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When I made love to him
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I dwell in the mystery
of our oneness.
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It was a feeling so spiritual
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It was as though I
should remove my shoes
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in the presence of the holy.
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With my lips.
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I traced my name upon his skin,
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and I'd find God there.
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With my heart pressed
against his chest
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his breath breathing
life into my soul,
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I could live again.
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I'd see my lover there.
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And no longer was it,
that I want him, need him
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or loved him, but that...
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..I was him.
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This was Chris, my
mission companion.
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Five years ago, we
were separated,
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after it was discovered,
that we were slightly more
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than just mission companions.
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I was immediately sent home,
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and Chris was allowed to
stay in Clackamas Falls.
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But we kept in touch.
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And after his mission,
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We went on a trip
across America.
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We had time of our lives.
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For a few months, we weren't
Elder Smith and Elder Merrill.
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We had no obligations
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and no pressure from our
families or the church.
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We were just Chris and RJ.
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On our own and loving
every minute of it.
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After some time, we faced
the reality, that we would
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eventually, have to go home.
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I drove into Salt Lake,
Chris' home town.
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We agreed to take care of
our respective loose ends.
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And he talked about transferring
to Poisy State with me.
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We kissed and said goodbye.
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And I went home to Idaho Falls.
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I never saw him again.
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I sent letters, I'd call...
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And nothing.
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If only I knew, what
happened to him,
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then maybe, I'd
have some closure.
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These days I live in Seattle.
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I'm neither Mormon, nor gentile.
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I was never formally
excommunicated.
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I just stopped associating
myself with the church at all.
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But... I still wear
my temple garments
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I still have a food storage.
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And I still have a deep love...
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for our Heavenly Father.
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So, from what you've
been telling me...
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you've been working
hard to stay focussed
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and maintain the
standing of the Church.
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Yes, sir.
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Six months ago, I was intimate
with my mission companion,
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even though I knew it was wrong.
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Do you still think that you are
unfazed of same-sex attraction?
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I am much stronger now.
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Would you like to continue
your service to your Church ?
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Yes, I would.
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More than anything.
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As I said before,
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our Heavenly Father doesn't
present to us any temptation...
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that we do not have the
power to overcome.
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It's a choice, that we make
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To act in virtue, or
give in to temptation.
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Considering your humility and
desire to do the right thing,
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I see no need for
disciplinary action.
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Thank you.
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Thank you.
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It is an honor to witness
two young people...
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So deeply in love,
and so dedicated
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to the church and
our Heavenly Father.
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Marriage is for eternity
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It is the love,that
will last in this life...
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.. and the next.
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Your dedication...
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to the Church and to this
family, has brought you here.
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You've been given
a second chance.
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I know...
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that you have the courage...
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and the strentgh, to stay on
the right track, this time.
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I love you, son.
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I love you too.
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Now, what do you say, we
get back in there and
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join what's left of the party.
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I'm so sorry, Dad.
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I'm so sorry, for everything.
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Now, Chris...
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You've done the right thing.
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- Alright?
- Yes
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I am so proud of you.
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- Are you okay?
- Yes sir, I'm fine.
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I'm gonna go join the party.
You take a minute.
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- Come when you're ready.
- Yes sir.
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Okay, I'm gonna be late.
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You know I have somewhere
else to be too.
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I know.
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I have a meeting...
in like 30 minutes.
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And ?
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- I got to go.
- No..
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You know I wrestled
in Highschool...
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and College.
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Okay. Okay.
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- Now, you shouldn't eat that stuff.
- And why not?
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- It's loaded with sugar?
- I like sugar.
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Thank you.
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- Want some?
- No
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You know? I'm nervous
about tonight.
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Don't be.
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Are you sure you ready for this?
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No.
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- You think it's time, they met us?
- Yup.
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I gotta go.
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I'm gonna be late.
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Bye !
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Sorry.
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Sorry.
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Hey, Rodney!
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- RJ? I'm his mother.
- Oh... Well, how are you?
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Unfortunately, very badly.
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I'm sorry to hear that...
Is everything okay?
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Sorry RJ, But Rodney died.
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- You want some chicken?
- Is really good!
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Amazingly good. You
gonna love it.
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Who is calling me?
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- I do not know.
- Sorry.
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- You want one of Mummy's?
- No, no?
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Hello?
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Speaking.
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Yes, Mam! How are you?
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Oh no!
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Did I ever tell you
about Rodney?
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A little...
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I met him on my mission, with
my mission companion Chris,
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He was a veteran of Iraq.
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He had PTST, so
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We tried so hard to
convert him, but...
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We'd always end up hanging
out and smoking pot..
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He was always so accepting
of Chris and I.
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Yes.
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You did talk about him.
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- Are you going to the funeral?
- I think so.
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Okay.
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Sorry, I'm late. How long
are you waiting for?
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About twenty minutes.
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- Hello, sorry.
- It was nothing.
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Mom, Dad, this is Paul.
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- It's a pleasure to finally meet you.
- Nice to meet you, Paul.
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- Hi - Hi.
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- Good to meet you.
- Good to meet you too.
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- So, how was your flight?
- Bumpy.
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- Do I want to ask?
- Yes, we will ask.
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What do you want to drink?
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- I mineral water..
- I Coca Cola.
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- Well, I drink.
- Thank you.
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- So Coca-Cola?
- Yes
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So... Mr. and Mrs. Smith,
How long are you in town?
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- Just till Sunday evening...
- We're just here for the weekend
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- We don't want to be in the way.
- Dad you're not in the way.
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- I do not know, we never hear from you.
- Tom... - No!
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I'm not trying to start anything,
I'm just saying,
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I wish to hear from my son more.
I misshim.
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Mary Ann calls at
least once a week.
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- Okay, I'll check in more
- That would be nice.
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So Paul, what do you do?
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- I am a personal trainer.
- Oh that's nice.
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- Paul is working on his MBA.
- Oh really?
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Tell RJ that has to
completing his masters.
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- I'll tell you the same.
- Okay, okay.
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Maybe at some point...
but... Not now.
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- And how's work?
- It goes well, yes.
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I'm not independent, I
am in the office too...
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But additionally
nothing interesting.
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I do not know. Nothing
too exciting.
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How is the shop, Dad?
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Well. All is well. I
can not complain.
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Do you know Mr. Smith,
my father is a mechanic.
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Really?
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Yes, he works primarily
on Swedish automobiles.
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- Well... they know how to make cars...
- Yes.
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- Gloria? - Yes -. I'm RJ.
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How nice to finally meet you.
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- I'm so glad you came.
- No, I would not miss it for anything.
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You know, not many people knew
and I did not go there often.
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Nice to meet two of
his good friends.
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- I also loved meeting her.
- Thank you.
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Rodney was a complex man.
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And through the hardships
that life threw at him,
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he had this amazing
ability to make us laugh.
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Some of you may not know
this about Rodney, but
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he was a religious man.
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Though he may not have
considered himself, to be so.
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Though he alluded the
Doctrines of Faith,
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he embodied their essence.
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And as a lifelong seeker,
he had an amazing ability
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to help people find their way.
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There is a heaven.
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And Rodney is there.
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- Amen - Amen.
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I'm sorry for your loss.
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Thank you.
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Thank you.
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RJ!
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I almost forgot
to give you this.
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- He was going to mail it to you.
- Thank you.
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- You keep in touch now.
- I will.
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I'm sorry your loss.
I will miss him.
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I am too.
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- Take care now, you.
- I will.
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And don't open that here.
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- Chris!
- Chris.
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Yes?
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How are you?
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Yeah, ehm...
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Can we go somewhere and talk?
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- What do you wanna talk about?
- Maybe we can catch up.
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- Hi - Hi.
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What a day.
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Yes.
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Did you get to speak to him?
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- To Rodney?
- Yeah...
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No... not really.
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I spoke to him a few times
after the end of the mission.
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But we lost contact.
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- You talked to him?
- A few months ago. Yes.
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- Sometimes I visited.
- Great.
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I can't believe he's gone.
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Wish I had a chance
to say goodbye.
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He had nothing but
fond memories of you.
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It's good to hear.
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It's surreal, is not it?
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Yes.
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Sitting here with you
is very surreal.
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- How long has it been?
- Five years. - Five years.
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- You did this?
- I did it, but...
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I said a month or
two or so and...
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- Ok -. Yes.
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Well, how's life?
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I'm happily married,
I live in Salt Lake
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I have a little
daughter, three years
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I can not believe that.
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I work in pharmaceutical sales, so...
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life's pretty good.
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- Are you married?
- Yes
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She's amazing, she's
like an angel.
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I don't have a picture to show, but...
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she's incredible.
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- I'm happy for you.
- Thank you.
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What about you?
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I'm the Earth and Culture
editor at a Seattle magazine.
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Yes, and I've ehm...
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I've written a couple of
short non-fiction books.
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- Really? - Yes.
- Can I find them anywhere?
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Yeah, they're in
some bookstores.
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I haven't really inquired after
all means of distribution,
258
00:22:43,772 --> 00:22:45,066
but yeah, they're there.
- Oh.
259
00:22:46,657 --> 00:22:48,567
- I'll look for them.
- Cool.
260
00:22:57,876 --> 00:22:59,626
Are you seeing anybody? Or...
261
00:23:01,108 --> 00:23:03,311
- I've been seeing someone for a while.
- Ok.
262
00:23:03,521 --> 00:23:06,054
- We are doing well.
- What is her name?
263
00:23:08,303 --> 00:23:09,116
Paul.
264
00:23:18,228 --> 00:23:20,104
It's reaslly good
to see you, Chris.
265
00:23:21,780 --> 00:23:23,031
It's good to see you too.
266
00:23:25,944 --> 00:23:28,483
I'm sorry it's under
these circumstances.
267
00:23:29,121 --> 00:23:30,790
Yes, me too, but...
268
00:23:32,325 --> 00:23:34,386
our Heavenly Father had a plan.
269
00:23:39,972 --> 00:23:42,659
Listen, I hate to make this
brief, but I have a really early
270
00:23:42,685 --> 00:23:45,500
flight tomorrow morning, and
it has been a very long day.
271
00:23:46,505 --> 00:23:49,006
It looks like they're
closing up here anyhow,
272
00:23:49,048 --> 00:23:51,353
so I'm going to bed.
273
00:23:51,379 --> 00:23:53,986
- But it was nice.
- Yes, it was good.
274
00:23:55,555 --> 00:23:56,527
Can I walk you up?
275
00:23:57,394 --> 00:23:59,132
You wanna walk me to my room?
276
00:23:59,273 --> 00:24:00,116
Yes.
277
00:24:01,435 --> 00:24:04,604
- Yes, of course.
- Okay. Yeah.
278
00:24:05,321 --> 00:24:06,780
That'll be fine.
279
00:24:11,236 --> 00:24:12,237
Thanks,
280
00:24:18,660 --> 00:24:20,202
Well, this is me.
281
00:24:31,630 --> 00:24:32,840
Chris.
282
00:24:34,924 --> 00:24:37,219
Are you sure there's nothing
else you wanna talk about?
283
00:24:38,386 --> 00:24:40,704
What exactly would
you like to talk about?
284
00:24:45,977 --> 00:24:48,391
You can't just pretend,
that nothing happened.
285
00:24:52,524 --> 00:24:53,233
R.J.
286
00:24:55,848 --> 00:24:58,043
Its good to see you, and I'm
glad you're doing well...
287
00:24:58,155 --> 00:25:00,247
but I came here to pay
my respects Rodney...
288
00:25:00,364 --> 00:25:01,270
So did I.
289
00:25:02,534 --> 00:25:04,620
Then I need you to respect that.
290
00:25:08,289 --> 00:25:09,196
Okay.
291
00:25:13,711 --> 00:25:14,962
Good night.
292
00:27:08,074 --> 00:27:12,074
♫ ♫
293
00:27:22,332 --> 00:27:26,376
♪ I can withstand ♪
294
00:27:26,752 --> 00:27:30,255
♪ All tragedies ♪
295
00:27:30,297 --> 00:27:34,218
♪ And sins, inflicted ♪
296
00:27:34,259 --> 00:27:37,755
♪ upon me ♪
297
00:27:38,007 --> 00:27:44,875
♪ And sickness without remedy ♪
298
00:27:44,901 --> 00:27:47,945
♪ With my heart ... ♪
299
00:27:48,356 --> 00:27:51,150
- Hey
- Hey.
300
00:27:58,949 --> 00:27:59,866
Thank you.
301
00:28:03,036 --> 00:28:04,980
- Hope you don't mind I'm here?
- No
302
00:28:18,092 --> 00:28:20,995
- How are you?
- I'm good, how are you?
303
00:28:21,512 --> 00:28:22,972
Good.
304
00:28:24,841 --> 00:28:26,295
You look tired?
305
00:28:27,975 --> 00:28:29,937
Yes, a little, I am.
306
00:28:36,943 --> 00:28:39,695
- I hope you're hungry?
- You cooked for me?
307
00:28:39,736 --> 00:28:42,448
- Oh, maybe.
- Thank you.
308
00:28:54,501 --> 00:28:55,339
It looks amazing.
309
00:28:55,365 --> 00:28:57,778
I wanted something
ready when you got here.
310
00:28:58,254 --> 00:29:00,122
- It's great.
- Want some?
311
00:29:24,821 --> 00:29:27,364
You look so good in your suit.
312
00:29:27,406 --> 00:29:28,324
Thank you.
313
00:29:31,535 --> 00:29:32,536
Hey guess what?
314
00:29:33,575 --> 00:29:34,129
What?
315
00:29:34,325 --> 00:29:36,332
I'm fiinally gonna
get my red jacket.
316
00:29:36,551 --> 00:29:37,746
- Really?
- Yeah.
317
00:29:37,772 --> 00:29:40,319
- Congratulations baby!
- Thank you.
318
00:29:45,563 --> 00:29:48,968
- I'm so proud of you.
- Thank you.
319
00:30:22,625 --> 00:30:24,813
- Feels good.
- Yeah?
320
00:31:01,161 --> 00:31:03,110
I'm so sorry.
321
00:31:03,705 --> 00:31:05,081
What's wrong?
322
00:31:09,294 --> 00:31:11,274
It's been a rough couple
of days, you know.
323
00:31:11,604 --> 00:31:12,364
Yeah.
324
00:31:13,547 --> 00:31:14,731
It's okay.
325
00:31:15,739 --> 00:31:17,197
It's okay.
326
00:31:17,801 --> 00:31:19,162
I'm so sorry.
327
00:31:21,388 --> 00:31:22,473
It's okay.
328
00:31:26,560 --> 00:31:30,415
- I think I'm too tired.
- Yes I know.
329
00:31:39,363 --> 00:31:40,826
I love you.
330
00:34:08,092 --> 00:34:10,334
- Hey.
- How are you?
331
00:34:10,487 --> 00:34:12,865
- Okay, and you?
- Good, how's work?
332
00:34:13,326 --> 00:34:16,365
- It's good, how was your day?
- Fantastic...
333
00:34:17,603 --> 00:34:19,540
- So much work.
- Good, good.
334
00:34:19,566 --> 00:34:21,818
Do you want anything?
335
00:34:22,516 --> 00:34:26,014
I tell you in just a minute...
This is such a nice surprise.
336
00:34:35,486 --> 00:34:37,029
Hey, what's up?
337
00:34:42,701 --> 00:34:44,560
You know I've always
been honest with you.
338
00:34:45,871 --> 00:34:46,956
Yes.
339
00:34:54,003 --> 00:34:56,463
I don't think we should
see each other for a while.
340
00:35:12,312 --> 00:35:13,522
Why?
341
00:35:15,732 --> 00:35:18,920
Cause I don't think I can give
you what you need, right now.
342
00:35:34,875 --> 00:35:36,813
God, what is this?
343
00:35:39,087 --> 00:35:42,382
I mean, we have met your family.
344
00:35:42,408 --> 00:35:43,813
We did meet your parents.
345
00:35:49,388 --> 00:35:50,649
I know...
346
00:35:51,098 --> 00:35:53,435
I know, it's taken me a
long time to get here,
347
00:35:53,461 --> 00:35:57,030
but I am here, with
everthing that I am.
348
00:36:01,465 --> 00:36:03,722
You are everything
that I ever wanted.
349
00:36:19,917 --> 00:36:22,189
It's always been you...
350
00:36:23,128 --> 00:36:24,792
who's been holding us back.
351
00:36:25,432 --> 00:36:26,966
- You know that?
- I know that.
352
00:36:32,096 --> 00:36:34,056
I know what this is about.
353
00:36:39,651 --> 00:36:40,651
I know!
354
00:36:47,940 --> 00:36:48,776
You go...
355
00:36:50,034 --> 00:36:50,987
..you go do...
356
00:36:51,424 --> 00:36:54,075
whatever it is, that
you have to do.
357
00:36:57,285 --> 00:36:59,276
But I want you to know...
358
00:36:59,507 --> 00:37:00,187
that I ...
359
00:37:00,895 --> 00:37:02,137
I may not still be here, just
360
00:37:02,163 --> 00:37:04,094
waiting for you,
when you get back.
361
00:37:14,051 --> 00:37:15,262
Please stay.
362
00:37:58,676 --> 00:38:00,685
He handles all the marketing.
363
00:38:01,799 --> 00:38:03,050
Can you hold on a second?
364
00:38:03,556 --> 00:38:07,019
Hey, I was wondering, do you think
you need me around next week?
365
00:38:07,684 --> 00:38:09,561
You haven't really
been here much, Rick.
366
00:38:09,603 --> 00:38:12,524
Right, but I was thinking about
taking a writing vacatioin,
367
00:38:12,618 --> 00:38:15,735
I'm working on a story.
I think you gonna love it
368
00:38:15,796 --> 00:38:19,676
- Okay, that'll work, yeah.
- Great,l thank you.
369
00:38:19,814 --> 00:38:21,755
- Are you leaving now?
- Yeah.
370
00:38:22,395 --> 00:38:23,473
Okay, fine.
371
00:38:23,908 --> 00:38:26,809
- Where are you gonna go?
- Ehm...
372
00:38:27,099 --> 00:38:32,317
♪ Here I make my solemn vow ♪
373
00:38:33,177 --> 00:38:39,013
♪ To Keep His light in front of me ♪
374
00:38:39,708 --> 00:38:44,973
♪ In spite of what the dark allows ♪
375
00:38:45,181 --> 00:38:50,720
♪ Of what harm comes unto me ♪
376
00:39:08,573 --> 00:39:09,862
...and the love in our heart.
377
00:39:09,886 --> 00:39:12,094
We say these things in the
name of Jesus Christ.
378
00:39:12,120 --> 00:39:13,579
- Amen - Amen.
379
00:39:14,973 --> 00:39:16,838
- Dig in.
- yammm...
380
00:39:18,208 --> 00:39:19,823
Peaches, you like sucking?
381
00:39:20,137 --> 00:39:21,651
Are you dipping?
382
00:39:21,872 --> 00:39:23,932
Dipping in the water?
You like that?
383
00:39:24,631 --> 00:39:27,724
- This is realy good. - Yes?
- Should cook every night.
384
00:39:27,759 --> 00:39:28,464
Thank you.
385
00:39:44,985 --> 00:39:46,151
What's the noise?
386
00:39:46,986 --> 00:39:50,614
- Are you expecting anybody?
- No, you? - No
387
00:39:56,828 --> 00:39:58,455
What was that noise?
388
00:40:02,959 --> 00:40:03,918
Hi.
389
00:40:08,214 --> 00:40:10,447
- Is this a bad time?
- Yes.
390
00:40:13,927 --> 00:40:15,179
What are you doing here?
391
00:40:15,877 --> 00:40:18,529
Why would you come to my house?
How do you know where I live?
392
00:40:19,860 --> 00:40:21,112
Explain yourself!
393
00:40:27,190 --> 00:40:31,109
- I got your address from Gloria.
- Gloria.
394
00:40:31,580 --> 00:40:32,803
Are you crazy?
395
00:40:34,489 --> 00:40:36,524
- Hi - Hi.
396
00:40:42,763 --> 00:40:44,085
- Hi - Hi.
397
00:40:44,655 --> 00:40:46,303
Are you gonna introduce
me to your friend?
398
00:40:47,171 --> 00:40:50,999
- Yes. Honey, this is my friend RJ.
- RJ, this is my wife, Emily.
399
00:40:51,077 --> 00:40:53,661
- Hi, nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you too.
400
00:40:57,635 --> 00:40:58,952
Thanks for stopping by.
401
00:41:00,076 --> 00:41:01,038
It was good to see you.
402
00:41:01,597 --> 00:41:02,097
Oh...
403
00:41:03,128 --> 00:41:07,448
Actually, we're having dinner. You're
welcome to join us, if you'd like.
404
00:41:08,697 --> 00:41:10,096
Sure, yeah.
405
00:41:11,398 --> 00:41:14,496
- Yes, of course.
- Thank you.
406
00:41:14,651 --> 00:41:17,553
- OK, come on in.
- Thank you.
407
00:41:26,334 --> 00:41:27,560
- Thank you.
- Yeah.
408
00:41:30,161 --> 00:41:33,239
So, ehm, RJ, how do you and
Chris know each other?
409
00:41:34,795 --> 00:41:36,764
Well... that's a good question...
410
00:41:37,256 --> 00:41:39,320
Chris, would you
like to, maybe...
411
00:41:43,492 --> 00:41:44,720
Yeah, ehm...
412
00:41:45,237 --> 00:41:47,942
RJ and I met, when I was on
my mission in Clackamas Falls.
413
00:41:48,099 --> 00:41:52,130
- Really? - Mmm...
- Well, it's wonderful.
414
00:41:52,165 --> 00:41:55,898
- RJ was my mission companion.
- Wow.
415
00:41:57,005 --> 00:41:59,192
And, do you live here
in Salt Lake City?
416
00:41:59,222 --> 00:42:03,052
- No, actually, I live in Seattle.
- Seattle?
417
00:42:03,084 --> 00:42:05,804
- So, what brings you here?
- I'm here for work.
418
00:42:06,009 --> 00:42:08,538
- What kind of work?
- I am a writer.
419
00:42:08,625 --> 00:42:10,488
A writer? Wow!
420
00:42:10,514 --> 00:42:13,210
- Like for a magazine or...
- Yeah, actually...
421
00:42:13,655 --> 00:42:16,447
- Magazine... Which magazine?
- The Seattle Magazine.
422
00:42:17,603 --> 00:42:20,106
And they're doing a piece
on Salt Lake City?
423
00:42:20,405 --> 00:42:22,672
No, no actually...
424
00:42:22,698 --> 00:42:26,327
the story I'm working on, has a little
bit to do with the Salt Lake, so...
425
00:42:26,802 --> 00:42:29,929
I thought I'd come down
here for some inspiration.
426
00:42:30,867 --> 00:42:34,200
- Great. - Mmm...
- How long are you in town?
427
00:42:35,427 --> 00:42:39,254
I don't know. I guess until
the story is finished.
428
00:42:41,874 --> 00:42:43,385
Where are you staying?
429
00:42:44,542 --> 00:42:45,973
Well, ehm...
430
00:42:48,364 --> 00:42:50,450
Okay, honey.
431
00:43:01,524 --> 00:43:02,803
I think it's her bedtime.
432
00:43:04,097 --> 00:43:06,923
I'm sorry, is it me?
I'm so sorry, if it was me.
433
00:43:08,750 --> 00:43:10,002
Okay.
434
00:43:12,546 --> 00:43:13,699
Come.
435
00:43:14,670 --> 00:43:16,007
Let's go.
436
00:43:35,276 --> 00:43:36,950
- Hi - Hi.
437
00:43:40,204 --> 00:43:42,015
Why are you here? Why...
438
00:43:45,125 --> 00:43:47,583
You came to my house?
439
00:43:48,837 --> 00:43:52,097
- I just wanted to talk to you.
- Ok
440
00:43:53,633 --> 00:43:54,884
Let's talk.
441
00:43:57,637 --> 00:44:00,571
- Maybe not now...
- Yes, maybe not right now.
442
00:44:03,934 --> 00:44:07,391
- I'm so sorry.
- Ok - She is really tired.
443
00:44:07,417 --> 00:44:08,702
- It's a little late.
- Yeah.
444
00:44:09,594 --> 00:44:11,190
Anyway, what I...
445
00:44:11,467 --> 00:44:13,295
I don't have any
place to stay yet,
446
00:44:13,321 --> 00:44:16,217
I think I might just go
to a motel nearby, maybe?
447
00:44:16,278 --> 00:44:18,049
Oh, you don't need to do that.
448
00:44:18,075 --> 00:44:21,595
We have so much space.
You can stay with us, if you'd like.
449
00:44:22,490 --> 00:44:23,942
- If you want.
- Sure!
450
00:44:25,075 --> 00:44:28,223
Yeah, is that okay
with you, Chris?
451
00:44:28,270 --> 00:44:30,709
Yeah, of course.
452
00:44:31,251 --> 00:44:33,918
You're more than welcome to stay,
for the night, if you'd like.
453
00:44:33,989 --> 00:44:34,520
Great.
454
00:44:35,477 --> 00:44:37,747
You guys probably have a
lot of catching up to do ?
455
00:44:37,773 --> 00:44:40,225
- Yeah!
- We do. We do.
456
00:44:40,940 --> 00:44:43,525
This is you, at the
end of the stairs.
457
00:44:43,847 --> 00:44:46,213
The bag looks heavy,
I should help.
458
00:44:46,214 --> 00:44:47,058
No, it's okay.
459
00:44:47,349 --> 00:44:48,308
Alright.
460
00:44:49,347 --> 00:44:50,644
Here you go.
461
00:44:51,645 --> 00:44:54,148
- Thank you.
- Yes of course.
462
00:44:54,694 --> 00:44:58,959
Well, you're probably super tired.
So you know...
463
00:44:59,245 --> 00:45:00,995
If you need anything
just let me know, okay?
464
00:45:01,021 --> 00:45:02,283
I will. Thank you so much.
465
00:45:02,309 --> 00:45:05,480
- Yeah, it's so nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you too.
466
00:45:06,528 --> 00:45:09,305
- Well, have a good night.
- You too.
467
00:45:09,331 --> 00:45:10,457
- Goodbye.
- Bye.
468
00:45:50,409 --> 00:45:55,831
Meet me at Mercury Grove on North
Canyon at 7am. Please. Chris.
469
00:46:06,546 --> 00:46:07,797
What are you doing?
470
00:46:10,094 --> 00:46:12,698
- Ricky, what are you doing?
- I just want to talk.
471
00:46:13,948 --> 00:46:15,608
I do not want to talk
about the mission.
472
00:46:15,722 --> 00:46:16,557
Okay.
473
00:46:17,058 --> 00:46:18,768
So let's talk about
something else.
474
00:46:19,449 --> 00:46:21,587
- I like your jacket.
- Thanks.
475
00:46:24,785 --> 00:46:25,285
RJ.
476
00:46:26,632 --> 00:46:27,759
I'm married.
477
00:46:28,551 --> 00:46:30,362
- And I'm living honorably.
- Okay.
478
00:46:31,235 --> 00:46:33,308
I didn't mean to
interfere with you.
479
00:46:33,610 --> 00:46:34,861
It's too late for that.
480
00:46:37,468 --> 00:46:39,178
Don't you think it's
a little crazy?
481
00:46:39,577 --> 00:46:41,593
You showing up out of
nowhere, like this?
482
00:46:41,619 --> 00:46:44,986
Yes it is, but going to
Clackamas Falls
483
00:46:45,502 --> 00:46:48,713
And Rodney dying and
seeing you again.
484
00:46:49,610 --> 00:46:50,189
It's just...
485
00:46:50,666 --> 00:46:52,300
it sparked something in me.
486
00:46:53,318 --> 00:46:55,487
And all of a sudden,
I'm 20 years old,
487
00:46:55,949 --> 00:46:57,887
And you walked into my life.
488
00:46:59,207 --> 00:47:02,948
And years of confusion and
shame jusst disappear.
489
00:47:03,852 --> 00:47:05,649
Because I found somebody.
490
00:47:07,395 --> 00:47:10,386
That knows me, that
understands me.
491
00:47:10,412 --> 00:47:11,755
I can't find that anywhere else.
492
00:47:11,771 --> 00:47:13,268
It comes close, but...
493
00:47:13,987 --> 00:47:15,238
It's not the same.
494
00:47:16,927 --> 00:47:18,466
And then, suddenly I'm here.
495
00:47:22,133 --> 00:47:24,287
Why did you cut me out
of your life, Chris?
496
00:47:25,043 --> 00:47:26,330
I had no choice.
497
00:47:26,964 --> 00:47:29,634
All I want, is to be
a part of your life.
498
00:47:29,808 --> 00:47:32,251
- That's not possible.
- I'm sorry to hear that.
499
00:47:33,047 --> 00:47:34,994
I have a meeting to go to.
500
00:47:37,422 --> 00:47:38,838
You still go to church RJ?
501
00:47:39,168 --> 00:47:41,057
No, regretfully I don't.
502
00:47:41,763 --> 00:47:43,181
Well, you should.
503
00:47:44,211 --> 00:47:46,212
What are you doing, Chris?
What do you mean?
504
00:47:46,238 --> 00:47:48,339
We spent a year of
our lives together.
505
00:47:48,787 --> 00:47:50,029
We made love.
506
00:47:50,377 --> 00:47:52,904
We fell in love.
You're not straight!
507
00:47:53,254 --> 00:47:54,933
- I feel sorry for you.
- Why?
508
00:47:55,449 --> 00:47:57,653
Because you are
living a life of sin.
509
00:47:58,027 --> 00:47:59,655
And you are obsessing
510
00:47:59,697 --> 00:48:01,914
over something that never
should have happened !
511
00:48:02,741 --> 00:48:04,378
It was a phase !
512
00:48:06,744 --> 00:48:08,847
The Lord has declared
that no unclean thing
513
00:48:08,873 --> 00:48:10,688
shall inherit the
Kingdom of Heavens.
514
00:48:11,076 --> 00:48:13,841
Our sin makes us unclean.
515
00:48:14,355 --> 00:48:17,358
Unworthy to be in the presence
of our Heavenly Father.
516
00:48:17,384 --> 00:48:19,375
Verily, verily, I
say onto you...
517
00:48:19,407 --> 00:48:21,539
woe be unto him that
lieth to deceive
518
00:48:21,595 --> 00:48:24,161
because he supposeth that
another lieth to deceive
519
00:48:24,404 --> 00:48:28,205
for such are not exempt
from the justice of God.
520
00:48:28,231 --> 00:48:29,997
You are living a lie.
521
00:48:30,082 --> 00:48:32,166
And you brought your
entire family into it.
522
00:48:32,212 --> 00:48:34,384
How dare you bring
my family into this?
523
00:48:34,778 --> 00:48:36,133
Chris, I don't want to fight,
524
00:48:36,159 --> 00:48:38,264
I didn't come all this way,
to end things like this.
525
00:48:38,290 --> 00:48:40,707
- But I'm worried about you.
- You're worried about me?
526
00:48:41,415 --> 00:48:46,260
This coming from a guy, who
traveled 800 miles, uninvited!
527
00:48:49,618 --> 00:48:51,244
I'm more worried about you.
528
00:48:52,235 --> 00:48:54,774
Good, it shows that you care.
529
00:48:55,105 --> 00:48:56,698
I've always cared about you.
530
00:48:57,223 --> 00:48:58,737
Did you ever care about me?
531
00:49:00,610 --> 00:49:03,196
- Chris, Chris!
- What?
532
00:49:06,265 --> 00:49:07,863
I'm gonna be here
for a few days.
533
00:49:10,345 --> 00:49:12,421
If you want to talk,
just get a hold of me
534
00:51:07,039 --> 00:51:09,233
- Hello?
- Hi
535
00:51:20,968 --> 00:51:22,637
- Hey.
- Hey.
536
00:51:28,053 --> 00:51:29,632
What are you doing?
537
00:51:29,842 --> 00:51:32,210
You can't eat rice with chopsticks.
I don't know how they..
538
00:51:32,311 --> 00:51:34,193
Just eat it with a fork.
539
00:51:34,481 --> 00:51:37,053
- I didn't see that.
- Thank you.
540
00:51:38,193 --> 00:51:39,526
Here we go.
541
00:51:44,782 --> 00:51:47,455
It's easier with broccoli and
beef, I'm just saying...
542
00:51:48,327 --> 00:51:50,120
It's okay, your trial with rice.
543
00:51:56,154 --> 00:51:59,449
- I read through one of your books.
- Oh really? - Yes.
544
00:52:00,671 --> 00:52:02,131
Whichj one?
545
00:52:04,509 --> 00:52:07,961
I don't even know. I'm sorry.
It's embarassing
546
00:52:07,987 --> 00:52:09,095
No, it's okay.
547
00:52:10,931 --> 00:52:14,017
It was very eloquently
written, what I did read.
548
00:52:14,308 --> 00:52:16,427
- Thank you.
- You're welcome.
549
00:52:23,860 --> 00:52:25,127
Do you remember...
550
00:52:26,862 --> 00:52:28,408
when we first met Rodney?
551
00:52:28,651 --> 00:52:29,565
Yeah.
552
00:52:32,159 --> 00:52:34,453
He was just smoking pot...
553
00:52:34,495 --> 00:52:37,289
in front of a couple of missionaries.
554
00:52:37,545 --> 00:52:39,166
- And no shame.
- Like you do.
555
00:52:39,403 --> 00:52:40,631
Like you do.
556
00:52:42,043 --> 00:52:43,397
And that apartment...
557
00:52:43,819 --> 00:52:47,084
It just smelled of beer, and mildew and...
558
00:52:47,298 --> 00:52:50,002
And urine.
yeah, little bit of urine.
559
00:52:50,028 --> 00:52:52,496
I think I saw a live
possum in his kitchen.
560
00:52:52,512 --> 00:52:53,668
I saw a dead one.
561
00:52:53,847 --> 00:52:55,889
I think it was the same one.
562
00:52:58,367 --> 00:52:59,403
He was really good.
563
00:52:59,429 --> 00:53:02,021
- Yes,he was a character.
- Definitely.
564
00:53:03,355 --> 00:53:07,443
- Those were good times
- Yeah, they were.
565
00:53:09,369 --> 00:53:10,079
So,,,
566
00:53:11,987 --> 00:53:14,823
the last time I saw you...
567
00:53:16,034 --> 00:53:19,245
you were the epitomy
of a collegiate wrestler.
568
00:53:20,455 --> 00:53:23,729
- Not so much anymore
- But you look the same though.
569
00:53:23,831 --> 00:53:24,511
Thank you.
570
00:53:25,126 --> 00:53:26,983
I mean, I lead a simple life.
571
00:53:27,009 --> 00:53:30,014
You know, I go to work...
I come home and...
572
00:53:30,589 --> 00:53:32,843
Paul was there all the time.
573
00:53:33,483 --> 00:53:35,315
We were home buddies.
574
00:53:36,417 --> 00:53:37,436
You were ?
575
00:53:40,408 --> 00:53:41,280
Yeah.
576
00:53:42,608 --> 00:53:43,663
I'm sorry.
577
00:53:46,559 --> 00:53:50,529
And I'm sorry about
what I said earlier.
578
00:53:51,476 --> 00:53:54,604
- Were both angry...
- I was very angry.
579
00:53:54,653 --> 00:53:57,739
It's fine. Fifty-fifty.
580
00:54:00,113 --> 00:54:01,596
So, what about you?
581
00:54:02,285 --> 00:54:05,121
How's life as a
pharmaceutical rep?
582
00:54:05,163 --> 00:54:06,247
I hate it.
583
00:54:08,333 --> 00:54:11,252
It's an atrocious job,
that pays very well.
584
00:54:11,919 --> 00:54:13,837
So, why don't you
do something else?
585
00:54:15,436 --> 00:54:17,233
When I figure out,what
I want to do, I'll...
586
00:54:18,601 --> 00:54:20,386
stop being a pharmaceutical rep.
587
00:54:23,180 --> 00:54:25,229
It seems some time, to
figure out, what that is.
588
00:54:25,255 --> 00:54:26,475
Yes.
589
00:54:26,517 --> 00:54:27,745
You will ...
590
00:54:29,089 --> 00:54:30,518
You'll figure it out.
591
00:54:31,062 --> 00:54:32,105
Yes.
592
00:54:37,558 --> 00:54:38,948
You know, it's funny when...
593
00:54:39,519 --> 00:54:40,675
you're younger...
594
00:54:41,378 --> 00:54:43,699
you just assume that
life is gonna...
595
00:54:43,979 --> 00:54:47,077
line up, and make
sense, at some point.
596
00:54:48,286 --> 00:54:50,539
You have this vision...
597
00:54:50,580 --> 00:54:52,804
of what you want
your life to be.
598
00:54:53,228 --> 00:54:56,468
Mission, family, job, ehm...
599
00:55:00,206 --> 00:55:01,901
You create this idea
600
00:55:02,182 --> 00:55:04,215
of what you want your
life to be like.
601
00:55:05,347 --> 00:55:07,522
You create these
images in your head.
602
00:55:10,505 --> 00:55:12,063
And as you go along,
603
00:55:13,016 --> 00:55:15,392
these images shatter.
604
00:55:18,958 --> 00:55:21,398
As if they were nothing.
605
00:55:24,542 --> 00:55:26,947
They're so easily inceived.
606
00:55:27,042 --> 00:55:29,268
and so easily broken.
607
00:55:32,786 --> 00:55:35,491
And all you have left
to do, is just...
608
00:55:35,517 --> 00:55:38,603
to accept life.
609
00:55:41,295 --> 00:55:42,995
Just the way it is.
610
00:55:54,140 --> 00:55:57,252
Life is a journey, isn't it RJ?
611
00:56:00,771 --> 00:56:01,813
Uh-huh.
612
00:56:06,568 --> 00:56:08,538
I should probably get going.
613
00:56:10,081 --> 00:56:13,075
- Yeah.
- ehm, this was fun.
614
00:56:14,784 --> 00:56:16,118
Yes it was.
615
00:56:17,217 --> 00:56:20,143
And ehm, if I don't
see you again...
616
00:56:20,874 --> 00:56:22,163
I just want you to know that...
617
00:56:22,530 --> 00:56:24,100
I'm really glad, we did this.
618
00:56:25,010 --> 00:56:26,065
Me too.
619
00:56:41,958 --> 00:56:44,521
- You'll be welcome...
- No, no.
620
00:56:51,703 --> 00:56:54,543
I guess, this is the
closure I came here for.
621
00:56:55,353 --> 00:56:57,001
It's not what I wanted.
622
00:56:57,444 --> 00:56:59,404
But maybe this is all there is.
623
00:57:15,048 --> 00:57:18,939
- This is wonderful, Emily.
- It really is. - Thank you.
624
00:57:19,220 --> 00:57:21,048
She's trying to make me fat?
625
00:57:21,720 --> 00:57:23,228
- No.
- Right.
626
00:57:23,353 --> 00:57:25,814
Says the guy who gets up at
4:30 every morning to work out.
627
00:57:28,333 --> 00:57:30,505
So, how are sales?
628
00:57:31,445 --> 00:57:32,697
Good, can't complain.
629
00:57:33,923 --> 00:57:35,618
I think, the toughest
part of my job is,
630
00:57:35,682 --> 00:57:37,706
I travel so much and
I'm away from my girl.
631
00:57:38,659 --> 00:57:39,911
You work so hard.
632
00:57:40,818 --> 00:57:42,532
But he's got the
next two weeks off.
633
00:57:42,742 --> 00:57:44,429
So, I've got him all to myself.
634
00:57:45,017 --> 00:57:46,624
- About time.
- Yeah.
635
00:57:47,275 --> 00:57:49,269
I don't know how you
do it, with all the...
636
00:57:49,851 --> 00:57:52,558
hotels, airports...
637
00:57:52,584 --> 00:57:53,762
How do you sleep?
638
00:57:53,871 --> 00:57:55,398
I get used to them.
639
00:58:00,838 --> 00:58:02,812
So, I don't know
about you, but...
640
00:58:03,257 --> 00:58:04,781
I could use a little
bit of dessert.
641
00:58:06,013 --> 00:58:09,308
Honey, how about you and Emily go to
the store and get some ice cream?
642
00:58:09,558 --> 00:58:12,013
Chris and I can chat about
a few matters of the Church.
643
00:58:13,543 --> 00:58:14,753
Sounds like a great idea.
644
00:58:15,147 --> 00:58:19,582
- I wouldn't mind ice cream.
- Sure, yes sir.
645
00:58:23,995 --> 00:58:25,246
I'll miss you.
646
00:58:31,938 --> 00:58:34,106
Ehm, any particular flavor?
647
00:58:35,624 --> 00:58:37,870
- How about vanilla.
- Yeah, vanilla is great.
648
00:58:38,175 --> 00:58:39,217
Okay.
649
00:58:47,839 --> 00:58:51,025
I'm glad we finally have an
opportunity to be alone and chat
650
00:58:52,181 --> 00:58:54,350
Yeah. Yeah, me too.
651
00:58:57,772 --> 00:59:01,732
You know, I think you're a man that
really seems to have it all figured out.
652
00:59:02,580 --> 00:59:03,622
Thank you.
653
00:59:06,339 --> 00:59:09,676
Chris, do you consider
yourself to be openminded?
654
00:59:12,245 --> 00:59:15,678
Yes, yes... for the most part.
655
00:59:16,924 --> 00:59:19,491
Cause there's something, I like
to show you, if that's okay.
656
00:59:20,082 --> 00:59:22,835
- Ok . - Great.
657
00:59:23,819 --> 00:59:26,280
Great, now before I begin,
658
00:59:26,592 --> 00:59:28,452
I wanna ask you to...
659
00:59:29,133 --> 00:59:33,776
try to suspend the way you
normally read Scripture?
660
00:59:35,548 --> 00:59:36,931
Try to listen to this with...
661
00:59:37,415 --> 00:59:38,620
a delicate touch:
662
00:59:41,019 --> 00:59:42,576
This is ehm...
663
00:59:43,354 --> 00:59:45,809
not something I can
bring up to anyone.
664
00:59:46,075 --> 00:59:48,527
which is why I'd rather discuss
it with someone like you.
665
00:59:49,109 --> 00:59:51,611
- No problem.
- Okay
666
00:59:54,823 --> 00:59:58,118
Chris, today I'd like
to talk about Andrew.
667
00:59:58,452 --> 01:00:00,954
Now, who was Andrew?
668
01:00:01,697 --> 01:00:03,695
He was an apostle.
669
01:00:04,543 --> 01:00:07,116
- He's the brother of Simon-Peter.
- Right.
670
01:00:07,418 --> 01:00:09,824
Now, we don't know very
much about Andrew.
671
01:00:10,129 --> 01:00:12,527
But tonight, let's allow
Andrew to take our hand...
672
01:00:12,868 --> 01:00:15,913
and lead us to the Gospel
of John, Chapter 13
673
01:00:18,317 --> 01:00:21,346
Jesus Christ says
to his disciples:
674
01:00:21,514 --> 01:00:25,552
Most assuredly, I say to you,
one of you will betray me.
675
01:00:27,187 --> 01:00:31,046
The disciples looked at one another,
perplexed about whom he spoke.
676
01:00:32,776 --> 01:00:35,789
One of his disciples, the
one, who Jesus loved,
677
01:00:36,611 --> 01:00:38,322
Was lying on his chest.
678
01:00:39,164 --> 01:00:42,632
Simon Peter therefore
motioned to him, to ask Jesus
679
01:00:42,966 --> 01:00:44,890
of whom he was speaking.
680
01:00:45,746 --> 01:00:48,812
So, while lying next
to Christ, he asked:
681
01:00:49,208 --> 01:00:51,078
Lord, who is it?
682
01:00:52,621 --> 01:00:56,379
So, the Lord, sitting among
the other disciples,
683
01:00:57,481 --> 01:00:59,353
while the one he loved,
684
01:01:00,051 --> 01:01:02,589
lies on the heart of Christ.
685
01:01:04,430 --> 01:01:05,681
On his chest.
686
01:01:10,560 --> 01:01:13,070
After dinner Jesus disrobes
687
01:01:13,355 --> 01:01:15,149
and pours water into a basin
688
01:01:15,625 --> 01:01:18,066
and begins to wash
the disciples' feet.
689
01:01:19,569 --> 01:01:22,628
There's nothing more
gentle and holy...
690
01:01:23,171 --> 01:01:25,187
then washing another's feet.
691
01:01:25,636 --> 01:01:28,546
Aaron... can I...
692
01:01:28,986 --> 01:01:31,364
interject there for a moment...
693
01:01:32,907 --> 01:01:35,190
- I do not know...
- Just hold on, hold on.
694
01:01:35,283 --> 01:01:36,908
- Hear me out.
- Alright.
695
01:01:37,711 --> 01:01:40,296
I spent a lot of time
thinking about this.
696
01:01:40,507 --> 01:01:42,978
And I can't see it any other
way, then how it's written.
697
01:01:43,614 --> 01:01:46,921
There is a tenderness
in these words.
698
01:01:47,303 --> 01:01:50,811
Christ loves these men
dearly, and one above all.
699
01:01:51,573 --> 01:01:54,042
And when he touches them...
700
01:01:54,761 --> 01:01:58,022
It is a delicate and
beautiful act of kindness...
701
01:01:58,482 --> 01:01:59,482
And love.
702
01:02:01,050 --> 01:02:03,610
And while others
may say, that...
703
01:02:04,090 --> 01:02:05,835
by loving his disciples,
704
01:02:06,444 --> 01:02:08,680
Jesus fell in love
with humanity.
705
01:02:09,014 --> 01:02:11,163
I can explain to you,
why I believe...
706
01:02:11,341 --> 01:02:13,288
That this Scripture
does not refer...
707
01:02:13,405 --> 01:02:16,917
to a call, to a love
for human kind.
708
01:02:17,677 --> 01:02:18,923
But instead,
709
01:02:19,641 --> 01:02:22,026
refers more specifically
to his love
710
01:02:22,126 --> 01:02:24,104
- of any...
- You can stop right there.
711
01:02:24,366 --> 01:02:26,567
I know what you're
trying to insinuate,
712
01:02:26,593 --> 01:02:28,242
and frankly, I don't like it.
713
01:02:29,426 --> 01:02:32,012
- Chris, I'm just being...
- That's enough!
714
01:02:34,779 --> 01:02:37,580
Okay, okay.
715
01:02:38,918 --> 01:02:41,131
I didn't mean to make you angry.
716
01:02:41,921 --> 01:02:43,119
I'm sorry.
717
01:02:45,709 --> 01:02:47,733
Chris, I think you and
I, are a lot alike.
718
01:02:48,663 --> 01:02:51,742
- I too am struggling.
- I'm not struggling.
719
01:02:56,117 --> 01:02:57,118
Okay.
720
01:02:58,614 --> 01:03:02,291
I went to a small
highschool in Arizona.
721
01:03:02,600 --> 01:03:05,603
This kid transferred
in to sophomore year.
722
01:03:06,118 --> 01:03:09,530
and he wasn't exactly popular.
They called him "the narc".
723
01:03:09,997 --> 01:03:12,641
He was always telltaling,
he was just obnoxious.
724
01:03:13,897 --> 01:03:16,225
He was very devoted
to Christ, however.
725
01:03:16,425 --> 01:03:18,148
We bonded, in that sense.
726
01:03:18,323 --> 01:03:20,283
Over time, we became
good friends.
727
01:03:20,309 --> 01:03:21,877
Great friends even.
728
01:03:22,432 --> 01:03:24,201
And when the other
kids would say to me:
729
01:03:24,227 --> 01:03:27,151
Why do you spend time with that guy?
I did not care.
730
01:03:27,866 --> 01:03:30,732
Because in his heart,
he was a good man.
731
01:03:34,112 --> 01:03:37,451
His name was Marshall Harris.
732
01:03:40,030 --> 01:03:42,261
Your zone leader, when
you were on the mission.
733
01:03:45,001 --> 01:03:49,046
Chris, I know what happened in
Oregon with your mission companion.
734
01:03:49,741 --> 01:03:51,904
And I don't judge you for it.
735
01:03:55,736 --> 01:03:57,916
I know your struggle, and...
736
01:03:58,259 --> 01:03:59,830
I know it well.
737
01:04:00,378 --> 01:04:01,629
And I want you to know
738
01:04:01,771 --> 01:04:04,498
we can help one
another, through this.
739
01:04:04,724 --> 01:04:07,490
Let me help you through this.
740
01:04:08,790 --> 01:04:12,584
No temptation has seized you,
except what is common to men.
741
01:04:12,900 --> 01:04:15,303
And we need not be ashamed.
742
01:04:17,297 --> 01:04:18,251
Get out.
743
01:04:19,824 --> 01:04:24,942
- I care about you, Chris.
- Get out of my house!
744
01:04:33,212 --> 01:04:35,185
We got bananas and raspberries.
745
01:04:35,474 --> 01:04:36,494
To make splits.
746
01:04:40,428 --> 01:04:41,678
Is everything okay?
747
01:04:44,692 --> 01:04:49,124
I suddenly lost my appetite
for ice cream, Emily.
748
01:04:49,223 --> 01:04:50,219
I'm sorry.
749
01:04:52,968 --> 01:04:54,219
I'll be seeing you, Chris.
750
01:04:55,747 --> 01:04:56,931
Goodbye, Emily.
751
01:05:05,005 --> 01:05:06,195
What happened?
752
01:05:08,239 --> 01:05:09,161
He ehm...
753
01:05:10,395 --> 01:05:11,763
He wasn't feeling well.
754
01:05:13,568 --> 01:05:15,083
I'm gonna get ready for bed.
755
01:05:38,446 --> 01:05:40,531
That's a ladybug on a leaf.
756
01:05:41,919 --> 01:05:43,655
- Hey sweety.
- Hey.
757
01:05:45,268 --> 01:05:47,997
Hey ehm, what time are you
and RJ getting together?
758
01:05:48,564 --> 01:05:51,280
Around three, I think.
759
01:05:51,806 --> 01:05:55,290
Okay, so I call Kirsten and have
her come just a little earlier.
760
01:05:55,316 --> 01:05:58,610
I won't be around tonight. I have
to help setup for the debut.
761
01:05:59,114 --> 01:06:01,017
What's happening tonight?
762
01:06:03,540 --> 01:06:05,368
It's my red jacket debut.
763
01:06:06,439 --> 01:06:08,539
Congratulations again baby.
It's great.
764
01:06:09,528 --> 01:06:11,974
Isn't that a rabbit?
What is that?
765
01:06:12,110 --> 01:06:13,194
Thank you.
766
01:06:17,299 --> 01:06:18,299
Um...
767
01:06:18,821 --> 01:06:21,599
Did you call the
catering company?
768
01:06:21,946 --> 01:06:26,999
Ask them to add 2 more tables, and the
china and the flowers, like Ida ?
769
01:06:27,620 --> 01:06:28,328
No.
770
01:06:29,571 --> 01:06:32,138
No, I completely forgot.
I'm sorry.
771
01:06:34,091 --> 01:06:36,824
- Honey, it's your parents anniversary.
- Yes I know!
772
01:06:37,130 --> 01:06:39,216
I just forgot, and I'm sorry.
773
01:06:39,577 --> 01:06:40,825
I'll get on it.
774
01:06:42,505 --> 01:06:43,442
Yes, okay.
775
01:06:44,890 --> 01:06:45,432
Okay.
776
01:06:46,418 --> 01:06:47,418
Thank you.
777
01:07:13,434 --> 01:07:14,997
I'd like to level with you.
778
01:07:15,708 --> 01:07:16,623
Okay.
779
01:07:18,713 --> 01:07:19,802
I'm sorry ...
780
01:07:20,997 --> 01:07:22,272
for abandoning you.
781
01:07:25,746 --> 01:07:27,611
I'm sorry for the
way I treated you.
782
01:07:29,883 --> 01:07:31,127
That was cruel.
783
01:07:34,654 --> 01:07:38,263
And I'm sorry for not responding to any
of your letters, or phone calls.
784
01:07:44,111 --> 01:07:45,361
I received them all.
785
01:07:46,103 --> 01:07:47,223
Your letters.
786
01:07:48,307 --> 01:07:50,349
And they touched me, deeply.
787
01:07:51,611 --> 01:07:53,281
But I couldn't respond.
788
01:07:59,161 --> 01:08:01,388
I truly loved...
789
01:08:01,807 --> 01:08:03,644
the time, that we spent together.
790
01:08:05,240 --> 01:08:07,412
But once I returned home,
791
01:08:12,965 --> 01:08:15,229
I felt my father's shadow.
792
01:08:15,927 --> 01:08:18,387
And his position and
the high authority,
793
01:08:18,413 --> 01:08:19,941
looming over me.
794
01:08:21,911 --> 01:08:23,163
Like a cloud.
795
01:08:25,975 --> 01:08:28,517
He recommended that I go
to reparative therapy.
796
01:08:31,847 --> 01:08:32,515
Which I did.
797
01:08:37,352 --> 01:08:40,946
And eventually... I was deemed
worthy enough to continue...
798
01:08:41,346 --> 01:08:43,077
my service to the church.
799
01:08:48,166 --> 01:08:49,577
And then I met Emily.
800
01:08:52,718 --> 01:08:58,147
And we had this amazing,
intense connection.
801
01:09:00,902 --> 01:09:04,309
And I thought:
"Finally, a cure."
802
01:09:08,566 --> 01:09:10,191
I sincerely believed...
803
01:09:10,860 --> 01:09:14,446
that, if I got married, that I
would be given the strength...
804
01:09:14,651 --> 01:09:16,312
to overcome this.
805
01:09:19,530 --> 01:09:23,070
But every time I see a man
that I'm attracted to,
806
01:09:23,933 --> 01:09:27,206
it's like something inside
of me is screaming,
807
01:09:27,657 --> 01:09:29,171
to get out!
808
01:09:31,154 --> 01:09:35,866
There is this message,
that is sent and received.
809
01:09:36,724 --> 01:09:37,743
Instantly.
810
01:09:46,486 --> 01:09:48,795
I am a religious man, RJ.
811
01:09:49,407 --> 01:09:50,642
I know you are.
812
01:09:54,759 --> 01:09:56,408
But I feel forsaken.
813
01:10:02,092 --> 01:10:05,204
I have so much
pain, in my heart.
814
01:10:08,719 --> 01:10:10,482
And I just deal with it.
815
01:10:13,819 --> 01:10:15,446
It feels as if there's...
816
01:10:15,728 --> 01:10:16,228
this...
817
01:10:16,530 --> 01:10:20,165
axe, that is thrust
into my chest...
818
01:10:24,095 --> 01:10:26,163
This pain.
819
01:10:26,275 --> 01:10:28,595
The fasting, the prayers...
820
01:10:28,761 --> 01:10:31,681
It consumes my life.
821
01:10:33,378 --> 01:10:34,669
And there is...
822
01:10:35,422 --> 01:10:38,550
little energy left,
for anything else.
823
01:10:46,933 --> 01:10:50,227
I am not living honorably.
824
01:10:54,018 --> 01:10:55,135
Chris, I feel so...
825
01:10:55,881 --> 01:10:57,440
I care so much...
826
01:10:58,483 --> 01:10:59,350
about you.
827
01:11:02,016 --> 01:11:03,111
Look at me.
828
01:11:04,741 --> 01:11:06,795
There is nothing wrong with us.
829
01:11:08,245 --> 01:11:09,659
We're just victims...
830
01:11:10,198 --> 01:11:12,417
Of a culture that
doesn't accept us.
831
01:11:36,689 --> 01:11:38,041
May I touch you?
832
01:11:53,370 --> 01:11:55,580
That face...
833
01:11:59,250 --> 01:12:01,159
I've seen you in my dreams.
834
01:12:16,475 --> 01:12:18,674
What? I'm sorry.
835
01:12:19,616 --> 01:12:20,592
I'm sorry.
836
01:12:22,063 --> 01:12:24,010
I thought that's
what you wanted.
837
01:12:26,241 --> 01:12:27,279
It is.
838
01:12:38,161 --> 01:12:39,655
What do you want me to do?
839
01:12:42,421 --> 01:12:43,213
You see...
840
01:12:44,849 --> 01:12:46,434
I missed you.
841
01:12:49,464 --> 01:12:51,455
I missed you too.
842
01:13:06,855 --> 01:13:09,119
I wanted this for so long.
843
01:13:15,067 --> 01:13:17,318
This I pledge, as a
"Star Recruiter".
844
01:13:17,451 --> 01:13:19,475
This I pledge, as a
"Star Recruiter".
845
01:13:19,568 --> 01:13:21,947
To live, by the Golden
Rule Philosophy.
846
01:13:21,956 --> 01:13:24,117
To live, by the Golden
Rule Philosophy.
847
01:13:24,143 --> 01:13:26,494
To encourage and support
my team members.
848
01:13:26,503 --> 01:13:28,719
To encourage and support
my team members.
849
01:13:28,745 --> 01:13:32,029
This I pledge, as a brand
new "Star Recruiter".
850
01:13:32,030 --> 01:13:35,017
This I pledge, as a brand
new "Star Recruiter".
851
01:13:35,042 --> 01:13:37,794
Excellent. Give a round of
applause, ladies and gents.
852
01:21:04,176 --> 01:21:06,637
So right now I have a special...
853
01:21:06,679 --> 01:21:09,906
for you, it's fifty
percent off any product,
854
01:21:09,932 --> 01:21:13,531
when you spend $ 40 or more
on beauty essential products.
855
01:21:14,478 --> 01:21:15,965
Which is really good.
856
01:21:18,681 --> 01:21:22,437
You had mentioned a
lipstick you wanted to try?
857
01:21:22,463 --> 01:21:24,118
- Sure.
- Okay.
858
01:21:31,934 --> 01:21:34,177
Are you alright, dear?
859
01:21:41,674 --> 01:21:42,567
Honey?
860
01:21:47,286 --> 01:21:49,466
Can I help you with something?
861
01:21:55,766 --> 01:21:56,829
Dear?
862
01:22:04,610 --> 01:22:05,587
Hey, baby.
863
01:22:18,581 --> 01:22:20,500
Have you been sitting
here since I left?
864
01:22:22,743 --> 01:22:23,924
Where were you?
865
01:22:26,842 --> 01:22:28,389
Were you with RJ?
866
01:22:29,948 --> 01:22:31,050
Yeah.
867
01:22:34,093 --> 01:22:36,081
You think I'm such a fool.
868
01:22:37,198 --> 01:22:38,604
What are you talking about?
869
01:22:40,304 --> 01:22:41,182
Come on.
870
01:22:43,873 --> 01:22:45,795
I know what you've been doing.
871
01:22:50,400 --> 01:22:53,077
My heart is broken, Chris.
872
01:22:59,292 --> 01:23:01,159
And I think I've always known.
873
01:23:03,100 --> 01:23:05,581
But I hid it in the back
of my mind, because...
874
01:23:06,025 --> 01:23:07,957
I thought, I could trust you.
875
01:23:12,583 --> 01:23:14,620
You need to come clean.
876
01:23:16,761 --> 01:23:19,784
- You need to be honest with me.
- What's wrong?
877
01:23:24,140 --> 01:23:28,690
- I saw you. Chris.
- You saw what?
878
01:23:32,899 --> 01:23:35,313
And you call yourself
a man of faith ?
879
01:23:41,633 --> 01:23:43,178
I saw you...
880
01:23:44,088 --> 01:23:46,729
with your friend RJ.
881
01:23:47,447 --> 01:23:50,110
At that hotel, just
ten blocks from here.
882
01:23:54,891 --> 01:23:56,560
You kissed him.
883
01:23:57,773 --> 01:23:59,428
The way you kiss me.
884
01:24:06,311 --> 01:24:07,670
I'm so stupid.
885
01:24:09,628 --> 01:24:11,565
Because all the
signs were there.
886
01:24:12,680 --> 01:24:15,934
They were just there...
and I ignored them.
887
01:24:17,567 --> 01:24:19,163
- I'm so stupid.
- No.
888
01:24:21,159 --> 01:24:21,838
No.
889
01:24:28,049 --> 01:24:30,932
God only knows, what you do, when
you're out, travelling for work.
890
01:24:31,761 --> 01:24:34,598
In one city after the
next, staying in hotels,
891
01:24:34,631 --> 01:24:36,076
meeting strangers.
892
01:24:37,106 --> 01:24:39,697
- Have there been others?
- No.
893
01:24:43,197 --> 01:24:44,556
I don't believe you.
894
01:24:45,787 --> 01:24:48,373
- I don't believe a word you say. No one?
- Emily.
895
01:24:50,586 --> 01:24:52,212
There's been nobody else.
896
01:24:56,789 --> 01:24:59,384
Have you been going to
see him in Seattle?
897
01:25:00,096 --> 01:25:00,713
No.
898
01:25:02,527 --> 01:25:04,267
I haven't seen him
since my mission.
899
01:25:05,774 --> 01:25:06,985
Since your mission.
900
01:25:07,841 --> 01:25:08,634
Hmm...
901
01:25:12,207 --> 01:25:14,082
I couldn't imagine
what that was like.
902
01:25:16,871 --> 01:25:18,790
What about me and Kelly?
903
01:25:20,166 --> 01:25:22,559
- Has that thought ever crossed your mind?
- Yes
904
01:25:25,463 --> 01:25:26,988
Yes, of course.
905
01:25:30,387 --> 01:25:32,379
I'm so sorry, Emily.
906
01:25:43,681 --> 01:25:45,341
Can we pray this away ?
907
01:25:47,798 --> 01:25:49,727
It's the last thing we can do.
908
01:25:50,506 --> 01:25:52,423
I will do, whatever it takes.
909
01:25:53,866 --> 01:25:56,028
But you have to stop this.
910
01:25:57,872 --> 01:25:59,023
I need you.
911
01:26:00,430 --> 01:26:02,407
I need you. Chris.
912
01:26:06,466 --> 01:26:07,509
What do we do?
913
01:26:18,028 --> 01:26:19,966
What can I not give you...
914
01:26:20,528 --> 01:26:21,598
that he can?
915
01:26:21,680 --> 01:26:23,217
Please don't ask me that!
916
01:26:27,555 --> 01:26:29,445
I have been devoted to you.
917
01:26:30,121 --> 01:26:31,442
And this family.
918
01:26:32,598 --> 01:26:34,944
The feelings that
I have for him...
919
01:26:36,317 --> 01:26:38,094
I can never have for a woman.
920
01:26:42,207 --> 01:26:44,481
Seeing him again, brought
everything back.
921
01:26:47,832 --> 01:26:49,212
And I have tried,
922
01:26:50,332 --> 01:26:53,188
to become something, that I
thought I was supposed to be.
923
01:26:53,412 --> 01:26:54,578
But I can't.
924
01:26:57,574 --> 01:26:58,754
I failed you.
925
01:27:01,469 --> 01:27:02,695
I failed you.
926
01:27:10,893 --> 01:27:12,644
I don't know what
to do with that.
927
01:27:19,733 --> 01:27:21,485
I will not accept that.
928
01:27:24,922 --> 01:27:27,211
You made a promise to me.
929
01:27:28,079 --> 01:27:29,598
For eternity.
930
01:27:33,701 --> 01:27:35,340
Is that what you want, Chris?
931
01:27:36,819 --> 01:27:38,215
A life without me?
932
01:27:46,526 --> 01:27:47,763
Destroying me?
933
01:27:49,555 --> 01:27:50,951
Destroying us?
934
01:28:04,508 --> 01:28:06,380
If that's what you
want, Chris...
935
01:28:14,540 --> 01:28:16,033
You have to tell your family.
936
01:28:20,520 --> 01:28:22,103
And tell them what?
937
01:28:24,728 --> 01:28:25,704
The truth.
938
01:28:59,974 --> 01:29:01,066
Hey guys.
939
01:29:01,860 --> 01:29:03,812
- Come on in.
- How are you darling?
940
01:29:04,242 --> 01:29:05,008
Good.
941
01:29:09,166 --> 01:29:10,099
Have a seat, please.
942
01:29:15,232 --> 01:29:18,606
So, what's the big news, guys?
943
01:29:19,073 --> 01:29:20,933
We're still waiting on one person.
944
01:29:22,559 --> 01:29:24,144
Chris, who?
945
01:29:35,641 --> 01:29:37,999
Hey, come on in.
946
01:29:43,432 --> 01:29:44,260
- It's okay.
947
01:29:45,105 --> 01:29:46,444
- Are you sure?
- Yeah.
948
01:30:00,541 --> 01:30:02,197
This is my friend, RJ.
949
01:30:04,425 --> 01:30:05,634
Hey.
950
01:30:10,115 --> 01:30:11,732
What is he doing here?
951
01:30:12,008 --> 01:30:13,342
I wanted him here.
952
01:30:13,819 --> 01:30:16,533
Trust me, okay?
953
01:30:17,793 --> 01:30:20,838
So, how do you know
Chris and Emily, RJ?
954
01:30:21,161 --> 01:30:23,978
- I'm just a friend.
- Okay.
955
01:30:25,214 --> 01:30:26,849
I've known Chris for a while.
956
01:30:28,328 --> 01:30:30,564
- That's great.
- Yeah.
957
01:30:35,314 --> 01:30:36,568
- So what's going on?
958
01:30:37,670 --> 01:30:38,396
Ehm...
959
01:30:40,757 --> 01:30:43,307
Chris and I have something,
we'd like to tell you.
960
01:30:53,151 --> 01:30:55,537
This isn't easy for me to say.
961
01:30:57,857 --> 01:31:01,318
But I haven't been completely
honest with any of you.
962
01:31:03,131 --> 01:31:05,717
And I feel like I
should come clean.
963
01:31:14,675 --> 01:31:15,517
I...
964
01:31:17,621 --> 01:31:18,924
I... I'm...
965
01:31:30,506 --> 01:31:31,663
I'm gay.
966
01:31:38,054 --> 01:31:39,612
I'm in love with him.
967
01:31:54,493 --> 01:31:55,661
Chris.
968
01:31:58,742 --> 01:32:02,161
I know that you love Emily.
969
01:32:02,847 --> 01:32:03,823
But...
970
01:32:05,617 --> 01:32:09,454
I guess, I just always kind
of assumed, you know ?
971
01:32:13,189 --> 01:32:14,331
I do love you.
972
01:32:15,999 --> 01:32:17,487
And I want you...
973
01:32:18,765 --> 01:32:20,026
Both of you...
974
01:32:21,179 --> 01:32:22,522
to be happy.
975
01:32:23,590 --> 01:32:24,456
Thank you.
976
01:32:26,221 --> 01:32:28,542
Son, we can work this through.
977
01:32:29,368 --> 01:32:30,995
We can work this through again.
978
01:32:33,609 --> 01:32:34,620
Again?
979
01:32:36,635 --> 01:32:37,710
You...
980
01:32:38,714 --> 01:32:40,827
You are a homewrecker !
981
01:32:44,819 --> 01:32:46,307
Please make him leave.
982
01:32:46,919 --> 01:32:48,303
I don't understand why.
983
01:32:48,366 --> 01:32:50,297
Why did you invite him
here, in the first place?
984
01:32:50,323 --> 01:32:51,382
I need him here.
985
01:32:52,148 --> 01:32:53,836
- I'm gonna leave.
- No.
986
01:32:54,011 --> 01:32:55,508
I think you should.
987
01:32:56,020 --> 01:32:58,207
I knew who you were, as soon as
you walked through that door
988
01:32:58,233 --> 01:32:59,506
and I think you should get up
989
01:32:59,532 --> 01:33:01,737
and walk out, and
never come back.
990
01:33:01,958 --> 01:33:04,615
Chris, I feel like this
is a family matter.
991
01:33:07,226 --> 01:33:09,224
I.. I don't even understand
why I'm here.
992
01:33:09,250 --> 01:33:10,838
Yeah, neither do I.
993
01:33:11,499 --> 01:33:14,351
I think you should do exactly
what my father said.
994
01:33:14,377 --> 01:33:16,879
- And you should go!
- Greg, sit down!
995
01:33:18,888 --> 01:33:19,916
Chris!
996
01:33:22,783 --> 01:33:26,787
How could you do this to Mom
and Dad, and let alone Emily?
997
01:33:27,038 --> 01:33:29,267
What are you thinking man?
998
01:33:32,125 --> 01:33:34,037
This has nothing
to do with them.
999
01:33:40,456 --> 01:33:43,960
My brother is not gay.
1000
01:33:43,986 --> 01:33:45,525
- I've known him my whole life.
1001
01:33:45,551 --> 01:33:47,298
- I would know.
- Okay.
1002
01:33:47,571 --> 01:33:50,267
- RJ. RJ.
- I'm so sorry too.
1003
01:33:51,076 --> 01:33:51,828
Greg.
1004
01:33:53,598 --> 01:33:54,328
Greg!
1005
01:33:56,716 --> 01:33:59,383
- Please sit down.
- Greg! Greg!
1006
01:34:00,577 --> 01:34:04,668
- Sit down!
- Greg, please sit down.
1007
01:34:14,360 --> 01:34:18,030
Emily, honey, I'd love to know
your thoughts on all this.
1008
01:34:22,826 --> 01:34:26,259
I love you. I feel like
a failure, as a wife.
1009
01:34:26,437 --> 01:34:26,985
No.
1010
01:34:28,797 --> 01:34:30,735
But I'm not ready
to give up yet.
1011
01:34:33,961 --> 01:34:37,840
So... you're gay and
you're in love with a man.
1012
01:34:42,818 --> 01:34:46,230
That doesn't explain or
answer to me how you're...
1013
01:34:47,043 --> 01:34:49,433
you're going to leave your wife!
1014
01:34:49,968 --> 01:34:51,402
Abandon me!
1015
01:34:52,875 --> 01:34:54,203
And your daughter.
1016
01:34:55,100 --> 01:34:58,210
Your family, your church,
your Heavenly Father.
1017
01:34:59,491 --> 01:35:00,835
All, so that you can just...
1018
01:35:01,026 --> 01:35:04,281
have some momentary
self-indulgent fling!
1019
01:35:07,253 --> 01:35:08,890
This is about who I am.
1020
01:35:13,214 --> 01:35:15,191
I don't expect you
to forgive me.
1021
01:35:16,722 --> 01:35:18,816
But I hope, one day,
you can understand.
1022
01:35:20,788 --> 01:35:24,651
And you can help me, to
help Kaylee to understand.
1023
01:35:28,981 --> 01:35:31,959
- But this is something I have to do.
- No...
1024
01:35:32,088 --> 01:35:33,325
- Honey?
- No...
1025
01:35:33,840 --> 01:35:36,022
you do not abandon me.
1026
01:35:38,800 --> 01:35:40,766
You have to let me go.
1027
01:35:43,384 --> 01:35:44,093
No.
1028
01:35:49,973 --> 01:35:51,227
No, honey.
1029
01:35:52,902 --> 01:35:53,611
No.
1030
01:35:55,340 --> 01:35:59,164
No. No. Never!
1031
01:35:59,375 --> 01:36:01,379
I can not let you go.
1032
01:36:04,121 --> 01:36:06,477
Why did you do this to me !?
1033
01:36:12,645 --> 01:36:14,676
I do not do it to hurt you
1034
01:36:19,321 --> 01:36:21,989
This is not the case, dear...
1035
01:36:23,029 --> 01:36:24,481
I hate you!
1036
01:36:24,533 --> 01:36:26,641
You get out of my house!
1037
01:36:43,937 --> 01:36:44,817
Hi.
1038
01:37:00,606 --> 01:37:02,135
You know my dad
never told my mum
1039
01:37:02,161 --> 01:37:03,815
about what happened
on our mission?
1040
01:37:05,904 --> 01:37:07,129
He kept it from her.
1041
01:37:10,647 --> 01:37:12,645
She could barely
look at me, today.
1042
01:37:20,156 --> 01:37:23,033
My dad's asked me to write a
letter to everyone we know,
1043
01:37:23,121 --> 01:37:24,418
telling them the truth.
1044
01:37:27,929 --> 01:37:29,082
I'm gonna do it.
1045
01:37:32,735 --> 01:37:35,461
I'm gonna honor him, and do it.
1046
01:37:46,078 --> 01:37:49,081
I'm gonna wait till after the anniversary
party and then, send them off.
1047
01:37:49,329 --> 01:37:50,273
One by one.
1048
01:38:17,449 --> 01:38:18,184
Hello?
1049
01:38:19,301 --> 01:38:22,199
- Is this Thomas Smith?
- Yes, it is.
1050
01:38:23,109 --> 01:38:24,903
Hello Thomas, this
is Noah Merrill,
1051
01:38:24,929 --> 01:38:26,717
I'm calling you from
Salt Lake City.
1052
01:38:27,609 --> 01:38:30,026
Yes, I know who you
are, of course.
1053
01:38:30,421 --> 01:38:32,663
Ehm, to what do I owe the honor?
1054
01:38:33,476 --> 01:38:35,673
Well, I'm afraid
this call is ehm...
1055
01:38:35,863 --> 01:38:39,282
regarding a rather...
sensitive issue.
1056
01:38:39,628 --> 01:38:40,370
Ehm, sure.
1057
01:38:40,706 --> 01:38:42,411
What is this regarding?
1058
01:38:43,120 --> 01:38:46,154
Several years ago, your
son RJ and my son Chris
1059
01:38:46,180 --> 01:38:47,703
were mission companions.
1060
01:38:48,868 --> 01:38:49,907
I see.
1061
01:38:51,799 --> 01:38:53,479
And I don't know, if
you knew this, but...
1062
01:38:53,640 --> 01:38:56,194
RJ is currently in
Salt Lake City.
1063
01:38:56,588 --> 01:38:58,982
No. I didn't know that.
1064
01:39:00,632 --> 01:39:01,713
Well...
1065
01:39:02,408 --> 01:39:04,318
he is, and ehm...
1066
01:39:05,499 --> 01:39:09,025
he's complicating things
for Chris and his wife.
1067
01:39:09,970 --> 01:39:12,603
They've been meeting at a
hotel, near Chris' home.
1068
01:39:13,963 --> 01:39:17,115
and ehm.. I just think it
would be good if you...
1069
01:39:17,523 --> 01:39:21,072
were to call RJ and convince
him, to go back to Seattle.
1070
01:39:22,702 --> 01:39:23,804
Brother Merrill, I...
1071
01:39:24,531 --> 01:39:26,647
I know, this must be
difficult for you, but...
1072
01:39:27,109 --> 01:39:28,601
RJ is a grown man.
1073
01:39:29,128 --> 01:39:31,828
I can call him and ask him to
leave Salt Lake City, but...
1074
01:39:32,101 --> 01:39:33,330
that doesn't mean he'll go.
1075
01:39:33,526 --> 01:39:35,788
Thomas, Chris and his wife are
1076
01:39:35,814 --> 01:39:37,821
thinking about
getting a divorce.
1077
01:39:39,887 --> 01:39:43,514
He's been doing great,
he's come so far.
1078
01:39:45,220 --> 01:39:46,337
Your son has just...
1079
01:39:46,704 --> 01:39:50,104
he brings confusion in the
spirit of Chris' life, and
1080
01:39:51,438 --> 01:39:52,982
I hate to say it, but I really
1081
01:39:53,008 --> 01:39:55,880
I think it was RJ, who seduced
Chris on his mission trip.
1082
01:39:55,906 --> 01:39:59,837
Again: I'm sorry for what you and
your familyare going through.
1083
01:39:59,863 --> 01:40:04,386
But to put the blame solely
on RJ, it's just not fair.
1084
01:40:04,738 --> 01:40:08,351
Your son is a part of
this, as much as RJ.
1085
01:40:08,377 --> 01:40:09,439
You know that.
1086
01:40:09,898 --> 01:40:12,847
Chris was fine until RJ
showed up at his door.
1087
01:40:13,128 --> 01:40:13,753
Noah,
1088
01:40:14,507 --> 01:40:17,913
I think you and I are a lot more
similar than we might guess.
1089
01:40:17,998 --> 01:40:20,168
I don't think so.
I don't think so.
1090
01:40:20,194 --> 01:40:23,130
What kind of a father would let his
son parade around as a pansy ?
1091
01:40:23,275 --> 01:40:25,736
Now, hang on just one minute!
1092
01:40:27,557 --> 01:40:30,515
I'm very sorry for what you and
your family are going through,
1093
01:40:30,541 --> 01:40:33,131
but my son is a good boy.
1094
01:40:33,568 --> 01:40:37,223
He's a good boy and whatever is
happening in Salt Lake City,
1095
01:40:37,249 --> 01:40:41,213
is being reciprocated by your son,
or else, RJ would have left by now!
1096
01:40:44,709 --> 01:40:46,709
I am proud of my son.
1097
01:40:47,650 --> 01:40:50,221
And, this hasn't been
easy on me, but...
1098
01:40:51,041 --> 01:40:53,103
I love him, so much.
1099
01:40:55,439 --> 01:40:57,463
And he struggled too.
1100
01:40:58,036 --> 01:40:59,394
As has Chris.
1101
01:41:00,990 --> 01:41:05,943
RJ has been on a very
powerful spiritual journey...
1102
01:41:06,221 --> 01:41:08,283
to come to peace,
with who he is...
1103
01:41:09,205 --> 01:41:11,213
no matter what the
church says about it.
1104
01:41:13,654 --> 01:41:15,100
And Brenda and I...
1105
01:41:17,053 --> 01:41:18,482
we've started our journey.
1106
01:41:19,967 --> 01:41:21,412
And now, brother Merrill...
1107
01:41:22,467 --> 01:41:24,682
you and your family
have to begin yours
1108
01:41:27,119 --> 01:41:31,448
And if you ever say anything
bad about my son again...
1109
01:41:32,494 --> 01:41:34,088
you and I are gonna
have a problem.
1110
01:41:35,064 --> 01:41:36,142
Do you understand me?
1111
01:41:59,651 --> 01:42:00,360
Chris.
1112
01:43:42,349 --> 01:43:44,083
Why did I see him ?!
1113
01:44:19,320 --> 01:44:22,490
Now I see the damage I've done.
1114
01:44:23,552 --> 01:44:26,138
I'm holding on to
something from my past.
1115
01:44:26,664 --> 01:44:28,193
It's not just Chris.
1116
01:44:28,249 --> 01:44:30,967
It's everything that's locked
in me that's L.D.S.
1117
01:44:41,842 --> 01:44:46,897
♪ Here I make my solemn vow ♪
1118
01:44:48,272 --> 01:44:53,615
♪ To Keep His light
in front of me ♪
1119
01:44:55,132 --> 01:45:00,725
♪ In spite of what
the dark allows ♪
1120
01:45:01,956 --> 01:45:07,205
♪ Of what love comes unto me ♪
1121
01:45:08,550 --> 01:45:14,408
♪The seas may rage
for endless years ♪
1122
01:45:14,913 --> 01:45:20,420
♪ The wind may test and age me ♪
1123
01:45:20,727 --> 01:45:25,945
♪ Still I will keep his light in my heart ♪
1124
01:45:25,954 --> 01:45:31,113
♪ I know he will save me ♪
1125
01:45:32,735 --> 01:45:37,562
♪ Here I give myself to him ♪
1126
01:45:38,883 --> 01:45:44,602
♪ In sweet and clear surrender ♪
1127
01:45:46,090 --> 01:45:51,531
♪ I know his love is pure and true ♪
1128
01:45:52,903 --> 01:45:58,309
♪ I know his soul is tender ♪
1129
01:45:59,911 --> 01:46:05,113
♪ And if I sink under the waves ♪
1130
01:46:06,661 --> 01:46:12,457
♪ If Black Knight comes to claim me ♪
1131
01:46:14,657 --> 01:46:20,527
♪ I know my soul will be redeemed ♪
1132
01:46:22,625 --> 01:46:30,070
♪ My love for Him will save me ♪
1133
01:46:55,086 --> 01:46:57,367
Well, I just wanted
to start by saying
1134
01:46:57,368 --> 01:47:01,200
welcome to my family and
to my favourite people.
1135
01:47:01,315 --> 01:47:05,200
What else can I say but congratulations.
I love you both.
1136
01:47:07,261 --> 01:47:08,796
Well, let's get
uncle Noah appear.
1137
01:47:08,822 --> 01:47:11,439
I think he has something
he wants to say to us all.
1138
01:47:22,017 --> 01:47:22,868
Thank you.
1139
01:47:25,978 --> 01:47:28,392
I want to thank you all
for coming here tonight.
1140
01:47:29,610 --> 01:47:33,970
It is the 25th year, that
I've spent with my soul mate,
1141
01:47:34,347 --> 01:47:36,020
the love of my life,
Debra Merrill.
1142
01:47:41,699 --> 01:47:45,898
You know when I met her in a
conference centre in Cleveland, Ohio
1143
01:47:46,352 --> 01:47:50,406
I knew right away that is was more
than just a coincidence, that...
1144
01:47:50,508 --> 01:47:51,813
It was fate.
1145
01:47:53,547 --> 01:47:54,333
And...
1146
01:47:55,258 --> 01:47:56,469
I'm honoured...
1147
01:47:57,188 --> 01:47:59,883
to have such a
wonderful woman...
1148
01:48:01,332 --> 01:48:02,426
in my life.
1149
01:48:03,637 --> 01:48:04,785
And ehm...
1150
01:48:06,246 --> 01:48:08,676
and our three beautiful
children, and...
1151
01:48:09,603 --> 01:48:11,145
Emily, our daughter-in-law.
1152
01:48:13,743 --> 01:48:14,668
You see...
1153
01:48:16,516 --> 01:48:19,180
you don't get to choose, who
you love in this world.
1154
01:48:19,989 --> 01:48:22,715
Our Heavenly Father makes
those choices for us.
1155
01:48:25,266 --> 01:48:26,016
And...
1156
01:48:27,756 --> 01:48:29,075
in the end...
1157
01:48:30,302 --> 01:48:31,754
all we have, is family.
1158
01:48:48,299 --> 01:48:49,244
What are you doing?
1159
01:48:55,211 --> 01:48:57,365
- I'm leaving.
- Why?
1160
01:48:59,132 --> 01:49:00,577
You have no idea...
1161
01:49:01,384 --> 01:49:04,093
how happy I am, to have spent
this last week with you.
1162
01:49:08,578 --> 01:49:10,957
There's always a part of
me, that's gonna love you.
1163
01:49:15,820 --> 01:49:17,414
So before I go...
1164
01:49:18,937 --> 01:49:20,531
I wanna do something for you.
1165
01:49:21,574 --> 01:49:22,211
What?
1166
01:49:34,384 --> 01:49:35,527
Forgive me.
1167
01:50:08,775 --> 01:50:11,243
I just saved you a lot
of dollars, okay?
1168
01:51:22,365 --> 01:51:24,524
Do you know yet, what you're
gonna say to your father?
1169
01:51:28,407 --> 01:51:29,997
I already told him the truth.
1170
01:51:30,489 --> 01:51:32,001
But he can't accept it.
1171
01:51:34,092 --> 01:51:36,551
So I assume, all I've left
to say is: "I'm sorry".
1172
01:51:49,244 --> 01:51:50,756
But you've already done that.
1173
01:52:02,391 --> 01:52:04,306
Honey, you can't hold this in.
1174
01:52:05,181 --> 01:52:06,849
You need to talk to somebody.
1175
01:52:11,879 --> 01:52:13,640
I'm not a good person, am I?
1176
01:52:14,672 --> 01:52:16,984
Honey, of course you are.
1177
01:52:18,593 --> 01:52:20,929
I don't think this was a
surprise, to any of us.
1178
01:52:21,949 --> 01:52:24,049
Don't you think,
your dad is upset because he's...
1179
01:52:24,075 --> 01:52:25,473
shocked by this?
1180
01:52:27,500 --> 01:52:28,165
No.
1181
01:52:28,977 --> 01:52:29,664
No.
1182
01:52:31,528 --> 01:52:33,223
I need you to
understand something.
1183
01:52:33,249 --> 01:52:34,981
Mom, can we please
talk about this later?
1184
01:52:35,045 --> 01:52:35,796
No.
1185
01:52:36,426 --> 01:52:36,926
No.
1186
01:52:37,606 --> 01:52:39,426
We need to talk about this now.
1187
01:52:40,006 --> 01:52:42,172
You need to
understand something.
1188
01:52:43,219 --> 01:52:46,203
- You made these choices.
- Okay, Mom.
1189
01:52:46,229 --> 01:52:48,270
No, you don't listen.
1190
01:52:48,811 --> 01:52:51,025
I can't stand as a human being.
1191
01:52:51,918 --> 01:52:53,795
You made the choice...
1192
01:52:54,350 --> 01:52:55,679
to go on a mission.
1193
01:52:56,775 --> 01:52:59,361
You made the choice to get
married in the temple.
1194
01:53:00,153 --> 01:53:02,036
And these choices, honey...
1195
01:53:03,173 --> 01:53:05,001
they gave your father hope.
1196
01:53:06,491 --> 01:53:08,368
They gave me hope too.
1197
01:53:11,704 --> 01:53:13,017
Oh, honey,
1198
01:53:14,083 --> 01:53:16,388
All we have in this
life is each other.
1199
01:53:17,450 --> 01:53:18,903
- You know that?
- Yeah.
1200
01:53:19,556 --> 01:53:22,022
And honey, I love...
I love our life
1201
01:53:22,048 --> 01:53:24,704
And I love our family,
our eternal family...
1202
01:53:25,696 --> 01:53:28,657
and I love being L.D.S.
1203
01:53:29,336 --> 01:53:31,149
And I love our Heavenly Father.
1204
01:53:32,973 --> 01:53:34,937
I know, this has been
so hard for you.
1205
01:53:37,766 --> 01:53:39,004
But let me tell you...
1206
01:53:39,434 --> 01:53:41,591
as hard as this is,
you have to know,
1207
01:53:41,617 --> 01:53:43,763
that you are a child of God.
1208
01:53:44,487 --> 01:53:46,894
You are, and He loves you.
1209
01:53:48,038 --> 01:53:50,023
And if He can't accept you,
1210
01:53:50,385 --> 01:53:51,797
the way that you are.
1211
01:53:52,890 --> 01:53:54,916
just the way,He made you,
1212
01:53:57,158 --> 01:53:58,563
I let you know, I will.
1213
01:54:01,174 --> 01:54:03,182
Okay?
I will.
1214
01:54:06,944 --> 01:54:09,627
And your father will come around.
He will.
1215
01:54:12,151 --> 01:54:14,397
I've really hurt Emily, though.
1216
01:54:15,561 --> 01:54:17,389
Honey, she's gonna
need some time.
1217
01:54:18,061 --> 01:54:18,805
Okay?
1218
01:54:19,240 --> 01:54:20,568
And you'll give her that.
1219
01:54:22,651 --> 01:54:26,439
But right now you need
to work on Chris, okay?
1220
01:54:27,809 --> 01:54:29,060
Give her some time.
1221
01:54:30,741 --> 01:54:33,327
And then, you can help her.
1222
01:54:34,097 --> 01:54:36,811
And help Kaylee to understand,
what she's going through.
1223
01:54:36,997 --> 01:54:38,838
And what is happening
around her.
1224
01:54:39,270 --> 01:54:39,926
Okay?
1225
01:54:42,516 --> 01:54:43,899
My boy...
1226
01:54:55,247 --> 01:54:57,496
- I love you.
- I love you.
1227
01:54:58,634 --> 01:55:00,446
- It's gonna be okay.
- Yeah.
1228
01:55:34,319 --> 01:55:36,997
Whatever that stunt was,
you pulled last night...
1229
01:55:40,079 --> 01:55:43,537
it's made the 20 years,
that I've given the church,
1230
01:55:44,094 --> 01:55:45,012
mean nothing.
1231
01:55:46,051 --> 01:55:47,245
Nothing at all.
1232
01:55:47,672 --> 01:55:49,316
Of course they meant something.
1233
01:55:54,765 --> 01:55:57,550
And you broke that poor
girl's heart, with your lies.
1234
01:55:58,014 --> 01:55:59,375
You know that, right?
1235
01:56:01,232 --> 01:56:03,233
And I've raised
you, to be honest.
1236
01:56:04,580 --> 01:56:07,064
To be honest, I would have
to admit, to being gay.
1237
01:56:09,000 --> 01:56:11,912
I've been praying this
away, since I was a child.
1238
01:56:14,397 --> 01:56:16,826
I've been guilty every
day of my life.
1239
01:56:16,852 --> 01:56:18,328
Do you really want
me, to live the rest
1240
01:56:18,354 --> 01:56:20,007
of my life,
feeling this way?
1241
01:56:22,257 --> 01:56:24,187
If it means your
loyalty to God...
1242
01:56:27,053 --> 01:56:28,371
Then yes, I do.
1243
01:56:34,648 --> 01:56:36,602
- I have to go, Chris.
- Dad?
1244
01:56:37,226 --> 01:56:38,052
I have to go.
1245
01:56:38,358 --> 01:56:40,605
Can we please finish
this conversation?
1246
01:56:44,163 --> 01:56:46,263
We have nothing left to discuss.
1247
01:57:00,351 --> 01:57:01,516
Chris, what are you doing?
1248
01:57:01,542 --> 01:57:04,643
I am not letting you leave, without
finishing this conversation.
1249
01:57:05,456 --> 01:57:07,759
So you're embarrassed
to have a gay son?
1250
01:57:09,424 --> 01:57:11,628
Yes, I'm embarrassed
to have a gay son.
1251
01:57:11,654 --> 01:57:12,299
Why?
1252
01:57:14,850 --> 01:57:17,100
Cause it goes
against God's Laws.
1253
01:57:17,505 --> 01:57:19,112
I am your child.
1254
01:57:20,216 --> 01:57:21,639
I'm your son!
1255
01:57:26,707 --> 01:57:29,195
I live to make you proud.
1256
01:57:29,221 --> 01:57:31,697
I've manufactured
my entire life,
1257
01:57:31,723 --> 01:57:33,900
to please you,
because I love you.
1258
01:57:35,839 --> 01:57:37,918
Because I am proud of my father.
1259
01:57:43,630 --> 01:57:45,441
You're breaking my heart, Dad.
1260
01:57:48,367 --> 01:57:50,554
Please don't walk away from me.
1261
01:57:53,090 --> 01:57:55,040
Because I can't do
this without you.
1262
01:57:57,894 --> 01:58:00,547
You taught me to tell the
truth, no matter what.
1263
01:58:00,816 --> 01:58:04,019
And I'm finally doing that,
and you don't like it.
1264
01:58:06,539 --> 01:58:10,527
But I'm doing exactly what
you taught me to do.
1265
01:58:30,855 --> 01:58:32,691
I just want you to
have a good life.
1266
01:58:33,920 --> 01:58:35,707
I don't want you to struggle.
1267
01:58:38,859 --> 01:58:41,715
All I ever wanted, was to
make life easy for you.
1268
01:58:43,848 --> 01:58:46,636
I can't give you a second
helping with this.
1269
01:58:48,765 --> 01:58:50,507
I'm gonna be okay, Dad.
1270
01:58:54,258 --> 01:58:56,040
Everything is going to change.
1271
01:58:58,418 --> 01:59:01,019
But I promise you, I'm
going to be okay.
1272
01:59:32,808 --> 01:59:34,859
After the anniversary dinner,
1273
01:59:35,857 --> 01:59:37,586
the last thing I expected
1274
01:59:37,703 --> 01:59:39,595
was a letter from Chris.
1275
01:59:41,147 --> 01:59:42,890
He said many things.
1276
01:59:43,952 --> 01:59:46,901
But what stood out to
me, was three words:
1277
01:59:48,216 --> 01:59:49,428
I forgive you.
1278
01:59:52,350 --> 01:59:54,672
You see, I love Salt Lake.
1279
01:59:54,935 --> 01:59:56,288
Trying to convince myself,
1280
01:59:56,752 --> 01:59:59,573
that never seeing him
again, is for the best.
1281
02:00:01,126 --> 02:00:02,377
But in my heart...
1282
02:00:03,342 --> 02:00:04,900
I know it's not an issue...
1283
02:00:05,222 --> 02:00:06,806
of if I'll see him again.
1284
02:00:10,575 --> 02:00:11,446
But when.
1285
02:00:23,377 --> 02:00:25,377
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