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He died ten years ago,
and I still find...
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...its good to talk about it sometimes.
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I find it's good to
talk about everything.
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My therapist says
I overdo that.
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That I overanalyze.
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Of course, she's bulimic so
let's not get too preachy.
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But the first thing you
should know about me: I'm gay.
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I'm gay, and what's more,
a stereotypical gay.
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Always loved fashion,
hated sports...
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...and though it doesn't
always work to clich�...
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...it did in my family
where there was me...
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...and there was my
kid brother, Nicky.
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He wouldn't look at another
guy except to ask for a beer...
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...was our school's star
quarterback, great student.
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When they say high school are
the best years of your life...
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...there talking about
his life, not mine.
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Look at that smile like he
grew up in a blue jeans ad.
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Hey whoa, hold on a sec
Nick, let 'em take you in.
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Thanks.
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Really had to
twist his arm, huh?
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See, confidence for my
brother was never an issue.
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I don't care if its
with women, guys...
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Oh, great, company.
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Yeah, don't ask me her name.
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Yeah, Hi.
How are ya?
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Good to see ya.
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No, it's OK Nick.
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Go on, play.
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I envied him, 'cause
he was so normal.
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Dad loved normal.
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There's Dad now,
fixin' the old set.
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Dad was usually
in a foul mood.
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This, actually is one of
his more spiritual moments.
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And there's mom,
rolling those pennies.
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This is about 14
years back now.
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The funeral I showed you
is still a few years off.
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This is where we start.
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Bush, the father, was
in the White House.
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I was a senior in high
school, my brother, Nicky...
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...a Junior, and Dad was
in his raging prime.
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Of course it
wasn't all yelling.
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There was the dinner hour,
when we discussed politics...
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...or, more accurately,
Dad discussed, we agreed.
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There was an unwritten
rule in our house:
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You did not disagree
with my father directly...
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...especially about politics.
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So, to exert your
individuality you simply...
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...agreed with him in the most
original way you could find.
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Well, that was our mistake in
giving up Vietnam was that we...
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...gave the communists the
idea that we didn't have...
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...the resolve for a long fight.
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U h, and that our free press
was always going to undermine us.
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Well put.
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Well put.
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You know N icky, you make more
sense than men twice your age.
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I mean doesn't he,
doesn't he?
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Good job, son.
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But as this particular dinner
continued, and Dad went on...
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...certain of everything,
something very nerve-wracking...
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...began to happen to me.
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For the first time in my life,
I began to get the urge to disagree.
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The more I fought the urge,
the more it grew, and grew, until...
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I disagree.
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I'm sorry.
What was that?
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I said, I disagree?
I think you're wrong.
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- Oh, I forgot the applesauce...
- No, no, no sit.
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- It's right in the refrigerator.
- No, sit.
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Everyone in our house has a
right to their own opinion.
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So what's yours, Dorian?
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You tell us exactly
what I'm wrong about.
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N ixon.
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I don't think he was
a good president...
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I think he was a bad
president and a bad man.
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I think what Dorian
means here is...
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I meant what I said, Nick.
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Why?
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Why was N ixon a
bad president?
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Well he wasn't honest.
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Oh.
Well, was Kennedy honest?
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Kennedy?
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Yeah, uh, was
John F. Kennedy honest...
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...with the way he won
the election in 1960.
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You know, with Cook
County Illinois and...
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...the West Virginia Primaries?
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Well, I'm sure he
wasn't always honest...
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I don't think any
politician is.
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Well then I'm legitimately
confused because if they were...
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...both dishonest why
do you hate N ixon...
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...and have a picture
of J FK on your wall?
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A lot of reasons.
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- You thought JFK was great.
- Right.
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Well then, your criterion for
greatness can't be honesty...
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...otherwise by your own
admission you'd be a hypocrite.
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I'm not a hypocrite.
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No, no.
I, I know.
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That's what I'm struggling with,
because without you being...
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...a hypocrite your
argument makes no sense.
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Kennedy wasn't a
paranoid schizophrenic.
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Oh, N ixon is a paranoid
schizophrenic.
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I think so.
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- So this is an expert opinion.
- Expert?
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Well, yeah.
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I mean that's a rather
sophisticated psychological term;
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...paranoid schizophrenic.
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So I was wondering if, if you
have any experience in the field.
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A psychiatric degree that
qualifies you to make...
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...such a conclusive diagnosis
on a man you've never met.
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No.
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Maybe you think because you
have a few emotional problems...
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...of your own it makes you sort
of an honorary doctor of the stuff.
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Discussion over.
Potatoes please.
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You know, I will give you one
piece of advice via another...
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...great American president;
Abraham Lincoln...
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...who said: "I would rather sit
quietly and have them think...
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I have nothing intelligent to
say rather than open my mouth...
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...and remove all doubt.
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I got shot down,
but it was worth it...
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'cause it jarred something.
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Later that night,
I had an epiphany:
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For the first time in my life,
I realized I was gay.
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Not just confused, or going
through a phase but actually gay.
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That night I came out
of the closet to myself.
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But this only
made things worse.
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I was anxiety-ridden
out of my mind.
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I needed to talk to someone.
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But there was no one in
my family I could go to.
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I didn't have any
friends in high school.
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High school.
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Finally in my desperation
I ended up downtown...
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...at social services where I met
with a part-time social worker...
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...with a few issues of his own.
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You mind if I drink?
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U h, no.
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We're not, you know,
really supposed to drink.
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Look if you're having
a bad day, I...
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I am having a bad day,
because this morning...
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...my girlfriend and
I of two years... Split.
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Oh, I'm sorry.
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You wanna know the truth?
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I think after the
initial shock wears off...
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I'm really gonna see this
as a blessing, really.
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Because this woman was
on my case from day one.
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I mean making demands
and nagging me and...
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...you know what she wanted
me to do last week?
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She wanted me to enroll
in one of these... Uh...
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...what do you call it...
anger management courses.
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How'd you feel about that?
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Pissed me off.
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Because it's not about anger,
it's about changing me.
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You know, about
changing my clothes...
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...and my friends and my... You
know, I have a motto, alright?
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If you're not happy with me,
exactly the way I am...
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...then you can leave.
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- So she left.
- Yeah she left.
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Anyway, what can we at the
Family Mental Health Clinic...
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...do for you today?
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I heard you can provide
low-rate therapists?
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Maybe someone who specializes
in sexual orientation issues.
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Sexual...
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Someone who thinks
he might be gay.
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Oooh.
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Hmm... Here you go,
a Doctor Mitchener.
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Therapy for... what you got.
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- Is this the lowered rate?
- Yeah.
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I guess I can't
afford therapy.
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Totally overrated
anyway, believe me.
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Look pal, whatever's
bugging you...
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...just hash it out with
someone in your own life.
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That usually works.
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- Really?
- Yeah.
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Well I suppose I could
try talking to my mother.
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If you're mother's a good thing
in your life then that's great.
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Mine wasn't in mine.
But then she died.
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Things are looking up.
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- Mom?
- Yes, sweetie?
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I need to talk.
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Then you sit right
there and talk.
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Thank you.
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- What are you doing?
- Seeing what we're out of.
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I can do this and
listen to you.
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Talk to me.
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Mom.
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Mom.
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Mom, I'm afraid I'm different.
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God made us all
different honey...
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...to keep life interesting.
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- You, he made moody.
- That's not all he made me.
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Look Mom, I've gotta face it.
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I'm not like the
other guys at school.
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You never wanted
to be like them.
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You called them Neanderthals.
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True, I didn't want to be like
them but maybe I wished...
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...too hard because now
I'm not like anyone.
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I find myself envying
the Neanderthals.
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Well, you know how
I feel about envy.
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Envy's not the point.
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Ok, just one second now
let me as you something.
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- OK.
- Let me just ask this.
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All right.
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Last week I bought chocolate
chip cookies and nobody ate them.
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Should I not get chocolate
chip ever again...
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...and just stick with oatmeal?
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Is that what you're
all trying to tell me?
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The only difference between
my mother and the Berlin Wall?
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Some people got
past that wall.
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Well, that night I decided someone
was going to hear me say it.
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So before Nick left for this big
party I made him the lucky someone.
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Don't freak out.
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Please, don't freak out.
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Thank you for
not freaking out.
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How many people have
you told this to?
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- Nobody.
- Don't. Ever.
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Do you understand me?
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Don't ever talk like
this around anybody.
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Jesus Christ man, if Dad
ever heard this shit...
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...he'd bury you in the basement.
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I'm not telling Dad.
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But I think some people
suspect already.
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Who?
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Well, some guys
at school maybe.
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Who at school?
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Who cares, N icky?
This is who I am.
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- I cannot hide it forever.
- This is not who you are.
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You do not have a
clue who you are.
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You've always been
the most confused...
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...screwed up individual...
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I've been confused
about this.
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Oh man, don't cry.
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- Stop crying, Dorian.
- I'm not.
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Dude.
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OK.
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OK.
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Look, I promised Kev Halen
that I'd get there early...
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...and help him set up so, um,
why don't you come...
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...have a few beers we'll clear...
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No, that's OK.
You go.
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I'm fine, really.
Go.
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Dorian this a lot for me to
digest right now, all right?
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Look, I know you like
to talk about stuff.
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This is a big one, so
as soon as I get back...
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...we'll stay up as late as you want,
talk as late as you want, all right?
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Thanks.
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You need to talk now,
don't you?
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- Mmm-hmm.
- OK.
246
00:12:24,643 --> 00:12:25,769
So we talked.
247
00:12:25,845 --> 00:12:27,972
And when the phone started
ringing and the whole school...
248
00:12:28,047 --> 00:12:29,674
...wanted my brother
at the party...
249
00:12:29,749 --> 00:12:31,683
...he told Mom to tell
them he was sick.
250
00:12:31,751 --> 00:12:33,241
We had our own party.
251
00:12:33,319 --> 00:12:36,254
Got drunk, played poker for
Aunt Bette's Easter money...
252
00:12:36,322 --> 00:12:39,155
...told jokes about Mom
and Dad till it hurt.
253
00:12:39,225 --> 00:12:41,125
Turned out to be
a great night.
254
00:12:41,193 --> 00:12:42,558
Truly classic.
255
00:12:42,628 --> 00:12:44,323
The kind of night
that makes you thinkl...
256
00:12:44,396 --> 00:12:47,229
...maybe high school really are
the best years of your life.
257
00:12:59,678 --> 00:13:01,009
- Can I help you?
- Yeah.
258
00:13:01,080 --> 00:13:05,414
We were just wondering if you could
give us the definition of a word.
259
00:13:05,484 --> 00:13:07,315
Dictionaries out of print?
260
00:13:07,386 --> 00:13:09,377
Well, you know we thought
it would be easier...
261
00:13:09,455 --> 00:13:12,515
...to ask a smart person.
262
00:13:12,591 --> 00:13:14,456
What word?
263
00:13:14,527 --> 00:13:16,188
U h, what was that again guys?
264
00:13:17,429 --> 00:13:18,862
Oh yeah, yeah.
265
00:13:18,931 --> 00:13:25,769
It was, um homo... Homosexual.
266
00:13:25,838 --> 00:13:29,774
Could you tell us how you
would define the word; homosexual?
267
00:13:29,842 --> 00:13:33,243
And then maybe use
it in a sentence.
268
00:13:33,312 --> 00:13:36,645
I would define it as someone
you're deathly afraid of.
269
00:13:36,715 --> 00:13:40,515
So... Should we be
afraid of you?
270
00:13:43,189 --> 00:13:46,454
Come on, that is so rude when
somebody is talking right to you.
271
00:13:46,525 --> 00:13:47,423
We're not talking.
272
00:13:50,663 --> 00:13:51,857
Listen, faggot.
273
00:13:51,931 --> 00:13:54,024
I don't know who you think
you're dealing with.
274
00:13:54,099 --> 00:13:55,327
Look out, Cal.
275
00:13:55,401 --> 00:13:56,493
Hey.
276
00:13:56,569 --> 00:13:57,467
Aw.
277
00:13:57,536 --> 00:13:58,525
Shit, man.
278
00:13:59,805 --> 00:14:02,171
Hey, N ick, I was just
messing with him.
279
00:14:02,241 --> 00:14:03,640
Yeah?
That's all you ever do, Cal.
280
00:14:03,709 --> 00:14:05,939
You know, there's a lot more
to life than messing with people.
281
00:14:06,011 --> 00:14:07,376
You ought to branch
out a little bit.
282
00:14:15,721 --> 00:14:17,348
See what I mean?
People suspect.
283
00:14:17,423 --> 00:14:19,789
Just keep denying it.
Remember what H itler said.
284
00:14:19,859 --> 00:14:22,123
You tell a lie long
enough and loud enough...
285
00:14:22,194 --> 00:14:23,354
...eventually they'll
believe it.
286
00:14:23,429 --> 00:14:25,829
So your advice is
be more like H itler?
287
00:14:25,898 --> 00:14:26,956
You know what I mean.
288
00:14:27,032 --> 00:14:28,090
Yes.
Stay in the closet.
289
00:14:28,167 --> 00:14:29,361
Yeah, and lock the door.
290
00:14:42,748 --> 00:14:43,612
What you writing?
291
00:14:43,682 --> 00:14:45,741
Just, uh, my own journal.
292
00:14:46,552 --> 00:14:48,577
All your private thoughts?
293
00:14:53,058 --> 00:14:55,185
- Like what?
- Like, private.
294
00:14:55,261 --> 00:14:56,751
So what?
Tell me one.
295
00:14:56,829 --> 00:14:58,228
No, uh thanks.
296
00:14:58,297 --> 00:15:00,788
- Wanna hear one of mine?
- No.
297
00:15:00,866 --> 00:15:04,632
I mean, uh, I'm sure yours
are great but it's just...
298
00:15:04,703 --> 00:15:06,694
...mine are more than
enough right now.
299
00:15:14,079 --> 00:15:15,637
Bunch of Neanderthals.
300
00:15:44,576 --> 00:15:46,806
## Take the last train
to Clarksville, ##
301
00:15:46,879 --> 00:15:49,347
## and I'll meet you
at the station. ##
302
00:15:49,415 --> 00:15:51,440
## You can be there
by four thirty, ##
303
00:15:51,517 --> 00:15:53,951
## 'cause I made
your reservation. ##
304
00:15:54,019 --> 00:15:55,919
## Don't be slow. ##
305
00:15:56,355 --> 00:15:58,118
## Oh, no, no, no. ##
306
00:15:58,657 --> 00:16:00,625
## Oh, no, no, no! ##
307
00:16:02,061 --> 00:16:03,187
## Dee, dee, dee, dee, dee, dee. ##
308
00:16:03,429 --> 00:16:04,418
## Dee, dee, dee, dee, dee, dee. ##
309
00:16:04,663 --> 00:16:06,096
## Dee, dee, dee, dee, dee, dee,
dee, dee, dee. ##
310
00:16:06,565 --> 00:16:08,965
## Take the last train
to Clarksville, ##
311
00:16:09,034 --> 00:16:11,298
## and I must hang up the phone. ##
312
00:16:11,370 --> 00:16:15,864
## I can't hear you in this
noisy rail road station all alone. ##
313
00:16:15,941 --> 00:16:17,499
## I'm feeling low. ##
314
00:16:18,077 --> 00:16:20,045
## Oh, no, no, no. ##
315
00:16:20,512 --> 00:16:22,673
## Oh, no, no, no! ##
316
00:16:33,025 --> 00:16:35,255
Hey, where'd you
disappear to after school?
317
00:16:35,327 --> 00:16:37,318
What are you, my keeper?
318
00:16:37,396 --> 00:16:38,829
No, I was just looking
for you, that's all.
319
00:16:38,897 --> 00:16:40,524
Don't look for me.
320
00:16:40,599 --> 00:16:41,793
What are you
getting stupid for?
321
00:16:44,670 --> 00:16:46,297
Hey, you know something?
322
00:16:47,473 --> 00:16:48,633
You look kind of guilty.
323
00:16:49,908 --> 00:16:51,637
Did you do something wrong?
324
00:16:51,710 --> 00:16:53,974
Get out of here.
325
00:16:54,046 --> 00:16:57,743
Hey, did you
do something... Gay?
326
00:16:57,816 --> 00:17:01,343
We connected in this
like, sci-fi moment.
327
00:17:01,420 --> 00:17:02,648
It was like...
328
00:17:06,925 --> 00:17:08,119
Yes.
329
00:17:08,193 --> 00:17:14,063
We're both alike, we're
both "homo senturions. "
330
00:17:14,133 --> 00:17:16,124
Both aliens.
331
00:17:16,201 --> 00:17:17,361
Do you feel like
an alien, Dorian?
332
00:17:17,436 --> 00:17:18,528
Yes.
Do you?
333
00:17:18,604 --> 00:17:19,400
Not any more.
334
00:17:19,471 --> 00:17:21,666
- How long did it take you.
- A few years maybe.
335
00:17:21,740 --> 00:17:24,402
Well, uh, I don't
have a few years, doc.
336
00:17:24,476 --> 00:17:26,569
I've got to go to
N YU in the fall.
337
00:17:26,645 --> 00:17:28,943
You've got to get
me adjusted and now.
338
00:17:29,014 --> 00:17:31,175
Plus, I can't afford
all of these sessions...
339
00:17:31,250 --> 00:17:32,911
I'm dipping into my
savings for this.
340
00:17:32,985 --> 00:17:33,815
Relax.
341
00:17:34,453 --> 00:17:35,351
We'll do our best.
342
00:17:35,421 --> 00:17:36,911
Oh, there's a
great doctor line;
343
00:17:36,989 --> 00:17:39,219
"relax, we'll do our best".
344
00:17:39,291 --> 00:17:42,089
Usually followed by
"Sorry, we did all we could. "
345
00:17:42,161 --> 00:17:44,288
What do you love most
about yourself, Dorian?
346
00:17:44,363 --> 00:17:46,490
U h, I have a good heart.
347
00:17:46,565 --> 00:17:47,896
And what do you
dislike the most?
348
00:17:47,966 --> 00:17:49,934
Um, my anxiety.
349
00:17:50,002 --> 00:17:51,629
What do you love the
most about your father.
350
00:17:51,703 --> 00:17:54,729
Oh, I see the questions get
progressively more difficult.
351
00:17:54,807 --> 00:17:55,933
Why don't you tell
him that you're gay?
352
00:17:56,008 --> 00:17:59,341
Because, it would be the
ugliest moment of my life...
353
00:17:59,411 --> 00:18:02,141
...and I am not that strong.
354
00:18:02,214 --> 00:18:03,238
See that dummy over there?
355
00:18:04,783 --> 00:18:06,944
- Know who that is?
- My father?
356
00:18:07,019 --> 00:18:08,543
Very good.
357
00:18:08,620 --> 00:18:11,714
I'd like for you to go over there
and tell him that you're gay.
358
00:18:11,790 --> 00:18:15,089
Just... Talk to him.
359
00:18:26,638 --> 00:18:27,536
Hey Dad.
360
00:18:29,074 --> 00:18:29,870
What?
361
00:18:29,942 --> 00:18:31,705
He says now's
not a good time.
362
00:18:34,947 --> 00:18:36,505
Hey Dad, this is
Dr. Mitchener.
363
00:18:36,582 --> 00:18:39,483
- I'm not here.
- Oh, all right.
364
00:18:41,753 --> 00:18:45,814
Dad, I've been seeing
this Dr. Mitchener...
365
00:18:45,891 --> 00:18:50,988
...and he... Uh, he's a doctor
of psychology, I think.
366
00:18:51,063 --> 00:18:54,726
U h, right, not an M.D. Uh...
367
00:18:56,135 --> 00:18:58,695
I don't know why he
didn't go all the way.
368
00:18:58,770 --> 00:18:59,327
OK.
369
00:18:59,404 --> 00:19:00,371
Annoying, isn't he?
370
00:19:00,439 --> 00:19:02,634
Yeah, but he's not
going to speak...
371
00:19:02,708 --> 00:19:04,471
...he's just going to listen.
372
00:19:04,543 --> 00:19:06,067
All right.
373
00:19:06,145 --> 00:19:09,808
Dad, I just wanted you to
know that I am...
374
00:19:09,882 --> 00:19:14,945
...ummm... Uh...
375
00:19:15,020 --> 00:19:17,386
Dad, umm...
376
00:19:17,456 --> 00:19:19,356
Got some work to do, huh?
377
00:19:29,134 --> 00:19:32,262
Did you ever get to spend any
time alone with your father...
378
00:19:32,337 --> 00:19:33,463
...just you and him?
379
00:19:33,539 --> 00:19:37,703
Well... There was the time
he taught me how to drive.
380
00:19:41,213 --> 00:19:42,874
- Know what you did wrong?
- No.
381
00:19:42,948 --> 00:19:44,916
- You were driving too fast.
- No, Dad.
382
00:19:44,983 --> 00:19:46,211
I was going the speed limit.
383
00:19:46,285 --> 00:19:48,446
That speed limit is for
experienced drivers...
384
00:19:48,520 --> 00:19:50,454
...under ideal conditions.
385
00:19:50,522 --> 00:19:52,752
Not you, on a wet road.
386
00:19:52,824 --> 00:19:55,190
To be fair, it is
nerve-wracking...
387
00:19:55,260 --> 00:19:57,285
...for any parent to teach
their child to drive.
388
00:19:57,362 --> 00:19:58,989
I don't know, he
also taught N icky.
389
00:20:05,737 --> 00:20:11,698
I got to tell you, N icky... You have
the reflexes of a race car driver.
390
00:20:11,777 --> 00:20:12,402
Doesn't he?
391
00:20:12,844 --> 00:20:13,640
Doesn't he?
392
00:20:19,718 --> 00:20:24,417
I want you to explore this
first major anxiety episode.
393
00:20:24,489 --> 00:20:26,286
- You were seven.
- Yes.
394
00:20:26,358 --> 00:20:28,417
You initially went to your
mother with this fear.
395
00:20:28,493 --> 00:20:30,154
- Mommy?
- Yes sweetie?
396
00:20:30,229 --> 00:20:32,220
- I'm scared.
- What are you scared of?
397
00:20:32,297 --> 00:20:33,491
Going to war.
398
00:20:33,565 --> 00:20:36,625
But there is no war, honey.
Vietnam's over.
399
00:20:36,702 --> 00:20:39,364
Mrs. Tilly says there's
always another war...
400
00:20:39,438 --> 00:20:41,133
...and then maybe I'm old enough.
401
00:20:41,206 --> 00:20:43,367
If there's another war,
then you don't have to go.
402
00:20:43,442 --> 00:20:44,636
Really, how come?
403
00:20:44,710 --> 00:20:47,679
Cause we would all pack our bags
and move straight up to Canada.
404
00:20:47,746 --> 00:20:50,112
- Where's Canada?
- Up north.
405
00:20:50,182 --> 00:20:53,982
And they don't have
wars there, just moose.
406
00:20:55,187 --> 00:20:56,814
- What is it?
- Dad's coming.
407
00:20:57,789 --> 00:21:01,156
So, don't want to
go to war, huh?
408
00:21:01,226 --> 00:21:04,093
Amen.
I can understand.
409
00:21:04,162 --> 00:21:06,960
So what do you think instead?
Going up to Canada?
410
00:21:07,032 --> 00:21:09,557
Mom says Canada
doesn't have wars.
411
00:21:09,635 --> 00:21:11,159
No, no, they don't have wars.
412
00:21:11,236 --> 00:21:13,761
They don't have wars
because they have us.
413
00:21:13,839 --> 00:21:17,002
We're their line of defense
against the Communists.
414
00:21:17,743 --> 00:21:21,270
But, what do you think might
happen if the Communists...
415
00:21:21,346 --> 00:21:23,507
...ever got wind of the fact
that all our young men...
416
00:21:23,582 --> 00:21:28,178
...would rather run up to Canada
than stay and defend this country?
417
00:21:29,788 --> 00:21:31,278
They might get it into their
head that they could just...
418
00:21:31,356 --> 00:21:35,053
...have Texas and Oklahoma,
just for the asking.
419
00:21:35,127 --> 00:21:37,652
And then Virginia,
Pennsylvania...
420
00:21:37,729 --> 00:21:40,789
...then New York and at that
point what would stop them...
421
00:21:40,866 --> 00:21:44,131
...from running right on
up into Canada as well...
422
00:21:44,202 --> 00:21:48,434
...looking for the likes of you,
and shooting you...
423
00:21:50,976 --> 00:21:52,102
...right in the belly?
424
00:21:55,247 --> 00:22:00,207
No, you're not
going to Canada.
425
00:22:00,285 --> 00:22:02,879
You're going to war.
426
00:22:04,656 --> 00:22:10,561
And you may get killed, but
you'll get killed like a man...
427
00:22:10,629 --> 00:22:11,561
...for your country.
428
00:22:49,835 --> 00:22:51,860
Dad, I'm gay.
429
00:23:01,046 --> 00:23:02,070
I love you.
430
00:23:04,850 --> 00:23:07,751
It's a common development.
431
00:23:07,819 --> 00:23:09,047
I thought that's
what you'd say.
432
00:23:09,121 --> 00:23:10,679
What did you want me to
say, that I love you too?
433
00:23:10,756 --> 00:23:11,688
Maybe.
434
00:23:11,757 --> 00:23:13,349
All right, Dorian.
I love you too.
435
00:23:13,425 --> 00:23:16,326
Not like that, not like
you love all of mankind...
436
00:23:16,395 --> 00:23:17,828
...and I just happen to
be one of them.
437
00:23:23,935 --> 00:23:26,096
Besides the fact that
you're a virgin, craving...
438
00:23:26,171 --> 00:23:30,437
...a first experience and that
you feel safe with me...
439
00:23:30,509 --> 00:23:33,774
...besides those things, what
exactly do you love about me?
440
00:23:35,847 --> 00:23:38,475
I guess that's
pretty much it.
441
00:23:38,550 --> 00:23:40,279
I'm still flattered.
442
00:23:40,352 --> 00:23:44,083
However, I do not under any
circumstances sleep with my clients.
443
00:23:46,491 --> 00:23:48,584
Could you maybe refer
me to someone who does?
444
00:24:41,546 --> 00:24:44,674
Forgive me father, it's been
awhile since my last confession...
445
00:24:44,749 --> 00:24:48,947
...and uh, I've done some
of the usual sins, I guess.
446
00:24:49,020 --> 00:24:51,488
I've disrespected my father
which to be honest...
447
00:24:51,556 --> 00:24:54,821
I don't think I'm ever
going to stop but uh...
448
00:24:54,893 --> 00:24:58,920
...something bigger this time,
I kind of had sex.
449
00:24:58,997 --> 00:25:03,696
Well, that's a serious sin, but it
is common within your age group.
450
00:25:03,768 --> 00:25:04,826
With a guy.
451
00:25:07,072 --> 00:25:09,097
- Pretty big sin, huh?
- Yes it is.
452
00:25:14,813 --> 00:25:16,303
Why?
Why is it a sin?
453
00:25:16,381 --> 00:25:17,405
Go back to your side.
454
00:25:17,482 --> 00:25:18,813
I don't want to go
back to my side.
455
00:25:18,884 --> 00:25:20,909
Please Father.
Come on, you know it's me.
456
00:25:25,023 --> 00:25:27,355
It's a sin because it
says so in the Bible...
457
00:25:27,425 --> 00:25:28,983
...and the Bible is
the word of God.
458
00:25:29,060 --> 00:25:31,688
But how do you know every bit
of it is the word of God.
459
00:25:31,763 --> 00:25:33,355
I know it on faith.
460
00:25:33,431 --> 00:25:36,264
A faith which comes from
years of research and prayer.
461
00:25:36,334 --> 00:25:38,359
Both of which I suggest
you begin immediately.
462
00:25:38,436 --> 00:25:39,198
I don't know, Father.
463
00:25:39,271 --> 00:25:41,034
I'm not convinced I've
done anything wrong.
464
00:25:41,106 --> 00:25:42,733
If you didn't do
anything wrong...
465
00:25:42,807 --> 00:25:45,071
...then why do you suppose you
feel so guilty about it?
466
00:25:45,143 --> 00:25:46,303
What's guilt prove?
467
00:25:46,378 --> 00:25:48,744
I mean, I feel guilty when
there's mud slides in Ecuador.
468
00:25:48,813 --> 00:25:50,872
Even if it weren't wrong,
would you really like to...
469
00:25:50,949 --> 00:25:53,349
...live a life style which means
you could never get married...
470
00:25:53,418 --> 00:25:54,385
...never have children?
471
00:25:54,452 --> 00:25:55,384
No, I want children.
472
00:25:55,453 --> 00:25:57,216
Then you haven't
thought this through.
473
00:25:57,289 --> 00:25:58,916
But maybe I don't
get children.
474
00:25:58,990 --> 00:26:00,480
Don't be so sure.
475
00:26:00,559 --> 00:26:02,527
Often with a little
prayer and effort...
476
00:26:02,594 --> 00:26:05,654
...those in your situation find
that they can desire women.
477
00:26:05,730 --> 00:26:07,163
- Really?
- Absolutely.
478
00:26:07,232 --> 00:26:08,597
I've been counseling
for years.
479
00:26:08,667 --> 00:26:11,329
The first man I talked to was
convinced he couldn't be helped.
480
00:26:11,403 --> 00:26:14,236
Today he lives in Ohio with
his wife of fourteen years...
481
00:26:14,306 --> 00:26:15,500
...and their nine children.
482
00:26:15,574 --> 00:26:17,405
- N ine?
- Amen, nine.
483
00:26:17,475 --> 00:26:19,375
He called them his own
little baseball team.
484
00:26:19,444 --> 00:26:21,207
Even got them uniforms.
485
00:26:21,279 --> 00:26:23,304
You should see them,
they're cute as hell.
486
00:26:40,966 --> 00:26:44,231
Hello, Dr. Mitchener?
This is Dorian Legatis.
487
00:26:44,302 --> 00:26:48,398
I just wanted you to know I
won't be needing any more sessions.
488
00:26:48,473 --> 00:26:50,668
I've found another path.
489
00:26:50,742 --> 00:26:56,738
But I wish you luck on
your journey and... Amen.
490
00:27:01,886 --> 00:27:05,253
- I love you, Dad.
- Ah.
491
00:27:33,385 --> 00:27:34,215
Nicky.
492
00:27:36,021 --> 00:27:36,749
Nicky.
493
00:27:37,789 --> 00:27:39,654
- What?
- I can't do it anymore.
494
00:27:39,724 --> 00:27:41,453
- Do what?
- It's wrong to be gay...
495
00:27:41,526 --> 00:27:42,720
...to act on it, anyway.
496
00:27:42,794 --> 00:27:44,921
It's even wrong to have some
of the gay thoughts I'm thinking.
497
00:27:44,996 --> 00:27:46,395
It's wrong to even think?
498
00:27:46,464 --> 00:27:48,864
Yes.
"Thou shalt not covet. "
499
00:27:48,933 --> 00:27:51,026
It's the tenth commandment:
Thou shalt not covet...
500
00:27:51,102 --> 00:27:53,627
...thy neighbor's wife,"
let alone thy neighbor.
501
00:27:53,705 --> 00:27:55,570
- What have you been reading?
- The Holy Bible.
502
00:27:55,640 --> 00:27:57,005
What the hell are you
reading that for, man?
503
00:27:57,075 --> 00:27:58,474
I haven't read that
since grade school.
504
00:27:58,543 --> 00:27:59,441
Well, you should.
505
00:27:59,511 --> 00:28:01,342
It's mostly about straight
sex, and believe me...
506
00:28:01,413 --> 00:28:02,812
...you're in some deep shit too.
507
00:28:02,881 --> 00:28:05,441
- Well, we're all sinners, right?
- Yes, that's right.
508
00:28:05,517 --> 00:28:08,645
So then I'll keep on sinning
till I'm like, thirty...
509
00:28:08,720 --> 00:28:10,950
...and then I'll repent
and take up golf.
510
00:28:11,022 --> 00:28:12,011
Isn't that how it works?
511
00:28:12,090 --> 00:28:13,352
But what if you don't
live till thirty?
512
00:28:13,425 --> 00:28:15,325
What if you die
tonight in your sleep?
513
00:28:15,393 --> 00:28:17,020
Look, Dor, if I'm so
screwed being straight...
514
00:28:17,095 --> 00:28:18,892
...then what are you worried
about being gay for?
515
00:28:18,963 --> 00:28:20,624
Cause I decided that
I want to have kids.
516
00:28:20,699 --> 00:28:22,030
Oh, well that's over.
517
00:28:22,100 --> 00:28:23,863
Don't say that's over, don't
you dare say that's over...
518
00:28:23,935 --> 00:28:25,334
...it's what I want more than
anything in the whole world.
519
00:28:25,403 --> 00:28:26,495
- All right, all right.
- I want kids.
520
00:28:26,571 --> 00:28:27,094
Shhh.
521
00:28:27,172 --> 00:28:28,833
And not just one or two of
them, a whole mess of them...
522
00:28:28,907 --> 00:28:30,238
...my own little baseball team.
523
00:28:30,308 --> 00:28:33,709
- Base... You hate baseball.
- Yes, but I love uniforms.
524
00:28:33,778 --> 00:28:35,507
So I need your help.
525
00:28:35,580 --> 00:28:38,242
I want you to teach me
how to think straight.
526
00:28:38,316 --> 00:28:40,045
You want me to teach you?
527
00:28:40,118 --> 00:28:42,484
Yeah, I want to turn this
around so bad and I've been...
528
00:28:42,554 --> 00:28:44,886
...thinking that if someone
like you could teach me...
529
00:28:44,956 --> 00:28:47,754
...how you think sexually, you know,
maybe I could reboot my brain.
530
00:28:47,826 --> 00:28:49,191
- You want to turn this around?
- Yes.
531
00:28:49,260 --> 00:28:51,194
- Seriously?
- I've never been more serious.
532
00:28:51,262 --> 00:28:52,593
Cause I have had some
thoughts on this.
533
00:28:52,664 --> 00:28:53,289
You have?
534
00:28:53,364 --> 00:28:55,161
Absolutely, I mean I didn't
want to push them on you...
535
00:28:55,233 --> 00:28:57,497
...but if you're coming to me
I'll shoot straight with you.
536
00:28:57,569 --> 00:28:59,434
I think I can get this
monkey off your back.
537
00:28:59,504 --> 00:29:01,631
I knew it.
Tell me what I have to do.
538
00:29:01,706 --> 00:29:03,173
- Now?
- Yes, now.
539
00:29:03,241 --> 00:29:05,709
We're both up, start helping
me get this monkey off now.
540
00:29:05,777 --> 00:29:07,938
Oh, thank you, thank
you, thank you.
541
00:29:08,012 --> 00:29:10,674
Oh my God, wouldn't it be
fabulous if this were just...
542
00:29:10,749 --> 00:29:12,410
...the answer to the
whole problem?
543
00:29:12,484 --> 00:29:15,885
First things first,
don't ever say fabulous.
544
00:29:15,954 --> 00:29:17,717
- No?
- No, it's not a straight word.
545
00:29:17,789 --> 00:29:18,483
Oh.
546
00:29:18,556 --> 00:29:20,183
Never heard one of my
friends say fabulous.
547
00:29:20,258 --> 00:29:22,226
- Oh, OK.
- Well what do I say instead?
548
00:29:22,293 --> 00:29:24,693
U h, say...
549
00:29:24,763 --> 00:29:25,661
...awesome.
550
00:29:25,730 --> 00:29:27,197
OK.
551
00:29:27,265 --> 00:29:32,567
It's awesome.
That would be awesome.
552
00:29:32,637 --> 00:29:34,605
- OK.
- It's awesome, man.
553
00:29:34,672 --> 00:29:35,229
Good.
554
00:29:35,306 --> 00:29:36,603
I know, it feels good,
I like it.
555
00:29:36,674 --> 00:29:38,539
- It's fucking awesome.
- That's it.
556
00:29:38,610 --> 00:29:39,235
Yeah.
557
00:29:39,310 --> 00:29:40,504
All right, let's go
down to the basement.
558
00:29:40,578 --> 00:29:41,875
What are we going to
do in the basement?
559
00:29:41,946 --> 00:29:42,913
We're gonna fight.
560
00:29:49,554 --> 00:29:51,852
- Did you say fight?
- Yup.
561
00:29:51,923 --> 00:29:54,915
- Actually fight.
- Actually, physically fight.
562
00:29:54,993 --> 00:29:56,221
You're going to teach
me how to fight.
563
00:29:56,294 --> 00:29:58,194
No, not teach, just fight.
564
00:29:58,263 --> 00:29:59,855
If you happen to pick up
some pointers along the way...
565
00:29:59,931 --> 00:30:01,057
...good for you.
566
00:30:01,132 --> 00:30:02,690
I don't understand.
567
00:30:02,767 --> 00:30:05,736
See you want me to help you,
this is how we start.
568
00:30:05,804 --> 00:30:08,500
We mix it up, mano y mano.
569
00:30:08,573 --> 00:30:11,235
OK, but I think
we're short a mano.
570
00:30:11,309 --> 00:30:14,745
See that's just it.
You're a pussy.
571
00:30:14,813 --> 00:30:17,748
- You've always been a pussy.
- Ouch.
572
00:30:23,655 --> 00:30:24,679
This is for real?
573
00:30:24,756 --> 00:30:26,087
Can't be straight if
you're a chicken shit.
574
00:30:28,059 --> 00:30:29,151
I'm not a chicken shit.
575
00:30:42,707 --> 00:30:43,571
Stand up.
576
00:30:44,976 --> 00:30:47,308
Ok.
Now drive your elbow back.
577
00:30:47,378 --> 00:30:49,039
The other one.
578
00:30:49,113 --> 00:30:50,171
There you go.
579
00:30:50,248 --> 00:30:51,237
OK.
580
00:30:51,316 --> 00:30:54,410
OK, tough guy, you
wanna see something?
581
00:30:54,485 --> 00:30:55,577
Please.
582
00:30:55,653 --> 00:30:57,086
- You want to see what I've got?
- I'm waiting.
583
00:30:57,155 --> 00:30:58,884
- You might be surprised.
- Surprise me.
584
00:31:21,279 --> 00:31:22,974
Come on, Dorian,
it was just a jab.
585
00:31:23,748 --> 00:31:25,079
I didn't see it coming.
586
00:31:25,149 --> 00:31:30,451
OK, OK, relax, relax,
elbows in, take it easy...
587
00:31:30,521 --> 00:31:32,079
...just breathe.
588
00:31:33,558 --> 00:31:34,752
Ah-ha!
589
00:31:34,826 --> 00:31:39,126
Faked you out, jock boy!
Not hurt at all.
590
00:31:39,197 --> 00:31:42,360
Oh, what's the matter Rambo?
Hurt your little thumb?
591
00:31:42,433 --> 00:31:43,365
You sneaky little...
592
00:31:43,434 --> 00:31:44,492
Sneaky?
593
00:31:44,569 --> 00:31:47,129
I don't think sneaky's
a straight word, bro.
594
00:31:47,205 --> 00:31:48,934
Try ballsy.
595
00:31:49,007 --> 00:31:51,373
Aaaaaah!
Diiiiieeee!
596
00:31:53,177 --> 00:31:55,509
Oooh, shit!
You alright?
597
00:31:55,580 --> 00:31:57,070
Dor?
Dor?
598
00:32:00,385 --> 00:32:02,285
Look, I am trying to
help you, allright?
599
00:32:02,353 --> 00:32:05,254
- So please don't embarrass me.
- Embarrass you?
600
00:32:06,157 --> 00:32:07,715
Look at what I'm wearing.
601
00:32:07,792 --> 00:32:09,692
Will you stop milking that?
602
00:32:09,761 --> 00:32:11,888
Milk?
It was a concussion!
603
00:32:11,963 --> 00:32:14,488
- And there was blood!
- It was an accident!
604
00:32:14,565 --> 00:32:17,830
Just forget about it and concentrate
on acting like a real guy.
605
00:32:21,673 --> 00:32:26,508
## Kiss me here, 'cause I've
got the dirt on you my dear. ##
606
00:32:26,577 --> 00:32:33,415
## It's your turn to hurt so kiss me
here I'm gonna make you pay. ##
607
00:32:35,720 --> 00:32:36,846
What's your name?
608
00:32:36,921 --> 00:32:38,115
Tiffany.
609
00:32:38,189 --> 00:32:42,649
##... And it's clear
you're not too brilliant. ##
610
00:32:42,727 --> 00:32:47,790
## Kiss me here, go
on and make my day. ##
611
00:32:47,865 --> 00:32:52,700
Oh... Oh my... Easy,
I'm nursing a concussion.
612
00:32:55,573 --> 00:32:57,803
- You like her?
- I like her shoes.
613
00:32:57,875 --> 00:33:00,503
No, her.
Do you like her?
614
00:33:00,578 --> 00:33:03,376
Actually, I think
she's quite sensuous.
615
00:33:03,448 --> 00:33:04,915
Excellent.
616
00:33:05,450 --> 00:33:07,008
Where have you been?
I've been sitting here...
617
00:33:07,085 --> 00:33:08,780
Been talking to that
dancer, Tiffany.
618
00:33:08,853 --> 00:33:10,548
- She's agreed to help us out.
- What does that mean?
619
00:33:10,621 --> 00:33:12,555
It means she's gonna
sleep with you bro.
620
00:33:12,623 --> 00:33:13,817
Tonight.
621
00:33:14,492 --> 00:33:16,050
- You're full of it.
- No, I'm serious.
622
00:33:16,127 --> 00:33:17,822
- I don't believe you.
- Believe it, Dor.
623
00:33:17,895 --> 00:33:21,058
She gets off work at two,
you show up at her place at 2:30...
624
00:33:21,132 --> 00:33:24,226
...by 2:35, this
virgin shit is over.
625
00:33:24,302 --> 00:33:25,792
- This is for real?
- Totally for real.
626
00:33:25,870 --> 00:33:26,837
Oh, my God.
627
00:33:27,939 --> 00:33:29,998
Oh, my God.
628
00:33:31,209 --> 00:33:34,303
Well, to tell you the truth I
don't know how I feel about this.
629
00:33:34,379 --> 00:33:35,903
Feel great about it,
all right?
630
00:33:35,980 --> 00:33:38,471
And do us both a favor,
don't over think it.
631
00:33:38,549 --> 00:33:40,779
- I won't, but I'm just so...
- No, you got to do this, Dor.
632
00:33:40,852 --> 00:33:41,910
This is what's gonna
make the difference.
633
00:33:41,986 --> 00:33:43,453
- I hope so but...
- No buts, OK?
634
00:33:43,521 --> 00:33:44,180
- OK.
- OK?
635
00:33:44,255 --> 00:33:45,085
Yeah, OK!
636
00:33:46,791 --> 00:33:47,780
Wow.
637
00:33:48,526 --> 00:33:49,049
Wow.
638
00:33:51,162 --> 00:33:52,789
So I guess she kind
of liked me, huh...
639
00:33:52,864 --> 00:33:54,354
I mean enough to
want to, you know...
640
00:33:54,432 --> 00:33:56,093
Yeah, for a hundred
bucks she liked you fine.
641
00:33:56,167 --> 00:33:58,499
What?
You paid her a hundred bucks.
642
00:33:58,569 --> 00:34:00,628
Hey relax, this
is totally on me.
643
00:34:00,705 --> 00:34:02,502
Oh my God, N icky.
644
00:34:02,573 --> 00:34:04,404
It's not the money,
it's the principle.
645
00:34:04,475 --> 00:34:05,772
What principles have you got?
646
00:34:05,843 --> 00:34:07,333
You're between
this and sodomy.
647
00:34:07,412 --> 00:34:09,141
You set me up with a hooker.
648
00:34:09,213 --> 00:34:12,080
She's not a hooker, she's a dancer
who does some of this on the side.
649
00:34:12,150 --> 00:34:16,052
- So she's a part-time hooker.
- She's a lovely, sensuous girl.
650
00:34:16,120 --> 00:34:17,587
- You said so yourself.
- All right!
651
00:34:19,157 --> 00:34:23,059
So my first time will
be with a lovely...
652
00:34:23,127 --> 00:34:25,823
...sensuous dancer
named Tiffany.
653
00:34:25,897 --> 00:34:30,129
Well, uh... Just so you know,
it's a stage name.
654
00:34:30,201 --> 00:34:33,068
These dancers pick sexy
sounding names for the dancing.
655
00:34:33,137 --> 00:34:34,764
- What's her real name?
- Bunny.
656
00:34:40,111 --> 00:34:40,907
Come on in.
657
00:34:52,723 --> 00:34:55,886
- You're all sweaty.
- Oh, I'm sorry.
658
00:34:55,960 --> 00:34:57,052
It's all right.
659
00:34:57,128 --> 00:35:00,154
U h, I have deodorant on,
just not antiperspirant.
660
00:35:00,231 --> 00:35:01,163
It's OK.
661
00:35:02,700 --> 00:35:05,999
I, I didn't want to
wear this for this.
662
00:35:06,070 --> 00:35:08,129
- Should I throw it out?
- Yeah.
663
00:35:15,446 --> 00:35:17,505
Can I get you something
cold to drink?
664
00:35:17,582 --> 00:35:20,346
U h, does it cost extra?
665
00:35:20,418 --> 00:35:21,783
- No.
- Sure.
666
00:35:36,167 --> 00:35:37,759
- Getting ready?
- No, uh.
667
00:35:37,835 --> 00:35:38,995
It's OK.
Stay.
668
00:35:46,911 --> 00:35:48,469
You know, I don't
mind that you're gay.
669
00:35:50,014 --> 00:35:51,174
No, no.
670
00:35:51,249 --> 00:35:55,618
What I mean is, I'm usually
not attracted to the guys I'm with...
671
00:35:55,686 --> 00:36:00,851
...so, um, if you're not attracted
to me then everything's even.
672
00:36:00,925 --> 00:36:02,859
That's not it, it...
673
00:36:03,761 --> 00:36:04,284
What?
674
00:36:04,362 --> 00:36:08,355
It's just, I can't believe
what I've been reduced to...
675
00:36:08,432 --> 00:36:11,128
...someone who has to
pay for a sex life.
676
00:36:11,202 --> 00:36:12,499
I mean, I'm a romantic.
677
00:36:14,205 --> 00:36:15,536
How long have you
been doing this?
678
00:36:15,606 --> 00:36:16,595
About a year.
679
00:36:16,674 --> 00:36:18,232
Why do you need
the money so badly?
680
00:36:18,309 --> 00:36:19,503
You got a crack
habit or something?
681
00:36:19,577 --> 00:36:21,568
No, no nothing like that.
682
00:36:21,646 --> 00:36:24,774
Actually, I'm saving to
move down to New York.
683
00:36:24,849 --> 00:36:26,578
Really? What are you going
to do down there?
684
00:36:26,651 --> 00:36:28,619
- Try and be a singer.
- You sing?
685
00:36:28,686 --> 00:36:32,144
And dance. I do some
vocal impersonations.
686
00:36:32,223 --> 00:36:36,387
Wow, you're multi-talented.
I wish I had one talent.
687
00:36:36,460 --> 00:36:37,927
I'm sure you have one.
688
00:36:37,995 --> 00:36:39,986
Not unless you
count melancholy.
689
00:36:40,064 --> 00:36:41,531
Got a gift for that.
690
00:36:46,070 --> 00:36:47,901
- Who do you do?
- Excuse me?
691
00:36:47,972 --> 00:36:49,701
You said you
impersonate singers?
692
00:36:49,774 --> 00:36:53,210
Oh... A lot of people.
693
00:36:53,277 --> 00:36:56,405
Well do one,
and let me guess.
694
00:36:56,480 --> 00:36:58,914
- No, I can't.
- Why not?
695
00:36:58,983 --> 00:37:00,746
Cause I'm embarrassed.
696
00:37:00,818 --> 00:37:03,116
You're embarrassed
to sing for me?
697
00:37:03,187 --> 00:37:05,052
Did you forget what
I came here for?
698
00:37:07,058 --> 00:37:07,854
OK.
699
00:37:13,464 --> 00:37:19,403
## I don't know why but
I'm feeling so sad. ##
700
00:37:19,470 --> 00:37:24,498
## I long to try something
I've never had. ##
701
00:37:24,575 --> 00:37:31,640
## Never had no kissin'.
Oh what I've been missin'. ##
702
00:37:31,716 --> 00:37:39,555
## Lover man, Lover man, ##
703
00:37:39,624 --> 00:37:44,857
## Where can you be? ##
704
00:37:46,931 --> 00:37:48,364
Billie Holiday.
705
00:37:48,432 --> 00:37:51,401
- Very good.
- Very good yourself.
706
00:37:51,469 --> 00:37:54,529
- That was wonderful.
- Yeah, I love her.
707
00:37:54,605 --> 00:37:56,470
- Do you know any country?
- Country?
708
00:37:56,540 --> 00:37:57,939
Yeah, I love country.
709
00:37:58,009 --> 00:37:59,340
Please don't think
any less of me.
710
00:37:59,410 --> 00:38:08,045
## Worry. Why do I
let myself worry? ##
711
00:38:08,119 --> 00:38:16,686
## Wondrin', what in
the world did I do? ##
712
00:38:16,761 --> 00:38:22,757
## I'm crazy for tryin'
and crazy for cryin'. ##
713
00:38:22,833 --> 00:38:33,368
## And I'm crazy for lovin' you. ##
714
00:38:34,078 --> 00:38:36,205
No, no, no.
Oh, no, no.
715
00:38:38,282 --> 00:38:39,579
U h.
716
00:38:40,484 --> 00:38:43,783
It's just, it's never
gonna happen for me.
717
00:38:43,854 --> 00:38:45,082
What?
718
00:38:46,957 --> 00:38:51,223
I just want to feel good,
you know, sometimes.
719
00:38:52,196 --> 00:38:54,164
I'm sick of being scared.
720
00:38:54,231 --> 00:38:57,496
I'm scared a lot of
the times myself.
721
00:38:57,568 --> 00:38:59,160
- You are?
- Yeah.
722
00:38:59,236 --> 00:39:00,396
You wanna know
what I do about it?
723
00:39:00,471 --> 00:39:01,301
What?
724
00:39:01,372 --> 00:39:07,174
I pretend... Like I'm in one of
those big old Hollywood musicals.
725
00:39:07,244 --> 00:39:12,409
Where everyone's fine,
and happy, and in love.
726
00:39:12,483 --> 00:39:13,973
And I pretend
like I'm in love.
727
00:39:14,051 --> 00:39:16,212
I sing, I dance...
728
00:39:16,287 --> 00:39:19,620
- You delude yourself.
- Yeah, but it works.
729
00:39:19,690 --> 00:39:22,181
Hey, you want to dance
with me right now.
730
00:39:22,259 --> 00:39:23,658
No, no, no.
It's a pick me up.
731
00:39:23,728 --> 00:39:25,218
I swear it always works.
732
00:39:25,296 --> 00:39:30,529
U h, I can't dance, I know it
sounds weird coming from a gay guy.
733
00:39:30,601 --> 00:39:32,364
You can dance,
everybody can dance.
734
00:39:32,436 --> 00:39:34,597
- Come on, I'll teach you.
- It's not that simple.
735
00:39:34,672 --> 00:39:36,640
No, it's that's simple.
736
00:39:36,707 --> 00:39:39,471
Look, I don't know
where you're from...
737
00:39:39,543 --> 00:39:41,875
...but you may have missed
a really important lesson.
738
00:39:41,946 --> 00:39:44,642
You want to feel good,
you gotta work at it.
739
00:39:44,715 --> 00:39:46,114
Now get up.
740
00:39:46,183 --> 00:39:49,152
Well, feeling good for
me has never been simple...
741
00:39:49,220 --> 00:39:51,711
...and learning a dance,
impossible.
742
00:39:51,789 --> 00:39:54,087
But Tiffany was convinced
that if you worked hard enough...
743
00:39:54,158 --> 00:39:56,888
...the universe
owed you an MGM moment.
744
00:39:56,961 --> 00:40:00,055
And work we did.
And you know what?
745
00:40:00,131 --> 00:40:03,032
Before the night was done,
the universe paid up.
746
00:40:32,329 --> 00:40:35,628
I left Tiffany's that night
knowing that I'd never be straight...
747
00:40:35,699 --> 00:40:38,065
...and that it was
time to tell everyone.
748
00:40:38,402 --> 00:40:39,391
This is bad.
749
00:40:41,439 --> 00:40:43,532
This is really bad.
750
00:40:45,709 --> 00:40:46,971
You're actually going to do this.
751
00:40:50,514 --> 00:40:53,745
So tell me, Dor...
'cause I honestly don't understand.
752
00:40:54,385 --> 00:40:56,012
Where are you suddenly finding
the courage to do this?
753
00:40:56,086 --> 00:40:58,213
I mean, to this day you
still haven't been able to...
754
00:40:58,289 --> 00:41:00,052
...tell them about that golf club
you broke that summer.
755
00:41:00,124 --> 00:41:01,091
I know.
756
00:41:01,158 --> 00:41:03,319
- I may throw that in.
- He's going to go ballistic.
757
00:41:03,394 --> 00:41:05,760
Maybe, but afterwards,
he'll know who I am.
758
00:41:05,830 --> 00:41:07,627
OK, he doesn't care
who you are, Dorian!
759
00:41:07,698 --> 00:41:09,290
He only cares who he is
and this will mean that...
760
00:41:09,366 --> 00:41:10,799
...he's the father
of a homosexual.
761
00:41:10,868 --> 00:41:12,392
And that's going to freak him out!
762
00:41:14,238 --> 00:41:16,206
Well, I'm not going
to be here for it.
763
00:41:16,974 --> 00:41:21,001
You know, some families
actually grow stronger...
764
00:41:21,078 --> 00:41:22,204
...from this sort of thing.
765
00:41:22,279 --> 00:41:24,406
Oh yeah, we're a really
good candidate for that.
766
00:41:24,482 --> 00:41:26,916
You tell your news,
Dad will drink til he drops...
767
00:41:26,984 --> 00:41:28,611
...and Mom will be up until
two o'clock in the morning...
768
00:41:28,686 --> 00:41:31,154
...dusting knick-knacks and humming
to herself like a mental patient.
769
00:41:31,222 --> 00:41:33,486
Yeah, we're really going
to grow stronger.
770
00:41:36,927 --> 00:41:37,916
Don't you tell him I knew.
771
00:41:37,995 --> 00:41:39,292
- I won't.
- I'm serious.
772
00:41:39,363 --> 00:41:40,990
- I didn't know a thing about it.
- I heard you.
773
00:41:48,973 --> 00:41:50,804
- I'm going to Walsh's.
- What's all the yelling about?
774
00:41:50,875 --> 00:41:52,137
Nothing.
Where are my keys?
775
00:41:52,209 --> 00:41:53,233
Wherever you left them.
776
00:42:19,236 --> 00:42:21,932
You're not wearing a
a pink shirt, are you?
777
00:42:22,006 --> 00:42:23,030
No, it's fuchsia.
778
00:42:25,709 --> 00:42:27,040
Got a minute, dad?
779
00:42:34,251 --> 00:42:37,379
Stupid, stupid,
stupid, stupid.
780
00:42:37,454 --> 00:42:38,921
Idiot!
781
00:42:50,768 --> 00:42:54,431
Son, you don't even know
the meaning of the word.
782
00:42:54,505 --> 00:42:56,473
I don't know what
the word 'gay' means?
783
00:42:56,540 --> 00:42:58,599
- I doubt it.
- Well, you're wrong.
784
00:42:58,676 --> 00:43:01,236
- What's it mean?
- It means, I like men.
785
00:43:01,312 --> 00:43:02,904
Not you, maybe,
but in general.
786
00:43:02,980 --> 00:43:05,881
You hear the
anger there... Huh?
787
00:43:05,950 --> 00:43:07,850
See that's the crux
to all of this.
788
00:43:07,918 --> 00:43:11,115
You're so angry at me you'd do
anything to try and shock me.
789
00:43:11,188 --> 00:43:13,179
Of course I'm angry at you,
because you've never had...
790
00:43:13,257 --> 00:43:14,747
...anything but contempt for me.
791
00:43:14,825 --> 00:43:16,122
Think this is gonna help?
792
00:43:16,193 --> 00:43:18,593
- This isn't about you.
- I think it is.
793
00:43:18,662 --> 00:43:20,186
Do you think I made this up?
794
00:43:20,264 --> 00:43:21,925
No, I think you probably
worked yourself up...
795
00:43:21,999 --> 00:43:23,398
...into half believing it too.
796
00:43:23,467 --> 00:43:25,628
I more than half
believe it, Dad.
797
00:43:25,703 --> 00:43:26,499
I know it.
798
00:43:26,570 --> 00:43:29,767
You don't know horse
shit, you hear me?
799
00:43:29,840 --> 00:43:31,535
You're so fogged up
in that head of yours...
800
00:43:31,609 --> 00:43:33,099
...you don't know horse shit.
801
00:43:33,177 --> 00:43:37,409
This is some fantasy you've
cooked up to feel eccentric.
802
00:43:37,481 --> 00:43:39,039
Well I've got news for you.
803
00:43:39,116 --> 00:43:42,381
There's a world of difference
between being eccentric...
804
00:43:42,453 --> 00:43:44,216
...and being perverted.
805
00:43:46,390 --> 00:43:47,914
Back to the drawing board.
806
00:43:48,892 --> 00:43:49,916
Fantasy?
807
00:43:49,994 --> 00:43:52,326
Before graduation I slept
with a guy at school.
808
00:43:58,636 --> 00:44:00,126
Then congratulations...
809
00:44:02,973 --> 00:44:04,304
...you have shocked me.
810
00:44:04,375 --> 00:44:05,603
I didn't tell
you to shock you.
811
00:44:05,676 --> 00:44:07,974
No, no.
Don't speak.
812
00:44:08,045 --> 00:44:11,139
Don't open your mouth until
I ask you a direct question.
813
00:44:11,215 --> 00:44:12,307
Is that clear?
814
00:44:14,518 --> 00:44:16,315
- Is that clear?
- Yes sir.
815
00:44:18,155 --> 00:44:18,917
Good.
816
00:44:25,129 --> 00:44:28,792
Now what I want to know is,
who else have you told this to?
817
00:44:28,866 --> 00:44:29,355
No one.
818
00:44:31,735 --> 00:44:34,101
- None of your friends?
- No.
819
00:44:34,171 --> 00:44:35,763
- Your mother?
- No.
820
00:44:39,977 --> 00:44:41,911
- Your brother?
- No.
821
00:44:41,979 --> 00:44:42,809
Yes.
822
00:44:43,247 --> 00:44:45,238
I know about it,
Dad...
823
00:44:48,185 --> 00:44:49,117
...everything.
824
00:44:50,154 --> 00:44:52,588
You knew about this,
and you didn't tell me?
825
00:44:52,656 --> 00:44:54,123
Well I would have, Dad,
if I knew you were...
826
00:44:54,191 --> 00:44:55,317
...going to take it so well.
827
00:44:55,392 --> 00:44:56,916
- This is funny.
- No, it isn't.
828
00:44:56,994 --> 00:44:58,757
It's also not worth having
a heart attack over.
829
00:44:58,829 --> 00:45:01,297
Dad, I'm still the same
person I always was.
830
00:45:01,365 --> 00:45:02,627
Which was never so hot.
831
00:45:02,700 --> 00:45:04,224
- Come on, Dad.
- Now hold it.
832
00:45:07,171 --> 00:45:09,298
You should never
have involved him...
833
00:45:09,373 --> 00:45:10,863
...he's at a very
impressionable age.
834
00:45:10,941 --> 00:45:12,374
Oh, Jesus, Dad.
835
00:45:12,443 --> 00:45:14,502
This does not affect
your precious N icky!
836
00:45:14,578 --> 00:45:15,943
- I certainly hope not.
- Dad.
837
00:45:16,013 --> 00:45:17,605
Oh, so that's
the bottom line.
838
00:45:17,681 --> 00:45:19,842
You don't care if you have a
gay son as long as it's not him.
839
00:45:19,917 --> 00:45:21,714
Don't tell me
what I care about.
840
00:45:21,785 --> 00:45:22,945
Dad, will you
guys just relax?
841
00:45:23,020 --> 00:45:24,988
- It's your problem.
- It's no big deal!
842
00:45:27,324 --> 00:45:28,188
What isn't?
843
00:45:29,626 --> 00:45:30,524
Being gay.
844
00:45:31,495 --> 00:45:32,154
It isn't.
845
00:45:32,229 --> 00:45:35,164
It's just, you know,
another way to go.
846
00:45:38,469 --> 00:45:39,834
I never told him that, Dad.
847
00:45:44,341 --> 00:45:46,536
- Get out.
- No, Dad.
848
00:45:46,610 --> 00:45:49,602
- You don't live here any more.
- Fine.
849
00:45:49,680 --> 00:45:51,841
- What the hell is going on?
- Get the hell out of here!
850
00:45:51,915 --> 00:45:53,177
- What's going on?
- Dorian!
851
00:45:53,250 --> 00:45:54,410
He's out of here,
it's his problem.
852
00:45:54,485 --> 00:45:56,612
Just a second Dad.
Dad!
853
00:45:56,687 --> 00:45:58,245
Get your hands off me!
854
00:45:59,223 --> 00:46:00,850
What, are you
turning faggy too?
855
00:46:11,802 --> 00:46:13,326
Is this really how
you're gonna move out?
856
00:46:13,403 --> 00:46:15,871
Well, I would have
preferred a cake, but...
857
00:46:17,841 --> 00:46:19,604
He's gonna cool off a
lot by tomorrow, Dor.
858
00:46:19,676 --> 00:46:21,735
I'm not gonna be
here tomorrow, OK?
859
00:46:21,812 --> 00:46:23,177
I just called the cab.
860
00:46:23,247 --> 00:46:24,805
I'm going to Aunt Beth's in
five minutes and tomorrow...
861
00:46:24,882 --> 00:46:26,179
I'm going down to school early.
862
00:46:26,250 --> 00:46:27,683
And what if you're not
happy down in New York?
863
00:46:27,751 --> 00:46:29,309
How could I not be
happy in New York?
864
00:46:29,386 --> 00:46:30,944
New York's the greatest
city in the world.
865
00:46:31,021 --> 00:46:32,181
You always say that...
866
00:46:32,256 --> 00:46:33,848
...how do you know what the
greatest city in the world is?
867
00:46:33,924 --> 00:46:35,653
The only other city
you've been to is Utica.
868
00:46:35,726 --> 00:46:38,752
- What about mom?
- You fill her in, I'll call.
869
00:46:38,829 --> 00:46:40,456
I don't want some sort
of weird scene now.
870
00:46:40,531 --> 00:46:42,089
Do you want this, it's
yours but I use it.
871
00:46:43,333 --> 00:46:44,800
Man, she's gonna
be heart-broken.
872
00:46:44,868 --> 00:46:47,336
She'll be rolling pennies,
she won't even notice.
873
00:46:47,404 --> 00:46:48,371
That's not fair.
874
00:46:49,606 --> 00:46:51,972
You, you know
about fair, N ick?
875
00:46:52,042 --> 00:46:55,034
Well why don't you,
favorite son...
876
00:46:55,112 --> 00:46:57,239
quarterback king with
a big Dick to boot...
877
00:46:57,314 --> 00:46:59,043
...tell me about fair.
878
00:47:01,051 --> 00:47:02,780
And good luck here alone.
879
00:47:36,119 --> 00:47:37,450
October 21 st.
880
00:47:37,521 --> 00:47:41,252
Dear Nicky, was I ever
right about this city.
881
00:47:41,325 --> 00:47:42,815
It's wonderful.
882
00:47:42,893 --> 00:47:44,451
What did I always talk about?
883
00:47:44,528 --> 00:47:47,395
Culture, museums, theater...
884
00:47:47,464 --> 00:47:49,557
God, I've found
myself here, Nick.
885
00:47:49,633 --> 00:47:51,066
And, others like me.
886
00:47:51,134 --> 00:47:53,227
- You know what I don't get?
- Tell us.
887
00:47:53,303 --> 00:47:56,670
OK. Why the pope rides around
in a bullet-proof car.
888
00:47:56,740 --> 00:47:58,002
I just don't get that.
889
00:47:58,075 --> 00:48:00,043
I mean, what is he
afraid of, eternal bliss?
890
00:48:01,912 --> 00:48:02,936
That's Ellie.
891
00:48:03,013 --> 00:48:05,880
She's opinionated,
lesbian, and Jewish.
892
00:48:05,949 --> 00:48:08,281
Everything Dad looks
for in a woman.
893
00:48:08,352 --> 00:48:09,683
The guy's Andrew.
894
00:48:09,753 --> 00:48:11,687
Also gay, with
a big crush on me.
895
00:48:11,755 --> 00:48:13,382
Dorian do you want
anything, on me?
896
00:48:13,457 --> 00:48:14,355
No thanks.
897
00:48:14,424 --> 00:48:16,358
I'm not interested,
but he persists.
898
00:48:16,426 --> 00:48:18,553
- You sure, split an iced tea?
- No thanks.
899
00:48:18,629 --> 00:48:19,857
Newspaper or a candy bar?
900
00:48:19,930 --> 00:48:21,693
No thanks,
no thanks, no thanks.
901
00:48:25,335 --> 00:48:26,199
You sure?
902
00:48:26,270 --> 00:48:28,204
Andrew's odd,
but we love him...
903
00:48:28,272 --> 00:48:30,399
...just as we all
love this city...
904
00:48:30,474 --> 00:48:32,237
...which I can now say
from experience...
905
00:48:32,309 --> 00:48:34,607
...is the greatest city in the world.
906
00:48:34,678 --> 00:48:35,167
Dor.
907
00:48:38,515 --> 00:48:40,676
December 3.
Dear Nick.
908
00:48:40,751 --> 00:48:45,211
This is, without a doubt, the
most disgusting city in the world.
909
00:48:45,289 --> 00:48:47,154
You see, you gotta
be here awhile...
910
00:48:47,224 --> 00:48:50,557
...then you begin to see
the seams, the sadness...
911
00:48:50,627 --> 00:48:53,391
...the filth, the loneliness...
912
00:48:53,463 --> 00:48:56,125
Anyway, can't wait
for Christmas.
913
00:48:56,199 --> 00:48:58,099
Family warmth and all that.
914
00:48:58,168 --> 00:48:59,294
Dor.
915
00:49:02,773 --> 00:49:04,001
Coats go right in the hall.
916
00:49:04,074 --> 00:49:05,701
That's fine, just
dump them there.
917
00:49:05,776 --> 00:49:07,038
Has he grown?
918
00:49:07,110 --> 00:49:08,304
Look at this!
919
00:49:14,451 --> 00:49:18,148
U h, ladies and gentleman,
could I have your attention please.
920
00:49:18,221 --> 00:49:21,213
I, I, I just have a
little announcement.
921
00:49:22,693 --> 00:49:24,524
Hello... Hey! Got a little
announcement to make.
922
00:49:26,463 --> 00:49:31,594
As most of you are aware, N icky
has been applying to some colleges...
923
00:49:31,668 --> 00:49:35,729
...hoping that one of them might
let him play a little football.
924
00:49:35,806 --> 00:49:38,798
At what level, we
could only hope...
925
00:49:38,875 --> 00:49:41,776
...and whether they would kick
in a little tuition money...
926
00:49:41,845 --> 00:49:43,676
...we could only dream.
927
00:49:43,747 --> 00:49:46,341
We received a little
letter here this morning.
928
00:49:50,053 --> 00:49:57,824
The thrust of which says that
my son, my flesh and blood...
929
00:49:57,894 --> 00:50:02,661
...will be playing
quarterback this fall...
930
00:50:02,733 --> 00:50:08,729
...on a full scholarship at
Syracuse U niversity, division 1!
931
00:50:08,805 --> 00:50:09,601
All right!
932
00:50:09,673 --> 00:50:11,038
Come on up here, son!
933
00:50:11,108 --> 00:50:13,167
No get up here, come
here, give me your hand.
934
00:50:13,243 --> 00:50:14,039
Congratulations.
935
00:50:14,878 --> 00:50:16,539
Hey, how about this kid!
936
00:50:18,081 --> 00:50:18,843
Thank you.
937
00:50:21,985 --> 00:50:22,644
What?
938
00:50:23,787 --> 00:50:24,947
Oh, OK, OK.
939
00:50:25,022 --> 00:50:28,583
And, ladies and gentleman,
folks, my other son...
940
00:50:28,658 --> 00:50:33,925
Dorian has just completed his first
semester at N YU where he is a uh...
941
00:50:34,898 --> 00:50:37,731
...uh, excuse me Dorian...
942
00:50:37,801 --> 00:50:39,268
...what you're majoring in?
943
00:50:40,704 --> 00:50:41,898
U ndecided.
944
00:50:41,972 --> 00:50:43,132
Right.
945
00:50:43,206 --> 00:50:45,572
Where he is majoring
in indecision.
946
00:50:51,948 --> 00:50:54,781
I dive down and I set that bow
anchor down there and I check it...
947
00:50:54,851 --> 00:50:57,945
...and I set the stern
anchor and I come back...
948
00:50:58,021 --> 00:50:59,511
...and I see it's a turtle.
949
00:51:00,424 --> 00:51:02,722
- Hey.
- Congratulations.
950
00:51:02,793 --> 00:51:04,226
Thanks.
951
00:51:04,294 --> 00:51:08,025
- Why didn't you tell me?
- You got home late, Dor.
952
00:51:08,098 --> 00:51:09,759
Plus I didn't know he
was going to pull this...
953
00:51:09,833 --> 00:51:11,232
...announcement stunt.
954
00:51:11,301 --> 00:51:13,360
Well, I'm happy for you.
955
00:51:13,437 --> 00:51:15,166
Bull, you wish I'd
get hit by a truck.
956
00:51:15,238 --> 00:51:17,672
Damn you, reading
my diary again.
957
00:51:17,741 --> 00:51:19,265
- Hey mom.
- Boys.
958
00:51:19,342 --> 00:51:22,470
Dorian, I read that story you
wrote for the school paper.
959
00:51:22,546 --> 00:51:24,446
I loved it.
960
00:51:24,514 --> 00:51:27,915
"A Man Walking On The Beach. "
You're very talented.
961
00:51:27,984 --> 00:51:29,542
I have two talented sons.
962
00:51:29,619 --> 00:51:31,610
Too bad my talent
doesn't pay tuition.
963
00:51:34,124 --> 00:51:37,321
Dorian, before I forget, did
I tell you I have a niece...
964
00:51:37,394 --> 00:51:38,361
...who lives in New York.
965
00:51:38,428 --> 00:51:39,190
No you didn't.
966
00:51:39,262 --> 00:51:41,389
Well I do.
She's gorgeous.
967
00:51:41,465 --> 00:51:45,162
And besides that, she is
the sweetest, smartest...
968
00:51:45,235 --> 00:51:47,430
...funniest girl you
could hope to meet.
969
00:51:47,504 --> 00:51:48,436
What do you think?
970
00:51:48,505 --> 00:51:50,564
Honestly, she doesn't
sound like my type.
971
00:51:58,582 --> 00:52:00,015
Whatever you want.
972
00:52:00,083 --> 00:52:01,243
I'm serious.
973
00:52:04,287 --> 00:52:05,276
Hey, Dor.
974
00:52:06,323 --> 00:52:07,381
Hey.
975
00:52:17,534 --> 00:52:19,331
Are we still mad
at each other?
976
00:52:19,402 --> 00:52:20,733
What's that?
977
00:52:20,804 --> 00:52:24,240
I said; are we still
mad at each other?
978
00:52:24,307 --> 00:52:25,672
I'm not mad.
979
00:52:25,742 --> 00:52:27,266
You haven't asked
me about school.
980
00:52:27,344 --> 00:52:31,110
Yeah, Mom filled me in.
Sounds like it's going well.
981
00:52:31,181 --> 00:52:33,411
- It's not a phase.
- What's that?
982
00:52:33,483 --> 00:52:36,714
It's not... A phase.
983
00:52:39,356 --> 00:52:41,654
Do you think you're ever
gonna be OK with who I am?
984
00:52:41,725 --> 00:52:45,821
Do I think I'm ever gonna be
OK with who you've chosen to be?
985
00:52:45,896 --> 00:52:46,590
Am.
986
00:52:46,663 --> 00:52:49,359
Now son, we both know
that's subject to opinion.
987
00:52:53,036 --> 00:52:56,631
No, never will be.
988
00:52:56,706 --> 00:53:01,700
The sexual specifics
of that life style, uh...
989
00:53:01,778 --> 00:53:06,044
...are just too unnatural for
me to ever be OK with it.
990
00:53:06,116 --> 00:53:07,743
God, you know what I hate?
991
00:53:07,817 --> 00:53:09,682
What's that?
992
00:53:09,753 --> 00:53:15,316
That I care what you think.
Because if I didn't... God!
993
00:53:17,661 --> 00:53:19,925
Well son...
994
00:53:19,996 --> 00:53:22,430
...part of being a
man in this world...
995
00:53:22,499 --> 00:53:26,492
...is making your own decisions and
then living with the consequences.
996
00:53:26,570 --> 00:53:29,198
You are a man now.
997
00:53:29,272 --> 00:53:31,001
I mean, you're old
enough to die in a war...
998
00:53:32,442 --> 00:53:34,672
...and you're old enough
to die in a bed too.
999
00:53:37,380 --> 00:53:39,814
Is that what you're
worried about?
1000
00:53:39,883 --> 00:53:44,752
Because I can relate to that,
but, I swear to God, Dad.
1001
00:53:44,821 --> 00:53:46,186
I'm gonna be so careful.
1002
00:53:46,256 --> 00:53:48,747
Oh yeah, 'careful',
funeral homes, these days...
1003
00:53:48,825 --> 00:53:50,520
...are truck-full of young men
who are careful, I mean...
1004
00:53:50,594 --> 00:53:53,119
Jesus, Dorian...
1005
00:53:53,196 --> 00:53:55,426
Do you want this disease?
Do you want AIDS?
1006
00:53:55,498 --> 00:53:58,023
That's it, I chose this
lifestyle because...
1007
00:53:58,101 --> 00:53:59,398
I felt left out of a plague.
1008
00:53:59,469 --> 00:54:01,460
Christ, I gotta wonder.
I mean...
1009
00:54:01,538 --> 00:54:04,336
...when being normal
could save your life...
1010
00:54:04,407 --> 00:54:07,001
...you think you'd give it
a strong second look.
1011
00:54:07,077 --> 00:54:09,011
What's normal Dad?
1012
00:54:09,079 --> 00:54:12,515
You with your pint
of Scotch every night?
1013
00:54:12,582 --> 00:54:14,675
That stack of big-boobed
girly magazines...
1014
00:54:14,751 --> 00:54:16,013
...you got hid in the safe
that Mom thinks...
1015
00:54:16,086 --> 00:54:18,384
...is just for
your stamp collection?
1016
00:54:18,455 --> 00:54:19,649
That normal?
1017
00:54:24,227 --> 00:54:27,162
Yeah, that's in the ballpark.
1018
00:54:46,149 --> 00:54:48,242
I returned to New York
that winter so lonely...
1019
00:54:48,318 --> 00:54:50,513
...that I was ready to try anything.
1020
00:54:50,587 --> 00:54:53,579
Even getting myself picked
up at one of those bars.
1021
00:54:53,657 --> 00:54:56,558
And it worked,
I got taken home by a guy...
1022
00:54:56,626 --> 00:54:58,491
...whose name I
never did learn so...
1023
00:54:58,561 --> 00:55:01,587
...let's just call him 'psycho'.
1024
00:55:10,707 --> 00:55:13,175
Nope.
This isn't gonna do it.
1025
00:55:13,243 --> 00:55:18,442
I'm really sorry, this just
isn't me, this whole scene.
1026
00:55:18,515 --> 00:55:21,609
I just thought I could drink
my way into it, but I can't...
1027
00:55:21,685 --> 00:55:24,153
...so I'm just gonna
call it a night, OK.
1028
00:55:26,489 --> 00:55:28,184
Hut.
1029
00:55:28,258 --> 00:55:32,558
18, 24, 36... Hut.
1030
00:55:32,629 --> 00:55:33,653
Hut. Hut.
1031
00:55:34,864 --> 00:55:37,799
18, 18.
1032
00:55:37,867 --> 00:55:39,061
Uuhh!
1033
00:55:52,282 --> 00:55:53,943
Yeah.
I'll call you some time.
1034
00:56:12,068 --> 00:56:14,366
I was so stupid.
1035
00:56:14,437 --> 00:56:17,338
I still didn't realize how
big a trouble I was in.
1036
00:56:17,407 --> 00:56:20,865
I still thought I was just
dealing with some drunken jerk.
1037
00:56:20,944 --> 00:56:25,608
When actually I had stumbled
on to something far worse.
1038
00:56:25,682 --> 00:56:27,445
It was unreal.
1039
00:56:27,517 --> 00:56:32,113
I couldn't breathe... And
it wasn't long before...
1040
00:56:32,188 --> 00:56:36,124
I started to lose it, and
I was pretty much screwed.
1041
00:56:38,495 --> 00:56:42,226
Until my mind coughed
up this obscure memory.
1042
00:56:56,880 --> 00:56:57,869
Shit!
1043
00:56:57,947 --> 00:56:59,505
You broke my nose!
1044
00:56:59,582 --> 00:57:00,549
Ah!
1045
00:57:00,617 --> 00:57:01,481
You're dead!
1046
00:57:01,985 --> 00:57:03,077
So dead!
1047
00:57:12,462 --> 00:57:16,523
I ended up in four days in St.
Vincent's for a serious concussion.
1048
00:57:16,599 --> 00:57:18,260
It was so ironic.
1049
00:57:18,334 --> 00:57:20,461
Nicky had been playing
football since he was nine...
1050
00:57:20,537 --> 00:57:22,562
...and had never
gotten a concussion.
1051
00:57:22,639 --> 00:57:26,097
I was going for a liberal arts
degree and already had two.
1052
00:57:26,176 --> 00:57:28,804
So after this
muscle-man incident...
1053
00:57:28,878 --> 00:57:32,041
I declared my preference
a- Sexual and hit the books.
1054
00:57:32,115 --> 00:57:35,107
Over the next few years I
became a high honors student...
1055
00:57:35,185 --> 00:57:38,552
VP of my class and a bit
of a soap box activist.
1056
00:57:38,621 --> 00:57:40,885
Meanwhile, Nicky
went to Syracuse...
1057
00:57:40,957 --> 00:57:43,391
...and through his letters I got
the impression that things...
1058
00:57:43,460 --> 00:57:46,486
...weren't going as easily
as he was used to.
1059
00:57:46,563 --> 00:57:48,394
It was the first time that
the angels had turned their...
1060
00:57:48,465 --> 00:57:51,662
...backs on my brother
and towards me.
1061
00:57:52,368 --> 00:57:53,665
I've been to the zoo.
1062
00:57:55,905 --> 00:57:59,568
- I'm sorry?
- I said, I've been to the zoo.
1063
00:57:59,642 --> 00:58:02,440
Zoo story, Edward Alby.
Very good.
1064
00:58:02,512 --> 00:58:04,412
Now I know I'm not
wasting my time.
1065
00:58:04,481 --> 00:58:05,948
What are you,
a playwright?
1066
00:58:06,015 --> 00:58:07,983
No, a law student.
You?
1067
00:58:08,051 --> 00:58:10,417
Undergrad.
N YU.
1068
00:58:10,487 --> 00:58:11,920
Is he the genius
they say he is?
1069
00:58:11,988 --> 00:58:13,148
- You haven't read him?
- No.
1070
00:58:13,223 --> 00:58:15,384
Well, maybe I'm
wasting my time.
1071
00:58:17,894 --> 00:58:20,124
The fairy tale
finally happened.
1072
00:58:20,196 --> 00:58:24,155
Lonely prince Dorian
finally met his other prince...
1073
00:58:24,234 --> 00:58:27,692
...and the love prince Dorian felt
for prince Ben cast out...
1074
00:58:27,770 --> 00:58:30,000
...all Dorian's spells
of depression...
1075
00:58:30,073 --> 00:58:34,669
...and gave him the strength of
ten gay men... Or seven straight.
1076
00:58:44,854 --> 00:58:47,322
Ben, you gotta come with us
to keg night at Jessie's Barn.
1077
00:58:47,390 --> 00:58:48,618
- We're there.
- Right?
1078
00:58:48,691 --> 00:58:49,988
- Absolutely.
- Great.
1079
00:58:50,059 --> 00:58:50,718
Andrew?
1080
00:58:50,793 --> 00:58:52,954
Let's see, music and beer
with friends or stay home...
1081
00:58:53,029 --> 00:58:55,361
...and have imaginary fights
with my step mother?
1082
00:58:55,431 --> 00:58:56,591
Let me see...
1083
00:58:56,666 --> 00:58:58,657
Oh no, wait we can't Friday.
1084
00:58:58,735 --> 00:59:00,327
- Why not?
- I meant to tell you.
1085
00:59:00,403 --> 00:59:01,836
My parents are coming to town
on Friday and they want...
1086
00:59:01,905 --> 00:59:02,837
...to take us to dinner.
1087
00:59:02,906 --> 00:59:04,464
What?
I'm meeting your parents?
1088
00:59:04,541 --> 00:59:06,941
Well, I told them I was bringing
a friend along, you know.
1089
00:59:07,010 --> 00:59:09,740
Just the thought of meeting
Ben's parents sent me...
1090
00:59:09,812 --> 00:59:11,439
...into my newest afflictionl...
1091
00:59:11,514 --> 00:59:13,004
...hyperventilation.
1092
00:59:13,082 --> 00:59:15,516
I'd never met anyone's
parents before.
1093
00:59:15,585 --> 00:59:17,678
Literally, the only
parents I'd met were my own...
1094
00:59:17,754 --> 00:59:19,517
...and that didn't go very well.
1095
00:59:19,589 --> 00:59:21,523
I was terrified
they'd suspect.
1096
00:59:21,591 --> 00:59:22,717
Suspect what?
1097
00:59:22,792 --> 00:59:24,225
That we're more
than just friends.
1098
00:59:24,294 --> 00:59:26,455
Doesn't your brother
introduce his guy buddies...
1099
00:59:26,529 --> 00:59:27,996
...to your parents all the time?
1100
00:59:28,064 --> 00:59:29,531
- Yeah.
- Same thing.
1101
00:59:29,599 --> 00:59:30,327
You think?
1102
00:59:30,400 --> 00:59:31,799
Sure, they won't
suspect a thing.
1103
00:59:31,868 --> 00:59:34,632
U nless, of course, you do
something to tip them off.
1104
00:59:35,638 --> 00:59:37,367
I'm kidding.
Just kidding.
1105
00:59:49,953 --> 00:59:53,047
So Dorian, how's your steak?
1106
00:59:53,122 --> 00:59:53,884
It's awesome.
1107
00:59:55,058 --> 00:59:56,184
It's awesome.
1108
01:00:02,432 --> 01:00:04,263
So how long have
you two been lovers?
1109
01:00:08,838 --> 01:00:10,897
- Relax. They already know.
- What?
1110
01:00:10,974 --> 01:00:11,963
- We know!
- We know!
1111
01:00:13,476 --> 01:00:15,307
They're super-liberal,
they don't care.
1112
01:00:15,378 --> 01:00:17,141
- We don't care!
- We don't care!
1113
01:00:17,213 --> 01:00:19,443
Dorian's parents are creepy
ultra-conservatives, so...
1114
01:00:19,515 --> 01:00:21,506
This is kind of
creepy, too, actually.
1115
01:00:26,389 --> 01:00:28,254
I couldn't believe my life.
1116
01:00:28,324 --> 01:00:30,087
I had met my soul mate.
1117
01:00:30,159 --> 01:00:33,686
And his parents, though odd,
were completely accepting.
1118
01:00:34,497 --> 01:00:37,193
And then, just as
quickly, Ben left.
1119
01:00:38,701 --> 01:00:41,898
Never gave a good reason,
just said he was tired of us.
1120
01:00:41,971 --> 01:00:43,563
We'd been together two months.
1121
01:00:43,640 --> 01:00:46,234
I can't get tired of a
gold fish in two months.
1122
01:00:46,309 --> 01:00:47,674
And I obsessed.
1123
01:00:50,046 --> 01:00:53,675
- This has to stop.
- It is stopping, I promise.
1124
01:00:53,750 --> 01:00:56,446
I just need to ask
you one question.
1125
01:00:56,519 --> 01:00:58,612
Why did you break up with me?
1126
01:00:58,688 --> 01:01:00,622
Because I didn't want
to be with you any more.
1127
01:01:00,690 --> 01:01:03,352
Could you be more specific,
I'm trying to grow from this.
1128
01:01:03,426 --> 01:01:06,190
I don't know Dorian, it
just didn't take off.
1129
01:01:06,262 --> 01:01:09,561
I don't know, I'm not
an expert in love.
1130
01:01:09,632 --> 01:01:12,192
I don't analyze
everything like you do...
1131
01:01:12,268 --> 01:01:17,968
...and I don't want to hurt you,
but really, know it, it's over.
1132
01:01:18,041 --> 01:01:19,770
I'm never gonna change
my mind on that.
1133
01:01:19,842 --> 01:01:23,710
It's done, we're done.
H istory, over, finished.
1134
01:01:23,780 --> 01:01:25,714
Did you need more time
to think about this?
1135
01:01:25,782 --> 01:01:26,908
Jesus.
1136
01:01:26,983 --> 01:01:29,281
Just know that I am here
if you ever need to talk...
1137
01:01:30,987 --> 01:01:32,716
...or not.
1138
01:01:32,789 --> 01:01:35,087
Your call, no pressure.
1139
01:01:36,426 --> 01:01:40,419
It was really over,
and I couldn't deal.
1140
01:01:40,496 --> 01:01:44,694
I started walking the
streets, began to drink...
1141
01:01:44,767 --> 01:01:47,327
...the depression I'd always
lived with went clinical...
1142
01:01:47,403 --> 01:01:50,429
...til all I saw in this
city were the seams.
1143
01:01:50,506 --> 01:01:54,237
In fact, I became
a seam myself.
1144
01:01:54,310 --> 01:01:57,279
I clung to the hope Ben's
fear of being alone...
1145
01:01:57,346 --> 01:01:59,871
...would drive him back
to me by default.
1146
01:01:59,949 --> 01:02:03,043
But even that was shattered
when Elle got some inside info.
1147
01:02:03,119 --> 01:02:05,986
Ben is not alone he's
with someone else.
1148
01:02:06,923 --> 01:02:07,787
What?
1149
01:02:07,857 --> 01:02:11,020
I just wanted to crawl into
bed for the entire weekend.
1150
01:02:11,094 --> 01:02:13,392
But the gods were not
through with me yet.
1151
01:02:13,463 --> 01:02:16,762
- Ben your brother's a piss.
- What do you mean?
1152
01:02:16,833 --> 01:02:20,098
Oh, man, he's funny as hell.
Hey, I had to let him in.
1153
01:02:20,169 --> 01:02:21,932
I didn't want him sitting
out in the hall with his bag.
1154
01:02:22,004 --> 01:02:23,665
Wait.
What day is this?
1155
01:02:23,740 --> 01:02:25,037
Friday, the 21 st.
1156
01:02:25,108 --> 01:02:29,602
No, no, no.
No, no, no.
1157
01:02:31,247 --> 01:02:33,977
I can't do this.
I can't have him here now.
1158
01:02:34,050 --> 01:02:36,018
Just drink some coffee.
You'll be fine.
1159
01:02:45,762 --> 01:02:48,856
Hey Dor!
What a city.
1160
01:02:48,931 --> 01:02:50,956
Man, I can't believe how
tall those buildings are.
1161
01:02:51,033 --> 01:02:53,524
They're so freakin tall.
Whew!
1162
01:02:54,670 --> 01:02:57,036
You know, I don't feel much
like going to a movie tonight.
1163
01:02:57,106 --> 01:02:58,334
What do you want
to do instead?
1164
01:02:58,407 --> 01:02:59,874
- Go out.
- That's cool.
1165
01:02:59,942 --> 01:03:02,172
One of my bars, OK?
1166
01:03:02,245 --> 01:03:04,679
- You mean like, to a gay bar?
- Yeah.
1167
01:03:04,747 --> 01:03:05,679
- No.
- Why not?
1168
01:03:05,748 --> 01:03:07,272
I'm not going to
a gay bar, Dorian.
1169
01:03:07,350 --> 01:03:09,375
Come on, you said you
came to see my life.
1170
01:03:09,452 --> 01:03:12,444
Not your gay life, I meant like
the school cafeteria and shit.
1171
01:03:12,522 --> 01:03:13,750
Why do you do that?
1172
01:03:13,823 --> 01:03:15,620
Why do you call
it "my gay life"?
1173
01:03:15,691 --> 01:03:18,125
This is my life and this is
what I do on the weekend...
1174
01:03:18,194 --> 01:03:19,286
I go to a gay bar.
1175
01:03:19,362 --> 01:03:22,058
And this is my favorite
one, it's a wonderful place...
1176
01:03:22,131 --> 01:03:22,927
...great people.
1177
01:03:22,999 --> 01:03:24,967
I don't care if it's
the Tajma-freakin-hall...
1178
01:03:25,034 --> 01:03:26,729
I didn't drive six hours to
come and see you just to...
1179
01:03:26,803 --> 01:03:30,239
Oh Jesus. Please,
I'm not feeling well...
1180
01:03:30,306 --> 01:03:32,399
...and I really need to
be with some friends.
1181
01:03:32,475 --> 01:03:34,909
- And Ellie's gonna be there.
- Ellie?
1182
01:03:34,977 --> 01:03:37,673
Yeah, my friend Ellie
that I wrote you about.
1183
01:03:37,747 --> 01:03:39,942
So there are
girls at this bar.
1184
01:03:40,016 --> 01:03:41,916
Lesbian girls, N ick.
1185
01:03:41,984 --> 01:03:43,815
- Forget it then.
- U nbelieveable.
1186
01:03:48,724 --> 01:03:50,453
Hey N ick.
1187
01:03:50,526 --> 01:03:53,495
You know what they
got there at this bar?
1188
01:03:53,563 --> 01:03:56,930
- That football throwing game.
- What throwing game?
1189
01:03:56,999 --> 01:03:58,398
The one where you
throw the footballs...
1190
01:03:58,467 --> 01:04:00,526
...at the moving targets for points.
1191
01:04:00,603 --> 01:04:01,934
Quarterback Red
Zone Challenge?
1192
01:04:02,004 --> 01:04:04,234
- That's it.
- They got that at a gay bar?
1193
01:04:04,307 --> 01:04:06,070
- Are you any good at it?
- Shut up.
1194
01:04:06,142 --> 01:04:08,576
Because some of these
guys are excellent.
1195
01:04:08,644 --> 01:04:10,612
You mean, some
of the gay guys.
1196
01:04:10,680 --> 01:04:12,773
- They play for money.
- Money?
1197
01:04:12,849 --> 01:04:15,147
But really,
they're very good.
1198
01:04:15,218 --> 01:04:18,619
Oh I'm sure.
Oh yeah, scored another one.
1199
01:04:18,688 --> 01:04:19,347
Get ready.
1200
01:04:19,856 --> 01:04:24,225
## And my, your so pretty for
a girl that looks so angry, ##
1201
01:04:24,293 --> 01:04:28,593
## and I am such a pretty
little girl, tell me... ##
1202
01:04:28,664 --> 01:04:32,725
## do I make you uncomfortable? ##
1203
01:04:32,802 --> 01:04:36,898
## Do I make you uncomfortable? ##
1204
01:04:36,973 --> 01:04:40,409
## Do I make you I make
you uncomfortable? ##
1205
01:04:40,476 --> 01:04:42,876
## Well, I'm tryin. ##
1206
01:04:43,846 --> 01:04:44,608
Thanks.
1207
01:04:50,353 --> 01:04:53,049
What's the matter N ick?
Did they score more than you?
1208
01:04:53,122 --> 01:04:54,646
- Shut up.
- Hey boys!
1209
01:04:54,724 --> 01:04:57,818
Hey Ellie's here.
Nicky this is Ellie.
1210
01:04:57,894 --> 01:04:59,657
Hey, N ick.
I've heard a lot about you.
1211
01:04:59,729 --> 01:05:01,196
I've heard a lot
about you too.
1212
01:05:01,264 --> 01:05:03,027
Oh, what?
Are you going to sulk now?
1213
01:05:03,099 --> 01:05:03,963
Then here, go get us drinks.
1214
01:05:04,033 --> 01:05:06,001
Elle takes anything
dark in a bottle.
1215
01:05:06,068 --> 01:05:09,128
Me, kill the club soda,
I'll take a non-alcoholic.
1216
01:05:11,073 --> 01:05:12,597
- He's adorable.
- Yeah.
1217
01:05:12,675 --> 01:05:16,805
- So how you doing after today?
- Surprisingly all right.
1218
01:05:16,879 --> 01:05:18,471
Listen, I gotta talk
to you about something.
1219
01:05:18,547 --> 01:05:20,811
Yeah, OK, but listen I want
you to do a favor...
1220
01:05:20,883 --> 01:05:22,009
...for me tonight, OK?
1221
01:05:22,084 --> 01:05:23,915
I want you to help me to
show my hot shot brother...
1222
01:05:23,986 --> 01:05:25,044
...how popular I am.
1223
01:05:25,121 --> 01:05:26,349
- Popular?
- Yeah.
1224
01:05:26,422 --> 01:05:28,185
- Yeah, I'm popular.
- Yes, you are.
1225
01:05:28,257 --> 01:05:29,622
And he's never seen
that, you know...
1226
01:05:29,692 --> 01:05:30,989
...so I want you to keep
your eyes peeled out...
1227
01:05:31,060 --> 01:05:33,358
...for anybody we know, call
them over, whoop it up...
1228
01:05:33,429 --> 01:05:35,590
...and help me show N icky that
I'm hot shit down here.
1229
01:05:35,665 --> 01:05:36,996
I will do that but I've
got to talk to you...
1230
01:05:37,066 --> 01:05:38,055
...about something else first.
1231
01:05:38,134 --> 01:05:39,726
Something I was trying to
tell you earlier at the pub.
1232
01:05:39,802 --> 01:05:41,292
Is this about your
Psych professor?
1233
01:05:41,370 --> 01:05:42,302
No.
1234
01:05:44,740 --> 01:05:46,207
- Here you go Ellie.
- Thanks.
1235
01:05:46,275 --> 01:05:48,334
What do you say, one more
drink and they're out of here?
1236
01:05:48,411 --> 01:05:49,844
What?
We just got here.
1237
01:05:49,912 --> 01:05:52,608
And you've been playing that
game and Elle just got here.
1238
01:05:52,682 --> 01:05:54,547
Come on, Dor, I came
down to see the city.
1239
01:05:54,617 --> 01:05:56,448
We've got a whole
weekend to see the city.
1240
01:05:56,519 --> 01:05:58,248
Tonight I just wanted
us to hang out.
1241
01:05:58,321 --> 01:06:00,016
It's no fun for me
hanging out here.
1242
01:06:00,089 --> 01:06:01,021
Oh give it a chance,
will you?
1243
01:06:01,090 --> 01:06:03,581
Think it was all fun for me
visiting you at Syracuse...
1244
01:06:03,659 --> 01:06:05,889
...sitting through three
hours of football practice?
1245
01:06:05,962 --> 01:06:08,692
It wasn't all bad, you got to
go in the locker room after.
1246
01:06:09,999 --> 01:06:14,026
Look, I know you feel awkward
not knowing anybody here.
1247
01:06:14,103 --> 01:06:14,933
You know.
1248
01:06:15,004 --> 01:06:17,063
You're not used to that,
the great N ick Legatis.
1249
01:06:17,139 --> 01:06:18,003
No, I'm not.
1250
01:06:18,074 --> 01:06:20,736
But I know people here
and this is my turf...
1251
01:06:20,810 --> 01:06:22,471
...and if your with me then
we're gonna have fun.
1252
01:06:22,545 --> 01:06:23,842
Nicholas Legatis.
1253
01:06:23,913 --> 01:06:25,312
Oh man, this is
unbelieveable.
1254
01:06:25,381 --> 01:06:27,144
The great Nick Legatis.
1255
01:06:27,216 --> 01:06:29,116
Hey, Buffer Jones.
1256
01:06:29,185 --> 01:06:32,177
Man, I haven't seen you
since QB camp in Pittsburgh.
1257
01:06:32,254 --> 01:06:35,815
Hey, this is my brother,
Dorian and his friend, Ellie.
1258
01:06:35,891 --> 01:06:36,619
H i, how you doing?
1259
01:06:36,692 --> 01:06:38,159
Buffer Jones,
plays for L state.
1260
01:06:38,227 --> 01:06:40,752
Rugger, we got another
Division 1 here.
1261
01:06:40,830 --> 01:06:42,229
- Penn State.
- What's up, man.
1262
01:06:42,298 --> 01:06:44,357
- Hey, come and have a beer with us.
- Sure.
1263
01:06:48,371 --> 01:06:50,134
Can you believe this, I can't
even make a bigger splash...
1264
01:06:50,206 --> 01:06:52,197
...than him in my own
neighborhood gay bar.
1265
01:06:52,274 --> 01:06:54,936
It's just as well,
listen, Ben's here.
1266
01:06:55,011 --> 01:06:58,037
What, my Ben?
No, he doesn't come here.
1267
01:06:58,114 --> 01:07:00,173
Yeah, well, his new partner
does and they're both here...
1268
01:07:00,249 --> 01:07:01,546
...and they both want
to talk to you.
1269
01:07:01,617 --> 01:07:02,447
What, but... what?
1270
01:07:02,518 --> 01:07:04,281
Listen, I was supposed to get
you up to speed on the whole thing...
1271
01:07:04,353 --> 01:07:05,650
...but I couldn't
get it out earlier...
1272
01:07:05,721 --> 01:07:07,120
- You were so hurt.
- What whole thing?
1273
01:07:07,189 --> 01:07:09,123
- On what's been going on.
- And what is going on?
1274
01:07:09,191 --> 01:07:10,089
Hello, Dorian.
1275
01:07:14,196 --> 01:07:14,924
Dorian.
1276
01:07:21,370 --> 01:07:21,995
No.
1277
01:07:23,672 --> 01:07:24,468
No way.
1278
01:07:24,540 --> 01:07:25,666
You didn't tell him, did you?
1279
01:07:25,741 --> 01:07:30,269
Almost, listen honey,
I'm so sorry I swear to God...
1280
01:07:30,346 --> 01:07:31,836
I was trying to tell you earlier.
1281
01:07:31,914 --> 01:07:34,280
You don't have to do this but
whenever you're ready...
1282
01:07:34,350 --> 01:07:37,046
...with me and Ben and Andrew,
we all love you.
1283
01:07:37,119 --> 01:07:40,418
No, no that's great,
and let's do it now.
1284
01:07:40,489 --> 01:07:42,514
- Are you sure?
- Positive.
1285
01:07:42,591 --> 01:07:45,151
Really, Elle, it's cool.
1286
01:07:51,033 --> 01:07:52,466
First of all,
I'd like to say that I...
1287
01:07:52,535 --> 01:07:54,002
No, first of all...
1288
01:07:54,070 --> 01:07:55,970
...whatever this is,
you're not running it.
1289
01:07:56,038 --> 01:07:56,732
Drew.
1290
01:07:57,506 --> 01:08:00,134
We just weren't right
for each other, Dor.
1291
01:08:02,011 --> 01:08:04,536
And hey, I honestly
think you're better off.
1292
01:08:04,613 --> 01:08:05,705
Seriously.
1293
01:08:05,781 --> 01:08:07,612
I mean I'd bore you after
awhile, you know I would.
1294
01:08:07,683 --> 01:08:11,175
I'm just not... intellectually
curious like you are.
1295
01:08:11,253 --> 01:08:14,222
All I want out of life is to work
for my father's firm and play.
1296
01:08:14,290 --> 01:08:17,521
And you want to, you know...
better yourself.
1297
01:08:18,761 --> 01:08:20,023
And Andrew's more like me.
1298
01:08:20,096 --> 01:08:21,324
You don't want to
better yourself?
1299
01:08:21,397 --> 01:08:22,659
I really don't.
1300
01:08:22,731 --> 01:08:24,255
So you're saying is that
I'm better off alone.
1301
01:08:24,333 --> 01:08:26,164
No, with someone else.
1302
01:08:26,235 --> 01:08:26,997
Who else?
1303
01:08:27,069 --> 01:08:28,559
It took me 22
years to find you.
1304
01:08:28,637 --> 01:08:29,695
I think what Ben's
trying to say is...
1305
01:08:29,772 --> 01:08:32,366
- Andrew, please, I'm upset.
- So am I.
1306
01:08:32,441 --> 01:08:35,001
You're upset, what do you
got to be upset about?
1307
01:08:35,077 --> 01:08:37,568
You won.
You won the prize.
1308
01:08:37,646 --> 01:08:40,274
An intellectually uncurious
prize but a prize just the same.
1309
01:08:40,349 --> 01:08:42,749
You know, maybe right there is one
of the reason's why he left you...
1310
01:08:42,818 --> 01:08:43,842
...you always have a dig.
1311
01:08:43,919 --> 01:08:45,386
- Andrew.
- It's true, Elle.
1312
01:08:46,122 --> 01:08:47,350
Is that the truth?
1313
01:08:47,423 --> 01:08:49,015
Well people do
annoy you, Dor.
1314
01:08:49,091 --> 01:08:50,718
They don't bother me.
1315
01:08:50,793 --> 01:08:52,954
You know, I'm low key,
you're kind of high strung.
1316
01:08:53,028 --> 01:08:54,325
You have to admit,
Dorian, that...
1317
01:08:54,396 --> 01:08:55,522
No, no, no, no.
1318
01:08:55,598 --> 01:08:59,398
I don't have to admit a damn
thing... Not to you, Andrew.
1319
01:08:59,468 --> 01:09:01,834
Did you two really
come down here to say;
1320
01:09:01,904 --> 01:09:03,496
"Sorry you're alone
but here's some tips...
1321
01:09:03,572 --> 01:09:05,870
...on changing your personality
so you don't have to be"?
1322
01:09:05,941 --> 01:09:07,499
Actually the tips
were Ben's idea.
1323
01:09:07,576 --> 01:09:09,407
I just wanted to tell
you why you're alone.
1324
01:09:14,250 --> 01:09:15,444
I think we're done here.
1325
01:09:15,518 --> 01:09:17,281
Ben, please don't go.
1326
01:09:19,955 --> 01:09:20,785
Ahhh!
1327
01:09:22,024 --> 01:09:23,252
You guys, stop it.
1328
01:09:23,993 --> 01:09:25,187
Sorry, sorry, sorry.
1329
01:09:25,628 --> 01:09:27,289
Sorry, sorry, sorry.
1330
01:09:27,630 --> 01:09:28,528
- Sorry, sorry, sorry.
- You alright?
1331
01:09:28,597 --> 01:09:30,394
- I'm fine.
- What happened?
1332
01:09:30,466 --> 01:09:31,831
Nothing, it's over.
1333
01:09:38,407 --> 01:09:48,112
## Circle, circle, here I go
back in this place again. ##
1334
01:09:50,386 --> 01:09:59,920
## So will you see me fallin' down
or will you just pretend? ##
1335
01:10:05,467 --> 01:10:08,095
- What are you so quiet about?
- Nothing, I'm just tired.
1336
01:10:10,339 --> 01:10:12,239
Hey, I thought you were going
to take me to a nice place tonight.
1337
01:10:12,308 --> 01:10:14,708
It is a nice place.
What, you didn't think so?
1338
01:10:14,777 --> 01:10:17,871
No, it's just that usually nice
places don't have bar fights.
1339
01:10:19,615 --> 01:10:20,877
Did you have a good
time tonight, N ick?
1340
01:10:20,950 --> 01:10:24,351
Yeah I sure did, and
seeing Buff was a piss.
1341
01:10:24,420 --> 01:10:26,081
Seeing Buff was a piss.
1342
01:10:26,155 --> 01:10:26,814
Yeah.
1343
01:10:26,889 --> 01:10:28,447
Hey I've got a
question for you.
1344
01:10:28,524 --> 01:10:30,651
Let me ask you this.
1345
01:10:30,726 --> 01:10:35,891
Did you have any idea that this Buff
guy was, you know, that way.
1346
01:10:35,965 --> 01:10:39,765
No, not at all I mean there
was not a clue at quarterback camp.
1347
01:10:39,835 --> 01:10:40,699
I'll tell you that.
1348
01:10:40,769 --> 01:10:42,327
And you didn't tell
him you weren't?
1349
01:10:42,404 --> 01:10:43,564
No, never came up.
1350
01:10:43,639 --> 01:10:45,539
- Hmm.
- Huh?
1351
01:10:45,608 --> 01:10:47,769
Nothing its just, why
didn't it come up?
1352
01:10:47,843 --> 01:10:49,401
Just didn't.
1353
01:10:49,478 --> 01:10:52,504
I know, but why didn't you
make a point of bringing it up?
1354
01:10:52,581 --> 01:10:57,075
Oh, well, I guess I kinda just
steered clear of the whole subject.
1355
01:10:57,152 --> 01:10:59,950
- Huh that's curious.
- Why is that curious?
1356
01:11:00,022 --> 01:11:02,252
I don't know, I just find it
curious that you would...
1357
01:11:02,324 --> 01:11:04,884
...go a whole night without
dropping a girfriend's name or...
1358
01:11:04,960 --> 01:11:08,361
...you know, finding some way
to disclose your preference.
1359
01:11:08,430 --> 01:11:10,796
I don't think in terms of
disclosing my preference.
1360
01:11:10,866 --> 01:11:13,733
Well, when you're not gay in
a gay bar you should because...
1361
01:11:13,802 --> 01:11:16,771
...this Buffer guy was
definitely flirting with you.
1362
01:11:16,839 --> 01:11:19,569
- He was not.
- Oh, yes he was.
1363
01:11:19,642 --> 01:11:20,836
Bull shit.
1364
01:11:20,909 --> 01:11:22,774
What do you think that laughing
and leaning into you was...
1365
01:11:22,845 --> 01:11:25,507
...all the hands
on your sholder.
1366
01:11:25,581 --> 01:11:27,344
That's just how football
players are with each other.
1367
01:11:27,416 --> 01:11:28,747
Well, that's another
whole discussion...
1368
01:11:28,817 --> 01:11:29,749
...but I'm not
getting into that.
1369
01:11:29,818 --> 01:11:32,412
Besides, even if he
was, who cares, I mean...
1370
01:11:32,488 --> 01:11:34,251
...if the guy was flirting with
me and I didn't notice...
1371
01:11:34,323 --> 01:11:35,813
...then who gives a shit?
1372
01:11:35,891 --> 01:11:37,984
OK, don't get so defensive.
1373
01:11:40,129 --> 01:11:42,427
What's the matter N icky, did
you feel something for the guy?
1374
01:11:46,502 --> 01:11:48,470
What did you just ask me?
1375
01:11:48,537 --> 01:11:50,971
If you felt something and
that's why you didn't...
1376
01:11:51,040 --> 01:11:54,532
...drop girls names and come off.
1377
01:11:54,610 --> 01:11:56,407
I had a few beers
with the guy.
1378
01:11:56,478 --> 01:11:58,742
What the hell are
you talking about?
1379
01:11:58,814 --> 01:11:59,838
I'm just asking.
1380
01:11:59,915 --> 01:12:03,544
Really, you really think
you need to ask me that?
1381
01:12:03,619 --> 01:12:04,916
Apparently I don't.
1382
01:12:07,723 --> 01:12:10,453
What, you trying to
turn me gay, Dor.
1383
01:12:10,526 --> 01:12:13,586
Is that why me
took me to... Huh?
1384
01:12:13,662 --> 01:12:15,721
Because you're the
family faggot, not me.
1385
01:12:20,469 --> 01:12:25,270
You're getting really warped,
asshole, really warped.
1386
01:12:27,810 --> 01:12:30,574
He was insulted,
and I was glad.
1387
01:12:30,646 --> 01:12:33,513
I wanted to insult him,
anything to punch some holes...
1388
01:12:33,582 --> 01:12:35,447
...in his perfect life.
1389
01:12:35,517 --> 01:12:38,850
But he's impervious to
real pain, or so I thought.
1390
01:12:38,921 --> 01:12:42,152
He returned an hour later,
and sometime in the night...
1391
01:12:42,224 --> 01:12:46,422
I awoke to a sound I hadn't
heard since I was ten years old...
1392
01:12:46,495 --> 01:12:49,487
...the sound of
my brother, crying.
1393
01:12:51,300 --> 01:12:52,130
N icky?
1394
01:12:55,471 --> 01:12:56,768
N icky, what is it?
1395
01:13:03,812 --> 01:13:05,006
N icky, what's wrong.
1396
01:13:10,886 --> 01:13:12,683
Oh my God, did
you like that guy?
1397
01:13:12,755 --> 01:13:13,813
What?
1398
01:13:13,889 --> 01:13:15,857
I was only half
serious, but, man...
1399
01:13:15,924 --> 01:13:17,789
I did not like
that guy, Dorian.
1400
01:13:17,860 --> 01:13:19,725
Jesus Christ, there's a lot
more in life to cry about...
1401
01:13:19,795 --> 01:13:20,819
...than being gay.
1402
01:13:20,896 --> 01:13:21,920
I'm not crying about...
1403
01:13:21,997 --> 01:13:23,658
It's something
completely different.
1404
01:13:23,732 --> 01:13:25,359
All right, fine, what is it?
1405
01:13:26,468 --> 01:13:28,595
- It's none of your business.
- What do you mean it's...
1406
01:13:28,670 --> 01:13:30,137
I mean, it's none
of your business.
1407
01:13:30,205 --> 01:13:30,933
Why is it none of my...
1408
01:13:31,006 --> 01:13:33,133
- It just isn't.
- Come on, we're brothers.
1409
01:13:33,208 --> 01:13:35,574
Oh, yeah, we're brothers when
you wanna know something.
1410
01:13:37,746 --> 01:13:39,236
Look, I just had a
really rough week...
1411
01:13:39,314 --> 01:13:41,077
...and it's backing up
on me, all right?
1412
01:13:41,150 --> 01:13:43,345
My God, what's happened
this is not like you...
1413
01:13:43,419 --> 01:13:45,080
...things don't back up on you.
1414
01:13:45,154 --> 01:13:46,985
I don't want to
talk about it.
1415
01:13:47,055 --> 01:13:48,920
Don't tell me you don't
want to talk about it.
1416
01:13:48,991 --> 01:13:51,186
- Just leave it alone will you?
- I will not leave it alone.
1417
01:13:51,260 --> 01:13:52,249
Christ, you're
worse than a woman.
1418
01:13:52,327 --> 01:13:55,023
Hey, N icky, I wake up and
find you more upset...
1419
01:13:55,097 --> 01:13:57,895
...than I've ever seen you in my life
and you expect me to blow it off.
1420
01:13:57,966 --> 01:13:59,866
I lost my scholarship.
All right?
1421
01:14:01,737 --> 01:14:02,601
What?
1422
01:14:03,372 --> 01:14:04,771
They took my scholarship.
1423
01:14:07,810 --> 01:14:09,243
Your football scholarship?
1424
01:14:09,311 --> 01:14:11,779
No, my Rhodes scholarship,
how many scholarships do I have?
1425
01:14:11,847 --> 01:14:13,246
What happened?
1426
01:14:14,283 --> 01:14:15,375
They cut me.
1427
01:14:16,652 --> 01:14:18,517
Wednesday.
1428
01:14:18,587 --> 01:14:20,350
It's all over, Dor.
1429
01:14:22,124 --> 01:14:23,250
I didn't make it.
1430
01:14:24,626 --> 01:14:26,856
- I didn't have it.
- My God.
1431
01:14:28,163 --> 01:14:30,393
What do you do now?
1432
01:14:30,466 --> 01:14:33,867
What every other schmuck
does, pay tuition.
1433
01:14:33,936 --> 01:14:35,870
Did you tell Mom and Dad yet?
1434
01:14:35,938 --> 01:14:37,929
- Mm-hmm.
- You did, when?
1435
01:14:38,006 --> 01:14:39,633
- Wednesday.
- What did they say?
1436
01:14:39,708 --> 01:14:42,142
I told Mom first.
1437
01:14:42,211 --> 01:14:46,079
She said now you can
concentrate on becoming a lawyer.
1438
01:14:46,148 --> 01:14:50,175
Then Dad grabs the phone and
says "What's going on, N ick?"
1439
01:14:50,252 --> 01:14:55,019
And I tell him and he says
"Well that's that, then. "
1440
01:14:55,090 --> 01:14:56,557
And he hands the
phone back to mom.
1441
01:14:56,625 --> 01:14:58,957
Oh, man, what a prick.
1442
01:14:59,027 --> 01:15:01,257
Well it was a huge
disappointment for him, Dorian.
1443
01:15:01,330 --> 01:15:03,161
For him?
For him?
1444
01:15:03,232 --> 01:15:04,358
It meant a lot to him.
1445
01:15:04,433 --> 01:15:06,264
Then why didn't he
become a football player?
1446
01:15:06,335 --> 01:15:08,963
Oh, because he wasn't good
enough, there's a real twist.
1447
01:15:09,037 --> 01:15:09,901
Can he vent?
1448
01:15:09,972 --> 01:15:14,409
No, God, he should be consoling
you and you defend him.
1449
01:15:14,476 --> 01:15:16,376
You know, something,
you're too hard on people.
1450
01:15:16,445 --> 01:15:19,346
You know, Mom said he was up
all night after I told him...
1451
01:15:19,414 --> 01:15:20,312
...sick as a dog.
1452
01:15:20,382 --> 01:15:22,748
I'm sure he was, because
he's got his ego...
1453
01:15:22,818 --> 01:15:24,080
...all wrapped up in yours.
1454
01:15:24,152 --> 01:15:26,086
- Man, it's demented.
- Man, I shouldn't have told you.
1455
01:15:26,622 --> 01:15:29,284
News flash, Dad is fucked up.
1456
01:15:29,358 --> 01:15:30,848
So are you, and I give
you breaks all the time.
1457
01:15:30,926 --> 01:15:31,858
Oh, you give me breaks?
1458
01:15:31,927 --> 01:15:32,757
What?
1459
01:15:33,595 --> 01:15:35,358
- Hey guys.
- We're being loud, I know.
1460
01:15:35,430 --> 01:15:38,456
No, no, no, it's just Dor, you
got a call on the hall phone.
1461
01:15:39,668 --> 01:15:43,729
- It must be Ellie.
- No, it's an Aunt Beth.
1462
01:15:45,107 --> 01:15:47,598
And that's exactly
how it happened.
1463
01:15:47,676 --> 01:15:49,906
We were just
talking about him.
1464
01:15:49,978 --> 01:15:53,379
His name was literally still
in the air when we found out...
1465
01:15:53,448 --> 01:15:57,748
...he'd a heart
attack and was gone.
1466
01:15:57,819 --> 01:16:01,619
And to be honest, I didn't
know exactly what to feel...
1467
01:16:01,690 --> 01:16:04,523
...but poor Nicky, he knew.
1468
01:16:14,336 --> 01:16:22,971
## In a perfect world, I would
have told you what I was thinking. ##
1469
01:16:24,079 --> 01:16:26,513
## You would have smiled. ##
1470
01:16:28,850 --> 01:16:32,308
## You would have smiled. ##
1471
01:16:36,124 --> 01:16:45,726
## In a perfect world, we would have
walked out of this place together, ##
1472
01:16:45,801 --> 01:16:48,736
## and said goodbye, ##
1473
01:16:51,206 --> 01:16:54,073
## said good luck. ##
1474
01:16:58,847 --> 01:17:05,047
## I want to scream,
but I just whisper. ##
1475
01:17:09,958 --> 01:17:19,094
## In a perfect world, the ones
you love should ease your burden... ##
1476
01:17:19,167 --> 01:17:24,332
## and make you soar, ##
1477
01:17:24,406 --> 01:17:33,974
## make you sure,
in a perfect world. ##
1478
01:17:50,365 --> 01:17:53,698
They say a boy becomes a
man the day his father dies.
1479
01:17:53,769 --> 01:17:56,203
For me it happened
a few days late.
1480
01:17:56,271 --> 01:17:58,171
I was getting fed up.
1481
01:17:58,240 --> 01:18:00,265
I'd already been through
two nights of wakes...
1482
01:18:00,342 --> 01:18:02,902
...listening to a million people
praise my father like he was...
1483
01:18:02,978 --> 01:18:04,741
Ghandi's better brother.
1484
01:18:04,813 --> 01:18:08,214
And come the morning of the funeral
I'm brooding on the front lawn...
1485
01:18:08,283 --> 01:18:10,513
...half hung over
and seriously considering...
1486
01:18:10,585 --> 01:18:14,521
...not attending the days events,
and I think my mother knew it.
1487
01:18:14,823 --> 01:18:15,847
What are you doing?
1488
01:18:15,924 --> 01:18:18,392
Just trying to get
my head on straight.
1489
01:18:18,460 --> 01:18:19,358
Don't wait up.
1490
01:18:26,034 --> 01:18:27,831
Head on straight about what,
you father?
1491
01:18:31,306 --> 01:18:34,332
He could be a real son
of a bitch, couldn't he?
1492
01:18:34,409 --> 01:18:35,569
Excuse me?
1493
01:18:35,644 --> 01:18:37,669
What, you didn't
think I knew that?
1494
01:18:37,746 --> 01:18:39,270
I didn't think you'd say it.
1495
01:18:39,347 --> 01:18:43,147
Well, he was very
angry... I know.
1496
01:18:44,553 --> 01:18:46,043
Like to talk about
you for a minute.
1497
01:18:46,121 --> 01:18:47,782
- You want to talk, Mom?
- Yes.
1498
01:18:47,856 --> 01:18:49,847
- About something?
- Don't.
1499
01:18:49,925 --> 01:18:52,485
All right, what do you
want to talk about?
1500
01:18:52,561 --> 01:18:54,290
About how much you
remind me of him.
1501
01:18:54,362 --> 01:18:56,296
- Of who, Dad?
- Yes.
1502
01:18:56,364 --> 01:18:58,855
What is that, some kind
of twisted compliment?
1503
01:18:58,934 --> 01:19:00,765
It's not a compliment at all.
1504
01:19:00,836 --> 01:19:03,202
I'm saying you're
angry too, honey.
1505
01:19:03,271 --> 01:19:05,933
Don't you see how
angry you are?
1506
01:19:06,007 --> 01:19:09,170
I do.
Your Aunt Beth does.
1507
01:19:09,244 --> 01:19:11,542
I don't want that.
1508
01:19:11,613 --> 01:19:14,776
I don't want you to be angry
and hateful toward people.
1509
01:19:14,850 --> 01:19:16,374
I want you to be good.
1510
01:19:19,020 --> 01:19:20,783
Even though your father
wasn't good to you...
1511
01:19:20,856 --> 01:19:23,450
...and your mother didn't have
the nerve to stop him.
1512
01:19:30,165 --> 01:19:35,569
I know, baby... I should
have stopped him.
1513
01:19:53,622 --> 01:19:56,489
Well, that's all
I had to say.
1514
01:19:56,558 --> 01:19:58,583
It was a lot actually.
1515
01:19:58,660 --> 01:20:01,788
It was a lot,
because it was true.
1516
01:20:01,863 --> 01:20:04,798
My father did leave
me pissed off.
1517
01:20:04,866 --> 01:20:06,163
And you know why?
1518
01:20:06,234 --> 01:20:10,000
You know the one worst thing
that my father ever did to me?
1519
01:20:10,071 --> 01:20:14,030
He convinced me it matters
what people think of you...
1520
01:20:14,109 --> 01:20:17,636
...and truth is they never
think quite enough.
1521
01:20:17,712 --> 01:20:19,942
So from then,
I started living my life...
1522
01:20:20,015 --> 01:20:21,846
...no matter what they thought.
1523
01:20:21,917 --> 01:20:23,646
Even when they
thought I was crazy...
1524
01:20:23,718 --> 01:20:26,380
...and should take my liberal views
and my pink shirt...
1525
01:20:26,454 --> 01:20:29,981
...and move to another planet,
I just had to laugh...
1526
01:20:30,058 --> 01:20:33,152
...cause it's not pink, it's fuchsia.
1527
01:20:34,305 --> 01:20:40,311
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