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This is my dream body,
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the one I use to walk around in my dreams.
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Ln this dream, I’m in a hospital bed.
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It's like a scene from a movie
you've seen a million times.
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The doctor is holding a small pink bundle.
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And he leans over the bed,
and he hands me the bundle.
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"It's a girl," he says.
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"Isn't she beautiful? Look."
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And wrapped in the bundle,
I see the little face of my dog,
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a small rat terrier named Lolabelle.
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And no one says anything like,
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"You know, this is not a human baby.
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You just gave birth to a dog."
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But I’m so happy.
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I put my head to her forehead
and look into her eyes.
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And it's almost a perfect moment,
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except that the joy is mixed
with quite a lot of guilt.
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Because the truth was
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I had engineered this whole thing.
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I had arranged to have Lolabelle
sewn into my stomach
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so that I could then "give birth" to her.
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And this had been really hard to do.
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Lolabelle wasn't a puppy.
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She was a full-grown dog,
and she had really struggled.
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And she kept barking
and trying to get out,
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and the surgeons kept trying
to push her back in
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and sew things up.
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Lt was really a mess,
and I felt really bad about it,
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but it was just the way,
you know, things had to be.
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Anyway, I kissed her on the head,
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and I said, "Hello, little bonehead.
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I'll love you forever."
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(train clattering on tracks)
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LAURIE: I’m standing in the room
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where she was dying.
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She's talking in a high new voice
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I've never heard before.
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'Why are there so many animals
on the ceiling now?" she says.
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What are the very last things
you say in your life?
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What are the last things you say
before you turn into dirt?
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When my mother died,
she was talking to the animals
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that had gathered on the ceiling.
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She spoke to them tenderly.
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"All you animals," she said.
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Her last words, all scattered.
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Different trains,
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places she'd always meant to go.
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"Don't forget you're in the hospital,"
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we kept saying.
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She holds up her hand. "Thanks so much.
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No, the pleasure is all mine."
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She tries again. "It's been my privilege
and my-my honor
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to be part of this experiment,
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this-this experience with you
and your - and your family.
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And-And it's - it's been -
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It's been -
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Tell the animals," she said.
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"Tell all the animals."
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ls it a pilgrimage?
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Towards what?
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Which way do we face?
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Thank you so much
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for having me.
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LAURIE: As a child,
I was a kind of a sky worshipper.
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This was the Midwest,
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and the sky was so vast,
it was most of the world.
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I knew I had come from there
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and that, someday, I would go back.
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What are days for?
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To wake us up,
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to put between the endless nights.
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What are nights for?
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To fall through time
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into another world.
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I live in downtown Manhattan
next to the West Side Highway.
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Ln September 2001 ,
after the Trade Center fell,
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everything was covered with white ash.
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For months, lines of trucks
moved up the highway,
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carrying the twisted metal debris
from the towers.
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Out at the end of the pier,
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there's a strange,
Assyrian-looking building.
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And during this time,
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FBI speedboats began to dock out there.
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Lt was the beginning of the time
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when cameras began to appear everywhere.
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And everything was so loud
and such a mess.
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I tried to get out of town
as much as I could.
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I decided to go to California,
up to the northern mountains -
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-(slide projector clicking)
-with my dog, Lolabelle.
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The idea was to take a trip
and spend some time with her
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and do a kind of experiment
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to see if I could learn to talk with her.
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I’d heard that rat terriers
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could understand about 500 words,
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and I wanted to see which ones they were.
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Lt was February,
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and the mountains were covered
with tiny wildflowers.
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And such a huge tall sky
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and very thin, pale blue air
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and hawks circling.
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Every morning,
we walked down to the ocean,
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which took most of the day.
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And what happened was, more or less,
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beauty got in the way of the experiment.
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Lt was just so beautiful up there
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that I forgot the whole project really.
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Lt just slipped my mind.
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Most days, the walk to the ocean
took several hours,
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and we would just goof around and lie down
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and have snacks of carrots.
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Now, rat terriers are bred
to protect borders,
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so Lolabelle was always on the job.
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She would trot in front of me
on the trail,
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doing a little advance work,
a little surveillance.
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Now, occasionally,
out of the corner of my eye,
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I’d see some hawks circling
in this very lazy way,
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way up in the sky.
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And then one morning,
suddenly - for no reason -
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they came swooping down
right in front of me.
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Dropping down through the air,
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their claws wide open,
right on top of Lolabelle.
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And then they swooped back up
and dropped back down.
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I realized that they were in the middle
of changing their plan.
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This little white thing
that had looked like
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a tiny white bunny from 2,000 feet up
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was turning out to be
just a little too big
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to grab by the neck.
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And they were making their calculations,
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figuring it out.
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And then I saw Lolabelle's face.
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And she had this brand-new expression.
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First was the realization
that she was prey
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and that these birds had come to kill her.
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And second was a whole new thought.
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Lt was the realization
that they could come
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from the air.
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"I mean, I never thought of that.
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A whole 1 80 more degrees
that I’m now responsible for.
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It's not just the stuff down here -
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the dirt, the paths,
the roots, the trees -
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but all this too."
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And the rest of the time
we were in the mountains,
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she just kept looking over her shoulder
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and trotting along
with her head in the air,
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her eyes scanning the thin sky
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like there's something wrong
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with the air.
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And I thought,
where have I seen this look before?
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And then I realized it was the same look
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on the faces of my neighbors in New York
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in the days right after 9/1 1 ,
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when they suddenly realized,
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first, that they could come
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from the air.
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And, second, that it would
be that way from now on.
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And we had passed through a door,
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and we would never be going
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back.
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LAURIE: What is the name
of those things you see
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when you close your eyes?
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I think it's "phosphenes" -
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the reddish patterns,
the little stripes and dots
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and blurry little lines
you see floating around
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when you close your eyes.
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And no one really knows
what they are or what they're for.
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Sometimes they seem to be
brought on by sound
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or random electrical magnetic firing.
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(electricity crackling)
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Sometimes phosphenes are called
prisoner's cinema -
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some kind of eternal, plotless
avant-garde animated movie.
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Or maybe they're just screen savers -
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holding patterns that just sit there
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so your brain won't fall asleep.
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♪♪ (woman singing, indistinct)
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♪♪ (man singing, indistinct)
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LAURIE: When Lolabelle got old,
she went blind.
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She wouldn't move. She froze in place.
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The only place she would run
was on the edge of the ocean
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because she knew there would be
nothing to run into there.
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And so she went running full speed
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into total darkness.
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Around this time, her trainer, Elisabeth,
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decided to teach Lolabelle to paint.
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And so Lolabelle began making
several paintings every day -
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bright-red abstract works.
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And she would scratch
on these plastic sheets
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using static electricity.
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She also made small sculptures
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by pressing her paw
into lumps of Plasticine.
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She made a huge number of these things,
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and I didn't really know
what to do with them.
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I thought maybe they could
be snack trays or
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little clogs,
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like the ones Japanese dogs
might wear in the rain.
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You know, we could sell them
on the Web site.
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-♪♪ (art rock)
-MAN.. ♪ Hey ♪
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♪ Hey ♪
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Lolabelle sat in the studio with me
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through lots of different record projects.
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Rat terriers have really good hearing,
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especially in the upper registers.
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And they never seem to get bored.
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"Hey, let's listen to that cello track
for the 70th time."
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"Great idea."
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♪ Hey ♪
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"Let's do that."
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♪ Hey ♪
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Some trainers say that in order
to understand your breed,
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you have to imagine what
their voices would sound like
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and what they'd say to you
when you give them a command.
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So give a command to a German shepherd,
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and he'd say, "Right, boss.
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No problem. Consider it done."
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Give a command to a poodle,
and it's, "Please love me.
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I'll do anything if you just love me."
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But give a command to a terrier,
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and they say, "Um, is it gonna be fun?
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Because if it's not gonna be fun,
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I’m just not interested."
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(police radio chatter)
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Lt was so strange the way it happened.
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Almost overnight,
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there were soldiers
everywhere in the city.
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Where there used to be
just maybe one policeman,
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now there were groups of soldiers
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with machine guns and riot gear.
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Almost immediately, it became normal.
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They began to blend in.
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Nobody talked to them,
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but they were everywhere, like ghosts.
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And I thought,
when did that start to happen?
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We're trying to prevent it from happening
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instead of having to deal
with it afterwards.
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So Homeland Security began to breed dogs.
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When the puppies were 1 3 weeks old,
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they were sent to prisons
to be trained by prisoners.
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The smartest dogs were
drafted to work with police
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on patrols and on bomb-sniffing squads.
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The Homeland Security slogan,
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"If you see something, say something,"
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sounds like something
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the Austrian philosopher
Wittgenstein might say.
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And his books are full
of cryptic sentences about logic
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and about how language has the power
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to actually create the world.
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If you can't talk about it, he says,
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it just doesn't exist.
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After the "see something,
say something" slogan
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had been around for a while,
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someone from Homeland Security
must have had second thoughts
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about asking people to report
on each other all the time.
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I would have loved to have been
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at that Homeland Security
PR brainstorming session
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when they decided to add
this phrase to their slogan.
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(man speaking foreign language)
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(horns honking)
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There are so many trucks
in my neighborhood now
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carrying information and data
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on the way to secure storage areas.
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Iron Mountain started
as a network of caves
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for growing mushrooms
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and gradually turned into
a bomb-resistant storage facility
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for corporate documents.
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After World War ll,
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the company began inventing new identities
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for Jewish immigrants
who arrived with nothing -
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no papers or, at most,
their old library cards.
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So Iron Mountain created all sorts
of new documents for them,
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and they became instant Americans.
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(dogs yelping, barking)
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Lolabelle was a mall dog.
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She came from one
of the high-speed puppy mills
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that breed dogs in batches
and then sell them in malls.
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She was bought by a couple
who were in the middle of a divorce.
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(shouting, arguing)
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And no one could take her.
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The woman didn't want her,
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and the husband didn't want her.
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And the boy wanted her, but -
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Nobody really wanted the boy.
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And so the man took Lolabelle
with him to Canada,
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where he spent a month camping and crying
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and thinking it all through
and talking to himself.
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And Lolabelle rode
up on the bow of the kayak,
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perched on the front leading the way
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as the man paddled along
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and tried to figure out
what to do with his life,
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how to go on.
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And I think that was where she learned
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the great skill of empathy.
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And also where she learned
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what our meditation teacher
keeps telling us.
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And he says, "You should try
to learn how to feel sad
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without being sad."
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Which is actually really hard to do -
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to feel sad without actually
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being sad.
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(traffic passing)
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Terriers are really adaptable
and very social.
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So Lolabelle immediately fit
right in into the West Village.
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(sniffing)
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Within a week or two,
she seemed to know everyone -
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Kurt, who has the Austrian restaurant
on the corner,
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our neighbor Julian,
the painter who lives across the street,
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and lots of people
who were total strangers to us.
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She had a tab in several stores,
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and, on most walks, she would drop in
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to pick up a treat or a toy.
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(dog panting)
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The West Village has the highest
density of dogs in the city.
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Lots of the dogs are chasing birds
and barking at cars.
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But, weirdly, there are
almost no collisions.
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Pretty much everybody manages
to stay out of the way.
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Dogs see mostly blues and greens.
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Their eyesight is very blurry
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and gets combined
with their sense of smell,
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which is hard for humans to imagine
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since we lost most of our ability
to navigate by smell
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when we began walking upright
so far from the ground.
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(bicycle bell rings)
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So many things are being recorded -
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numbers, locations, names,
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dates, times, directions.
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Massive amounts of data
are being collected and stored.
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And what kind of information is this?
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Fragmented conversations
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full of jump cuts and distortions.
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And what are the stories that emerge
from these fragments?
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And why are they being collected?
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And it's only when you commit a crime
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that the data is put together
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and your story is reconstructed,
backwards.
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A portrait of you made up of data trails -
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the places you went,
the things you bought,
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the pictures you took,
the e-mails you sent.
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And like Kierkegaard said,
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"Life can only be understood backwards;
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but it must be lived forwards."
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The new headquarters
of the National Security Agency
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is finally almost finished.
341
00:27:10,212 --> 00:27:15,132
This huge data center in Utah
collects information
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and has clearance to bug the systems
of individual citizens
343
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and to engage in sabotage
using subversive software.
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The United States is the first country
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in the history of the world
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to collect and store information
about its own citizens
347
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on this scale.
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00:27:35,863 --> 00:27:39,123
Until now, records were mostly accounts
349
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of the lives of kings and pharaohs
350
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who also stored their records
in massive desert complexes.
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A lot of the information
is stored in the cloud.
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But the likelihood that your story
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is going to get mixed up
with someone else's story
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is extremely high.
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♪♪ (woman singing, indistinct)
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(voices whispering)
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♪ Hey ♪
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WOMAN.. ♪ Some call me beauty ♪
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♪ Some call me pain ♪
360
00:29:33,147 --> 00:29:34,857
I remember the first time I realized
361
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that some people live in different worlds.
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I’d be walking to school and I’d look up,
363
00:29:40,404 --> 00:29:43,034
and there was Moses
hanging by his tool belt.
364
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Every day, no matter what the weather,
365
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Moses would climb up the telephone poles
366
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and attach his belt to them
367
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and open the phone boxes
368
00:29:54,209 --> 00:29:56,209
and move the lines around.
369
00:29:57,796 --> 00:30:01,216
Sometimes he'd take out his tools
and do some hammering.
370
00:30:02,926 --> 00:30:06,136
Ln the winter,
you could see him really well
371
00:30:06,221 --> 00:30:08,391
outlined against the bright sky,
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hammering and spinning
around and round up there.
373
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Now, Moses did not work
for the phone company.
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He just lived in another world,
375
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a kind of dream world of trees
and circuits and electronics.
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00:30:31,413 --> 00:30:33,963
(voices whispering in telephone lines)
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00:30:34,041 --> 00:30:37,341
But everyone in town
made a point of thanking him
378
00:30:37,419 --> 00:30:39,919
for fixing their phones.
379
00:30:40,005 --> 00:30:42,215
The men would be walking home
from the train station
380
00:30:42,299 --> 00:30:44,549
in the evening, and they'd yell,
381
00:30:45,969 --> 00:30:49,259
"Hey, Moe! Good job on the phones."
382
00:30:50,516 --> 00:30:54,346
"The reception on my line
is really great now."
383
00:30:54,436 --> 00:30:57,096
"Nice job. Clear. Thanks a lot."
384
00:31:08,575 --> 00:31:13,405
As a child, I had a hobby
of making colonial newspapers -
385
00:31:13,497 --> 00:31:16,457
just inventing things
that happened in colonial times
386
00:31:16,542 --> 00:31:19,962
and printing them and handing them out
to the neighbors.
387
00:31:21,129 --> 00:31:23,379
I also had a hobby
of trying to imagine things
388
00:31:23,465 --> 00:31:27,085
that had never happened
in the history of the world.
389
00:31:27,177 --> 00:31:30,007
For some reason,
this was really important to me.
390
00:31:30,097 --> 00:31:32,347
So I’d go out into the woods
and make a fort
391
00:31:32,432 --> 00:31:35,482
and roll oak leaves
into oak-leaf cigarettes
392
00:31:35,561 --> 00:31:38,231
and crawl into the fort
and smoke the cigarettes
393
00:31:38,313 --> 00:31:41,483
and think up various improbable events.
394
00:31:41,567 --> 00:31:46,027
For example,
a man is walking along a road,
395
00:31:46,113 --> 00:31:48,283
and just as he looks up into the sky,
396
00:31:48,365 --> 00:31:50,905
which is filled with dense swirling snow,
397
00:31:50,993 --> 00:31:53,793
a duck flying above him has a heart attack
398
00:31:53,870 --> 00:31:57,460
and falls right on top of the man
and kills him.
399
00:31:57,541 --> 00:31:59,581
Things like that.
400
00:32:02,337 --> 00:32:06,167
Sometimes these thoughts
would lead to questions like,
401
00:32:06,258 --> 00:32:10,388
is it true that on Mars
the cliffs are 40 miles high?
402
00:32:11,847 --> 00:32:13,557
Or what if everything just stopped -
403
00:32:13,640 --> 00:32:16,430
the tides and the waves and
404
00:32:16,518 --> 00:32:18,188
what if the sky froze?
405
00:32:18,270 --> 00:32:19,770
What then?
406
00:32:21,064 --> 00:32:26,034
Say, are you perhaps made of glass?
407
00:32:30,157 --> 00:32:34,117
To live in the gap
between the moment that is expiring
408
00:32:34,202 --> 00:32:36,582
and the one that is arising,
409
00:32:36,663 --> 00:32:39,503
luminous and empty.
410
00:32:41,251 --> 00:32:46,921
The real city falling through your mind
in glittering pieces.
411
00:32:50,677 --> 00:32:54,257
And when you close your eyes,
what do you see?
412
00:32:55,932 --> 00:32:57,432
Nothing?
413
00:32:59,770 --> 00:33:01,310
Now open them.
414
00:33:01,480 --> 00:33:04,440
WOMAN: Good girl. What a good girl!
415
00:33:04,524 --> 00:33:06,534
Thank you.
416
00:33:06,610 --> 00:33:08,570
Wow. Lolie!
417
00:33:12,074 --> 00:33:14,084
LAURIE: When Lolabelle went blind,
418
00:33:14,159 --> 00:33:18,289
Elisabeth decided it was time
for her to learn piano.
419
00:33:18,372 --> 00:33:20,502
So we set up some keyboards on the floor,
420
00:33:20,582 --> 00:33:24,092
and she would run over
and turn them on and start to play.
421
00:33:25,587 --> 00:33:28,297
Lolabelle played every day for two years,
422
00:33:28,382 --> 00:33:30,972
and she got reasonably good.
423
00:33:31,051 --> 00:33:33,841
-♪♪ (rhythm track: pop)
-♪♪ (plunking notes)
424
00:33:34,638 --> 00:33:36,638
(barking)
425
00:33:54,199 --> 00:33:55,449
(low growl)
426
00:33:55,534 --> 00:33:57,544
She was trained with a little clicker
427
00:33:57,619 --> 00:33:58,539
that Elisabeth used.
428
00:33:58,620 --> 00:34:00,620
-♪♪ (continues)
-(barking)
429
00:34:04,251 --> 00:34:05,751
♪♪♪♪
430
00:34:09,673 --> 00:34:12,593
She also played more experimental music,
431
00:34:12,676 --> 00:34:15,796
and she used some of the same programs
and samples that I use.
432
00:34:15,887 --> 00:34:18,467
♪♪ (synthesizer: ethereal)
433
00:34:18,557 --> 00:34:20,057
(barking)
434
00:34:22,144 --> 00:34:25,274
♪♪ (synthesizer continues)
435
00:34:39,953 --> 00:34:42,253
(barking)
436
00:34:42,330 --> 00:34:46,170
She also did a lot of benefit concerts
for other animals
437
00:34:46,251 --> 00:34:49,551
and for various animal rights
organizations.
438
00:34:49,629 --> 00:34:52,969
-♪♪ (rhythm track: pop)
-♪♪ (plunking notes)
439
00:34:53,049 --> 00:34:55,089
(audience laughing)
440
00:35:02,017 --> 00:35:05,307
♪♪ (plunking notes)
441
00:35:07,522 --> 00:35:10,362
♪♪ (organ: "O Tannenbaum")
442
00:35:12,986 --> 00:35:15,276
She also made a Christmas record,
443
00:35:15,363 --> 00:35:18,073
which was... pretty good.
444
00:35:18,158 --> 00:35:20,158
♪♪♪♪
445
00:35:35,300 --> 00:35:38,890
One of my favorite paintings is by Goya,
446
00:35:38,970 --> 00:35:40,970
and it doesn't look like
his other work at all.
447
00:35:41,056 --> 00:35:44,636
It's a huge gold void.
448
00:35:46,853 --> 00:35:51,823
Except, at the bottom,
there's a little dog,
449
00:35:51,900 --> 00:35:54,240
and you see only his head.
450
00:35:54,319 --> 00:35:57,569
And he seems to be climbing a steep hill,
451
00:35:57,656 --> 00:36:02,326
or maybe he's swimming by himself
in a gold ocean.
452
00:36:02,410 --> 00:36:04,580
(Lolabelle barking)
453
00:36:08,583 --> 00:36:12,753
When Lolabelle got very sick,
we took her to the hospital.
454
00:36:14,214 --> 00:36:16,384
We spent a lot of time with vets,
455
00:36:16,466 --> 00:36:18,426
and they always wanted
to give you this speech
456
00:36:18,510 --> 00:36:21,050
they'd prepared about pain,
457
00:36:21,137 --> 00:36:24,427
which was, "Of course you don't
want her to be in pain.
458
00:36:24,516 --> 00:36:27,596
And so we just give her a shot
and put her to sleep
459
00:36:27,686 --> 00:36:32,516
and then another shot,
and she stops breathing."
460
00:36:32,607 --> 00:36:35,067
And every time they would say that,
I would say,
461
00:36:35,151 --> 00:36:36,491
"Listen, I know you want to say this,
462
00:36:36,570 --> 00:36:40,360
but we're not going to do this,
so never mind."
463
00:36:41,575 --> 00:36:43,945
But they would still try
to give the speech anyway.
464
00:36:49,457 --> 00:36:51,377
I was really worried about this,
465
00:36:51,459 --> 00:36:52,669
so I called our Buddhist teacher,
466
00:36:52,752 --> 00:36:57,552
and he said, "Animals are like people.
467
00:36:57,632 --> 00:37:00,472
They approach death,
and then they back away.
468
00:37:02,178 --> 00:37:03,928
And it's a process,
469
00:37:04,014 --> 00:37:06,524
and you don't have the right
to take that from them."
470
00:37:10,478 --> 00:37:14,268
He said, "You should just go
and get her from the hospital
471
00:37:14,357 --> 00:37:16,477
and bring her home."
472
00:37:19,654 --> 00:37:22,074
Pretty much exactly what
your Jewish grandmother would say.
473
00:37:22,157 --> 00:37:25,737
Get some good tranquilizers,
474
00:37:25,827 --> 00:37:30,117
get some good food and bring her home.
475
00:37:33,835 --> 00:37:35,705
(chuckling)
476
00:37:45,472 --> 00:37:49,182
So we went to the hospital
and we took Lolabelle home.
477
00:37:51,478 --> 00:37:53,938
We stayed with her for three days
478
00:37:54,022 --> 00:37:57,692
as her breath slowed and then stopped.
479
00:37:59,694 --> 00:38:03,414
We had learned to love Lola
as she loved us,
480
00:38:04,741 --> 00:38:08,161
with a tenderness we didn't know we had.
481
00:38:18,922 --> 00:38:23,472
The thing that's forbidden
by the Tibetan Book of the Dead
482
00:38:24,260 --> 00:38:25,760
is crying.
483
00:38:26,596 --> 00:38:29,516
Crying is not allowed
484
00:38:29,599 --> 00:38:32,889
because it's supposedly
confusing to the dead,
485
00:38:32,978 --> 00:38:35,308
and you don't want to summon them back,
486
00:38:35,397 --> 00:38:37,937
because they actually can't come back.
487
00:38:38,525 --> 00:38:41,645
So, no crying.
488
00:38:44,614 --> 00:38:48,244
When Lolabelle died, our teacher said,
489
00:38:48,326 --> 00:38:50,156
"Every time you think of her,
490
00:38:50,245 --> 00:38:53,495
give something away or do something kind."
491
00:38:53,581 --> 00:38:55,251
And I said,
492
00:38:56,292 --> 00:38:59,752
"Then I’d be giving things away nonstop."
493
00:38:59,838 --> 00:39:01,338
And he said,
494
00:39:02,340 --> 00:39:03,880
"So?"
495
00:39:05,510 --> 00:39:09,180
And it took me so long to figure it out,
496
00:39:09,264 --> 00:39:13,524
because death is so often about regrets
497
00:39:13,601 --> 00:39:15,941
or guilt.
498
00:39:16,021 --> 00:39:19,481
'Why didn't I call her?
Why didn't I say that?"
499
00:39:19,566 --> 00:39:24,446
It's more about you
than the person who died.
500
00:39:26,197 --> 00:39:29,407
But finally I saw it -
501
00:39:30,827 --> 00:39:34,907
the connection between love and death
502
00:39:39,294 --> 00:39:41,674
and that the purpose of death
503
00:39:41,755 --> 00:39:45,755
is the release of love.
504
00:40:00,899 --> 00:40:03,649
Gordon Matta-Clark died young.
505
00:40:05,153 --> 00:40:07,323
And he died in an amazing way.
506
00:40:09,074 --> 00:40:11,124
Gordon was a good friend of mine,
507
00:40:11,201 --> 00:40:13,081
and he was a sculptor.
508
00:40:13,161 --> 00:40:17,461
One of his most well-known works
was called Splitting,
509
00:40:17,540 --> 00:40:20,670
in which he sawed
a suburban house in half.
510
00:40:20,752 --> 00:40:22,462
He was a minimalist,
511
00:40:22,545 --> 00:40:24,915
and there was a lot of advanced theory
512
00:40:25,006 --> 00:40:27,966
about why he cut houses in half,
513
00:40:28,051 --> 00:40:29,931
although none of the theories
514
00:40:30,011 --> 00:40:32,601
talked about his parents' divorce
515
00:40:32,680 --> 00:40:34,310
or what happened one day
516
00:40:34,390 --> 00:40:37,600
when his twin brother jumped to his death
517
00:40:38,478 --> 00:40:40,268
out of Gordon's window.
518
00:40:44,275 --> 00:40:46,565
When Gordon got sick,
519
00:40:46,653 --> 00:40:50,323
he decided to make his death very social,
520
00:40:50,406 --> 00:40:54,276
and so he invited his friends
to come to the hospital.
521
00:40:54,369 --> 00:40:57,539
And he had only 24 hours left to live -
522
00:40:57,622 --> 00:41:00,962
the length of time that his system
was breaking down.
523
00:41:01,042 --> 00:41:02,882
And he decided to spend this time
524
00:41:02,961 --> 00:41:04,461
reading to his friends.
525
00:41:04,546 --> 00:41:06,166
MAN: They say that the object
526
00:41:06,256 --> 00:41:08,166
is the medium through which the light -
527
00:41:08,258 --> 00:41:09,758
And when he died,
528
00:41:09,843 --> 00:41:13,053
there were two lamas
on either side of him.
529
00:41:13,138 --> 00:41:15,138
And when he stopped breathing,
530
00:41:15,223 --> 00:41:18,853
they began shouting into his ear.
531
00:41:18,935 --> 00:41:23,145
The Tibetans believe that hearing
is the last sense to go.
532
00:41:23,231 --> 00:41:27,281
So after the heart stops
and your brain flatlines
533
00:41:27,360 --> 00:41:29,650
and the eyes go dark,
534
00:41:29,737 --> 00:41:33,907
the hammers in the ears are still working.
535
00:41:33,992 --> 00:41:37,242
So they shout instructions
from the Tibetan Book of the Dead,
536
00:41:37,328 --> 00:41:40,998
also called the Great Liberation
Through Hearing,
537
00:41:41,082 --> 00:41:44,002
and they yelled, "Gordon! You're dead!
538
00:41:45,712 --> 00:41:47,882
You're dead now!"
539
00:41:47,964 --> 00:41:49,884
And then they say, "You see two lights,
540
00:41:49,966 --> 00:41:52,506
and one is near you and one is far away.
541
00:41:52,594 --> 00:41:55,184
Don't go to the near one.
Go to the one that's far away,"
542
00:41:55,263 --> 00:41:57,643
and so on and so on and so on.
543
00:42:01,394 --> 00:42:04,104
I've seen three ghosts in my life now.
544
00:42:04,189 --> 00:42:06,269
And the first was Gordon.
545
00:42:07,734 --> 00:42:09,904
A few hours after he died,
546
00:42:09,986 --> 00:42:13,196
he appeared on the back porch
of the commune I was living in.
547
00:42:15,366 --> 00:42:17,116
"Every love story
548
00:42:19,704 --> 00:42:21,414
is a ghost story" -
549
00:42:21,497 --> 00:42:24,327
(voice whispering)
550
00:42:27,587 --> 00:42:29,837
said David Foster Wallace.
551
00:42:40,642 --> 00:42:42,232
After death,
552
00:42:42,310 --> 00:42:45,230
according to the Tibetan Book of the Dead,
553
00:42:45,313 --> 00:42:49,693
all creatures then spend
49 days in the bardo.
554
00:42:50,944 --> 00:42:52,494
And the bardo isn't a place.
555
00:42:52,570 --> 00:42:57,700
It's more like a process
that lasts 49 days
556
00:42:57,784 --> 00:42:59,794
as the mind dissolves
557
00:42:59,869 --> 00:43:01,909
and, as the Tibetans believe,
558
00:43:01,996 --> 00:43:05,166
the consciousness
or, let's say, the energy,
559
00:43:05,250 --> 00:43:08,210
prepares to take another life form.
560
00:43:09,420 --> 00:43:12,710
Leap.
561
00:43:13,633 --> 00:43:16,433
All goes to darkness,
562
00:43:16,511 --> 00:43:19,051
and the next thing you see
is your next life.
563
00:43:20,598 --> 00:43:24,268
A slow awakening to this world
564
00:43:24,352 --> 00:43:26,022
or another world.
565
00:43:28,648 --> 00:43:32,778
Now you are in another form,
without a body.
566
00:43:39,033 --> 00:43:41,373
Recognize this.
567
00:43:52,505 --> 00:43:56,465
The cities, the mountains,
568
00:43:56,551 --> 00:43:59,721
the rooms, the trees,
569
00:44:00,430 --> 00:44:01,720
the trains -
570
00:44:03,933 --> 00:44:06,063
Optical illusions.
571
00:44:08,229 --> 00:44:09,729
Not there.
572
00:44:13,318 --> 00:44:15,608
Like dreams made of nothing.
573
00:44:17,572 --> 00:44:20,162
Things you loved as living things
574
00:44:20,241 --> 00:44:22,741
move with a different speed.
575
00:44:22,827 --> 00:44:24,407
They disappear.
576
00:44:24,495 --> 00:44:26,535
Echo. Repeat.
577
00:44:39,510 --> 00:44:43,510
Anger turned to liberation,
578
00:44:45,600 --> 00:44:47,600
earth into water,
579
00:44:47,685 --> 00:44:49,185
water into fire,
580
00:44:50,897 --> 00:44:52,857
fire into air,
581
00:44:54,150 --> 00:44:58,110
air into consciousness.
582
00:45:09,165 --> 00:45:12,745
The many days of silence and loneliness.
583
00:45:29,060 --> 00:45:32,520
You are not alone in leaving this world.
584
00:45:35,191 --> 00:45:36,821
At first, you don't realize you're dead
585
00:45:36,901 --> 00:45:39,191
but continue doing things you used to do,
586
00:45:40,780 --> 00:45:42,700
looking for things you've lost,
587
00:45:44,951 --> 00:45:49,501
your mind overwhelmed
by memories and plans.
588
00:45:49,580 --> 00:45:52,830
What am I? What am I?
589
00:45:56,504 --> 00:45:58,134
LAURIE'S VOICE (echoing):
Looking for your food bowl
590
00:45:58,214 --> 00:45:59,924
and wondering what -
591
00:46:01,008 --> 00:46:02,548
Recognize this.
592
00:46:07,181 --> 00:46:09,931
The monkey mind, my teacher calls it,
593
00:46:10,017 --> 00:46:13,597
dissolving, like moonlight,
594
00:46:13,688 --> 00:46:15,398
in a cloudless sky.
595
00:46:19,694 --> 00:46:21,194
Recognize this.
596
00:46:24,365 --> 00:46:26,275
You can move through walls.
597
00:46:38,129 --> 00:46:42,299
Recognize this as the play
of your own mind.
598
00:46:54,520 --> 00:46:57,690
Leave attachment to the things you left.
599
00:47:00,860 --> 00:47:02,360
Could I have done this?
600
00:47:04,572 --> 00:47:06,362
Could I have said this?
601
00:47:09,577 --> 00:47:13,907
WOMAN.. ...get some good food
and bring her home.
602
00:47:16,667 --> 00:47:18,417
LAURIE: The long ago fears
603
00:47:19,587 --> 00:47:20,997
of childhood.
604
00:47:22,590 --> 00:47:24,470
WOMAN #2 (echoing): This is a nightmare.
605
00:47:27,261 --> 00:47:29,141
No solid self.
606
00:47:31,057 --> 00:47:37,347
The longing after your own happiness.
607
00:47:41,108 --> 00:47:43,188
Trapped in your thought flow.
608
00:47:48,741 --> 00:47:56,921
Wake up.
609
00:47:58,000 --> 00:48:00,750
♪♪ (man singing, backwards)
610
00:48:02,797 --> 00:48:04,547
Clocks have stopped.
611
00:48:08,344 --> 00:48:10,764
♪♪ (continues)
612
00:48:16,686 --> 00:48:18,346
Once you wore that.
613
00:48:20,690 --> 00:48:22,570
Once you did that.
614
00:48:24,068 --> 00:48:28,988
Everything you knew about time
slipping, repeating.
615
00:48:40,751 --> 00:48:42,541
Do not be afraid.
616
00:48:53,723 --> 00:48:55,683
Like all mornings.
617
00:49:05,651 --> 00:49:07,611
Recognize this.
618
00:49:11,490 --> 00:49:13,870
Leave behind aggression.
619
00:49:15,369 --> 00:49:16,909
Leave behind
620
00:49:17,872 --> 00:49:19,122
passion.
621
00:49:47,735 --> 00:49:49,525
Recognize this.
622
00:50:09,215 --> 00:50:13,465
WOMAN.. ♪ Some call me beauty ♪
623
00:50:13,552 --> 00:50:15,222
♪ Some call me pain ♪♪
624
00:51:01,976 --> 00:51:06,146
I spent the next 49 days
keeping a kind of double diary,
625
00:51:06,230 --> 00:51:08,980
keeping track of what
was going on in the real world
626
00:51:09,066 --> 00:51:10,816
and what was going on in the bardo.
627
00:51:16,490 --> 00:51:20,240
Lots of things were going on in
the real world during that time.
628
00:51:20,327 --> 00:51:24,827
On May 2, Osama bin Laden
was killed in Pakistan
629
00:51:26,000 --> 00:51:28,790
in a raid called Operation Neptune Spear
630
00:51:29,503 --> 00:51:31,173
led by the CIA.
631
00:51:38,179 --> 00:51:40,429
On April 22, the memory unit
632
00:51:40,514 --> 00:51:44,024
of the flight data recorder
from Air France 447
633
00:51:44,101 --> 00:51:47,521
was recovered from the bottom
of the Atlantic Ocean.
634
00:51:47,605 --> 00:51:51,065
Then on May 21 , there was a prediction
635
00:51:51,150 --> 00:51:53,400
by a US religious group
636
00:51:53,486 --> 00:51:55,026
that the world was going to end.
637
00:51:55,112 --> 00:51:56,782
MAN: ...judgment has come.
638
00:51:56,864 --> 00:51:59,414
Your world is now under judgment,
639
00:51:59,492 --> 00:52:02,952
where it was not prior to May 21 .
640
00:52:03,037 --> 00:52:06,457
LAURIE: On May 23, there was a retraction.
641
00:52:06,540 --> 00:52:08,120
MAN: There's a big difference in the world
642
00:52:08,209 --> 00:52:10,959
that we can't detect at all with our eyes,
643
00:52:11,045 --> 00:52:13,205
but we can know from the Bible.
644
00:52:23,390 --> 00:52:25,730
LAURIE: Strange, but after all this time -
645
00:52:26,769 --> 00:52:29,399
30,000 years of human civilization -
646
00:52:29,480 --> 00:52:33,020
we still have no idea why we dream.
647
00:52:33,108 --> 00:52:34,938
Of course, there are lots of theories.
648
00:52:35,027 --> 00:52:38,657
And one theory of SIDS,
or Sudden Infant Death Syndrome,
649
00:52:38,739 --> 00:52:40,409
has to do with dreaming.
650
00:52:41,283 --> 00:52:43,333
SIDS, or crib death,
651
00:52:43,410 --> 00:52:47,330
is the mysterious phenomenon
of the death of a baby
652
00:52:47,414 --> 00:52:50,384
who just suddenly stops breathing.
653
00:52:50,459 --> 00:52:54,299
And according to the theory,
the baby dies during REM sleep,
654
00:52:54,380 --> 00:52:58,260
a period when dreams of the past
are the most intense.
655
00:52:58,342 --> 00:53:02,852
And these dreams are from
before the baby was born,
656
00:53:02,930 --> 00:53:05,520
before the baby began to breathe.
657
00:53:06,350 --> 00:53:09,190
And the dreams are so real,
658
00:53:09,270 --> 00:53:12,480
the baby gets lost in them
659
00:53:12,565 --> 00:53:14,475
and just
660
00:53:14,567 --> 00:53:16,067
stops breathing.
661
00:53:19,822 --> 00:53:23,122
And when you see an X-ray
of a child's head,
662
00:53:25,244 --> 00:53:27,254
you see this second pair of teeth,
663
00:53:27,329 --> 00:53:29,459
right above the baby teeth.
664
00:53:29,540 --> 00:53:31,370
And this second pair of teeth
665
00:53:31,458 --> 00:53:35,958
is ready to drop down into place
when the first set falls out.
666
00:53:37,464 --> 00:53:40,474
Now wouldn't it be great
to have a second brain
667
00:53:40,551 --> 00:53:43,301
or a reserve heart
668
00:53:43,387 --> 00:53:48,217
that would just drop into place
when the first one breaks?
669
00:53:55,232 --> 00:53:57,192
I want to tell you a story
670
00:53:57,276 --> 00:53:59,776
about a story.
671
00:53:59,862 --> 00:54:03,162
And it's about the time
I discovered that most adults
672
00:54:03,240 --> 00:54:05,910
have no idea what they're talking about.
673
00:54:08,162 --> 00:54:11,412
Lt was the middle of the summer
when I was 12.
674
00:54:11,498 --> 00:54:15,338
And I was the kind of kid
who was always showing off.
675
00:54:15,419 --> 00:54:16,959
I have seven brothers and sisters,
676
00:54:17,046 --> 00:54:20,206
and I was always getting lost
in the crowd.
677
00:54:20,299 --> 00:54:23,639
And so I would do practically
anything for attention.
678
00:54:24,720 --> 00:54:27,970
So one day, I was at the swimming pool,
679
00:54:28,057 --> 00:54:30,477
and I decided to do a flip
from the high board,
680
00:54:31,185 --> 00:54:32,765
the kind of dive
681
00:54:32,853 --> 00:54:38,443
when you're temporarily
magically suspended mid-air,
682
00:54:38,525 --> 00:54:42,105
and everyone around the pool goes,
'Wow! That's incredible!
683
00:54:42,196 --> 00:54:44,356
That's amazing!"
684
00:54:46,241 --> 00:54:48,281
Now I’d never done a flip before.
685
00:54:48,369 --> 00:54:50,869
But I thought, how hard could it be?
686
00:54:51,705 --> 00:54:53,455
You just somersault
687
00:54:53,540 --> 00:54:56,290
and straighten out
right before you hit the water.
688
00:54:57,711 --> 00:54:59,211
So I did.
689
00:54:59,296 --> 00:55:01,876
But I missed the pool.
690
00:55:01,966 --> 00:55:02,876
And I landed
691
00:55:04,218 --> 00:55:06,218
on the concrete edge
692
00:55:06,303 --> 00:55:07,803
and broke my back.
693
00:55:09,515 --> 00:55:11,975
I spent the next few weeks in traction
694
00:55:12,059 --> 00:55:14,849
in the children's ward at the hospital.
695
00:55:14,937 --> 00:55:17,857
And for quite a while,
I couldn't move or talk.
696
00:55:17,940 --> 00:55:20,360
I was just sort of floating.
697
00:55:21,735 --> 00:55:25,315
I was in the same trauma unit
with the kids who'd been burned,
698
00:55:25,406 --> 00:55:28,526
and they were hanging
in these rotating slings,
699
00:55:28,617 --> 00:55:31,487
sort of like rotisseries or spits -
700
00:55:31,578 --> 00:55:34,908
machines that would
turn you around and around
701
00:55:34,999 --> 00:55:39,339
so the burns could be bathed
in these cool liquids.
702
00:55:39,420 --> 00:55:41,800
Then one day, one of the doctors
came to see me,
703
00:55:41,880 --> 00:55:44,840
and he told me that I wouldn't
be able to walk again.
704
00:55:44,925 --> 00:55:49,045
And I remember thinking,
"This guy is crazy!
705
00:55:49,138 --> 00:55:52,518
I mean, is he even a doctor? Who knows?"
706
00:55:52,599 --> 00:55:54,059
Of course I was going to walk.
707
00:55:54,143 --> 00:55:56,023
I just had to concentrate,
708
00:55:56,103 --> 00:55:58,063
keep trying to make contact with my feet,
709
00:55:58,147 --> 00:56:02,187
convince them, will them to move.
710
00:56:02,276 --> 00:56:04,686
The worst thing about this
was the volunteers
711
00:56:04,778 --> 00:56:07,108
who came every afternoon to read to me.
712
00:56:07,197 --> 00:56:09,527
And they'd lean over the bed
and they'd say,
713
00:56:09,616 --> 00:56:11,326
"Hello, Laurie,"
714
00:56:11,410 --> 00:56:13,620
really enunciating each word
715
00:56:13,704 --> 00:56:15,914
as if I’d also gone deaf.
716
00:56:17,541 --> 00:56:21,461
And they'd open the book.
"So, where were we? Oh, yes.
717
00:56:21,545 --> 00:56:24,045
'The gray rabbit
was hopping down the road,
718
00:56:24,131 --> 00:56:25,921
and guess where he went?"'
719
00:56:26,008 --> 00:56:28,128
Well, nobody knows.
720
00:56:28,886 --> 00:56:30,636
The farmer doesn't know.
721
00:56:30,721 --> 00:56:33,141
The farmer's wife doesn't know.
722
00:56:33,223 --> 00:56:34,813
Nobody knew where the rabbit had gone,
723
00:56:34,892 --> 00:56:37,812
but just about everybody seemed to care.
724
00:56:39,021 --> 00:56:40,561
Now before this happened,
725
00:56:40,647 --> 00:56:43,317
I’d been reading books
like Tale of Two Cities
726
00:56:43,400 --> 00:56:45,320
and Crime and Punishment,
727
00:56:45,402 --> 00:56:49,162
so the gray rabbit stories
were kind of a slow torture.
728
00:56:50,991 --> 00:56:53,331
Anyway, eventually, I did get on my feet,
729
00:56:53,410 --> 00:56:57,330
and for two years
I wore a huge metal brace.
730
00:56:57,414 --> 00:57:00,254
And I got very obsessed
with John F. Kennedy
731
00:57:00,334 --> 00:57:02,884
because he had back problems too.
732
00:57:02,961 --> 00:57:05,841
And he was the president.
733
00:57:07,758 --> 00:57:09,298
Much later in my life,
734
00:57:09,384 --> 00:57:12,554
when someone would ask
what my childhood was like,
735
00:57:12,638 --> 00:57:15,928
sometimes I would tell them
this story about the hospital,
736
00:57:16,016 --> 00:57:17,766
and it was a short way of telling them
737
00:57:17,851 --> 00:57:20,101
certain things about myself -
738
00:57:20,187 --> 00:57:22,767
how I had learned
not to trust certain people
739
00:57:22,856 --> 00:57:24,356
and how horrible it was
740
00:57:24,441 --> 00:57:27,191
to listen to long, pointless stories
741
00:57:27,277 --> 00:57:29,147
like the one about the gray rabbit.
742
00:57:31,865 --> 00:57:35,865
But there was always something weird
about telling this story
743
00:57:35,953 --> 00:57:40,003
that made me very uneasy,
like something was missing.
744
00:57:41,250 --> 00:57:44,040
Then one day,
when I was in the middle of telling it,
745
00:57:44,128 --> 00:57:46,628
I was describing the little rotisseries
746
00:57:46,713 --> 00:57:48,303
that the kids were hanging in.
747
00:57:49,550 --> 00:57:51,340
And suddenly,
748
00:57:51,426 --> 00:57:53,386
it was like I was back in the hospital,
749
00:57:53,470 --> 00:57:56,180
just exactly the way it had been.
750
00:57:56,265 --> 00:57:58,715
And I remembered the missing part.
751
00:58:00,727 --> 00:58:04,057
Lt was the way the ward sounded
752
00:58:04,148 --> 00:58:06,438
at night.
753
00:58:06,525 --> 00:58:08,935
Lt was the sounds of all the children
754
00:58:09,945 --> 00:58:12,525
crying and screaming.
755
00:58:14,366 --> 00:58:16,736
Lt was the sounds that children make
756
00:58:18,120 --> 00:58:19,660
when they're dying.
757
00:58:22,124 --> 00:58:24,174
And then I remembered the rest of it.
758
00:58:24,251 --> 00:58:26,921
The heavy smell of medicine,
759
00:58:27,004 --> 00:58:28,634
the smell of burned skin,
760
00:58:29,798 --> 00:58:32,548
how afraid I was.
761
00:58:32,634 --> 00:58:35,144
And the way some of the beds
would be empty in the morning,
762
00:58:35,220 --> 00:58:36,850
and the nurses would never talk about
763
00:58:36,930 --> 00:58:39,020
what had happened to these kids.
764
00:58:39,099 --> 00:58:40,679
They'd just go on making up the beds
765
00:58:40,767 --> 00:58:43,267
and cleaning up around the ward.
766
00:58:44,271 --> 00:58:46,021
And so the thing about this story
767
00:58:46,106 --> 00:58:50,186
was that actually I had only
told the part about myself.
768
00:58:50,277 --> 00:58:52,147
And I’d forgotten the rest of it.
769
00:58:52,237 --> 00:58:55,407
I’d cleaned it up,
just the way the nurses had.
770
00:58:57,201 --> 00:59:00,951
That's what I think
is the creepiest thing about stories.
771
00:59:02,289 --> 00:59:04,369
You try to get to the point
you're making -
772
00:59:04,458 --> 00:59:07,498
usually about yourself
or something you learned -
773
00:59:08,837 --> 00:59:13,127
and you get your story,
and you hold on to it,
774
00:59:13,217 --> 00:59:17,177
and every time you tell it, you forget it
775
00:59:18,764 --> 00:59:20,064
more.
776
01:02:12,521 --> 01:02:14,021
(computer chimes)
777
01:02:14,106 --> 01:02:16,686
For two years after Lolabelle's death,
778
01:02:16,775 --> 01:02:18,895
I continued to get notifications
779
01:02:18,985 --> 01:02:21,985
from a Facebook account
I didn't even know she had.
780
01:02:25,033 --> 01:02:27,993
One of the things I did
to try to remember her
781
01:02:28,078 --> 01:02:30,998
was make huge paintings,
782
01:02:31,081 --> 01:02:33,871
imagining her 49 days in the bardo.
783
01:02:35,794 --> 01:02:39,004
Most of the paintings
were full of wind and noise
784
01:02:39,089 --> 01:02:42,719
and chaos and half-remembered songs.
785
01:02:45,429 --> 01:02:48,059
♪ You were there dressed as a cat ♪
786
01:02:48,140 --> 01:02:50,680
♪ Two French girls in Mexican hats ♪
787
01:02:50,767 --> 01:02:53,637
♪ Never knew you could dance like that ♪
788
01:02:55,564 --> 01:02:58,694
♪ Smoke was whirling
I gave a shout ♪
789
01:02:58,775 --> 01:03:01,645
♪ And that was when the fire broke out ♪
790
01:03:03,488 --> 01:03:04,988
♪ I say uh-oh ♪
791
01:03:06,533 --> 01:03:08,913
♪ Another fire ♪
792
01:03:08,994 --> 01:03:10,584
♪ Ln dreamland ♪
793
01:03:11,538 --> 01:03:13,708
♪ Just another fire ♪
794
01:03:14,499 --> 01:03:16,209
♪ Ln dreamland ♪♪
795
01:03:54,623 --> 01:03:56,833
They die in the winter in Chicago.
796
01:03:57,876 --> 01:03:59,996
The cold takes them away.
797
01:04:00,086 --> 01:04:02,956
Lt sweeps in off the lake,
and off they go.
798
01:04:03,048 --> 01:04:05,088
Has done for centuries now.
799
01:04:06,468 --> 01:04:09,048
Some of them died
in the stockyards in Chicago
800
01:04:09,137 --> 01:04:10,637
or in backyards
801
01:04:10,722 --> 01:04:16,022
full of rusted jungle gyms
and old stoves and snow.
802
01:04:16,102 --> 01:04:20,362
Some in overheated houses
out in the winter woods.
803
01:04:20,440 --> 01:04:22,530
Others in their duck blinds
804
01:04:22,609 --> 01:04:24,109
or in their leaking boats
805
01:04:24,194 --> 01:04:26,864
when they sank
in one of the icy Great Lakes.
806
01:04:28,782 --> 01:04:31,662
Lt was in the winter, last winter,
807
01:04:31,743 --> 01:04:33,623
when I heard that my mother was dying.
808
01:04:33,703 --> 01:04:37,213
And so I had to go,
and I was kind of worried.
809
01:04:37,290 --> 01:04:40,290
So I talked to Father Pierre,
who's a priest,
810
01:04:40,377 --> 01:04:42,667
a converted Egyptian Jew,
811
01:04:42,754 --> 01:04:45,384
a playboy who loves elegant things
812
01:04:45,465 --> 01:04:48,215
and has a book collection of 30,000 books.
813
01:04:49,803 --> 01:04:52,853
And he's such a smart guy, and so I said,
814
01:04:52,931 --> 01:04:57,181
"Listen, I have a really big problem.
815
01:04:57,269 --> 01:05:01,109
I’m going to see my mother,
and she's dying,
816
01:05:01,189 --> 01:05:03,609
but I don't love her."
817
01:05:06,319 --> 01:05:08,819
And Father Pierre said, "Okay.
818
01:05:08,905 --> 01:05:11,695
Well, just bring her some flowers
819
01:05:11,783 --> 01:05:14,663
and tell her you've always
cared about her."
820
01:05:14,744 --> 01:05:18,254
And I thought, "I can do that.
821
01:05:18,331 --> 01:05:22,711
Besides, you really don't want
to lie to someone who's dying."
822
01:05:24,045 --> 01:05:26,295
But when I got there,
823
01:05:26,381 --> 01:05:28,221
they were rushing her around in a gurney.
824
01:05:28,300 --> 01:05:30,090
And I didn't have time to get the flowers,
825
01:05:30,176 --> 01:05:32,256
and it was loud and confusing,
826
01:05:32,345 --> 01:05:34,255
and there wasn't a single moment to say,
827
01:05:34,347 --> 01:05:37,847
"You know, I've always cared about you."
828
01:05:39,853 --> 01:05:41,353
And then all of a sudden,
829
01:05:43,023 --> 01:05:44,523
she was dead.
830
01:05:50,947 --> 01:05:53,447
There's a Buddhist exercise
831
01:05:53,533 --> 01:05:55,493
called the mother meditation,
832
01:05:55,577 --> 01:05:58,367
and you use it
when you can't feel anything.
833
01:05:59,289 --> 01:06:02,209
You try to find a single moment
834
01:06:02,292 --> 01:06:05,382
when your mother truly loved you
835
01:06:05,462 --> 01:06:08,052
without a single reservation.
836
01:06:10,592 --> 01:06:12,842
And you focus on that moment.
837
01:06:16,723 --> 01:06:18,603
And then you imagine
838
01:06:18,683 --> 01:06:20,813
that you've been everyone's mother
839
01:06:22,103 --> 01:06:23,943
and they've been yours.
840
01:06:29,653 --> 01:06:32,403
And I looked and I looked for that moment,
841
01:06:32,489 --> 01:06:35,529
but it just kept slipping away.
842
01:06:38,662 --> 01:06:42,252
"So which way do we go? Thanks.
843
01:06:42,332 --> 01:06:43,832
No, it's been - It's been a -
844
01:06:43,917 --> 01:06:45,957
It's been a privilege, and you and your -
845
01:06:46,044 --> 01:06:47,544
and your family and -
846
01:06:49,130 --> 01:06:51,130
And just one more question.
847
01:06:53,635 --> 01:06:56,965
Did you ever really love me?"
848
01:07:02,769 --> 01:07:24,829
♪ I walk accompanied by ghosts ♪
849
01:07:47,522 --> 01:07:50,692
♪ My father with his diamond eyes ♪
850
01:07:51,735 --> 01:07:54,815
♪ His voice life-size ♪
851
01:07:55,947 --> 01:07:58,487
♪ He says, "Follow me ♪
852
01:08:01,327 --> 01:08:03,697
♪ Follow me" ♪
853
01:08:05,248 --> 01:08:08,628
♪ And I come sliding ♪
854
01:08:09,669 --> 01:08:13,339
♪ Where I've been hiding ♪
855
01:08:14,674 --> 01:08:18,474
♪ Out of the heart of a child ♪
856
01:08:34,569 --> 01:08:40,739
♪ Meet me by the lake ♪
857
01:08:41,993 --> 01:08:44,123
♪ I'll be there ♪
858
01:08:46,915 --> 01:08:49,495
♪ I'll be there ♪♪
859
01:08:52,712 --> 01:08:54,302
We lived by a lake,
860
01:08:54,380 --> 01:08:56,880
and every winter it froze.
861
01:08:56,966 --> 01:08:59,756
We skated everywhere.
862
01:08:59,844 --> 01:09:03,644
One evening, I was coming home
from the movies,
863
01:09:03,723 --> 01:09:06,433
and I was pushing
my little brothers Craig and PhiI
864
01:09:06,518 --> 01:09:08,478
in a stroller.
865
01:09:08,561 --> 01:09:11,441
I had decided to take them
over to the island
866
01:09:11,523 --> 01:09:14,023
to look at the moon
that was just coming up.
867
01:09:16,069 --> 01:09:18,319
But as we got close to the island,
868
01:09:18,404 --> 01:09:19,864
the ice broke
869
01:09:19,948 --> 01:09:22,868
and the stroller sank into the dark water.
870
01:09:24,577 --> 01:09:26,287
And my first thought was,
871
01:09:27,413 --> 01:09:29,793
"Mom's gonna kill me."
872
01:09:30,917 --> 01:09:34,037
And I remember
the knitted balls on their hats
873
01:09:34,128 --> 01:09:36,458
as they disappeared under the black water.
874
01:09:36,548 --> 01:09:38,008
So I ripped off my jacket
875
01:09:38,091 --> 01:09:39,841
and I jumped into the freezing water
876
01:09:39,926 --> 01:09:41,716
and dove down and got Craig
877
01:09:41,803 --> 01:09:45,013
and pulled him up
and threw him on the ice.
878
01:09:45,098 --> 01:09:48,388
Then I dove down again,
but I couldn't find the stroller.
879
01:09:48,476 --> 01:09:50,686
Lt had slipped down the muddy bank,
880
01:09:50,770 --> 01:09:52,690
further down under the ice.
881
01:09:53,606 --> 01:09:55,566
Then I dove in again,
882
01:09:55,650 --> 01:09:57,150
and I finally found the stroller,
883
01:09:57,235 --> 01:09:59,695
and Phil was strapped in,
and I ripped the strap off
884
01:09:59,779 --> 01:10:02,739
and pulled him out
and pushed him up onto the ice.
885
01:10:03,908 --> 01:10:07,038
Then I ran home, one twin under each arm,
886
01:10:07,120 --> 01:10:09,040
frozen and screaming.
887
01:10:09,122 --> 01:10:10,582
I ran in the door,
888
01:10:10,665 --> 01:10:12,875
and I told my mother what had happened.
889
01:10:12,959 --> 01:10:15,249
And she stood there and said,
890
01:10:18,256 --> 01:10:22,086
'What a wonderful swimmer you are.
891
01:10:22,176 --> 01:10:24,926
And I didn't know
you were such a good diver."
892
01:10:32,604 --> 01:10:34,734
And when I think of her now,
893
01:10:34,814 --> 01:10:39,744
I realize that was the moment
I had been trying to remember.
894
01:10:48,161 --> 01:10:49,791
"Tell the animals,"
895
01:10:50,705 --> 01:10:52,245
she said.
896
01:10:55,001 --> 01:10:57,091
"Tell all the animals."
897
01:11:03,676 --> 01:11:05,546
ls it a pilgrimage?
898
01:11:07,722 --> 01:11:09,392
Towards what?
899
01:11:17,023 --> 01:11:19,023
♪♪ (rock ballad)
900
01:11:41,798 --> 01:11:45,378
LOU REED: ♪ She says,
What do you call love? ♪
901
01:11:49,847 --> 01:11:51,557
♪ Well, I call it Harry ♪
902
01:11:54,268 --> 01:11:56,728
♪ Oh, please
I’m being serious ♪
903
01:12:00,566 --> 01:12:02,816
♪ What do you call love? ♪
904
01:12:05,613 --> 01:12:11,583
♪ Well, I don't call it family
and I don't call it lust ♪
905
01:12:11,661 --> 01:12:16,041
♪ And as we all know,
marriage isn't a must ♪
906
01:12:16,124 --> 01:12:22,174
♪ And I suppose in the end,
it's a matter of trust ♪
907
01:12:22,255 --> 01:12:23,755
♪ If I had to ♪
908
01:12:24,590 --> 01:12:27,090
♪ I’d call love time ♪
909
01:12:32,598 --> 01:12:35,268
♪ She said,
What do you call love? ♪
910
01:12:39,230 --> 01:12:42,190
♪ Can't you be more specific? ♪
911
01:12:44,193 --> 01:12:48,703
♪ What do you call love? ♪
912
01:12:48,781 --> 01:12:53,661
♪ ls it more than
the heart's hieroglyphic? ♪
913
01:12:56,581 --> 01:12:58,621
♪ Well, for me,
time has no meaning ♪
914
01:12:58,708 --> 01:13:00,748
♪ No future, no past ♪
915
01:13:01,961 --> 01:13:04,051
♪ And when you're in love ♪
916
01:13:05,131 --> 01:13:08,011
♪ You don't have to ask ♪
917
01:13:08,092 --> 01:13:10,552
♪ There's never enough time ♪
918
01:13:10,636 --> 01:13:14,056
♪ To hold love in your grasp ♪
919
01:13:18,895 --> 01:13:40,205
♪ Turning time around ♪
920
01:13:44,128 --> 01:13:46,508
♪ That is what love is ♪
921
01:13:49,634 --> 01:13:52,264
♪ Turning time around ♪
922
01:13:54,889 --> 01:13:58,059
♪ Yes, that is what love is ♪
923
01:13:59,352 --> 01:14:02,062
♪ My time is your time ♪
924
01:14:02,146 --> 01:14:04,816
♪ When you're in love ♪
925
01:14:04,899 --> 01:14:06,439
♪ And time is what ♪
926
01:14:06,526 --> 01:14:10,146
♪ You never have enough of ♪
927
01:14:10,238 --> 01:14:11,858
♪ You can't see or hold it ♪
928
01:14:13,533 --> 01:14:15,743
♪ It's exactly like love ♪
929
01:14:18,996 --> 01:14:43,186
♪ Turning time around ♪
930
01:14:44,188 --> 01:14:45,688
♪ Well, I gotta have it ♪
931
01:14:48,943 --> 01:14:51,193
♪ I got to, got to, got to have it ♪
932
01:15:05,084 --> 01:15:08,594
♪ Turning, turning time around ♪
933
01:15:10,923 --> 01:15:13,763
♪ Got to have it
Turning time around ♪
934
01:15:16,888 --> 01:15:20,308
♪ Turning, turning time around ♪
935
01:15:23,019 --> 01:15:25,269
♪ Turning time around ♪♪
936
01:15:29,692 --> 01:15:32,322
♪♪ (fades)
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