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I'm looking for stuff
that means something.
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What do you like about that boy?
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He understands me.
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If you pay attention,
you'll discover real life.
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There's a revolution
going on in you.
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- How have you changed
as a person
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since we first
started filming?
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- I started off
not really knowing who I was,
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'cause, I mean, I was a kid.
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I was 7, and I'm 12 now.
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That was a little bit after
the trans--trans--
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transformation?
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Yeah, that's pretty much
what I remember.
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Here we go!
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- Avery, can we come in?
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Can you show--
- No!
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Never!
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Fine.
Maybe one day.
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- Just come on in.
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Now.
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- I used to love
"Little Mermaid"
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when I was younger.
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I think I related to it
so much
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because she wanted to be
something that she couldn't,
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so she had to go and get,
like, a surgery
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to make her have legs,
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but, like, obviously
for my predicament,
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it's something different.
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- Well, a few nights ago,
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Phoenix said that he's--
she's a girl.
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I just like to wear
girl things.
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- I was meant to be a boy,
but I turned out to be a girl.
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- Why are we filming with you?
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- Because I'm transgender!
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Doop!
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- I know there's people
out there that are like me.
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I mean, maybe there might be
some people like me
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at my school.
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They might be hiding it too.
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Today's a special day
'cause I'm starting blockers.
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They, like, stop
female hormone things.
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- So how sure are you
that you wanna do this?
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- Positive.
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I'm doing this for myself.
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- The syringe itself
is ginormous,
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and it's a lot bigger
than the needle.
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- This is--you know?
- Yeah.
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- This is what's
gonna help you, okay?
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- Three, two, one.
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- Ah.
- Breathe, breathe.
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- Breathe, breathe, breathe.
Worst part's done.
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- Shh.
- Ah. Done.
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All right, don't look at that.
- Take a deep breath.
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You see, it's done.
It's over.
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Take a deep breath.
- Whoop!
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- See?
That's all it is.
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You think you can handle that?
- Yeah.
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- It'll get better.
- Till you're 16?
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Oh, you're happy, aren't you?
- Yeah.
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- Yeah.
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Remember when you used to put
ice packs on you?
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- Mom.
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- Every single night,
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I would have to go downstairs
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and take ice packs
off of his chest,
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and I used to tell him,
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"The swelling isn't
gonna stop."
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And duct tape.
No more duct tape.
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And maybe you won't have
to wear binders anymore either.
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Does that--how does that
make you feel?
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- Good.
- You're, like, glowing.
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I'm not gonna cry.
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I know you're waiting,
but it's not gonna happen.
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- My girlfriend is 13.
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Her name is Mildred.
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We've been going out
for three months.
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I don't want Mildred to know
I'm trans
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because I think that
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it would kind of,
like, ruin some things.
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I wanna tell her first
more than anybody else.
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But right now,
I don't think it's the time.
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It's just hard.
Like, you're in between.
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Like, you wanna tell
that person,
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but then you don't.
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If she really does like me
like she says she does,
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I don't really think
she will take it
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over the top, you know?
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Oh, am I doing that salsa dance
with you guys
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in the quinceaƱera?
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- That's an everyone thing.
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- Do you have a huge cake?
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- See, we don't exactly--
how big the cake's gonna be.
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- And I have to--don't I have
to dance with you like this?
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Like--
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'Cause your dress is--
- Probably.
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'Cause my dress is gonna be
like--
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Bigger than that.
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- Here, you can swing.
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- Thank you.
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- Okay, so day one
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of my hormone blockers.
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Pill number one, ever.
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Water.
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Kay.
Well, here it is.
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Tiny.
Nothing too big.
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Done.
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Oh, my God,
so many results already!
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Ding dong.
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- Hello.
How you doing?
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- Is there anything
I can help y'all find?
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- Actually, yes.
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We're getting ready
to go skiing next weekend
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and we're hoping--water skiing,
so we're hoping to find a--
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a little more athletic, maybe--
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- Essentially like this.
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- Maybe a sports bra type top.
- Okay.
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- Not, like, a string bikini.
- Yeah.
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Something a little more
substantial.
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- Yeah.
- Okay.
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- I kinda like that print.
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- How 'bout these for bottoms?
That's plenty of coverage.
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- Yeah.
I like this fringe one.
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- No.
We're not getting fringe.
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- How 'bout this one?
- No.
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- Do you have any
that have, like,
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a little bit of padding
to them?
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- Well, this one has a little
bit more substantial padding.
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- Mm-hmm.
- But this one...
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- I'm 15 years old.
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My transition started
a long time ago,
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when I was 11 years old.
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How 'bout we just get
something like this?
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- That would be perfect.
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- That's it. It's good.
- Yeah, there you go.
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- It's got the--
- That makes dads happy.
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- Yeah.
- Do you wanna try this one on?
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- I don't wanna try it on.
You can try it on.
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- I'll try this one on.
- Okay.
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- I like the color.
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- That looks good.
- I like it.
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Since I've gotten older,
my body has changed a little.
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The actual visual of,
like, looking in the mirror
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and, like, seeing myself
has gotten a little worse.
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Some people are all right
with just doing hormones
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and vocal therapy,
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but I do wanna, you know,
change my body
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for what will make me happier
in the future.
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Dad, maybe we can try on
that Michael Kors one.
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- No, we're not trying on
Michael.
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It has no straps.
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If you get that one, then I get
to try on some Speedos.
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- I don't think
that's a good look for anyone.
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- Well, it's vital for me
to have my parents understand
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what I'm trying to get at.
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Like, being a teenager is just
hard enough on its own.
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Going through puberty
as someone that you're not
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is a little harder.
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- I didn't get to do anything
when I was 15.
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- So how do you think
it would've been
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if I would've been, like, 15
and, like, transgender
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back in that day?
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How do you think people
would've, like, treated me?
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- Oh.
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They would not have
accepted it.
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It would not have been--
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I don't know how Grandma Hall
would be with it if she knew.
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- Well, how do you feel
about it, Grandma?
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- Oh, I'm fine.
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I've taken care of you
since you were two months old.
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- You're my grandchild,
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and whether you're male
or female,
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you're still my grandchild.
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- I like that you don't care
about anything
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except for if I got, like,
tattoos.
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You wouldn't like that.
- No.
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There are some things
that I've put my foot down,
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whether you're male or female.
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- Thank you very much for--
for tuning in with us.
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Avery, how early did you know
that you were a girl?
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- When I was about 4.
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- And you're being
homeschooled right now.
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- Yeah.
Because--
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- Was there an incident
that occurred,
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or what happened?
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- Yeah, most--like, at school,
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I just started dressing
like a girl,
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and everyone just didn't
like it.
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They just were really mad
for whatever reason.
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I don't really know.
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- In her pre-K class,
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she was starting
to assert herself
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a little bit more
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and started
with pink sparkly shoes,
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and then it would progress
to girl clothing.
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The kids started saying,
you know, "Come on.
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"When are you gonna stop this?
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When are you just gonna start
acting like a boy again?"
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And that's when she told us,
"I don't wanna be here anymore.
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"I'll give up all my friends.
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"I would rather just be able
to be a girl
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and not have any friends
at all."
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- Oh, wow.
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- So you're going to be able
to have
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your own children's book.
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- I don't get this.
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- It's for transgender
awareness.
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You're gonna be the author,
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and you get to look
at the pictures
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and decide which ones
you like best
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and we like.
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- So basically, they're letting
me decide--decide?
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- Mm-hmm.
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And hopefully next week,
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we're gonna get some
for you to look at.
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- Pretty cool.
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- Then they want to maybe
have you do a book tour
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to promote it.
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So you have to practice
autographing your name.
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- This is not gonna go well.
- Or at least smiling.
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- Who'd wanna take pictures
with me?
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- Smile--lots of people would
wanna take pictures with you!
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- Why?
- Because you're awesome.
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- I'm not even famous
on anything.
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I'm gonna go play Xbox.
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Gimme that camera.
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- "Emily slid
into a shiny yellow dress
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"while Jacob wiggled
into a sparkly pink dress.
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"'What are you wearing?'
asked Mom.
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"'It's like a dress.
I made it.'
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"Dad frowned.
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"'You can't go to school
like that.'
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"'Put on some shorts
and a shirt
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"'under that dress thing,'
Mom said.
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'And hurry.
We're late for school.'"
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You're never late for school,
right?
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'Cause you're homeschooled.
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"'Let's get
the sewing machine,'
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"she said finally.
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"Jacob felt the air
refill his body.
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"He grinned.
Mom smiled back.
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"'There are all sorts of ways
to be a boy,' she said.
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'Right?'"
- Wait, I'm a boy.
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- I know.
- And also--
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- You're a rainbow boy.
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- And I'm also wearing girl's--
girl clothes!
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- You are wearing--
they are your clothes,
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so they are boy clothes.
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"Dad looked up from his book."
- No, girl clothes.
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- Okay,
then they're girl clothes.
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They can be
whatever you wanna be.
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- Bleh.
- Bleh.
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- Bleh.
253
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- I am a girl-boy.
254
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A girl-boy is a boy
want to be a girl.
255
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Now for race car.
256
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Actually, I love rainbows.
257
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- Why?
258
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- 'Cause they're so beautiful.
259
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Hey.
260
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- Phoenix,
costumes are this way.
261
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- Ooh!
262
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- When he plays pretend,
he's always a girl.
263
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He's a queen, he's a princess,
he's a mom, he's a sister.
264
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But then, still,
he'll correct people.
265
00:12:43,834 --> 00:12:45,250
He says, "I'm a boy."
266
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Ooh.
267
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We say gender expansive,
nonbinary,
268
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gender nonconforming,
under the trans umbrella,
269
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gender awesome, girl-boy,
rainbow boy--
270
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we don't really have
a good term.
271
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- We don't use "his" or "her"
so much
272
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just because it's kind of
up in the air right now.
273
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- We're supporting Phoenix
along the way,
274
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whatever it is.
275
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- Oh!
276
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- Oh--
277
00:13:11,166 --> 00:13:12,375
- Are you okay?
- You okay?
278
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- Too many feathers.
279
00:13:28,041 --> 00:13:31,458
- I'm headed
to the memorial service
280
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for Tamara Dominguez,
281
00:13:33,583 --> 00:13:37,166
and she's a Latina trans woman
who was murdered
282
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here in Kansas City
a couple of weeks ago.
283
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You know, lately, we've seen
the Obama administration
284
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making a lot of progress
for trans equality,
285
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but there's been backlash
286
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and violence,
287
00:13:53,750 --> 00:13:55,667
especially against trans women
of color,
288
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is one of those things
289
00:13:57,667 --> 00:14:00,166
that reminds us
we have a lot of work to do.
290
00:14:00,250 --> 00:14:01,834
- Three people
have been killed
291
00:14:01,917 --> 00:14:04,625
in the LGBTQ community
in Kansas City
292
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in the past year.
293
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Now others are hoping
to replace hate
294
00:14:08,583 --> 00:14:09,625
with understanding.
295
00:14:09,709 --> 00:14:10,667
- You realize that we needed
296
00:14:10,750 --> 00:14:12,333
to bring together
our community
297
00:14:12,417 --> 00:14:13,667
and celebrate who she was,
298
00:14:13,750 --> 00:14:15,208
but also realize
that this is an epidemic
299
00:14:15,291 --> 00:14:16,417
that's facing our country.
300
00:14:16,500 --> 00:14:18,375
- And an epidemic
in Kansas City,
301
00:14:18,458 --> 00:14:20,333
which some have called
the epicenter
302
00:14:20,417 --> 00:14:21,875
of transgender violence.
303
00:14:31,000 --> 00:14:32,709
- How are the shots going?
- Good.
304
00:14:32,792 --> 00:14:34,166
- Are you getting a monthly
or every--
305
00:14:34,250 --> 00:14:35,458
- Every three months.
- Three months.
306
00:14:35,542 --> 00:14:36,500
- Mm-hmm.
- Yeah.
307
00:14:36,583 --> 00:14:37,834
- Are they working?
- Yeah.
308
00:14:37,917 --> 00:14:38,834
- Do they hurt?
309
00:14:38,917 --> 00:14:41,375
- Uh, some--yes.
A lot.
310
00:14:41,458 --> 00:14:45,625
- One option is to think about
that implant.
311
00:14:46,625 --> 00:14:47,709
- Yeah.
312
00:14:47,792 --> 00:14:49,542
- It's just a little--did we
talk about that last time?
313
00:14:49,625 --> 00:14:51,208
- Yeah, I don't--
I don't remember if we had seen
314
00:14:51,291 --> 00:14:53,250
if insurance was gonna
cover that, or--
315
00:14:53,333 --> 00:14:57,375
- The generic one
that we like to use is $2,500.
316
00:14:57,458 --> 00:14:58,917
It's just a little tube
that go--
317
00:14:59,000 --> 00:15:00,834
would go under your arm
right here.
318
00:15:00,917 --> 00:15:02,208
It acts just like the shot.
319
00:15:02,291 --> 00:15:03,709
It would take the place
of the shots.
320
00:15:03,792 --> 00:15:04,875
- Oh.
Okay.
321
00:15:04,959 --> 00:15:05,875
- And then he was curious--
322
00:15:05,959 --> 00:15:07,125
'cause I know last time
we were here,
323
00:15:07,208 --> 00:15:08,750
you had talked about a pill
that he could take
324
00:15:08,834 --> 00:15:10,583
that has a little bit
of testosterone, I think, in it
325
00:15:10,667 --> 00:15:12,417
to help change his voice
a little bit
326
00:15:12,500 --> 00:15:13,458
or deepen it.
327
00:15:13,542 --> 00:15:15,375
- Exactly,
and that's called oxandrolone.
328
00:15:15,458 --> 00:15:16,375
- Mm-hmm.
329
00:15:16,458 --> 00:15:18,917
He gets made fun of at school
for being--
330
00:15:19,000 --> 00:15:21,375
having, like,
a very high-pitched voice and--
331
00:15:21,458 --> 00:15:22,917
- We'll just have
our nurse call
332
00:15:23,000 --> 00:15:24,417
and see if we can get that
prior authorized.
333
00:15:24,500 --> 00:15:26,208
- Yeah, 'cause we did
the genetic testing,
334
00:15:26,291 --> 00:15:28,083
and I just had a heart attack
when I got the bills.
335
00:15:28,166 --> 00:15:29,375
Like, there's no way
I can pay--
336
00:15:29,458 --> 00:15:30,750
I don't even make that
in a month.
337
00:15:30,834 --> 00:15:32,750
So--
338
00:15:32,834 --> 00:15:34,875
- Your insurance
didn't cover it?
339
00:15:34,959 --> 00:15:37,625
- Um, it was, like, $2,000.
340
00:15:37,709 --> 00:15:40,583
- Maybe it's something...
341
00:15:40,667 --> 00:15:43,125
we can re-discuss with them.
342
00:15:49,792 --> 00:15:52,375
'Kay, I'm just gonna put in
some orders here.
343
00:15:59,500 --> 00:16:02,625
Usually, when things are
medically necessary,
344
00:16:02,709 --> 00:16:04,208
the insurance will pay.
345
00:16:05,917 --> 00:16:06,834
- Sorry.
346
00:16:06,917 --> 00:16:08,750
These appointments are just
really hard.
347
00:16:29,000 --> 00:16:30,959
I'm not scared of anything.
348
00:16:31,041 --> 00:16:31,959
Eggs!
349
00:16:32,041 --> 00:16:34,125
I am a great explorer,
350
00:16:34,208 --> 00:16:38,417
I love animals, bugs,
and all sorts of things,
351
00:16:38,500 --> 00:16:41,125
and I just like the outdoors.
352
00:16:41,208 --> 00:16:42,709
Going up.
353
00:16:42,792 --> 00:16:44,500
Going up.
354
00:16:44,583 --> 00:16:47,041
Going up on top.
355
00:16:47,125 --> 00:16:49,000
- Everyone's used to tomboys,
356
00:16:49,083 --> 00:16:52,625
and I just happen to have
a tomboy trans girl.
357
00:16:55,125 --> 00:16:57,834
Avery was born in 2007,
358
00:16:57,917 --> 00:17:00,500
and she was assigned male
at birth.
359
00:17:00,583 --> 00:17:02,458
We thought we had two boys,
360
00:17:02,542 --> 00:17:05,166
but at the age of 4,
she corrected us
361
00:17:05,250 --> 00:17:08,375
and started her social
transition that year.
362
00:17:10,750 --> 00:17:12,625
A lot of people
out there think
363
00:17:12,709 --> 00:17:15,166
that 4 year olds have
sex change operations
364
00:17:15,250 --> 00:17:18,125
or start taking hormones.
365
00:17:18,208 --> 00:17:20,667
It's an incredibly common
misperception.
366
00:17:20,750 --> 00:17:23,834
Children before puberty do not
have medical interventions.
367
00:17:23,917 --> 00:17:25,542
It is a social transition.
368
00:17:25,625 --> 00:17:28,667
It is clothing,
it is pronouns,
369
00:17:28,750 --> 00:17:30,083
and that sort of thing only.
370
00:17:30,166 --> 00:17:31,583
- What is Mario?
371
00:17:31,667 --> 00:17:33,166
I think he's a plumber.
372
00:17:33,250 --> 00:17:36,375
But the main question is
what gender is Yoshi?
373
00:17:36,458 --> 00:17:37,917
No one knows the answer
to that question,
374
00:17:38,000 --> 00:17:41,000
and no one ever will.
375
00:17:41,083 --> 00:17:43,417
- When we started with Avery
and her transition,
376
00:17:43,500 --> 00:17:45,041
we didn't feel like
there was anywhere to turn.
377
00:17:45,125 --> 00:17:48,417
We didn't know who to talk to
or where to go,
378
00:17:48,500 --> 00:17:51,875
and we felt desperately lost.
379
00:17:51,959 --> 00:17:53,667
- I never thought
380
00:17:53,750 --> 00:17:57,875
that I would be an advocate
for the LGBT community.
381
00:17:57,959 --> 00:18:01,208
I was raised
as a Southern Baptist,
382
00:18:01,291 --> 00:18:03,375
hardcore conservative,
383
00:18:03,458 --> 00:18:06,875
but we were asked to do
one story in the newspaper
384
00:18:06,959 --> 00:18:08,875
where we were
completely anonymous
385
00:18:08,959 --> 00:18:11,375
and only used
Avery's initials,
386
00:18:11,458 --> 00:18:14,917
and after that,
I was asked to give a speech.
387
00:18:15,000 --> 00:18:18,375
We lost most of our friends
and some of our family.
388
00:18:18,458 --> 00:18:20,542
We basically went into hiding
for about a year
389
00:18:20,625 --> 00:18:21,959
while my daughter grew out
her hair
390
00:18:22,041 --> 00:18:23,583
to look like the girl
that she is.
391
00:18:23,667 --> 00:18:26,291
Once that went viral,
Avery decided
392
00:18:26,375 --> 00:18:28,417
that she could tell her story
better than I could
393
00:18:28,500 --> 00:18:30,875
and asked if we could make
a video of her
394
00:18:30,959 --> 00:18:32,291
telling her own story.
395
00:18:32,375 --> 00:18:33,875
- Hi, I'm Avery,
396
00:18:33,959 --> 00:18:36,792
and welcome to Avery Chat!
397
00:18:36,875 --> 00:18:39,417
Whoo-hoo!
398
00:18:39,500 --> 00:18:41,792
- From there, a lot of people
started writing stories
399
00:18:41,875 --> 00:18:42,792
about her.
400
00:18:42,875 --> 00:18:46,250
She was very proud
to be transgender.
401
00:18:46,333 --> 00:18:49,125
She said her job
as a trans person
402
00:18:49,208 --> 00:18:53,417
was to help change the world
for other kids.
403
00:18:53,500 --> 00:18:56,125
- I'm just a normal girl.
404
00:18:56,208 --> 00:18:58,291
Your average, everyday,
405
00:18:58,375 --> 00:19:00,667
normal transgender girl.
406
00:19:05,166 --> 00:19:06,625
- Are you getting black?
407
00:19:06,709 --> 00:19:08,625
- Yeah, black with white.
408
00:19:08,709 --> 00:19:10,458
- You need red and white.
409
00:19:10,542 --> 00:19:11,834
- Red?
410
00:19:11,917 --> 00:19:15,125
- But black goes
with everything, Grandma.
411
00:19:15,208 --> 00:19:19,000
- It's kind of a dull color.
412
00:19:19,083 --> 00:19:20,625
I'm her grandmother,
413
00:19:20,709 --> 00:19:24,125
and I always take her
to get her manicures.
414
00:19:24,208 --> 00:19:26,458
She thinks she's older
than she is.
415
00:19:26,542 --> 00:19:27,625
- How old is she?
416
00:19:27,709 --> 00:19:28,959
- She's just 15.
417
00:19:29,041 --> 00:19:30,500
- Hmm.
418
00:19:30,583 --> 00:19:31,709
- Modeling, first off.
419
00:19:31,792 --> 00:19:33,166
That's what I wanna do
when I'm older,
420
00:19:33,250 --> 00:19:34,500
but if that doesn't work out,
421
00:19:34,583 --> 00:19:37,709
plan B is I wanna go
to, like, cosmetology school
422
00:19:37,792 --> 00:19:40,333
and first be a makeup artist
and then do, like, nails,
423
00:19:40,417 --> 00:19:41,750
and then I would do,
like, hair.
424
00:19:41,834 --> 00:19:44,166
- This one, I dropped a turkey
on my toe,
425
00:19:44,250 --> 00:19:45,959
and the nail popped off.
426
00:19:46,041 --> 00:19:48,166
- Oh, nail popped off
from the turkey?
427
00:19:48,250 --> 00:19:50,166
- 20 pound turkey.
- Oh.
428
00:19:50,250 --> 00:19:51,792
- It was frozen, too.
429
00:19:53,583 --> 00:19:56,333
You look like a cat.
430
00:19:56,417 --> 00:19:57,625
- No.
431
00:20:00,125 --> 00:20:02,709
- Let's see.
432
00:20:02,792 --> 00:20:04,333
Oh, dear gussy.
433
00:20:06,125 --> 00:20:07,542
- Do you like 'em?
434
00:20:07,625 --> 00:20:09,208
- Little wild.
- I'll help you with the coat.
435
00:20:09,291 --> 00:20:11,500
- Okay, okay.
Thank you.
436
00:20:11,583 --> 00:20:13,709
I hope Brian's gonna like them.
437
00:20:13,792 --> 00:20:15,625
- It's all right if he doesn't.
438
00:20:15,709 --> 00:20:16,709
- Yeah.
I think his favorite--
439
00:20:16,792 --> 00:20:18,875
- If he likes you,
he'll like that.
440
00:20:18,959 --> 00:20:20,542
- I gotta go and get him
some candy today
441
00:20:20,625 --> 00:20:22,834
'cause I had
this really cute idea for him.
442
00:20:22,917 --> 00:20:25,500
So you know how we had,
like, one month yesterday?
443
00:20:25,583 --> 00:20:28,041
So I got, like, a mason jar,
and I decorated it all pretty,
444
00:20:28,125 --> 00:20:29,917
and I put inside of it,
like, a red piece of paper,
445
00:20:30,000 --> 00:20:31,875
and I wrote, like, "I love you"
on the bottom of it,
446
00:20:31,959 --> 00:20:33,208
and I, like, taped it
to the bottom.
447
00:20:33,291 --> 00:20:35,166
- Now, don't put it on
too heavy.
448
00:20:35,250 --> 00:20:36,583
- What?
449
00:20:36,667 --> 00:20:38,583
The candy?
450
00:20:38,667 --> 00:20:40,959
- No, all this mushy stuff.
451
00:20:42,000 --> 00:20:44,000
- Remember your age,
young lady.
452
00:20:51,333 --> 00:20:52,875
- I'm nervous.
453
00:20:52,959 --> 00:20:54,250
- You're nervous?
- Yes.
454
00:20:54,333 --> 00:20:55,750
- Oh, you got this.
455
00:20:57,458 --> 00:20:59,583
- It shows
a $60 specialty copay.
456
00:20:59,667 --> 00:21:01,083
Did you wanna take care
of that today?
457
00:21:01,166 --> 00:21:03,083
- Yeah, that's fine.
458
00:21:03,166 --> 00:21:05,583
- Thank you.
And this is--
459
00:21:05,667 --> 00:21:06,959
- Yeah.
Goes by Jay though.
460
00:21:07,041 --> 00:21:07,917
- Jay?
- Mm-hmm.
461
00:21:08,000 --> 00:21:09,750
- So what do we got
going on here today?
462
00:21:09,834 --> 00:21:12,750
- We are having--
he's getting an implant put in
463
00:21:12,834 --> 00:21:13,750
by Dr. Gatti.
464
00:21:13,834 --> 00:21:18,458
- Okay.
465
00:21:18,542 --> 00:21:20,417
- Some kids are really nervous
466
00:21:20,500 --> 00:21:22,208
It'd be ideal to have this
in the office setting
467
00:21:22,291 --> 00:21:24,667
rather than to have Jay
go to sleep for it.
468
00:21:24,750 --> 00:21:26,458
In this case,
Jay's mom didn't feel
469
00:21:26,542 --> 00:21:28,041
that he would do well
in that scenario,
470
00:21:28,125 --> 00:21:31,542
so we can do
a brief anesthetic.
471
00:21:31,625 --> 00:21:33,291
- I refer to this
as a Band-Aid.
472
00:21:33,375 --> 00:21:34,834
We're putting a Band-Aid
on the situation
473
00:21:34,917 --> 00:21:37,000
because I don't wanna play God.
474
00:21:37,083 --> 00:21:39,125
So I figure
we're giving him the blockers
475
00:21:39,208 --> 00:21:40,291
to block all the hormones
476
00:21:40,375 --> 00:21:42,333
so that he doesn't spend
his entire college fund
477
00:21:42,417 --> 00:21:45,083
on removing the breasts
that he never wanted.
478
00:21:45,166 --> 00:21:48,125
But also, that if he does,
by miracle,
479
00:21:48,208 --> 00:21:49,458
decide that he wants to be
a female,
480
00:21:49,542 --> 00:21:51,959
that he can go through
that puberty at 18,
481
00:21:52,041 --> 00:21:53,667
if he wants to, or 16,
482
00:21:53,750 --> 00:21:55,625
and develop just like
a normal female would,
483
00:21:55,709 --> 00:21:57,291
except later.
484
00:21:57,375 --> 00:21:59,667
But that is probably not
gonna happen.
485
00:21:59,750 --> 00:22:02,417
I mean, he is--he's Jay.
486
00:22:02,500 --> 00:22:04,667
I mean,
is nonexistent anymore.
487
00:22:08,583 --> 00:22:11,041
Hold on.
I'm sorry.
488
00:22:14,250 --> 00:22:15,417
Sorry.
489
00:22:15,500 --> 00:22:17,500
- It's okay.
490
00:22:17,583 --> 00:22:20,625
- It's just hard seeing
your name on that wristband.
491
00:22:20,709 --> 00:22:22,709
- I know.
492
00:22:36,583 --> 00:22:38,542
- Come on, Bryce.
Come on, you can do it.
493
00:22:38,625 --> 00:22:40,333
- Push.
- Come on, Bryce.
494
00:22:40,417 --> 00:22:41,667
It's right there!
495
00:22:41,750 --> 00:22:43,500
- It's a girl.
- It's a girl, Bryce!
496
00:22:43,583 --> 00:22:44,792
- Look at that.
497
00:22:44,875 --> 00:22:46,291
- It looks like you.
498
00:22:47,792 --> 00:22:50,291
Aww.
499
00:22:52,750 --> 00:22:54,291
- Aww, no.
500
00:22:57,291 --> 00:23:00,250
- Love you.
Take great care of him.
501
00:23:00,333 --> 00:23:02,208
The therapist that Jay sees
always says,
502
00:23:02,291 --> 00:23:03,750
"Well, they're not becoming.
503
00:23:03,834 --> 00:23:07,542
They're always been
that person."
504
00:23:07,625 --> 00:23:11,000
But for me,
I see that transition.
505
00:23:12,667 --> 00:23:14,709
It started out as,
"I wanna be a boy."
506
00:23:14,792 --> 00:23:16,208
And I was like,
"Well, you're not."
507
00:23:16,291 --> 00:23:18,375
But now it's,
within the last two years,
508
00:23:18,458 --> 00:23:19,834
"I am a boy.
509
00:23:19,917 --> 00:23:21,166
I'm not a girl."
510
00:23:23,959 --> 00:23:26,208
We switched schools
in the same city,
511
00:23:26,291 --> 00:23:28,208
and when he went
to this new school,
512
00:23:28,291 --> 00:23:29,542
I didn't know for six months
513
00:23:29,625 --> 00:23:31,208
that he was telling everybody
he was a boy.
514
00:23:31,291 --> 00:23:34,166
Had no idea.
515
00:23:34,250 --> 00:23:36,417
That's when I knew
this is not a joke.
516
00:23:36,500 --> 00:23:37,917
This is not some phase.
517
00:23:38,000 --> 00:23:40,041
This is not something
that he's gonna grow out of.
518
00:23:40,125 --> 00:23:41,917
Say, "Hi, Grandma.
Hi, Grandpa.
519
00:23:42,000 --> 00:23:44,750
Hi, Mary Jane.
Hi, Auntie Mary Jane."
520
00:23:44,834 --> 00:23:47,417
I've lost a lot of people.
521
00:23:47,500 --> 00:23:49,083
My family really doesn't talk
to me,
522
00:23:49,166 --> 00:23:52,125
and my mother...
523
00:23:52,208 --> 00:23:54,458
thinks I'm a child abuser.
524
00:23:54,542 --> 00:23:55,583
But, I mean,
I know in my heart
525
00:23:55,667 --> 00:23:57,250
that it's the right thing
to do,
526
00:23:57,333 --> 00:23:59,625
and I would rather have
a healthy son
527
00:23:59,709 --> 00:24:01,417
than a suicidal daughter.
528
00:24:01,500 --> 00:24:03,041
- Jay.
Mom's here.
529
00:24:03,125 --> 00:24:04,083
both: Look.
530
00:24:04,166 --> 00:24:05,667
- Hey.
531
00:24:08,166 --> 00:24:09,583
You tired?
532
00:24:09,667 --> 00:24:10,959
Yeah?
533
00:24:11,041 --> 00:24:12,291
It's all done.
534
00:24:14,667 --> 00:24:17,041
But at this point, at school,
535
00:24:17,125 --> 00:24:20,333
Jay's friends do not know
that he is trans,
536
00:24:20,417 --> 00:24:24,083
and I know
it's a ticking time bomb.
537
00:24:24,166 --> 00:24:25,583
I'm gonna push him to come out
538
00:24:25,667 --> 00:24:28,291
and be
who he's supposed to be.
539
00:24:58,250 --> 00:25:00,250
- Good morning.
all: Good morning.
540
00:25:00,333 --> 00:25:02,041
- Today, we choose
to recognize,
541
00:25:02,125 --> 00:25:04,792
honor, love, and celebrate
542
00:25:04,875 --> 00:25:08,458
anyone here who would claim
their identity publicly
543
00:25:08,542 --> 00:25:12,208
as lesbian, gay, bisexual,
transgender,
544
00:25:12,291 --> 00:25:16,333
queer or questioning,
intersex, pansexual, asexual,
545
00:25:16,417 --> 00:25:18,667
or any category
that I've left out.
546
00:25:22,041 --> 00:25:23,625
- This is Phoenix.
547
00:25:28,583 --> 00:25:31,667
Can you tell them?
548
00:25:31,750 --> 00:25:33,667
- Mommy, I'm a little shy.
549
00:25:33,750 --> 00:25:35,166
- You're a little shy?
550
00:25:35,250 --> 00:25:38,500
Do you wanna tell everyone
if you're a boy or a girl?
551
00:25:38,583 --> 00:25:41,291
- I just want to tell them
that I'm a girl.
552
00:25:41,375 --> 00:25:42,500
- Okay.
You can tell them that.
553
00:25:42,583 --> 00:25:46,000
- Say that.
554
00:25:46,083 --> 00:25:47,750
- Mm...
555
00:25:47,834 --> 00:25:49,875
I don't want to do it.
- Okay.
556
00:25:49,959 --> 00:25:51,917
- Phoenix would like you
to know that she's a girl
557
00:25:52,000 --> 00:25:55,875
and she prefers
"she" and "her" pronouns.
558
00:25:55,959 --> 00:25:57,709
'Kay, let's go this way.
559
00:25:57,792 --> 00:26:01,375
all: May you be well, safe,
and whole.
560
00:26:01,458 --> 00:26:05,583
We honor you
exactly as you are.
561
00:26:05,667 --> 00:26:08,375
- I really don't feel like
Phoenix ever really was a boy.
562
00:26:09,667 --> 00:26:12,709
From a very young age,
didn't wanna cut her hair,
563
00:26:12,792 --> 00:26:14,834
didn't wanna wear boy clothes.
564
00:26:17,125 --> 00:26:19,083
We didn't really think
of anything
565
00:26:19,166 --> 00:26:21,542
until she became,
you know, vocal about it
566
00:26:21,625 --> 00:26:24,375
and started saying
she wanted to be a girl.
567
00:26:28,542 --> 00:26:32,083
We don't cram this
down anyone's throat.
568
00:26:32,166 --> 00:26:33,959
It's what it is, though.
569
00:26:34,041 --> 00:26:36,417
It's who we are.
It's who Phoenix is.
570
00:26:46,834 --> 00:26:48,375
- That's cool.
571
00:26:53,959 --> 00:26:55,041
- Hey, Avery.
572
00:26:55,125 --> 00:26:56,375
- Avery.
- Hey.
573
00:26:56,458 --> 00:26:58,291
- Love the hair.
- Thank you.
574
00:26:58,375 --> 00:26:59,917
- So what's new?
Tell me what's new.
575
00:27:00,000 --> 00:27:04,250
- We wanted to come in
and double check on puberty
576
00:27:04,333 --> 00:27:05,792
and what signs
we're looking for...
577
00:27:05,875 --> 00:27:07,083
- Mm-kay.
578
00:27:07,166 --> 00:27:11,083
- Because we have read
all of the sex education books,
579
00:27:11,166 --> 00:27:14,417
and she gets really, really,
really upset
580
00:27:14,500 --> 00:27:15,625
looking at the books.
581
00:27:15,709 --> 00:27:20,166
Sweaty panic attacks of
"I can't get facial hair"
582
00:27:20,250 --> 00:27:23,542
and "What if my voice gets low
and people know?"
583
00:27:23,625 --> 00:27:26,291
So we wanna make sure
that she knows
584
00:27:26,375 --> 00:27:27,959
what the signs are.
585
00:27:28,041 --> 00:27:30,125
- So there shouldn't be
any signs of puberty
586
00:27:30,208 --> 00:27:31,500
before age nine.
- Mm-hmm.
587
00:27:31,583 --> 00:27:33,667
- Otherwise, it would be
considered too early, so...
588
00:27:33,750 --> 00:27:35,792
- Too early, right.
Precocious puberty.
589
00:27:35,875 --> 00:27:36,959
- Yeah.
But then, as soon
590
00:27:37,041 --> 00:27:40,291
as you do start showing signs,
591
00:27:40,375 --> 00:27:43,000
we can start some treatments
to block it.
592
00:27:43,083 --> 00:27:44,667
- Why do I have to be--grow up?
593
00:27:44,750 --> 00:27:47,166
I just wanna stay a kid.
594
00:27:47,250 --> 00:27:49,000
- You can't stay a kid forever.
595
00:27:49,083 --> 00:27:51,709
Peter Pan's not real.
596
00:27:57,667 --> 00:28:00,333
- I ain't gonna lie to you,
it's a little awkward.
597
00:28:00,417 --> 00:28:01,500
I would've thought for sure
598
00:28:01,583 --> 00:28:03,667
that somebody would've picked
Lee up
599
00:28:03,750 --> 00:28:05,041
and took her out to dinner.
600
00:28:18,583 --> 00:28:22,041
Oh, they holding hands too.
601
00:28:22,125 --> 00:28:26,542
Be young and in love again.
Is that awesome or what?
602
00:28:27,750 --> 00:28:29,875
I can feel--
I'll be your seeing eye dog.
603
00:28:35,417 --> 00:28:36,375
- How 'bout sports?
604
00:28:36,458 --> 00:28:38,333
Anything else
other than wrestling?
605
00:28:38,417 --> 00:28:39,750
Or is that it?
- I only wrestle.
606
00:28:39,834 --> 00:28:41,875
- You look like
you'd be a basketball player.
607
00:28:41,959 --> 00:28:43,291
- Nice sarcasm.
I like that.
608
00:28:43,375 --> 00:28:44,583
- I'm just playing with you.
609
00:28:50,458 --> 00:28:51,500
Sure, she's been on a date,
610
00:28:51,583 --> 00:28:54,041
but this is
her first Valentine date
611
00:28:54,125 --> 00:28:56,333
with Brian.
612
00:28:56,417 --> 00:28:59,291
I'd tell him
what any father would say.
613
00:28:59,375 --> 00:29:01,375
If you treat her bad,
then don't come around,
614
00:29:01,458 --> 00:29:03,375
'cause I'll
probably beat you up.
615
00:29:04,458 --> 00:29:06,333
I'll break you in half
or something.
616
00:29:06,417 --> 00:29:08,375
But, you know, just what
a father would say to him,
617
00:29:08,458 --> 00:29:09,375
you know?
618
00:29:09,458 --> 00:29:10,875
Hey, I'm cool with this,
619
00:29:10,959 --> 00:29:12,542
but just don't--
don't hurt my daughter
620
00:29:12,625 --> 00:29:15,083
and I'll be--
everything'll be okay.
621
00:29:15,166 --> 00:29:16,750
- Okay, okay, okay, okay, okay.
622
00:29:16,834 --> 00:29:18,208
- Hold on.
- Sit still, babe.
623
00:29:18,291 --> 00:29:19,417
Sit still.
624
00:29:19,500 --> 00:29:22,083
Like, focus.
625
00:29:22,166 --> 00:29:25,917
- You're so cute.
- Like, look.
626
00:29:26,000 --> 00:29:27,583
They look like a galaxy.
627
00:29:27,667 --> 00:29:29,083
- That's what your eyes
look like.
628
00:29:29,166 --> 00:29:32,583
- No.
629
00:29:32,667 --> 00:29:34,583
Isn't he nice?
630
00:29:34,667 --> 00:29:36,667
Don't you guys like him?
631
00:29:36,750 --> 00:29:38,625
I like him.
I think he's really cute.
632
00:29:41,667 --> 00:29:42,750
It's kinda,
like, a weird feeling
633
00:29:42,834 --> 00:29:44,417
'cause in the predicament
I'm in,
634
00:29:44,500 --> 00:29:45,917
most of the people,
like, judge me
635
00:29:46,000 --> 00:29:48,417
and so I always,
like, nitpick myself.
636
00:29:48,500 --> 00:29:50,125
Like, oh, my nails look funny
637
00:29:50,208 --> 00:29:53,458
or is my makeup
all the way blended?
638
00:29:53,542 --> 00:29:54,750
And it's kind of strange
639
00:29:54,834 --> 00:29:56,959
knowing that someone's,
like, not looking at that
640
00:29:57,041 --> 00:29:58,750
and they're just,
like, looking at who you are
641
00:29:58,834 --> 00:30:00,959
and your personality
and not, like,
642
00:30:01,041 --> 00:30:03,500
your physical, like, being,
and I like that.
643
00:30:03,583 --> 00:30:04,750
Cute.
644
00:30:04,834 --> 00:30:05,959
Wanna walk towards that thing
645
00:30:06,041 --> 00:30:08,291
with, like, the kaleidoscope
of colors?
646
00:30:08,375 --> 00:30:09,625
- And take pictures?
- And like--yeah.
647
00:30:09,709 --> 00:30:10,792
- All right.
648
00:30:10,875 --> 00:30:12,542
- When it comes down
to, like, the bedroom area,
649
00:30:12,625 --> 00:30:14,625
I don't plan on doing
something like that
650
00:30:14,709 --> 00:30:16,208
until I'm comfortable.
651
00:30:16,291 --> 00:30:17,500
Right now,
I'm just not comfortable
652
00:30:17,583 --> 00:30:19,583
doing something like that.
653
00:30:19,667 --> 00:30:21,417
- No, I haven't ever dated
someone
654
00:30:21,500 --> 00:30:22,625
who was transgender before.
655
00:30:22,709 --> 00:30:25,959
It was a first,
but, I mean, I don't see it
656
00:30:26,041 --> 00:30:27,750
as, like, any kind of big deal.
657
00:30:27,834 --> 00:30:30,834
She's a normal girl
just like anyone else.
658
00:30:36,875 --> 00:30:39,834
- I do have something
to ask you, though.
659
00:30:39,917 --> 00:30:41,625
Not literally.
- It's not that!
660
00:30:41,709 --> 00:30:44,125
- Then what is it?
- It's a bite!
661
00:30:44,208 --> 00:30:45,667
- Why is--why do you have
a bite?
662
00:30:45,750 --> 00:30:48,959
- Because I was being annoying,
so she bit me playfully.
663
00:30:49,041 --> 00:30:51,000
- You weren't kissing?
- No, Mom.
664
00:30:51,083 --> 00:30:53,291
We were playing around.
665
00:30:53,375 --> 00:30:56,000
And all her cousins were there.
666
00:30:56,083 --> 00:30:57,041
- Looks like a hickey.
667
00:30:57,125 --> 00:30:58,625
- It's not
and you don't believe me,
668
00:30:58,709 --> 00:30:59,750
and it's really disappointing
669
00:30:59,834 --> 00:31:01,041
'cause I'm trying to tell you
the sto--
670
00:31:01,125 --> 00:31:02,041
- I--
671
00:31:02,125 --> 00:31:03,667
- The real truth
and you don't believe me.
672
00:31:03,750 --> 00:31:06,500
- If my son comes home
with marks on his neck--
673
00:31:06,583 --> 00:31:08,041
- It's not a hickey.
- I'm gonna ask you.
674
00:31:08,125 --> 00:31:09,500
- Okay, that's fine,
but it's not a hickey.
675
00:31:09,583 --> 00:31:11,375
- But the fact that you're
getting so angry and mad
676
00:31:11,458 --> 00:31:13,500
makes me wonder
if it really is a hickey.
677
00:31:13,583 --> 00:31:15,458
- But it's not a hickey!
- I know.
678
00:31:15,542 --> 00:31:16,667
Well, I better not see
another one,
679
00:31:16,750 --> 00:31:19,667
so if she wants
to "playfully bite" you...
680
00:31:19,750 --> 00:31:22,041
- I--not unquote, unquote.
- Have her bite you on the--
681
00:31:22,125 --> 00:31:24,041
Have her bite you on the arm.
- Okay.
682
00:31:24,125 --> 00:31:25,542
- Because that looks bad.
683
00:31:25,625 --> 00:31:28,041
- I know.
- That's all I'm saying.
684
00:31:28,125 --> 00:31:30,125
- God, no one
ever believes me.
685
00:31:33,792 --> 00:31:35,333
- Did Mildred go at all?
686
00:31:35,417 --> 00:31:36,875
I know that you wanted
to invite her, but--
687
00:31:36,959 --> 00:31:39,542
- Yeah, I invited her,
but she had modeling.
688
00:31:39,625 --> 00:31:41,000
- She had what?
- Modeling.
689
00:31:41,083 --> 00:31:43,208
- Oh, okay.
690
00:31:43,291 --> 00:31:44,208
- I think I told you
691
00:31:44,291 --> 00:31:46,333
I was gonna be
in the quinceaƱera.
692
00:31:46,417 --> 00:31:48,041
- Oh, yeah.
Yeah.
693
00:31:48,125 --> 00:31:50,542
- Well, it's coming up.
- Okay.
694
00:31:50,625 --> 00:31:53,542
- And I'm excited,
but I can't dance.
695
00:31:54,667 --> 00:31:56,709
I've seen your videos.
I think you can dance.
696
00:31:56,792 --> 00:31:58,875
- A little.
697
00:31:59,000 --> 00:32:00,250
- But like, you know,
I hang out with her,
698
00:32:00,333 --> 00:32:01,583
like, every day...
699
00:32:01,667 --> 00:32:02,583
- Mm-hmm.
700
00:32:02,667 --> 00:32:04,834
- So I'm gonna have
a lot of practice.
701
00:32:04,917 --> 00:32:06,375
- So you guys have been working
at it already?
702
00:32:06,458 --> 00:32:07,709
- Yeah.
703
00:32:07,792 --> 00:32:08,709
It's hard.
704
00:32:31,291 --> 00:32:32,917
- I feel,
like, more like a boy
705
00:32:33,000 --> 00:32:35,917
when I get my hair cut.
706
00:32:36,000 --> 00:32:37,417
- Even when we thought
she was a boy,
707
00:32:37,500 --> 00:32:38,750
we always gave her the option.
708
00:32:38,834 --> 00:32:40,125
She always wanted
to grow it out.
709
00:32:43,041 --> 00:32:44,625
- To me,
when I think of girly,
710
00:32:44,709 --> 00:32:48,458
I think of just,
like, long, flowy hair.
711
00:32:48,542 --> 00:32:50,458
It took my hair,
like, three years
712
00:32:50,542 --> 00:32:53,583
to get, like, this long.
713
00:32:53,667 --> 00:32:56,333
- I like being a girl
'cause I get to wear dresses
714
00:32:56,417 --> 00:32:58,750
and get to paint my nails.
715
00:33:01,583 --> 00:33:04,792
- I don't know what I see.
I just see me.
716
00:33:09,709 --> 00:33:13,500
all:
717
00:33:19,125 --> 00:33:20,000
- Ooh.
718
00:33:20,083 --> 00:33:21,125
- Wait a minute.
Gotta get those.
719
00:33:21,208 --> 00:33:22,125
- Only one.
720
00:33:22,208 --> 00:33:23,542
- All right, let's eat.
- All right.
721
00:33:23,625 --> 00:33:25,458
- All right, let's eat.
722
00:33:27,208 --> 00:33:28,375
- 'Cause you'll
probably power through
723
00:33:28,458 --> 00:33:29,375
about six or seven of them.
724
00:33:29,458 --> 00:33:31,458
- Yeah, you'll eat
at least six of them.
725
00:33:31,542 --> 00:33:33,542
- All right, guys, move over.
You guys are sitting too close.
726
00:33:33,625 --> 00:33:35,166
Let me get in there.
- Stop.
727
00:33:35,250 --> 00:33:38,667
- Told her
to leave room for Jesus.
728
00:33:38,750 --> 00:33:40,500
- Scoot closer.
729
00:33:40,583 --> 00:33:43,041
- ...bathrooms according
to their sex at birth.
730
00:33:43,125 --> 00:33:44,834
A similar bill has also been
proposed in Missouri.
731
00:33:44,917 --> 00:33:46,166
- Okay.
732
00:33:46,250 --> 00:33:47,834
- The bill would force
trans students
733
00:33:47,917 --> 00:33:49,500
in public schools
to use bathrooms
734
00:33:49,583 --> 00:33:51,500
according to their sex
at birth.
735
00:33:51,583 --> 00:33:55,542
- Yeah, these are people
commenting on the situation.
736
00:33:55,625 --> 00:33:56,750
"This is ridiculous.
737
00:33:56,834 --> 00:33:58,667
"Transgender people should be
able to use the bathroom
738
00:33:58,750 --> 00:33:59,875
like everyone else."
739
00:33:59,959 --> 00:34:01,417
Preach.
740
00:34:01,500 --> 00:34:03,041
"You're wrong and you know it.
741
00:34:03,125 --> 00:34:04,750
"You were born a man
and not a girl.
742
00:34:04,834 --> 00:34:07,834
#WhatHappenedtotheWorld."
743
00:34:07,917 --> 00:34:09,834
What happened to the world
is got a better--
744
00:34:09,917 --> 00:34:11,041
it became a better place.
745
00:34:11,125 --> 00:34:12,875
- Yeah.
746
00:34:12,959 --> 00:34:14,041
- The bill proposed
747
00:34:14,125 --> 00:34:16,542
by Republican state
representative John Whitmer
748
00:34:16,625 --> 00:34:18,583
would prevent
transgender students
749
00:34:18,667 --> 00:34:21,333
from using public school
bathrooms and locker rooms
750
00:34:21,417 --> 00:34:23,417
of the gender
they associate with.
751
00:34:23,500 --> 00:34:24,750
- If the bill passes,
752
00:34:24,834 --> 00:34:28,041
schools would have to pay
$2,500 to students
753
00:34:28,125 --> 00:34:30,208
who encounter
a transgender student
754
00:34:30,291 --> 00:34:31,375
in the bathroom.
755
00:34:31,458 --> 00:34:32,709
- This bill has put
756
00:34:32,792 --> 00:34:36,375
a $2,500 bounty
757
00:34:36,458 --> 00:34:39,875
on the head
of every transgender child
758
00:34:39,959 --> 00:34:41,834
in the state of Kansas.
759
00:34:41,917 --> 00:34:44,709
Every school kid
who's nonconforming
760
00:34:44,792 --> 00:34:46,083
is going to be subject
761
00:34:46,166 --> 00:34:48,542
to the worst kinds
of harassment
762
00:34:48,625 --> 00:34:52,500
that could lead to injury
or, God forbid, death.
763
00:34:54,000 --> 00:34:56,917
And if this bill passes
and if it gets signed
764
00:34:57,000 --> 00:35:00,041
by that man whose office
is right behind us,
765
00:35:00,125 --> 00:35:02,709
the blood will be on his hands
766
00:35:02,792 --> 00:35:04,625
and on the hands
of every legislator
767
00:35:04,709 --> 00:35:05,917
who votes in favor
768
00:35:06,000 --> 00:35:09,792
of this horrible nightmare
of legislation.
769
00:35:09,875 --> 00:35:12,875
- Whoo!
770
00:35:15,834 --> 00:35:17,583
- Hi.
- Hi. I'm a reporter.
771
00:35:17,667 --> 00:35:20,417
I wondered if I could ask you
a couple of questions.
772
00:35:20,500 --> 00:35:21,417
- Sure.
- 'Kay.
773
00:35:21,500 --> 00:35:23,208
Why are you here today?
774
00:35:23,291 --> 00:35:25,083
- 'Cause we have
a transgender child,
775
00:35:25,166 --> 00:35:27,250
so this matters to us.
776
00:35:27,333 --> 00:35:29,792
If laws like this are enacted,
777
00:35:29,875 --> 00:35:32,792
suddenly, kids who are seen
as complete equals
778
00:35:32,875 --> 00:35:33,959
by their peers
779
00:35:34,041 --> 00:35:35,959
are going to be outcast.
780
00:35:36,041 --> 00:35:37,125
They're gonna be ostracized.
781
00:35:38,834 --> 00:35:41,667
- This bounty
on transgender students
782
00:35:41,750 --> 00:35:44,125
is absurd and terrifying.
783
00:35:44,208 --> 00:35:47,625
They want to out and...
784
00:35:47,709 --> 00:35:50,750
just catch our kids
in the bathroom
785
00:35:50,834 --> 00:35:52,750
and get paid for it.
786
00:35:55,542 --> 00:35:58,792
- The sin du jour now
is this transgender nonsense.
787
00:35:58,875 --> 00:36:01,583
Now we have to worry about
what bathrooms we can go into
788
00:36:01,667 --> 00:36:03,792
and about what pronoun
we're supposed to use.
789
00:36:03,875 --> 00:36:06,458
Ultimately,
if you were born a female,
790
00:36:06,542 --> 00:36:09,500
you're gonna be a female
all your days.
791
00:36:16,792 --> 00:36:17,709
- See what I mean?
792
00:36:17,792 --> 00:36:19,834
- Let me see what pictures.
793
00:36:19,917 --> 00:36:23,375
- This is from kindergarten.
794
00:36:23,458 --> 00:36:25,875
- Okay.
- This--
795
00:36:25,959 --> 00:36:27,834
- Well, somebody has your--
pictures of your yearbook.
796
00:36:27,917 --> 00:36:28,875
Somebody knows.
797
00:36:28,959 --> 00:36:30,000
- I just checked Snapchat,
798
00:36:30,083 --> 00:36:32,000
and we see all these
text messages from Mildred,
799
00:36:32,083 --> 00:36:33,542
like, "What's going on?"
800
00:36:35,583 --> 00:36:37,291
- Will she tell you
who gave them to her?
801
00:36:37,375 --> 00:36:38,458
- That's what I'm about
to ask her
802
00:36:38,542 --> 00:36:40,667
and see if she'll tell me
who did it.
803
00:36:40,750 --> 00:36:43,500
- I know that you're used
to hiding everything,
804
00:36:43,583 --> 00:36:45,667
but now it's kinda like--
805
00:36:45,750 --> 00:36:47,667
you're gonna have to be open
about everything now.
806
00:36:47,750 --> 00:36:49,375
There's no deception involved.
- She can get on the phone.
807
00:36:49,458 --> 00:36:50,458
- Huh?
- In a second.
808
00:36:50,542 --> 00:36:51,500
She can get on the phone
in a second.
809
00:36:51,583 --> 00:36:52,709
- Okay.
810
00:36:52,792 --> 00:36:53,875
- Hello?
811
00:36:53,959 --> 00:36:54,875
- Hello.
812
00:36:54,959 --> 00:36:56,917
- Hey, do you wanna talk
to my mom?
813
00:36:57,000 --> 00:36:58,917
- Sure.
814
00:36:59,000 --> 00:37:00,375
- Hey, honey.
815
00:37:00,458 --> 00:37:03,417
So do you want me
to explain it to you, or...
816
00:37:03,500 --> 00:37:04,542
- Yeah.
817
00:37:04,625 --> 00:37:07,542
- Okay, well,
Jay's transgender,
818
00:37:07,625 --> 00:37:11,083
which means female to male.
819
00:37:11,166 --> 00:37:13,542
The reason why we haven't
really said anything to anybody
820
00:37:13,625 --> 00:37:15,583
is just because, I mean,
Jay looks like a boy,
821
00:37:15,667 --> 00:37:16,917
he acts like a boy.
822
00:37:17,000 --> 00:37:18,333
That is who he is.
He's Jay.
823
00:37:18,417 --> 00:37:20,709
He's--you know,
he's not anymore.
824
00:37:20,792 --> 00:37:23,125
He's never gonna be
anymore.
825
00:37:23,208 --> 00:37:26,291
He just--he probably should've
told you who he was,
826
00:37:26,375 --> 00:37:28,667
that he's trans, but he is Jay.
827
00:37:28,750 --> 00:37:31,083
He never lied to you
about who he was,
828
00:37:31,166 --> 00:37:32,542
if that makes sense.
829
00:37:32,625 --> 00:37:33,917
- Yeah.
830
00:37:34,000 --> 00:37:35,959
- So are you okay?
831
00:37:36,041 --> 00:37:36,959
- Yeah.
832
00:37:37,041 --> 00:37:39,083
- Okay.
833
00:37:39,166 --> 00:37:40,083
Okay.
834
00:37:40,166 --> 00:37:42,542
The only thing
that I ask you is...
835
00:37:42,625 --> 00:37:44,750
find it in your heart
not to kinda make this a joke
836
00:37:44,834 --> 00:37:46,417
at school or--
837
00:37:46,500 --> 00:37:47,417
- Right.
- You know.
838
00:37:47,500 --> 00:37:48,959
Because this really does
affect his life
839
00:37:49,041 --> 00:37:51,959
and how he feels about himself
and who he is,
840
00:37:52,041 --> 00:37:56,208
and the damages of that
in general are horrible
841
00:37:56,291 --> 00:37:59,542
outside of what you would see
in school.
842
00:37:59,625 --> 00:38:00,709
It's a...
- Yeah.
843
00:38:00,792 --> 00:38:03,417
- Difficult situation
for anybody to have to endure.
844
00:38:03,500 --> 00:38:05,250
So...
845
00:38:05,333 --> 00:38:06,917
but I'll let you talk to Jay.
846
00:38:07,000 --> 00:38:08,125
- Okay.
- Okay.
847
00:38:11,000 --> 00:38:12,291
- Hello?
848
00:38:12,375 --> 00:38:15,291
- Hello.
849
00:38:15,375 --> 00:38:16,834
- Are you there?
850
00:38:16,917 --> 00:38:18,291
- Yeah.
851
00:38:18,375 --> 00:38:20,000
- I'm sorry.
852
00:38:20,083 --> 00:38:21,000
- It's okay.
853
00:38:21,083 --> 00:38:22,000
- I just don't know--
854
00:38:22,083 --> 00:38:23,291
I just didn't know
how to tell you
855
00:38:23,375 --> 00:38:26,834
'cause, like, it's really hard
and nobody would understand it
856
00:38:26,917 --> 00:38:28,583
and...
857
00:38:28,667 --> 00:38:30,291
it's not easy being trans.
858
00:38:30,375 --> 00:38:33,834
It's really not, and I thought
maybe if no one knew my past
859
00:38:33,917 --> 00:38:37,667
and no one knew that,
then I could just be Jay
860
00:38:37,750 --> 00:38:40,417
and nobody would have to worry
about it or--
861
00:38:40,500 --> 00:38:42,375
or have to think different
about me.
862
00:38:42,458 --> 00:38:44,125
Everybody would think
I was just a guy
863
00:38:44,208 --> 00:38:45,709
and just go on with it,
864
00:38:45,792 --> 00:38:47,625
but I know that I--
865
00:38:47,709 --> 00:38:48,875
I probably should've told you
866
00:38:48,959 --> 00:38:50,625
because it was probably
important to tell you,
867
00:38:50,709 --> 00:38:53,875
and I'm sorry
I didn't tell you earlier.
868
00:38:55,417 --> 00:38:57,458
- It's okay.
869
00:39:00,083 --> 00:39:02,333
- And I understand
if you don't wanna talk to me
870
00:39:02,417 --> 00:39:04,208
or if you don't like me
anymore.
871
00:39:04,291 --> 00:39:05,834
I understand.
872
00:39:05,917 --> 00:39:08,166
I'm really sorry.
873
00:39:08,250 --> 00:39:09,250
- Okay.
874
00:39:09,333 --> 00:39:11,125
- All right.
Bye.
875
00:39:11,208 --> 00:39:12,667
- Bye.
876
00:39:16,208 --> 00:39:17,417
- I--
877
00:39:27,166 --> 00:39:30,500
- Can barely even see anybody.
878
00:39:30,583 --> 00:39:34,000
- Tensions with Zach's family
have definitely increased.
879
00:39:34,083 --> 00:39:35,542
We started calling her
"she" and "her,"
880
00:39:35,625 --> 00:39:39,083
and that was just too much
for them.
881
00:39:39,166 --> 00:39:40,125
- My dad can't shut up
882
00:39:40,208 --> 00:39:41,542
and keep his beliefs
to himself.
883
00:39:41,625 --> 00:39:43,709
Saying,
"You're going to Hell."
884
00:39:43,792 --> 00:39:45,709
It's almost like they're trying
to push it on Phoenix
885
00:39:45,792 --> 00:39:48,875
to try and change her
back into a boy or something.
886
00:39:48,959 --> 00:39:50,500
- All right, you remember--
I asked you girls,
887
00:39:50,583 --> 00:39:54,417
do you want ivory, pink,
rosy, or purple,
888
00:39:54,500 --> 00:39:55,500
and you both said...
889
00:39:55,583 --> 00:39:56,750
both: Rosy.
- All right.
890
00:39:56,834 --> 00:39:58,166
Close your eyes.
891
00:39:58,250 --> 00:39:59,458
Hold out your hands.
892
00:40:01,792 --> 00:40:03,208
Happy birthday.
893
00:40:06,583 --> 00:40:08,709
- Beautiful.
- Flower crowns.
894
00:40:08,792 --> 00:40:10,375
- It's a little strange
895
00:40:10,458 --> 00:40:11,917
that my parents
wouldn't wanna be here
896
00:40:12,000 --> 00:40:14,667
when they were invited.
897
00:40:14,750 --> 00:40:15,709
If they don't wanna be here
898
00:40:15,792 --> 00:40:18,125
because of Phoenix
being transgender,
899
00:40:18,208 --> 00:40:19,083
I can't make them.
900
00:40:19,166 --> 00:40:20,542
I can't force them.
901
00:40:23,500 --> 00:40:26,542
- Also, we went to
the bathroom bill protests,
902
00:40:26,625 --> 00:40:28,250
and I regret it.
903
00:40:28,333 --> 00:40:32,125
It left an impression
on Phoenix.
904
00:40:32,208 --> 00:40:36,291
Like, regularly,
she's afraid of us dying.
905
00:40:36,375 --> 00:40:38,083
She's afraid of us dying
and being left with someone
906
00:40:38,166 --> 00:40:40,917
who'll make her go
to the boys' bathroom.
907
00:40:46,041 --> 00:40:47,875
Sometimes I feel like...
908
00:40:47,959 --> 00:40:49,417
I'm not giving Lotus
enough attention.
909
00:40:49,500 --> 00:40:51,041
Like she's growing up
without me.
910
00:40:51,125 --> 00:40:54,750
I mean, I'm right there, but...
911
00:40:54,834 --> 00:40:56,875
you know, Phoenix definitely
takes up a lot of it,
912
00:40:56,959 --> 00:40:59,250
and it's, like, not,
like, her fault or anything.
913
00:40:59,333 --> 00:41:01,333
It's just--
914
00:41:01,417 --> 00:41:02,333
I'm just always thinking,
915
00:41:02,417 --> 00:41:04,458
"Am I doing
the right thing here?
916
00:41:04,542 --> 00:41:05,500
Is this the right choice?"
917
00:41:05,583 --> 00:41:08,625
- Here, can you touch me?
918
00:41:08,709 --> 00:41:10,500
- But then also,
919
00:41:10,583 --> 00:41:12,625
Zephyr starts, like--
920
00:41:12,709 --> 00:41:14,333
he'll put on Lotus' clothes,
921
00:41:14,417 --> 00:41:16,792
and he'll dance in them.
922
00:41:16,875 --> 00:41:18,792
And I look at him, like,
923
00:41:18,875 --> 00:41:20,500
"Please, not you too.
924
00:41:20,583 --> 00:41:22,500
"Please be a boy.
925
00:41:22,583 --> 00:41:24,750
"Don't be transgender.
Don't be gender nonconforming.
926
00:41:24,834 --> 00:41:25,959
Please be a boy."
927
00:41:26,041 --> 00:41:27,333
- Mommy!
928
00:41:27,417 --> 00:41:28,959
- "Can I please not have two?"
929
00:41:29,041 --> 00:41:30,291
- Mommy.
930
00:41:30,375 --> 00:41:32,625
all:
931
00:41:32,709 --> 00:41:35,583
- I take pride in being okay.
932
00:41:35,667 --> 00:41:37,291
And last night,
I was not okay.
933
00:41:37,375 --> 00:41:39,125
Today, I'm not okay.
934
00:41:39,208 --> 00:41:43,500
all:
935
00:41:46,583 --> 00:41:48,875
- Confetti!
936
00:41:51,417 --> 00:41:52,542
- Stop.
- Nope.
937
00:41:52,625 --> 00:41:54,000
- Stop.
Come here.
938
00:41:54,083 --> 00:41:56,041
Avery.
- No!
939
00:41:56,125 --> 00:41:58,166
- What are you gonna do
when the guy gets here?
940
00:41:58,250 --> 00:41:59,250
- What guy?
941
00:41:59,333 --> 00:42:02,166
- The photographer
from "National Geographic."
942
00:42:02,250 --> 00:42:03,834
- You put me in everything!
943
00:42:03,917 --> 00:42:05,709
- Avery, we've--
- And I don't approve of it.
944
00:42:05,792 --> 00:42:06,834
- We've talked about it.
945
00:42:06,917 --> 00:42:08,625
The problem is,
you do approve things,
946
00:42:08,709 --> 00:42:10,000
and then you change your mind.
947
00:42:10,083 --> 00:42:11,000
- No!
948
00:42:11,083 --> 00:42:12,166
- I'm going to--
- No, you're not.
949
00:42:12,250 --> 00:42:13,792
- If you don't get up
and cooperate,
950
00:42:13,875 --> 00:42:14,834
it's going off.
951
00:42:14,917 --> 00:42:16,500
Avery.
- Not right now.
952
00:42:16,583 --> 00:42:18,041
Not if you can't find me!
953
00:42:18,125 --> 00:42:20,125
- Okay.
954
00:42:21,792 --> 00:42:23,000
Makes you wanna just go out
955
00:42:23,083 --> 00:42:26,208
and have a few kids,
doesn't it?
956
00:42:26,291 --> 00:42:27,917
Hello, Robin.
957
00:42:28,000 --> 00:42:30,083
- Nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you too.
958
00:42:30,166 --> 00:42:31,250
- Thanks for having me.
- Yeah.
959
00:42:31,333 --> 00:42:32,542
- Hello.
- There's Avery.
960
00:42:32,625 --> 00:42:33,583
- Hello.
- Don't be rude.
961
00:42:33,667 --> 00:42:34,709
- Nice to meet you.
962
00:42:34,792 --> 00:42:35,709
- Okay, I thought
963
00:42:35,792 --> 00:42:37,208
that you were gonna have
a British accent,
964
00:42:37,291 --> 00:42:39,208
but it sounds like
you're an Aussie?
965
00:42:39,291 --> 00:42:40,917
Or maybe a Kiwi?
- A Kiwi.
966
00:42:41,000 --> 00:42:42,083
- Ah.
967
00:42:42,166 --> 00:42:44,875
- So when I explained
to you guys what--
968
00:42:44,959 --> 00:42:45,834
I mean, you kind of know,
969
00:42:45,917 --> 00:42:47,375
but we're doing a whole issue
on gender
970
00:42:47,458 --> 00:42:49,417
and "National Geographic,"
971
00:42:49,500 --> 00:42:52,875
and the story I'm doing
is about 9-year-olds
972
00:42:52,959 --> 00:42:54,208
around the world.
973
00:42:54,291 --> 00:42:56,417
So it's really important
that we work super hard
974
00:42:56,500 --> 00:42:59,709
to get an amazing picture
of you.
975
00:42:59,792 --> 00:43:03,041
So that's gonna mean
that I'm gonna request
976
00:43:03,125 --> 00:43:04,834
that you're gonna have--
977
00:43:04,917 --> 00:43:05,875
give me some time
978
00:43:06,000 --> 00:43:08,250
and be a little patient
with me.
979
00:43:08,333 --> 00:43:10,583
'Cause I'm gonna take
a lot of pictures.
980
00:43:10,667 --> 00:43:11,959
I'll coach you through it.
Don't worry.
981
00:43:16,542 --> 00:43:17,917
Are you ready?
- Yes.
982
00:43:18,000 --> 00:43:20,208
- So just relax your lips.
- I'll try.
983
00:43:20,291 --> 00:43:21,583
- Yeah.
That's it.
984
00:43:23,375 --> 00:43:24,417
See?
You're a natural.
985
00:43:26,041 --> 00:43:27,125
Let me see
if this is gonna work.
986
00:43:27,208 --> 00:43:28,417
- Nailed it.
987
00:43:29,667 --> 00:43:31,041
- Good.
988
00:43:31,125 --> 00:43:33,250
That's looking really good.
989
00:43:33,333 --> 00:43:34,917
That's not so great.
- That's not so great.
990
00:43:35,000 --> 00:43:36,917
Avery.
991
00:43:37,000 --> 00:43:39,875
- You just be yourself.
That's awesome.
992
00:43:39,959 --> 00:43:41,083
Stay there.
993
00:43:41,166 --> 00:43:42,458
Don't move.
Do that.
994
00:43:42,542 --> 00:43:43,458
What you're doing.
995
00:43:43,542 --> 00:43:44,792
You did something really cool--
like that.
996
00:43:44,875 --> 00:43:45,917
You went like that.
Yeah, that's good for me.
997
00:43:46,000 --> 00:43:47,417
- It feels like
I'm meditating now.
998
00:43:47,500 --> 00:43:48,959
- You do look like
you're kind of floating.
999
00:43:50,208 --> 00:43:51,291
Good.
Awesome.
1000
00:43:51,375 --> 00:43:52,458
You're actually
very photogenic.
1001
00:43:52,542 --> 00:43:53,959
- I thought that was good.
1002
00:43:57,041 --> 00:43:57,959
- Cara.
1003
00:43:58,041 --> 00:44:00,166
Her hair just flows.
- Her hair, I know.
1004
00:44:01,875 --> 00:44:04,125
Mm-hmm.
- I like that.
1005
00:44:04,208 --> 00:44:05,375
What's it look like on?
1006
00:44:05,458 --> 00:44:09,291
Oh, God!
1007
00:44:09,375 --> 00:44:12,458
- Half the freaking dress
is missing.
1008
00:44:12,542 --> 00:44:14,959
You pay $4,000
for a piece of clothing
1009
00:44:15,041 --> 00:44:17,125
that doesn't even cover
both of your boobs.
1010
00:44:18,250 --> 00:44:20,625
- Cathy knew me
before my transition.
1011
00:44:20,709 --> 00:44:23,834
We've been best friends
for about four years now.
1012
00:44:23,917 --> 00:44:25,625
Super exciting
that I can have someone
1013
00:44:25,709 --> 00:44:29,583
who's there for me 100%
throughout my transition.
1014
00:44:29,667 --> 00:44:31,709
I would love to model for them.
1015
00:44:31,792 --> 00:44:33,625
- Are you gonna do anything
about modeling?
1016
00:44:33,709 --> 00:44:35,333
- I've been thinking
about it a lot,
1017
00:44:35,417 --> 00:44:37,041
and I'm almost 17
1018
00:44:37,125 --> 00:44:39,834
and that's a year away
from being 18, and...
1019
00:44:39,917 --> 00:44:41,542
once you're 18, you really
have to start thinking
1020
00:44:41,625 --> 00:44:43,458
about your career and where
you're going with that,
1021
00:44:43,542 --> 00:44:45,000
'cause I don't wanna be,
like, 30 years old,
1022
00:44:45,083 --> 00:44:46,500
like, "Yes,
I'm still gonna make it."
1023
00:44:46,583 --> 00:44:49,375
"Just wait."
1024
00:44:53,125 --> 00:44:54,166
Hi.
- Hi.
1025
00:44:54,250 --> 00:44:55,542
I'm Becky.
- Nice to meet you.
1026
00:44:55,625 --> 00:44:57,166
I'm Leena.
- Nice to meet you.
1027
00:44:57,250 --> 00:44:58,208
Hi.
- Hi, Becky. I'm Cathy.
1028
00:44:58,291 --> 00:44:59,542
- Hi. Nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you.
1029
00:44:59,625 --> 00:45:00,583
- I'm Michael.
- Hi.
1030
00:45:00,667 --> 00:45:01,834
Nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you.
1031
00:45:01,917 --> 00:45:04,000
- You guys can have
a seat here.
1032
00:45:04,083 --> 00:45:06,709
- My goal is to do modeling
and fashion
1033
00:45:06,792 --> 00:45:08,125
for big name corporations
1034
00:45:08,208 --> 00:45:09,625
'cause I wanna model
for, like, Dior,
1035
00:45:09,709 --> 00:45:11,500
and my biggest top of my list
1036
00:45:11,583 --> 00:45:13,250
is I wanna model
for Victoria's Secret.
1037
00:45:13,333 --> 00:45:14,458
- Okay.
1038
00:45:14,542 --> 00:45:16,875
So we do a two-year contract.
1039
00:45:16,959 --> 00:45:18,625
It's exclusive here
in Kansas City.
1040
00:45:18,709 --> 00:45:20,041
We just wanna stick here
to start with,
1041
00:45:20,125 --> 00:45:21,208
see how you progress,
1042
00:45:21,291 --> 00:45:23,000
and then we can kind of,
you know, shoot you out there
1043
00:45:23,083 --> 00:45:24,917
to some other places.
1044
00:45:25,000 --> 00:45:27,250
We do have KC Fashion Week
coming up.
1045
00:45:27,333 --> 00:45:29,834
They're getting ready
to have castings
1046
00:45:29,917 --> 00:45:31,500
on the 10th, 13th, and 20th,
1047
00:45:31,583 --> 00:45:32,875
so that would be
the very first thing
1048
00:45:32,959 --> 00:45:34,083
I would try to send you on.
1049
00:45:34,166 --> 00:45:35,333
- Yeah.
1050
00:45:35,417 --> 00:45:37,542
Where my passion is just
the, like, runway aspect of it.
1051
00:45:37,625 --> 00:45:39,208
- Yeah, absolutely.
- So--
1052
00:45:39,291 --> 00:45:41,041
- Okay,
let's shoot some headshots.
1053
00:45:44,333 --> 00:45:46,542
- It started early.
1054
00:45:46,625 --> 00:45:48,709
We were divorced, and there
was two separate households,
1055
00:45:48,792 --> 00:45:51,542
and 6, 7 years old,
and she would tell us,
1056
00:45:51,625 --> 00:45:52,542
"I'm a little girl,"
1057
00:45:52,625 --> 00:45:54,417
and I'm like,
"You have no idea.
1058
00:45:54,500 --> 00:45:55,750
You don't."
1059
00:45:55,834 --> 00:45:57,417
I don't know how many times
she would come back
1060
00:45:57,500 --> 00:45:59,208
and tell both of us,
"I am, I am, I am."
1061
00:45:59,291 --> 00:46:00,750
- I just always knew,
1062
00:46:00,834 --> 00:46:03,583
but it was trying to figure out
1063
00:46:03,667 --> 00:46:05,959
what the right,
like, words were
1064
00:46:06,041 --> 00:46:08,083
to use for it.
1065
00:46:08,166 --> 00:46:09,917
At first, yeah, I came out
to my parents
1066
00:46:10,000 --> 00:46:11,250
as, "I'm gay."
1067
00:46:11,333 --> 00:46:14,083
- She wrote her dad and I
this book,
1068
00:46:14,166 --> 00:46:17,041
kinda help us understand
what she was feeling inside.
1069
00:46:21,375 --> 00:46:22,917
I love every page of it
1070
00:46:23,000 --> 00:46:27,625
because it was written
from her heart.
1071
00:46:27,709 --> 00:46:30,917
- It kinda opened my eyes.
1072
00:46:31,000 --> 00:46:32,583
- And then I started
researching more and more,
1073
00:46:32,667 --> 00:46:34,542
and I was like, "I'm not gay.
1074
00:46:34,625 --> 00:46:35,750
"I'm transgender,
1075
00:46:35,834 --> 00:46:38,458
and I just didn't know
the word for it."
1076
00:46:38,542 --> 00:46:40,083
- I mean, it was--it was--
it was difficult.
1077
00:46:40,166 --> 00:46:42,000
I ain't gonna lie.
It was difficult.
1078
00:46:42,083 --> 00:46:43,625
It was much more--
1079
00:46:43,709 --> 00:46:45,208
easier transition
for my ex-wife
1080
00:46:45,291 --> 00:46:46,458
than it was for me.
1081
00:46:46,542 --> 00:46:50,792
- She was very adamant about,
"Okay, I am a girl,
1082
00:46:50,875 --> 00:46:53,291
"and I need you guys
to understand
1083
00:46:53,375 --> 00:46:56,041
that nothing you say
is gonna make a difference."
1084
00:46:57,542 --> 00:47:00,625
- At that time, we started
letting her grow her hair out,
1085
00:47:00,709 --> 00:47:03,583
become
a little more effeminate.
1086
00:47:03,667 --> 00:47:06,625
And then between the summer
of eighth and ninth grade,
1087
00:47:06,709 --> 00:47:08,959
that's--we as a family
sat down and said,
1088
00:47:09,041 --> 00:47:11,792
you know, "If this
is who you truly are,
1089
00:47:11,875 --> 00:47:13,250
then this is the time
to do it."
1090
00:47:19,417 --> 00:47:21,959
- I wouldn't tell the people
who I was auditioning for
1091
00:47:22,041 --> 00:47:23,792
that I was transgender
necessarily
1092
00:47:23,875 --> 00:47:26,000
just because it's none
of their business and--
1093
00:47:26,083 --> 00:47:27,500
- Maybe that's
what they're looking for.
1094
00:47:27,583 --> 00:47:29,041
Maybe they're looking
for someone like you.
1095
00:47:29,125 --> 00:47:30,875
- Well, I mean, if they're
looking for a trans model,
1096
00:47:30,959 --> 00:47:32,834
then I'll say
I'm a trans model, you know.
1097
00:47:32,917 --> 00:47:34,875
- If they ask, you be honest.
1098
00:47:34,959 --> 00:47:36,667
You're not ashamed of anything.
1099
00:47:36,750 --> 00:47:38,834
But I wouldn't offer
any information.
1100
00:47:38,917 --> 00:47:41,375
Don't give 'em any more
than what they need to know.
1101
00:47:41,458 --> 00:47:42,333
- Now it's a different story
1102
00:47:42,417 --> 00:47:45,000
if I go in
and I'm doing gown auditions
1103
00:47:45,083 --> 00:47:46,375
whether than,
1104
00:47:46,458 --> 00:47:49,959
"We want you in a bikini,"
you know,
1105
00:47:50,041 --> 00:47:54,250
because I wanna do VS,
you know, and I wanna do--
1106
00:47:54,333 --> 00:47:56,291
- That's pretty skimpy.
- That type of modeling.
1107
00:47:56,375 --> 00:47:57,291
- Yeah.
1108
00:47:57,375 --> 00:47:59,917
- More along the lines
of less--
1109
00:48:00,000 --> 00:48:00,917
- Yeah, but say--
1110
00:48:01,000 --> 00:48:02,709
- Couture and gowns
and all that.
1111
00:48:02,792 --> 00:48:04,375
More along the lines of--
1112
00:48:04,458 --> 00:48:06,375
- Yeah, but let's say--
- VS, you know.
1113
00:48:06,458 --> 00:48:07,750
- Let's say right now,
you're just doing
1114
00:48:07,834 --> 00:48:10,542
some "mom and pop"
type of things, you know.
1115
00:48:10,625 --> 00:48:11,583
And then--
- Well, yeah, it's--
1116
00:48:11,667 --> 00:48:13,083
- Say in a couple years,
well, maybe we'd--
1117
00:48:13,166 --> 00:48:14,417
- I don't think
I would tell them, no.
1118
00:48:14,500 --> 00:48:15,625
- You know,
maybe in a couple years,
1119
00:48:15,709 --> 00:48:17,333
when you do have the surgery,
1120
00:48:17,417 --> 00:48:19,333
then we won't have to worry
about your bikini
1121
00:48:19,417 --> 00:48:21,083
or anything that--you know?
1122
00:48:21,166 --> 00:48:24,041
- Just, I don't want someone
to look at me
1123
00:48:24,125 --> 00:48:25,875
and question my womanhood,
1124
00:48:25,959 --> 00:48:27,375
'cause I don't wanna do that
1125
00:48:27,458 --> 00:48:28,542
and I don't wanna go down
that road.
1126
00:48:28,625 --> 00:48:30,083
- Sure.
Absolutely.
1127
00:48:43,208 --> 00:48:45,417
- I'm the chef.
1128
00:48:45,500 --> 00:48:48,750
Do you--how much do you want?
1129
00:48:52,709 --> 00:48:54,458
- So how come you and Mildred
can't be friends?
1130
00:48:54,542 --> 00:48:56,542
Like, why does she say to you
that you can't--
1131
00:48:56,625 --> 00:49:00,083
- Because her mom doesn't like
that I'm transgender.
1132
00:49:00,166 --> 00:49:02,208
- Like, how do you know that?
What did Mildred tell you?
1133
00:49:02,291 --> 00:49:03,458
I would like to know that.
1134
00:49:03,542 --> 00:49:04,917
- Her mom basically said
1135
00:49:05,000 --> 00:49:06,959
she doesn't want her
talking to me or being near me
1136
00:49:07,041 --> 00:49:09,208
because I am the way I am.
1137
00:49:09,291 --> 00:49:10,583
- Really?
- Yep.
1138
00:49:10,667 --> 00:49:11,625
Remember when she pulled up
1139
00:49:11,709 --> 00:49:13,166
at the parking lot
the other day?
1140
00:49:13,250 --> 00:49:14,250
- Yeah, and she circled around
1141
00:49:14,333 --> 00:49:15,458
'cause she didn't wanna park
by us?
1142
00:49:15,542 --> 00:49:16,458
- Yeah.
1143
00:49:16,542 --> 00:49:17,458
- Is it all because
you're trans?
1144
00:49:17,542 --> 00:49:18,542
- Yep.
1145
00:49:18,625 --> 00:49:19,750
- Does she even understand
what transgender is?
1146
00:49:19,834 --> 00:49:20,750
- Probably not.
1147
00:49:20,834 --> 00:49:21,792
- That's kinda cool now that--
1148
00:49:21,875 --> 00:49:23,166
I mean, 'cause now
you're seeing the true light
1149
00:49:23,250 --> 00:49:24,709
of, like, how she is
and how fast she moves on.
1150
00:49:24,792 --> 00:49:26,000
- Okay,
this is what I'm talking about.
1151
00:49:26,083 --> 00:49:28,417
This is not--why I did not
wanna talk about this.
1152
00:49:28,500 --> 00:49:29,500
- I'm just saying.
1153
00:49:29,583 --> 00:49:30,834
- No, 'cause you get
very defensive--
1154
00:49:30,917 --> 00:49:32,291
- I'm not defensive.
- And you bring up it all up.
1155
00:49:32,375 --> 00:49:34,375
- I'm just saying.
1156
00:49:40,542 --> 00:49:41,959
Sorry.
1157
00:49:44,542 --> 00:49:45,792
Jay.
1158
00:49:45,875 --> 00:49:48,083
- I didn't like
how you outed me
1159
00:49:48,166 --> 00:49:49,458
to her mom.
1160
00:49:49,542 --> 00:49:51,125
I don't like how you did that.
1161
00:49:51,208 --> 00:49:54,792
But I had no say in it,
because you were mad.
1162
00:49:54,875 --> 00:49:57,333
- I was wrong for doing that,
but at the same time,
1163
00:49:57,417 --> 00:50:00,458
I watched this relationship
for ten months go down,
1164
00:50:00,542 --> 00:50:02,500
and I didn't ever interfere,
1165
00:50:02,583 --> 00:50:04,500
but when somebody's mother
comes to me
1166
00:50:04,583 --> 00:50:05,667
and says I need to love
my son more
1167
00:50:05,750 --> 00:50:08,291
and support him more
because he's highly emotional,
1168
00:50:08,375 --> 00:50:09,834
that's when I got angry.
1169
00:50:09,917 --> 00:50:10,834
- I understand that.
1170
00:50:10,917 --> 00:50:12,667
- Because she was
basically patronizing me
1171
00:50:12,750 --> 00:50:14,291
and being condescending
on the phone.
1172
00:50:14,375 --> 00:50:16,625
- Coming out is my decision.
1173
00:50:16,709 --> 00:50:18,375
- Mildred's mo--parents
should have known
1174
00:50:18,458 --> 00:50:21,709
that you were trans
from the get-go, I feel.
1175
00:50:21,792 --> 00:50:23,000
- And you know
we were gonna tell 'em,
1176
00:50:23,083 --> 00:50:24,333
but we just didn't know how.
1177
00:50:24,417 --> 00:50:26,041
- But it had been ten months,
and you hadn't said anything
1178
00:50:26,125 --> 00:50:27,083
and now you know why
1179
00:50:27,166 --> 00:50:28,500
she didn't wanna ever tell
her parents.
1180
00:50:28,583 --> 00:50:30,166
Because now she can't
even look at us.
1181
00:50:30,250 --> 00:50:32,041
She won't even park her car
next to us at a soccer--
1182
00:50:32,125 --> 00:50:35,208
at the soccer field.
1183
00:50:35,291 --> 00:50:36,375
- Okay.
1184
00:50:36,458 --> 00:50:37,959
- So she never had planned
on telling her parents.
1185
00:50:38,041 --> 00:50:39,834
- Okay.
1186
00:50:46,000 --> 00:50:47,709
- Oh, my goodness.
1187
00:50:57,458 --> 00:50:59,166
- You know, like,
sometimes you think
1188
00:50:59,250 --> 00:51:02,166
there's not a reason
to be here.
1189
00:51:02,250 --> 00:51:04,542
That runs through my head
a lot.
1190
00:51:04,625 --> 00:51:06,333
I just think
about all the times
1191
00:51:06,417 --> 00:51:09,583
people have not accepted
who I am.
1192
00:51:09,667 --> 00:51:13,333
Sometimes, I say that
I'm going to take my life.
1193
00:51:13,417 --> 00:51:16,166
And you're just like,
"No, you can't do this,"
1194
00:51:16,250 --> 00:51:17,625
and you just, like--
all of a sudden,
1195
00:51:17,709 --> 00:51:19,875
it's just, like,
come out of that moment,
1196
00:51:19,959 --> 00:51:22,583
and you're just like,
"Why am I doing this?"
1197
00:51:28,667 --> 00:51:30,250
It's just hard.
1198
00:51:30,333 --> 00:51:31,667
You don't know
what's gonna happen.
1199
00:51:31,750 --> 00:51:34,083
People these days--
they could do anything.
1200
00:51:37,375 --> 00:51:40,083
- Right now, a terror attack
on a gay nightclub.
1201
00:51:40,166 --> 00:51:42,083
- My son was in there
with his boyfriend
1202
00:51:42,166 --> 00:51:44,291
and two other guys.
1203
00:51:44,375 --> 00:51:46,417
They heard about 20 shots.
1204
00:51:46,500 --> 00:51:47,417
- Get outta here.
1205
00:51:47,500 --> 00:51:48,875
- Oh, my God, dude.
1206
00:51:48,959 --> 00:51:51,083
- It went bang, bang,
bang, bang.
1207
00:51:51,166 --> 00:51:52,917
- This weekend,
Avery's supposed to be
1208
00:51:53,000 --> 00:51:55,583
the grand marshal in one
of the local Pride parades,
1209
00:51:55,667 --> 00:51:58,166
but we are rethinking that
right now
1210
00:51:58,250 --> 00:52:00,417
with everything
that's happened in Orlando.
1211
00:52:00,500 --> 00:52:01,750
- Come on out.
1212
00:52:01,834 --> 00:52:05,792
- We have the reality
of our family being so visible
1213
00:52:05,875 --> 00:52:08,834
that we're easy targets.
1214
00:52:08,917 --> 00:52:11,667
So we need to check in
with her.
1215
00:52:15,750 --> 00:52:17,959
I've been talking
to the police,
1216
00:52:18,041 --> 00:52:21,333
and I even had a meeting
with the FBI today.
1217
00:52:21,417 --> 00:52:25,625
They wanna make sure
that you are completely safe
1218
00:52:25,709 --> 00:52:29,500
if you decide you still want
to go to the parade.
1219
00:52:29,583 --> 00:52:32,750
If you don't want to do it,
1220
00:52:32,834 --> 00:52:34,917
that's okay, and we can talk
about that.
1221
00:52:35,000 --> 00:52:37,125
So they said they don't
want you to feel scared.
1222
00:52:37,208 --> 00:52:39,250
- I don't wanna go
to the parade.
1223
00:52:39,333 --> 00:52:41,750
- You don't?
- No, I don't wanna die.
1224
00:52:41,834 --> 00:52:44,125
I don't wanna--I don't wanna.
1225
00:52:44,208 --> 00:52:45,125
- Okay.
1226
00:52:45,208 --> 00:52:48,458
- I don't wanna go
to the parade anymore.
1227
00:52:48,542 --> 00:52:51,500
- Okay.
1228
00:52:51,583 --> 00:52:55,542
You know, this is a lot
for anyone to process,
1229
00:52:55,625 --> 00:52:57,333
so we don't wanna push her
on those decisions
1230
00:52:57,417 --> 00:52:59,375
and make her feel like
she's forced to do something
1231
00:52:59,458 --> 00:53:01,750
she doesn't wanna do.
1232
00:53:07,250 --> 00:53:08,959
- You guys wanna make a wish?
1233
00:53:09,041 --> 00:53:11,667
So you make a wish,
and then you throw it in there.
1234
00:53:11,750 --> 00:53:12,709
Or you throw it in there
1235
00:53:12,792 --> 00:53:13,792
and make a wish
at the same time.
1236
00:53:13,875 --> 00:53:15,125
I'm not sure how it works,
but--
1237
00:53:15,208 --> 00:53:16,500
- Guess what I--
1238
00:53:16,583 --> 00:53:19,125
Just, like, dump all the change
in there.
1239
00:53:19,208 --> 00:53:20,709
- You want one?
- Yes.
1240
00:53:20,792 --> 00:53:23,750
I wish Phoenix would tell us
how she's feeling
1241
00:53:23,834 --> 00:53:25,375
instead of acting out.
1242
00:53:32,375 --> 00:53:35,208
This has been
a stressful year.
1243
00:53:35,291 --> 00:53:37,000
- We've cut people
like my family
1244
00:53:37,083 --> 00:53:39,375
out of my life.
1245
00:53:39,458 --> 00:53:44,250
It has just been so much,
mentally, to deal with.
1246
00:53:44,333 --> 00:53:46,709
- I'm just frazzled every day,
1247
00:53:46,792 --> 00:53:49,250
and I apparently don't handle
stress well.
1248
00:53:49,333 --> 00:53:50,709
- Whoa!
- Wee!
1249
00:53:52,083 --> 00:53:53,166
- You need to be
the homeschooler,
1250
00:53:53,250 --> 00:53:54,208
and I need to work full-time.
1251
00:53:54,291 --> 00:53:55,750
- You can go do that
and I'll stay at home.
1252
00:53:55,834 --> 00:53:57,750
- Mm-hmm.
We will do that.
1253
00:53:57,834 --> 00:54:01,166
I can go away from the kids
and hang out with adults.
1254
00:54:01,250 --> 00:54:02,917
- I might get a little lonely.
1255
00:54:03,000 --> 00:54:04,583
- Yes,
the at-home parent gets lonely.
1256
00:54:04,667 --> 00:54:06,041
That's what happens.
1257
00:54:09,583 --> 00:54:12,583
- We are considering
getting divorced or separated.
1258
00:54:14,625 --> 00:54:16,166
Our marriage has baggage.
1259
00:54:16,250 --> 00:54:19,917
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
1260
00:54:20,000 --> 00:54:21,125
- It's a confusing time.
1261
00:54:27,542 --> 00:54:28,625
- I don't really know
1262
00:54:28,709 --> 00:54:31,542
if they're getting divorced
or not.
1263
00:54:31,625 --> 00:54:34,959
I think that our family
should stay together
1264
00:54:35,041 --> 00:54:37,750
and not get divorced.
1265
00:54:37,834 --> 00:54:40,208
But it's so--
1266
00:54:40,291 --> 00:54:43,125
but I also think it's okay
either way.
1267
00:54:53,208 --> 00:54:55,834
- Avery, Anson, come here.
1268
00:54:55,917 --> 00:54:58,125
I wanna show you something.
1269
00:55:02,208 --> 00:55:03,333
Yeah?
1270
00:55:03,417 --> 00:55:05,750
- What do you think of that?
1271
00:55:05,834 --> 00:55:07,291
- Amazing.
- Oh, my gosh.
1272
00:55:07,375 --> 00:55:09,291
Look at you.
1273
00:55:09,375 --> 00:55:12,083
- It's amazing.
- Look at your face.
1274
00:55:12,166 --> 00:55:14,667
That is a fierce kid
right there.
1275
00:55:14,750 --> 00:55:16,750
Look at the quote
that they have for you.
1276
00:55:16,834 --> 00:55:18,458
- "The best thing
about being a girl
1277
00:55:18,542 --> 00:55:22,458
is now I don't have to pretend
to be a boy."
1278
00:55:22,542 --> 00:55:24,458
Cool.
- I'm so proud of you.
1279
00:55:24,542 --> 00:55:25,625
- My gar!
- Mwah.
1280
00:55:25,709 --> 00:55:27,834
- Oh, my goodness.
1281
00:55:30,750 --> 00:55:33,458
- We moved in with my parents,
just the kids and I,
1282
00:55:33,542 --> 00:55:36,333
while Zach was out of town.
1283
00:55:36,417 --> 00:55:39,500
Zach and I are divorcing.
1284
00:55:39,583 --> 00:55:41,041
When we first got married,
I was really young
1285
00:55:41,125 --> 00:55:42,500
and trying to find my way,
1286
00:55:42,583 --> 00:55:46,000
but right now,
I'm ready to move on.
1287
00:55:46,083 --> 00:55:49,291
Currently working on...
1288
00:55:49,375 --> 00:55:50,542
getting the kids in school
1289
00:55:50,625 --> 00:55:54,166
and getting our legal stuff
figured out.
1290
00:55:54,250 --> 00:55:56,375
Lots of changes for the kids.
1291
00:55:56,458 --> 00:55:59,000
And Phoenix is sorta just fine.
1292
00:55:59,083 --> 00:56:00,917
She's just like, "Eh.
1293
00:56:01,000 --> 00:56:02,375
We live here now.
Whatever."
1294
00:56:02,458 --> 00:56:04,709
Just--
1295
00:56:04,792 --> 00:56:06,542
I don't know.
1296
00:56:11,750 --> 00:56:14,667
- Now I'm a junior, so...
1297
00:56:14,750 --> 00:56:17,041
oh, my God, I'm a junior.
1298
00:56:17,125 --> 00:56:18,667
- This is my freshman.
1299
00:56:18,750 --> 00:56:20,500
He won't let me drop him off
in front of the school.
1300
00:56:20,583 --> 00:56:22,208
I have to drop him off
at the corner.
1301
00:56:22,291 --> 00:56:23,375
- He won't--
1302
00:56:24,500 --> 00:56:27,709
- Let me kiss him either
in front of everybody.
1303
00:56:27,792 --> 00:56:29,041
I'm getting emotional.
1304
00:56:30,625 --> 00:56:31,709
- Stop.
- Oh.
1305
00:56:31,792 --> 00:56:33,208
You're in high school.
1306
00:56:33,291 --> 00:56:35,709
- Oh, my God.
1307
00:56:35,792 --> 00:56:38,000
And you have your first pimple.
1308
00:56:38,083 --> 00:56:41,083
- Oh, my God.
1309
00:56:46,542 --> 00:56:48,208
- I'll probably just go home,
1310
00:56:48,291 --> 00:56:49,875
but, like,
aren't you going over
1311
00:56:49,959 --> 00:56:52,583
to Brian's house later?
1312
00:56:52,667 --> 00:56:55,000
- All he wants to do
is just cuddle and sleep.
1313
00:56:56,500 --> 00:56:59,208
- So I asked him, like,
"Why am I, like, an exception,
1314
00:56:59,291 --> 00:57:02,291
I guess, to, like, the norm
that you would usually date?"
1315
00:57:02,375 --> 00:57:04,125
And he's like,
"Oh, because I love you for you
1316
00:57:04,208 --> 00:57:06,792
and not who you are,
like, physically."
1317
00:57:06,875 --> 00:57:08,583
He's like, "Yeah,
I love your, like, physical,"
1318
00:57:08,667 --> 00:57:11,583
but he's like, "But you--
you're just on a--
1319
00:57:11,667 --> 00:57:12,709
I guess"--what is that called?
1320
00:57:12,792 --> 00:57:13,792
Like, emotional?
- Emotional?
1321
00:57:13,875 --> 00:57:14,959
- Yeah, I guess.
- Yeah.
1322
00:57:15,041 --> 00:57:16,792
- Emotional level.
1323
00:57:16,875 --> 00:57:18,583
I think that's where
he likes me, which is good,
1324
00:57:18,667 --> 00:57:20,792
but I don't know, I just
was getting in my feelings,
1325
00:57:20,875 --> 00:57:22,125
and I was like--
1326
00:57:22,208 --> 00:57:24,250
what happens if he goes off
and leaves me?
1327
00:57:24,333 --> 00:57:25,583
- He's not.
1328
00:57:25,667 --> 00:57:27,917
- 'Cause you know that saying
where you're--
1329
00:57:28,000 --> 00:57:29,709
both: Where you're
your own biggest critic?
1330
00:57:29,792 --> 00:57:30,750
Yeah.
- Yeah.
1331
00:57:30,834 --> 00:57:33,750
- But imagine being, like, you
1332
00:57:33,834 --> 00:57:34,750
and then looking in the mirror
1333
00:57:34,834 --> 00:57:36,417
and seeing,
like, a six-foot gorilla
1334
00:57:36,500 --> 00:57:38,458
and so you're like,
"Oh, God, what is that?"
1335
00:57:38,542 --> 00:57:39,583
- Yeah.
1336
00:57:39,667 --> 00:57:42,000
- If I could change something,
1337
00:57:42,083 --> 00:57:44,125
it'd be, like, the one thing
with me being trans,
1338
00:57:44,208 --> 00:57:45,417
like, my SRS.
1339
00:57:45,500 --> 00:57:47,333
Sexual reassignment surgery.
- Mm-hmm.
1340
00:57:47,417 --> 00:57:48,375
- But that's it.
- Mm-hmm.
1341
00:57:48,458 --> 00:57:49,959
- Like, I don't want
anything else done.
1342
00:57:50,041 --> 00:57:52,417
- Yeah.
1343
00:57:52,500 --> 00:57:54,583
- Are these leggings,
or are these your pants?
1344
00:57:54,667 --> 00:57:55,625
- These are leggings.
1345
00:57:55,709 --> 00:57:56,917
- Oh.
1346
00:58:04,500 --> 00:58:06,417
- Everything's looking good
with your--
1347
00:58:06,500 --> 00:58:07,625
- Hormones.
- Yeah, your hormones?
1348
00:58:07,709 --> 00:58:09,458
Your estrogen, your--
- Go where I wanna go.
1349
00:58:09,542 --> 00:58:12,125
I think the thing that we need
to look into now most of all
1350
00:58:12,208 --> 00:58:13,667
is we need to find a surgeon,
first off,
1351
00:58:13,750 --> 00:58:16,834
that we wanna go with
and see what their things are
1352
00:58:16,917 --> 00:58:20,458
on insurance and payment
and long-term and all of that,
1353
00:58:20,542 --> 00:58:23,291
because I'm not gonna pay
$35,000 up front I don't think.
1354
00:58:23,375 --> 00:58:25,500
- In another year or two,
you know,
1355
00:58:25,583 --> 00:58:27,959
even after you graduate,
year and a half, two years,
1356
00:58:28,041 --> 00:58:29,500
maybe new laws have passed
on insurance and--
1357
00:58:29,583 --> 00:58:30,917
- I mean, I understand that,
but I just--
1358
00:58:31,000 --> 00:58:32,041
- I don't know.
All sorts of stuff.
1359
00:58:32,125 --> 00:58:33,417
- I just can't wait.
1360
00:58:33,500 --> 00:58:34,875
- SRS, it's a major--
- Major surgery.
1361
00:58:34,959 --> 00:58:36,709
- Yeah, it's a major surgery.
Something different.
1362
00:58:36,792 --> 00:58:38,959
It's not, you know, something
that they do every day.
1363
00:58:39,041 --> 00:58:40,834
- It's not getting
your appendix taken out.
1364
00:58:40,917 --> 00:58:42,208
- Yeah, you know,
if something happened,
1365
00:58:42,291 --> 00:58:43,959
blood loss,
loss to your heart rate or--
1366
00:58:44,041 --> 00:58:45,208
you know, whatever
the case may be,
1367
00:58:45,291 --> 00:58:47,542
and we lost you...
1368
00:58:47,625 --> 00:58:50,000
Let's--we really need to think
about this.
1369
00:58:55,208 --> 00:58:57,208
- But I don't think
it's for everyone,
1370
00:58:57,291 --> 00:58:58,959
and it doesn't make you
any less of a woman
1371
00:58:59,041 --> 00:59:00,959
or any more of a woman
because you have it,
1372
00:59:01,041 --> 00:59:02,208
but for me personally,
1373
00:59:02,291 --> 00:59:05,166
I don't feel like I could live,
like, in this--
1374
00:59:05,250 --> 00:59:07,125
in the body that I have now
1375
00:59:07,208 --> 00:59:09,041
for the rest of my life
without being upset by it.
1376
00:59:09,125 --> 00:59:10,166
- I know.
1377
00:59:21,792 --> 00:59:23,667
- Ladies and gentlemen,
girls and boys,
1378
00:59:23,750 --> 00:59:26,083
please welcome to the field
1379
00:59:26,166 --> 00:59:28,375
your Kansas City Titans.
1380
00:59:28,458 --> 00:59:30,208
- Lanie's out there.
You see her?
1381
00:59:30,291 --> 00:59:31,375
There she is.
- Yeah.
1382
00:59:31,458 --> 00:59:32,917
- Where?
- She's 21.
1383
00:59:33,000 --> 00:59:35,500
Defensive lineman.
- Oh!
1384
00:59:35,583 --> 00:59:39,250
- My mom met Lanie
not even a month ago.
1385
00:59:39,333 --> 00:59:40,417
- Right there.
She's right there.
1386
00:59:40,500 --> 00:59:41,500
- I know.
1387
00:59:41,583 --> 00:59:45,041
I met Lanie late one night
on Facebook.
1388
00:59:45,125 --> 00:59:46,333
Just started out
as a friendship,
1389
00:59:46,417 --> 00:59:49,917
and then it grew
into a crazy love story
1390
00:59:50,000 --> 00:59:52,625
like something you would see
in a movie.
1391
00:59:52,709 --> 00:59:54,208
Never thought it would happen.
1392
00:59:54,291 --> 00:59:56,625
I mean, it hit me...
1393
00:59:56,709 --> 00:59:57,625
like a storm.
1394
00:59:57,709 --> 00:59:58,750
- Go, Lanie!
1395
00:59:58,834 --> 01:00:01,250
- 21, Lanie Ford of the Titans
says--
1396
01:00:01,333 --> 01:00:03,291
- Oh, go!
- "You're not getting by me."
1397
01:00:03,375 --> 01:00:06,250
- Go, Lanie!
1398
01:00:09,000 --> 01:00:10,917
- Jay is very needy
with his mom.
1399
01:00:11,000 --> 01:00:14,750
I'm very needy with his mom,
so...
1400
01:00:14,834 --> 01:00:18,000
it's fireworks a lot.
1401
01:00:18,083 --> 01:00:19,750
I'm gonna try to bond
with him.
1402
01:00:19,834 --> 01:00:21,542
He never really wants
to hang out with me right now,
1403
01:00:21,625 --> 01:00:25,375
but I'm sure that'll change
the more I'm here.
1404
01:00:25,458 --> 01:00:26,583
You know,
"I gotta go to the store.
1405
01:00:26,667 --> 01:00:28,208
Do you wanna go with me?"
1406
01:00:28,291 --> 01:00:30,458
One-on-one time.
I know it's baby steps.
1407
01:00:30,542 --> 01:00:33,291
I hated my stepdad
for, like, ten years
1408
01:00:33,375 --> 01:00:35,667
and then woke up one day
and was like, "Oh.
1409
01:00:35,750 --> 01:00:37,959
This man's here to help me,
and he loves me."
1410
01:00:38,041 --> 01:00:39,250
And ever since that happened,
1411
01:00:39,333 --> 01:00:41,333
he became
one of my best friends.
1412
01:00:43,208 --> 01:00:46,291
- Come on.
Let's go.
1413
01:00:46,375 --> 01:00:47,792
Stretch.
1414
01:00:51,709 --> 01:00:54,792
- "National Geographic"
put a 9-year-old boy,
1415
01:00:54,875 --> 01:00:55,792
emphasis on boy,
1416
01:00:55,875 --> 01:00:58,291
who wants people to think
he's really a girl
1417
01:00:58,375 --> 01:01:00,333
on the January cover
of the magazine.
1418
01:01:00,417 --> 01:01:01,417
- That's the article,
1419
01:01:01,500 --> 01:01:04,458
this wicked, satanic movement
that's promoted
1420
01:01:04,542 --> 01:01:07,000
and messed around with
this poor young man's mind.
1421
01:01:07,083 --> 01:01:09,083
- God has made us male
and female.
1422
01:01:09,166 --> 01:01:10,709
- You know, a person
who's turning themselves
1423
01:01:10,792 --> 01:01:13,500
into a transgender
is some kind of a creature.
1424
01:01:13,583 --> 01:01:14,875
- Like this Avery young person.
1425
01:01:14,959 --> 01:01:16,792
- Same exact people.
1426
01:01:16,875 --> 01:01:19,166
- How does he define himself
as a "girl?"
1427
01:01:19,250 --> 01:01:20,166
- Right.
1428
01:01:20,250 --> 01:01:25,000
- What "National Geographic"
has on its cover
1429
01:01:25,083 --> 01:01:28,041
is pedophilia.
1430
01:01:36,750 --> 01:01:38,500
- "National Geographic"
is something
1431
01:01:38,583 --> 01:01:40,041
that we're very proud of.
1432
01:01:40,125 --> 01:01:41,375
I also think it's something
1433
01:01:41,458 --> 01:01:43,792
that has caused
a lot of turmoil
1434
01:01:43,875 --> 01:01:46,667
in our life for the last month.
1435
01:01:46,750 --> 01:01:48,834
- I got a message
1436
01:01:48,917 --> 01:01:51,500
from my mom and dad
1437
01:01:51,583 --> 01:01:53,709
that they're not happy
about seeing you
1438
01:01:53,792 --> 01:01:55,250
on "National Geographic"
and stuff,
1439
01:01:55,333 --> 01:01:59,709
and they think that
we have put you out there
1440
01:01:59,792 --> 01:02:02,709
trying to get fame
and attention,
1441
01:02:02,792 --> 01:02:06,083
and they're worried
that you will never be able
1442
01:02:06,166 --> 01:02:10,041
to come back later
now that people have seen you
1443
01:02:10,125 --> 01:02:12,417
on such a big stage
1444
01:02:12,500 --> 01:02:14,041
and tell us
that you're really a boy
1445
01:02:14,125 --> 01:02:15,834
and you wanna go back
to living like a boy.
1446
01:02:15,917 --> 01:02:18,667
'Cause that's what they seem
to think.
1447
01:02:20,291 --> 01:02:22,041
Do you think you're
gonna ever wanna go back
1448
01:02:22,125 --> 01:02:23,542
to just living like a boy?
1449
01:02:23,625 --> 01:02:25,625
- No.
- Why not?
1450
01:02:25,709 --> 01:02:28,375
- Because I'm a girl, I guess.
1451
01:02:28,458 --> 01:02:31,000
I don't really know
how to answer the question.
1452
01:02:39,208 --> 01:02:41,375
Good Meat.
Good Meat.
1453
01:02:41,458 --> 01:02:43,333
Good, good, good, good, good
Meat.
1454
01:02:43,417 --> 01:02:45,208
Good Meat.
1455
01:02:53,166 --> 01:02:55,041
- The inauguration
of the 45th U.S. president
1456
01:02:55,125 --> 01:02:56,291
now in the books--
1457
01:02:56,375 --> 01:02:59,542
- TVs across Kansas City
broadcasting the inauguration.
1458
01:02:59,625 --> 01:03:01,500
- Now that Trump
is our president,
1459
01:03:01,583 --> 01:03:02,750
that does worry me
1460
01:03:02,834 --> 01:03:04,625
just because of all the
transgender inequality stuff.
1461
01:03:04,709 --> 01:03:06,250
I am just in fear all the time.
1462
01:03:06,333 --> 01:03:07,917
- We're more
than a thousand miles
1463
01:03:08,000 --> 01:03:09,750
from the heart of it all
in Washington, D.C.,
1464
01:03:09,834 --> 01:03:11,250
but that did not stop
Kansas Citians
1465
01:03:11,333 --> 01:03:12,250
from tuning in.
1466
01:03:12,333 --> 01:03:14,083
Many people I spoke with
off-camera
1467
01:03:14,166 --> 01:03:16,959
still not comfortable
with President Donald Trump.
1468
01:03:17,041 --> 01:03:19,000
- Transgenders here
in the metro worry
1469
01:03:19,083 --> 01:03:20,458
about what may happen next.
1470
01:03:20,542 --> 01:03:21,792
- President Trump announcing
1471
01:03:21,875 --> 01:03:24,458
that most transgender troops
would no longer be able
1472
01:03:24,542 --> 01:03:26,000
to serve in the military.
1473
01:03:26,083 --> 01:03:29,166
- I think when you have
an administration of people
1474
01:03:29,250 --> 01:03:31,458
that are actively vying
against you,
1475
01:03:31,542 --> 01:03:33,458
yeah, it's very scary,
and we're terrified
1476
01:03:33,542 --> 01:03:35,583
of what the next four years
is gonna bring.
1477
01:03:35,667 --> 01:03:40,000
- This is not a pleasant time
to be out and visibly trans.
1478
01:03:50,750 --> 01:03:52,291
Hi.
My name is Phoenix.
1479
01:03:52,375 --> 01:03:54,083
I live in kindergarten.
1480
01:03:54,166 --> 01:03:55,458
- You live in kindergarten?
1481
01:03:55,542 --> 01:03:58,000
No, you live in Lawrence.
1482
01:03:58,083 --> 01:04:00,000
- No.
1483
01:04:00,083 --> 01:04:01,709
- You--
1484
01:04:01,792 --> 01:04:04,333
- I live in country.
1485
01:04:04,417 --> 01:04:07,500
Country is United States
of America.
1486
01:04:07,583 --> 01:04:10,125
- So I've got the kids
in public school.
1487
01:04:10,208 --> 01:04:12,083
The night
before school pictures,
1488
01:04:12,166 --> 01:04:15,375
Phoenix decided to go back
to living as a boy.
1489
01:04:15,458 --> 01:04:18,000
We didn't know
what was going on.
1490
01:04:18,083 --> 01:04:19,000
It was all very sudden.
1491
01:04:19,083 --> 01:04:21,667
- Nuh-uh.
Me boy.
1492
01:04:21,750 --> 01:04:23,000
- You know, it is okay
1493
01:04:23,083 --> 01:04:25,333
for boys to wear girl clothes
and--
1494
01:04:25,417 --> 01:04:26,667
- Nuh-uh.
- Girls to wear boy clothes.
1495
01:04:26,750 --> 01:04:30,333
- Not dresses.
Or skirt.
1496
01:04:30,417 --> 01:04:32,625
- Yeah, boys can wear dresses
and skirts.
1497
01:04:32,709 --> 01:04:34,333
That's really okay.
- Not dress.
1498
01:04:34,417 --> 01:04:37,375
- We have several theories
about what's going on
1499
01:04:37,458 --> 01:04:40,333
with why Phoenix went back
to boy.
1500
01:04:40,417 --> 01:04:43,375
One is,
was Zach encouraging it?
1501
01:04:43,458 --> 01:04:45,375
Or now that we live
with my dad,
1502
01:04:45,458 --> 01:04:49,166
he has a more regular
male role model.
1503
01:04:50,333 --> 01:04:51,375
- Bang.
1504
01:04:51,458 --> 01:04:52,709
- Every time I've asked him
what he wants
1505
01:04:52,792 --> 01:04:54,542
for his birthday,
he'd say, "A gun!"
1506
01:04:54,625 --> 01:04:56,542
Remember, you never have this
pointed at something
1507
01:04:56,625 --> 01:04:58,083
you don't wanna destroy.
1508
01:04:58,166 --> 01:05:00,083
I'm curious to see
how this pans out.
1509
01:05:00,166 --> 01:05:01,834
We don't really know.
1510
01:05:01,917 --> 01:05:02,834
What do you think?
1511
01:05:02,917 --> 01:05:05,417
- I think he's gonna be
gender-fluid.
1512
01:05:05,500 --> 01:05:06,834
- You think he's gonna be
gender-fluid?
1513
01:05:06,917 --> 01:05:08,375
- Mm-hmm.
- Yeah.
1514
01:05:08,458 --> 01:05:10,417
We really could
just place bets.
1515
01:05:10,500 --> 01:05:12,834
No one knows.
1516
01:05:15,959 --> 01:05:19,000
- I'm just hoping
1517
01:05:19,083 --> 01:05:22,083
that...
1518
01:05:22,166 --> 01:05:24,083
Phoenix is fully aware
of what's going on
1519
01:05:24,166 --> 01:05:25,875
and, you know, doing this
1520
01:05:25,959 --> 01:05:29,792
for the right reasons
and everything.
1521
01:05:29,875 --> 01:05:33,667
Yeah, I think we would both be
ecstatic for, you know...
1522
01:05:33,750 --> 01:05:36,375
Phoenix to not have to deal
with the transgender issues
1523
01:05:36,458 --> 01:05:38,750
the rest of Phoenix's life.
1524
01:05:38,834 --> 01:05:41,917
The whole thing is kind of
a mystery at this point.
1525
01:05:42,000 --> 01:05:43,417
I don't know,
the peer influence or whatever
1526
01:05:43,500 --> 01:05:45,291
maybe had something to do
with it.
1527
01:05:45,375 --> 01:05:48,000
He got into school
and started seeing other boys
1528
01:05:48,083 --> 01:05:51,125
wearing boy clothes
and things like that.
1529
01:05:51,208 --> 01:05:54,917
It's also never been
a huge deal to me,
1530
01:05:55,000 --> 01:05:56,667
because...
1531
01:06:00,500 --> 01:06:01,709
I love Phoenix,
1532
01:06:01,792 --> 01:06:04,625
not, like, my son Phoenix
or my daughter Phoenix.
1533
01:06:04,709 --> 01:06:05,750
It's, I love Phoenix.
1534
01:06:19,709 --> 01:06:20,917
- Hey.
- You got a car?
1535
01:06:21,000 --> 01:06:23,792
- Yes, girl.
How do you like it?
1536
01:06:23,875 --> 01:06:25,625
- It's nice.
When'd you get it?
1537
01:06:25,709 --> 01:06:27,250
- Today.
1538
01:06:27,333 --> 01:06:29,625
- Now that you have a car,
we can go, like, wherever now.
1539
01:06:29,709 --> 01:06:30,792
- Downtown, honey.
1540
01:06:30,875 --> 01:06:32,125
- Downtown.
- Yes.
1541
01:06:32,208 --> 01:06:33,750
- Westport.
1542
01:06:33,834 --> 01:06:35,125
Vintage shopping.
1543
01:06:35,208 --> 01:06:37,291
- Yes.
- We don't have to ask.
1544
01:06:37,375 --> 01:06:38,458
- I think it'll be cool
1545
01:06:38,542 --> 01:06:40,500
'cause then we can go
to guys' houses
1546
01:06:40,583 --> 01:06:43,000
whenever we want.
1547
01:06:43,083 --> 01:06:45,667
There's been some changes.
1548
01:06:45,750 --> 01:06:48,000
Me and Brian broke up.
1549
01:06:48,083 --> 01:06:50,709
The ending of it--
it kinda hit me as a surprise
1550
01:06:50,792 --> 01:06:52,834
for his feelings on it
because I thought
1551
01:06:52,917 --> 01:06:56,458
that he really, really,
truly loved me.
1552
01:06:56,542 --> 01:06:58,667
He told me that he was using me
as a cover-up
1553
01:06:58,750 --> 01:07:00,667
because he wasn't sure
of his identity
1554
01:07:00,750 --> 01:07:02,333
in the sexual world,
1555
01:07:02,417 --> 01:07:04,834
and that was really
what crushed me,
1556
01:07:04,917 --> 01:07:06,709
'cause I felt used,
and I felt betrayed
1557
01:07:06,792 --> 01:07:09,000
by someone who told me
that they had loved me
1558
01:07:09,083 --> 01:07:10,166
and cared about me
for who I was,
1559
01:07:10,250 --> 01:07:11,667
and to be told
that I was just a cover-up
1560
01:07:11,750 --> 01:07:14,542
was heart-wrenching.
1561
01:07:14,625 --> 01:07:15,792
- Yeah.
1562
01:07:15,875 --> 01:07:18,667
- I just kind of told him,
you know, stay out of my life.
1563
01:07:18,750 --> 01:07:20,291
Stay out of my business.
1564
01:07:20,375 --> 01:07:21,333
I just felt betrayed.
1565
01:07:21,417 --> 01:07:23,333
- It was all so, like, sudden.
- I know.
1566
01:07:23,417 --> 01:07:25,041
- Like, it kinda just came
out of the blue,
1567
01:07:25,125 --> 01:07:28,458
and you told me and I was like,
"Oh."
1568
01:07:28,542 --> 01:07:30,709
- I mean, there were
some, like, signs, I think,
1569
01:07:30,792 --> 01:07:31,709
that we both saw
1570
01:07:31,792 --> 01:07:34,542
and were just kinda like,
mm, mm.
1571
01:07:34,625 --> 01:07:38,458
- But--but is it--yeah.
- Yeah.
1572
01:07:38,542 --> 01:07:39,709
When I started dating Brian,
1573
01:07:39,792 --> 01:07:41,542
it felt like an authentication
kinda thing.
1574
01:07:41,625 --> 01:07:45,375
Like, I'm dating a straight man
and he sees me as a woman,
1575
01:07:45,458 --> 01:07:46,709
and I was like,
that is so exciting,
1576
01:07:46,792 --> 01:07:48,083
'cause I was like,
that's all I wanted,
1577
01:07:48,166 --> 01:07:50,750
and, I mean, when I loved him,
I genuinely did,
1578
01:07:50,834 --> 01:07:53,083
so that's pretty sad,
1579
01:07:53,166 --> 01:07:55,250
but...you move on.
1580
01:07:56,667 --> 01:07:58,875
And so instead of dating boys,
I buy shoes now.
1581
01:07:58,959 --> 01:08:00,375
So--
1582
01:08:00,458 --> 01:08:02,542
it brings me just as much joy.
1583
01:08:11,375 --> 01:08:14,000
- How's it going?
- Good.
1584
01:08:14,083 --> 01:08:15,250
It's cold outside.
- Yeah.
1585
01:08:15,333 --> 01:08:16,959
You wanna take your jacket off
real quick?
1586
01:08:17,041 --> 01:08:19,166
So Lanie's fully moved in,
right?
1587
01:08:19,250 --> 01:08:20,583
- Yeah.
- Yeah?
1588
01:08:20,667 --> 01:08:23,041
How's it going?
- We still butt heads a lot.
1589
01:08:23,125 --> 01:08:24,083
- Yeah?
1590
01:08:24,166 --> 01:08:25,917
- Oh, I forgot to--
I can self-shot myself.
1591
01:08:26,000 --> 01:08:27,625
- Yeah? I saw a video--
- I don't need help.
1592
01:08:27,709 --> 01:08:29,458
- But I didn't know if that was
just a one-time thing.
1593
01:08:29,542 --> 01:08:30,875
- No, I do it every night
by myself.
1594
01:08:30,959 --> 01:08:31,917
- That's awesome.
1595
01:08:32,000 --> 01:08:33,750
I do mine every Saturday,
not every day,
1596
01:08:33,834 --> 01:08:36,583
but I'll still take,
like, a second and breathe
1597
01:08:36,667 --> 01:08:38,750
and sometimes I'll even close
my eyes when I do it,
1598
01:08:38,834 --> 01:08:40,291
but it's just, like,
a deep breath and then--
1599
01:08:40,375 --> 01:08:41,583
Go.
1600
01:08:41,667 --> 01:08:42,834
So--
- Yeah.
1601
01:08:42,917 --> 01:08:44,583
- I don't know that it ever
actually gets any easier.
1602
01:08:44,667 --> 01:08:47,291
- So how's everything
with your surgery?
1603
01:08:47,375 --> 01:08:49,417
- I've had a complete
total hysterectomy,
1604
01:08:49,500 --> 01:08:53,166
so my primary hormone
is testosterone.
1605
01:08:53,250 --> 01:08:56,458
So how about the medicine
for your voice and everything?
1606
01:08:56,542 --> 01:08:57,625
Is that still going okay?
1607
01:08:57,709 --> 01:08:58,834
- Yeah.
- Good.
1608
01:08:58,917 --> 01:09:02,125
- I just don't feel like
there's any change.
1609
01:09:02,208 --> 01:09:03,458
- Well,
it's one of those things
1610
01:09:03,542 --> 01:09:05,208
they said, too, it takes
a while to build up, right?
1611
01:09:05,291 --> 01:09:08,083
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
1612
01:09:08,166 --> 01:09:11,792
Looks good.
1613
01:09:11,875 --> 01:09:14,208
- Jay, we have some news
for you.
1614
01:09:14,291 --> 01:09:17,417
- Are you--you wanna tell him?
1615
01:09:21,291 --> 01:09:24,625
- Your mom and I...
1616
01:09:24,709 --> 01:09:27,583
are pretty sure
we're gonna go get married.
1617
01:09:29,417 --> 01:09:31,333
- We're getting married
'cause we love each other.
1618
01:09:31,417 --> 01:09:33,834
That's a given.
1619
01:09:33,917 --> 01:09:36,000
But a lot of the reason is,
remember when I told you
1620
01:09:36,083 --> 01:09:38,208
that with my insurance at work,
1621
01:09:38,291 --> 01:09:42,125
we changed insurance companies
this last--last January?
1622
01:09:42,208 --> 01:09:43,250
- Mm-hmm.
1623
01:09:43,333 --> 01:09:45,458
- Without your human growth
hormone medication,
1624
01:09:45,542 --> 01:09:47,792
you're never gonna grow taller.
1625
01:09:47,875 --> 01:09:49,667
Ever.
1626
01:09:49,750 --> 01:09:51,875
My insurance won't cover
anything.
1627
01:09:51,959 --> 01:09:53,834
But...
1628
01:09:53,917 --> 01:09:56,709
Lanie's insurance,
we've checked into it,
1629
01:09:56,792 --> 01:09:59,125
and her insurance covers
everything.
1630
01:09:59,208 --> 01:10:03,667
So that's why we're rushing
the marriage.
1631
01:10:03,750 --> 01:10:05,375
Because you can't legally be
on her insurance
1632
01:10:05,458 --> 01:10:08,250
if we're not married.
1633
01:10:08,333 --> 01:10:10,458
- I love your mom.
I'm gonna marry her anyway.
1634
01:10:10,542 --> 01:10:11,709
We're just gonna do it now.
1635
01:10:11,792 --> 01:10:13,583
- 'Kay.
1636
01:10:13,667 --> 01:10:15,625
- Mm-hmm.
1637
01:10:32,291 --> 01:10:33,625
- Avery.
1638
01:10:33,709 --> 01:10:36,959
You have behaved so well
for the last week and a half,
1639
01:10:37,041 --> 01:10:39,875
and you're starting
to mess it up right now.
1640
01:10:39,959 --> 01:10:43,125
- I'm not choosing
to be difficult at all.
1641
01:10:44,792 --> 01:10:46,250
- What's the conference about?
1642
01:10:46,333 --> 01:10:48,208
- It's going to be
in Washington, D.C.
1643
01:10:48,291 --> 01:10:49,875
- Yeah, we're going
to Washington, D.C.
1644
01:10:49,959 --> 01:10:50,875
We're gonna--
- Again?
1645
01:10:50,959 --> 01:10:51,875
- We're gonna--
- Again.
1646
01:10:51,959 --> 01:10:54,542
- And we're gonna be moving
to the White House
1647
01:10:54,625 --> 01:10:55,583
the central area,
1648
01:10:55,667 --> 01:10:58,792
to throw a book
at Donald Trump's face.
1649
01:10:58,875 --> 01:11:01,291
- I don't think
that we wanna say that, no.
1650
01:11:01,375 --> 01:11:02,750
This one is Time to THRIVE,
1651
01:11:02,834 --> 01:11:06,208
and it's for people
who work with LGBTQ youth,
1652
01:11:06,291 --> 01:11:08,750
and we actually go and meet
with our senators,
1653
01:11:08,834 --> 01:11:10,291
some representatives.
1654
01:11:10,375 --> 01:11:11,917
After we do that,
1655
01:11:12,000 --> 01:11:13,792
we go and sit
1656
01:11:13,875 --> 01:11:17,083
and sell some of Avery's books
for a little while.
1657
01:11:17,166 --> 01:11:18,250
Avery.
1658
01:11:18,333 --> 01:11:19,667
Manners.
1659
01:11:19,750 --> 01:11:22,625
- I just don't wanna
even have a book.
1660
01:11:22,709 --> 01:11:24,709
I've done too much
in this world.
1661
01:11:24,792 --> 01:11:27,583
It's ruined my life enough,
and now
1662
01:11:27,667 --> 01:11:30,709
everyone in this world
is going to know.
1663
01:11:30,792 --> 01:11:33,125
If I sell my book,
it's gonna get on the news
1664
01:11:33,208 --> 01:11:34,917
for, like--along with me
1665
01:11:35,000 --> 01:11:37,959
for, like, the 50th time
at this point,
1666
01:11:38,041 --> 01:11:40,792
and it's just gonna make
my life worse.
1667
01:11:40,875 --> 01:11:43,500
- A couple years ago,
you wanted people to know.
1668
01:11:43,583 --> 01:11:45,041
- Yeah, I did.
- But now?
1669
01:11:45,125 --> 01:11:47,458
- But now--that was really
a stupid, silly mistake,
1670
01:11:47,542 --> 01:11:48,583
and now I don't.
1671
01:11:51,333 --> 01:11:53,000
Yeah.
That's something.
1672
01:11:53,083 --> 01:11:54,458
- Mm-hmm.
- I'll go pack now.
1673
01:12:01,083 --> 01:12:02,250
- This is hard
1674
01:12:02,333 --> 01:12:06,083
because her future depends
on what we do right now.
1675
01:12:06,166 --> 01:12:07,583
- Take it.
- Stop, Ave.
1676
01:12:07,667 --> 01:12:09,667
Here.
Put it in here.
1677
01:12:09,750 --> 01:12:12,917
Things are going to get worse
if more people don't step up
1678
01:12:13,000 --> 01:12:15,709
and fight.
1679
01:12:15,792 --> 01:12:16,959
But I do struggle
1680
01:12:17,041 --> 01:12:20,625
with letting her
just enjoy childhood.
1681
01:12:20,709 --> 01:12:22,834
Avery.
1682
01:12:28,125 --> 01:12:30,792
Oh, my goodness.
1683
01:12:30,875 --> 01:12:32,375
- It's ginormous.
1684
01:12:36,375 --> 01:12:38,000
- It's so critical right now
1685
01:12:38,083 --> 01:12:40,083
that we personalize
trans issues
1686
01:12:40,166 --> 01:12:41,959
for senators
and representatives
1687
01:12:42,041 --> 01:12:45,375
and they understand
what's at stake.
1688
01:12:45,458 --> 01:12:47,208
I don't know
if she understands
1689
01:12:47,291 --> 01:12:48,291
the gravity of that,
1690
01:12:48,375 --> 01:12:50,834
but she is walking
these halls,
1691
01:12:50,917 --> 01:12:53,166
and that visibility alone
matters.
1692
01:12:53,250 --> 01:12:56,458
I'm Debi Jackson, and I live
in South Kansas City.
1693
01:13:09,625 --> 01:13:13,625
It's her story in her own words
from after she transitioned,
1694
01:13:13,709 --> 01:13:16,041
and, you know, all the other
things that she is
1695
01:13:16,125 --> 01:13:17,750
besides being transgender.
1696
01:13:17,834 --> 01:13:19,041
- Right.
1697
01:13:19,125 --> 01:13:21,375
- Can you sign?
1698
01:13:21,458 --> 01:13:23,875
Oh, my goodness.
With force.
1699
01:13:23,959 --> 01:13:25,875
- I am an independent woman.
1700
01:13:25,959 --> 01:13:28,083
- I just really need you
to not be rude.
1701
01:13:28,166 --> 01:13:29,208
Okay?
1702
01:13:29,291 --> 01:13:30,417
- Is Avery signing copies?
1703
01:13:30,500 --> 01:13:33,375
- She is not at the moment.
- All right.
1704
01:13:33,458 --> 01:13:36,750
- But maybe after a few bites
of cheese.
1705
01:13:36,834 --> 01:13:38,709
- We're waiting to meet you.
- I'm not--
1706
01:13:38,792 --> 01:13:40,375
- Are you kidding?
You're pretty famous.
1707
01:13:40,458 --> 01:13:42,083
- No, that--I'm not Avery.
1708
01:13:42,166 --> 01:13:44,375
I am--Avery's not here.
1709
01:13:44,458 --> 01:13:46,000
I'm just filling in.
1710
01:13:46,083 --> 01:13:49,083
- Do you mind signing a book
for me?
1711
01:13:49,166 --> 01:13:54,000
Smiley face or, like,
a unicorn or a star?
1712
01:13:55,667 --> 01:13:57,250
- We've had a very long day.
1713
01:13:57,333 --> 01:14:00,458
- Yeah, I hear ya.
1714
01:14:00,542 --> 01:14:03,250
- She doesn't wanna be
on display.
1715
01:14:03,333 --> 01:14:04,750
It's exhausting
1716
01:14:04,834 --> 01:14:08,166
constantly being looked at.
1717
01:14:08,250 --> 01:14:10,917
So obviously,
she's going to need a break
1718
01:14:11,000 --> 01:14:12,917
from all the attention.
1719
01:14:27,959 --> 01:14:29,625
- Everybody's hair is down.
1720
01:14:29,709 --> 01:14:31,041
If I would've known
you could've had
1721
01:14:31,125 --> 01:14:33,333
your hair down,
I would've had my hair down.
1722
01:14:38,875 --> 01:14:40,625
- I am very nervous,
and this is a big deal though.
1723
01:14:40,709 --> 01:14:43,000
But anyways, yeah,
it's Kansas City Fashion Week.
1724
01:14:43,083 --> 01:14:45,417
Huge, huge opportunity for her,
so, I mean--
1725
01:14:45,500 --> 01:14:47,291
but there's gonna be
hundreds of girls here.
1726
01:14:47,375 --> 01:14:48,583
- Oh, you're so glittery.
1727
01:14:51,166 --> 01:14:53,667
- Right over there.
1728
01:14:53,750 --> 01:14:54,834
- Okay.
1729
01:14:54,917 --> 01:14:57,166
I'm so nervous.
1730
01:15:04,208 --> 01:15:07,500
- 478?
1731
01:15:07,583 --> 01:15:09,500
Hi.
- How are you?
1732
01:15:09,583 --> 01:15:10,458
- Good.
How are you?
1733
01:15:10,542 --> 01:15:12,417
- Pretty good.
- Good.
1734
01:15:12,500 --> 01:15:13,917
All right.
Jenna?
1735
01:15:14,000 --> 01:15:15,291
- Leena.
- Oh, sorry, Leena.
1736
01:15:15,375 --> 01:15:16,375
- You're fine.
You're fine.
1737
01:15:28,417 --> 01:15:29,542
- Yeah.
1738
01:15:43,458 --> 01:15:45,458
- Thank you.
- Thank you.
1739
01:15:51,583 --> 01:15:53,542
- I got a call from,
like, a couple of designers,
1740
01:15:53,625 --> 01:15:57,250
and I got cast to walk
for a swimwear line.
1741
01:15:57,333 --> 01:15:58,875
And we had called them
and told them, you know,
1742
01:15:58,959 --> 01:16:00,375
like, "Just so you know, like,
I'm trans.
1743
01:16:00,458 --> 01:16:01,834
"Like, everything's fine.
1744
01:16:01,917 --> 01:16:03,417
"I can still, like,
wear swimwear and all that
1745
01:16:03,500 --> 01:16:04,709
"and that's,
like, not a problem,
1746
01:16:04,792 --> 01:16:06,166
"but we just want you
to be aware
1747
01:16:06,250 --> 01:16:07,500
"of, you know, everything,
1748
01:16:07,583 --> 01:16:11,000
"so you as a designer can have
that information or whatever."
1749
01:16:11,083 --> 01:16:15,041
And about two days later or so,
I got a call back
1750
01:16:15,125 --> 01:16:17,041
saying, "We had, you know,
had a meeting
1751
01:16:17,125 --> 01:16:18,625
"with our creative directors,
1752
01:16:18,709 --> 01:16:21,333
and we'll be switching
some girls out."
1753
01:16:23,834 --> 01:16:25,709
I was the only person
on the whole cast
1754
01:16:25,792 --> 01:16:27,500
that got cut.
1755
01:16:30,166 --> 01:16:34,041
There's a little, you know,
bias out there.
1756
01:16:34,125 --> 01:16:37,750
You get used to it.
1757
01:16:37,834 --> 01:16:39,583
'Cause it is such a--
like, a religious area,
1758
01:16:39,667 --> 01:16:41,792
and it's so conservative
that it's hard
1759
01:16:41,875 --> 01:16:43,875
for other people to have,
you know,
1760
01:16:43,959 --> 01:16:45,458
any sort of an open mind
1761
01:16:45,542 --> 01:16:47,041
for people
who aren't like them.
1762
01:16:50,709 --> 01:16:54,041
The designer has 900 followers
on Instagram,
1763
01:16:54,125 --> 01:16:58,083
so pretty irrelevant
in my life, so...
1764
01:17:10,250 --> 01:17:12,291
- I'm nervous.
- I know.
1765
01:17:12,375 --> 01:17:13,625
- You're not the one
who has to talk
1766
01:17:13,709 --> 01:17:15,041
in front of a bunch of people.
1767
01:17:15,125 --> 01:17:16,834
- Yes, I do.
1768
01:17:16,917 --> 01:17:18,083
- What are you talking about?
1769
01:17:18,166 --> 01:17:20,917
- I'm gonna do a speech.
1770
01:17:21,000 --> 01:17:23,333
- Speech about what?
- None of your business.
1771
01:17:27,709 --> 01:17:31,500
- So I had to un-invite
my mom to the wedding.
1772
01:17:31,583 --> 01:17:34,333
I just couldn't handle
the negativity anymore
1773
01:17:34,417 --> 01:17:37,291
and the comments
that she was saying about Jay.
1774
01:17:37,375 --> 01:17:41,083
It's supposed to be a day
of celebration for all of us.
1775
01:17:41,166 --> 01:17:42,792
I mean, I feel bad,
1776
01:17:42,875 --> 01:17:46,000
but I don't need that
around me.
1777
01:17:46,083 --> 01:17:49,458
And Jay doesn't need that
around him either.
1778
01:17:49,542 --> 01:17:50,750
- No.
Nuh-uh.
1779
01:17:50,834 --> 01:17:52,166
Keep your eyes closed.
- They're closed.
1780
01:17:52,250 --> 01:17:53,542
- Look that way.
- They're closed.
1781
01:17:55,333 --> 01:17:56,875
- Hey, babe.
1782
01:17:56,959 --> 01:17:58,166
- Hey.
1783
01:17:58,250 --> 01:18:01,500
- You look beautiful.
1784
01:18:01,583 --> 01:18:03,166
- So before we get started,
1785
01:18:03,250 --> 01:18:05,000
Jay said he had some words
1786
01:18:05,083 --> 01:18:06,834
he'd like to share
with everyone.
1787
01:18:06,917 --> 01:18:08,208
- Hi, everyone.
1788
01:18:10,750 --> 01:18:14,125
So I just wanna say that...
1789
01:18:15,792 --> 01:18:19,166
- That I love you guys
and that--oh, my God.
1790
01:18:19,250 --> 01:18:21,500
That they mean a lot to me
1791
01:18:21,583 --> 01:18:24,333
and I'm really happy
that Lanie makes my mom happy
1792
01:18:24,417 --> 01:18:26,542
and it's really important
that my mom's happy
1793
01:18:26,625 --> 01:18:29,250
and I'm glad
that we can be here tonight
1794
01:18:29,333 --> 01:18:32,000
to celebrate their happiness.
1795
01:18:32,083 --> 01:18:33,000
I love you guys.
1796
01:18:33,083 --> 01:18:34,375
- Oh, Jay.
- Oh!
1797
01:18:34,458 --> 01:18:38,375
- Hug it out.
Hug it out.
1798
01:18:38,458 --> 01:18:40,750
- I pronounce you married.
You may kiss the bride.
1799
01:18:40,834 --> 01:18:41,709
- Yes!
- Yeah!
1800
01:18:56,291 --> 01:18:58,583
- She only needs, like, two
or three pieces of sweet potato
1801
01:18:58,667 --> 01:18:59,709
about that big.
1802
01:18:59,792 --> 01:19:01,208
Watch your fingers there.
1803
01:19:01,291 --> 01:19:03,709
- Okay.
1804
01:19:03,792 --> 01:19:05,583
My mom found this really cool
nature program
1805
01:19:05,667 --> 01:19:08,333
where I get to go take care
of animals.
1806
01:19:08,417 --> 01:19:10,959
I get to feed them,
clean their cages,
1807
01:19:11,041 --> 01:19:14,208
and just kinda hang out
with them.
1808
01:19:14,291 --> 01:19:16,125
Is this a poisonous snake?
1809
01:19:16,208 --> 01:19:17,125
- No.
1810
01:19:17,208 --> 01:19:18,208
- Do you think
1811
01:19:18,291 --> 01:19:22,041
I would let you do
a poisonous snake?
1812
01:19:22,125 --> 01:19:23,166
- Nope.
1813
01:19:23,250 --> 01:19:25,834
- She's one of the best ones.
1814
01:19:25,917 --> 01:19:27,917
- It's actually something
with responsibilities
1815
01:19:28,000 --> 01:19:30,792
that I actually have to do
something
1816
01:19:30,875 --> 01:19:34,083
and, like, it's just something
that's fun
1817
01:19:34,166 --> 01:19:38,291
and that makes me excited
for when I get to go.
1818
01:19:38,375 --> 01:19:39,917
- Anything with a mouth
can bite,
1819
01:19:40,000 --> 01:19:42,875
so we don't touch the mouth
or the head, right?
1820
01:19:42,959 --> 01:19:45,000
So we always stay
towards the back or the tail.
1821
01:19:45,083 --> 01:19:47,125
- I'm very happy
my mom found this
1822
01:19:47,208 --> 01:19:50,083
'cause now I get to experience
the real world
1823
01:19:50,166 --> 01:19:53,417
of that place,
which is amazing.
1824
01:20:01,375 --> 01:20:03,625
- So just, like, the doctor
that I've chosen
1825
01:20:03,709 --> 01:20:05,375
for a consultation.
1826
01:20:05,458 --> 01:20:07,291
- Where?
- In San Francisco.
1827
01:20:07,375 --> 01:20:09,166
Sexual reassignment surgery.
1828
01:20:09,250 --> 01:20:11,125
Or you can call it GRS,
1829
01:20:11,208 --> 01:20:12,417
which is just gender
reassignment--
1830
01:20:12,500 --> 01:20:13,792
- What?
Jeer-ess?
1831
01:20:13,875 --> 01:20:16,000
- GRS.
- Oh.
1832
01:20:19,208 --> 01:20:20,917
- What do you mean?
- So you can have sex?
1833
01:20:21,000 --> 01:20:22,291
- Grandma.
1834
01:20:22,375 --> 01:20:23,458
The playpen.
1835
01:20:23,542 --> 01:20:26,500
- Well, that's one way
to look at it.
1836
01:20:26,583 --> 01:20:29,417
- Yeah, that's the--
that's the whole surgery.
1837
01:20:29,500 --> 01:20:30,834
Creating a playpen.
1838
01:20:35,000 --> 01:20:36,333
- 5'2".
1839
01:20:36,417 --> 01:20:38,375
- Yes!
1840
01:20:38,458 --> 01:20:40,834
- Oh, my God.
- We broke five foot.
1841
01:20:40,917 --> 01:20:43,792
- We've had so many changes
since the wedding.
1842
01:20:43,875 --> 01:20:45,667
We've moved
to a new apartment.
1843
01:20:45,750 --> 01:20:48,333
- This is our living room.
1844
01:20:48,417 --> 01:20:51,500
Then this is my room.
1845
01:20:51,583 --> 01:20:53,625
- Jay was able to get
his birth certificate changed
1846
01:20:53,709 --> 01:20:54,667
to male.
1847
01:20:54,750 --> 01:20:56,834
They changed it!
1848
01:20:56,917 --> 01:20:58,333
- Okay, stop shaking me.
1849
01:20:58,417 --> 01:21:00,166
- And the biggest change
of all
1850
01:21:00,250 --> 01:21:03,667
is that Jay finally is taking
testosterone.
1851
01:21:03,750 --> 01:21:05,834
- Your face is way different
than it was last year.
1852
01:21:05,917 --> 01:21:08,834
- No, go like this.
1853
01:21:08,917 --> 01:21:12,333
- Oh, man!
You got your peach fuzz.
1854
01:21:12,417 --> 01:21:15,000
- He is physically changing
so much so fast.
1855
01:21:15,083 --> 01:21:16,041
It's crazy.
1856
01:21:16,125 --> 01:21:18,500
- Four, five.
1857
01:21:18,583 --> 01:21:19,709
Done.
1858
01:21:19,792 --> 01:21:21,583
- Oh, you didn't cry.
1859
01:21:21,667 --> 01:21:23,542
- Oh, my God.
Now it burns.
1860
01:21:23,625 --> 01:21:25,542
- Yeah, but you're gonna get
used to it,
1861
01:21:25,625 --> 01:21:27,250
and it's only every two weeks.
1862
01:21:27,333 --> 01:21:29,291
- Gimme five.
- Burns so bad.
1863
01:21:35,583 --> 01:21:36,959
- I like it.
1864
01:21:39,125 --> 01:21:41,375
- Hi, Phoenix.
1865
01:21:41,458 --> 01:21:43,250
Every day, first thing I do
when I wake up
1866
01:21:43,333 --> 01:21:45,667
is go to Facebook Memories
1867
01:21:45,750 --> 01:21:48,875
and delete any mention of him
being a girl
1868
01:21:48,959 --> 01:21:52,333
and change pronouns back to he
if it shows up.
1869
01:21:54,291 --> 01:21:56,166
There's this whole
little precious time
1870
01:21:56,250 --> 01:21:57,166
in his childhood
1871
01:21:57,250 --> 01:21:59,667
that is, like, a dark secret,
1872
01:21:59,750 --> 01:22:03,750
which, in retrospect,
I can't believe that happened.
1873
01:22:03,834 --> 01:22:05,417
It was a huge mistake.
1874
01:22:05,500 --> 01:22:07,083
Children are not transgender.
1875
01:22:07,166 --> 01:22:08,959
He's a boy.
1876
01:22:09,041 --> 01:22:10,542
He was born a boy.
He's always been a boy.
1877
01:22:10,625 --> 01:22:11,542
He'll always be a boy.
1878
01:22:11,625 --> 01:22:14,750
And maybe there are people
who actually are,
1879
01:22:14,834 --> 01:22:17,792
and it's probably
a mental disorder.
1880
01:22:17,875 --> 01:22:20,792
But I don't think
it's, like, inherently bad.
1881
01:22:20,875 --> 01:22:24,083
Like, ADHD
is a mental disorder.
1882
01:22:24,166 --> 01:22:26,000
That's--you can live with that.
1883
01:22:28,166 --> 01:22:30,583
- You do seem like you've had,
like, a 180 change.
1884
01:22:30,667 --> 01:22:32,583
- Oh, I know.
1885
01:22:32,667 --> 01:22:35,417
No, I've--yeah, no,
I'm glad I changed.
1886
01:22:35,500 --> 01:22:38,125
I like this a lot more.
1887
01:22:38,208 --> 01:22:40,208
I don't know,
it was just, like, a whole--
1888
01:22:40,291 --> 01:22:42,208
it completely changed my life.
1889
01:22:46,625 --> 01:22:48,417
I think a lot of it was just--
1890
01:22:48,500 --> 01:22:52,083
I'm being me now
without a spouse's influence.
1891
01:22:57,417 --> 01:22:58,709
- Phoenix was so young
1892
01:22:58,792 --> 01:23:00,166
when these things
were happening.
1893
01:23:00,250 --> 01:23:01,166
I think there was always
1894
01:23:01,250 --> 01:23:03,417
kind of in the back
of our mind of,
1895
01:23:03,500 --> 01:23:04,959
is this just
a kid being a kid
1896
01:23:05,041 --> 01:23:06,959
and just wanting to dress up
in clothes
1897
01:23:07,041 --> 01:23:08,959
and, you know,
1898
01:23:09,041 --> 01:23:11,083
being primarily surrounded
by Mom
1899
01:23:11,166 --> 01:23:12,125
and an older sister at home
1900
01:23:12,208 --> 01:23:15,083
and Dad's at work
all the time?
1901
01:23:15,166 --> 01:23:17,500
- I don't know
where it came from.
1902
01:23:17,583 --> 01:23:20,583
I do wonder how much
Zach had an influence on that.
1903
01:23:20,667 --> 01:23:22,333
Like, when Phoenix said
he was girl,
1904
01:23:22,417 --> 01:23:23,625
I was freaking out,
1905
01:23:23,709 --> 01:23:27,500
and he was like,
la-dee-da-dee, it's all fine.
1906
01:23:27,583 --> 01:23:30,333
- There's a lot to it that
I have no idea
1907
01:23:30,417 --> 01:23:32,333
if Molly or I made
the right decisions,
1908
01:23:32,417 --> 01:23:36,875
or, you know,
but it doesn't feel wrong
1909
01:23:36,959 --> 01:23:40,417
to support my kid, so
I don't feel bad about that.
1910
01:23:42,250 --> 01:23:46,333
- If Phoenix came to me again
and said he thinks he's a girl,
1911
01:23:46,417 --> 01:23:49,041
I would...
1912
01:23:49,125 --> 01:23:52,208
strongly prevent myself
from combusting like a volcano
1913
01:23:52,291 --> 01:23:54,000
and get him in therapy
and support him
1914
01:23:54,083 --> 01:23:57,333
as best as I can
under his therapist's guidance.
1915
01:23:57,417 --> 01:24:01,041
- I don't feel like I would
do anything differently.
1916
01:24:01,125 --> 01:24:02,667
You know, you were saying
some things like that
1917
01:24:02,750 --> 01:24:04,166
to where you wanted
to wear dresses
1918
01:24:04,250 --> 01:24:06,500
and you used to say
1919
01:24:06,583 --> 01:24:09,542
that, like, you identified
as, like, girl-boy
1920
01:24:09,625 --> 01:24:11,542
and all those types of things,
so--
1921
01:24:11,625 --> 01:24:14,208
- I'm definitely a boy.
1922
01:24:14,291 --> 01:24:16,542
- Yeah.
I think so too.
1923
01:24:16,625 --> 01:24:20,959
If that changes down the line,
we'll--
1924
01:24:21,041 --> 01:24:22,625
we'll call you a girl later
if you want.
1925
01:24:22,709 --> 01:24:24,041
- Mm-mm.
1926
01:24:24,125 --> 01:24:25,166
You think
you're gonna stay a boy
1927
01:24:25,250 --> 01:24:26,709
the whole rest of your life?
1928
01:24:26,792 --> 01:24:29,750
Yeah.
That's fine too.
1929
01:24:29,834 --> 01:24:32,083
Doesn't really matter.
1930
01:24:32,166 --> 01:24:33,166
Doesn't matter to me at least.
1931
01:24:33,250 --> 01:24:36,750
Some people, it matters,
but I don't care.
1932
01:24:45,291 --> 01:24:46,917
- Even if someone
1933
01:24:47,000 --> 01:24:51,250
starts a transition,
and then they desist,
1934
01:24:51,333 --> 01:24:54,291
that doesn't mean
it's always going to be
1935
01:24:54,375 --> 01:24:58,083
100% desistance.
1936
01:24:58,166 --> 01:25:02,458
It could be temporary.
1937
01:25:02,542 --> 01:25:05,625
They could also get messages
from other people around them
1938
01:25:05,709 --> 01:25:07,458
that it's really not okay
1939
01:25:07,542 --> 01:25:08,750
and we're kind of tired
of this
1940
01:25:08,834 --> 01:25:10,417
and this isn't natural,
1941
01:25:10,500 --> 01:25:12,917
and they can suppress things
for a while.
1942
01:25:17,500 --> 01:25:20,959
That's why it's important
to let your child explore.
1943
01:25:21,041 --> 01:25:23,166
If they end up being trans,
they're trans.
1944
01:25:23,250 --> 01:25:25,709
If they don't,
all they got from you
1945
01:25:25,792 --> 01:25:27,417
is that you love them enough
1946
01:25:27,500 --> 01:25:29,041
to give them a chance
to figure it out.
1947
01:25:42,959 --> 01:25:45,250
- Alexa, sing me
"Happy Birthday."
1948
01:26:01,667 --> 01:26:03,291
- Alexa.
1949
01:26:03,375 --> 01:26:06,125
What is transgender?
1950
01:26:06,208 --> 01:26:08,667
- When a person identifies
as transgender,
1951
01:26:08,750 --> 01:26:09,917
it means that the gender
1952
01:26:10,000 --> 01:26:11,625
with which
they personally identify
1953
01:26:11,709 --> 01:26:12,792
does not match the sex
1954
01:26:12,875 --> 01:26:15,500
to which they were assigned
at birth.
1955
01:26:15,583 --> 01:26:17,667
- Thank you.
1956
01:26:17,750 --> 01:26:20,000
- This is for MCC.
1957
01:26:20,083 --> 01:26:22,250
We want that.
- This is a private university.
1958
01:26:22,333 --> 01:26:24,166
- Yeah, here's
all the stuff for it.
1959
01:26:24,250 --> 01:26:27,333
Springfield.
1960
01:26:27,417 --> 01:26:30,166
Oh, my gosh.
You have so much.
1961
01:26:30,250 --> 01:26:31,792
Rockhurst.
1962
01:26:31,875 --> 01:26:33,166
I think you can do A+ there.
- No.
1963
01:26:33,250 --> 01:26:35,542
- No?
1964
01:26:35,625 --> 01:26:37,500
KU.
We're gonna keep that, right?
1965
01:26:37,583 --> 01:26:39,959
- Yes.
1966
01:26:40,041 --> 01:26:41,500
- Never even heard
of this college.
1967
01:26:41,583 --> 01:26:43,000
- It's a Christian college.
1968
01:26:43,083 --> 01:26:46,333
- Okay, so that's a no.
1969
01:26:46,417 --> 01:26:49,500
- Another KU.
Man, it's a sign.
1970
01:26:49,583 --> 01:26:50,667
Ugh, Mizzou.
1971
01:26:50,750 --> 01:26:52,083
Okay, where's that--
1972
01:26:52,166 --> 01:26:54,000
the military packet
that you got in the mail?
1973
01:26:54,083 --> 01:26:55,208
You didn't even open it.
1974
01:26:55,291 --> 01:26:56,834
- Yeah,
'cause it's not an option.
1975
01:26:56,917 --> 01:26:58,875
- Why is it not an option?
1976
01:26:58,959 --> 01:27:01,208
- 'Cause the laws.
1977
01:27:01,291 --> 01:27:03,709
- I remember when you wanted
to be in the military.
1978
01:27:03,792 --> 01:27:04,875
- Yeah.
1979
01:27:04,959 --> 01:27:08,417
- So I guess
that's a throwaway?
1980
01:27:08,500 --> 01:27:10,417
- Yeah.
- Sorry.
1981
01:27:13,125 --> 01:27:16,166
You know, you once told me
that you had wished
1982
01:27:16,250 --> 01:27:19,083
you had just have owned
your truth, I guess, in a sense
1983
01:27:19,166 --> 01:27:21,875
and not made everything
so complicated
1984
01:27:21,959 --> 01:27:24,208
as far as, like, hiding
who you were.
1985
01:27:24,291 --> 01:27:25,542
I mean, has that changed now?
1986
01:27:25,625 --> 01:27:27,542
Because I always thought that--
1987
01:27:27,625 --> 01:27:30,041
well, when we talked
about college the other day,
1988
01:27:30,125 --> 01:27:34,709
you had said that
you would tell your roommates,
1989
01:27:34,792 --> 01:27:37,875
like, your dorm--the people
that you're dorming with
1990
01:27:37,959 --> 01:27:38,875
that you were trans
1991
01:27:38,959 --> 01:27:40,208
so that they were comfortable
with it,
1992
01:27:40,291 --> 01:27:42,917
so that they didn't feel
deceived.
1993
01:27:43,000 --> 01:27:44,583
Does that make sense?
- Yes.
1994
01:27:44,667 --> 01:27:46,583
- Do you feel like
1995
01:27:46,667 --> 01:27:48,583
you just don't wanna say
anything at all
1996
01:27:48,667 --> 01:27:49,583
to your dorm buddies?
1997
01:27:49,667 --> 01:27:50,750
- Probably not at first, no.
1998
01:27:50,834 --> 01:27:51,959
Because on the first day
of college,
1999
01:27:52,041 --> 01:27:53,458
if I tell them I'm trans,
and then--
2000
01:27:53,542 --> 01:27:54,583
what, I could get beat up
2001
01:27:54,667 --> 01:27:55,709
by a whole bunch
of their friends
2002
01:27:55,792 --> 01:27:57,083
because I don't know
who they are
2003
01:27:57,166 --> 01:27:58,417
or who they hang out with?
2004
01:27:58,500 --> 01:28:01,417
- You know that Lanie and I,
especially me,
2005
01:28:01,500 --> 01:28:03,291
are 100% behind
whatever decision you--
2006
01:28:03,375 --> 01:28:05,375
you know, I'm not gonna
force you to do anything.
2007
01:28:08,083 --> 01:28:09,917
- I know.
Just--I don't know.
2008
01:28:10,000 --> 01:28:11,625
I think we should just take it
step by step.
2009
01:28:11,709 --> 01:28:14,041
I mean, I don't really know.
2010
01:28:14,125 --> 01:28:15,250
- Okay.
2011
01:28:26,041 --> 01:28:27,458
See you in five days.
2012
01:28:27,542 --> 01:28:28,542
- Good luck.
2013
01:28:28,625 --> 01:28:29,792
- Right.
- Yeah, be careful.
2014
01:28:29,875 --> 01:28:30,959
- We'll see you girls.
- Bye.
2015
01:28:34,083 --> 01:28:35,250
- I'm going to meet
2016
01:28:35,333 --> 01:28:37,166
pretty much the most renowned
doctor there is
2017
01:28:37,250 --> 01:28:38,667
for this procedure.
2018
01:28:38,750 --> 01:28:39,834
- Good evening,
ladies and gentlemen.
2019
01:28:39,917 --> 01:28:41,083
From the flight deck,
I'd like to add a welcome
2020
01:28:41,166 --> 01:28:43,792
aboard Alaska Airlines
flight 3375,
2021
01:28:43,875 --> 01:28:45,291
currently operated
by SkyWest Airlines,
2022
01:28:45,375 --> 01:28:47,500
with service to San Francisco.
2023
01:28:49,917 --> 01:28:51,625
- If I was to go
to the doctor,
2024
01:28:51,709 --> 01:28:53,625
and I know this sounds,
like, dramatic or whatever,
2025
01:28:53,709 --> 01:28:55,333
but if they were to tell me
it wasn't an option
2026
01:28:55,417 --> 01:28:56,333
for some reason,
2027
01:28:56,417 --> 01:28:58,792
or that I wasn't a candidate
for it,
2028
01:28:58,875 --> 01:29:01,291
I don't think I would be able
to pick myself up from that.
2029
01:29:01,375 --> 01:29:04,709
I don't think I would be able
to, like, carry on from that.
2030
01:29:04,792 --> 01:29:06,333
- Take a deep breath.
2031
01:29:09,417 --> 01:29:10,875
- Hi.
Hello.
2032
01:29:10,959 --> 01:29:12,291
- How are you?
- Hello, hello.
2033
01:29:12,375 --> 01:29:13,709
- You must be Leena.
- Yeah. Hi.
2034
01:29:13,792 --> 01:29:15,041
- Hi. I'm Dr. Bowers.
- Nice to meet you.
2035
01:29:15,125 --> 01:29:17,333
- Hi.
It's a pleasure.
2036
01:29:17,417 --> 01:29:20,041
So where are you in the process
of transition, then?
2037
01:29:20,125 --> 01:29:23,625
- I started transitioning
at about, like, 11 years old.
2038
01:29:23,709 --> 01:29:25,792
I think
as I've just gotten older,
2039
01:29:25,875 --> 01:29:27,834
my gender dysphoria's gotten,
like, a little worse.
2040
01:29:27,917 --> 01:29:29,333
- And so--
- Sure.
2041
01:29:29,417 --> 01:29:30,959
- I've noticed just kind of
as I've gotten older,
2042
01:29:31,041 --> 01:29:32,375
I've gotten more uncomfortable
by it.
2043
01:29:32,458 --> 01:29:33,333
- Mm-hmm.
2044
01:29:33,417 --> 01:29:36,166
This is something most kids,
most adults,
2045
01:29:36,250 --> 01:29:38,959
have been fighting
their entire lives.
2046
01:29:39,041 --> 01:29:42,041
You think that if you're born
with a penis,
2047
01:29:42,125 --> 01:29:45,041
that means, automatically,
you're a boy.
2048
01:29:45,125 --> 01:29:47,083
I delivered babies
for 20 years.
2049
01:29:47,166 --> 01:29:49,542
We delivered
a surprisingly large number
2050
01:29:49,625 --> 01:29:54,083
of kids whose genitals were not
necessarily male or female.
2051
01:29:54,166 --> 01:29:58,041
So even in nature,
God does not get it
2052
01:29:58,125 --> 01:30:02,208
exactly divided into two camps.
2053
01:30:02,291 --> 01:30:05,208
The thing is,
the penis is the same
2054
01:30:05,291 --> 01:30:06,417
as the clitoris, really.
2055
01:30:06,500 --> 01:30:08,875
Everything a boy has,
a girl has,
2056
01:30:08,959 --> 01:30:10,500
and everything a girl has,
a boy has.
2057
01:30:10,583 --> 01:30:14,083
And then I deconstruct genitals
when I do my surgical work
2058
01:30:14,166 --> 01:30:15,375
and then build them back up.
2059
01:30:15,458 --> 01:30:18,417
We're just turning back
the clock basically.
2060
01:30:18,500 --> 01:30:19,417
I know.
2061
01:30:19,500 --> 01:30:21,542
Are you on our list
for surgery now?
2062
01:30:21,625 --> 01:30:22,583
Do you have a surgery date?
2063
01:30:22,667 --> 01:30:23,959
- I don't think
we're on the list yet.
2064
01:30:24,041 --> 01:30:26,000
- 'Cause that's
the biggest holdup.
2065
01:30:26,083 --> 01:30:27,125
That's what we should really do
2066
01:30:27,208 --> 01:30:29,375
is get you on our list, though,
for surgery.
2067
01:30:32,834 --> 01:30:35,083
- Thank you very much.
2068
01:30:35,166 --> 01:30:36,542
- Absolutely.
- We greatly appreciate it.
2069
01:30:36,625 --> 01:30:37,959
You don't know
how much this means.
2070
01:30:41,000 --> 01:30:43,917
- Relief is the single biggest
emotion that people feel
2071
01:30:44,000 --> 01:30:45,583
when they're done
with this surgery.
2072
01:30:45,667 --> 01:30:47,667
They just feel like,
"Ah, finally.
2073
01:30:47,750 --> 01:30:49,875
My body is aligned
with my soul."
2074
01:30:59,000 --> 01:31:02,291
- I don't know how much talking
I'm gonna do, to be honest.
2075
01:31:04,542 --> 01:31:06,667
- Hey, let's roll
this window up now.
2076
01:31:10,208 --> 01:31:13,458
- Mm.
2077
01:31:13,542 --> 01:31:15,458
- It's just taken a long time
to get here,
2078
01:31:15,542 --> 01:31:18,458
and she's very busy,
2079
01:31:18,542 --> 01:31:21,834
and just meeting her is just...
2080
01:31:23,709 --> 01:31:25,667
It's, like, kinda like--
2081
01:31:25,750 --> 01:31:27,583
the only way I could put it
into words would be, like,
2082
01:31:27,667 --> 01:31:29,750
imagine your heart failing
and it getting worse and worse,
2083
01:31:29,834 --> 01:31:32,291
like, every day and then
someone just being like,
2084
01:31:32,375 --> 01:31:34,166
"I have a heart for you."
2085
01:31:34,250 --> 01:31:37,750
It's just kind of like, wow.
2086
01:31:37,834 --> 01:31:40,250
So it's--
- Yeah.
2087
01:31:40,333 --> 01:31:42,166
- It's, like, everything.
2088
01:31:48,083 --> 01:31:50,291
- Did I tell you today
I love you?
2089
01:31:50,375 --> 01:31:51,875
- I love you too.
2090
01:32:09,583 --> 01:32:12,542
- Get it to the perfect
Pixie temperature.
2091
01:32:12,625 --> 01:32:14,000
- I think you like the bath,
Pixie.
2092
01:32:14,083 --> 01:32:15,500
I didn't think you'd like it
very much.
2093
01:32:15,583 --> 01:32:16,667
- She's not bothered.
2094
01:32:16,750 --> 01:32:18,834
Yeah, she's just,
like, chilling.
2095
01:32:18,917 --> 01:32:20,709
This is, like,
the most enjoyable thing ever.
2096
01:32:20,792 --> 01:32:21,834
- Okay.
2097
01:32:21,917 --> 01:32:23,625
- Was that fun?
2098
01:32:23,709 --> 01:32:25,458
Was it?
2099
01:32:25,542 --> 01:32:28,709
Good girl.
2100
01:32:28,792 --> 01:32:30,917
- You think someday,
you'll wanna go out
2101
01:32:31,000 --> 01:32:33,166
and talk to people again?
2102
01:32:33,250 --> 01:32:34,792
- Heck no.
- No?
2103
01:32:34,875 --> 01:32:36,166
- No.
- Your time is done?
2104
01:32:36,250 --> 01:32:37,417
- Yeah, no.
2105
01:32:37,500 --> 01:32:39,000
- I think it's great
2106
01:32:39,083 --> 01:32:41,875
that Avery just gets to be
a kid.
2107
01:32:41,959 --> 01:32:44,000
- I asked her
if she would like all of us
2108
01:32:44,083 --> 01:32:45,875
to just kinda fade
into the background,
2109
01:32:45,959 --> 01:32:48,041
and she said no
2110
01:32:48,125 --> 01:32:50,417
because it's still
important work.
2111
01:32:50,500 --> 01:32:53,083
- I think we keep doing
what we're doing.
2112
01:32:53,166 --> 01:32:57,208
I think, if anything,
we have to do more.
2113
01:32:57,291 --> 01:33:00,667
- I don't just wanna be known
2114
01:33:00,750 --> 01:33:02,375
as someone that's transgender.
2115
01:33:02,458 --> 01:33:04,709
Like, that's not how
I wanna make people happy.
2116
01:33:04,792 --> 01:33:08,542
I just wanna make people happy
from being funny, lighthearted,
2117
01:33:08,625 --> 01:33:11,917
and not talk about
all the serious things going on
2118
01:33:12,000 --> 01:33:14,709
'cause I don't want everyone
to have to think
2119
01:33:14,792 --> 01:33:17,792
about everything that's wrong
with the world.
2120
01:33:17,875 --> 01:33:20,625
I want them
to think about what's good.
2121
01:33:39,500 --> 01:33:40,417
- Hello, children.
2122
01:33:40,500 --> 01:33:42,125
- Hello.
- Hi, Mommy.
2123
01:33:45,542 --> 01:33:46,750
- Actually,
that was pretty great.
2124
01:33:46,834 --> 01:33:48,917
See what happens when you look?
2125
01:33:49,000 --> 01:33:51,000
- This is "The Book
With No Pictures," okay?
2126
01:33:51,083 --> 01:33:52,083
- Okay.
2127
01:33:52,166 --> 01:33:54,417
- Okay?
- Eh!
2128
01:33:54,500 --> 01:33:56,500
- "It might seem no fun
2129
01:33:56,583 --> 01:33:59,792
"to have someone read you
a book
2130
01:33:59,875 --> 01:34:03,083
"with no pictures.
2131
01:34:03,166 --> 01:34:04,709
It probably seems boring
and serious."
2132
01:34:04,792 --> 01:34:06,166
- Wait, wait.
- "Except--"
2133
01:34:06,250 --> 01:34:07,625
- It's in italics,
2134
01:34:07,709 --> 01:34:10,834
so you have to go like,
"Boring and serious!"
2135
01:34:22,375 --> 01:34:26,542
- Today, I'm going to be asking
2136
01:34:26,625 --> 01:34:29,959
a girl to prom
and as my girlfriend.
2137
01:34:30,041 --> 01:34:31,917
So you see that?
2138
01:34:32,000 --> 01:34:33,250
- Want me to help you
with the tie?
2139
01:34:33,333 --> 01:34:34,500
- No, I can reach it.
2140
01:34:34,583 --> 01:34:36,583
- I mean this.
- No.
2141
01:34:38,625 --> 01:34:40,667
- You look very handsome.
2142
01:34:40,750 --> 01:34:42,375
- Why are you laughing?
2143
01:34:42,458 --> 01:34:45,375
- I was nervous
of making this documentary
2144
01:34:45,458 --> 01:34:48,000
'cause it's gonna be,
like, out in the public.
2145
01:34:48,083 --> 01:34:49,083
I'm scared.
I don't--
2146
01:34:49,166 --> 01:34:52,792
I'm not sure if I am ready
for it to come out.
2147
01:34:52,875 --> 01:34:55,041
But I know one thing
that is gonna come out of it
2148
01:34:55,125 --> 01:34:57,333
is that there's gonna be
that one kid
2149
01:34:57,417 --> 01:34:58,458
or that one teenager
2150
01:34:58,542 --> 01:34:59,583
that's gonna go
to their parents
2151
01:34:59,667 --> 01:35:01,500
and say, "Hey, look at this,"
2152
01:35:01,583 --> 01:35:03,625
and it's gonna help
that one person
2153
01:35:03,709 --> 01:35:05,166
figure out
the rest of their journey.
2154
01:35:17,083 --> 01:35:19,041
- What I really hope
is that people realize
2155
01:35:19,125 --> 01:35:22,166
that we're not,
like, some exotic species.
2156
01:35:22,250 --> 01:35:24,500
Like, we're a human.
2157
01:35:24,583 --> 01:35:26,208
That's what matters.
2158
01:35:26,291 --> 01:35:28,375
We do human things.
2159
01:35:28,458 --> 01:35:31,000
We have human emotions.
2160
01:35:31,083 --> 01:35:32,375
We're human,
2161
01:35:32,458 --> 01:35:34,500
just that was born
a little bit different.
2162
01:35:34,583 --> 01:35:36,917
That's--it's plain and simple.
2163
01:35:39,417 --> 01:35:40,417
- Hey.
- I'm ready to go.
2164
01:35:40,500 --> 01:35:42,417
- Hey.
What's up, superstar?
2165
01:35:42,500 --> 01:35:45,208
- This is something
you've been looking forward to.
2166
01:35:45,291 --> 01:35:47,041
- And thankfully, you guys
are going with me and--
2167
01:35:47,125 --> 01:35:48,875
- I wouldn't have it
any other way.
2168
01:36:32,291 --> 01:36:33,458
- Define "making out" for me.
2169
01:36:33,542 --> 01:36:36,458
- For us, it's three pecks
on the lips.
2170
01:36:36,542 --> 01:36:37,500
- There's no tongue?
2171
01:36:37,583 --> 01:36:38,917
- No!
Ew!
2172
01:36:40,000 --> 01:36:41,333
- That's so gross!
2173
01:36:41,417 --> 01:36:44,959
I don't even know
how French people do it!
2174
01:36:45,041 --> 01:36:46,166
- People ask you,
2175
01:36:46,250 --> 01:36:47,959
how is it living with someone
who's transgender?
2176
01:36:48,041 --> 01:36:49,000
- Horrible!
2177
01:36:49,083 --> 01:36:51,000
Horrible!
2178
01:37:01,458 --> 01:37:04,166
- There's your answer.
2179
01:37:04,250 --> 01:37:07,291
I just broke
the fourth wall.
2180
01:37:50,500 --> 01:37:51,417
I have learned a lot.
2181
01:37:51,792 --> 01:37:54,834
I've learned to do things
to make myself happy.
2182
01:37:55,083 --> 01:37:57,291
Don't let people that
box you out
2183
01:37:57,375 --> 01:37:59,083
make you feel any less.
2184
01:38:01,208 --> 01:38:02,417
Hi, I'm a.t. Furuya.
2185
01:38:02,500 --> 01:38:04,625
I'm the Youth Programs
Senior Manager for GLSEN,
2186
01:38:04,917 --> 01:38:07,000
and welcome to today's
culture close-up
2187
01:38:07,083 --> 01:38:09,125
for the HBO documentary film,
Transhood.
2188
01:38:09,417 --> 01:38:13,709
We will be joined by
two of the film's subjects,
Lena and Jay.
2189
01:38:14,125 --> 01:38:16,125
How did you feel about
the film and the experience
2190
01:38:16,208 --> 01:38:17,667
and how it all came together?
2191
01:38:17,959 --> 01:38:19,625
I think it's,
like, groundbreaking.
2192
01:38:19,834 --> 01:38:21,625
I've never seen
anything like this.
2193
01:38:21,709 --> 01:38:24,875
And especially with
all of our varying ages.
2194
01:38:25,458 --> 01:38:27,375
I think that that's
really interesting
2195
01:38:27,458 --> 01:38:29,792
to get a point of view
from how early,
2196
01:38:29,875 --> 01:38:32,500
as a trans person,
you can feel
2197
01:38:32,583 --> 01:38:34,208
that authentic self.
2198
01:38:34,458 --> 01:38:36,792
The main reason why I did it
is because you always have to
2199
01:38:37,000 --> 01:38:39,041
look out for others
that don't have a voice.
2200
01:38:39,458 --> 01:38:40,542
What was put
in the documentary
2201
01:38:40,792 --> 01:38:44,083
will help people that have
no idea what kids go through
2202
01:38:44,166 --> 01:38:46,583
in this process.
It will help families.
2203
01:38:46,667 --> 01:38:48,000
It will be an eye opener.
2204
01:38:48,250 --> 01:38:49,667
Lena, if you're comfortable,
2205
01:38:49,750 --> 01:38:51,875
in high school
how did you navigate
2206
01:38:52,125 --> 01:38:53,792
identity harrassment
and bullying?
2207
01:38:54,166 --> 01:38:55,875
How does it feel looking back
at that?
2208
01:38:56,083 --> 01:38:57,917
When it comes to school,
it was just kind of
2209
01:38:58,000 --> 01:39:00,667
an everyday thing.
There were always the jokes.
2210
01:39:01,500 --> 01:39:04,000
There were always the slurs.
There were always things.
2211
01:39:04,333 --> 01:39:06,041
I remember I was walking through
the hallway
2212
01:39:06,125 --> 01:39:11,250
and I heard on the intercom
someone call my old name,
2213
01:39:11,333 --> 01:39:14,834
my dead name, that had been
changed for two years.
2214
01:39:14,917 --> 01:39:17,667
I would just sit in my car
and have, like, a panic attack
2215
01:39:17,750 --> 01:39:18,667
for like hours.
2216
01:39:19,000 --> 01:39:20,125
Who's the problem gonna be
with today?
2217
01:39:20,500 --> 01:39:23,000
Is it gonna be with a teacher?
Is it gonna be with a student?
2218
01:39:23,500 --> 01:39:25,959
I hope everybody
who's watching this, you know,
2219
01:39:26,041 --> 01:39:27,458
and their experience
has it easier.
2220
01:39:28,041 --> 01:39:31,250
I'm so sorry.
I don't believe any--
anybody deserves that kind of
2221
01:39:31,333 --> 01:39:32,667
harassment and bullying.
2222
01:39:33,583 --> 01:39:37,041
Jay, do you mind sharing
a little bit about
your experience?
2223
01:39:38,250 --> 01:39:39,375
Teachers put me in
the corner.
2224
01:39:39,709 --> 01:39:42,500
They would box my whole desk off
from other students.
2225
01:39:42,875 --> 01:39:46,875
People saw me being trans
as a disease that I was going to
2226
01:39:46,959 --> 01:39:48,375
infect the other students.
2227
01:39:48,625 --> 01:39:51,000
I had recess inside.
I had--
2228
01:39:51,417 --> 01:39:53,166
My bathroom breaks weren't with
everybody else.
2229
01:39:53,458 --> 01:39:54,542
They were separate.
2230
01:39:55,709 --> 01:39:59,709
Most of my schooling was alone
at a desk bordered off.
2231
01:40:00,375 --> 01:40:04,083
You had to just endure so much.
Sorry that happened.
2232
01:40:05,709 --> 01:40:08,917
I identify as non-binary,
more specifically agender.
2233
01:40:09,166 --> 01:40:11,083
So I don't identify with gender
at all.
2234
01:40:11,166 --> 01:40:13,500
I do think that was
an interesting piece of the film
2235
01:40:13,583 --> 01:40:17,583
that there was not as much of
a focus on medical transition.
2236
01:40:18,417 --> 01:40:21,667
And just more of a focus on
how do we accept people
2237
01:40:21,750 --> 01:40:23,083
and their identities.
2238
01:40:24,458 --> 01:40:27,625
I think a big movement
in the trans community is around
2239
01:40:27,917 --> 01:40:29,458
like being enough.
Like you are enough.
2240
01:40:29,917 --> 01:40:30,750
How you show up.
2241
01:40:31,000 --> 01:40:32,542
You're whole in all
of your identity.
2242
01:40:32,750 --> 01:40:35,417
Whether you've had affirming
surgery or not.
2243
01:40:35,750 --> 01:40:37,500
I think that's an important
piece.
2244
01:40:38,333 --> 01:40:39,875
If a parent came up to you
and was like,
2245
01:40:40,291 --> 01:40:42,709
"I have a trans kid,
potentially, what do I do?"
2246
01:40:43,083 --> 01:40:44,417
What advice would you give them?
2247
01:40:44,625 --> 01:40:45,709
I think understanding that
2248
01:40:45,792 --> 01:40:49,375
this is not just
a temporary feeling.
2249
01:40:49,667 --> 01:40:54,709
That at a very young age
a lot of trans people do know
2250
01:40:54,792 --> 01:40:55,834
who they are.
2251
01:40:56,583 --> 01:40:57,792
Listen to your child.
2252
01:40:58,083 --> 01:41:00,458
Listen to what they want.
2253
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If they wanna cut their hair...
2254
01:41:02,500 --> 01:41:06,709
If they wanna dress like a guy,
they wanna dress like a girl,
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01:41:06,792 --> 01:41:08,834
let them figure out
who they wanna be.
2256
01:41:09,500 --> 01:41:11,208
There's nothing wrong with
allowing your kid
2257
01:41:11,291 --> 01:41:12,917
to have that experimental time.
2258
01:41:13,208 --> 01:41:16,291
Once you're an adult,
the world is a little bit more
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01:41:16,583 --> 01:41:18,417
cold to you
and not so forgiving.
2260
01:41:18,500 --> 01:41:20,208
You know, the thing that
everybody calls it
2261
01:41:20,291 --> 01:41:23,834
is a "phase"... what if it is?
You know what I mean?
2262
01:41:24,083 --> 01:41:27,041
What if they just wanna try
something because they think
2263
01:41:27,125 --> 01:41:29,458
that maybe that's gonna
make them feel comfortable.
2264
01:41:29,834 --> 01:41:32,417
And I'm not saying trans is
a phase at all.
2265
01:41:32,750 --> 01:41:37,333
But I'm saying that people
sometimes like to try things
2266
01:41:37,583 --> 01:41:40,834
before they say, "This is me,
this is who I am."
2267
01:41:41,333 --> 01:41:44,417
And when I did try it,
that is who I want to be.
2268
01:41:44,500 --> 01:41:45,917
It made me absolutely happy.
2269
01:41:46,000 --> 01:41:47,500
It made me comfortable
in my skin,
2270
01:41:48,000 --> 01:41:49,125
and that's who I was.
2271
01:41:49,208 --> 01:41:51,834
Don't be afraid to introduce
them to older people
2272
01:41:51,917 --> 01:41:52,750
who are trans.
2273
01:41:53,041 --> 01:41:55,500
And more than anything
just love your child
2274
01:41:55,583 --> 01:41:59,208
because unconditional love is
irreplaceable.
2275
01:41:59,291 --> 01:42:00,959
Not everybody is lucky enough
to have it.
2276
01:42:01,208 --> 01:42:03,333
Just really love your child
and support them
2277
01:42:03,625 --> 01:42:06,041
and make them feel wanted
and seen.
2278
01:42:06,625 --> 01:42:10,500
That unconditional love is
a matter of life and death
2279
01:42:10,709 --> 01:42:11,917
for a lot of young people.
2280
01:42:12,417 --> 01:42:15,250
The most important piece is
allowing folks to be
2281
01:42:15,333 --> 01:42:17,542
who they are and allowing folks
to show up
2282
01:42:18,000 --> 01:42:19,500
as their authentic selves.
2283
01:42:19,917 --> 01:42:21,917
That's gonna be a major guidance
for parents
2284
01:42:22,250 --> 01:42:23,375
as they support their kid.
2285
01:42:24,083 --> 01:42:26,375
Listen to what they want,
listen to what they need
2286
01:42:27,291 --> 01:42:30,125
because you could change
their whole entire world.
2287
01:42:30,583 --> 01:42:35,125
They will forever respect that
and they will forever see that
2288
01:42:35,208 --> 01:42:38,041
you're their number one
supporter by letting them be
2289
01:42:38,125 --> 01:42:39,208
who they wanna be.
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