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Previously on SWA... I've been
looking around for a new place.

Might be able to lock down
something swanky with a roommate

- to share costs.
- Are you kidding?

- Hell yeah!
- All right!

So, housewarming.

I'll handle the margaritas,

you handle the music. Sure.

Hey, Hondo, you got someone
to cover for me tomorrow?

Erika could cover for you.
Rocker's team has tomorrow off.

She'd be down for
it. You think this is the

white supremacist
group the Imperial Dukes?

That's my worry.

These aren't just
smash-and-grabs.

They're coordinated hate crimes.

The guy I arrested
yesterday was wearing

the same kind of
bandana. Abel McConnell

was spotted entering the
compound about 40 minutes ago.

Give me two!

Shots fired!

Coming from the attic.

Guten Tag, Chris. What's up?

Hey. Are you okay?

She’s dead. Whoa,

what are you talking
about? Who's dead?

Erika.

Erika Rogers? What
happened, Chris?

It all went down so
fast. During the raid

a bullet winged Tan.

I'm hit!

I'll cover you. Go, go!

Erika and I brought
him out safe.

He's okay.

Suspect down. Clear for entry.

You okay? Hey.

I think I was hit, too.

We didn't know Erika
got hit until just after.

It was an armor-piercing
round from the shooter.

All units

58-David is down.

I repeat, 58-David is down.

We've lost Erika Rogers.

Over.

Dear God. Hondo,

call FID, tell 'em we
have an officer down.

I'll call Chief Rivera.

I have to notify Officer
Rogers's next of kin

before the press leaks it.

Roger that,

Commander.

Alonso, what are you doing?

You're gonna
tell Erika's sister.

I want to come with you.

You need to go
back to the scene.

This is an
officer-involved shooting.

You and the team have to
talk to FID before anyone else.

Please, Commander.

I'm sorry. Go back.

That's an order.

I'm sorry to lay this on you,
but they got us separated.

There's no one
here for me to talk to.

I think I'm freaking out.

No, I'm glad you called me.

Did you tell Deac yet?

Hondo called him right
after we finished with FID.

I don't know what to do.

We've never lost
a teammate before.

SWAT doesn't lose officers.

Man, I wish I could be
there for you right now.

Please stay on
the phone with me.

I'm here as long as you need me.

I'm not going anywhere.

The chief and I extend
our deepest sympathies

to you and your family.

An assistance officer
will be here shortly

to help you make arrangements.

What's her sister's name?

Latasha. She's Officer Rogers's

only next of kin in the city.

Chief Rivera, it should
be me. I should tell her.

Are you sure, Commander?

Yes, sir.

Okay. I'll follow your lead.

All right.

Ms. Rogers...

My God. No.

Ma'am... No.

I regret to inform you
that your sister died

in the line of duty
earlier today. No, please.

No!

I'm so sorry, Latasha.

Please... The chief and I
extend our deepest sympathies

to you and your family.

No.

I've gone on record before
saying that money's going

to all the wrong
places in this city.

In all her infinite wisdom...

That was quite a service
this morning, Commander.

Glad to see Officer
Rogers's extended family

came in from Houston.

They could see cops from

as far as New York
to Maryland attended.

We're gonna have a plaque
in honor of her memory

and service here atHQ.
That's a great gesture.

I came to tell you that
FID's finished its investigation

of 20-Squad's raid.

Our union rep's delivering
their report by the end of today.

Any sense how
it's looking for us?

I haven't heard either way.

City Councilman Dudley's

been criticizing
SWAT pretty hard

the past few days.

A civilian and a Black
female officer killed.

It's horrible optics. I get that.

And we're examining
everything on our end.

It's a tragedy we
all feel personally.

In politics, tragedies
provide opportunity.

Dudley's running for mayor.

And after the past
summer's unrest,

the mayor is in the hot seat.

People want reform.
That includes LAPD

- and city hall.
- Some people want sincere reform,

others just want a
power grab. Either way,

the public may demand
a pound of flesh.

We train the right way.

We do things the right way.

Let's hope the FID
report clears your officers.

Nichelle, hey.

Hey. You working today?

They got us on desk duty
until the FID report comes back.

Well, I won't keep you.

We really don't get to
speak much these days.

I haven't seen you stop by
the community center lately.

Just wanted to check in,

see how the funeral went.

The team's taking
it pretty hard,

but we're all showing up.

And how about you?

I don't know, I'm

still processing.

Well, I know you're trying
to get better at opening up.

If you want to talk, you
know where to find me.

I do. Thank you, Nichelle.

Heard the FID report's
coming out today.

Keep your head up.

Thanks, man.

Rocker... I am so
sorry about Erika.

She was a great team member.

You know, curious, great spirit.

Constantly asking questions.

She admired you, Hondo.

Looks like you're retracing your
steps from the raid? I'm doing what I can.

I have no idea what that
report's gonna say, so

I just want to make
sure that I remember

how everything went down

in case I got to
defend my decisions.

Here.

David, I know it's not
the best time to ask, but

do you need to go back? Yeah.

I'm the only member of the
squad that's cleared for field duty,

so I have to go
back if we get a call.

I mean, to SWAT. Period.

Are you open to leaving?

You mean retiring?

Annie, I'm a year away
from collecting my pension.

Yeah, but private
security's going so well.

You've got great benefits.

And if you did that full-time,
you'd still have a great job

that you love, and
you wouldn't be

in this kind of
danger all the time.

Can we talk about this later?

What if later is too late?

If you were there
three days ago,

that might have been your
funeral instead of Erika's.

You don't know that.

Where does that
put me and the kids?

I can't do all this without you.

I don't ever want to.

I'm sorry, this
morning at the service,

it's just, things got too real.

Just quit while you're ahead.

We'll talk tonight.

Unless you get
too busy with work.

I got to go. I'm sorry.

Okay.

Jim, your backpack.

Thank you.

You didn't say a word
the whole drive in.

Sorry, I'm just not
feeling very talkative.

We all knew Erika,
worked with her...

She meant a lot to all of us.

Especially Chris.
Understand all that.

But there's something else.

You've been
tossing in your sleep.

Normally, that means you're
nervous about something.

Look, don't worry about me.

Okay?

See you later?

Okay. I love you.

Love you, too.

Alonso. Need a word with you.

Listen, until the FID
report comes back,

everybody's benched
and on desk duty.

But you personally still haven't
been cleared to return to HQ. Why not?

Dr. Hughes hasn't signed
off on your psych eval.

Well, that's crap. I'm fine.

She wants to see you again.

Said she has some reservations.

Reservations?
Like what, exactly?

I'm not the shrink.

But maybe you living
with Erika is a factor.

And until the issue's resolved

to the satisfaction of the doc,

I have to abide by
her recommendations.

Understood, Commander.

Guys, focus!

Durham, monkey grip, man.

Why they call 'em
"monkey bars." Let's go!

Thanks for letting
me stand in for you,

supervise the candidates.

Well, if you're gonna
be on desk duty,

might as well be of some use.

What round are they on? Ten.

Let's go, Malhotra.

Get up there.

Stop this.

What are you two doing?

Trying to be the best
versions of ourselves.

It's a rhetorical question, man.

You're both trying to
make it onto SWAT, okay?

You think this is hard, wait
till you get out in the field.

It can be, it can be rough.

And we need to know

you can deal with
that. You guys got it?

It's not rhetorical.
You guys got it?

Yes, sir. Yes, sir.

Let's go.

Hey, Durham,

listen, I know you're tired.

Don't think of that as weight.

Think of that as a life.

All right? It's mental.

You get over that
wall, they survive.

Calibrate. Let's
go. You can do it.

Copy that, will do.
Thanks, Sergeant Kay.

Let's go.

Riding them
pretty hard. Shouldn't I?

Thought we were gonna ease
up the last week of SWAT school.

It's not that kind of week.

Chris. I know you wanted
to see me again, but,

I think I deserve to be back
in HQ with the rest of my team.

I have reservations.

I learned that you
personally lobbied for Erika

to fill in on 20-Squad
the day that she got killed.

I want to make sure

you don't have any
self-condemnation

or guilt about that.

I appreciate it, Doc,
but I'm good to go.

I don't need another psych eval.

You two were
roommates. I, I imagine

you were very close.

We just moved into that place.

And all of her belongings
are still at your apartment.

You see them every
time you go back home.

How does that make you feel?

You haven't been back
home since Erika was killed.

Is that right?

Does any of that really matter?

Where have you been
spending your nights?

At my uncle’s house. Chris.

You need to go home.

Why? This is home.

And I'm here, and
I can help my team

back out in the field
once the FID report drops.

Who's gonna pack
up Erika's belongings?

How are you supposed to move on?

In order to deal with this,

you need to go back
to where you live.

And if that means it
takes more time, so be it,

but I can't sign off on you

until you can
process this situation.

Do you understand
what I'm telling you?

Yeah.

I got it.

Good.

Come talk to me tomorrow.

I want to help you through this.

Do you have anything
to help me sleep?

Yo, Deac.

Listen, um,

I was hoping you could
help me out with something.

Sure. What do you need?

FID did a walk-through of
the Imperial Dukes' compound,

but I want to do one of my own,

and I could really use a
pair of fresh eyes on it.

FID's report comes
out later today.

What difference does it
make if you and I walk it?

I need to know that the
team did everything right.

You, you clear this with Hicks?

Yeah. Look, we can take two cars

just in case you get
called into the field.

Deacon, you weren't there, man.

It was tough to see.

And I want to make sure we
did everything right by Erika.

Yeah, of course.
Whatever you need.

Appreciate you.

The way we entered,
in tight formation,

it was our best approach
given the Intel that we had.

No, I know the four-side
entry made sense.

It gave you cover
on the approach.

But a breach from the front

might have prevented
McConnell from fleeing upstairs.

You've already studied
this place on your own.

Yeah. I read everyone's
after action reports.

Did a virtual walk through
of the crime scene.

Just to get the facts.
It's nothing personal.

I'm not auditing your work.

But you think I did
something wrong. No, it's

it's not that clear.

Deacon, when we breached,
I had to pick between

two different approaches
based on limited Intel.

If you were team leader,

would you have
made the other call?

Doesn't matter.

Neither option was 100% safe.

The fact is another approach
could have been utilized,

and FID might
use that against us.

Because they have the benefit
of having all the information now.

I know it's hard waiting
on an FID decision.

But nothing you
or I do at this point

is gonna affect the
outcome of their investigation.

Maybe we can do
something other than play

Monday morning quarterback.

The white nationalists
who killed Erika...

The Imperial Dukes...
They're a terrorist group

that operates through
independent cells

made up of four
to eight members.

Now, we've already
taken down four of them,

but I can't shake the feeling
that there's more out there.

And to find them, I want to
search every inch of this place.

Maybe we can get a
lead on more members.

Possibly another cell.

From what I've read,
the Imperial Dukes

pervert Christian beliefs.

They claim they're
fighting a holy race war

that's happening
everywhere in the shadows.

With their pop
culture references,

their dog whistle tactics...
They see any kind of change,

any shift in power, as a threat.

Deacon, if we had
come from this direction,

we would have breached
the house from the front.

And we might have been
able to keep McConnell

from going up those stairs.

And we would have seen
that some of these shell casings

were for armor-piercing rounds.

Hondo, it's tough
to tell from these.

You didn't know what
you were fully up against

until Erika took a
5.56 to the chest.

Anything else you learn
from your deep dive earlier?

I get why everyone's on edge,

but y-you don't normally
second-guess yourself like this.

I don't normally get
one of my own killed.

It was your bullet that
hit Abel McConnell.

You killed the guy
that killed Erika.

You're the one
that took him out.

That's got to give
you some solace.

It doesn't.

Wait a minute.

What?

Target positions.
The cover pattern.

The dimensions of the
alley. I know this layout.

This training course is
exactly like one at Pendleton.

It's a carbon copy, man.

Whoever built this
might have served

in the Marines around the
same time did. I'm sure the feds

picked up on that? No,
no, don't be so sure, Deac.

Pendleton updates its
courses every few years.

This is an old layout.

Whoever built it
served when I did.

- Sounds like a lead.
- You're damn straight.

Been working off Hondo's theory.

None of the four Imperial Dukes
we took down three days ago

served in the Marines.

So if none of these guys
built the training course,

our builder's still out there.

Started a profile
on our suspect.

Cross-checked white males
in their 40s with carpentry skills

- against Marine Corps -enrollment for L.
- A. County.

That description doesn't
exactly narrow things down.

Almost 2,000 guys fit the bill.

But I found something
that might help us. Look.

Erika's funeral wasn't the
only one scheduled for today.

Abel McConnell, the
Imperial Duke who killed Erika,

his funeral's this afternoon.
The FBI is already

staking out the small group
expected to turn out in person,

but this funeral is also
being live streamed.

If we can get a warrant, we
can stake it out electronically.

Anyone who's attending
could be an Imperial Duke

or our course builder.

I'm tired of it, and
so is the city council.

This isn't the first time our
mayor has made Los Angeles

front-page news for
all the wrong reasons.

There was a period
of time two year

I just came from city hall.

How's the mayor taking
him politicizing a tragedy?

She didn't say.

She does want me to notify her

about the FID report
as soon as it comes in.

Well, that's an interesting way
of saying she's got our backs.

The mayor's in a tough spot.

Some people are
calling for her to resign.

So SWAT's being used
in a political chess match,

and she's already thinking
about how to protect herself?

By sacrificing one of my pieces?

She's a politician. Erika's
death affects her, too,

in a different way.

It takes a certain
kind of officer

to go through Erika's
death three days ago,

and then show up here
the same day of her funeral.

They're not pawns.
They're human beings.

The mayor knows what
you all went through that day.

She doesn't want FID's
report to be a problem

any more than you do.

I can think of someone who does.

If you can fast-track
that warrant,

we'll be ready to
observe from our end.

All right. Thanks, Agent Carr.

Sergeant Kay.

Hey, I just wanted to say
I appreciated that pep talk

out there this morning. This
has been the toughest week yet.

I'm glad I could help.

Listen, keep pushing
yourself, finish strong,

you'll be out in the field soon.

Hey, look, I know
it's not my place,

but I get what
happened out there.

And I feel for what
you and your team

are going through right now.

Thank you. It's been tough.

I just think that,
with who you are,

if you would've been there,

things could've
panned out differently.

They really missed
your leadership that day.

Appreciate that. Yeah.

Durham's making the
strongest case so far.

Just ahead of Malhotra.

Yeah. Kid's got a good heart.

He's just got to
keep his head down.

How you holding up?

I've been organizing food
for Erika's extended family.

I had to help them. I just
needed something positive

to put my mind to
the past few days.

Late night, been
going to the gym,

hitting the bag till
my arms give out.

It's the only way I
can get any sleep.

Sounds like you're
heading in the right direction.

Yeah. Yeah, thanks for
checking on me, Deac.

I hope we can all get out
in the field together soon.

Pretty sure that's
what Erika would want.

Aside from justice.

Yeah. God willing, it
works out that way?

Let me know if
you need anything.

Yeah. I will.

How many people out there...
Lawyers, grocers, mechanics...

Moonlight as white nationalists?

They just look
like regular people.

That's what's frightening.

Six people are
attending in person.

78 logged on remotely.

Anything on our
anonymous attendees?

Looking at 'em.

Ten of them are using
VPNs to hide their identities.

Now, I thought that
seemed a little too high-tech

for our builder at first.

It could also mean
that he's getting help

from other Imperial Dukes.

Okay, wait a minute.
This could be something.

One of the client ISPs is
registered to Landon McBride.

He's a former Marine.

Two tours in Afghanistan.

And he was at Pendleton

when that same training
course was up, Deac.

Received a
dishonorable discharge,

and he's got a jacket.

Prior for a felony
unlawful use of a weapon,

and he's got an outstanding
warrant for the assault.

Gives us a reason
to talk to him.

That's his last known address.

I'm still on desk duty, Deac.
I can't roll on this, just you.

All right, I'll grab
a patrol officer.

I'll call you from the house.

I'll check McBride's
tax records,

see what they turn up.

Ma'am. I'm Sergeant Kay,

LAPD.

Looking for Landon McBride.

I kicked him out
four months back.

What'd he do now?

We've got reason to believe
that he helped some people

murder a police
officer three days ago.

My God.

Does this have
anything to do with

that online group
rejoined? Possibly.

Did he ever refer to it by name?

Did he ever mention a group
called the Imperial Dukes? No.

Look, I'm sorry, I want to help,

but I broke off all
contact with him

after he assaulted a protester.

But it sounds like he escalated.

Got worse over
the last few months.

You have any idea
where he might be?

Any friends or colleagues
he's hanging out with?

He leave anything behind?

No, I tossed all his crap.

His drafting table, schematics.

Your boyfriend was
a builder? Ex-boyfriend.

He was all right until
he got laid off last year.

Told me he was pushed
out in favor of other people.

Said new hiring quotas
discriminated against him.

I'm sure it was a bit more
complicated than that,

but Landon is a simple man.

I'm guessing he went down
the rabbit hole after that? Yeah.

Wasn't long before he
found that online group.

They fed his anger,

forced some ugly
tattoos on him and

well, pushed him
down a darker path.

That laptop.

It's a few years old.

You two share it? Yeah.

His account's password
protected, though.

I don't know it.

Hey, Chris, what's up?

I know it's late there. I
shouldn't have called. My bad.

You talk to
Dr. Wendy today? Yeah.

We got a path laid out.

Gonna try it again tomorrow.

Good. Means you're
heading in the right direction.

Are you okay, Chris?
Where are you?

I'm outside of my
apartment. In the hallway.

You're stalling.

You've got to go in
and pack Erika's stuff.

And as hard as it is,
You've got to handle it.

I know you learned some
German when you were in K-9.

You know, I've been
hanging out with these guys

that have been teaching
me single German words

that actually mean full
sentences in English. It's wild.

Kopf hoch. Yeah.

It means, to keep
your head held high.

That's right. It made
me think of you.

'Cause you always
keep your head up, Chris.

Now, come on.

You got this.

Got McBride's tax records.

He's a freelance contractor.

Hired to work four construction
sites in the last quarter.

Put out a BOLO, unis see him
at any of the sites, we'll know.

His girl's laptop
give us anything?

FBI got us into
McBride's account.

He's definitely
been taking pointers

from someone who's tech savvy.

He's tried to cover
his tracks by drafting.

Puts messages in a folder,

allows recipients to log
in and read 'em. Look.

Which means there's
no send receipts.

But some of the unsent drafts
should still be recoverable.

Like messages
from his other job.

Building things for
the Imperial Dukes.

McBride suggested
identical building plans

for two other training courses.

So there's potentially two more
Imperial Duke cells out there.

Even though none of these
messages have been sent,

can we find out who read 'em?

Well, there's at least
one person with a login.

Could be the person
coordinating the cells.

Imperial Dukesleader? Possibly.

I'll have the Feds
do a deep dive

on the unidentified login.

BOLO got a hit on McBride.

Just got a call
from a patrol unit

sitting on a site
in City of Industry.

Saw McBride
show up, then rabbit.

You better hurry, 'cause it's
an active high-speed chase now.

- Take Rocker with you, Deac.
- We'll get him for you, Hondo.

Not for me, Deac. For Erika.

Good work, Rocker.

Forcing him north keeps him in

the industrial park,
away from the freeway.

Hondo, he's heading east

on a frontage road.

Roger that, Deac.
We got eyes in the air.

Rocker,

there's a switchback up ahead.

It loops around to
the south. Copy that.

Whoa... Hey!

Nice work, guys. He's hemmed in.

Suspect's fleeing.
We're in foot pursuit.

Freeze! LAPD!

There's a residential
neighborhood to the north.

You got to stop him before
he gets to any civilians.

He's in the camper

up ahead. Now, he
might have barricaded

himself inside, so be careful.

Landon McBride, LAPD SWAT.

Come on out, right
now. Hands in the air.

Real slow.

Hondo, cops on the scene found
designs of the Imperial Dukes'

training course
in McBride's truck.

That might explain
why he thought

running from the
police was worth it.

You guys copy -that?
Loud and clear, -Hondo.

Drop your phone, put your
hands behind your head

and get on your
knees. Do it now.

Don't my rights matter?

Doesn't my life matter?

Erika Rogers'

life mattered.

The Black chick cop.

Yeah, I heard about that.

You built a training course
for white nationalists.

I'm proud of my heritage.
That isn't a crime.

At least not yet. Your friends
shot and killed a police officer.

That's aiding and
abetting domestic terrorism.

Face down, on the ground,

now.

He's not saying anything.

Because he doesn't
think he needs to.

He doesn't need to help himself

because, in his mind, the
Imperial Dukes are gonna win

whatever war
they're trying to fight.

He's a soldier and this is
the sacrifice he's making

for the same lost cause.

We've got the FBI
looking to identify

the other hidden login
from McBride's e-mail.

Whoever this person is,

they are intelligent
and cautious.

If it's the Dukes' leader
organizing all this,

then we're gonna find him.

But let's stay in the
loop with the Feds

and be ready to make a move
as soon as they get a solid lead.

Roger that.

Listen, um.

I'm sorry about earlier,
at the compound.

I undermined you by
double-checking the raid. No, Deac.

You didn't. It's your
duty as a sergeant

to see if you could have
done it better three days ago.

Or at least know
better for the next raid.

It kills me that I was
on that school tour

and not with you and the team.

Everyone's dealing with
this in their own way, man.

No one's exempt.

FID report's in.

Hey, Ed, what do we got?

Commander. I supposed
you want to read their ruling?

"In regards to the
events in question,

"Force Investigation Division
finds 20-Squad's actions

"to have been within policy.

"It hereby gives no
recommendation for discipline

"in the planning or
execution of the raid

"resulting in the deaths
of suspect Abel McConnell

and Officer Erika Rogers."

All right, so we're approved
for field duty again?

Well, Alonso still
needs to earn clearance

from Dr. Hughes,
but the rest of you

are officially on call.

What is it, -Commander?
There's more.

"It is, however, our
opinion that other strategies

"could have been
utilized in the raid.

"Alternative actions
may have produced

different results, and loss of
life may have been averted."

You got to be kidding me.

They're leaving
us in a gray area.

Sir, even with other
strategies available,

they know that there was nothing

that could have
guaranteed success.

Hondo's right, Commander.

This clears the team.

Lieutenant Lynch is on her way.

We may have been
cleared technically,

but according to the mayor, not
politically. So what happens now?

I think another
shoe's about to drop.

Honestly,

even with FID clearing us,

it doesn't make Erika's
death any easier.

Or maybe it's not supposed to.

It finally hit me.

She's gone, man. Forever.

Part of me still doesn't
want to accept it.

Listen

after I lost Nate,
it was brutal.

I found out that
grief doesn't go away.

It stays.

Some days it's
heavier than others.

But hopefully, on
those heavy days

you got people beside you
that can help lighten the load.

Shockingly insightful
for a guy like you.

Well, Dr. Hughes
said that last part.

I'm just filling you in.

I guess we should be thankful
we can keep doing our jobs.

Tell the people we care
about how important they are.

Yeah. All right.

Although SWAT was cleared,

the possibility the team could
have done things differently

and avoided two
people getting killed

is enough to increase
pressure on the mayor.

Hondo made the best
of two imperfect choices.

There was no risk-free option.

Doesn't matter. Not now.

The death of one of
our few African-American

female officers
is not a good look.

Is that what this is all about?

How it looks?

We just lost a
colleague. A friend.

I'm sorry, but the
mayor wants a scalp.

And it needs to be
someone on the team

or someone in command
that suggests accountability.

I'm not happy
delivering the message.

But you agree with it.

No. But that's the message.

And I'll leave it up to you to
decide who it is, Commander.

I'm not giving you
anyone from the team.

So.

I guess the scalp
will have to be mine.

What's going on in here?

Sounds like I have to resign.

Like hell you do.

Hondo, this is political
fallout we're facing.

The mayor's hand is
being forced. Lieutenant,

Commander Hicks isn't
responsible for anything

that happened three days ago.

No offense, but this is way
above your pay grade, Sergeant.

Is it?

Let me tell you
something, Lieutenant.

The men and women
who take risks in the field...

We live in a completely
different world

than the politicians
who criticize us.

We are constantly
thrown into situations

where there is a
one percent chance

of things going horribly wrong.
That's duly noted.

Well, you put us in those
situations often enough,

that one percent
is gonna come up,

and it came up three days ago.

The mayor can
pretend all she wants

that it's a problem
with leadership,

but I promise you,
on everything I am,

that game could backfire
on her ass. Excuse me?

Hicks stays or I go.

And the first place I'm
gonna -go is to the I.

A. Times

and I'm-a talk about the
real systemic problems

within the LAPD that she,

the commission and
the union still ignore.

And I imagine they
might even want

to run my picture with it.

I imagine this'll be a tough
conversation with the mayor.

Maybe we need to have
more tough conversations.

I know we haven't
always seen eye to eye,

but I admire the stances
you've both taken here.

It's admirable.

And frustrating.

You didn't have to do that.

Yes, I did.

Hang on a second, Latasha.

Thought you were Erika's sister.

Can I come in?

Just wanted to check up on you.

See how you were doing.

I'm, I'm dealing.

I just keep thinking it's

it's not fair, Erika dying.

I know. I hate it.

And I've hated myself
the past three days.

Been tossing and
turning in my sleep.

It's been weighing on me.

What has?

When Erika went down,

initially I didn't feel
shock or sadness.

I was just relieved

that it wasn't you.

Chris, if you took that bullet

and I lost you

I wouldn't have recovered.

I know our situation

is impossible.

I was on my way home to
Molly when I came here instead.

But being with her feels wrong.

Stop.

'Cause all I think
about is being with you.

Why are you telling me this?

Just...

Please leave.

Chris...

Leave. Now.

- Chris.
- Please go.

Hi.

I love you. You know that.

Of course I do.

You and the kids...

You're everything to me.

What happened today?

Well, we grabbed another
one of the Imperial Dukes.

Well, that's great. Right?

Yeah.

But

my team is broken.

I don't know if
we're gonna be okay

until we... we
grab every last one

of this crew.

So you don't want to retire.

I can't leave my team.

Not like this.

Annie

you're my family.

And so are they.

And I think God put me here

so I can help them.

- Hey.
- Hey.

I just thought I'd drop
by for a surprise visit,

if that's okay.

It was an open invitation.

What is it?

Nichelle.

I haven't been as open
with you as I should.

I want to tell you
something that

I probably wouldn't
tell anyone else.

I'd be lying if I said
these past three days

haven't been some
of the toughest.

You lost a friend.
That can't be easy.

It's just, this past year, with

with police misconduct,

Black folks getting
killed on camera,

and losing an officer
in the field, it just,

it cuts deep.

And now I got doubts
about whether the fight

to change things
is even worth it.

It's natural to have doubts

when you're trying to make
a difference in people's lives.

I get it, Hondo.

But this... I mean,

it's got me wondering about
myself as a police officer,

as a leader

and as a Black man
in this damn world.

I threatened to resign today.

To protect someone else.

I was willing to lose SWAT.

And they don't know
it, but I was not bluffing.

So what happened?

The mayor backed down.

So the heat's
off of us, for now.

You felt like you had
to sacrifice yourself

to make a difference?

Yeah.

Yeah, because if we're all
out there trying to change things

for the better, then
why did Erika Rogers

have to pay a bigger price?

Hondo, you can't
let that eat at you.

It'll only wear you down.

How do you manage to
push through all the noise?

Or maybe it's just looking
fearless just comes naturally.

Maybe I feel the
same things you feel.

I just try to get it
out, talk it through,

like we're doing right now.

Do you hear that?

No. I don't hear anything.

That's what I'm talking about.

See? You're pushing
through the noise already.

A good leader has self-awareness

and the desire to
do better, be better.

Insecurities don't make
anyone less of a leader, Hondo.

They make 'em human.

This is good,
talking it through.

Yeah, you should
try it more often.

Well, you available for
any more surprise visits?

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