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I thought a long, long time
about what to say today.
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How to pay tribute,
but also tell the truth.
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It truly hurts me to
think that my actions
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have caused anyone emotional distress.
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When I think of the pain that
I may have caused, I-I just...
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Well, I feel awful. Every day, I
wish that I could go back in time.
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I was used to a certain
culture of partying and hookups,
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and many of us never questioned
it, but it is time to question it.
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And I know that I need to
be the one to set an example.
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I'm... I'm trying every
day to be a better man,
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to be the man that my
parents raised me to be.
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And to be a positive
influence at Liberty High.
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It is my sincerest hope that
you will allow me to do so.
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Thank you, sir.
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- Does the county accept the allocution?
- We do, Your Honor.
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Prior to sentencing,
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the victim would like to exercise
her right to make her own statement.
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Proceed.
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I have to admit,
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when I was asked to speak
today, I didn't want to.
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To stand up in front
of all these people.
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But it's what Hannah deserves.
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Your Honor, thank you for this
opportunity to address the court.
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If it's all right, for the
first part of my statement,
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I'd like to address
the defendant directly.
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- Go right ahead.
- Why not?
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The first weekend in September,
my parents were out of town
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and my little brothers
were at their grandparents'.
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I wanted to host a party
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like I thought a popular
cheerleader should.
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My boyfriend was there.
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Your friend Justin.
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We had been drinking.
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We decided to go up to my room.
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I remember making out with him.
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And then I...
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And then I started to fall
asleep or... or pass out.
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I just... I remember thinking
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that I just needed to close
my eyes for a few minutes.
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Then he...
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Then he walked out of the room.
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And then I remember waking up
to you pulling off my underwear.
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I remember feeling you
push yourself inside of me.
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I may not remember all of the details,
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but I will never forget the sheer terror
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of feeling your weight on top of me,
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of not being able to breathe.
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When I opened my eyes, I was
alone in the hot tub with him,
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and there was...
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The way he looked at me, there
was something in his eyes.
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And I was afraid.
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I wanted to slow down, but
he told me not to be a tease.
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And he pushed me down on the couch
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and said he was glad
I had waited for him.
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And then he pulled off my
jeans and then my underwear.
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And he said that if I
showed my body better,
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people wouldn't think I was a lesbian.
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He used a different word.
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And then he grabbed me
on the inside of my thigh.
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At that moment, we were left
alone, and he picked me up.
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He just picked me up and
carried me behind the fence.
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And he lay down on top of me
and started to take my pants off.
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I fought and I fought,
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but he was 18 and I was 12.
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I found out later this
guard had a reputation.
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When he got up from my bed and left,
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my roommate rolled over and told
me it happened to most of the girls.
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I was a second-year associate.
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He invited me to a strategy
meeting in his hotel room.
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He answered the door in his bathrobe.
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I spent the evening
insisting we work on the case.
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At the end of that year, I was let go.
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I had been babysitting for this
family for, I guess, two years.
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He was my youth pastor.
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My second cousin.
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Your Honor, when we
leave this courtroom,
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Bryce Walker gets to leave
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convinced that he chose the
wrong girl to have sex with.
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I get to leave constantly
looking over my shoulder
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for monsters dressed
up as the popular kid,
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constantly on edge and
assuming the worst in every boy.
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The sentence you decide today can tell
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Bryce Walker what he did was wrong.
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It can say that to every boy,
every man who behaves like he does.
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And it can say to victims
like me that our story matters.
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Thank you.
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Prosecution has put forth
a sentencing recommendation.
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Does the defense have
anything to contribute?
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Your Honor, this is a
terribly unfortunate event.
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And two young lives have
been changed forever.
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Bryce has lost all
his scholarship offers.
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The school district has cancelled
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what might well have been
a championship season.
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There is regret on all sides.
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We urge the court to let these
two young people start rebuilding
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and return to their lives.
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This is a tragedy all around.
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As a judge, it's my role
to look at both sides.
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And California law requires every
judge to consider rehabilitation
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and probation for first-time offenders.
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I'd like to see these two young people
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look hard at their
lives and their choices.
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But I don't want to
do any further damage.
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Mr. Walker...
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I expect you to walk
the straight and narrow.
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I'm sentencing you to three
months probation. So ordered.
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Your Honor, three months probation?
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That's all.
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I'm angry. I'm sad.
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And I still have no idea
how what happened happened.
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Talk to me about the sex doll
that was found at Ms. Davis' home.
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Or the dead rat that was
inside Mr. Dempsey's locker.
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The vandalism to Mr. Padilla's car.
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This is bullshit.
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What about the shooting
target you sent my son?
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I didn't do any of that.
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We have several kids who
say he intimidated witnesses,
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engaged in felony vandalism.
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Everyone's saying all kinds
of shit, but it's not true.
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Where's the gun?
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I never touched a gun in my life.
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Your Honor, Bryce Walker was released
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on bail within hours of his arrest,
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and Justin has been stranded in
juvenile detention for almost a month.
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I'm aware of the timeline.
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The related case is
complete as of today.
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Justin's plea is in,
the paperwork is done.
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Understood, Counselor, but as a minor,
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he has to be released into custody.
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We have been searching for Amber
Foley for weeks, Your Honor.
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- She's nowhere to be found.
- Keep looking. Until then, he's remanded.
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Bailiff?
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Hang on, Justin. We're working on it.
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I know. Thank you.
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We're still learning all
the ways we've been changed.
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All the things we've lost.
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I'm so fucking sorry.
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It's insane.
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But somehow I still feel stronger.
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Wait, where's Justin?
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They'll only release him to a guardian,
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and the judge won't move on it.
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We've filed emergency papers,
but it's a 24-hour minimum.
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I'll take the petition
to Purdy. He owes us.
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Do you wanna start on
the order for the school?
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Yeah.
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We're asking for a court order to
force the school to protect you.
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To keep him away from you.
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Thank you.
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Mom, is your firm... I mean,
are they cool with this?
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I've left the firm... to work
with Dennis on cases like this.
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Oh, that's...
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That's cool.
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We're just starting to figure out
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how to go on with our lives.
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Coach said we could leave our
lockers till the end of the year.
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I'm transferring. To Hillcrest.
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Hillcrest? You got the grades for that?
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Not exactly.
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Well, private schools
need fields, too, I guess.
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Yeah. And uniforms and all that shit.
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Speaking of which...
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not all of my credits transferred,
so I'll be going in as a junior.
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Which means I'll see you
on the field this fall.
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They're letting you play football?
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That's right. See you at the dance.
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Wait.
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So, you and Chloe?
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Yeah. Loyalty.
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It's a thing, huh?
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Take care of yourself, Zachy.
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I say "go on" and not "move
on" because in some ways...
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we'll never completely
move on from what happened.
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Your meeting with the
district psychologist went well
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and the reports from your
diversion program are excellent.
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It was a good program.
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Tell me why.
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Um, well, at first,
it was very difficult.
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You know, the long
hikes and the camping.
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But after a few days,
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with everything else stripped away,
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you're just left to your thoughts and...
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you learn things.
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And what did you learn?
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That I can choose how
I respond to things.
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That even if I am feeling
angry, or lonely, or whatever,
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that I'm in control of my own actions.
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I can't control what other people
do, but I can control my response.
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Do you think you're ready to come back?
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Do you think things will be different?
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Yeah, I think so.
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I'm ready.
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Principal Bolan is concerned that
we keep a very close eye on you.
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I understand.
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And your return won't be easy.
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No, I know.
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Hey.
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Hi! Hi.
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Hey.
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- You're back!
- I am.
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- Wow. You look good.
- Thanks.
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Yeah, apparently, natural
sunlight and physical exercise
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are, like, good for us or something.
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- Something.
- Something.
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The good news is that I'm back
in time for the Spring Fling.
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And I was determined to make
it back in time to take you.
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- Oh.
- I mean, or we could just blow it off.
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- We could do something else.
- Yeah, no, I mean...
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I'm-I'm going to the
dance, uh, with Eric.
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Okay. Oh.
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- Cool.
- Yeah.
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We're kinda dating. Just
for, like, a few weeks now.
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Yeah, cool. You know, he's...
Eric's a good guy, so...
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Yeah, that's cool.
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Yeah.
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- Shoot. I gotta run.
- Yeah, me, too.
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I'm really glad you're back.
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Thanks.
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Glad to be back.
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- Bye.
- Bye.
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What's up, man?
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And I don't say "get back to normal"
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because life will never be normal again.
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Before we start, I am
distrustful of religion.
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Okay. The service can be
whatever you want it to be.
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It's just... my mother always
told us we should abide,
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and have faith, accept
what's coming to us.
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And I think that teaches
people to be passive.
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I think abiding and
acceptance is bullshit.
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- Excuse my language.
- I don't disagree.
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So tell me,
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w-why choose a church
for Hannah's service?
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We, uh... we both come
from religious families,
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and it's something we drifted from
a bit, and thought maybe it was...
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something Hannah perhaps
should have had in her life.
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We were ashamed.
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We were ashamed to have a funeral.
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Or a service.
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But then, after
everything that happened,
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if there is a God, I
want Him to see that...
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my little girl deserves His care.
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He will.
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He'll see that.
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A few of the other places we called,
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given the circumstances
of Hannah's death...
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Let me assure you...
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there's no judgment from me.
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Not regarding Hannah's decision
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00:15:00,717 --> 00:15:02,635
or the circumstances that led her there.
251
00:15:03,553 --> 00:15:08,055
And I hope one day
you'll release yourselves
252
00:15:08,057 --> 00:15:12,562
from any shame you might
still be feeling as well.
253
00:15:24,365 --> 00:15:28,369
Life is divided into
"Hannah" and "after Hannah."
254
00:15:29,245 --> 00:15:31,080
I don't have anything to compare it to.
255
00:15:31,706 --> 00:15:33,041
I've lived here all my life.
256
00:15:34,751 --> 00:15:37,545
It's like asking Han
Solo, "How is space?"
257
00:15:38,880 --> 00:15:41,466
Wow. You're an actual nerd, aren't you?
258
00:15:42,342 --> 00:15:44,884
I admire that. There's
courage in being a nerd.
259
00:15:50,975 --> 00:15:52,894
Memories are sometimes a relief.
260
00:16:02,070 --> 00:16:03,903
And sometimes they're torture.
261
00:16:03,905 --> 00:16:05,303
I was right.
262
00:16:05,306 --> 00:16:07,408
You're the most courageous
nerd I ever knew.
263
00:16:11,120 --> 00:16:12,163
They asked me to speak.
264
00:16:14,040 --> 00:16:15,207
At your service.
265
00:16:16,459 --> 00:16:17,816
Are you gonna do it?
266
00:16:19,962 --> 00:16:21,089
I don't know what to say.
267
00:16:23,174 --> 00:16:27,261
Or if I can trust
myself not to be angry.
268
00:16:28,096 --> 00:16:29,806
So, be angry.
269
00:16:37,397 --> 00:16:39,273
Or if I can say what
I really need to say.
270
00:16:43,306 --> 00:16:44,404
I think you can.
271
00:16:47,198 --> 00:16:48,991
But we hold on to the memories...
272
00:16:54,038 --> 00:16:55,581
because they're what we have left.
273
00:17:03,131 --> 00:17:04,465
You're doing great this time.
274
00:17:10,513 --> 00:17:12,682
You can look now. No more comma.
275
00:17:20,955 --> 00:17:21,981
Thank you.
276
00:17:21,983 --> 00:17:23,838
And we have an urge to remember,
277
00:17:24,652 --> 00:17:26,252
to commemorate another time,
278
00:17:27,655 --> 00:17:29,407
to hold on to this as long as we can.
279
00:17:31,617 --> 00:17:33,077
The thing I'm most afraid of...
280
00:17:36,650 --> 00:17:37,908
is forgetting you.
281
00:17:39,915 --> 00:17:41,111
Then don't.
282
00:17:43,671 --> 00:17:45,105
The thing I'm second most afraid of
283
00:17:45,106 --> 00:17:46,967
is I'll never be able to let you go.
284
00:17:50,261 --> 00:17:51,804
Do you remember the winter dance?
285
00:17:53,139 --> 00:17:54,803
Not the slow dance, but...
286
00:17:54,806 --> 00:17:59,310
that song where we jumped around
like idiots and looked like fools.
287
00:17:59,312 --> 00:18:01,397
Like absolute dorks.
288
00:18:03,460 --> 00:18:04,609
Yeah.
289
00:18:06,527 --> 00:18:08,124
Why?
290
00:18:08,127 --> 00:18:09,447
No reason.
291
00:18:10,573 --> 00:18:12,575
I just wanted you to
think of that right now.
292
00:18:29,675 --> 00:18:30,927
But today...
293
00:18:32,970 --> 00:18:34,222
we begin to let go.
294
00:18:59,472 --> 00:19:02,517
We're here to say goodbye to Hannah.
295
00:19:05,294 --> 00:19:08,506
One act does not define a life.
296
00:19:09,715 --> 00:19:12,841
We celebrate the richness of her life,
297
00:19:12,843 --> 00:19:16,889
even as the tragic circumstances
of her death cannot be forgotten.
298
00:19:19,725 --> 00:19:21,334
It does my heart good to see
299
00:19:21,337 --> 00:19:23,937
so many of Hannah's friends here today.
300
00:19:25,147 --> 00:19:26,941
Hannah had the biggest heart,
301
00:19:27,692 --> 00:19:30,152
which she so generously
shared with all of us.
302
00:19:31,654 --> 00:19:34,574
So, please, be kind to each other.
303
00:19:37,326 --> 00:19:41,080
She dreamed of going to
New York to become a writer.
304
00:19:43,291 --> 00:19:48,045
I'm not sure when that dream
began to feel impossible to her.
305
00:19:49,922 --> 00:19:53,342
Hannah was my dream.
306
00:19:56,178 --> 00:20:01,557
And now I get to dream for
Hannah as well as for myself.
307
00:20:01,559 --> 00:20:03,185
And so do all of you.
308
00:20:04,645 --> 00:20:05,813
So, please,
309
00:20:07,148 --> 00:20:09,982
dream your dreams.
310
00:20:09,984 --> 00:20:12,192
And dream them for Hannah,
311
00:20:12,194 --> 00:20:14,822
and don't let anyone
take them away from you.
312
00:20:16,741 --> 00:20:17,908
Don't ever let them go.
313
00:20:23,205 --> 00:20:26,373
Hannah Baker came into my
life at the end of one summer
314
00:20:26,375 --> 00:20:29,420
like a star that fell to Earth.
315
00:20:31,130 --> 00:20:32,673
Like nothing I had seen,
316
00:20:34,091 --> 00:20:35,343
like no one I had ever met.
317
00:20:36,886 --> 00:20:40,264
She was funny, and smart,
318
00:20:41,807 --> 00:20:45,061
and moody, and... and maddening,
319
00:20:45,895 --> 00:20:47,605
and beautiful.
320
00:21:06,128 --> 00:21:07,291
And...
321
00:21:11,308 --> 00:21:12,667
I loved her.
322
00:21:14,910 --> 00:21:16,384
I loved her so much.
323
00:21:19,603 --> 00:21:22,648
And I ask her every day
why she did what she did.
324
00:21:24,850 --> 00:21:26,143
But I get no answers.
325
00:21:30,231 --> 00:21:31,941
She took those with her when she went.
326
00:21:33,192 --> 00:21:35,403
Leaving me, all of us,
327
00:21:36,570 --> 00:21:41,283
angry, empty, confused.
328
00:21:45,037 --> 00:21:46,956
And I know that hurt won't ever go away.
329
00:21:49,208 --> 00:21:51,568
But there will come a day when
I don't feel it every minute.
330
00:21:52,378 --> 00:21:56,257
And the anger won't be so hot,
and the other feelings will fade,
331
00:21:59,510 --> 00:22:01,095
and I'll be left with only love.
332
00:22:06,517 --> 00:22:08,144
A good friend once said to me,
333
00:22:09,520 --> 00:22:11,647
"I can love you and still let you go."
334
00:22:16,904 --> 00:22:18,113
So, Hannah,
335
00:22:21,464 --> 00:22:22,722
I love you,
336
00:22:24,996 --> 00:22:26,347
and I let you go.
337
00:22:29,816 --> 00:22:31,152
And I miss you.
338
00:22:35,171 --> 00:22:36,839
And I hope that wherever you go next,
339
00:22:38,519 --> 00:22:39,949
you feel peace,
340
00:22:41,386 --> 00:22:42,933
you feel safe
341
00:22:44,528 --> 00:22:46,621
in a way that you never did here.
342
00:22:55,941 --> 00:22:57,503
Wherever you go next,
343
00:22:59,695 --> 00:23:01,155
I hope you know that I love you.
344
00:24:01,298 --> 00:24:02,540
Everything okay?
345
00:24:05,010 --> 00:24:06,971
Yeah. No, I just, um...
346
00:24:08,347 --> 00:24:10,683
- I was just taking a minute.
- Of course.
347
00:24:11,524 --> 00:24:12,685
I'll leave you to it.
348
00:24:14,103 --> 00:24:15,298
Can I ask you...
349
00:24:20,401 --> 00:24:22,319
do you believe in the immortal soul?
350
00:24:23,862 --> 00:24:25,415
I do.
351
00:24:25,418 --> 00:24:27,491
And do you think Hannah is going to hell
352
00:24:28,909 --> 00:24:30,415
because she killed herself?
353
00:24:35,439 --> 00:24:36,928
I don't.
354
00:24:36,931 --> 00:24:41,467
I think the God I
believe in, a just God,
355
00:24:41,470 --> 00:24:44,300
would have mercy on a soul like hers.
356
00:24:46,635 --> 00:24:50,264
And if God forgives her, we should.
357
00:24:51,432 --> 00:24:55,436
I believe we should follow
His example, sure, but...
358
00:24:57,187 --> 00:24:58,439
it's not always easy.
359
00:25:01,569 --> 00:25:02,693
And do you think...
360
00:25:05,571 --> 00:25:07,239
Does God forgive us?
361
00:25:09,325 --> 00:25:10,576
The people who let her down?
362
00:25:11,986 --> 00:25:13,423
I think He does.
363
00:25:16,957 --> 00:25:22,004
Clay, you don't have to
believe in the immortal soul
364
00:25:22,713 --> 00:25:25,633
to believe that people live on with us.
365
00:25:26,508 --> 00:25:27,760
Wait, what do you mean?
366
00:25:28,886 --> 00:25:31,680
Just that... we've lost Hannah,
367
00:25:32,848 --> 00:25:34,850
but not the things she gave us.
368
00:25:36,060 --> 00:25:40,773
Compassion, understanding, love.
369
00:25:42,941 --> 00:25:43,942
Those don't go away.
370
00:26:00,334 --> 00:26:02,503
How do we take care of ourselves
371
00:26:03,420 --> 00:26:04,797
and look after each other?
372
00:26:07,341 --> 00:26:08,715
And celebrate Hannah's life
373
00:26:08,717 --> 00:26:10,969
and let it remind us to
hold on to each other...
374
00:26:13,639 --> 00:26:15,140
and to the precious time we have?
375
00:26:20,862 --> 00:26:22,614
Do you remember when we first met you?
376
00:26:23,482 --> 00:26:24,775
At that table over there?
377
00:26:25,984 --> 00:26:27,818
You thought we were crazy.
378
00:26:27,820 --> 00:26:32,364
No. I was just, like,
terrified and amazed.
379
00:26:32,366 --> 00:26:35,415
I mean, you guys were fearless.
380
00:26:35,418 --> 00:26:37,663
I don't remember being fearless.
381
00:26:43,836 --> 00:26:47,379
This is, um... This is really
inappropriate at a wake,
382
00:26:47,381 --> 00:26:49,800
especially given the
whole history, but...
383
00:26:51,135 --> 00:26:53,593
I've been... I've been trying
for, like, two weeks now
384
00:26:53,595 --> 00:26:56,098
to get up the nerve to ask you, um...
385
00:26:57,057 --> 00:26:59,850
if you would wanna
go to the Spring Fling
386
00:26:59,852 --> 00:27:03,019
as, like, people who date?
387
00:27:03,021 --> 00:27:05,649
Because I think that we are
now, but I'm not really sure.
388
00:27:07,156 --> 00:27:08,241
Um...
389
00:27:09,611 --> 00:27:11,862
I think we are.
390
00:27:11,864 --> 00:27:13,155
Yeah?
391
00:27:13,157 --> 00:27:17,745
I mean, I'm not sure how ready I
am to be a person who dates, but...
392
00:27:18,370 --> 00:27:19,580
I mean, we are.
393
00:27:21,039 --> 00:27:22,456
- So, yes.
- Yeah?
394
00:27:22,458 --> 00:27:24,291
- Yes.
- Okay. Oh, God.
395
00:27:24,293 --> 00:27:26,835
Is it okay that I asked
you out at Hannah's table?
396
00:27:26,837 --> 00:27:28,464
Oh, it's all of our table.
397
00:27:29,506 --> 00:27:31,091
And I think she'd be okay with it.
398
00:27:32,092 --> 00:27:34,720
She'd probably make you
interpret some weird painting.
399
00:27:35,554 --> 00:27:38,388
Yeah, who picks the paintings?
400
00:27:38,390 --> 00:27:41,391
Yo, dude!
401
00:27:41,393 --> 00:27:43,979
Oh, my God, you're crushing me!
402
00:27:45,230 --> 00:27:48,023
You're, like, down to nothing.
We gotta get you on a program.
403
00:27:48,025 --> 00:27:49,274
Okay, sure.
404
00:27:49,276 --> 00:27:52,112
How the fuck did Bryce only get
three months and you got six?
405
00:27:53,530 --> 00:27:54,364
Aren't you pissed?
406
00:27:55,282 --> 00:27:56,950
I guess I just wasn't surprised.
407
00:27:58,076 --> 00:28:00,535
Actually, I'm gonna take a
gap year. I'm going to Europe.
408
00:28:00,537 --> 00:28:04,164
Which, I know, sounds like a clich�,
but, honestly, Asia is the clich�.
409
00:28:04,166 --> 00:28:06,458
I mean, I could be going
to Goa, but I'm not.
410
00:28:06,460 --> 00:28:08,116
I'm old school.
411
00:28:08,119 --> 00:28:12,130
I've actually been thinking
about doing some traveling myself.
412
00:28:12,132 --> 00:28:14,549
Oh, my God, you should. You so should.
413
00:28:14,551 --> 00:28:16,593
It's annoying how smart she is.
414
00:28:16,595 --> 00:28:18,762
I don't like it when
people are smarter than me.
415
00:28:18,764 --> 00:28:20,182
But it's fine because she's cute.
416
00:28:21,141 --> 00:28:22,643
It's so nice that everyone came.
417
00:28:26,438 --> 00:28:30,651
Maybe I should, uh, leave the
two of you alone to catch up?
418
00:28:32,444 --> 00:28:34,279
Maybe you have some
things to talk about.
419
00:28:35,781 --> 00:28:37,783
Yes. Yeah, there are.
420
00:28:38,554 --> 00:28:39,701
Okay.
421
00:28:47,584 --> 00:28:49,515
What... What things?
422
00:28:52,631 --> 00:28:54,550
So, um...
423
00:28:55,644 --> 00:28:57,902
I think my mom explained to
you how she got you released
424
00:28:57,903 --> 00:28:59,677
into emergency custody.
425
00:28:59,680 --> 00:29:00,965
Yeah, she explained it.
426
00:29:01,557 --> 00:29:03,600
The thing is that's only temporary.
427
00:29:04,393 --> 00:29:06,768
And because you're not
18 for almost a year,
428
00:29:06,770 --> 00:29:09,646
once that expires, you
become a ward of the state.
429
00:29:09,648 --> 00:29:12,315
Yeah, the... the social
worker told me about that.
430
00:29:12,317 --> 00:29:13,608
Okay, yeah.
431
00:29:13,610 --> 00:29:16,820
And there's only two group homes in
this county you'd be eligible for,
432
00:29:16,822 --> 00:29:19,575
and you couldn't finish
school at Liberty and stuff.
433
00:29:20,534 --> 00:29:21,535
And my parents...
434
00:29:23,537 --> 00:29:25,414
I mean, me and my parents...
435
00:29:28,375 --> 00:29:31,170
wanted to see if you might
want them to adopt you.
436
00:29:34,131 --> 00:29:37,593
Wait, what?
437
00:29:38,385 --> 00:29:42,012
Like, adopt you into our family.
438
00:29:42,014 --> 00:29:44,639
You mean, like, I'd be your brother?
439
00:29:44,641 --> 00:29:48,685
Well, I'm-I'm not familiar
with all the lingo, but...
440
00:29:48,687 --> 00:29:50,439
Wait. Why are you
asking me and not them?
441
00:29:52,441 --> 00:29:54,651
Because it was their idea, to be honest.
442
00:29:55,652 --> 00:29:58,447
And at first, I thought
it sounded, um...
443
00:29:59,615 --> 00:30:00,989
idiotic.
444
00:30:00,991 --> 00:30:04,034
And they left it up to me,
445
00:30:04,036 --> 00:30:05,761
seeing as I was the person who brought
446
00:30:05,762 --> 00:30:07,762
you in their life in the first place.
447
00:30:07,765 --> 00:30:08,916
And...
448
00:30:10,082 --> 00:30:12,836
maybe it's a good idea, so...
449
00:30:18,185 --> 00:30:19,356
Are you...
450
00:30:20,594 --> 00:30:21,970
Are you crying?
451
00:30:24,139 --> 00:30:26,141
You know I'm, like,
really fucked up, right?
452
00:30:28,185 --> 00:30:31,228
Well... A, yes.
453
00:30:31,230 --> 00:30:33,649
But you're clean and going to meetings.
454
00:30:34,816 --> 00:30:39,738
And B, I'm also fucked
up in certain ways, so...
455
00:30:44,993 --> 00:30:45,994
Okay, yeah.
456
00:30:49,206 --> 00:30:50,832
I'd like to be adopted, yeah.
457
00:30:52,668 --> 00:30:55,045
Okay. Cool.
458
00:31:11,019 --> 00:31:13,270
Everything affects everything.
459
00:31:15,023 --> 00:31:17,023
Everyone affects everyone.
460
00:31:28,578 --> 00:31:30,372
Fucking Tyler Down is back.
461
00:31:31,123 --> 00:31:32,818
So?
462
00:31:32,821 --> 00:31:34,876
So, I wanna break his head open.
463
00:31:35,505 --> 00:31:38,670
Yeah, that's a great idea
at this particular time.
464
00:31:38,672 --> 00:31:41,214
The field, the thing with Marcus...
465
00:31:41,216 --> 00:31:43,508
He cost us our season.
We need to do something.
466
00:31:43,510 --> 00:31:45,429
We are not gonna do a goddamn thing.
467
00:31:46,179 --> 00:31:47,347
I'm on probation.
468
00:31:47,973 --> 00:31:50,392
Right, I know. I got
you. I'll take care of it.
469
00:31:52,185 --> 00:31:54,120
Your father didn't beat you hard enough,
470
00:31:54,121 --> 00:31:55,850
'cause you're still a fucking idiot.
471
00:31:55,853 --> 00:31:57,331
The last time you tried to help,
472
00:31:57,332 --> 00:31:59,316
you almost fucked up my whole plea deal.
473
00:31:59,318 --> 00:32:00,859
Well, none of it came back to you.
474
00:32:00,861 --> 00:32:04,154
No one was gonna believe I didn't
know about all the shit that you did.
475
00:32:04,156 --> 00:32:06,573
I had to give you my goddamn lawyer.
476
00:32:06,575 --> 00:32:09,828
I would've taken the fall if
I had to. I kept you clean.
477
00:32:10,704 --> 00:32:13,872
What did you think would happen if
you killed Clay Jensen in my car?
478
00:32:13,874 --> 00:32:17,375
I knew those kids could fuck
everything up for us, and they did.
479
00:32:17,377 --> 00:32:18,754
Well, you helped.
480
00:32:21,381 --> 00:32:25,508
I... Tell me what you want me to do.
481
00:32:25,510 --> 00:32:28,221
- Okay? I'll make it right.
- I want you to leave it alone.
482
00:32:30,098 --> 00:32:31,350
And leave me alone.
483
00:32:32,142 --> 00:32:33,337
We're done.
484
00:32:47,949 --> 00:32:49,826
Mack said you guys had a good talk.
485
00:32:50,869 --> 00:32:53,622
Yeah. She's dating Eric now, huh?
486
00:32:56,583 --> 00:32:57,459
Yeah, that's cool.
487
00:32:58,210 --> 00:32:59,417
You're okay, right?
488
00:32:59,419 --> 00:33:02,128
I mean, watching out for yourself?
489
00:33:02,130 --> 00:33:05,411
Those fucking jocks were not happy
about the field and the season.
490
00:33:07,260 --> 00:33:09,511
- Yeah. I'll be careful.
- Good.
491
00:33:09,513 --> 00:33:10,684
And you know...
492
00:33:12,307 --> 00:33:13,515
about everything...
493
00:33:13,517 --> 00:33:16,518
Yeah. No, me, too. Yeah.
494
00:33:16,520 --> 00:33:19,106
- It got a little fucked up.
- Yeah, totally.
495
00:33:20,281 --> 00:33:22,047
Hey.
496
00:33:22,050 --> 00:33:26,196
You know, being away,
it was really good.
497
00:33:27,155 --> 00:33:29,989
And I realized a lot of shit, so...
498
00:33:29,991 --> 00:33:31,658
- You know.
- That's good, man.
499
00:33:31,660 --> 00:33:34,702
So, we're all right?
500
00:33:34,704 --> 00:33:35,787
Yeah, for sure.
501
00:33:35,789 --> 00:33:37,664
- Cool.
- Yeah.
502
00:33:37,666 --> 00:33:39,918
Hey, maybe we could catch
another show sometime.
503
00:33:42,045 --> 00:33:43,422
I don't know, man. I...
504
00:33:45,215 --> 00:33:47,381
I don't think so.
505
00:33:47,384 --> 00:33:51,346
But it's great to see that
you're back and doing so well.
506
00:33:53,265 --> 00:33:54,593
Yeah. Thanks, man.
507
00:33:56,476 --> 00:33:58,435
I mean, how are you even not crazy?
508
00:33:58,437 --> 00:33:59,771
I just...
509
00:34:00,772 --> 00:34:04,524
It's insane, but it's, like,
not a surprise, I guess.
510
00:34:04,526 --> 00:34:07,026
And I-I just feel this
peace that it's over.
511
00:34:07,028 --> 00:34:08,236
So, it's over?
512
00:34:08,238 --> 00:34:10,697
No trial, no more legal stuff? Done?
513
00:34:10,699 --> 00:34:12,034
Done.
514
00:34:13,076 --> 00:34:14,783
And I'm good.
515
00:34:31,761 --> 00:34:33,096
You gonna go to this dance?
516
00:34:35,891 --> 00:34:37,642
What, the Spring Fling thing?
517
00:34:38,768 --> 00:34:41,769
- Why in the world would I go to that?
- I don't know.
518
00:34:41,771 --> 00:34:42,981
It... It might be fun?
519
00:34:43,690 --> 00:34:44,900
I don't go to dances.
520
00:34:46,276 --> 00:34:47,525
You can go.
521
00:34:47,527 --> 00:34:48,761
No.
522
00:34:49,738 --> 00:34:53,323
I just thought that it'd
be my first thing back
523
00:34:53,325 --> 00:34:59,080
and I could show people that I'm
not, like, hiding or whatever.
524
00:35:02,834 --> 00:35:04,336
Forget it.
525
00:35:07,464 --> 00:35:09,221
Fuck.
526
00:35:09,224 --> 00:35:11,718
Fine. We'll go.
527
00:35:14,971 --> 00:35:16,614
I just thought since I hadn't heard
528
00:35:16,615 --> 00:35:19,348
from you after I told you about Lucas...
529
00:35:19,351 --> 00:35:21,100
Yeah, I left you three messages.
530
00:35:21,102 --> 00:35:23,187
Yeah, and they didn't sound
531
00:35:23,190 --> 00:35:24,979
like you really wanted me to call back.
532
00:35:24,981 --> 00:35:27,108
Okay, okay. Seriously?
533
00:35:27,859 --> 00:35:29,736
I think you're used
to people chasing you.
534
00:35:30,612 --> 00:35:32,531
And you're used to getting away.
535
00:35:35,325 --> 00:35:36,743
Maybe.
536
00:35:36,746 --> 00:35:39,496
Well, you're not getting away.
537
00:35:48,713 --> 00:35:49,714
I should be on my way.
538
00:35:52,384 --> 00:35:53,550
Thank you for coming.
539
00:35:53,552 --> 00:35:57,889
Thank you for... for having us.
540
00:35:58,723 --> 00:36:00,725
I saw the store's for lease.
541
00:36:01,810 --> 00:36:03,061
I'm moving to New York.
542
00:36:04,229 --> 00:36:05,603
It was always Hannah's dream.
543
00:36:05,605 --> 00:36:08,984
She never made it, so
I'll get there for her.
544
00:36:10,594 --> 00:36:12,018
I...
545
00:36:14,823 --> 00:36:18,241
I wasn't sure if I should
share this with you,
546
00:36:18,243 --> 00:36:20,328
but after hearing what
you said, I think...
547
00:36:21,997 --> 00:36:23,081
I think it's all right.
548
00:36:31,339 --> 00:36:33,691
I found it on one of the old computers
549
00:36:33,692 --> 00:36:35,892
when I was cleaning up the store.
550
00:36:39,014 --> 00:36:40,248
Hannah wrote it.
551
00:36:50,575 --> 00:36:53,287
_
552
00:36:53,737 --> 00:36:54,863
"Reasons why not."
553
00:36:55,989 --> 00:36:57,447
You're on there.
554
00:36:57,449 --> 00:37:00,908
At least once, possibly twice.
555
00:37:00,910 --> 00:37:03,747
Did... did she call you "Helmet"?
556
00:37:06,625 --> 00:37:08,251
Yeah, she did.
557
00:37:13,170 --> 00:37:14,507
Eleven reasons.
558
00:37:15,475 --> 00:37:17,977
She came up just short.
559
00:37:19,137 --> 00:37:21,679
But she left so many out.
You know that, don't you?
560
00:37:21,681 --> 00:37:26,436
No matter how many reasons
there might be "why,"
561
00:37:27,270 --> 00:37:28,730
there are always more "why not."
562
00:37:30,092 --> 00:37:31,443
I do.
563
00:37:40,659 --> 00:37:42,869
I wish I knew you when she was alive.
564
00:37:48,458 --> 00:37:49,959
I wish you'd known me then, too.
565
00:37:52,738 --> 00:37:53,838
Well...
566
00:37:55,660 --> 00:37:56,988
bye.
567
00:37:58,515 --> 00:37:59,879
Bye.
568
00:38:17,612 --> 00:38:19,698
Why the fuck did you come back?
569
00:38:22,909 --> 00:38:24,119
I finished my program.
570
00:38:25,954 --> 00:38:27,747
Yeah, you fucked up a lot of shit.
571
00:38:31,584 --> 00:38:32,877
I'm sorry about everything.
572
00:38:34,379 --> 00:38:37,173
- If I hurt you in any way...
- They canceled our fucking season.
573
00:38:38,925 --> 00:38:41,467
I was acting out of a lot
of anger and confusion.
574
00:38:41,469 --> 00:38:43,636
- Oh, yeah?
- And I'm going to do better.
575
00:38:43,638 --> 00:38:46,180
And I hope that we can learn
to talk to each other...
576
00:38:48,977 --> 00:38:51,855
God! You ruined my fucking life, faggot!
577
00:38:52,939 --> 00:38:54,355
Get up!
578
00:38:57,193 --> 00:38:59,487
I'm sorry! Please, I'm sorry!
579
00:39:01,114 --> 00:39:02,278
Hold him!
580
00:39:03,450 --> 00:39:05,243
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
581
00:39:45,223 --> 00:39:46,777
We can get better.
582
00:39:46,780 --> 00:39:48,161
We can do better.
583
00:39:49,496 --> 00:39:52,874
But we still live in a world that
is out to break us any way it can.
584
00:39:54,751 --> 00:39:57,502
- Yo, so how's the car?
- It's getting pretty close.
585
00:39:57,504 --> 00:39:59,670
I've been working on it
every hour I'm not in school
586
00:39:59,672 --> 00:40:01,255
and some when I should be in school.
587
00:40:01,257 --> 00:40:04,344
It was a beautiful car. Hey,
why don't we go to your place?
588
00:40:05,637 --> 00:40:08,930
- All right?
- I think your place is closer.
589
00:40:08,932 --> 00:40:10,350
I'm in the opposite direction.
590
00:40:12,393 --> 00:40:14,813
- You don't want me to meet your family.
- It's not that.
591
00:40:15,605 --> 00:40:16,689
I just need some time.
592
00:40:17,649 --> 00:40:19,567
All right. I'll see you tomorrow?
593
00:40:20,485 --> 00:40:23,736
Um, you know, I got some
bullshit I gotta take care of.
594
00:40:23,738 --> 00:40:25,114
Oh, some bullshit, like a dance?
595
00:40:26,658 --> 00:40:29,075
Yeah, Alex and Jess are
going. It's like a thing.
596
00:40:29,077 --> 00:40:30,952
Yeah, you see, that's bullshit.
597
00:40:30,954 --> 00:40:33,162
And I didn't wanna
subject you to it, so...
598
00:40:33,164 --> 00:40:34,455
I appreciate that.
599
00:40:35,877 --> 00:40:38,039
- You'll come by after?
- Yes.
600
00:40:40,547 --> 00:40:43,023
And my mom got me some game that's about
601
00:40:43,024 --> 00:40:45,215
being a flower or some shit.
602
00:40:45,218 --> 00:40:47,093
I'm serious.
603
00:40:47,095 --> 00:40:48,987
But I talked my dad into driving
604
00:40:48,988 --> 00:40:50,888
since he won't let
me drive for real yet.
605
00:40:50,890 --> 00:40:53,852
- Excellent use of guilt, sir.
- Yeah, I thought so.
606
00:40:55,019 --> 00:40:56,813
I beat off three times this morning.
607
00:40:58,022 --> 00:41:00,231
I don't wanna know that.
Why would you tell me?
608
00:41:00,233 --> 00:41:01,901
'Cause I thought you'd be happy for me.
609
00:41:04,320 --> 00:41:08,322
Actually, I-I'm very happy for
you. That's, uh, impressive.
610
00:41:08,324 --> 00:41:09,200
- Thank you.
- Yeah.
611
00:41:11,286 --> 00:41:14,205
I'm worried about dancing with Jess.
612
00:41:15,081 --> 00:41:16,890
Like, I-I don't wanna go to the dance
613
00:41:16,891 --> 00:41:19,182
and just sit there,
'cause that's stupid.
614
00:41:19,185 --> 00:41:21,167
And it doesn't get me
closer to kissing her.
615
00:41:21,170 --> 00:41:24,589
So I wanna dance with her, but
I think I'll just fall over.
616
00:41:24,591 --> 00:41:28,134
No, just, um, lean on her.
617
00:41:28,136 --> 00:41:31,095
What, like, a middle school
slow dance? That's so dumb.
618
00:41:31,097 --> 00:41:34,932
No. Just, you know, like, let
her help. Make it seem smooth.
619
00:41:34,934 --> 00:41:37,312
Okay, yeah, that makes sense.
620
00:41:38,271 --> 00:41:40,479
You know, I am sick of
your "poor-me" attitude.
621
00:41:40,481 --> 00:41:43,192
This one's easy. Come on, get up.
622
00:41:44,068 --> 00:41:46,237
No. This is embarrassing.
623
00:41:46,905 --> 00:41:48,380
This is embarrassing?
624
00:41:48,383 --> 00:41:50,783
- Yeah.
- Yeah, okay, you've done worse.
625
00:41:51,492 --> 00:41:53,411
Come on, put the
controller down. Let's go.
626
00:41:54,203 --> 00:41:55,747
Come on.
627
00:41:56,664 --> 00:41:58,249
I have to school you...
628
00:42:00,627 --> 00:42:03,878
- Okay.
- My mom made me do some dance...
629
00:42:03,880 --> 00:42:05,838
Don't... Never mind. Don't
even worry about that.
630
00:42:05,840 --> 00:42:07,884
So, good hand on her waist.
631
00:42:08,718 --> 00:42:11,469
- Left hand on her hip.
- Yeah.
632
00:42:11,471 --> 00:42:14,180
She'll hold it and just lean into her.
633
00:42:14,182 --> 00:42:16,474
- Okay?
- What about...?
634
00:42:16,476 --> 00:42:18,768
Just try stepping. There you go.
635
00:42:18,770 --> 00:42:19,896
All the way in there.
636
00:42:20,813 --> 00:42:22,188
Yeah.
637
00:42:22,191 --> 00:42:23,898
See?
638
00:42:23,900 --> 00:42:26,152
The song will have to be
pretty slow, shouldn't it?
639
00:42:29,322 --> 00:42:31,948
So, it turns out the sushi
place doesn't in fact deliver,
640
00:42:31,950 --> 00:42:34,494
so my dad and I are gonna
pick it up. You wanna come?
641
00:42:36,412 --> 00:42:37,997
Nah, I'm... I'm good here.
642
00:42:39,707 --> 00:42:41,332
These are kind of addictive.
643
00:42:41,334 --> 00:42:42,543
Yeah, right?
644
00:42:45,797 --> 00:42:47,070
You okay?
645
00:42:48,424 --> 00:42:50,289
You seem weird.
646
00:42:50,292 --> 00:42:51,812
I think, maybe...
647
00:42:54,305 --> 00:42:56,023
I'm happy.
648
00:42:56,026 --> 00:42:57,100
Oh.
649
00:42:58,567 --> 00:42:59,789
Cool.
650
00:44:43,664 --> 00:44:47,251
Well? How was the first day back?
651
00:44:47,919 --> 00:44:49,960
Good. It was good.
652
00:44:49,962 --> 00:44:53,798
It was, um... like, I had to adjust
to everything, but it was great.
653
00:44:53,800 --> 00:44:57,178
Yeah, there's a new guidance counselor,
and she's totally smart, so...
654
00:44:59,388 --> 00:45:01,599
- I think it's gonna work, Mom.
- That's great.
655
00:45:02,475 --> 00:45:04,560
Oh, that's so great, Tyler.
656
00:45:07,021 --> 00:45:09,357
Oh. We are so proud of you.
657
00:45:45,434 --> 00:45:48,271
Now bring that around to the
right. No, no, no, the big end.
658
00:45:49,021 --> 00:45:50,729
- The big end.
- That's what I'm doing.
659
00:45:50,731 --> 00:45:52,982
That's not what you're
doing. Oh, my God, start over.
660
00:45:52,984 --> 00:45:56,112
- Would you fucking relax?
- You... You don't listen!
661
00:45:57,280 --> 00:45:58,904
You are so uptight.
662
00:45:58,906 --> 00:46:01,699
I am not uptight. It was your
idea that we should wear ties.
663
00:46:01,701 --> 00:46:03,117
It's not even a formal dance.
664
00:46:03,119 --> 00:46:05,913
And if you wanna wear a tie, you
should follow my instructions.
665
00:46:07,748 --> 00:46:09,125
We really need to get you laid.
666
00:46:10,710 --> 00:46:12,503
Shut up. Start over.
667
00:46:13,838 --> 00:46:15,379
Seriously, Jensen.
668
00:46:15,381 --> 00:46:18,340
Okay? You help me tie a tie,
I will help you get laid.
669
00:46:18,342 --> 00:46:19,385
I don't need your help.
670
00:46:20,177 --> 00:46:23,097
I... I know. I was
just... I was just saying.
671
00:46:26,893 --> 00:46:28,227
I mean, you've had, like,
672
00:46:29,645 --> 00:46:31,439
a lot of sex, haven't you?
673
00:46:32,148 --> 00:46:35,192
Yeah, I've... I've had a good amount.
674
00:46:46,370 --> 00:46:47,955
So, how do we survive?
675
00:46:48,706 --> 00:46:51,834
How do we bring light to a
world that seems only dark?
676
00:46:53,669 --> 00:46:57,048
This is the first dance I
haven't DJ'd in two years.
677
00:46:57,715 --> 00:46:59,340
So now you get to dance.
678
00:46:59,342 --> 00:47:01,636
Dude, people become DJs so
they don't have to dance.
679
00:47:02,511 --> 00:47:05,179
I thought it was because
you had great taste in music.
680
00:47:05,181 --> 00:47:06,682
That's just my gift to the world.
681
00:47:50,267 --> 00:47:51,415
Good evening.
682
00:47:53,770 --> 00:47:56,357
Good evening. Did... Did you do this?
683
00:47:57,274 --> 00:47:59,652
I got him a guest pass.
Apparently, you forgot to.
684
00:48:04,073 --> 00:48:06,031
I didn't go to dances
when I was in school
685
00:48:06,033 --> 00:48:08,077
because I felt so awkward
dancing with girls.
686
00:48:09,120 --> 00:48:11,662
It may seem like high school
bullshit to you, but to me,
687
00:48:11,664 --> 00:48:13,916
it's finally being able
to dance with my boyfriend.
688
00:48:15,001 --> 00:48:16,291
If he will.
689
00:48:16,293 --> 00:48:17,294
Of course I will.
690
00:48:17,920 --> 00:48:20,047
After bitching about the DJ.
691
00:48:23,884 --> 00:48:25,342
Yeah, me, too.
692
00:48:27,680 --> 00:48:28,943
Hey.
693
00:48:29,063 --> 00:48:30,302
Hey.
694
00:48:33,728 --> 00:48:35,107
You guys look good.
695
00:48:35,110 --> 00:48:37,677
Thanks. Yeah, I
bedazzled the cane, so...
696
00:48:39,233 --> 00:48:40,482
I didn't, really.
697
00:48:40,484 --> 00:48:42,361
Well, if we have to
do this, let's do it.
698
00:48:43,529 --> 00:48:44,740
Okay.
699
00:48:44,743 --> 00:48:45,862
All right.
700
00:48:45,865 --> 00:48:46,989
- You ready?
- Yep.
701
00:48:46,991 --> 00:48:48,284
All right.
702
00:49:01,756 --> 00:49:04,048
- Tony. Caleb. Hey!
- Hey, what's up?
703
00:49:04,050 --> 00:49:06,050
- Hi. This is Tamika.
- Hey, Tamika.
704
00:49:06,052 --> 00:49:06,967
- Hi, Tamika.
- Hi.
705
00:49:06,969 --> 00:49:08,073
She's my girlfriend.
706
00:49:08,076 --> 00:49:09,845
Oh.
707
00:49:35,539 --> 00:49:37,539
You sure you don't wanna sit down?
708
00:49:37,541 --> 00:49:40,628
No, I don't wanna sit. I wanna
dance. I just need to work up to it.
709
00:49:41,295 --> 00:49:44,463
- You want a drink?
- You know they're non-alcoholic.
710
00:49:44,465 --> 00:49:46,298
Yeah, but any chance for sugar.
711
00:49:51,347 --> 00:49:53,182
You would've been
really good for Hannah.
712
00:49:54,600 --> 00:49:55,684
I'm just saying.
713
00:49:57,228 --> 00:50:01,273
Yeah? You know, if I didn't fuck it
up like I fuck up everything else.
714
00:50:02,066 --> 00:50:04,983
Dude, you do not wanna be
having that contest with me.
715
00:50:08,864 --> 00:50:10,783
I'm really sorry you
couldn't talk to me.
716
00:50:12,953 --> 00:50:14,993
Come on. We gotta go in for this one!
717
00:50:14,995 --> 00:50:17,121
Okay, but it's full contact.
718
00:50:17,123 --> 00:50:18,664
This dance desperately needs it.
719
00:50:18,666 --> 00:50:20,084
- Yeah!
- Fuck this. Let's go.
720
00:50:22,545 --> 00:50:25,589
Jensen, come on. Are you about
kicking ass or are you not?
721
00:50:26,577 --> 00:50:28,188
I'm...
722
00:50:31,735 --> 00:50:32,992
I am.
723
00:50:34,969 --> 00:50:36,058
I totally am.
724
00:50:40,187 --> 00:50:41,593
Hey, come on.
725
00:50:43,732 --> 00:50:46,735
If Jeff Atkins were here, he'd say,
"Get your asses up and come on."
726
00:50:49,530 --> 00:50:52,156
Guys, come on! Come on!
727
00:51:10,467 --> 00:51:12,678
How can we find joy in our lives...
728
00:51:13,700 --> 00:51:15,952
in this world after Hannah?
729
00:51:33,949 --> 00:51:35,659
Compared to them, I look all right.
730
00:51:42,708 --> 00:51:44,793
How do we take what hurts most?
731
00:51:46,003 --> 00:51:49,131
Take the darkness and
turn it into light?
732
00:51:56,472 --> 00:51:58,474
I think the answer
is we love each other.
733
00:52:06,702 --> 00:52:07,816
Easy to say.
734
00:52:08,734 --> 00:52:10,611
But what do we do
when it's hard to love?
735
00:52:35,803 --> 00:52:36,887
You want a real drink?
736
00:52:40,099 --> 00:52:41,392
No, thanks. I'm good.
737
00:52:49,191 --> 00:52:52,528
- Brings back memories, huh?
- I heard you were transferring.
738
00:52:53,216 --> 00:52:54,363
Yeah.
739
00:52:55,106 --> 00:52:56,786
Yeah, I'm gonna start over.
740
00:52:58,607 --> 00:52:59,904
Lucky you.
741
00:53:03,872 --> 00:53:05,082
I'm gonna miss this.
742
00:53:07,129 --> 00:53:08,396
All of it.
743
00:53:13,132 --> 00:53:14,756
You remember freshman year?
744
00:53:14,758 --> 00:53:17,236
The night before our
first day, you stayed over.
745
00:53:17,754 --> 00:53:19,464
We stayed up talking about how we were
746
00:53:19,467 --> 00:53:21,674
gonna be kings of this fucking school.
747
00:53:23,877 --> 00:53:25,144
Yeah, I remember.
748
00:53:27,563 --> 00:53:28,689
I'll always remember.
749
00:53:33,485 --> 00:53:34,992
Me, too, brother.
750
00:53:39,129 --> 00:53:40,469
Justin.
751
00:53:43,320 --> 00:53:45,766
- You okay?
- He's fine.
752
00:53:46,457 --> 00:53:50,016
I can't touch him. Or
you, or I go to jail.
753
00:53:50,836 --> 00:53:53,003
Funny. I don't have that problem.
754
00:53:56,258 --> 00:53:57,966
You're a good kid, Clay.
755
00:53:57,968 --> 00:54:00,594
You need to get laid,
but you're a good kid.
756
00:54:12,608 --> 00:54:14,648
You all right?
757
00:54:14,651 --> 00:54:16,100
Yeah, I just...
758
00:54:18,030 --> 00:54:20,572
I'm gonna go use the bathroom
for a quick minute, okay?
759
00:54:20,574 --> 00:54:22,240
I'll... I'll be right back.
760
00:55:20,217 --> 00:55:21,675
Yeah.
761
00:55:21,677 --> 00:55:23,260
- Whoo!
- One more, guys.
762
00:55:23,262 --> 00:55:24,428
I can't...
763
00:55:48,370 --> 00:55:49,854
Oh, shit.
764
00:55:49,857 --> 00:55:51,120
I gotta find Clay.
765
00:58:08,969 --> 00:58:11,054
What are you doing alone in the dark?
766
00:58:12,646 --> 00:58:13,896
It's creepy.
767
00:58:16,351 --> 00:58:18,020
I'm not alone anymore, am I?
768
00:58:20,814 --> 00:58:22,693
What's with these mats?
769
00:58:22,696 --> 00:58:25,240
They must have had a
wrestling meet yesterday.
770
00:58:25,243 --> 00:58:26,993
Wait, we have a wrestling team?
771
00:58:26,996 --> 00:58:30,341
- You were a cheerleader.
- Not for the wrestling team.
772
00:58:31,366 --> 00:58:32,993
And I was a shitty cheerleader.
773
00:58:34,578 --> 00:58:35,771
Yeah, you were.
774
00:58:37,873 --> 00:58:40,000
- What? You said it.
- Still.
775
00:58:46,048 --> 00:58:47,174
You look beautiful.
776
00:58:50,620 --> 00:58:51,720
Sorry.
777
00:58:53,263 --> 00:58:55,641
- For saying I look beautiful?
- Yes.
778
00:59:00,896 --> 00:59:04,733
So you're, like, living
with Clay for real now, huh?
779
00:59:07,402 --> 00:59:09,050
Yeah.
780
00:59:09,571 --> 00:59:10,823
They're adopting me.
781
00:59:12,699 --> 00:59:16,386
Which, like, why anyone would
wanna do that, I don't know.
782
00:59:16,389 --> 00:59:17,558
I do.
783
00:59:30,467 --> 00:59:31,677
Do you ever think about it?
784
00:59:34,846 --> 00:59:36,056
Doing what Hannah did?
785
00:59:37,599 --> 00:59:39,224
No.
786
00:59:39,227 --> 00:59:40,268
I don't.
787
00:59:42,646 --> 00:59:44,481
With everything that happened, I...
788
00:59:46,775 --> 00:59:48,485
I never thought that was a way to go.
789
00:59:51,989 --> 00:59:53,532
I've had some shitty days.
790
00:59:55,367 --> 00:59:56,835
But...
791
00:59:58,495 --> 01:00:01,081
- I always wanted to live.
- Yeah.
792
01:00:02,749 --> 01:00:04,918
- I wanted to be alive.
- I know.
793
01:00:39,161 --> 01:00:42,390
Cy, you better look at
this. I just got this text.
794
01:00:44,833 --> 01:00:46,043
Jesus, Mack.
795
01:01:00,531 --> 01:01:02,557
We can't let him do
this. We have to stop him.
796
01:01:02,559 --> 01:01:04,976
We need to get out of here.
We need to call the cops.
797
01:01:04,978 --> 01:01:06,770
- Agreed.
- If we do, his life is over.
798
01:01:06,772 --> 01:01:09,856
His life is over either way. He's
either going to jail or he's dead.
799
01:01:09,858 --> 01:01:12,538
Tyler doesn't wanna
die. I know he doesn't.
800
01:01:12,541 --> 01:01:13,975
Where's Tony?
801
01:01:13,978 --> 01:01:16,093
- What's going on, guys?
- Have you seen Jess?
802
01:01:31,797 --> 01:01:33,004
- Jess...
- Don't.
803
01:01:33,006 --> 01:01:35,759
- Please?
- What? What do you want?
804
01:01:37,594 --> 01:01:39,511
- I don't know what to do.
- Really?
805
01:01:39,513 --> 01:01:42,432
- You don't know what to do?
- Jess, I'm pregnant.
806
01:01:48,230 --> 01:01:50,524
The next time someone
is in desperate need...
807
01:01:54,111 --> 01:01:56,071
and they're about to
make a terrible mistake,
808
01:01:57,128 --> 01:01:58,448
what do we do?
809
01:02:03,912 --> 01:02:05,286
Justin, find Jessica.
810
01:02:05,288 --> 01:02:08,331
Get everyone you can. Lock
the doors, stay inside.
811
01:02:08,333 --> 01:02:09,722
And don't call the police.
812
01:02:09,725 --> 01:02:10,794
I gotta find Tony.
813
01:02:11,776 --> 01:02:13,730
What the fuck? Clay!
814
01:02:17,384 --> 01:02:18,844
Do we look the other way?
815
01:02:19,761 --> 01:02:22,264
Do we just protect
ourselves or do we help them?
816
01:02:26,601 --> 01:02:28,979
Do we do whatever we can to save them?
817
01:02:33,024 --> 01:02:35,277
I think I know what
Hannah would want us to do.
818
01:02:39,406 --> 01:02:40,999
Tyler!
819
01:02:41,002 --> 01:02:42,325
Tyler, what are you...
820
01:02:43,243 --> 01:02:44,576
what are you doing?
821
01:02:50,812 --> 01:02:52,711
Get out of here, Clay. Go home.
822
01:02:53,545 --> 01:02:56,087
No. No, I...
823
01:02:56,089 --> 01:02:57,674
Don't... Don't do this, Tyler.
824
01:03:00,635 --> 01:03:02,249
You need to leave right now.
825
01:03:02,252 --> 01:03:06,389
Tyler, please, listen to
me. You don't wanna do this.
826
01:03:06,391 --> 01:03:07,827
I... I know you don't.
827
01:03:08,685 --> 01:03:11,060
You don't fucking
know anything about me.
828
01:03:11,062 --> 01:03:14,647
No. No, I do. I do know
because I hurt, too.
829
01:03:14,649 --> 01:03:17,400
I'm pissed off. I didn't
realize how bad it was for you.
830
01:03:17,402 --> 01:03:18,902
And I'm sorry that I didn't.
831
01:03:18,904 --> 01:03:20,278
- Clay!
- I should've...
832
01:03:20,280 --> 01:03:21,654
Hey, g-go back inside.
833
01:03:21,656 --> 01:03:23,827
- Jesus, Clay!
- Go inside!
834
01:03:25,869 --> 01:03:27,202
Get out of my fucking way.
835
01:03:27,204 --> 01:03:29,706
Tyler, please. Don't do it.
836
01:03:31,166 --> 01:03:33,251
- I have to.
- No, you don't have to.
837
01:03:34,794 --> 01:03:36,294
You can turn around.
838
01:03:36,296 --> 01:03:38,965
You can go home.
839
01:03:40,759 --> 01:03:42,258
Everybody knows already.
840
01:03:42,260 --> 01:03:44,552
The only people that know
are people who know you,
841
01:03:44,554 --> 01:03:46,366
and they wanna help you.
842
01:03:47,224 --> 01:03:48,642
- Bullshit.
- No, look.
843
01:03:49,351 --> 01:03:51,935
Tyler, they know you're
hurting, we all are.
844
01:03:51,937 --> 01:03:54,938
And I don't know what
to do about it, either.
845
01:03:54,940 --> 01:03:56,648
Okay? I tried hurting other people.
846
01:03:56,650 --> 01:03:59,277
I tried hurting you, and
it didn't fucking help, man.
847
01:04:00,153 --> 01:04:02,445
It doesn't do any good.
Listen to me. It doesn't!
848
01:04:06,117 --> 01:04:08,493
Tyler, listen. You don't
get out of this alive.
849
01:04:08,495 --> 01:04:09,788
And I don't want you to die.
850
01:04:18,046 --> 01:04:19,506
I-I don't want you to die.
851
01:04:26,638 --> 01:04:28,473
If you think this is the way,
852
01:04:29,683 --> 01:04:31,893
if you really think this'll
change a goddamn thing
853
01:04:32,519 --> 01:04:34,560
and not just be another fucking tragedy
854
01:04:34,562 --> 01:04:37,397
that adults cry about for
a week and then forget,
855
01:04:37,399 --> 01:04:39,609
if you really think this
is gonna be different,
856
01:04:44,823 --> 01:04:45,991
then do what you gotta do.
857
01:04:56,501 --> 01:04:57,502
Come on, Tyler.
858
01:05:04,926 --> 01:05:06,277
Please?
859
01:05:12,642 --> 01:05:14,227
There's nothing else I can do.
860
01:05:21,151 --> 01:05:22,504
There is.
861
01:05:24,988 --> 01:05:26,988
We'll figure it out.
862
01:05:26,991 --> 01:05:28,222
Okay?
863
01:05:31,105 --> 01:05:32,441
I swear.
864
01:05:47,302 --> 01:05:49,469
- What the fuck?
- That's Tony. It's okay.
865
01:05:49,471 --> 01:05:50,638
It's Tony. We're gonna go.
866
01:05:52,182 --> 01:05:53,306
Get in the car!
867
01:05:53,308 --> 01:05:54,640
Let me help you.
868
01:05:54,642 --> 01:05:55,769
Come on. It's okay.
869
01:05:56,853 --> 01:05:58,019
Fuck. Go, come on.
870
01:05:58,021 --> 01:05:59,064
Come on. Get in the car.
871
01:06:04,694 --> 01:06:05,965
Clay!
872
01:06:07,215 --> 01:06:08,527
Clay!
873
01:06:09,616 --> 01:06:11,777
- Fuck.
- Are you okay?
874
01:06:12,410 --> 01:06:13,618
No.
875
01:06:16,735 --> 01:06:18,214
This is fucked up, right?
876
01:06:26,259 --> 01:06:27,715
Yeah.
877
01:06:33,473 --> 01:06:36,265
What do we do now?
878
01:06:44,969 --> 01:06:52,489
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