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♪♪
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Meredith: No one ever imagined
we would make it this far.
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♪ I guess all the mountains that
I moved just weren't enough ♪
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♪ And all those nights
I walked you home ♪
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♪ From crowded bars
when you were drunk ♪
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Incision-less surgeries,
4D imaging,
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mechanical organs,
stem cell therapy...[ Tablet chimes ]
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♪ And I just wonder what
it'd take to make you stay ♪
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♪♪
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♪ 'Cause when you said jump,
I said how high ♪
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♪♪
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♪ But when I jumped,
you said goodbye ♪
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Every medical innovation
seemed impossible,
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unimaginable
until it was achieved.
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[ Cellphone chimes ]♪ I would've
walked through hell ♪
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And luckily, we haven't
stopped making advancements.
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Your recent COVID test
has come back negative,
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your ABG's improved,
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your RSBI
looks promising,
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and oxygen requirements
have decreased.
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If you keep this up,
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I may just try weaning you
off the vent later today.
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[ Cellphone chimes ] Because the other side
of the unimaginable is death.
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And the pain
that comes with loss.
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Man: Dr. Altman?
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[ Gasps ]♪ Without you here tonight
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Bailey said
you'd need some help
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covering the COVID ICU
since --
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since we lost --Yeah, uh --
uh, o-okay.
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Thank you.♪ Nothing I can do
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♪ 'Cause
you don't wanna try ♪
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And that side
never stops coming.
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We need some good news,
Meredith.
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Please, just...
we really need some good news.
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♪ I would've
walked through hell ♪
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♪ To find another way
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[ Man laughs ]♪ I would've laid me down
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It's you again!
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♪ If I knew
that you would stay ♪
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♪ I would've crossed the stars
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♪ To keep you in my life
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♪ But now I'm falling hard
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♪ Without you here tonight
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Jackson: [ Yawning ]
You going in today?
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Day off.
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Hey, if I say something,
can you not judge me?
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Because we're friends who bang,
not friends who judge.
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[ Yawning ]
Mm, I have wrapped my head
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around the concept,
yeah.
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I need joy in my life.
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[ Sighing ] Val died,
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and DeLuca...
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I can't even say it yet.
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And I physically have
no more room left in my body
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for sadness.
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So I am switching specialties
to OB
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and all I need from you
is encouragement.
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You thought
I would judge you for that?
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I literally spend all day
every day at work
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wanting to
walk out that door
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just to go off into the woods by
myself hiking for three months
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until there's a vaccine.
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There's not gonna be a vaccine
in three months.
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I'm sorry --
you just said no judging.
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[ Laughing ] I know,
but that's just ridiculous.
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Wait, so, you for real
about switching specialties?
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Yes.
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Wow.
Yeah.
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[ Grunts ]
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[ Lamp clattering ]
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What was that?
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In lieu of confetti.
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[ Whistling ][ Sighs ]
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♪ I walked outside and got
kissed with a gentle breeze ♪
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♪ The sunshine and roses
gave me everything I need ♪
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♪ I feel alive You okay?
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[ Exhales sharply ]
No.
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The kids loved Andrew.
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He used to
play his guitar for them
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and teach them songs
in Italian.
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He brought gelato
to every birthday.
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And every half-birthday.
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Which all three of these kids
now think is an actual thing.
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[ Chuckles ]
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I'm just so sorry.
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For all of you.
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Aunt Maggie!
It's your turn!
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Okay, Zozo.
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I'll be there.
[ Shuddering breath ]
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Know what?
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I think this crowd could benefit
from some new East Coast moves.
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Ndugu moves.
What do you say, Zola?
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Gimme a shot?Yeah!
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Alright.
Make room.
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♪ Lucky today
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Unh!
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[ Whistling ]
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[ Laughs ]
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♪♪
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♪ I'm feeling lucky today Hey! Yeah?
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♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh
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♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh
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Ooh, ooh! Come on!♪ Yeah, yeah,
I'm feeling... ♪
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And I just wish I had the chance
to thank him for it.
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[ Cellphone beeps ]
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Do you think
that was okay?
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It's a video tribute for someone
whose brother got murdered.
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Nothing's "okay."
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But funerals
no longer exist, so...
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Do you want me
to record yours?
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I'm, um...
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Yeah, just, um...
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No.
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And, uh, later today,
I need you to meet a team...[ Knock on door ]
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...from county
at the loading dock.
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We're giving them PPE.
[ Sighs ]
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They're wearing trash bags
over there.
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Mm.
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[ Receiver clicks ]Do we have extra PPE?
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We have more than others.
Which is extra.
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When was the last timeyou were home?[ Knock on door ]
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Hunt! Yeah, Altman.
Come in.
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Meredith's stable.
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I'm actually gonna try to
reduce her vent settings today.
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I'm hopeful.
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Hunt,
how are we with beds?
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The normal COVID floor
capacity's at 80%, ICU is okay.
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Morale is pretty low
with DeLuca...
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It's hit everyone
pretty hard.
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Well, I expect
DeLuca's autopsy results
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by the end of the day.
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You asked for his results?
Why?
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Andrew DeLuca
was one of our own.
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Obviously,
something went wrong.
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I want to know what that was.
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♪♪
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That's all.
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♪♪
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Bailey, I already told you
every step of what happened.
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Well after I could have donesomething to change the outcome.[ Cellphone ringing ]
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Shut the door
on your way out.
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Yes?
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Yeah.
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[ Door slams ]Alright.
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Woman on P.A.:
Dr. Connor to the ICU.Thank youfor coming with me.
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I wouldn't miss it.
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I have privileges,
right?
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My department,
my world.
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Dr. Gruber to the OR.
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Helm, what do we got? Dr. Gruber to the OR.
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Byron Gibbis, 52, foundpassed out on his front porch.
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He's febrile, tachycardic.I also heard a big murmur.
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Rapid COVID was negative,
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no signs of head trauma,but I did order a pan scan.
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Let's add a cardiac CT.
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Um, do you work here?
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Dr. Winston Ndugu,
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cardiothoracic surgeon
from Tufts.
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He's got Osler's nodes.
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Oh, my God.
My God.
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Byron, I'm Dr. Maggie Pierce.You're at Grey-Sloan Memorial.
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You were found unconscious,and an ambulance --
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Get away from me!Okay --
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No, I'm serious.
Everybody back up, okay?
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I'm not getting COVID.
Where are my clothes?
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Sir, please just --
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Everybody here is sick.
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Oh, God.
[ Groans ]
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Okay, Byron,I know that this is a shock
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and I know
that you're scared,
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but if we don't geta look at your heart,
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you may not make it home.
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We have all been tested.
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If you need a maskor if you need a face shield,
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we can get you
whatever you need.
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But, please, just stay.
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I was so good.
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I didn't go anywhere.
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Let's get you ready
for CT.
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[ Sighs ]
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♪♪
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One minute I'm sad,'cause I think about his sister
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and his familyand what a great guy he was.
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Next minute,
I'm filled with guilt.
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Then I'm filled with rage.
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That a person could
[sighs]
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do thatto another human being.
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I'm scared. Hopeless.
Sometimes numb.
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I can always go backto guilt.
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Guilt is my go-to.
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My go-to is numb.
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Wow.
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Did you just describeexactly what was wrong
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with our relationship
in only five words?
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[ Laughs ]
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I think maybe I just did.
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[ Chuckles ]
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I just...
DeLuca. I...
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[ Sighs ]
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I-I just can't
get my head around it.
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[ Children laughing
in distance ]
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What is this?
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Looks like whiskey.
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Mm, what was it doing
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on the top shelf behindthe fancy candlesticks?
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What were you doing
on the top shelf
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behind the fancy
candlesticks?
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Are you drunk?
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It's 9:00 in the morning.
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Plenty of people get drunk
at 9:00 in the morning.
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Yeah, well, not me,
Amelia.
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I live at home
with four kids.
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Sometimes late at night...[ Trash can lid bangs ]
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...I have a drink in the garage
and I play my guitar.
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We're in a pandemic.
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You drink in the garage?Do you hear yourself?
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Do youhear yourself?
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Hiding alcohol
is an objectively bad sign.
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Or it's a sign that I'm trying
to be respectful of you.
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If you have a problem,you can talk to me.
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I'm, like, literallythe best person in the world
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you could talk to.Do you know stressed out I am?All the time?
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And now on top of everything,
if it wasn't hard enough,
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now I have to make sure that
I don't accidentally mention
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that their friend Andrew
was stabbed to death
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by somebody
who sells children for sex.
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Okay, that is all of us.That is not just you.
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And not all of us
have to drink to cope.
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You don't haveto,
or you don't getto?
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Because I get to.
Because I'm not an alcoholic.
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I'm not in recovery and --
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Y'know what?
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I can't be here right now.
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You're leaving?
Yes.
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Because I don't want to say
something that I might regret.
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Because I love you
and because I'm a good guy.
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But sometimes, Amelia,
you drive me insane.
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And -- And this is
one of those times.
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So, yes, I'm leaving.
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And I'm taking this
with me.
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Oh, and, uh,
just so we're clear...
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I'm coming back.
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Because
I'm not a bad guy!
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♪♪
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[ Door opens, slams closed ]
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No pressure, Grey, but we reallyneed you to pull through this.
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This place
can't stand another loss.
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Are we ready?
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I'm gonna lighten
her sedation...
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[ Machine beeping ]
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...and then gradually
turn down all of her settings.
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And if she tolerates it,then we'll move forward
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with spontaneous
breathing trials.
257
00:10:02,166 --> 00:10:03,733
Dr. Altman, I'm more
than able to handle this
258
00:10:03,777 --> 00:10:05,343
with the
respiratory therapist.
259
00:10:05,387 --> 00:10:06,736
Maybe you should
get some rest.
260
00:10:06,780 --> 00:10:08,651
I know how closely
you worked with Dr. DeLuca.
261
00:10:08,695 --> 00:10:11,611
Which has nothing to do withgetting Meredith off the vent.
262
00:10:14,657 --> 00:10:16,137
[ Beep ]
263
00:10:16,180 --> 00:10:19,793
♪♪
264
00:10:19,836 --> 00:10:21,316
Come on, Grey.
265
00:10:23,797 --> 00:10:25,581
Come on, Grey,
you can do this.
266
00:10:25,625 --> 00:10:27,670
[ Waves crashing ]
267
00:10:27,714 --> 00:10:29,498
You look just like Ellis
just now,
268
00:10:29,541 --> 00:10:30,891
the way you're looking
at your feet.
269
00:10:30,934 --> 00:10:32,066
So serious.
270
00:10:32,109 --> 00:10:34,285
Then she gets that
worried little brow.
271
00:10:34,329 --> 00:10:35,678
[ Birds calling ]
272
00:10:35,722 --> 00:10:36,766
♪♪
273
00:10:36,810 --> 00:10:38,899
This is torture!
274
00:10:38,942 --> 00:10:40,378
You're right here,
and I can't --
275
00:10:40,422 --> 00:10:41,684
It's torture!
276
00:10:41,728 --> 00:10:43,686
It's a torture
of your own devising.
277
00:10:43,730 --> 00:10:45,296
[ Reel clicking ]You were always good
at that.
278
00:10:45,340 --> 00:10:46,950
Good at what?
279
00:10:46,994 --> 00:10:48,212
Torturing yourself.
280
00:10:48,256 --> 00:10:50,475
I don't do that
as much anymore.
281
00:10:50,519 --> 00:10:55,916
♪♪
282
00:10:55,959 --> 00:10:57,874
You never
got to meet Ellis.
[ Scoffs ]
283
00:10:57,918 --> 00:10:59,484
We didn't even know.
284
00:10:59,528 --> 00:11:01,486
I wish
you got to know her.
285
00:11:01,530 --> 00:11:03,619
She looks just like you.
286
00:11:03,663 --> 00:11:05,926
She breaks the rules
just like you.
287
00:11:05,969 --> 00:11:09,364
And she's quick to anger.
And quick to laugh.
288
00:11:09,407 --> 00:11:14,456
And she's smart and pensive
and stubborn, just like you.
289
00:11:16,023 --> 00:11:18,982
Hates pink and purple,
loves brown and green,
290
00:11:19,026 --> 00:11:21,202
and -- and gets enraged
at the thought
291
00:11:21,245 --> 00:11:23,117
of anybody wanting to
cut down a tree.
292
00:11:23,160 --> 00:11:26,555
♪♪
293
00:11:32,169 --> 00:11:33,562
[ Breathing heavily ]
294
00:11:33,605 --> 00:11:35,477
Is -- Is this thing clean?
295
00:11:35,520 --> 00:11:37,566
People say you can't get sick
from surfaces, but you can.
296
00:11:37,609 --> 00:11:40,003
We thoroughly disinfect the entire room
297
00:11:40,047 --> 00:11:41,135
in between patients.
298
00:11:41,178 --> 00:11:43,703
Sir?Just --
I need a minute, okay?
299
00:11:43,746 --> 00:11:45,487
Can I leave my face shield on,
please?
300
00:11:45,530 --> 00:11:48,577
Sure.Oh, God.
301
00:11:48,620 --> 00:11:50,753
If you'd like,
I can stay with you.
302
00:11:50,797 --> 00:11:52,537
I can hold your foot or --No, no, no, no. I don't
want anybody touching me.
303
00:11:52,581 --> 00:11:54,148
Nobody touches me, okay?
304
00:11:54,191 --> 00:11:57,412
Winston: Osler's nodes,
so...endocarditis.
305
00:11:57,455 --> 00:11:59,675
Yes, but what is
the underlying cause?
306
00:11:59,719 --> 00:12:01,416
He denies
intravenous drug use,
307
00:12:01,459 --> 00:12:04,114
there's no indwelling catheter,
no diabetes --
308
00:12:04,158 --> 00:12:06,203
He said he hasn't left his house
since lockdown, right?
309
00:12:06,247 --> 00:12:07,596
May I?
310
00:12:07,639 --> 00:12:10,642
[ Machinery whirring ]
311
00:12:10,686 --> 00:12:12,253
Hey, Byron.Yeah?
312
00:12:12,296 --> 00:12:14,037
Have you had any trouble
with your teeth lately?
313
00:12:14,081 --> 00:12:16,910
I had a -- a popcorn kernel
stuck in my teeth,
314
00:12:16,953 --> 00:12:18,346
and I picked it out
with a paperclip
315
00:12:18,389 --> 00:12:20,043
and -- and now my gums
are a little sore,
316
00:12:20,087 --> 00:12:21,610
but I-I'm not going
to the dentist.
317
00:12:21,653 --> 00:12:23,394
I'm not gonna lay there with
my mouth open for 20 minutes
318
00:12:23,438 --> 00:12:24,569
inhaling somebody's
spit droplets.
319
00:12:24,613 --> 00:12:26,571
No way.Bingo.
320
00:12:26,615 --> 00:12:30,488
Dental infection, which led
to bacterial endocarditis.
321
00:12:30,532 --> 00:12:34,188
Aortic valve abscess almost
completely blocking the valves.
322
00:12:34,231 --> 00:12:36,407
Helm, order some antibiotics
and book an OR.
323
00:12:38,888 --> 00:12:40,542
I thought of it.
324
00:12:40,585 --> 00:12:41,543
You just said it first.
325
00:12:41,586 --> 00:12:43,545
Oh, yeah, I believe you.
326
00:12:43,588 --> 00:12:45,242
100%.
327
00:12:47,854 --> 00:12:49,551
[ Footsteps approaching ]
328
00:12:49,594 --> 00:12:52,423
Catherine: Were you looking
for me, dear?
329
00:12:52,467 --> 00:12:53,947
Yeah, I was.
Yeah.
330
00:12:58,690 --> 00:13:01,171
You know, I built my life,
331
00:13:01,215 --> 00:13:02,738
my sanity,
332
00:13:02,782 --> 00:13:05,785
my sobriety...
333
00:13:05,828 --> 00:13:08,309
around the surrender
to a higher power.
334
00:13:08,352 --> 00:13:10,833
I mean, for me,
335
00:13:10,877 --> 00:13:14,837
it's the belief
that there's some purpose.
336
00:13:14,881 --> 00:13:19,973
That there's
a -- a bigger plan.
337
00:13:20,016 --> 00:13:23,454
Something that if
I got all the way above it
338
00:13:23,498 --> 00:13:25,369
and could look down on it
339
00:13:25,413 --> 00:13:27,719
like, um --
340
00:13:27,763 --> 00:13:30,200
like a jigsaw puzzle,
okay?
Mm.
341
00:13:30,244 --> 00:13:33,290
That somehow it would --
it would make sense.
342
00:13:33,334 --> 00:13:35,945
My faith is rooted
in the trust
343
00:13:35,989 --> 00:13:40,297
that there's a -- a meaning
and a wisdom
344
00:13:40,341 --> 00:13:44,867
that I'm just not elevated
enough to see or understand.
345
00:13:44,911 --> 00:13:48,349
A faith that
whoever made this puzzle,
346
00:13:48,392 --> 00:13:50,307
it makes sense to Him.
347
00:13:51,700 --> 00:13:53,833
And it's beautiful.Mm.
348
00:13:56,574 --> 00:13:58,315
Today,
I'm -- I'm struggling.
349
00:13:58,359 --> 00:14:01,928
I'm struggling
with my faith.
350
00:14:01,971 --> 00:14:04,669
I'm struggling
to trust anything.
351
00:14:06,497 --> 00:14:12,547
And I just cannot
see any wisdom in this.
352
00:14:12,590 --> 00:14:16,246
♪♪
353
00:14:16,290 --> 00:14:20,337
I live
with stage 4 cancer.
354
00:14:20,381 --> 00:14:23,993
A cancer
very few people survive.
355
00:14:24,037 --> 00:14:26,691
I just got the results
from my latest scan,
356
00:14:26,735 --> 00:14:29,825
and...nothing has grown.
357
00:14:29,869 --> 00:14:31,435
[ Sighs ]
358
00:14:31,479 --> 00:14:33,133
It makes no sense.
359
00:14:33,176 --> 00:14:34,525
Everywhere we look,
360
00:14:34,569 --> 00:14:37,964
someone is dying
that was healthy yesterday.
361
00:14:38,007 --> 00:14:41,271
It makes no sense.
362
00:14:41,315 --> 00:14:45,101
"Puzzle"
is the right word.
363
00:14:45,145 --> 00:14:51,629
You can look for the pain,
the lost, the unbearable.
364
00:14:51,673 --> 00:14:56,112
Or you can look
for the beauty, the grace...
365
00:14:56,156 --> 00:14:58,419
the miracle.
366
00:14:58,462 --> 00:15:02,249
And nothing grew?
367
00:15:02,292 --> 00:15:04,860
Nothing grew.
368
00:15:04,904 --> 00:15:06,775
[ Breathes sharply ]
369
00:15:06,818 --> 00:15:08,995
[ Chuckles ]
370
00:15:09,038 --> 00:15:12,476
Okay, so, I know
that people buy and trade
371
00:15:12,520 --> 00:15:15,262
and get rich
and then just lose everything.
372
00:15:15,305 --> 00:15:18,221
But what exactly
is the stock market?
373
00:15:18,265 --> 00:15:20,397
It's a good thing you already
know how to live out of a car.
374
00:15:20,441 --> 00:15:22,182
Why?Well, questions like that
375
00:15:22,225 --> 00:15:23,618
make me think you're
gonna end up back in one.
376
00:15:23,661 --> 00:15:25,315
[ Both chuckle ]
377
00:15:25,359 --> 00:15:27,491
[ Knock on door ][ Gasps ]
378
00:15:27,535 --> 00:15:30,494
Uh...
who is it?
379
00:15:30,538 --> 00:15:32,583
Link: It's Jackson Avery!
380
00:15:32,627 --> 00:15:34,237
I'm here for a quick bang.
381
00:15:34,281 --> 00:15:35,717
I --
Jo!
382
00:15:35,760 --> 00:15:36,805
I...
383
00:15:42,680 --> 00:15:43,986
Shut up.
384
00:15:44,030 --> 00:15:45,901
Bad time?
385
00:15:45,945 --> 00:15:48,121
[ Door slides shut ]
386
00:15:48,164 --> 00:15:50,427
Oh, crap.
387
00:15:50,471 --> 00:15:52,429
Hey.Really bad time.
388
00:15:52,473 --> 00:15:54,431
Um, I brought whiskey.
389
00:15:54,475 --> 00:15:57,086
Oh, we're day drinking.
Ah!
390
00:15:57,130 --> 00:15:58,914
[ Clears throat ] Sorry, dude.
I didn't realize, uh...
391
00:15:58,958 --> 00:16:00,872
No, no, it's cool.[ Ice cubes clinking ]
392
00:16:00,916 --> 00:16:03,136
Guess you're aware of our...
situation, then.
393
00:16:03,179 --> 00:16:05,268
Yep. Sweet deal.
394
00:16:05,312 --> 00:16:06,966
[ Bottle cap rattling ]
395
00:16:07,009 --> 00:16:08,489
Here.
396
00:16:08,532 --> 00:16:09,881
Oh, no,
I'm on, uh, call.
397
00:16:09,925 --> 00:16:11,753
Oh! Dibs.
398
00:16:11,796 --> 00:16:13,668
Okay. Cheers.
399
00:16:13,711 --> 00:16:16,453
Happy...
400
00:16:16,497 --> 00:16:17,672
all-our-friends-are-dying
day.
401
00:16:19,152 --> 00:16:20,240
[ Glasses clink ]
402
00:16:25,027 --> 00:16:28,291
I told him we'd move as fast
as was safely possible.
403
00:16:28,335 --> 00:16:31,599
His echo showed
his ejection fraction at 64%,
404
00:16:31,642 --> 00:16:34,558
so hopefully his heart is strong
enough to have a good outcome.
405
00:16:34,602 --> 00:16:36,821
Who cleans his teeth
with a paperclip?
406
00:16:36,865 --> 00:16:39,085
Isolation makes people
do crazy things.
407
00:16:39,128 --> 00:16:41,391
We're not meant
to be alone.
408
00:16:41,435 --> 00:16:43,741
People physically
need people.
409
00:16:43,785 --> 00:16:46,831
[ Faucet running ]
410
00:16:46,875 --> 00:16:48,311
[ Faucet shuts off ]
411
00:16:48,355 --> 00:16:51,010
Oh, no, no! Don't --
Don't -- Don't touch me!
412
00:16:51,053 --> 00:16:53,099
Just back away!
Please, everybody, back away.
413
00:16:53,142 --> 00:16:55,579
Nurse Linda: Dr. Pierce!I'm sorry.
I can't be here!
414
00:16:55,623 --> 00:16:58,321
I can't do this. I can't!
Get away from me!Dr. Pierce. Dr. Pierce.
415
00:16:58,365 --> 00:17:00,236
Dr. Pierce! A little help?I can't be here!
I can't be here!
416
00:17:00,280 --> 00:17:01,977
Oh, God.I can't!
I can't be here.
417
00:17:02,021 --> 00:17:04,110
I can't.
I need to get out of here!
418
00:17:09,811 --> 00:17:12,248
Okay, call security.
I'm gonna go to the elevator.
419
00:17:12,292 --> 00:17:13,510
You go to the OR board.I don't know where that is.
420
00:17:13,554 --> 00:17:14,555
It's --Did anyone lose
a naked man?
421
00:17:14,598 --> 00:17:15,512
Because he went that way.
422
00:17:16,122 --> 00:17:17,079
Oh.
423
00:17:17,123 --> 00:17:22,258
♪♪
424
00:17:22,302 --> 00:17:23,433
Winston: Byron?
425
00:17:23,477 --> 00:17:26,610
[ Breathing quickly ]
426
00:17:26,654 --> 00:17:32,486
♪♪
427
00:17:32,529 --> 00:17:34,444
Hey, Byron.
428
00:17:34,488 --> 00:17:36,925
I'm -- I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry.
429
00:17:36,968 --> 00:17:38,883
I can't do this.
I can't be here.
430
00:17:38,927 --> 00:17:40,668
I--
431
00:17:40,711 --> 00:17:43,236
Oh, my God, my masks.
I'm not wearing my masks.
432
00:17:43,279 --> 00:17:45,499
Honey, you're not wearing
anything.
433
00:17:50,547 --> 00:17:54,377
My best friend, Rory,
he was healthy as a horse.
434
00:17:54,421 --> 00:17:56,162
Never worked a day job
his entire life,
435
00:17:56,205 --> 00:17:57,380
he didn't smoke,
he didn't drink,
436
00:17:57,424 --> 00:17:59,208
he -- he ran triathlons.
437
00:17:59,252 --> 00:18:01,732
He got the virus,
he was dead in a week. A week!
438
00:18:01,776 --> 00:18:03,647
Wife and kids didn't
get to say goodbye to him.
439
00:18:03,691 --> 00:18:04,996
Do you know
how many people
440
00:18:05,040 --> 00:18:06,650
they're projecting die
from this?
441
00:18:06,694 --> 00:18:09,131
Hundreds of thousands.I know.
442
00:18:09,175 --> 00:18:11,307
And if you
want to walk out of here,
443
00:18:11,351 --> 00:18:13,135
I'm not gonna stop you.
444
00:18:13,179 --> 00:18:14,615
Wait, what?
445
00:18:14,658 --> 00:18:16,312
But I will follow you.
446
00:18:16,356 --> 00:18:18,358
Because your heart's
only gonna get worse,
447
00:18:18,401 --> 00:18:19,794
and I owe it to you,
448
00:18:19,837 --> 00:18:21,883
I owe it to my oath,
449
00:18:21,926 --> 00:18:22,884
I owe it...
450
00:18:26,670 --> 00:18:29,282
I lost someone, too,
Byron.
451
00:18:29,325 --> 00:18:32,415
Not COVID.
452
00:18:32,459 --> 00:18:34,156
But I know that pain,
453
00:18:34,200 --> 00:18:39,074
and I know how unfair it is
and how enraging it is.
454
00:18:39,118 --> 00:18:40,858
But I think...
455
00:18:43,165 --> 00:18:45,733
I think we owe it
to the people we lost
456
00:18:45,776 --> 00:18:47,691
to live the lives
that they can't.
457
00:18:47,735 --> 00:18:51,782
Even when it seems hard,
and even when we're afraid.
458
00:18:51,826 --> 00:18:55,177
Byron, you have a problem
that we can fix.
459
00:18:55,221 --> 00:18:56,526
We can fix this.
460
00:18:56,570 --> 00:18:57,962
But you have to let us.
461
00:18:58,006 --> 00:18:59,790
[ Crying ]
I don't want to die.
462
00:18:59,834 --> 00:19:01,009
I don't want to die.
463
00:19:01,052 --> 00:19:03,142
I don't want you to die,
either.
464
00:19:03,185 --> 00:19:09,235
♪♪
465
00:19:09,278 --> 00:19:15,371
♪♪
466
00:19:15,415 --> 00:19:16,372
Okay.
467
00:19:16,416 --> 00:19:18,461
Okay.
468
00:19:18,505 --> 00:19:21,334
Let's get you
a gown first.
469
00:19:21,377 --> 00:19:24,554
She didn't even know
that she was pregnant.
470
00:19:24,598 --> 00:19:25,903
And then
we saved her baby.
471
00:19:25,947 --> 00:19:27,601
And then...
472
00:19:27,644 --> 00:19:28,993
she died.
473
00:19:29,037 --> 00:19:31,170
It's like,
during a pandemic,
474
00:19:31,213 --> 00:19:34,129
shouldn't all the other
tragic crap take a break?
475
00:19:34,173 --> 00:19:35,652
You're seriously
gonna quit surgery?
476
00:19:35,696 --> 00:19:37,045
I need some good things
in my life.
477
00:19:37,088 --> 00:19:38,264
And babies are good.
478
00:19:38,307 --> 00:19:40,440
You realize OB
is all about moms, yeah?
479
00:19:40,483 --> 00:19:43,182
Yeah, who are happy
because they're having babies.
480
00:19:43,225 --> 00:19:45,401
Not having my own
any time soon --
481
00:19:45,445 --> 00:19:46,446
Fingers crossed.
482
00:19:46,489 --> 00:19:48,317
...or maybe ever,
483
00:19:48,361 --> 00:19:50,232
so I might as well hang out
with some others.
484
00:19:50,276 --> 00:19:51,581
I got like 15 of themat home.[ Chuckles ]
485
00:19:51,625 --> 00:19:52,582
Hang out with those.
486
00:19:52,626 --> 00:19:53,931
It's so unfair!
487
00:19:53,975 --> 00:19:56,760
You and Amelia
didn't even want a baby,
488
00:19:56,804 --> 00:19:58,762
and then you got one
and neither of you died.
489
00:19:58,806 --> 00:20:01,200
Oh, poor you.
490
00:20:01,243 --> 00:20:04,115
You're young and single
and dating a plastic surgeon.
491
00:20:04,159 --> 00:20:05,552
No, we're not --
not dating.It's just sex.
492
00:20:05,595 --> 00:20:07,597
And you can still work.
Oh.
493
00:20:07,641 --> 00:20:09,991
Last time
my life sucked this bad,
494
00:20:10,034 --> 00:20:12,385
I quit medicine
and moved to Venice Beach.
495
00:20:12,428 --> 00:20:13,908
Ah, yes.
The bike shop, right?
496
00:20:13,951 --> 00:20:15,214
Heaven.[ Laughter ]
497
00:20:15,257 --> 00:20:17,216
Jackson wants to
run away to the woods.
498
00:20:17,259 --> 00:20:18,260
Oh, nice.
Can I come?
499
00:20:18,304 --> 00:20:19,479
No, that would defeat
the purpose.
500
00:20:19,522 --> 00:20:21,524
What isthe purpose?
501
00:20:21,568 --> 00:20:23,613
You kidding? Escape.
Outta here.
Mm.
502
00:20:23,657 --> 00:20:25,963
Escape from pain and rage
and responsibility.
503
00:20:26,007 --> 00:20:27,574
Escape from humanity.
504
00:20:27,617 --> 00:20:29,053
I mean,
trees don't murder people.
505
00:20:29,097 --> 00:20:30,620
Trees are not racist.Mm-hmm.
506
00:20:30,664 --> 00:20:32,492
Trees do not
politicize a disease
507
00:20:32,535 --> 00:20:33,580
and convince
millions of people
508
00:20:33,623 --> 00:20:35,234
not to protect themselves
and others
509
00:20:35,277 --> 00:20:37,279
by using a simple piece of damn
fabric on their faces, so...
510
00:20:37,323 --> 00:20:39,238
Trees don't even
have faces.
511
00:20:39,281 --> 00:20:40,239
You know what?
Maybe you can come.
512
00:20:40,282 --> 00:20:42,197
[ Laughter ]
513
00:20:42,241 --> 00:20:43,503
Ohh!
514
00:20:43,546 --> 00:20:45,113
[ Glass slams ]
515
00:20:45,156 --> 00:20:46,506
♪ Oh
516
00:20:48,769 --> 00:20:51,293
Uh, primary repair
of the stomach...
517
00:20:51,337 --> 00:20:53,121
[ Door closes ]...diaphragm,
splenectomy,
518
00:20:53,164 --> 00:20:55,297
and repair
of ventricular injury --
519
00:20:55,341 --> 00:20:57,995
all intact.
520
00:20:58,039 --> 00:21:00,650
Ultimately died
from coagulopathy.
521
00:21:00,694 --> 00:21:03,044
Like I told you.Well, now we have it
in writing.
522
00:21:03,087 --> 00:21:05,176
Which will make
the M&M go smoothly.
523
00:21:05,220 --> 00:21:06,917
The M&M?
524
00:21:06,961 --> 00:21:09,006
Bailey, what in the hell
are you trying to prove?
525
00:21:09,050 --> 00:21:11,095
It's Andrew DeLuca.
526
00:21:11,139 --> 00:21:13,315
He gave five years of his life
to this hospital.
527
00:21:13,359 --> 00:21:15,230
We own him due diligence.
528
00:21:15,274 --> 00:21:17,885
What about what you owe to your
doctors that are still here?
529
00:21:17,928 --> 00:21:20,235
The ones who've sacrificed
their lives to fight a pandemic,
530
00:21:20,279 --> 00:21:23,499
who hardly sleep or eat
or even shower,
531
00:21:23,543 --> 00:21:25,545
who see their families
on screens --
532
00:21:25,588 --> 00:21:28,635
Their faces are full of bruises
because of the damn PPE,
533
00:21:28,678 --> 00:21:30,898
and now you want them
to sit in front of a computer
534
00:21:30,941 --> 00:21:32,726
and be grilled
on whether they messed up
535
00:21:32,769 --> 00:21:34,815
trying to save
one of their own?
536
00:21:34,858 --> 00:21:36,599
Let them grieve,
for God's sake!
537
00:21:36,643 --> 00:21:38,166
[ Shouts ]
538
00:21:44,520 --> 00:21:47,218
You are causing me harm.
539
00:21:47,262 --> 00:21:51,875
You are causing harm
to Hunt and Altman.
540
00:21:51,919 --> 00:21:55,662
DeLuca was a victim
of a horrible crime,
541
00:21:55,705 --> 00:21:57,664
and he lost
too much blood.
542
00:21:57,707 --> 00:22:01,798
No mistakes were made,
no stitch was missed.
543
00:22:01,842 --> 00:22:03,583
And the mere suggestion
that any of us
544
00:22:03,626 --> 00:22:06,760
didn't do everything possible
to save his life...
545
00:22:09,415 --> 00:22:11,547
...it's a pain
I wouldn't put on anyone.
546
00:22:11,591 --> 00:22:15,943
♪♪
547
00:22:15,986 --> 00:22:19,686
[ Door opens, closes ]
548
00:22:19,729 --> 00:22:22,689
[ Waves crashing ]
549
00:22:24,604 --> 00:22:26,954
I want you closer.
550
00:22:26,997 --> 00:22:29,348
Could you please
just come here?
551
00:22:31,088 --> 00:22:33,526
Do you remember when
you were trying to teach Zola
552
00:22:33,569 --> 00:22:35,397
how to ride a bike?
553
00:22:35,441 --> 00:22:37,443
She got so frustrated
because she couldn't,
554
00:22:37,486 --> 00:22:40,184
and she threw it down,
and she goes, "Mama, you do it."
555
00:22:40,228 --> 00:22:43,274
And you couldn't stop laughing,
and she got so mad.
556
00:22:43,318 --> 00:22:45,189
Well, I was trying
not to laugh.
557
00:22:45,233 --> 00:22:47,627
So am I.
558
00:22:47,670 --> 00:22:50,978
I can't do it for you.
559
00:22:51,021 --> 00:22:51,935
It's your beach.
560
00:22:53,676 --> 00:22:55,591
Zola's amazing,
isn't she?
561
00:22:55,635 --> 00:22:58,942
I mean,
she's just so brilliant.
562
00:22:58,986 --> 00:23:00,422
She writes me letters
in her journal.
563
00:23:00,466 --> 00:23:01,510
Did you know that?
564
00:23:01,554 --> 00:23:05,645
♪♪
565
00:23:05,688 --> 00:23:08,038
[ Laughs ]
566
00:23:08,082 --> 00:23:10,301
Well, what is that?
What is that face?
567
00:23:10,345 --> 00:23:12,391
Would you start a surgery
with a face like that?
568
00:23:12,434 --> 00:23:13,435
No!
569
00:23:13,479 --> 00:23:14,436
No.
570
00:23:14,480 --> 00:23:16,090
You would relax.
571
00:23:16,133 --> 00:23:20,442
♪♪
572
00:23:20,486 --> 00:23:22,357
[ Exhales deeply ]
573
00:23:22,401 --> 00:23:28,972
♪♪
574
00:23:29,016 --> 00:23:35,370
♪♪
575
00:23:35,414 --> 00:23:37,981
[ Laughs ]
576
00:23:39,635 --> 00:23:40,984
It hasn't been that long.
577
00:23:41,028 --> 00:23:43,334
Maybe we could decrease
sedation a bit further,
578
00:23:43,378 --> 00:23:44,771
at least run another ABG.
579
00:23:44,814 --> 00:23:46,163
And hope she doesn't go
into cardiac arrest
580
00:23:46,207 --> 00:23:48,470
while we wait
for the results?
581
00:23:48,514 --> 00:23:50,298
I'm turning the settings
back up.
582
00:23:50,341 --> 00:23:52,300
[ Machine beeping ]
583
00:23:52,343 --> 00:23:53,823
Grey's staying
on the vent.
584
00:23:53,867 --> 00:23:59,133
♪♪
585
00:24:04,965 --> 00:24:06,923
[ Children laughing
in distance ]
586
00:24:06,967 --> 00:24:08,055
How's the book report
coming?
587
00:24:09,883 --> 00:24:12,494
That was
one of my favorites.
588
00:24:12,538 --> 00:24:14,061
That's what grownups say
to convince you
589
00:24:14,104 --> 00:24:15,279
to finish your homework.
590
00:24:15,323 --> 00:24:17,847
You got me there.
591
00:24:17,891 --> 00:24:20,720
I'm supposed to write a whole
page about living forever.
592
00:24:20,763 --> 00:24:23,636
Mom says it's impossible.
So what's the point?
593
00:24:23,679 --> 00:24:26,856
Your mom is pretty smart.
594
00:24:26,900 --> 00:24:28,945
[ Sighs ]
595
00:24:28,989 --> 00:24:31,818
If I made a medicine
where you could live forever,
596
00:24:31,861 --> 00:24:33,254
would you take it?
597
00:24:33,297 --> 00:24:34,690
I don't know.
598
00:24:34,734 --> 00:24:36,126
Uncle Link said,
"Heck yeah."
599
00:24:36,170 --> 00:24:38,520
[ Chuckles ]
That sounds like him.
600
00:24:38,564 --> 00:24:40,740
Me, I don't know.
601
00:24:40,783 --> 00:24:44,265
I think the fact
that we can't live forever
602
00:24:44,308 --> 00:24:48,530
is one of the things
that makes life so special.
603
00:24:48,574 --> 00:24:49,923
Impermanence.
604
00:24:49,966 --> 00:24:51,925
I think if we could
live forever,
605
00:24:51,968 --> 00:24:54,449
we'd spend so much time
losing the people that we love
606
00:24:54,493 --> 00:24:56,495
instead of holding tight
while we still can.
607
00:24:56,538 --> 00:24:58,366
Impermanence.
608
00:24:58,409 --> 00:25:00,020
I like that word.
609
00:25:00,063 --> 00:25:01,935
Me too.
610
00:25:01,978 --> 00:25:05,242
If I had the medicine,
I'd give it to my mom right now.
611
00:25:05,286 --> 00:25:07,070
Me too.
612
00:25:09,116 --> 00:25:10,813
Hey,
you want to call her?
613
00:25:10,857 --> 00:25:13,250
Alright.
614
00:25:13,294 --> 00:25:15,426
[ Tablet ringing ]
615
00:25:15,470 --> 00:25:16,906
[ Monitor beeping ]
616
00:25:16,950 --> 00:25:18,473
♪♪
617
00:25:18,517 --> 00:25:19,561
[ Tablet chimes ]
618
00:25:19,605 --> 00:25:20,562
Hello there.
619
00:25:20,606 --> 00:25:21,824
Can we have a minute?
620
00:25:21,868 --> 00:25:22,608
Of course.
621
00:25:24,697 --> 00:25:28,309
Hi, Mommy.
I miss you so much.
622
00:25:28,352 --> 00:25:29,832
I love you.
623
00:25:29,876 --> 00:25:33,706
Um, I've been writing
a page about living forever.
624
00:25:34,881 --> 00:25:36,535
How are you doing?
625
00:25:36,578 --> 00:25:38,145
It didn't work?
626
00:25:38,188 --> 00:25:40,277
Altman wants to try again
in a day or so.
627
00:25:42,366 --> 00:25:45,935
[ Sighs ]
628
00:25:45,979 --> 00:25:47,894
When I lost my wife,
um...
629
00:25:50,113 --> 00:25:51,506
...the therapist,
she said that
630
00:25:51,550 --> 00:25:55,118
there's no wrong way
to process the loss,
631
00:25:55,162 --> 00:25:56,816
the grief.
632
00:25:58,557 --> 00:26:00,733
But there is.
633
00:26:01,908 --> 00:26:04,040
Over a bloody computer screen,
it's...
634
00:26:06,086 --> 00:26:07,870
...it's wrong.
635
00:26:07,914 --> 00:26:09,524
Woman on P.A.: Dr. Lyon,
call the blood bank.
636
00:26:09,568 --> 00:26:12,135
Dr. Lyon,
call the blood bank.
637
00:26:12,179 --> 00:26:13,223
[ Clears throat ]
638
00:26:14,616 --> 00:26:15,835
Ohh!
Oh!
639
00:26:15,878 --> 00:26:19,490
You know the rules.
Who deserves it?
640
00:26:19,534 --> 00:26:21,362
Deserves what?
Rules to what?"Make it Sadder."
641
00:26:21,405 --> 00:26:23,320
We tell our sob stories,
642
00:26:23,364 --> 00:26:27,063
and whosever story is saddest
wins the last shot.
643
00:26:27,107 --> 00:26:28,674
"Make it Sadder"?
That's fun?
644
00:26:28,717 --> 00:26:29,762
[ Laughs ]Yeah. Oh, yeah.
645
00:26:29,805 --> 00:26:31,590
Okay. Alright.
I'll be the judge.
646
00:26:31,633 --> 00:26:32,634
I'll be the judge.
Alright, go.Okay.
647
00:26:32,678 --> 00:26:34,027
Alright.
[ Clears throat ]
648
00:26:34,070 --> 00:26:37,465
I am currently raising
four children
649
00:26:37,508 --> 00:26:39,859
in a hellscape of a world
650
00:26:39,902 --> 00:26:41,730
where people
don't listen to science.
651
00:26:41,774 --> 00:26:44,559
My parents are going ahead
with their second wedding
652
00:26:44,603 --> 00:26:45,821
even though
there's a pandemic,
653
00:26:45,865 --> 00:26:47,693
so they'll probably
get sick and die.
654
00:26:47,736 --> 00:26:51,087
And, uh, my last shred
of me-time --
655
00:26:51,131 --> 00:26:52,480
sneaking an occasional drink,
656
00:26:52,523 --> 00:26:53,960
which was already
pretty pathetic,
657
00:26:54,003 --> 00:26:57,528
I know -- is now ruined.
658
00:26:57,572 --> 00:26:59,792
Strong. Yeah.
Mm, alright.
659
00:26:59,835 --> 00:27:05,362
I had plans the weekend
that everything shut down.
660
00:27:05,406 --> 00:27:07,974
I had crawled out
of my depression,
661
00:27:08,017 --> 00:27:11,847
and I was all set
to start over by...
662
00:27:11,891 --> 00:27:12,674
going...
663
00:27:12,718 --> 00:27:14,415
[ Laughing ]
664
00:27:14,458 --> 00:27:17,505
...going on dates.
665
00:27:17,548 --> 00:27:18,549
Oh, yeah.Aww!
666
00:27:18,593 --> 00:27:20,421
Okay, yes, yes.
667
00:27:20,464 --> 00:27:22,989
You guys,
I even bought outfits, okay?
668
00:27:23,032 --> 00:27:26,340
Hang on. Okay.
Ah! Okay.Alright.
669
00:27:26,383 --> 00:27:28,385
Let me show you.
670
00:27:28,429 --> 00:27:31,519
What do we have?
Oh, this is cute, right?
671
00:27:31,562 --> 00:27:35,436
The perfect thing
to declare someone dead in.
672
00:27:35,479 --> 00:27:36,611
Oh, what about this?
673
00:27:36,655 --> 00:27:38,569
This, for the, um,
career girl
674
00:27:38,613 --> 00:27:41,050
that just spent, um,
seven hours
675
00:27:41,094 --> 00:27:43,662
making more room for bodies
on the morgue truck.
676
00:27:43,705 --> 00:27:45,838
Or --
[ Laughing ] Or...
677
00:27:45,881 --> 00:27:47,622
How about this?
678
00:27:47,666 --> 00:27:51,626
This, for -- for
the funeral of a co-worker
679
00:27:51,670 --> 00:27:54,542
who got stabbed to death...
680
00:27:54,585 --> 00:27:59,025
who doesn't even
get a funeral.
681
00:28:03,507 --> 00:28:05,771
Okay,
Jo wins the last shot.
682
00:28:07,903 --> 00:28:09,600
No, no!
683
00:28:09,644 --> 00:28:10,689
Yes.No way. Unh-unh.
684
00:28:10,732 --> 00:28:11,907
Unh-unh.Thank you so much.
685
00:28:11,951 --> 00:28:15,781
She has an entire loft
all to herself!
686
00:28:15,824 --> 00:28:16,782
Mnh-mnh.[ Scoffs, laughs ]
687
00:28:16,825 --> 00:28:18,218
[ Cellphone vibrating, chiming ]
688
00:28:18,261 --> 00:28:19,306
Hold on.
Ahh!
689
00:28:19,349 --> 00:28:20,176
[ Cellphone chiming ]
690
00:28:20,220 --> 00:28:21,612
What's that?
691
00:28:21,656 --> 00:28:22,918
It's Richard.
692
00:28:22,962 --> 00:28:24,528
The memorial for DeLuca
is tonight.
693
00:28:24,572 --> 00:28:25,747
[ Sighs ]
694
00:28:27,357 --> 00:28:28,881
Alright, I'll drive.
695
00:28:28,924 --> 00:28:32,711
Let's, um, get ready.
696
00:28:32,754 --> 00:28:34,190
Woman on P.A.:
Orderly to 6 East.
697
00:28:34,234 --> 00:28:36,976
[ Indistinct conversations ]
698
00:28:37,019 --> 00:28:45,288
♪♪
699
00:28:45,332 --> 00:28:53,819
♪♪
700
00:28:53,862 --> 00:28:56,256
Hey. Uh, just moved
Mr. Cabrera up here.
701
00:28:56,299 --> 00:28:57,431
Another complete white-out.
702
00:28:57,474 --> 00:28:58,345
How's Meredith?
703
00:28:58,388 --> 00:29:00,608
Um, uh...
704
00:29:00,651 --> 00:29:02,175
It -- It didn't work.
705
00:29:02,218 --> 00:29:04,786
And I'm questioning
why I even thought it would.
706
00:29:04,830 --> 00:29:07,833
Well, DeLuca's autopsy results
came back.
707
00:29:07,876 --> 00:29:09,269
We did everything
that we could.
708
00:29:09,312 --> 00:29:10,923
I know that.
709
00:29:12,707 --> 00:29:14,927
And he's still dead.
710
00:29:14,970 --> 00:29:22,586
♪♪
711
00:29:22,630 --> 00:29:24,284
[ Monitor beeping softly ]
712
00:29:24,327 --> 00:29:26,590
♪♪
713
00:29:26,634 --> 00:29:29,463
Hayes: Your kids call every day
on a video chat.
714
00:29:29,506 --> 00:29:31,030
Don't know
if you can hear them.
715
00:29:33,249 --> 00:29:34,773
[ Echoing ] Don't even know
if you can hear me now.
716
00:29:34,816 --> 00:29:38,515
♪ There's a million things
717
00:29:38,559 --> 00:29:39,952
You look perfect.
718
00:29:39,995 --> 00:29:44,173
♪ I can't control
719
00:29:44,217 --> 00:29:45,696
Hayes:
[ Echoing ] Maybe -- Maybe
720
00:29:45,740 --> 00:29:47,829
it's none of my business,
Grey,
721
00:29:47,873 --> 00:29:49,657
but I'm begging you.
722
00:29:49,700 --> 00:29:51,050
Fight.
723
00:29:51,093 --> 00:29:53,835
♪ There is one thing
that I know ♪
724
00:29:53,879 --> 00:29:56,011
That's up to you.
725
00:29:56,055 --> 00:29:57,665
But if you're asking me,
726
00:29:57,708 --> 00:29:58,884
you should hear him out.
727
00:29:58,927 --> 00:30:00,494
[ Echoing ]
They need you, Grey.
728
00:30:00,537 --> 00:30:02,061
The little one...
729
00:30:02,104 --> 00:30:04,454
Meredith: Ellis.She looks just like you.
730
00:30:04,498 --> 00:30:06,761
She got
all your expressions.
731
00:30:06,805 --> 00:30:08,197
She doesn't smile
easy or often,
732
00:30:08,241 --> 00:30:11,331
but when she does, sweet Jesus,
it lights up the room.
733
00:30:11,374 --> 00:30:13,376
What did you do
to make her smile?
734
00:30:13,420 --> 00:30:14,421
You shoulda seen it --
735
00:30:14,464 --> 00:30:15,988
she smiles and she smiles,
736
00:30:16,031 --> 00:30:18,425
and it gets bigger
and bigger until...[ Snaps fingers ]
737
00:30:18,468 --> 00:30:20,775
boom! --
she just bursts out laughing.
738
00:30:20,819 --> 00:30:23,299
What did you do
to make her laugh?
739
00:30:23,343 --> 00:30:25,301
Then her brother gets annoyed
because she's laughing so hard
740
00:30:25,345 --> 00:30:26,433
right in his ear.
741
00:30:26,476 --> 00:30:27,477
That's Bailey.
742
00:30:27,521 --> 00:30:28,870
And then the oldest one
comes in,
743
00:30:28,914 --> 00:30:31,438
and she takes the tablet
and says they're hogging it
744
00:30:31,481 --> 00:30:32,918
and that she needs
time with you, too,
745
00:30:32,961 --> 00:30:36,443
because she's the oldest
and she's your favorite.
746
00:30:36,486 --> 00:30:38,488
Zola.
747
00:30:38,532 --> 00:30:41,970
Then I hear a click and a lock,
but we're in darkness.
748
00:30:42,014 --> 00:30:44,799
Can't tell who has it,
'cause I can't see a face.
749
00:30:44,843 --> 00:30:48,368
But then I hear a voice,
and it's the oldest one.
750
00:30:48,411 --> 00:30:50,718
And she's
sittin' in the dark.
751
00:30:50,761 --> 00:30:52,633
She's in her closet.
752
00:30:52,676 --> 00:30:55,244
That's where she goes
to write letters to her dad.
753
00:30:55,288 --> 00:30:58,421
And she says,
"I'm really sorry, Mum.
754
00:30:58,465 --> 00:31:00,293
Didn't mean for things
to get so violent.
755
00:31:00,336 --> 00:31:03,252
Ellis can be
truly infuriating."
756
00:31:03,296 --> 00:31:05,298
[ Chuckles ]
757
00:31:05,341 --> 00:31:07,517
They need you, Grey.
758
00:31:07,561 --> 00:31:08,910
I know.
759
00:31:08,954 --> 00:31:10,346
They need you to fight.
760
00:31:10,390 --> 00:31:14,916
♪ My thoughts don't drift
761
00:31:14,960 --> 00:31:15,743
♪ When you're around
762
00:31:15,786 --> 00:31:18,354
We all need you to fight.
763
00:31:18,398 --> 00:31:21,357
I don't know that I can.
764
00:31:21,401 --> 00:31:24,926
It's...so warm here.
765
00:31:24,970 --> 00:31:27,276
The water is so cool.
766
00:31:27,320 --> 00:31:29,235
I feel so relaxed.
767
00:31:29,278 --> 00:31:30,976
And there's no pain.
768
00:31:31,019 --> 00:31:32,629
I watched my kids
lose their mum.
769
00:31:32,673 --> 00:31:34,327
[ Echoing ] You don't want
that for your kids, Grey.
770
00:31:34,370 --> 00:31:36,633
There are people getting better
here every day.
771
00:31:36,677 --> 00:31:38,809
You could be
one of those people.
772
00:31:38,853 --> 00:31:40,986
♪ Nothing is forever
773
00:31:41,029 --> 00:31:43,249
I believe that you could.
774
00:31:43,292 --> 00:31:44,859
'Cause I've heard the stories
about other fights
775
00:31:44,903 --> 00:31:46,208
you've already won, so...
776
00:31:47,601 --> 00:31:50,038
So I'm asking you
to fight.
777
00:31:50,082 --> 00:31:51,213
♪ You're my anchor
in the ocean ♪
778
00:31:51,257 --> 00:31:53,215
[ Echoing ]
You fight, Grey.
779
00:31:53,259 --> 00:31:54,173
♪ Tides will change,
the sea can't help it ♪
780
00:31:54,216 --> 00:31:56,044
It's okay.
781
00:31:56,088 --> 00:31:57,959
I'll be right here.
782
00:31:58,003 --> 00:32:00,222
♪ Nothing is forever
783
00:32:00,266 --> 00:32:06,881
♪ When it feels like
I'm in constant motion ♪
784
00:32:06,925 --> 00:32:13,801
♪ You're my anchor
in the ocean ♪
785
00:32:13,844 --> 00:32:16,891
[ Monitor beeping ]
786
00:32:16,935 --> 00:32:19,938
♪♪
787
00:32:32,689 --> 00:32:35,692
Dr. Webber
set something up for DeLuca.
788
00:32:35,736 --> 00:32:36,824
A memorial.
789
00:32:41,220 --> 00:32:43,309
[ Sniffles ]
790
00:32:45,398 --> 00:32:46,660
I'm not a great Jew.
791
00:32:49,315 --> 00:32:52,448
I cheated
at my bar mitzvah.
792
00:32:52,492 --> 00:32:56,670
I was too busy trying
to ignore Lenny Rapkin's shins
793
00:32:56,713 --> 00:32:58,628
that I didn't learn Hebrew,
794
00:32:58,672 --> 00:32:59,542
so I just wrote it out
phonetically
795
00:32:59,586 --> 00:33:01,675
and read that instead.
796
00:33:01,718 --> 00:33:05,505
I skip half the High Holy Days
and repent for it at Yom Kippur.
797
00:33:05,548 --> 00:33:08,116
And if I'm honest, I...
798
00:33:08,160 --> 00:33:10,118
go back and forth
about believing in God,
799
00:33:10,162 --> 00:33:13,165
which is actually very Jewish,
but...
800
00:33:13,208 --> 00:33:15,906
It's the traditions
that I find helpful.
801
00:33:17,778 --> 00:33:20,999
When a loved one dies,
we have...
802
00:33:21,042 --> 00:33:24,698
rules about how to grieve
and move on.
803
00:33:24,741 --> 00:33:26,178
Protocols.
804
00:33:26,221 --> 00:33:31,139
We force ourselves
to sit in the pain.
805
00:33:31,183 --> 00:33:33,794
We cry.
806
00:33:33,837 --> 00:33:35,535
And we laugh.
[ Chuckles ]
807
00:33:35,578 --> 00:33:38,233
And we eat a lot.
808
00:33:38,277 --> 00:33:41,715
And it doesn't bring
the person back,
809
00:33:41,758 --> 00:33:44,065
but it does
start the healing.
810
00:33:48,635 --> 00:33:50,463
Chief, your mom died.
811
00:33:50,506 --> 00:33:54,641
♪♪
812
00:33:54,684 --> 00:33:55,990
My mom makes me crazy,
813
00:33:56,034 --> 00:33:58,949
but I'm gonna fall apart
when she dies.
814
00:33:58,993 --> 00:34:02,779
And you have people
you can be with.
815
00:34:04,259 --> 00:34:08,829
People who love you and miss you
and need to grieve with you.
816
00:34:10,483 --> 00:34:12,702
This pandemic
has taken so much.
817
00:34:14,704 --> 00:34:16,445
Don't give it that,
too.
818
00:34:17,838 --> 00:34:20,014
♪ There's a light
819
00:34:20,058 --> 00:34:22,973
♪♪
820
00:34:23,017 --> 00:34:25,454
♪ A certain kind of light
821
00:34:25,498 --> 00:34:27,587
[ Taryn sighs ]
822
00:34:27,630 --> 00:34:32,983
♪ It's never shone on me
823
00:34:33,027 --> 00:34:34,463
Hey.
824
00:34:34,507 --> 00:34:36,161
Oh, sorry.
825
00:34:36,204 --> 00:34:39,468
Um, I'm about to head back in
to check on Mr. Gibbis.
826
00:34:39,512 --> 00:34:41,514
He's sedated and stable.
827
00:34:41,557 --> 00:34:44,430
You gonna go
to the memorial?
828
00:34:44,473 --> 00:34:48,216
I thought bad things
about him.
829
00:34:48,260 --> 00:34:53,395
When he was sick, I thought,
"Great, more surgeries for me."
830
00:34:53,439 --> 00:34:55,441
I had no compassion.
831
00:34:55,484 --> 00:34:57,356
And now he's just...
832
00:34:57,399 --> 00:34:59,053
dead.
833
00:34:59,097 --> 00:35:00,141
And we can't hug.
834
00:35:00,185 --> 00:35:02,578
And as a rule,
I hate hugs, but...
835
00:35:02,622 --> 00:35:04,276
♪ What good does...
836
00:35:04,319 --> 00:35:07,192
...I haven't physically touched
anyone without gloves
837
00:35:07,235 --> 00:35:08,584
in over two months,
838
00:35:08,628 --> 00:35:12,675
and I-I feel like
I'm turning into that patient.
839
00:35:12,719 --> 00:35:14,155
Another week of this and...
840
00:35:14,199 --> 00:35:16,462
I'll be running through
the hospital naked.
841
00:35:16,505 --> 00:35:17,463
♪ You don't know
what it's like ♪
842
00:35:17,506 --> 00:35:20,161
Stand up.
843
00:35:20,205 --> 00:35:21,249
And turn around.
844
00:35:21,293 --> 00:35:22,859
I'm sorry?
845
00:35:22,903 --> 00:35:24,209
Just trust me.
846
00:35:24,252 --> 00:35:26,776
[ Sighs ]
847
00:35:26,820 --> 00:35:30,563
♪ To love somebody
848
00:35:30,606 --> 00:35:34,132
♪ To love somebody
849
00:35:34,175 --> 00:35:36,656
♪ The way I love you
850
00:35:36,699 --> 00:35:40,050
♪♪
851
00:35:40,094 --> 00:35:41,661
[ Sobs ]
852
00:35:41,704 --> 00:35:46,492
♪ You don't know
what it's like ♪
853
00:35:46,535 --> 00:35:48,189
[ Breathes deeply ]
854
00:35:48,233 --> 00:35:49,799
Thank you.
855
00:35:49,843 --> 00:35:53,673
♪ Baby, you don't know
what it's like ♪[ Sniffles ]
856
00:35:53,716 --> 00:35:55,544
Zander: Spread out, please.
857
00:35:55,588 --> 00:35:58,112
We may be outside, but we still
need to maintain our distance.
858
00:35:58,156 --> 00:36:01,289
♪ To love somebody
859
00:36:01,333 --> 00:36:05,119
♪ The way I love you
860
00:36:05,163 --> 00:36:06,512
♪♪
861
00:36:06,555 --> 00:36:09,210
[ Gearshift clicks ]
862
00:36:09,254 --> 00:36:11,299
[ Vehicle doors open ]
863
00:36:11,343 --> 00:36:15,564
♪♪
864
00:36:15,608 --> 00:36:18,654
♪ The way I love you
865
00:36:18,698 --> 00:36:20,265
♪♪
866
00:36:20,308 --> 00:36:22,528
[ Engine starts ]
867
00:36:22,571 --> 00:36:24,094
♪♪
868
00:36:24,138 --> 00:36:25,270
Richard.
869
00:36:25,313 --> 00:36:26,401
♪♪
870
00:36:26,445 --> 00:36:28,098
I'm...
871
00:36:28,142 --> 00:36:31,014
I need to
take some time off.
872
00:36:31,058 --> 00:36:32,320
I'm not sure how long.
873
00:36:32,364 --> 00:36:34,409
But I-I need to go home.
874
00:36:34,453 --> 00:36:36,194
However long you need.
875
00:36:36,237 --> 00:36:39,240
♪♪
876
00:36:39,284 --> 00:36:44,245
Everybody, can I have
your attention, please?
877
00:36:44,289 --> 00:36:46,465
Thank you.
878
00:36:46,508 --> 00:36:49,381
I appreciate
you all being here tonight.
879
00:36:49,424 --> 00:36:52,949
Grey-Sloan is a family.
880
00:36:52,993 --> 00:36:56,388
And Andrew DeLuca
was a member of that family.
881
00:36:56,431 --> 00:36:59,347
And his death,
however brave...
882
00:36:59,391 --> 00:37:02,263
Well,
it's still heartbreaking.
883
00:37:02,307 --> 00:37:07,703
We can't honor his life
like we might have in the past,
884
00:37:07,747 --> 00:37:11,751
but we can still honor him.
885
00:37:11,794 --> 00:37:13,492
Dr. Perez?
886
00:37:13,535 --> 00:37:19,324
♪ There is a man,
he runs right to me ♪
887
00:37:19,367 --> 00:37:24,416
♪ He wraps his loving arms
around me ♪
888
00:37:24,459 --> 00:37:29,377
♪ He knows
889
00:37:29,421 --> 00:37:31,858
♪ He knows my pain
890
00:37:31,901 --> 00:37:34,556
♪ Oh, he knows my pain
891
00:37:34,600 --> 00:37:37,385
♪ Oh, he gives me life
892
00:37:37,429 --> 00:37:41,520
♪ And I don't know
if that is for me ♪
893
00:37:41,563 --> 00:37:46,699
♪ It's darker than I thought,
in all its broken glory ♪
894
00:37:46,742 --> 00:37:48,744
♪ My soul
895
00:37:48,788 --> 00:37:51,138
♪♪
896
00:37:51,181 --> 00:37:54,097
♪ Just wants to go home
897
00:37:54,141 --> 00:37:56,926
♪ He's calling me home
898
00:37:56,970 --> 00:37:58,841
♪♪
899
00:37:58,885 --> 00:38:01,931
[ Fingers snapping rhythmically,
humming ]
900
00:38:01,975 --> 00:38:11,201
♪♪
901
00:38:11,245 --> 00:38:20,602
♪♪
902
00:38:20,646 --> 00:38:23,475
♪ And there was a light
903
00:38:23,518 --> 00:38:25,999
♪ Oh, there was a fire
904
00:38:26,042 --> 00:38:28,654
♪ She came through
in the night ♪
905
00:38:28,697 --> 00:38:31,744
♪ She entered like an angel
906
00:38:31,787 --> 00:38:33,920
♪ Hold on
907
00:38:33,963 --> 00:38:37,097
♪♪
908
00:38:37,140 --> 00:38:39,229
♪ Hold on
909
00:38:39,273 --> 00:38:42,929
♪ She's just memories
910
00:38:42,972 --> 00:38:47,716
♪♪
911
00:38:47,760 --> 00:38:50,502
[ Crying ]DeLuca: Hello.
912
00:38:50,545 --> 00:38:53,200
Uh, my name is Andrew DeLuca,
and I'm thrilled to be
913
00:38:53,243 --> 00:38:55,115
applying to the surgical
residency program
914
00:38:55,158 --> 00:38:57,596
at Grey-Sloan
Memorial Hospital.
915
00:38:57,639 --> 00:38:59,249
A bit about me.
916
00:38:59,293 --> 00:39:01,730
I am Italian,
but I grew up in Wisconsin.
917
00:39:01,774 --> 00:39:03,384
A lot of doctors
in my family,
918
00:39:03,428 --> 00:39:05,255
including my big sister,
Carina.
919
00:39:05,299 --> 00:39:07,736
Um, I grew up stealing
her game of Operation,
920
00:39:07,780 --> 00:39:09,825
so I guess you can say
it's, uh, been a dream of mine
921
00:39:09,869 --> 00:39:12,262
for a very long time.
[ Chuckles]
922
00:39:12,306 --> 00:39:14,787
The idea of doing my training
at Grey-Sloan
923
00:39:14,830 --> 00:39:17,050
and -- and learning
from surgical legends
924
00:39:17,093 --> 00:39:19,139
like Richard Webber
and Miranda Bailey
925
00:39:19,182 --> 00:39:22,708
and Jackson Avery
and Meredith Grey...
926
00:39:22,751 --> 00:39:25,885
uh, well, it just doesn't
get any better than that.
927
00:39:25,928 --> 00:39:28,061
I think the reason I want to
become a surgeon
928
00:39:28,104 --> 00:39:30,150
is that [sighs] I've always had
929
00:39:30,193 --> 00:39:32,500
this insatiable desire
to help people.
930
00:39:32,544 --> 00:39:36,504
And I think I get that from
my mom, who I lost too soon.
931
00:39:36,548 --> 00:39:38,288
And, uh, she had
this really giving heart,
932
00:39:38,332 --> 00:39:40,900
and she always pushed me to do as much good as possible,
933
00:39:40,943 --> 00:39:44,556
so I guess
I'm doing this for her.
934
00:39:44,599 --> 00:39:46,253
Now, you should be warned,
935
00:39:46,296 --> 00:39:49,387
I can be relentless at times,
and very stubborn.
936
00:39:49,430 --> 00:39:53,782
But I promise that,
if I match with you...
937
00:39:53,826 --> 00:39:56,306
[ Speaking Italian ]
938
00:39:56,350 --> 00:39:59,353
I will give you
the very best of me.
939
00:39:59,397 --> 00:40:01,311
Thank you.
940
00:40:01,355 --> 00:40:03,270
Alright.
941
00:40:03,313 --> 00:40:12,584
♪♪
942
00:40:12,627 --> 00:40:14,803
Meredith: At all costs,
943
00:40:14,847 --> 00:40:17,110
we avoid
negative experiences.
944
00:40:17,153 --> 00:40:23,246
♪♪
945
00:40:23,290 --> 00:40:29,688
♪♪
946
00:40:29,731 --> 00:40:31,516
We ignore pain.
947
00:40:31,559 --> 00:40:37,609
♪♪
948
00:40:37,652 --> 00:40:40,525
We steer clear
of the unfamiliar.
949
00:40:40,568 --> 00:40:42,309
We lie when asked
about how we feel.
950
00:40:42,352 --> 00:40:44,180
[ Both laughing ]
951
00:40:44,224 --> 00:40:46,574
♪ Steady as a rock
952
00:40:46,618 --> 00:40:48,794
♪ I stand, I wait
953
00:40:48,837 --> 00:40:50,752
We shouldn't do that.
954
00:40:52,711 --> 00:40:53,842
[ Sighs ]
955
00:40:53,886 --> 00:40:56,715
I stopped by
the hospital for, um...
956
00:40:56,758 --> 00:40:58,499
I watched.
957
00:40:58,543 --> 00:41:01,067
♪ But eyes that can't erase
958
00:41:01,110 --> 00:41:02,634
[ Sighs ]
959
00:41:02,677 --> 00:41:04,157
I won't keep booze
in the house anymore.
960
00:41:04,200 --> 00:41:06,028
That's not what I need
from you.
961
00:41:06,072 --> 00:41:08,466
♪ Hands that hold
962
00:41:08,509 --> 00:41:11,817
What I need from you
is no more secrets.
963
00:41:11,860 --> 00:41:16,386
It's just --
we have this baby together.
964
00:41:16,430 --> 00:41:19,477
We have this whole life
together, so...
965
00:41:19,520 --> 00:41:21,914
I want to really know you.
966
00:41:23,176 --> 00:41:24,220
Deal.
967
00:41:26,266 --> 00:41:28,877
I reek of whiskey right now,
or I would hug you.
968
00:41:28,921 --> 00:41:30,836
I will hold my breath.
969
00:41:30,879 --> 00:41:38,452
♪ Ohhh
970
00:41:38,496 --> 00:41:41,760
♪ So, send me into space
971
00:41:41,803 --> 00:41:44,023
♪ And cut me free
972
00:41:44,066 --> 00:41:46,155
Because I've learned something from these last several months.
973
00:41:46,199 --> 00:41:47,287
Teddy?
974
00:41:47,330 --> 00:41:49,724
♪♪
975
00:41:49,768 --> 00:41:51,117
♪ And like a satellite
976
00:41:51,160 --> 00:41:53,206
Hey.
977
00:41:53,249 --> 00:41:56,252
♪ Just look for me
978
00:41:56,296 --> 00:41:57,558
Teddy.
979
00:42:00,343 --> 00:42:02,258
I'm gonna take you home,
okay?
980
00:42:02,302 --> 00:42:03,738
♪♪
981
00:42:03,782 --> 00:42:05,305
Okay.
982
00:42:05,348 --> 00:42:13,661
♪♪
983
00:42:13,705 --> 00:42:15,924
The body
can only take so much.
984
00:42:15,968 --> 00:42:20,363
♪♪
985
00:42:24,759 --> 00:42:27,632
--Captions by VITAC--
986
00:42:27,675 --> 00:42:36,162
♪♪
987
00:42:36,205 --> 00:42:44,910
♪♪
988
00:42:44,953 --> 00:42:53,440
♪♪
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