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Previously on "Station 19"...

I'm humiliated. You've humiliated me.

- I'm so sorry.
- It's not good enough.

How long has that been going on?

SULLIVAN: See, I don't open up
to many people.

- With you...
- [CORK POPS]

[LAUGHS]

- ...it's easy.
- LEVI: Somebody call 911!

If you're looking for family
to update, I'm his sister.

Updates are technically
just for family members.

I was really ready to spend
the rest of my life with you.

I get to spend the rest of mine with you.

[SILVERWARE CLACKS]

ANDY: Have you ever experienced
pain or worry or loss?

Are we sure
- Vic's gonna want breakfast?

Well, she's come out
of that room exactly once

since she's been crashing here.

She needs to eat.

What do we say when we go in there?

Let's just follow her lead.

And, at the very least,
shove some toast in her mouth.

[BREATHES DEEPLY]

[SIGHS]

Hey, Vic?

We just wanted to check in.

We... We have food.

Vic, we're coming in, okay?

Vic?

Uh, she's gone.

Should we be worried?

I-I'm sure she wanted space.

- Here. Um, maybe I should call her.
- You want me to call?

- Uh...
- Or we can do it together.

- Uh, no, y-yeah, whatever you want.
- Great.

You're right. She probably
just needed some air.

How about I just text her?

She may not want to talk.

At some point...

not now, obviously, but sometime,

do you think... you and I should talk?

Let's just focus on Vic right now, okay?

Have you ever experienced trauma?

[YOUNG SUMMER'S "WE TRIED" PLAYS]

Have you ever experienced doubt?

Of course you have.

Everyone has.

Couldn't sleep?

♪ I've never seen a mountain
move on its own ♪

♪ And I stood inside the light ♪

♪ On the darkest night of my soul ♪

He walked in that building
and came out a dead man.

That could've been any one of us.

On any day, any call.

I know.

[INHALES DEEPLY]

I know.

We all live through things that test us.

♪ And if we never get
to make it to the other side ♪

It's how we each cope...

♪ And if we never get
to make it to the finish line ♪

...how we process, that says the most.

♪ We can say we tried ♪

[BAG THUDDING]

Do we face our pain and own it?

Or are we more comfortable...

Good morning. [CHUCKLES]

Um, your usual.

Yeah, I'll just have the one today.

Oh. Okay, my mistake.

What's your hubby up to?

- He's at work.
- Hm.

...living in denial?

♪♪

It's almost time for shift.

[SIGHS] I-I lost track of time.

Haven't heard from you
since the hospital.

I'm sorry. I've been helping
Jennifer with the arrangements.

Mm.

The department sent over
a checklist a mile long.

And she, uh...

She asked me to give the eulogy.

Mm.

Any advice?

Mm. Wrong person to ask.

Speeches are not my thing. [CHUCKLES]

Funerals aren't either.

[CELLPHONE VIBRATES]

Everything okay?

The wildfire that hit L.A.
earlier this week

has progressed.

Crews are requesting backup supplies.

Seattle stations
are organizing a caravan.

Well, I'll handle it...
and whatever else.

I mean, you... you have
a lot going on right now.

And the work will be good
for me... for everyone.

Take our mind off things.

I appreciate it.

Hey, uh, you mind taking a crack
at this eulogy for me, too?

Like I said, wrong person to ask.

[SNIFFLING]

Are you crying?

[CRYING] No.

Then what's in your eyes?

I said I wasn't crying, and I meant it.

You don't need to feel
embarrassed about this.

We're all a little messed up over Ripley.

My head's kind of
all over the place, too.

- You want me to grab you a tissue?
- Nope.

You gonna grab one yourself?

- Negative, 'cause I don't need one.
- I think you do.

No, I don't, because I'm not crying.

- Do we need to talk about this?
- Absolutely not.

But you always want to talk.

DEAN: Yeah. Alright, Mom.

- Love you. Bye.
- [CELLPHONE BEEPS]

You talking with your mom?
With "I-love-yous"?

[SIGHS]

Chief Ripley kind of reminded me

to appreciate the people I've got

while I've still got them.

Also, now that things
with Nikki are progressing,

my mom has been saying "I love you"

at the end of every call.

Kind of feels rude not to say it back.

[SNIFFLING CONTINUES]

Bishop, you okay? Don't forget this.

Okay. [SIGHS]

[BREATHES DEEPLY]

DEAN: Look at that.
Not even 10% contained.

- I hope the winds don't shift.
- [DOOR OPENS]

Just got word...

- California's requesting supplies.
- [DOOR CLOSES]

This one's gonna get worse
before it gets better.

We'll organize shipments
for Seattle departments

to take down to L.A.

It's like bad on top of bad, you know?

First, Ripley dies, and now this.

Seems like we all could
have used a little pause.

Hey, how's Vic?

Uh, she split without
saying goodbye this morning.

How are you doing?

[SNIFFLING] Just my
allergies are acting up.

Has anybody heard from Vic today?

- [DOOR OPENS]
- VIC: Morning!

You guys seeing these wildfires?

This thing just won't stop.

[DOOR CLOSES]

Yeah. Okay.

Okay, go on.

Get all your staring out of your system,

and then let's move on. Okay?

Grieving Little Arm Candy's in the house.

Drinking coffee. Ready to move forward.

We all good now?

Great. Okay.

Back to your regularly scheduled
programs, please.

Hey. You sure you want to be here?

I didn't come to work today 'cause
I didn't want to be here, so...

How about I take you back home?

To Maya and Andy's,

or if you want a change
of scenery, come stay with me.

Why? 'Cause I shouldn't go home home?

Back to the place
I spent so much time with him?

Back to the bed we shared?

You don't want me sleeping in that?

Sorry.

Sorry. That was... That was not fair.

I'd love to come crash after shift,

but right now, I'm working, so...

JACK: Vic. We'll all cover for you.

If you have other stuff
you need to be focused on...

You know, it's not a big deal.

Jennifer's handling all the funeral
arrangements and everything, so...

You don't want to be
involved in that, or...

Not really.

I mean, what does it matter?

It's not gonna bring him back.

And I'm not going
to the funeral anyway, so...

Miller, you mind passing me that syrup?

- DEAN: Yeah.
- Thank you.

Vic, you have...
you have to go to the funeral.

- No, I don't.
- Yes, you do.

You can't just skip it.

Yeah, I can. And I will.

Uh, why hasn't Sullivan
called for lineup yet?

- I'm, um, covering for him today.
- Sweet.

Okay, so, we should just...

start with chores, then, huh?

♪♪

[SIGHS]

[DOOR CLOSES]

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Oh, my God.
Travis, I told you I was fine.

I didn't pick that word just for fun.

I meant it. I'm fine.

Yeah, and I want you to know

that it's okay if you're not... fine.

You know, when Michael died,
I was a wreck.

You know what helped me get through it?

His funeral,

surrounded by other firefighters,

by my friends.

The tradition was actually
really comforting.

And I'm so glad you had that.

I know how meaningful that was for you.

You were his husband.

But me, I don't factor
into this equation.

Funerals aren't designed
for people like me.

There's no special seat for the secret...

Vic, you know you were
so much more than that.

It'll be an important day...
for Jennifer.

She was his actual family, not me.

She can walk front and center
at that procession, not me.

I don't need that. I'm better off here.

And I'm done talking now.

Right in there, guys.

[DOOR CLOSES]

Hey.

P.D. heard about the supply caravan

and wanted to pitch in.

I saw the funeral's on Friday.

A bunch of us will be there
to pay our respects.

Appreciate it.

I'm actually, um, heading
to San Diego the next day.

- Really?
- There's this tactical paramedic

training program... really intensive.

Couple spots opened up last minute,

and, uh, they recruited me.

Wow. That's... Congratulations.

Thanks.

Does that mean you're leaving Seattle?

Well, for a couple of months, yeah.

Could turn into more.

Jenna and I got the call yesterday.

It's really exclusive.
Kind of a big deal.

You're going with Jenna?

That's... That's... That's great.

I'm happy for you. Yeah.

I'm happy for you, too.

And you and Sullivan. That's also great.

Me and... What?

Weren't you two holding hands
at the hospital?

No. That's not...

I mean, yes, we were, but...

No. That's... No.

- No!
- Oh, okay.

I guess maybe I misinterpreted.
My mistake.

- [KLAXONS SOUND]
- DISPATCH: Station 19, respond.

- Aid Car 19, civilian in distress.
- Uh...

You ready, boss? 'Sup, Tanner?

ANDY: Who does that?

Who just up and takes a job
in a new place

without even telling
the people closest to them?

I did, actually. Twice.

Kind of going on three times,
now that I think about it.

When does Tanner go?

He said he leaves
right after the funeral.

[SIREN WAILING]

Hey, what's it like?

What's what like?

I've never been
- to a firefighter funeral.

I realize I don't know where to sit,

when to salute, what to expect.

Expect... something beautiful.

It's sad and hard,
but it's also really...

- Well, the Honor Guard will be there.
- Right.

They, uh... They're the ones
with the axes.

And Miller keeps talking about bells.

Near the end of the funeral,

someone will ring twenty
bells... five at a time...

to signify a firefighter's end of watch.

They ring them in every station,

and it's to announce that...

one of us has come home
for the last time.

That is beautiful.

And sad.

My dad rang the bells.

The night of my mom's funeral, too.

We came home,

he went up to their room,
closed the door, and...

I heard him ringing a bell.

And I just sat out in the hall

and listened as he rang it over and over.

♪♪

Uh, looks like we're here.

[WAILING STOPS]

[ENGINE SHUTS OFF]

[BIRDS CHIRPING]

Seattle Fire Department!

Dispatch said he called it in himself.

Maybe he lost consciousness.

Hello? Is anyone in here?

Seattle Fire Department!

MAN: Yes, help! In here!

♪♪

Alright. Just give it to me
straight, please.

Is it as bad as it looks?

[ELECTRICITY CRACKLES]

How bad is it, really?

Nate, I can definitely say

I've seen worse things than this.

I should've been more careful.

It's just that
I-I like to do things myself,

and I should've called someone.

Ow!

Arm of the chandelier
is penetrating pretty deep.

Looks like it's plugging the axillary.

I slipped, and, just like that,
it was falling on top of me.

We are gonna get you out now, Nate.

My life flashed before my eyes.

[CHUCKLES] You never see
it coming, do you?

I mean, one minute,
you're just doing what you do,

and the next... it could just be over.

Well, it's not over for you today, Nate.

Okay? We got you.

This is gonna be pretty loud, Nate,

so... just hold still.

[SAW WHIRRING]

Ugh.

Hold on. Hold on.

- Yeah, got it.
- [SIGHS]

Wait, you're not gonna
take the whole thing out?

Well, it's plugging a vessel,

so right now, we want it to stay put.

Go.

Ready?

So, what's gonna happen at the hospital?

They're gonna take the whole
thing out there, right?

ANDY AND BEN: One, two, three.

- [ALARM BEEPING]
- [GRUNTS] Nate, can you hear me?

BP's dropping! He's tachycardic, too.

Didn't even get him to the gurney.

Start another IV.
Prepping norepinephrine.

- Still dropping.
- Pushing now.

- ANDY: Come on, Nate.
- [BEEPING STOPS]

Numbers are coming back up.

Ready?

BOTH: One, two, three.

[GRUNTS]

[GROANS]

Am I at the hospital?

Not yet, buddy.

But, uh, we need to get
you there right now.

Why do I feel so weird?

You know, that's normal, Nate.

Your brain was briefly
deprived of oxygen.

But for real, it feels like

there's a brick on my chest or something.

- He's losing consciousness again.
- Damn it!

[ALARMS BEEPING]

Can I ask you a personal question?

Uh, it depends on how personal.

I'm pretty much an open book,

but there are some things
I like to keep private.

- Like my birthmarks, for instance...
- Did you write a eulogy?

For your husband?

Look, I'm just asking

because I'm trying
to write one for Ripley.

Sorry. I can't help you.

Of course. No problem.

No, I mean I can't help you
'cause I couldn't help myself.

I couldn't bring myself to say
a word at Michael's service.

You know who did end up speaking, though?

Ripley. [CHUCKLES LIGHTLY]

Yeah, he said some really
wonderful things, actually.

- Like what?
- I don't even really remember.

I just remember that it meant a lot,

you know, for the Chief to take the time

to get up there and say words
about my Michael like that.

See, I need to figure out
words that'll do that.

Especially for Hughes.

Oh, I thought you'd heard.

Vic isn't planning on going.

♪♪

Fact. I'm older than you.

Are we playing a game?

Fact. Because I am older than you,

I, by default, have had
more life experience than you.

- Okay.
- More experience to learn from.

Experience that lets me know things

that you've yet to learn for yourself.

I feel like you're going
somewhere with this,

somewhere I'm probably not gonna like.

- You need bagpipes.
- Pardon?

To drown out your thoughts.

They play at most firefighter funerals.

They're loud and a little
startling at first,

but then you start to feel their hum.

You feel it right inside your chest...

Yeah, I-I, um... I don't need bagpipes.

Oh, you will change your mind
once you experience...

No, I d... I don't need bagpipes.

No offense, sir,

but I also don't need your advice.

Not on this. Excuse me.

[CART RATTLING]

Our med kit's almost out of nor-epi now.

Don't say that
like he'll need more of it.

Are you trying to jinx us?

Just want to make a note.

- [ALARM BEEPING]
- [EXHALES SHARPLY]

Aah, no, no. This can't happen again.

- BP is 90 over 50 and dropping.
- He's bottoming out.

I'm worried about his airway.

We need to intubate.

At this rate, we'll get him to
the hospital in about a month.

I would rather not try this
at sixty miles an hour.

This has got to be the last thing

that goes wrong with this guy, right?

And the tube is... in.

Bag him.

Okay. Let's load him up.

[MONITOR BEEPING STEADILY]

Quick, quick, quick.

I promised you
it wasn't over today, Nate.

But you got to meet us halfway.

We should be good. Just keep bagging.

[ENGINE STARTS]

Try not to hit any potholes.

[SIREN WAILING]

[ALARM BEEPING]

Pressure's dropping.
Are fluids on full flow?

Watch the road.
How much longer to the hospital?

Seattle Pres is about 6 minutes out.

Just make sure to keep an eye
on his heart rate.

[AMBULANCE THUMPS]

I said avoid the potholes!

- We may need to use QuikClot.
- I got it, Warren.

It couldn't hurt to hang another bag.

Yeah, it wouldn't hurt you
to drive better.

[BEEPING CONTINUES]

Are you kidding me, Nate?

V-fib!

- Starting...
- Start the defibrillator!

[DEFIBRILLATOR WHINES]

[MONITOR BEEPS, DEFIBRILLATOR THUMPS]

- Shock delivered.
- [BEEPING CONTINUES]

Still in V-fib. Damn it.

[DEFIBRILLATOR WHINES]

[MONITOR BEEPS, DEFIBRILLATOR THUMPS]

Shock delivered.

[BEEPING CONTINUES]

Pull over, Warren!

But we have to get him to the hospital!

I've just started two-person CPR,

and I only see one of us back here.

So either you put the Aid Car
on cruise control,

or you pull over now!

[TIRES SCREECH]

♪♪

Come on, Nate. Come on.

- [ALARM BEEPING]
- He's asystolic.

Run saline wide open.

No, no, no, no, no. Andy, look.

He's bleeding from the impalement.

Every compression is pushing more
and more blood out of his body.

- We can't just stop CPR.
- I know. I know.

[BEEPING CONTINUES]

Well...

CPR isn't gonna bring him back

if there's no blood left to pump.

We can't work with this thing in.

So we should remove it? He can bleed out.

I'll pack it right away.
And then hold pressure.

Look, it's safer than what he's got now.

Whatever you do,
do not stop compressions.

[BEEPING CONTINUES]

♪♪

- Warren.
- Yeah, I know.

- I know.
- This is a lot of blood.

Just a few more seconds.

Ben!

Got it! He's packed!

Holding pressure.

[MONITOR BEEPS STEADILY]

[SIGHS]
- [LAUGHS]

Normal sinus rhythm.

- How far away are we from the hospital?
- About 3 minutes.

- Can you hold pressure that long?
- Hell yeah I can.

Good, 'cause we're not
making any more stops.

Just try not to hit any potholes.

[SEATBELT CLICKS]

[SIREN WAILS, TIRES SQUEAL]

SULLIVAN: Hughes?
Brought somebody to see you.

I thought we could all maybe,
uh, talk for a minute.

I've got to get these organized
for Station 42,

but be my guest.

Okay, I may not be someone

that you're anxious to see right now,

but when Robert called
and said that you weren't...

Vic, you have to be there at the funeral.

- You have to go.
- I have to get these MREs sorted

before the guys from 42
show to pick them up, so...

Wildfire strike teams
are usually 22 firefighters.

Three MREs a day, that makes 66...

Hey.

Why don't you, um, stop for a second.

Okay?

Look, you and Jen

are the most important
people in Luke's life...

You ever had one of these?

It's basically freeze dried food.

It seems pretty gross, but once
you heat it up, it's not that bad.

Okay, Vic. He would've wanted you there.

I want you to be there.

I need you by my side.

You're gonna have an entire
department of people there.

You'll have Captain Sullivan.
You don't need me.

He'd want you there... both of you.

Well, I'm not going, so...

- Please?
- No, I can't. I can't.

Okay? I can't. I'm sorry.

I can't go stand through

a day of being tall
and polished and perfect

a-and celebrating his life when...

You know, I need
to get back to work, so...

Okay.

♪♪

[SNIFFLES]

[SIGHS]

- Are you really still crying?
- I can't control it.

- Wouldn't hurt to try.
- I am trying, but I can't shut it off.

- Debatable.
- And I hate that I can't shut it off

because I am not a person who cries.

I suck my feelings up, I stuff 'em
down, I embrace the pain,

but today, I just...
I can't make it stop.

So can you just stop
making me feel bad about it?

- I'm not trying to make you feel bad...
- Well, you are.

- It's just a little distracting.
- Oh, my God!

Anemones.

- What did he just say?
- JACK: What?

You two are sea anemones.

We're not enemies.

I-I know.

I said sea anemones.

Shady, little underwater invertebrates,

and you got your tentacles
waving all over the place.

- What is he talking about?
- I have no idea.

Squishy, freaky sea predators.

When you strike,
nobody ever sees it coming.

But when you're threatened,

you close yourselves off
into these tiny, little balls

so that nobody can touch you.

And the only time you come out
is to strike each other.

You two got together in a fishbowl.

And now you're wading
through the open sea.

So no wonder you're
having trouble right now.

No wonder you can't figure it out.

No wonder you keep stinging each other.

I hate to say this, but I think
he's starting to make sense.

Maya, do you want to
know why you're crying?

It's because you're sad.

There doesn't have to be
any other reason.

You're sad today. We all are.

And you just so happen to be
wearing it all over your face.

And Jack, you're not really
annoyed with her for crying.

You're in a garbage mood because...

the chief went down, and it's hard.

It's a tough one.

We all thought he was
invincible, and he wasn't.

And it's probably stirring up some stuff.

So just take that in. [SNIFFLES]

Let's sway in this current
and not fight it

and appreciate the fact that
you two are still here today.

And you have each other.

♪♪

JACK: I don't know where all that
sea creature stuff came from,

but, uh... surprisingly helpful, man.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

[INHALES SHARPLY] It all came from Nikki.

She's really observant and communicative,

and somehow, it is rubbing off on me.

[VOICE BREAKING]
She sounds really amazing.

She is. [SNIFFLES]

Blow your nose.

You finally went on that first date, huh?

Uh, we had plans, but I kinda canceled

because grief isn't sexy.

[BLOWS NOSE]

Wait, then why are we taking
relationship advice from him?

Because I am right.

[SIGHS]
- Here.

Blow your nose.

[SIGHS]
- Again.

[INHALES DEEPLY]

[BLOWS NOSE]

34-year-old male found impaled
in the chest by a chandelier.

He arrested twice en route...

V-fib the first time
and asystolic the second.

BEN: We initiated CPR

and intubated
with a total of four shocks,

epi, and a norepi drip.

Oh, and we removed his impalement.

That it?

We'll take it from here.

[CHUCKLES] Thank you.

Whew.

You know, I don't think
I have taken a breath

since we kicked down Nate's door.

[EXHALES SHARPLY]
- What?

Nothing. Just... you have no idea.

I... Today was already
one thing after another,

and I thought the call would
take my mind off all the things,

but apparently,
I'm living in a world of whack-a-mole.

[CHUCKLES] Is everything alright?

Ryan's leaving, and I shouldn't
care, but I kinda do.

But I don't, because what's more
important is I'm helping Vic.

Except I'm not because she's
sneaking out of my apartment,

leaving me with Maya, who
I can't even talk to right now.

And... And then I get stuck
with the guy who keeps dying.

Yeah. And someone I really
looked up to did die, and...

[SIGHS] You know, through all of it,

all I can hear is
the sound of those damn bells

coming from my dad's room.

[VOICE BREAKING]
I'm 9 years old all over again,

and a-all this stuff is coming
up that I don't know how to...

I don't know how to clamp it down,

I don't know how to make it go away.

One bleeder at a time.

What?

One bleeder at a time.

I-It's something I learned
when I was a surgeon.

When you open a patient up

and everywhere you look,

there's something
bleeding or falling apar...

when it's damage control,

all you can do is tackle
one bleeder at a time.

♪♪

- Some call, huh?
- Ooh. [SIGHS]

I don't think you'd believe me
if I told you.

How's the eulogy going?

[GRUNTS] It's not.

I think I'm just too close to it.

Nothing sounds right.

[SIGHS]

Did you speak at your wife's funeral?

Yes, I did.

Or I t... I tried.

Started off okay,
but then I just lost it.

- Mm.
- Barely even remember now.

Um, I think I was...

I was really raw, you know?

Did you speak at your mom's?

- I was 9, so I didn't speak.
- [CHUCKLES]

- I don't think I spoke the whole day.
- Mm.

Barely.

I was raw, too.

Still am.

Yeah.

So, use it.

Be raw if you need to be raw.

Y-You don't have to write a word

or read a word you write.

Just... get up there and talk.

Talk to him.

It doesn't matter,

not when it comes from the heart.

[FOREST BLAKK'S "WHERE I FIRST
FOUND YOU" PLAYS]

I just hope Vic will be there to hear it.

♪ Let's draw a line between us ♪

♪ Paint a map back to the start ♪

♪ Leaving footprints to remind us ♪

♪ Where you go ♪

Any update on Vic?

♪ I'll go ♪

Afraid not.

She's really not coming?

♪ If you fall, I'll fall ♪

♪ And if the sky grows heavy ♪

♪ Wrap your arms around me tight ♪

♪ Find me where I first found you ♪

There's still time...

if you want change your mind,
get dressed.

Nope, I'm good.

I don't think that's true.

How many different ways
do I have to say it?

How many different times?

I'm fine. I'm good.

I'm coping. I don't want to go.

- Nobody wants to go to a funeral.
- [EXHALES SHARPLY]

But it is good to go.

It gives you clarity.
It gives you closure.

Yeah, I don't need any of those things.
I already got 'em.

No, you don't.

I just, um... I need you
to back off of me, please.

- You want me to back off?
- Yeah.

- You want me to give you some space?
- [SIGHS]

Okay, you've had days of space, Vic,

and you're still...

You are in denial.

You are not coping.

Believe me, I know how hard it is

- to accept what's happened.
- Mm.

You know I do.

But trust me, when you
lose a spouse like that...

No, but I didn't...
I didn't lose a spouse!

We never got married, so I...
You know what? I...

I didn't get to lose a spouse.

I didn't get to experience a marriage.

I was robbed of that.

Instead, I lost someone who...

[VOICE BREAKING] I lost someone who...

very well may have been
the love of my life.

But he wasn't my husband.

I'm nothing to him.

Officially, on paper, I am nothing.

So... yeah, maybe I don't...

maybe I don't want to accept
that particular truth right now.

But you don't get to pretend
like you know what that's like.

You don't.

You don't know what this is like,

so stop parading around here

talking about me behind my back to...

to anyone else in the station

because I'm not acting
like you want me to act.

I am not you!

Lucas is not Michael!

Okay, your husband died two years ago!

If anybody is in denial right now...

Say it. Do it.

- Just... Don't.
- It's okay.

Say whatever you want to say.

You want to scream at me,
wail on me? I don't care.

Just get all that anger out right now.

Because if you don't,
it will keep bubbling up

and it will come out worse

- in some other way, onto someone else.
- Oh, my God.

- You can't see it right now, Vic...
- Okay.

- ...but even getting mad...
- Just shut u... Shut up!

- ...it's a healthy first step!
- Just shut... shut up!

Just stop talking to me.

And go to the funeral.

Just... Just go.

[DOOR OPENS, CLOSES]

[DOOR OPENS]

LEVI: Excuse me. Are you Victoria Hughes?

- What?
- [DOOR CLOSES]

I'm sorry, can I... can I help you?

It's... It's probably weird that I, uh...

Dr. Bailey told me what you look like...

And I'm so sorry for your loss.

I'm s... Who... Who are you?

I'm Levi. I'm a-a doctor at Grey-Sloan.

I was, uh, with Chief Ripley
when he collapsed.

We were both
at the flower shop that day...

the day that he was going to see you.

And I wanted to give these to you.

They're the same ones that he picked out.

N-Not the same same, but, uh... anyway.

He wanted them to say...

he was ready to spend
the rest of his life with you.

So, I guess I...

I thought that
you might like to see them.

[EXHALES SHARPLY]

Thank you.

Uh, I-I, um...

I really need
to get back to the hospital,

but it was really nice to meet you.

And I-I'm really sorry.

[DOOR OPENS, CLOSES]

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

Hey, hey. Hey.

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

[VOICE BREAKING] My badge.
Where's my badge?

Hey, hey.

One bleeder at a time.

♪♪

["AMAZING GRACE" PLAYS ON BAGPIPES]

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

I have to go meet the procession.

You gonna be okay?

Go.

He hated being late.

[BOTH CHUCKLE]

I'm fine, Robert.

Really.

- Alright.
- Okay.

[MUSIC CONTINUES]

♪♪

May I join you?

[SIGHS] God, Vic.

I am so glad you're here.

♪♪

♪♪

[MUSIC ENDS]

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

Dean says I'm a sea anemone...

What?

...which I think just means

I keep things in to protect myself,

even when I don't need to.

I'm so sorry I didn't
tell you about Jack.

You tell me everything.

I should've trusted you with my...

poisonous anemone tentacles.

[BOTH CHUCKLE]

I know funerals are hard for you.

How you holding up?

Better now.

♪♪

♪♪

You made it.

I did.

♪♪

♪♪

Stay.

♪♪

♪♪

CHAPLAIN: And if, while on duty,
I must answer death's call,

bless with your protecting hand
my family, one and all.

I have been thinking a lot
about what to say today.

Chief Ripley was a boss
to most of us in this room.

We looked up to him. We respected him.

As Chief, he gave
everything to this department.

As Lucas, he gave even more
to those he loved outside it.

[PAPER RUSTLES]

♪♪

To me, Lucas was a true friend.

We really saw each other.

We understood each other.

Strengths and flaws.

We fought.

We made up... thankfully, not too late.

Sometimes you connect with a person,

and you can't always explain it.

Over distance and time
and impossible obstacles,

you still find a way to each other.

It's so rare to meet someone
who connects with you that way.

Someone who makes you want to
face your fears

head-on, eyes open.

And it's so hard to say goodbye
to them when they go.

My last conversation with Luke,

he told me not to say goodbye to him.

Instead, I said, "We're good."

I want to reiterate that now.

♪♪

We miss you, Luke.

We wish you didn't leave us so soon.

But since you did, since you had to...

♪♪

...it's all good.

We're all good.

♪♪

You were so good.

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

When a firefighter dies,

the toll of the bell
represents their last alarm.

The end of their duties.

The bell rings to say
their shift is over.

They are going home.

[BELL RINGING]

[RINGING STOPS]

I first met Ripley on his, uh,
second call as a rookie.

Told him to grab that
"left-handed halligan."

[LAUGHTER]

Fire must've been out
for at least 30 minutes

before he realized that it didn't exist.

Oh.

To Chief Ripley.

- To Chief Ripley.
- [ALL] To Ripley.

- Yes!
- JACK: No way.

- Come on.
- That's right. That's right.

College was not a waste.

It's all in the elbow, Dean.
It's all in the elbow.

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa,
whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.

What am I seeing here?

Am I seeing what I think I'm seeing?

You never go out in public
without that thing on.

And you definitely do not go out
drinking without that thing on!

I do now. I do tonight.

You know, we don't know
what's gonna happen.

I'm alive. I'm here.

World's full of possibilities.

I think that calls for another round.

Uh, guys, how weird would it be

if I accidentally scheduled
my first date with Nikki

for, let's say, right now?

[SNORTS]
- That seems like a terrible idea.

How do you accidentally schedule a date?

NIKKI: Hey!

[BEN CHUCKLES]
- Hey.

Oh. Hi.

Hello.

- Everyone, this is Nikki.
- Nice to meet you.

Well, this isn't intimidating at all.

Oh, there's nothing to be intimidated by.

Except for my quarters game.

Are you in?

I spent three years at Harvard,

- in which I graduated summa cum laude...
- Mm-hmm.

...broke the women's
tennis record, and...

[LAUGHTER]

...became unbeatable at quarters.

[CHUCKLES]

Let's get a drink.

Maybe not at a wake.

Let's. Lovely to meet you all.

Nice to meet you.

Yeah, I like her.

Your eulogy was really moving.

Really? I felt, uh, zoned out there.

You spoke from your heart.

It showed.

You're alright.

♪♪

Thanks.

[BOTTLES CLINK]

So, um, if Jack wants
to come over tonight...

I'm okay with it,

if he promises to pick up
breakfast in the morning.

Thanks. I mean it.

Mm.

But I think Vic should
be the only one staying over

for a while.

Yeah.

I think that's good.

Do you know where she is?

I haven't seen her.

She... She said she wanted to be alone.

[BELL DINGS]

Oh, those are beautiful flowers.

[CHUCKLES]
- Thank you.

Uh, just you again?

Yeah.

ANDY: When a firefighter dies,

the toll of the bell
represents their last alarm.

So, did I tell you

the crazy thing Ryan said

about me and Sullivan, of all people?

He said he thought we were together

because of something he saw at
the hospital or something.

Yeah, I saw that, too.

That wasn't anything.

We're not... I mean,
I'm... I'm definitely not...

No?

- No.
- Mm.

♪ I know how it feels ♪

You sure about that?

♪ Let the pain break you down ♪

Once the bell rings...

♪ ...give it time to heal ♪

...it can't be un-rung.

- Just my usual, please.
- Got it.

Um, just so you know,
I'm about to take off.

Phil will be taking over for me.

So if you need anything else

or your husband's coming later,

I could go ahead and
put an order in now for you.

- Just let me know.
- Okay, thanks, Cam.

You're welcome.

There's no more denying it.

The end is here.

[SIGHS]
- Okay.

I'm calling it. Let's get you home.

- But it's so early.
- Hey. Two more of these.

Hey, no, no, no, no, no, no. None for me.

I-I got to get home to Miranda, you know?

I can give you a ride or call you one.

I don't know.

I've got, uh, some mistakes
to make tonight, Warren.

- [CHUCKLES] Yeah.
- But, uh, I'll get a cab.

Don't worry. Go home.

♪ Love is the answer ♪

[SIGHS]

- Alright.
- Yeah, yeah.

♪ Love is the answer ♪

See you later.

I'll take a beer.

♪ I know it's a struggle ♪

[SIGHS]

♪ I know it's a fight ♪

How's it going?

I'm Jeremy.

I'm Travis.

I know.

You do?

Yeah, you're the one who's friends

with Ripley's little side hustle...

Hughes, right?

She looked wrecked at that ceremony.

Come on, man.

Give me the scoop.

You need to stop talking right now.

Oh, don't tell me you're
getting a piece of that, too.

- [GLASS SHATTERS]
- MAN: Whoa, whoa!

The bell rings to say the shift is over.

♪ ...carry you back into the light ♪

Hey, uh, Cam?

Oh. Need something else?

♪ Love is the answer ♪

♪ Love is the answer ♪

You know the, uh... the guy
I'm always in here with?

He's not my husband.

And I, uh...

I lied to you before
when you asked where he was.

He wasn't at work.

♪ Love is the answer ♪

He wasn't a-at work...

♪ When you're ready, start again ♪

...because he died.

- ♪ Reaching out my hand ♪
- [BELL RINGS]

♪ Love is the answer ♪

♪ Love is the answer ♪

That's, um...

[BELL RINGS]

That... That sucks.

The bell rings to say goodbye.

[BELL RINGS]

Yeah, it super does.

The bell rings to say...

[BELL RINGS]

...it's time to go home.

[BELL RINGS]