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Bailey:
My mom used to tell me
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never to judge people
until you know
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- their story.
- Yeah. I can do that.
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♪ Just talk to me now
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♪ I'll help
with those demons you carry ♪
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You might think you understand,
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but you don't.
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♪ I don't know if they go
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That's why, as a patient,
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- it's important to have an advocate.
- ♪ But we'll be happy ♪
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- ♪ Someday, too ♪
- [ Cellphone rings ]
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Perfect timing.
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I just finished my last
tele-health patient.
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Oh, I just woke up.
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- Aw.
- How'd you sleep?
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Would have slept better
if you were laying next to me.
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Someone to tell your story,
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- to be your voice...
- [ Speaks indistinctly ]
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...to say your name.
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Especially when you don't
have the voice yourself.
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♪ The great divide
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Her oxygen requirements
have come down this much?
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Ah. Cytokine storm's
leveling off, too.
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I mean, look at her CRP,
ferritin.
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That is great.
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Oh, I ordered
a repeat chest X-ray
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to see if the infiltrates
are decreasing, too.
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You talk to her?
She feel any better?
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Just long enough to tell her
that we got her into
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the drug trial.
But she's pretty exhausted.
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Well, it's probably
the side effects.
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And she can sleep all day
if these numbers keep improving.
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Keep me posted.
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♪ That you are not alone
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Jo? Good morning.
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It's time to get up.
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♪ Afloat
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♪ It's a brand-new day
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♪ The sun is out to play
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God, will you shut up?
I'm awake.
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Oh, okay.
Are you going to work?
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Yes.
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At the regular time or...?
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[ Sighs ]
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Everything okay?
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Oh, yeah,
everything's great.
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I barely
get to operate anymore,
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and when I do, they don't even
recover enough to go home.
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Oh, and how could I forget
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the refrigerator truck
full of dead bodies
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that I get to pass on the way
from the parking lot
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to the hospital?
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The only reason
I'm still in bed
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is that I am paralyzed
with excitement.
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♪♪
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- So you're going?
- Why do you care?
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My bike has a flat tire,
and you're my ride.
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[ Sighs ]
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William: She said
the salad I made was too small.
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So I go back
and make her a bigger one.
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She says I must hate her
because it's too big.
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- Bailey: Mm.
- Just can't win.
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No, she
appreciates you, Dad.
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It's not her.
It's the dementia.
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Knowing that
doesn't make it hurt any less.
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We're gonna
get through this.
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We? I only see you
on the phone.
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And you can't even bother
to hold the thing still.
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I have a hospital to run.
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And I didn't know
there'd be a pandemic.
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Ben's sister
gets to stay with you.
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To... With the boys.
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Who I don't see either.
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Ben's staying at the station,
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and half the time, I'm too tired
to make it to my hotel.
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I promise Silver Villas is
more comfortable than my office.
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I just hate this.
I hate all of it.
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It's not fair.
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Well, COVID's
not big on fair.
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Listen, I have to go.
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I love you.
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Don't go outside, Dad, okay?
It's not safe.
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Tell your mom that. She's
the one always trying to leave.
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[ Sighs ][ Smooches ]
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I love you, too.
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[ Smooches ]
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Woman: [ Over P.A. ]
Dr. Wakeman to Neurology.
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Dr. Wakeman to Neurology.
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[ Sighs ]
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Richard:
Ah. Good morning, Avery.
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Jackson: Not really.
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You know how many trachs
I've had to do this week
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on long-term vent patients
'cause of COVID?
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No, but I have a feeling
you're gonna tell me.
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11, Richard.
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Gonna be 12
in about an hour,
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and this number's
gonna keep on going up,
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which is why I need you
to help me with this.
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Oh, when did your mother
go to San Francisco?
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What? No, no. That's a...
That's a fake video background
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for when she talks to Harriet.
That's not the point. Look.
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You want her
to change the background?
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I want you to get your wife
to wear a damn mask, okay?
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She's in a germ-collecting car
with her driver with no mask.
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She wears masks.
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On her chin, okay,
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or dangling from her ear
like a weird piece of jewelry.
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She is living with cancer.
She is immunocompromised.
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I got to get to surgery.
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Just get her to wear the stupid
mask correctly, please.
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Well, you know
what it's like
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to get your mother
to do something!
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Yeah, that's why
I'm calling for reinforcements.
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Reza: Val Ashton,
status post right hepatectomy
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with segments 5 through 8
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due to bleeding
from hepatic pregnancy.
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Her drains were pulled
two days ago,
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but this morning
she's tachy to 120,
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her BP has decreased,
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and transaminases and bili
are both trending upwards.
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Val:
She's kind, giving, successful,
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enjoys
a raunchy romance novel.
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Without shame.
[ Chuckles ]
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I need compliments,
too, guys.
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Jo: I'm glad that you're
in good spirits, Val,
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but, um, your labs
are concerning.
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I'm ordering a CT.
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I carried a baby
in my liver.
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Can't you make an exception for
moms and babies who defy odds?
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I-I'm sick of video chats.
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Luna's gonna think
her mom's a pixelated blob.
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Levi: Technically, that's what
you'd look like even in person.
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Babies can only see
about six inches in front...
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Jo:
Schmitt! Not the point.
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Val, I know that it's not
what you wanted to hear,
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but Luna's on a vent, and
moving her is very precarious.
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Plus, we... we need to make sure
that you're taken care of
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before you meet her.
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For Luna's sake
and for yours.
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Okay?
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♪♪
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[ Siren wailing ]
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Do we know if he's okay?
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Not sure. This is him.
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Koracick:
You're not listening...
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I have to be at home.
I don't want to miss it...
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Oh, my God.
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Paramedic: Okay,
we have a COVID-positive male,
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heart rate 123, BP 90 over 60.
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Pulse ox of 92 on 100%,
high flow.
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He's incoherent
and disoriented.
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Taryn: I just saw him
two days ago. He was fine.
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Is this a stroke?
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Could be. Or encephalitis
brought on by COVID.
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Koracick:
I have tickets to Opening Day,
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and David's dying
to catch a fly ball.
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- Taryn: Who's David?
- His son.
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Let's get him
to a COVID room now.
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Hang on. He's seizing.
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Let's get him on his side.
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- Ready? 1, 2, 3.
- - [ Koracick gasping ]
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*GREY's ANATOMY*
Season 17 Episode 05
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Episode Title: "Fight the Power"
Aired on: December 10, 2020
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Captioning provided by
ABC Studios and ABC, Inc.
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Synchronized by srjanapala
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Teddy: No signs of head trauma,
but, Helm, call up to CT,
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let them know we'll be
upas soon as possible.
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Owen:
We'll do it. Helm, out.
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Taryn:
But I've already had COVID...
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Doesn't matter.
You're a resident,
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and he's positive.
Out. Now.
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Get off me. Stay back.
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Tom. Tom, it's me.
It's Teddy. Try to stay calm.
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I... Don't...
Don't touch me.
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Tom? - Take it easy. We're just trying
to take care of you.
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- Push two of Ativan.
- No, I don't... I don't know you.
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- I don't know you!
- He's post-ictal.
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- No, I don't... I don't know you. - Just
wait a minute, and the meds will kick in.
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[ Grunting softly ]
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[ Sighs ]
Teddy, I got this, okay?
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Please, call up to CT.
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♪♪
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Okay.
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Val: Hey, Angel.
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I'd be there with you,
but the mean doctors say no.
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Can you say "mean"?
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Can you hold the phone
closeenough for me to smell her head?
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Reza: How about I bring you
one of her blankets?
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Ah! I will literally
marry you.
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Jo: Val.
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Crap.
That is your bad-news face.
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Your CT showed
that you have an abscess
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that's eroding into an artery
in your liver,
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causing what's called
a pseudoaneurysm.
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Okay.
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Levi: It's a weakening
of the blood vessel,
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which is causing it
to leak.
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We need to take you to surgery
right away to repair it.
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I am so sorry
that it's not better news.
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[ Cellphone clatters ]
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Leave.
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[ Monitor beeping ]
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Val: Eight years.
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I've wanted to be a mom
for eight years.
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I've known my baby's name.
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I've known the color
I would paint the nursery.
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I've known the made-up lullaby
I would sing at night.
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And now that I finally
have the chance...
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being a mom
is just some weird TV show
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I'm watching on my phone,
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and I don't know
if it will ever be real.
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[ Crying ]
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Please make it real.
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♪♪
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Maggie:
Have you heard about Koracick?
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Bailey: Yes. He's
gettingthe world's best care,
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and I'm trying
not to think about it.
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So, can you wait that
longfor the converted rooms?
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Is sooner an option?
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See, even with the lockdown,
we are getting slammed.
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We got six cases today from
assisted-living facilities,
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- three from the same one.
- Woman: I'll go check.
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- Oh, which one?
- Silver Villas in Ballard.
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COVID spreads through
those places like wildfire.
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Where are you going?!
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Uh, that's where
my parents are.
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Man: Next.
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- A rescue mission?
- Bailey: Yes.
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Just stop what you're doing
and get to Silver Villas.
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To grab your mom and dad?
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I've been trying
to call the front office,
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but they're not answering.
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Well, where do you want me
to take them?
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Uh, to my hotel.
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Y... Uh, I don't care.
Just get them out.
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Yeah, I'm on it.
I love you.
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[ Click, siren wailing ]
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♪♪
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- Jo: Okay, lap pads...
- Reza: Here you go.
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Levi: Khan was an attending
in Pakistan.
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We could probably
be assisting him.
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Not gonna happen.
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No, I know. I just...
Making a point.
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Suction.
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You were a vascular
surgeon, right?
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Reza: Yes, Dr. Schmitt,
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one of the first to be certified
in my country.
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00:08:55,101 --> 00:08:56,285
Why would you leave?
249
00:08:56,369 --> 00:08:57,578
Okay, Kelly clamp.
250
00:08:57,662 --> 00:08:59,343
Uh, it wasn't exactly
a choice.
251
00:08:59,570 --> 00:09:01,281
I love my home,
it shaped me.
252
00:09:01,438 --> 00:09:03,540
Still nice not to worry
about religious persecution
253
00:09:03,625 --> 00:09:04,281
or bombings.
254
00:09:04,389 --> 00:09:06,432
- So I just started over.
- Clamp.
255
00:09:06,531 --> 00:09:08,991
Just?
It's a five-year residency.
256
00:09:09,076 --> 00:09:10,843
If I finished this
and had to start over...
257
00:09:10,928 --> 00:09:13,301
Ugh. Pass.
Can you imagine?
258
00:09:13,386 --> 00:09:14,970
Can you imagine payingmore
attention to the field
259
00:09:15,054 --> 00:09:16,304
so the patient
doesn't die?
260
00:09:16,389 --> 00:09:18,681
Damn it.
Her tissue's so friable
261
00:09:18,766 --> 00:09:20,515
it's just disintegrating
into my hands.
262
00:09:20,599 --> 00:09:22,269
- We got to get control of...
- I know what we need to do!
263
00:09:22,353 --> 00:09:24,671
Everyone shift. We're doing
a modified pringle maneuver.
264
00:09:24,756 --> 00:09:25,882
Clamp.
265
00:09:26,171 --> 00:09:30,257
♪♪
266
00:09:30,640 --> 00:09:31,932
Maggie: Okay, thank you.
267
00:09:32,017 --> 00:09:34,757
Hey. Your phone has been
ringinglike crazy.
268
00:09:34,842 --> 00:09:35,926
Oh.
269
00:09:38,613 --> 00:09:41,324
- Oh, wow. Okay.
- [ Cellphone chiming ]
270
00:09:41,409 --> 00:09:43,188
Uh, okay.
Let's just, uh...
271
00:09:43,273 --> 00:09:44,458
[ Line ringing ]
272
00:09:44,542 --> 00:09:45,774
- Ben: I tried to call you.
- Ben, how did it...
273
00:09:45,858 --> 00:09:47,874
I picked up your mom,
and she's sick. - Wait, slow down. I ca...
274
00:09:47,958 --> 00:09:49,531
- We're at the hospital.
- Now?!
275
00:09:50,257 --> 00:09:51,701
Ben: Right now.
276
00:09:52,211 --> 00:09:53,601
Mom!
277
00:09:53,686 --> 00:09:55,855
[ Labored breathing ]
278
00:09:55,940 --> 00:09:58,734
♪♪
279
00:09:59,432 --> 00:10:00,414
Mom?
280
00:10:00,499 --> 00:10:01,875
Hey, it's me.
281
00:10:02,343 --> 00:10:03,570
I'm here.
282
00:10:07,469 --> 00:10:08,976
- William?
- Maggie: Alright, okay.
283
00:10:09,061 --> 00:10:11,250
[ Gasping ] Where...
Where... Where's William?
284
00:10:11,335 --> 00:10:12,978
Mom, you're in
the hospital.
285
00:10:13,063 --> 00:10:14,064
We're gonna
take care of you.
286
00:10:14,148 --> 00:10:15,607
He's gonna
be here soon, right?
287
00:10:15,691 --> 00:10:18,109
Okay. Yes, yes.
He's coming soon.
288
00:10:18,193 --> 00:10:19,969
Okay?
Just lay back and relax.
289
00:10:20,054 --> 00:10:22,806
I can't wear this.
I got to get my clothes.
290
00:10:22,891 --> 00:10:24,164
Where my clothes?
291
00:10:24,283 --> 00:10:26,284
Okay.
She seems really agitated.
292
00:10:26,368 --> 00:10:27,815
Are there any meds
we can give her to calm her?
293
00:10:27,899 --> 00:10:29,246
I can order some meds?
294
00:10:29,330 --> 00:10:30,508
[ Grunts ]
295
00:10:30,994 --> 00:10:35,665
♪ I got sunshine
296
00:10:35,836 --> 00:10:40,227
♪ On a cloudy day
297
00:10:40,343 --> 00:10:45,222
- ♪ When it's cold outside ♪
- ♪ Cold outside
298
00:10:45,529 --> 00:10:47,948
- ♪ I got the month of May
- ♪ I got the month of May
299
00:10:48,094 --> 00:10:49,930
Yeah.
300
00:10:50,219 --> 00:10:56,392
- ♪ I guess you'd say
- ♪ I guess you'd say
301
00:10:56,477 --> 00:11:02,649
♪ What can make me feel this way? ♪
♪ What can make me feel... way?
302
00:11:03,030 --> 00:11:06,383
- ♪ My girl
- ♪ My girl
303
00:11:06,557 --> 00:11:07,724
♪ My girl
304
00:11:07,826 --> 00:11:10,036
[ Chuckles ]
♪ Talking 'bout
305
00:11:10,120 --> 00:11:13,240
- ♪ My girl
- ♪ My girl
306
00:11:14,051 --> 00:11:16,600
- ♪ My girl
- ♪ My girl
307
00:11:16,703 --> 00:11:18,873
[ Monitor beeping ]
308
00:11:20,421 --> 00:11:21,756
What do you see, Shepherd?
309
00:11:21,856 --> 00:11:23,694
Uh, I see a lesion
on his thalamus,
310
00:11:23,801 --> 00:11:25,701
but it's small,
so that's something.
311
00:11:25,786 --> 00:11:27,829
Have you been able to talk
to him since the seizure?
312
00:11:27,937 --> 00:11:29,889
He was post-ictal,
and they gave him lorazepam,
313
00:11:29,974 --> 00:11:31,600
so he wasn't really coherent.
314
00:11:31,684 --> 00:11:34,248
Okay. I'm coming in.
315
00:11:34,363 --> 00:11:36,730
Are... Are you sure? I mean, do
you want me to call Dr. Mehta?
316
00:11:36,814 --> 00:11:38,481
It's Tom. I'm coming.
317
00:11:38,565 --> 00:11:39,803
Thank you.
318
00:11:40,663 --> 00:11:43,819
Uh, Ellis decided she didn't
want her mac and cheese
319
00:11:43,904 --> 00:11:46,532
after begging me to make it,
so if you're hungry...
320
00:11:47,917 --> 00:11:49,334
- What's going on?
- [ Sighs ]
321
00:11:49,419 --> 00:11:52,088
It looks like Tom is having some
neuro complications from COVID.
322
00:11:52,173 --> 00:11:54,841
I thought he was asymptomatic. Yeah,
so did I.
323
00:11:54,926 --> 00:11:57,513
I just pumped, so there is milk
in the fridge for Scout.
324
00:11:57,598 --> 00:11:59,058
Uh, Bailey and Ellis
need a nap.
325
00:11:59,143 --> 00:12:01,725
Make sure you check in with Zola
about her homework.
326
00:12:01,810 --> 00:12:05,084
If Scout starts to fuss,
just try the yoga ball.
327
00:12:05,310 --> 00:12:06,717
What am I forgetting?
328
00:12:06,969 --> 00:12:08,303
- To breathe.
- [ Sighs ]
329
00:12:08,387 --> 00:12:09,763
We'll be fine here, okay?
330
00:12:09,847 --> 00:12:11,723
Go. Save your friend.
331
00:12:11,920 --> 00:12:13,372
[ Sighs ]
332
00:12:13,457 --> 00:12:14,928
He was my teacher.
333
00:12:15,194 --> 00:12:16,427
And he saved my brain.
334
00:12:16,512 --> 00:12:18,764
And, uh, he was my first sex
after Owen,
335
00:12:18,849 --> 00:12:20,732
which shouldn't matter,
but it kind of saved me, too,
336
00:12:20,816 --> 00:12:23,045
so I don't want him to die.
337
00:12:23,834 --> 00:12:27,796
And I don't want to leave Scout,
and I'm scared of the pandemic.
338
00:12:27,919 --> 00:12:29,740
You had sex with Koracick?
339
00:12:29,908 --> 00:12:31,069
What?
340
00:12:34,696 --> 00:12:36,447
[ Door opens ]
341
00:12:36,665 --> 00:12:38,115
[ Door closes ]
342
00:12:38,486 --> 00:12:41,251
Jackson: Hey. Oh, um,
Mr. Anderson's trach in 4722
343
00:12:41,336 --> 00:12:42,837
needs to be suctioned, please. I'm on it.
344
00:12:42,921 --> 00:12:44,727
Hey, got your page.
Did you hear anything from Mom?
345
00:12:44,811 --> 00:12:46,813
She's just texting me back
hearts and "Love you, baby"s
346
00:12:46,897 --> 00:12:48,164
like that's gonna
shut me up.
347
00:12:48,249 --> 00:12:50,387
No, I haven't had the time. Richard,
this is not something
348
00:12:50,471 --> 00:12:52,102
that can wait till your schedule
frees up, right?
349
00:12:52,186 --> 00:12:54,021
It's my mom. She's gonna give me
a damn rage stroke.
350
00:12:54,105 --> 00:12:57,400
Bailey's mother was just
admitted, COVID-positive.
351
00:12:57,644 --> 00:12:58,992
It's bad.
352
00:12:59,077 --> 00:13:01,149
Look, can you fill in for her
at the board meeting today,
353
00:13:01,233 --> 00:13:02,820
take a few of her patients?
354
00:13:02,905 --> 00:13:04,740
We'll all pitch in.
355
00:13:05,099 --> 00:13:07,184
Yeah, of course.
Whatever she needs.
356
00:13:07,613 --> 00:13:10,648
♪♪
357
00:13:10,733 --> 00:13:13,797
Jo: We took a lot more of
her liver than I was hoping to.
358
00:13:13,913 --> 00:13:15,157
Keep an eye
on her liver panel.
359
00:13:15,242 --> 00:13:16,827
The next few hours
will be crucial.
360
00:13:16,911 --> 00:13:18,078
Levi: You think
she'll need a transplant?
361
00:13:18,162 --> 00:13:20,492
Knowing her luck, probably.
362
00:13:20,664 --> 00:13:23,961
But if she needs it,
we can try liver dialysis first.
363
00:13:24,046 --> 00:13:26,798
Khan, finish the op notes.
Keep an eye on her.
364
00:13:26,918 --> 00:13:28,516
Dr. Wilson, thank you
365
00:13:28,601 --> 00:13:29,955
for allowing me
to observe your process.
366
00:13:30,039 --> 00:13:31,466
That was amazing.
367
00:13:31,550 --> 00:13:33,070
She could still
need a transplant.
368
00:13:33,155 --> 00:13:35,860
Yes, I understand, but
you resected most of her liver,
369
00:13:35,945 --> 00:13:37,138
and she's still alive.
370
00:13:37,223 --> 00:13:38,682
I mean, do you know
how rare that is?
371
00:13:38,766 --> 00:13:41,289
That... That's unheard of
in so many parts of the world.
372
00:13:41,601 --> 00:13:45,265
I know. Op notes.
I'm going.
373
00:13:45,924 --> 00:13:47,940
[ Sighs ]
Was I really amazing,
374
00:13:48,025 --> 00:13:50,547
or is he just
some weird happy person?
375
00:13:50,661 --> 00:13:54,164
If you impressed him,
I think amazing's a safe bet.
376
00:13:56,268 --> 00:13:57,758
Glad you got
to operate again.
377
00:13:59,883 --> 00:14:01,008
[ Door opens ]
378
00:14:01,122 --> 00:14:02,320
[ Sighs ]
379
00:14:03,640 --> 00:14:05,767
Bailey:
Her ferritin is 2087.
380
00:14:05,906 --> 00:14:08,203
600 is severe in COVID.
381
00:14:08,420 --> 00:14:11,547
Her CRP is 87.
382
00:14:11,715 --> 00:14:13,300
Creatinine's 2.3.
383
00:14:13,384 --> 00:14:16,123
W-What about
her oxygen requirements?
384
00:14:16,238 --> 00:14:19,836
- ♪ Caught swimming in your new sundress
♪ - [ Sighs ] She's at 100% F-I-O2.
385
00:14:20,071 --> 00:14:21,500
40 liters.
386
00:14:22,111 --> 00:14:24,393
She went into A-fib
an hour ago.
387
00:14:24,478 --> 00:14:27,922
We pushed dig,
but so far, no response.
388
00:14:28,023 --> 00:14:29,040
♪ Keep living
like the sun don't set ♪
389
00:14:29,124 --> 00:14:31,712
Her systolic was in the 80s,
but we pushed a fluid bolus
390
00:14:31,797 --> 00:14:33,781
and got it back up
into the 90s.
391
00:14:33,871 --> 00:14:38,679
So she's starting to have
multi-system organ failure
392
00:14:38,764 --> 00:14:41,266
in addition
to her cytokine storm.
393
00:14:41,455 --> 00:14:43,444
I'm sorry, Bailey.
394
00:14:43,529 --> 00:14:45,739
♪♪
395
00:14:45,830 --> 00:14:47,438
There is still
more we can do.
396
00:14:47,523 --> 00:14:50,133
We can take her to the ICU,
intubate...
397
00:14:50,218 --> 00:14:52,594
She didn't want
to be on machines.
398
00:14:52,679 --> 00:14:56,039
Or be kept alive
with medication.
399
00:14:56,124 --> 00:15:01,421
♪♪
400
00:15:01,544 --> 00:15:04,000
I got to call my dad.
Um...
401
00:15:04,133 --> 00:15:06,051
♪♪
402
00:15:06,314 --> 00:15:08,617
I'm here if you need me.
403
00:15:10,125 --> 00:15:12,567
H-How...
How do I tell my dad
404
00:15:12,651 --> 00:15:16,070
that the love of his life
405
00:15:16,966 --> 00:15:19,218
won't make it
through the night?
406
00:15:19,303 --> 00:15:23,850
♪♪
407
00:15:27,303 --> 00:15:28,679
[ Telephone rings in distance ]
408
00:15:33,473 --> 00:15:35,760
Amelia: Neuro exam's intact.
No deficits.
409
00:15:35,845 --> 00:15:37,304
He asked for his son.
410
00:15:37,389 --> 00:15:41,559
I think the seizure and delirium
are secondary to hypoxemia
411
00:15:41,643 --> 00:15:44,841
and inflammation from COVID...
Possible early sepsis.
412
00:15:44,953 --> 00:15:46,145
Let's just watch him
413
00:15:46,230 --> 00:15:47,940
and, uh, see how he responds
to treatment.
414
00:15:48,025 --> 00:15:50,151
Okay. Oh, hey, Shepherd.
Didn't realize you were back.
415
00:15:50,235 --> 00:15:52,013
Welcome to... hell.
416
00:15:52,196 --> 00:15:53,755
Just consulting
on Koracick.
417
00:15:53,840 --> 00:15:55,782
Oh, right, 'cause he needs
somebody to cover his service.
418
00:15:55,866 --> 00:15:57,990
On him,
not... uh, not for him.
419
00:15:58,075 --> 00:16:00,035
Sats dropped,
he's got a fever of 103,
420
00:16:00,162 --> 00:16:01,810
and he seized
when they brought him in.
421
00:16:01,895 --> 00:16:02,795
[ Sighs ]
422
00:16:02,895 --> 00:16:04,537
Well, I hate everything.
423
00:16:04,630 --> 00:16:07,674
Woman: [ Over P.A. I Dr. Cade to
the ICU. Emma Cade to the ICU.
424
00:16:07,961 --> 00:16:09,379
I was wondering
if you get used to this,
425
00:16:09,463 --> 00:16:11,200
but I'm guessing
that's my answer.
426
00:16:11,882 --> 00:16:13,091
How's the baby?
427
00:16:13,175 --> 00:16:15,677
Uh, yeah, uh, well,
he won't let me sleep,
428
00:16:15,761 --> 00:16:18,430
but other than that, um, yeah,
I can't wait to get back to him.
429
00:16:18,514 --> 00:16:20,390
Leo and Allison
are with Owen's mom.
430
00:16:20,474 --> 00:16:21,850
I'm just...
I miss them like crazy,
431
00:16:21,934 --> 00:16:24,240
but with both parents
treating COVID patients,
432
00:16:24,325 --> 00:16:26,243
it just...
It doesn't seem safe.
433
00:16:26,438 --> 00:16:27,763
Uh-huh.
434
00:16:28,057 --> 00:16:30,755
So, um, guess you heard
what happened.
435
00:16:31,245 --> 00:16:33,872
Yeah.
And I have feelings.
436
00:16:34,238 --> 00:16:35,905
But I've also done
437
00:16:35,989 --> 00:16:38,324
more hurtful and complicated
things in my life
438
00:16:38,408 --> 00:16:40,919
than anyone I've met
outside an NA meeting, so...
439
00:16:41,161 --> 00:16:42,466
Some of them to Owen.
440
00:16:42,998 --> 00:16:44,646
Owen won't say a word to me
441
00:16:44,748 --> 00:16:45,765
that doesn't have to do
with the kids,
442
00:16:45,849 --> 00:16:48,668
and everyone
is ignoring me
443
00:16:48,752 --> 00:16:51,588
or treating me like
I'm wearing a scarlet letter.
444
00:16:51,672 --> 00:16:53,075
What about Tom?
445
00:16:53,924 --> 00:16:55,325
He's hurt, too.
446
00:16:56,671 --> 00:16:59,333
Well, um,
I'll keep checking on him.
447
00:16:59,418 --> 00:17:02,935
And, uh, thank you
for getting Mer into the trial.
448
00:17:03,020 --> 00:17:04,187
Oh, yeah, uh, of course.
449
00:17:04,272 --> 00:17:05,450
[ Sighs ]
450
00:17:07,146 --> 00:17:09,333
[ Monitor beeping ]
451
00:17:09,690 --> 00:17:11,935
Hi, Grey.
452
00:17:12,082 --> 00:17:13,365
It's me.
453
00:17:14,319 --> 00:17:15,919
I'm gonna say it.
454
00:17:16,572 --> 00:17:18,115
I miss you.
455
00:17:23,549 --> 00:17:25,060
[ Sighs ]
456
00:17:27,449 --> 00:17:31,865
When I was a kid,
I had big thoughts.
457
00:17:32,045 --> 00:17:33,724
Big feelings.
458
00:17:33,809 --> 00:17:36,561
And I never knew
where to put them.
459
00:17:36,888 --> 00:17:41,669
Physically, they ran through
my body like a high-speed train.
460
00:17:42,041 --> 00:17:44,700
And anytime
I felt the train coming,
461
00:17:44,950 --> 00:17:47,997
my mom could see it.
462
00:17:48,082 --> 00:17:51,021
So she took me around the corner
to the park
463
00:17:51,106 --> 00:17:55,786
with this strange,
twisted tree.
464
00:17:55,884 --> 00:17:58,011
Said it was mytree.
465
00:17:58,172 --> 00:18:01,763
And I could scream at it,
hit it, hold it...
466
00:18:02,021 --> 00:18:03,942
And it would make
the feelings small enough
467
00:18:04,027 --> 00:18:07,903
that they would fit back
inside of my own body again.
468
00:18:07,988 --> 00:18:10,567
So I did.
469
00:18:11,750 --> 00:18:13,751
And it worked.
470
00:18:14,013 --> 00:18:18,356
But now I'm an adult,
and tree-hitting is...
471
00:18:19,301 --> 00:18:21,094
[Chuckling]
frowned upon.
472
00:18:21,187 --> 00:18:22,770
I can be your tree.
473
00:18:24,440 --> 00:18:27,254
My mother has Alzheimer's.
474
00:18:28,694 --> 00:18:30,737
I never told you
475
00:18:30,821 --> 00:18:34,371
because she's older,
476
00:18:34,619 --> 00:18:38,294
and I didn't want to bring up
any old pain
477
00:18:38,379 --> 00:18:40,731
for your or Richard.
478
00:18:40,870 --> 00:18:43,332
But it would be a lie
479
00:18:43,417 --> 00:18:46,817
to say
that it hasn't been hard.
480
00:18:47,050 --> 00:18:49,637
Or painful.
481
00:18:49,774 --> 00:18:54,301
Even as a doctor
who knows about the disease,
482
00:18:54,616 --> 00:18:57,293
I feel like...
483
00:18:57,718 --> 00:18:59,307
I didn't know crap.
484
00:18:59,392 --> 00:19:01,879
...like I don't
know anything.
485
00:19:03,603 --> 00:19:05,354
It's difficult
to talk about it
486
00:19:05,439 --> 00:19:07,232
with someone
who hasn't been there,
487
00:19:07,316 --> 00:19:09,285
been through it.
488
00:19:09,596 --> 00:19:12,629
♪♪
489
00:19:12,981 --> 00:19:15,543
No one understands
that you are
490
00:19:15,628 --> 00:19:19,006
watching
your own mother die...
491
00:19:19,192 --> 00:19:20,676
twice.
492
00:19:21,924 --> 00:19:24,723
I'm so sorry, Bailey.
493
00:19:25,563 --> 00:19:28,184
[ Crying ]
I wish you were awake.
494
00:19:28,462 --> 00:19:35,668
♪♪
495
00:19:37,847 --> 00:19:39,723
Reza: Val's still not awake.
LFTs are up slightly.
496
00:19:39,807 --> 00:19:41,600
Jo: Okay. Do another panel
in a few hours.
497
00:19:41,684 --> 00:19:43,450
Absolutely, Dr. Wilson.
498
00:19:43,644 --> 00:19:47,145
Okay, has your attitude
always been this good?
499
00:19:47,230 --> 00:19:50,358
My mom used to say every day
above ground is a good day.
500
00:19:50,559 --> 00:19:52,310
Did she get that
from "Scarface"?
501
00:19:52,403 --> 00:19:54,575
- She did. Still, it's true.
- [ Elevator bell dings ]
502
00:19:54,990 --> 00:19:56,825
- [ Sighs ]
- [ Telephone rings ]
503
00:19:56,910 --> 00:19:59,286
[ Woman speaks indistinctly
over P.A. ]
504
00:19:59,487 --> 00:20:01,332
Nurse Terri:
You! You're a doctor, right?
505
00:20:01,789 --> 00:20:03,654
Yeah. Great, follow me.
506
00:20:03,739 --> 00:20:05,457
- We're delivering a baby.
- Oh, no, no, no, no, no.
507
00:20:05,541 --> 00:20:07,251
I'm not an OB,
I'm a general surgeon. I don't care.
508
00:20:07,335 --> 00:20:09,128
We have an imminent delivery,
and all our OBs are busy.
509
00:20:09,212 --> 00:20:10,838
Hospital rules say
we need a doctor.
510
00:20:10,922 --> 00:20:12,669
I haven't
delivered a baby...
511
00:20:12,754 --> 00:20:13,966
You heard the "I don't care"
part, right?
512
00:20:14,050 --> 00:20:15,092
We'll talk you through it.
513
00:20:15,176 --> 00:20:16,606
- The Elmores.
- Okay.
514
00:20:16,691 --> 00:20:19,720
G3P2 came in fully effaced
and dilated at zero station.
515
00:20:19,805 --> 00:20:22,266
Started crowning by the time
we got her settled on the bed.
516
00:20:22,350 --> 00:20:25,872
Ms. Elmore? Hi. I know
that I'm not who you expected,
517
00:20:25,957 --> 00:20:27,522
- but I am here...
- The head is coming now.
518
00:20:27,606 --> 00:20:29,148
Hi. Hi.
519
00:20:29,232 --> 00:20:30,848
Okay. Okay.
520
00:20:30,983 --> 00:20:32,484
[ Kathy panting ]
521
00:20:32,568 --> 00:20:34,839
Alright. Contraction
and big push, okay?
522
00:20:34,924 --> 00:20:36,021
Big push.
523
00:20:36,106 --> 00:20:37,614
[ Grunting ]
524
00:20:37,698 --> 00:20:39,755
♪ Told my troubled heart
525
00:20:39,840 --> 00:20:42,077
Okay.
Contraction and push.
526
00:20:42,161 --> 00:20:43,700
[ Screaming ]
527
00:20:43,820 --> 00:20:46,372
The head is out. There...
No cord around the neck.
528
00:20:46,457 --> 00:20:48,160
See?
Just like riding a bike.
529
00:20:48,245 --> 00:20:49,917
Alright, uh...
530
00:20:50,002 --> 00:20:52,716
Pull head down, then up,
to deliver the shoulders.
531
00:20:52,801 --> 00:20:54,423
- Okay, it's coming.
- [ Screaming ]
532
00:20:54,507 --> 00:20:55,707
Coming.
533
00:20:55,792 --> 00:20:58,801
Oh, my God.
[ Laughing ] Oh, my God.
534
00:20:58,886 --> 00:21:01,346
Ms. Elmore asked that the baby
go directly onto her chest
535
00:21:01,430 --> 00:21:02,584
- while still connected.
- [ Baby crying ]
536
00:21:02,668 --> 00:21:04,309
Okay, clamp.
537
00:21:04,459 --> 00:21:07,545
Okay. Oh, my gosh. Okay.
538
00:21:07,630 --> 00:21:09,882
♪ A new light
shining down on me ♪
539
00:21:10,011 --> 00:21:11,220
Okay.
540
00:21:11,305 --> 00:21:13,473
♪ A new way, a new road
541
00:21:13,651 --> 00:21:15,832
You ready
to cut the cord?
542
00:21:16,039 --> 00:21:18,231
Hi. Okay, right here.
543
00:21:18,316 --> 00:21:20,185
Okay, yeah.
In between here.
544
00:21:20,270 --> 00:21:21,629
In between, yeah.
545
00:21:21,714 --> 00:21:23,423
Good. Hi, little one!
546
00:21:23,782 --> 00:21:25,114
♪ Take my hand
547
00:21:25,199 --> 00:21:26,533
- [ Laughs ]
- [ Baby crying ]
548
00:21:26,936 --> 00:21:33,051
♪ The worst is over
549
00:21:33,248 --> 00:21:38,481
♪ Weight is liftin'
550
00:21:38,575 --> 00:21:43,739
♪ Off our shoulders
551
00:21:43,847 --> 00:21:46,432
- ♪ I can see ♪
- Oh, I can see
552
00:21:46,517 --> 00:21:49,598
- ♪ I can see
- ♪ I can see
553
00:21:49,707 --> 00:21:51,939
- ♪ A new light
- ♪ New light
554
00:21:52,023 --> 00:21:54,900
- ♪ Shining down on me
- ♪ Down on me
555
00:21:54,984 --> 00:21:57,486
♪ A new way, a new road
556
00:21:57,582 --> 00:21:59,576
Just need you to sign
the paperwork, and you can go.
557
00:21:59,660 --> 00:22:01,934
Is it alright if I stay?
558
00:22:02,153 --> 00:22:06,903
♪ Oh, oh,
to a new kind of beautiful ♪
559
00:22:06,988 --> 00:22:09,122
Okay. Mommy?
560
00:22:09,542 --> 00:22:10,835
Hey, it's me.
561
00:22:10,919 --> 00:22:13,337
Look, Dad's here, too.
562
00:22:13,624 --> 00:22:16,160
Hi, honey.
I'm here.
563
00:22:16,245 --> 00:22:18,497
Wait till you see
Miranda's hotel.
564
00:22:18,582 --> 00:22:20,500
I mean,
there's room service,
565
00:22:20,585 --> 00:22:23,296
and the view is so much better
than Silver Villas.
566
00:22:23,387 --> 00:22:25,972
You can actually
s-see the water.
567
00:22:26,094 --> 00:22:27,379
[ Weakly ] William?
568
00:22:27,745 --> 00:22:29,934
Is that you, William?
569
00:22:30,019 --> 00:22:32,437
Right here by your side,
as always.
570
00:22:32,522 --> 00:22:36,004
I love you.
I love you so much.
571
00:22:36,626 --> 00:22:38,325
Sweetheart?
[ Crying ]
572
00:22:38,410 --> 00:22:42,497
Uh, she drifts
in and out, Dad.
573
00:22:42,863 --> 00:22:46,241
In her state,
even breathing's exhausting.
574
00:22:46,363 --> 00:22:48,231
I can't do this.
575
00:22:48,554 --> 00:22:49,746
I know.
576
00:22:49,981 --> 00:22:51,442
It's difficult.
577
00:22:51,576 --> 00:22:52,910
I should be there.
578
00:22:53,064 --> 00:22:54,567
It's too risky, Dad.
579
00:22:54,652 --> 00:22:58,530
She should be in her own bed,
not in some sterile box.
580
00:22:58,615 --> 00:23:04,412
She spent 60 years
taking care of me, and now...
581
00:23:04,497 --> 00:23:08,167
She hardly ever got a cold
before this.
582
00:23:08,257 --> 00:23:11,395
Just call me
when she wakes up.
583
00:23:11,745 --> 00:23:13,580
[ Labored breathing ]
584
00:23:13,703 --> 00:23:15,590
Of course, Dad.
585
00:23:15,940 --> 00:23:23,635
♪♪
586
00:23:23,948 --> 00:23:25,526
Okay.
587
00:23:26,853 --> 00:23:28,817
[ Gasping indistinctly ]
588
00:23:28,911 --> 00:23:33,401
♪♪
589
00:23:33,624 --> 00:23:35,959
♪ It's a new kind of beautiful
590
00:23:36,043 --> 00:23:38,550
Mommy.
591
00:23:39,118 --> 00:23:40,744
If you're ready to go,
592
00:23:40,907 --> 00:23:42,283
it's okay.
593
00:23:42,546 --> 00:23:44,401
We're gonna be okay.
594
00:23:44,573 --> 00:23:47,628
♪ A new kind of beautiful,
oh, oh ♪
595
00:23:47,847 --> 00:23:50,269
[ Voice breaking ]
We love you.
596
00:23:50,447 --> 00:23:52,657
But we don't want you
to suffer.
597
00:23:52,742 --> 00:23:53,742
♪ Oh, oh
598
00:23:53,827 --> 00:23:58,737
I'm not r-ready.
599
00:23:59,160 --> 00:24:02,204
If you're tired,
I understand.
600
00:24:02,289 --> 00:24:03,581
♪ A new light
601
00:24:03,666 --> 00:24:04,625
I love you.
602
00:24:04,710 --> 00:24:06,030
♪ Shining down on me
603
00:24:06,115 --> 00:24:07,839
Ready to die?
604
00:24:07,956 --> 00:24:09,201
♪ A new way
605
00:24:09,285 --> 00:24:10,362
No.
606
00:24:10,447 --> 00:24:12,332
♪ A new road
607
00:24:12,417 --> 00:24:15,659
I-I want to go home.
608
00:24:15,744 --> 00:24:18,464
♪ Oh, oh
609
00:24:19,078 --> 00:24:21,792
♪ To a new kind of beautiful
610
00:24:25,073 --> 00:24:26,910
Ben: Hey, you've reached Ben Warren.
Please leave a message.
611
00:24:26,994 --> 00:24:30,311
- [ Beep ]
- Yeah, I... Ben? Um, it's my mom.
612
00:24:30,396 --> 00:24:33,691
I think she was just
lucid with me,
613
00:24:33,775 --> 00:24:36,485
and she said some things
that I don't understand,
614
00:24:36,569 --> 00:24:38,895
and now I-I don't know what do,
615
00:24:38,980 --> 00:24:40,698
and I need someone
to tell me what to do.
616
00:24:40,782 --> 00:24:44,535
Just, uh, call me
as soon as you can.
617
00:24:44,619 --> 00:24:45,808
Uh, I love you.
618
00:24:46,034 --> 00:24:47,831
[ Siren wailing in distance ]
619
00:24:50,325 --> 00:24:51,576
Maggie: Hey.
620
00:24:51,668 --> 00:24:54,026
I saw you leave.
I wanted to check.
621
00:24:54,824 --> 00:24:56,964
She said
she's not ready to go.
622
00:24:57,674 --> 00:24:59,480
For a split second,
623
00:24:59,706 --> 00:25:03,089
my heart was filled up
with so much joy.
624
00:25:03,263 --> 00:25:05,097
But now I'm just mad.
625
00:25:05,182 --> 00:25:09,573
Mad because no one
told me she was sick,
626
00:25:09,853 --> 00:25:15,394
mad because she probably
has no idea what's happening.
627
00:25:16,108 --> 00:25:20,105
You know, if I'm being
totally honest,
628
00:25:20,358 --> 00:25:22,985
I don't want her to suffer
from this Alzheimer's anymore.
629
00:25:23,116 --> 00:25:25,868
You know,
it's a horrific disease,
630
00:25:25,995 --> 00:25:28,878
and I want her to be free.
631
00:25:29,113 --> 00:25:31,089
But I don't want COVID
to be the reason.
632
00:25:31,174 --> 00:25:32,249
I d... I don't want her
633
00:25:32,333 --> 00:25:35,879
to be just another
Black woman statistic
634
00:25:35,964 --> 00:25:37,588
in this pandemic count.
635
00:25:37,672 --> 00:25:39,581
Yeah, I hear that.
636
00:25:39,841 --> 00:25:41,308
100%.
637
00:25:44,761 --> 00:25:46,284
None of this is easy.
638
00:25:46,514 --> 00:25:49,448
All of it
is confusing and...
639
00:25:49,972 --> 00:25:52,253
[sighs] hard and awful.
640
00:25:52,338 --> 00:25:56,300
But even with Alzheimer's,
she's been healthy.
641
00:25:56,608 --> 00:25:59,629
And now I'm
watching her struggle
642
00:25:59,714 --> 00:26:04,612
to do the most basic
of human reflexes... breathing.
643
00:26:04,975 --> 00:26:07,847
And if she's saying
she's not ready to go...
644
00:26:09,630 --> 00:26:11,823
I don't know what to think.
645
00:26:12,569 --> 00:26:14,261
I felt so sure
646
00:26:14,472 --> 00:26:17,168
that she wouldn't want to live
like she's been living,
647
00:26:17,253 --> 00:26:20,214
but maybe I'm wrong, yeah?
648
00:26:20,298 --> 00:26:25,105
Maybe she's happy in the world
her mind takes her to.
649
00:26:25,386 --> 00:26:27,888
Now I'm questioning
every choice I made.
650
00:26:27,972 --> 00:26:29,473
I mean,
s-should I be doing more?
651
00:26:29,557 --> 00:26:33,012
Should I move her to the ICU?
Intubate her?
652
00:26:33,097 --> 00:26:35,355
Am I just thinking about
how I feel
653
00:26:35,440 --> 00:26:39,167
instead of what's going on
with her... inside of her mind?
654
00:26:40,071 --> 00:26:42,175
- Do you want my opinion?
- Please.
655
00:26:42,776 --> 00:26:46,487
I've been the one
who does everything,
656
00:26:46,616 --> 00:26:51,581
who fights tooth and nail
against death at all costs.
657
00:26:52,473 --> 00:26:55,434
But truthfully,
with my mom,
658
00:26:55,519 --> 00:26:58,370
it didn't give me
more peace of mind in the end.
659
00:26:59,420 --> 00:27:01,714
It might have done
the opposite.
660
00:27:02,262 --> 00:27:07,675
I didn't think so at the time,
but it was the easier choice.
661
00:27:08,080 --> 00:27:10,707
To fall back on
acting like a surgeon
662
00:27:10,792 --> 00:27:12,851
and searching
for all the answers.
663
00:27:15,494 --> 00:27:20,331
Bailey, you've given your mom
so much.
664
00:27:20,759 --> 00:27:23,082
She's gotten to raise you
665
00:27:23,167 --> 00:27:25,996
and watch you turn into
this incredible surgeon
666
00:27:26,081 --> 00:27:27,776
and chief of a hospital.
667
00:27:27,879 --> 00:27:29,878
She watched you
fall in love.
668
00:27:30,071 --> 00:27:32,386
- Twice.
- Twice!
669
00:27:32,745 --> 00:27:35,526
[ Laughs ]
And raise a family.
670
00:27:38,488 --> 00:27:43,296
Of course you're never going
to feel ready to say goodbye,
671
00:27:43,381 --> 00:27:44,831
but...
672
00:27:46,097 --> 00:27:48,401
she's had an amazing life.
673
00:27:48,525 --> 00:27:53,206
Bailey: I brought my parents
to Seattle kicking and fighting.
674
00:27:53,305 --> 00:27:56,105
I promised them,
if they moved here,
675
00:27:56,311 --> 00:27:58,206
it was the right thing
to do
676
00:27:58,291 --> 00:28:01,073
so they could be closer
to their only daughter.
677
00:28:01,216 --> 00:28:04,230
I told them I knew best.
Just listen to me.
678
00:28:04,315 --> 00:28:07,519
And if they hadn't done that,
they would still be at home.
679
00:28:07,604 --> 00:28:08,771
Isolated.
680
00:28:08,856 --> 00:28:10,926
And Mom wouldn't be dying.
Not yet.
681
00:28:11,011 --> 00:28:12,026
You don't know that.
682
00:28:12,111 --> 00:28:14,745
She was exposed at the place
that I set up for them.
683
00:28:14,845 --> 00:28:20,401
The... The facility let someone
move in from New York,
684
00:28:20,587 --> 00:28:22,636
a retired surgeon.
685
00:28:22,799 --> 00:28:26,093
He became symptomatic
the day after his arrival.
686
00:28:26,267 --> 00:28:30,348
Afterthey said they had
shut down to all outsiders,
687
00:28:30,433 --> 00:28:31,425
including family.
688
00:28:31,510 --> 00:28:33,806
How in the hell could you have
known that was going to happen?
689
00:28:33,890 --> 00:28:37,894
How could you have known
any of this was going to happen?
690
00:28:38,002 --> 00:28:40,916
Bailey, you cannot
feel guilty about this.
691
00:28:41,001 --> 00:28:42,752
[ Chuckles ]
692
00:28:46,449 --> 00:28:49,026
My mom, she left me
five voicemails
693
00:28:49,111 --> 00:28:50,779
for my birthday
last year.
694
00:28:50,864 --> 00:28:52,800
She kept calling
695
00:28:52,885 --> 00:28:54,701
because she forgot
that she had already
696
00:28:54,786 --> 00:28:56,761
wished me happy birthday.
697
00:28:57,124 --> 00:29:00,836
- There they are.
- Elena: ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪
698
00:29:01,058 --> 00:29:02,418
I never deleted them
699
00:29:02,502 --> 00:29:05,378
because I guess I realized
700
00:29:05,485 --> 00:29:08,362
that it might be the last time
she remembered at all.
701
00:29:08,508 --> 00:29:11,042
[ Phone clicks, singing stops ]
702
00:29:11,226 --> 00:29:14,956
She raised me
to be a good little girl.
703
00:29:15,157 --> 00:29:19,119
And even
when I defied her...
704
00:29:19,258 --> 00:29:22,284
[Chuckles]
I was never disrespectful.
705
00:29:22,470 --> 00:29:26,620
And I tried
to be good at everything.
706
00:29:26,705 --> 00:29:30,058
A good student,
a good mother.
707
00:29:30,155 --> 00:29:33,222
Wife, doctor, chief.
708
00:29:33,406 --> 00:29:37,331
And now she just needs me
to be a good daughter,
709
00:29:37,478 --> 00:29:39,542
and I'm not sure
how to do that,
710
00:29:39,627 --> 00:29:42,129
even though it's what I've been
the longest.
711
00:29:42,315 --> 00:29:44,534
You've chosen
palliative care.
712
00:29:45,779 --> 00:29:48,433
You're giving her
the best care possible
713
00:29:48,518 --> 00:29:52,021
while keeping her
as comfortable as possible.
714
00:29:52,106 --> 00:29:53,565
That is good.
715
00:29:53,650 --> 00:29:57,954
And it is kind
and respectful
716
00:29:58,039 --> 00:29:59,206
and brave.
717
00:29:59,392 --> 00:30:01,948
♪ I'm gonna lay down
718
00:30:02,064 --> 00:30:04,690
I wish I could've given my mom
a more dignified death.
719
00:30:04,782 --> 00:30:06,898
♪ Lay down some roots,
this rolling stone ♪
720
00:30:06,983 --> 00:30:11,401
But I pushed so hard.
721
00:30:11,536 --> 00:30:15,665
♪ He's gonna lay down
722
00:30:15,866 --> 00:30:18,159
You know, it's her own
damn fault, really.
723
00:30:18,244 --> 00:30:19,327
♪ For you
724
00:30:19,427 --> 00:30:22,233
My whole life, she told me
to push through.
725
00:30:22,336 --> 00:30:24,249
[ Chuckles ]
726
00:30:24,399 --> 00:30:27,163
Be strong.
Fight the good fight.
727
00:30:27,355 --> 00:30:30,179
My mom was
kind of the opposite.
728
00:30:30,293 --> 00:30:33,087
Like, overprotective,
like, hovering.
729
00:30:33,358 --> 00:30:35,804
There was a reception
730
00:30:35,889 --> 00:30:38,921
sponsored by
the Daughters of the Revolution.
731
00:30:39,006 --> 00:30:41,147
They had given me
a scholarship.
732
00:30:41,232 --> 00:30:42,399
[ Snorts ]
733
00:30:42,484 --> 00:30:45,702
So my mom said
I should take the scholarship
734
00:30:45,787 --> 00:30:47,830
but not
go to the reception.
735
00:30:47,915 --> 00:30:50,054
But I didn't want to give them
that satisfaction.
736
00:30:50,218 --> 00:30:52,257
No, I wanted them to see
737
00:30:52,342 --> 00:30:55,108
what "Miranda Bailey"
looked like, right?
738
00:30:55,193 --> 00:30:58,819
So I went with my dad.
739
00:30:58,904 --> 00:31:00,781
[ Both laugh ]
740
00:31:01,246 --> 00:31:04,248
We had a good laugh
741
00:31:04,332 --> 00:31:08,741
at those very proper ladies.
742
00:31:08,834 --> 00:31:11,002
I think you mean
"white" ladies.
743
00:31:11,109 --> 00:31:12,944
- Uh... [ Laughs ]
- Yeah.
744
00:31:13,029 --> 00:31:16,407
Watching them try to hide
their horror
745
00:31:16,573 --> 00:31:19,827
when they saw who they had
given their scholarship to,
746
00:31:19,912 --> 00:31:22,497
yeah, that was classic.
[ Chuckles ]
747
00:31:22,582 --> 00:31:24,126
Oh, and guidance counselors,
oh, my God.
748
00:31:24,210 --> 00:31:26,670
Oh, yeah, yeah,
always trying to suggest
749
00:31:26,755 --> 00:31:29,210
a school where we might
feel "more comfortable."
750
00:31:29,315 --> 00:31:31,702
"Oh, Wellesley.
751
00:31:31,787 --> 00:31:34,593
That's a fine school, Miranda.
752
00:31:34,695 --> 00:31:38,179
But, um, I think state school
is more your speed."
753
00:31:38,264 --> 00:31:40,057
- Mm-hmm.
- Like I don't know my speed.
754
00:31:40,142 --> 00:31:42,311
- Please.
- Try harder and do better
755
00:31:42,396 --> 00:31:43,813
just to be
considered average.
756
00:31:43,898 --> 00:31:45,983
Or to be considered
at all.
757
00:31:46,068 --> 00:31:49,757
But how they underestimate
our greatness.
758
00:31:49,842 --> 00:31:52,386
- Graduated magna cum laude...
- Mm-hmm.
759
00:31:52,471 --> 00:31:56,062
...with my biology degree,
by the way.
760
00:31:56,565 --> 00:32:01,528
And you better bet my mom cut
out the graduation announcement
761
00:32:01,613 --> 00:32:04,282
from Wellesley and mailed it
to my guidance counselor.
762
00:32:04,367 --> 00:32:07,161
[ Both laugh ]
763
00:32:07,502 --> 00:32:09,499
[ Sighs deeply ]
764
00:32:09,689 --> 00:32:12,585
[ Both chuckle ]
765
00:32:12,670 --> 00:32:15,255
I don't know
how I'm gonna do this.
766
00:32:15,528 --> 00:32:16,904
♪♪
767
00:32:16,988 --> 00:32:19,038
[ Sighs ]
768
00:32:19,324 --> 00:32:21,367
♪♪
769
00:32:27,554 --> 00:32:30,348
Oh. Uh, I c...
I can come back.
770
00:32:30,432 --> 00:32:33,184
No. No, no, no. Uh, no,
I just finished up his EEG.
771
00:32:33,268 --> 00:32:34,935
I wanted to, um, make sure
772
00:32:35,019 --> 00:32:36,312
that the seizure
was a one-and-done,
773
00:32:36,396 --> 00:32:40,066
before I head home,
take 10 scalding hot showers,
774
00:32:40,150 --> 00:32:41,859
and hug up on everybody.
775
00:32:41,943 --> 00:32:46,072
Um, Maggie says
that his numbers are holding.
776
00:32:46,156 --> 00:32:48,077
Good. Thanks.
777
00:32:49,231 --> 00:32:50,607
[ Door closes ]
778
00:32:51,011 --> 00:32:53,013
[ Monitor beeping ]
779
00:32:59,006 --> 00:33:00,418
I don't know
if you were ignoring me
780
00:33:00,503 --> 00:33:01,879
when I came by the house
781
00:33:01,963 --> 00:33:03,881
or... or if you were
just too sick to answer,
782
00:33:03,965 --> 00:33:06,133
but I-I'm...
I'm gonna go with too sick
783
00:33:06,217 --> 00:33:09,437
'cause then... then maybe
there's a-a ray of hope for us,
784
00:33:09,522 --> 00:33:12,013
which I could really use
right now,
785
00:33:12,098 --> 00:33:13,796
and I know you could.
786
00:33:15,476 --> 00:33:16,727
You know, I'm...
I'm gonna stop asking.
787
00:33:16,811 --> 00:33:17,780
I'm just gonna decide.
788
00:33:17,865 --> 00:33:22,094
I-I'm deciding that
we mean enough to each other
789
00:33:22,179 --> 00:33:24,835
that, even though
I hurt you and I-I...
790
00:33:26,320 --> 00:33:28,363
I hurt you
more than I could ever imagine,
791
00:33:28,455 --> 00:33:31,218
that a repair could be made,
that...
792
00:33:33,703 --> 00:33:36,914
maybe you could...
remember
793
00:33:36,998 --> 00:33:38,708
some of the things
that you don't hate about me
794
00:33:38,792 --> 00:33:42,015
and we... we could salvage
our friendship because...
795
00:33:43,494 --> 00:33:45,445
I don't know how we're going
to get through this pandemic,
796
00:33:45,529 --> 00:33:47,322
but I do know... I do know
797
00:33:47,407 --> 00:33:49,279
that we're not going
to get through it alone.
798
00:33:49,364 --> 00:33:52,158
So if you want
to have nothing to do with me,
799
00:33:52,305 --> 00:33:54,056
then you are just going
to have to get all better
800
00:33:54,140 --> 00:33:55,182
and tell me yourself,
801
00:33:55,266 --> 00:33:57,101
because until I hear you
say the words,
802
00:33:57,185 --> 00:33:58,866
you're not gonna get rid of me.
803
00:33:58,951 --> 00:34:02,329
♪♪
804
00:34:03,051 --> 00:34:04,827
Oh, my God. Tom. Tom?
805
00:34:05,331 --> 00:34:06,804
Tom, can you hear me?
806
00:34:07,247 --> 00:34:09,546
It's me.
It's... It's Teddy.
807
00:34:10,033 --> 00:34:11,742
Koracick:
You were wrong.
808
00:34:11,827 --> 00:34:12,991
Wrong about what?
809
00:34:13,076 --> 00:34:14,410
♪ The setting free
810
00:34:14,494 --> 00:34:16,249
When you came to my house.
811
00:34:17,037 --> 00:34:18,330
I was ignoring you.
812
00:34:18,415 --> 00:34:21,042
♪ The bittersweet
but sweet release ♪
813
00:34:21,181 --> 00:34:25,304
Did you hear
everything I-I just said?
814
00:34:25,467 --> 00:34:27,468
♪ A heavy sky
815
00:34:27,635 --> 00:34:29,538
[ Chuckles ]
I hate you.
816
00:34:29,718 --> 00:34:30,885
♪ Hangs on the sea
817
00:34:30,969 --> 00:34:33,077
Well, we both know
that's not true.
818
00:34:33,162 --> 00:34:34,663
♪♪
819
00:34:34,895 --> 00:34:36,473
[ Laughs, wheezes ]
820
00:34:36,558 --> 00:34:39,976
- ♪ Then all at once an opening
- [ Sighs ] Hey.
821
00:34:41,244 --> 00:34:43,329
What would you say
to a sponge bath?
822
00:34:43,570 --> 00:34:44,904
[ Laughs ]
823
00:34:44,989 --> 00:34:47,199
Well, but, you know,
as friends.
824
00:34:47,360 --> 00:34:49,366
Friendly sponge bath.
[ Chuckles ]
825
00:34:49,451 --> 00:34:54,497
♪ I am lifted, I am lifted
826
00:34:54,582 --> 00:34:59,628
♪ I am lifted, I am free
827
00:34:59,732 --> 00:35:04,820
♪ I've been holding on,
I've been holding on ♪
828
00:35:05,107 --> 00:35:12,358
♪ I've been holding on,
now I'm lifted ♪
829
00:35:12,523 --> 00:35:17,382
♪ We can learn to love
830
00:35:17,563 --> 00:35:19,063
- ♪ Without looking back
- Hey.
831
00:35:19,148 --> 00:35:20,781
I rounded on all
of Bailey's patients.
832
00:35:20,866 --> 00:35:23,594
DeLuca said he'll keep an eye on
them for the rest of the night.
833
00:35:23,686 --> 00:35:25,145
Yeah, thank you.
834
00:35:25,230 --> 00:35:27,732
Yeah, I hesitate to ask,
but how's her mom doing?
835
00:35:28,010 --> 00:35:30,077
They don't expect her
to last the night.
836
00:35:30,162 --> 00:35:33,710
♪ Everything is beautiful
837
00:35:33,882 --> 00:35:35,199
That's...
[ Sighs ]
838
00:35:35,283 --> 00:35:36,726
♪ I am lifted, I am lifted
839
00:35:36,811 --> 00:35:39,438
You realize half of our COVID
patients are Black and brown?
840
00:35:39,523 --> 00:35:40,569
I know.
841
00:35:40,654 --> 00:35:42,405
In a city that's 7% Black?
842
00:35:42,490 --> 00:35:44,867
Like, how does that
even compute?
843
00:35:45,116 --> 00:35:46,562
It doesn't.
844
00:35:46,685 --> 00:35:49,366
If I hear one more person blame
it on pre-existing conditions
845
00:35:49,451 --> 00:35:52,257
as if the conditions aren't
manmade to begin with...
846
00:35:52,451 --> 00:35:55,180
Like we're not pushed into the
front line of all of our jobs
847
00:35:55,265 --> 00:35:57,888
and forced to live
in overcrowded situations,
848
00:35:57,972 --> 00:35:59,710
surrounded by
environmental hazards.
849
00:35:59,795 --> 00:36:01,054
Yeah, people want
850
00:36:01,139 --> 00:36:03,766
to make everything bad
that happens your own fault.
851
00:36:03,878 --> 00:36:05,670
Yeah, when systemic racism
is the root
852
00:36:05,755 --> 00:36:07,423
of the whole damn thing.
Forget the pre-,
853
00:36:07,508 --> 00:36:09,301
it's the existing condition.
854
00:36:09,445 --> 00:36:10,821
Existing while Black.
855
00:36:10,906 --> 00:36:14,826
♪ I am lifted, I am free
856
00:36:15,073 --> 00:36:16,858
♪ I've been holding on
857
00:36:16,943 --> 00:36:19,069
You know, Richard, we both know
my mom is stubborn.
858
00:36:19,194 --> 00:36:21,119
♪ I've been holding on
too long ♪
859
00:36:21,204 --> 00:36:22,570
And everything she's been
through, I feel like
860
00:36:22,654 --> 00:36:25,030
she thinks she's invincible now,
and she's not.
861
00:36:25,115 --> 00:36:26,783
♪ I've been holding on
too long ♪
862
00:36:26,868 --> 00:36:29,046
We can't lose her, Richard.
863
00:36:30,012 --> 00:36:32,097
The world can't lose her,
you know?
864
00:36:32,182 --> 00:36:33,999
It's been handled.
865
00:36:34,511 --> 00:36:35,845
Oh, you talked to her?
866
00:36:36,101 --> 00:36:37,685
Oh, good.
867
00:36:37,770 --> 00:36:38,937
What'd you say?
868
00:36:39,022 --> 00:36:42,108
I think it's best
kept between us.
869
00:36:42,365 --> 00:36:44,874
Why are you
being weird about it?
870
00:36:45,217 --> 00:36:47,302
'Cause it's about sex,
isn't it?
871
00:36:47,496 --> 00:36:49,772
- It is.
- Thanks. Right. Good night.
872
00:36:49,857 --> 00:36:51,734
- [ Clears throat ]
- ♪ I am free
873
00:36:55,842 --> 00:36:58,897
Oh, my God.
That smells so good.
874
00:36:58,982 --> 00:37:00,421
We're sharing, right?
875
00:37:00,506 --> 00:37:02,546
Pod together, eat together?
Please say yes.
876
00:37:02,631 --> 00:37:04,883
I delivered a baby today.
877
00:37:05,543 --> 00:37:06,647
- Is that a yes?
- Yes!
878
00:37:06,732 --> 00:37:07,890
- Oh.
- Yes, yes.
879
00:37:07,975 --> 00:37:09,858
Wait, weren't we together
all day?
880
00:37:09,943 --> 00:37:12,179
What do you mean
you delivered a secret baby?
881
00:37:12,264 --> 00:37:14,710
Happened very quick.
I went to check on Luna,
882
00:37:14,795 --> 00:37:17,077
and this nurse said that there
was an imminent delivery,
883
00:37:17,162 --> 00:37:21,358
and the next second,
I was catching a baby.
884
00:37:21,846 --> 00:37:26,475
I was literally the first person
in the universe to hold him.
885
00:37:26,683 --> 00:37:28,392
And then I handed him
to his parents,
886
00:37:28,477 --> 00:37:31,249
and their faces
were just...
887
00:37:31,996 --> 00:37:33,705
No wonder
Val's so depressed.
888
00:37:33,790 --> 00:37:36,343
It's the happiest thing
I've ever seen.
889
00:37:36,428 --> 00:37:41,093
It was just so pure and simple
and perfect.
890
00:37:41,178 --> 00:37:42,637
I was buzzing.
891
00:37:42,722 --> 00:37:44,554
But it was a total
random fluke,
892
00:37:44,670 --> 00:37:47,421
and tomorrow, I'll be back
to the same depressing crap.
893
00:37:47,506 --> 00:37:50,452
I mean, you did
save Val's life today.
894
00:37:51,412 --> 00:37:53,047
You think that's why
Carina DeLuca
895
00:37:53,132 --> 00:37:54,734
- is always in such a good mood?
- [ Chuckles ]
896
00:37:54,818 --> 00:37:56,546
She's just, you know,
handing out babies,
897
00:37:56,631 --> 00:37:58,602
and it shoots her serotonin
level through the roof.
898
00:37:58,686 --> 00:38:02,593
Well, yeah, but doesn't she also
have, like, an orgasm hobby?
899
00:38:03,938 --> 00:38:05,272
What if I changed?
900
00:38:05,465 --> 00:38:06,840
Changed what?
901
00:38:06,925 --> 00:38:08,635
Careers. Programs.
902
00:38:08,720 --> 00:38:10,819
- [ Chuckles ]
- Is that insane?
903
00:38:10,904 --> 00:38:13,085
- [ Sighs ]
- Khan did it, and what he did
904
00:38:13,170 --> 00:38:16,006
is so much harder
than switching specialties.
905
00:38:16,091 --> 00:38:18,529
He started over
with nothing.
906
00:38:18,614 --> 00:38:21,045
And I know... I know
I've put years into surgery,
907
00:38:21,130 --> 00:38:23,404
but if it's not
bringing me any joy,
908
00:38:23,872 --> 00:38:28,154
then wouldn't it be insane
to notchange?
909
00:38:28,345 --> 00:38:32,873
I think you eat and then sleep
before you make any major li...
910
00:38:32,959 --> 00:38:35,068
Oh, my God.
I sound like my mother.
911
00:38:35,401 --> 00:38:37,217
[ Sighs ]
I want to be happy.
912
00:38:38,309 --> 00:38:39,631
Everyone's dying.
913
00:38:39,716 --> 00:38:41,420
Meredith's...
914
00:38:42,481 --> 00:38:45,359
Tomorrow is not promised.
915
00:38:45,661 --> 00:38:46,974
Not in marriage.
916
00:38:47,059 --> 00:38:48,592
Not in life.
917
00:38:49,201 --> 00:38:50,740
I want to be happy.
918
00:38:50,930 --> 00:38:55,935
♪♪
919
00:38:56,862 --> 00:38:58,756
She's decompensating.
920
00:39:00,364 --> 00:39:01,779
You should go in.
921
00:39:03,671 --> 00:39:06,435
She barely knows
who I am.
922
00:39:07,143 --> 00:39:09,623
And I want
to be there for her.
923
00:39:09,774 --> 00:39:13,402
I-I want her husband
to be there for her.
924
00:39:13,487 --> 00:39:18,084
She deserves to be surrounded
by love and family.
925
00:39:19,192 --> 00:39:21,037
But Dad's in quarantine.
926
00:39:21,338 --> 00:39:25,405
He's high-risk, and I don't
want him to expose anyone.
927
00:39:25,490 --> 00:39:27,511
I don't want him
to be exposed.
928
00:39:27,596 --> 00:39:30,545
I know this is not what
you imagined for your mother.
929
00:39:30,630 --> 00:39:33,193
And I'm sorry about that.
930
00:39:34,296 --> 00:39:36,185
But she needs you now.
931
00:39:38,049 --> 00:39:40,027
It's time.
932
00:39:40,380 --> 00:39:42,042
And if you don't go in,
933
00:39:42,194 --> 00:39:45,042
I promise
you will never forgive yourself.
934
00:39:45,127 --> 00:39:46,511
♪♪
935
00:39:46,611 --> 00:39:47,652
[ Crying ]
936
00:39:47,737 --> 00:39:49,292
I'm scared.
937
00:39:50,575 --> 00:39:54,378
- ♪ I've got sunshine
- I know.
938
00:39:54,604 --> 00:39:56,363
- ♪ On a cloudy day
- We'll do it together.
939
00:39:56,619 --> 00:39:58,417
Bailey:
Patients lose their power
940
00:39:58,502 --> 00:40:01,527
when they are referred to
as "Bed number 4"
941
00:40:01,612 --> 00:40:03,151
or "arm pain guy."
942
00:40:03,283 --> 00:40:04,160
[ Sighs ]
943
00:40:04,322 --> 00:40:07,377
- ♪ I've got the month of May
- Even in their deaths,
944
00:40:07,462 --> 00:40:09,815
they are not faceless.
945
00:40:10,176 --> 00:40:12,005
They are not nameless.
946
00:40:12,090 --> 00:40:15,733
- ♪ I guess you'd say
- They are more than statistics.
947
00:40:15,841 --> 00:40:17,976
♪ What can make me ♪
948
00:40:18,068 --> 00:40:20,297
- ♪ feel this way? ♪
- [ Door closes ]
949
00:40:20,746 --> 00:40:22,962
More than
"co-morbid conditions"
950
00:40:23,047 --> 00:40:24,928
or "nursing-home patients."
951
00:40:25,406 --> 00:40:26,710
♪ My girl
952
00:40:26,795 --> 00:40:30,475
They are sons, brothers,
and uncles
953
00:40:30,560 --> 00:40:32,019
who speak five languages
954
00:40:32,139 --> 00:40:36,788
- and run restaurants... Wade Klein, 66.
- ♪ My girl
955
00:40:37,492 --> 00:40:41,163
They are great-grandfathers
who love Broadway...
956
00:40:41,248 --> 00:40:43,592
Jacob Lappin, 92.
957
00:40:43,677 --> 00:40:48,181
♪ I don't need no money
958
00:40:48,283 --> 00:40:53,120
♪ Fortune or fame
959
00:40:53,205 --> 00:40:56,061
♪ I got all the riches, baby
960
00:40:56,146 --> 00:41:00,024
They are baseball loving
nurses with an easy laugh...
961
00:41:00,109 --> 00:41:02,575
Dane Wilson, 45.
962
00:41:02,660 --> 00:41:07,997
♪ I guess you'd say
963
00:41:08,538 --> 00:41:12,122
♪ What can make me feel
964
00:41:12,282 --> 00:41:15,242
- ♪ This way?
- ♪ This way?
965
00:41:15,497 --> 00:41:18,669
- ♪ My girl
- ♪ My girl
966
00:41:18,772 --> 00:41:24,195
♪ Talking 'bout my girl
♪ Talking 'bout my girl
967
00:41:24,280 --> 00:41:26,407
♪♪
968
00:41:26,492 --> 00:41:27,993
♪ My girl ♪
969
00:41:28,078 --> 00:41:29,888
It's okay.
970
00:41:31,278 --> 00:41:33,044
- Okay.
- ♪ My girl
971
00:41:33,129 --> 00:41:34,122
[ Flatline ]
972
00:41:34,207 --> 00:41:37,271
They are the world's
greatest mothers,
973
00:41:37,356 --> 00:41:40,708
and they are
the most beloved wives...
974
00:41:40,793 --> 00:41:45,060
Elena Rose Bailey, 84.
975
00:41:45,152 --> 00:41:48,403
[ Flatline ]
976
00:41:48,491 --> 00:41:50,750
♪♪
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