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You've gotta chew it,
or the nurse will come.

[Man ] Yeah, come on.
Where's my dirtylook?

[ Woman Coughs ]

- [ Coughing ]
- That's it. Let it come up.

Good boy. That's all right.

- [ Man ] That's good.
- Don't give him a dirty look now.

Have you swallowed that?.
Okay. Open up again then.

- Gee, you slept all morning.
- You hada rough day, didn'tyou?

- What were you doing last night?.
- Partied too much.

- [ Murmurs ]
- Hmm?.

[ Indistinct ]

No church tonight.
No church tonight.

[Nurse On Tape ]
Room 602, Bed 2- Lloyd Greenway.

Mixed glioma and pulmonary embolus.

He had some nitroglycerin spray
for anterior chest pain at 11:45.

His color seemed to be quite good
at that time. His pulsewas 76.

He had the oxygen going continuously,
and it was ofgood effect.

He's had familyand friends in to visit...

and he's been in a veryplayful mood today
and hasn't had any sort oftearful episodes.

[ Woman ]
Are you ready - [ I ndistinct ]

[ Elevator Bell Dings ]

Okay, Lloyd, ifyou get tired,
you tell somebody, okay?.

So they gonna bring you up.
That's nice. Yeah.

- Brought you a present.
- Did you really?.

Mm-hmm.

Yes. This morning, on the way down,
I stopped at the... Claremont.

In fact, they've both probablyopened.

So they're really new.

That's interesting.

Now this is Britain House.

[ Eda ]
Mm-hmm.

See, this used to be the old hotel
right at the corner ofSoudan and Mt. Pleasant.

Oh, there it is.

- Yeah. See, this is the pool, on the roof.
- Wow.

And this huge -
You can see this huge glass dome.

- They have a swimming pool.
- Mm-hmm. Hairdressing.

They have a hairdresser. Yeah.

So I thoughtyou'd be interested in this
sinceyou're kind oflooking around.

But to me, it seems that this kind
ofapartmentwould offeryou more-

- I think so.
- in terms of care ifyou're, uh -

Oh, yes, this would.

- You've got a lot to plan.
- Yeah.

- Ifthis works out, that's great.
- Oh, yeah.

Have to do a lot of explanation
because they -

They think I'm on my deathbed.

- Yourfriends?
- Yeah.

- You know what? You were whenyou came.
- I know. Oh, I know that.

Soyou don't have to explain so much.

Youjust need to say
"I've improved as the months went on."'

But I haven't -
I haven't written notes or said that.

And I didn't send any Christmas cards
'cause I'd just lost my sister.

So I didn't think it was appropriate
to send Christmas cards.

But Gord's going to bring me
some, um, New Year's cards.

And I thought that's
at little more appropriate.

So I can send those in January
when I'm up to it.

- Yeah. That's a goodidea.
- Maybe I'll make a little -

you know, write a little memo
or something.

Mm-hmm.

I don't want to get into too much detail
'cause I don't knowyet,you know?

Well, I'm so glad thatyou're gonna
start connecting withyour friends.

Oh, definitely. Oh, yeah.
I wouldn't want to lose them.

- No.
- No. No.

[ Nurse On Tape ] 612, Bed 3- Rick Pollard,
C.A. of the lung with hepatitis C positive.

Sue talked with Rick
regarding his smoking at nighttime.

We don'twant him to go outside,
especiallywith the elevators being wonky.

He understands this, and he says
sometimes he feels a little bit edgy...

and that the smoking helps.

He's hada breakthrough ofPercocet,
two tabs at 1100 and 1300...

and it looks like he's had
a couple ofbottles ofbeer as well.

It's no problem.

I 'll take my mouthwash here.

- Wendy's gonna bring you a - a beer.
- Yeah, okay.

I'm gonna put the foot part ofyour bed down,
because you're up on an angle here.

I've been on a - on an angle all my life.

- [ Laughs ]
- Yeah.

- Either put on an angle or -You know?.
- Mmm.

Okay, hold on. I'll go get it.

[ Pop-top Snaps ]

Hereyou go -your cocktail, sir.

Thankyou.

I'll take a few sips out ofthis
with this first...

before I spill all that.

Okay.

You can drink-
You wanna drink it out ofthe can?.

- I'll letyou be.
- [ Sighs ]

- Ring your bell ifyou need me, okay?.
- Yeah, okay.

All right.

[ Sighs ]

[ Sighs ]

- Norm, you and I spokeyesterday.
- Yeah.

Um, and I thinkwhat we're
trying to do today...

is just talk about, uh, Lloyd's -

Whatyou wanted to know is his prognosis
and reallywhat to expect.

What are we looking at here, you know?.

[Doctor]
There's always the outside chance...

that things can happen fairly quickly.

It's not the more usual way,
but it can happen.

Ti me-wise, that's why it's very difficult
to say exactly how long it is.

Really, as hard as this is to do...

the best thing to try and do
is to take it one day at a time.

That's much easiersaid than done.

[ Inhales ]
Okay.

But, uh, unfortunately,
it's a verybad disease, and it's, um...

you know, it's - it's taking its -
taking its toll.

Yeah. I can see it happening faster.
I really can.

Yeah, yeah.

And, uh -

It's a difficult time, Norm,
but we're here foryou to supportyou.

And ifyou are able to take some time,
now is the time to be with him.

[ Exhales ]

'Cause I think he's ready,
from what he said this morning.

Does he talk about dying withyou?

This morning, he did.
This is the first time.

- He sat in there with his finger like this.
- Yeah. Yeah.

- [ Crying ] I said, "What?"
- Mm-hmm, mm-hmm.

He says...

- "Me and God."
- Mm-hmm, mm-hmm.

He says, "I'm going to God."

- Yeah.
- Mm-hmm.

- Was that a hard thing to hear?
- [ Sniffles ] No.

- Was it a comfort toyou?
- Yes.

It made me feel much better.

Because there'd been a problem,
I don't know, with his mental state.

Because, I mean -
[ Sighs ]

He's preached foryears.

Yet, when it come to the time,
he got afraid.

Mm-hmm, mm-hmm.

And that's what scared me
more than anything.

- And yet, today, quite comfortable.
- That's good. Yeah.

I said to him, "Don't worry about it."

He said, "But you're gonna be here."
And I said, "Yeah."

[ Coughing ]

I said, "But don't forget,
I won't be long behind you."

You know?. And he says,
"Don't do anything stupid."

- Mm-hmm.
- Yes.

[ Chattering ]

Then there's Rick.
He's come out ofhis coma.

Was he in a coma?.

Well, apparentlywhen Sue
was arranging his admissi�n...

he was not going to last the day.

You're kidding! Is that true?

Coming in, he was so poor
he wasn't going to, uh-

They told me
he wouldn't last a week.

Oh, mygosh.
He looks great!

He was having some sort of crisis,
but he's come through it.

He's still on the Percocet.

He's - He's had a number ofbeers.

He's had his Percocet,
two tabs twice on evenings...

and then on nights he had a beer...

some Ativan and Percocet three times.

- Percocet as in breakthrough, right?.
- As in breakthrough.

- In addition to his long-acting Oxycodone.
- Yeah.

- But he likes his Percocet.
- He likes his Percocet.

It doesn't matter.
I think he's always going to have -

- Yeah.
- Okay.

- Percocet, beer and cigarettes are his main -
- So he's not having more pain?

So that's why he thinks
he's died and gone to heaven.

Best place he's everbeen,
and he's been in a lot ofplaces.

Ten Percocet. Okay.

How's your breathing feel?.

Uh, I'm having a tough time
on one side.

It seems like there's a big plug
of dough hanging in there...

- and it won't come out, you know.
- Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.

- [ Clears Throat ]
- Areyou coughing?.

Well, I'm trying to cough,
but it don't come out.

- Yeah. Right.
- Like there's nophlegm ornothin'.

You've done prettywell
sinceyou've been in here though.

You were, you know, not so great
the day that you came in and -

Well, uh, I wa -I wa -

What happened there was...

- I was at home, right?.
- Yeah. Uh-huh.

And, uh, I was O.D.'ing on my drugs.

- Like, I'd lose my senses for a while.
- Right.

- So I was losing the count.
- Yeah.

Like I didn't know if it was Monday,
Tuesday, Wednesday orwhat time it was.

So I'd forget when I took my last drugs.

So I might have taken 'em five minutes ago,
and I'd say, "Oops, time for drugs."

- Oh, dear. Yeah.
- And I'd take more drugs.

Then I'd be phoning my doctor -
"I'm out of my drugs."

He says, "Well, you've gone through
118 Percs, eh?"

Like, in three, four days.

You know, like,
you need this care, you know.

- So they got together and -
- Yeah.

- Is that whyyou ended up coming in here?
- Yeah.

[ Phyllis ] Because, in the Army,
we have whole timbrel bands.

I still have a timbrel.

[ Doctor]
Lloyd?

[ Nurse ] Every time I go in there,
he is so despondent. So despondent.

He just, you know -
Everything's hopeless.

He wanted me to -
He got me real close. He whispered.

I said, "I can't hearyou, Lloyd."'

So he whispered. He says, "I want to give up."'
And then he asked for the vodka.

Yeah. Yeah. He wants to go.

[ Coughs ]

- [ Doctor] Okay, and he is wearing his -
- [ Object Clatters ]

[ Coughs, Clears Throat ]

[ Woman ] Well, the result ofthis will determine
whetheryou're gonna be released or not?

- Is that correct?
- [ Eda ] Yeah, I think so.

Well, I -

But I can - I can decide that, if I want
to be released, I can be released.

- Yeah. Is that something you'd want?.
- You know, it's not up to them.

- I mean, you'd prefer to be out, wouldn'tyou?.
- The way I am - Oh, yeah. Definitely.

- Yeah, I would.
- Get out there and live.

- Oh, yeah.
- Yeah. Exactly.

Well, I've found a great place foryou to live.
We can go and see it, actually, this week.

This friend ofmine has the condo
across the street that I talked about.

So we could, uh, slip in,
get the keys, have a look around.

Oh, that sounds good.

Check out the health club which -
[ Laughs ]

- That's thrown in.
- See?. There ya are.

One year of health club.
There you go. You could be down jogging.

- Yeah?.
- And doing whatever.

Well, I don't thinkjogging,
but exercising certainly.

I'd like to get back into that ifl can.

And it says thatyou appoint us to-

- [Woman, Laughing ] To everything ya own?.
- No, no, this isn't the property one.

- We can do that afterwards.
- We can do the property one after. Lovely.

- Then we can divide up all his goods.
- Forget the property part.

- This is for personal care.
- You can divide that one up after, eh?.

- Make sure they cut you in.
- All right.

So here's what it says.

It says you give your -
the people you've named, the authority...

"to make anypersonal care
decisi�n forme...

"that I am mentally incapable
of making formyself...

"including the giving
or refusing ofconsent...

to any matter to which
the Health Care Consent Act applies."'

'Cause I 'm cuckoo!. I 'm cuckoo!.

Ifyou get cuckoo.
And any instructions -

- [ Laughing ]
- conditions or restrictions...

contained in this form.

[ Muttering ]
Oh, yeah.

Now, the one we talked about
was the living will...

where you would decline or refuse
artificial life support.

Rememberyou said, ifyou're gone -

- Okay, yeah. I'm gone.
- You're gone.

So that is an instruction,
and onceyou write it down here...

then even ifyou can't tell them
whatyou want, we can tell them.

That's what he wanted here.
Here's what he told us.

- You write it, and I'll sign it.
- Well, let's just think about thewords.

'Cause it's kindofimportant.

Okay, you decline artificial life support.

I couldput in, quote, "heroic."'

Should I say
"heroic"artificial life support, like -

Well, you know, you should ask them.

Three guys died i n here last week
in this room here.

- Oh, did they?
- Yeah.

It feels okay though.
Doesn't feel like the other place, does it?.

- No.
- No.

- The ghosts don't hang in here very much.
- No, they split. Or they're on top level.

They're on the -
They're on the plane ride to heaven already.

% And I'm on myway to heaven %

- Yes, I'll carry -
- Oh, sorry.

[StaffChattering]

Okay.

You feel sad?.

- Yeah.
- [ Rick, Indistinct]

It's okay, Lloyd.

It's okay to cry.
You're giving up an awful lot.

You know that where you're going,
God'll make it up to you, right?.

[ Lloyd Moaning Softly]

It's okay.

- Want some water?.
- [ Murmuring, Indistinct ]

Hmm?.

[ Indistinct]

Does he understand?.

- Doyou want him to leave?.
- No.

No?.

Doyou need a prayer or anything?.

Yeah.

Okay, let's just pray together.

- Okay?.
- Mm-hmm.

Dear God, we come to you now,
and I bring Lloyd to you.

He's your child, and you love him.

I just ask, Father, that you would
surround him with your presence.

God, you know how difficult it is
for him to leave all those that he loves...

especially Norm...

to go intoyour presence...

where there will be joy...

and love...

and peace forevermore.

[ Woman ]
Now, haveyou hada C. T. scan before?

- Yes.
- Okay. Have you had the I.V. injection before?.

- Yes.
- No problems with the previous injections?.

- No.
- Okay.

- All right. This way.
- Do you have my requisition?.

I do.

I'll have you lie down
flat on your back.

Just making sureyour feet
are just at the end ofthe table.

Ifyou could wiggle down
just a tiny bit more.

- Should I take any -
- No, that's fine. That's fine.

Everything else is okay.

As you know, the table's going to slide back and
forth through the ring as we're taking pictures.

Okay.

[ Man ]
Mmm. Cool.

Of course I've got the biggest spot.
[ Laughing ]

You got the best spot?.

You got the top bunk orthe -
No, the bottom bunk. Oh, no, this is yourspot.

- I'm on the edge here.
- Cool. These are nice. Carnations.

- Eh?
- Carnations.

Yeah. Yeah.

Somebody was just telling me
he didn't like them much - carnations.

[ Grunts ]
Who's that?.

- Eh?.
- Who's this?

Oh, that's a girl
I used to go with years ago.

Sheesh.

- When I was in my spiffy days.
- Wow.

- Should've held on to her, man.
- Eh?. Well, s-s-she, uh -

I tried - I tried very hard,
but I was - I was pretty...

ornery, eh?.

- Aha.
- And set in myways.

And I'd come home
when I would come home.

- How long ago was this?.
- In the '70s.

- Wonderwhere she is now.
- God knows.

But I don't even know why
I keep carrying the picture around.

Well, it's part ofyou, man.
It's part ofyour life.

You get attached.

Like, of all the women I've gone with,
she was the best woman I everwent with.

- Well, hold on to the best memories.
- Y-Yeah.

Well, I got - I got lots ofthem.

- Yeah.
- Good and bad.

Some are rough and some easygoing.

But a lot ofthem
are rough and rocky, you know?.

- Yeah.
- And so -

- Well, it hasn't worked out too bad.
- Yeah.

Well, so do you thinkyou would want
to go through chemotherapy again?.

- No. The way I feel right now I don't -
- But you feel pretty good?.

Yeah - Well, no, not because ofthat.
I just don't want any more chemotherapy.

- No. I know. It's, um -
- It's not a cure.

And ifI'm going to be living alone,
then, you know -

- You have to be well enough to -
- Yeah.

He said he was going to give me
a very small dosage, you know...

on a weekly basis.

Well, ifit was the difference between -

Ifhe said toyou,
"Well, this chemotherapy...

might giveyou the chance
offive good years" -

Oh, never!.
Not when it hits the organ, no.

Maybe five months, but I would think
that that would - that would be the most.

- You know what?.
- Let the rest of it -

Ifyou're feeling well...

I'd - I would get out.

Oh, yes. That's what I want to do.
Oh, yeah.

- Live. Enjoy.
- Oh, yeah. Oh, yes, definitely.

Yeah, and then when
my time comes, then, uh, fine.

You know?.

I'll go do the rest ofit.

[ Nurse On Tape ]
In 602, Bed 2- Lloyd Greenway.

His condition really has sort of
taken a nosedive this morning.

He had a fair bit of pain.

It seemed to be mid-sternal
in the chest area, on the right side...

and it seemed to radiate
right through to his back.

He had some dyspnea with that
and was really quite distressed.

- [ Lloyd Grunti ng ]
- Okay. How's that?.

Should we get your mum again?.
Yeah, all right.

- [ Lloyd ] Better.
- Better.

[ Grunting Continues ]

[ Indistinct ]

- [ Father] OnlyI'll betyou he won't eat this.
- Right, okay.

[ Expelling Phlegm, Coughing ]

- [ Groans ]
- All right.

[ Spits ]

Give me a Kleenex.

Okay, you've got something -
Have to go to sleep.

And you can't let that out.

Let it go.

Let it go, dear.

[ Grunting Continues ]

- Do any of my -
- Okay.

any of my friends know where I am?.

- [ Father] Oh,yeah. Yeah.
- Yes, everybody does.

[ Father]
Everybody does.

[ Mother ]
You have a lot of friends in, dear.

You can play with it for four days
and not become addicted.

- But after the fifth day -
- I'm learning a lot of new things from you.

But after the fifth day, you're hooked -
a heroin addict. Right?.

- And you didn't get involved in that.
- Oh, yeah. I was in it.

- Oh, you were?.
- I was into it for 40 years.

- Heroin.
- Yeah.

I probably spent
a couple of million dollars in my arm.

[ Stammering ]

To, uh, try to find a vein in me-

Like, see this one?.
That one's all dried right out, eh?.

Like, you could pump up veins here,
you know, and not get 'em.

The only oneyou're gonna get
is my pulse.

[ Phyllis ]
Your main artery. That's not a vein.

- Yeah.
- [ Laughing ]

Well, that's howpeople died.

And, well, how doyou suppose
you survived...

all thoseyears...

and all that abuse toyour body?

I survived. I managed.

Like, I think I seen
the white tunnel twice. Eh?.

I just about come to death
just about twice.

[ Phyllis Clicks Tongue ]

And, uh, they revived me.

But they shouldn't have.

- Theyshouldn't have?
- No. They shouldn't have.

You know, 'cause I'm onlygonna
go back to the same thing. You know?

[ Chuckling ]

Wow.

Well,you see there's something
biggerbehind all that, Rick.

- There's someone else looking afteryou.
- [ Coughs, Gasps ]

- Oh.
- Can'tyou see the -

Mmm. You okay?

[ Crying ]

- I t hurts to talk about it.
- Mmm, I know.

[ Exhales ]

- J ust the memories.
- Yeah.

[ Sighs ]

[ Crying Continues ]

- Want to sit there?.
- Are you okay there, Eda?.

Yeah. Yeah.

I think it must have been quite a -
Well, it's been trying weeks foryou.

Yes.

Waiting and wondering and, uh -

Yesterday must have been
quite a - an ordeal.

But how did you think it went?.

Well, I thought it went prettywell.
I wasn't expecting any miracles.

- Mmm.
- I was expecting bad news.

It's just not knowing. I didn't want
to spend another six months here.

- You knowwhat I mean?
- Yeah.

What - What actuallydid he saytoyou?

Well, he mentioned that the best way to go
is to take the oral pills...

he thought at this point in time.

How doyou feel about that?

I told him that I would go for the oral if -

if that's what he thought would be
the best thing for me at this time.

Yeah. Yeah.

I thought that - 'Cause I didn't
want to take any more chemo.

Pardon?

I didn't want to take any chemo
where I had to go in and have the injections.

- Mm-hmm.
- I didn't want that at all.

Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.

- You okay?.
- Yeah.

Watch his - watch his hand.

[ Chuckles ]
Orwatch... his knees and -

- Thereyou go.
- Oh, sorry.

Let me just put this up.

You okay?.

Now here we go through the doorway.

- There we go.
- Janet.

We'll put the, um - that pull-out bed,
'cause Norm is probably going to stay over.

Yeah, there's one out in the -
The green one is out there.

- Thereyou go.
- Lloyd,you're in a new room.

It's a private room, okay?
You're byyourself.

So ifyou don't hear anybody else,
that's why.

J ust have a I ittle chat for a m i nute?.

- Yes, you can.
- Yeah.

The, um -

This is just a verbal report
that we have.

The written one will -
will come in another couple of days...

so this one is just very preliminary.

But it shows a shadow on both lungs.

Yeah, so is that good or bad?.

Well, we'd have to see the full one...

to see the exact extent ofit.

But ifit's on, uh -

a bit ofdifficulty on both sides...

it may be that
it's a bit worse than it was, uh, before.

So, um...

we'll know a bit more
when we get the complete one.

Uh-huh.

See, this is wh-what I was concerned
about the other day.

I just got the, uh -
the bill back from the O.D.S.P.

Yeah?

And the -

Promote me or demote me...

from $966...

down to $102 a month.

- Mm-hmm.
- You know?.

Mm-hmm.

Now... I can't live on that.

Yeah.

Jodi will, um -

We'll askJodi to talk to you about that...

and she'll - she'll, uh, be better able
to helpyou with that.

Like, I might as well go back out to my-

my lifestyles, you know.

'Cause, you know, this -

this just ain't my lifestyle.

[Nurse On Tape ] 604., Bed 1- Eda Simac.
"C"ofthe breast with livermets.

Eda declined her P.O.. meds
this morning...

since she was waiting
for her chemotherapy.

We started her first dose
at 1300 hours...

and she will decide when to continue
with her routine medications...

which she may
or may not decide to take.

Oh, there you - she is.
How are ya?.

Okay. How are you?.

Oh, I just feel a little pooped out.

- Yeah?.
- Yeah.

- Pooped out in more than one way.
- Yeah?.

Oh, really?. Oh, yeah.
[ Chuckles ]

I'm okay.

Yeah, at report this morning,
they said you were feeling a bit down?.

Yeah. I was ready to get up for a shower...

and then, all of a sudden,
I got sort oftired, you know.

Yeah?.

So I foundl had to laydown
and been laying eversince.

Yeah. Are you feeling
a bit down in spirit, are you, or -

- Oh, no.
- No?

- Oh.
- I can't be smiling day and night here...

for the three shifts.
[ Laughing ]

- I agree withyou.
- You know what I mean?.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

I mean, I'm always trying to smile
and keep my spirits up...

but you get tired
of smiling all the time.

Although theysayit's very, verygood forall
those muscles that we have in the cheeks.

Oh,yeah, especially the ones now
that are really showing.

- Thank you for coming.
- Okay, Eda. All right.

Can you tell me
about your concerns?.

Well...

it's that I went down from -

- from 966-
- Yeah.

- down to $102.
- Right.

Now...

a man that was living
on my expenditure -

- Mm-hmm.
- You know?.

- And my lifestyle...
- Mm-hmm.

Iike that, that's diddly squat.

- Yeah. Yeah. Mm-hmm.
- You know?.

IfI'd seen you open
your bankwallet, you know...

I'd probably breakyourjaw for it.

- Uh-huh. Uh-huh. Uh-huh.
- You know?.

And I don't want to go through
all that again.

- No. Mm-hmm.
- You know?

And, uh, I-I'm getting
sick and tired ofthis life.

- Mm-hmm.
- You know, like this -

- the way life is going.
- Mm-hmm.

How's itgoing foryou?

Well, right now, not so hopefully.
You know?.

'Cause the way things are, you know,
they're just - they're just not sailing.

You know?. Like -

Mm-hmm.

What is it thatyou need now?.

Uh, I need some kind of security that...

ifthey put me out, they're not just
gonna put me out on the street.

We're not going to putyou
out anywhere, Rick.

- Yeah.
- You know?

- Well, I- I didn't expect it.
- No. No.

I mean,you're very
appropriate to be here.

Areyou afraid we're gonna
kickyou out on the streets?

- No.
- No.

If I go out, I 'd just turn -

I'd just turn back into
the mean animal I used to be.

And...

I can go out and in an hour...

and make $500, $600, if not more.

- Right.
- You know?.

- Is that somethingyou want to do?
- No. I don't want to do that.

Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.

[ Nurse On Tape ]
Eda Simac, breast cancer. Room 604.

She had her chemo
at 9:00 this morning...

and this afternoon
she called for Dr. Hegarty...

and said she didn't want
to continue with that.

So it's now been discontinued.
That's a new order.

Andat 1:30, she was complaining
ofshortness ofbreath.

She didn't want oxygen at that time...

but wanted an Ativan 0.5
which she had at 1:30 with good effect.

[ People Chattering ]

[ Ragged, Wet Breathing ]

I 'm back.

I 'm back.

[ Sniffles, Sighs ]

I understand.

Okay.

J ust go to sleep.

J ust go to sleep, honey.

[ Crying ]

Okay.

[ quietly]
Let him go.

It'll be a betterplace than this.

You'll go to a betterlife than this.

612, Bed 3- Rick Pollard.
C.A. Iung with hepatitis C positive.

At around 2210,
patient became paranoid.

- Richard.
- Richard?.

He packed his belongings
and searched for his knives.

He said he had two knives
and he wanted to leave.

We call him Rick.
His name is Richard.

Well, be careful.
I gotta get back.

And around 2300,
patient became paranoid again.

He took offhis gown and stood up...

and holding the bottle ofbeer
and tried to bang against the window.

We called the securityguy,
and we tried to ask him to come out.

He asked for a smoke,
and we promise him to give him a smoke.

And asked to go the bathroom.

So we help him to the bathroom,
and we got the bottle back.

And I gave him a NoZinan, 5 milligrams subcu,
at 2310 at that time.

And after he went to the bathroom -
Actually he did not void at that time.

And Diana went with him
to the back lounge to have a smoke.

And then later on -

[ I nhales, Coughs ]

[ WheeZing, Gasping ]

Oh, Norm.

[ Grunting, WheeZing ]

- [ Crying ]
- Norm.

[ Indistinct ]

Are you all right?.

He's gotten worse.

[Phyllis ]
We're here withyou, Lloyd.

Norm's here. Major Bobbitt.

You're okay. You're safe.

I can read to you from John.

[ Grunting Continues ]

You know where Jesus said...

"Let not your heart be troubled.

"God, believe also in me...

"'cause in my father's house
are many mansions.

"If it were not so...

"would I have told you that I go
to prepare a place foryou?.

"And ifl go and prepare a place foryou,
I will come again...

"and receiveyou unto myself...

"that where I am,
thereyou will be also.

"And whither I goyou know,
and the wayyou know.

"Forl am the way,
the truth and the life.

No one comes to the Father,
but byme."'

- [ Norm ] Amen.
- Amen.

Almighty God, we thankyou
becauseyou are always with us.

Even in the difficult times ofour life,
you reach out to us to comfort us...

to bless us, to uphold us.

God, we thankyou for his life...

for what he has meant
to those who love him...

for all the accomplishments ofhis life...

and the way that he servedyou
throughout his lifetime.

God, we wouldjust ask now
thatyou would surround him...

with yourpresence,
with yourpeace, with your love.

O God, even at this hour...

mayyou make him aware
thatyou are with him...

that he does not walk through
this dark valley alone but he walks with you.

- And wejust ask now...
- [ Rick Groaning ]

that Lloyd would not struggle too long...

but that he wouldjust be able
to let go and go intoyourpresence...

where there is life evermore...

and where there is no more suffering
orpain or sorrow.

We ask these mercies...

in the name ofthe Father,
the Son and the Holy Spirit.

- Amen.
- [ Exhales, Gasps ]

[ Gasping ]

[ Exhales, Falls Silent ]

[ Grunting Continues, Calmer]

[ Exhales ]

[ Phyllis ]
Big loss. Big loss foryou, Norm.

Big loss. Big time.

- A whole new life now.
- Mmm.

- Complete new life now.
- Yeah.

Uh -
[ Sniffling ]

It's a little late in life
to be starting a new life.

I said I'd always be there for him.

Andyou are.

- You've been wonderful with him.
- [ Sighs ]

We should all have somebody
so attentive to us at this time...

as you've been with him.

We should all be blessed that way.

[ Grunting Softly ]

[ Nurse ]
Lloyd Greenway has rallied.

Um, he's taking thickened FLuids.
He's verbaliZing a little bit.

There's been no seiZures or congestion.

And he's - he's rallied.

- Yeah.
- How are you this morning?.

My hands are cold.

- Didyou have a good night?
- So-so.

- So-so?
- So-so, he says.

Yeah?

Well, the nurses alreadyfixedyou up
for the day, did they?

- Got an itch.
- You got an itch?

[ I ndistinct ]

Well, we'll have to wait
to see the nurses...

whether they want you to have something
to drink or eat or something.

What would you like, eh?.

- [ Grunting]
- You cold?. And you're hot?.

Do you want a couple toothpicks
to hold your eyes open?.

Eh?.

Mmm?. What's the matter?.

[ Nurse ] In Room 614. is Rick Pollard
with C.A. Iung, hepatitis C positive.

His condition remains verypoor.

Within the last few shifts,
he has deteriorated...

and his condition is very unstable...

though he's fairly rousable
and fairly verbally responsive...

and less agitated.

He remains congested plus plus.
Respiration is wet.

He was maintained on oxygen,
three liters per minute, by nasal prong.

He had no hemorrhoidal bleeds
this shift.

His WanderGuard is working fine.

He had a seiZure, as well,
at 1:00 a.m. this morning.

He was suctioned.
A fair amount of-

- Want me to sit down?.
- No, just come up my way again.

You're gonna sit down again on the bed.

Right up like this, but you're going to bring
your legs up onto the bed. Okay?.

Let's wait for Allison.
She can help.

- Oh,you want help.
- When you're done.

Couldn't get his legs over the top.

We're gonna do a pivot here, Rick.

- Ready?.
- One, two, three.

- [ Grunting ]
- Okay.

Thereyou go.

You have a little rest now.

[ Woman ]
He's got no problems. He's okay.

I just feel like I want to let go.

- You know?.
- You've said that before.

Yeah, I really do.

J ust want to let go.

I think that's changed
sinceyou came here.

When it entered the liver,
then I started to think that.

What doyou think contributed
to that sense ofpeace?

I thi nk... my whole -

I s there a sense of going back
to your faith at all, or -

Oh, no.
I won't be going back to my faith.

Not to that denomination.

- At least not the organiZedreligion.
- Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

Um, I think...

it probably had a lot to do
with my sister dying...

and the way she died
and how long it took.

I think that
had a lot to do with it.

Didyourstepsister come from California
whileyoursisterwas ill?

She came - No. She came -

- Forthe funeral?
- She came for the funeral, yeah. Yeah.

We didn't know she was dying.

She wouldn't tell us.

I guess what I'm hearing
aboutyour stepsister is that...

that was a great
disappointment foryou.

Defi nitely.

Besides everything else,
but that to me was just unbearable.

A final blow.

Yeah. It was a final blow.

That's kind ofsad.

It is. I feel sorryforher
more than anything else.

So, Eda, I guess what I'm hearingyou say -
there's no second chance.

I can't - can't give her
another chance.

Not when I 'm in this predicament.
'Cause I don't need it.

- You're afraid.
- No, I'm not afraid.

- Ofwhat she might do with it?
- No.

I want to -
I want to frighten her.

You want to frighten her.

I want to frighten her.

How so?

Well, I don't want her to be able
to get in touch with me...

and that keeps herworried...

Iike she kept us worried
since my sister died.

[ Raspy, Wet Coughing ]

[Nurse ] What happened this morning is,
he was actuallyfine.

He kind ofslept through the latterpart of
the night shift, basically, up until 6:00 or 6:30.

And then just when we were coming on
to shift, about 20 after 7':00...

extremely agitated again,
jumping out ofbed.

- Uh-huh.
- Like I said, he'll-

It's kind ofdeceiving.
He's verylucid.

He's calling us by ournames right now
and being Rick and makingjokes and whatnot...

but he'll literally kind of flip very quickly
and start hallucinating...

and gets very paranoid and angry
and doesn't know where he is.

And it's that -
Then we really have to act quickly.

He's definitelyregressing
to parts ofhis past...

and a lot ofwhateverhappened then is -

It's all coming out right now.

He's talking about police
and people that did him wrong...

and very angry
and very feeling like, you know -

How are you today?.

[ Labored Breathi ng ]

Lloyd?. Are you still having pain?.

The nurse is here.
Can you tell her?.

- She's going to give you some spray.
- I have some spray here. Okay?.

Can you open your mouth?.

Okay. Okay, dear.

- Close it up.
- Okay, close it up.

- Close it, Lloyd.
- [ Chuckles ]

All right.

- Good.
- [ Indistinct ]

- [ Indistinct ]
- Hmm?.

It'll helpyour chest pain.

That's the nitroglycerin.

Doesn't taste great,
but it'll helpyou, okay?.

Feel at peace, Lloyd.

Doyou?.

- Doyou feel at peace?.
- [ Exhales ]

Good. Good.

'Cause you got nothing to fear.
Nothing.

[ Coughs, Clears Throat ]

[ Phyllis ]
What kind ofa night didyou have?

- Rough.
- Rough.

How so?

I- I -

I sleep in fits and shivers,
you know?.

Wake up and...

Iay there and daydream and -

Doyou let the nurses know?

Yeah, I usually come out
andget a pain pill.

Yeah, but what are you taking?.

I'm taking "Dilauda."'

- Dilaudid?. Or do you take -
- Yeah, that's -

No, I'm taking Percocet too.

Well, it's okay to,you know,
butyou need to take the Dilaudid.

I thinkyou'd get more pain relief
from that than -

[ Grunts ]
There's too much morphine in it.

But it's man-made morphine, eh?.

And what does that do toyou?

You can get addicted to that
too easy, you know, like -

Oh, Rick,you know what?

You don't get addicted
whenyou need it forpain.

[ Laughing ]

That's the truth.

You don't need to worry, my friend,
about getting addicted.

That's the least ofyour worries
right now.

[ Groans ]

So, you take the Dilaudid.

- I 'm taking it.
- Because it'll control your pain better.

And you mustn't let yourself suffer.

You've had enough pain
andsuffering inyourlife.

[ Scoffing Laugh ]

And it's not a concern.

Our concern is to makeyou comfortable -
as comfortable as possible.

I 'm doing my best.

I knowyou are.

You saidyou felt -
you felt pretty down.

Is it fear, or is it anxiety?

No, it's not the fear of dying.
I 've faced death too many times.

Mmm.

J ust the way I might -

- The wayyou might die.
- Yeah.

I'd soonergo in a gun battle,you know.

Not this way.

I - [ Gasps ]

[ Exhales ]

[ Crying ]

Eda has taken a turn.

Um, she is, uh, angry
underneath her confusi�n...

and exhibiting biZarre behavior.

She doesn't seem to know
where herlegs are supposed to be.

Theyfeel like lead, she said.

She is having a hard time
taking medication.

She looks quite distressed in there.

Eda. Dr. Hegarty here.

Are you having any pain?.

- All right, no need to sit up.
- [ Groaning ]

It's all right.

[ Groans ]

Okay.

Are you having some pain?.

Hmm?.

All right. I'mjust going to take
a little listen here anda little look.

Is that all right?

I just want to take a -
Let me just heat my cold -

- [ Rubbing Hands Together ]
- J ust take a small listen here.

Okay.

[ Groaning ]

All right.
Okay, just take a little listen.

It's okay.

Okay.

[Nurse ]
So howlong doyouplan to be here for?

- [ Man ] It doesn't make any difference.
- No? Okay.

It's just that, um,
I'll be here for a while.

Okay.

I need some rest.
I been going all day here.

- Have you?. Okay. Are you staying somewhere?.
- Across the street. Marriott.

- Oh, good. Okay.
- I'm all set.

- [ Nurse ] Okay?
- [ Kisses ]

Do you know who this is?.

Do you?.

[ Groaning Softly]

[ Inhales Deeply, Exhales ]

[ Nurse On Tape ]
Lloyd has not had a very good evening.

He was quite tremulous
and agitated at 1630.

MidaZolam, 5 milligrams subcu,
was given at this time, with effect.

He was complaining ofcramp-like pain
at 1730 in his right leg and in his abdomen.

Morphine, 3.75 milligrams subcutaneously,
was given with excellent effect.

This held him to about approximately 8.: 00
or a little bit thereafter...

when he again became
quite restless and distressed -

actually very distressed.

He was holding his right chest
and his leg -

[ Grunti ng, Labored Breathing ]

- [ Phyllis ] What's her sister's name in California?
- Pauline.

- Her half-sister?
- Pauline.

- Haveyou talked to her?
- Oh - [ Chuckles ] Oh, yes.

She calls about once every six weeks.

Oh, six weeks.

She was very sad about, uh -

Does she know at this point
that Eda's this poor?.

Yes. See, they catch me in the middle.

Yes. Of course.
You just be -You're being tugged.

- Yeah. Pauline's over here and Eda -
- One on each hand pulling you.

Eda wouldsay,
"Well, whydon'tyou tell herthis?"

And I says, "I'm not going to
tell her anything, Eda."'

I says, "You want to tell her anything,
here's the phone."'

She felt somehow
that she ignored Frieda...

andyou, when Frieda was so ill?

Paul i ne came as the best she could.
That's a long way, from California.

She was here the next day, you know.

And not only that,
she had to find her own way.

- You mean when Frieda died.
- There was - Yeah.

There was no way -
nobody to pick her up.

And she said "Oh, I'll do it on my own."
I said "I'll have somebody there meetya."

"No. Never mind."
But she came on her own.

Suitcase and all, she come the next -
She came the next morning.

[Phyllis ] I guess it was after, she never
contacted herfora long time.

[ Brother-in-law]
That's true.

[ Phyllis ]
Well, she said she felt she's forgiven her...

butjust because she's forgiven her doesn't mean
she has to carry on with the relationship.

[ Brother-in-law ]
That's right. You have to forgive.

[ Phyllis ]
Yeah. And she felt she has forgiven her.

[ Brother-in-law ]
Yeah.

[ Nurse ] Rick has some edema -
dependent edema in his hands.

He's semi-responsive.

Daina was in this morning and saw him...

and was wondering
whether we could lighten him up a bit.

I said for the safety ofthe patients
and for himself, it's too risky.

Too risky.

We thought we m ight risk
leaving a Foley in now.

I think he might be more comfortable.

[ Monitor Beeps ]

[ Groaning ]

Okay.

Okay.

[ Ragged, Guttural Breathing ]

Okay there.

[ Ragged Breathing Continues ]

[ Norm ]
Going home to be with the Lord.

- [ Ragged Breathing, Grunting ]
- You're going home to be with the Lord.

Going home to be with the Lord.

[ Kisses ]

You're just leaving this old shell here.

Thankyou,Jesus.

Thankyou,Jesus.

[Ragged Breathing Continues ]

[ Mother Sobbing ]

[ Norm Sobbing ]
It's okay, Marion. It's okay.

I feel so comforted right now.
I don't know what happened.

Ijust know he'll be so fine.

- [ Father] Yes.
- [ Norm ] It's okay. He's okay.

He is okay.

- How are you standing up?.
- I'm okay, Marion.

I've had my cry with him...

and all of a sudden a peace come over me
that I cannot believe.

I am so calm.

Seeing him today did the trick.

No, because I know where he's going.

[Ragged Breathing Continues ]

Okay, baby, okay.

[ Groans ]

- Oh.
- Look at him.

Gonna be with Grandma and Granddad
and Jesus.

- Okay, baby?.
- You're gonna be okay.

Go with Grandma and Granddad
and Jesus.

[ Groans ]

Okay?.

Okay.

[Norm ]
Everything is gonna be fine, babe.

[ Marion ]
Okay, honey.

They told me they were
giving him medicine on a diffuser.

They've got something, you know, here.

Oh, going in by I.V.

- Didyou speak to himyesterday?
- No.

- Did he speak toyou?
- No.

[ Sighs ]

I thinkwhen Grahame and I
were here this morning...

he wiggled his eyebrows at us
a couple oftimes.

- He did?
- Yeah.

- This morning?
- Yeah.

Oh. That's good.

I think he recogniZed us,
but that was about it.

Strange, but he looks better to me
than he did when I came in...

I guess it was last Saturday.

- Looks like a Renaissance painting.
- What?

He looks like a Renaissance painting.

The AgonyofRick.

[ Ragged, Wet Breathing ]

I'm going to go home now.

I'm going to leaveyou
in God's good care.

[ Ragged, Wet Breathing Continues ]

And when it's time to go,
you'll go and be with him.

Myfriend, I just pray
that the angels will -

will line the path...

as you journey
from earth to heaven.

Oh, God, I just pray now
thatyou would be with Eda...

very close to her.

Surround herwith your presence
and your love.

May she feel that
in hervery being and her spirit.

May she feel safe...

as she leaves this earth...

and goes to be with you
in your kingdom...

oflove and peace
and joy forever.

God, we thankyou for this person...

and forwhat she has meant to us...

as we've journeyed with her
over these months.

Just bless her now, God,
and help her to let go...

intoyour arms oflove...

and intoyour presence forevermore.

We ask this in Jesus' name. Amen.

Good night, my friend.
[ Kisses ]

[ Ragged, Wet Breathing Continues ]

[ Labored Breathing ]

Hi, George.
Hi. It's Daina calling.

Uh, Rick's condition
took a turn for the worse last night...

and he's been kind of
getting steadilyworse.

Uh, today he hasn't
really been responsive.

But his breathing is verylabored.

Yeah.

So it seems like, um...

he's probably not going
to be with us too much longer.

Is there a chance
thatyou would come tomorrow?

That's right.

No, it wouldn't be a good idea.

So ifthat snowstorm does come,
I would agree with you that there's no -

no point risking.

- [ Ragged Breathi ng ]
- We're all with you.

We all love you.
Mm-hmm.

Now Jesus wants you
to go and be with him.

Okay?. All right?.

[ Phyllis ]
Dying - Dying is veryhard work.

- Hmm?.
- Dying is veryhard work.

- Mm-hmm.
- It's like going through labor.

- That's hard. [ Chuckles ]
- Right.

- verysimilar.
- Mm-hmm.

- Giving birth to new life.
- Mm-hmm.

Okay, babe. Let it go.

- Bring you a cup oftea or anything?.
- Hmm?.

- Do you want a cup of tea or anything?.
- Not right now.

Oh, Lloyd.

Just push that down.

[ Norm ]
Lloyd.

- Let it go.
- I'm going to be okay.

Don't worry about me.

Don't worry about me.
I'm going to be fine.

You know what a strong guy I am.

I'm going to be fine.
You know me.

I have got Damon.
I gotyour mom and dad.

Don't worry about me.
I'm going to be all right.

Just let it go, babe.

Let it go.

Let it go, dear.
Let it go.

Let it go.

We're all together.

Let it go.

Seeyou soon.

I loveyou, and I'll seeyou soon.

You know that.

I've told you that before.

Everything's going to be fine here.

Richard?.

Okay, Richard.
God bless you.

You've suffered.

Yes, he has.

- That was quite the struggle, Rick.
- Yeah.

- Not too bad at the end though.
- Yeah.

- very -
- Yeah. He went peacefully.

But you did struggle.
But now you're free of pain.

We'll just lower his head.

[ Motor Whirring]

[ Nurses, Indistinct]

No, theywere down the hall.

But, I mean,
he just stopped breathing.

- That's - That's all that happened.
- Okay, Richard.

There you are.

No.

Yeah. They're right here right now.

[ Nurse ]
Okay.

- I think it's okay.
- Everything's right.

Yeah. I 'll just use my stethoscope.

That's good. There we are.

Okay.

I'll come and pronounce him.

Okay.

Old buddy, here's toyou.
One last ride.

[ Sighs ]

[ Inhales, Exhales ]

[ Ragged, Wet Breathing ]

Okay.

You know, things have been much the same
for the last couple of days.

- Mm-hmm.
- But, uh...

I just wondered,
doyou have any questions or -

Uh, I don't have, uh, any -
any questions.

I understand that she's failing
rather quickly.

Yeah. Sh-She looks comfortable.

- Mm-hmm.
- Um -

The noisy breathing is - is, uh -

- Filling up in her chest.
- Yeah, it's not really bothering her.

It probably sounds worse
to people around her.

- That's right.
- She looks comfortable right now.

She doesn't look like she's in pain.

She looks a little bit less restless
than she looked yesterday or the day before.

- Mm-hmm.
- So - So that's - that's good.

Um, but I think we'rejust going to
continue along with what we're doing...

and, uh, you know,
we'lljust go from there.

- Okay?
- Yep.

[ Man ] Let's share together
in the 23rd psalm again, okay?

"The Lord is my shepherd.
I shall not want.

" He maketh me to I ie down
in green pastures.

" He leadeth me
beside the still waters.

"He restoreth my soul.

He leadeth me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake."

Okay.

"Yea, though I walk through
the valley ofthe shadow of death...

"I will fear no evil,
for thou art with me.

"Thy rod and thy staff,
they comfort me.

"Thou preparest a table before me
in the presence ofmine enemies.

"Thou anointest my head with oil.

"My cup runneth over.

"Surely goodness and mercy
shall follow me all the days ofmy life...

"and I shall dwell
in the house ofthe Lord...

forever."'

[ Woman ]
Where's Norm?.

- There is a change.
- Yeah.

- Definitely.
- He's with the Lord.

- [ Norm Sobs ]
- Yeah.

- It's okay.
- It's okay, Lloyd.

It's okay, baby.

Just go home with God.

[ Norm ]
Much betterplace.

It is indeed.

[ Norm, Sobbing]
Much betterplace.

Don't need this aggravation.

[ Marion ]
Grasp his hand.

God bless you.
[ Sobbing ]

I t's okay.

Let him go, Marion.

- I 'm happy.
- Yes.

- No more suffering. No more pain.
- He went just at that time.

He went just at that minute,
didn't he?.

No more suffering.
No more pain.

- [ Marion Continues Sobbing ]
- It's okay.

- I can -
- That's okay.

[Alarm Beeping]

I loveyou, dear.

[ Norm Sighs ]

Bye, baby.

- He's at peace now.
- Yes.

- He went so peacefully.
- He did. He did.

Bye, baby.

Don't worry about it.
Rememberwhat I said.

No papers all overyour mansi�n.
Remember that.

- [Marion ] No newspapers.
- You remember that.

No pack-ratting up there.
No.

[ Marion ]
Okay, baby.

[ Norm ]
We love you.

[ Father]
You've done the trick.

- [ Norm ] Thankyou.
- [ Chaplain ] You're welcome.

- Thankyou very much.
- [ Sobbing Continues ]

[ Norm ]
It's okay.

Much better.
He's going to a far better place.

- Yeah.
- Okay.

[People Chattering]

Bye.

[ Chaplain ]
He's had such a struggle.

[ Mother]
Oh, has he ever.

[ Chaplain ]
It was so beautiful.

He was so calm.

[ Marion ]
Yes, hejust - Hejust went.

[ Norm Sobbi ng ]
Thank you.

[ Kisses ]
Thank you.

Thank you.

[ Ragged, Wet Breathing ]

Okay, Eda.

If Phyllis wants to be here,
she should be here.

It's too early, I think.
I don't know.

She doesn't want to come -
I know. We're not gods.

- I know.
- Okay.

- But I would give her some morphine.
- Mm-hmm.

[ Quiet Breathing ]

[Alarm Beeping, Faint]

[Alarm Beeping Louder, Continues ]