[Francesca] I knew that
we were getting ready to try.

Our goal was, like,
within the next six months.

I mean it was just like destiny

that this was just frozen

just waiting for me to mature...

- Grow up?
- ...and get old enough

and grow up to be able
to use them.

[Brandy] This is the vial.

This is the 5114 vial.

This is the sperm
that come in here

- that we used get...
- Is this actually 5114?

...pregnant. Yeah.

- That's pretty small, huh?
- It's...

they're still stuff in there?

[Brandy] Probably.

Besides the...

yellow thing?

[Brandy] I wouldn't open it.

I'm not going to.

[Danny] It's crazy to think
that I was like

once in a tiny little
container like this

being shipped off to New Mexico

and that I came in

this just little tiny container.

It was just neat thinking like

that could be your brother

and, or sister in there.

Just this little thing could
change your whole future.

It's pretty crazy.

I'm really nervous for tomorrow

when we find out if my mom
is pregnant or not.

It would be definitely cool
if she is,

to have another half-sibling

and it'll be cool

to have another addition
to my family.

[dramatic music playing]

[Brandy] I'm excited
but I'm pretty nervous.

This could be like...

a new life for us

with a baby
or keep trying, so...

I'm just a little nervous...

excited.

I can't wait to see
what it shows.

But I'm nervous.

Fran, do you want to use
the digital or the other one?

Yeah.

- Here we go.
- Here we go.

[dramatic music playing]

[indistinct]

We've been waiting
for a long time.

Maybe this test is a dud.

Yeah.

[Brandy] It's on a timer
right now

- and it'll tell us...
- [Francesca] I think it says

three minutes, so.

You're so shaky.

[Brandy] I know.

A little more pressure
this time than the last time.

[dramatic music playing]

[Francesca crying]

Next time.

I love you.

I love you, too.

I'm proud of you.

[dramatic music playing]

It's a new journey
for us, though,

because you've never had
to keep trying.

I know.

I don't know
what this feels like.

The last time it was positive

the first try.

It's okay.

[dramatic music playing]

[Lorie] So we're in Provo, Utah.

I'm here for a parent conference

at Nathan's new school.

He's been here
for five months today.

And it's a...

therapeutic boarding school,

is where he's at now.

And he...

he was having some struggles
in his school in Denver.

And at the end
of the first semester

of ninth grade,

he didn't pass
many of his classes.

There were relationship
issues at home

and some behaviors
that were concerning.

He didn't wanna go to therapy.

And he was past the point

where I could just pick him up
and put him in the car

and take him places.

So when I decided
to send him away,

I could either let him know

what was going to be coming,

or they show up at your door
at 3:00 AM

and wake your child up
and take them.

And I was afraid if I told him

what would be coming,
that he would run away,

and I didn't want him
out on the streets,

I didn't want him, you know,

to disappear.

So, I chose the path

of having them come at 3:00 AM.

It was the hardest thing
I ever did.

And he was angry.

Well, one day, like,
kinda early in the morning,

two guys just like showed up
in my room

and didn't really explain,

like, what they were doing,

but they just kind of said like,

"Either you could just come
with us to

the airport or, like,
we could handcuff you

and, like, put you in the car
and take you to the airport."

So then I just went with them.

When they woke me up,
I saw her in my room

but she didn't really
talk to me,

she just said,
"I love you, really.

I'm sorry," or something,
and just walked out.

I guess when I got here,
I was pretty confused

because I didn't really,
like, know how things worked.

And then also angry at my mom

because I felt like betrayed.

Being an only parent was...

in hindsight now, it's...

It was not as easy
as I thought it would be.

You don't have the checks
and balances,

you don't have someone there
to say,

you know,
"Is that the way you wanted

to handle that situation?"

It's just you and your kid,
you know?

And so I was...
I was a little controlling,

I was critical,

and I think that it was hard

not having anyone else.

Like, not knowing my dad
hasn't really...

I don't think it's like
caused any problems

between me and my mom,

even though she thinks that
as, like,

when I'm angry with her,
she'll ask me, like,

is it because you, like,
don't know your dad?

When she asked me that,
I just tell her, like,

it's not true
because it really isn't.

I don't really care.

[Lorie] You know,
what I'm hoping

is that we can fix

what has gone wrong

and move on and enjoy each other

for, you know, from here on out.

[indistinct chatter]

[Nathan] Heritage wanted
to bring all the parents

and the kids
over to a ropes course

so that families going
can, like,

help build trust and work
on their relationship.

I don't know, I don't think
you can really, like,

fix a relationship
with a ropes course.

[Lorie] Holy smokes.

[laughs]

Oh, my God.

[dramatic music playing]

I'm only gonna get,
like, two steps.

[laughs]

- I can't lift.
- Why?

Because it's hard to lift
this weight up.

- You think it's easy?
- [indistinct]

[Lorie] I weigh about
as much as a car.

I am planning on pushing myself

out of my comfort zone.

I think it's important
for Nathan

to see how important
this is to me.

And if I bug out and say,

"I don't wanna do it,"

what message is that sending
to him, you know?

That he's not worth me

getting a little uncomfortable.

So I'm terrified

but I'm gonna go
a little bit farther

than I thought I could go.

- [woman] Okay. I just want...
- [man] Yeah. Me, too.

- [woman] Did you grab it?
- [woman] Yeah.

[man] It'll suspend you.

It'll suspend you like a bridge.

[man] There you go. Yes.
Way to go.

Good job.

[indistinct chatter]

[man] You have the strength
in the middle.

Strength's in the middle.

[indistinct chatter]

[Nathan] Push on me.
Push on my arms.

Oh.

- [woman] We got her.
- [woman] We got her.

- [man] Oh. Good job.
- [woman] Okay.

Good job. Look it up.

[Lorie] Okay. He's good.

He's too fast.

[woman] Great.

[woman] Good job.

[Lorie] Oh, good try.

- [man] Good job.
- [Lorie] Awesome.

[Nathan] I missed.

[dramatic music playing]

Oh, my God. I'm doing this.

Okay. Well, we'll see
how far I get.

[laughs]

Are you gonna go upside down?

Yeah, right.

Yeah, that's my style.

Shit.

[woman] Keep your eyes
on your goal.

Climbing.

Push up good with your left leg.

Push with that left leg
with everything you got.

[woman] Yeah, push your leg.

[Lorie panting]

[Lorie] I think I'm stuck.

I can't...

- Bring your right foot up.
- [woman] It's okay.

- Shit.
- [woman] Nathan,

make her hear your voice.

"Mom, try one more step."

[Nathan] Mom, before you
give up, try to...

- There you go.
- [woman] Go. Go.

[woman] She's gonna hear
your voice

- over anybody else's.
- [Lorie gasping]

[woman] Don't look go down,
you can take one more step.

- [man] Done.
- [Lorie] I'm done.

[man] Grab the rope.

- Put your weight back.
- [Lorie gasping]

[woman] There you go,
there you go,

- there you go.
- You're fine, you're fine.

There you go.

[man] Hey, good job for trying.

[woman] Okay. Your legs
are gonna be wobbly.

Your legs are gonna be wobbly
so just sit right down.

Okay, Lorie, you are awesome.

- [man] Good job trying.
- [woman] Really good job.

- [man] Great job.
- You're gonna wanna find

somewhere just to sit
and kinda shake it out

- a little bit.
- Okay.

- Yeah, I don't know... Okay.
- Okay?

Did you hear Nathan
talking to you?

No, I didn't hear anything.

[woman] I thought if you were
gonna hear anyone,

you would hear him over us.

- Good job.
- Good try.

[man] Are you tight?

Oh, that was scary.

Super, super intimidating, huh?

Really, really amazing.

I don't know if you realize
how far you were,

but you were halfway
up that pole.

- [man] Yeah.
- Halfway up the pole.

You pushed yourself. Good job.

You did.

And you took the one more step

even when you didn't want to.

- Yeah.
- [woman] We're good.

[man] We're good.

[cheerful music playing]

[Nathan] I didn't really, like,

have any set goals coming here,

but I know, like,
I was gonna try

to do my best on all
the courses or activities.

And I think I did that.

[cheerful music playing]

[Lorie] I was happy
with the experience.

It gave me a little confidence

that I could something

that I was terrified of doing.

I took one step
more than I thought I could.

So I was happy with that.

I think there was,
like, one course

that helped me and my mom,

like, kinda like build
a little bit more trust.

- I don't know what to call it.
- The wires?

- The two wires.
- Yeah.

The wires where you have
to support each other.

He approached every obstacle

with such confidence and...

But I didn't see you
back down from anything.

You didn't...
you didn't walk away,

you didn't give up.

You tried your hardest,
you know?

And that's all I can ask.

You should do your best.

And it made me really proud.

[dramatic music playing]

[Nancy] You have to see.

These are heavier
than you think they'd be.

- [Hannah] Are they?
- Yeah.

- [Hannah] Are those snails?
- Yeah.

[dramatic music playing]

[Nancy] I have two kids
from donor 5114.

Johnny who will be 15
in a few weeks

and Hannah who's 12 and a half.

And I think our journey
to joining up

with the other kids

has been a little bit different.

They just haven't really seemed

to feel the need and the pull

that some of the other kids
do to get together

and get to know the others

and I've been wanting
to follow them

and let their wisdom and comfort

sort of guide the journey.

[dramatic music playing]

[Hannah] I haven't always
wanted to meet my siblings

and I was really nervous.

The biggest surprise

is not what anybody's like
or what they look like

because I've seen pictures
of all of them.

It's really
that I keep forgetting

that I'm related to them

and then I'll just...
It'll just hit me

and I'll remember it
and I'm like,

"Wait, these people
are like my family.

And it's just kind of cool
and strange

at the same time."

[Elisa] When we drove up
to have this mini reunion,

I was extremely nervous.

I had worked
for three quarters of the day

at my job and I...

When walked in my office
that morning,

I told my coworkers,

"I'm on another planet."

And I just had
this crazy energy in me

ever since we got in the car
to drive up here.

[Lily] I used to be
very nervous, like,

I was about to throw up
when I was about

to meet my siblings

because it really does matter.

Like, you're meeting...
It's one thing

where you're just meeting
someone for the first time,

but it's another
being related to them.

And having this huge, like,
biological connection,

like, you have no idea
how that's gonna turn out.

[rain pattering]

[Lily] And you have
a huge family.

- Is it a crazy family?
- Well, from what I've heard,

you have a huge family, too.

- One person.
- She doesn't even

understand the joke.

How can I work with this?

[laughs] Okay. Okay.

Do you mean this family?

Yeah, this is part
of your family too.

Got you.

[Neylan] I think meeting
your siblings

and how comfortable
you feel around them

kind of depends on their age

because if they're older,
you're gonna be like,

"Well, are they gonna think
I'm took kiddish?

Are they gonna get annoyed
by me and stuff?"

But then if they're younger,
you're like,

"Am I gonna get along with them?"

Are they gonna like stuff
that I've grown out of?

"Or are we gonna get
along better?"

[Sadie] It's kinda hard
that there's so many

because I don't know,
it just seems not as special

if there are, like, as many...

Like, the... There's a huge
quantity of siblings

and it's not as special
as if there's a few.

- But...
- And it's kind of hard

because, like,

there's always gonna be
someone that gets left out

or can't come to a reunion

and that their feelings
are gonna be hurt sometimes

but you can't please everyone

with 21 siblings.

[rain pattering]

[Nancy] I think there
has to be some quality

in all of us that we,

out of thousands
of potential donors,

we zeroed in on that one.

But I have absolutely
no interest whatsoever

in knowing who he is.

What we called him when Lily
was growing up was the seed.

- [laughter]
- Like, I mean,

because he's not...

I don't see him
as other than the genes,

I don't see him
as being at all related

to these kids.

I mean, he didn't raise them,

he's not their father,

he's a seed.

I mean, maybe it's because
Lily has a father.

You know, when she was seven,

she was adopted by my husband.

- Mmm-hmm.
- [Linette] I don't have

any emotional connection to him

and it's hard for me to...

I mean, because I do have
an emotional connection

with all of you.

And it's hard for me,

like, when somebody had asked

or, you know, where's your dad?

I don't have a dad.

She made up a story about him
being eaten by sharks

because she got tired
of people asking,

you know, where's your...
where's your dad?

It's very complicated

but, you know,

their relationship
with each other

is unique.

But their relationship with him

will be a whole
different ball game.

Worst that could happen
is he would completely

- reject them.
- [woman] And that would have

a very negative effect on them.

But then on the other hand,
I also think, well,

maybe I'm overestimating

how much that would affect them

because when I think about,

you know, a father figure
or connection to men

who, you know,
I'm biologically connected,

too, if he had rejected me,

that would have been horrible,
but he was my dad.

[Lisa] For me, that isn't
something that says,

"Well, don't go there

because you might get hurt
or rejected."

- Mmm-hmm.
- That means

- thought needs to go into it.
- Mmm-hmm. Mmm-hmm.

But that's like
any relationship, job...

Anything has risks.

[dramatic music playing]

[Nancy S] I guess
one of the differences

between the kids and the moms

is that, as the kids grow older,

the fact
that they're donor kids,

for me, fades, it has faded.

And for them,
it doesn't fade, in fact,

I think, may...
As they get older

and wanna know more
about who they are,

it gets stronger for them.

And I just worry

that they're gonna get caught up

in real strong
emotional entanglements

that may be difficult for them

to sort out down the road.

[Alexis] The exterior,
even though it seems, like,

it's really fun and it's
a real good experience

being in this,
like, donor situation,

there are just, like,
a lot of aspects

about the donor situation

that are painful,

that even little things
that just add up,

like, there's this whole
other side of your family

that you know nothing about.

And just having
20 other half-siblings

is a lot to take in,

like, you tell people
and they say,

"Oh, that's so cool.
Do you know them all?"

But it's impossible
to know them all

and it's hard to know
that you have to share

the donor with all
of these other people.

And it's just...
It's not competition

but it's hard to explain.

[dramatic music playing]

[indistinct chatter]

[dramatic music playing]

- [woman] Here you go.
- Oh, yeah.

[woman] Good job, honey.

Push again for me.
Push, push, push, push, push.

Yeah. There we go. Yeah.

Perfect. Okay. Okay.

Push again. Okay.

Take your baby. Take your baby.

Take your child and grab him.

Hey, buddy.

[woman] There you go.
You got him.

- All right.
- Baby is disconnected.

If you wanna go get some O2.

Okay.

- [baby crying]
- There you go. There we go.

Congratulations.

[Brandy] So we had
one vial left,

we just had one more shot

to be able to get pregnant

and so we're just grateful

that the second time,
obviously, worked.

And here he is.

He's just a perfect blessing.

[Danny] It's really cool
to see them just overwhelmed

with joy with baby Grayson
coming into the family

and mama Fran being able
to have a kid

from 5114 and be able to,
maybe, like,

link together and be more
connected with the others.

[dramatic music playing]

[Brandy] Hi, Grayson,
does that feel good?

[Zeke] It's your mom...

[Brandy] Look at you
rocking him.

You're such a good big brother.

[Zeke] I think having
another brother

is really cool

because once he gets older,

we might all do

a lot of fun stuff if we're
really close together.

[dramatic music playing]

[indistinct] baby.

[Brandy] So, this is Grayson.

He's the very last 5114.

He was born
on the 25th of August

at 3:47.

This family that we have
has been primarily

because of the artificial
insemination

and this donor.

And we just wanna let
our kids know

that we're so blessed

for each and every one of them

and that they all mean
so much to us

and we're not
the perfect parents,

but we sure enjoy the journey
and being with them

and trying to learn as we go.

It kind evens things out
because before,

as you all know,

we have two moms
and a little sister.

And it was just me and Zeke.

So now, it, kinda, evens out

the estrogen to testosterone
in the house.

The what?

[laughs]

What's that mean?

[jet ski revving]

[Nancy C] I was not able
to go to the last reunion.

And when Alexis came back,

she was very emotionally
absent with us

and so we felt
very rejected by her.

Even from the time I picked
her up at the airport,

you know, she didn't embrace me,

she didn't say,
"Hey, it's great to see you,

I missed you,"

it was, like,
she didn't wanna be home.

I think the part of it
is that...

About the rejection
that my mom and Luke feel

is that... They feel that,
like, at least to me,

they're not enough, kind of.

And, I mean, that's not true,

but it's also a little true.

Like I do feel
this thing missing

and I do, like, for myself

need to go and fill that.

So as much as I love them,

no, they're not enough
in some ways.

And, yeah, that's hurtful and...

But, yeah, that's true,
so I can't change that.

[Nancy C] You know,
I will say that I want her

to love her siblings
and I want them to love her

and I do genuinely feel
that way,

but I also feel
that our little family

is uniquely special
because we share

our day-to-day lives together.

And when, you know,
when we're depressed,

when we're sick,
we're going through

all the tough times together.

You can, kind of, juxtapose
that to my siblings,

like, we don't live together

and we share this huge problem.

And we're able to empathize
with one another

despite the fact
that we live so far away.

So, that needs to count
for something, too.

[Nancy] I understand that.

I think that's a really
valid point,

is the affinity that you feel

because you share
this quest, this identity,

this pursuit that no one else
shares with you,

I completely get that.

You know, we can empathize
with the separation

that you've experienced
from your siblings,

but I'm simply talking about

the way we feel, I think,
is also very legitimate.

And I think that you should
show empathy for that as well.

I never even felt, like, "Ugh,
I don't wanna be with them,"

I didn't wanna be
with anybody, you know,

not specifically you,
I just wanted to be by myself.

So, yeah.

[dramatic music playing]

[Alexis] I've known
my whole life

that I came from a sperm donor.

I mean, when I was,
like, three years old,

I didn't know
in the same way I know now,

but I still knew that
there was something different

from most other people.

I always really wanted a dad
and I would always ask my mom

"Mom, when am I gonna
get a dad?"

And until, like,
third or fourth grade,

all I knew was that
I had a donor,

but I didn't know
anything about him.

Ever since then, my curiosity
has just grown exponentially.

And then, in middle school,
I started looking for him.

And then it just
all led up to here.

[dramatic music playing]

[Alexis] I guess the first
thing I ever did

in terms of looking
for the donor

is I went on ancestry.com.

I just looked up
people born in 1969

in Fort Collins, Colorado.

And I hoped that, like,
somehow I'd find him like that

and nothing.

I learned that he was, like,
top 20 in the nation in track.

I ordered track record books.

And, of course, as soon
as I got this, I was, like,

"That's him,"
obviously it isn't.

And I, like, highlighted
all the ones that say 1969

and I, like, Googled all of them

and that was
a fruitless endeavor.

Just shows you
how huge of a world it is

and that it is really tough
to find people.

I just like
keeping stuff like this

to, kinda, make connections
with him, I don't know,

but he's probably
in here somewhere.

So, I've probably read
his name 500 times before,

but just don't know
which one it is.

When I first met my dad
or my stepdad,

whatever you wanna call him,

I really didn't like him.

And it never really felt
like he was part of my life,

even though he lived with me,
he was just that guy

that lived in my house.

He's a really critical person.

He's not very affectionate.

[Javier] I always criticize

because that was the way

that my parents were,
you know, they were all...

Always trying
to tell me to do...

Not because they didn't love
me, but, you know, the...

And I... And in the long-term,
I think it helped me out

when they were very strict,
you know, they were like,

"You need to do this,
you need to do that."

They never said, "Oh, Javier,
you're doing it great," okay?

I never heard that from my...

from my... from my dad
or my mom.

My father was always working

and when years went by
and I got older

and I had kids,

I realized that he never
expressed himself too much,

but now I know that he really
loved me a lot, so...

Because I'm repeating
the same story.

Javier has never upfront
discussed his feelings

about the donors-sibling
situation with me,

but I just kind of know
he's supportive of it.

I'm Catholic
and I'm very religious

and I don't believe
too much in this situation

where you maneuver
or manage life, you know.

But now that Alexis is here,
you know, of course,

she's entitled to all
the love that I can give.

And it's sad,
of course, I don't know

what would've happened to me
in that situation,

you know, because I had
the perfect family.

I do think having Javier
in my life has...

propelled me to want to find
my biological father because,

like, even though I love Javier,

he was never enough.

In situations
where it's been really bad

or bumpy with Javier,

I've always imagined
what would it be like

if my real my dad
was there instead or...

"My real dad."

Yeah.

[Lisa] Babe, you wanna get
some of your stuff

- and start packing?
- [Sadie] Sure.

[Lisa] We're gonna be there
for four days.

Sadie and I are packing up
to go to the reunion

in Breckenridge, Colorado.

There's gonna be a ton
of people,

so that's good
and can be overwhelming,

but we're gonna meet
some new siblings.

Which is always a good thing,

I'm glad people are starting
to reach out and come out.

And we're gonna see
some people we haven't seen

since the California reunion,

so we're looking forward
to all of that.

You have all your cameras
and film?

Chargers?

[Sadie] I'll get those.

These time around, I haven't
talked to the siblings

as much over the year,

some of the relationships
with the siblings

have kind of mellowed out
because...

well, we're just, like,
growing up and getting older.

And at first, it was
really exciting

because it was like
a new thing in our life.

And then after a while,
it kind of becomes like

a normal thing.

And there's also so many
siblings, so it's hard to get

as excited every time
you meet like a new one,

even though it's always
interesting.

And also, like, long-distance
relationships are always hard,

you know, the communication
and everything,

so I'm not really sure
how it'll be this time around.

[whimsical music playing]

[Margot]
Baking a goat cheese, peach,

caramelized onion, basil tarts.

Just a little something
to whip up for the family.

We've got 32 people,

and everybody has every kind
of eating lifestyles

and it's just fun.

[woman] You can have two,
there's more.

- I'm starving.
- And you can have a napkin

- if you want.
- Thank you.

Chelsea, do you want one?

Yes, please.

[indistinct chatter]

[laughter]

[Jack] I wanna ask you
if you remember

making this decision?

No. I do not. I don't.

Here in Breckenridge
for the fourth reunion.

We have biggest group
of siblings that we ever had.

There's Zeke, Hannah, Sadie,

Neylan, Alexis, Mattie,

Danny, Lily, Nick,

Johnny, Bradley, me Jack,

and Grayson.

[Johnny] I completely regret

not coming to
the other reunions already,

because one of the ways
I kind of cope

with the whole donor dad thing

is kind of just
not thinking about it.

You know, it's kind of hard
to not think about it

when you're surrounded by,
you know, 13 other kids

that have the same
donor dad as you.

How can you not think
about the donor?

I've constantly been
talking about it,

ever since I got here,
all we've been talking about

is like how much we look alike

and like the donor
and it feels good.

And I wish I had done it
earlier in my life

and maybe I wouldn't be...
I wouldn't have had issues,

like, personal issues if I had
done it earlier in life.

[indistinct chatter]

You should get this,
you should get this.

Come on, look at their noses
bounce right now.

[Jack] This being
the fourth reunion,

the other three
I just couldn't make it

or financial stuff.

I come from a family where...

flying a plane is a big deal

and just the fact
that my parents

were willing to spend
that money and get me out here

and be able to meet
all these people,

hit me really hard on the plane.

I was just like, "Oh, wow."

It was just all excitement,
and it's still all excitement.

[Bradley] I've known about
my siblings

for almost like
two or three years now.

At first I was a bit nervous

about like finding out
about them.

I'm not really
like a people person,

but here it's a lot easier
to get know like each other

and I was a lot less nervous
because I can actually, like,

you know, pinpoint things
that we had in common,

rather than like talking
on the phone for like a week

and still being nervous.

[guitar music playing]

[indistinct chatter]

[Alexis] Yesterday,
all the siblings

slept at the big house.

[Lily] Yeah. That was awesome.

Yeah, we stayed up all night.

Stayed up until 5:00

and then woke up at like 9:30.

[Lily] Some others didn't...

I don't know
who that was, though.

Also, it's kind of random,

but don't you guys feel
like you have these mannerisms

like stuck in the back
of your head, and, like,

you just don't feel
comfortable doing them

in, like, real world
or at your school,

and because you're with
all your siblings,

- like, let them loose?
- [Alexis] Yeah.

Like you didn't even know
you had it in you.

- [Alexis] Yeah.
- [Lily] Yeah.

[Alexis] No, that's true.

I'm really... I'm really shy
at school.

A spaz.

Last reunion,
I walked into the room

and I had really nothing
to compare it to,

so I wasn't... Honestly,
I wasn't disappointed.

But now that I have
something compare it to,

this reunion, it's like, wow.
That it's truly different.

This reunion
has really blown my mind

and just the things we do

and how fast
we warmed up to each other

is actually incredible.

I've never seen
anything like it.

And I think the reason that
we connect so much quicker

is because...

one, because obviously
we share the same father,

but I think it's so much
more than that.

We're talking about...
Yesterday about this

and it's kind of just
that we've been brought up

with this mystery in our lives

and having that mystery
in your life

and that driving curiosity
to find it, but you can't.

So when you find
a piece of it...

Well, 22 pieces of it,

then it's like
I need to put these together

and it's so exciting
and it's very surreal,

but I love it.

[Sadie] We're gonna play
the audio tape we have.

- [woman] Ready, guys?
- [Sadie] Bradley

Apparently they can hear it
from there,

so, it's pretty wild.

[woman] This is the audio tape
of donor 5114.

Today's date
is October 23rd, 1996.

[man] Hello.
My donor number is 5114.

I'm six-feet one inch tall.

I have a medium build.

I have straight brown hair
and brown eyes.

My skin color is slightly
olive, and I tan easily.

I have full lips

and normally an athletic build,

like when I work out,

I seem to get
results quickly, but...

[laughs]

[man] My mother originates
from Germany and England

and my father originates
from Germany.

At home, they say
that I'm most like my father.

I see both of them in me,
actually.

[woman] And how is that
that you're most

like your father they say?

[man] My father really
has tunnel vision

when it comes to doing things.

And so I seem to have focus
similar to his.

[woman] And what would do if
you had more time or money?

I would learn to play
an instrument well.

I've picked up
the guitar a few times,

but I haven't had time
to really learn it well.

[Sadie] Was that your
first time hearing it?

[Jack] No. I've heard it before

but it was like
really crappy audio.

- Oh, okay.
- Because I think someone

like recorded it
on their phone and sent to me.

[Alexis] That was...
I think that was me.

I think that was you. But I...

Like I could barely even hear it

and I just heard,
"I wish them all the luck."

That's all I heard. But...

It's like every time I listen
to it with another sibling

it's a little different
because you can just

connect it... Just...
You can connect things more.

To me, it just sounds
really like familiar,

like we know him from somewhere

- but, like where?
- Yeah.

The first time I heard it,
it kind of like freaked me out

a little bit, but it didn't...

[Jack] He just sounds like

- Nick so much.
- Yeah.

He's got a really nice
voice like it's just...

Like, you know, how certain
people like with those voices,

so it's like,
it just soothes you

- to hear it.
- [Alexis] Yeah.

What I don't get is, like,
how there can be one dude

- that looks like all of us.
- [Neylan] Mmm-hmm.

Because sometimes
you see someone with their mom

and you're like, oh, God.
They look so much like them.

And then you see
their dad, and you're like,

they look like them, too,
like a lot.

- [Alexis] What? Yeah.
- [Jack] Mmm-hmm.

[whimsical music playing]

[Nancy] So we have seven kids
born in 1998,

six in 1999,

and then there's sort
of a fallow period for 2000,

and then two in 2001,

and then Zeke was born in 2004,

and then we have
baby Grayson 2014.

[Jack] That's a big gap

between like Mattie and Grayson.

[Mattie] My 18th birthday
is coming up

and I feel like there's a lot
of the younger siblings

way more interested in finding
the donor than I am,

but I am gonna definitely, like,

contact the Cryobank
and, like, request

for a picture and, like,
contact and stuff,

but I just kind of want to see
what they'll say.

I won't necessarily, like,

want to go meet him
if he does wanna meet.

But I feel, like,
just so they could like know,

like whenever they turn 18,

if he'll wanna, like,
meet them and stuff.

[dramatic music playing]

[Nancy] You know,
you try to kind of wonder

what his life is like now.

I mean, he donated for you guys

like 20, 18, 19, 17 years ago.

And he was in his late 20s then,

so he's probably
in his mid-40s now.

And, you know,
think about how different

your life is gonna be
in 20 years.

And I'm willing to bet
that, when he donated,

he didn't fully
appreciate what he was doing,

that he didn't understand
that he was helping

to create all of you.

[Alexis] He obviously
has the right to his privacy.

But I mean I also think
we have the right

to at least some information

and, like, at least
more than we have now

and then what he...
When he donated,

he, like, should have
considered the future

and what he was gonna
be like in 20 years.

I'm not saying that
it's not right to ask

or it's not ask right to...

I mean, I would like to know
some things too, you know.

It's just, you know,
sometimes what we feel like

he needs to do,
he may not think that.

He may not even have this
as a priority.

[Lily] I feel like I'd want a
mystery

more than I'd want
an unfulfilled,

- like void in my...
- Yeah. Me too.

And I'm like more interested
in, like, sibling stuff

than like dad stuff,
like I don't...

I've never, like, wanted
to really meet him.

I just wanna, like,
know what he looks like.

[Johnny] For me, at least,
I'm in it for you guys.

I've talked hours on end
with you guys

and I see myself
in you guys, you know?

[Danny] The most main reason
that we are here

every year meeting each other
is not to find the donor

but it's to be with each other,

because the connection
we've grown

is probably stronger than any
connection you could find,

so I'm satisfied
with having what we have here

because what we have here
is amazing.

[Alexis] And I'm realizing
that more and more

as time passes by, like I...

Even though it's kind of hard
to picture my life

without ever knowing
who the donor is, I can do it

but I cannot picture my life

without any of my siblings,
like, it's impossible.

[whimsical music playing]

[Danny] The trip was really,
really fun.

I definitely feel like
I've, like, connected

with the siblings
on like a whole new level

and we've all opened up
about more things

and more experiences
that we can all relate to.

[Mattie] This trip, I learned
we all, like, struggle

with the same stuff emotionally,

and that's, like, really cool
to know that we're, like,

all going through
the same stuff.

It's gonna, like, suck,
like, leaving,

like I've already cried,

I'm just gonna miss
everyone so much.

[Danny] It never gets easier
to pack up and leave

just because with each meet-up,

you get closer and closer
with every sibling

and it's just harder to go.

Almost feels like

it's just, like,
our right to be together,

I don't know.

[whimsical music playing]

[Brandy] On the way home
from Breckenridge,

we had a hard time because

Daniel just had a meltdown
and cried a lot

and he was yelling a lot
and we were yelling a lot

and just...
I think there was just this

sense of disconnect

and, you know, he was saying
that, you know,

he just doesn't think
that we'll ever understand

how he feels and how important
everybody is to him

to the point of making us

feel kind of like we didn't
matter as much to him.

When we came back
from Breckenridge,

Daniel decided to go see
his grandparents

and my ex in Clovis.

And...

he just went to go spend
some time with her.

[Danny] After Breckenridge,

I definitely felt like
I found a lot of myself

during that meet-up
and I just came home

and I kind of felt like
that Albuquerque,

I was more focused
on being the person

that people wanted me to be

and not being the person
I wanted to be.

And so I decided to go ahead

and move down to Clovis
with my other mom.

[Brandy] She's not been
a really big part of his life

and it's not something
I'm excited about

or that I want.

But he wants to get to know her

and I didn't fight it.

Legally, I could fight it
and he could be here with me,

but there's just
this disconnect with him.

And so I don't wanna push it

because I don't wanna
push him away.

[Danny] I kind of feel like
my moms took this whole move

a little too personal

and made it more about them
than they should have

because it wasn't necessarily

about them at all,
with this whole move.

It was more about me

and ever since the time
I was five,

I had always been the older one

looking after all the kids.

So it's nice to only, like,

be responsible
for myself for once.

[Brandy] He doesn't confide
in me anymore

and I know a lot of it
is the teenage stuff.

And I know he's growing
and he's becoming independent.

But it really feels like
my heart's broken.

I just... I just want
some more time with him.

[Francesca] Even though
we know we're good parents

and we know we're doing
all that we can,

it just makes you
question, like,

what did I do wrong?

Maybe if he wouldn't have had

so much of the sibling
family unit,

you know, what he have pulled
away from us like he is.

And I think that's what's
kind of making us

regret our decision a little bit

to foster the connections

between the siblings and Daniel.

[woman] Are you excited
about being 18?

[Mattie] Yes, I am.

Ever since I can remember,

like, whenever we, like, found
the siblings and everything,

I would always feel like,
"Oh, yeah, I'm the oldest."

It was always so, like,
distant in the future

and I wasn't, like, thinking,

"Oh, like, this will
actually happen someday."

[woman] So if you're thinking
that if you were the only one

and you might not really
have so much interest

in contacting the Cryobank,

are you feeling pressure
because people are coming?

Yeah, I know that they're all,
like, expecting it

and I'm like 95% sure
I'll probably call Latrice.

But you would be fine
with maybe just a picture?

- [Mattie] Yeah.
- That would be interesting.

- [Mattie] If he's ugly...
- What if you get it? Yeah.

What if you get it
and he's ugly,

- "how would that go?"
- That would be interesting.

[whimsical music playing]

- [Mattie] Hi.
- Hi.

- [Mattie] Hi.
- [Julia] Hi.

[Mattie] How are you?

Hi, nice to meet you.

[upbeat music playing]

[laughs]

[all] ? Happy birthday To you ?

? Happy birthday to you ?

? Happy birthday, Dear Mattie ?

? Happy birthday to you ?

[cheering]

-[woman] Watch your hair,
-Watch your hair.

[cheering]

[laughter]

- [man] Go, go, go, go.
- [woman] Blow it out.

[screams]

[woman] What happened?

- [man] Oh my God.
- [woman] Oh my God.

[cheering]

[phone rings]

[Mattie] Hello.

[Latrice] Hello,
this is Latrice.

Hi, Latrice,
this is Mattie Overmeyer

from 5114.

I just turned 18
and I was just wondering,

like, about contacting the donor

and, like, the process I had
to go through and everything.

[Latrice] Oh, okay.
Happy birthday.

- Thank you.
- [Latrice] Uh, so, basically

what I have to do
is that I have to put in

a request to locate the donor,

um, because the donor
is anonymous,

it's not guaranteed

that he will respond
to our enquiries.

But we will definitely do
our due diligence

and try to reach out
to him to find out

how he feels
about communicating.

So, um, from the time
I turn in the information,

it can take anywhere between
four to six weeks

before I get his whereabouts.

And we generally attempt
at least three times

and if he doesn't reply
within three attempts,

then we have to assume
that he doesn't want

to, um, communicate.

And at that point,

we will have to respect
his wishes.

If you have any additional
questions before I get back

in contact with you,
Just give me a call.

Have a wonderful birthday
and I'll talk to you soon.

Thank you, thank you so much.

[Latrice] Okay. Bye-bye.

Kind of surprised me
like during the phone how,

like, emotional, like,
I kind of felt, like,

because, you know, like,
no matter what he says,

it's gonna probably
change our lives forever.

I don't know. Like we've
been waiting for this

for so long and like
it's just crazy

that actually... The time.

[Mattie] Yeah.

[Ben] Julia, like, and me,
like, we've always like

been curious about the dad

and like what it would be like

if we had a dad kind of thing.

We've always been like
lucky to have

like the moms that we do,

but like having a dad
would be like different,

like, we're not like asking
for one, we're just like...

We just like kind of
wanna know, yeah.

[Julia] And it's just like

how you not wanna meet
people you gave life to,

like how could that not
mean something to you?

And also I just wonder
like if he has kids

- because that's like...
- Yeah. Yeah.

...that could be like
two, three,

four more half-siblings
that we don't even know about.

[Julia] Yeah. Probably hard
for them now,

- because like...
- Yeah.

...they're his dad.

Some, like, 20-something
other half-kids

came in and started
to talk to my dad,

I'd be like, "Um,
get the hell out of here."

- I will not be...
- [woman] Yeah.

I would kind of look like,
I'd be like, "Errr."

Yeah. There's like
a lot of stuff that, like,

he has to like factor
and then like

so many things
that, like, saying yes

could affect in his life.

Maybe he's just
as nervous as we are.

Yeah. Because
I'd be more nervous

if I were in his situation.

It's like we have each other.

He has... Who knows who he has

to, like, go through
this with, I guess.

[dramatic music playing]

[Latrice] "This is
interesting. In 20 years",

I would like to be
happy with my family

and free to live life together.

My goal is to be balanced
physically and mentally.

Ultimately he would
like to understand

"the truth of our existence."

Okay.

[dramatic music playing]

Hi, it's Latrice, how are you?

Good, thank you.

Wanna let you know
that I have a request

for a donor location
for a number 5114.

If we're lucky

and a donor responds
to our enquiries,

it can go two ways.

The donor will either agree

or he won't agree.

The hard part for me

is contacting the offspring

to let them know
that he doesn't want

to participate in communicating.

I try to deliver
the blow as passionately

and, you know, empathetic

and sympathetically
as I possibly can

because the offsprings
are anticipating

there's some hope that,
you know,

we've reached out to this guy,
he's responded,

but then he doesn't
wanna participate.

Once a donor says no,

we have to, you know,
accept that

and move on and it's just...

It's devastating to have

to make that phone call
to the offsprings.

[dramatic music playing]

[Mattie] A lot of the siblings
once they found out

that I was getting
the call today, um,

like Danny started crying
at school and had to,

like, go home and a lot of them

were just like freaking out
and so was I.

It was like...

It's just like super anxious

and like...
And she's calling me.

Okay.

Hello.

[Latrice] Hi,
may I speak to Mattie?

Hi, how are you?

[Latrice] Hi, Mattie,
it's Latrice Allen

from the Cryobank.
I'm good, how are you?

- I'm good.
- [Latrice] Good.

Well, I want to give you a call

to give you an update,

um, I did speak with the donor.

The bottom line is that
he is willing to communicate,

um, anonymously facilitated
through me.

He needs a little bit
more time to iron out

whatever the thought process
needs to be.

So he says it's not a problem

if it's gonna happen,

but the issue is just
when it's gonna happen

because he needs to make sure
that he's 100% comfortable

that his family
will be protected

once he starts to communicate.

Okay. Wow.

[Latrice] And then if you have

specific questions for him,

depending on the confidentiality

of the questions, he will answer

whatever he's comfortable
with answering

and then, you know,
give you a bio of himself.

I don't know if you're
allowed to tell me this,

but so he does like have

his own like family
and everything?

Like does he have his own kids?

[Latrice] Yes, he does.

Yes, he does.

Do you know how many there are?

[Latrice] I do, but I'd have to

let him let you know that.

Okay. Thank you so much,

I can't wait
to hear back from you.

[Latrice] Okay. No problem,
you're welcome

- and have a great weekend.
- You too, thank you.

[Latrice] Okay. All righty.
Bye-bye.

- What the heck?
- [woman] That's exciting.

How do you sit with that?

What did you expect?

- Is that what you thought?
- Not that.

[woman] What did you think?

Did you think he would say no?

- Yes.
- [woman] You did? Oh.

[laughs] You were hoping
the easy way out.

[Mattie] Hello.

- Hello.
- Hi.

- [Mattie] Can you hear me?
- Yes.

- Yes.
- Mmm-hmm.

[Mattie] Okay.
So, he's alive, good news.

And he said yes

to contacting me anonymously

through the Cryobank,
but he doesn't wanna contact

from anyone else
who is under the age of 18.

And he has own family and kids.

And I'm gonna send him
like a bio of like stuff.

[woman] So like if he gets
to know you better,

he might like reveal his name?

Maybe, I don't know.

It's gonna be a step at a time.

[woman] Well, that's good,
it's a good start

and like whatever
he's comfortable with.

This is good news though, guys.

Yeah, I'm excited.

I didn't have to cry.

[laughs]

[dramatic music playing]

[Mattie] I've always
been telling myself

that I didn't necessarily care

about the donor

and I didn't care about

what his answer was

and I didn't wanna meet him.

And now that I know
that his answer is yes,

it's kind of scary

that I let my guard down now

that he said yes to contact

because now is the time
that I really,

like, could get rejected
like as a person,

like, with him reading my bio

and like actually
seeing who I am

and, like,
seeing a picture of me.

And then if he says like,

"Stop contacting me,"
or whatever,

then that would
really be rejection,

so that's kind of scary.

[woman] Mattie, has that
protection mechanism in her

that if she doesn't know
what the answer is gonna be,

she's gonna protect herself
from that answer.

And now that she's found out
that he is willing

to have a connection to them,

I think she's cautiously
optimistic but excited

and way more than she ever
dreamed she would be.

[dramatic music playing]

[birds chirping]

[Lorie] I've been excited today,

I've been nervous,

I've been crying,

not sure why.

Just I guess the enormity
of the whole thing,

you know, that it's like
finally over,

that he's coming back.

He hasn't lived here
in two and a half years

so that's gonna be kind of
a little nervous

about just living with him again

and he's changed so much
and I think I have changed

and it'll be interesting
to see how that all plays out

of coming back together again
after two and a half years

as two different people.

It's gonna be interesting.

[dramatic music playing]

[Lorie] Having decided
that he's coming home,

I've been, you know,
an empty nester

for two and a half years,

and I look at the future,
it's awful nice.

Really hopeful, you know.

He's done a lot
of good hard work.

I wanna see him and know

that he's not getting back
on another airplane.

That's the best part.

Just knowing that he's not
going away again.

There he is.

[dramatic music playing]

[Lorie] How are you doing?

Where is your stuff?

[indistinct]

Oh, how was your flight?

It's good.

Back home for good.

[Nathan] Coming home,

it doesn't really feel real yet,

I came back with a lot
more self-confidence

and definitely patience,

like, understanding for others.

I guess it'll probably
hit me sooner

and when I start like school
and all that,

that I'm here for good
and I'm really not,

like, gonna go anywhere else.

[Lorie] Ooh, what's this?

[Nathan] Oh, I, like,
put all the pictures in there.

You made this
out of surgical tape.

- Mmm-hmm.
- [Lorie] Physically, I mean,

I sent away a little boy,
you know,

I sent away
a little scrawny thing

and they sent me back
this man, you know.

That's cool to see, you know,

because I love
who he's becoming, uh, I do.

He's a good person.

Oh, how did you get
that picture?

They sent it to me.

- [Nathan] Cool.
- [Lorie] So sweet,

that was Fanny,
that was his dog in school.

[Nathan] Coming back home,

I think it's gonna be
a lot easier

to like use the skills
that I got just to like

get along with my mom
and like work things out,

like use communication,
actually get things done.

There's always gonna
be things in the beginning

that's still gonna, like,

take getting used to
but it's just nice

to like have my freedom
and be able to like

kind of run my own life
and take some control

over that,
because it's been awhile.

[knocks on door]

- [Neylan] Hi.
- Hey, what's up?

Hi, Neylan.

Oh, my gosh,
look how tall you've got.

I haven't seen you in, like,

look at you, taller than he is.

Well, it's been a
long time, so...

[Lorie] It's been what?

You haven't seen her since,

uh, like California, right?

Mmm-hmm. Like two and a half,
three years.

[Lorie] Two and a half...
Almost three years. Yeah.

- Wow.
- [Neylan] There were days

whenever I'd be
sitting there thinking

about the siblings
and everything.

And I just get really
emotional and I was like,

"I miss Nathan so much."

And like I'd tell my mom
and she was like,

"I know you do, Neylan."

And so I think it was like
really exciting

for us whenever we heard
that he was coming back.

Because I think me and him

like really clicked
whenever we were 13.

- [Nathan] Yeah.
- [Neylan] So,

it kind of sucked
not being able to like grow

on that together
for a few years,

but like now we can
because he's back

and we can talk all the time
if we wanted to.

You don't want a shot
of this one?

[Nathan] Nice.

[Neylan]
I'm not sure if everyone

is gonna get the tattoo,

I know some of them already have

but just with the number.

And they've gotten it
in place where, like,

it's not very noticeable.

I don't know, I'd like...
I'd get the tattoo,

I don't know how much
I'd want the sperm

floating around on my leg,

but I'd get the numbers,
it's cool.

[Neylan] So we found
a new sibling,

she's from Hawaii,
so that's pretty cool.

There she is.

That makes 22 siblings
counting all of us together.

[Nathan] And she's 17?

- [Neylan] Yeah.
- [Nathan] Nice.

[Neylan] I was nervous
to see him again

because I don't know,
I haven't seen him in forever.

So I was kind of scared
that it...

Like, things had changed so much

that we wouldn't get along

as well as we did before.

[Nathan] I was on
the same page as Neylan

just because it's
kind of weird, like,

not seeing someone
for such a long time

like two and a half years.

But the connection
is still there,

which I'm, like, glad to see

so it's good to be back.

[birds chirping]

[dramatic music playing]

[Mattie] After my 18th birthday,

I was waiting to hear
back from Latrice.

And I was just kind of
not really sure

how to proceed with everything.

I was always kind of
hesitant about it

and I was doing it
for the other siblings

but also for myself.
And I don't know.

It's kind of one of those things

where you're putting yourself
so far out there

and you're not sure what
the results are gonna be.

I got kind of very anxious
and nervous about it

just because I didn't
wanna have to be the one,

like, if he did reject
having contact with me.

That for myself
would've been hard to handle,

but then also having to tell
all the other half-siblings,

I didn't want to be
the one to, kind of,

break their hearts, in a sense,

especially those who
really do want to contact

the donor and end up
meeting him and everything.

And I don't know.
It was a lot of pressure.

It's not that I didn't want to

because I did,

but I don't know,

I'm just comfortable
with my life.

[crickets chirping]

[Sadie] All right.
So right now, I just got, um,

an email from the Cryobank

that's forwarding
the information

my donor applied to, um,

because I wrote in
when I turned 18

about a month ago.

Um, to see if he wanted contact,

so, um, right now

I'm gonna go open the email.

It's almost 12:30 AM.

All right.

There's a photo.

He said he loves
my funky dreads.

He said, "There's not a day
that I do not think"

about you and your siblings.

I have had many nights
with little sleep pondering

and considering your lives.

The answers I have found
have made me feel

incredibly touched,
thankful, and proud.

I'm grateful that
for whatever reason

and from whatever
I gather so far,

that people that chose
to have you appear

to have done a great job.

Right now, I feel deeply
appreciated for this

opportunity to learn of your...

Of you and your wanting
to know more about me.

Thank you for sharing
your picture, information,

"and questions."

He's so nice.

The response really has
exceeded my expectations.

He sent so much.

I sent maybe like
10 short questions

and he's responded with
in-depth paragraphs

that are really thoughtful

and just seems like

it comes from the heart
and he's truly interested

and wants to share
the information,

which is nice.

He's not just doing it

to answer some questions
and please me.

He seems to want to share
and want to connect a bit.

All of a sudden, I get this
text from Sadie.

Do you want to see
pictures of the donor?

I was just, like, out
to dinner with my grandparents

and then started to text me

and I was just, like,
"Oh, my gosh.

What's going on?"

And they're like,
"Mattie, get off the phone."

I'm like, "I can't,
I can't get off my phone,

you don't understand."

I screamed and shut the computer

and ran to my room.

That's my dad.

My mom had just pulled out
of the driveway

and it was like,
"Mom, come back."

But she got back
and I was, like, crying

and holding my phone
and she was, like,

"What's wrong?" And I was like,

- "Here."
- Come on.

Oh, my God.

[Daniel] It's, like, so surreal,

like, it's hard to think that...

This is the person
that I have been hunting

and wondering about
for my whole life.

I had school today
and I didn't go. [laughs]

I was too, like, emotionally,
like, paralyzed

to do any
of my homework or study.

I don't think it's still,
like, hit me yet,

but every single time
I say it, I start to cry.

It doesn't seem real.

Sadie, she sends them
and I couldn't look at them,

so I gave it
to my friends and they...

And I sat
on the other side of them

and, like, they were all
lined up on the couch

in this dorm and I was, like,

"Can you look at them?"

And they were like, "Yeah."

And so I gave them the phone

and they're, like,

"He's hot." [laughs]

I showed my friends today
at basketball

and they're like,
"Wow. Like, that's you.

Like, you look
exactly like him."

I wished me and him
looked more alike

because I don't really see
any features that we share.

Some of the other boys
look a lot like him.

Our noses are, like,
exactly the same.

Literally, if you Photoshopped

all of our faces
into one person.

Like, it just makes sense,

like, everything
makes sense now.

I won't have to wonder anymore.

Like, I don't look
at a guy and be like,

"Oh, you could be my dad."

Like I know what he looks like.

[dramatic music playing]

[Alexis] Turning 18 was like
the most anticipated birthday

of my entire life because I knew

I was able to possibly

come in contact with the donor.

When I got the email
from the Cryobank,

there was like an attachment,
and that attachment

was the letter
from the donor to me.

What he had saved it as was,

"To Alexis."

And that already had me,
like, this.

One of the most impactful
things that he said

in his letter was, "I think
about you every day."

I don't know how to explain

how I felt about that in words.

It meant so much to me

that he said that.

Three days later I was in class

and I just broke down
completely.

And I think it was just this...

Like a realization
and processing of, like,

not just that
he had contacted me

but what that meant

and all of the emotions
behind that.

I was really just blown away.

I mean, I could almost
feel like a physical,

uh, something, you know.

I mean, it was just
so incredible,

incredible to meet this person

because I felt,
like, I was meeting him

even though, you know,

there was no name
attached to it.

Um, and I still...
I still can't get over it.

I felt like Javier
was really happy for me

because he knew
that it was something

that I've wanted
for a really long time.

He's kind of shy
about expressing

his emotions
but he can be very sweet.

Um, so he just kind of
ruffled my head

and he's like [speaking Spanish]

which means, like, "Oh,
you found your dad, huh?"

This is something that is you...

As a human being,
you need to have this.

And I think I see Alexis
also, like,

before, she was more,
you know, anxious

to see what was gonna happen

because she had to be 18,
but now that...

like this, a lot of relief.

And if she's relieved
we are relieved for sure.

I think, uh, before I turned 18,

a lot of my frustration

lied in not necessarily
not knowing who the donor was

but not knowing whether
I would ever know

who the donor was,
so the uncertainty.

Honestly, I've always had
a little bit of self-doubt,

"Did I make a selfish decision

by choosing to have her
by myself?"

And I think that this
has brought her so much joy

and also validation
that I don't think

I'm gonna feel that
as frequently as I have.

[Alexis] So I wrote
the donor back and this is

how I ended my letter to him,

"I'm also very happy
to be in contact with you."

It does feel very unreal
as it is something

that has always seemed
like a very far way

and uncertain thing.

I have of course wondered
and thought about you

and your family every day

for as long as I can remember.

So your response means a lot.

Like you've hoped,
your being a donor

has for sure resulted
many happy families.

Meeting these families,
and my brothers and sisters,

has brought
a whole lot of friendship,

love, and support
into all of our lives.

I feel very grateful as do
my siblings and their parents.

"Looking forward
to our next correspondence."

[dramatic music playing]

[birds chirping]

[man] Today's date
is November 3rd, 2017.

This is Donor 5114.

My being a donor
has been on my mind

through the years.

As a donor, you have
an opportunity to ponder

and to care about something

that is going to exist

that is out of your control.

The decision for me
to become an anonymous donor

was out of respect
to the parents.

I felt, like,
removing me as a variable

would help parents
to create a nurturing

and stable environment
without any distractions.

But I certainly was hopeful

that I would get information

and learn as much as I could

about how they were all doing.

I think if I hadn't,

it would probably
start eating at me.

It's hard to imagine
being the genetic half

to so many people.

People that are related to you

in a significant way

after not knowing them ever

in person
for much of their life.

I've given some thought
to what it might be like

for some of the offspring
to have the curiosity

about who their
biological father might be.

That's really one big reason

why I'm participating in this,

is so that I can help them

finally deal
with those questions,

uh, and have answers
to those questions.

I would love to meet
each of the kids,

you know, I think it would be
a really neat experience.

I'm very curious to meet them

and to learn
from their experiences

and to see how things are going.

And the best part
of being a donor so far

is knowing that I helped people

and knowing that people
that really wanted

to have a family
were able to have a family.

So my wife and I are going
through this together.

I'm looking forward
to all of the experiences

that can be shared.
The answers I've found

have made me feel
incredibly touched,

thankful, and proud.

[birds chirping]

[Nathan] If I never connected
with any of the siblings,

I think my life
would be a lot different.

I think as a person,

I'd still be relatively the same

but I would definitely
be missing out

on some great relationships
and bonds with people

that you can't really
get any other way.

[Danny] Growing up like
when you're in middle school

and high school,
having people that

you can relate to
and fall back on,

it just really
has created such an amazing

support system for me.

And I don't know,

I just don't think
I question myself

as much as I used to.

[Mattie]
Through the whole process,

it was just mostly like
a self-discovery,

like, all of the things
that I went through

and the people that I met,

it helped lead me
to who I am now.

I've learned to be more curious

and to not push the limits

but test it a little.

[Neylan] This experience
has thought me that

your family is more than like

who is right there with you
all the time.

And you can feel close
to somebody

that lives in Alaska or,
like, across the country

from you or wherever they are.

It's just how you choose

to build that relationship.

[Alexis] To my younger self,
I would say

you can come into this world mad

about how you were conceived

but you also have to realize

that you function
completely independently

from any of those other factors

and that you are your own person

and that it does not matter.

At the end of the day,

you're still you, and it's okay.

[dramatic music playing]

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